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relation_n to_o he_o ezek._n 16._o 38._o he_o bear_v his_o own_o guilt_n before_o with_o distraction_n and_o horror_n now_o christ_n bear_v it_o from_o he_o before_o his_o very_a eye_n and_o melt_v his_o heart_n into_o remorse_n at_o the_o sight_n of_o such_o a_o spectacle_n zach._n 12._o 10._o ten_o thousand_o river_n of_o oil_n can_v not_o expiate_v one_o sin_n before_o but_o now_o they_o all_o pass_v away_o as_o a_o cloud_n drive_v before_o the_o wind_n and_o efficacy_n of_o the_o one_o sacrifice_n of_o christ_n to_o who_o and_o to_o which_o by_o faith_n he_o be_v unite_v his_o sin_n make_v he_o wander_v still_o far_o and_o far_o from_o god_n before_o now_o they_o be_v make_v contrary_a to_o their_o own_o nature_n to_o scourge_v he_o into_o the_o fresh_a application_n of_o jesus_n christ_n by_o who_o he_o draw_v near_o to_o god_n psal_n 89._o 30_o 31._o 1_o pet._n 3._o 18._o in_o all_o his_o affliction_n he_o be_v alone_o before_o now_o christ_n be_v his_o partner_n isa_n 63._o 9_o 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