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execution_n of_o justice_n and_o yet_o to_o do_v all_o to_o serve_v one_o own_o turn_n as_o jehu_n 2_o king_n 10.16_o 8_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o be_v zealous_a in_o reprove_v of_o other_o and_o yet_o continue_v in_o the_o same_o or_o worse_a evil_n at_o the_o very_a same_o time_n as_o the_o hypocrite_n matth._n 7.3_o 4_o 5._o and_o the_o hypocritical_a preacher_n rom._n 2.21.22_o 9_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o be_v very_o confident_a of_o cleave_v unto_o christ_n and_o yet_o afterward_o to_o deny_v he_o to_o save_v one_o self_n as_o peter_n who_o when_o our_o saviour_n tell_v the_o disciple_n that_o they_o shall_v all_o be_v offend_v because_o of_o he_o present_o return_v this_o answer_n though_o all_o man_n shall_v be_v offend_v because_o of_o thou_o yet_o will_v i_o never_o be_v offend_v and_o yet_o afterward_o he_o deny_v he_o thrice_o and_o twice_o with_o curse_v and_o swear_v matth._n 26.70.74_o many_o more_o instance_n may_v be_v give_v but_o these_o may_v suffice_v to_o show_v how_o easy_o we_o may_v be_v mistake_v in_o ourselves_o and_o our_o action_n and_o therefore_o how_o needful_a it_o be_v to_o begin_v and_o to_o proceed_v in_o this_o work_n of_o self-trial_n with_o a_o godly_a jealousy_n more_o may_v possible_o be_v discover_v than_o at_o first_o we_o can_v have_v imagine_v be_v in_o we_o and_o yet_o when_o we_o have_v do_v all_o much_o will_v lie_v hide_v and_o therefore_o there_o be_v another_o thing_n that_o shall_v also_o be_v much_o in_o our_o thought_n and_o that_o be_v 2_o the_o difficulty_n of_o the_o discovery_n the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v deceitful_a above_o all_o thing_n who_o can_v know_v it_o jer._n 17.9_o two_o thing_n there_o be_v which_o render_v it_o very_o
every_o wicked_a servant_n will_v be_v find_v to_o have_v be_v a_o slothful_a servant_n at_o the_o day_n of_o judgement_n matth._n 25.26_o but_o 2_o if_o this_o be_v true_a that_o some_o such_o person_n act_n adultimum_fw-la virium_fw-la to_o the_o uttermost_a of_o their_o power_n yet_o it_o follow_v not_o that_o therefore_o it_o be_v fit_a that_o god_n shall_v give_v they_o grace_n nor_o do_v god_n give_v any_o one_o grace_n upon_o that_o account_n for_o when_o they_o have_v do_v all_o that_o they_o can_v in_o this_o unregenerate_a state_n what_o be_v it_o that_o they_o have_v do_v why_o nothing_o well-pleasing_a and_o acceptable_a unto_o god_n because_o as_o the_o apostle_n say_v 8_o say_v rom._n 8.7_o 8_o the_o carnal_a mind_n be_v enmity_n against_o god_n for_o it_o be_v not_o subject_a to_o the_o law_n of_o god_n neither_o indeed_o can_v be_v whence_o he_o conclude_v that_o they_o that_o be_v in_o the_o flesh_n can_v please_v god_n now_o be_v it_o fit_a that_o god_n shall_v give_v they_o grace_n for_o do_v that_o which_o do_v displease_v he_o again_o as_o faith_n without_o work_n be_v dead_a so_o work_v without_o faith_n be_v dead_a also_o and_o if_o they_o be_v dead_a work_n and_o not_o the_o service_n of_o the_o live_a god_n as_o the_o apostle_n say_v they_o be_v heb._n 9.14_o how_o can_v a_o man_n by_o such_o work_n deserve_v to_o have_v grace_n what_o a_o monstrous_a thing_n be_v it_o that_o vice_n shall_v merit_v virtue_n that_o a_o man_n by_o sin_v against_o god_n shall_v deserve_v to_o be_v partaker_n of_o his_o holiness_n that_o natural_a man_n may_v do_v some_o thing_n that_o be_v material_o good_a there_o be_v none_o will_v deny_v but_o that_o they_o can_v do_v any_o thing_n formal_o good_a smell_v too_o much_o of_o the_o pelagian_a forge_n and_o be_v manifest_o contradictory_n to_o the_o word_n of_o god_n which_o tell_v we_o that_o whatsoever_o such_o man_n do_v be_v sin_n prov._n 21.4_o titus_n 1.15_o and_o therefore_o most_o certain_a it_o be_v they_o can_v do_v nothing_o to_o prepare_v themselves_o for_o conversion_n nothing_o to_o move_v god_n either_o to_o vouchsafe_v they_o the_o mean_n of_o grace_n or_o to_o make_v they_o effectual_a as_o these_o man_n vain_o teach_v 2._o teach_v dr._n twisse_n against_o hoard_n lib._n 2._o this_o be_v the_o peculiar_a glory_n of_o god_n grace_n to_o make_v we_o perfect_a in_o every_o good_a work_n and_o to_o work_v in_o we_o that_o which_o be_v please_v in_o his_o sight_n through_o jesus_n christ_n and_o this_o he_o do_v according_a to_o his_o good_a pleasure_n phil._n 2.13_o &_o hebrew_n 13.21_o for_o grace_n be_v not_o confer_v according_a to_o work_n that_o be_v condemn_v as_o a_o pestilent_a doctrine_n long_o ago_o in_o the_o synod_n of_o palestine_n and_o all_o along_o in_o divers_a counsel_n against_o the_o pelagian_o that_o the_o gospel_n prevail_v upon_o some_o and_o not_o upon_o other_o to_o who_o it_o be_v preach_v who_o it_o still_o leave_v in_o the_o gall_n of_o bitterness_n and_o in_o the_o bond_n of_o iniquity_n our_o saviour_n ascribe_v it_o whole_o to_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n as_o the_o only_a reason_n of_o it_o i_o thank_v thou_o father_n lord_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n that_o thou_o have_v hide_v these_o thing_n from_o the_o wise_a and_o prudent_a and_o have_v reveal_v they_o unto_o babe_n even_o so_o father_n for_o so_o it_o seem_v good_a in_o thy_o sight_n matth._n 11.25_o 26._o and_o judas_n not_o iscariot_n hear_v he_o say_v that_o if_o any_o man_n love_v he_o he_o will_v manifest_v himself_o unto_o he_o reply_v with_o wonder_n lord_n how_o be_v it_o that_o thou_o will_v manifest_v thyself_o unto_o we_o and_o not_o unto_o the_o world_n as_o if_o he_o have_v say_v there_o be_v nothing_o in_o we_o more_o than_o in_o they_o that_o can_v move_v thou_o to_o it_o we_o be_v by_o nature_n the_o child_n of_o wrath_n as_o well_o as_o other_o it_o be_v not_o only_o true_a of_o election_n but_o of_o vocation_n also_o it_o be_v not_o of_o he_o that_o will_v nor_o of_o he_o that_o run_v but_o of_o god_n that_o show_v mercy_n the_o grace_n of_o god_n be_v prevent_v grace_n it_o meet_v we_o in_o the_o way_n of_o sin_n even_o while_o we_o be_v run_v away_o from_o god_n we_o do_v not_o seek_v it_o first_o but_o it_o seek_v we_o and_o find_v we_o out_o in_o our_o lose_a condition_n that_o we_o may_v seek_v it_o afterward_o and_o have_v find_v it_o may_v be_v careful_a to_o keep_v it_o as_o isa_n 65.1_o i_o be_o seek_v of_o they_o that_o ask_v not_o for_o i_o 52._o i_o non_fw-la ergo_fw-la putandum_fw-la est_fw-la cum_fw-la pelagianis_fw-la gratiam_fw-la dari_fw-la ex_fw-la merito_fw-la &_o iis_fw-la communicari_fw-la qui_fw-la eam_fw-la antea_fw-la quaesiverunt_fw-la non_fw-la enim_fw-la quaeritur_fw-la gratia_fw-la sine_fw-la gratia_fw-la quae_fw-la prima_fw-la homisem_fw-la perditum_fw-la in_o se_fw-la quaerit_fw-la &_o invenis_fw-la ut_fw-la postea_fw-la eam_fw-la quaerat_fw-la &_o censervet_v inventam_fw-la r._n vet_z in_o loc_n exercitor_n in_o gen_n 52._o i_o be_o find_v of_o they_o that_o seek_v i_o not_o i_o say_v behold_v i_o be_v hold_v i_o unto_o a_o nation_n that_o be_v not_o call_v by_o my_o name_n therefore_o if_o we_o have_v any_o evidence_n of_o a_o real_a work_n of_o grace_n in_o our_o heart_n in_o any_o measure_n wrought_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n let_v we_o cry_v grace_n grace_n unto_o it_o let_v we_o say_v unto_o the_o lord_n as_o mephibosheth_n unto_o david_n 2_o sam._n 9.8_o what_o be_v thy_o servant_n that_o thou_o shall_v look_v upon_o such_o dead_a dog_n as_o we_o be_v and_o thus_o much_o for_o this_o first_o particular_a of_o self-denial_n in_o respect_n of_o inherent_a grace_n the_o not_o ascribe_v it_o to_o ourselves_o as_o the_o cause_n neither_o the_o efficient_a nor_o meritorious_a cause_n of_o it_o in_o the_o next_o place_n to_o deny_v self_n in_o respect_n of_o inherent_a grace_n be_v 2_o not_o to_o rest_v upon_o it_o as_o the_o righteousness_n whereby_o we_o be_v justify_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n it_o be_v not_o a_o righteousness_n inherent_a but_o impute_v whereby_o we_o be_v justify_v righteousness_n inherent_a be_v a_o necessary_a antocedent_n of_o glorification_n 2_o thes_n 2.13_o the_o subject_n of_o reconciliation_n be_v a_o enemy_n rom._n 5.10_o of_o justification_n a_o sinner_n rom._n 4.5_o but_o of_o glorification_n a_o saint_n act_v 26_o 18_o it_o be_v also_o a_o necessary_a concomitant_a of_o justification_n i_o corinth_n 1.30_o &_o rom._n 8.29_o 30._o where_o god_n do_v alter_v and_o change_v the_o state_n there_o he_o do_v mend_v the_o condition_n by_o the_o operation_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n but_o it_o be_v not_o the_o formal_a cause_n of_o it_o as_o bellarmine_n and_o other_o papist_n teach_v justification_n be_v a_o gracious_a sentence_n of_o god_n whereby_o for_o christ_n sake_n apprehend_v by_o faith_n he_o do_v absolve_v the_o believer_n from_o sin_n and_o death_n and_o account_v he_o righteous_a unto_o life_n 4.132_o life_n non_fw-fr est_fw-fr physica_fw-la transmutatio_fw-la qualitatum_fw-la in_o haerentium_fw-la sed_fw-la moralis_fw-la vel_fw-la relativa_fw-la transmutatia_fw-la status_fw-la qualis_fw-la est_fw-la mutatio_fw-la hominis_fw-la qui_fw-la per_fw-la condonationem_fw-la creditoris_fw-la ex_fw-la debitore_fw-la fit_a non_fw-la debtor_n ames_n bellarmin_n enervar_n tom._n 4.132_o it_o do_v not_o denote_v any_o physical_a or_o real_a change_n of_o disposition_n but_o a_o judicial_a or_o relative_a change_n of_o state_n such_o a_o change_n as_o consist_v in_o pronounce_v of_o a_o sentence_n and_o in_o reputation_n but_o to_o he_o that_o work_v not_o but_o believe_v on_o he_o that_o justifi_v the_o ungodly_a his_o faith_n be_v count_v for_o righteousness_n rom._n 4.5_o where_o this_o phrase_n faith_n be_v count_v for_o righteousness_n be_v all_o one_o with_o that_o in_o the_o six_o verse_n god_n impute_v righteousness_n without_o work_n what_o this_o righteousness_n be_v that_o be_v there_o say_v to_o be_v impute_v the_o apostle_n afterward_o tell_v we_o cap._n 5.19_o where_o he_o say_v that_o as_o by_o one_o man_n disobedience_n many_o be_v make_v sinner_n even_o so_o by_o the_o obedience_n of_o one_o shall_v many_o be_v make_v righteous_a by_o which_o he_o show_v that_o the_o righteousness_n whereby_o we_o be_v justify_v be_v the_o obedience_n of_o christ_n his_o active_a and_o passive_a obedience_n and_o therefore_o not_o a_o righteousness_n inherent_a in_o ourselves_o but_o impute_v to_o we_o for_o 1._o it_o be_v the_o obedience_n of_o christ_n and_o 2._o the_o text_n say_v that_o we_o be_v make_v righteous_a by_o that_o obedience_n in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o we_o be_v make_v sinner_n by_o the_o disobedience_n of_o adam_n which_o be_v by_o 4.140_o by_o non_fw-la potest_fw-la intelligi_fw-la quomode_fw-fr in_fw-la obedientia_fw-la adami_n constitueret_fw-la posteros_fw-la
detur_fw-la alicui_fw-la pro_fw-la aliquâsententiâ_fw-la cum_fw-la judicio_fw-la prolata_fw-la non_fw-la est_fw-la meritum_fw-la sed_fw-la donum_fw-la simpliciter_fw-la river_n ibi_fw-la proportion_n to_o the_o reward_n but_o betwixt_o our_o good_a work_n and_o the_o reward_n there_o be_v no_o proportion_n our_o good_a work_n be_v not_o tanti_fw-la they_o be_v not_o so_o much_o worth_n that_o eternal_a life_n shall_v be_v give_v for_o they_o our_o light_a performance_n can_v in_o this_o sense_n work_v for_o we_o a_o far_o more_o exceed_a eternal_a weight_n of_o glory_n therefore_o when_o ever_o any_o such_o proud_a conceit_n of_o deserve_v do_v arise_v in_o our_o heart_n as_o rise_v they_o will_v so_o long_o as_o any_o thing_n of_o self_n be_v in_o we_o we_o must_v endeavour_v to_o suppress_v they_o cast_v ourselves_o whole_o upon_o the_o free_a grace_n and_o mercy_n of_o god_n in_o christ_n plead_v his_o righteousness_n and_o expect_v whatever_o we_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o upon_o his_o account_n and_o so_o much_o for_o this_o three_o subsection_n of_o deny_v self_n in_o respect_n of_o good_a work_n subsect_v iv_o of_o deny_v self_n in_o respect_n of_o ibid._n of_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d the_o thing_n that_o be_v in_o the_o world_n 1_o joh._n 2.15_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d the_o thing_n of_o the_o world_n 1_o cor._n 7.33_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d the_o thing_n that_o be_v upon_o the_o earth_n col._n 3.2_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d earthly_a thing_n phil._n 3.19_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d the_o thing_n of_o the_o flesh_n rom._n 8.5_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d carnal_a thing_n 1_o cor._n 9.11_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d the_o thing_n that_o pertain_v to_o this_o life_n 1_o cor._n 6.3_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d thing_n present_a rom._n 8.38_o etc._n etc._n 1_o cor._n 3.22_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d thing_n that_o be_v see_v 2_o cor._n 4.18_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d temporal_a thing_n ibid._n worldly_a enjoyment_n there_o be_v much_o by_o way_n of_o self-denial_n also_o require_v in_o respect_n of_o worldly_a enjoyment_n all_o which_o may_v be_v reduce_v unto_o these_o three_o head_n pleasure_n profit_n and_o honour_n according_a to_o that_o of_o the_o apostle_n 1_o joh._n 2.16_o all_o that_o be_v in_o the_o world_n the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n and_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n for_o the_o right_a understanding_n of_o the_o duty_n as_o it_o be_v to_o be_v practise_v in_o reference_n unto_o these_o thing_n i_o shall_v speak_v to_o it_o as_o before_o in_o reference_n to_o the_o former_a particular_n both_o negative_o and_o affirmative_o 1_o negative_o it_o be_v not_o mean_v that_o we_o may_v not_o make_v use_n of_o creature-comfort_n but_o only_o in_o case_n of_o necessity_n god_n give_v we_o not_o only_o for_o necessity_n but_o delight_v also_o there_o be_v no_o necessity_n that_o there_o shall_v be_v wine_n at_o that_o marriage_n feast_n in_o cana_n of_o galilee_n joh._n 2.1_o yet_o for_o the_o great_a pleasure_n and_o delight_n of_o those_o that_o be_v bid_v and_o to_o show_v that_o a_o more_o liberal_a use_n of_o the_o creature_n at_o such_o a_o time_n be_v not_o unlawful_a our_o saviour_n turn_v abundance_n of_o water_n into_o wine_n and_o that_o the_o rich_a wine_n too_o god_n give_v to_o all_o man_n liberal_o and_o upbraid_v not_o but_o especial_o to_o believer_n he_o envy_v they_o not_o the_o use_n of_o creature_n have_v bestow_v himself_o upon_o they_o a_o believer_n have_v the_o best_a right_n of_o any_o unto_o the_o creature_n and_o he_o may_v more_o warrantable_o take_v comfort_n in_o they_o than_o any_o other_o can_v all_o thing_n be_v you_o say_v the_o apostle_n to_o the_o believe_a corinthian_n thing_n present_a as_o well_o as_o thing_n to_o come_v 1_o cor._n 3.23_o it_o have_v be_v a_o occasion_n of_o much_o inward_a trouble_n and_o disquietness_n to_o many_o especial_o young_a convert_v that_o apprehend_v so_o much_o of_o their_o own_o vileness_n and_o unworthiness_n by_o reason_n of_o their_o sinfulness_n and_o be_v ignorant_a of_o their_o christian_a liberty_n they_o have_v think_v they_o may_v not_o lawful_o make_v use_n of_o those_o outward_a comfort_n and_o refreshment_n which_o god_n have_v give_v to_o sweeten_v their_o way_n to_o heaven_n but_o certain_o the_o due_a circumstance_n be_v observe_v we_o may_v with_o 164._o with_o the_o care_n of_o the_o outward_a man_n bind_v conscience_n so_o far_o as_o that_o we_o shall_v neglect_v nothing_o which_o may_v help_v we_o in_o a_o cheerful_a serve_v of_o god_n in_o our_o place_n and_o tend_v to_o the_o due_a honour_n of_o our_o body_n which_o be_v the_o temple_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o companion_n with_o our_o soul_n in_o all_o performance_n doctor_n sibbes_n soul_n conflict_n c._n 13._o sect._n 13._o our_o flesh_n be_v to_o be_v subdue_v to_o reason_n not_o to_o infirmity_n that_o it_o may_v be_v a_o servant_n to_o the_o soul_n but_o not_o a_o 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