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toothache_n after_o he_o be_v render_v thereby_o speechless_a cap._n 4_o his_o acquaint_v s._n ambrose_n by_o letter_n with_o his_o former_a error_n and_o present_a resolution_n desire_v his_o advice_n what_o part_n of_o scripture_n chief_o he_o shall_v read_v who_o direct_v he_o to_o isaiah_n cap._n 5_o his_o return_n to_o milan_n the_o easter_n follow_v to_o receive_v baptism_n from_o bishop_n ambrose_n together_o with_o his_o son_n adeodate_v and_o alipius_n who_o travel_v thither_o barefoot_a s._n augustine_n ravishment_n and_o melt_a into_o tear_n upon_o hear_v the_o church-service_n and_o music_n cap._n 6_o the_o original_a of_o sing_v the_o church-psalme_n and_o hymn_n at_o milan_n after_o the_o manner_n of_o the_o eastern_a church_n the_o body_n of_o the_o martyr_n gervasius_n and_o protasius_n discover_v to_o s._n ambrose_n by_o divine_a revelation_n find_a uncorrupted_a many_o miracle_n do_v by_o they_o whereby_o the_o fury_n of_o the_o arrian_n empress_n towards_o s._n ambrose_n and_o the_o catholic_n be_v much_o lenify_v cap._n 7_o s._n augustine_n return_n by_o rome_n for_o africa_n the_o death_n of_o his_o mother_n in_o italy_n at_o ostia_n a_o description_n of_o her_o pious_a education_n and_o life_n cap._n 8_o her_o dutiful_a deportment_n towards_o and_z at_o last_o conversion_n of_o her_o husband_n patricius_n to_o profess_v the_o christian_a faith_n cap._n 9_o the_o discourse_n between_o he_o and_o his_o mother_n at_o ostia_n some_o few_o day_n before_o her_o sickness_n concern_v the_o felicity_n of_o the_o next_o life_n her_o desire_n of_o death_n cap._n 10_o her_o sickness_n death_n careless_a of_o her_o funeral_n only_o desire_v from_o they_o a_o remembrance_n of_o she_o at_o the_o altar_n of_o the_o lord_n cap._n 11_o s._n austin_n refrain_v from_o weep_v though_o suffer_v much_o inward_a grief_n to_o which_o after_o her_o burial_n he_o indulge_v some_o tear_n cap._n 12_o his_o prayer_n for_o his_o decease_a mother_n monica_n and_o father_n patricius_n cap._n 13_o lib_fw-la x._o in_o this_o book_n s._n austin_n make_v confession_n of_o the_o several_a lapse_n and_o infirmity_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n since_o his_o regeneration_n by_o baptism_n cap._n 1_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n mental_o to_o god_n cap._n 2_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o his_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n public_o before_o man_n cap._n 3_o yet_o not_o able_a to_o see_v or_o confess_v all_o of_o himself_o which_o god_n see_v in_o he_o cap._n 5_o description_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n that_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n concern_v who_o he_o proceed_v to_o examine_v what_o it_o be_v he_o love_v when_o he_o say_v that_o he_o love_v god_n that_o it_o be_v *_o no_n object_n of_o sense_n *_o no_o part_n of_o the_o visible_a world_n abroad_o *_o no_o part_n or_o faculty_n within_o himself_o cap._n 6_o neither_o the_o vegetative_a nor_o yet_o the_o sensitive_a cap._n 7_o nor_o yet_o the_o more_o interior_a and_o most_o admirablâ—_n faculty_n of_o the_o memory_n the_o many_o wonder_n of_o which_o to_o the_o great_a glory_n of_o the_o maker_n thereof_o he_o most_o subtle_o discourse_v unto_o the_o 26_o chapter_n cap._n 8_o etc._n etc._n that_o god_n who_o he_o love_v is*_n something_o within_o but_o yet_o above_o his_o soul_n *_o not_o confine_v by_o place_n omnipresent_v etc._n etc._n cap._n 26_o that_o though_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n abstract_v from_o and_o far_o above_o all_o other_o creature_n and_o also_o above_o himself_o cap._n 27_o yet_o he_o enjoy_v not_o as_o yet_o a_o perfect_a union_n unto_o he_o but_o have_v a_o perpetual_a combat_n with_o many_o other_o false_a joy_n and_o grief_n and_o fear_n cap._n 28_o not_o have_v yet_o a_o perfect_a continency_n in_o respect_n of_o all_o other_o object_n beside_o god_n but_o extend_v some_o undue_a attention_n and_o affection_n unto_o they_o cap._n 29_o he_o examine_v himself_o and_o confess_v his_o present_a infirmity_n in_o the_o several_a branch_n of_o concupiscence_n 1_o john_n 2.16_o 1._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n 2._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n 3._o the_o pride_n of_o life_n and_o here_o he_o confess_v 1._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o among_o these_o 1._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o touch_n relate_v to_o carnal_a concubinage_n cap._n 30_o 2._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v cap._n 31_o 3._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o smell_n in_o sweet_a odour_n and_o perfume_n cap._n 32_o 4._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o ear_n in_o music_n where_o whether_o music_n be_v useful_a in_o church_n cap._n 33_o 5._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n in_o splendid_a fair_a and_o well_o proportion_v object_n cap._n 34_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n or_o curiosity_n of_o vain_a science_n cap._n 35_o 3._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n the_o great_a danger_n of_o vain-glorying_a â–³_o incur_v from_o the_o approbation_n and_o praise_n of_o man_n cap._n 36_o which_o be_v not_o avoidable_o to_o well-doing_n cap._n 37_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a cap._n 38_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v of_o other_o cap._n 39_o a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n former_o speak_v in_o this_o book·_fw-la s._n augustine_n sometime_o extraordinary_a transportment_n in_o the_o contemplation_n and_o love_n of_o god_n cap._n 40_o 41_o his_o recourse_n for_o a_o remedy_n to_o all_o these_o his_o malady_n not_o *_o to_o evil_a angel_n or_o demon_n with_o the_o platonist_n or_o other_o practise_v evil_a art_n as_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n because_o sinner_n like_o man_n spirit_n like_o god_n cap._n 42_o but_o *_o to_o christ_n who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a mediator_n mortal_a like_o man_n righteous_a like_o god_n through_o who_o else_o desperate_a he_o confident_o hope_v a_o perfect_a cure_n of_o all_o his_o disease_n cap._n 43_o the_o end_n and_o purpose_n of_o these_o his_o confession_n cap._n 44_o the_o confession_n of_o s._n augustine_n declare_v the_o story_n of_o his_o life_n lib_fw-la i._o chap._n i._n cap._n 1_o invocation_n and_o praise_n of_o god_n so_o great_a so_o incomprehensible_a and_o yet_o so_o near_o and_o intimate_v to_o his_o creature_n and_o require_v of_o man_n so_o vile_a a_o thing_n by_o sin_n to_o love_v to_o invocate_v to_o praise_v and_o to_o confess_v unto_o he_o this_o in_o the_o five_o chapter_n follow_v great_a be_v thou_o o_o lord_n and_o exceed_o to_o be_v praise_v 147.5_o psal_n 145.3_o &_o 147.5_o great_a be_v thy_o power_n and_o thy_o wisdom_n be_v infinite_a and_o yet_o 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templa_fw-la coeli_fw-la and_o the_o like_a unless_o terence_n have_v introduce_v a_o lascivious_a youth_n propose_v to_o himself_o jove_n for_o a_o pattern_n of_o whore_v whilst_o in_o survey_v a_o tablet_n on_o the_o wall_n he_o find_v therein_o this_o lascivious_a picture_n how_o they_o say_v jupiter_n upon_o a_o time_n once_o shower_v into_o danae_n lap_n a_o golden_a rain_n and_o so_o deceive_v the_o gold-enamoured_n maid_n and_o thence_o see_v how_o he_o heighten_v his_o lust_n from_o that_o divine_a copy_n of_o it_o as_o it_o be_v and_o what_o god_n be_v it_o say_v he_o that_o do_v this_o rape_n be_v it_o not_o he_o that_o make_v the_o arch_a temple_n of_o heaven_n tremble_v with_o his_o echo_a thunder_n and_o may_v not_o i_o then_o a_o frail_a tempt_v mortal_a do_v the_o same_o yes_o sure_o i_o do_v it_o and_o that_o well-pleased_a nor_o happen_v it_o from_o this_o unclean_a discourse_n that_o those_o word_n be_v any_o whit_n better_o learn_v but_o by_o these_o word_n convey_v it_o such_o uncleanness_n be_v more_o impudent_o attempt_v not_o that_o i_o blame_v *_o the_o word_n be_v as_o it_o be_v choice_n and_o precious_a vessel_n but_o *_o the_n wine_n of_o error_n which_o be_v minister_v in_o they_o unto_o we_o child_n by_o our_o fore-intoxicated_n master_n of_o which_o if_o we_o refuse_v to_o drink_v we_o be_v beat_v and_o have_v no_o sober_a judge_n to_o who_o we_o may_v appeal_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n in_o who_o presence_n my_o remembrance_n of_o these_o thing_n be_v now_o fear-less_a and_o secure_a i_o poor_a wretch_n then_o swallow_v those_o potion_n most_o willing_o and_o with_o great_a delight_n and_o for_o this_o be_v call_v a_o hopeful_a boy_n chap._n xvii_o and_o *_o the_o mis-use_a of_o his_o wit_n permit_v i_o also_o o_o my_o god_n to_o say_v something_o of_o my_o wit_n thy_o gift_n on_o what_o foolish_a labour_n it_o be_v then_o employ_v for_o than_o be_v set_v i_o a_o task_n very_o vexatious_a to_o my_o spirit_n upon_o the_o price_n of_o applause_n or_o shame_n and_o fear_v of_o whip_v to_o render_v rage_a juno_n speech_n when_o she_o so_o doleful_o lament_v non_fw-la posse_fw-la italia_n teucrorum_fw-la avertere_fw-la regem_fw-la that_o she_o can_v not_o from_o italy_n divert_v the_o trojan_a prince_n which_o word_n i_o have_v hear_v that_o juno_n never_o utter_v but_o we_o trace_v error_n be_v force_v to_o follow_v the_o footstep_n of_o such_o poetic_a fiction_n and_o to_o vary_v into_o prose_n what_o he_o express_v in_o verse_n and_o he_o do_v it_o with_o best_a applause_n who_o retain_v the_o dignity_n of_o the_o person_n represent_v can_v reach_v to_o a_o high_a strain_n of_o the_o like_a passion_n of_o anger_n and_o sorrow_n with_o a_o agreeable_a sense_n handsome_o dress_v in_o a_o apt_a expression_n and_o what_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o i_o o_o thou_o my_o true_a life_n my_o god_n that_o my_o exercise_n shall_v be_v pre-applauded_n beyond_o many_o my_o coequal_o behold_v be_v not_o all_o such_o thing_n fume_n and_o vanity_n and_o be_v there_o then_o no_o other_o better_a thing_n wherein_o to_o have_v exercise_v our_o wit_n and_o eloquence_n even_o thy_o praise_n o_o lord_n thy_o praise_n in_o thy_o more_o holy_a writing_n these_o may_v have_v be_v a_o divine_a subject_n for_o the_o tender_a branch_n of_o my_o spread_a fancy_n to_o have_v clasp_v about_o and_o depend_v upon_o without_z *_o be_v trail_v on_o the_o ground_n among_o such_o empty_a trifle_n and_o *_o have_v its_o fruit_n make_v a_o filthy_a prey_n to_o those_o ravenous_a spiritual_a fowl_n of_o the_o air_n for_o many_o way_n there_o be_v whereby_o the_o precious_a fruit_n of_o our_o youth_n become_v a_o sacrifice_n to_o those_o unclean_a spirit_n chap._n xviii_o misguide_v by_o vicious_a example_n and_o more_o ashamed_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o grammar-rule_n than_o of_o god_n law_n but_o what_o wonder_n be_v it_o if_o i_o be_v thus_o carry_v away_o through_o vanity_n and_o go_v out_o from_o thy_o presence_n 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o o_o my_o god_n when_o such_o man_n only_o be_v propose_v to_o my_o imitation_n who_o if_o they_o shall_v relate_v any_o of_o their_o action_n though_o not_o ill_a with_o any_o barbarism_n or_o solecism_n be_v censure_v for_o it_o be_v abash_v and_o confound_v but_o if_o they_o shall_v in_o a_o round_a and_o well-cohering_a stile_n fluent_o and_o neat_o express_v though_o one_o of_o their_o culpable_a lust_n be_v applaud_v for_o this_o become_v exalt_v with_o pride_n this_o thou_o see_v o_o lord_n and_o hold_v thy_o peace_n long-suffering_a and_o abundant_a in_o goodness_n and_o truth_n and_o will_v thou_o always_o hold_v thy_o peace_n no_o but_o thou_o draw_v out_o of_o this_o swallow_a deep_a the_o soul_n that_o seek_v after_o thou_o and_o thirst_v after_o thy_o chaste_a delight_n and_o who_o heart_n say_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v seek_v thy_o face_n and_o lord_n thy_o face_n will_v i_o seek_v but_o 1.21_o ps_n 27.9_o vulg._n rom._n 1.21_o i_o then_o be_v depart_v far_o away_o from_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n in_o my_o own_o darken_a affection_n for_o it_o be_v not_o by_o motion_n or_o measure_v of_o place_n that_o we_o recede_v from_o thou_o or_o return_v to_o thou_o for_o that_o thy_o prodigal_a young_a son_n in_o the_o gospel_n do_v he_o procure_v himself_o either_o horse_n or_o chariot_n 15._o luk._n 15._o or_o ship_n wing_a he_o himself_o to_o fly_v or_o gird_v he_o up_o his_o loin_n to_o run_v into_o a_o far_a country_n there_o lavish_o to_o waste_v the_o portion_n thou_o give_v he_o at_o his_o setting-forth_a a_o kind_a father_n that_o send_v he_o forth_o so_o rich_a and_o yet_o far_o more_o kind_a when_o he_o return_v to_o thou_o so_o poor_a no_o but_o his_o departure_n from_o thou_o be_v in_o his_o err_a mind_n and_o his_o course_v
which_o those_o writing_n so_o inflame_v i_o there_o be_v those_o that_o seduce_v through_o philosophy_n with_o this_o smooth_a and_o noble_a and_o virtuous_a name_n palliate_v and_o colour_n over_o their_o error_n and_o almost_o all_o who_o in_o those_o or_o in_o former_a time_n be_v such_o be_v in_o that_o book_n note_v and_o set_v down_o and_o there_o likewise_o be_v express_v that_o salvifical_a admonition_n of_o thy_o spirit_n by_o thy_o pious_a and_o devout_a servant_n 2.8_o col._n 2.8_o beware_v lest_o any_o man_n spoil_v you_o through_o philosophy_n and_o vain_a deceit_n after_o the_o tradition_n of_o man_n after_o the_o rudiment_n of_o the_o world_n and_o not_o after_o christ_n for_o in_o he_o dwell_v all_o the_o fullness_n of_o the_o godhead_n bodily_a and_o i_o for_o thou_o o_o light_n of_o my_o soul_n know_v that_o the_o apostolical_a advice_n be_v then_o unknown_a to_o i_o be_v much_o please_v with_o this_o in_o that_o exhortation_n of_o cicero_n that_o it_o excite_v and_o kindle_v and_o inflame_a i_o not_o to_o this_o or_o that_o sect_n but_o to_o the_o affect_v and_o pursuance_n and_o apprehend_v of_o wisdom_n itself_o whatever_o it_o be_v and_o in_o this_o great_a ardency_n of_o i_o this_o one_o thing_n only_o cool_v i_o that_o the_o name_n of_o christ_n be_v not_o there_o because_o this_o name_n according_a to_o thy_o mercy_n o_o lord_n this_o name_n of_o my_o saviour_n thy_o son_n my_o tender_a heart_n with_o my_o very_a mother_n milk_n have_v pious_o imbibe_v and_o deep_o apprehend_v and_o whatsoever_o want_v this_o name_n though_o never_o so_o learned_a polite_a or_o veritable_a yet_o do_v not_o whole_o sway_v i_o chap._n v._n not_o find_v our_o saviour_n in_o philosophy_n he_o turn_v to_o the_o scripture_n who_o humble_a stile_n in_o comparison_n of_o tullie_n give_v he_o distaste_n therefore_o now_o i_o design_v my_o study_n to_o the_o holy_a scripture_n to_o see_v what_o a_o writing_n it_o be_v and_o behold_v i_o find_v it_o not_o 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manichee_n absurd_a pernicious_a and_o even_o therefore_o i_o fall_v among_o the_o proud_o dote_v manichee_n dote_v the_o manichee_n and_o too_o too_o carnal_a and_o yet_o great_a talker_n in_o who_o mouth_n be_v lay_v the_o snare_n of_o satan_n and_o a_o catch_a birdlime_n compound_v of_o the_o commixture_n of_o the_o syllable_n of_o thy_o name_n and_o also_o of_o that_o of_o our_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n and_o of_o the_o comforter_n the_o holy_a spirit_n in_o their_o mouth_n be_v all_o these_o very_a rife_a but_o in_o the_o sound_n only_o and_o noise_n of_o the_o tongue_n with_o a_o heart_n void_a of_o truth_n and_o they_o speak_v of_o truth_n and_o truth_n and_o many_o they_o be_v that_o name_v it_o unto_o i_o and_o no_o where_o be_v it_o in_o they_o but_o false_a thing_n they_o speak_v not_o of_o thou_o only_o who_o be_v the_o true_a truth_n but_o also_o of_o those_o element_n of_o the_o world_n thy_o creature_n of_o which_o i_o find_v the_o philosopher_n speak_v truth_n yet_o 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the_o trouble_n of_o emptiness_n to_o the_o rest_n of_o fullness_n my_o concupiscence_n lay_v a_o snare_n for_o i_o for_o this_o passage_n itself_o be_v a_o pleasure_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o other_o way_n to_o pass_v to_o it_o but_o this_o to_o which_o necessity_n force_v i_o and_o thus_o whereas_o health_n only_o be_v the_o true_a cause_n of_o eat_v and_o drink_v yet_o there_o accompany_v it_o as_o its_o handmaid_n a_o perilous_a jucundity_n and_o gust_n which_o most_o what_o endeavour_v also_o to_o step_v before_o it_o that_o for_o its_o sake_n i_o shall_v do_v what_o i_o pretend_v or_o also_o desire_v to_o do_v only_o for_o health_n sake_n nor_o be_v both_o of_o these_o content_n with_o the_o same_o allowance_n that_o which_o be_v sufficient_a for_o health_n be_v too_o little_a for_o delight_n and_o many_o time_n it_o become_v uncertain_a whether_o it_o be_v the_o necessary_a care_n of_o my_o body_n that_o require_v such_o a_o supply_n or_o the_o voluptuous_a deceit_n of_o my_o lust_n that_o procure_v such_o a_o maintenance_n from_o i_o and_o the_o unhappy_a soul_n grow_v glad_a in_o such_o a_o uncertainty_n and_o thence_o prepare_v the_o protection_n of_o a_o excuse_n rejoice_v that_o it_o appear_v not_o what_o be_v a_o exact_a proportion_n for_o the_o welfare_n of_o the_o body_n that_o under_o the_o cloak_n of_o health_n it_o may_v disguise_v the_o matter_n of_o delight_n these_o enticement_n daily_o i_o endeavour_v to_o resist_v and_o do_v invoke_v thy_o right_a hand_n to_o save_v i_o and_o to_o thou_o do_v relate_v these_o my_o anxitty_n for_o i_o be_o to_o seek_v for_o counsel_n in_o this_o matter_n i_o hear_v the_o voice_n of_o my_o lord_n command_v let_v not_o your_o heart_n be_v overcharge_v with_o surfeit_v and_o drunkenness_n 21.34_o luk._n 21.34_o as_o for_o drunkenness_n it_o be_v hitherto_o far_o from_o i_o show_v thou_o mercy_n that_o it_o may_v never_o approach_v i_o but_o immoderate_a eat_n do_v sometime_o steal_v upon_o thy_o servant_n show_v 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pleasure_n i_o have_v hear_v also_o that_o speech_n from_o thy_o bounty_n with_o which_o i_o be_o much_o take_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v shall_v we_o abound_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v not_o shall_v we_o lack_v that_o be_v neither_o will_v the_o one_o render_v i_o plentiful_a nor_o the_o other_o deficient_a another_o voice_n i_o have_v hear_v for_o i_o have_v learn_v in_o whatsoever_o state_n i_o be_o therewith_o to_o be_v content_a 4.11_o phil._n 4.11_o i_o know_v both_o how_o to_o abound_v and_o how_o to_o suffer_v need_n through_o christ_n that_o strengthen_v i_o i_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n 15.32_o psal_n 103.14_o gen._n 3._o luke_n 15.32_o see_v here_o a_o soldier_n of_o the_o celestial_a host_n and_o not_o such_o earth_n and_o dust_n as_o we_o be_v but_o remember_v thou_o o_o lord_n that_o we_o be_v but_o dust_n and_o that_o of_o the_o dust_n thou_o make_v man_n and_o he_o be_v lose_v but_o be_v find_v neither_o be_v this_o man_n able_a of_o himself_o to_o do_v such_o thing_n because_o he_o be_v the_o same_o dust_n who_o by_o thy_o inspiration_n say_v such_o thing_n i_o do_v so_o dear_o affect_v but_o i_o say_v he_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n through_o he_o who_o strengthenâ—h_v i_o strengthen_v thou_o i_o also_o that_o i_o may_v be_v able_a give_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o command_v what_o thou_o please_v he_o also_o confess_v 6._o 1_o cor._n 4._o â—_o 1_o cor._n 1_o 31._o eccles_n 23_o 5_o 6._o that_o he_o have_v receive_v it_o and_o what_o he_o glorifi_v oâ—â—e_n glorifi_v of_o in_o the_o lord_n another_z i_o have_v hear_v ask_v of_o thou_o that_o he_o may_v receive_v take_v thou_o fâ—om_v i_o say_v hâ—_n the_o greediness_n of_o the_o belly_n whence_o it_o appear_v my_o holy_a god_n that_o thou_o give_v when_o it_o be_v do_v what_o thou_o command_v to_o be_v do_v thou_o have_v teach_v i_o also_o 14.3_o rom._n 14.20_o 1_o tim._n 4.4_o 1_o cor._n 8.8_o col._n 2.16_o rom._n 14.3_o good_a â—aâ—her_n unto_o the_o pure_a that_o all_o thing_n be_v pure_a but_o that_o it_o be_v evil_a to_o the_o man_n who_o eat_v with_o offence_n and_o that_o every_o creature_n of_o thou_o be_v good_a and_o nothing_o to_o be_v refuse_v which_o be_v receive_v with_o thanks_o give_v and_o that_o meat_n commend_v we_o not_o to_o god_n and_o that_o not_o man_n may_v judge_v we_o in_o meat_n or_o in_o drink_n and_o that_o he_o which_o eat_v let_v he_o not_o despise_v he_o that_o eat_v not_o and_o let_v noâ—_n he_o that_o eat_v not_o judge_v he_o that_o eat_v these_o thing_n i_o have_v learn_v thanks_n be_v to_o thou_o praise_n to_o thou_o my_o god_n my_o master_n knocking-at_a my_o ear_n enlighten_v my_o heart_n deliver_v thou_o i_o from_o all_o temptation_n the_o uncleanness_n of_o the_o meat_n i_o do_v not_o dread_a but_o the_o uncleanness_n of_o lust_a i_o know_v that_o noah_n be_v permit_v all_o manner_n of_o flesh_n good_a for_o food_n 11.4_o gen._n 9.3_o 1_o kin._n 17.6_o mat._n 3.4_o gen._n 25._o 1_o chro_fw-la 11_o mat._n 4.3_o num._n 11.4_o that_o 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and_o perfume_n from_o the_o allurement_n of_o sweet_a smell_n i_o suffer_v no_o great_a trouble_n when_o absent_a i_o do_v not_o miss_v they_o when_o present_a not_o refuse_v they_o and_o be_o willing_a for_o ever_o to_o be_v without_o they_o thus_o i_o appear_v to_o myself_o but_o perhaps_o mistake_v for_o much_o to_o be_v lament_v be_v the_o darkness_n wherein_o my_o very_a ability_n and_o faculty_n which_o be_v within_o i_o lie_v obscure_v and_o hide_a from_o i_o so_o that_o my_o own_o mind_n when_o question_v itself_o concern_v its_o own_o strength_n know_v not_o well_o how_o to_o believe_v itself_o because_o much_o within_o it_o lie_v secret_a and_o conceal_v from_o it_o till_o