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i_o than_o any_o sin_n yea_o than_o all_o the_o world_n etc._n etc._n second_o i_o know_v say_v he_o that_o to_o have_v true_a faith_n by_o christ_n be_v more_o precious_a to_o i_o than_o all_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n i_o be_o willing_a to_o receive_v he_o into_o my_o heart_n as_o my_o lord_n and_o king_n to_o rule_v i_o and_o my_o faith_n work_v by_o love_n so_o that_o i_o be_o grieve_v for_o his_o absence_n and_o rejoice_v at_o his_o presence_n and_o i_o be_o willing_a to_o part_v with_o all_o for_o he_o that_o he_o may_v be_v my_o all_o and_o in_o all_o three_o i_o find_v a_o delight_n to_o do_v god_n will_v sometime_o in_o pray_v to_o he_o sometime_o in_o praise_v of_o he_o sometime_o in_o hear_v from_o he_o and_o sometime_o in_o meditate_v upon_o he_o and_o upon_o that_o work_n of_o man_n redemption_n four_o i_o feel_v my_o heart_n mourn_v most_o for_o that_o sin_n which_o most_o disturb_v my_o peace_n and_o most_o separate_v betwixt_o god_n and_o my_o soul_n and_o long_v 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