was sound and orthodox in his judgement An able and resolute Champion against all manner of Popery and Arminianism as also against Anabaptism and Brownism which did then begin to peep up and infest the Church to tear and rent the seamless coat of Christ. He was always a Non-conformist one of the good old Puritans of England He never swallowed any of the Prelatical Ceremonies against his Conscience So that he was often troubled by the Bishops but God raised him up friends that always brought him off and maintained his Liberty He was prudent and of a peaceable spirit and never censured any that could and did conform if he judged them consciencious and saw any thing of God in them At his first coming to Bramford he saw of the travel of his soul. He had a plentifull harvest many souls being daily added to the Church by his powerfull Ministery and holy life But after he had abode many years amongst them the people began to be glutted with heavenly Manna and loathed it so that there grew a great decay in their first love and about the year 1615. or something before there arose up a generation of malignant spirits who were haters of a plain powerfull and searching Ministry and of the life and power of Godliness These were the Gentry and chief of the Parish These rose up against Mr. Carter pressed him to Conformity complained of him to the Bishop and threatned that they would either bring him to conformity or eject him At this very juncture of time through Gods gracious Providence the Rectory of little Belsted fell to be void A very small Village some three miles from Ipswich and a solitary place the means indeed was better then Bramford yet short of a competency and of the deserts of so eminent a Pillar in the Church of Christ it being but about fifty pound and at the most not worth above sixty pound per annum The Patron Mr. Bloss became a Suitor to Master Carter to accept of it which he refused again and again being resolved rather to endure persecution at Bramford to grapple with all difficulties and to die there rather then to remove But Gods providence over-ruled him At Bramford he saw that he must be outed and Mr. Bloss would take no denial yea and he found favour in the eyes of the Bishop so that he was instituted without subscription or submitting to the Ceremonies and then at last God as it were taking him by the hand and pulling him whether he would or no he removed from Bramford after he had done faithfull Service in the work of the Ministery for about thirty four years in that place and was setled at Belsted Parsonage where be continued eighteen years before God caused him to rest from his Labors and in all that time he discharged his holy Function just as he had done in Bramford in his younger years though his Congregation here was but small yet it pleased God that many Fish came within the compass of his Net from Ipswich and other neighbouring Towns where they were destitute of faithfull Shepherds so that his later Crop in Gods Harvest-field was very considerable Little Belsted was a Tusculanum to him where in his old age he had much secret and sweet communion with God in the house and as an Isaac with him in the Fields which was a beginning of that glorious Communion which he now enjoyes with God in the mountains of Spices He being dead yet speaks and his works praise him in the Gates For from the Press we have his Learned and pithy Commentary on the Sermon of Christ in the Mount and two short but substantial solid and profitable Catechisms one Milk for children the other Winter evenings Communication His pains in the study of the Revelations were indefatigable He wrote much in a little room but these Labours of his yet never saw the light Many Ministers that privately did converse with him lighted their candles at his For his carriage and deportment in his Family it was sober grave and very Religious He there offered up the Morning and Evening Sacrifice of Prayer and praise continually so that his House was a little Church Thrice a day he had the Scriptures read and after that the Psalm or Chapter were ended he used to ask all his children and servants what they remembred and whatsoever Sentences they rehearsed he would speak something out of them that might tend to their edification For his own and his Wives habit it was very plain and homely of the old Fashion yet very cleanly and decent insomuch that all that came to his house would say they had seen Adam and Eve or some of the old Patriarchs In all his house also there was nothing but honest plainess He was such an one as Jacob a plain sincere I had almost said a perfect man I am sure a true Nathaneel in whom was no guile He never used any Plate in his House but Vessels of Wood and Earth Pewter and Brass were the highest Mettals for his Utensils All the time of his house-keeping he used constantly at his Table a little wooden Salt which with age was grown to be of a duskish black which was much taken notice of by all Comers He never made Feasts yet always had wholsom full and liberal Diet in his house and all fared alike He and his wife did never think that his children and servants and poor folk did eat enough The righteous man saith Solomon is mercifull to his Beast So he was carefull even for the bruit Creatures that they should be fed to the full All his cattel were like to the first Kine that Pharaoh saw feeding in the Meddow they were fat-fleshed and well favoured insomuch as some godly people used to say merrily If they would be a Cow or a Horse or a Hog or a Dog they would choose Mr. Carter for their Master He had a sharp wit and was sweet milde affable and pleasant in his conversation yet were there not any of his most facetious passages that did not savour of holiness His communication and discourse was always heavenly and his eyes were frequently lifted up towards heaven He did not eat or drink without praising God with his mouth and eyes His whole Conversation was in Heaven Besides his Family Duties and Prayers he prayed constantly in his Closet at his first going to his study and before he came forth to Dinner and Supper He prayed very loud and mostly very long for the extension of his voice he had a double reason one that by his earnest speech he might quicken and raise up his own heart and devotion the other that he might give a good example for secret prayer to his children and servants and he never closed any Prayer without adding the Lords Prayer and his ground for that practise was this He judged his own best Prayers imperfect and that of
spoken came to him in private and asked him whether he meant this of the Ministry of England as now constituted He returned him this answer Although I will not justifie the calling of every individual Minister in the Church of England as you dare not justifie the Saintship of every member in your Independent Congregations yet I will be ready when and where you please to maintain the Office and Calling of Englands Ministry at this day And that he continued unmoved and unchanged in his judgement and esteem of the Ministerial Calling to the last may be manifested by this passage in his last Will and Testament which is here set down in his own words and written with his own hand For my Son Jeremiah my desire is that he be bred a Scholar and that the Lord would spiritually incline his heart freely to give up himself to the Lord to serve him in the work of the Ministry which Calling and Imployment though now despised I do esteem above all others in the world and do commend it to all mine that if the Lord bless them with Sons they would commend this Calling to their Posterity And truly this deserves seriously to be considered whether there be not herein much to credit and encourage the Ministry of the Gospel that a learned man and so eminent for piety who also had throughly studied the Controversie of the times and had heard and read what could be said against the Ministry should yet upon his Death-bed give such a Testimony unto it when he daily expected to make up his account before God and also give such great encouragement to his Posterity to addict themselves to this calling now even now when such disgrace is cast upon it and when the Ministers setled maintenance is threatned to be taken from them And may not those men who knew Mr. Whitakers worth be hereby awed and moved to take heed how they oppose or slight that Calling of men whom he living and dying judged to be so highly honoured by God himself To this also adde that it was an Ordained Ministry which he thus valued which appears by these two lively Testimonies 1. In that he joyned with that Classis whereof he was a member in Ordaining of Ministers 2. In that he had an hand in the Book not long since published by the Province of London in the defence of such a Ministry not onely by his assent to it but also by his assistance in drawing it up As Mr. Whitaker loved God dearly so God loved him which he manifested by those grace wherewithall he enriched him and truly love tokens are real Messengers of his love that sendeth them and what surer signs can we have of Gods love then when he bestows upon us the Graces of his Holy Spirit Now of these the Lord had given him a more than ordinary measure and besides what hath been said before there were five Graces more which were very Orient and shining in his Crown 1. His tenderness of heart Who ever knew a man of a more melting frame of heart before God whether in Confessions Petitions or Thanksgivings Is there any one living that can say that I have at sometimes joyned with him in Prayer and he shed no tears How did his own sinfulness though it was no more than the ordinary imperfections of the fairest Saint upon earth the evils of the times and the testimonies of Gods displeasure breaking out upon us break his heart into pieces We may truly believe that for the space many years he did never come off from the serious consideration of these things with dry eyes and how many thousands be there of Gods children that would account it a sign of much love from Christ if they could finde such thawings in their frozen breasts 2. His meekness of spirit with which precious Jewel he was richly adorned Who ever saw him transported by passion on a fire through foolish anger or disgused by discontent Though his zeal would waxe hot and burn in him for God and his Glory yet he was a man of a cool spirit and meek like Moses in all his own concernments and this he hath often manifested in a remarkable manner when disputing with men of dissenting Principles and opinions yet his spirit was so even that their unhandsome provocations could not discompose him and drive him into passion 3. For his Patience he may well be called a second Job Many who saw him under those racking pains in his last sickness so frequently reiterated and so long continued were confident that God did put him and keep him in his Furnace to be a pattern of patience unto Posterity It is confessed that he did roar many times till his throat was dry but who ever heard him speak any one word of murmuring or discontent because of Gods afflicting Providence He himself indeed would sometimes through tenderness of conscience charge himself of impatiency because he made a noise in his extremity but that expressed onely Natures sensibleness not sinful frowardnes and when accusing himself causelesly he was minded of Christs roarings yet free from all sin he would be silent I confess indeed that in his desires to be dissolved he would take up Jobs complaint Wherefore is light given to him that is in misery and life unto the bitter in soul which long for death but it cometh not and dig for it more than for hid treasures c. For my sighing cometh before I eat and my roarings are powred out like waters Job 3. 20 24. But he alwayes concluded with submission to the good pleasure of God When he had been asked how he did this was frequently his answer The Bush alwayes burning but not consumed and though my pains be above the strength of nature yet they are not above the supports of Grace 4. The Lord was pleased to vouchsafe him such a measure of the Spirit of Grace and Supplications that his soul was never out of tune for that service Most of his words when he was under torment were holy complaints and prayers to God It will not be impertinent or unprofitable if I here set down some of them O my God help Father of mercies pity Do not contend for ever Consider my frame that I am but dust My God that hath made Heaven and earth help me Oh give me patience and inflict what thou wiâ—t If my patience was more my pain would be less Dear Saviour where are thy bowels why dost thou make me an astonishment to my self and others Why dost thou cover thy self with a thick cloud that our prayers cannot pass Blessed is the man that endureth temptation Lord this is a sad temptation stand by me and say It is enough Am I not thy servant Consider Lord that I am thy servant O these bitter waters of Marah Lord drop sweet comfort into these bitter water of Marah O the blood of sprinkling Lord the blood of sprinkling Lord That
blood which extinguisheth the fire of thine anger O that it might allay my burning pains I am in a fiery Furnace Lord be with me as thou wast with the tâ—ree Children and bring me out refined from sin when I have sailed through the Ocean of these pains and look back I see that none of them can be wanting I flye unto thee O God hide me under the shadow of thy wings till these terrible storms be overpast 5. God added Humility as a Crown to all his other Graces which yet shone bright in the eyes of all that were acquainted with him Indeed he was cloathed with Humility And hence it was that he would converse so familiarly with the poorest Christians and with them who were of the lowest parts for knowledge even with babes in Christ. This his ordinary expression of himself before God did clearly demonstrate his great humility Poor worm Sinful wretch O pardon my transgressions for they are very great Hereupon he would weep much when he was told how much he was prayed for wondring at Gods goodness that so sinful a wretch and worthless a creature should have so much interest in the hearts and prayers of the people of God And his language in his Will speaks how little he was in his own eyes the words are these I desire that at my Funeral there may be no pomp but that so poor a worthless wretch may be privately laid in the ground And as his Graces were many so were his Comforts many and great which God vouchsafed as singular manifestations of his love to this his dear Servant and Childe O what Kisses of Christs Mouth and what imbraces from the Arms of his Love were bestowed upon this Saint of the most High He enjoyed all along his afflicted condition an uninterrupted assurance of Gods Fatherly love in Christ. In his addresses unto God he constantly claimed propriety in God calling him my God and my Father His inward peace and joy were the support of his heart under all his grievous and grinding pains he was confident of mercies mixtures with all his greatest distempers not at all doubting of the sanctification of them to him through Grace Thus he spake many times in his applications unto God Consider and save me for I am thine How long how long Lord shall I not be remembred yea I am remembred blessed be thy Name This is a fiery Chariot but it will carry me to Heaven Blessed be God that hath supported me hitherto and he that hath delivered will yet deliver Thou Lord never forgettest them that put their trust in thee Alwayes when the extremity of pain was over he would with smiles speak of Gods mercies Though trembling took hold upon him when his violent pains began yet would he with confidence say Now in the strength of the mighty God I will undergo these pains O my God put under thine everlasting Arms and strengthen me Many times he told a bosome friend of his that notwithstanding all his rentings and roarings from which he expected no deliverance but by death he would not for a thousand worlds change estates with the greatest man on earth whom he looked upon as in a way of sin and enthraled thereto And this much bespeaks Gods Fatherly indulgence towards him that Satan could never shake his confidence nor assault his hopes all the time of his irksome irksome distemper And this was further very remarkable that he counted all these inward cheerings the fruits of Prayers that were made for him though God saw cause to deny that ease and recovery to his body which was so much begged and withall he valued those spiritual cordials and refreshings far beyond deliverance from the Gout and the Stone yea and Death it self These things are the rather mentioned to prevent that discouragement or offence which some may be too apt to take at the violence and continuance of his wasting and tormenting pains notwithstanding his own godliness and the uncessant prayers both ordinary and extraordinary which were made unto God in his behalf for he found the sweet fruits of them in his own bosome even when he felt the continuance and increase of his bodily grief Another thing very remarkable in holy Mr. Whitaker was his love to his fellow Christians he was a man made up as it were of love His delight was in the Saints upon earth whom he esteemed most excellent and their society was a constant cordial to his spirit His frequent visits of them that were in trouble and his stirring up of others to the like practice were testimonies of this his cordial love which indeed was not verbal but real He was also abundant in works of charity few men of his estate did equalize him therein He would often say It is a brave thing when a man together with a full estate hath a charitable heart Sometimes upon special occasions he hath given away all the money that he had in the house It was not unusual with him to give twenty shillings to a poor Saint and he had many experiencences of Gods gracious returns in such cases By his last Will he gave twenty pounds to the godly poor of his own Parish There were two Cases wherein his loves were most enlarged to the people of God whereof you may take these two Instances The one when the sufferings were publick He often told an intimate friend of his that Englands late breach with Scotland and the blood that was shed together with other sad consequences thereof had taken such impression upon his heart that the sorrow would never be removed till his death and the sufferings both in Holland and in England in our late Sea-sights were an heavy burden upon his spirit The other Case was in respect to the inward perplexity of such as were afflicted in minde having moved a special friend of his the week before his death to bestow a visit upon one in that condition the very morning before his death when speech was grievous to him in respect of his great weakness he asked him whether he had remembred the party that was troubled in spirit which was a remarkable evidence of his strong love to such And besides what hath already been mentioned I might here set down his many wrestlings with God to prevent the flood or troubles which he apprehended the Protestant Churches were now in danger to be overflowed withall as also his compassionate respect to Congregations in the Country which were like sheep wandring upon the barren mountains without a Shepherd And as his love sâ—owed forth to the Saints so was theirs no less towards him Not to speak of the many frequent and friendly visits of godly men and women in the Neighbourhood round about him there was scarce ever heard of any man that was so much prayed for both in publick and in private both upon ordinary and extraordinary occasions as he was There was no particular case so frequently so
tears put her Prayers to a pause When the heart is full of love the mouth is filled with praise of a person most deservedly and most dearly beloved whereof we have an example in this vertuous Gentlewoman who when time company and occasion did invite her to communicate to others the good matter which her heart had indited of God she used her Tongue as the pen of a ready writer Psal. 45. 1. And when she had that great King for the subject of her speech she spake of him with such hearty and savoury relishes of sacred delight and reverence and with such an affectionate force as if her soul were ready to leap out at her lips into the ears of others to kindle the same holy fire in their hearts who heard her which burned in her own bosome longing as David did that others might taste and see the goodnâ—ss of the Lord Psal. 34. 8. that they might be Rivals with her in her Religious love and glad she was when any sinner was converted or any already called better enabled to promote the glory of God and that was the end which she principally aimed at in her godly discourse of him In giving vent to her heart in this duty she could spend her spirits with great delight both to her self and to those choice friends who had opportunity to hear her when just occasion was ministred unto her and yet when she had spoken best she found matter of complaint in her own expressions as being too faint and too flat and so far below that which was meet for the Majesty of the great God insomuch as all the acceptation which she desired of him was but to pardon her presumption as the errour of her love for taking upon her to speak of his Excellency and the weakness of her spirit and speech which made her fall infinitely short of doing him right in the publication of his praise Another evidence of her dear affection unto God was the great love which for his sake she bore to whom or whatsoever had any near relation to him according to that 1 Joh. 4. 21. He that loves God must love his brother also and he must love him rather in a direct than in a collateral line as Gods childe rather than as his brother more for Gods sake than for his own The dearest degree of love belongs to those persons and things which are nearest to him and to such she bore a sincere and singular good will As to his Saints with David Psal. 16. 3. and to his true Religion and worship both at home and abroad the happy progress and prosperity whereof was with her as Jerusalem with David preferred above her chiefest joy Psal. 137. 6. and it was a great affliction to her heart to hear any ill tidings of any good man or any good cause She highly prized Gods word and in the blessed Sacrament of the Lords Supper she felt such a sweet refreshing as might make amends for the severity of her frequent fasting so that for her part and portion of it in respect of the common sort of Communicants she might say I have meat that ye know not of Joh. 4. 32. Dainties which infinitely exceed whatsoever delighteth or pleaseth a sensual pallate For the house of God she shewed her self just of Davids minde when she said I have loved the habitation of thy house the place where thine honour dwelleth Psal. 26. 8. and How amiable are thy Tabernacles O Lord of Hosts my soul longeth yea even fainteth for the Courts of the Lord Psal. 84. 1 2. If by any imperious impediment she were kept from the Church as by sickness in her body c. her soul was love-sick by her longings to be there and whereas many women take a little occasion to absent themselves from it she would many times force her feeble body to carry her soul to the Sanctuary though the day before she were confined not only to her chamber but to her bed whereby though she hazarded her health yet it pleased God so graciously to accept of her zeal to his House that she was never the worse for those pious adventures She kept a great distance from doting on the world which St. James condemns as enmity to God Jam. 4. 4. Though while she lived she could not choose but be in the world yet did she so love her dear Lord Jesus Christ that for his sake she was exceedingly estranged from the world which appeared 1. By her estrangement from sensual delights which she shewed by her frequent fasting from meats and drinks By her abstinence from such sports and pastimes as before her conversion she had been too immoderately addicted unto and by her fiâ—m resolution to forbear Marriage after her widowhood and to rest in that condition wherein she might best attend upon the service of God Indeed her love and delight in communion with God made her mindeless of meat and careless of provision for the flesh Well she knew that though fasting makes the body weak as David saith My knees are weak through fasting and my flesh faileth of fatness Psal. 109. 20. yet it strengthneth the spirit and maketh it vigorous in conflict and victorious in the event yea fasting and prayer make a potent combination which is able to drive the strongest Devil out of his usurped possession as Matth. 17. 21. These two she used not onely as weapons against the Devil but as wings to elevate her soul God-ward and heaven-ward yet herein was she observant of our Saviours rule Mat. 17. 18. that she fasted without an appearance of fasting onely the next day it might be discerned by her faintness she having spent her spirits in spiritual exercises the day before For those sports and pastimes wherein formerly she had taken too much contentment she not onely abstained from them but much complained of her vanity in them Her eyes which before were used to behold them with delight now shed tears of shame and sorrow that formerly she had set her minde so much upon them and now she imployed them in the more frequent and affectionate reading of the holy Scriptures wherein she took more delight than she had done before in the most pompous Spectacles set out to take the eyes with gazing and the minde with wonder And as for Marriage her heart was so devoted to her Lord Christ that though she had divers fair invitations to it by such as both for profit and credit and other considerable respects were worthy rather to be desired than denied yet she resolved not to change her condition in that kinde and that not onely in love and loyalty to her former Husband but that she might be more free to serve God according to that of St. Paul 1 Cor. 7. 34. The unmarried woman careth for the things of the Lord that she may be holy both in body and spirit but she that is married careth for the things
used to do and came out of his Bed-chamber into the Hall and after Prayer he called for his ordinary breakfast which he used before he went to Church for still he held his resolution for Preaching which was an Egg he took it into his hand but alas it would not down whereupon he said to his daughter Eunice I am not able to go to Church yet I pray thee lead me to my Bed I will lie down a little and rest me So he rose up out of his chair and walked up and down she supporting him and when he came to the Parlour door before he put his foot over the threshold Oh Eunice saith he What shall I do Put your trust saith she in that God of whom you have had so much experience who never yet did leave you nor forsake you Yea saith he the Lord be thanked So he gathered up his strength went to the Bed-side sat down upon it and immediatly composed himself to lie down He lifted up one of his Legs upon the Bed without any great difficulty laid down his Body and rested his Head upon the Pillow His Daughter still stood by expecting when she should lift his other leg upon the Bed thinking that he had been faln asleep and she was not mistaken for so he was It proved his last sleep and before she could discern any change in him his soul had taken its flight into heaven even into the Arms and embraces of his Blessed Saviour whom he had faithfully served all his life long being about fourscore years old He intended a Sabbaths labour for Christ and Christ gave him rest from his labour even the rest of an eternal Sabbath When his daughter began to speak to him and to lift him she found that his breath was departed yet was there not any change in his countenance at all his eyes and his mouth continuing in the same posture they used to be in his sweetest sleeps Thus the Lord gave unto his faithfull Servant the desire of his soul and a return of his Prayers such an easie passage as that his death could not be discerned from a sweet natural sleep Not many days before his death he called his daughter and said to her Daughter Remember my love to my Son John I shall see him no more in this life and remember me to the rest of my children and Family and deliver this message to them all from me Stand fast in the faith and love one another This was the last message that ever he sent to them He ended his life with a Doxology breathing out his last with these words The Lord be thanked When he had thus yielded up his Spirit into the hands of his heavenly Father his daughter Eunice dispatched away a Messenger to his Son John at Norwich for so had her Father given order before he died that his body should not be put into a Cofsin till his Son John came and God carried him through the journey in hard weather so that through Gods good providence he arrived at Belsted early on the Tuesday and going into the house of mourning he found the Body of his deceased Father still lying upon the bed they uncovered his face and sweetly he lay and with a smiling countenance and no difference appearing to the eye between his countenance alive and dead only that he was wont to rejoyce and to bless his Son at their meeting and now he was silent His son fell upon his face and kissed him and lift up his voice and wept and so took his last leave of him till they should meet in a better world February the 4th in the afternoon Anno Christi 1634. was he Interred at which time there was a great confluence people from all the parts thereabout Ministers and others all taking up the words of Joash King of Israel Oh my Father my Father the chariots of Israel and the Horsemen thereof Good Mr. Samuel Ward that famous Divine and the glory of Ipswich came to the Funeral brought with him a mourning Gown and offered very respectfully to have preached his Funeral Sermon now that such a Congregation was gathered together and upon such an occasion But his Son and daughter durst not give way unto it for so their Father had often charged them in his life time and that upon his blessing that there should be no Sermon at his burial For said he it may give occasion to speak some good of me that I deserve not and so false things may be uttered in the Pulpit Mr. Ward rested satisfied with this and accordingly did forbear But the next Friday at Ipswich he turned his whole Lecture into a Funeral Sermon for Mr. Carter in which he honoured him and lamented the Churches loss to the great satisfaction of the whole Auditory Gloria fugentes sequitur Glory is like your shadow follow it and it will flie away from you but she from it and it will follow you And so it proved with Mr. Carter He was most eminent for Humility Humble he was in his habit and humble in all his deportment For though his Gifts called him before great men yet his most ordinary converse was with those of an inferiour rank in whom he saw most of the power of godliness So that he might truly say with David Psal. 119. 63. I am a companion of all them that fear thee and of them that keep thy precepts He wrote very much but he left nothing behinde him save what is Printed and his Exposition upon the Revelations and a Petition to King James for the taking away of burdensom Ceremonies out of the Church Nothing else but a few broken Papers which he regarded not Probably he burnt the rest when he saw his appointed time draw neer meerly out of a low opinion of himself and his own gifts He avoided all things that might tend to outward Pomp and ostentation He would have no Funeral Sermon He left order in his Will not to be buried in the Church but in the Church-yard where he and his wife that glorious pair he interred together without so much or rather so little as a poor Grave-stone over them He had learned of Christ to be meek and lowly in heart He was humble in his Life and humble in his Death and now the Lord hath highly exalted him He kept a constant Diary or day book in which every day he set down Gods extraordinary dispensations his own actions and whatsoever memorable things he heard or read that day He cast up his Accounts with God every day and his sins were blotted out before he came to his last reckoning his day of refreshing came and he rests from his labours Plus vivitur exemplis quam preceptis saith Seneca Examples of the dead are Sermons for the livâ—ng He was a true child of Abraham and the blessing of Abraham fell upon him I will bless them saith the Lord to him that bless thee and I will curse
University being a means to set up Lectures in many of them and very often assisting in them and as our Savior is observed by some Divines to have preached more frequently the nearer he was to his departure so this his faithful servant as it were presaging that his day would be but short towards his evening he made the more haste and speed in his journy towards his end and yet more abounded in this work of the Lord and now findes That his labour is not in vain in the Lord 1 Cor. 15. 58. Thus of him as a Minister And lastly as he was a Christian he was active for God as his Saviour Act. 10. 38. Going up and down and doing good and though otherwise modest yet when the case required it bold in a good cause He was spiritual in communion and a quickner of those with whom he conversed Fruitful in discourse by which the frame of his spirit might easily be discovered Frequent in asking questions which was both his humility and Christian good husbandry thereby to improve himselfe his time and company Affable he was to others of much humility and low thoughts of himself and of great integrity and singleness of heart towards God his Truth Ordinances wayes and servants of a very publick spirit and much affected with the various conditions of the State but especially of the Church and people of God He was a most loving Husband to his wife and a dutiful son to his Parents and in his life time very helpful to his other Relations Many poor both of the University and Town do now feel the want of his bounty which they tasted of in his life time and both they and others had done more at his death as appeared by his intentions of it in the draught of his Will had not the suddenness of his change prevented it In a long continued Quartan God had knocked at his door which in the interim of his recovery awakened him to get all within ready against the coming of his Lord which though to his friends was unexpected yet found not him unprepared In his short sickness he expressed to an intimate Friend his great comfort and joy in Gods discriminating electing-love and to a Reverend Doctor about half an hour before his departure who enquired of him about the setling of his outward estate and inward peace he readily and without the least hesitancy answered that throâ—gh the mercy of God in Christ his peace was made and that he quietly rested in it whereby it seems as was said by one he had his Faith at his fingers ends and having before given all diligence to make his calling and election sure though he was somewhat suddenly called out of this life yet had he an abundant entrance set open to him into the everlasting Kingdome of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ departing quietly in the Lord Decem. 18. 1653. As to himself he had lived a fruitful and gracious life and therefore as Clemens Romanus speaks of some of the first and best Bishops he closed up all with a happy and blessed death and as to others he lived approved and dyed desired and very much lamented He was a great Friend to the publication of the lives of godly and eminent Ministers and Christians and assisting to me in procuring information concerning the Lives of some of those Worthies whom I have formerly printed Dr. WILLIAM GOUGE The Life and Death of Dr. Gouge who dyed Anno Christi 1653. WIlliam Gouge was born in Stratford-Bow in the County of Middlesex Novem. 1. Anno 1575. His Father Mr. Thomas Gouge was a godly Gentleman His Mother was the vertuous and pious Daughter of Mr. Nicholas Culverel a Merchant in London and she was sister to those two famous Preachers Mr. Samuel and Mr. Ezekiel Culverel she had also two sisters who were married to those two famous and learned Divines Dr. Chaderton the Master of Emanuel College in Cambridge and Dr. Whitaker the Regius Professor of Divinity in the same University so that by the Mothers side he came of a stock of eminent Preachers Our William Gouge in his younger years was first trained up in Pauls School London and was afterwards sent to a Free-school at Felsted in Essex where he was trained up three years under the publick Ministry of his Uncle Mr. Ezekiel Culverel by whose labours he was much wrought upon and if not first begotten yet much built up in his holy Faith as himself often expressed From thence he was sent to Eaton where he was educated other six years during all which time he was more than ordinarily studious and industrious for when other boyes upon play-dayes took liverty for their sports and pastimes he would be at his book wherein he took more delight than others could finde in their Recreations whereby he profited beyond many his equals At this time whilst he was a Schollar at Eaton he was possessed with an holy fear of God was conscionable in secret prayer and in sanctifying the Sabbaths and was much grieved at the ordinary prophanation thereof by sports and pastimes which were then and there too much allowed as he did oft-times in his life with much thankfulness unto God express From the School at Eaton he was chosen to Kings College in Cambridge whither he went Anno Christi 1595. and at the first entrance of his studies he applied himself to P. Ramus his Logick and grew so expert therein that in the publick Schools he maintained and defended him insomuch as when on a time divers Sophisters set themselves to vilifie Ramus for which end the Respondent had given this question Nunquam erit magnus cui Ramus est magnus which some of the Sophisters hearing and knowing the said William Gouge to be an accute disputant and a stiff defender of Ramus they went to the Divinity Schools where he was then hearing an Act and told him how in the other Schools they were abusing Ramus he thereupon went into the Sophisters Schooles and upon the Moderators calling for another Opponent he stepped up and brought such an argument as stumbled the Respondent whereupon the Moderator took upon him to answer it but could not satisfie the doubt This occasioned a Sophister that stood by to say with a loud voice Do you come to vilifie Ramus and cannot answer the Argument of a Ramist Whereupon the Moderator rose up and gave him a box on the ear then the School was all on an uproar but the said William Gouge was safely conveyed out from amongst them When he was Senior Sophister he was chosen Moderator of the Sophisters Acts in the publick Schools which was a place of great credit and he began every Act with a solemn speech in Latine which was not usual in those dayes and it added much grace to the Act. The said William Gouge took his degrees in order performing for every one of them all those
is given to those who in their life-time were Governours of the Hospital of Bridewell one of which number this worthy Doctor was yea and a Benefactor too to that House As also that he should not affixe any Escocheons to his Herse though he was a Gentleman of an ancient Descent as if he had thought that the poverty of Christ was his Patrimony and Coat of Arms and his interest in him his greatest and best atchievement or as if both living and dead he would be as the Apostle speaks cloathed with Humility He was much in Communion with God and contented not himself only with his constant daily and ordinary holy duties but was also frequent in extraordinary exercises In the Bishops times when it was not permitted to keep Fasts in the publick Congregations he was one of those Ministers who frequently holp private Christians in their more retired Humiliations In times of fears and dangers he with divers others had sometimes monthly yea sometimes weekly Fasts whereof many were kept in his own house and others of them in his Vestry which he was observed to perform with extraordinary reverence awfulness of spirit His Confessions were accompanied with much sense of and sorrow for sin brokenness of heart self-abhorrency judging of the creature and justifying of God His petitions were pertinent judicious spiritual seasonable accompanied with faith and fervency like a true son of Jacob he wrestled with supplications and tears as resolving not to depart out of Gods presence without a blessing But there was none like him in Thanksgiving when a man would have thought that he had spent the last drop of his spirits and strength in Confession and Prayer O! how would he recollect is spirits when he came to the work of Thanksgiving wherein he would be so large particular warm and vigorous that in the end of the day when mens affections grew flat he would so revive and quicken them as if the work had been then but newly begun and as if that had been the onely work of the day and herein indeed he may be a pattern to all his surviving Brethren in the Ministry He was very inquisitive after the state and condition of the Church of Christ both at home and abroad that he might accordingly order his prayers in their behalf of whom he was never unmindful in his addresses unto God And when he heard that it went ill with the Church of God in any place like another Nehemiah he sate him down and wept and mourned and fasted and prayed unto the God of Heaven in their behalf His study was as great to advance Christ as to debase himself He used frequently to say When I look upon my self I see nothing but emptiness and weakness but when I look upon Christ I see nothing but fulness and sufficiency When the hand of his body was weak and shaking that of his soul his faith was strong and steddy When he could not hold the Cup at the Sacrament nor scarce carry it to his own mouth by reason of his Palsie hand yet then with a firme anâ— fixed affiance did he lay hold upon Christ and with a strong and eager appetite applied his blood to his soul and his manner was sweetly to breathe forth joyful Thanksgivings for his refreshment by the blood of Christ when he was returned to his house after the Lords Supper yea when he could hardly creep with his body to the place where it was celebrated and was forced many times to make use of the help of others to support him in his passage thither even then did his faith run swiftly and was upon the wing to carry him to Christ. When worldly suports failed him when health and strength forsook him he made Jesus Christ the staff of his old age often professing as his great misery and impotency without him so his holy and humble recumbency upon him Great was his patience under the visiting hand of God especially in his old age when God exercised him with painful maladies Though by reason of the sharpness and bitterness of his pains occasioned by the stone and acuteness of his urine and that Lethalis arundo as he oft called it that deadly arrow in his side which he knew could never be plucked out but by death I mean his Asthma which he got by an excessive cold in attending upon publick imployments Notwithstanding I say by reason of these he was often heard to groan yet never did he once grumble against the dispensations of God Never did he complain of God for his sufferings though oft of himself for sinning He never cryed out A great sufferer but oft A great sinner and yet he would overtake that expression again with the discoursing of and comforting himself in A great Saviour and in the depth of his torments he would say Well yet in all these there is nothing of Hell or of Gods wrath His sufferings were never so deep but he could see the bottome of them and would say Soul be silent soul be patient It is thy God and Father that thus ordereth thy estate Thou art his clay he may tread and trample on thee as pleaseth him Thou hast deserved much more It is enough that thou art kept out of Hell Though thy pain be grievous yet it is tollerable Thy God affords some intermissions he will turn it to thy good and at length put an end to all none of these can be expected in Hell He used often to make mention of the extent of obedience which he said was not onely to endeavour to do what God requireth but also patiently to bear what Gods will is to lay upon his creature as Christ himself though he were the Son yet learned he obedience by the things which he suffered In his greatest pangs he oft used this speech of holy Job Shall we receive good from the hands of God and not evil He often commended his soul unto Christ and used to say I am perswaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed to him against that day When any of his Friends went about to comfort him in those gifts which God had bestowed on him and works which he had wrought by him he would answer I dare not think of any such thing for comfort Jesus Christ and what he hath done and endured is the only ground of my sure comfort Many that came to visit him in his weakness professed that they went away better than they came by reason of those savoury and gracious speeches and expressions that proceeded from him Though towards his latter end his fits of the stone were frequent and sharp having sometimes four or five of them in an hour yet such was his desire to finish that his so much desired Commentary upon the Epistle to the Hebrews that so soon as the bitter pain of his fit was over he still returned to his work making some further progress therein And thus he
Sir your head doth not lye right he answered It will lye right in my Coffin July the 25 at one a clock in the morning Death began to seize on his left foot from which the spirits retiring he felt the deadness of that part and a very sharp pain in the part of the leg adjoyning to it Hereupon he called for his Son and told him He feared that he should have a difficult death He then commanded two Surgeons to be sent for to look upon his leg whom he required to tell him whether or no his Foot were any whit discoloured It seems he had conceived some fear of a Gangrene but being satisfied by them that there could not be any ground for such an apprehension he rested with patience In the evening of that day being visited by Mr. Santhil and lying in great anguish by reason of the violence of his heat he prayed for pity and patience support here and a comfortable issue July 26. Early in the morning being full of pain gasping and panting he cryed out How long Lord How long Come speedily But though Death had made an encroachment upon his outward perishing part yet his inward man felt no decay For with a full use of reason he that morning ordered the continuance of a weekly relief to certain poor persons as also ofâ—some small monethly Pensions to some widows for a season He also caused his Physitian to be consulted with about taking something that might procure rest and was erected to a more cheerful disposition He also enquired after News and dicoursed freely yet confessed himself to be in pain About three a clock that afternoon feeling some great change after the putting forth of Nature he called his Sister Son and Daughter to receive his last charge and when they were come he thus spake unto them My heart fails and my strength fails but God is my Fortress and the strong Rock of my salvation Into thy hands therefore I commend my soul for thou hast redeemed me O God of truth Then turning his discourse to his Son he said Son you have a great charge look to it Instruct your wife and family in the fear of God and discharge your Ministry conscientiously To his Sister a Gentlewoman two years elder than himself he said Sister I thought you might have gone before me but God calls for me first I hope we shall meet in Heaven I pray God to bless you His Daughter he admonished to minde the worldless and God more for that all things without Piety and the true fear of God are nothing worth He advised also that his Son Draper being a man of means should entertain some godly Minister into his house to teach his children and instruct his family He exhorted them all to love and concord which he said he hoped the rather because he had cleerly settled his estate so as to prevent differences He inlarged himself in each of these a little wishing them all to lay to heart the words of a dying man After this he desired that all should withdraw and leave him to his rest which he hoped was at hand But all his conflicts were not yet accomplished July the 27 His voice began to be less intelligible the putrid preternatural heat having furred up his mouth as is usual in Feavors yet both his understanding and senses were very quick and active About six of the clock in the evening he called for his Son to recommend his soul unto God by prayer and endeavoured to express what he desired but could not do it so clearly as to be well understood yet by his gestures he gave assurance that he understood perfectly and concurred fervently with the devotions used on his behalf Within an hour after Nature being quite spent he gave up the ghost and was translated into that Rest which he so often and earnestly had desired to finde in another World because he could obtain none in this Thus after forty three years inspection of this pious and diligent Pastor of Redrith he left his Flock returning to the great and chief Shepherd of our souls from his gracious hands to receive an incorruptible Crown of glory having almost compleated fourscore years For his Person the express whereof though he was often importuned by dear Friends he would never allow to be taken either by pencel or sculpture He was of a middle stature of a thin body and of a lively countenance of a fresh complexion that looked young when he came to preach at â—incolns Inne and yet was grey betimes which made him to be thought elder than he was because he had long appeared ancient in the eyes of the world of a choicely temperate diet of a free and cheerful conversation addicted much to study yet not secluding himself from fit company He was of a quick apprehension sharp reason solid judgement vast memory which through Gods mercy continued fresh to the last of his dayes He was Helluo librorum one that did not vainly encrease his Liberary for ostentation but chose books for use which also he made of them so happily that he had conquered a strong portion of learning which he made to serve him upon all occasions He was not so great a treasurer as a free dispenser of those riches of the minde which he did communicate readily expeditely and cleerly He was an ornament to the University and of that Society designed for the study of the Law a Light of the Church the salt of the place where he abode a loving Husband a discreet Parent a faithful Friend a kinde Neighbour a courteous entertainer of strangers a candid encourager of Students a stout Champion for the Truth yet a lover of peace preserving the unity of Charity even where there was difference of judgement an Adversary to novel fancies as well as to antiquated superstitons in Religion of a Christian Magnanimity in despising the world and therefore resolute through bad report as well as good to maintain a clear conscience In brief he was a faithful Shepherd and a fit mirrour for Pastors as well as an exact patern for people who having almost compleated eighty years departed full of 〈◊〉 but being dead yet speaks in his living Monuments of sound Learning His Printed Works are these Of the Nature and use of Lots in 4o. A Just Defence of the same against Mr. Jo. Balmford in 4o. Tho. Gatakeri Londinatis Antithesis partim Guilielmi Amesii partim Gisberti voetii de sorte Thesibus reposita in 4o. A Discourse of Transubstantiation with a Defence thereof in 4o. Davids Instructer The Christian mans care The Spiritual Watch. The gain of Godliness with Self-sufficiency The Just mans joy with signs of Sincerity Jacobs Thankfulness Davids Remembrancer Noahs Obedience A Memorial of Englands Deliverance in 88. Sorrow for Sion Gods Parley with Princes with an appeal from them to him Eleazers Prayer being a Marriage Sermon A good Wife Gods gift A Wife indeed Marriage
After he had been trained up at School and well fitted for it he was sent to the University of Oxford where his diligence and proficiency was such that he was chosen Fellow of Magdalen-Colledge and had the breeding up of some there who afterwards proved excellent and eminent Scholars as Dr. Frewen who was alwayes a thankfull man to him for his education and famous Mr. Pemble who ended his dayes at his house c. His attendance at Court upon the chiefest favourite in the dayes of that learned King James gave him opportunity of advancement iâ— his thoughts had been bent that way but he sought not great things for himself yet continued at Court till the death of Sr. Thomas Overbury that learned Knight and his very good friend and then he had adieu to that course of life As for his inward storms they were very many and exceeding bitter which also were accompanied with many bodily infirmities which attended him in his younger years but it was well for him that he bore the yoke in his youth and there was none that knew so much of his temptations and desertions as thâ—t eminent and learned Divine Dr. Harris by reason of that intimate acquaintance he had with him in those dayes being his kinsman which also was occâ—sioned the more by the often recourse he had then into those parts for the fetching of some spiriruall refreshing from that man of God Mr. John Dod who was both able and willing to speak a word in season to a broken and coâ—rite heart For the eminency of hâ—s parts there were very few that could match him The most even of our most high-flown Eagles have commonly some peculiar gift wherein they most excell and by it â—o very good service to Christ and his Church but this man had grasped all good learning and made every thing his own so evenly to see to that he was very expert in the same and would with Cato the elder be up in the height in all thâ—t ever he was to act in Melancthon used to say that Pomeranus was the Gramarian that himself was the Logician that Justus Jonas was the Orator but that Luther was all in all here was one that was not inferior to Luther If he pleased to turn to the School or to Case-Divinity to Augustine or Chrysostome to Galen or Hippocrates to Aristotle or Tully to History or Philosophy to Arts or Tongues who could tell but himself which of them he was best versed in He was a very living Library a full storehouse of all kind of good literature no less than a little University the mirrour of those parts and above the envy of most The least draught of his Pencil would have told any Protogenes he had been the Apelles He excelled in all that ever he would set his hand to unless it were in his utterance in the publick Congregation and therein indeed he had a great defectiveness God 〈◊〉 him great understanding of the times to know what Israel ought to do He stood upon the Watch-tower and saw what was hid from most mens eyes and being quick of sent in the fear of the Lord he gave timely notice to some that stood in place which had it been heeded we had never been so fearfully pestered with those Hydraes heads that are now starting up afresh daily to the great disturbance of our people Simler said of Melancthon at his going from the University of Tubing that none of the learned men there how many soever they were had so much learning as to know the great learning that was in that man Too too many amongst us were even sick of the same disease that knew not the depth that was in this mans brest There were many men in this one man even all Scholarship epitomized in this profound Clerk and yet for all this he had that great blessing which he himself observed as a singular favour vouchsafed to Dr. John Reynolds that great Oracle of Oxford that he never set on foot any manner of new opinion The like is observed of learned Dr. Whitaker stâ—led the Oracle of Cambridge and the miracle of the world A mercy that most men of superlative parts use not to be too rich in There is scarce any strong brain without some strong fancy If the great wits of our times had kept themselves close to the steps of these rare Divines we had never seen the sorrows that we now sigh and groan under and would be glad to be rid of if we knew how For the excellency of his preaching he excelled most men He was an Inâ—erpreter one of a thousand His understanding was strangely opened for the understanding and opening the Scriptures He would bolt out that out of the holy Book of God that would not come into any other mans consideration yet it should be genuine and evidently appearing to be the driâ—t and meaning of the Holy Ghost An intelligent man could never sit at his feet or be in his company but he should meet with that there that would never fall from any other mans mouth nor ever drop from any other mans Pen. His words were as Goads and as Nails fastened by the Master of the Assemblies They were edged with so much reason re-enforced from the lively Oracles that they could not fall to the ground in vain It 's no marvell therefore that the Cream of the whole Country where he lived as they could have opportunity would hang upon his Ministry Yet he used to be very plain in all his expressions He would not deliver what he had from God in an unknown tongue nor yet in words and phrases which were too spâ—uce and trim He had learned his lesson weâ—l of that great Apostle and Doctor of the Gentiles who came not with enticing words nor with any other but such as the very Catechuâ—nâ—ni the youngest beginners might understand He kept close to the footsteps of our choicest Worthies as famous Mr. Dod who used to say that so much Latine was so much flesh in a Sermon Mr. Cleaver Mr. Hildersam and such other holy men of God led by the self same Spirit He would deliver the whole and wholesome truths of God in such an holy and wholsome way that it bred very good bloud in the hearts of his hearers He would stoop so low as to speak to the poor Country people in their own proper dialect so as they could not but even see and feel and find out God and be occasioned to speak of him all the week after If he met with a deep mystery he would make it plain to the shallowest capacity Whatever Subject he sell upon he would handle it so Divine-like that the hearts of his Auditors would be wrapt up into Heaven whilest they heard him winding and turning a point of Divinity like a workman that needed not to be ashamed Whereas now adayes whilest some of our great Divines seem to
answer was that if the matter be made to appear upon enquiry they were of opinon that the Temporalties belonging to the Clergy may and ought to be seized and the Church-maintenance also secured for the right ends and uses to which they were appointed The Ecclesiasticks declaim against this affirming that the Churches priviledges and revenues were granted and confirmed to the Church by Kings and Emperours and therefore ought not to be invaded under pain of damnation To this it was replied that the true Elders were worthy of double honour both of reverence and maintenance but such as are slow bellies neither serving God nor man ought not to have the Churches maintenance and that if some Kings against all equity permitted the same other succeeding Kings may and ought to reform it that there is not one sentence in all the Scriptures that warranteth such power in Church-men or that countenanceth such manner of living especially in an unlawful way of opposing the Civil Magstrate as hath been used in Sueden for these last two hundred years In conclusion the States determined that the Churches Revenues are in the power of the King according to the condition of times to encrease maintain or to diminish as may best conduce to the safety of true Religion in Doctrine and to the establishment of the pure worship of God and holiness of life Hence followed a storm of Imputations and Execrations Forreign Nations are made to believe that the King is an Atheist and that the common people in Sueden obey a Devil in the shape of a man but the King sleighted these Scar-crows as all Princes that fixe their counsels upon good foundations ought to do yet the common people in Sueden were enraged hereby and amongst these the Dallcarles who were the first in vindicating the peoples liberties are now the first that appear to keep themselves and the people in bondage but they knew not who to pitch upon for their leader yet at length one was discovered called Nicholas Stur reputed the son of Steno Stur late Governour of Sueden and he ascends the Stage in West Gothland to act for the old Church Government the people also allured by his great name joyned with him and so the War is now become Bellum Episcopale the Bishops War The King hears and sees all yet the hatred and practices of these men move him not He shewed magnanimity in the Field but never more than in this case He is but newly a King and contrary to all principles of policy he is presently put upon an hard task even to change Ecclesiastical Government and their formerly received Religion wherein he was to sail against wind and tyde and therfore though he was very couragious yet this daring adventure must rather be attributed to his Faith than to his Valour and he met with success accordingly for the Dallcarles not finding that bravery of spirit in their new Captain as might become a son of that famous Steno began to suspect that they might be in danger of a cheat and therefore they secretly sent to the Widow of Steno Stur to enquire the truth She tells the Messengers plainly that they were deceived for that her son Nicholas was long since dead This message caused the Dallcarles presently to withdraw their assistance fearing that the cause of Religion will not bear them out unless patronized by one of the Royal blood of Sueden The Dallcarles now gone the spirit presently disappears and is no where to be found till he makes another apparition at Rostock where at the request of the King of Sueden he was put to death as also some others of his party in Sueden were served in the like manner and so the storm blew away Yet the common people are still like a Sea a Famine comes upon the Land and the Church-men tell the people that this is the fruit of their Innovations in matters of Religion whereupon they are again angry and refuse to pay the Kings Tribute the King tells them that few of them understood Gods words and that fewer of them could make a right judgement of his Works that their stop of his Tributes should not stop his course He soon gathers an Army and marches to Westerass and from thence gives notice of his coming to them of the Dales requring them to meet him at Terna ready either to fight for their cause or to beg pardon for their enterprise The Dalcarles like neither if they could help it Feign they would hold their old way of Religion yet choose rather to submit and to hazard their opinions rather than their lives and the issue was some of them were corporally punished others reproved and sent home giving security for their good behaviour and in the like manner others in other places were so served onely the Archbishop of Upsal being one of the Popes sons was admitted as a male-content to banish himself from his native Country The King being returned to Westerass considered with himself the danger of the Kingdome by reason of the bad lives of the Clergy and their neglect of the peoples souls and their restless endeavour to bring his Government into dislike with the people and his person into contempt by imputations of Heresie and Blasphemy to which some stop must be put speedily or all would come to confusion Hereupon he called a Convention of all the States of Sueden to whom he propounded to take into consideration the State of the Nation saying that they all knew that he neither sought nor willingly undertook the Government of the same that they all promised to assist him therein without whose help it was impossible for him to Govern that he now contrary to his expectation found the people much dissatisfied through the instigation of the Clergy whose Lordship and power amongst them you all said he know to be such as that now it is put into the ballance with the Kings and their luxury pride and idleness all the world knows to be such as is inconsistent with the duty of their places the good of the people and righteous Government that their Castles and temporal Revenues are exempted from the service and safeguard of the Kingdome to maintain Dissentions Mutenies and Rebellions that for his part he must rather cease to be a King than to see all things in confusion under his Government and therefore I require saith he some order to be taken by the Convention of the States for regulating hereof or else I am resolved to lay down my Government and leave it to them that can manage it to better purpose and hereof I desire a speedy and positive answer from you the Bishops and other States of this Kingdome But the Bishops ears were deaf to these things their Authority and Revenues were dearer to them than to part with them for words They thought they had the King at an advantage which they purposed to make use of and the
of the world how she may please her Husband 2. She had so chosen God for her portion and set up her rest in the riches of his love that she had but little minde of the worlds riches She knew that riches may be had and well used of the Religious and that poverty alone commends no man unto God as St. Jerom speaks yet did she not dote upon them but though she was competently careful and frugal as Christ prescribeth Joh. 6. 12. Gather up the broken meat that nothing be lost and though she was provident as the Apostle requires 1 Tim. 5. 8. If any provide not for his own and especially for those of his own hosue he hath denyed the faith and is worse than an Infidel yet withall beleeving that of the Prophet David Psal. 37. 16. A little that the righteous hath is better than the riches of many wicked and as conforming her self to that of St. John Love not the world nor the things of the world 1 Joh. 2. 15. She often besought of Almighty God rather to make and keep her poor than to suffer her heart in any sort to sink down from her Maker to dote upon Mammon She was one that could very well finde in her heart to honour God with her substance as Prov. 3. 9. She was as cheerful in her layings out for him as any Miser could be in his layings up for himself and when she heard of the irreligious Parsimony of some towards the maintenanance of the publick Ministry in that City of Chester she hath professed that she had rather be at all the charge of all the common contributions her self if her estate would bear it than that God should be grumbled at or his service poorly prized or the wages of his work unwillingly paid Another undoubted testimony of her true love to God was in that she so much desired to dye out of a fervent affection to him insomuch that she feared a long life would keep her too long from the enjoyment of him being therein like unto David in those ardent aspirations of his As the Hart panteth after the water Brooks so panteth my soul after thee O God my soul thirsteth for God for the living God when shall I come and appear before him Psal 42. 1 2. That which worldlings are most afraid of that she so much wished for that her friends were fain to plead with her to be pleased with life though she not being contented with their Arguments contended against them by contrary reason shewing first why she did desire to dye Secondly why she was not afraid of Death and hoping that it would not tarry long she had in readiness some special matters to be remembred at her Death which she left in writing under her own hand and are as followeth First Why I desire to dye I desire to dye because I want while I live here the glorious presence of God which I love and long for and that sweet fellowship of the Angels and Saints who would be glad of me as I am of them and would entertaine me with unwearied delight I desire to dye because while I live I shall want the perfection of my nature and be as an estranged and banished person from my Fathers house I desire to dye because I would not live to offend so good a God nor to grieve his holy Spirit For his loving kindness is better than life it self And he is abundant in mercy to me and it doth lye as an heavy load upon my heart many times to think of dipleasing him I desire to dye because this world is generally infected with the plague of sin and some have this Plague-sore running upon them and I my self â—m tainted with the same disease so as whilst I live here I can be in no place nor in any company but I am still in danger of being infected or to infect others and if this world doth hate me because I endeavour to follow goodness how will it rejoyce if my foot do but slip Therefore how woful would my life be unto me if I should give occasion to the world to triumph or blaspheme in respect of me I cannot choose but desire to dye when I consider that sin like a leprosie hath so corrupted me that there is no soundness in me my minde my memory my will and affections yea my very conscience is still impure in every faculty of my soul there is a miserable mixture of vile infection which makes me aweary of my life and all this is the worse because it is incurable and inseparable companion of my life so that I can go no whither to avoid it there is no business that I can dispatch that concerns my happiness without a muteny in mine heart though Gods works be all fair works yet there are in my nature many defects insufficiencies mistakings and transgressions so that I may say with David Innumerable evils have compassed me about mine iniquities have taken hold on me so that I am not able to look up Psal. 40. 12. I therefore desire Heaven for holiness rather than for happiness that I might sin no more I desire that condition wherein I may most glorifie God I desire to dye because of the Devils malignant and uncessant assaults I can stand no where before the Lord on earth but one Devil or other is at my right hand and must of necessity enter into conflict with them and their temptations and be buffeted and gored by them which is a thousand fold worse than Death More easie it is to wrestle with Flesh and Blood than with those Principalities and Powers and spiritual wickednesses and great Rulers of the world For they are subtle and cruel and and like roaring Lions they go about seeking whom they may devour 1 Pet. 5. 8. I desire to dye because by Death I shall rest from the hard labours of this life I desire to dye because nothing in this world can give me solid and durable contentment I am less in liking of life and have more desire of death when I consider the misery that may come both on my body and estate and fearful alterations may come and wars may come and all the desolations and terrours which accompany them and I may be left in the hands of the sons of violence Besides I daily suffer the loss of my friends who were the companions of my life and means of much contentment unto me and those whom I lose by my life I shall finde by my death and enjoy in another world unto all eternity And for my children it doth not trouble me for that God which hath given life and breath and all they have while I am living can without me provide for them when I am dead my God will be their God if they be his if they be not what comfort would it be for me to live my life would be exceeding bitter unto me if I should see them dishonour God whom
into that better world which she so much longed after often professing that there was nothing that could tempt her to wish for life but the breeding up of her little ones which yet now she was the less solicitous about because she could leave them in the hands of their tender and careful Father not doubting as old dying Jacob said when he was blessing the two Sons of Joseph Gen. 48. 15. 16. That that God which had fed her all her life long untill that day and the Angel which had redeemed her from all evil would bless them And now finding her self arrested by the messenger of Death and her body like the house of Saul growing weaker and weaker but her soul like the house of David waxed stronger and stronger took higher flights and made nearer approaches to God that gave it When her Husband came to her as he did frequently he continually admonished and minded her of the gracious Promises of mercy in Christ and of faith in him and desired her to be strengthened and comforted in them Her answer was she was comforted in them she found the comfort of Gods Spirit in her and verily believed she should see the goodness of the Lord in the Land of the living Psal. 45. 13. Ever and anon saying I am comforted Gods Spirit is in me which makes me endure my sickness and more pains than you can think of so comfortably as I do When she knew of none by her usual prayer was Lord look down upon me in thy mercy Lord forgive me my sins Lord assist me with thy holy Spirit Lord thou hast assured me of the forgiveness of my sins Lord assist me still with thy holy Spirit And many times passing the whole night without sleep she spent that time in these and the like heavenly prayers and ejaculations in which her Husband and those which attend her continually still found her when they came to her Never man had a more faithfull dear and loving Wife or more carefull of what concerned him than himself and more tender of any thing said or done against him than if it had been said or done against her self And when he seemed to lament the loss he should have if God took her from him She meekly answered We came not into the world together and therefore may not look to go out together When he replied that it would be much better for their children if he went first as by the course of nature was most likely she said that he could do much better for the children than she could and thanked God for that she could now leave them with him For the space of three weeks she kept her bed and about a fortnight before her death being surprized with a fainting fit in which she was like to depart and thereby perceiving that earth would suddenly return to the earth whence it came that her soul might be the better winged and prepared for a return to God that gave it she deâ—ired that all the Family might be called up and joyn in prayers with and for her At which time observing the grief and passion of her Husband and those that were present expressed plentifully by tears from their eyes she besought him and them not to grieve and lament for her happiness About that time a Reverend person coming to visit her Husband he solicited him to enlarge that great act of favour unto him by a greater act of charity to his wife by visiting her also whom God now visited with sickness as also to pray with and administer some comfort unto her which he most willingly condescended unto and having taken a strict account of her faith in Christ and hopes of a better life he left her with his Fatherly benediction top full of comfort and when she was afterwards told that he came out of respect and kindness to visit her Husband she said No but God had sent him for her comfort often acknowledging the consolations which she had found by him When any came to visit her in the time of her sickness at the parting she desired them to pray for her and often sent Messengers and caused Letters to be directed to her friends in London to pray for her for that she was now preparing for another world When she was sometimes desired for her childrens sake to chear up her self her answer was that to leave them did not trouble her because she was assured that God would provide for them adding that she would willingly leave Husband Children and all to go to Christ which was just the minde of that blessed Martyr Ignatius Befall me said he what will or can so I may enjoy Jesus Christ my Love my Life that was crucified for me or rather St. Pauls case expressed in that most elegant Barbarisme Phil. 1. 23. Desiring to be with Christ which is multo magis melius much more better And now finding the day of her life wasted to the evening and ready to dye into night on the Lords day before her death she desired the prayers of the Congregation in the Parish where she lived being well assured as she said that many good people would pray heartily for her After which some coming to visit her and exhorting her to patience and to remember the afflictions of Job she answered that she had had her part in his afflictions God having given her Luctuosam foecunditatem as St. Jerom said of Laeta a sad and sorrowfull fruitfulness taking away seven of her children in their minority so that she as Hanna spake in her song 1 Sam. 2. 5. that had born seven waxed feeble yet she comforted her self with this hope that they were in Heaven before her and hoped that they would be Lamps to lead her to heaven for she assured her self that they followed the Lamb whithersoever he goeth and for those two which were yet alive she thanked God for that she saw no ill qualities in them Besides she said that God had taken away her goods from her but had given her patience which to her was of more value and she esteemed it above them all knowing that God was able to restore all when he pleased She often acknowledged Gods goodness to her in sending her a milde sickness and not taking her away with some sudden stroke as he did the wife of Ezekiel Chap. 24. 16. or by some tormenting disease as he is pleased to visit some of his dear ones acknowledging the wonderful mercy of God to her therein A week before her death she called her eldest Daughter to her being to go from her to School at Putney and putting her hand on her shoulder she said to her I give you that blessing which my Mother gave me at her death The God of Abraham the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob bless you and then added the blessing which Aaron by Gods own appointment was to give the children of Israel The Lord bless thee and keep thee