Selected quad for the lemma: love_n

Word A	Word B	Word C	Word D	Occurrence	Frequency Band	MI	MI Band	Prominent
love_n	day_n	love_v	soul_n	2,570	5	4.7753	4	false

Text snippets containing the quad

ID	Title	Author	Corrected Date of Publication (TCP Date of Publication)	STC	Words	Pages
A64802	A wise virgins lamp burning; or Gods sweet incomes of love to a gracious soul waiting for him Being the experiences of Mrs. Anne Venn, (daughter to Col. John Venn, & member of the Church of Christ at Fulham:) written by her own hand, and found in her closet after her death. Wherein is declared her exceeding frequent addresses to the throne of grace, and how speedily answered. Written for the comfort of such as mourn in Sion, and quickning of saints by her blessed example.	Venn, Anne.	1658 (1658)	Wing V190; ESTC R219225	131,041	301

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