should make choice of such a poor Creature as I am to be employed in his Work I must further say that the Lord hath made crooked things straight and rough wayes plain and hard and difficult things easie to me through the Free and Rich Love of Christ Oh he hâ—th made death nothing unto me now but yet I have no strength of my own no my strength lies in my weaknesse and it is Christ alone that can renew my strength which he doth daily by setting upon my heart these following Scriptures which have been a constant relief to me The Lord is my Light and Salvation whom shall I fear The Lord is the Rock of my life of whom should I be afraid Psal. 28.14 Wait on the Lord be of good courage and he shall strengthen thy Heart wait I say on the Lord. Psalm 33.11 The Counsel of the Lord stands for ever and the thoughts of his Heart to all Generations Blessed be the Soul that hath the Lord for its inheritance Psalm 138. vers 8. The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me the Mercies of the Lord endureth for ever forsake not the works of thine own hands Prov. 16. vers 9. A mans heart deviseth his way but the Lord directeth his steps in the day when I cryed thou answeredst me and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul commit thy wayes to the Lord and thy thoughts shall be established Prov. 28. vers 28. When the wicked arise men hide themselves but when they perish the Righteous increase But now thus saith the Lord that created thee O Jacob and he that formed thee O Israel fear not I am he that blotteth out thy Transgressions for my own sake and will not remember thy sins Esaiah 63. vers 9. In all their afflictions he was afflicted and the Angel of his presence saved them in his love and in his pitty he redeemed them and he bare them and carried them all the dayes of old Lam. 3. vers 24. and 2.5.2.6 37. vers 38. The Lord is my portion saith my soul therefore will I hope in him The Lord is good unto them that wait for him to the souls that seeketh him it is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the Salvation of the Lord. Who is he that saith it cometh to passe when the Lord commandeth it not out of the mouth of the most High proceedeth not evil and good Psal. 34.9 Oh fear the Lord ye his Saints for there is no want to them that fear him Psal. 11.22 Though hand joyne in hand the wicked shall not be unpunished but the seed of the Righteous shall be delivered Some Experimental Passages in Discourse with a Friend A Friend coming to him the week of his Tryal and Suffering did partake of many choice breathings from him some of them which he could call to mind are here faithfully collected We are to esteem Sufferings the better when they are in the Wayes of God and we must not esteem the Wayes of God the worse because they are accompanied with Sufferings in this world A Believing Souls Sufferings for Christ do confirm him the more in the wayes of Christ. A Principle of Faith finds three sorts of Promises in the Gospel First The Promise of Assistance Secondly The Promise of Acceptance Thirdly The Promise of Reward Then he proceeded in some further Spiritual Discourse Although I find I have no strength to encounter with those great Tryals I am to meet with yet I will labour to quit my heart through the Spirit of Faith from that Scripture Esa. 30.7 Your strength is to sit still and indeed I find it so Then one present did ask him if he thought the Cause in which he had been engaged would ever arise again He said The Cause lies in the Bosom of Christ and as sure as Christ arose the Cause will arise again and we die but to make way for it for when John the Baptist came to prepare the way for Christ he must be beheaded for it so we by our death do but make way for the next comming of Jesus Christ personally to raign a thousand years with his Saints And although we die the Cause will certainly live The Thursday before his Suffering he entertained some Friends who came to visit him with very sweet and Heavenly Discourse to this purpose That although God had given him a sight of his Eternal happines yet Satan would have brought all his sins before him yea the very sins of his youth as unpardoned yea sayes he I my self also would fain have set them before me but God out of his free love through his Son was stronger then them both and would not suffer it but gave me in a full assurance that all my sins were freely forgiven and blotted out and never to be remembred against me any more which caused such unspeakable Joyes that he was not able to utter nor was he to the best observation of Friends then present ever seen so chearful in the greatest of his prosperity At noon one desired him that he would eat he answered him that he was above that kind of meat for the Lord saith he hath fed me with the fat things of his own Spirit The night before he Suffered he was exercised with some fears least he should want strength to go through the great work he was now suddenly to engage in he took his Bible and opened it at an adventure and God gave him in such a word that was so sutable for him at the time that he rejoyced and said Blessed be his Name that never leaves me without a Word the Scripture which Providence then presented him with was Isa. 54.10 For the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed but my kindness shall not depart from thee neither the Covenant of my Peace be removed from thee saith the Lord that hath mercy on thee Oh sayes he to his Friends and Relations then with him You are the Mountains and the Hills that must depart from me now and so took his leave of them all with much chearfulness saying Go seek the Lord for me for I cannot go one hairs breadth in my own strength At another time he thus spake to some near Friends and Relations who were with him Certainly saith he if I had known the comforts of this sweet communion with God in a Prison before I had run to a Prison long ago If I had suffered when my Brethren did suffer I had had little or no blood in my body to have spilt for Jesus Christ in this good Cause but God carried me into Germany and there made us to sow a good Seed which will never dye and now God hath brought me back again with more strength to suffer for his Name and Cause Indeed the Lord hath made me in some measure now fit to go through Sufferings for him and it is indeed He alone who hath done it Upon hearing the news of his Tryal which he knew was
alive Our desires wil be hankring after the World but surely our businesse is to labour after Poverty of Spirit and as the Lord hath by his Wise and Over-ruling Providence emptied us of the Creature and so of those empty comforts we may labour to get our hearts filled with the fulnâ—sse of him in whose fulness there is joy and at whose right hand are pleasures for ever more one drop of whose fulness is worth ten thousand Worlds Ah alas alas content doth not alwayes go cloâ—thed in silk neither is it the company of rich men and women No no they and they alone are the contented rich men and women in this World whose desires are satisfied I mean whose desires are satiâ—fied in God or whose desires God satisfies such a poor Soul looks on its present condition best because God sees it best I cannot here but cast a weeping eye and a bleeding heart back on those our many dayes and years of mercy the Lord was pleased to entrust me with both in relation to my Soul and Body but I did not honour the God of my mercies He gave me health but I abused it and therefore the Lord brought and continued sickness I neglected those precious Ordinances I did or might have enjoyed behold the Lord hath cast me into a Wildernesse where no water no bread is I neglected the communion of the Saints and have been I had almost said shut out from the society of men but more of that when I see you I neglected the society of the living and have been and am shut up as among the dead under these and many other considerations of the like nature hath the Lord been at work with my poor Soul in this my Wildernesse condition the particulars of which would be too large a volume for a letter under all which he who is who was who is to come who is the chosen faithful and true he even he hath said I will never never never leave thee nor forsake the and he that hath said it is faithful and will not lye he cannot lye Now if I can truly say the Lord is mine and I am his what care I if all the Wâ—rld forsake me If the Lord takes away the World and the things of the World and friends of the World and gives me himself I have enough It was an excellent note in yours to me God loves to the end and there is no end of that love the World and the men of the World cannot do so No no they are a lye they are empty dying vanities they are not while they seem to be nor what they seem to be Man a buble a vapour a shadow all nothing then for riches they are as uncertain riches take to themselves wings and fly away Now if man riches be thus uncertain nothings what must their dependents be but less then nothing as honour pleasure great things yea great men all a shaddow that makes no stay put passâ—s away and immediately they are not O is it not then below a rational Creature to lay out himself his precious time his strength his all upon such pittiful poor nothings but for a Christian a child of God an heir of Heaven to engage his Soul in such pittiful underling vanities O let it not be Hath the Lord broken our estates let us beg of him to break our hearts too for a broken estate and a whole and a hard heart will never agree together and there can be no content But on the contrary a broken estate and a broken heart doth very often bring much more content then the full enjoyment of the Creature I blesse the Lord I can thorow mercy seal to this truth in the Wilderness Ah my Friend my Friend a naked dying Christ is above and beyond all the honours profits and pleasures of this World An evennesse and Proportion between our hearts and our conditions brings content hath God made our estates low let not us lift up our head above our condition for this will bring bitterness in the end it is thorow the wise and over-ruling Providence of Almighty that our condition is for the present changed now if we in our present condition desire to serve the Counsel of God in our condâ—tion it will certainly exceedingly tend to our advantage See what the Spirit of the Lord sayes the 54. of Isaiah 17. When thou passest thorow the fire and thorow the water I will be with thee and so on Now if God be ours and we his he will be with us and then what will harm us what will or can our losse be or rather what will not our advantage be that it is a gallant thriving time with the People of God with you I much rejoyce and with you desire to bless the Lord for that to me is an assured sign that the Lord is at work with them and for them and when he hath fitted his people for mercies he will come and will not tarry where he gives a returning heart he is not far from healing that heart see the 3. Jer. 22. Return you back-sliding Children the very next words and I will heal your back-slidings and where the Lord comes to heal see how ready the Soul is to close with the Lord. For the following words we come to whom to thee why so For saith they thou art the Lord our God our businesse is to get an assurance that the Lord is our God and Salvation and deliverance is certainly near or at least a sutable spirit to our present condition which is all one My Friend I doubt not before this you understand the reason of my not writing I am not angry I shall never have more to do with anger as formerly No the Lord hath made me thorow mercy sensible of that evil yea of my great evil and sin therein and therefore I trust that I shall never be angry more but with sin which is and ought to be the onely object of our anger No no it is a meek and quiet Spirit that is most sutable for a Christian at all times but especially at such a time as this See Mat. 11 19. Learn of me saith Christ for I am meek and lowly Meekness signifies humility or sweetness it is the bridle of anger it is the glory of a Christian it graces his calling it keeps the soul in a continual peace it makes all other graces shine it is a grace that a Christian hath constant use of and so is of continual use in all places and on all occasions but of exceeding use in this our day for that to a humble heart all crosses are small because it admires your least mercy looking on it self as unworthy of it it is a convincing grace a grace on which the Lord sets a very high price it brings rest to the Soul and so makes 〈◊〉 life comfortable it keeps our heads and hearts lower then our conditiâ—â—â— and so frees the Soul from being destitute in the world it
the Fountain of Life now let it come flowing upon our poor souls that we may be presented before thee with exceeding Joy Lord let us hear that same joyful Sound Come ye blessed of my Father O though we be despised of men and some they reproach us ô but Lord forgive them and the Lord pardon them whosoever hath done us any wrong the Lord pardon them through Jesus Christ we beg it And blessed Father we pray thee let us hear this joyful sound Come ye blessed of my Father inherit the Kingdom prepared for you O there is a Crown of Life laid up for them that love the Lord. Thou knowest thy poor Worms desire to love thee ô dear Lord shed abroad thy Love in our hearts and though we be now dying yet we desire to love thy Name though thou art now correcting us yet we have cause to love thee and bless thee ô shed abroad thy Love in our poor souls O Lord we pray thee come and accept us and let our cry come and pierce the heavens ô Lord let us now be looking for and hastening to the glorious appearing of that blessed hope our Lord Jesus Christ. He that shall come will come and will not tarry Come quickly Lord. O that thy Servants could see thee as thy Servant Stephen in much-what such a condition as we are in he saw Jesus Christ standing at thy Right-hand Though we cannot look upon thee with our bodily eyes yet we desire to see thee with the eye of faith O we pray thee look down upon us and Lord strengthen our Faith and that our Faith may not fail O let us obtain the end of our Faith the salvation of our Souls And ô that thou wouldst strengthen us according to thy Glorious Power with all Patience in this hour O Lord though our hearts would faint and flesh faint ô Lord thou art the God of our strength come lay hold upon us lead us by thy Righteousness and let thy Everlasting Arms be under us O dear Lord let us taste of Love in this bitter Cup ô we pray thee let us see thee in Mercy do not correct us in thy Wrath. O we bow our knees to thee let not this Affliction be in thy Wrath We are under the wrath of men but Lord do thou forgive and let us be under thy Love and lay no more upon thy poor Worms than the strength that thou shalt now give us through Jesus Christ will enable us to bear and come and take us into those Mansions that our Lord Jesus Christ hath prepared Is it not thy promise to go and provide Mansions for us our fore-runner is gone to appear for us in Heaven now before the Throne of Grace O hear us now in him and dismiss us now with a blessing And the Lord blesse this Nation the Lord blesse the Government the Lord continue thy Truth keep the Gospel still in this Nation which hath been the glory of it O let thy poor People glorifie the Gospel in their lives 't is that we beg of thee for the Lord's sake and do thou prevent those heavy Judgements that hang over our heads Lord pardon those great Abominations that thine eyes do see that Prophanation of the Sabbath O the spirit of Prophaneness is broken out among us O we desire to be humbled and mourn for it Lord turn from thy Wrath and dear Father continue thy Gospel in the purity of it O the Lord forgive the sins of those that bear thy Name thy Wrath is kindled against us and therefore it is that thou dost rebuke us but we pray thee give thy People a Spirit of returning to thee and do thou heal our back-slidings and give us a Spirit of Love to Thee and to thy Truths and one to another and take away the Envy betwixt Ephraim and Judah Thou seest these bitter Contests we pray thee put a stop to them and let thy People be of one heart and one mind and let them minde the great things of Jesus Christ and those Truths that are after Godliness let those be more and more enquired after and imbraced by the People of these Nations and the Lord grant that those Superstitions and Idolatries that are a provocation in thy sight may not be brought into the Nation for thou art a jealous God and if we go that way thy Wrath will be kindled once more but Lord shew Mercy to England and do not take away the Gospel nor remove thy Golden Candlestick from the midst of us And the Lord bless the Government and the King thou hast set over us that which we beg of thee for him is That he may rule righteously and let him hate whom thou hatest and love those whom thou lovest And blesse the Ministers of the Word them that are faithful to thee Lord continue them in their Liberties and let not our Teachers be removed into corners blesse them that are faithful to thee and make them more faithful Being interrupted after a while he proceeded as followeth O Father we have many Suits to put up unto thee but we now commit our selves unto thee here we are Lord we will roul our souls upon thee and rest and wait for thy Salvation We pray thee accept of us forgive the sins of this duty O sprinkle the Blood of the Lord Jesus upon us and take us into thy Arms. Father of Mercy that comfortest us in all our Tribulations come and comfort us in this hour and do thou accept of us in Christ for through him we offer up ourselves our souls a sacrifice Father accept of us and our sacrifice c. The Conclusion was omitted because of a busling among the horses Then Col. Okey addressed himself to Prayer as followeth Colonel Okey's Prayer MOst Glorious most Holy Eternal and most blessed Lord God who art the glorious Creator and the blessed Maker of all things who art from Everlasting to Everlasting blessed for evermore Thou art worthy to be praised from the rising of the Sun to the going down thereof Thou art the mighty God that art cloathed with Glory and Honour and Majesty as with a garment and Thou art the Fountain of all that 's good and the Well-spring of Everlasting-life O Lord we are once more in thy glorious Presence the Lord hath been pleased to give us this opportunity that we may once more pour out our souls to thee in the Name of Jesus Christ before we go hence and be seen no more Now we pray Thee for the Lord Jesus sake as thou hast been pleased to put a price into our hands so O Lord we pray thee for Jesus Christs sake give us hearts to improve it O Lord we pray thee convince us in whose glorious presence we are and of the great work we are now about we are before Thee the Eternal and Unchangeable Lord who searchest the hearts and knowest our thoughts and Thou knowest with what intents we pour out our souls before Thee at this time
time of their affliction and to say it was good for them they were afflicted And oh my dear Friend I do again beg your prayers for I am very sensible I am at present but as a brand pul'd out of the fire and am very confident it is for the sakes of the Lords People that I am alive at this day The Lord grant that while I live I may live to the glory of his most holy Name I hope you will excuse me for being so tedious to you I shall therefore no further trouble you but only present my due respects to you and all the rest of my Christian Friends wishing you from my soul all good here and glory hereafter in that World which is to come And now the God of all praise that brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus Christ the great Shepherd of his Sheep through the blood of the Everlasting Covenant make you perfect in every good work and work in you that which is wel-pleasing in his sight through Jesus Christ. I am your loving friend in the Gospel of our Lord Christ J. B. Another Letter written by Col. Barkstead to a dear Friend INdeared and endearing Friend Thine of the fourth instant came to my hands which I blesse the Lord was as seasonable as welcom and as welcom as seasonable it was to me as Apples of Gold in Pâ—ctures of Silver very Pleasant and Beautiful Dear Friend I being now a close Prisoner in the Tower in one of the as they conceive meanest and securest Prison lodgings in which when it rains I have no place to fit dry but in a high window being attended with a Life-guard of two Warders and two Souldiers day and night and denied the use of Pen Ink and Paper so that what I write is so by stealth and that so by bits that I am sore't sometimes before I have writ two lines to tear what I have written and with much trouble to secure my Paper ink and pen but yet I have adventured on a line or two to you to let you know that I received your welcom Letter every line of which was being filled with that spirit in by which my soul hath been through free mercy born up by to this very moment far beyond and above what I am here able to express Oh the infinit and Eternal Riches of the free Grace of our good God in and through the Lord Jesus Christ to poor unworthy creatures it is he and he alone that hath and doth make hard things easie soft and pleasant bitter things sweet crooked rough ways plain and pleasant this hath through mercy been his way towards me unworthy man since I became mans bond-man He even he alone out of the free riches of his never-failing Mercie in Jesus Christ hath made me his free-man He hath set my feet in large and fresh pastures He hath not only taken out the blots and blurs that my sins have made in my old Evidences since the old Record and Assurance I had many years of his Eternal and Everlasting Love to my poor soul in Jesus Christ but he even since I came within this my Palace for so I can truly and chearfully call it I say through the free Grace He hath not onely cleared up my old Assurance but hath also given me fair new Copies together with such Inlargements that are unutterable In the Deeps I cryed when and where none could hear but He and He alone who heard and answered blessed be his Name When my heart and my strength failed He then heard so that as a return of prayer yea of yours and the People of the Lord together with the breathing of his own Spirit in the hearts of his People here He hath made such gracious and full returns that I through mercy can say from the first of my being in bonds notwithstanding the weakness of my body and present want of health through extream Colds yet the Dungeon Chains Bolts and Manacles have not had the least of hardness in them no I must say it again through free Grace the Lord hath not only made them easie but pleasant yea kickings and buffetings when in Irons by some of Downing's men yet the Lord strengthened me Pray mistake me not I do not write this as having here any thing to boast of from my self or from any strength of mine no no I have not been without my buffetings though in them the Lord hath been wonderful gracious to me and he hath made me a very great gainer by them Three times since I came into this Room or Palace Satan who may be truly said to go about like a roaring Lion seeking whom he may devour waiting his opportunity I having been for a very very little space drawn off my Out-Sentinels and begining to hold a Parly with Sence and reason with flesh and blood to look backward and forward on the right and left hand in which work I do not remember I exceeded above half an hour but I perceived a general discomposure and unsettlement in all my former settlements and immediately found Satan with a full Body ready to surprize my Main-guards but the Lord was merciful and made good his Promise to me He in the instant of time came in and shewed me where my weakness lay and where my strength I cryed out to Him as a ravished Damosel He heard and strengthened me with strength in my soul blessed O blessed be for ever his most great and glorious Name My dear Friend I hint these things only to let you know how seasonable through mercy the Lord hath made me and doth keep me off my own weakness and nothingness and unworthiness indeed I dare not be off the Watch or from going the Rounds to see if all the Sentinels be watchful every moment I do now very well understand that Command Pray alwayes Pray continually watch and pray pray and watch are and must be a Christians constant and continual and unseparable Companions at all times and in all places Now that the Lord hath thus far answered the prayers of his People what I shall be able to undergo the next hour I know not I therefore do heartily again and again beg that you would with me continually be blessing and praising the Lord for those blessed Returns he hath hitherto made to your former Prayers and lay them before you as encouragements and spread them before the Lord as Arguments for his hearing your Prayers for the future for what is yet to come for though I can say the Dungeon Bolts Chains and Manacles with kickings and buffetings have been nothing and therefore can comfortably and confidently desire the People of the Lord not to fear any of them but to fear sin only for that the least sin hath more terror in it than the greatest evil or trouble that can befall a Child of God here therefore fear O fear sin I say I do not know what a Sled a Gibbet a Halter Ax or
that he had not left me to the wickedness of my own heart as he hath left thousands that do live in pleasure and vanity and so are dead while they live Now the good Lord grant that as he hath done for me more than he hath done for many thousands so I may love Him more than many thousands do that I may yet live and die for the Glory of his holy Name and that the few hours I have to live I may wholly spend to the praise of God I humbly desire to bless the Lord that hath made me willing to live or die as may be most for his Glory and the Good of his People for I can say through Christ that strengthens me I can do all things in some measure and have learned how to want and how to abound and can say to live is Christ and to die is gain praised be the Lord that hath made my heart fit in some good measure for the work which he hath called me unto and as I hear my departure is at hand so through the Lord 's rich Grace and free Mercy to me his poor unworthy Servant I am willing to be offered up and if I be offered upon the Sacrifice of your Faith I joy and much rejoyce therein I hope by the continual Prayers of you and the rest of the People of the Lord he that hath begun that good work in me will carry it on till the coming of the Lord Jesus When I look upon my self then I have cause to fear and tremble for my strength is as weak as water but when I look to the Lord Jesus then am I strong for he hath promised He will never leave nor forsake me nor all those that trust in Him And I know that through the Lord I shall do those things that may tend to the praise of his great Name in this evil day and I hope by his Grace to honour Him more by my Death than in all my Life before for indeed although I had a desire in the day of liberty to do that which was most for the glory of God and the good of his People and on that account I did not think my Life nor any thing I had near or dear to me and can say I do believe no man did more rejoycingly go to lay down his Life than I did yet I was accompanied with so many failings in my best doings that I have cause to be ashamed and humbled for the best of all my services that ever I have performed and praised be his holy Name although I have nothing in my self to glory in yet in Christ Jesus I can and will rejoyce giving thanks to the Father of our Lord Jesus who hath made me meet to be partaker of the Inheritance of the Saints in light and for his unspeakable love to me in the Lord Jesus for being justified by Faith I have peace with our blessed God through our Lord Jesus Christ to whom be praise and glory both now and for evermore And now a word concerning the Cause for which I am to suffer all that is near and dear unto me I shall as before the Lord who only knoweth the hearts and thoughts of all men tell you my Faith I do believe at long-run there is not a man that fears the Lord will have any reason to be sorrowful for engaging in that Good Old Cause which I am now to seal with my Blood again as I have many a time done I am satisfied in my soul that it is a most just and glorious Cause as hath been in many years asserted and although the Lord hath been pleased for the sins of his People and for a great judgment to the wicked of the three Nations to let it be in respect of the Cause as it were the Sun setting for a night yet it will certainly arise the next morning very gloriously though now it be never so much reproached by the wicked of this day And when I die I shall die in the Faith thereof And that most of the Reformed Churches in the world by report are all of that mind and I my self have heard the same from many among them where I have been abroad I bless the Lord I have no guilt upon me in reference to that Cause if I had I would let you know it And although many object against me that place 1 Pet. 4.15 Let none of you suffer as a Murderer yet I cannot after much seeking the Lord be convinced that I am such a one And in case any did it out of base ends of their own I praise the Lord I had none but looking at the Glory of God and the Good of his poor People in what I did and I bless the Lord I find the comfort of it at this day And for the Cause I shall say no more of it than what the Parents said to the Pharisees when they asked them if that were their son they told them he was of age he should speak for himself So I say this Cause hath spoken in most parts of the Christian World and will speak more when we are dead when the Fowls have eaten of our vile Bodies that are to be set up on the Gates of the City I shall only add a word to the People of the Lord to comfort them against sufferings for the Cause of God for it is a most glorious thing and honourable and therefore saith the Apostle James Count it all joy when ye fall into divers Temptations And so the Apostle Paul Rom. 5 We glory in Tribulation Also the like in Phil. 1.28 29. To you it is given in the behalf of Christ not only to believe in him but also to suffer for his sake And so again the Apostle sayes Jam. 1â— 12. 2 Cor. 12.10 Act. 2 13. Blessed is the man that endureth Temptation for when he is tryed he shall receive a Crown of life So the Apostle Paul rejoyced in his Infirmities Reproaches Necessities in Persecutions in Distresses And he professes himself to be ready not only to be bound but to dye at Jerusalem for the Name of the Lord Jesus Further It is the duty of Saints to suffer as the Apostle speaks He that will live godly in Christ Jesus must suffer Persecution 2 Tim. 3.12 We are also commanded not to fear their fears nor to be terrified by any thing that evil men can do against us but suffer as good Souldiers of Christ Jesus We are likewise to rejoyce in as much as we are partakers of Christs Sufferings that when his glory shall be revealed 1 Pet. 4.13 we may rejoyce with exceeding joy And as it brings peace to a man 's own soul so it rejoyceth the hearts of the Saints for saith the Apostle We live if ye stand fast in the Lord. And therefore dear Brethren fear none of these things for the Devil shall cast some of you into Prison and you shall have Tribulation for ten dayes
should suffer and therefore I do again beg your prayers to the Lord night and day that the Lord would strengthen us with all might according to his rich and glorious power unto all patience and long-suffering with joyfulness giving thanks to the Father who hath made us meet to be partakers of the Inheritance of the Saints in light who hath called us to suffer for the Truth and not to fear base man whose breath is in his nostrils and although they seem to be in honour yet in a few dayes they shall fall and perish and become as the dung of the Earth and men like themselves shall see them no more Oh we have no cause to be troubled when we see wicked men made great for when they die none of their pomp shall follow them for as they lived undesired so will they dye unlamented My dear Friend I am fain to break off for want of time and I hope you will cover my weak lines you have them from the heart that wisheth you as well as my own soul. Thus with my love to you and my prayers to the Lord for you and yours and to the rest that love the Lord Jesus and now for the present I leave you to Him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you faultless before the presence of his Glory with exceeding joy to the only wise God be glory and power now and ever Your faithful Friend till death J. O. A Letter of Col. John Okey to his Daughter My dear Daughter I Salute you in the Lord wishing you all Grace here and Glory hereafter I am something troubled at the cruelty of wicked men that will not let me see you in such a day as this is But it 's not to be wondred at for you know what the Scripture saith The mercies of the ungodly are cruelty it self But blessed be our good God though they can keep our Relations from us they cannot keep us from coming to our heavenly Father within a few dayes we shall be out of their hands where they shall afflict us no more for there the Oppressed shall be free from the Oppressor and therefore be not troubled for these things I thank you for your love to me as much as if I had seen you and although we are kept one from another in the body yet we are not so in the spirit but do rejoyce in one another and be not much cast down for these outward troubles that we meet with in this evil world where we are pilgrims and strangers for it 's the lot and portion of the dearest of God's People to suffer here in this world but rather rejoyce that we are accounted worthy to suffer shame for his most holy Name and I beg that you would be earnest with the Lord that he would be pleased to keep my heart close to himself that I may not dishonour the Lord nor bring a reproach to the glorious Gospel of our Lord Christ and his Cause which the Lord hath from Heaven so gloriously owned by scattering of his Enemies so often as he hath done in the sight of the Sun in bringing many of them to Justice so that the sound of it is gone thorow the whole World that it is the talk of the most part of the World and this you may be confident of that the day is not far off when God will give a glorious Resurrection to this Good Cause that is so much scorned by the basest of men who as Daniel saith shall fall in a few dayes like their own dung and perish and be seen no more for God hath set them in slippery places and therefore be not troubled at their prosperity but wait on the Lord and he shall give you the desire of your soul. And therefore my dear Daughter I humbly desire you that you would more and more give your self up wholly to the Lord to walk in all his wayes and to delight in all his wayes for his wayes are all wayes of peace and paths of pleasantness to all them that fear and love him and although earthly fathers leave you he will never leave you nor forsake you but will bless you here and for evermore therefore rejoyce in the Lord and again I say rejoyce I am very sorry that I am not able to do that for you which I desire and did intend for you and yours which I should have delighted to have done but the Providence of the Lord hath been pleased to order things other wayes praised be his Name and I hope the good Lord will supply all your wants through the riches of his Mercy in the Lord Jesus Christ to whom I shall commit you and yours who hath promised to do you good both in soul and body for he hath said When father and mother forsake you he will keep you for ever And therefore my loving Daughter be comforted in the Lord for although I go before you I shall not be lost but we shall meet again in Glory through mercy where we shall part no more for ever where we shall sorrow no more nor sin no more but shall be for ever praising his holy Name to all Eternity I shall desire you to remember me kindly to your Husband if it please the Lord to bring him home and to your Brother and so to the rest of my Friends and let your Husband know that if it please the Lord to return to his People he or his shall have a Portion in the mean time the Lord will bless that little to you that shall do you and yours more good than the treasures of the wicked like to the widows oyl and the barrel of meal that wasted not until the Lord sent more You know what David said I have been young and now am old yet he never saw the Righteous forsaken nor his seed begging their bread and Paul said We brought nothing into this world and it 's certain we shall carry nothing out having food and raiment let us therewith be content I am forc'd to break off at present but I hope to see you once more before I go hence and be seen no more I shall desire you would have a great care of those little Children that the Lord hath given you to bring them up in the fear of the Lord whilst the Lord is pleased to let you be with them And do also desire as you would do any thing for me or mine that you would be kind and loving to my dear Wife when I am gone that is the last Request that I beg of you And thus with my hearty love to you and your dear Husband and to your Children and to the rest of my Friends and to John and desire him that he would beg of the Lord to give him an heart to love the Lord and to walk in his wayes and it shall be well with him here and for evermore Thus in haste I commit you to the Lord beseeching the Lord
Stations and to what God hath called them and so serve God and their Countrey and let them not be afraid And I think it is the honour of good Christians and of good People to be obedient to the Government they are under and to uphold it to the uttermost I have not much more to say If any man hath done me any wrong as I perceived when we came along some peoples tongues were against us I pray God forgive them I desire not to open my mouth against any of those Reproaches we met with Some I perceived did express their love and their love to my soul and I hope God will hear their Prayers And while we are in the Land of the Living I shall desire to do as we have done since his Majesty came unto the Government When we were in Holland we did pray for the King and the Government and desired of the Lord that they might settle Peace in the Nation which if we love our Countrey we ought to rejoyce in and our private interests must give way to it And truly I shall desire even from my very soul that if any man here or elsewhere hath wronged me that the Lord would forgive them And truly the Court of Justice that past their Judgement upon us as the Law stands I think did according to their Places And if we may have liberty in a few words to commend our selves to God I shall trouble you no further And I thank you for your Civility Then Collonel Okey spake a few words as followeth Mr. Sheriff Col. Okey I will not trouble you with any thing that he hath said something of which I thought to speak as to my own Judgement But this I would leave among you that live in the land of the living I have been in most Reformed places where they call themselves Protestants but I must tell you there is a great deal of difference between their Ministers and the Ministers that be in England and so of their Professors And therefore as God hath given you such Ministers as scarce any other Nation hath besides so that you would honour and respect them as also those that are Professors and godly People not such as have a shew only but those that are really such that you would countenance them and honour them for as for Ministers and People that live according to the Word I think there is not such again in the World as are to be found in these Nations I shall add one word further I was as near as I can reckon a Major and Colonel sixteen years in the Army I only speak that because I have a word to say to another thing I do not know whose Ox or whose Ass I took away in that sixteen years time and if I have done any man any wrong I hope and desire they wil forgive me as one that had many failings And whoever hath proceeded against my Life either in England or Holland for there was one who formerly was my Chaplain that did pursue me to the very death where I remained but two nights and was going back again for I had done my business But both him and all others upon the Earth I forgive as freely as I desire the Lord to forgive me I have no malice either to Judge or Jury but desire that the Lord would forgive them as also those in Holland that sent us over contrary to what they did engage to my Friends We will say nothing of them but pray God that our blood may not be laid to their charge nor to the charge of any in England Then Col. Barkstead addressed himself to speak as followeth Colonel Barkstead's Speech Mr. Sheriff I Shall as near as I can observe your order and not willingly do any thing that shall give offence I must confess the weakness of my body is such which hath not been of a day but of a long time that it will not give me liberty to speak much and I have had this advantage that my Brethren have spoken before me and were I to speak at large I must speak over the same things which they have spoken already and I am unwilling to trouble you with that because you said your time was overslipt and therefore I shall only speak to the Cause as it was at first stated and I hope without offence we may say something to that so far as the Acts of Parliament have sealed it up or rather left it open Truly therein I did engage very freely at the beginning of the War for King and Parliament and in the place to which I was chosen I bless the Lord he made me faithfull to those I served as to what hath been since that I shall forbear to speak to only in the general say That before and since I came into this late trouble I have begged of the Lord to give me a sight of all my sins and shew me a Pardon in the blood of Jesus Christ which through free grace and mercy I can say the Lord hath done I could not have stood with so much Comfort as I do now at this time if he had not given me an assurance of the Pardon of all my sins and where he hath spoken Peace there is none can speak War or Trouble I conceive it not proper to give you here an account of my Faith for if I should I should go very little aside from my Brethren that have spoken before me that which hath been my Judgment and my Practice hath been the Congregational way I must own that and do I should much rejoyce to see a spirit answering that great Mercy that the Lord hath given to this Nation I mean that great Mercy that he hath bestowed in giving them the Gospel and that in such a manner as truly we though we have been some hundreds and thousands of miles among the Protestants abroad yet I do not know it to be so pure as it is in this Isle blessed be the Lord and I hope to the Nation of England the Lord will give hearts to walk accordingly And as to the business of the Government of this Nation as it now stands I have prayed for it and can pray for it and shall as long as I have breath pray for it and do from my soul desire that the Lord would bless the King and give him a heart to rule for Him and his Glory and then I am sure the Lord will prosper him Indeed as to those that fear the Lord in the Nation I could wish that the Lord would settle them and make them of one mind but that is the work of the Lord and it must lye there and truly He will do it in his time I must confess I speak the rather to that because there hath formerly been something acted by me towards persons that were not of my Judgment which I have seen since was very hard and I bless God I have seen it and have been sorry for it and
O blessed Father we beseech Thee for Christs sake draw nigh to us that we may draw nigh to Thee our God O that Thou wouldst pour down Thy holy Spirit that we may pour out our souls before Thee O Lord we pray Thee for Christ's sake give us the Spirit of Wisdom and the Spirit of Understanding and the Spirit of Knowledge and the Spirit whereby we may cry Abba Father We are not now come to tell long stories of our Iniquities time and strength would fail us they are as the hairs of our heads and as the sands of the Sea-shore but O Lord we are before Thee in the Name of Jesus Christ humbly to intreat and beseech Thee O for the Lord's sake to look upon us there was never any more unworthy of Mercy than we are yet never any poor Wretches stood in more need of Mercy than we do We humbly pray thee for the Lord's sake extend Mercy to us O Lord do not remember against us what we have done but remember what the Lord Jesus Christ hath suffered and when Thou hast look'd upon thy dear Son then look upon thy poor Worms O Lord we humbly pray Thee for Jesus sake forgive whatever is past cover us with the Righteousness of Jesus Christ let none of our nakedness appear we beg for the Lord's sake O that the Lord would be pleased to speak Peace now to our souls Blessed Father we have in some measure blessed be thy Name the assurance of thy Love sealed to our Souls by thy glorious Spirit we humbly pray Thee O Lord we beseech Thee for Christ's sake look upon us and come and pour down thy glorious and holy Spirit upon us and let us we beseech thee have yet more Assurance that our Sins are pardoned that Thou hast found out a Ransom for us that our Names are written in the Book of Life and that we shall not die but live for evermore because we are washed with the Blood of Christ even with the Blood of thy dear Son who hath loved us and died for us and washed us with his own Blood O that the Lord would be pleased now to come and warm our souls with thy Love that they may never be cold more O Lord we beseech thee receive us into the Everlasting Arms of thy Mercy O Lord we beseech Thee for Christs sake that Thou wouldst now let us see as Stephen once did by the eye of Faith even Heaven opened and the Lord upon the Throne and Jesus Christ at his Right-hand and the glorious Angels receiving our souls into thy everlasting Mercy Blessed Father we beseech thee for the Lord sake that Thou wouldst be with us and bless us and the Lord shew us Mercy onely upon the account of our Lord Jesus Christ. And we pray Thee bless us and with us all Thine all the World over Remember thy Churches from the rising of he Sun to the going down of the same Think upon this Nation wherein we live we humbly beg for the Lord's sake that England Scotland and Ireland might live in thy Glorious Presence and that England may be a quiet Habitation for thy People to dwell in O for the Lord's sake as Thou hast given them a Name and a Gospel above any other Nations that we have heard of or seen So pour down abundance of thy Spirit and give them Grace and hearts that they may walk answerable to the Gospel and be a Nation for thy Glory more zealous than any other Nation And Lord we humbly pray Thee continue the Mercies they yet enjoy and remove and divert any Judgements that they feel or fear And for the Lord's sake bless him that Thou hast been pleased to set over us let the King live in Thy sight we humbly beg that he may reign so here that he may reign in Glory for ever that he may be a nursing father to thy Israel and that he may be a Friend to those that are thy Friends and an Enemy to those that are thy Enemies and Enemies to thy Gospel let him remember that he is but a Steward and he must ere long give an account and the Lord grant that he may do it with much joy and not with grief and bless the Council do thou pour down thy Spirit upon them and guide and direct them to do the things that may be for thy Glory and for the Comfort of their own souls And bless the Faithful Ministers of the Gospel O that the Lord would double his Spirit upon them and that the Lord would be pleased abundantly to encrease the number of them let not that Judgment come upon the Nation that the Godly Faithful and Holy Ministers should be removed from us that their eyes should not behold their Teachers Lord let us not have a famine of thy Word for the Lord's sake but that the Gospel may continue in more splendor and glory than ever it hath done heretofore O that the Lord would be pleased to keep Idolatry out of this Nation O let not that Judgement befall this poor Nation for the Lord's sake And we humbly beg for thy Name sake that the Lord would be pleased to look upon this great City Thou hast made them famous for Religion and for owning the Gospel but Lord grant that they may not decline but that they may abundantly improve their gifts and graces and that they may walk humbly and thankfully and O that the Lord would be pleased to bless the City and the Nation from one end to another and that he would give them the blessings of the right hand and the blessings of the left that they may have the dew of Heaven and the fatness of the Earth and that they may provoke and stir up one another to praise thy holy Name and to live in Love Unity and Peace O Lord we pray thee for Jesus sake look upon us in thy presence and shew Mercy to us and look in love and mercy upon any that are near unto us we leave them with Thee we commit them into thy hands we beg for the Lord's sake shew Mercy to us and be with thy poor Servants and Lord we pray thee accept of us and our services in Jesus Christ and pardon our deadness and pardon our weakness our wanderings and all our sins even for our Lord Jesus Christ's sake since we came into Thy glorious presence and we pray Thee to accept of us and do us good and receive us to Mercy and Glory and all only for the glory of thy Name and for the sake of our Lord Jesus Christ who died for us and rose again and lives for ever at Thy right hand to whom be all Honour and Glory and Praise for evermore Then Col. Barkstead addressed himself to Prayer having first spoken to the Sheriffs these few words following Mr. Sheriff I do see your time is spent and we are drawn up into a very narrow compass And I hope you will take my word now as before I
shall only speak a word or two unto the Lord and no more Colonel Barkstead's Prayer O Eternal and ever-blessed Lord God Thou who sittest upon the highest Heavens who hast the highest Heavens for thy Throne and the Earth for thy Footstool We poor Creatures are here by thy Providence brought at this day to this place at this time and by Thee it is that we are in the Condition we are now in for which O Lord we blesse Thee and for which we can blesse thy Name Blessed be thy Name O Lord that Thou wert pleased before Thou broughtest us hither to speak Peace to our poor souls in the Blood of Jesus Christ and blessed for ever be thy Name that thou givest-in Assurance of Peace Pardon and Reconciliation to our Souls at this very minute blessed be thy Name Dear Father for the Lord's sake continue it and ô draw forth the hearts of thy poor Creatures even while one blast of breath is in us to blesse thy holy Name Father we pray Thee remember the Nation in which we live the King whom Thou hast set over the Nation Lord make him Thine and cause him to rule for Thee in Righteousness and for thy Glory that so Lord he may rule to the Comfort of all that fear thy Name O dear Father look in mercy upon all that fear thy Name in the Nation make them all of one heart and mind to advance thy Name and Glory to live in Unity one with another and to make it their business to seek Peace and pursue it that so they may thereby truly advance the Kingdom and Scepter of Jesus Christ who is coming and will come O dear Father carry forth the spirits of thy People to love Thee and one another and to walk closely and humbly and holily before Thee all their dayes Remember the Relations of thy poor Creatures here before Thee Lord do good to them that we leave behind us we commit them into thy Arms Lord take them into thine Arms O Lord thou hast said in thy Word Leave thy fatherless Children I will preserve them alive and let thy Widows trust in me Lord it is thy Word and this is thy Command that we should leave them with Thee therefore we leave them in thy Arms. Dear Father we desire from the bottom of our hearts freely and fully to forgive all that we any wayes think have done us wrong in any kind whatsoever freely and fully either in England or elsewhere and we pray Thee shew kindness to those that any wayes have shewed kindness to us for the Lord Jesus sake reward all their labour of love a thousand fold into their bosoms Look in mercy upon the Chief Magistrates that are here at this time dear Father pardon their sins and reconcile them unto thy self in the Blood of the Lord Jesus Christ in which we pray Thee wash their souls And O Lord as for the person that is now appointed to take away our lives and to destroy our Bodies dear Father do not Thou destroy his Soul but wash his Soul in the Blood of Jesus Christ Even that person that is to wash his hands in our Blood O pardon him and let not any of his sins be remembred before Thee We leave ourselves with Thee and blessed be thy Name Thou hast been good unto us and thy Presence is with us and there is nothing that gives trouble to us at this moment Father continue this thy loving-kindness to us O Lord thou hast not blessed be thy Name caused Death to be terrible to us no Lord thy poor Creature can say with freeness and comfort that there hath not been any thing of trouble or terror that hath past thy Servant since he came into this place either for what he is to suffer or the manner of his Sufferings but here he is before Thee and begs further help and strength from Thee being willing to surrender up his Soul to Thee in and through the Lord Jesus Christ. Then Col. Okey spake a few words more as followeth I did break off duty because you desired it and I would not be troublesome to you Then he very earnestly expressed himself further as followeth O love the Lord and hate all things that are evil I have found by experience more evil in the least sin than good in any thing this world can afford Therefore I beg it of all that are here To love God and to hate that that is evil The Lord give you Peace and Truth I hope our Relations shall not fare the worse for us but that you will shew them kindness And as to what my Brother said I thank the Lord I have the Assurance of his Love and the Pardon of my Sins through the Riches of his Grace and free love in Jesus Christ. After this Col. Barkstead called a young man who was known to him and taking a silver Box out of his pocket he charged him to give it to his Daughter Their Speeches and Prayers being ended the Executioner cleared the Cart of the rest of the People who were gotten in and then pulled down their several Caps over their eyes and upon the lifting up their hands the Cart was drawn away at which time Col. Barkstead especially was heard to say Lord Jesus receive our Souls and after he had hanged for a little space he lifted up his hand That which many did especially take notice of was That there was not so much as the least attempt made by any to raise a triumphant shout upon the drawing away of the Cart but there rather appeared the symptoms of an universal face of Sadness in that vast and generally tumultuous Assembly who were the Spectators of their several Deaths They all hung near about a quarter of an hour The first that was cut down was Col. Barkstead who was quartered according to the Sentence the other two hanging all the while The next cut down was Col. Okey Mr. Corbet hanging still who after Col. Okey was quartered had the Execution done upon him also according to the Sentence Their several Quarters were brought back to Newgate about five of the Clock in the Afternoon to be boyled A brief Account of Col. Okey's Funeral WHen Col. Okey's Body was quartered it pleased the King to send a Warrant to the Sheriff of London to deliver the macerated Body to be buried where his Wife should think meet Which thing being granted without Petition or Application from her or his Relations and the Rumour of his Funeral suddenly flying about the City and the place appointed at Stepney where his first Wife lieth in a fair Vault which he purchased formerly for a Burying-place for him and his Family there was a numerous Concourse of sober substantial People assembled to Christ-Church to attend the Corps and some thousands more were coming thither to that purpose so that there were in view about Twenty thousand People attending that Solemnity at and coming to the place aforesaid who in a solemn and peaceable manner behaved themselves as that affair required Yet it so pleased the King to revoke this first Grant to Mris. Okey and by the Sheriff of London to disappoint and send home again the Company attending the Funeral which Sheriff with much harshness and many bitter words did his work The People though much troubled at the disappointment yet so soon as they understood the King's pleasure departed and left the mangled Limbs to the dispose of them that had devoted them to the Gibbet and Ax the Company left many a thousand sighs to attend him to his then unknown Grave That Night the Body was carried to the Tower of London and there by Mr. Glendon Parson of Barkin was buried with the Service-Book afresh wounding his bleeding Limbs thereby but Rapes are imputed only to the Ravisher Mr. Glendon could not but say that his Body was laid there in sure and certain hope of a Joyful Resurrection His Testimony was true though a Poet of their own And now there he lyes and the Tower of London is his Tomb. His Epitaph he partly writ in the hearts of thousands at the place of Execution FINIS
an eye of mercy that is now coming to Thee it will be an hour of darkness if Thou shinest not shine therefore O thou Fountain of Light and Love how else shall thy poor Worm be comforted or enabled to go through what he is to suffer O take the sting of Death away how dreadful will the thoughts of Death be if that be not done how shall thy poor Worm graple with the King of Terrors if Thou be not with him to stand by him and support him Oh let all the Sins of thy poor Worm be done away wash thou his Soul in thy Sons blood Remember not against him former Iniquities but prevent him with thy tender Mercies now when Thou hast brought him so very low Accompany thy Servant whither he is going take the Soul of thy poor worm into thy Bosom and let thy holy Angels be in readiness to receive it With more words to the like effect Whilst he was finishing his Prayer there was a noise at the door occasioned by some that hasted to come in not knowing what he was about to tell him that he must prepare for the Sled but that he should be called for the last of the three In the mean while he fitted himself for his Journey and first bethought himself of his Cap saying Must I not carry a Cap to the Gallows and so looked out the best he had Truly said he I had almost forgot it but it may well be excused for I have not been used to these things Then he took his Bible which he promised to send back and give to his Keeper when he should have done with it and put it into his pocket to carry with him as his best and surest Friend and Companion both in the Sled and at the Gallows Next he put a little bottle of Cordial into his pocket for his use by the way if occasion should be but I hope saith he I shall find a better Cordial else I know I shall faint for all this This done and his clean linen got on viz. Band and Cuffs with his Cloak clean brushed and fitted about him and also a new pair of Gloves put on which his Wife had provided for him and which he called his Wedding Gloves he was now in readiness when-ever he should be sent for which a Friend taking notice of put him in mind of a speech which fell from him the night before saying Sir you said last night the Bridegroom was ready and the Marriage-Supper was ready and the Robes and Crown were ready but that you were not ready Me-thinks you are ready now and a very trim and handsom Bride to which he smilingly replyed Am I so the Lord make me so blessed be God I can say I am willing to it as I have good reason for I am sure 't is the best Bridegroom that ever was that I am going to And you need not be ashamed to go saith his Friend considering what garments you are cloathed with and how you are decked alluding to those words in Isa. 61.10 To which he replyed What-ever we have of that kind it is all of our Bridegroom 's own cost He is not like other Bridegrooms for He purchaseth his Bride he cloaths her and he adorns her whatever beauty she hath upon her person or love in her heart towards the Bridegroom 't is He only that put it in her Some of the Warders at the door asking if he would please to go Doth the Gentleman-Jaylor call for me saith he No said they Then said he I have not my Warrant yet to go I must stay for that first till that come my duty is to be passive it being with me as it was with Peter who was to be carried whither he would not yet when I am called I hope then I shall go without further bidding Then he reminded us of being in the way of our duty and in that to trust God but take heed saith he of neglect of duty take heed of sinful complyances of apostatizing from God take heed of Superstition Popery Idolatry keep close to God and his Truth Oh! trust God trust in him and then he will never leave you And now a Messenger was indeed come to tell him that the Sheriffs were ready for him and I for them saith he and so presently hastned away without taking leave of his Wife which one perceiving said to him Will you not speak to your Wife before you go O yes said he and then turning back saluted her and committing and commending her to the Lord bid her farewell but she clinging to him cryed out Oh my dear Husband my precious Husband what an Husband shall I now lose whom I have not prized whom I have not improved as I ought and might have done Oh saith she what will become of me At which carriage of his Wife though some tears were ready to start from his eyes yet he conquered himself and taking his Wife by the hand said O my dear Wife shall we part in a shower which words he had used on occasion once before be contented said he God will be an Husband and a Father to thee and thine with other such like good words and so kissing her turned to his Son Miles whom he took by the hand and blessed him also and then hastened to the Sled desiring a Friend to stay with his Wife and his Son to comfort them When he was bound in the Sled and ready to be drawn away one that had shewed him some kindness in the time of his Imprisonment took him by the hand and asked him how he did Me-thinks saith he I begin to see the Lord appearing looking up to the Skies which at that time said he that he spake to were as clear and bright as he had ever seen them To this Friend Mr. Corbet said Farewel and the Lord requite you for all the Civilities that I have received from you As he rid along he carried his Bible in his hand with his eyes much fixed upon the World over him that he was now going to and being naturally a very black swarthy melancholy man and aged also his countenance seemed sad and dejected at a distance which caused such people as knew him not to think his heart within too was like his face without but they were much mistaken for though he abounded not nor was lifted up with ravishing joyes as some have been yet he had an inward firm solid well-setled Peace and Comfort which was not now new to him but which he had enjoyed and lived upon many years as is evident by many passages which came from him even while in the Sled take two for instance till more come When one asked how it was with him after he had been drawn a good part of his way he gave this chearful answer I am well now saith he but I shall be better anon when I am gotten yonder above that place pointing to the Heavens before him Not long before he got to the
the last hour of his life as I did for my self and so I have done for this King also which is my duty to do I have many hundred times since I went out of England this two years last past and before also begged with tears of the Lord if there were any iniquity or malice or any thing of that nature in what I did that God would shew it to me yea the like I did this very morning beseeching the Lord that if I had any guilt of his Majesties blood upon me or any hatred against him he would reveal it to me that I might here confess it before you all But I have nothing upon my spirit as to that And what ever other men did I shall say nothing to that as for my self I can say again that I got not any thing by it but remained in the same condition I was a Colonel before and was no more since I thank the Lord I am clear in that Then making a stop he said there is such a noise I cannot speak And Sir I shall tell you now vvhat is upon my spirit I take vvhat hath befallen me as righteous and just from the Lord for my unworthy walking for being no more zealous for God and his People no more fruitful in my Generation and no more thankful but as for that thing I thank the Lord I have no guilt upon my spirit And as for all my other sins I confess they are many and great but I thank the Lord he hath given my soul the pardon of them all through the Blood of Christ for his Name sake and through the Riches of his Grace and his abundant Mercy towards me And now I will only speak a word to our Friends here You all know we have had many troubles and much blood hath been shed and there hath been a vacancy as to a single person But the Nation did earnestly desire him that now reigns and I wish from my soul he may reign gloriously and righteously and reign here so as he may reign for ever And now they have the great Mercy they did desire I wish that they would make a right improvement of it and that they would walk in some measure answerable to that mercy that they have so much desired I shall beg this as a dying man That as they have received a Mercy which they account so exceeding great that they would walk answerable to it that God might have the glory and the Nation might yet flourish in Peace and Righteousness I shall beg of these †Some of the Guard Gentlemen and all others that have a great affection to their King that they would pray more for him and love him more and that they would swear less and drink less for if you were beyond Sea to hear what I have heard of this Nation it would make your hair stand on end and your ears to tingle They say certainly that notwithstanding the great answer they have had of their desires yet if they go on in the way of wickedness and Blasphemy which they report do abound in England for my part I have been a close Prisoner and have spoken with no body almost since I came that this Nation cannot stand three years together therefore I shall make it my humble request That as this Nation hath flourished and gone beyond other Nations in Piety and Religion it might flourish ten times more than it hath done this many years upon the same account It hath been a Nation that hath profest the Gospel which indeed hath flourished here more than in any other Kingdom and so it hath had more glory and honour than other Nations and I desire it may continue that you may have Peace within your Palaces and Plenty within your Dwellings Oh that every man would study in his place to fear God and honour the King and to give glory to God and walk in some measure answerable to those many mercies they have and do enjoy And that as they have what they so much desired every man would now beg that the Gospel may flourish and that Righteousness and Truth may be in the midst of you There is something that I shall speak more I would be loth to speak so as to offend you in any thing Then replyed the Sheriff I am glad to hear these Expressions from you Sir let me tell you because it 's a very great matter and looks like a black thing that is charged upon us in the Indictment I should have abhorred it had there not been a face of Authority an Authority that then was owned had it not been so I should have abhorred to have done any thing in that business as much as any Gent. here therefore I thank God I have peace as to that and Peace as to the Pardon of all mine Iniquities whatsoever through rich Grace and Mercy And truly as to the Cause I am as confident even as I am of my Resurrection That that Cause which we first took up the Sword for which was for Righteousness and for Justice and for the advancement of a godly Magistracy and a good Ministery however some men turned about for their own ends shall yet revive again I am confident I say That Cause for which so much Blood hath been shed will have another Resurrection that is You will have a blessed fruit of those many thousands that have been killed in the late War But I would leave this to all my Brethren and Friends that they would keep their places wait upon God stand still and see the Salvation of God and rather suffer than do any thing to deliver themselves by any indirect or unjust wayes If his Majesty had been pleased to have given me my Life or if I had come over or heard for I had a Warrant for my return into England from the House of Commons but I fell short two dayes and so was fain to go back time enough of the Proclamation I would through the blessing of God have lived quietly and rather have suffered than have done any thing against the Law of the Land and I would say this to all good men and others Rather to suffer than take any indirect means to deliver themselves but to wait upon God keep their way stand still and see the Salvation of God And God when it shall make most for his own Glory and the good of his People will deliver and that in such a way that himself shall have Glory in and the Gospel shall have no Reproach by But because some think we are enemies to Magistracy and Ministry I shall only say this That I alwaies I thank the Lord did pray both for Magistracy and Ministry and that you might have righteous Laws established that so Judgement may run down like a Stream and Righteousness like a mighty River And that shall be my Prayer now That God would give you Peace and Truth and scatter them that delight in Blood and War Mr.