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day_n will_v be_v prudent_o to_o contrive_v upon_o foresight_n and_o consideration_n of_o my_o week_n business_n what_o day_n or_o day_n they_o be_v in_o which_o i_o can_v best_o spare_v time_n for_o this_o work_n and_o those_o day_n or_o that_o day_n will_v be_v the_o fit_a to_o be_v pitch_v upon_o in_o which_o i_o may_v the_o most_o free_o converse_v with_o god_n without_o the_o disturbance_n which_o much_o business_n necessary_o bring_v beside_o the_o time_n spend_v in_o my_o ordinacy_n course_n of_o devotion_n which_o be_v not_o upon_o my_o fast_n to_o be_v omit_v under_o pretence_n of_o make_v amends_o for_o they_o or_o run_v they_o up_o into_o my_o penitentiary_n performance_n i_o can_v upon_o those_o day_n when_o i_o allow_v least_o allow_v less_o than_o two_o hour_n and_o upward_o to_o the_o peculiar_a work_n of_o my_o fast_n so_o much_o time_n therefore_o at_o the_o least_o i_o say_v i_o must_v resolve_v such_o a_o day_n to_o devote_v which_o be_v resolve_v upon_o it_o will_v 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much_o possess_v my_o thought_n according_a as_o above_o i_o have_v pray_v chap._n vi_o the_o order_n of_o humiliation_n or_o renitentiary_n devotion_n sect._n 1_o the_o entrance_n unto_o the_o work_n that_o time_n be_v now_o come_v which_o i_o appoint_v to_o spend_v with_o god_n in_o my_o closet_n i_o must_v religious_o observe_v my_o appointment_n for_o albeit_o the_o resolve_n be_v only_o private_a and_o never_o proceed_v without_o my_o own_o breast_n or_o closet_n yet_o have_v god_n take_v notice_n of_o it_o and_o it_o stand_v on_o record_n in_o his_o omniscience_n and_o by_o break_v these_o my_o private_a and_z as_o happy_o i_o may_v judge_v less_o material_a resolution_n i_o shall_v soon_o learn_v to_o break_v my_o word_n and_o vow_n too_o in_o other_o matter_n both_o with_o god_n and_o man_n come_v therefore_o at_o my_o time_n appoint_v into_o my_o closet_n i_o reverent_o kneel_v down_o before_o god_n and_o have_v the_o sense_n of_o his_o presence_n and_o all-seeing_a eye_n upon_o my_o heart_n humble_o begin_v in_o some_o such_o short_a prayer_n as_o be_v this_o which_o follow_v i_o be_o come_v o_o lord_n into_o thy_o presence_n upon_o work_n which_o no_o one_o have_v more_o need_n to_o do_v than_o myself_o to_o consider_v my_o way_n and_o repent_v of_o my_o sin_n and_o turn_v to_o thou_o but_o i_o have_v a_o hard_a heart_n not_o apt_a to_o relent_v and_o dry_a eye_n such_o at_o least_o which_o seldom_o shed_v tear_n for_o my_o sin_n o_o that_o thou_o will_v bow_v the_o heaven_n and_o come_v down_o and_o melt_v my_o soul_n that_o it_o may_v kind_o flow_v forth_o before_o thou_o in_o godly_a sorrow_n which_o may_v work_v repentance_n not_o to_o be_v repent_v of_o open_v my_o eye_n and_o help_v i_o to_o see_v into_o my_o heart_n bâ—ing_v my_o sin_n to_o my_o remembrance_n and_o set_v they_o in_o order_n before_o i_o that_o a_o holy_a shame_n and_o confusion_n may_v cover_v my_o face_n for_o they_o and_o thou_o behold_v my_o contrition_n may_v accept_v it_o and_o both_o pardon_v i_o and_o assist_v i_o hereafter_o by_o thy_o grace_n that_o i_o may_v live_v more_o godly_o righteous_o and_o sober_o in_o this_o present_a world_n and_o attain_v unto_o blessedness_n with_o thyself_o in_o the_o world_n to_o come_v through_o the_o merit_n of_o christ_n jesus_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n sect._n 2._o of_o read_v so_o as_o to_o fit_v myself_o for_o self-examination_n some_o such_o supplication_n be_v with_o aâ—l_a my_o heart_n make_v unto_o god_n i_o may_v haply_o find_v it_o not_o to_o be_v always_o the_o best_a course_n forthwith_o to_o fall_v upon_o the_o examination_n of_o myself_o for_o for_o this_o i_o shall_v be_v the_o fit_a when_o awaken_v and_o make_v more_o attentive_a to_o myself_o by_o some_o other_o exercise_n it_o may_v be_v proper_a therefore_o to_o spend_v and_o hour_n in_o the_o read_n some_o honest_a practical_a book_n which_o treat_v several_o of_o those_o duty_n which_o we_o owe_v both_o to_o god_n other_o and_o ourselves_o to_o wit_n upon_o that_o particular_a book_n which_o know_v to_o be_v very_o good_a i_o have_v choose_v and_o single_v out_o to_o myself_o to_o read_v and_o practice_n such_o as_o be_v the_o never_o enough_o commend_v doctor_n hammond_n practical_a catechism_n or_o if_o that_o seem_v to_o any_o too_o difficult_a that_o excellent_a book_n the_o whole_a duty_n â—f_n man._n and_o in_o read_v hereof_o i_o must_v endeavour_v to_o read_v first_o with_o understanding_n so_o that_o it_o be_v not_o so_o much_o the_o repeat_n to_o myself_o the_o word_n as_o consider_v and_o digest_v the_o substance_n of_o they_o which_o i_o must_v account_v read_v of_o they_o i_o must_v therefore_o read_v and_o study_v the_o book_n as_o scholar_n do_v their_o book_n and_o if_o there_o be_v any_o material_a thing_n which_o i_o do_v not_o understand_v mark_v it_o so_o that_o i_o may_v inform_v myself_o by_o advise_v with_o some_o more_o able_a person_n than_o myself_o second_o i_o must_v read_v all_o with_o application_n to_o myself_o remember_v that_o all_o this_o concern_v i_o and_o endeavour_v to_o see_v how_o it_o concern_v i_o whether_o i_o perform_v the_o duty_n i_o read_v of_o as_o i_o shall_v or_o how_o i_o neglect_v it_o etc._n etc._n by_o this_o mean_n take_v upon_o every_o of_o my_o fast_a day_n a_o part_n my_o book_n will_v in_o convenient_a season_n be_v read_v over_o which_o when_o it_o be_v it_o must_v not_o be_v throw_v aside_o but_o read_v through_o again_o and_o again_o with_o the_o same_o diligence_n till_o i_o be_o perfect_a in_o it_o nor_o ought_v the_o three_o or_o four_o read_v of_o a_o good_a profitable_a and_o practical_a treatise_n to_o be_v tedious_a or_o unpleasant_a to_o i_o for_o that_o christian_a duty_n
have_v invite_v and_o lead_v i_o to_o repentance_n 3._o god_n judgement_n and_o heavy_a hand_n many_o time_n upon_o i_o which_o shall_v have_v teach_v i_o righteousness_n 4._o have_v i_o no_o hindrance_n in_o the_o way_n which_o i_o break_v through_o it_o may_v be_v god_n holy_a providence_n cast_v somewhat_o in_o which_o do_v a_o while_n retard_v my_o commission_n of_o the_o sin_n and_o if_o i_o have_v not_o be_v lesperate_o bend_v upon_o it_o may_v have_v divert_v i_o and_o dash_v the_o temptation_n 4._o be_v not_o i_o the_o tempter_n and_o devil_n to_o myself_o in_o they_o do_v not_o i_o set_v myself_o on_o work_n without_o satin_n incitation_n of_o i_o thereto_o 5._o whether_o or_o no_o have_v not_o many_o of_o they_o be_v public_o dishonourable_a to_o god_n and_o scandalous_a to_o my_o christian_a profession_n have_v not_o my_o example_n if_o not_o my_o enticement_n draw_v in_o other_o to_o the_o same_o sin_n or_o drive_v other_o out_o of_o conceit_n with_o religion_n wretched_a man_n that_o i_o be_o that_o i_o shall_v so_o hold_v perhaps_o teach_v the_o faith_n as_o to_o make_v infidel_n last_o something_o of_o grievousness_n the_o circumstance_n of_o time_n and_o place_n etc._n etc._n may_v add_v thereto_o which_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v overlook_v through_o such_o head_n as_o these_o shall_v i_o trace_v my_o sin_n especial_o those_o of_o they_o which_o be_v most_o gross_a and_o in_o my_o meditation_n dwell_v so_o upon_o these_o consideration_n as_o may_v if_o possible_a move_v my_o sorrow_n at_o least_o breed_v a_o utter_a â—aversion_n of_o the_o sin_n and_o a_o loathe_n of_o myself_o for_o it_o and_o if_o it_o be_v so_o that_o i_o can_v shed_v tear_n and_o real_o mourn_v over_o my_o sin_n yet_o if_o i_o can_v find_v in_o myself_o a_o through_o displeasure_n with_o myself_o for_o sin_n and_o a_o hatred_n of_o it_o together_o with_o a_o earnest_a desire_n to_o be_v free_v from_o the_o habit_n and_o power_n of_o the_o sin_n as_o well_o as_o from_o the_o guilt_n of_o it_o this_o i_o may_v conclude_v to_o be_v a_o sorrow_n of_o mind_n and_o aught_o therefore_o to_o cherish_v in_o my_o soul_n sect._n 5._o of_o repentance_n which_o be_v the_o effect_n of_o godly_a sorrow_n its_o true_a nature_n and_o way_n of_o practice_n the_o apostle_n say_v godly_a sorrow_n workith_o repentance_n which_o need_v not_o to_o be_v repent_v of_o now_o that_o repentance_n may_v seem_v to_o consist_v of_o two_o thing_n of_o a_o full_a purpose_n of_o heart_n to_o forsake_v sin_n and_o of_o hearty_a endeavour_n against_o it_o first_o i_o say_v i_o may_v not_o think_v i_o have_v repent_v of_o my_o sin_n till_o i_o have_v take_v up_o a_o full_a purpose_n and_o resolution_n of_o mind_n against_o it_o for_o the_o future_a as_o long_o as_o there_o be_v in_o i_o any_o intention_n of_o return_v to_o it_o again_o i_o be_o a_o impenitent_a wretch_n now_o such_o purpose_n and_o resolution_n the_o forego_n consideration_n of_o my_o sin_n be_v apt_a to_o beget_v and_o therefore_o by_o lay_v such_o thought_n true_o home_o unto_o my_o heart_n by_o employ_v my_o mind_n much_o on_o they_o i_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o work_v myself_o up_o to_o such_o resolution_n and_o never_o to_o sit_v down_o content_v or_o think_v myself_o penitent_a till_o i_o be_o so_o wrought_v upon_o i_o shall_v not_o much_o need_n to_o be_v mind_v that_o during_o such_o endeavour_n i_o ought_v to_o intermix_v with_o my_o meditation_n frequent_a petition_n to_o almighty_a god_n who_o grace_n only_o it_o be_v which_o be_v sufficient_a for_o i_o for_o the_o turn_v my_o heart_n from_o sin_n now_o purpose_n and_o resolution_n be_v rot_v except_o endeavour_n to_o fulfil_v they_o follow_v this_o therefore_o be_v the_o second_o part_n of_o repentance_n that_o as_o i_o have_v resolve_v so_o i_o endeavour_v against_o sin_n and_o this_o endeavour_n against_o sin_n seem_v to_o have_v two_o part_n the_o one_o of_o which_o may_v best_o be_v act_v in_o my_o closet_n the_o other_o must_v be_v act_v any_o where_o and_o every_o where_n the_o first_o part_n of_o the_o endeavour_n against_o sin_n be_v to_o do_v what_o we_o can_v to_o mortify_v the_o habit_n that_o be_v the_o inclination_n readiness_n and_o customary_a proneness_n which_o we_o have_v to_o the_o sin_n which_o be_v to_o be_v forsake_v and_o that_o must_v be_v do_v 1._o by_o consider_v with_o myself_o what_o mean_v or_o remedy_n i_o can_v find_v out_o against_o that_o sin_n certain_a it_o be_v the_o more_o i_o can_v restrain_v or_o keep_v back_o myself_o from_o the_o actual_a commission_n or_o do_v of_o any_o sin_n the_o more_o will_v the_o power_n of_o that_o sin_n decay_n in_o i_o the_o less_o incline_v shall_v i_o be_v thereto_o wherefore_o if_o i_o can_v at_o the_o first_o root_n out_o the_o habit_n or_o overcome_v that_o miserable_a inclinedness_n which_o i_o find_v thereto_o yet_o let_v i_o endeavour_v to_o find_v out_o such_o mean_n which_o may_v keep_v i_o from_o the_o act_n the_o sin_n and_o i_o say_v that_o customary_a proneness_n unto_o the_o sin_n will_v by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n decay_n now_o in_o general_n it_o will_v be_v a_o true_a and_o proper_a remedy_n against_o any_o sin_n to_o consider_v the_o occasion_n or_o inducement_n which_o chiefl_o lead_v i_o thereunto_o and_o to_o provide_v as_o well_o as_o i_o can_v against_o they_o whether_o or_o no_o be_v it_o a_o sin_n which_o be_v deep_o root_v in_o my_o nature_n and_o constitution_n or_o whether_o or_o no_o be_v it_o such_o a_o one_o which_o by_o my_o way_n of_o live_v converse_n and_o custom_n i_o have_v settle_v in_o myself_o if_o it_o be_v of_o the_o latter_a sort_n the_o break_v myself_o of_o that_o custom_n the_o alter_n as_o far_o as_o be_v possible_a such_o converse_n as_o have_v bring_v i_o into_o it_o be_v a_o very_a good_a remedy_n against_o it_o but_o if_o it_o be_v a_o sin_n innate_a and_o after_o a_o sort_n plant_v in_o my_o very_a make_n and_o complexion_n it_o be_v more_o difficult_a to_o subdue_v but_o the_o way_n will_v be_v 1._o to_o take_v such_o course_n with_o myself_o as_o that_o for_o the_o future_a i_o may_v keep_v myself_o from_o the_o act_n of_o it_o as_o much_o as_o may_v be_v and_o 2._o to_o make_v it_o a_o constant_a petition_n in_o my_o daily_a prayer_n to_o god_n that_o he_o by_o that_o spirit_n by_o which_o he_o be_v able_a to_o subdue_v all_o thing_n unto_o himself_o will_v mortify_v in_o i_o the_o affection_n and_o lust_n which_o i_o have_v after_o that_o sin_n and_o by_o persevere_v in_o such_o course_n no_o doubt_n but_o at_o length_n through_o the_o divine_a grace_n i_o shall_v overcome_v it_o these_o mean_n therefore_o have_v consult_v of_o attend_v to_o my_o particular_a sin_n the_o next_o step_n which_o i_o be_o to_o take_v in_o the_o mortify_n of_o it_o be_v 2._o to_o resolve_v there_o before_o god_n diligent_o to_o use_v those_o mean_n which_o i_o have_v particular_o consult_v of_o and_o so_o forthwith_o to_o order_n and_o contrive_v all_o my_o affair_n as_o far_o as_o in_o i_o lie_v that_o i_o may_v without_o any_o partiality_n use_v they_o all_o according_a to_o the_o best_a of_o my_o skill_n and_o in_o the_o most_o effectual_a manner_n that_o i_o know_v the_o second_o part_n of_o the_o endeavour_n against_o sin_n which_o will_v not_o be_v so_o much_o the_o work_n of_o my_o closet_n as_o of_o my_o life_n be_v diligence_n in_o the_o use_n of_o these_o mean_n which_o i_o have_v thus_o consider_v of_o find_v out_o and_o resolve_v upon_o wherever_o i_o be_o and_o when_o soever_o i_o have_v opportunity_n now_o that_o i_o may_v so_o do_v it_o will_v very_o much_o help_v if_o i_o write_v down_o these_o resolution_n before_o god_n in_o my_o privacy_n which_o i_o be_o to_o do_v in_o my_o accomptal_a where_o also_o i_o be_o to_o record_v every_o day_n fast_v and_o the_o issue_n thereof_o what_o i_o find_v new_a in_o my_o estate_n what_o i_o resolve_v on_o what_o mean_v i_o consider_v of_o against_o such_o and_o such_o sin_n we_o find_v they_o not_o only_o make_v a_o covenant_n but_o put_v it_o in_o writing_n and_o seal_v it_o before_o the_o lord_n in_o their_o solemn_a fast_n nehem._n 9_o 38._o this_o will_v be_v one_o way_n to_o secure_v i_o against_o be_v slighty_a in_o my_o penitential_o and_o it_o may_v beside_o much_o both_o confirm_v and_o quicken_v i_o in_o my_o execution_n of_o these_o my_o resolve_n to_o read_v they_o over_o write_v by_o my_o mine_n own_o hand_n before_o god_n and_o be_v thus_o register_v it_o will_v be_v good_a for_o i_o to_o be_v often_o when_o i_o come_v into_o my_o closet_n about_o my_o devotion_n and_o examine_v myself_o look_v on_o and_o read_v they_o over_o least_o
through_o christ_n according_a to_o the_o promise_n of_o the_o gospel_n that_o i_o do_v thus_o my_o sin_n shall_v not_o be_v lay_v to_o my_o charge_n as_o be_v take_v away_o by_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n in_o who_o merit_n i_o have_v through_o this_o my_o faith_n and_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n to_o i_o a_o share_n sect._n 9_o of_o prayer_n upon_o such_o fast_a day_n that_o which_o will_v much_o heighten_v my_o affection_n in_o this_o my_o repentance_n and_o further_o complete_a all_o its_o part_n yet_o remain_v to_o wit_n prayer_n which_o as_o it_o must_v on_o this_o occasion_n and_o day_n be_v more_o large_a and_o particular_a than_o ordinary_a so_o i_o can_v now_o want_v matter_n for_o it_o after_o such_o consideration_n of_o my_o condition_n and_o of_o the_o way_n how_o i_o be_o to_o seek_v for_o pardon_n of_o sin_n as_o be_v suppose_v if_o the_o former_a rule_n have_v be_v observe_v to_o have_v forgo_v particular_o i_o be_o to_o frame_v my_o prayer_n or_o at_o least_o to_o 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i_o be_o to_o spend_v in_o thy_o more_o solemn_a worship_n many_o sin_n there_o be_v by_o i_o not_o due_o repent_v of_o which_o may_v just_o bring_v upon_o i_o a_o curse_n instead_o of_o a_o blessing_n especial_o my_o etc._n my_o here_o insert_v the_o mention_n of_o such_o particular_a sin_n which_o thou_o have_v find_v thyself_o guilty_a of_o etc._n etc._n may_v make_v my_o very_a prayer_n a_o abomination_n to_o thou_o but_o accept_v thou_o i_o beseech_v thou_o of_o this_o my_o confession_n of_o they_o and_o at_o least_o desire_a sorrow_n for_o they_o turn_v my_o heart_n from_o they_o for_o the_o future_a and_o through_o the_o blood_n of_o my_o saviour_n so_o remove_v the_o guilt_n of_o they_o that_o they_o may_v not_o hinder_v good_a thing_n from_o i_o let_v the_o effusion_n of_o thy_o grace_n both_o upon_o i_o and_o all_o the_o congregation_n of_o thy_o people_n be_v plentiful_a let_v my_o heart_n be_v fix_v and_o none_o either_o vain_a or_o worldly_a thought_n lodge_v within_o i_o this_o night_n quicken_v i_o by_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n that_o i_o may_v draw_v near_o unto_o thou_o with_o a_o true_a heart_n and_o be_v fervent_a in_o spirit_n in_o thy_o service_n and_o with_o a_o good_a and_o honest_a heart_n receive_v thy_o word_n may_v understand_v and_o keep_v it_o and_o bring_v forth_o fruit_n with_o patience_n and_o unto_o perfection_n remember_v thou_o thy_o servant_n who_o be_v to_o dispense_v thy_o mystery_n unto_o thy_o people_n and_o especial_o he_o upon_o who_o teach_v i_o be_o to_o wait_v pardon_v their_o sin_n and_o frailty_n open_v their_o mouth_n guide_v their_o mind_n and_o tongue_n that_o they_o may_v deliver_v thy_o truth_n in_o the_o demonstration_n of_o thy_o spirit_n and_o let_v thy_o work_n so_o prosper_v
be_v not_o new_a but_o have_v be_v and_o always_o will_v be_v the_o same_o and_o multitude_n of_o book_n do_v but_o confound_v plain_a head_n all_o wise_a man_n know_v that_o to_o make_v a_o man_n self_n master_n of_o one_o good_a book_n be_v better_a than_o to_o have_v slight_o read_v a_o hundred_o which_o be_v not_o either_o thorough_o understand_v or_o digest_v to_o keep_v therefore_o thus_o to_o one_o good_a book_n which_o may_v instruct_v i_o of_o the_o sum_n of_o my_o christian_a duty_n till_o i_o have_v full_o make_v it_o i_o own_o be_v my_o most_o edisy_a course_n sect._n 3_o of_o self-examination_n and_o the_o view_n of_o our_o life_n this_o my_o exercise_n of_o read_v be_v over_o it_o will_v be_v seasonable_a now_o to_o fall_v to_o the_o examination_n of_o myself_o touch_n my_o sin_n and_o here_o i_o shall_v find_v a_o very_a good_a help_n of_o the_o former_a work_n of_o read_v especial_o after_o some_o considerable_a use_n of_o it_o when_o i_o be_o once_o come_v to_o know_v my_o several_a duty_n for_o certain_a it_o be_v no_o man_n can_v see_v what_o he_o have_v do_v amiss_o what_o he_o have_v leave_v undo_v which_o two_o head_n of_o omission_n and_o commission_n contain_v under_o they_o all_o actual_a sin_n till_o he_o see_v what_o he_o shall_v have_v do_v now_o this_o duty_n of_o self-examination_n a_o man_n may_v be_v suppose_v either_o to_o be_v a_o stranger_n in_o and_o little_a to_o have_v practise_v or_o else_o to_o have_v be_v much_o in_o it_o and_o to_o be_v thorough_o verse_v in_o his_o heart_n and_o life_n he_o who_o be_v a_o stranger_n to_o it_o have_v unquestionable_o more_o work_n to_o do_v than_o the_o other_o that_o he_o may_v therefore_o do_v his_o business_n thorough_o he_o must_v begin_v with_o those_o very_o first_o year_n which_o he_o can_v remember_v and_o trace_v sin_n from_o his_o insancy_n through_o his_o youth_n to_o his_o ripe_a and_o present_a year_n he_o must_v see_v what_o devil_n first_o enter_v he_o i_o mean_v what_o sin_n first_o seize_v he_o how_o they_o have_v grow_v up_o and_o continue_v with_o he_o but_o this_o will_v be_v too_o long_a a_o work_n for_o a_o hour_n or_o two_o such_o a_o person_n therefore_o have_v need_n to_o set_v apart_o whole_a day_n for_o this_o purpose_n till_o he_o have_v a_o little_a recover_v himself_o and_o set_v his_o account_n straight_a with_o god_n yet_o must_v he_o not_o while_o he_o be_v inquire_v after_o unknown_a or_o forget_v sin_n neglect_v to_o repent_v of_o his_o fresh_a and_n know_v transgression_n if_o therefore_o so_o it_o be_v that_o for_o the_o present_a he_o can_v recollect_v himself_o and_o make_v a_o diligent_a search_n into_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o his_o life_n yet_o must_v he_o confess_v and_o bewail_v what_o he_o know_v of_o himself_o and_o together_o acknowledge_v how_o much_o he_o be_v in_o arrear_n which_o he_o have_v forget_v or_o at_o present_a do_v not_o see_v and_o for_o all_o humble_o beg_v mercy_n but_o this_o not_o so_o as_o whole_o to_o put_v off_o surth_a enquiry_n but_o have_v this_o fast_o examine_v himself_o touch_v so_o many_o year_n or_o month_n according_a as_o his_o life_n find_v his_o thought_n work_v upon_o his_o next_o fast_o proceed_v far_o and_o so_o on_o the_o next_o still_o far_o till_o he_o come_v home_o to_o his_o present_a age_n now_o in_o this_o sift_v of_o my_o life_n if_o i_o can_v it_o will_v be_v very_o useful_a to_o i_o and_o much_o further_a a_o distinct_a repentance_n to_o use_v my_o pen_n and_o through_o each_o year_n set_v down_o my_o sin_n by_o this_o mean_n i_o shall_v be_v able_a much_o better_a to_o consider_v they_o and_o so_o both_o know_v more_o of_o myself_o and_o of_o the_o deceitful_a way_n which_o sin_n have_v to_o gain_v upon_o i_o and_o because_o as_o i_o owe_v to_o god_n confession_n and_o repentance_n of_o my_o sin_n so_o i_o owe_v also_o acknowledgement_n and_o thanks_o for_o his_o mercy_n therefore_o in_o this_o enquiry_n it_o will_v be_v necessary_a to_o observe_v god_n remarkable_a mercy_n and_o deliverance_n to_o i_o record_v these_o also_o year_n by_o year_n as_o my_o sin_n thus_o will_v the_o sight_n of_o his_o mercy_n aggravate_v my_o sin_n and_o increase_v my_o repentance_n and_o the_o sight_n of_o my_o sin_n parallel_n with_o his_o mercy_n commend_v his_o goodness_n and_o enhance_v my_o thankfulness_n both_o which_o be_v singular_a benefit_n and_o because_o even_a affliction_n have_v their_o use_n and_o be_v to_o be_v account_v for_o if_o therefore_o i_o find_v any_o considerable_a adversity_n or_o cross_n with_o which_o god_n have_v exercise_v i_o this_o also_o be_v to_o be_v register_v as_o the_o former_a if_o it_o do_v i_o good_a i_o owe_v to_o god_n thanks_o for_o it_o if_o not_o i_o owe_v repentance_n for_o be_v incorrigible_a be_v thus_o come_v to_o my_o present_a time_n it_o will_v become_v i_o not_o to_o run_v in_o arrear_n again_o but_o every_o â—ast_a day_n still_o to_o make_v my_o account_n even_o and_o to_o that_o purpose_n to_o take_v care_n as_o aforesaid_a that_o these_o my_o fast_n be_v not_o too_o seldom_o suppose_v therefore_o that_o i_o be_o a_o person_n who_o have_v so_o far_o practise_v self_n examination_n as_o that_o i_o have_v former_o take_v account_n of_o all_o my_o life_n that_o which_o i_o shall_v have_v chief_o to_o inquire_v into_o upon_o each_o return_n of_o these_o my_o fast_a day_n will_v be_v first_o what_o new_a sin_n or_o commission_n i_o have_v be_v guilty_a of_o since_o my_o last_o day_n of_o account_v second_o what_o neglect_v especial_o if_o i_o have_v former_o make_v any_o vow_n or_o new_a engagement_n to_o god_n how_o i_o have_v observe_v or_o slight_v they_o three_o in_o what_o posture_n or_o temper_n my_o heart_n have_v continue_v and_o at_o present_a be_v whether_o soft_a tender_a penitent_a and_o in_o awe_n of_o god_n or_o whether_o dull_a careless_a insensible_a or_o otherwise_o out_o of_o order_n and_o prone_a to_o its_o old_a lust_n last_o how_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n have_v carry_v towards_o i_o sithence_o what_o mercy_n receive_v what_o affliction_n send_v upon_o i_o and_o what_o have_v be_v my_o carriage_n answerable_o and_o whatever_o i_o find_v more_o remarkable_a let_v it_o be_v register_v in_o my_o accomptal_n so_o i_o call_v that_o paper_n book_n in_o which_o i_o use_v to_o keep_v account_n of_o my_o life_n and_o spiritual_a state_n whereof_o as_o be_v abovesaid_a i_o shall_v find_v singular_a advantage_n in_o my_o succeed_a time_n sect._n 4._o of_o the_o endeavour_n of_o godly_a sorrow_n how_o to_o work_v ourselves_o to_o it_o sin_n be_v not_o such_o a_o thing_n the_o knowledge_n of_o which_o be_v desirable_a for_o itself_o but_o only_o in_o order_n to_o somewhat_o else_o which_o it_o be_v apt_a to_o beget_v to_o wit_n godly_a sorrow_n and_o repentance_n my_o sin_n therefore_o be_v thus_o know_v i_o be_o to_o set_v myself_o about_o the_o sorrow_n for_o they_o and_o repent_v of_o they_o and_o to_o godly_a sorrow_n the_o ready_a course_n will_v be_v more_o full_o to_o fix_v my_o thought_n upon_o the_o sin_n of_o which_o in_o my_o examination_n of_o myself_o i_o have_v find_v myself_o guilty_a to_o look_v upon_o they_o so_o as_o that_o my_o eye_n may_v affect_v my_o heart_n my_o attent_a consideration_n of_o they_o may_v move_v and_o grieve_v i_o as_o it_o ought_v to_o this_o purpose_n i_o be_o to_o consider_v particular_o first_o the_o foulness_n of_o my_o particular_a sin_n in_o themselves_o and_o in_o their_o own_o nature_n how_o vile_a they_o make_v i_o how_o unable_a i_o shall_v be_v to_o look_v man_n in_o the_o face_n if_o they_o know_v all_o these_o unworthy_a act_n by_o i_o which_o i_o do_v of_o myself_o and_o god_n far_o better_o than_o myself_o how_o vile_a therefore_o must_v they_o needs_o render_v i_o in_o his_o holy_a eye_n second_o the_o several_a aggravation_n which_o they_o admit_v the_o chief_a of_o which_o and_o those_o which_o be_v apt_a to_o affect_v i_o i_o may_v take_v to_o be_v those_o which_o follow_v 1._o against_o how_o great_a light_n and_o how_o clear_a knowledge_n of_o god_n will_v i_o have_v sin_v i_o know_v such_o and_o such_o action_n to_o be_v sinful_a when_o yet_o i_o venture_v upon_o they_o 2._o against_o how_o many_o check_n of_o conscience_n i_o commit_v they_o do_v not_o my_o own_o heart_n at_o that_o very_a instant_n smite_v i_o tell_v i_o of_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n and_o eternal_a flame_n belong_v to_o those_o who_o do_v such_o thing_n 3._o against_o how_o many_o engagement_n and_o obligation_n to_o the_o contrary_n have_v i_o sin_v 1._o my_o own_o vow_n and_o covenant_n both_o in_o baptism_n and_o since_o 2._o god_n mercy_n and_o forbearance_n which_o shall_v
ramble_v in_o my_o employment_n and_o though_o i_o be_o not_o much_o guilty_a of_o do_v nothing_o yet_o do_v i_o not_o do_v what_o i_o shall_v and_o this_o be_v undoubted_o a_o piece_n of_o idleness_n as_o abovesaid_a for_o a_o man_n to_o neglect_v the_o business_n of_o the_o season_n and_o of_o his_o call_n and_o to_o be_v most_o take_v up_o in_o thing_n which_o least_o concern_v he_o now_o here_o the_o remedy_n will_v be_v to_o consider_v what_o it_o be_v that_o be_v my_o proper_a business_n to_o put_v my_o work_n into_o a_o certain_a mould_n and_o order_n and_o then_o to_o set_v myself_o a_o task_n daily_o and_o engage_v myself_o as_o well_o as_o i_o can_v to_o so_o much_o of_o it_o before_o i_o divert_v to_o any_o eccentrical_a occupation_n i_o mean_v to_o the_o busy_v myself_o in_o thing_n which_o do_v not_o proper_o concern_v i_o 2._o it_o may_v be_v i_o use_v to_o sit_v and_o talk_v away_o my_o time_n with_o friend_n and_o company_n much_o go_v in_o idle_a visit_n i_o have_v a_o nature_n which_o be_v too_o sociable_a and_o when_o i_o meet_v with_o company_n to_o my_o mind_n i_o know_v not_o how_o to_o deny_v myself_o of_o their_o society_n and_o discourse_n and_o if_o i_o do_v not_o meet_v with_o such_o i_o be_o apt_a to_o leave_v my_o business_n and_o go_v seek_v such_o here_o the_o remedy_n will_v be_v partly_o the_o same_o with_o the_o former_a prudent_o to_o proportion_v my_o time_n to_o my_o business_n so_o much_o of_o my_o business_n have_v i_o resolve_v to_o do_v that_o resolution_n must_v not_o be_v break_v so_o much_o time_n will_v that_o work_n take_v i_o up_o so_o much_o my_o devotion_n wherefore_o i_o have_v but_o so_o much_o leave_v for_o society_n more_o therefore_o i_o must_v not_o take_v if_o therefore_o i_o be_o light_a into_o any_o acceptable_a company_n it_o will_v become_v i_o often_o to_o consider_v how_o go_v the_o time_n so_o much_o of_o my_o impose_v task_n yet_o lie_v undo_v etc._n etc._n 3._o it_o may_v be_v much_o of_o my_o time_n be_v spend_v in_o dulness_n sit_v still_o etc._n etc._n it_o may_v be_v my_o constitution_n be_v such_o that_o if_o i_o eat_v hearty_o i_o be_o a_o great_a while_n unfit_a for_o my_o work_n and_o so_o feed_v free_o lay_v upon_o i_o a_o kind_n of_o necessity_n of_o be_v idle_a here_o the_o remedy_n will_v be_v to_o resolve_v upon_o a_o sparer_n diet_n to_o bridle_v my_o appetite_n and_o eat_v less_o when_o i_o do_v eat_v or_o if_o i_o can_v that_n to_o eat_v â—eldomer_n and_o to_o be_v at_o least_o but_o once_o a_o day_n unfit_a for_o my_o work_n which_o time_n of_o unfitness_n if_o i_o will_v well_o husband_n my_o time_n i_o may_v best_o allow_v for_o society_n it_o will_v be_v fit_a enough_o for_o that_o 4_o it_o may_v be_v vexation_n anger_n or_o give_v way_n to_o passion_n many_o time_n indispose_v i_o for_o business_n here_o the_o remedy_n will_v be_v to_o watch_v against_o such_o disturbance_n to_o endeavour_v meekness_n patience_n and_o the_o mortification_n of_o unruly_a affection_n 5._o it_o may_v be_v solicitude_n about_o this_o world_n thoughtfulness_n care_n take_v up_o many_o of_o my_o hour_n and_o then_o my_o head_n be_v full_a i_o can_v call_v home_o my_o mind_n and_o fall_v to_o work_v and_o when_o by_o my_o care_n i_o can_v find_v any_o expedient_a for_o what_o i_o seek_v this_o breed_v discontent_n envy_n of_o other_o man_n ease_n happiness_n freedom_n etc._n etc._n and_o serious_o it_o be_v a_o great_a deal_n of_o time_n which_o narrow_a fortune_n thus_o steal_v away_o from_o some_o man_n here_o the_o remedy_n will_v be_v study_v of_o content_n frugality_n wise_a husband_v my_o estate_n proportion_v my_o expense_n to_o my_o revenue_n and_o so_o what_o ever_o i_o find_v to_o be_v the_o occasion_n of_o my_o loss_n or_o expense_n of_o time_n let_v i_o study_v a_o suitable_a remedy_n thereto_o and_o register_v as_o well_o the_o occasion_n as_o its_o correspond_v remedy_n let_v i_o then_o proceed_v to_o resolve_v upon_o the_o use_n of_o such_o remedy_n and_o to_o order_v my_o particular_a affair_n in_o such_o sort_n that_o i_o may_v use_v they_o with_o the_o best_a advantage_n and_o such_o resolution_n let_v i_o always_o enter_v upon_o my_o accomptal_n for_o the_o fasten_v they_o both_o upon_o my_o heart_n and_o memory_n sect._n 7._o a_o further_a consideration_n of_o repentance_n with_o reference_n to_o some_o particular_a sin_n repentance_n may_v seem_v to_o have_v be_v consider_v hitherto_o with_o a_o relation_n to_o habitual_a sin_n that_o be_v such_o sin_n which_o either_o by_o nature_n or_o custom_n be_v root_v in_o the_o heart_n and_o have_v beget_v in_o the_o soul_n a_o readiness_n and_o inclinedness_n unto_o they_o but_o sure_o if_o i_o thorough_o understand_v the_o practice_n of_o it_o as_o it_o have_v be_v hitherto_o describe_v i_o can_v be_v at_o a_o loss_n in_o what_o sort_n it_o ought_v to_o be_v exercise_v when_o i_o find_v myself_o guilty_a of_o one_o particular_a fall_n or_o sin_n the_o habit_n or_o customary_a readiness_n to_o which_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o contract_v for_o the_o substance_n of_o my_o work_n be_v still_o the_o same_o viz._n have_v in_o my_o examination_n of_o myself_o find_v myself_o guilty_a i_o be_o by_o attent_a consideration_n of_o that_o sin_n whereof_o i_o be_o guilty_a both_o in_o itself_o and_o as_o it_o be_v i_o to_o endeavour_v to_o affect_v my_o heart_n therewith_o so_o that_o i_o may_v true_o sorrow_n for_o it_o and_o though_o it_o may_v be_v i_o may_v true_o conclude_v that_o it_o have_v not_o yet_o get_v full_o a_o root_n within_o i_o yet_o for_o as_o much_o as_o the_o first_o or_o second_o commission_n thereof_o have_v in_o probability_n make_v i_o more_o incline_v and_o easy_a thereto_o than_o i_o be_v when_o my_o mind_n have_v be_v never_o much_o bend_v this_o way_n be_v thitherwards_o more_o inflexible_a therefore_o ought_v i_o to_o study_v and_o consult_v how_o for_o the_o future_a to_o secure_v and_o confirm_v my_o soul_n against_o any_o relapse_n or_o second_a backslide_n and_o after_o such_o consultation_n to_o resolve_v and_o engage_v myself_o with_o all_o possible_a strength_n against_o it_o one_o thing_n more_o in_o case_n of_o sin_n commit_v or_o wrong_v do_v unto_o my_o neighbour_n be_v yet_o requisite_a to_o the_o make_v my_o repentance_n sincere_a and_o through_o and_o that_o be_v that_o i_o forthwith_o upon_o sight_n of_o the_o sin_n if_o possible_a make_v restitution_n otherwise_o that_o i_o make_v it_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o be_o able_a and_o in_o case_n i_o be_o not_o likely_a to_o be_v able_a to_o make_v it_o that_o i_o endeavour_v by_o acknowledgement_n of_o my_o offence_n to_o seek_v for_o reconciliation_n unto_o he_o who_o i_o have_v so_o wrong_v the_o necessity_n hereof_o may_v be_v conclude_v from_o what_o have_v be_v above_o say_v that_o repentance_n can_v be_v true_a except_o there_o be_v a_o amendment_n now_o most_o evident_a it_o be_v that_o while_o i_o suffer_v the_o wrong_n do_v yet_o to_o remain_v or_o continue_v i_o be_o still_o injurious_a and_o so_o consequent_o there_o be_v no_o amendment_n and_o therefore_o no_o repentance_n and_o the_o word_n of_o our_o saviour_n most_o express_o enforce_v it_o if_o thou_o bring_v 24._o mat._n 5._o 23_o 24._o thy_o gift_n to_o the_o altur_n and_o there_o remember_v that_o thy_o brother_n have_v aught_o against_o thou_o leave_v there_o thy_o gift_n and_o first_o go_v and_o be_v reconcile_v to_o thy_o brother_n then_o come_v and_o offer_v thy_o gist_n god_n will_v accept_v of_o no_o sacrifice_n or_o duty_n whatsoever_o at_o my_o hand_n in_o such_o a_o case_n till_o i_o have_v reconcile_v myself_o if_o possible_a if_o any_o think_v this_o not_o to_o amount_v to_o restitution_n let_v he_o read_v levit._n 6._o 2_o 3_o 4_o 5_o 6._o and_o numb_a 5._o 6_o 7_o 8_o where_o he_o shall_v find_v beside_o the_o sin_n offer_v to_o be_v bring_v to_o god_n in_o case_n of_o wrong_a doâ—ie_n to_o other_o it_o be_v enjoin_v that_o the_o principal_n shall_v be_v restore_v with_o a_o addition_n of_o one_o five_o part_n thereto_o now_o if_o so_o it_o be_v that_o i_o can_v find_v those_o to_o who_o i_o have_v be_v injurious_a that_o i_o may_v make_v restitution_n let_v i_o give_v and_o devote_v so_o much_o to_o the_o poor_a as_o will_v do_v it_o this_o be_v to_o restore_v unto_o god_n when_o i_o can_v to_o my_o brother_n let_v i_o never_o lie_v up_o any_o thing_n wrongful_o get_v or_o that_o wherewith_o recompense_n shall_v be_v make_v for_o wrong_v do_v it_o will_v eat_v as_o do_v a_o canker_n beside_o i_o can_v if_o by_o wrong_n i_o increase_v my_o store_n ever_o have_v a_o quiet_a conscience_n or_o reasonable_o expect_v the_o pardon_n of_o
the_o king_n majesty_n his_o queen_n and_o all_o the_o royal_a family_n let_v all_o thy_o priest_n be_v clothe_v with_o righteousness_n and_o let_v thy_o work_n prosper_v in_o their_o hand_n and_o especial_o within_o this_o parish_n of_o which_o i_o be_o a_o part_n let_v the_o knowledge_n and_o fear_n of_o thou_o increase_v visit_v all_o my_o kindred_n relation_n and_o acquaintance_n **_o with_o such_o blessing_n as_o they_o need_v reward_v a_o thousand_o fold_v all_o who_o have_v show_v any_o kindness_n to_o thy_o servant_n especial_o **_o forgive_v suggest_v in_o all_o these_o vacancy_n thus_o mark_v **_o make_v such_o particular_a mention_n as_o thy_o condition_n shall_v require_v or_o prudence_n suggest_v and_o have_v mercy_n upon_o all_o my_o enemy_n and_o let_v not_o one_o of_o they_o ever_o fare_v the_o worse_a for_o any_o wrong_n do_v to_o i_o deliver_v in_o thy_o own_o good_a time_n thy_o righteous_a one_o out_o of_o all_o their_o affliction_n and_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n support_v they_o sanctify_v all_o unto_o they_o **_o show_v thyself_o every_o way_n all-sufficient_a unto_o all_o thou_o final_o o_o lord_n i_o bless_v and_o praise_v thy_o glorious_a grace_n for_o all_o those_o blessing_n which_o i_o enjoy_v and_o those_o particular_a deliverance_n whether_o ancient_a or_o late_a which_o thou_o have_v vouchsafe_v i_o **_o above_o all_o for_o thy_o redeem_n not_o only_o i_o but_o the_o whole_a humane_a nature_n by_o the_o precious_a blood_n of_o thy_o well-beloved_a son_n for_o that_o knowledge_n which_o i_o have_v of_o thou_o in_o he_o my_o saviour_n christ_n jesus_n for_o any_o sight_n and_o sense_n of_o my_o sin_n which_o through_o thy_o grace_n i_o have_v for_o any_o hope_n of_o find_v mercy_n in_o that_o great_a day_n **_o ay_o o_o lord_n etc._n here_o bless_v god_n for_o any_o inward_a joy_n enlargement_n etc._n etc._n be_o far_o less_o than_o the_o least_o of_o these_o mercy_n it_o be_v thy_o goodness_n thy_o goodness_n alone_o which_o be_v the_o fountain_n whence_o they_o come_v and_o may_v thou_o from_o i_o and_o from_o heaven_n and_o earth_n ever_o receive_v the_o glory_n of_o that_o thy_o goodness_n may_v i_o ever_o serve_v thou_o in_o newness_n of_o life_n and_o answerable_a walk_n and_o do_v thou_o forgive_v not_o only_o my_o former_a ingratitude_n but_o my_o present_a want_n of_o thankfulness_n together_o with_o all_o the_o sin_n of_o these_o my_o holy_a thing_n wash_v i_o and_o my_o very_a tear_n prayer_n and_o penitence_n in_o the_o blood_n of_o my_o saviour_n christ_n jesus_n in_o who_o word_n thy_o servant_n will_v speak_v yet_o once_o more_o our_o father_n etc._n etc._n it_o be_v not_o to_o be_v suppose_v that_o this_o prayer_n without_o any_o alteration_n will_v suit_v with_o the_o condition_n of_o every_o reader_n god_n forbid_v all_o shall_v have_v sin_v at_o that_o rate_n to_o come_v up_o to_o which_o this_o prayer_n be_v frame_v the_o prudent_a christian_a therefore_o be_v to_o add_v leave_v out_o alter_z what_o he_o see_v good_a or_o if_o able_a himself_o to_o do_v better_o to_o lay_v aside_o all_o nothing_o be_v here_o obtrude_v on_o any_o only_a direction_n and_o help_v intend_v to_o some_o who_o need_v they_o sect._n 10._o of_o offering_n to_o god_n for_o the_o use_n of_o the_o poor_a departure_n out_o of_o the_o closet_n and_o behaviour_n afterward_o my_o prayer_n be_v thus_o finish_v i_o shall_v not_o hasty_o run_v out_o but_o pause_v a_o while_n and_o remember_v that_o there_o be_v one_o work_n remain_v which_o be_v not_o to_o be_v neglect_v if_o i_o have_v wherewithal_o to_o do_v it_o be_v it_o be_v require_v by_o god_n in_o a_o acceptable_a fast_o and_o that_o be_v to_o add_v something_o every_o fast_o though_o it_o be_v the_o less_o to_o what_o i_o have_v former_o lay_v aside_o for_o the_o poor_a or_o if_o there_o be_v no_o such_o stock_n already_o make_v by_o i_o much_o more_o than_o to_o design_n and_o devote_v somewhat_o to_o that_o purpose_n this_o be_v the_o fast_o i_o have_v choose_v to_o deal_v thy_o bread_n unto_o the_o hungry_a etc._n etc._n it_o be_v thus_o give_v i_o may_v deal_v it_o when_o 7._o isa_n 58._o 7._o i_o shall_v see_v occasion_n now_o as_o to_o the_o particular_a manner_n of_o this_o practice_n direction_n have_v be_v above_o give_v which_o especial_o upon_o these_o day_n it_o will_v be_v expedient_a to_o observe_v and_o this_o be_v do_v let_v i_o with_o cheerfulness_n depart_v my_o closet_n let_v not_o my_o behaviour_n be_v without_o innocent_a alacrity_n and_o let_v it_o be_v my_o special_a care_n so_o to_o order_v all_o my_o carriage_n on_o these_o my_o fast_n that_o they_o may_v not_o if_o possible_a be_v take_v notice_n of_o by_o any_o but_o myself_o and_o god_n as_o be_v mindful_a of_o that_o command_n of_o my_o saviour_n anoint_v thy_o head_n and_o wash_v thy_o face_n that_o thou_o appear_v not_o unto_o man_n to_o fast_o that_o be_v behave_v thyself_o with_o such_o outward_a cheerfulness_n of_o which_o anoint_v the_o head_n and_o wash_v the_o face_n be_v argument_n that_o no_o man_n ordinary_o behold_v thou_o will_v take_v the_o day_n he_o see_v thou_o so_o to_o be_v one_o of_o thy_o fast_n or_o mourn_a day_n chap._n vii_o of_o great_a and_o more_o extraordinary_a fast_n and_o the_o work_n of_o they_o beside_o these_o my_o fast_n which_o come_v in_o course_n at_o least_o once_o a_o week_n several_a occasion_n may_v befall_v i_o which_o may_v require_v a_o extraordinary_a fast_o such_o be_v any_o great_a evil_a hang_n over_o my_o head_n or_o my_o friend_n or_o the_o nation_n any_o considerable_a change_n of_o my_o way_n of_o live_v or_o the_o like_a but_o especial_o when_o i_o be_o to_o receive_v the_o holy_a communion_n my_o work_n upon_o such_o occasion_n will_v be_v the_o same_o as_o be_v former_o direct_v to_o only_o my_o christian_a discretion_n will_v order_v it_o with_o a_o particular_a respect_n to_o that_o my_o great_a occasion_n which_o call_v i_o to_o fast_o which_o occasion_n i_o be_o especial_o to_o meditate_v upon_o and_o that_o not_o without_o a_o regard_n have_v to_o my_o sin_n if_o there_o be_v any_o evil_n which_o i_o deprecate_v to_o consider_v how_o my_o sin_n have_v be_v the_o cause_n of_o it_o if_o any_o good_a which_o i_o beseech_v for_o how_o again_o my_o sin_n may_v blast_v that_o and_o according_o to_o commend_v it_o to_o god_n in_o my_o prayer_n in_o which_o case_n also_o the_o form_n of_o prayer_n deliver_v in_o the_o forego_n chapter_n will_v not_o be_v useless_a particular_o as_o to_o that_o which_o will_v most_o frequent_o come_v in_o practice_n my_o humiliation_n preparatory_a for_o the_o lord_n supper_n in_o these_o beside_o that_o examination_n of_o myself_o which_o in_o ordinary_a course_n i_o make_v i_o be_o to_o look_v over_o my_o accomptal_a to_o see_v every_o week_n since_o my_o last_o communicate_v what_o my_o carriage_n have_v be_v how_o i_o have_v amend_v especial_o in_o those_o particular_n in_o which_o i_o have_v former_o take_v notice_n of_o my_o miscarriage_n and_o vow_a reformation_n all_o my_o revolt_n and_o backslide_n be_v to_o be_v attentive_o view_v in_o themselves_o and_o in_o their_o aggravation_n and_o repentance_n as_o before_o teach_v to_o be_v with_o all_o diligence_n and_o servour_n that_o i_o can_v exercise_v yea_o and_o beside_o these_o time_n of_o special_a exigence_n ought_v i_o to_o be_v often_o survey_v and_o look_v over_o my_o accomptal_a in_o my_o ordinary_a daily_a devotion_n or_o in_o my_o devotion_n upon_o my_o fast-daye_n i_o shall_v find_v both_o need_n and_o opportunity_n for_o it_o and_o if_o scholar_n find_v it_o necessary_a to_o peruse_v their_o own_o collection_n or_o common-place_n book_n if_o shopkeeper_n review_v often_o their_o book_n to_o the_o end_n they_o may_v by_o see_v what_o they_o have_v former_o do_v know_v how_o to_o order_v their_o future_a proceed_n in_o their_o business_n so_o as_o not_o to_o go_v backward_o or_o be_v diligent_a to_o no_o purpose_n how_o much_o 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better_o teach_v but_o he_o have_v do_v it_o as_o well_o and_o as_o plain_o as_o he_o can_v be_v therefore_o that_o thou_o can_v not_o but_o say_v he_o be_v a_o good_a man_n who_o thus_o live_v and_o wish_v that_o thou_o ever_o have_v live_v so_o he_o charge_v it_o again_o upon_o thy_o conscience_n thus_o to_o live_v else_o be_v thou_o self-condemned_n and_o guilty_a of_o know_a negligence_n and_o omission_n thou_o do_v not_o endeavour_v what_o notwithstanding_o thy_o conscience_n can_v but_o approve_v he_o be_v confident_a further_o that_o if_o thou_o do_v but_o feel_v that_o peace_n quiet_a joy_n and_o happiness_n which_o such_o practice_n leave_v behind_o it_o if_o thou_o have_v any_o sense_n what_o it_o be_v to_o have_v a_o clear_a conscience_n and_o therefore_o free_a and_o cheerful_a access_n to_o god_n and_o a_o humble_a fearlessness_n of_o the_o face_n of_o man_n which_o without_o some_o such_o practice_n as_o this_o thou_o can_v never_o have_v thou_o need_v no_o other_o 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