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thou_o i_o rest_v in_o thou_o for_o ever_o o_o my_o god_n all_o that_o thou_o give_v i_o all_o that_o thou_o require_v of_o i_o be_v to_o make_v i_o happy_a to_o thou_o be_v glory_n for_o ever_o amen_n bless_a lord_n all_z this_o i_o joyful_o confess_v thou_o have_v do_v for_o i_o and_o yet_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o corrupt_a life_n have_v be_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o continue_a rebellion_n against_o thou_o my_o eye_n full_a of_o adultery_n my_o tongue_n of_o corrupt_a communication_n my_o hand_n of_o oppression_n my_o ear_n open_a to_o iniquity_n my_o heart_n full_a of_o hypocricy_n my_o foot_n lame_a in_o thy_o path_n and_o swift_a to_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o sinner_n my_o whole_a man_n nothing_o else_o but_o the_o very_a body_n of_o death_n and_o destruction_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o precept_n against_o promise_n against_o mercy_n against_o judgement_n against_o the_o check_n of_o my_o own_o conscience_n and_o the_o bless_a motion_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n i_o have_v even_o tempt_v my_o temptation_n by_o make_v daily_o and_o hourly_a provision_n for_o sin_n and_o have_v be_v so_o far_o from_o sorrow_v for_o all_o this_o that_o i_o have_v resolve_v to_o continue_v yet_o still_o and_o yet_o so_o great_a be_v thy_o compassion_n towards_o i_o that_o still_o thou_o store_v up_o new_a mercy_n for_o i_o lord_n i_o bewail_v my_o weakness_n i_o lament_v my_o wilfulness_n i_o abhor_v my_o filthiness_n i_o hearty_o desire_v and_o earnest_o endeavour_v to_o unrip_v my_o soul_n to_o ransack_v my_o heart_n to_o unlock_v the_o very_a secret_n of_o my_o thought_n that_o i_o may_v have_v all_o my_o sin_n continual_o before_o i_o even_o in_o their_o worst_a appearance_n and_o i_o may_v loathe_v they_o and_o leave_v they_o and_o obtain_v thy_o gracious_a pardon_n for_o they_o i_o confess_v lord_n that_o i_o be_o utter_o unworthy_a to_o enjoy_v this_o bless_a light_n which_o i_o have_v so_o much_o abuse_v to_o thy_o great_a dishonour_n much_o more_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n by_o which_o thou_o lead_v i_o to_o that_o of_o glory_n and_o that_o it_o be_v more_o just_a with_o thou_o for_o ever_o to_o deprive_v i_o of_o these_o happy_a light_n and_o to_o expose_v i_o to_o the_o terror_n of_o eternal_a darkness_n lord_n i_o have_v finned_a and_o can_v choose_v but_o sin_n i_o be_o a_o great_a and_o grievous_a sinner_n and_o yet_o i_o be_o thy_o child_n have_v pity_n upon_o i_o have_v pity_n upon_o i_o for_o i_o be_o in_o misery_n into_o the_o bosom_n of_o thy_o tender_a love_n i_o thrust_v my_o sinful_a soul_n for_o safety_n and_o protection_n o_o let_v not_o thy_o justice_n triumph_n in_o my_o ruin_n but_o thy_o mercy_n in_o my_o deliverance_n so_o shall_v thou_o have_v the_o glory_n and_o i_o the_o sweetness_n of_o my_o eternal_a happiness_n hear_v i_o o_o lord_n and_o help_v i_o for_o thy_o name_n sake_n for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n for_o thy_o son_n sake_n amen_n chap._n 3._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n a_o meditation_n for_o noon_n bless_a god_n without_o thy_o holy_a providence_n no_o creature_n can_v subsist_v by_o thy_o almighty_a power_n they_o be_v create_v out_o of_o nothing_o and_o if_o thou_o shall_v not_o sustain_v they_o they_o must_v needs_o return_v to_o nothing_o how_o wise_o how_o wonderful_o do_v thou_o guide_v and_o govern_v these_o inferior_a creature_n all_o thing_n be_v at_o once_o dispose_v of_o by_o thou_o and_o move_v successive_o to_o their_o appoint_a end_n but_o above_o all_o how_o gracious_o have_v thou_o provide_v for_o the_o good_a of_o man_n what_o variety_n of_o food_n how_o secret_o how_o sweet_o dispose_v it_o to_o sustentation_n no_o creature_n can_v be_v nourish_v without_o thou_o and_o with_o thou_o i_o enjoy_v not_o only_a nutriment_n but_o delectation_n how_o sweet_a be_v this_o thy_o goodness_n to_o my_o body_n how_o much_o more_o sweet_a thy_o mercy_n to_o my_o soul_n and_o if_o thy_o temporal_a refreshment_n be_v so_o good_a how_o ravish_v be_v that_o celestial_a food_n with_o which_o thy_o saint_n and_o angel_n be_v delight_v lord_n how_o undeserving_a be_o i_o of_o these_o thy_o many_o favour_n thou_o give_v rain_n to_o the_o earth_n and_o it_o become_v fruitful_a thou_o load_a i_o daily_o with_o thy_o blessing_n and_o lo_o i_o be_o unthankful_a even_o those_o creature_n that_o be_v insensible_a be_v daily_o nourish_v into_o augmentation_n and_o man_n alone_o who_o thou_o have_v make_v to_o live_v for_o ever_o content_v himself_o with_o daily_a diminution_n this_o woeful_o appear_v by_o my_o deadness_n and_o dulness_n in_o my_o christian_a calling_n by_o my_o back_n wardness_n to_o holy_a duty_n by_o my_o carelessness_n and_o coldness_n in_o prayer_n weariness_n in_o read_v irkomenesse_n in_o meditation_n by_o my_o faint_a hope_n sick_a faith_n lukewarm_a love_n freeze_a charity_n lame_a patience_n languish_v zeal_n and_o all_o those_o other_o visible_a decay_n of_o goodness_n which_o be_v none_o other_o than_o the_o very_a symptom_n of_o a_o die_a soul_n ah_o now_o lord_n how_o miserable_o deform_a must_v i_o needs_o appear_v in_o thy_o fight_n that_o be_o thus_o ugly_a in_o my_o own_o thou_o that_o have_v compassion_n on_o i_o when_o i_o be_v in_o my_o blood_n and_o then_o say_v unto_o i_o live_v that_o have_v wash_v i_o clean_o from_o sin_n and_o pollution_n and_o espouse_v i_o into_o thy_o own_o bolom_o will_v thou_o also_o love_v i_o in_o death_n will_v thou_o court_v i_o in_o the_o grave_n how_o just_o may_v thou_o for_o ever_o leave_v i_o to_o my_o own_o ruin_n that_o can_v so_o easy_o so_o willing_o forsake_v thou_o for_o the_o pleasure_n of_o sin_n and_o yet_o how_o sweet_o how_o affectionate_o do_v thou_o order_v all_o thing_n for_o i_o even_o my_o very_a sin_n invite_v i_o to_o a_o more_o happy_a to_o a_o near_a union_n with_o thou_o to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n the_o life_n of_o my_o life_n the_o very_a be_v and_o assure_a comfort_n of_o my_o sinful_a soul_n and_o wretched_a body_n do_v i_o address_v myself_o for_o mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n i_o confess_v myself_o unworthy_a of_o thy_o gracious_a providence_n in_o sustain_v this_o frail_a and_o infirm_a body_n much_o more_o unworthy_a o_o lord_n of_o thy_o unspeakable_a love_n in_o revive_v relieve_v embrace_v my_o deform_a soul_n bless_a lord_n who_o be_o i_o of_o who_o thou_o be_v thus_o tender_o compassionate_a when_o i_o be_v in_o the_o womb_n i_o be_v defile_v with_o sin_n when_o i_o come_v out_o of_o it_o i_o be_v cover_v with_o shame_n the_o world_n bewitch_v i_o the_o flesh_n besot_v i_o the_o devil_n beguile_v i_o lord_n when_o no_o eye_n pity_v i_o than_o thou_o bid_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o now_o at_o last_o when_o i_o be_o run_v from_o thou_o when_o i_o have_v adulterate_v my_o first_o love_n when_o i_o be_o become_v poor_a and_o wretched_a and_o miserable_a and_o blind_a and_o naked_a thou_o free_o forgive_v i_o thou_o call_v i_o thy_o fair_a one_o and_o give_v i_o thy_o love_n o_o my_o god_n i_o admire_v thy_o goodness_n i_o deplore_v and_o abhor_v my_o own_o wretchedness_n o_o let_v the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n inflame_v the_o die_a spark_n of_o my_o benumb_a soul_n to_o praise_v thou_o without_o cease_v expatiatc_n my_o narrow_a thought_n with_o day'y_a contemplation_n of_o my_o heavenly_a home_n with_o joyful_a expectation_n of_o the_o sweet_a fruition_n of_o eternity_n o_o give_v i_o such_o a_o bless_a raptasie_n of_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v live_v above_o the_o reach_n of_o humane_a misery_n and_o reign_v with_o thou_o hereafter_o in_o immortal_a glory_n chap._n 4._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n shortness_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o life_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o evening_n
may_v now_o prevail_v with_o thou_o to_o repair_v the_o loss_n of_o thy_o presence_n in_o my_o sinful_a soul_n lord_n let_v the_o greatness_n of_o my_o folly_n in_o sin_v extol_v the_o richness_n of_o thy_o mercy_n in_o forgive_n restore_v i_o to_o the_o joy_n of_o thy_o salvation_n and_o establish_v i_o with_o thy_o free_a spirit_n so_o shall_v i_o have_v the_o comfort_n and_o thou_o the_o praise_n of_o my_o deliverance_n if_o thou_o lord_n will_v give_v i_o understanding_n to_o delight_v in_o thy_o law_n i_o shall_v also_o have_v a_o sweet_a assurance_n that_o thou_o will_v delight_v in_o i_o to_o do_v i_o good_a accept_v of_o my_o desire_n strengthen_v my_o endeavour_n perfect_a my_o performance_n pardon_v my_o weakness_n assist_v my_o willingness_n forgive_v my_o sinfulness_n nourish_v the_o good_a motion_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n in_o i_o and_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n remove_v all_o danger_n and_o temptation_n from_o i_o that_o when_o the_o short_a and_o wretched_a race_n of_o my_o imperfect_a holiness_n be_v end_v here_o i_o may_v solemnize_v that_o eternal_a sabbath_n with_o thy_o bless_a saint_n and_o angel_n in_o thy_o kingdom_n and_o rest_n with_o thou_o in_o the_o perfection_n of_o true_a happiness_n for_o ever_o amen_n chap._n 7._o upon_o the_o want_n of_o due_a preparation_n for_o receive_v of_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n of_o the_o lord_n supper_n lord_n when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o inestimable_a value_n of_o that_o gift_n which_o i_o be_o this_o day_n to_o receive_v when_o i_o consider_v of_o the_o majesty_n of_o thou_o the_o giver_n of_o the_o misery_n of_o i_o the_o receiver_n of_o the_o vast_a difference_n between_o corruption_n and_o eternity_n of_o thy_o strict_a command_n for_o preparation_n to_o the_o passcover_v under_o thy_o law_n of_o thy_o bless_a precept_n for_o due_a receive_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n under_o the_o gospel_n of_o thy_o own_o example_n in_o wash_v thy_o disciple_n foot_n and_o thereby_o symbolise_v the_o eternal_a wash_n of_o their_o soul_n of_o thy_o saint_n practice_n in_o their_o solemn_a preparation_n unto_o holiness_n by_o pull_v off_o their_o shoe_n when_o they_o approach_v thy_o presence_n of_o thy_o severe_a judgement_n against_o vzza_n for_o heedless_a touch_v of_o thy_o ark_n against_o the_o bethshemite_n for_o curiousness_n in_o look_v in_o against_o those_o rash_a corinthian_n whereof_o for_o want_n of_o holy_a preparation_n some_o be_v weak_a some_o sick_a some_o fall_v asleep_o and_o last_o of_o that_o dreadful_a sentence_n against_o unworthy_a comer_n to_o thy_o wedding_n feast_n pronounce_v by_o thy_o own_o mouth_n i_o tremble_v at_o my_o bold_a approach_n to_o thy_o bless_a table_n i_o wonder_v at_o thy_o goodness_n that_o i_o be_o yet_o alive_a to_o say_v there_o be_v yet_o mercy_n with_o thou_o that_o thou_o may_v be_v scare_v how_o many_o bless_a opportunity_n of_o come_v to_o thy_o table_n have_v i_o sinful_o neglect_v how_o many_o abuse_a by_o my_o sinful_a resort_n thither_o by_o my_o wander_a and_o idle_a thought_n there_o by_o my_o wicked_a and_o profane_a action_n after_o i_o return_v thence_o lord_n will_v thou_o still_o suffer_v i_o to_o abuse_v thy_o goodness_n how_o long_a lord_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o wander_v in_o these_o woeful_a way_n of_o wickedness_n i_o be_o weary_a of_o the_o sin_n and_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n and_o willing_a to_o embrace_v this_o heavenly_a comfort_n for_o my_o soul_n i_o confess_v myself_o a_o great_a and_o grievous_a sinner_n and_o yet_o i_o know_v lord_n thou_o come_v not_o to_o call_v the_o righteous_a but_o sinner_n to_o repentance_n i_o be_o hungry_a and_o poor_a and_o blind_a and_o naked_a and_o miserable_a destitute_a of_o all_o hope_n of_o all_o help_n but_o from_o thou_o alone_o lord_n i_o be_o unworthy_a of_o thy_o crumb_n yet_o thou_o admitte_v i_o to_o thy_o table_n the_o sinfulness_n of_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n have_v make_v a_o woeful_a separation_n between_o we_o but_o the_o richness_n of_o thy_o suffering_n have_v for_o ever_o make_v a_o sweet_a conjunction_n of_o we_o all_o my_o sin_n be_v thou_o all_o thy_o righteousness_n be_v i_o thou_o be_v now_o my_o well-beloved_a and_o i_o be_o thy_o choose_a one_o and_o in_o this_o bless_a union_n be_v my_o sweet_a and_o safe_a repose_n for_o ever_o who_o can_v enough_o deplore_v that_o more_o than_o woeful_a separation_n who_o can_v enough_o admire_v this_o more_o than_o wonderful_a conjunction_n this_o more_o than_o happy_a reconciliation_n here_o be_v justice_n undeniable_a mercy_n incomprehensible_a wisdom_n unutterable_a love_v unimitable_a o_o let_v my_o soul_n now_o lose_v itself_o in_o the_o unknown_a path_n of_o heavenly_a contemplation_n let_v i_o this_o day_n apprehend_v thou_o o_o my_o saviour_n fast_v pray_v weep_a groan_a sweat_a bleed_a faint_a die_a for_o my_o sake_n and_o now_o plead_v to_o my_o god_n for_o mercy_n for_o i_o let_v i_o now_o taste_v the_o sweetness_n of_o that_o mercy_n by_o a_o lively_a faith_n the_o fullness_n of_o this_o sweetuesse_n by_o a_o bless_a hope_n the_o fruition_n of_o this_o fullness_n by_o eternal_a love_n lord_z how_o unworthy_a be_o i_o of_o these_o embrace_n if_o i_o bewail_v not_o if_o i_o abhor_v not_o if_o i_o forsake_v not_o all_o the_o wretched_a fail_n of_o my_o sinful_a life_n pass_v if_o i_o rejoice_v not_o with_o joy_n unspeakable_a and_o glorious_a to_o be_v admit_v to_o so_o great_a a_o mercy_n if_o this_o inflame_v not_o my_o affection_n with_o unspotted_a love_n to_o thou_o my_o god_n with_o earnest_a long_n for_o thy_o presence_n of_o grace_n in_o this_o life_n of_o glory_n in_o that_o to_o come_v and_o now_o lord_n since_o thou_o in_o thy_o rich_a love_n have_v free_o forgive_v i_o my_o pound_n i_o will_v also_o most_o willing_o and_o hearty_o forgive_v my_o brother_n his_o penny_n i_o will_v have_v nothing_o to_o do_v with_o malice_n that_o have_v so_o much_o need_n of_o mercy_n i_o will_v unfeigned_o and_o free_o and_o full_o forgive_v all_o injury_n on_o earth_n i_o will_v love_v all_o those_o that_o hate_v i_o and_o pray_v for_o all_o those_o that_o despiteful_o use_v i_o and_o all_o this_o for_o thy_o sake_n who_o haste_n free_o love_v i_o and_o lay_v down_o thy_o life_n for_o i_o to_o who_o be_v glory_n for_o ever_o amen_n bless_a lord_n god_n look_v down_o in_o mercy_n and_o compassion_n on_o i_o thy_o poor_a distress_a suppliant_a who_o thou_o now_o vouchsafe_v to_o admit_v unto_o thy_o heavenly_a banquet_n illuminate_v my_o blindness_n by_o the_o bless_a light_n of_o thy_o most_o sacred_a word_n satisfy_v my_o hunger_n with_o the_o sweet_a refresh_n of_o thy_o gracious_a presence_n enrich_v my_o poverty_n with_o the_o gift_n and_o grace_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n cover_v my_o nakedness_n with_o the_o precious_a robe_n of_o thy_o own_o righteousness_n swallow_v up_o the_o depth_n of_o my_o misery_n by_o the_o height_n of_o thy_o mercy_n that_o i_o may_v this_o day_n appear_v before_o thou_o with_o a_o sincere_a heart_n and_o happy_a soul_n lord_n strengthen_v and_o support_v my_o feeble_a faith_n make_v i_o joyful_o to_o trust_v in_o thou_o constant_o to_o rely_v upon_o thou_o thankful_o to_o sacrifice_v my_o soul_n in_o praise_n to_o thou_o vouchsafe_v dear_a lord_n that_o i_o may_v worthy_o approach_v thy_o bless_a table_n that_o i_o may_v this_o day_n be_v so_o unite_v to_o thou_o that_o all_o my_o joy_n and_o comfort_n may_v hereafter_o be_v for_o ever_o with_o thou_o amen_n chap._n 8._o contain_v pious_a ejaculation_n at_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v lord_n this_o art_n that_o bless_a bread_n by_o which_o my_o soul_n be_v nourish_v to_o eternal_a life_n thou_o be_v that_o fruitful_a vine_n from_o which_o do_v flow_v those_o glad_v comfort_n to_o my_o faint_a spirit_n thou_o be_v break_v for_o my_o sin_n thou_o be_v bruise_v for_o my_o transgression_n and_o the_o chastisement_n of_o my_o peace_n be_v upon_o thou_o lord_n by_o thy_o stripe_n let_v my_o sinful_a soul_n be_v heal_v thou_o take_v into_o thy_o hand_n the_o cup_n of_o tremble_a thou_o drank_a out_o the_o very_a dregs_o thereof_o and_o thy_o precious_a blood_n be_v pour_v out_o like_o water_n for_o my_o sake_n sweet_a jesus_n sustain_v i_o by_o this_o bread_n refresh_v i_o with_o this_o wine_n recover_v i_o with_o this_o potion_n cleanse_v i_o by_o this_o effusion_n that_o i_o may_v this_o day_n receive_v joyful_o return_v thankful_o live_v righteous_o and_o die_v happy_o chap._n 9_o contain_v a_o brief_a meditation_n and_o pious_a thanksgiving_n after_o our_o receive_v i_o be_o this_o day_n joyful_o deliver_v from_o the_o bondage_n of_o sin_n and_o satan_n and_o happy_o restore_v unto_o the_o glorious_a liberty_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n i_o have_v rellish_v the_o sweetness_n of_o his_o heavenly_a promise_n and_o receive_v the_o seal_n of_o
unclean_a and_o wanton_a cogitation_n so_o many_o day_n and_o night_n in_o frivolous_a and_o idle_a discourse_n so_o many_o week_n and_o month_n and_o year_n in_o vain_a and_o finfull_a action_n how_o full_a of_o horror_n and_o confusion_n will_v this_o account_n appear_v even_o to_o my_o own_o eye_n with_o what_o face_n shall_v i_o dare_v present_a itunto_o thou_o what_o will_v i_o not_o now_o give_v to_o purchase_v but_o some_o small_a respite_n to_o redeem_v this_o woeful_a waste_n this_o vain_a expense_n of_o time_n what_o serious_a vow_n and_o faithful_a promise_n shall_v i_o now_o make_v of_o amendment_n what_o constant_a hour_n will_v be_v now_o dedicate_v to_o thy_o service_n my_o whole_a life_n will_v now_o seem_v too_o little_a to_o bewail_v my_o solly_n to_o redeem_v my_o loss_n o_o what_o madness_n be_v it_o then_o while_o i_o have_v day_n of_o mercy_n to_o despise_v they_o to_o abuse_v they_o to_o be_v utter_o neglective_a of_o they_o what_o be_v it_o lord_n that_o i_o so_o eager_o pursue_v even_o the_o very_a height_n of_o all_o my_o outward_a happiness_n be_v but_o a_o short_a crackle_n of_o thorn_n a_o sudden_a blaze_n which_o may_v seem_v to_o warm_v i_o but_o can_v never_o thorough_o heat_v i_o woe_n be_v to_o that_o soul_n for_o ever_o that_o can_v find_v no_o refreshment_n but_o in_o this_o momentany_a fire_n if_o thy_o grace_n lord_n can_v warm_v i_o thy_o glory_n will_v not_o comfort_v i_o there_o can_v be_v no_o true_a joy_n but_o in_o godly_a sorrow_n the_o heart_n of_o the_o wise_a be_v in_o the_o house_n of_o mourning_n the_o heart_n of_o fool_n in_o the_o house_n of_o mirth_n eccl._n 7.6_o the_o luxurious_a wanton_n may_v be_v carnal_o joyful_a but_o the_o penitent_a christian_a be_v cordial_o merry_a there_o be_v no_o better_a trial_n of_o this_o truth_n lord_n than_o from_o thy_o own_o mouth_n who_o be_v a_o man_n of_o sorrow_n thou_o o_o lord_n have_v tell_v i_o that_o i_o shall_v weep_v but_o the_o world_n shall_v rejoice_v that_o i_o shall_v sorrow_n but_o my_o sorrow_n shall_v be_v turn_v into_o joy_n and_o my_o joy_n shall_v no_o man_n take_v from_o i_o john_n 16.20_o deceive_v not_o thyself_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n for_o if_o thou_o walk_v too_o far_o in_o this_o entice_a path_n thou_o be_v out_o of_o thy_o way_n to_o heaven_n and_o thou_o may_v go_v so_o far_o in_o it_o as_o to_o lose_v thyself_o and_o by_o a_o customary_a freedom_n of_o thy_o christian_a liberty_n soon_o find_v so_o great_a a_o indisposition_n unto_o god_n and_o goodness_n that_o unless_o the_o bless_a shepherd_n of_o thy_o soul_n vouchsafe_v to_o find_v thou_o by_o his_o save_a grace_n it_o be_v improbable_a nay_o it_o be_v impossible_a that_o thou_o shall_v ever_o return_v can_v thou_o be_v so_o senseless_a to_o believe_v that_o thou_o be_v christ_n disciple_n when_o thou_o will_v not_o bear_v his_o cross_n do_v ever_o any_o of_o his_o follower_n enjoy_v heaven_n without_o violence_n without_o beat_n down_o their_o body_n without_o cherish_v their_o soul_n without_o much_o weep_v fast_a pray_v sigh_a groan_v for_o their_o sin_n without_o be_v crucify_v unto_o the_o world_n and_o the_o world_n unto_o they_o without_o check_v and_o control_v their_o unruly_a lust_n without_o utter_o forsake_v all_o this_o earthly_a trash_n and_o joyful_o account_v it_o as_o loss_n and_o dung_n to_o possess_v christ_n look_v upon_o the_o prophet_n apostle_n martyr_n virgin_n father_n of_o the_o church_n and_o all_o the_o bless_a company_n of_o saint_n in_o all_o time_n place_n age_n of_o the_o world_n and_o thou_o shall_v find_v they_o all_o to_o use_v this_o world_n as_o if_o they_o use_v it_o not_o quiet_o spare_o sober_o isaac_n at_o his_o evening_n devotion_n in_o the_o solitary_a field_n eliah_n at_o his_o private_a carmel_n the_o baptist_n in_o the_o desert_n st._n paul_n in_o his_o desire_n out_o of_o the_o body_n and_o with_o christ_n holy_a simeon_n in_o his_o pillar_n saint_n jerome_n in_o his_o cave_n all_o of_o they_o and_o innumerable_a more_o of_o god_n saint_n be_v true_a benony_n son_n of_o sorrow_n and_o affliction_n lord_n with_o how_o much_o fervour_n and_o alacrity_n of_o soul_n do_v these_o thy_o blessed_a one_o pursue_v thy_o heavenly_a joy_n what_o sharp_a combat_n have_v they_o to_o overcome_v themselves_o and_o if_o such_o choose_a and_o select_a vessel_n as_o these_o have_v have_v such_o great_a strive_n such_o powerful_a conflict_n with_o their_o finfull_a body_n what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o thâ—t_o have_v obey_v sin_n in_o the_o lust_n thereof_o that_o can_v find_v no_o pleasure_n but_o in_o folly_n no_o laughter_n but_o in_o madness_n consider_v therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n whilst_o thou_o have_v yet_o time_n that_o there_o be_v no_o true_a character_n of_o a_o graeeless_a heart_n than_o profane_a mirth_n thou_o be_v too_o ready_a to_o believe_v that_o god_n be_v merciful_a that_o all_o thy_o sin_n may_v be_v forgive_v thou_o in_o a_o moment_n that_o the_o good_a thief_n be_v save_v at_o the_o last_o hour_n and_o that_o therefore_o thou_o may_v still_o go_v on_o in_o wickedness_n god_n indeed_o be_v always_o ready_a to_o show_v mercy_n but_o it_o be_v only_o unto_o those_o that_o be_v ready_a to_o repent_v and_o how_o know_v thou_o whether_o god_n will_v accept_v thou_o in_o that_o hour_n whether_o he_o may_v not_o whether_o he_o will_v not_o then_o withdraw_v his_o save_a grace_n from_o that_o sinful_a soul_n which_o have_v so_o long_o withdraw_v itself_o from_o his_o service_n this_o be_v that_o which_o thy_o bless_a saviour_n tell_v thou_o not_o every_o one_o which_o cry_v lord_n lord_n shall_v enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n but_o he_o that_o do_v the_o will_n of_o my_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n matth._n 7_o 21._o and_o lest_o perpap_v that_o one_o example_n of_o the_o die_a penitent_n may_v flatter_v thou_o consider_v of_o the_o time_n the_o place_n the_o manner_n of_o his_o strange_a conversion_n this_o be_v assure_o say_v st_n augustine_n to_o manifest_v the_o power_n and_o godhead_n of_o a_o die_a saciour_a and_o that_o upon_o the_o rare_a confession_n of_o a_o infidel_n and_o that_o at_o such_o a_o time_n when_o all_o the_o world_n forsake_v he_o and_o even_o his_o own_o disciple_n either_o doubt_v or_o deny_v his_o godhead_n alas_o how_o little_a comfort_n can_v thou_o now_o reap_v from_o this_o example_n how_o shall_v it_o rather_o affright_v thou_o to_o see_v buâ—_n one_o soul_n among_o so_o many_o million_o to_o obtain_v mercy_n at_o the_o last_o hour_n &_o that_o upon_o such_o weighty_a circumstance_n on_o what_o a_o weak_a foundation_n do_v thou_o build_v thy_o hope_n of_o happiness_n how_o easy_o will_v that_o devour_a storm_n of_o thy_o accuse_a conscience_n ruin_v it_o and_o then_o how_o great_a the_o fall_n will_v be_v the_o fearful_a horror_n of_o thy_o lose_a estate_n will_v woeful_o express_v lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o redeem_v those_o precious_a hour_n which_o i_o have_v lose_v o_o let_v each_o wanton_a thought_n each_o idle_a word_n be_v monitor_n to_o tell_v i_o how_o my_o audit_n stand_v with_o heaven_n i_o can_v speak_v nothing_o i_o can_v do_v nothing_o which_o i_o can_v recall_v each_o circumstance_n of_o sin_n be_v charge_v in_o my_o account_n and_o must_v be_v reckon_v for_o how_o careful_a shall_v this_o make_v i_o of_o the-expense_n of_o that_o time_n that_o be_v record_v for_o eternity_n thou_o o_o lord_n be_v holiness_n itself_o thy_o saint_n and_o angel_n be_v holy_a and_o thy_o child_n must_v be_v holy_a nothing_o but_o holiness_n can_v inherit_v heaven_n no_o unclean_a pleasure_n no_o impure_a joy_n shall_v enter_v there_o how_o can_v i_o ever_o hope_v to_o be_v a_o inhabitant_n of_o that_o holy_a city_n who_o heavenly_a language_n i_o can_v speak_v and_o now_o lord_n see_v these_o thing_n be_v thus_o by_o thy_o assist_a grace_n i_o serious_o resolve_v to_o allow_v myself_o no_o pleasure_n in_o this_o life_n but_o what_o be_v sanctify_v with_o moderation_n because_o i_o clear_o see_v these_o outward_a pleasure_n to_o be_v only_o so_o far_o useful_a unto_o i_o as_o by_o they_o i_o be_o make_v more_o serviceable_a unto_o thou_o moderate_a and_o honest_a repast_n set_v a_o edge_n upon_o my_o soul_n and_o make_v it_o more_o earnest_a more-active_a in_o devotion_n when_o i_o take_v up_o pleasure_n as_o a_o trade_n i_o become_v a_o traitor_n to_o my_o body_n a_o tyrant_n to_o my_o soul_n lord_n i_o be_o now_o hearty_o in_o love_n with_o heaven_n and_o grudge_v at_o that_o hour_n liberty_n in_o outward_a merriment_n that_o make_v not_o the_o next_o more_o eager_a of_o my_o inward_a comfort_n there_o be_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o goodness_n and_o there_o be_v no_o goodness_n in_o that_o mirth_n which_o be_v not_o
of_o affliction_n which_o either_o sin_n or_o satan_n life_n or_o death_n can_v bring_v upon_o i_o scourge_v i_o lance_n i_o bruise_v i_o break_v i_o do_v what_o thou_o will_v with_o i_o here_o so_o thou_o spare_v i_o for_o ever_o lord_n although_o thou_o kill_v i_o yet_o will_v i_o trust_v in_o thou_o for_o i_o know_v assure_o that_o all_o these_o outward_a thing_n shall_v work_v together_o for_o the_o best_a for_o i_o and_o that_o my_o present_a suffering_n thou_o have_v send_v in_o mercy_n to_o i_o to_o humble_v i_o for_o sin_n to_o preserve_v i_o from_o shame_n i_o kiss_v they_o i_o embrace_v they_o and_o be_o sincere_o thankful_a for_o they_o lord_n let_v i_o clear_o see_v for_o what_o sin_n thou_o have_v inflict_v this_o punishment_n that_o i_o may_v bewail_v it_o abhor_v it_o forsake_v it_o implore_v thy_o pardon_n for_o it_o when_o i_o be_o thus_o arm_v i_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o encounter_v thy_o fierce_a affliction_n if_o i_o be_o find_v naked_a the_o weak_a will_n foil_n i_o to_o thou_o o_o lord_n who_o wise_a and_o overrule_a hand_n dispose_v all_o occurrence_n of_o life_n and_o sweet_o guide_v they_o to_o the_o good_a of_o thy_o child_n do_v i_o address_v my_o sinful_a soul_n for_o mercy_n and_o protection_n lord_n open_a my_o eye_n that_o i_o may_v see_v and_o believe_v the_o constancy_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o the_o mutability_n of_o my_o outward_a condition_n give_v i_o a_o patient_a and_o a_o willing_a heart_n to_o welcome_v all_o the_o change_n of_o this_o present_a life_n to_o be_v humble_a under_o they_o to_o rejoice_v in_o they_o and_o be_v thankful_a for_o they_o forgive_v the_o pride_n of_o heart_n and_o prodigality_n of_o hand_n attend_v on_o my_o prosperous_a estate_n my_o great_a repine_n and_o ungodly_a passion_n incident_a to_o my_o decline_a happiness_n and_o increase_a misery_n as_o thou_o have_v wean_v i_o from_o the_o pleasure_n of_o this_o life_n by_o the_o rod_n of_o thy_o affliction_n so_o wean_v i_o also_o from_o the_o sin_n of_o this_o life_n by_o the_o staff_n of_o thy_o consolation_n that_o so_o my_o heart_n may_v be_v whole_o take_v off_o from_o all_o earthly_a enjoyment_n that_o i_o may_v become_v even_o as_o a_o wean_a child_n to_o forgo_v willing_o what_o thou_o deny_v i_o to_o receive_v quiet_o what_o thou_o provide_v for_o i_o what_o i_o want_v of_o these_o outward_a blessing_n supplier_fw-fr â—nto_fw-mi i_o by_o thy_o inward_a comfort_n which_o be_v inâ—finitely_o better_o for_o i_o and_o shall_v be_v therefore_o â—ver_v dear_a to_o i_o lord_n furnish_v i_o with_o grace_n suitable_a to_o all_o event_n and_o able_a to_o encourage_v i_o in_o all_o affliction_n lord_n sanctify_v this_o present_a sorrow_n to_o my_o sinful_a soul_n so_o sweeten_v it_o by_o thy_o grace_n that_o it_o may_v bring_v forth_o in_o i_o the_o quiet_a and_o the_o happy_a fruit_n of_o righteousness_n make_v it_o a_o sure_a pledge_n of_o thy_o fatherly_a affection_n towards_o i_o let_v it_o daily_o and_o hourly_o draw_v i_o near_o to_o thy_o presence_n let_v it_o wean_v i_o from_o the_o misery_n of_o sin_n and_o at_o last_o bring_v i_o to_o the_o sweet_a fruition_n of_o eternity_n amen_n chap._n 24._o upon_o unchearfulness_n in_o christianity_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o ah_o lord_n from_z whence_o be_v my_o uncheerfulness_n my_o dulness_n in_o my_o christian_a calling_n how_o much_o below_o that_o glorious_a hope_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o when_o i_o consider_v of_o the_o richness_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n i_o find_v thou_o to_o be_v all_o in_o all_o unto_o i_o and_o may_v well_o wonder_v at_o my_o own_o unthankfulness_n and_o ignorance_n that_o be_v still_v dote_v on_o this_o world_n nothing_o and_z uncertainty_n thou_o o_o lord_n art_n true_o and_o eternal_o good_a and_o therefore_o able_a to_o derive_v eternity_n of_o happiness_n before_o i_o be_v create_v i_o be_v thou_o and_o when_o i_o be_v not_o my_o own_o thou_o become_v mine_n thou_o o_o my_o saviour_n who_o have_v give_v i_o thy_o sâ—lf_n can_v deny_v i_o nothing_o what_o be_v too_o good_a too_o great_a too_o glorious_a for_o that_o soâ—â—_n which_o thou_o have_v redeem_v at_o so_o dear_a a_o rate_n â—s_v the_o price_n of_o thy_o own_o blood_n and_o espouse_v to_o thy_o own_o bosom_n thy_o creature_n be_v at_o peace_n with_o i_o thy_o holy_a angel_n attend_v i_o guard_v i_o fight_v for_o i_o rejoice_v at_o my_o conversion_n thy_o saint_n triumphant_a pray_v for_o i_o the_o devil_n fly_v from_o i_o and_o thou_o o_o lord_n by_o thy_o almighty_a power_n and_o gracious_a providence_n be_v ever_o with_o i_o thou_o care_v for_o i_o from_o the_o cradle_n to_o the_o tomb_n thou_o be_v about_o my_o bed_n and_o about_o my_o path_n and_o spy_a out_o all_o my_o way_n yea_o thy_o mercy_n embrace_v i_o on_o every_o side_n when_o i_o sleep_v i_o be_o safe_a when_o i_o awake_v joyful_a in_o prosperity_n i_o have_v thy_o rod_n to_o afflict_v i_o in_o adversity_n thy_o staff_n to_o comfort_v i_o lord_n while_o i_o be_o in_o thy_o favour_n i_o can_v look_v no_o way_n but_o to_o happiness_n if_o i_o walk_v not_o answerable_a to_o it_o i_o may_v well_o fear_v to_o be_v deprive_v of_o it_o and_o doubtless_o o_o my_o soul_n those_o eye_n which_o look_v so_o gracious_o upon_o thou_o in_o this_o life_n will_v behold_v thou_o with_o a_o more_o earnest_n with_o a_o more_o endear_a love_n in_o that_o to_o come_v these_o transitory_a glance_n be_v but_o the_o faithful_a pledge_n of_o those_o future_a embrace_n those_o arm_n of_o mercy_n which_o now_o support_v thou_o in_o thou_o often_o fail_n shall_v then_o encompass_v thou_o with_o glory_n those_o bless_a hand_n which_o now_o chastise_v thou_o for_o thy_o rebellion_n will_v then_o wipe_v away_o all_o tear_n from_o thy_o eye_n and_o that_o relent_a heart_n which_o sometime_o be_v most_o unwilling_o withdraw_v from_o thou_o for_o thy_o apostasy_n will_v then_o unite_v itself_o to_o thou_o for_o ever_o lord_n who_o can_v be_v a_o christian_n and_o be_v sad_a who_o can_v believe_v all_o this_o and_o not_o triumph_v in_o joyful_a exaltation_n and_o not_o insult_v over_o the_o sorrow_n of_o this_o life_n and_o not_o contemn_v the_o joy_n of_o this_o bewitch_a world_n and_o not_o resist_v these_o cloudy_a discontent_a thought_n these_o close_a assault_n of_o satan_n never-resting_a malice_n million_o of_o world_n miriads_o of_o angel_n can_v restore_v that_o curse_a spirit_n to_o this_o happiness_n which_o thou_o now_o enjoy_v and_o yet_o so_o slight_o regard_v o_o let_v this_o teach_v thou_o to_o abhor_v his_o foul_a temptation_n to_o consider_v of_o thy_o worth_n in_o christ_n and_o to_o raise_v thyself_o above_o the_o reach_n of_o earthly_a misery_n to_o love_v thy_o god_n faithful_o to_o serve_v he_o cheerful_o to_o persevere_v joyful_o to_o be_v patient_a in_o tribulation_n to_o rejoice_v in_o hope_n to_o pray_v continual_o to_o thirst_n after_o the_o sweetness_n of_o his_o grace_n and_o earnest_o to_o long_o for_o the_o consummation_n of_o his_o glory_n bless_a god_n how_o unworthy_a be_o i_o to_o be_v call_v thy_o servant_n who_o have_v so_o long_o be_v subject_n to_o the_o world_n command_n how_o undeserving_a of_o the_o glorious_a liberty_n of_o thy_o son_n who_o have_v so_o willing_o be_v fetter_v by_o my_o own_o corruption_n how_o uncapable_a of_o thy_o heavenly_a comfort_n that_o can_v rejoice_v in_o nothing_o but_o these_o earthly_a vanity_n lord_n open_a my_o eye_n that_o i_o may_v see_v the_o richness_n of_o the_o price_n of_o my_o high_a call_n in_o christ_n jesus_n and_o endeavour_v to_o walk_v worthy_a of_o it_o that_o i_o may_v earnest_o desire_v thou_o joyful_o embrace_v thou_o and_o constant_o and_o cheerful_o devote_v my_o service_n to_o thou_o forgive_v my_o drowsiness_n my_o dulness_n my_o backwardness_n to_o holy_a duty_n awake_v my_o sinful_a soul_n from_o sensuality_n and_o raise_v it_o to_o the_o bless_a thought_n of_o sweet_a eternity_n compassionate_a my_o weakness_n accept_v my_o willingness_n forgive_v my_o sinfulness_n quicken_v my_o dulness_n correct_v my_o untowardness_n lord_n bring_v i_o to_o such_o a_o bless_a frame_n of_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v willing_o forgo_v the_o sin_n and_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n and_o frequent_o delight_v myself_o with_o contemplation_n of_o thy_o joy_n in_o that_o to_o câ—me_n chap._n 25._o upon_o man_n sinful_a frailty_n in_o the_o hour_n of_o temptation_n with_o motive_n to_o make_v resistance_n i_o be_o now_o in_o the_o list_n with_o satan_n and_o this_o hour_n to_o fight_v the_o lord_n battle_n god_n see_v i_o and_o his_o holy_a angel_n see_v i_o i_o have_v long_o profess_v myself_o to_o be_v christ_n soldier_n and_o he_o have_v now_o bring_v i_o to_o the_o field_n to_o prove_v i_o now_o be_v
joyfulness_n of_o heart_n content_o rely_v upon_o thou_o enrich_v my_o heart_n with_o heavenly_a thought_n give_v i_o that_o better_a part_n which_o can_v be_v take_v from_o i_o lord_n what_o thou_o deny_v i_o of_o these_o outward_a comfort_n make_v good_a unto_o i_o by_o thy_o inward_a mercy_n that_o all_o these_o earthly_a thing_n may_v work_v together_o to_o the_o best_a to_o my_o advantage_n so_o shall_v my_o present_a poverty_n be_v a_o undoubted_a earnest_n of_o my_o future_a glory_n amen_n chap._n 34._o upon_o sickness_n and_o ungodly_a repine_v thereat_o as_o every_o good_a and_o perfect_a gift_n be_v from_o above_o so_o be_v also_o every_o punishment_n for_o sin_n by_o every_o proportion_n of_o sorrow_n for_o misery_n come_v not_o out_o of_o the_o dust_n neither_o do_v affliction_n spring_v out_o of_o the_o earth_n job_n 1.5_o 6._o that_o divine_a goodness_n which_o wise_o and_o affectionate_o dispose_v all_o thing_n to_o the_o good_a of_o his_o choose_a by_o his_o holy_a providence_n have_v suit_v their_o degree_n limit_v their_o power_n and_o appoint_v their_o end_n every_o pain_n in_o sickness_n every_o pang_n in_o death_n have_v their_o just_a number_n weight_n and_o measure_n ied_a be_v the_o lord_n let_v he_o do_v what_o he_o will_v nothing_o can_v befall_v i_o but_o by_o his_o divine_a allowance_n nothing_o shall_v dismay_v i_o that_o my_o god_n inflict_v on_o i_o if_o my_o visitation_n be_v grievous_a i_o be_o sure_a it_o be_v safe_a for_o he_o chastise_v i_o for_o my_o profit_n that_o i_o may_v be_v partaker_n of_o his_o holiness_n bless_a be_v that_o sorrow_n which_o allure_v i_o from_o sin_n bless_a be_v that_o misery_n that_o invit_v i_o to_o mercy_n 〈◊〉_d kiss_v it_o i_o embrace_v it_o and_o with_o humbleness_n of_o heart_n i_o joyful_o and_o patient_o submit_v unto_o it_o the_o lord_n give_v and_o the_o lord_n take_v bless_a be_v the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n job_n 1.21_o i_o humble_o confess_v lord_n that_o my_o great_a and_o grievous_a sin_n have_v most_o just_o deserve_v this_o great_a and_o grievous_a affliction_n that_o thou_o may_v long_o since_o have_v deprive_v i_o of_o my_o life_n for_o deprive_v thou_o of_o thy_o honour_n that_o i_o be_o most_o unworthy_a of_o this_o thy_o gentle_a visitation_n for_o i_o be_o full_a of_o rottenness_n and_o corruption_n and_o therefore_o can_v expect_v no_o other_o but_o to_o be_v fill_v with_o sorrow_n and_o affliction_n thou_o have_v give_v i_o a_o body_n for_o thy_o service_n but_o i_o have_v defile_v it_o with_o sin_n and_o wickedness_n thou_o give_v i_o a_o soul_n enrich_v with_o thy_o heavenly_a grace_n but_o i_o have_v deface_v it_o with_o unthankfulness_n and_o disobedience_n no_o faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n no_o member_n of_o my_o body_n but_o be_v most_o impure_a and_o sinful_a in_o thy_o sight_n thou_o o_o lord_n know_v all_o my_o foolishness_n and_o my_o fault_n be_v not_o hide_v from_o thou_o thou_o see_v how_o vain_o i_o have_v mis-spend_v my_o precious_a time_n how_o careless_o abuse_v that_o continue_a health_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o how_o serious_o be_v busy_v on_o the_o creature_n how_o wretched_o neglect_v thou_o the_o great_a creator_n thou_o have_v often_o wean_v i_o from_o sin_n by_o thy_o bless_a motion_n by_o thy_o gracious_a admonition_n by_o thy_o gentle_a visitation_n by_o a_o waste_a body_n and_o a_o wound_a soul_n and_o yet_o i_o still_o sin_n without_o cease_v without_o sorrow_v without_o repent_v such_o be_v my_o fault_n so_o grievous_a my_o offence_n that_o i_o now_o blush_v to_o name_v those_o sin_n before_o thou_o by_o which_o i_o have_v so_o often_o and_o so_o foolish_o rebel_v against_o thou_o and_o now_o after_o all_o this_o although_o thou_o have_v with_o last_a patience_n wait_v my_o return_n and_o be_v enforce_v to_o withdraw_v thy_o present_a mercy_n yet_o thou_o be_v move_v to_o behold_v my_o present_a misery_n euâ—n_v in_o thy_o very_a wrath_n thou_o have_v compassion_n on_o i_o habac._n 3.2_o while_o thou_o seem_v by_o this_o present_a sickness_n to_o withhold_v thy_o favour_n from_o i_o thou_o gracious_o intend_v by_o this_o bless_a mean_n to_o show_v thyself_o more_o love_o unto_o i_o for_o i_o know_v lord_n that_o thy_o judgement_n be_v just_a and_o that_o thou_o of_o very_o faithfulnesshast_a cause_v i_o to_o be_v trouble_v psal_n 119.75_o theresore_n though_o thou_o kill_v i_o yet_o will_v i_o trust_v in_o thou_o job_n 13.15_o though_o i_o walk_v through_o the_o valley_n of_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n yet_o will_v i_o fear_v no_o evil_a psal_n 23.4_o behold_v lord_n i_o be_o willing_o and_o joyful_o and_o thankful_o in_o thy_o hand_n do_v with_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v if_o i_o live_v i_o shall_v praise_v thou_o if_o i_o die_v i_o trust_v i_o shall_v go_v home_o unto_o thou_o and_o be_v for_o ever_o bless_v with_o thou_o o_o thou_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o god_n of_o all_o consolation_n behold_v i_o thy_o sick_a servant_n with_o thy_o eye_n of_o pity_n and_o compassion_n o_o remember_v not_o my_o former_a sin_n but_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o that_o soon_o for_o i_o be_o come_v unto_o great_a extremity_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o be_o trouble_v i_o be_o bow_v down_o great_o i_o go_v mourn_v all_o the_o day_n long_o thou_o write_v bitter_a thing_n against_o i_o and_o make_v i_o possess_v the_o iniquity_n of_o my_o youth_n o_o let_v the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o mercy_n qualify_v the_o sharpness_n of_o thy_o fatherly_a correction_n consider_v i_o o_o lord_n that_o i_o be_o but_o dust_n full_a of_o frailty_n and_o infirmity_n forgive_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n remember_v not_o the_o sinful_a fail_n of_o my_o youth_n but_o according_a to_o the_o richness_n of_o thy_o goodness_n be_v thou_o mindful_a of_o i_o o_o righteous_a father_n look_v not_o on_o the_o multitude_n and_o heinousness_n of_o my_o offence_n but_o look_v upon_o the_o bitter_a passion_n of_o thy_o bless_a son_n he_o be_v wound_v for_o my_o transgression_n he_o be_v break_v for_o my_o iniquity_n o_o by_o he_o bless_a stripe_n let_v my_o sinful_a soul_n be_v heal_v enable_n i_o to_o suffer_v this_o thy_o gentle_a visitation_n with_o that_o meekness_n and_o contentedness_n of_o soul_n that_o become_v thy_o child_n and_o so_o bless_v it_o unto_o i_o that_o it_o may_v bring_v forth_o in_o i_o the_o quiet_a and_o the_o happy_a fruit_n of_o righteousness_n that_o it_o may_v drive_v my_o thought_n to_o immortality_n and_o fix_v my_o soul_n upon_o eternity_n bless_a lord_n my_o hope_n be_v in_o thou_o my_o soul_n trust_v in_o thou_o and_o under_o the_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n shall_v be_v my_o refuge_n until_o this_o misery_n be_v overpast_v o_o lord_n consider_v my_o complaint_n for_o i_o be_o bring_v very_o low_o let_v my_o present_a anguish_n more_o prevail_v with_o thou_o to_o move_v thou_o to_o compassion_n than_o my_o former_a foolishness_n to_o stir_v thy_o wrath_n and_o indignation_n o_o enter_v not_o into_o judgement_n with_o thy_o servant_n for_o no_o flesh_n be_v righteous_a in_o thy_o sight_n lord_n i_o confess_v my_o wickedness_n and_o be_o sorry_a for_o my_o sin_n for_o thy_o name_n sake_n o_o lord_n be_v merciful_a unto_o my_o sin_n for_o it_o be_v great_a my_o confusion_n be_v daily_o before_o i_o and_o the_o shame_n of_o my_o face_n have_v cover_v i_o my_o heart_n be_v disquiet_v within_o i_o and_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n be_v fall_v upon_o i_o lord_n i_o be_o thou_o o_o save_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commend_v myself_o for_o thou_o have_v redeem_v i_o o_o lord_n thou_o god_n of_o truth_n forsake_v i_o not_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n be_v not_o thou_o far_o from_o i_o have_v thou_o to_o help_v i_o o_o lord_n god_n of_o my_o salvation_n o_o spare_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n that_o i_o may_v recover_v my_o strength_n before_o i_o go_v hence_o and_o be_v no_o more_o see_v amen_n chap._n 35._o upon_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n i_o be_o a_o pilgrim_n and_o a_o stranger_n here_o as_o all_o my_o father_n be_v i_o be_o weary_v out_o with_o travel_n and_o long_o to_o be_v at_o rest_n i_o be_o lodge_v here_o but_o with_o great_a cost_n and_o great_a danger_n this_o seem_a sweetness_n have_v cost_v i_o much_o true_a sorrow_n many_o bitter_a sigh_n and_o ache_a heart_n disturbance_n of_o body_n distraction_n of_o soul_n i_o have_v seek_v for_o help_v here_o below_o but_o can_v find_v none_o no_o creature_n on_o earth_n to_o relieve_v i_o none_o to_o support_v i_o i_o have_v see_v pleasure_n to_o be_v folly_n and_o laughter_n madness_n man_n of_o low_a degree_n to_o be_v vanity_n of_o high_a degree_n a_o lie_n their_o understanding_n vain_a their_o labour_n vain_a
frailty_n commiserate_v his_o infirmity_n forgive_v his_o iniquity_n lord_n purge_v he_o by_o thy_o precious_a blood_n clothe_v he_o with_o thy_o own_o righteousness_n enrich_v he_o with_o thy_o bless_a merit_n and_o plead_v they_o to_o thy_o father_n for_o he_o o_o thou_o holy_a and_o for_o ever_o bless_a spirit_n who_o be_v the_o pure_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a love_n be_v present_a with_o he_o relieve_v and_o comfort_v he_o in_o all_o these_o bitter_a pang_n of_o his_o last_o hour_n endue_v he_o with_o a_o willingness_n and_o cheerfulness_n to_o leave_v this_o transitory_a life_n and_o crown_v he_o with_o eternity_n of_o joy_n in_o that_o to_o come_v and_o now_o o_o lord_n we_o come_v unto_o thou_o for_o ourselves_o who_o be_v here_o at_o this_o time_n upon_o our_o sinful_a knee_n before_o thou_o lord_z open_z our_o eye_n that_o we_o may_v serious_o consider_v of_o that_o last_o and_o solemn_a hour_n of_o our_o departure_n lord_n sanctify_v our_o heart_n that_o while_o we_o be_v encompass_v with_o sinful_a flesh_n we_o may_v lament_v our_o often_o fail_n and_o infirmity_n and_o every_o day_n be_v more_o and_o more_o desirous_a to_o go_v home_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o god_n of_o spirit_n lord_n give_v we_o grace_n that_o we_o may_v walk_v sober_o and_o righteous_o and_o holy_o as_o become_v thy_o child_n that_o at_o the_o resurrection_n of_o the_o just_a our_o soul_n and_o body_n may_v enjoy_v the_o bless_a consummation_n of_o their_o endless_a happiness_n lord_n hear_v our_o prayer_n and_o let_v our_o cry_n come_v unto_o thou_o for_o thy_o name_n sake_n for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n for_o thy_o bless_a son_n sake_n amen_n the_o conclusion_n bless_a lord_n god_n by_o who_o only_a mercy_n i_o have_v finish_v this_o imperfect_a work_n as_o i_o begin_v it_o by_o thy_o goodness_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o end_v it_o with_o thy_o praise_n lord_n accept_v of_o it_o and_o gracious_o afford_v thy_o blessing_n to_o it_o let_v not_o the_o weakness_n and_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o i_o the_o instrument_n be_v the_o reader_n discouragement_n but_o give_v glory_n and_o honour_n to_o thou_o the_o agent_n for_o of_o thou_o and_o through_o thou_o and_o to_o thou_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o thou_o be_v praise_n for_o ever_o amen_n soli_fw-la deo_fw-la gloria_fw-la for_o the_o comfort_n and_o assistance_n of_o those_o that_o be_v ready_a to_o depart_v this_o life_n i_o have_v hereunto_o add_v the_o die_a confession_n of_o mr._n anthâ—ny_n sadler_n minister_n of_o god_n word_n at_o westthorock_a in_o essex_n of_o which_o i_o be_v a_o earwitness_n obiit_fw-la vicesimo_fw-la die_v maii_n anno_fw-la 1643._o the_o lord_n have_v lay_v a_o gracious_a and_o a_o gentle_a visitation_n on_o i_o i_o do_v acknowledge_v with_o a_o thankful_a heart_n that_o this_o weakness_n of_o body_n this_o languish_a of_o nature_n these_o painful_a day_n and_o night_n be_v from_o he_o for_o misery_n come_v not_o out_o of_o the_o dust_n neither_o do_v affliction_n spring_v out_o of_o the_o earth_n job_n 5.6_o ah_o my_o friend_n little_o do_v man_n think_v how_o much_o the_o great_a disturbance_n of_o sickness_n how_o much_o he_o pain_n and_o infirm_a tie_n of_o a_o dec_fw-la ie_v body_n distract_v those_o bless_a thought_n those_o sweet_a and_o happy_a meditation_n which_o the_o trouble_a soul_n desire_n the_o spirit_n be_v willing_a but_o the_o flesh_n be_v weak_a lord_n jesus_n strengthen_v the_o inward_a man_n and_o lay_v no_o more_o upon_o this_o sinful_a bâ—dy_n than_o thou_o in_o mercy_n shall_v enable_v it_o to_o bear_v i_o be_o now_o very_o persuade_v that_o god_n have_v purpose_v to_o determine_v my_o day_n his_o bless_a will_n be_v do_v even_o so_o lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o he_o that_o look_v into_o his_o life_n past_a that_o ransake_v his_o soul_n and_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o sinful_a fail_n of_o his_o youth_n will_v find_v it_o very_o hard_a and_o difficult_a to_o make_v his_o call_n and_o election_n sure_a i_o have_v earnest_o desire_v to_o leave_v no_o corner_n of_o my_o soul_n unsearched_a and_o i_o find_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o very_a great_a and_o wretched_a sinner_n i_o have_v commit_v grievous_a sin_n very_o grievous_a sin_n such_o sin_n as_o be_v not_o fit_a to_o be_v name_v before_o god_n saint_n i_o have_v examine_v my_o soul_n by_o each_o particular_a commandment_n and_o i_o find_v myself_o guilty_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o all_o and_o that_o in_o a_o high_a manner_n especial_o consider_v that_o weighty_a function_n god_n providence_n have_v call_v i_o unto_o i_o have_v not_o only_o sin_v against_o my_o own_o soul_n but_o against_o the_o soul_n of_o other_o too_o who_o i_o have_v corrupt_v by_o my_o ill_a example_n and_o that_o very_a often_o and_o now_o when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o glass_n of_o the_o law_n and_o there_o see_v my_o own_o vildness_n i_o find_v god_n justice_n and_o my_o own_o desert_n even_o ready_a to_o surprise_v and_o cast_v i_o down_o into_o the_o nethermost_a hell_n and_o that_o most_o righteous_o but_o o_o see_v the_o goodness_n of_o a_o gracious_a god_n i_o now_o come_v to_o lay_v hold_n upon_o the_o promise_n but_o how_o not_o without_o repentance_n not_o presume_o i_o apply_v they_o not_o in_o a_o general_a but_o particular_a way_n i_o do_v not_o only_o believe_v that_o christ_n jesus_n come_v iâ—_n to_o the_o world_n to_o save_v sinner_n but_o i_o believe_v also_o that_o he_o die_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o rise_v again_o for_o my_o justification_n god_n have_v promise_v and_o all_o his_o promise_n be_v yea_o and_o amen_o that_o he_o will_v not_o forsake_v those_o which_o trust_v in_o he_o nay_o he_o have_v bind_v himself_o unto_o it_o by_o a_o oath_n by_o two_o immutable_a thing_n which_o can_v fail_v his_o truth_n and_o his_o holiness_n heb._n 6.18_o and_o god_n have_v say_v that_o he_o which_o confess_v and_o forsake_v his_o sin_n shall_v find_v mercy_n 1_o joh._n 1.9_o i_o acknowledge_v they_o i_o confess_v they_o i_o be_o grieve_v for_o they_o i_o forsake_v they_o i_o abhor_v themwhat_o shall_v i_o do_v more_o god_n require_v not_o more_o of_o i_o tear_n these_o pause_n be_v supply_v with_o tear_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o i_o can_v find_v myself_o assure_v of_o his_o favour_n methinks_v this_o sorrow_n be_v not_o so_o hearty_a as_o it_o ought_v to_o be_v and_o yet_o i_o know_v and_o steadfast_o believe_v that_o if_o god_n do_v not_o work_v with_o i_o this_o sorrow_n can_v not_o be_v and_o where_o he_o work_v there_o can_v be_v nothing_o want_v i_o know_v that_o the_o most_o righteous_a man_n alive_a can_v perform_v this_o work_n so_o perfect_o as_o he_o ought_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v that_o he_o which_o be_v ascend_v up_o on_o high_a have_v do_v it_o for_o i_o in_o that_o full_a and_o ample_a manner_n which_o be_v able_a to_o appease_v his_o father_n wrath_n and_o i_o now_o trust_v that_o by_o his_o perfect_a obedience_n this_o imperfect_a work_n of_o i_o shall_v find_v a_o gracious_a acceptation_n this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o this_o my_o belief_n nay_o i_o can_v go_v yet_o a_o little_a further_o to_o strengthen_v my_o assurance_n that_o my_o peace_n be_v make_v with_o god_n i_o every_o day_n and_o every_o hour_n do_v pray_v unto_o my_o saviour_n to_o intercede_v his_o father_n for_o i_o and_o if_o i_o implore_v he_o he_o will_v intercede_v his_o father_n and_o if_o he_o intercede_v his_o father_n he_o can_v be_v deny_v o_o my_o god_n impute_v my_o sin_n to_o he_o transfer_v his_o righteousness_n to_o i_o and_o then_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v appear_v a_o glorious_a soul_n before_o thou_o amen_n finis_fw-la the_o content_n chap._n 1._o upon_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o our_o thought_n touch_v the_o sacred_a deity_n with_o holy_a caution_n to_o order_v our_o devotion_n aright_o pag._n 2._o chap._n 2._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n love_n and_o man_n unthankfulness_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o morning_n pag._n 9_o chap._n 3._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n a_o meditation_n for_o noon_n pag._n 14_o chap._n 4._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n shortness_n and_o uncertainâ—y_n of_o life_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o evening_n pag._n 17_o chap._n 5._o upon_o our_o approach_n unto_o god_n house_n with_o necessary_a caution_n for_o our_o behaviour_n there_o pag._n 20_o chap._n 6._o upon_o our_o return_v from_o god_n house_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o private_a duty_n pag._n 24_o chap._n 7._o upon_o the_o want_n of_o due_a preparation_n for_o receive_v of_o the_o lord_n supper_n pag._n 27_o chap._n 8._o contain_v pious_a ejaculation_n at_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v pag._n 30_o chap._n 9_o contain_v a_o brief_a meditation_n and_o pious_a thanksgiving_n after_o our_o receive_v pag._n 31_o chap._n 10._o upon_o a_o journey_n undertake_v and_o the_o many_o danger_n incident_a thereunto_o pag._n 32_o chap._n 11._o contain_v pious_a meditation_n and_o zealous_a ejaculation_n after_o a_o journey_n pag._n 34_o chap._n 12._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o security_n pag._n 37_o chap._n 13._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o prosumption_n pag._n 41_o chap._n 14._o upon_o quench_v of_o the_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n pag._n 47_o chap._n 15._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n peculiar_a providence_n to_o his_o child_n pag._n 51_o chap._n 16._o upon_o sinful_a anger_n and_o the_o great_a disturbance_n thereof_o pag._n 55_o chap._n 17._o upon_o man_n inordinate_a love_n to_o the_o creature_n pag._n 58_o chap._n 18._o upon_o the_o sin_n of_o uncleaness_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 63_o chap._n 19_o upon_o immoderate_a mirth_n and_o the_o great_a inconvenience_n thereof_o pag._n 67_o chap._n 20._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o defer_v the_o hour_n of_o repentance_n pag._n 75_o chap._n 21._o upon_o servile_a fear_n and_o the_o danger_n thereof_o pag._n 79_o chap._n 22._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o reckon_v daily_o with_o our_o thought_n and_o the_o benefit_n lose_v thereby_o pag._n 84_o chap._n 23._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dullness_n in_o affliction_n pag._n 87_o chap._n 24._o upon_o uncheerfulnesse_n in_o christianity_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 91_o chap._n 25._o upon_o man_n sinful_a frailty_n in_o the_o hour_n of_o temptation_n with_o motive_n to_o make_v resistance_n pag._n 94_o chap._n 26._o upon_o the_o infirmity_n of_o the_o saint_n pag._n 97_o chap._n 27._o upon_o desertion_n pag._n 101_o chap._n 28._o upon_o sudden_a danger_n pag._n 106_o chap._n 29._o upon_o the_o weakness_n of_o faith_n and_o sinfulness_n of_o thought_n tend_v to_o despair_n pag._n 107_o chap._n 30._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o the_o duty_n of_o prayer_n pag._n 111_o chap._n 31._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o read_v the_o sacred_a scripture_n pag._n 114_o chap._n 32._o upon_o the_o neglect_n of_o divine_a meditation_n pag._n 117_o chap._n 33._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dejectedness_n in_o poverty_n pag._n 119_o chap._n 34._o upon_o sickness_n and_o ungodly_a repine_v thereat_o pag._n 122_o chap._n 35._o upon_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n pag._n 126_o chap._n 36._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o opportunity_n in_o do_v good_a to_o the_o saint_n pag._n 131_o chap._n 37._o upon_o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o the_o heart_n in_o the_o performance_n of_o holy_a duty_n pag._n 135_o chap._n 38._o upon_o the_o unrulinesse_n of_o the_o tongue_n with_o necessary_a caution_n to_o restrain_v it_o pag._n 140_o chap._n 39_o upon_o holy_a revenge_n for_o sin_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n thereunto_o pag._n 144_o chap._n 40._o upon_o the_o bless_a condition_n of_o the_o saint_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n unto_o godliness_n pag._n 147_o a_o comfortable_a prayer_n to_o be_v use_v at_o the_o point_n of_o death_n by_o the_o visitor_n of_o the_o sick_n pag._n 157_o finis_fw-la
be_v swallow_v up_o of_o mercy_n and_o frailty_n of_o eternity_n unite_v i_o in_o a_o bless_a union_n with_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v constant_o adhere_v unto_o thou_o and_o be_v for_o ever_o gracious_o accept_v of_o thou_o o_o give_v i_o a_o sweet_a complacency_n of_o soul_n in_o thy_o service_n and_o a_o willing_a and_o a_o dutiful_a obedience_n unto_o thy_o command_n lord_n give_v i_o a_o thankful_a heart_n for_o all_o thy_o mercy_n to_o i_o for_o thy_o continual_a preservation_n for_o thy_o bless_a supportation_n for_o the_o enjoyment_n of_o thy_o needful_a comfort_n in_o this_o life_n and_o for_o the_o glorious_a hope_n of_o those_o in_o that_o to_o come_v bless_a god_n so_o sublimate_v my_o sinful_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v see_v the_o richness_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n that_o i_o may_v sober_o enjoy_v thy_o blessing_n here_o and_o faithful_o expect_v thy_o joy_n hereafter_o lord_n all_o that_o i_o have_v without_o thou_o be_v mere_a emptiness_n and_o nothing_o mere_a vanity_n and_o worse_o than_o nothing_o my_o glory_n shame_n my_o honour_n ignominy_n my_o health_n ruin_n my_o riches_n poverty_n my_o gain_n loss_n my_o pleasure_n pain_n my_o laughter_n madness_n thou_o o_o lord_n be_v all_o in_o all_o unto_o i_o o_o grant_v that_o nothing_o may_v withdraw_v my_o service_n from_o thou_o that_o no_o entice_a pleasure_n may_v allure_v i_o that_o no_o distract_n care_n or_o sinful_a sorrow_n may_v disturb_v i_o but_o that_o my_o soul_n may_v now_o and_o ever_o safe_o and_o content_o rely_v upon_o thou_o lord_n thou_o see_v all_o my_o desire_n and_o my_o continual_a groan_n be_v not_o hide_v from_o thou_o thou_o alone_o know_v how_o weary_a i_o be_o of_o the_o sinful_a travail_n of_o this_o life_n how_o earnest_o i_o long_o to_o be_v at_o rest_n with_o thou_o lord_n pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o put_v a_o end_n to_o all_o my_o misery_n come_v lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o wipe_v away_o all_o tear_n from_o my_o eye_n and_o bring_v i_o to_o that_o rest_n of_o thou_o which_o never_o shall_v have_v end_n amen_n chap._n 12._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o security_n deceive_v not_o thyself_o o_o my_o soul_n it_o be_v not_o so_o easy_a a_o matter_n to_o inherit_v heaven_n as_o thou_o imagine_v there_o will_v be_v much_o fight_v sweat_a bleed_a much_o compunction_n of_o soul_n subjection_n of_o body_n hard_o press_v towards_o the_o mark_n for_o the_o price_n of_o the_o high_a call_n in_o christ_n jesus_n before_o this_o happy_a conquest_n can_v be_v gain_v consider_v therefore_o in_o what_o condition_n thou_o now_o stand_v what_o ground_n thou_o have_v gain_v of_o thy_o corrupt_a nature_n how_o much_o better_o thou_o be_v this_o day_n than_o the_o day_n past_a than_o the_o year_n past_a than_o thy_o whole_a life_n past_a nay_o rather_o how_o much_o worse_o by_o add_v sin_n unto_o sin_n by_o drink_v in_o iniquity_n like_o water_n by_o treasure_v up_o wrath_n against_o the_o day_n of_o wrath_n and_o revelation_n of_o thy_o righteous_a judgement_n philosophy_n will_v tell_v thou_o that_o in_o all_o natural_a motion_n the_o near_o they_o be_v to_o end_n the_o more_o violent_a their_o motion_n be_v divinity_n will_v tell_v thou_o that_o in_o old_a age_n thou_o will_v be_v fat_a and_o well_o like_n what_o increase_n of_o love_n have_v thou_o to_o god_n law_n what_o growth_n of_o hatred_n against_o sin_n what_o bosome-sin_n have_v thou_o part_v with_o what_o gracious_a improvement_n have_v thou_o make_v in_o knowledge_n faith_n repentance_n love_n and_o all_o those_o other_o gift_n and_o grace_n which_o concur_v to_o thy_o perfection_n holy_a saint_n anselm_n be_v often_o hear_v to_o say_v if_o i_o can_v from_o hence_o behold_v the_o pain_n of_o hell_n from_o thence_o the_o horror_n of_o sin_n i_o will_v rather_o embrace_v those_o pain_n than_o this_o horror_n o_o what_o growth_n of_o grace_n be_v here_o how_o far_o be_o i_o from_o this_o degree_n of_o holiness_n how_o easy_o persuade_v to_o delude_v myself_o with_o show_n and_o shadow_n of_o perfection_n there_o be_v no_o attain_n unto_o happiness_n without_o holy_a violence_n without_o beat_v down_o my_o body_n without_o cherish_v my_o soul_n if_o i_o conquer_v not_o here_o i_o can_v triumph_v hereafter_o lord_n when_o i_o look_v into_o the_o strictness_n of_o the_o life_n of_o thy_o saint_n i_o much_o lament_v the_o folly_n of_o my_o own_o i_o see_v holy_a david_n in_o sackcloth_n and_o ash_n consume_v whole_a day_n and_o night_n in_o mourning_n for_o sâ—n_n wash_v his_o bed_n with_o his_o tear_n afflict_v in_o body_n torment_v in_o soul_n grieve_v cry_v roar_a for_o unquietness_n of_o heart_n bless_a paul_n subdue_a his_o body_n by_o fast_v watch_v pray_v toil_a in_o the_o ministry_n and_o thou_o my_o bless_a saviour_n in_o continual_a labour_n and_o sorrow_n for_o my_o sake_n how_o vain_a be_v my_o trust_n how_o false_a my_o hope_n how_o great_a my_o error_n to_o believe_v i_o run_v when_o i_o stand_v still_o to_o expect_v a_o triumph_n without_o a_o victory_n a_o victory_n without_o a_o combat_n lord_n if_o many_o that_o strive_v to_o enter_v in_o at_o the_o strait_a gate_n yet_o shall_v not_o be_v able_a what_o shall_v become_v of_o i_o who_o be_o so_o far_o from_o come_v to_o thou_o that_o i_o every_o day_n be_o run_v from_o thou_o who_o be_o not_o only_o opposite_a unto_o thou_o but_o even_o enmity_n itself_o against_o thou_o sometime_o i_o feel_v the_o sting_n and_o gripe_n of_o a_o wound_a conscience_n i_o know_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o grievous_a sinner_n but_o i_o quiet_a my_o disturbance_n by_o thou_o my_o saviour_n i_o willing_o accept_v of_o mercy_n from_o thou_o but_o grudge_o repine_v at_o service_n to_o thou_o thou_o bid_v i_o indeed_o to_o drink_v free_o of_o the_o water_n of_o life_n but_o thou_o command_v i_o also_o to_o make_v my_o call_n and_o election_n sure_a to_o work_v out_o my_o salvation_n with_o fear_n and_o tremble_a thou_o ordaine_v not_o the_o end_n without_o the_o mean_n if_o i_o rebellious_o neglect_v the_o one_o thou_o mayâ—st_v most_o righteous_o deny_v i_o the_o other_o lord_n what_o can_v it_o profit_v i_o to_o enjoy_v the_o pleasure_n of_o sin_n for_o a_o season_n when_o i_o deprive_v my_o soul_n of_o happiness_n for_o ever_o o_o let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o deplore_v my_o dangerous_a condition_n to_o go_v on_o cheerful_o in_o the_o way_n of_o godliness_n to_o think_v no_o cost_n too_o much_o no_o pain_n too_o great_a no_o grief_n too_o good_a to_o purchase_v heaven_n to_o consider_v serious_o that_o time_n once_o past_o can_v never_o be_v recall_v that_o this_o hour_n may_v be_v my_o last_o and_o bring_v i_o to_o eternity_n of_o torment_n where_o the_o stream_n be_v still_a there_o the_o channel_n be_v deep_a where_o there_o be_v least_o distrust_n there_o be_v usual_o most_o danger_n satan_n therefore_o disturb_v i_o not_o because_o i_o sleep_v in_o death_n but_o when_o thou_o lord_n shall_v open_v my_o eye_n to_o see_v the_o subtlety_n of_o this_o deceiver_n i_o shall_v then_o find_v that_o the_o water_n of_o sin_n be_v go_v over_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o be_o woeful_o drown_v in_o the_o great_a depth_n of_o security_n and_o can_v expect_v nothing_o without_o mercy_n but_o satan_n cruelty_n and_o my_o own_o endless_a misery_n to_o that_o sweet_a mercy_n therefore_o i_o appeal_v with_o earnestness_n of_o soul_n and_o humbleness_n of_o heart_n bemoan_v my_o sin_n bewail_v my_o transgression_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o thy_o gracious_a goodness_n and_o my_o own_o vileness_n i_o be_o utter_o ashamed_a to_o appear_v in_o thy_o presence_n thou_o have_v often_o call_v i_o to_o repentance_n but_o i_o have_v not_o hearken_v unto_o thou_o thou_o have_v love_o invite_v i_o to_o mercy_n but_o i_o have_v wilful_o refuse_v thou_o have_v clothe_v i_o with_o thy_o own_o garment_n and_o i_o have_v shameful_o defile_v it_o thou_o have_v enrich_v i_o with_o thy_o grace_n and_o i_o have_v rob_v thou_o of_o thy_o honour_n all_o this_o and_o infinite_o more_o than_o this_o thou_o have_v free_o do_v for_o i_o the_o worst_a of_o sinner_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o i_o have_v rebellious_o forsake_v thou_o and_o most_o ungratious_o be_v most_o unmindful_a of_o thou_o and_o now_o lord_n see_v that_o i_o be_o dead_a and_o putrify_a in_o sin_n and_o rot_a in_o corruption_n what_o else_o can_v i_o expect_v from_o thou_o but_o to_o be_v bury_v out_o of_o thy_o sight_n and_o yet_o thou_o still_o say_v unto_o i_o live_v o_o thou_o bless_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a good_a convey_v those_o happy_a stream_n of_o comfort_n to_o my_o sinful_a soul_n that_o may_v revive_v i_o from_o the_o grave_n of_o misery_n open_v my_o eye_n that_o i_o may_v see_v thou_o in_o thy_o
long_a patience_n in_o thy_o great_a goodness_n in_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n in_o thy_o fatherly_a affection_n towards_o i_o i_o be_o woeful_o sink_v into_o the_o deep_a mire_n of_o sin_n where_o no_o stay_n be_v lord_n uphold_v i_o by_o thy_o grace_n that_o i_o perish_v not_o eternal_o o_o deliver_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n for_o i_o be_o helpless_a and_o poor_a and_o my_o heart_n be_v wound_v within_o i_o let_v my_o soul_n live_v and_o it_o shall_v praise_v thou_o and_o thy_o judgement_n shall_v help_v i_o as_o thou_o have_v raise_v i_o by_o thy_o power_n so_o rule_v i_o by_o thy_o providence_n that_o thy_o grace_n may_v be_v far_o sweet_a with_o my_o suffering_n than_o my_o pleasure_n with_o my_o sin_n restrain_v my_o loose_a desire_n renew_v my_o good_a purpose_n assist_v my_o weak_a endeavour_n correct_v my_o error_n sustain_v my_o infirmity_n give_v i_o a_o godly_a sorrow_n for_o my_o sin_n a_o thankful_a heart_n for_o thy_o favour_n a_o filial_a fear_n of_o thy_o judgement_n a_o sincere_a love_n to_o thy_o law_n a_o holy_a constancy_n and_o happy_a perseverance_n to_o my_o life_n end_v amen_n chap._n 13._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o presumption_n alas_o my_o soul_n how_o vain_a be_v thou_o how_o wretched_a to_o presume_v upon_o the_o mercy_n of_o thy_o god_n how_o can_v thou_o be_v so_o foolish_a to_o believe_v that_o god_n will_v favour_v thou_o in_o that_o which_o he_o so_o severe_o punish_v in_o his_o own_o son_n think_v thou_o that_o precious_a blood_n be_v spill_v to_o cherish_v sin_n be_v not_o mistake_v for_o as_o christ_n jesus_n come_v into_o the_o world_n to_o save_v sinner_n so_o he_o come_v also_o to_o call_v sinner_n to_o repentance_n do_v thou_o argue_v well_o to_o say_v because_o god_n be_v merciful_a long-suffering_a and_o of_o great_a goodness_n therefore_o i_o will_v abuse_v his_o mercy_n in_o sin_v his_o patience_n by_o my_o long_a continue_v in_o sin_n his_o great_a goodness_n by_o my_o great_a unthankfulness_n be_v not_o this_o to_o mock_v his_o mercy_n to_o bid_v defiance_n to_o his_o justice_n to_o arm_v he_o with_o fury_n to_o invite_v he_o to_o revenge_v assure_v thyself_o the_o long_o he_o be_v in_o draw_v his_o bow_n the_o more_o forcible_a will_v he_o send_v his_o arrow_n deceive_v not_o thyself_o therefore_o god_n will_v not_o be_v so_o merciful_a to_o thou_o as_o to_o be_v unjust_a to_o himself_o all_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v mercy_n and_o truth_n mercy_n to_o support_v thy_o weakness_n truth_n to_o correct_v thy_o wilfulness_n there_o be_v therefore_o mercy_n with_o he_o that_o he_o may_v be_v fear_v not_o that_o he_o may_v be_v slight_v not_o that_o he_o may_v be_v shameful_o dishonour_v how_o full_a of_o falsehood_n be_v thy_o bold_a presumption_n thou_o cry_v peace_n peace_n when_o sudden_a war_n be_v ready_a to_o destroy_v thou_o there_o be_v no_o peace_n to_o the_o wicked_a say_v my_o god_n heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v up_o in_o arm_n against_o thou_o and_o there_o be_v none_o leave_v not_o 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so_o senseless_a to_o affect_v my_o own_o unhappiness_n to_o rejoice_v in_o labour_n and_o complain_v of_o rest_n what_o do_v i_o here_o any_o long_o the_o world_n love_v i_o not_o nor_o i_o it_o why_o do_v i_o thus_o dote_v upon_o my_o enemy_n when_o it_o frown_v it_o afflict_v i_o when_o it_o smile_v it_o betray_v i_o there_o be_v nothing_o in_o it_o but_o weariness_n and_o misery_n go_v out_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n go_v out_o cheerful_o from_o thy_o prison_n to_o thy_o palace_n god_n be_v thy_o father_n and_o heaven_n thy_o country_n thou_o be_v here_o distress_o poor_a and_o wretched_o naked_a bereave_v of_o grace_n despoil_v of_o goodness_n thou_o have_v there_o much_o treasure_n and_o of_o great_a price_n a_o fair_a mansion_n and_o a_o goodly_a heritage_n christ_n have_v purchase_v it_o and_o be_v go_v before_o to_o prepare_v it_o thou_o long_v much_o in_o this_o life_n to_o behold_v that_o which_o thou_o never_o see_v here_o be_v great_a and_o glorious_a thing_n prepare_v for_o thou_o such_o as_o eye_n have_v not_o see_v ear_n have_v not_o hear_v neither_o have_v enter_v into_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n to_o conceive_v how_o earnest_o shall_v thou_o long_o to_o see_v they_o how_o much_o more_o earnest_o to_o enjoy_v they_o how_o willing_o shall_v this_o make_v thou_o to_o express_v thyself_o with_o holy_a david_n and_o say_v my_o soul_n be_v athirst_a for_o god_n yea_o even_o for_o the_o live_a god_n when_o shall_v i_o come_v and_o appear_v before_o the_o presence_n of_o my_o god_n alas_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v here_o but_o grope_v in_o the_o dark_a daily_o err_v and_o mistake_v hourly_o stumble_v and_o sall_v into_o sin_n into_o shame_n into_o sorrow_n in_o great_a danger_n of_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n in_o great_a of_o the_o torment_n of_o eternal_a death_n all_o that_o thou_o know_v here_o be_v to_o know_v thyself_o ignorant_a thou_o only_o know_v thing_n here_o by_o their_o event_n thou_o shall_v there_o know_v they_o in_o their_o first_o cause_n thou_o be_v here_o weary_v out_o in_o gain_v this_o imperfect_a lame_a and_o empty_a knowledge_n thou_o shall_v there_o delight_v thyself_o in_o know_v all_o that_o be_v desirable_a by_o know_v he_o in_o who_o be_v all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n these_o drop_n of_o transitory_a joy_n be_v full_a of_o bitterness_n those_o river_n of_o eternal_a pleasure_n be_v derive_v from_o the_o fountain_n of_o eternal_a sweetness_n thou_o have_v here_o vain_a pomp_n to_o delight_v thou_o thou_o have_v there_o a_o far_o great_a and_o more_o exceed_a weight_n of_o glory_n to_o encompass_v thou_o thou_o be_v here_o enthrall_v by_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n thou_o be_v there_o enlarge_v by_o the_o blesedness_n of_o death_n bless_a lord_n all_o this_o by_o grace_n i_o know_v and_o faithful_o believe_v and_o yet_o by_o nature_n i_o be_o still_o blind_a and_o ignorant_a unable_a to_o discern_v unwilling_a to_o desire_v those_o bless_a thing_n which_o be_v belong_v to_o my_o 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lord_n let_v i_o then_o say_v with_o thy_o bless_a apostle_n that_o i_o know_v who_o i_o have_v trust_v that_o he_o will_v keep_v what_o i_o have_v deliver_v to_o he_o and_o restore_v it_o safe_o unto_o i_o at_o that_o day_n let_v i_o serious_o consider_v of_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n acquaint_v i_o every_o day_n with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o it_o and_o bless_v i_o every_o hour_n with_o a_o desire_n unto_o it_o that_o i_o may_v willing_o unclothe_v myself_o of_o sin_n and_o misery_n and_o joyful_o be_v clothe_v upon_o with_o immortality_n o_o lord_n prepare_v i_o for_o that_o bless_a hour_n and_o in_o my_o great_a weakness_n and_o extremity_n even_o then_o when_o all_o the_o comfort_n of_o this_o wretched_a life_n shall_v fail_v i_o lord_n jesus_n forsake_v i_o not_o be_v not_o thou_o far_o from_o i_o o_o give_v i_o then_o that_o inward_a joy_n that_o bless_a comfort_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n that_o may_v support_v and_o comfort_v i_o in_o all_o the_o terror_n and_o amazement_n of_o this_o dark_a and_o unknown_a passage_n in_o all_o the_o dreadful_a accusation_n of_o the_o devil_n and_o my_o own_o accuse_a conscience_n lord_n let_v thy_o bless_a spirit_n then_o witness_v to_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o be_o thy_o child_n that_o thou_o will_v purge_v away_o all_o my_o dross_n and_o take_v away_o all_o my_o sin_n that_o i_o be_o powerful_o protect_v by_o thy_o grace_n and_o shall_v assure_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 36._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o opportunity_n in_o do_v good_a unto_o the_o saint_n lord_n when_o i_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o richness_n and_o the_o largeness_n of_o thy_o bounty_n