affection_n be_v not_o perfect_a and_o ordinary_o it_o be_v give_v to_o weak_a and_o nice_a soul_n 103._o thou_o will_v say_v that_o thou_o feel_v thyself_o indispose_v without_o devotion_n without_o fervour_n without_o the_o desire_n of_o this_o divine_a food_n so_o as_o to_o ask_v how_o thou_o must_v frequent_v it_o believe_v for_o certain_a that_o none_o of_o these_o thing_n do_v hinder_v or_o hurt_v thou_o whilst_o you_o preserve_v this_o purpose_n firm_a not_o to_o sin_n and_o your_o will_n determine_v to_o avoid_v every_o offence_n and_o if_o thou_o have_v confess_v all_o those_o that_o thou_o can_v remember_v doubt_v not_o but_o that_o thou_o be_v well_o prepare_v to_o come_v to_o this_o heavenly_a and_o divine_a table_n chap._n fourteen_o pursue_v the_o same_o matter_n 104._o thou_o must_v know_v that_o in_o this_o unspeakaable_a sacrament_n christ_n be_v unite_v with_o the_o soul_n be_v make_v one_o thing_n with_o it_o who_o fineness_n and_o purity_n be_v the_o most_o profound_a and_o admirable_a and_o the_o most_o worthy_a of_o consideration_n and_o thanks_o great_a be_v the_o pureness_n of_o he_o in_o be_v make_v man_n great_a that_o of_o die_v ignominious_o on_o the_o cross_n for_o our_o sake_n but_o the_o give_v of_o himself_o whole_a and_o entire_a to_o man_n in_o this_o admirable_a sacrament_n admit_v no_o comparison_n this_o be_v singular_a favour_n and_o infinite_a pureness_n because_o there_o be_v no_o more_o to_o give_v no_o more_o to_o receive_v o_o that_o we_o can_v but_o comprehend_v he_o o_o that_o we_o can_v but_o know_v he_o 105._o that_o god_n be_v what_o he_o be_v shall_v be_v communicate_v to_o my_o soul_n that_o god_n shall_v be_v willing_a to_o make_v a_o reciprocal_a thy_fw-mi of_o union_n with_o it_o which_o of_o itself_o be_v mere_a misery_n o_o soul_n if_o we_o can_v but_o feed_v ourselves_o at_o this_o heavenly_a table_n o_o that_o we_o can_v scorch_v ourselves_o at_o this_o burn_a fire_n o_o that_o we_o can_v become_v one_o and_o the_o same_o spirit_n with_o this_o sovereign_a lord_n who_o withhold_v we_o who_o deceive_v we_o who_o take_v we_o off_o from_o burn_v like_o salamander_n in_o the_o divine_a fire_n of_o this_o holy_a table_n 106._o it_o be_v true_a o_o lord_n that_o thou_o enterest_n into_o i_o a_o miserable_a creature_n but_o true_a also_o it_o be_v that_o thou_o at_o the_o same_o time_n remain_v in_o thy_o glory_n and_o brightness_n and_o in_o thyself_o receive_v i_o therefore_o o_o my_o jesus_n in_o thyself_o in_o thy_o beauty_n and_o majesty_n i_o be_o infinite_o glad_a that_o the_o vileness_n of_o my_o soul_n can_v prejudice_v thy_o beautyâ—_n thou_o interest_n therefore_o into_o i_o without_o go_v out_o of_o thyself_o thou_o live_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o thy_o brightness_n and_o magnificence_n though_o thou_o be_v in_o my_o darkness_n and_o misery_n 107._o o_o my_o soul_n how_o great_a be_v thy_o vileness_n job_n 7_o chap._n how_o great_a thy_o poverty_n what_o be_v man_n lord_n that_o thou_o be_v so_o mindful_a of_o he_o that_o thou_o visite_a he_o and_o make_v he_o great_a what_o be_v man_n that_o thou_o put_v such_o a_o esteem_n upon_o he_o be_v willing_a to_o have_v thy_o delight_n with_o he_o and_o dwell_v personal_o with_o thy_o greatness_n in_o he_o how_o o_o lord_n can_v a_o miserable_a creature_n receive_v a_o infinite_a majesty_n humble_a thyself_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o the_o very_a depth_n of_o nothing_o confess_v thy_o unworthiness_n look_v upon_o thy_o misery_n and_o acknowledge_v the_o wonder_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n which_o suffer_v itself_o to_o be_v mean_a in_o this_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n that_o it_o may_v be_v communicate_v and_o unite_v with_o thou_o 108._o o_o the_o greatness_n of_o love_n which_o the_o amiable_a jesus_n be_v in_o a_o small_a host_n who_o be_v there_o subject_a in_o some_o manner_n to_o man_n give_v himself_o whole_a and_o sacrifice_a himself_o for_o he_o to_o the_o eternal_a father_n o_o sovereign_a lord_n keep_v back_o my_o heart_n strong_o that_o it_o may_v never_o more_o return_v to_o its_o imperfect_a liberty_n but_o all_o annihilate_v may_v die_v to_o the_o world_n and_o remain_v unite_v with_o thou_o 109._o if_o thou_o will_v get_v all_o virtue_n in_o the_o high_a degree_n come_v bless_a soul_n come_v with_o frequency_n to_o this_o most_o holy_a table_n for_o there_o they_o do_v all_o dwell_v eat_v o_o my_o soul_n of_o this_o heavenly_a food_n eat_v and_o continue_v come_v with_o humility_n come_v with_o faith_n to_o feed_v of_o this_o white_a and_o divine_a bread_n for_o this_o be_v the_o mark_n of_o soul_n and_o from_o hence_o love_n draw_v its_o arrow_n say_v come_v o_o soul_n and_o eat_v this_o savoury_a food_n if_o thou_o will_v get_v purity_n charity_n chastity_n light_n strength_n perfection_n and_o peace_n chap._n xv._o declare_v when_o spiritual_a and_o corporal_a penance_n ought_v to_o be_v use_v and_o how_o hurtful_a they_o be_v when_o they_o be_v do_v indiscreet_o according_a to_o one_o own_o judgement_n and_o opinion_n 110._o it_o be_v to_o be_v know_v that_o there_o be_v some_o soul_n who_o to_o make_v too_o great_a advance_n in_o holiness_n become_v much_o behindhand_o in_o it_o by_o do_v indiscreet_a penance_n like_o those_o who_o will_v sing_v more_o than_o their_o strength_n allow_v they_o who_o strain_n themselves_o till_o they_o be_v tire_v and_o instead_o of_o do_v better_a do_v worse_o 111._o many_o have_v fall_v into_o this_o precipice_n for_o want_v of_o subject_v their_o judgement_n to_o their_o spiritual_a father_n while_o they_o have_v imagine_v that_o unless_o they_o give_v themselves_o up_o to_o rigid_a penance_n they_o never_o can_v be_v saint_n as_o if_o sanctity_n do_v only_o consist_v in_o they_o they_o say_v that_o he_o that_o sow_v little_a reap_v little_a but_o they_o sow_v no_o other_o seed_n with_o their_o indiscreet_a penance_n than_o self-love_n instead_o of_o root_n of_o it_o up_o 112._o but_o the_o worst_a of_o these_o indiscreet_a penance_n be_v that_o by_o the_o use_n of_o these_o dry_a and_o barren_a severity_n be_v beget_v and_o naturalize_v a_o certain_a bitterness_n of_o heart_n towards_o themselves_o and_o their_o neighbour_n which_o be_v a_o great_a stranger_n to_o the_o true_a spirit_n towards_o themselves_o because_o they_o do_v not_o feel_v the_o sweetness_n of_o christ_n yoke_n the_o sweetness_n of_o charity_n but_o only_o the_o asperity_n of_o penance_n whereby_o their_o nature_n become_v imbitter_v and_o hence_o it_o follow_v that_o such_o man_n become_v exasperate_v with_o their_o neighbour_n to_o the_o mark_v and_o reprove_v much_o their_o fault_n and_o hold_v of_o they_o for_o very_o defective_a for_o the_o same_o reason_n that_o they_o see_v they_o go_v a_o less_o rigorous_a way_n than_o themselves_o hence_o they_o grow_v proud_a with_o their_o exercise_n of_o penance_n see_v few_o that_o do_v after_o they_o and_o think_v themselves_o better_a than_o other_o folk_n whereupon_o they_o much_o fall_v in_o the_o account_n of_o their_o virtue_n hence_o come_v the_o envy_n of_o other_o to_o see_v they_o less_o penitent_a and_o great_a favourite_n of_o god_n a_o clear_a proof_n that_o they_o fix_v their_o confidence_n in_o their_o own_o proper_a diligence_n 113._o prayer_n be_v the_o nourishment_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o the_o soul_n of_o prayer_n be_v internal_a mortification_n for_o however_o bodily_a penance_n and_o all_o other_o exercise_n chasten_v the_o flesh_n be_v good_a and_o holy_a and_o praiseworthy_a so_o as_o they_o be_v moderate_v by_o discretion_n according_a to_o the_o state_n and_o quality_n of_o every_o one_o and_o by_o the_o help_n of_o the_o spiritual_a director_n judgement_n yet_o thou_o will_v never_o gain_v any_o virtue_n by_o these_o mean_n but_o only_a vanity_n and_o the_o wind_n of_o vainglory_n if_o they_o do_v not_o grow_v from_o within_o wherefore_o now_o thou_o shall_v know_v when_o thou_o be_v to_o use_v most_o chief_o external_n penance_n 114._o when_o the_o soul_n begin_v to_o retire_v from_o the_o world_n and_o vice_n it_o ought_v to_o tame_v the_o body_n with_o rigour_n that_o it_o may_v be_v subject_a to_o the_o spirit_n and_o follow_v the_o law_n of_o god_n with_o ease_n than_o it_o concern_v you_o to_o manage_v the_o weapon_n of_o haircloth_n fast_v and_o discipline_n to_o take_v from_o the_o flesh_n the_o root_n of_o sin_n but_o when_o the_o soul_n enter_v into_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n embrace_v internal_a mortification_n corporal_a chastisement_n ought_v to_o be_v relax_v because_o there_o be_v trouble_n enough_o in_o the_o spirit_n the_o heart_n be_v weaken_v the_o breast_n suffer_v the_o brain_n be_v weary_a the_o whole_a body_n grieve_v and_o disable_v for_o the_o function_n of_o the_o soul._n 115._o the_o wise_a and_o skilful_a director_n therefore_o must_v consider_v not_o to_o give_v way_n to_o these_o soul_n to_o
perform_v such_o excess_n of_o corporal_n and_o external_n penance_n to_o who_o he_o move_v the_o great_a love_n of_o god_n which_o they_o do_v conceive_v in_o the_o internal_a darksome_a and_o cleanse_a retirement_n of_o they_o because_o it_o be_v not_o good_a to_o spend_v the_o body_n and_o the_o spirit_n all_o at_o once_o nor_o break_v their_o strength_n by_o rigorous_a and_o excessive_a penance_n see_v they_o be_v weaken_v by_o internal_a mortification_n for_o which_o reason_n st._n ignatius_n loyola_n say_v very_o well_o in_o his_o exercise_n that_o in_o the_o cleanse_a way_n corporal_a penance_n be_v necessary_a which_o in_o the_o illuminate_a way_n ought_v to_o be_v moderate_v and_o much_o more_o in_o the_o unitive_a 116._o but_o thou_o will_v say_v that_o the_o saint_n always_o use_v grievous_a penance_n i_o answer_v that_o they_o do_v they_o not_o with_o indiscretion_n nor_o after_o their_o own_o proper_a judgement_n but_o with_o the_o opinion_n of_o their_o superior_n and_o spiritual_a director_n which_o permit_v they_o to_o use_v they_o because_o they_o know_v they_o to_o be_v move_v inward_o by_o the_o lord_n to_o those_o rigour_n to_o confound_v the_o misery_n of_o sinner_n by_o their_o example_n or_o for_o many_o other_o reason_n other_o time_n they_o give_v they_o leave_v to_o use_v they_o to_o humble_a the_o fervour_n of_o their_o spirit_n and_o counterpoise_v their_o rapture_n which_o be_v all_o particular_a motive_n and_o make_v not_o any_o general_a rule_n for_o all_o chap._n xvi_o the_o great_a difference_n between_o external_n and_o internal_a penance_n 117._o know_v that_o the_o mortification_n and_o penance_n which_o some_o one_o undertake_v of_o himself_o be_v light_n although_o they_o may_v be_v the_o most_o rigorous_a which_o hitherto_o have_v be_v do_v in_o comparison_n of_o those_o he_o take_v from_o another_o hand_n because_o in_o the_o first_o he_o himself_o enter_v and_o his_o own_o will_n which_o abate_v the_o grief_n the_o more_o voluntary_a it_o be_v whilst_o at_o last_o he_o do_v but_o that_o which_o he_o be_v willing_a but_o in_o the_o second_o all_o that_o be_v endure_v be_v painful_a and_o the_o way_n also_o painful_a in_o which_o it_o be_v endure_v that_o be_v to_o say_v by_o the_o will_n of_o another_o 118._o this_o be_v that_o which_o christ_n our_o lord_n tell_v st._n peter_n st._n john_n 21.18_o when_o thou_o be_v young_a and_o a_o beginner_n in_o virtue_n thou_o gird_v and_o mortify_v thyself_o but_o when_o thou_o go_v to_o great_a school_n and_o shall_v be_v a_o proficient_a in_o virtue_n another_o shall_v gird_v and_o mortify_v theeâ—_n and_o then_o if_o thou_o will_v follow_v i_o perfect_o altogether_o deny_v thyself_o thou_o must_v leave_v that_o cross_n of_o thou_o and_o take_v up_o i_o that_o be_v be_v content_v that_o another_o crucify_v thou_o 119._o there_o must_v be_v no_o difference_n make_v between_o these_o and_o those_o between_o thy_o father_n and_o thy_o son_n thy_o friend_n and_o thy_o brother_n these_o must_v be_v the_o first_o to_o mortify_v thou_o or_o to_o rise_v up_o against_o thou_o whether_o with_o reason_n or_o without_o reason_n think_v the_o virtue_n of_o thy_o soul_n cheat_n hypocrisy_n or_o imprudence_n and_o put_v stumbling-block_n in_o the_o way_n of_o thy_o holy_a exercise_n this_o and_o much_o more_o will_v befall_v thou_o if_o thou_o will_v hearty_o serve_v the_o lord_n and_o make_v thyself_o pure_a from_o his_o hand_n 120._o hold_v it_o for_o certain_a that_o however_o good_a those_o mortification_n and_o external_n penance_n be_v which_o thou_o shall_v undertake_v of_o thy_o own_o self_n thou_o will_v never_o by_o those_o only_a purchase_n perfection_n for_o although_o they_o tame_v the_o body_n yet_o they_o purify_v not_o the_o soul_n nor_o purge_v the_o internal_a passion_n which_o do_v real_o hinder_v perfect_a contemplation_n and_o the_o divine_a union_n 121._o it_o be_v very_o easy_a to_o mortify_v the_o body_n by_o mean_n of_o the_o spirit_n but_o not_o the_o spirit_n by_o mean_n of_o the_o body_n true_a it_o be_v that_o in_o internal_a mortification_n and_o that_o of_o the_o spirit_n it_o much_o concern_v you_o for_o conquer_a your_o passion_n and_o root_n up_o your_o own_o judgement_n and_o self-love_n to_o labour_v even_o to_o death_n without_o any_o manner_n of_o spare_v yourself_o although_o the_o soul_n be_v in_o the_o high_a state_n and_o therefore_o the_o principal_a diligence_n ought_v to_o be_v in_o internal_a mortification_n because_o corporal_n and_o external_n mortification_n be_v not_o enough_o though_o it_o be_v good_a and_o holy_a 122._o though_o a_o man_n shall_v receive_v the_o punishment_n of_o all_o man_n together_o and_o do_v the_o rough_a penance_n that_o ever_o have_v be_v do_v in_o god_n church_n yet_o if_o he_o do_v not_o deny_v himself_o and_o mortify_v himself_o with_o interior_a mortification_n he_o will_v be_v far_o from_o arrive_v at_o perfection_n 123._o a_o good_a proof_n of_o this_o truth_n be_v that_o which_o befall_v saint_n henry_n suson_n to_o who_o after_o 20_o year_n of_o rigorous_a haircloth_n discipline_n and_o abstinence_n for_n great_a that_o even_o to_o read_v they_o be_v enough_o to_o make_v one_o hair_n stand_v on_o end_n god_n communicate_v light_n by_o mean_n of_o a_o ecstasy_n by_o which_o he_o arrive_v at_o the_o knowledge_n that_o he_o have_v not_o yet_o begin_v and_o it_o be_v in_o such_o a_o manner_n as_o that_o till_o the_o lord_n mortify_v he_o with_o temptation_n and_o great_a persecution_n he_o never_o can_v arrive_v at_o perfection_n his_o life_n chap._n 23._o hence_o thou_o will_v clear_o know_v the_o great_a difference_n that_o there_o be_v between_o external_n and_o internal_a penance_n and_o internal_a and_o external_n mortification_n chap._n xvii_o how_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o carry_v itself_o in_o the_o fault_n it_o do_v commit_v that_o it_o may_v not_o be_v disquiet_v thereby_o but_o reap_v good_a out_o of_o it_o 124._o when_o thou_o fall_v into_o a_o fault_n in_o what_o matter_n soever_o it_o be_v do_v not_o trouble_v nor_o afflict_v thyself_o for_o it_o for_o they_o be_v effect_n of_o our_o frail_a nature_n stain_v by_o original_a sin_n so_o prone_a to_o evil_a that_o it_o have_v a_o necessity_n of_o a_o most_o special_a grace_n and_o privilege_n as_o the_o most_o holy_a virgin_n have_v to_o be_v free_a and_o exempt_a from_o venial_a sin_n council_n of_o trent_n sess_n 6._o can._n 23._o 125._o if_o when_o thou_o fall_v into_o a_o fault_n or_o a_o piece_n of_o neglect_n thou_o do_v disturb_v and_o chide_v thyself_o it_o be_v a_o manifest_a sign_n that_o secret_a pride_n do_v still_o reign_v in_o thy_o soul_n do_v thou_o believe_v that_o thou_o can_v not_o more_o fall_n into_o fault_n and_o frailty_n if_o god_n permit_v some_o fail_n even_o in_o the_o most_o holy_a and_o perfect_a man_n it_o be_v to_o leave_v they_o some_o remnant_n of_o themselves_o of_o the_o time_n that_o they_o be_v beginner_n to_o keep_v they_o more_o secure_a and_o humble_a it_o be_v that_o they_o may_v think_v always_o that_o they_o be_v never_o depart_v from_o that_o state_n whilst_o they_o still_o keep_v upon_o the_o fault_n of_o their_o beginning_n 126._o what_o do_v thou_o marvel_v at_o if_o thou_o falle_v into_o some_o light_a fault_n or_o frailty_n humble_a thy_o self_n know_v thy_o misery_n and_o thank_v god_n that_o he_o have_v preserve_v thou_o from_o infinite_a sin_n into_o which_o thou_o must_v have_v infallible_o fall_v and_o will_v have_v fall_v according_a to_o thy_o inclination_n and_o appetite_n what_o can_v be_v expect_v from_o the_o slippery_a ground_n of_o our_o nature_n but_o stump_n brier_n and_o thorn_n it_o be_v a_o miracle_n of_o divine_a grace_n not_o to_o fall_v every_o moment_n into_o fault_n innumerable_a we_o shall_v offend_v all_o the_o world_n if_o god_n shall_v not_o hold_v his_o hand_n continual_o over_o we_o 127._o the_o common_a enemy_n will_v make_v thou_o believe_v that_o as_o soon_o as_o thou_o fall_v into_o any_o fault_n thou_o do_v not_o go_v well_o ground_v in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n that_o thou_o walk_v in_o error_n that_o thou_o have_v not_o in_o earnest_n reform_v thyself_o that_o thou_o do_v not_o make_v well_o the_o general_a confession_n that_o thou_o have_v not_o true_a grief_n and_o therefore_o be_v out_o of_o god_n and_o of_o his_o favour_n and_o if_o thou_o shall_v sometime_o commit_v again_o by_o misfortune_n a_o venial_a fault_n how_o many_o fear_n fright_n confusion_n discouragement_n and_o various_a discourse_n will_v the_o devil_n put_v into_o thy_o heart_n he_o will_v represent_v to_o thou_o that_o thou_o employe_v thy_o time_n in_o vain_a that_o thou_o do_v just_a as_o much_o as_o come_v to_o nothing_o that_o thy_o prayer_n do_v thou_o no_o good_a that_o thou_o dispose_v not_o thyself_o as_o thou_o ought_v to_o receive_v the_o holy_a
recollection_n or_o acquire_v contemplation_n the_o first_o be_v of_o beginner_n the_o second_o of_o proficient_n the_o first_o be_v sensible_a and_o material_a the_o second_o more_o naked_a pure_a and_o internal_a 2._o when_o the_o soul_n be_v already_o accustom_a to_o discourse_n of_o mystery_n by_o the_o help_n of_o imagition_n and_o the_o use_n of_o corporal_a image_n be_v carry_v from_o creature_n to_o cteature_n and_o from_o knowledge_n to_o knowledge_n though_o with_o very_o little_a of_o that_o which_o it_o want_v and_o from_o these_o to_o the_o creator_n then_o god_n be_v wont_a to_o take_v that_o soul_n by_o the_o hand_n if_o rather_o he_o call_v it_o not_o in_o the_o very_a beginning_n and_o lead_v it_o without_o ratiocination_n by_o the_o way_n of_o pure_a faith_n make_v the_o intellect_n pass_v by_o all_o consideration_n and_o reason_n draw_v it_o forward_o and_o raise_v it_o out_o of_o this_o material_a and_o sensible_a state_n make_v it_o under_o a_o simple_a and_o 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to_o the_o end_n she_o may_v march_v in_o the_o straight_a way_n and_o by_o pure_a faith_n â—et_v she_o be_v guide_v and_o not_o love_v with_o the_o scantiness_n and_o tenuity_n that_o these_o direct_v but_o let_v she_o suppose_v that_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o all_o that_o the_o most_o refine_a conception_n of_o the_o wise_a understanding_n can_v tell_v she_o be_v nothing_o and_o that_o the_o goodness_n and_o beauty_n of_o her_o belove_a infinite_o surpass_v all_o their_o knowledge_n be_v persuade_v that_o all_o creature_n be_v too_o rude_a to_o inform_v she_o and_o to_o conduct_v she_o to_o the_o true_a knowledge_n of_o god._n 4._o she_o ought_v then_o to_o advance_v forward_o with_o her_o love_n leave_v all_o her_o understanding_n behind_o let_v her_o love_n god_n as_o he_o be_v in_o himself_o and_o not_o as_o her_o imagination_n say_v he_o be_v and_o frame_v he_o to_o she_o and_o if_o she_o can_v know_v he_o as_o he_o be_v in_o himself_o let_v she_o love_v he_o without_o know_v he_o under_o the_o obscure_a veil_n of_o faith_n in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o a_o son_n who_o have_v never_o see_v his_o father_n but_o full_o believe_v those_o who_o have_v give_v he_o information_n of_o he_o love_v he_o as_o if_o he_o have_v already_o see_v he_o 5._o the_o soul_n from_o which_o mental_a discourse_n be_v take_v ought_v not_o to_o strain_v herself_o nor_o sollicitous_o seek_v for_o more_o clear_a and_o particular_a knowledge_n but_o even_o without_o the_o support_v of_o sensible_a consolation_n or_o notice_n with_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n and_o deprive_v of_o all_o that_o the_o natural_a appetite_n require_v continue_v quiet_a firm_a and_o constant_a let_v the_o lord_n work_v his_o work_n though_o she_o may_v seem_v to_o be_v alone_o exhaust_v and_o full_a of_o darkness_n and_o though_o this_o appear_v to_o she_o to_o be_v idleness_n it_o be_v only_o of_o her_o own_o sensible_a and_o material_a activity_n not_o of_o god_n who_o be_v work_v true_a knowledge_n in_o she_o 6._o final_o the_o more_o the_o spirit_n ascend_v the_o more_o it_o be_v take_v off_o of_o sensible_a object_n many_o be_v the_o soul_n who_o have_v arrive_v and_o do_v arrive_v at_o this_o gate_n but_o few_o have_v pass_v or_o do_v pass_v it_o for_o want_n of_o the_o experimental_a guide_n and_o those_o who_o have_v have_v and_o actual_o have_v it_o for_o want_v of_o a_o true_a subjection_n and_o entire_a submission_n 7._o they_o will_v say_v that_o the_o will_n will_v not_o love_v but_o be_v unactive_a if_o the_o intellect_n understand_v not_o clear_o and_o distinct_o it_o be_v a_o receive_a maxim_n that_o that_o which_o be_v not_o know_v can_v be_v love_v to_o this_o it_o be_v answer_v that_o though_o the_o intellect_n understand_v not_o distinct_o by_o ratiocination_n image_n and_o consideration_n yet_o it_o understand_v and_o know_v by_o a_o obscure_a general_a and_o confuse_a faith_n which_o knowledge_n though_o so_o obscure_a indistinct_a and_o general_a as_o be_v supernatural_a have_v nevertheless_o a_o more_o clear_a and_o perfect_a cognition_n of_o god_n than_o any_o sensible_a and_o particular_a notice_n that_o can_v be_v form_v in_o this_o life_n because_o all_o corporal_a and_o sensible_a representation_n be_v infinite_o distant_a from_o god._n 8._o we_o know_v god_n more_o perfect_o say_n st._n denis_n by_o negative_n 2._o mist_v â—â—_o theol._n c._n 1._o â—_o 2._o than_o by_o affirmative_n we_o think_v more_o high_o of_o god_n by_o know_v that_o he_o be_v incomprehensible_a and_o above_o all_o our_o capacity_n than_o by_o conceive_v he_o under_o any_o image_n or_o create_v beauty_n according_a to_o our_o rude_a understanding_n a_o great_a esteem_n and_o love_v then_o will_v flow_v from_o this_o confuse_a obscure_a and_o negative_a than_o from_o any_o other_o sensible_a and_o distinct_a way_n because_o that_o be_v more_o proper_a to_o god_n and_o abstract_a from_o creature_n and_o this_o on_o the_o contrary_a the_o more_o it_o depend_v on_o creature_n the_o less_o it_o have_v of_o god._n second_o advertisement_n declare_v what_o meditation_n and_o contemplation_n be_v and_o the_o difference_n that_o be_v betwixt_o they_o 9_o 24._o lib._n 3._o de_fw-la fide_fw-la c._n 24._o st_n john_n damascene_fw-la and_o other_o saint_n say_v that_o prayer_n be_v a_o sally_v out_o or_o elevation_n of_o the_o mind_n to_o god._n god_n be_v above_o all_o creature_n and_o the_o soul_n can_v see_v he_o nor_o converse_v with_o he_o if_o it_o raise_v not_o itself_o above_o they_o all_o this_o friendly_a conversation_n which_o the_o soul_n have_v with_o god_n that_o be_v to_o say_v in_o prayer_n be_v divide_v into_o meditation_n and_o contemplation_n 10._o when_o the_o mind_n consider_v the_o mystery_n of_o our_o holy_a faith_n with_o attention_n to_o know_v the_o truth_n of_o they_o reason_v upon_o the_o particular_n and_o weigh_v the_o circumstance_n of_o the_o same_o for_o exciting_a the_o affection_n in_o the_o will_n this_o mental_a discourse_n and_o pious_a act_n be_v proper_o call_v meditation_n 11._o when_o the_o soul_n already_o know_v the_o truth_n either_o by_o a_o habit_n acquire_v through_o reason_v or_o because_o the_o lord_n have_v give_v it_o particular_a light_n and_o fix_v the_o eye_n of_o the_o mind_n on_o the_o demonstrate_v truth_n behold_v it_o sincere_o with_o quietness_n and_o silence_n without_o any_o necessity_n of_o consideration_n ratiocination_n or_o other_o proof_n of_o conviction_n and_o the_o will_n love_v it_o admire_v and_o delight_v itself_o therein_o this_o proper_o be_v call_v the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n the_o prayer_n of_o rest_n internal_a recognition_n or_o contemplation_n which_o st._n thomas_n with_o all_o the_o mystical_a master_n say_v be_v a_o sincere_a 4._o 2._o 2._o q._n 180._o art._n 3._o p._n 4._o sweet_a and_o still_o view_v of_o the_o eternal_a truth_n without_o ratiocination_n or_o reflection_n but_o if_o the_o soul_n rejoice_v in_o or_o eye_n the_o effect_n of_o god_n in_o the_o creature_n and_o among_o they_o in_o the_o humanity_n of_o our_o lord_n christ_n as_o the_o most_o perfect_a of_o all_o this_o be_v not_o perfect_a contemplation_n as_o st._n thomas_n affirm_v ibidemâ—_n ibidemâ—_n since_o all_o these_o be_v mean_n for_o know_v of_o god_n as_o he_o be_v in_o himself_o and_o although_o the_o humanity_n of_o christ_n be_v the_o most_o holy_a and_o perfect_a mean_n for_o go_v to_o god_n the_o chief_a instrument_n of_o our_o salvation_n and_o the_o channel_n through_o which_o we_o receive_v all_o the_o good_a we_o hope_v for_o nevertheless_o the_o humanity_n be_v not_o the_o chief_a good_a which_o consist_v in_o see_v god_n but_o as_o jesus_n christ_n be_v more_o by_o his_o divinity_n than_o his_o humanity_n so_o he_o that_o think_v and_o fix_v his_o contemplation_n always_o on_o god_n because_o the_o divinity_n be_v unite_v to_o the_o humanity_n always_o think_v on_o and_o hehold_v
and_o unite_v unto_o he_o with_o reverence_n humility_n and_o submission_n behold_v he_o in_o the_o most_o inward_a recess_n of_o thy_o own_o soul_n without_o form_n likeness_n manner_n or_o figure_n in_o the_o view_n and_o general_a nature_n of_o a_o love_a and_o obscure_a faith_n without_o any_o distinction_n of_o perfection_n or_o attribute_n 65._o there_o thou_o be_v to_o be_v with_o attention_n and_o a_o sincere_a regard_n with_o a_o sedate_n heedfulness_n and_o full_a of_o love_n towards_o the_o same_o lord_n resign_v and_o deliver_v thyself_o up_o into_o his_o hand_n to_o the_o end_n he_o may_v dispose_v of_o thou_o according_a to_o his_o good_a will_n and_o pleasure_n without_o reflect_v on_o thyself_o nay_o nor_o on_o perfection_n itself_o here_o thou_o be_v to_o shut_v up_o the_o sense_n trust_v god_n with_o all_o the_o care_n of_o thy_o welfare_n and_o mind_v nothing_o of_o the_o affair_n of_o this_o life_n final_o thy_o faith_n ought_v to_o be_v pure_a without_o representation_n or_o likeness_n simple_a without_o reason_v and_o universal_a without_o distinction_n 66._o the_o prayer_n of_o internal_a recollection_n may_v be_v well_o typify_v by_o that_o wrestle_a which_o the_o holy_a scripture_n say_v the_o patriarch_n jacob_n have_v all_o night_n with_o god_n until_o day_n break_v and_o he_o bless_v he_o wherefore_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o persevere_v and_o wrestle_v with_o the_o difficulty_n that_o it_o will_v find_v in_o internal_a recollection_n without_o desist_v until_o the_o son_n of_o internal_a light_n begin_v to_o appear_v and_o the_o lord_n give_v it_o his_o blessing_n 67._o no_o soon_o will_v thou_o have_v give_v thyself_o up_o to_o thy_o lord_n in_o this_o inward_a way_n but_o all_o hell_n will_v conspire_v against_o thou_o see_v one_o single_a soul_n inward_o retire_v to_o its_o own_o presence_n make_v great_a war_n against_o the_o enemy_n than_o a_o thousand_o other_o that_o walk_v external_o because_o the_o devil_n make_v a_o infinite_a advantage_n of_o a_o internal_a soul._n 68_o in_o the_o time_n of_o the_o recollection_n peace_n and_o resignation_n of_o thy_o soul_n god_n will_v more_o esteem_v the_o various_a impertinent_a troublesome_a and_o ugly_a thought_n that_o thou_o have_v than_o the_o good_a purpose_n and_o high_a sentiment_n know_v that_o the_o effort_n which_o thou_o thyself_o may_v make_v to_o resist_v thought_n be_v a_o impediment_n and_o will_v leave_v thy_o soul_n in_o great_a anxitie_n the_o best_a thing_n that_o be_v to_o be_v do_v be_v sweet_o to_o despise_v they_o to_o know_v thy_o own_o wretchedness_n and_o peaceful_o make_v a_o offer_n to_o god_n of_o the_o trouble_n 69._o though_o thou_o can_v not_o get_v rid_v off_o the_o anguish_n of_o thought_n have_v no_o light_n comfort_n nor_o spiritual_a sentiment_n yet_o be_v not_o afflict_v neither_o leave_v off_o recollection_n because_o they_o be_v the_o snare_n of_o the_o enemy_n resign_v thyself_o at_o that_o time_n with_o vigour_n endure_v with_o patience_n and_o persevere_v in_o his_o presence_n for_o while_o thou_o persevere_a after_o that_o manner_n thy_o soul_n will_v be_v internal_o emprove_v 70._o do_v thou_o believe_v that_o when_o thou_o come_v away_o from_o prayer_n dry_a in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o thou_o begin_v it_o that_o that_o be_v because_o of_o want_n of_o preparation_n and_o that_o have_v do_v thou_o no_o good_a that_o be_v a_o fallacy_n because_o the_o fruit_n of_o true_a prayer_n consist_v not_o in_o enjoy_v the_o light_n nor_o in_o have_v knowledge_n of_o spiritual_a thing_n since_o these_o may_v be_v find_v in_o a_o speculative_a intellect_n without_o true_a virtue_n and_o perfection_n it_o only_o consist_v in_o endure_v with_o patience_n and_o persevere_v in_o faith_n and_o silence_n believe_v that_o thou_o be_v in_o the_o lord_n presence_n turn_v to_o he_o thy_o heart_n with_o tranquillity_n and_o purity_n of_o mind_n so_o while_o thou_o persevere_a in_o this_o manner_n thou_o will_v have_v the_o only_a preparation_n and_o disposition_n which_o at_o that_o time_n be_v necessary_a and_o shall_v reap_v infinite_a fruit_n 71._o war_n be_v very_o usual_a in_o this_o internal_a recollection_n which_o on_o the_o one_o hand_n will_v deprive_v thou_o of_o sensibility_n to_o try_v humble_a and_o purge_v thou_o on_o the_o other_o invisible_a enemy_n will_v assault_v thou_o with_o continual_a suggestion_n to_o trouble_v and_o disquiet_v thou_o nature_n herself_o apparent_o will_v torment_v thou_o she_o be_v always_o a_o enemy_n to_o the_o spirit_n which_o in_o deprive_v she_o of_o sensible_a pleasure_n remain_v weak_a melancholy_a and_o full_a of_o irksomeness_n so_o that_o it_o feel_v a_o hell_n in_o all_o spiritual_a exercise_n particular_o in_o that_o of_o prayer_n hence_o it_o grow_v extreme_o impatient_a to_o be_v at_o a_o end_n of_o it_o through_o the_o uneasiness_n of_o thought_n the_o lassitude_n of_o body_n importunate_a sleep_n and_o the_o not_o be_v able_a to_o curb_v the_o sense_n every_o one_o of_o which_o will_v for_o its_o own_o share_n follow_v its_o own_o pleasure_n happy_a be_v thou_o if_o thou_o can_v persevere_v amid_o this_o martyrdom_n 74._o that_o great_a doctoress_n and_o mystical_a mistress_n santa_n teresa_n confirm_v all_o this_o by_o her_o heavenly_a doctrine_n in_o the_o letter_n she_o write_v to_o the_o bishop_n of_o osmia_n to_o instruct_v he_o how_o he_o be_v to_o behave_v himself_o in_o prayer_n and_o in_o the_o variety_n of_o troublesome_a thought_n which_o attack_v we_o at_o that_o time_n where_o she_o say_v epistolary_n 8._o of_o her_o epistolary_n there_o be_v a_o necessity_n of_o suffer_v the_o trouble_n of_o a_o troop_n of_o thought_n importune_v imagination_n and_o the_o impetuosity_n of_o natural_a notion_n not_o only_o of_o the_o soul_n through_o the_o dryness_n and_o disunion_n it_o have_v but_o of_o the_o body_n also_o occasion_v by_o the_o want_n of_o submission_n to_o the_o spirit_n which_o it_o ought_v to_o have_v 73._o these_o be_v call_v dryness_n in_o spiritual_n but_o be_v very_o profitable_a if_o they_o be_v embrace_v and_o suffer_v with_o patience_n who_o so_o shall_v accustom_v himself_o to_o suffer_v they_o without_o repine_v will_v from_o that_o labour_n draw_v vast_a advantage_n it_o be_v certain_a that_o in_o recollection_n the_o devil_n frequent_o charge_v the_o soul_n more_o fierce_o with_o a_o battalion_n of_o thought_n to_o discomfit_v the_o quiet_a of_o the_o soul_n and_o alienate_v it_o from_o that_o most_o sweet_a and_o secure_a internal_a conversation_n raise_v horror_n to_o the_o end_n it_o may_v leave_v it_o off_o reduce_v it_o most_o common_o to_o such_o a_o state_n as_o if_o it_o be_v lead_v forth_o to_o a_o most_o rigorous_a torment_n 74._o the_o bird_n which_o be_v the_o devil_n know_v this_o say_v the_o saint_n in_o the_o abovecited_a letter_n prick_v and_o molest_v the_o soul_n with_o imagination_n troublesome_a thought_n and_o the_o interruption_n which_o the_o devil_n at_o that_o time_n bring_v in_o transport_v the_o thought_n distract_n it_o from_o one_o thing_n to_o another_o and_o after_o he_o have_v do_v with_o they_o attacking_z the_o heart_n and_o it_o be_v no_o small_a fruit_n of_o prayer_n patient_o to_o suffer_v these_o trouble_n and_o importunity_n that_o be_v a_o offer_v up_o of_o one_o self_n in_o a_o whole_a burn_a sacrifice_n that_o be_v to_o say_v to_o be_v whole_o consume_v in_o the_o fire_n of_o temptation_n and_o no_o part_n spare_v see_v how_o this_o heavenly_a mistress_n encourage_v to_o suffer_v and_o endure_v thought_n and_o temptation_n because_o provide_v they_o be_v not_o consent_v to_o they_o double_v the_o profit_n 75._o as_o many_o time_n as_o thou_o exercise_a thyself_o calm_o to_o reject_v these_o vain_a thought_n so_o many_o crown_n will_v the_o lord_n set_v upon_o thy_o head_n and_z and_z though_o it_o may_v seem_v to_o thou_o that_o thou_o do_v nothing_o be_v undeceive_v for_o a_o good_a desire_n with_o firmness_n and_o steadfastness_n in_o prayer_n be_v very_o please_v to_o the_o lord_n 76._o wherefore_o to_o be_v there_o conclude_v the_o saint_n without_o sensible_a profit_n be_v not_o lose_v time_n but_o of_o great_a gain_n while_o one_o toil_n without_o interest_n and_o mere_o for_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n and_o though_o it_o may_v seem_v to_o be_v toil_a in_o vain_a yet_o it_o be_v not_o so_o but_o it_o be_v as_o with_o child_n who_o toil_n and_o labour_n under_o the_o power_n of_o their_o father_n though_o in_o the_o evening_n they_o receive_v not_o the_o wage_n for_o their_o day_n work_n yet_o at_o the_o year_n end_n they_o enjoy_v all_o in_o fine_a you_o see_v how_o the_o saint_n confirm_v our_o document_n with_o her_o precious_a doctrine_n chap._n xii_o a_o sequel_n of_o the_o same_o matter_n 77._o god_n love_v not_o he_o who_o do_v most_o who_o hear_v most_o nor_o who_o show_v great_a affection_n but_o who_o suffer_v most_o if_o he_o
a_o mind_n to_o do_v the_o divine_a will_n with_o all_o diligence_n thou_o will_v never_o find_v the_o way_n but_o by_o the_o mean_n of_o obedience_n when_o a_o man_n be_v resolve_v to_o be_v govern_v by_o himself_o he_o be_v lose_v and_o deceive_v although_o the_o soul_n have_v very_o profound_a sign_n that_o it_o be_v a_o good_a spirit_n that_o speak_v to_o it_o yet_o unless_o it_o submit_v to_o the_o judgement_n of_o the_o spiritual_a director_n let_v it_o be_v esteem_v a_o evil_a spirit_n so_o say_v gerson_n tract_n de_fw-mi do_v verar._n num._n 19_o and_o many_o other_o master_n of_o spirit_n 78._o this_o doctrine_n will_v be_v confirm_v by_o that_o case_n of_o st._n teresa_n the_o holy_a mother_n see_v that_o lady_n catherine_n of_o cardona_n lead_v a_o life_n of_o great_a and_o rigid_a penance_n in_o the_o wilderness_n resolve_v to_o imitate_v she_o contrary_a to_o the_o judgement_n of_o her_o spiritual_a father_n who_o forbid_v she_o then_o the_o lord_n tell_v she_o in_o her_o life_n 366._o you_o must_v by_o no_o mean_n do_v this_o daughter_n the_o good_a way_n thou_o have_v secure_a thou_o see_v all_o the_o penance_n that_o catherine_n do_v but_o i_o value_v more_o thy_o obedience_n she_z from_o that_o time_n forward_o vow_v to_o obey_v her_o spiritual_a father_n and_o in_o the_o 26_o chapter_n of_o her_o life_n we_o read_v that_o god_n often_o tell_v she_o that_o she_o must_v not_o omit_v to_o acquaint_v her_o spiritual_a father_n with_o her_o whole_a soul_n and_o the_o grace_n that_o she_o have_v do_v she_o and_o that_o she_o shall_v always_o take_v care_n to_o obey_v he_o in_o every_o thing_n 79._o thou_o see_v how_o god_n have_v be_v willing_a to_o secure_v that_o heavenly_a and_o important_a doctrine_n by_o the_o holy_a scripture_n the_o saint_n the_o doctor_n by_o reason_n and_o by_o example_n a-purpose_n to_o root_n out_o altogether_o the_o deceit_n of_o the_o enemy_n chap._n xi_o when_o and_o in_o what_o thing_n this_o obedience_n do_v most_o concern_v the_o interior_a soul._n 80._o that_o you_o may_v know_v when_o obedience_n be_v most_o necessary_a i_o will_v advise_v thou_o that_o when_o thou_o shall_v find_v the_o horrible_a and_o importunate_a suggestion_n of_o the_o enemy_n great_a upon_o thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v suffer_v most_o darkness_n anguish_n drought_n forsaking_n when_o thou_o shall_v see_v thyself_o most_o beset_v with_o temptation_n wrath_n rage_n blasphemy_n lust_n curse_v tediousness_n despair_n impatience_n and_o desolation_n then_o it_o be_v most_o necessary_a for_o thou_o to_o believe_v and_o obey_v a_o expert_a director_n rest_v thyself_o on_o his_o holy_a counsel_n that_o thou_o may_v not_o suffer_v thyself_o to_o be_v carry_v away_o by_o the_o strong_a persuasion_n of_o the_o enemy_n who_o will_v make_v thou_o believe_v in_o affliction_n and_o heavy_a desertion_n that_o thou_o be_v lose_v and_o abhor_v by_o god_n that_o thou_o be_v out_o of_o his_o favour_n and_o that_o obedience_n be_v pass_v do_v thou_o any_o good_a 81._o thou_o shall_v find_v thyself_o encompass_v with_o troublesome_a scruple_n grief_n anguish_n distress_n martyrdom_n distrust_n forsaking_n of_o the_o creature_n and_o trouble_v so_o bitter_a that_o thy_o affliction_n shall_v seem_v past_a comfort_n and_o thy_o torment_n unconquerable_a o_o bless_a soul_n how_o happy_a will_v thou_o be_v if_o thou_o do_v but_o believe_v thy_o guide_n and_o subject_n thyself_o to_o he_o and_o obey_v he_o then_o will_v thou_o walk_v safe_a by_o the_o secret_a and_o interior_a way_n of_o the_o dark_a night_n although_o thou_o may_v seem_v to_o thyself_o to_o live_v in_o error_n and_o that_o thou_o be_v worse_o than_o ever_o that_o thou_o see_v nothing_o in_o thy_o soul_n but_o abomination_n and_o sign_n of_o condemnation_n 82._o thou_o will_v think_v very_o that_o thou_o be_v possess_v by_o a_o evil_a spirit_n because_o the_o sign_n of_o this_o interior_a exercise_n and_o horrible_a tribulation_n seem_v as_o bad_a as_o the_o invasion_n of_o infernal_a fury_n and_o devil_n then_o take_v care_n to_o believe_v thy_o guide_n firm_o for_o thy_o true_a happiness_n consist_v in_o thy_o obedience_n 83._o you_o must_v consider_v that_o when_o the_o devil_n see_v a_o soul_n total_o deny_v itself_o and_o submit_v to_o the_o obedience_n of_o its_o director_n he_o make_v a_o strange_a uproar_n all_o hell_n over_o to_o hinder_v this_o infinite_a good_a and_o this_o holy_a sacrifice_n full_a of_o envy_n and_o fury_n as_o he_o be_v he_o use_v to_o make_v strife_n between_o the_o two_o inspire_v the_o soul_n with_o wearisomeness_n anger_n aversion_n resistance_n distrust_n and_o hatred_n against_o the_o guide_n and_o sometime_o he_o make_v use_v of_o his_o tongue_n to_o bespatter_v he_o with_o many_o reproach_n but_o if_o this_o director_n be_v a_o expert_a one_o he_o laugh_v at_o these_o subtle_a snare_n and_o diabolical_a craftyness_n and_o however_o the_o devil_n may_v persuade_v the_o soul_n of_o such_o a_o state_n with_o divers_a suggestion_n not_o to_o believe_v their_o director_n that_o they_o may_v not_o obey_v he_o nor_o profit_n under_o he_o yet_o nevertheless_o they_o may_v believe_v and_o they_o do_v believe_v enough_o to_o obey_v though_o it_o be_v without_o their_o own_o satisfaction_n 84._o thou_o will_v ask_v of_o thy_o guide_n some_o liberty_n or_o will_v communicate_v to_o he_o some_o grace_n receive_v if_o in_o deny_v thou_o that_o liberty_n or_o reject_v that_o grace_n that_o thou_o may_v not_o grow_v proud_a thou_o withdrawe_v thyself_o from_o his_o counsel_n and_o leave_v he_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o the_o favour_n be_v false_a and_o that_o thy_o spirit_n walk_v in_o danger_n but_o if_o thou_o do_v believe_v and_o obey_v although_o he_o do_v sound_o displease_v thou_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n that_o thou_o be_v alive_a and_o unmortified_a nevertheless_o thou_o will_v profit_v with_o that_o violent_a and_o work_a medicine_n because_o though_o the_o inferior_a part_n be_v trouble_v and_o do_v resent_v yet_o the_o superior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n do_v embrace_v he_o and_o will_v be_v humble_v and_o mortify_v because_o it_o know_v that_o this_o be_v the_o divine_a will._n and_o though_o thou_o do_v not_o know_v it_o yet_o satisfaction_n go_v on_o emprove_n in_o thy_o soul_n and_o so_o do_v the_o confidence_n that_o thou_o have_v in_o thy_o guide_n 85._o the_o mean_n of_o deny_v self-love_n and_o of_o lay_v down_o one_o own_o judgement_n you_o must_v know_v be_v subject_v it_o altogether_o with_o true_a submission_n to_o the_o counsel_n of_o the_o spiritual_a physician_n if_o he_o hinder_v you_o your_o pleasure_n or_o demand_n what_o you_o desire_v not_o thousand_o of_o false_a and_o idle_a reason_n do_v present_o get_v about_o his_o holy_a counsel_n where_o it_o be_v present_o know_v that_o the_o spirit_n be_v not_o altogether_o mortify_v nor_o his_o own_o judgement_n blind_v which_o be_v irreconcilable_a enemy_n to_o a_o ready_a and_o blind_a obedience_n and_o the_o peace_n of_o the_o soul._n 86._o then_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o overcome_v thyself_o and_o thy_o quick_a sentiment_n to_o despise_v those_o false_a and_o lie_a reason_n by_o obey_v hold_v thy_o tongue_n and_o execute_v his_o holy_a counsel_n because_o that_o be_v the_o way_n to_o root_v up_o thy_o appetite_n and_o thy_o own_o judgement_n 87._o for_o this_o reason_n the_o ancient_a father_n as_o expert_a and_o skilful_a master_n of_o spirit_n do_v exercise_v their_o disciple_n in_o divers_a and_o extraordinary_a way_n to_o some_o they_o give_v order_n to_o plant_v lettuce_n with_o the_o leave_v downward_o to_z other_o to_o water_n dry_a and_o wither_a tree_n too_o other_o to_z sew_z and_o unsew_v again_o many_o time_n their_o clothes_n all_o marvellous_a and_o effectual_a stratagem_n to_o make_v trial_n of_o simple_a obedience_n and_o to_o cut_v by_o the_o root_n the_o weed_n of_o their_o own_o will_n and_o judgement_n chap._n xii_o treat_v of_o the_o same_o 88_o know_v that_o thou_o can_v not_o fetch_v one_o step_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n till_o thou_o endeavoure_v to_o conquer_v this_o fierce_a enemy_n thy_o own_o judgement_n and_o the_o soul_n that_o will_v not_o know_v this_o hurt_n can_v never_o be_v cure_v a_o sick_a man_n that_o know_v his_o disease_n know_v for_o certain_a that_o although_o he_o be_v adry_n yet_o it_o be_v not_o good_a for_o he_o to_o drink_v and_o that_o the_o physic_n prescribe_v he_o though_o it_o be_v bitter_a yet_o be_v profitable_a for_o he_o therefore_o he_o believe_v not_o his_o appetite_n nor_o trust_v in_o his_o own_o judgement_n but_o yield_v himself_o up_o to_o a_o skilful_a physician_n obey_v he_o in_o every_o thing_n as_o the_o mean_n of_o his_o recovery_n and_o cure_n the_o knowledge_n that_o he_o be_v sick_a help_v he_o not_o to_o trust_v to_o himself_o but_o to_o follow_v the_o wise_a judgement_n of_o
but_o if_o thou_o o_o bless_a soul_n shall_v know_v how_o much_o thou_o be_v belove_v and_o defend_v by_o that_o divine_a lord_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o thy_o love_a torment_n thou_o will_v find_v they_o so_o sweet_a that_o it_o will_v be_v necessary_a that_o god_n shall_v work_v a_o miracle_n to_o let_v thou_o live_v be_v constant_a o_o happy_a soul_n be_v constant_a and_o of_o good_a courage_n for_o however_o intolerable_a thou_o be_v to_o thyself_o yet_o thou_o will_v be_v protect_v enrich_v and_o belove_v by_o that_o great_a good_a as_o if_o he_o have_v nothing_o else_o to_o do_v than_o to_o lead_v thou_o to_o perfection_n by_o the_o the_o high_a step_n of_o love_n and_o if_o thou_o do_v not_o turn_v away_o but_o persevere_a constant_o without_o leave_v off_o thy_o undertake_n know_v that_o thou_o offere_v to_o god_n the_o most_o accept_a sacrifice_n so_o that_o if_o this_o lord_n be_v capable_a of_o pain_n he_o will_v find_v no_o ease_n till_o he_o have_v complete_v this_o love_a union_n with_o thy_o soul._n 41._o if_o from_o the_o chaos_n of_o nothing_o his_o omnipotence_n have_v produce_v so_o many_o wonder_n what_o will_v he_o do_v in_o thy_o soul_n create_v after_o his_o own_o image_n and_o likeness_n if_o thou_o keep_v constant_a quiet_a and_o resign_v with_o a_o true_a knowledge_n of_o thy_o nothing_n happy_a soul_n which_o even_o when_o it_o be_v disturb_v afflict_a and_o disconsolate_a keep_v steady_a there_o within_o without_o go_v forth_o to_o declare_v exterior_a comfort_n 42._o afflict_v not_o thyself_o too_o much_o and_o with_o inquietude_n because_o these_o sharp_a martyrdom_n may_v continue_v persevere_v in_o humility_n and_o go_v not_o out_o of_o thyself_o to_o seek_v aid_n for_o all_o the_o good_a consist_v in_o be_v silent_a suffer_v and_o hold_v patience_n with_o rest_n and_o resignation_n there_o will_v thou_o find_v the_o divine_a strength_n to_o overcome_v so_o hard_a a_o warsare_n he_o be_v within_o thou_o that_o fight_v for_o thou_o 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necessity_n of_o suffering_n and_o glory_n as_o he_o do_v esteem_v more_o the_o be_v crucify_a than_o be_v a_o apostle_n 45._o thy_o good_a luck_n consist_v not_o in_o enjoy_v but_o in_o suffer_v with_o quiet_a and_o resignation_n st._n teresa_n appear_v after_o her_o death_n to_o a_o certain_a soul_n and_o tell_v it_o that_o she_o have_v only_o be_v reward_v for_o her_o pain_n but_o have_v not_o receive_v one_o dram_n of_o reward_n for_o so_o many_o ecstasy_n and_o revelation_n and_o comfort_n that_o she_o have_v here_o enjoy_v in_o this_o world._n 46._o although_o this_o painful_a martyrdom_n of_o horrible_a desolation_n and_o passive_a purgation_n be_v so_o tremendous_a that_o with_o reason_n it_o have_v get_v the_o name_n of_o hell_n among_o mystic_a divine_n because_o it_o seem_v impossible_a to_o be_v able_a to_o live_v a_o moment_n with_o so_o grievous_a a_o torment_n so_o that_o with_o great_a reason_n it_o may_v be_v say_v that_o he_o that_o suffer_v it_o life_n die_v and_o die_a life_n a_o linger_a death_n yet_o know_v that_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o endure_v it_o to_o arrive_v at_o the_o sweet_a joyous_a and_o abundant_a riches_n of_o high_a contemplation_n and_o love_a union_n and_o there_o have_v be_v no_o holy_a soul_n which_o have_v not_o pass_v through_o this_o spiritual_a martyrdom_n and_o painful_a torment_n st._n gregory_n the_o pope_n in_o the_o two_o last_o month_n of_o his_o life_n st._n francis_n of_o assize_n two_o year_n and_o a_o half_a st._n marry_o maudlin_n of_o pazzi_n five_o year_n st._n rose_n of_o peru_n fifteen_o year_n and_o after_o such_o miracle_n as_o make_v the_o world_n amaze_v st._n dominick_n suffer_v it_o even_o till_o half_a a_o hour_n of_o his_o happy_a exit_n chap._n vi_o 47._o the_o other_o more_o profitable_a and_o meritorious_a martyrdom_n in_o soul_n already_o advance_v in_o perfection_n and_o deep_a contemplation_n be_v a_o fire_n of_o divine_a love_n which_o burn_v the_o soul_n and_o make_v it_o painful_a with_o the_o same_o love_n sometime_o the_o absence_n of_o its_o belove_a afflict_v it_o sometime_o the_o sweet_a ardent_a and_o welcome_a weight_n of_o the_o love_a and_o divine_a presence_n torment_v it_o this_o sweet_a martyrdom_n always_o make_v it_o sigh_n sometime_o if_o it_o enjoy_v and_o have_v its_o belove_a for_o the_o pleasure_n of_o have_v he_o so_o that_o it_o can_v contain_v itself_o other_o time_n if_o he_o do_v not_o manifest_v himself_o through_o the_o ardent_a anxiety_n of_o seek_v find_v and_o enjoy_v he_o all_o this_o be_v pant_v suffer_v and_o die_v for_o love_n 48._o o_o that_o thou_o can_v but_o come_v to_o conceive_v the_o contrariety_n of_o accident_n that_o a_o enamour_a soul_n suffer_v the_o combat_v so_o terrible_a and_o strong_a on_o one_o side_n so_o sweet_a and_o melt_a and_o amiable_a on_o the_o other_o the_o martyrdom_n so_o pierce_v and_o sharp_a with_o which_o love_n torment_v it_o and_o the_o cross_n so_o painful_a and_o sweet_a withal_o without_o ever_o be_v in_o the_o mind_n of_o get_v free_a from_o it_o while_o thou_o live_v 49._o just_o so_o much_o as_o light_v and_o love_n increase_v just_o so_o much_o increase_v the_o grief_n in_o see_v that_o good_a absent_a which_o it_o love_v so_o well_o to_o feel_v it_o near_o itself_o be_v enjoyment_n and_o never_o to_o have_v do_v know_v and_o possess_v it_o consume_v its_o life_n it_o have_v food_n and_o drink_n near_o its_o mouth_n while_o it_o want_v either_o and_o can_v be_v satisfy_v it_o see_v itself_o swallow_v up_o and_o drown_v in_o a_o sea_n of_o love_n while_o the_o powerful_a hand_n that_o be_v able_a to_o save_v it_o be_v near_o it_o and_o yet_o do_v not_o do_v it_o nor_o do_v it_o know_v when_o he_o will_v come_v who_o it_o so_o much_o do_v desire_v 50._o sometime_o it_o hear_v the_o inward_a voice_n of_o its_o belove_a which_o court_v and_o call_v it_o and_o a_o soft_a and_o delicate_a whisper_n which_o go_v forth_o from_o the_o secret_a of_o the_o soul_n where_o it_o abide_v which_o pierce_v it_o strong_o even_o like_a to_o melt_v and_o dissolve_v it_o in_o see_v how_o near_o it_o have_v he_o within_o itself_o and_o yet_o how_o far_o off_o from_o it_o while_o it_o can_v come_v to_o possess_v he_o this_o intoxicate_n it_o imbase_v it_o scare_n it_o and_o fill_v it_o with_o unsatisfiableness_n and_o therefore_o love_n be_v say_v to_o be_v as_o strong_a as_o death_n while_o it_o kill_v just_a as_o that_o do_v chap._n vii_o inward_a mortification_n and_o perfect_a resignation_n be_v necessary_a for_o obtain_v internal_a peace_n 60._o the_o most_o subtle_a arrow_n that_o be_v shoot_v at_o we_o from_o nature_n be_v to_o induce_v we_o to_o that_o which_o be_v unlawful_a with_o a_o pretence_n that_o it_o may_v be_v necessary_a and_o useful_a o_o how_o many_o soul_n have_v suffer_v themselves_o to_o be_v lead_v away_o and_o have_v lose_v the_o spirit_n by_o this_o guild_a cheat_n thou_o will_v never_o last_v the_o delicious_a manna_n quod_fw-la nemo_fw-la novit_fw-la nisi_fw-la qui_fw-la accipit_fw-la apoc._n ch_n 2._o unless_o thou_o do_v perfect_o overcome_v thyself_o even_o to_o die_v in_o thyself_o because_o he_o who_o endeavour_v not_o to_o die_v to_o his_o passion_n be_v not_o well_o dispose_v to_o receive_v the_o gift_n of_o understanding_n without_o the_o infusion_n whereof_o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o he_o to_o go_v in_o into_o himself_o and_o be_v change_v in_o his_o spirit_n and_o therefore_o those_o that_o keep_v without_o have_v nothing_o of_o it_o 52._o never_o disquiet_v thyself_o for_o any_o accident_n for_o inquietude_n be_v the_o door_n by_o which_o the_o enemy_n get_v into_o the_o soul_n to_o rob_v it_o of_o its_o peace_n 53._o resign_v and_o deny_v thyself_o whole_o for_o though_o true_a self-denial_n be_v harsh_a at_o the_o beginning_n it_o
nor_o be_v they_o equivalent_a to_o that_o grace_n only_o which_o he_o lose_v and_o which_o he_o may_v have_v have_v by_o receive_v that_o communion_n and_o now_o let_v we_o make_v up_o this_o account_n if_o restitution_n ought_v to_o be_v as_o all_o the_o doctor_n say_v conformable_a to_o the_o good_a which_o be_v take_v from_o one_o neighbour_n what_o can_v he_o restore_v which_o deprive_v a_o faithful_a man_n of_o god_n himself_o will_v it_o not_o be_v great_a want_n of_o charity_n to_o take_v from_o a_o man_n a_o mount_n of_o gold_n only_o to_o gather_v up_o a_o little_a grain_n only_o for_o one_o grain_n of_o mortification_n if_o yet_o there_o be_v any_o in_o it_o the_o minister_n do_v deprive_v a_o christian_a of_o a_o whole_a mount_n of_o blessing_n which_o be_v heap_v up_o together_o in_o the_o communion_n if_o there_o be_v no_o other_o way_n to_o mortify_v and_o try_v the_o soul_n but_o this_o it_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v use_v because_o by_o this_o mortification_n they_o deprive_v he_o of_o a_o great_a good_a but_o there_o be_v infinite_a way_n of_o prove_v and_o mortify_v the_o soul_n beside_o without_o do_v it_o so_o great_a a_o spiritual_a prejudice_n the_o blessing_n of_o this_o sacrament_n dont_fw-fr end_n here_o because_o beside_o the_o increase_n of_o grace_n it_o sustain_v and_o give_v new_a strength_n to_o the_o soul_n to_o resist_v temptation_n it_o satisfy_v the_o desire_n take_v away_o the_o hunger_n of_o temporal_a thing_n unite_v with_o christ_n and_o his_o member_n who_o be_v the_o just_a and_o righteous_a break_v the_o power_n of_o satan_n give_v strength_n to_o suffer_v martyrdom_n pardon_v the_o venial_a sin_n to_o which_o he_o that_o communicate_v do_v not_o stand_v affect_v and_o keep_v from_o mortal_a sin_n by_o virtue_n of_o the_o aid_n which_o it_o do_v contribute_v the_o body_n of_o christ_n say_v st._n bernard_n in_o serm._n dom_n be_v medicine_n to_o the_o sick_a provision_n for_o the_o pilgrim_n fresh_a strength_n to_o the_o weary_a it_o delight_v the_o strong_a it_o heal_v the_o wound_a it_o preserve_v the_o health_n of_o soul_n and_o body_n and_o whoever_o be_v a_o worthy_a communicant_a be_v make_v more_o strong_a to_o receive_v contempt_n more_o patient_a to_o suffer_v reproof_n more_o fit_a to_o endure_v trouble_n more_o ready_a for_o obedience_n and_o to_o return_v the_o lord_n thanks_o st._n leo_n pope_n de_fw-la praec_fw-la ser_fw-mi 14._o the_o pass_n domini_fw-la say_v that_o when_o a_o man_n be_v communicate_v christ_n come_v to_o honour_v he_o with_o his_o presence_n to_o anoint_v he_o with_o his_o grace_n to_o cure_v he_o with_o his_o mercy_n to_o heal_v he_o with_o his_o blood_n to_o raise_v he_o by_o his_o death_n to_o illuminate_v he_o with_o his_o light_n to_o inflame_v he_o with_o his_o love_n to_o comfort_v he_o with_o his_o infinite_a sweetness_n to_o be_v unite_v and_o espouse_v with_o his_o soul_n to_o make_v he_o partaker_n of_o his_o divine_a spirit_n and_o of_o all_o the_o blessing_n which_o he_o purchase_v we_o by_o his_o cross_n do_v thou_o seek_v say_v st._n bonaventure_n de_fw-fr praec_fw-la where_o god_n be_v thou_o must_v expect_v to_o find_v he_o in_o this_o divine_a sacrament_n which_o be_v worthy_o receive_v do_v pardon_n sin_n mitigate_v passion_n give_v light_n to_o the_o understanding_n satiates_fw-la the_o soul_n revive_v faith_n encourage_v hope_n inkindle_v charity_n increase_v devotion_n fill_v with_o grace_n and_o be_v the_o rick_n pledge_v of_o glory_n this_o sacrament_n say_v st._n thomas_n opusc_n 58._o de_fw-fr sacr._n cap._n 21._o 22_o 23._o drive_v away_o evil_a spirit_n defend_v we_o from_o concupiscence_n wash_v off_o the_o stain_n of_o the_o heart_n appease_v god_n anger_n illuminate_v the_o understanding_n to_o know_v he_o inflame_v the_o will_n to_o love_v he_o delight_v the_o memory_n with_o sweetness_n confirm_v the_o whole_a man_n in_o goodness_n free_v he_o from_o punishment_n everlasting_a multiply_v the_o merit_n of_o good_a life_n and_o bring_v he_o to_o his_o eternal_a country_n the_o body_n of_o the_o lord_n as_o he_o pursue_v it_o cap._n 24._o produce_v three_o principal_a effect_n first_o it_o destroy_v sin._n second_o it_o increase_v spiritual_a blessing_n three_o it_o comfort_v man_n soul_n and_o in_o chap._n 25._o he_o say_v it_o satiates_fw-la the_o spirit_n to_o follow_v what_o be_v good_a it_o comfort_v and_o strengthen_v the_o soul_n to_o shun_v what_o be_v evil_a it_o preserve_v the_o life_n always_o to_o praise_v the_o lord_n as_o it_o be_v a_o sacrifice_n it_o remit_v the_o sin_n of_o those_o who_o be_v alive_a and_o lighten_v the_o punishment_n of_o those_o who_o be_v in_o purgatory_n and_o augment_v the_o accidental_a glory_n of_o those_o who_o be_v in_o heaven_n last_o the_o body_n of_o christ_n be_v call_v the_o sacrament_n of_o charity_n because_o it_o make_v we_o partaker_n of_o the_o spirit_n divine_a of_o the_o sweet_a abide_v of_o christ_n himself_o and_o the_o rich_a transformation_n of_o god._n it_o will_v be_v a_o endless_a thing_n to_o relate_v the_o blessing_n which_o according_a to_o the_o say_n of_o saint_n they_o do_v receive_v from_o this_o sacrament_n who_o come_v to_o partake_v of_o it_o without_o mortal_a sin_n and_o of_o all_o these_o do_v the_o minister_n deprive_v a_o christian_n when_o he_o only_o forbid_v he_o one_o communion_n but_o more_o than_o this_o deprieve_v they_o of_o the_o communion_n he_o deprieve_n all_o the_o saint_n of_o heaven_n all_o the_o angel_n the_o most_o holy_a virgin_n and_o christ_n himself_o of_o that_o accidental_a glory_n which_o accrue_v to_o they_o by_o every_o communion_n receive_v in_o grace_n if_o the_o saint_n in_o heaven_n have_v a_o special_a accidental_a glory_n by_o every_o good_a work_n though_o never_o so_o small_a that_o be_v do_v here_o below_o as_o many_o pious_a author_n be_v of_o opinion_n with_o how_o much_o more_o reason_n will_v they_o have_v it_o by_o a_o work_n so_o sublime_a as_o 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assure_v we_o ballester_n in_o the_o book_n of_o the_o crucifix_n of_o s._n saviour_n f._n 207._o that_o the_o divine_a sacrifice_n be_v never_o celebrate_v but_o one_o of_o these_o two_o thing_n follow_v upon_o it_o either_o the_o conversion_n of_o a_o sinner_n or_o the_o let_v loose_a of_o some_o soul_n out_o of_o purgatory_n this_o be_v as_o much_o saint_n augustine_n saying_n as_o other_o be_v saint_n jeromes_n william_n altisiodorensis_n be_v not_o content_v with_o one_o soul_n but_o affirm_v that_o by_o every_o mass_n there_o be_v the_o lord_n know_v how_o many_o soul_n that_o get_v away_o from_o thence_o severus_n in_o saint_n martin_n life_n give_v a_o account_n that_o he_o set_v as_o many_o soul_n at_o liberty_n with_o his_o mass_n as_o person_n assist_v at_o the_o hear_n of_o of_o they_o venerable_a bede_n say_v that_o the_o priest_n who_o be_v not_o lawful_o hinder_v do_v neglect_n to_o say_v mass_n deprieve_n the_o most_o holy_a trinity_n of_o glory_n and_o praise_n the_o angel_n of_o joy_n sinner_n of_o pardon_n the_o righteous_a of_o grace_n and_o help_v the_o soul_n in_o purgatory_n of_o cool_v and_o refreshment_n the_o church_n of_o the_o heavenly_a benefit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n our_o lord_n and_o the_o priest_n himself_o of_o medicine_n and_o help_n if_o every_o mass_n therefore_o have_v all_o this_o of_o its_o own_o what_o minister_n under_o the_o colour_n of_o zeal_n shall_v be_v so_o bold_a as_o to_o hinder_v and_o defraud_v the_o trinity_n the_o angel_n the_o virgin_n the_o church_n the_o righteous_a sinner_n the_o soul_n in_o purgatory_n and_o the_o priest_n themselves_o that_o desire_n to_o celebrate_v so_o much_o glory_n and_o so_o much_o good_a without_o doubt_n though_o this_o be_v do_v with_o zeal_n yet_o it_o be_v want_n of_o consideration_n and_o it_o will_v be_v well_o to_o premeditate_v and_o consider_v it_o better_o before_o any_o go_v about_o to_o hinder_v it_o the_o end_n the_o content_n chap._n 1._o no_o minister_n ought_v to_o keep_v a_o faithful_a person_n from_o the_o communion_n that_o do_v desire_n and_o ask_v it_o whilst_o he_o do_v not_o know_v his_o conscience_n defile_v with_o mortal_a sin._n page_n 1_o chap._n 2._o answer_v the_o reason_n which_o those_o minister_n give_v which_o hinder_v the_o faithful_a from_o communicate_v and_o the_o priest_n from_o celebrate_v have_v their_o conscience_n free_a from_o mortal_a sin._n page_n 17_o chap._n 3._o wherein_o be_v show_v some_o of_o the_o great_a benefit_n of_o which_o a_o faithful_a man_n be_v deprive_v by_o be_v prohibit_v the_o communion_n when_o he_o be_v sufficient_o dispose_v for_o it_o page_n 31_o
make_v particular_o like_o discourse_n and_o about_o the_o household_n affair_n of_o their_o penitent_n before_o they_o come_v to_o accuse_v themselves_o of_o their_o sin_n whereupon_o that_o little_a devotion_n which_o they_o bring_v along_o with_o they_o to_o the_o sacrament_n become_v cool_v and_o good_a for_o nothing_o sometime_o it_o happen_v that_o many_o penitent_n be_v fain_o to_o wait_v to_o be_v confess_v who_o be_v full_a of_o business_n of_o their_o own_o and_o when_o they_o see_v such_o a_o long_a demur_n they_o grow_v weary_a and_o sad_a and_o fall_v into_o impatience_n lose_v the_o actual_a disposition_n of_o mind_n wherewith_o they_o be_v before_o prepare_v to_o receive_v so_o healthful_a a_o sacrament_n whereupon_o the_o medley_n of_o these_o distractive_a superfluous_a and_o vain_a matter_n not_o only_o make_v they_o lose_v their_o precious_a time_n but_o also_o prejudice_v the_o holy_a place_n the_o sacrament_n the_o disposition_n of_o the_o penitent_n who_o be_v confess_v and_o that_o of_o other_o who_o wait_v to_o be_v confess_v all_o of_o they_o considerable_a mischief_n and_o worthy_a to_o be_v redress_v 53._o for_o confession_n there_o be_v some_o good_a but_o for_o the_o government_n of_o spirit_n by_o the_o mystical_a way_n there_o be_v so_o few_o say_v father_n john_n davila_n that_o in_o a_o thousand_o you_o shall_v possible_o find_v one_o st_o francis_n of_o sales_n say_v one_o among_o ten_o thousand_o and_o the_o illuminate_v thauler_n say_v that_o in_o a_o hundred_o thousand_o it_o be_v a_o hard_a thing_n to_o find_v one_o expert_a master_n of_o spirit_n the_o reason_n be_v because_o there_o be_v so_o few_o who_o dispose_v themselves_o to_o receive_v the_o mystical_a science_n pauci_fw-la ad_fw-la eam_fw-la recipiendam_fw-la se_fw-la disponunt_fw-la say_v henry_n arpius_n lib._n 3._o par._n 3._o cap._n 22._o will_v to_o god_n it_o be_v not_o so_o true_a as_o it_o be_v for_o then_o there_o will_v not_o be_v so_o many_o cheat_n in_o 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retirement_n and_o find_v destruction_n in_o it_o o_o how_o necessary_a it_o be_v that_o the_o guide_n be_v expert_a in_o the_o spiritual_a and_o mystical_a way_n chap._n viii_o pursue_v the_o same_o matter_n 58._o those_o that_o govern_v soul_n without_o experience_n go_v in_o the_o dark_a and_o arrive_v not_o at_o the_o understanding_n of_o the_o state_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o their_o internal_a and_o supernatural_a operation_n they_o only_o know_v that_o sometime_o the_o soul_n be_v well_o and_o that_o it_o have_v light_a other_o time_n that_o it_o be_v in_o darkness_n but_o what_o the_o state_n of_o all_o these_o be_v and_o what_o be_v the_o root_n from_o whence_o these_o change_n grow_v they_o neither_o know_v nor_o understand_v nor_o can_v verify_v it_o by_o mean_n of_o book_n till_o they_o come_v to_o find_v it_o experimental_o in_o themselves_o in_o who_o furnace_n the_o true_a and_o actual_a light_n be_v make_v 59_o if_o the_o guide_n have_v not_o pass_v himself_o through_o the_o secret_a and_o painful_a way_n of_o the_o interior_a walk_n how_o can_v be_v comprehend_v or_o approve_v it_o it_o will_v be_v no_o small_a favour_n to_o the_o soul_n to_o find_v one_o only_o experience_a guide_n to_o strengthen_v it_o in_o insuperable_a difficulty_n and_o assure_v it_o in_o the_o continual_a doubt_n of_o this_o voyage_n otherwise_o he_o will_v never_o get_v to_o the_o holy_a and_o precious_a mount_n of_o perfection_n without_o a_o extraordinary_a and_o singular_a grace_n 60._o the_o spiritual_a director_n which_o live_v disinterest_v belong_v more_o for_o the_o internal_a solitude_n than_o the_o employment_n of_o soul_n and_o if_o any_o spiritual_a master_n be_v displease_v when_o a_o soul_n go_v from_o he_o and_o leave_v he_o for_o another_o guide_n it_o be_v a_o clear_a sign_n that_o he_o do_v not_o live_v disintere_v nor_o seek_v pure_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n but_o his_o own_o proper_a esteem_n 61._o the_o same_o loss_n and_o evil_n come_v when_o the_o director_n be_v secret_o diligent_a to_o draw_v some_o soul_n to_o his_o direction_n which_o go_v under_o the_o government_n of_o another_o guide_n this_o be_v a_o notable_a mischief_n for_o if_o he_o hold_v himself_o for_o a_o better_a director_n than_o tother_o he_o be_v proud_a and_o if_o he_o know_v himself_o to_o be_v a_o worse_o he_o be_v a_o traitor_n to_o god_n to_o that_o soul_n and_o to_o himself_o during_o the_o prejudice_n he_o do_v to_o the_o advantage_n and_o good_a of_o his_o neighbour_n 62._o in_o like_a manner_n there_o be_v another_o considerable_a hurt_n that_o discover_v itself_o in_o spiritual_a master_n which_o be_v that_o they_o do_v not_o suffer_v the_o soul_n guide_v by_o they_o to_o communicate_v with_o other_o though_o they_o be_v more_o holy_a learned_a and_o expert_a than_o themselves_o all_o this_o be_v interest_n self-love_n and_o esteem_v of_o themselves_o they_o do_v not_o permit_v soul_n thus_o to_o unburthen_v and_o vent_v themselves_o for_o fear_v they_o shall_v loose_v they_o and_o that_o it_o may_v not_o be_v say_v that_o their_o spiritual_a child_n seek_v that_o satisfaction_n in_o other_o which_o they_o can_v find_v in_o they_o and_o for_o the_o most_o part_n by_o these_o imperfect_a end_n they_o hinder_v soul_n from_o be_v advantage_v 63._o from_o all_o these_o and_o infinite_a other_o imputation_n the_o director_n be_v free_a that_o be_v once_o arrive_v at_o hear_v the_o inward_a voice_n of_o god_n by_o have_v pass_v through_o tribulation_n temptation_n and_o passive_a purgation_n because_o that_o interior_a voice_n of_o god_n work_v innumerable_a and_o marvellous_a effect_n in_o the_o soul_n which_o give_v place_n to_o it_o hearken_v to_o it_o and_o relish_v it_o 64._o it_o be_v of_o so_o great_a efficacy_n that_o it_o reject_v worldly_a honour_n self-conceit_n spiritual_a ambition_n the_o desire_n of_o fame_n a_o wish_n to_o be_v great_a a_o presumption_n of_o be_v the_o only_a man_n and_o think_v that_o he_o know_v all_o thnig_n it_o bid_v adieu_n to_o friend_n friendship_n visit_n letter_n of_o compliment_n commerce_n of_o the_o creature_n interest_n with_o spiritual_a child_n mastership_n and_o business_n it_o turn_v away_o too_o much_o inclination_n to_o confessorship_n the_o affection_n that_o be_v disorder_v in_o the_o government_n of_o soul_n that_o make_v a_o man_n think_v he_o be_v fit_v for_o it_o it_o remove_v self-love_n authority_n presumption_n treat_v of_o profit_n make_v a_o show_n of_o the_o letter_n which_o a_o man_n write_v show_v those_o write_v by_o his_o spiritual_a child_n to_o make_v know_v what_o a_o great_a workman_n he_o be_v it_o turn_v away_o the_o envy_n of_o other_o master_n and_o teacher_n and_o the_o procure_v more_o customer_n to_o his_o chair_n of_o confession_n 65._o last_o this_o interior_a voice_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n of_o the_o director_n beget_v a_o mean_a value_n and_o solitariness_n and_o silence_n and_o forgetfulness_n
his_o doctor_n 89._o we_o be_v all_o sick_a of_o the_o disease_n of_o self-love_n and_o our_o own_o judgement_n we_o be_v all_o full_a of_o ourselves_o we_o be_v always_o desire_v thing_n hurtful_a to_o we_o and_o that_o which_o do_v we_o good_a be_v unpleasant_a and_o irksome_a to_o we_o it_o be_v necessary_a therefore_o for_o he_o that_o be_v sick_a to_o use_v the_o mean_n of_o recovery_n which_o be_v not_o to_o believe_v our_o own_o judgement_n and_o distemper_a sentiment_n but_o the_o wise_a judgement_n of_o the_o spiritual_a and_o skilful_a physician_n without_o reply_n or_o excuse_v despise_v the_o seem_a reason_n of_o self-love_n and_o so_o if_o we_o obey_v we_o shall_v certain_o recover_v and_o this_o love_n of_o we_o which_o be_v the_o enemy_n of_o our_o ease_n and_o peace_n and_o perfection_n and_o the_o spirit_n will_v be_v overcome_v 90._o how_o often_o will_v thy_o own_o judgement_n deceive_v thou_o and_o how_o much_o will_v thou_o change_v thy_o judgement_n with_o shame_n when_o thou_o have_v trust_v to_o thy_o own_o self_n if_o any_o man_n shall_v deceive_v thou_o twice_o or_o thrice_o will_v thou_o ever_o trust_v he_o more_o why_o therefore_o do_v thou_o repose_v confidence_n in_o thy_o own_o judgement_n which_o have_v so_o often_o cozen_v thou_o o_o bless_a soul_n believe_v it_o no_o more_o believe_v it_o not_o subject_n thyself_o with_o true_a submission_n and_o follow_v blindfold_a this_o obedience_n 91._o thou_o will_v be_v much_o satisfy_v to_o have_v a_o experience_a guide_n and_o will_v esteem_v he_o a_o great_a happiness_n but_o it_o will_v little_o avail_v thou_o if_o thou_o value_v thy_o own_o judgement_n more_o than_o his_o counsel_n and_o do_v not_o submit_v to_o it_o in_o all_o truth_n and_o simplicity_n 92._o suppose_v a_o great_a man_n be_v sick_a of_o a_o dangerous_a disease_n he_o have_v in_o his_o house_n a_o famous_a and_o skilful_a physician_n and_o he_o quick_o know_v the_o disease_n the_o cause_n the_o condition_n and_o the_o state_n of_o it_o and_o know_v for_o certain_a that_o that_o distemper_n be_v to_o be_v treat_v with_o severe_a cautery_n he_o order_v lenitive_n for_o it_o now_o be_v not_o this_o a_o great_a disorder_n if_o he_o be_v sure_o that_o lenitive_n will_v do_v little_a good_a and_o that_o cauterize_n be_v the_o proper_a way_n why_o do_v he_o not_o apply_v it_o to_o he_o because_o although_o the_o sick_a person_n will_v have_v his_o health_n yet_o the_o physician_n know_v best_a and_o that_o he_o be_v not_o dispose_v to_o take_v those_o strong_a medicine_n and_o therefore_o like_o a_o wise_a man_n order_n he_o gentle_a lenitive_n because_o though_o he_o may_v not_o present_o get_v up_o again_o by_o they_o yet_o he_o keep_v the_o disease_n from_o be_v mortal_a 93._o what_o matter_n be_v it_o if_o you_o have_v the_o best_a director_n in_o the_o world_n if_o yet_o notwithstanding_o you_o want_v true_a submission_n although_o he_o be_v a_o man_n of_o skill_n and_o know_v the_o grievance_n and_o the_o remedy_n he_o do_v not_o apply_v the_o proper_a physic_n which_o concern_v you_o most_o to_o deny_v your_o will_n because_o he_o know_v your_o very_a heart_n and_o spirit_n that_o it_o be_v not_o dispose_v to_o let_v the_o infirmity_n of_o your_o own_o judgement_n be_v remove_v so_o you_o will_v never_o be_v cure_v and_o it_o will_v be_v a_o miracle_n if_o he_o can_v keep_v you_o in_o grace_n with_o so_o fierce_a a_o enemy_n of_o your_o soul_n about_o you_o 94._o thy_o director_n will_v scorn_v all_o manner_n of_o favour_n if_o he_o be_v a_o wise_a man_n as_o if_o thy_o spirit_n may_v not_o be_v well_o ground_v believe_v he_o obey_v he_o embrace_v his_o counsel_n because_o with_o this_o contempt_n if_o the_o spirit_n be_v feign_v and_o of_o the_o evil_a one_o the_o secret_a pride_n form_v by_o he_o that_o counterfeit_v these_o spirit_n will_v soon_o be_v know_v but_o if_o the_o spirit_n be_v real_a though_o thou_o find_v displeasure_n in_o this_o humiliation_n it_o will_v serve_v thou_o for_o a_o extraordinary_a good_a 95._o if_o the_o soul_n take_v delight_n in_o esteem_n and_o in_o have_v the_o favour_n which_o it_o receive_v from_o god_n make_v open_a and_o public_a if_o it_o do_v not_o obey_v and_o believe_v not_o its_o director_n which_o think_v mean_o of_o they_o it_o be_v all_o a_o lie_n and_o cheat_v and_o the_o devil_n be_v that_o angel_n that_o transform_v himself_o the_o soul_n see_v that_o the_o skilful_a director_n despise_v these_o cheat_n if_o the_o spirit_n be_v evil_a withdraw_v the_o feign_a affection_n which_o it_o show_v he_o and_o endeavour_n by_o little_a and_o little_a to_o get_v from_o he_o seek_v some_o other_o that_o its_o cheat_n may_v take_v with_o for_o the_o proud_a can_v never_o keep_v company_n with_o those_o that_o humble_v they_o but_o on_o other_o side_n if_o the_o spirit_n be_v true_a and_o of_o god_n by_o these_o mean_v the_o love_n and_o constancy_n increase_v by_o endure_v they_o desire_v much_o more_o its_o own_o contempt_n from_o whence_o the_o soundness_n and_o sincerity_n of_o the_o spirit_n become_v qualify_v without_o deceit_n chap._n xiii_o frequent_a communion_n be_v a_o effectual_a mean_n of_o get_v all_o virtue_n and_o in_o particular_a internal_a peace_n 96._o there_o be_v four_o thing_n the_o most_o necessary_a to_o get_v perfection_n and_o internal_a peace_n the_o first_o be_v prayer_n the_o second_o obedience_n the_o three_o frequent_a communion_n the_o four_o internal_a mortification_n and_o now_o since_o we_o have_v treat_v of_o prayer_n and_o obedience_n it_o will_v be_v fit_v to_o treat_v also_o of_o communion_n 97._o you_o ought_v to_o know_v that_o many_o soul_n there_o be_v that_o deprive_v themselves_o of_o the_o infinite_a benefit_n of_o this_o precious_a food_n by_o judge_v that_o they_o be_v not_o sufficient_o prepare_v and_o that_o no_o less_o than_o a_o angelical_a purity_n be_v necessary_a for_o it_o if_o thou_o have_v a_o pure_a end_n a_o true_a desire_n of_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n without_o look_v at_o sensible_a devotion_n or_o thy_o own_o satisfaction_n come_v with_o confidence_n because_o thou_o be_v well_o dispose_v 98._o on_o this_o rock_n of_o desire_v to_o do_v the_o divine_a will_n all_o difficulty_n must_v be_v break_v all_o scruple_n overcome_v all_o temptation_n doubt_n fear_n resistance_n and_o contradiction_n and_o although_o the_o best_a preparation_n for_o the_o soul_n be_v often_o communicate_v because_o one_o communion_n dispose_v it_o for_o another_o yet_o i_o will_v show_v the_o two_o way_n of_o preparation_n the_o first_o for_o the_o exterior_a soul_n which_o have_v good_a desire_n and_o will_n and_o the_o second_o for_o the_o spiritual_a one_o which_o live_v internal_o and_o have_v a_o great_a light_n and_o knowledge_n of_o god_n of_o his_o mystery_n of_o his_o operation_n and_o sacrament_n 99_o the_o preparation_n for_o the_o exterior_a soul_n be_v to_o be_v confess_v and_o retire_v from_o the_o creature_n before_o the_o communion_n to_o stand_v still_o and_o consider_v what_o be_v to_o be_v receive_v and_o who_o it_o be_v that_o receive_v it_o and_o that_o he_o go_v to_o do_v the_o great_a business_n in_o the_o world_n which_o be_v to_o receive_v the_o great_a god._n what_o a_o singular_a favour_n be_v that_o purity_n itself_o condescend_v to_o be_v receive_v by_o filth_n majesty_n by_o vileness_n the_o creator_n by_o the_o creature_n 100_o the_o second_o preparation_n in_o order_n to_o the_o interior_a and_o spiritual_a soul_n must_v be_v to_o endeavour_v to_o live_v with_o great_a purity_n and_o self-denial_n with_o a_o universal_a take_n one_o self_n off_o from_o the_o world_n with_o inward_a mortification_n and_o continual_a retirement_n and_o when_o they_o walk_v in_o this_o way_n they_o have_v no_o need_n of_o any_o actual_a preparation_n because_o their_o life_n be_v a_o continual_a and_o perfect_a preparation_n 101._o if_o thou_o do_v notknow_a these_o virtue_n in_o thy_o soul_n for_o the_o same_o reason_n thou_o must_v often_o draw_v near_o to_o this_o sovereign_a table_n to_o get_v get_v they_o never_o let_v it_o hinder_v thou_o to_o see_v thyself_o dry_a defective_a and_o cold_a because_o frequent_a communion_n be_v the_o physic_n that_o cure_v those_o disease_n and_o increase_v virtue_n for_o the_o same_o reason_n that_o thou_o be_v sick_a thou_o must_v go_v to_o the_o physician_n and_o that_o thou_o be_v cold_a to_o the_o fire_n 102._o if_o thou_o draw_v near_o with_o humility_n with_o a_o desire_n of_o do_v the_o divine_a will_n and_o with_o the_o leave_n of_o thy_o confessor_n thou_o may_v receive_v it_o every_o day_n and_o every_o day_n thou_o will_v grow_v better_a and_o better_o never_o be_v afraid_a for_o see_v thyself_o without_o that_o affectionate_a and_o sensible_a love_n which_o some_o man_n say_v be_v necessary_a because_o this_o sensible_a
be_v easy_a in_o the_o middle_n and_o become_v most_o sweet_a in_o the_o end_n 54._o thou_o will_v find_v thyself_o far_o from_o perfection_n if_o thou_o do_v not_o find_v god_n in_o every_o thing_n 55._o know_v that_o pure_a perfect_a and_o essential_a love_n consist_v in_o the_o cross_n in_o self-denial_n and_o resignation_n in_o perfect_a humility_n in_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n and_o in_o a_o mean_a opinion_n of_o thyself_o 56._o in_o the_o time_n of_o strong_a temptation_n desertion_n and_o desolation_n it_o be_v necessary_a for_o thou_o to_o get_v close_o into_o thy_o centre_n that_o thou_o may_v only_o look_v at_o and_o contemplate_v god_n who_o keep_v his_o throne_n and_o his_o abode_n in_o the_o bottom_n of_o thy_o soul._n 57_o thou_o will_v find_v impatience_n and_o bitterness_n of_o heart_n to_o grow_v from_o the_o depth_n of_o sensible_a empty_a and_o mortify_a love_n 58._o true_a love_n be_v know_v with_o its_o effect_n when_o the_o soul_n be_v profound_o humble_v and_o desire_n to_o be_v true_o mortify_v and_o despise_v 59_o many_o there_o be_v who_o however_o they_o have_v be_v dedicate_v to_o prayer_n yet_o have_v no_o relish_n of_o god_n because_o in_o the_o end_n of_o their_o prayer_n they_o be_v neither_o mortify_v nor_o attend_v upon_o god_n any_o long_o for_o obtain_v that_o peaceable_a and_o continual_a attend_v it_o be_v necessary_a to_o get_v a_o great_a purity_n of_o mind_n and_o heart_n great_a peace_n of_o soul_n and_o a_o universal_a resignation_n 60._o to_o the_o simple_a and_o the_o mortify_a the_o recreation_n of_o the_o sense_n be_v a_o sort_n of_o death_n they_o never_o go_v to_o it_o unless_o compel_v by_o necessity_n and_o edification_n of_o their_o neighbour_n 61._o the_o bottom_n of_o our_o soul_n you_o will_v know_v be_v the_o place_n of_o our_o happiness_n there_o the_o lord_n show_v we_o wonder_n there_o we_o ingulf_n and_o lose_v ourselves_o in_o the_o immense_a ocean_n of_o his_o infinite_a goodness_n in_o which_o we_o 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be_v few_o in_o the_o world_n who_o do_v total_o deny_v themselves_o to_o follow_v christ_n crucify_v with_o simpleness_n and_o bareness_n of_o spirit_n through_o the_o loansom_n and_o thorny_a way_n of_o the_o cross_n without_o make_v reflection_n upon_o themselves_o 63._o a_o life_n of_o self-denial_n be_v above_o all_o the_o miracle_n of_o the_o saint_n and_o it_o do_v not_o know_v whether_o it_o be_v alive_a or_o dead_a lose_v or_o gain_v whether_o it_o agree_v or_o resist_v this_o be_v the_o true_a resign_v life_n but_o although_o it_o shall_v be_v a_o long_a time_n before_o thou_o come_v to_o this_o state_n and_o thou_o shall_v think_v not_o to_o have_v make_v one_o step_n towards_o it_o yet_o affright_v not_o thyself_o at_o this_o for_o god_n use_v to_o bestow_v upon_o a_o soul_n that_o blessing_n in_o one_o moment_n which_o be_v deny_v it_o for_o many_o year_n before_o 64._o he_o that_o desire_v to_o suffer_v blindfold_a without_o the_o comfort_n of_o god_n or_o the_o creature_n be_v get_v too_o far_o onward_o to_o be_v able_a to_o resist_v unjust_a accusation_n which_o his_o enemy_n make_v against_o he_o even_o in_o the_o most_o dreadful_a and_o interior_a desolation_n 65._o the_o spiritual_a man_n that_o live_v by_o god_n and_o in_o he_o be_v inward_o content_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o his_o adversity_n because_o the_o cross_n and_o affliction_n be_v his_o life_n and_o delight_n 66._o tribulation_n be_v a_o great_a treasure_n wherewith_o god_n honour_v those_o that_o be_v he_o in_o this_o life_n therefore_o evil_a man_n be_v necessary_a for_o those_o that_o be_v good_a and_o so_o be_v the_o devil_n themselves_o which_o by_o afflict_v we_o do_v try_v to_o ruin_v we_o but_o instead_o of_o do_v we_o harm_n they_o do_v we_o the_o great_a good_a imaginable_a 67._o there_o must_v be_v tribulation_n to_o make_v a_o man_n life_n acceptable_a to_o god_n without_o it_o it_o be_v like_o the_o body_n without_o the_o soul_n the_o soul_n without_o grace_n the_o earth_n without_o the_o sun._n 68_o with_o the_o wind_n of_o tribulation_n god_n separate_v in_o the_o floor_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o chaff_n from_o the_o corn._n 69._o when_o god_n crucify_v in_o the_o inmost_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n no_o creature_n be_v able_a to_o comfort_v it_o nay_o comfort_n be_v but_o grievous_a and_o bitter_a cross_n to_o it_o and_o if_o it_o be_v well-instructed_n in_o the_o law_n and_o discipline_n of_o the_o way_n of_o pure_a love_n in_o the_o time_n of_o great_a desolation_n and_o inward_a trouble_n it_o ought_v not_o to_o seek_v abroad_o among_o the_o creature_n for_o comfort_n nor_o lament_v itself_o with_o they_o nor_o will_v it_o be_v able_a to_o read_v spiritual_a book_n because_o this_o be_v a_o secret_a way_n of_o get_v at_o a_o distance_n from_o suffering_n 70._o those_o soul_n be_v to_o be_v pity_v who_o can_v find_v in_o their_o heart_n to_o believe_v that_o tribulation_n and_o suffer_v be_v their_o great_a blessing_n they_o who_o be_v perfect_a aught_o always_o to_o be_v desirous_a of_o die_v and_o suffer_v be_v always_o in_o a_o state_n of_o death_n and_o suffering_n vain_a be_v the_o man_n who_o do_v not_o suffer_v because_o he_o be_v bear_v to_o toil_n and_o suffering_n but_o much_o more_o the_o friend_n and_o elect_a of_o god._n 71._o undeceive_v thyself_o and_o believe_v that_o in_o order_n to_o thy_o soul_n be_v be_v total_o transform_v with_o god_n it_o be_v necessary_a for_o it_o to_o be_v lose_v and_o be_v deny_v in_o its_o life_n sense_n knowledge_n and_o power_n and_o to_o die_v live_v and_o not_o live_v die_v and_o not_o die_v suffer_v and_o not_o suffer_v resign_v up_o and_o not_o resign_v up_o itself_o without_o reflect_v upon_o any_o thing_n 72._o perfection_n in_o its_o follower_n receive_v not_o its_o glory_n but_o by_o fire_n and_o martyrdom_n grief_n torment_n punishment_n and_o contempt_n suffer_v and_o endure_v with_o gallantry_n and_o courage_n and_o he_o that_o will_v have_v some_o place_n to_o set_v his_o foot_n on_o and_o rest_v himself_o and_o do_v not_o go_v beyond_o the_o reason_n of_o reason_n and_o of_o sense_n will_v never_o get_v into_o the_o secret_a cabiner_n of_o knowledge_n though_o by_o read_v he_o may_v chance_v to_o get_v a_o taste_n and_o relish_v the_o understanding_n of_o it_o chap._n viii_o pursue_v the_o same_o matter_n 73._o you_o must_v know_v that_o the_o lord_n will_v not_o manifest_v himself_o in_o thy_o soul_n till_o it_o be_v deny_v in_o itself_o and_o dead_a in_o its_o sense_n and_o power_n nor_o will_v it_o ever_o come_v to_o this_o state_n till_o be_v perfect_o resign_v it_o resolve_v to_o be_v with_o god_n all_o alone_a make_v a_o equal_a account_n of_o gift_n and_o contempt_n light_n and_o darkness_n peace_n and_o war._n in_o sum_n that_o the_o soul_n may_v arrive_v at_o perfect_a quietness_n and_o supreme_a internal_a peace_n it_o ought_v first_o to_o die_v in_o itself_o and_o live_v only_o in_o god_n and_o for_o he_o and_o the_o more_o dead_a it_o shall_v be_v in_o itself_o the_o more_o shall_v it_o know_v god_n but_o if_o it_o do_v not_o mind_n this_o continual_a deny_v of_o itself_o and_o internal_a mortification_n it_o will_v never_o arrive_v at_o this_o state_n nor_o preserve_v god_n within_o it_o and_o than_o it_o will_v be_v continual_o subject_a to_o accident_n and_o passion_n of_o the_o mind_n such_o as_o be_v judge_v murmur_a resent_v excuse_v defend_v to_o keep_v its_o honour_n and_o reputation_n which_o be_v enemy_n to_o perfection_n peace_n and_o the_o spirit_n 74._o know_v that_o the_o diversity_n of_o state_n among_o those_o that_o be_v spiritual_a consist_v only_o in_o die_v all_o alike_o but_o in_o the_o happy_a which_o die_v continual_o god_n have_v his_o honour_n his_o blessing_n and_o delight_n here_o below_o 75._o great_a be_v the_o
he_o at_o least_o in_o a_o find_a intention_n who_o therefore_o will_v be_v angry_a with_o a_o man_n of_o good_a intention_n 116._o so_o much_o nay_o more_o do_v false_a humility_n displease_v god_n as_o true_a pride_n do_v because_o that_o be_v hypocrisy_n beside_o 117._o the_o true_o humble_a man_n though_o every_o thing_n fall_v out_o contrary_a to_o he_o be_v neither_o disquiet_v nor_o afflict_v at_o it_o because_o he_o be_v prepare_v and_o think_v he_o deserve_v no_o less_o he_o be_v not_o disquiet_v under_o troublesome_a thought_n wherewith_o the_o devil_n seek_v to_o torment_v he_o nor_o under_o temptation_n tribulation_n and_o desertion_n but_o rather_o acknowledge_v his_o unworthiness_n and_o be_v affect_v that_o the_o lord_n chastise_v he_o by_o the_o devil_n mean_n though_o he_o be_v a_o vile_a instrument_n all_o he_o suffer_v seem_v nothing_o to_o he_o and_o he_o never_o do_v a_o thing_n that_o he_o think_v worth_a any_o great_a matter_n 118._o he_o that_o be_v arrive_v at_o perfect_a and_o inward_a humility_n although_o he_o be_v disturb_v at_o nothing_o as_o one_o that_o abhor_v himself_o because_o he_o know_v his_o imperfection_n in_o every_o thing_n his_o ingratitude_n and_o his_o misery_n yet_o he_o suffer_v a_o great_a cross_n in_o endure_v himself_o this_o be_v the_o sign_n to_o know_v true_a humility_n of_o heart_n by_o but_o the_o happy_a soul_n which_o be_v get_v to_o this_o holy_a hatred_n of_o itself_o live_v overwhelm_v drown_v and_o swallow_v up_o in_o the_o depth_n of_o its_o own_o nothing_o out_o of_o which_o the_o lord_n raise_v he_o by_o communicate_v divine_a wisdom_n to_o he_o and_o fill_v he_o with_o light_n peace_n tranquillity_n and_o love._n chap._n xii_o inward_a solitude_n be_v that_o which_o chief_o bring_v a_o man_n to_o the_o purchase_n of_o internal_a peace_n 119._o know_v that_o although_o exterior_a solitude_n do_v much_o assist_v for_o the_o obtain_n internal_a peace_n yet_o the_o lord_n do_v not_o mean_v this_o when_o he_o speak_v by_o his_o prophet_n hos_fw-la 2.14_o i_o will_v bring_v she_o into_o solitude_n and_o speak_v private_o to_o she_o but_o he_o mean_v the_o interior_a solitude_n which_o joint_o conduce_v to_o the_o obtain_v the_o precious_a jewel_n of_o peace_n internal_a internal_a solitude_n consist_v in_o the_o forget_v all_o the_o creature_n in_o disengage_v one_o self_n from_o they_o in_o a_o perfect_a nakedness_n of_o all_o the_o affection_n desire_n thought_n and_o one_o own_o will._n this_o be_v the_o true_a solitude_n where_o the_o soul_n repose_v with_o a_o sweet_a and_o inward_a serenity_n in_o the_o arm_n of_o its_o chief_a good_a 120._o o_o what_o infinite_a room_n be_v there_o in_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v arrive_v at_o this_o divine_a solitude_n o_o what_o inward_a what_o retire_v what_o secret_a what_o spacious_a what_o vast_a distance_n be_v there_o within_o a_o happy_a soul_n that_o be_v once_o come_v to_o be_v true_o solitary_a there_o the_o lord_n converse_v and_o communicate_v himself_o inward_o with_o the_o soul_n there_o he_o fill_v it_o with_o himself_o because_o it_o be_v empty_a clothes_n it_o with_o light_n and_o with_o his_o love_n because_o it_o be_v naked_a lift_v it_o up_o because_o it_o be_v low_a and_o unite_v it_o with_o himself_o and_o transform_v it_o because_o it_o be_v alone_o 121._o o_o delightful_a solitude_n and_o cifer_n of_o eternal_a blessing_n o_o mirror_n in_o which_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v always_o behold_v there_o be_v great_a reason_n to_o call_v thou_o solitude_n for_o thou_o be_v so_o much_o alone_o that_o there_o be_v scarce_o a_o soul_n that_o look_v after_o thou_o that_o love_v and_o know_v thou_o o_o divine_a lord_n how_o be_v it_o that_o soul_n do_v not_o go_v from_o earth_n to_o this_o glory_n how_o come_v they_o to_o lose_v so_o great_a a_o good_a through_o the_o only_a love_n and_o desire_v of_o create_a thing_n bless_a soul_n how_o happy_a will_v thou_o be_v if_o thou_o do_v but_o leave_v all_o for_o god_n seek_v he_o only_o breathe_v after_o none_o but_o he_o let_v he_o only_o have_v thy_o sigh_n desire_v nothing_o and_o then_o nothing_o can_v trouble_v thou_o and_o if_o thou_o do_v desire_v any_o good_a how_o spiritual_a soever_o it_o be_v let_v it_o be_v in_o such_o a_o manner_n that_o thou_o may_v not_o be_v disquiet_v if_o thou_o misse_v it_o 122._o if_o with_o this_o liberty_n thou_o will_v give_v thy_o soul_n to_o god_n take_v off_o from_o the_o world_n free_a and_o alone_o thou_o will_v be_v the_o happy_a creature_n upon_o earth_n because_o the_o most_o high_a have_v his_o secret_a habitation_n in_o this_o holy_a solitude_n in_o this_o desert_n and_o paradise_n be_v enjoy_v the_o conversation_n of_o god_n and_o it_o be_v only_o in_o this_o internal_a retirement_n that_o that_o marvellous_a powerful_a and_o divine_a voice_n be_v hear_v 123._o if_o thou_o will_v enter_v into_o this_o heaven_n of_o earth_n forget_v every_o care_n and_o every_o thought_n get_v out_o of_o thyself_o that_o the_o love_n of_o god_n may_v live_v in_o thy_o soul._n 124._o live_v as_o much_o as_o ever_o thou_o can_v abstract_a from_o the_o creature_n dedicate_v thyself_o whole_o to_o thy_o creator_n and_o offer_v thyself_o in_o sacrifice_n with_o peace_n and_o quietness_n of_o spirit_n know_v that_o the_o more_o the_o soul_n disrobe_v itself_o the_o more_o way_n it_o make_v into_o this_o interior_a solitude_n and_o become_v clothe_v with_o god_n and_o the_o more_o lonesome_a and_o empty_a of_o itself_o the_o soul_n get_v to_o be_v the_o more_o the_o divine_a spirit_n fill_v it_o 125._o there_o be_v not_o a_o more_o bessed_a life_n than_o a_o solitary_a one_o because_o in_o this_o happy_a life_n god_n give_v himself_o all_o to_o the_o creature_n and_o the_o creature_n all_o to_o god_n by_o a_o intimate_a and_o sweet_a union_n of_o love_n o_o how_o few_o be_v there_o that_o come_v to_o relish_v this_o true_a solitude_n 126._o to_o make_v the_o soul_n true_o solitary_a it_o ought_v to_o forget_v all_o the_o creature_n and_o even_o itself_o otherwise_o it_o will_v never_o be_v able_a to_o make_v any_o near_a approach_n to_o god._n many_o man_n leave_v and_o forsake_v all_o thing_n but_o they_o do_v not_o leave_v their_o own_o like_n their_o own_o will_n and_o themselves_o and_o therefore_o these_o true_o solitary_a one_o be_v so_o few_o wherefore_o if_o the_o soul_n do_v not_o get_v off_o from_o its_o own_o appetite_n and_o desire_n from_o its_o own_o will_n from_o spiritual_a gift_n and_o from_o repose_n even_o in_o the_o spirit_n itself_o it_o never_o can_v arrive_v at_o this_o high_a felicity_n of_o internal_a solitude_n 127._o go_v on_o bless_a soul_n go_v on_o without_o stop_n towards_o this_o blessedness_n of_o internal_a solitude_n see_v how_o god_n call_v thou_o to_o enter_v into_o thy_o inward_a centre_n where_o he_o will_v renew_v thou_o change_v thou_o fill_v thou_o clothe_v thou_o and_o show_v thou_o a_o new_a and_o heavenly_a kingdom_n full_a of_o joy_n peace_n content_a and_o serenity_n chap._n xiii_o in_o which_o be_v show_v what_o infuse_v and_o passive_a contemplation_n be_v and_o its_o wonderful_a effect_n 128._o you_o must_v know_v that_o when_o once_o the_o soul_n be_v habituate_v to_o internal_a recollection_n and_o acquire_v contemplation_n that_o we_o have_v speak_v of_o when_o once_o it_o be_v mortify_v and_o desire_v whole_o to_o be_v deny_v its_o appetite_n when_o once_o it_o efficacious_o embrace_v internal_a and_o external_a mortification_n and_o be_v willing_a to_o die_v hearty_o to_o its_o passion_n and_o its_o own_o way_n than_o god_n use_v to_o take_v it_o alone_o by_o itself_o and_o raise_v it_o more_o than_o it_o know_v to_o a_o complete_a repose_n where_o he_o sweet_o and_o inward_o infuse_v in_o it_o his_o light_n his_o love_n and_o his_o strength_n enkindle_n and_o inflame_v it_o with_o a_o true_a disposition_n to_o all_o manner_n of_o virtue_n 129._o there_o the_o divine_a spouse_n suspend_v its_o power_n put_v it_o to_o sleep_v in_o a_o most_o sweet_a and_o pleasant_a rest_n there_o it_o sleep_v and_o quiet_o receive_v and_o enjoy_v without_o know_v it_o what_o it_o enjoy_v with_o a_o most_o lovely_a and_o charm_a calm_n there_o the_o soul_n raise_v and_o lift_v up_o to_o this_o passive_a state_n become_v unite_v to_o its_o great_a good_a without_o cost_v it_o any_o trouble_n or_o pain_n for_o this_o union_n there_o in_o that_o supreme_a region_n and_o sacred_a temple_n of_o the_o soul_n that_o great_a good_a take_v its_o complacency_n manifest_v itself_o and_o create_v a_o relish_n from_o the_o creature_n in_o a_o way_n above_o sense_n and_o all_o humane_a understanding_n there_o also_o only_o the_o pure_a spirit_n who_o be_v god_n the_o purity_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v uncapable_a of_o sensible_a thing_n rule_v it_o and_o get_v the_o mastership_n
what_o it_o do_v know_v although_o it_o understand_v it_o all_o in_o a_o word_n the_o man_n who_o be_v scientifical_a entertain_v themselves_o in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o thing_n of_o the_o world_n and_o the_o wise_a live_v swallow_v up_o in_o god_n himself_o 161._o reason_n enlighten_v in_o the_o wise_a be_v a_o high_a and_o simple_a elevation_n of_o spirit_n whereby_o he_o see_v with_o a_o clear_a and_o sharp_a sight_n all_o that_o be_v inferior_a to_o he_o and_o what_o concern_v his_o life_n and_o estate_n this_o be_v that_o which_o render_v the_o soul_n simple_a illustrate_v uniform_a spiritual_a and_o altother_n introvert_v and_o abstract_v from_o every_o create_a thing_n this_o move_v and_o draw_v away_o with_o a_o sweet_a violence_n the_o heart_n of_o the_o humble_a and_o teachable_a fill_v they_o with_o abundance_n of_o sweetness_n peace_n and_o pleasantness_n final_o the_o wise_a man_n say_v of_o it_o that_o it_o bring_v he_o all_o good_a thing_n at_o once_o venerunt_fw-la mihi_fw-la omne_fw-la bona_fw-la pariter_fw-la cum_fw-la illa_fw-la wisd_v 7.11_o 162._o you_o must_v know_v that_o the_o great_a part_n of_o man_n live_v by_o opinion_n and_o judge_n according_a to_o the_o deceivableness_n of_o imagination_n and_o sense_n but_o the_o man_n that_o be_v wise_a judge_n of_o every_o thing_n according_a to_o the_o real_a verity_n which_o be_v in_o it_o who_o business_n be_v to_o understand_v conceive_v penetrate_v into_o and_o transcend_v every_o create_v be_v even_o to_o himself_o 163._o it_o be_v a_o great_a property_n of_o a_o wise_a man_n to_o do_v much_o and_o say_v little_a 164._o wisdom_n be_v discover_v in_o the_o work_n and_o word_n of_o the_o wise_a because_o he_o be_v absolute_a master_n of_o all_o his_o passion_n motion_n and_o affection_n be_v know_v in_o all_o his_o do_n like_o a_o quiet_a and_o still_a water_n in_o which_o wisdom_n shine_v with_o clearness_n 165._o the_o understanding_n of_o mystical_a truth_n be_v secret_a and_o shut_v up_o from_o man_n who_o be_v pure_o scholastical_a unless_o they_o be_v humble_a because_o it_o be_v the_o science_n of_o saint_n and_o none_o know_v it_o but_o those_o which_o hearty_o love_v and_o seek_v their_o own_o contempt_n therefore_o the_o soul_n who_o by_o embrace_v this_o mean_n get_v to_o be_v pure_o mystical_a and_o true_o humble_a dive_v even_o to_o the_o profound_a apprehension_n of_o the_o divinity_n and_o the_o more_o sensual_o man_n do_v live_v according_a to_o flesh_n and_o blood_n the_o great_a distance_n be_v they_o at_o from_o this_o mystical_a science_n 166._o ordinary_o it_o be_v see_v that_o in_o the_o man_n which_o have_v much_o scholastical_a and_o speculative_a knowledge_n divine_a wisdom_n do_v not_o predominate_a yet_o they_o make_v a_o admirable_a composition_n when_o they_o both_o meet_v together_o the_o man_n of_o learning_n who_o by_o god_n mercy_n have_v attain_v to_o this_o mystic_a science_n be_v worthy_a of_o veneration_n and_o praise_n in_o religion_n 167._o the_o external_a action_n of_o the_o mystical_a and_o wise_a which_o they_o do_v rather_o passive_o than_o active_o though_o they_o be_v a_o great_a torment_n to_o they_o yet_o be_v order_v prudent_o by_o they_o by_o number_n weight_n and_o measure_n 168._o the_o sermon_n of_o man_n of_o learning_n who_o want_v the_o spirit_n though_o they_o be_v make_v up_o of_o divers_a story_n elegant_a description_n acute_a discourse_n and_o exquisite_a proof_n yet_o be_v by_o no_o mean_n the_o word_n of_o god_n but_o the_o word_n of_o man_n plate_v over_o with_o false_a gold_n these_o preacher_n spoil_v christian_n feed_v they_o with_o wind_n and_o vanity_n and_o so_o they_o be_v both_o of_o they_o void_a of_o god._n 169._o these_o teacher_n feed_v their_o hearer_n with_o the_o wind_n of_o hurtful_a subtlety_n give_v they_o stone_n instead_o of_o bread_n leave_v instead_o of_o fruit_n and_o unsavoury_a earth_n mix_v with_o poison_a honey_n instead_o of_o true_a food_n these_o be_v they_o that_o hunt_v after_o honour_n raise_v up_o a_o idol_n of_o reputation_n and_o applause_n instead_o of_o seek_v god_n glory_n and_o the_o spiritual_a edification_n of_o man_n 170._o those_o that_o preach_v with_o zeal_n and_o sincerity_n preach_v for_o god._n those_o that_o preach_v without_o they_o preach_v for_o themselves_o those_o that_o preach_v the_o word_n of_o god_n with_o spirit_n make_v it_o take_v impression_n in_o the_o heart_n but_o those_o that_o preach_v it_o without_o spirit_n carry_v it_o no_o far_o than_o to_o the_o ear_n 171._o perfection_n do_v not_o consist_v in_o teach_v it_o but_o in_o do_v it_o because_o he_o be_v neither_o the_o great_a saint_n nor_o the_o wise_a man_n that_o know_v the_o truth_n most_o but_o he_o that_o practise_v it_o 172._o it_o be_v a_o constant_a maxim_n that_o divine_a wisdom_n beget_v humility_n and_o that_o which_o be_v acquire_v by_o the_o learned_a beget_v pride_n 173._o holiness_n do_v not_o consist_v in_o form_v deep_a and_o subtle_a conceit_n of_o the_o knowledge_n and_o attribute_n of_o god_n but_o in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o in_o self-denial_n therefore_o it_o be_v frequently_o observe_v that_o holiness_n be_v more_o among_o the_o simple_a and_o humble_a than_o among_o the_o learned_a how_o many_o poor_a old_a woman_n be_v there_o in_o the_o world_n which_o have_v little_a or_o nothing_o of_o humane_a science_n but_o be_v rich_a in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n how_o many_o divine_n do_v we_o see_v that_o be_v over_o head_n and_o ear_n in_o their_o vain_a wisdom_n and_o yet_o very_o bare_a in_o thing_n of_o true_a light_n and_o charity_n 174._o remember_v that_o it_o be_v always_o good_a to_o speak_v like_o one_o that_o learn_v and_o not_o like_o one_o that_o know_v count_v it_o a_o great_a honour_n to_o be_v repute_v a_o mere_a ignoramus_n than_o a_o man_n of_o wisdom_n and_o prudence_n 175._o however_o the_o learned_a who_o be_v pure_o speculative_a have_v some_o little_a spark_n of_o spirit_n yet_o these_o do_v not_o fly_v out_o from_o the_o simple_a bottom_n of_o eminent_a and_o divine_a wisdom_n which_o have_v a_o mortal_a hatred_n to_o form_n and_o species_n the_o mix_v of_o a_o little_a science_n be_v always_o a_o hindrance_n to_o the_o eternal_a profound_a pure_a simple_a and_o true_a wisdom_n chap._n xviii_o treat_v of_o the_o same_o 176._o there_o be_v two_o way_n which_o lead_v to_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god._n the_o one_o remote_a the_o other_o near_o the_o first_o be_v call_v speculation_n the_o second_o contemplation_n the_o learned_a who_o follow_v scientifical_a speculation_n by_o the_o sweetness_n of_o sensible_a discourse_n get_v up_o to_o god_n by_o this_o mean_n as_o well_o as_o they_o can_v that_o by_o this_o help_n they_o may_v be_v able_a to_o love_v he_o but_o none_o of_o those_o who_o follow_v that_o way_n which_o they_o call_v scolastical_a ever_o arrive_v by_o that_o only_a to_o the_o mystical_a way_n or_o to_o the_o excellence_n of_o union_n transformation_n simplicity_n light_n peace_n tranquillity_n and_o love_n as_o he_o do_v who_o be_v bring_v by_o the_o divine_a grace_n by_o the_o mystical_a way_n of_o contemplation_n 177._o these_o man_n of_o learning_n who_o be_v mere_o scolastical_a dont_fw-fr know_v what_o the_o spirit_n be_v nor_o what_o it_o be_v to_o be_v lose_v in_o god_n nor_o be_v they_o come_v yet_o to_o the_o taste_n of_o the_o sweet_a ambrosia_n which_o be_v in_o the_o inmost_a depth_n and_o bottom_n of_o the_o soul_n where_o it_o keep_v its_o throne_n and_o communicate_v itself_o with_o incredible_a intimate_a and_o delicious_a affluence_n nay_o some_o there_o be_v which_o do_v even_o condemn_v this_o mystical_a science_n because_o they_o neither_o do_v understand_v nor_o relish_v it_o 178._o the_o divine_a who_o do_v not_o taste_v the_o sweetness_n of_o contemplation_n have_v no_o other_o reason_n to_o be_v give_v for_o it_o but_o because_o he_o enter_v not_o by_o the_o gate_n which_o st_n paul_n point_v to_o when_o he_o say_v siquis_fw-la inter_fw-la ve_z videtur_fw-la sapiens_fw-la esse_fw-la stultus_fw-la fiat_fw-la ut_fw-la sit_fw-la sapiens_fw-la 1_o cor._n 3.18_o if_o any_o one_o among_o you_o seem_v to_o himself_o to_o be_v wise_a let_v he_o become_v a_o fool_n that_o he_o may_v be_v wise_a let_v he_o show_v his_o humility_n by_o repute_v himself_o ignorant_a 179._o it_o be_v a_o general_a rule_n and_o also_o a_o maxim_n in_o mystic_a theology_n that_o the_o practice_n ought_v to_o be_v get_v before_o the_o theory_n that_o there_o ought_v to_o be_v some_o experimental_a exercise_n of_o supernatural_a contemplation_n before_o the_o search_n of_o the_o knowledge_n and_o a_o inquiry_n after_o the_o full_a apprehension_n of_o it_o 180._o although_o the_o mystical_a science_n do_v common_o belong_v to_o the_o humble_a and_o simple_a yet_o notwithstanding_o that_o man_n of_o learning_n be_v not_o uncapable_a of_o it_o if_o they_o
nakedness_n find_v in_o its_o superior_a part_n a_o profound_a peace_n and_o a_o sweet_a rest_n which_o bring_v it_o to_o such_o a_o perfect_a union_n of_o love_n that_o it_o be_v joyful_a all_o over_o and_o such_o a_o soul_n as_o this_o be_v already_o arrive_v to_o such_o a_o happiness_n that_o it_o neither_o will_n nor_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o what_o its_o belove_a will_n it_o conform_v itself_o to_o this_o will_n in_o all_o emergency_n as_o well_o of_o comfort_n as_o anguish_n and_o rejoice_v also_o in_o every_o thing_n to_o do_v the_o divine_a good_a pleasure_n 207._o there_o be_v nothing_o but_o what_o comfort_v it_o nor_o do_v it_o want_v any_o thing_n but_o what_o it_o can_v well_o want_v to_o die_v be_v enjoyment_n to_o it_o and_o to_o live_v be_v its_o joy_n it_o be_v as_o content_v here_o upon_o earth_n as_o it_o can_v be_v in_o paradise_n it_o be_v as_o glad_a under_o privation_n as_o it_o can_v be_v in_o possession_n in_o sickness_n as_o it_o can_v be_v in_o health_n because_o it_o know_v that_o this_o be_v the_o will_n of_o its_o lord_n this_o be_v its_o life_n this_o its_o glory_n its_o paradise_n its_o peace_n its_o repose_n its_o rest_n its_o consolation_n and_o high_a happiness_n 208._o if_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o such_o a_o soul_n as_o this_o which_o be_v get_v up_o by_o the_o step_n of_o annihilation_n to_o the_o region_n of_o peace_n to_o make_v its_o choice_n it_o will_v choose_v desolation_n before_o comfort_n contempt_n before_o honour_n because_o the_o love_a jesus_n make_v great_a esteem_n of_o reproach_n and_o pain_n if_o it_o first_o endure_v the_o hunger_n of_o the_o blessing_n of_o heaven_n if_o it_o thirst_v for_o god_n if_o it_o have_v the_o fear_n of_o lose_v he_o the_o lamentation_n of_o heart_n and_o the_o fight_n of_o the_o devil_n now_o thing_n be_v alter_v and_o hunger_n be_v turn_v into_o satisfy_v the_o thirst_n into_o satiety_n the_o fear_n into_o assurance_n the_o sadness_n into_o joy_n the_o weep_a into_o merriment_n and_o the_o fierce_a fight_v into_o the_o great_a peace_n o_o happy_a soul_n that_o enjoy_v here_o on_o earth_n so_o great_a a_o felicity_n thou_o must_v know_v that_o these_o kind_n of_o soul_n though_o few_o they_o be_v be_v the_o strong_a pillar_n which_o support_v the_o church_n and_o such_o as_o abate_v the_o divine_a indignation_n 209._o and_o now_o this_o soul_n that_o be_v enter_v into_o the_o heaven_n of_o peace_n acknowledge_v itself_o full_a of_o god_n and_o his_o supernatural_a gift_n because_o it_o live_v ground_v in_o a_o pure_a love_n receive_v equal_a pleasure_n in_o light_n and_o darkness_n in_o night_n and_o day_n in_o affliction_n and_o consolation_n through_o this_o holy_a and_o heavenly_a indifference_n it_o never_o lose_v its_o peace_n in_o adversity_n nor_o its_o tranquillity_n in_o tribulation_n but_o see_v itself_o full_a of_o unspeakable_a enjoyment_n 210._o and_o although_o the_o prince_n of_o darkness_n make_v all_o the_o assault_n of_o hell_n against_o it_o with_o horrible_a temptation_n yet_o it_o make_v head_n against_o they_o and_o stand_v like_o a_o strong_a pillar_n no_o more_o happen_v to_o it_o by_o they_o than_o happen_v to_o a_o high_a mountain_n and_o a_o deep_a valley_n in_o the_o time_n of_o storm_n and_o tempest_n 211._o the_o valley_n be_v darken_v with_o thick_a cloud_n fierce_a tempest_n of_o hail_n thunder_n lightning_n and_o hailstone_n which_o look_v like_o the_o picture_n of_o hell_n at_o the_o same_o time_n the_o lofty_a mountain_n glitter_v by_o the_o bright_a beam_n of_o the_o sun_n in_o quietness_n and_o serenity_n continue_v clear_a like_a heaven_n immovable_a and_o full_a of_o light_n 212._o the_o same_o happen_v to_o this_o bless_a soul_n the_o valley_n of_o the_o part_n below_o be_v suffer_v tribulation_n combat_n darkness_n desolation_n torment_n martyrdom_n and_o suggestion_n and_o at_o the_o same_o time_n on_o the_o lofty_a mountain_n of_o the_o high_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o true_a sun_n cast_v its_o beam_n it_o inflame_v and_o enlighten_v it_o and_o so_o it_o become_v clear_a peaceable_a resplendent_a quiet_a serene_a be_v a_o mere_a ocean_n of_o joy_n 213._o so_o great_a therefore_o be_v the_o quiet_a of_o this_o pure_a foul_a which_o be_v get_v up_o the_o mountain_n of_o tranquillity_n so_o great_a be_v the_o peace_n of_o its_o spirit_n so_o great_a the_o serenity_n and_o cheerfulness_n that_o be_v within_o that_o a_o remnant_n and_o glimmer_n of_o god_n do_v redound_v even_o to_o the_o outside_n of_o it_o 214._o because_o in_o the_o throne_n of_o quiet_a be_v manifest_v the_o perfection_n of_o spiritual_a beauty_n here_o the_o true_a light_n of_o the_o secret_a and_o divine_a mystery_n of_o our_o holy_a faith_n here_o perfect_a humility_n even_o to_o the_o annihilation_n of_o itself_o the_o ample_a resignation_n chastity_n poverty_n of_o spirit_n the_o sincerity_n and_o innocence_n of_o the_o dove_n external_a modesty_n silence_n and_o internal_a solitude_n liberty_n and_o purity_n of_o heart_n here_o the_o forgetfulness_n of_o every_o create_a thing_n even_o of_o itself_o joyful_a simplicity_n heavenly_a indifference_n continual_a prayer_n a_o total_a nakedness_n perfect_a disinterestedness_n a_o most_o wise_a contemplation_n a_o conversation_n of_o heaven_n and_o last_o the_o most_o perfect_a and_o serene_a peace_n within_o of_o which_o this_o happy_a soul_n may_v say_v what_o the_o wise_a man_n say_v of_o wisdom_n that_o all_o other_o grace_n come_v along_o in_o company_n with_o she_o venerunt_fw-la mihi_fw-la omne_fw-la bona_fw-la paritur_fw-la cum_fw-la illa_fw-la wisd_v 7.11_o 215._o this_o be_v the_o rich_a and_o hide_a treasure_n this_o the_o lose_a groat_n of_o the_o gospel_n this_o be_v the_o bless_a life_n the_o happy_a life_n the_o true_a life_n and_o the_o blessedness_n here_o below_o o_o thou_o lovely_a greatness_n that_o pass_v the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o son_n of_o man_n o_o excellent_a supernatural_a life_n how_o admirable_a and_o unspeakable_a be_v thou_o for_o thou_o be_v the_o very_a draught_n of_o blessedness_n o_o how_o much_o do_v thou_o raise_v a_o soul_n from_o earth_n which_o lose_v in_o its_o view_n all_o thing_n of_o the_o vileness_n of_o earth_n thou_o be_v poor_a to_o look_v upon_o but_o inward_o thou_o be_v full_a of_o wealth_n thou_o seem_v low_a but_o art_n exceed_v high_a in_o a_o word_n thou_o be_v that_o which_o make_v man_n live_v a_o life_n divine_a here_o below_o give_v i_o o_o lord_n thou_o great_a goodness_n give_v i_o a_o good_a portion_n of_o this_o heavenly_a happiness_n and_o true_a peace_n that_o the_o world_n sensual_a as_o it_o be_v be_v neither_o capable_a of_o understanding_n nor_o receive_v quem_fw-la mundus_fw-la non_fw-la potest_fw-la accipere_fw-la chap._n xxii_o a_o mournful_a exclamation_n and_o lamentable_a moan_n to_o god_n for_o the_o small_a company_n of_o soul_n that_o arrive_v at_o perfection_n the_o love_a union_n and_o the_o divine_a transformation_n 216._o o_o divine_a majesty_n in_o who_o presence_n the_o pillar_n of_o heaven_n do_v quake_v and_o tremble_v o_o thou_o goodness_n more_o than_o infinite_a in_o who_o love_n the_o seraphin_n burn_v give_v i_o leave_v o_o lord_n to_o lament_v our_o blindness_n and_o ingratitude_n we_o all_o live_v in_o mistake_n seek_v the_o foolish_a world_n and_o forsake_v thou_o who_o be_v our_o god._n we_o all_o forsake_v thou_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_v water_n for_o the_o stink_a dirt_n of_o the_o world_n 217._o o_o we_o child_n of_o man_n how_o long_o shall_v we_o follow_v after_o lie_v and_o vanity_n who_o be_v it_o that_o have_v thus_o deceive_v we_o that_o we_o shall_v forsake_v god_n our_o great_a good_n who_o be_v it_o that_o speak_v the_o most_o truth_n to_o we_o who_o be_v it_o that_o love_v we_o most_o who_o defend_v we_o most_o who_o be_v it_o that_o do_v more_o to_o show_v himself_o a_o friend_n who_o more_o tender_a to_o show_v himself_o a_o spouse_n and_o more_o good_a to_o be_v a_o father_n that_o our_o blindness_n shall_v be_v so_o great_a that_o we_o shall_v all_o forsake_v this_o great_a and_o infinite_a goodness_n 218._o o_o divine_a lord_n what_o a_o few_o soul_n be_v there_o in_o the_o world_n which_o do_v serve_v thou_o with_o perfection_n how_o small_a be_v the_o number_n of_o those_o who_o be_v willing_a to_o suffer_v that_o they_o may_v follow_v christ_n crucify_v that_o they_o may_v embrace_v the_o cross_n that_o they_o may_v deny_v and_o contemn_v themselves_o o_o what_o a_o scarcity_n of_o soul_n be_v there_o which_o be_v disintere_v and_o total_o naked_a how_o few_o be_v those_o soul_n which_o be_v dead_a to_o themselves_o and_o alive_a to_o god_n which_o be_v total_o resign_v to_o his_o divine_a good_a pleasure_n how_o few_o those_o who_o be_v adorn_v with_o simple_a obedience_n profound_a knowledge_n of_o themselves_o and_o true_a humility_n how_o few_o those_o