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as_o be_v ashamed_a of_o my_o own_o unworthiness_n and_o lay_v my_o hand_n on_o my_o breast_n say_v lord_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o a_o sinner_n i_o come_v to_o thou_o with_o poor_a bartemeus_fw-la that_o i_o may_v receive_v my_o sight_n who_o be_o blind_a and_o lame_a i_o come_v as_o naked_a to_o thou_o the_o father_n of_o compassion_n as_o hunger_a and_o thirst_v after_o righteousness_n to_o thou_o o_o lord_n who_o be_v the_o bread_n of_o life_n and_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n spring_v up_o from_o the_o well_n of_o eternal_a salvation_n iii_o thou_o do_v o_o lord_n accept_v of_o mary_n magdalen_n tear_n the_o faith_n of_o the_o thief_n on_o the_o cross_n the_o repentance_n of_o st._n peter_n and_o the_o prayer_n of_o the_o poor_a publican_n accept_v now_o of_o this_o my_o humiliation_n confirm_v my_o pardon_n seal_v my_o redemption_n cleanse_v i_o from_o all_o my_o pollution_n support_v my_o weakness_n and_o cover_v my_o nakedness_n o_o send_v i_o not_o away_o empty_a lest_o i_o faint_v by_o the_o way_n but_o satisfy_v my_o soul_n with_o the_o food_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a banquet_n that_o thereby_o it_o may_v receive_v nourishment_n unto_o eternal_a life_n iv._o grant_v o_o lord_n that_o i_o may_v receive_v thou_o with_o pure_a lip_n and_o a_o penitent_a heart_n that_o thou_o dwell_v in_o my_o heart_n by_o faith_n i_o may_v find_v myself_o strenghn_v comfort_v and_o my_o heart_n inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o thou_o then_o shall_v i_o prostrate_v myself_o before_o thou_o and_o acknowledge_v in_o the_o assembly_n of_o thy_o saint_n that_o it_o be_v thou_o alone_o who_o have_v comfort_v i_o and_o that_o there_o be_v no_o salvation_n in_o any_o beside_o thou_o v._o as_o thou_o prepare_v a_o table_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o enemy_n and_o fille_v up_o my_o cup_n and_o do_v anoint_v and_o wash_v thy_o poor_a guest_n pour_v upon_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o thy_o most_o fragrant_a oil_n wash_v not_o only_o my_o foot_n but_o also_o my_o hand_n and_o my_o head_n that_o i_o may_v have_v part_n with_o thou_o make_v i_o not_o only_a partaker_n of_o the_o seal_n of_o thy_o covenant_n and_o of_o the_o pledge_n of_o thy_o love_n but_o also_o that_o i_o may_v receive_v thyself_o with_o all_o the_o benefit_n of_o thy_o death_n and_o passion_n let_v my_o preparation_n which_o i_o now_o make_v be_v sincere_a and_o without_o lukewarmness_n that_o i_o may_v become_v a_o worthy_a receiver_n at_o thy_o holy_a table_n our_o father_n etc._n etc._n meditation_n for_o tuesday_n morning_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n the_o true_a knowledge_n of_o the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v the_o gracious_a manifestation_n of_o his_o goodness_n he_o be_v good_a in_o the_o graciousness_n of_o his_o promise_n and_o upright_o in_o the_o truth_n of_o his_o performance_n and_o this_o grace_n and_o truth_n which_o be_v the_o habitation_n of_o his_o throne_n be_v the_o refuge_n of_o the_o sinner_n and_o the_o sanctuary_n of_o the_o penitent_a ii_o and_o where_o o_o my_o soul_n can_v thou_o better_v taste_v the_o goodness_n of_o the_o lord_n then_o in_o this_o bless_a eucharist_n the_o sacred_a feast_n of_o the_o lord_n goodness_n and_o as_o his_o goodness_n do_v invite_v thou_o so_o let_v his_o uprightness_n encourage_v thou_o for_o that_o faithful_a be_v he_o who_o have_v promise_v faithful_a to_o give_v according_a to_o his_o promise_n heal_v for_o thy_o wound_n strengthen_v for_o thy_o weakness_n comfort_n for_o thy_o sorrow_n and_o will_v give_v that_o which_o be_v the_o compendium_n of_o all_o spiritual_a good_a thing_n peace_n of_o conscience_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n iii_o why_o be_v thou_o so_o heavy_a o_o my_o soul_n and_o why_o be_v thou_o so_o cast_v down_o within_o i_o be_v it_o because_o thou_o have_v
god_n in_o the_o eternal_a life_n and_o happiness_n of_o my_o body_n and_o soul_n which_o consist_v in_o my_o union_n with_o and_o fruition_n of_o god_n in_o heaven_n for_o ever_o which_o be_v effect_v by_o the_o spirit_n and_o grace_n of_o god_n through_o the_o merit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n draw_v my_o soul_n through_o faith_n in_o the_o son_n of_o god_n make_v man_n to_o himself_o who_o by_o the_o evil_n of_o sin_n both_o original_a depravation_n and_o actual_a commission_n be_o remove_v at_o a_o infinite_a distance_n from_o the_o love_n of_o god_n the_o fountain_n of_o happiness_n and_o place_v in_o a_o state_n of_o gild_n liable_a to_o the_o justice_n and_o wrath_n of_o god_n and_o by_o consequence_n to_o eternal_a misery_n and_o damnation_n ii_o a_o state_n not_o more_o miserable_a in_o itself_o than_o unavoidable_a by_o i_o unless_o the_o free_a grace_n &_o immense_a goodness_n of_o the_o almighty_a which_o bring_v sinner_n to_o repentance_n have_v prevent_v both_o my_o desert_n and_o desire_n by_o a_o eternal_a purpose_n of_o offer_v pardon_n life_n and_o salvation_n to_o sinful_a mankind_n which_o good_a pleasure_n and_o purpose_n in_o himself_o god_n have_v clear_o reveal_v according_a to_o the_o divers_a dispensation_n of_o his_o wisdom_n and_o providence_n even_o from_o the_o first_o promise_n of_o christ_n make_v to_o the_o first_o sinner_n to_o the_o personal_a come_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n into_o the_o world_n to_o bear_v the_o name_n and_o office_n of_o the_o saviour_n of_o sinner_n and_o have_v full_o accomplish_v and_o clear_o reveal_v unto_o mankind_n this_o undeniable_a truth_n of_o the_o eternal_a purpose_n of_o god_n to_o give_v pardon_n life_n and_o salvation_n through_o faith_n in_o jesus_n christ_n his_o only_a son_n who_o become_v man_n and_o die_v for_o the_o sin_n of_o the_o world_n and_o so_o satisfy_v the_o justice_n of_o god_n for_o they_o that_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o he_o shall_v not_o perish_v but_o have_v everlasting_a life_n iii_o that_o great_a say_n and_o most_o comfortable_a truth_n preach_v by_o christ_n witness_v by_o the_o apostle_n dictate_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n write_v by_o the_o evangelist_n confirm_v by_o many_o miracle_n deliver_v by_o the_o church_n by_o constant_a tradition_n and_o believe_v on_o in_o all_o age_n this_o god_n require_v i_o to_o believe_v as_o a_o certain_a and_o infallible_a truth_n in_o itself_o and_o by_o faith_n it_o become_v to_o i_o save_v and_o comfortable_a it_o bring_v my_o soul_n to_o see_v by_o the_o law_n it_o be_v own_o sinful_a and_o desperate_a estate_n it_o call_v i_o off_o from_o myself_o and_o all_o creature_n and_o assure_v i_o of_o immortal_a happiness_n for_o ever_o by_o adhere_v and_o rely_v upon_o christ_n and_o that_o free_a grace_n of_o god_n in_o he_o and_o through_o he_o bestow_v upon_o my_o soul_n iv._o this_o faith_n and_o trust_n in_o the_o free_a grace_n through_o jesus_n christ_n as_o it_o be_v first_o wrought_v by_o the_o word_n of_o god_n and_o his_o holy_a spirit_n in_o my_o soul_n which_o be_v the_o begin_n of_o this_o spiritual_a and_o eternal_a life_n so_o that_o it_o may_v be_v further_o nourish_v and_o strengthen_v to_o a_o far_a degree_n of_o comfort_n and_o assurance_n god_n have_v out_o of_o a_o wonderful_a indulgence_n to_o our_o weakness_n and_o difficulty_n of_o believe_v annex_v to_o his_o word_n these_o holy_a sacrament_n as_o visible_a and_o most_o manifest_a seal_n of_o this_o covenant_n of_o grace_n and_o mercy_n that_o the_o soul_n may_v in_o no_o sort_n doubt_n of_o it_o nor_o be_v discourage_v at_o the_o sight_n of_o it_o be_v own_o sin_n and_o unworthiness_n when_o it_o see_v the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o its_o pardon_n confirm_v and_o assure_v to_o it_o by_o all_o its_o sense_n and_o his_o saviour_n the_o great_a worker_n and_o teacher_n of_o this_o salvation_n by_o these_o sensible_a mean_n lively_o set_v forth_o in_o his_o death_n and_o suffering_n and_o himself_o with_o all_o his_o merit_n personal_o offer_v and_o convey_v to_o its_o self_n in_o particular_n v._o this_o then_o be_v the_o end_n to_o which_o this_o holy_a sacrament_n as_o other_o mean_n of_o grace_n be_v especial_o direct_v that_o it_o may_v be_v to_o the_o soul_n spiritual_a life_n of_o such_o efficacy_n as_o food_n be_v to_o the_o temporal_a life_n of_o our_o body_n a_o mean_n to_o maintain_v life_n to_o increase_v strength_n and_o inward_a comfort_n to_o enable_v holy_a action_n and_o cheerful_a obedience_n to_o assure_v our_o hope_n and_o affiance_n in_o the_o great_a truth_n of_o god_n for_o the_o pardon_n of_o sin_n and_o bestow_v the_o son_n of_o god_n jesus_n christ_n our_o great_a redeemer_n who_o be_v the_o fountain_n and_o conveigh_o of_o life_n through_o these_o conduit_n of_o the_o outward_a mean_n to_o the_o penitent_a and_o believe_a soul_n second_o the_o author_n by_o who_o it_o be_v institute_v i._n be_v the_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n the_o saviour_n of_o the_o world_n who_o be_v the_o lord_n of_o power_n and_o the_o jesus_n of_o mercy_n be_v both_o able_a and_o wiling_a to_o make_v this_o holy_a ordinance_n the_o mean_n of_o that_o mercy_n and_o grace_n which_o he_o promise_v to_o we_o which_o mean_n be_v effectual_a to_o this_o supernatural_a end_n not_o by_o any_o proportion_n of_o innate_a virtue_n or_o physical_a efficacy_n of_o themselves_o as_o food_n have_v to_o our_o temporal_a life_n by_o the_o common_a rule_n and_o ordination_n of_o providence_n but_o by_o a_o spiritual_a divine_a and_o most_o mysterious_a appointment_n institute_v by_o our_o god_n and_o saviour_n himself_o who_o authority_n only_o can_v institute_n and_o who_o power_n only_o can_v make_v effectual_a his_o institution_n by_o unite_n earthly_a sensible_a so_o small_a and_o unproportionable_a mean_n to_o so_o heavenly_a spiritual_a and_o excellent_a a_o end_n ii_o so_o that_o in_o this_o great_a mystery_n though_o reason_n assure_v we_o in_o the_o general_a assent_n that_o the_o 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sacrament_n exhibit_v himself_o to_o they_o and_o all_o beliving_a soul_n in_o such_o a_o extraordinary_a and_o eminent_a degree_n of_o comfort_n and_o personal_a assurance_n as_o may_v great_o establish_v their_o faith_n and_o heart_n in_o the_o near_a and_o dismal_a time_n of_o his_o suffering_n short_o ensue_v and_o after_o his_o ascension_n may_v be_v a_o continual_a memorial_n and_o seal_n of_o the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n establish_v in_o the_o death_n of_o christ_n a_o support_n of_o the_o faith_n of_o believer_n &_o a_o lively_a token_n &_o pledge_n of_o his_o spiritual_a presence_n with_o his_o church_n during_o his_o bodily_a absence_n till_o his_o second_o come_v as_o also_o a_o badge_n of_o the_o profession_n of_o the_o christian_a religion_n and_o that_o mutual_a love_n and_o charity_n of_o believer_n who_o be_v all_o unite_a by_o faith_n to_o one_o and_o the_o same_o saviour_n of_o who_o they_o be_v all_o partaker_n in_o this_o one_o sacrament_n as_o well_o of_o the_o 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a_o man_n therefore_o examine_v himself_o and_o so_o let_v he_o eat_v of_o that_o bread_n and_o drink_v of_o that_o cup_n 1._o cor._n 11._o chap_n 28._o verse_n which_o alone_o be_v enough_o to_o exact_v my_o performance_n but_o since_o all_o the_o command_n of_o god_n who_o be_v the_o most_o perfect_a reason_n to_o rational_a creature_n be_v most_o reasonable_a though_o oft_o time_n ignorance_n or_o blindness_n do_v not_o or_o will_v not_o discover_v it_o to_o the_o equity_n of_o this_o injunction_n my_o own_o reason_n must_v needs_o subscribe_v for_o know_v that_o every_o thing_n be_v receive_v according_a to_o the_o capacity_n and_o disposition_n of_o the_o recipient_a and_o that_o a_o worldly_a sensual_a and_o mere_a humane_a mind_n be_v unapt_a to_o receive_v thing_n intellectual_a spiritual_a and_o divine_a and_o perceive_v object_n the_o
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jest_n at_o the_o lord_n of_o majesty_n consider_v o_o my_o soul_n how_o thy_o sweet_a saviour_n be_v set_v here_o as_o a_o mark_n to_o receive_v all_o the_o stroke_n and_o buffet_n their_o malice_n can_v invent_v o_o cruel_a and_o unquiet_a night_n in_o which_o o_o sweet_a saviour_n thou_o take_v no_o rest_n nor_o thy_o adversary_n any_o repose_n but_o account_v it_o even_o a_o pastime_n and_o recreation_n to_o vex_v and_o torment_v thou_o ii_o the_o night_n be_v ordain_v for_o this_o end_n that_o all_o creature_n shall_v therein_o take_v their_o rest_n and_o that_o the_o sense_n and_o member_n that_o be_v weary_v with_o toil_n and_o labour_n of_o the_o day_n may_v be_v refresh_v and_o relieve_v but_o these_o wicked_a man_n use_v it_o now_o as_o a_o fit_a time_n to_o torment_v all_o thy_o member_n and_o sense_n strike_v thy_o body_n afflict_v thy_o soul_n bind_v thy_o hand_n buffet_n thy_o cheek_n and_o spit_v in_o thy_o face_n that_o at_o such_o time_n as_o all_o member_n shall_v 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saviour_n hear_v this_o denial_n turn_v back_o and_o behold_v peter_n and_o cast_v his_o eye_n on_o the_o lose_a sheep_n with_o a_o look_v full_a of_o virtue_n mystery_n and_o signification_n peter_n understand_v right_o well_o the_o voice_n and_o language_n of_o that_o look_n and_o although_o the_o crow_v of_o the_o cock_n be_v not_o able_a to_o awake_v his_o spirit_n yet_o be_v this_o able_a as_o indeed_o it_o do_v for_o the_o eye_n of_o our_o saviour_n do_v not_o only_o speak_v but_o also_o work_v as_o it_o plain_o appear_v by_o the_o tear_n of_o saint_n peter_n which_o though_o they_o gush_v from_o the_o eye_n of_o peter_n yet_o do_v they_o much_o more_o proceed_v from_o the_o look_n and_o eye_n of_o christ_n v._o wherefore_o when_o thou_o be_v at_o any_o time_n awake_v out_o of_o thy_o sinful_a life_n and_o do_v with_o grief_n and_o sorrow_n call_v thy_o sin_n to_o remembrance_n wherein_o thou_o have_v offend_v almighty_a god_n think_v with_o thyself_o that_o the_o merciful_a 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if_o christ_n body_n and_o blood_n be_v exhibit_v unto_o we_o assure_o all_o other_o benefit_n by_o that_o most_o holy_a body_n and_o most_o bless_a blood_n be_v prepare_v for_o we_o how_o then_o can_v he_o that_o have_v give_v we_o great_a thing_n deny_v we_o the_o less_o he_o that_o have_v give_v his_o son_n to_o we_o how_o shall_v he_o not_o give_v all_o other_o thing_n with_o he_o rom._n 8._o 32._o let_v the_o spouse_n therefore_o be_v glad_a and_o rejoice_v for_o the_o time_n be_v at_o hand_n when_o she_o shall_v be_v call_v to_o the_o marriage_n supper_n rev._n 19_o 7._o let_v she_o put_v on_o precious_a apparel_n let_v she_o put_v on_o her_o wedding_n garment_n mat._n 22._o 12._o that_o she_o be_v not_o find_v naked_a this_o garment_n be_v the_o bridegroom_n righteousness_n which_o we_o put_v on_o in_o our_o baptism_n but_o our_o righteousness_n be_v so_o far_o from_o be_v a_o wedding_n garment_n that_o it_o be_v nothing_o but_o filthy_a rag_n o_o let_v we_o endeavour_v to_o cast_v they_o of_o and_o not_o bring_v they_o with_o we_o to_o this_o great_a solemnity_n a_o litany_n of_o confession_n of_o sin_n to_o almighty_a god_n before_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v commit_v many_o grievous_a sin_n against_o thou_o i_o have_v not_o pious_o frequent_v thy_o house_n with_o that_o filial_a fear_n and_o holy_a reverence_n which_o become_v thy_o child_n but_o have_v too_o often_o sinful_o absent_v it_o so_o that_o my_o attendance_n upon_o thou_o in_o thy_o service_n of_o the_o day_n have_v be_v formal_a my_o devotion_n hypocritical_a and_o my_o expectation_n of_o a_o blessing_n deceitful_a lord_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o a_o sinner_n all_o the_o faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n all_o the_o
and_o my_o death_n happy_a be_v merciful_a to_o i_o thy_o frail_a and_o sinful_a creature_n who_o have_v daily_o be_v so_o far_o from_o abstain_v from_o the_o least_o appearance_n of_o it_o that_o i_o have_v daily_o run_v with_o greediness_n into_o it_o and_o hourly_o study_v vain_a excuse_n for_o it_o v._o grant_v dear_a lord_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n that_o these_o my_o daily_a diminution_n of_o sin_n may_v now_o daily_o increase_v in_o i_o the_o augmentation_n of_o sorrow_n that_o so_o i_o may_v true_o and_o hearty_o bewail_v my_o offence_n thou_o may_v sy_n gracious_o forgive_v they_o and_o by_o thy_o grace_n assist_v i_o may_v perfect_o abhor_v they_o grant_v this_o dear_a father_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n in_o ham_n who_o die_v for_o sin_n and_o have_v no_o sin_n in_o he_o amen_n meditation_n for_o friday_n morning_n on_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n his_o guard_n be_v strong_a his_o fence_n be_v sure_a who_o salvation_n be_v christ_n which_o salvation_n be_v communicate_v to_o 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convey_v some_o beam_n of_o light_n even_o in_o the_o low_a dungeon_n of_o thy_o spiritual_a distress_n iv._o psal_n 27._o 14._o wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n have_v the_o eye_n of_o faith_n still_o towards_o he_o and_o so_o shall_v comfort_n be_v redouble_v in_o a_o life_n recover_v and_o thy_o difficulty_n of_o obtain_v shall_v the_o more_o sweeten_v thy_o delight_n of_o enjoy_v even_o of_o enjoy_v god_n and_o christ_n in_o the_o refresh_a comfort_n of_o the_o spirit_n convey_v and_o confirm_v in_o his_o bless_a sacrament_n in_o which_o bless_a sacrament_n especial_o let_v thy_o eye_n be_v still_o towards_o the_o lord_n in_o his_o merit_n in_o his_o grace_n in_o his_o benefit_n in_o his_o love_n let_v he_o have_v thy_o fix_a heart_n and_o thy_o intent_n eye_n yea_o let_v he_o have_v thy_o whole_a man_n for_o to_o this_o end_n it_o be_v that_o he_o here_o give_v thou_o his_o whole_a self_n a_o prayer_n for_o friday_n morning_n of_o confession_n of_o sin_n to_o god_n before_o the_o holy_a 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for_o in_o thy_o sight_n be_v no_o flesh_n righteous_a be_v merciful_a o_o lord_n be_v merciful_a unto_o my_o sin_n for_o they_o be_v great_a out_o of_o thy_o abundant_a mercy_n forgive_v i_o all_o that_o be_v past_a and_o be_v gracious_a unto_o i_o in_o prevent_a sin_n to_o come_v iv._o correct_v i_o o_o lord_n but_o with_o mercy_n not_o in_o thy_o judgement_n for_o than_o shall_v i_o be_v consume_v and_o bring_v to_o nothing_o destroy_v in_o i_o o_o lord_n the_o curse_a work_n of_o the_o devil_n increase_v in_o i_o daily_o the_o gift_n of_o thy_o spirit_n fit_v i_o for_o that_o call_n in_o which_o thou_o have_v or_o will_v place_v i_o and_o make_v i_o to_o refer_v the_o strength_n of_o my_o body_n the_o gift_n of_o my_o mind_n and_o whatsoever_o grace_n thou_o have_v already_o or_o will_v hereafter_o bestow_v upon_o i_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o holy_a name_n and_o the_o eternal_a salvation_n of_o my_o own_o soul_n and_o lord_n grant_v that_o the_o remainder_n of_o the_o time_n which_o i_o shall_v live_v in_o this_o present_a evil_a world_n that_o my_o conversation_n may_v be_v in_o heaven_n and_o that_o whether_o i_o eat_v or_o drink_v or_o whatsoever_o i_o do_v else_o i_o may_v hear_v always_o this_o voice_n sound_v in_o my_o ear_n arise_v you_o dead_a and_o come_v to_o judgement_n many_o other_o thing_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v to_o beg_v that_o my_o ignorance_n know_v not_o how_o to_o ask_v or_o my_o forgetfulness_n do_v not_o remember_v but_o accept_v o_o lord_n this_o my_o humble_a confession_n unto_o thou_o at_o this_o time_n and_o whatever_o else_o thou_o know_v needful_a for_o i_o supply_v it_o with_o the_o merit_n of_o thy_o dear_a son_n my_o only_a lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n our_o father_n etc._n etc._n a_o prayer_n after_o
confirm_v and_o exercise_v there_o repentance_n be_v employ_v and_o quicken_v faith_n be_v actuate_v and_o strengthen_v devotion_n and_o charity_n inflame_v and_o kindle_v peace_n and_o concord_n be_v establish_v there_o be_v the_o universal_a medicine_n for_o all_o our_o disease_n and_o a_o ark_n of_o safety_n against_o all_o danger_n there_o o_o my_o soul_n thou_o may_v by_o the_o eye_n of_o faith_n behold_v thy_o crucify_a lord_n and_o saviour_n shed_v his_o most_o precious_a blood_n upon_o the_o cross_n for_o thy_o sin_n and_o burn_v with_o a_o unspeakable_a desire_n of_o thy_o salvation_n there_o thou_o may_v look_v upon_o he_o who_o thy_o sin_n have_v pierce_v and_o on_o he_o who_o thou_o do_v still_o crucify_v afresh_o by_o thy_o sin_n daily_a and_o hourly_o in_o the_o suffering_n of_o thy_o saviour_n o_o my_o soul_n thou_o may_v see_v as_o in_o a_o glass_n thy_o own_o vileness_n and_o deformity_n thy_o saviour_n be_v mock_v scorn_v and_o contemn_v discover_v thy_o evil_n speak_v lie_v and_o slander_v his_o bless_a face_n be_v besmear_v with_o spittle_n remember_v thou_o of_o all_o thy_o unclean_a lust_n and_o filthy_a communication_n that_o bless_a mouth_n which_o be_v guilty_a of_o no_o deceit_n be_v embitter_v with_o gall_n and_o vinegar_n which_o shall_v mind_v thou_o of_o thy_o luxury_n and_o drunkenness_n his_o be_v scourge_v of_o thy_o stubbornness_n and_o disobedience_n iii_o o_o my_o soul_n do_v thou_o not_o wonder_v that_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n shall_v wear_v a_o crown_n of_o thorn_n and_o for_o his_o majestical_a robe_n a_o little_a linen_n for_o to_o cover_v his_o nakedness_n and_o thou_o to_o be_v guilty_a of_o pride_n and_o vain_a glory_n and_o affect_v with_o the_o pomp_n and_o vanity_n of_o this_o wicked_a world_n the_o crown_n of_o thorn_n which_o be_v platre_v on_o his_o head_n with_o that_o rage_n and_o indignation_n shall_v put_v thou_o in_o mind_n of_o the_o immoderate_a care_n of_o the_o world_n with_o the_o sharp_a and_o pierce_a vexation_n issue_v thence_o which_o eat_v up_o the_o consolation_n of_o the_o heart_n and_o all_o true_a sincere_a devotion_n of_o the_o spirit_n o_o let_v scorn_n 〈…〉_z r_o thy_o sake_n be_v my_o glory_n and_o injury_n and_o affront_n my_o crown_n lift_v up_o i_o pray_v thou_o upon_o thy_o cross_n my_o miserable_a soul_n which_o lie_v grovel_v on_o the_o ground_n out_o of_o this_o vale_n of_o misery_n o_o that_o thou_o will_v purge_v and_o thorough_o heal_v i_o with_o thy_o most_o precious_a blood_n let_v thy_o wound_n be_v a_o salve_n for_o my_o sinful_a soul_n and_o by_o thy_o stripe_n let_v she_o be_v heal_v of_o all_o her_o distemper_n let_v all_o thy_o pain_n grief_n and_o sorrow_n captivity_n humiliation_n and_o cross_n deliver_v i_o from_o hell_n and_o purchase_v for_o i_o those_o joy_n and_o pleasure_n at_o thy_o right_a hand_n for_o ever_o and_o thy_o death_n my_o life_n for_o evermore_o amen_n a_o prayer_n for_o charity_n o_o eternal_a god_n thou_o have_v say_v that_o without_o charity_n we_o be_v nothing_o give_v i_o o_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o christian_a love_n and_o perfect_a charity_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n with_o all_o my_o heart_n with_o all_o my_o mind_n with_o all_o my_o soul_n and_o with_o all_o my_o strength_n do_v always_o in_o sincerity_n that_o which_o be_v please_v in_o thy_o sight_n not_o return_v evil_a for_o evil_n or_o raâ—ling_v for_o rail_v but_o love_v my_o neighbour_n as_o myself_o and_o be_v ready_a at_o all_o time_n to_o assist_v he_o in_o time_n of_o need_n administer_a to_o he_o according_a to_o his_o several_a necessity_n that_o at_o the_o last_o and_o great_a day_n i_o may_v give_v a_o account_n of_o my_o steward_n ship_n with_o joy_n and_o not_o with_o grief_n grant_v this_o o_o lord_n for_o thy_o son_n jesus_n christ_n his_o sake_n amen_n our_o father_n etc._n etc._n a_o prayer_n for_o saturday_n evening_n on_o the_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n o_o almighty_a god_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o seal_v unto_o i_o the_o pardon_n of_o all_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o grant_v all_o those_o petition_n which_o i_o have_v ask_v in_o thy_o son_n name_n and_o let_v i_o now_o consider_v how_o transitory_a be_v all_o thing_n how_o wicked_a be_v the_o world_n how_o impure_a be_v the_o flesh_n and_o how_o myself_o be_o deceitful_a grant_v that_o so_o i_o lose_v my_o affection_n from_o all_o such_o unworthy_a object_n here_o below_o and_o then_o let_v i_o know_v how_o eternal_a be_v thy_o nature_n how_o permanent_a be_v thy_o glory_n and_o how_o infinite_a be_v thy_o love_n bring_v i_o o_o bring_v i_o to_o morrow_n to_o thy_o royal_a feast_n with_o the_o badge_n of_o love_n and_o with_o the_o wedding_n garment_n so_o shall_v i_o be_v a_o welcome_a guest_n unto_o thou_o that_o eat_v thy_o flesh_n and_o drink_v thy_o blood_n i_o shall_v for_o ever_o dwell_v in_o thou_o my_o glorious_a creator_n and_o thou_o in_o i_o thy_o bless_a creature_n our_o father_n etc._n etc._n the_o grace_n of_o our_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n and_o the_o love_n of_o god_n the_o father_n with_o the_o sweet_a and_o comfortable_a fellowship_n of_o god_n holy_a and_o bless_a spirit_n bless_v preserve_v conserve_v and_o keep_v i_o this_o night_n and_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n at_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n and_o in_o the_o day_n of_o judgement_n amen_n six_o how_o to_o receive_v it_o worthy_o the_o morning_n thou_o be_v to_o receive_v after_o thy_o usual_a devotion_n breath_n forth_o this_o meditation_n sunday_n meditation_n wisdom_n have_v kill_v her_o beast_n mingle_v her_o wine_n and_o furnish_v her_o table_n man_n folly_n wrought_v his_o fall_n by_o a_o bit_n and_o wisdom_n repair_v it_o by_o a_o feast_n a_o fruit_n do_v corrupt_v we_o and_o flesh_n and_o blood_n do_v preserve_v we_o a_o lamb_n be_v slay_v for_o the_o goat_n the_o just_a for_o the_o unjust_a the_o son_n of_o god_n for_o the_o child_n of_o man_n and_o be_v this_o day_n offer_v as_o meat_n for_o the_o life_n of_o many_o i_o will_v go_v to_o that_o feast_n to_o eat_v of_o that_o bread_n and_o drink_v of_o that_o wine_n which_o be_v mingle_v for_o i_o the_o fruit_n of_o the_o vine_n with_o the_o blood_n of_o god_n lamb_n o_o then_o good_a lord_n let_v i_o be_v find_v in_o that_o purity_n thou_o desire_v in_o they_o that_o approach_v thy_o altar_n wash_v thou_o my_o foot_n and_o cleanse_v my_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v be_v clean_a and_o have_v part_n with_o thou_o for_o ever_o amen_n a_o prayer_n for_o sunday_n morning_n before_o thou_o go_v to_o church_n o_o lord_n prepare_v my_o heart_n to_o prayer_n o_o most_o glorious_a lord_n god_n behold_v a_o miserable_a and_o wretched_a sinner_n be_v now_o approach_v to_o thy_o most_o holy_a table_n to_o feast_v my_o soul_n upon_o thy_o precious_a body_n and_o blood_n at_o the_o primitive_a eat_n thou_o say_v the_o day_n that_o thou_o eat_v est_fw-la thou_o shall_v sure_o die_v but_o here_o in_o the_o day_n which_o i_o eat_v i_o shall_v sure_o live_v joh._n 6._o o_o lord_n i_o esteem_v myself_o unworthy_a of_o the_o least_o crumb_n that_o fall_v from_o thy_o table_n must_v the_o child_n bread_n be_v give_v unto_o dog_n must_v such_o a_o vile_a wretch_n as_o i_o sit_v at_o thy_o holy_a table_n who_o be_o lade_v with_o sin_n and_o over_o press_v with_o iniquity_n but_o i_o come_v o_fw-fr lord_n to_o ease_v myself_o of_o sin_n and_o to_o cast_v off_o the_o burden_n of_o iniquity_n and_o to_o bury_v they_o all_o at_o the_o foot_n of_o thy_o cross_n i_o come_v o_fw-fr lord_n to_o be_v purge_v thorough_o from_o my_o iniquity_n and_o to_o be_v sorry_a for_o my_o sin_n which_o be_v without_o number_n but_o not_o more_o than_o my_o dear_a saviour_n blood_n can_v expiate_v ii_o o_o thou_o bright_a morning_n star_n arise_v now_o with_o heal_v in_o thy_o wing_n and_o say_v unto_o my_o soul_n i_o be_o thy_o salvation_n o_o do_v thou_o now_o arise_v and_o let_v thy_o enemy_n be_v scatter_v which_o be_v my_o lust_n and_o vile_a affection_n and_o let_v they_o that_o hate_v thou_o flee_v before_o thou_o which_o be_v the_o devil_n envy_n hatred_n malice_n and_o all_o uncharitableness_n make_v clean_a my_o heart_n o_o my_o redeemer_n and_o pull_v down_o every_o strong_a hold_n and_o bulwark_n which_o oppose_v thy_o heavenly_a will_n and_o make_v i_o a_o fit_a guest_n at_o thy_o holy_a table_n to_o receive_v thou_o with_o a_o pure_a heart_n and_o strengthen_v i_o that_o i_o may_v have_v such_o a_o lively_a faith_n to_o pass_v through_o the_o vale_n and_o confident_o look_v into_o the_o holy_a of_o holies_n this_o i_o beg_v for_o thy_o alone_a sake_n my_o only_a saviour_n and_o redeemer_n amen_n when_o thou_o be_v at_o church_n before_o divine_a
by_o they_o the_o inward_a grace_n x._o also_o there_o be_v the_o spiritual_a invisible_a and_o credible_a yet_o most_o true_a and_o real_o present_a object_n of_o faith_n the_o body_n and_o blood_n of_o christ_n that_o be_v christ_n jesus_n himself_o who_o by_o faith_n i_o consider_v as_o suffer_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o cast_v my_o soul_n by_o the_o mercy_n offer_v i_o by_o the_o merit_n of_o his_o death_n these_o two_o material_n of_o the_o sacrament_n be_v so_o unite_v that_o it_o may_v true_o be_v say_v not_o in_o a_o gross_a and_o physical_a but_o divine_a and_o sacramental_a sense_n the_o bread_n and_o wine_n be_v the_o body_n and_o blood_n of_o christ_n and_o christ_n body_n and_o blood_n be_v bread_n and_o wine_n joh._n 6._o meat_n indeed_o and_o drink_v indeed_o not_o by_o transmutation_n of_o nature_n but_o by_o a_o similitude_n of_o virtue_n and_o proportionableness_n of_o effect_n by_o a_o sacramental_a union_n and_o relation_n depend_v upon_o the_o truth_n authority_n and_o divine_a power_n of_o the_o institutor_n jesus_n christ_n xi_o who_o appointment_n of_o these_o element_n to_o such_o a_o use_n or_o end_n and_o unite_n they_o in_o this_o near_a relation_n to_o his_o body_n and_o blood_n by_o the_o solemn_a consecration_n of_o they_o make_v up_o the_o firm_a and_o true_a be_v of_o a_o sacrament_n which_o require_v a_o truth_n and_o reality_n both_o of_o the_o sign_n and_o symbol_n and_o that_o which_o be_v by_o they_o represent_v and_o signify_v also_o a_o truth_n and_o certainty_n of_o relation_n and_o connexion_n one_o with_o another_o so_o that_o i_o receive_v not_o only_a panem_fw-la domini_fw-la the_o bread_n of_o the_o lord_n but_o also_o panem_fw-la dominum_fw-la my_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n the_o true_a bread_n of_o life_n eternal_a to_o my_o soul_n and_o body_n this_o latter_a as_o true_o and_o real_o as_o the_o former_a together_o with_o all_o the_o benefit_n which_o flow_v from_o christ_n xii_o on_o the_o other_o side_n whoso_o unprepared_o and_o irreverent_o and_o so_o un_fw-we vorthy_o receive_v the_o one_o contract_v a_o guilt_n of_o damnation_n for_o neglect_n indignity_n and_o irreverence_n offer_v to_o the_o other_o that_o be_v the_o body_n and_o blood_n of_o christ_n which_o faith_n only_o discern_v and_o receive_v in_o this_o great_a mystery_n and_o whoso_o violate_v and_o contemn_v the_o seal_n and_o authentic_a letter_n of_o the_o king_n become_v guilty_a of_o indignity_n and_o offence_n to_o the_o authority_n and_o majesty_n which_o be_v not_o only_o restrain_v to_o his_o person_n but_o also_o in_o separable_o annex_v to_o any_o sign_n or_o token_n by_o which_o he_o be_v please_v to_o manifest_v his_o royal_a will_n and_o pleasure_n thus_o right_o inform_v as_o i_o hope_v in_o the_o nature_n of_o this_o sacrament_n what_o it_o be_v in_o itself_o what_o it_o may_v be_v to_o i_o of_o how_o divine_a a_o mystery_n and_o dignity_n it_o be_v in_o itself_o to_o my_o soul_n either_o of_o comsort_n and_o salvation_n in_o a_o worthy_a receive_n or_o of_o gild_n and_o damnation_n in_o a_o unworthy_a receive_n of_o it_o five_o how_o we_o ought_v to_o propare_v ourselves_o i._o which_o be_v by_o lay_v my_o hand_n upon_o my_o heart_n and_o feel_v how_o the_o pulse_n of_o my_o soul_n beat_v whether_o do_v it_o move_v as_o quick_a now_o i_o be_o think_v of_o my_o maker_n as_o it_o do_v when_o my_o thought_n be_v upon_o the_o world_n that_o which_o god_n and_o my_o conscience_n require_v of_o i_o be_v that_o i_o consider_v myself_o the_o state_n and_o condition_n of_o my_o soul_n for_o what_o be_v past_a of_o my_o will_n and_o affection_n for_o the_o present_a of_o my_o purpose_n and_o intention_n for_o the_o future_a to_o all_o which_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o i_o have_v a_o regard_n and_o by_o a_o self-examining_a see_v what_o fitness_n there_o be_v in_o i_o answerable_a to_o these_o holy_a mystery_n and_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n by_o these_o offer_v to_o i_o and_o most_o effectual_o 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