death and pasion as a true token and pledge that he suffered for my sins and rose again from thâ— dâ—ad for my justification and now sitteth at the right hand of God the Father making intercession for me to whom be all honour power and glory adoration and subjection from this time forth and for ever more Amen Our Father c. Meditations for Monday Evening on the Holy Sacrament of the Lords Supper Shewing the necessity of receiving of it I. OUR Blessed Saviour the wise Physitian having felt the Pulses of our weaknesses ordain'd this must Holy and Divine Sacrament and for this purpose hath he instituted the same in form of food that the very form wherein he did institute it might declare unto us the effect it worketh and withall the great necessity our Souls have of it II. O most wonderful Sacrament what shall I say of thee thou art the life of my Soul and a Medicine to heal all my Wounds What Tongue is able to express the Excellency of this most blessed Sacrament which thou O Lord invitest me to who am a vile and miserable Sinner when I consider who thou art and what I am how rich and excellent the benefits are which thou preparest for me and how little I am dispos'd to receive them my Soul is in trouble and I tremble to draw near to thy glorious Majesty III. Thou art O Lord without quantity great without quality good without measure wise and without time Everlasting the Stars are dimn'd in thy presence the Pillars of Heaven quake before thee the highest of the Seraphins do gather in their Wings and account themselves as it were little Flyes when thou art present How then dare so vile a Creature as I am approach unto thy holy Table if St. John Baptist whom thou filledst with the Holy Ghost from his Mothers womb thought himself not worthy to stoop down and unloose the Lachet of thy Shoos Shall I who am loaden with Sins dare to present my self to that holy Banquet where Angels wait as Ministring Spirits sent out for the good of those who are to receive the earnest of Salvation Shall I with lascivious Eyes full of wanton looks behold that Lamb without spot or blemish with my polluted looks and lying Tongue shall I touch the bread of Angels or shall I lodge the King of Kings in a heart filled with foul concupiscence IV. I am in a strait O Lord on both sides for if I absent my self from this Holy Table I am disobedient to my Saviour who commands me to set forth his death till he shall come again I keep at a distance from the Fountain of Life I renounce the seals of the Covenant and the pledges of thy love and if I come to it unworthily I am affraid I may Eat and Drink my own Damnation and draw upon my self thy heavy Judgments if thou Lord shouldst mark iniquities O Lord who shall stand but there is forgiveness with thee that thou mayest be feared mercies and forgiveness are from the Lord our God for we have rebelled against him But where sin hath abounded thy grace hath much more abounded O Lord my whole trust is in thee as by thy goodness thou givest me thy blessing so by thy wisdom thou wilt instruct me how to receive them to Salvation A Prayer for Monday Evening on the Holy Sacrament O Lord I take the boldness to approach unto thee O receive me according to thy tender mercy Banish from my mind all those Earthly and Carnal thoughts which disturb my Devotion affect my Senses with a Pious veneration Give unto me such Humility and Repentance such fear and reverence as so high a Mystery does require I come not O Lord to excuse but accuse my self I trust not O Lord in my own Righteousness neither have I any merits to be puft up with nor do I extol my self with the proud Pharisec II. But O Lord I come to thee as the poor Publican with Eyes cast down as being ashamed of my own unworthiness and laying my hand on my breast saying Lord be merciful to me a Sinner I come to thee with poor Bartemeus that I may receive my sight who am blind and lame I come as naked to thee the Father of Compassion as hungring and thirsting after Righteousness to thee O Lord who art the bread of Life and the fountain of living VVater springing up from the Wells of eternal Salvation III. Thou didst O Lord accept of Mary Magdalens tears the faith of the Thief on the Cross the Repentance of St. Peter and the Prayers of the poor Publican accept now of this my humiliation confirm my pardon seal my Redemption cleanse me from all my pollutions support my weakness and cover my nakedness O send me not away empty lest I faint by the way but satisfie my Soul with the food of thy heavenly banquet that thereby it may receive nourishment unto eternal life IV. Grant O Lord that I may receive thee with pure lips and a penitent heart that thou dwelling in my heart by Faith I may find my self strenghned comforted and my heart inflam'd with the love of thee then shall I prostrate my self before thee and acknowledge in the Assembly of thy Saints that it is thou alone who hast comforted me and that there is no Salvation in any besides thee V. As thou preparest a Table in the midst of mine Enemies and fillest up my Cup and dost anoint and wash thy poor Guests pour upon me I beseech thee thy most fragrant oyl wash not only my feet but also my hands and my head that I may have part with thee make me not only partaker of the Seals of thy Covenant and of the pledges of thy love but also that I may receive thy self with all the benefits of thy death and passion let my preparation which I now make be sincere and without lukewarmness that I may become a worthy receiver at thy holy Table Our Father c. Meditations for Tuesday Morning on the Holy Sacrament THe true knowledge of the will of God is the gracious manifestation of his goodness He is good in the Graciousness of his Promises and upright in the truth of his performances and this Grace and Truth which is the Habitation of his Throne is the Refuge of the Sinner and the Sanctuary of the Penitent II. And where O my Soul canst thou better taste the goodness of the Lord then in this blessed Eucharist the sacred Feast of the Lords Goodness And as his Goodness does invite thee so let his uprightness encourage thee for that faithful is he who hath promised faithful to give according to his promise healing for thy wounds strengthening for thy weakness comfort for thy sorrow and will give that which is the Compendium of all Spiritual good things peace of Conscience and joy in the holy Ghost III. Why art thou so heavy O my Soul And why art thou so cast down within me Is it because thou hast
God in the eternal life and happiness of my body and soul which consists in my union with and fruition of God in heaven for ever which is effected by the Spirit and grace of God through the merits of Jesus Christ drawing my soul through faith in the Son of God made Man to himself who by the evil of sin both original depravation and actual Commissions am removed at an infinite distance from the love of God the fountain of happiness and placed in a state of Guilt liable to the justice and wrath of God and by consequence to eternal misery and Damnation II. A State not more miserable in it self than unavoidable by me unless the free grace immense goodness of the Almighty which brings sinners to repentance had prevented both my desert and desire by an eternal purpose of offering pardon life and salvation to sinful mankind which good pleasure and purpose in himself God hath clearly revealed according to the divers dispensations of his wisdom and providence even from the first promise of Christ made to the first sinners to the personal coming of the Son of God into the World to bear the Name and Office of the Saviour of Sinners and hath fully accomplisht and clearly reveal'd unto Mankind this undeniable truth of the eternal purpose of God to give pardon life and salvation through faith in Jesus Christ his only Son who became Man and died for the sins of the World and so satisfied the Justice of God for them that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life III. That great saying and most comfortable Truth Preached by Christ witnessed by the Apostles Dictated by the Spirit of God written by the Evangelists Confirmed by many Miracles delivered by the Church by constant Tradition and believed on in all ages this God requires me to believe as a certain and infallible truth in it self and by faith it becomes to me saving and comfortable It brings my soul to see by the law it s own sinful and desperate estate it calls me off from my self and all Creatures and assures me of immortal happiness for ever by adhering and relying upon Christ and that free grace of God in him and through him bestowed upon my soul IV. This faith and trust in the free Grace through Jesus Christ as it is first wrought by the word of God and his holy Spirit in my soul which is the beginning of this spiritual and eternal life so that it may be further nourished and strengthened to a farther degree of comfort and assurance God hath out of a wonderful Indulgence to our weakness and difficulty of believing annexed to his word these holy Sacraments as visible and most manifest Seals of this Covenant of Grace and Mercy that the soul might in no sort doubt of it nor be discouraged at the sight of it 's own sin and unworthiness when it sees the love of God and its pardon confirmed and assured to it by all its senses and his Saviour the great worker and teacher of this salvation by these sensible means lively set forth in his death and sufferings and himself with all his merits personally offered and conveighed to its self in particulars V. This then is the End to which this holy Sacrament as other means of grace is especially directed that it may be to the souls spiritual life of such efficacy as Food is to the Temporal life of our Bodies a means to maintain life to encrease strength and inward comfort to enable holy actions and cheerful obedience to assure our hopes and affiance in the great truth of God for the pardon of sins and bestowing the Son of God Jesus Christ our great Redeemer who is the Fountain and conveigher of life through these Conduits of the outward means to the penitent and believing soul Secondly The Author by whom it was Instituted I. Was the Lord Jesus Christ the Saviour of the World who being the Lord of power and the Jesus of Mercy is both able and wiling to make this holy Ordinance the means of that Mercy and Grace which he promiseth to us which means are effectual to this supernatural end not by any proportion of innate vertue or Physical efficacy of themselves as food hath to our temporal life by the common rule and ordination of Providence but by a Spiritual Divine and most Mysterious appointment Instituted by our God and Saviour himself whose Authority only could Institute and whose power only can make effectual his Institution by uniting earthly sensible so small and unproportionable means to so heavenly spiritual and excellent an End II. So that in this great mystery though reason assures us in the general assent that the Omnipotency of God can make effectual whatever means he pleaseth in his wisdom to ordain to an end though never so unproportionable yet for the particular demonstrating of the matter of efficiency whereby such means do certainly convey to us so great an end and benefit Reason is quite dazl'd and blind having no ground to fasten upon but devolving all the work of this holy mystery to faith which relies upon the truth power and love of the Institutor Jesus Christ who while he was yet on Earth by a Corporal and Natural presence conversing with men but chiefly with his choice and Domestick Company the Twelve Apostles a little before his death Instituted this Sacred Mystery after his last Supper which he made with them III. By the evidence of this Sacrament exhibiting himself to them and all beliving souls in such an extraordinary and eminent degree of comfort and personal assurance as might greatly establish their faith and hearts in the near and dismal Times of his sufferings shortly ensuing and after his Ascention might be a continual memorial and Seal of the Covenant of Grace established in the death of Christ a support of the faith of Belivers a lively token pledge of his spiritual presence with his Church during his bodily absence till his second coming as also a badge of the profession of the Christian Religion and that mutual love and charity of Believers who are all united by faith to one and the same Saviour of whom they are all partakers in this one Sacrament as well of the invisible Grace as the outward and visible signs the bread and wine Thirdly The outward Means suitable to this end I. The choice of which familiar signs made by our Saviour for the outward means discovered a wonderful wisdom and no less love and condescention to his Church while he made choice of such things for the Representation of his greatest Grace and our comfort as best sitting this staâ—e of Senses and Infirmity such as for the Community may be had of all Nations and in all Countries either by native Commodities as in most or by cheap and easy Commerce with others whose abundance may spare though where the proper species of bread and wine cannot be had those means of nourishment
and favour of God detaining my mind in such degrees of ignorance as may render my sin less odious to me and make me less sensible of my misery and want of Mercy hardning and consirming my will against those Pious and Good motions by which the Spirit of God oftentimes attempts to soften it to an ingenuous submission to God and his Will disordering my affections and diverting them from those right Objects which Reason and Religion propound and my own Conscience cannot but approve VI. Which makes my sin out of measure sinful and dangerous so that in the shame and confusion which this sight of it self casts upon my Soul I have enough to do to see and weigh my own unworthiness and fill my Conscience with that fear of the Wrath of God and horror of Eternal Judgment which I confess might justly punish all my sins with despair and it as the greatest of all sins with Damnation And beyond these thoughts I could noâ— I durst not go in this gulfe of sin and the apprehensions of my misery should I sink not daring to send up the least thought to Heaven for a better Estate nor apply my self to the means of any Use or Happiness VII If I did not see by a Divine and Glorious Light of Truth a Hand of Mercy and means of recovery and Salvation stretched out to me and assuring me by the unerring and undeceiveable veracity of God and the infallibility of his Promises that his Thoughts are thoughts of Mercy and Pardon to sinful Mankind that he hath graciously found a way of satisfying his Justice and taking off the Guilt and Punishment of our sins from our Souls by the sufferings of Jesus Christ God and Man transferring the Guilt and punishment of our sins to him and imputing the Merits of his Righteousness to us upon condition we believe on him and cast our Souls how sinful soever they be into the Arms of his Mercy and by the serious apprehension of this infinite Love and Goodness be won from the Love of sin to Repentance and Amendment of Life Upon this Truth and Grace revealed by God to his Church and my Soul in particular I lay hold and cast my self with all the Guilt and Burden of my sins what aggravations soever for number or quality they admit being assured that they are infinitely less than the Mercies of God and Merits of Jesus Christ This wonderful Truth of God which I dare not I cannot deny this Mercy which above all things I need adds new Mercy to my dead and languishing Soul this represents God to me in the face of Jesus Christ as the highest Good most to be desired loved and admired VIII This shews me my sin in the true colours of ingratitude vileness end unworthiness against that Mercy which offers Pardon for my sin against a Saviour who hath died for me This stirs up a hatred and resolution against sin out of a principal love and apprehension of a wonderful desert and obligation of love and unspeakable Kindness to me that as I have the greatest cause that can be to be humbled in the sight of my sin and self so that the surest ground that can be whereon to settle my Faith and Comfort is the Truth and Mercy of God which by the Word Spirit and Son of God is assured to me that although by my sin I have highly displeased and dishonoured God Almighty yet by my trust and believing in his Truth and Promises of Pardon and Salvation through Jesus Christ I shall greatly please and honour him giving him the Glory of his Grace and Mercy by sealling to his Truth which to question or deny or not to believe is to make all my other sins unpardonable and add a sin of a higher nature than any I have yet committed that is unbelief or giving God the lye and its inseperable companion impenitency IX Won therefore and melted by this great certain and preventive Kindness and Love of God which in no sort I could deserve yet cannot deny or doubt of I grow dayly to see more clearly and embrace more firmly affectionately the Goodness of God to my Soul and from thence to a more tender sense and greater detestation of sin not so much now daring to sin as not willing to sin denying the motions and occasions to sin not so much out of fear of punishment as a love to please and an extream secret shame of returning evil to such wonderful Goodness abhorring sin not so much for the evil which follows it as for the evil which is in it and deformity and vileness of it which I see by the glymps of that Beauty and Loveliness which I discover in Holiness and Vertue the Image of God the highest Ornament and Happiness of the Creature X. Thus in some degrees freed from the Fear and Love of my sin Holy desires and good affections as followers of the Sun's Accession in the Spring begin to arise in my heart and though they suffer a great allay by the Earth of the Body in which the Soul is planted yet they assure me that the Spirit of God hath moved upon that Chaos the deadness and barrenness of my Soul and by a secret but most effectual influence hath made me a New Creature by ingrafting me into the Tree of Life Jesus Christ and washing me in that pure Fountain of his Blood which was shed for the Remission of my sins Thus now I desire nothing more than daily to attain a fuller Sight and Capacity of this admired Mercy that as my knowledge in the Greatness and Truth of it increaseth so my Faith in the applying of it may be strengthened my Affections in the thankful return of my self may be enflamed my Charity and Virtue towards others may be excited glad to have occasions really to express my Love Pity and Forgiveness of others that grateful Sense I have of God's Love to me in Christ XI And that the whole course of my Life may be so ordered as becomes one who is united to the Son of God not only by the Community of the humane Nature but by the efficacy of the same Holy Spirit and raised to the hopes of the same Glory and Happiness that now nothing is more acceptable to me than to meditate of this great Mystery of man's Salvation nothing more delightful than the thoughts of God reconciled to me in Jesus Christ nothing more welcom than the use of those means by which God doth further confirm and assure this Mercy and Truth to my Soul whose many failings though they often shake my confidence and obscure my comfort yet the sight of the Promises and the seals of the Sacrament annexed to them in which I behold Jesus Christ crucified does again establish my heart and assure me that the All-powerful Love and Grace of God will not be overcome by the sin and wickedness of man but will effectually repair the breaches of my dayly infirmities and satisfie the doubtings of
crosses and mercies may serve as so many steps in that Ladder that may carry me to Heaven mind me of my latter end and teach me so to live that I may not fear to die that when I die I may be sure to live in the mean time O Lord assist my weakness and strengthen my faith that I may receive with comfort that heavenly Feast which thou hast prepared for me and all that believe and call upon thy holy name in whose blessed name and word I conclude my weak and imperfect prayers saying Our Father c. Meditations for Tuesday Evening on the holy Sacrament I. BY means of this divine food the Soul is united to Christ and receives that strength and vigour which continually sets it forward in its spiritual ascension Who can give worthy thanks for so great a benefit Who will not be altogether resolv'd into Tears when he sees Almighty God united to him the more we go about to consider the excellency and vertues of this Soveraign Mystery the more do we want words to express it and the more doth our understanding fail us II. What pleasant sweetness and delightful Savours of a good life doth the Soul of the just man feel when he receives this divine Sacrament there is no other sound heard at that time but the musick of the heart which are vehement bursting out of holy desires and yielding of thanks all tending to the praise of the ever blessed institutor there the devout Soul through the vertue of this most holy and blessed Sacrament is altogether renued and replenished with joy unspeakable and fully satisfied with those good things which the richness of his mercy hath found out and doth bestow upon all true penitents III. Such are thy gifts O sweet Saviour such are the works and delights of thy love which thou art wont to communicate to thy friends by the means of this divine Sacrament and this thou dost to the end that we being filled with these heavenly delights should despise all vain and transitory pleasures Now what glory can be greater then this What gift more precious What benefit of more value or what greater token of love let all the works of nature keep silence let all the works of grace give place for this is a work exceeding all works and a singular grace above all graces it is the burning Coal from the holy Altar to enkindle the fire of the love of God in us the means whereby to receive grace the pledge of everlasting felicity and the treasure of a Christian Life IV. Our blessed Redeemer of the World intending to restore man unto his former dignity and to raise him up by grace as he had faln by sin did ordain and leave as his last Legacy this most divine Sacrament of his Body and Blood whereby man might recover his lost Estate and be made partaker of the divine nature we have it express'd in his own words Joh. 6. 56. He that eateth my flesh and drinketh my blood dwelleth in me and I in him Now when the time drew near that Christ should be betrayed and delivered up to death he communeth with his disciples after this manner Luk. 22. 15. I have an earnest desire to eat the Passeover with you before I suffer having so said he took Bread and blessed it in like manner he took the Cup in Consecrating the Elements of Bread and Wine his Prayers ascended to Heaven but his benefits remain with his Church here on Earth the visible Elements declare two things the one that he was to offer up himself an oblation for the redemption of the whole world the other that he would become unto the faithful by his means a divine sustenance for their Souls V. Consider what great care our Saviour hath shewed towards us in instituting this Sacrament seeing nothing could be given more excellent more dear when he loved his which were in the World he loved them unto the end he hath given us of his own Bread and of his own Cup nay he hath given us his own Body as Bread his own Blood as Wine for the nourishment of our Souls had he bestowed this so great a gift on Saints and Angels it had not been so wonderful but bestowing it on poor Sinners was love unspeakable O what shall we render unto the Lord for all the benefits we have received at his hands let us meditate on his Love and pursue that holy resolution with the Prophet David to take the Cup of Salvation and call upon the name of the Lord. VI. Who is there now that will neglect coming to this holy Table nay neglect their own Salvation when they may purchase it at so easie a rate O Lord if to obtain this benefit thou hadst ordain'd hard Fasts long Pilgrimages shedding of Blood and other sharp usages all these labours and afflictions ought worthily to have been suffer'd to tast even but once thy sacred Body but O Love unheard of that hadst rather make the entrance easie and delectable that I might the oftner receive this great benefit O Adam how much better is the condition of thy posterity than thine own was which is now brought to pass by the means of our loving and liberal Jesus thou wert driven out of Paradise and that thou shouldst not return thither to eat of the Tree of Life and live one of the Cherubims armed with a fiery Sword was set by the righteous God to keep it VII We thy Children living in the Paradise of the holy Church are not only driven away by an Angel with a fiery Sword but are invited of the Lord of Angels by the fire of his Love to taste often the fruit of the Tree of Life yea to receive him who hath given all strength to it and that giveth us a blessed and everlasting life for so he inviting us hath promis'd he which eateth of this Bread shall live for ever Joh. 6. 58. A Solliloquy for Tuesday Evening I. O thou only begotten Son of Almighty God great and wonderful are the benefits O Lord which I have received of thee thou hast raised me from the mire and dust of the Earth and hast created my Soul of nothing after thine own Image and likeness and hast made it eapable of thy glory thou hast given me understanding memory will free choice with all my other Members and Senses to the end that with them I might know thee and love thee thou hast preserv'd me even while I was yet in my Mothers womb thou hast patiently born with me a long time after so many sins committed even until this present hour where as others having less offended then I are now per adventure tormented in Hell fire II. Besides all this it was thy pleasure to become man and to be conversant among men for my sake and for me to be afflicted punished troubled and covered all over with a bloody sweat to be taken bound buffeted and spit upon to be dispised blasphemed reviled and
THE Whole Duty OF A Communicant BEING Rules and Directions for a worthy receiving the most Holy SACRAMENT OF THE LORD'S Supper By the Right Reverend Father in GOD JOHN GAVDEN Late Lord BISHOP OF EXETER He being dead yet speaketh The second Edition with Additions out of the Reverend Prelates original Copies LONDON Printed by E. R. for L. C. and Hen. Rodes next door to the Bare Tavern near Bride-lane in Fleet-street 1685. THE ANGELLS ADMIRE THE DIVINE GOODNES TO THE Truly Honourable THE LADY RICH. Most honoured Lady THE Confidence of your Nobleness and Piety makes the least intimation of your Desires to have upon me the force of Commands being assured that your Piety and Judgment directs you to what is good and your Nobleness and Ingenuity will favourably interpret what a mind truly honouring you doth intend to answer your desires Such is this small Tract occasioned by a motion your Ladyship once made of having some Preparatory Form written with such brevity yet fulness and perspicuity three rare qualities in one Subject as might neither dull nor confound nor yet leave unsatisfied à Mind studious to inform its Judgment and devoutly to prepare its Affections so oft as it receives the Holy Sacrament and great Mystery of the Lords Suppee These Notions do not presume nor pretend to have attained such a Compleatness as may either satisfie your Ladyship's desires or add any thing to your Knowledg which is fitter to judge of the consent of these with your own than needs any information by them such they are and their Author seeks to appear as may rather deserve the censure of Devout than Curious in an Argument of so mysterious a Depth good Affections are rather to be raised and inflamed than Subtilties searched and disputed what I come short in Depth of Knowledge I endeavour to supply in belief of the Truth in love to the Goodness in thanks for the Benefit in admiration of the Mercy and Dignation the less I reach to its height the more I retire to my own Heart which I can sufficiently prepare by Humility for the receiving of that whose divine Excellency though I cannot comprehend yet the Benefit and Happiness by it I may obtain It will be easie for your Ladyship at your leisure to add or amend what my defects or haste have failed in or omitted Nor do I present this as a Copy to be imitated so much as inlarged and corrected by you it is enough for my design if either I do or receive good the one may shew how willing I am the other may make me abler than I am to express that willingness and pious Ambition I have to appear worthy the honour and esteem of Madam Your Ladyship 's humble Servant J. Gauden THE WHOLE DUTY OF A Communicant OF THE SACRAMENT IN GENERAL THE ever Blessed Testator as the Author to the Hebrews doth fitly call him Heb. 9. 16. hath left us two Sacraments only as generally and necessary to Salvation Baptism the Sacrament of Initiation and the Lords Super the Sacrament of Confirmation the first admitteth us into Christs visible Body the Church the second feedeth and strengthneth in the same and this happy opportunity being offered me of coming to the most holy Sacrament of the Lords Supper I will joyn with the Church in the celebration of this great Mystery and endeavour to put in practice that duty which the Command of God and just reason requires in preparing my self for that great Solemnity and Angelical Feast I. Which is by setting apart some hours three or four several daies before Receiving withdrawing my thoughts from worldly and temporary business and placing them upon serious and devout Meditations of my souls good and eternal happiness being fully perswaded of its Immortal Estate after this short life and the happiness of that state only to consist in the vision and fruition of God the chiefest good and only satisfactory to an Intellectual and Eternal Being among all other means appointed to men by the wisdom and goodness of God for the attaining that happy state this of the blessed Sacrament is one of the most eminent for Comfort and Efficacy II. A Sacrament is a visible sign of an invisible Grace a holy Seal ordained of God to strengthen our Faith in his promises in Jesus Christ for the free remission of our sins which God therefore annexed to his word to confirm us by representing the sufferings of Chirst to our sight and tasting as the Gospel preacheth it to our ears and it is called the Lords Supper because Christ ordained it at his last Supper Math. 26. 26. Wherein to fulfil the Law he eat the Paschal Lamb and to shew the determination and change of the Levitical Law and Priesthood he ordained for this new Covenant of Grace a new Sacrament and seal thereof that it succeeding the Passover might declare him to be the Lamb of Go◠which taketh away the sins of the world John 1. 19. to shew and represent his death until his coming again to leave his Church a Badg of distinction from Infidels and a parting token and pledge of his great love assuring the faithful of his continual care of them III. The visible signs are bread and wine the thing signified is the participation of the Body and Blood of Christ the benefits of whose Death and Passion being apprehended by Faith accrew to us as our mystical Union with Christ our Incorporation into him our reconciliation with God and the nourishment of our most precious souls to eternal life John 6. 54. Who so eateth my flesh and drinketh my blood hath eternal life and I will raise him up at tht last day and this Sacrament if we do receive truly and faithfully God hath promised to accept us and to give us all those benefits in this which he was ready to bestow in the Sacrament of our Baptism had we not forfeited them by our transgressions and the renewing of our Covenant at this time is very necessary That we may rightly understand the mercies promised on God's part and the Duty on our own seeing this is a matter of so high Concernment it importeth every Christian First To Consider the End for which it was Instituted Secondly The Author by whom it was Instituted Thirdly The outward Means suitable to that end Fourthly The mystical Vnion by which they effectually attain and convey to us that end and benefit which is propounded Fifthly How we ought to Prepare our selves Sixthly How to Receive it worthily And Lastly How to Live well a righteous godly and sober Life after Receiving this most holy Sacrament First The End for which it was Instituted I. For its End which in every action is the first in the intention of the agent and that hath proportion and influence into all the means used for attaining it this I conceive to be a Divine spiritual and supernatural end even the highest God hath or man can propound to himself namely the glory of
my misguided Conscience and further assure me of the pardon of my sins and interest in his love and favour by the renewed use of his sacred Ordinances XII To which he calls and invites me both by the outward overture of fit occasions and inward incitation of good and earnest desires to pertake of them as the pledges and conduits of my greatest comfort and happiness which happiness I esteem and seek after not only in a freedom from the punishment and misery of my sin but from the power of and the pleasure that seems to be in sin nor do I count it a less degree of Grace and Mercy which enables me to serve and love him than that which saves me from Hell Torments nor do I come to the Sacrament only to quit the score of my sins but to get strength and grace against them to deny mortify and overcome them which above all things that the World accounts will I most abhor and desire to avoid and am most grieved if I do not I make new and reinforced vows and resolutions between God and my Soul against my sinful self which although I have often failed to keep as I intended yet I am not quite overcome while I truly desire pray and endeavour to get the victory and am never more displeased than when I fail of it XIII Thus having tryed and renewed my repentance by my sighs sorrow and humiliation for sin my serious purpose and earnest prayer against sin my faith by my love of God dependence upon him submission to him desire to please him arising out of an apprehension and perswasion of his love to my Soul my love to God and my Saviour by my hatred of sin fear to and greif for offending by my love of his Servants delight in his word zeal for his truth and glory an earnest desire and stedfast hope to enjoy him and by my particular appetite and desires to this holy Sacrament as a special means of communion with my God and Saviour and pertaking of his Grace My charity and love to others by my care and endeavour by all means to further their Souls good by my affectionate prayes for them though they have deserved ill of me by my tenderness of giving offence my slowness to take offence by my grief when any arise by my proneness and joy in reconciling and though I find all these graces in me but in weak and small degrees with mixture of much infirmity and many imperfections nay a contrary power daily opposing and with much impatience striving to break the Cords of pious and solemn resolutions I am as well becomes me humbled and emptied of all opinions of my self XIV Yet am I not discouraged from coming since what did most deter me in it self from coming to Christ my sin and unworthiness is by the operation of faith made as the greatest incitement to provoke me to come being one whose great wants and unworthiness will afford a fit subject whereon to magnifie the Riches of that free Grace and infinite mercy which becomes the majesty of God and may answer the merits of our Saviour from whom as a principle of a new life I expect all the grace comfort strength and happiness which I want and to whom I give the glory of all that I enjoy who as the head derives to every part of his body the Church life motion health and whatever is in his own fullness and perfection whose love and compassion to my Soul to all Eternity will be too little to comprehend and magnify XV. Which that I may more fully discover I have a more lively assurance of be more thankfully affected and live more worthy of it I repeat again this sacred memorial and seal of his love and mercy having first sought by frequent earnest and humble prayer and in some measure obtained the assistance of his holy Spirit which by its preparatory Grace stirs up earnest and hungring desires to receive renew its habitual graces planted in my heart Knowledge Faith Repentance love of God charity to others and thankfulness by actuating a new before I receive assistance in receving by Sacred devout and pertinent Meditations seals and testifies to my Conscience my acceptance and efficacy of receiving by increase of holiness in my heart and care of better obedience in my life after the surest evidence and truest I can have or expect of my worthy receiving XVI Having thus faithfully discharg'd my Duty and Conscience in the way of preparation to the Sacrament though still conscious to and humbled in the consideration of my own unworthiness in any proportion to the great good I aim at yet I will not deprive my self of so neâ—r and inestimable a comfort by refraining nor dare l so far distrust the mercy of God and dignation of my Saviour who propounds not my personal worthiness in a strict sense as the object of my comfort and hopes in coming but his gracious acceptance and merciful indulgence such indeed as becomes the infinite goodness and honour of the Christians God and Saviour XVII The same holy frame and devout temper of Spirit I labour to continue in my receiving carrying my Faith by the visible Representations before me and given to me to behold its invisible but most credible object Jesus Christ crucified and dying for my sins whose love and merits I consider with as great an obligation of love thankfulness and obedience upon me as if he had laid down his life for me alone these meditations raise me to thankfulness to admiration to exaltation of the love of God my Saviour above all XVIII Finally so I endeavour to receive this blessed Sacrament as if each opportunity were my last as if I were to appear before God in Judgment that in the power of that grace I there receive I may live the remainder of my short life virtuously and holily in the hope of its reward and perfection in Heaven I may die willingly and chearfully in the Merit and Righteousness of it I may attain to the Resurrection of the just appear justified before God at the last and great day and obtain the Consummation of all in that glorious estate of Immortality with God and Christ in Heaven XIX The Duty of examining my self is by precept clearly enjoyning me by the Spirit of God let a Man therefore examine himself and so let him eat of that Bread and Drink of that Cup 1. Cor. 11. Chap 28. verse which alone were enough to exact my performance but since all the commands of God who is the most perfect reason to rational Creatures are most reasonable though oft times ignorance or blindness doth not or will not discover it to the equity of this injunction my own reason must needs subscribe for knowing that every thing is received according to the capacity and disposition of the recipient and that a worldly sensual and meer humane mind is unapt to receive things intellectual Spiritual and Divine and perceive objects the
apparelled in mockery with white and red garments for my sake thou wast contenâ—ed to be torn with whips crown'd with thorns smâ—tten with a reed and to have thine eyes covered with a Veil to be condemn'd to death and to be led to the place of Execution with that heavy cross upon thy shoulders whereon thy blessed hands and feet were nailed thou wast crucified between two Theeves and reputed amongst the wicked thou hadst Vinegar and Gall given thee to drink and in the end put to a most shameful and cruel death III. In this manner O Lord with so many intollerable troubles pains and agonies hast thou redeemed me but I a most vile and wretched sinner have shewed my self unthankful for all these benefits and have so often by my sins crucified thee afresh that without hearty contrition humiliation and repentance I can expect nothing but thy wrath and damnation I have loved vanity more then truth and have esteem'd the Creature more than the Creator it is high time O Lord that I should now begin to weep and bewail for those hainous sins I have committed against thee IV. This sorrow and grief for my sins is the thing which thou hast so long look'd for at my hands even from the time thou first gavest me life thou hast often called me and I have like the deaf adder stopped my 〈◊〉 and would not hearken to thee thou hast given me a long time to repent me of my sins and I have consumed it in pride and vanity the more I have been chastised and cherish'd by thee the more hath mine heart been hardned shewing my self unthankful towards the one and rebellious towards the other But yet for all this O Lord since thou hast suffered for my sake so many things and hast commanded me never to despair nor mistrust thy goodness I therefore refer my self wholly to thy mercy and do beseech thee to grant me grace to amend my life that from henceforth I may serve and please thee in holiness and newness of Life and continually remain in thy grace and favour world without end Amen Meditations on Wenesday morning on the most holy Sacrament COnsider after this what troubles our Saviour suffer'd in that doleful night when the Soldiers had him in Custody mocked and laughed him to scorn Luk. 22. 63. and used as a means to pass away their drowsiness to scoff and jest at the Lord of Majesty Consider O my Soul how thy sweet Saviour is set here as a mark to receive all the strokes and buffets their malice could invent O cruel and unquiet night in which O sweet Saviour thou tookest no rest nor thy adversaries any repose but accounted it even a pastime and recreation to vex and torment thee II. The night was ordain'd for this end that all creatures should therein take their rest and that the Senses and Members that are wearied with toils and labours of the day might be refresh'd and reliev'd but these wicked men use it now as a fit time to torment all thy Members and Senses striking thy Body afflicting thy Soul binding thy Hands buffeting thy Cheeks and spitting in thy Face that at such time as all Members should be at rest all thy Members were in great pain and anguish III. Now let us Consider the denial of Saint Peter who was so familiar a friend of our Saviours that he chose him to see the glory of his transfiguration yet not once but three several times even in the very presence of his Lord and Master sweareth and for sweareth that he knows him not O Peter is he that stands by thee so wicked a man that thou account'st it so vile a shame only to have known him Consider that this is a Condemnation of him by thee before he is Condemn'd by the High Priests since by this denial thou giv'st the whole World to understand that he is such a man that even 〈…〉 self dost 〈…〉 great reproach and dishonour to thee ever to have known him IV. Our Saviour hearing this denial turned back and beheld Peter and cast his eyes on the lost sheep with a look full of vertue mystery and signification Peter understood right well the voice and language of that look and although the Crowing of the Cock was not able to awake his Spirits yet was this able as indeed it did for the eyes of our Saviour do not only speak but also work as it plainly appears by the tears of Saint Peter which though they gush'd from the eyes of Peter yet did they much more proceed from the look and eyes of Christ V. Wherefore when thou art at any time awak'd out of thy sinful life and dost with grief and sorrow call thy sins to remembrance wherein thou hast offended Almighty God think with thy self that the merciful eyes of Christ looks upon thee the Cock had already crowed but Peter remembred not himself because our Saviour had not as yet look'd on him but when Christ look't upon him then he remembred himself and repented and bewail'd his offences for the eyes of Christ do open ours and awake such as are asleep Lord let my eyes then be for ever open that I may behold those heavenly gifts which thou hast prepared for all those who love and fear thee VI. O then receive me a poor sinner at thy holy Table this most holy Medicine cures all the wounds of Sin this quickning flesh overcometh all mortal sin this is the most holy Seal of divine Promises which we may shew before Gods Judgment Seat having this pledge we may glory and be secure of eternal Life if Christs Body and Blood be exhibited unto us assuredly all other benefits by that most holy Body and most blessed Blood are prepared for us how then can he that hath given us greater things deny us the less He that hath given his Son to us how shall he not give all other things with him Rom. 8. 32. Let the Spouse therefore be glad and rejoyce for the time is at hand when she shall be called to the Marriage Supper Rev. 19. 7. Let her put on precious apparel let her put on her Wedding Garment Mat. 22. 12. That she be not found naked this Garment is the Bridegrooms righteousness which we put on in our baptism but our righteousness is so far from being a Weding Garment that it is nothing but filthy rags O let us endeavour to cast them of and not bring them with us to this great Solemnity A Litany of Confession of Sins to Almighty God before the holy Sacrament O Lord I have committed many grievous sins against thee I have not piously frequented thy house with that filial fear and holy reverence which becometh thy Child but have too often sinfully absented it so that mine attendance upon thee in thy Service of the day hath been formal my Devotion hypocritical and my Expectation of a blessing deceitful Lord be merciful to me a sinner All the faculties of my Soul all the
and my death happy be merciful to me thy frail and sinful Creature who have daily been so far from abstaining from the least appearance of it that I have daily ran with greediness into it and hourly studied vain Excuses for it V. Grant dear Lord for thy mercy sake that these my daily diminutions of Sin may now daily increase in me the Augmentations of sorrow that so I may truly and heartily bewail mine offences thou may st graciously forgive them and by thy grace assisting I may perfectly abhor them grant this dear Father for thy mercy sake in ham who dyed for Sin and had no Sin in him Amen Meditations for Fryday Morning on the Holy Sacrament HIs Guards are strong his Fence is sure whose Salvation is Christ which Salvation is Communicated to us in the promises of grace exhibited in the Ministry of the word and more plentifully conveyed yea more effectually confirmed in the Ministration of the Sacraments Now to spoil us of the treasure to rob us of the comfort of this Salvation is Satan's grand design in his temptations unto sin and his suggestions of distrust for by these he labours to withdraw us from our God and deprive us of Communion with Christ who is our love and our life II. But when the bird is mounted on the wing it is safe from the Fowlers net and the soul raised in Communion with Christ is preserv'd from Satan's snare and if through infirmity the soul flag and fall to the Earth and so become intangled in carnal and worldly affections yet keeping the eye fixt upon Christ looking to him in his ordinances to receive the quickning power of his grace though corrupt affections may intangle yet shall they not inthral the soul which becomes restored by the Power of Christs Spirit a Spirit of life and liberty a Spirit of grace and holiness delivering from the Power of Satan and from the Dominion of sin III. Who art thou then O thou afflicted soul who in thy spiritual desertions walkest in darkness clouded with sorrows oh in the greatest dejections lift up thine eyes unto the Lord that when the rising Sun appears thou mayest see his refreshing light and how ever now by reason of thy present anguish thou canst not serve God in alacrity of performance yet do it in sincerity of obedience and this this will be a cranny to convey some beams of light even in the lowest dungeon of thy spiritual distress IV. Psal 27. 14. Wait upon the Lord having the eye of faith still towards him and so shall comforts be redoubled in a life recovered and thy difficulties of obtaining shall the more sweeten thy delights of injoying even of injoying God and Christ in the refreshing comforts of the Spirit conveyed and Confirmed in his Blessed Sacrament in which Blessed Sacrament especially let thine eyes be still towards the Lord in his merits in his grace in his benefits in his love let him have thy fixed heart and thine intent eye yea let him have thy whole man for to this end it is that he here gives thee his whole self A Prayer for Fryday Morning of consession of sins to God before the Holy Sacrament O Most holy Lord God I thy unworthy servant do here prostrate my self before thee in all humility acknowledging and confessing my manifold sins and wickedness my whole life has abounded with actual transgressions against every one of thy Commandments I have O Lord lived in contempt of thy providence committing Idolatry with thy Creatures taking thy glorious name in vain prophaning thy most holy Sabbath I have not regarded my superiors as I ought to do I have envied my brethren defiled my soul with unchast desires laboured to be rich by unlawful means I have slandered my Neighbour and have coveted after his wealth I have heard thy word O Lord but have not believed it I have known thy word but have not practised it I have come into thy house without reverence and approached to thy holy Table without repentance I have practised many sins without remorse and when I read thy sacred Scriptures it is not sweet to me as the Honey Combe but my delight is more in ungodliness prophaneness and atheism II. I have by gluttony and drunkenness pampered my body I am guilty of pride in my apparel I am negligent in my calling by mispending my time I have used vain discourses at my Table and have sinned out of measure against all those means of grace which thou hast been pleased to afford me from time to time I have wandering eyes wanton lusts and ambitious mind and covetous desires which have no bounds nor limits I have lascivious ears unsavory speeches and censorious reproaches Here name thy particular sins I am still adding sin unto sin and transgression unto transgression * and am altogether unfaithful in my life and forgetful of my death and of the day of Judgment III. My abusing of thy mercies and despising of thy judgments is testified against me yet O Lord I am not ashamed nor confess my self guilty but still run on in a course of sinning against the motions of thy holy Spirit and the checks of my own conscience and have refused thy calls and my own purposes and vows of amendment O what shall I say or how shall I open my mouth O thou that art the preserver of all men I know that the wages of sin is death but thy gift O God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord O enter not into judgment with thy servant O Lord for in thy sight is no flesh righteous Be merciful O Lord be merciful unto my sins for they are great out of thy abundant mercy forgive me all that is past and be gracious unto me in preventing sins to come IV. Correct me O Lord but with mercy not in thy Judgment for then shall I be consumed and brought to nothing destroy in me O Lord the cursed works of the Devil increase in me dayly the gifts of thy Spirit fit me for that calling in which thou hast or wilt place me and make me to refer the strength of my body the gifts of my mind and whatsoever grace thou hast already or wilt hereafter bestow upon me to the glory of thy holy name and the eternal salvation of my own Soul and Lord grant that the remainder of the time which I shall live in this present evil World that my conversation may be in Heaven and that whether I eat or drink or whatsoever I do else I may hear always this voice sounding in my ears arise you dead and come to judgment many other things O Lord I have to beg that my ignorance knoweth not how to ask or my forgetfulness does not remember but accept O Lord this my humble confession unto thee at this time and whatever else thou knowest needful for me supply it with the merits of thy dear Son my only Lord and Saviour Amen Our Father c. A Prayer after
confirmed and exercised there repentance is employed and quickned faith is actuated and strengthned devotion and charity enflamed and kindled peace and concord is established there is the universal medicine for all our diseases and an ark of safety against all dangers there O my Soul thou mayest by the eye of faith behold thy crucified Lord and Saviour shedding his most precious Blood upon the Cross for thy sins and burning with an unspeakable desire of thy salvation There thou mayest look upon him whom thy sins have pierced and on him whom thou dost still crucifie afresh by thy sins dayly and hourly In the sufferings of thy Saviour O my soul thou mayest see as in a glass thy own vileness and deformities thy Saviours being mocked scorned and contemned discovers thy evil speaking lying and slandering his blessed Face being besmeared with spittle remembers thee of all thy unclean lusts and filthy communications that blessed Mouth which was guilty of no deceit was embittered with gall and vinegar which should mind thee of thy luxury and drunkennes his being scourged of thy stubbornness and disobedience III. O my soul dost thou not wonder that the King of glory should wear a Crown of thorns and for his Majestical Robes a little linnen for to cover his nakedness and thou to be guilty of pride and vain glory and affected with the pomps and vanities of this wicked World The Crown of Thorns which was platred on his Head with that rage and indignation should put thee in mind of the immoderate cares of the World with the sharp and piercing vexations issuing thence which eat up the consolation of the heart and all true sincere devotion of the spirit O let scorns 〈…〉 r thy sake be my glory and injuries and affronts my Crown lift up I pray thee upon thy Cross my miserable Soul which lies groveling on the ground out of this vale of misery O that thou would'st purge and thoroughly heal me with thy most precious Blood let thy wounds be a salve for my sinful soul and by thy stripes let her be healed of all her distempers let all thy pains grief and sorrows captivity humiliation and cross deliver me from Hell and purchase for me those joys and pleasures at thy right hand for ever and thy Death my life for evermore Amen A Prayer for Charity O Eternal God thou hast said that without charity we are nothing give me O Lord I beseech thee that Christian love and perfect charity that I may love thee O Lord my God with all my heart with all my mind with all my soul and with all my strength doing always in sincerity that which is pleasing in thy sight not returning evil for evil or raâ—ling for railing but loving my Neighbour as my self and being ready at all times to assist him in time of need administring to him according to his several necessities that at the last and great day I may give an account of my Steward ship with joy and not with grief grant this O Lord for thy Son Jesus Christ his sake Amen Our Father c. A Prayer for Saturday Evening on the most Holy Sacrament O Almighty God I beseech thee to seal unto me the pardon of all my sins and to grant all those petitions which I have asked in thy Sons name and let me now consider how transitory are all things how wicked is the World how impure is the flesh and how my self am deceitful grant that so I loose my affections from all such unworthy objects here below and then let me know how Eternal is thy nature how permanent is thy glory and how infinite is thy love bring me O bring me to morrow to thy royal feast with the badge of love and with the wedding garment so shall I be a welcome guest unto thee that eating thy flesh and drinking thy Blood I shall for ever dwell in thee my glorious Creator and thou in me thy blessed Creature Our Father c. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God the Father with the sweet and comfortable fellowship of God's Holy and Blessed Spirit bless preserve conserve and keep me this night and all the days of my life at the hour of death and in the day of Judgment Amen Sixthly how to receive it worthily The Morning thou art to receive after thy usual devotions breath forth this Meditation Sundays Meditation WIsdom hath killed her beasts mingled her wine and furnisht her table Man's folly wrought his fall by a bit and wisdom repairs it by a feast a fruit did corrupt us and flesh and blood do preserve us a Lamb is slain for the Goat the just for the unjust the Son of God for the Children of Men and is this day offered as meat for the life of many I will go to that feast to eat of that bread and drink of that wine which is mingled for me the fruit of the vine with the blood of Gods Lamb O then good Lord let me be found in that purity thou desirest in them that approach thine Altar wash thou my feet and cleanse my heart that I may be clean and have part with thee for ever Amen A Prayer for Sunday Morning before thou goest to Church O Lord prepare my heart to Prayer O Most glorious Lord God behold a miserable and wretched sinner is now approaching to thy most holy Table to feast my soul upon thy precious Body and Blood at the primitive eating thou said the day that thou eat est thou shalt surely dye but here in the day which I eat I shall surely live Joh. 6. O Lord I esteem my self unworthy of the least crum that falls from thy Table must the Childrens bread be given unto dogs must such a vile wretch as I sit at thy Holy Table who am laden with sin and over pressed with iniquity But I come O Lord to ease my self of sin and to cast off the burden of iniquity and to bury them all at the foot of thy Cross I come O Lord to be purged throughly from my iniquity and to be sorry for my sins which are without number but not more than my dear Saviours blood can expiate II. O thou brightest Morning Star arise now with healing in thy wings and say unto my soul I am thy salvation O do thou now arise and let thy Enemies be scattered which are my lusts and vile affections and let them that hate thee flee before thee which is the Devil envy hatred malice and all uncharitableness make clean my heart O my Redeemer and pull down every strong hold and bulwark which opposes thy heavenly will and make me a fit guest at thy Holy Table to receive thee with a pure heart and strengthen me that I may have such a lively faith to pass through the vale and confidently look into the holy of holies this I beg for thy alone sake my only Saviour and Redeemer Amen When thou art at Church before divine
by them the inward Grace X. Also there are the spiritual invisible and credible yet most true and really present objects of Faith the Body and Blood of Christ that is Christ Jesus himself whom by Faith I consider as suffering for my sins and cast my Soul by the Mercy offered me by the merits of his Death these two materials of the Sacrament are so united that it may truly be said not in a Gross and Physical but Divine and Sacramental sence the Bread and Wine are the Body and Blood of Christ and Christ's Body and Blood are Bread and Wine Joh. 6. Meat indeed and Drink indeed not by transmutation of Nature but by a similitude of vertues and proportionableness of effects by a Sacramental Union and Relation depending upon the Truth Authority and Divine Power of the Institutor Jesus Christ XI Whose appointment of these Elements to such an use or end and uniting them in this near Relation to his Body and Blood by the solemn Consecration of them makes up the firm and true Being of a Sacrament Which requires a Truth and Reality both of the signs and symbols and that which is by them represented and signified also a Truth and Certainty of relation and connexion one with another so that I receive not only Panem Domini the Bread of the Lord but also Panem Dominum my Lord Jesus Christ the true Bread of Life Eternal to my Soul and Body this latter as truly and really as the former together with all the benefits which flow from Christ XII On the other side whoso unpreparedly and irreverently and so un vorthily receives the one contracts a guilt of Damnation for neglect indignity and irreverence offered to the other that is the Body and Blood of Christ which Faith only discerns and receives in this great Mystery and whoso violates and contemns the Seal and authentick Letters of the King becomes guilty of indignity and offence to the Authority and Majesty which is not only restrained to his Person but also in separably anexed to any sign or token by which he is pleased to manifest his Royal Will and pleasure thus rightly informed as I hope in the nature of this Sacrament what it is in it self what it may be to me of how Divine a Mystery and dignity it is in it self to my Soul either of Comsort and Salvation in a worthy receiving or of Guilt and Damnation in an unworthy receiving of it Fifthly How we ought to propare our selves I. Which is by laying my hand upon my heart and feeling how the pulse of my Soul beats whether doth it move as quick now I am thinking of my Maker as it doth when my thoughts are upon the World that which God and my Conscience requires of me is that I consider my self the state and condition of my Soul for what is past of my will and affections for the present of my purpose and intentions for the future to all which it is necessary that I have a regard and by a self-examining see what fitness there is in me answerable to these holy mysteries and the Grace of God by these offered to me and most effectually conveyed except the unpreparedness and indisposition of my heart do frustrate and put an obstacle II. In the contemplation of my self I may not nor can avoid the sight of that which makes me unworthy of God and my self that is my sin and that evil both of my inclinations to which I am conscious I know by long and miserable Experience that in me dwelleth no Good of my self but a Proness to sin at the best oftentimes a violence and power of sin which makes me not only passive as in Temptations but active in the will to do and delight in sin this my Conscience witnesseth with so much truth in so many unhappy instances and with so many just aggravations that nothing appears to me more numerous more unreasonable more to be abhorred than my sins nor more miserable than my self III. I know by an inward and undeniable Dictate that since I have my Being from and dependance upon a higher and better Being than my self it is most just I should be at his Will and disposing whose power is not greater above me than his goodness is abundant towards me and his wisdom perfect in giving laws to me for the ordering my Being according to his Will and Word the perfect rule of holiness and the only and certain way to happiness that nothing can be more injurious injust ingrateful than for a Creature to offend against the will of its Creator who as he is the highest and happiest Good so on the contrary sin in me must needs be the lowest Evil and sink me to the deepest Misery by setting me at an Eternal distance from the Love and Favour of God which is Life it self as an object of his hatred and Eternal displeasure IV. So that when I look upon the deformity of my heart and life comparing them with the Beauty of Reason and Religion wherein the Image of God infinitly appears in Holiness and goodness I have cause to admire that infinite Patience which hath so long witheld the hands of Justice from punishing and damning a Creature doing and deserving so much and to deplore my own depraved and damnable Estate over whom sin so far prevaileth and exerciseth its Tyranny that neither my thoughts words nor actions natural civil nor religious do escape the brand or blemish of it so that it is not only ignorance forgetfulness or suddenness that gives sin advantage against me in many Vanities Passions and Omissions but a Predominancy and high Hand wherewith oftentimes I am led away Captive to sin with such violence that neither the force of Reason nor better Resolutions and Purposes are sufficient to rescue my Soul from the Speculation and Practice of that which should not be thought much less done with the least delight and pleasure since it is displeasing to God V. So that I see not only a habitude and propensity to any sin which is often restrained through want of matter or occasion to make it flame into action but an Empire and rule of some whose power excites by innate disposition and comfirm'd by custom seems to have made an utter conquest of me and does compel me against all my Knowledge Prayers and Vows to exchange my Souls happiness in the Love of God and Christ in Heaven for a moment of earthly content for a sensual imaginary pleasure which when the dream of this Life is past and vanish'd and by that immutable Law of mortality I am compell'd to leave the World and all things in it will betray me to endless and irrecoverable misery In the mean time it estranges my heart from that care intention and delight which I ought to have in holy duties and conversation with God and his Holy Spirit It robs and deprives my Soul of all that joy peace hope and assiance I might have in the service love