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psal_n 119._o 75._o jer._n 12._o 1._o 1_o joh._n 2._o 29._o and_o the_o very_a ray_n also_o of_o the_o covenant_n of_o his_o grace_n psal_n 119._o 75._o here_o be_v more_o work_n for_o thou_o o_o my_o bless_a surety_n thy_o grace_n must_v needs_o uphold_v i_o in_o all_o part_n of_o my_o duty_n and_o perfect_a that_o which_o concern_v i_o i_o ground_n my_o promise_n upon_o thou_o isa_n 25._o 4._o joel_n 3._o 16._o i_o have_v not_o dare_v to_o have_v promise_v these_o thing_n if_o thou_o have_v not_o first_o promise_v to_o do_v all_o my_o work_n in_o i_o and_o for_o i_o isa_n 26._o 12._o psal_n 57_o 2._o 1_o thes_n 5._o 24._o put_v on_o strength_n o_o arm_v of_o the_o lord_n let_v not_o thy_o name_n be_v pollute_v and_o my_o boast_n in_o thou_o turn_v to_o thy_o reproach_n remember_v thou_o be_v all_o my_o strength_n and_o life_n for_o this_o end_n i_o will_v multiply_v all_o the_o command_v of_o god_n in_o my_o eye_n that_o under_o my_o impossibility_n of_o performance_n through_o 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