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thanks_n unto_o thou_o and_o be_v entreat_v for_o we_o by_o many_o let_v the_o friendly_a mind_n of_o my_o brethren_n love_v that_o in_o i_o which_o thou_o teach_v be_v to_o be_v love_v and_o lament_v in_o i_o what_o thou_o teach_v be_v to_o be_v lament_v let_v the_o mind_n of_o my_o brethren_n not_o that_o of_o the_o stranger_n not_o that_o of_o the_o strange_a child_n who_o mouth_n talk_v 11._o of_o vanity_n and_o their_o right_a hand_n be_v a_o right_a hand_n of_o iniquity_n but_o that_o of_o my_o brethren_n who_o when_o they_o approve_v of_o i_o do_v also_o rejoice_v for_o i_o and_o when_o they_o disallow_v i_o be_v sorry_a for_o i_o because_o that_o whether_o they_o allow_v or_o disallow_v i_o yet_o still_o they_o love_v i_o to_o such_o will_v i_o discover_v myself_o they_o will_v have_v a_o respect_n to_o my_o good_a deed_n and_o sigh_v for_o my_o ill_n my_o good_a deed_n be_v thy_o appointment_n divinity_n and_o thy_o gift_n my_o evil_a one_o be_v my_o own_o fault_n and_o thy_o 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my_o fellow_n citizen_n and_o fellow_n pilgrim_n both_o those_o that_o be_v go_v before_o and_o those_o that_o be_v to_o follow_v after_o i_o and_o those_o too_o that_o accompany_v i_o along_o in_o this_o life_n 3._o these_o be_v thy_o servant_n my_o brethren_n those_o who_o thou_o will_v to_o be_v thy_o son_n my_o master_n who_o thou_o command_v i_o to_o serve_v if_o i_o will_v live_v with_o thou_o but_o this_o thy_o say_n be_v to_o little_a purpose_n do_v it_o give_v the_o command_n only_o by_o speak_v and_o not_o go_v before_o i_o in_o perform_v this_o therefore_o i_o now_o do_v both_o in_o deed_n and_o word_n this_o i_o do_v under_o thy_o wing_n and_o that_o with_o too_o much_o danger_n be_v not_o my_o soul_n shelter_v under_o thy_o wing_n and_o my_o infirmity_n know_v unto_o thou_o i_o be_o but_o a_o little_a one_o but_o my_o father_n live_v for_o ever_o and_o my_o protector_n be_v fit_a for_o i_o for_o it_o be_v the_o very_a same_o he_o that_o beget_v i_o and_o that_o defend_v meet_v for_o thou_o thyself_o be_v all_o my_o good_n even_o thou_o o_o omnipotent_a who_o be_v present_v with_o i_o and_o that_o before_o i_o be_o come_v unto_o thou_o to_o such_o therefore_o will_v i_o discover_v myself_o who_o thou_o command_v i_o to_o serve_v not_o discover_v what_o i_o have_v be_v but_o what_o i_o now_o be_o and_o what_o i_o be_o yet_o but_o i_o will_v not_o judge_v myself_o thus_o 3._o therefore_o let_v i_o be_v hear_v chap._n 5._o that_o man_n know_v not_o himself_o thorough_o and_o know_v not_o god_n but_o in_o a_o glass_n dark_o 1._o but_o thou_o o_o lord_n do_v judge_v i_o because_o that_o although_o no_o man_n know_v the_o thing_n of_o a_o man_n but_o the_o spirit_n 11_o of_o man_n which_o be_v in_o he_o yet_o be_v there_o some_o thing_n of_o man_n which_o the_o very_a spirit_n of_o man_n that_o be_v in_o he_o know_v not_o but_o thou_o know_v all_o of_o he_o who_o have_v make_v he_o as_o for_o i_o though_o in_o thy_o sight_n i_o despise_v myself_o account_v myself_o but_o dust_n and_o ash_n yet_o know_v i_o something_o of_o thou_o which_o i_o know_v not_o of_o myself_o for_o sure_o now_o we_o see_v through_o a_o glass_n dark_o not_o 12._o face_n to_o face_n as_o yet_o so_o long_o therefore_o as_o i_o be_v absent_a from_o thou_o i_o be_o near_a unto_o myself_o 6._o then_o unto_o thou_o and_o yet_o know_v i_o thou_o not_o possible_a to_o be_v any_o way_n violate_v whereas_o for_o myself_o i_o neither_o know_v what_o temptation_n i_o be_o able_a to_o resist_v or_o what_o i_o be_o not_o 2._o but_o there_o be_v hope_n because_o thou_o be_v faithful_a who_o 3._o will_v not_o suffer_v we_o to_o be_v tempt_v above_o that_o we_o be_v able_a but_o will_v with_o the_o temptation_n also_o make_v a_o way_n to_o escape_v that_o we_o may_v be_v able_a to_o bear_v it_o i_o will_v confess_v therefore_o what_o i_o know_v by_o myself_o i_o will_v confess_v yea_o and_o what_o i_o know_v not_o and_o that_o because_o what_o i_o do_v know_v by_o myself_o by_o thy_o show_v it_o i_o i_o come_v to_o know_v it_o and_o what_o i_o know_v not_o by_o myself_o i_o be_o so_o long_o ignorant_a of_o until_o my_o darkness_n be_v make_v as_o the_o noonday_n 1_o in_o thy_o sight_n chap._n 6._o what_o god_n be_v and_o how_o know_v 1._o not_o out_o of_o a_o doubtful_a but_o with_o a_o certain_a conscience_n conscience_n do_v i_o love_v thou_o o_o lord_n thou_o have_v strike_v my_o heart_n with_o thy_o word_n &_o thereupon_o i_o love_v thou_o yea_o also_o the_o heaven_n &_o
chap._n 7._o he_o dissuade_v alipius_n from_o his_o excessive_a delight_n in_o the_o etc._n circensian_a game_n 1._o we_o joint_o bemoan_v ourselves_o for_o this_o who_o live_v like_o friend_n together_o but_o chief_o and_o most_o familiar_o do_v i_o speak_v hereof_o with_o alipius_n and_o nebridius_fw-la of_o who_o alipius_n be_v bear_v in_o the_o same_o town_n with_o i_o who_o parent_n be_v of_o the_o chief_a rank_n there_o and_o himself_o young_a than_o i_o he_o have_v also_o study_v under_o i_o first_o when_o i_o set_v up_o school_n in_o our_o own_o town_n and_o at_o carthage_n afterward_o he_o love_v i_o very_o much_o because_o i_o seem_v of_o a_o good_a disposition_n to_o he_o and_o well_o learned_a and_o i_o love_v he_o again_o for_o his_o great_a towardlines_n to_o virtue_n which_o be_v eminent_a enough_o for_o one_o of_o no_o great_a yeerâ—â—_n but_o that_o whirlpit_n of_o thâ—_n 〈◊〉_d thaginian_n fashion_n among_o who_o those_o idler_n spectacle_n be_v hot_o follow_v have_v already_o swallow_v up_o he_o in_o immoderate_a delight_n of_o the_o circensian_a sport_n but_o mean_v while_o that_o he_o be_v miserably-tumbled_n up_o and_o down_o that_o way_n and_o i_o profess_v rhetoric_n there_o have_v set_v up_o a_o public_a school_n he_o make_v no_o use_n of_o i_o as_o his_o master_n by_o reason_n of_o some_o unkindness_n rise_v betwixt_o his_o father_n and_o i_o although_o therefore_o i_o have_v find_v how_o dangerous_o he_o dote_v upon_o the_o race-place_n and_o that_o i_o be_v grievous_o perplex_v that_o he_o take_v the_o course_n to_o undo_v so_o good_a a_o hope_n as_o be_v conceive_v of_o he_o or_o rather_o as_o i_o think_v he_o have_v already_o undo_v it_o yet_o have_v i_o no_o mean_n either_o private_o to_o advise_v he_o or_o by_o way_n of_o constraint_n to_o reclaim_v he_o by_o interest_n of_o a_o friendship_n or_o the_o awe_n of_o a_o master_n for_o i_o suppose_v very_o that_o he_o have_v have_v the_o same_o opinion_n of_o i_o with_o his_o father_n 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all_o thing_n be_v make_v by_o he_o and_o without_o he_o be_v nothing_o make_v that_o be_v make_v in_o he_o be_v life_n and_o the_o life_n be_v the_o light_n of_o man_n and_o the_o light_n shine_v in_o the_o darkness_n and_o the_o darkness_n comprehend_v it_o not_o and_o for_o that_o the_o soul_n of_o man_n though_o it_o give_v testimony_n of_o the_o light_n yet_o itself_o be_v not_o that_o light_n but_o the_o word_n of_o god_n be_v for_o god_n be_v that_o true_a light_n that_o light_v every_o man_n that_o come_v into_o the_o world_n and_o because_o he_o be_v in_o the_o world_n and_o the_o world_n be_v 13._o make_v by_o he_o &_o the_o world_n know_v he_o not_o and_o because_o he_o come_v unto_o his_o own_o and_o his_o own_o receive_v he_o not_o but_o as_o many_o as_o receive_v he_o to_o they_o give_v he_o power_n to_o become_v the_o son_n of_o god_n as_o many_o as_o believe_v in_o his_o name_n all_o this_o do_v i_o not_o read_v there_o 2._o there_o again_o do_v i_o read_v that_o god_n 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that_o wholesome_a disposition_n which_o i_o have_v there_o taste_v i_o may_v perchance_o have_v think_v that_o a_o man_n even_o out_o of_o these_o platonike_n book_n may_v have_v get_v the_o same_o have_v he_o study_v they_o only_o chap._n 21._o what_o he_o find_v in_o the_o holy_a scripture_n which_o be_v not_o in_o the_o platonist_n 1._o most_o greedy_o therefore_o lay_v i_o hold_v upon_o that_o venerable_a stile_n of_o thy_o spirit_n and_o upon_o the_o apostle_n paul_n above_o all_o the_o rest_n whereupon_o those_o difficulty_n quite_o vanish_v away_o in_o which_o he_o sometime_o seem_v unto_o i_o to_o contradict_v himself_o and_o wherein_o the_o text_n of_o his_o discourse_n seem_v not_o to_o agree_v with_o the_o testimony_n of_o the_o law_n and_o the_o prophet_n and_o there_o appear_v unto_o i_o that_o one_o face_n of_o that_o chaste_a eloquence_n and_o i_o learned_a to_o rejoice_v with_o tremble_a i_o set_v upon_o it_o and_o find_v whatsoever_o i_o there_o read_v to_o be_v 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be_o and_o with_o what_o fruit_n i_o may_v confess_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v before_o speak_v nor_o do_v i_o it_o with_o word_n and_o speech_n of_o the_o body_n but_o with_o the_o expression_n of_o my_o very_a soul_n and_o the_o cry_n of_o my_o thought_n which_o thy_o care_n only_o understand_v for_o when_o i_o be_o wicked_a then_o to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o be_v no_o other_o thing_n but_o to_o displease_v myself_o but_o when_o i_o be_o well_o give_v to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o be_v then_o no_o other_o thing_n but_o not_o to_o attribute_v this_o goodness_n unto_o myself_o because_o it_o be_v thou_o o_o lord_n that_o bless_v the_o just_a but_o first_o thou_o iustifie_v he_o be_v wicked_a my_o confession_n therefore_o o_o my_o god_n in_o thy_o sight_n be_v make_v unto_o thou_o private_o and_o yet_o not_o private_o for_o in_o respect_n of_o noise_n it_o be_v silent_a but_o yet_o it_o cry_v aloud_o in_o respect_n of_o my_o affection_n for_o neither_o do_v i_o utter_v any_o thing_n 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can_v say_v the_o lord_n lie_v for_o what_o else_o be_v it_o from_o thou_o to_o hear_v of_o themselves_o but_o to_o know_v themselves_o and_o who_o be_v he_o that_o know_v himself_o can_v say_v it_o be_v false_a unless_o himself_o lie_v but_o because_o charity_n believe_v all_o thing_n that_o be_v to_o say_v among_o those_o who_o by_o knit_v unto_o itself_o it_o make_v one_o i_o therefore_o o_o lord_n do_v so_o also_o confess_v unto_o thou_o as_o that_o man_n may_v hear_v to_o who_o though_o i_o be_v not_o able_a to_o demonstrate_v whether_o i_o confess_v true_o yet_o give_v they_o credit_v unto_o i_o who_o ear_n charity_n have_v set_v
in_o my_o flesh_n as_o that_o these_o false_a vision_n persuade_v i_o unto_o that_o when_o i_o be_o asleep_a which_o true_a vision_n can_v do_v when_o i_o be_o awake_a be_o i_o not_o myself_o at_o that_o time_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o be_v there_o yet_o so_o much_o difference_n betwixt_o myself_o and_o myself_o in_o that_o moment_n wherein_o i_o pass_v from_o wake_v to_o sleep_v or_o return_v from_o sleep_v unto_o wake_v 2._o where_o be_v my_o reason_n at_o that_o time_n by_o which_o my_o mind_n when_o it_o be_v a_o wake_n resist_v such_o suggestion_n as_o these_o at_o which_o time_n shall_v the_o thing_n themselves_o press_v in_o upon_o i_o yet_o will_v my_o resolution_n re_fw-mi main_a unshake_a be_v my_o reason_n cloze_v up_o together_o with_o my_o eye_n or_o be_v it_o lull_v asleep_a with_o the_o sense_n of_o my_o body_n but_o whence_o then_o come_v it_o to_o posse_fw-mi that_o we_o so_o often_o even_o in_o our_o sleep_n make_v such_o resistance_n and_o be_v mindful_a of_o our_o purpose_n and_o remain_v most_o chaste_o in_o it_o we_o yield_v no_o assent_n unto_o such_o enticement_n and_o yet_o so_o much_o difference_n there_o be_v as_o that_o when_o any_o thing_n have_v otherwise_o happen_v in_o our_o sleep_n we_o upon_o our_o wake_a return_n to_o peace_n of_o conscience_n by_o the_o distance_n of_o time_n discover_v that_o it_o be_v not_o we_o that_o do_v it_o notwithstanding_o we_o be_v sorry_a that_o there_o be_v something_o someway_o or_o other_o do_v in_o us._n be_v not_o thy_o hand_n able_a o_o god_n almighty_a to_o cure_v all_o the_o discase_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o with_o a_o more_o abundant_a measure_n of_o thy_o grace_n also_o to_o quench_v the_o lascivious_a motion_n of_o my_o sleep_n 3._o thou_o shall_v increase_v o_o lord_n thy_o grace_n more_o and_o more_o upon_o i_o that_o my_o soul_n may_v follow_v myself_o home_n to_o thou_o whole_o free_v of_o that_o birdâ—ly_n i_o of_o concupiscence_n that_o it_o may_v no_o long_o rebel_v against_o 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well_o hope_v that_o thou_o will_v one_o day_n perfect_a thy_o mercy_n in_o i_o even_o unto_o a_o fullness_n of_o peace_n which_o both_o my_o outward_a and_o inward_a man_n shall_v at_o that_o time_n enjoy_v with_o thou_o whenas_o death_n shall_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o victory_n 54._o chap._n 31._o the_o temptation_n of_o eat_v and_o drink_v 1._o there_o be_v another_o evil_n of_o the_o day_n which_o i_o wish_v 34_o be_v sufficient_a unto_o it_o that_o we_o be_v fain_o by_o eat_v and_o drink_v to_o repair_v the_o daily_a decay_n of_o our_o body_n until_o such_o time_n as_o thou_o destroy_v both_o 13_o belly_n and_o meat_n whenas_o thou_o shall_v kill_v this_o emptiness_n of_o i_o with_o a_o wonderful_a fullness_n and_o shall_v clothe_v this_o incorruptible_a 54._o with_o a_o eternal_a incorruption_n butin_n this_o life_n even_o necessity_n be_v sweet_a unto_o i_o against_o which_o swetnes_n do_v i_o fight_v lest_o i_o shall_v be_v beguile_v by_o it_o yea_o a_o daily_a war_n do_v i_o 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uncertain_a thing_n and_o the_o immutable_a pattern_n of_o all_o thing_n mutable_a with_o who_o do_v live_v the_o eternal_a reason_n of_o all_o these_o contingent_a chance_n med_n ley_n for_o which_o we_o can_v give_v no_o reason_n tell_v i_o pray_v thou_o o_o god_n unto_o i_o thy_o suppliant_a thou_o who_o be_v merciful_a tell_v i_o who_o be_o miserable_a do_v my_o infancy_n succeed_v to_o any_o other_o age_n of_o i_o that_o be_v dead_a before_o even_o to_o that_o which_o perhaps_o i_o pass_v in_o my_o mother_n belly_n for_o something_o have_v i_o hear_v of_o that_o too_o and_o myself_o have_v see_v woman_n with_o great_a belly_n 3._o what_o also_o pass_v before_o that_o age_n o_o god_n my_o delight_n be_v i_o any_o where_o or_o any_o body_n for_o i_o have_v none_o to_o tell_v i_o thus_o much_o neither_o can_v my_o father_n and_o mother_n nor_o the_o experience_n of_o other_o nor_o yet_o my_o own_o memory_n do_v thou_o laugh_v at_o i_o for_o inquire_v these_o thing_n who_o command_v 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prey_n by_o those_o fly_a spirit_n for_o by_o more_o way_n than_o one_o be_v there_o sacrrifice_v offer_v to_o the_o collapse_a angel_n chap._n 18._o that_o man_n care_v more_o to_o observe_v the_o rule_n of_o grammar_n than_o the_o law_n of_o god_n 1._o but_o what_o wonder_n be_v it_o if_o i_o be_v thus_o carry_v towards_o vanity_n and_o estrange_v from_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n wheneas_o such_o man_n be_v propound_v to_o i_o to_o imitate_v who_o shall_v they_o deliver_v any_o of_o their_o own_o act_n though_o not_o evil_a with_o any_o barbarism_n or_o solecism_n they_o be_v utter_o dash_v out_o of_o countenance_n but_o shall_v they_o make_v a_o copious_a and_o neat_a oration_n of_o their_o own_o lust_n in_o a_o round_a and_o well_o follow_v stile_n will_v take_v a_o pride_n to_o be_v applaud_v for_o it_o these_o thing_n thou_o see_v o_o lord_n long_o suffer_v and_o of_o much_o mercy_n and_o truth_n and_o thou_o keep_v silence_n but_o will_v thou_o be_v silent_a for_o ever_o and_o 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that_o he_o do_v worse_a skath_z to_o another_o man_n by_o persecute_v he_o than_o he_o do_v to_o his_o own_o heart_n by_o contrive_v enmity_n against_o he_o 3._o and_o certain_o there_o be_v no_o other_o inward_a knowledge_n of_o letter_n but_o this_o law_n of_o nature_n write_v in_o the_o conscience_n not_o to_o do_v to_o another_o what_o himself_o 11._o will_v not_o suffer_v how_o secret_a be_v thou_o o_o thou_o only_o great_a god_n which_o dwell_v in_o the_o high_a and_o in_o silence_n with_o a_o untyred_a destiny_n disperse_v blindness_n for_o punishment_n upon_o unlawful_a desire_n when_o a_o man_n affect_v the_o credit_n of_o eloquence_n stand_v before_o a_o mortal_a judge_n a_o multitude_n of_o mortal_n stand_v about_o he_o inveigh_v against_o his_o adversary_n with_o his_o fierce_a hatred_n he_o take_v heed_n most_o watchful_o that_o his_o tongue_n trip_v not_o before_o man_n but_o take_v no_o heed_n at_o all_o lest_o through_o the_o fury_n of_o his_o spirit_n he_o shall_v destroy_v a_o man_n out_o of_o the_o society_n of_o man_n chap._n 19_o how_o he_o be_v more_o careful_a to_o avoid_v barbarism_n of_o speech_n than_o corruption_n of_o manner_n 1._o in_o the_o roadway_n of_o these_o custom_n lay_v i_o wretched_a boy_n and_o upon_o that_o stage_n i_o play_v my_o prize_n where_o i_o more_o fear_v to_o commit_v a_o barbarism_n in_o speak_v than_o i_o take_v care_n when_o i_o commit_v any_o not_o to_o envy_v those_o that_o commit_v none_o all_o this_o i_o declare_v and_o confess_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n namely_o in_o what_o thing_n i_o be_v by_o they_o applaud_v to_o please_v who_o i_o then_o account_v equal_a to_o live_v honest_o for_o i_o then_o discern_v not_o that_o whirlpool_n of_o filthiness_n whereinto_o i_o be_v cast_v from_o thy_o eye_n for_o in_o thy_o eye_n what_o be_v more_o filthy_a than_o i_o where_o also_o i_o displease_v such_o as_o myself_o with_o innumerable_a lie_n deceive_v both_o my_o tutor_n and_o master_n and_o parent_n all_o for_o love_n of_o play_n out_o of_o a_o desire_n to_o see_v toy_n and_o of_o imitate_v they_o with_o a_o ridiculous_a unrestfulnesse_n 2._o thievery_n also_o i_o commit_v out_o of_o my_o father_n buttery_n and_o table_n either_o gluttony_n oft_o command_v i_o or_o that_o i_o may_v have_v something_o to_o give_v my_o playfellow_n selling-mee_a their_o baby_n with_o which_o they_o be_v as_o much_o delight_v as_o myself_o in_o these_o play-game_n i_o be_v often_o over-matcht_a do_v with_o a_o vain_a desire_n to_o be_v count_v excellent_a aspire_v to_o win_v though_o by_o foul_a play_n and_o what_o be_v i_o so_o unwilling_a to_o endure_v and_o what_o if_o i_o find_v out_o the_o deceit_n will_v i_o so_o fierce_o wrangle_v at_o as_o even_o those_o very_a trick_n which_o i_o will_v put_v upon_o other_o and_o be_v myself_o take_v with_o the_o manner_n i_o will_v rather_o fall_v flat_a out_o than_o yield_v to_o it_o 3._o be_v this_o that_o childish_a innocence_n it_o be_v not_o lord_n it_o be_v not_o 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distraction_n interlope_v it_o shall_v settle_v its_o only_a joy_n upon_o that_o truth_n by_o which_o all_o thing_n else_o be_v true_a chap._n 24._o that_o the_o memory_n contain_v god_n too_o see_v now_o how_o i_o have_v course_v over_o all_o my_o memory_n in_o search_n of_o thou_o o_o lord_n and_o no_o where_o can_v i_o find_v thou_o without_o it_o nor_o have_v i_o find_v any_o thing_n at_o all_o concern_v thou_o but_o what_o i_o have_v keep_v in_o memory_n ever_o since_o the_o time_n that_o i_o first_o learn_v thou_o nor_o have_v i_o ever_o forget_v thou_o since_o the_o hour_n i_o first_o learn_v thou_o for_o where_o i_o sound_v truth_n there_o find_v i_o my_o god_n who_o be_v the_o truth_n itself_o which_o from_o the_o time_n i_o first_o learn_v it_o have_v i_o not_o forget_v since_o therefore_o i_o learn_v to_o know_v thou_o have_v thou_o still_o keep_v in_o my_o memory_n and_o there_o do_v i_o find_v thou_o when_o ever_o i_o call_v thou_o to_o remembrance_n and_o delight_v myself_o in_o thou_o these_o be_v my_o holy_a delight_n which_o thou_o have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o through_o thy_o mercy_n which_o have_v respect_n unto_o my_o poverty_n chap._n 25._o in_o what_o degree_n of_o the_o memory_n god_n be_v find_v 1._o but_o whereabouts_o in_o my_o memory_n be_v thy_o residence_n o_o lord_n where_o about_o there_o abide_v thou_o what_o kiâ—_n of_o lodging_n have_v thou_o there_o fâ—â—med_a for_o thyself_o r_z what_o manner_n of_o sanctuary_n have_v thou_o build_v for_o thyself_o thou_o have_v afford_v this_o honour_n unto_o my_o memory_n as_o to_o reside_v in_o it_o but_o in_o what_o quarter_n of_o it_o that_o be_o i_o now_o consider_v upon_o for_o i_o have_v
already_o pass_v beyond_o such_o part_n of_o it_o as_o be_v common_a to_o i_o with_o the_o beast_n while_o i_o call_v thou_o to_o mind_n for_o as_o much_o as_o i_o find_v not_o thou_o there_o among_o the_o image_n of_o corporeal_a thing_n &_o i_o proceed_v to_o these_o part_n of_o it_o whither_o i_o have_v recommend_v the_o affection_n of_o my_o mind_n nor_o can_v i_o find_v thou_o there_o yea_o i_o pass_v further_o into_o it_o even_o to_o the_o very_a seat_n of_o the_o mind_n itself_o which_o be_v there_o in_o my_o memory_n as_o appear_v by_o the_o mind_n remember_v of_o itself_o neither_o be_v thou_o there_o for_o that_o as_o thou_o be_v not_o either_o any_o corporeal_a image_n no_o more_o be_v thou_o any_o affection_n of_o a_o live_a man_n like_v as_o when_o we_o rejoice_v condole_v desire_v fear_v remember_v forget_v or_o whatsoever_o else_o we_o do_v of_o the_o like_a kind_n no_o nor_o yet_o be_v thou_o the_o mind_n itself_o because_o thou_o be_v the_o lord_n god_n of_o the_o mind_n moreover_o all_o these_o be_v change_v whereas_o thou_o remayne_v unchangeable_a over_o all_o who_o yet_o vouchsafe_v to_o dwell_v in_o my_o memory_n even_o since_o that_o first_o time_n that_o i_o learn_v to_o know_v thou_o but_o why_o seek_v i_o now_o in_o what_o particular_a place_n of_o my_o memory_n thou_o dwell_v as_o if_o there_o be_v any_o place_n at_o all_o in_o it_o sure_o i_o be_o that_o in_o it_o thou_o dwell_v even_o for_o this_o reason_n that_o i_o have_v preserve_v the_o memory_n of_o thou_o since_o the_o time_n that_o i_o first_o learn_v thou_o and_o for_o that_o i_o find_v thou_o in_o my_o memory_n whensoever_o i_o call_v thou_o to_o remembrance_n chap._n 26._o whereabout_o god_n be_v to_o be_v find_v 1._o where_o then_o do_v i_o find_v thou_o that_o i_o may_v learn_v thou_o for_o in_o my_o memory_n thou_o be_v not_o before_o i_o learn_v thou_o in_o what_o place_n therefore_o do_v i_o find_v thou_o that_o so_o i_o may_v learn_v thou_o but_o even_o in_o thy_o own_o self_n far_o above_o myself_o place_v there_o be_v none_o we_o go_v backward_o and_o forward_o but_o particular_a place_n there_o be_v none_o to_o contain_v thou_o every_o where_o o_o truth_n be_v thou_o precedent_n of_o the_o council_n to_o those_o that_o ask_v counsel_n of_o thou_o and_o at_o one_o dispatch_n do_v thou_o answer_v all_o yea_o though_o they_o ask_v thy_o counsel_n upon_o diverse_a matter_n clear_o do_v thou_o answer_v they_o though_o all_o do_v not_o clear_o understand_v thou_o all_o may_v advise_v with_o thou_o about_o what_o they_o will_v though_o they_o always_o hear_v not_o such_o answer_n as_o they_o desire_v he_o be_v thy_o best_a servant_n that_o look_v not_o so_o much_o to_o heart_n that_o from_o thou_o which_o himself_o desire_v as_o he_o that_o be_v willing_a with_o that_o rather_o which_o from_o thou_o he_o hear_v chap._n 27._o how_o god_n draw_v we_o to_o himself_o 1._o too_o late_o begin_v i_o to_o love_v thou_o o_o thou_o beatty_a both_o so_o ancient_a and_o so_o fresh_a yea_o too_o too_o late_o come_v i_o to_o love_v thou_o for_o behold_v thoâ—_n be_v within_o i_o and_o i_o out_o oâ—_n myself_o where_o i_o make_v search_v for_o thou_o deform_v i_o woo_v these_o beautiful_a piece_n of_o thâ—_n workmanship_n thou_o indeed_o be_v with_o i_o but_o i_o be_v not_o with_o thou_o these_o beauty_n keep_v i_o far_o enough_o from_o thou_o even_o those_o which_o unless_o they_o have_v their_o be_v in_o thou_o shall_v not_o be_v at_o all_o thou_o call_v and_o cry_v unto_o i_o yea_o thou_o even_o brake_v open_v my_o deafness_n thou_o discover_v thy_o beam_n and_o shyne_v out_o unto_o i_o and_o do_v chase_v away_o my_o blindness_n thou_o do_v most_o fragrant_o blow_v upon_o i_o and_o i_o draw_v in_o my_o breath_n and_o pant_v after_o thou_o i_o taste_v thou_o and_o now_o do_v bunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o thou_o thou_o do_v touch_v i_o and_o i_o even_o burn_v again_o to_o enjoy_v peace_n thy_o chap._n 28._o the_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n 1._o when_o i_o shall_v once_o attain_v to_o be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o in_o every_o part_n of_o i_o then_o shall_v i_o no_o more_o feel_v either_o sorrow_n or_o labour_n yea_o then_o shall_v my_o life_n true_o be_v alive_a every_o way_n full_a of_o thou_o whereas_o now_o very_o for_o that_o who_o thou_o fille_v thou_o also_o raise_v be_o i_o a_o burden_n unto_o myself_o because_o i_o be_o not_o full_a of_o thou_o the_o joy_n of_o this_o my_o life_n which_o deserve_v to_o be_v lament_v be_v at_o strife_n with_o my_o sorrow_n which_o be_v to_o be_v rejoice_v in_o but_o which_o way_n the_o victory_n will_v incline_v i_o yet_o know_v not_o woe_n be_v i_o o_o lord_n have_v pity_n on_o i_o my_o sorrow_n that_o be_v bad_a be_v in_o contention_n with_o my_o joy_n that_o be_v good_a and_o which_o way_n the_o victory_n will_v incline_v i_o yet_o know_v not_o alas_o for_o i_o o_o lord_n have_v pity_n upon_o i_o woe_n be_v i_o behold_v i_o hide_v not_o my_o woundâ—_n thou_o be_v the_o physician_n and_o i_o the_o patient_n thou_o merciful_a and_o i_o miserable_a be_v not_o the_o life_n of_o man_n upon_o earth_n a_o very_a temptation_n 2._o who_o be_v he_o that_o will_v willing_o endure_v trouble_n and_o difficulty_n these_o thou_o command_v to_o be_v bear_v not_o to_o belove_a for_o no_o man_n be_v in_o love_n with_o the_o cross_n which_o he_o take_v up_o though_o he_o love_v well_o enough_o to_o take_v it_o up_o for_o notwithstanding_o that_o he_o rejoice_v to_o bear_v yea_o much_o rather_o have_v he_o that_o there_o be_v no_o cross_n for_o he_o to_o bear_v in_o adversity_n i_o desire_v prosperity_n and_o in_o prosperity_n be_o i_o afraid_a of_o adversity_n what_o middle_a place_n now_o be_v there_o betwixt_o these_o two_o where_o this_o life_n of_o man_n be_v free_a from_o temptation_n woe_n be_v threaten_v unto_o the_o prosperity_n of_o this_o world_n again_o &_o again_o both_o for_o the_o fear_n of_o adversity_n and_o lest_o our_o joy_n shall_v be_v mar_v woe_n unto_o the_o adversity_n of_o this_o word_n again_o and_o again_o yet_o woe_n the_o three_o time_n unto_o they_o and_o that_o because_o of_o the_o great_a desire_n man_n have_v unto_o prosperity_n adversity_n therefore_o be_v so_o hard_a a_o thing_n and_o which_o make_v naufragat_v shipwreck_n oft_o time_n of_o our_o patience_n be_v not_o the_o life_n of_o man_n a_o very_a temptation_n upon_o earth_n and_o that_o without_o intermission_n chap._n 29._o cur_n hope_n be_v all_o in_o god_n 1._o now_o be_v all_o my_o hope_n no_o where_o but_o in_o thy_o very_a great_a mercy_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n give_v i_o patience_n to_o endure_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o then_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v thou_o impose_v continency_n upon_o i_o and_o when_o i_o perceive_v as_o one_o apocrypha_fw-la say_v that_o no_o man_n can_v be_v continent_n unless_o thou_o give_v it_o and_o that_o this_o be_v a_o point_n of_o wisdom_n to_o know_v who_o gift_n it_o be_v by_o continency_n very_o be_v we_o bind_v up_o and_o bring_v into_o unity_n with_o thou_o from_o who_o we_o be_v scatter_v abroad_o into_o many_o division_n for_o needs_o must_v he_o love_v thou_o less_o who_o love_v any_o thing_n together_o with_o thou_o which_o he_o love_v not_o for_o thou_o o_o thou_o love_v which_o be_v ever_o burn_a and_o never_o quench_v o_o charity_n my_o god_n kindle_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o thou_o enjoin_v i_o continency_n give_v i_o what_o thou_o command_v and_o then_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v chap._n 30._o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o dream_n 16._o 1._o very_o thou_o command_v i_o to_o contain_v myself_o from_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n and_o the_o ambition_n of_o this_o world_n thou_o command_v i_o also_o to_o abstain_v from_o carnal_a copulation_n and_o concern_v wedlock_n thou_o do_v burn_v now_o advise_v i_o to_o a_o better_a course_n then_o that_o be_v which_o thou_o leave_v i_o my_o free_a choice_n in_o and_o because_o thou_o give_v it_o â—t_z be_v obtain_v and_o that_o before_o i_o become_v a_o dispenser_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n but_o yet_o still_o there_o live_v in_o my_o memory_n which_o i_o have_v now_o speak_v so_o much_o of_o the_o image_n of_o such_o thing_n as_o my_o ill_a custom_n have_v there_o fix_v and_o which_o rush_n into_o my_o thought_n though_o want_v strength_n even_o while_o i_o be_o broad_a wake_n but_o in_o sleep_n obey_v come_v upon_o i_o not_o to_o delight_v only_o but_o even_o so_o far_o as_o consent_v and_o most_o like_a to_o the_o deed_n do_v yea_o so_o far_o prevail_v the_o illusion_n of_o that_o image_n both_o in_o my_o soul_n and_o
therefore_o to_o be_v delude_v for_o they_o be_v high-minded_a have_v seek_v thou_o in_o the_o pride_n of_o their_o learning_n strut_a out_o rather_o then_o knock_v up_o on_o their_o breast_n and_o so_o by_o the_o agreement_n of_o their_o heart_n have_v they_o draw_v unto_o themselves_o the_o prince_n of_o the_o air_n their_o fellow_n conspirator_n in_o pride_n by_o who_o through_o the_o force_n of_o magic_n they_o be_v decerue_v even_o while_o they_o seek_v for_o a_o mediator_n all_o by_o who_o they_o may_v be_v purge_v but_o there_o be_v none_o to_o be_v find_v for_o the_o devil_n it_o be_v transfigure_v now_o himself_o into_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n 2._o many_o way_n therefore_o be_v he_o able_a to_o entice_v proud_a flesh_n for_o that_o himself_o be_v not_o of_o any_o fleshly_a body_n for_o fleshly_a man_n be_v mortal_a and_o sinnefulli_fw-la but_o thou_o lord_n to_o who_o they_o this_o proud_a way_n seek_v to_o be_v reconcile_v be_v immortal_a and_o without_o sin_n a_o mediator_n now_o between_o god_n and_o man_n must_v have_v something_o like_a unto_o god_n and_o something_o like_a unto_o man_n lest_o that_o be_v like_a unto_o man_n in_o both_o nature_n he_o shall_v be_v too_o far_o unlike_o god_n or_o if_o like_a unto_o god_n in_o both_o nature_n he_o shall_v be_v too_o far_o unlike_a unto_o man_n and_o so_o be_v a_o mediator_n neither_o way_n that_o deceitful_a devil_n mediator_n therefore_o by_o who_o in_o thy_o secret_a judgement_n man_n pride_n deserve_v to_o be_v delude_v have_v one_o thing_n indeed_o common_a with_o himself_o to_o man_n and_o that_o be_v sin_n and_o desire_n to_o seem_v to_o communicate_v in_o another_o thing_n with_o god_n that_o because_o he_o be_v not_o clothe_v with_o any_o mortality_n of_o flesh_n he_o may_v thereby_o vaunt_v himself_o to_o be_v immortal_a but_o for_o that_o the_o wage_n of_o sin_n be_v death_n 6._o this_o have_v he_o common_a to_o himself_o with_o man_n for_o which_o he_o may_v together_o with_o they_o â—â—_o condemn_a unto_o death_n chap._n 43._o christ_n only_o in_o the_o all-sufficient_a mediator_n intercessor_n 1._o but_o the_o true_a mediator_n who_o out_o of_o thy_o secret_a mercy_n thou_o have_v show_v forth_o unto_o the_o humble_a and_o who_o thou_o send_v that_o by_o his_o example_n they_o may_v learn_v the_o true_a humility_n that_o 5_o mediator_n therefore_o between_o god_n and_o man_n the_o man_n christ_n jesus_n appear_v betwixt_o mortal_a sinner_n and_o the_o immortal_a just_a one_o be_v mortal_a as_o man_n and_o just_a like_o god_n that_o because_o the_o reward_n of_o righteousness_n be_v life_n and_o peace_n he_o may_v by_o his_o righteousness_n which_o be_v join_v to_o god_n make_v void_a the_o death_n of_o as_o many_o of_o the_o wicked_a as_o be_v by_o he_o justify_v which_o death_n his_o will_n be_v to_o have_v common_a both_o to_o they_o and_o he_o he_o be_v show_v forth_o unto_o holy_a man_n of_o old_a to_o the_o intent_n that_o they_o may_v be_v save_v through_o say_v in_o his_o passion_n to_o come_v like_a as_o we_o be_v through_o say_v of_o it_o already_o pass_v for_o how_o farforth_a he_o be_v a_o man_n so_o farforth_a be_v he_o a_o mediator_n but_o so_o farforth_a as_o he_o be_v the_o word_n he_o be_v not_o mere_o midway_n to_o god_n because_o he_o be_v equal_a unto_o god_n and_o god_n with_o god_n &_o together_o with_o the_o holy_a ghost_n one_o god_n 2._o how_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o o_o good_a father_n that_o have_v not_o spare_v thy_o only_a son_n but_o have_v deliver_v he_o unto_o death_n for_o we_o wicked_a man_n how_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o for_o who_o he_o that_o think_v it_o no_o robbery_n to_o be_v equal_a with_o god_n be_v make_v subject_a unto_o death_n even_o the_o death_n of_o the_o cross_n he_o that_o be_v only_o free_a among_o the_o 8_o dead_a that_o have_v power_n to_o lay_v 5._o 18_o down_o his_o life_n and_o power_n to_o take_v it_o again_o for_o we_o be_v he_o unto_o thou_o both_o the_o conqueror_n and_o the_o sacrifice_n yea_o and_o therefore_o the_o conqueror_n because_o the_o sacrifice_n for_o we_o be_v he_o unto_o thou_o both_o priest_n and_o sacrifice_n and_o therefore_o the_o priest_n because_o the_o sacrifice_n of_o slave_n make_v we_o thy_o child_n by_o be_v bear_v of_o thou_o and_o by_o become_v a_o servant_n unto_o us._n deserve_o therefore_o be_v my_o hope_n strong_o settle_v upon_o he_o that_o thou_o will_v by_o he_o cure_v all_o my_o infirmity_n even_o by_o he_o that_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n and_o make_v intercession_n for_o we_o whereas_o otherwise_o i_o shall_v despair_v utter_o for_o many_o and_o great_a be_v those_o infirmity_n of_o i_o yea_o many_o they_o be_v and_o great_a but_o thy_o medicine_n be_v more_o sovereign_a 3._o imagine_v we_o may_v that_o thy_o word_n be_v far_o enough_o from_o be_v unite_v with_o man_n and_o so_o despair_n of_o ourselves_o unless_o it_o have_v be_v make_v flesh_n and_o dwell_v among_o us._n affright_v 1._o thus_o with_o my_o own_o sin_n &_o the_o burden_n of_o my_o own_o misery_n i_o cast_v these_o thought_n in_o my_o heart_n bethink_v myself_o of_o flee_v into_o the_o himself_o wilderness_n but_o thou_o for_o bad_a i_o and_o strengthen_v i_o say_v therefore_o christ_n die_v for_o all_o that_o they_o which_o live_v may_v now_o no_o long_o live_v unto_o themselves_o but_o unto_o he_o that_o die_v for_o they_o see_v lord_n i_o hence_o forth_o cast_v all_o my_o care_n upon_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v live_v and_o consider_v the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n thou_o know_v both_o my_o unskilfulnesse_n and_o my_o infirmity_n oh_o teach_v i_o and_o heal_v i_o that_o only_a son_n of_o thou_o in_o who_o be_v hide_v all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n have_v redeem_v i_o with_o his_o blood_n 15._o 3â—_n let_v not_o the_o proud_a speak_v evil_a of_o i_o now_o for_o that_o i_o meditate_v upon_o the_o price_n of_o my_o redemption_n and_o do_v eat_v &_o drink_v and_o give_v unto_o the_o poor_a and_o 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for_o thou_o be_v good_a and_o 2_o that_o thy_o mercy_n endure_v for_o ever_o chap._n 2._o he_o sue_v to_o be_v deliver_v from_o his_o sin_n and_o error_n and_o to_o be_v guide_v unto_o the_o true_a knowledge_n 1._o but_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v able_a with_o the_o pen_n of_o my_o tongue_n to_o set_v forth_o all_o thy_o exhortation_n and_o all_o thy_o terror_n and_o comfort_n and_o direction_n by_o which_o thou_o have_v bring_v i_o up_o to_o be_v a_o preacher_n of_o thy_o werd_n and_o a_o dispenser_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n unto_o thy_o people_n if_o i_o now_o be_v able_a to_o declare_v these_o thing_n to_o thou_o in_o order_n the_o very_a â—and_n
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my_o brethren_n thou_o see_v my_o heart_n that_o so_o it_o be_v and_o that_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o sacrifice_v unto_o thou_o the_o best_a service_n of_o my_o thought_n and_o tongue_n now_o give_v i_o what_o i_o be_o to_o offer_v unto_o thou_o for_o i_o be_o 1._o poor_a and_o needy_a but_o thou_o be_v 11._o rich_a to_o all_o those_o that_o call_v upon_o thou_o who_o not_o distract_v with_o care_n thyself_o take_v the_o care_n of_o all_o us._n from_o all_o rashness_n and_o lie_v do_v thou_o circumcise_v both_o my_o inward_a and_o my_o outward_a lip_n let_v my_o chaste_a delight_n be_v thy_o scripture_n let_v i_o neither_o be_v deceive_v in_o they_o nor_o deceive_v by_o they_o harken_v lord_n and_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n o_o thou_o light_a of_o the_o blind_a and_o the_o strength_n of_o the_o weak_a yea_o also_o the_o light_n of_o those_o that_o see_v and_o the_o strength_n of_o the_o strong_a harken_v thou_o unto_o my_o soul_n and_o hear_v i_o cry_v unto_o thou_o 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what_o i_o love_v for_o very_o i_o do_v love_n it_o and_o this_o love_n be_v of_o thy_o give_v forsake_v not_o therefore_o thy_o own_o gift_n nor_o despise_v 1_o thou_o he_o that_o thirst_v after_o thy_o herbage_n let_v i_o confess_v unto_o thou_o whatsoever_o i_o shall_v find_v in_o thy_o book_n and_o let_v i_o hear_v the_o voice_n of_o praise_n and_o let_v i_o drink_v thou_o up_o and_o let_v i_o consider_v of_o the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n even_o from_o the_o very_a beginning_n wherein_o thou_o make_v the_o heaven_n and_o the_o earth_n unto_o that_o everlasting_a kingdom_n of_o thy_o holy_a city_n which_o be_v before_o thou_o have_v mercy_n lord_n upon_o i_o and_o hear_v my_o petition_n for_o it_o be_v not_o i_o suppose_v of_o the_o earth_n not_o for_o gold_n &_o siver_z or_o precious_a stone_n or_o gorgeous_a apparel_n or_o honour_n and_o office_n or_o the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o flesh_n or_o necessary_n for_o the_o body_n or_o for_o this_o life_n of_o our_o earthly_a pilgrimage_n all_o which_o shall_v be_v add_v 33_o unto_o those_o that_o seek_v thy_o kingdom_n &_o thy_o righteousness_n behold_v o_o lord_n my_o god_n what_o it_o be_v that_o i_o now_o desire_n the_o ungodly_a have_v sometime_o tell_v i_o what_o themselves_o delight_v in_o but_o they_o be_v not_o like_o the_o delight_n of_o thy_o law_n see_v now_o whence_o my_o desire_n proceed_v 4._o see_v father_n behold_v and_o approve_v and_o let_v it_o be_v please_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o thy_o mercy_n that_o i_o shall_v find_v so_o much_o grace_n with_o thou_o as_o that_o the_o secret_n of_o thy_o word_n may_v be_v open_v unto_o i_o when_o i_o knock_v by_o our_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n thy_o son_n i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o man_n on_o thy_o right_a hand_n that_o son_n of_o man_n who_o thou_o have_v appoint_v a_o mediator_n betwixt_o thyself_o and_o we_o by_o who_o thou_o sought_v we_o who_o little_o seek_v for_o thou_o yet_o do_v thou_o seek_v we_o that_o we_o may_v seek_v thou_o and_o thy_o 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i_o yea_o i_o will_v lay_v my_o ear_n unto_o his_o mouth_n but_o shall_v he_o speak_v in_o the_o hebrew_n hebrew_n tongue_n in_o vain_a shall_v he_o beat_v my_o ear_n for_o never_o shall_v he_o come_v near_o my_o understanding_n whenas_o if_o he_o speak_v latin_a i_o shall_v well_o enough_o know_v what_o he_o say_v 2._o but_o how_o shall_v i_o know_v whether_o he_o say_v true_a or_o no_o and_o if_o i_o can_v learn_v this_o too_o shall_v i_o know_v it_o by_o he_o for_o within_o i_o in_o that_o inward_a house_n of_o my_o thought_n neither_o the_o hebrew_n nor_o the_o greek_a nor_o the_o latin_a nor_o any_o other_o language_n but_o even_o truth_n itself_o and_o that_o without_o any_o help_n of_o the_o mouth_n &_o tongue_n without_o any_o sound_n of_o syllable_n shall_v tell_v i_o he_o say_v true_a and_o myself_o thereupon_o assure_v of_o it_o will_v confident_o say_v unto_o that_o servant_n of_o thou_o thou_o speak_v truth_n see_v i_o have_v not_o now_o the_o mean_n to_o confer_v with_o moses_n i_o beg_v of_o thou_o my_o god_n inspire_v by_o who_o he_o utter_v these_o truth_n i_o beg_v of_o thou_o the_o pardon_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o thou_o that_o enable_v that_o servant_n of_o thou_o to_o deliver_v these_o truth_n enable_v i_o also_o to_o understand_v they_o chap._n 4._o the_o creature_n proclaim_v god_n to_o be_v their_o creator_n 1_o behold_v the_o heaven_n and_o the_o earth_n be_v already_o they_o proclaim_v themselves_o to_o have_v be_v create_v for_o they_o be_v change_v and_o alter_v from_o what_o they_o be_v whereas_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o make_v and_o yet_o have_v a_o be_v have_v nothing_o in_o it_o now_o which_o it_o have_v not_o before_o which_o to_o have_v be_v indeed_o to_o be_v change_v and_o alter_v they_o proclaim_v also_o that_o they_o make_v not_o themselves_o but_o say_v therefore_o we_o be_v because_o we_o be_v make_v and_o therefore_o be_v we_o not_o before_o our_o time_n be_v to_o be_v as_o if_o we_o can_v possible_o have_v make_v ourselves_o now_o the_o evidentnesse_n of_o the_o thing_n be_v this_o voice_n of_o the_o speaker_n it_o be_v thou_o therefore_o o_o lord_n that_o make_v they_o thou_o who_o be_v full_a of_o beauty_n they_o be_v fair_a also_o thou_o who_o be_v good_a they_o also_o be_v good_a even_o thou_o who_o have_v be_v see_v these_o have_v their_o being_n yet_o be_v they_o neither_o so_o fair_a so_o good_a nor_o be_v so_o as_o thou_o their_o creator_n art_n compare_v with_o who_o they_o be_v neither_o fair_a nor_o good_a nor_o be_v at_o all_o thus_o much_o we_o know_v thanks_n to_o
soul_n these_o thing_n that_o be_v to_o come_v for_o thou_o have_v already_o teach_v thy_o prophet_n which_o be_v the_o way_n that_o thou_o unto_o who_o nothing_o be_v to_o come_v do_v teach_v thing_n to_o come_v or_o rather_o out_o of_o future_a do_v inform_v we_o of_o thing_n present_a for_o that_o which_o be_v not_o can_v be_v teach_v too_o too_o far_o be_v this_o way_n out_o of_o my_o ken_n it_o have_v get_v out_o of_o my_o reach_n i_o can_v by_o my_o own_o power_n arrive_v up_o to_o it_o but_o by_o thy_o assistance_n i_o may_v again_o even_o when_o thou_o shall_v vouchsafe_v i_o that_o most_o sweet_a light_n of_o the_o inward_a eye_n of_o my_o soul_n chap._n 20._o these_o three_o difference_n of_o time_n how_o they_o be_v to_o be_v call_v 1._o clear_a now_o it_o be_v and_o plain_n that_o there_o be_v neither_o thing_n to_o come_v nor_o thing_n past_a nor_o do_v we_o proper_o say_v there_o be_v three_o time_n past_a present_a and_o to_o come_v and_o yet_o perchance_o it_o may_v 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