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condition_n i_o have_v stand_v in_o need_n of_o comfort_n in_o my_o suffering_n and_o i_o have_v stand_v more_o in_o need_n of_o it_o in_o a_o state_n of_o joy_n and_o sweetness_n i_o say_v heretofore_o when_o i_o abound_v with_o consolation_n that_o i_o shall_v never_o suffer_v again_o at_o present_a i_o think_v i_o shall_v suffer_v as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v see_v i_o find_v cross_n in_o every_o state_n and_o i_o frame_v myself_o to_o a_o indifferency_n to_o god_n will_v and_o pleasure_n in_o his_o deal_n with_o i_o heretofore_o inebriate_v with_o consolation_n i_o say_v fulcite_fw-la i_o floribus_fw-la stipate_v i_o malis_fw-la quia_fw-la amore_fw-la langueo_fw-la surround_v i_o with_o flower_n and_o apple_n to_o augment_v my_o comfort_n and_o increase_v my_o love_n but_o now_o i_o say_v surround_v i_o with_o cross_n contempt_n and_o suffering_n for_o languish_v with_o love_n i_o desire_v to_o love_n jesus_n better_a than_o ever_o it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a thing_n that_o i_o shall_v be_v more_o poor_a now_o then_o when_o i_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o consolation_n i_o will_v not_o then_o too_o greedy_o seek_v after_o light_n and_o sweetness_n see_v methinks_v they_o make_v i_o poor_a i_o stand_v amaze_v to_o see_v a_o soul_n to_o find_v herself_o desolate_a by_o consolation_n in_o desolation_n the_o inferior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n suffer_v but_o in_o consolation_n the_o superior_a part_n and_o more_o elevate_v but_o little_o know_v i_o perceive_v that_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n can_v be_v content_a and_o comfort_v but_o by_o the_o death_n of_o the_o sensual_a part_n and_o a_o separation_n from_o all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o the_o creature_n i_o shall_v therefore_o rather_o desire_v a_o state_n of_o desolation_n and_o fidelity_n therein_o than_o all_o the_o delicious_a gust_n of_o prayer_n though_o so_o elevate_v as_o to_o bring_v the_o soul_n to_o ravish_a ecstasy_n chap._n ii_o of_o the_o different_a sort_n of_o mental_a prayer_n i_o find_v a_o comparison_n which_o explicate_v very_o well_o the_o difference_n of_o ordinary_a prayer_n and_o prayer_n passive_n a_o man_n may_v see_v well_o enough_o the_o furniture_n of_o a_o chamber_n and_o the_o riches_n of_o a_o cabinet_n by_o strike_v fire_n and_o light_v a_o candle_n to_o view_v the_o particular_n or_o by_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n when_o we_o have_v nothing_o to_o do_v but_o to_o open_v our_o eye_n to_o behold_v those_o object_n meditation_n much_o resemble_v the_o first_o way_n of_o see_v with_o a_o candle_n perfect_a contemplation_n the_o second_o way_n of_o see_v by_o the_o sun_n because_o it_o be_v do_v not_o only_o without_o labour_n but_o all_o at_o once_o and_o with_o delight_n when_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n fail_v we_o we_o must_v supply_v it_o with_o a_o lamp_n or_o candle_n when_o god_n do_v not_o communicate_v himself_o by_o contemplation_n we_o must_v seek_v after_o he_o by_o meditation_n and_o be_v content_a with_o god_n gift_n whatever_o they_o be_v with_o peace_n and_o humility_n when_o god_n withdraw_v his_o passive_a light_n it_o be_v in_o vain_a to_o strive_v to_o retain_v it_o we_o must_v acquiess_v in_o his_o pleasure_n till_o it_o return_v again_o as_o he_o think_v good_a if_o god_n please_v to_o leave_v we_o in_o darkness_n without_o sun_n or_o candle_n it_o be_v a_o opportunity_n to_o practice_n humility_n and_o patience_n for_o we_o must_v desire_v nothing_o but_o god_n alone_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n he_o think_v best_o let_v a_o soul_n be_v never_o so_o perfect_a she_o be_v never_o continual_o elevate_v to_o a_o high_a degree_n of_o contemplation_n but_o more_o or_o less_o as_o it_o please_v god_n she_o must_v descend_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n and_o exercise_n of_o charity_n or_o to_o discursive_a meditation_n by_o application_n to_o god_n in_o the_o
little_a or_o no_o service_n but_o i_o rest_v content_v herein_o see_v god_n hereby_o do_v magnify_v his_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n to_o i_o i_o doubt_v not_o but_o there_o be_v many_o soul_n in_o heaven_n who_o have_v in_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n do_v little_a service_n for_o god_n as_o solitare_v in_o the_o desert_n and_o many_o person_n without_o talent_n and_o yet_o have_v high_a place_n in_o the_o mansion_n of_o eternity_n they_o spend_v all_o their_o time_n to_o purify_v their_o interiour_n by_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v from_o the_o infinite_a bounty_n of_o god_n and_o the_o service_n they_o render_v he_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o his_o name_n be_v only_o write_v in_o his_o omniscience_n but_o will_v be_v lay_v open_a to_o the_o world_n at_o the_o great_a day_n of_o manifestation_n chap._n v._o of_o the_o impediment_n of_o prayer_n i_o clear_o see_v and_o know_v by_o experience_n that_o the_o temporal_a affair_n of_o our_o oeconomy_n do_v not_o a_o little_a take_v we_o off_o from_o god_n we_o do_v ill_o in_o it_o yea_o it_o be_v our_o obligation_n it_o be_v please_v to_o god_n to_o manage_v our_o temporal_n with_o a_o good_a intention_n though_o it_o will_v be_v better_o if_o we_o can_v to_o lay_v aside_o these_o worldly_a distraction_n to_o spend_v our_o time_n only_o in_o god_n service_n and_o those_o who_o have_v a_o call_v from_o god_n to_o attend_v on_o he_o alone_o in_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n and_o contemplation_n can_v without_o be_v unfaithful_a to_o his_o grace_n continue_v in_o the_o solicitous_a distraction_n of_o worldly_a affair_n i_o must_v needs_o say_v that_o worldly_a business_n darken_v and_o hinder_v my_o soul_n in_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n and_o i_o will_v never_o spend_v time_n therein_o upon_o humane_a consideration_n but_o pure_o because_o god_n have_v so_o order_v it_o however_o it_o must_v be_v our_o care_n not_o to_o spend_v more_o time_n therein_o than_o necessity_n require_v too_o delicate_a diet_n though_o it_o may_v strengthen_v nature_n yet_o it_o weaken_v grace_n when_o the_o body_n be_v bring_v down_o by_o abstinence_n the_o soul_n be_v more_o vigorous_a in_o her_o elevation_n to_o god_n i_o find_v this_o true_a in_o i_o by_o experience_n a_o soul_n must_v be_v very_o well_o ground_v in_o grace_n that_o among_o temporal_a employment_n and_o worldly_a care_n can_v keep_v herself_o up_o in_o fervour_n and_o purity_n she_o meet_v with_o a_o thousand_o occasion_n to_o move_v she_o to_o anger_n impatience_n sadness_n and_o vain_a joy_n and_o though_o she_o do_v not_o give_v way_n to_o they_o yet_o she_o be_v sensible_a of_o they_o and_o this_o must_v needs_o more_o or_o less_o disturb_v she_o interiour_n peace_n whereby_o she_o be_v unite_v to_o god_n her_o happiness_n a_o little_a thing_n will_v hinder_v a_o soul_n from_o raise_v herself_o to_o contemplation_n and_o a_o less_o matter_n will_v somewhat_o darken_v she_o when_o elevate_v because_o the_o least_o emotion_n of_o spirit_n will_v indispose_v she_o to_o receive_v divine_a impression_n therefore_o a_o man_n of_o prayer_n must_v be_v a_o man_n dead_a and_o mortify_v for_o that_o be_v not_o pure_a prayer_n which_o do_v not_o work_v in_o we_o a_o victory_n over_o our_o passion_n and_o vicious_a inclination_n and_o bring_v we_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o all_o christian_a virtue_n i_o see_v now_o more_o clear_o than_o ever_o that_o the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n do_v not_o persevere_v and_o gather_v strength_n but_o in_o those_o who_o be_v dead_a to_o sensuality_n austere_a to_o themselves_o penitent_a and_o disengage_v from_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n it_o be_v true_a as_o for_o corporal_a austerity_n a_o tender_a complexion_n must_v follow_v the_o council_n of_o a_o director_n but_o common_o we_o be_v too_o indulgent_a to_o ourselves_o and_o far_o from_o the_o practice_n of_o great_a penitent_n who_o be_v very_o severe_a to_o themselves_o and_o also_o great_a contemplative_n we_o deceive_v ourselves_o if_o we_o think_v to_o enter_v into_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n and_o take_v delight_n in_o worldly_a thing_n though_o in_o rigour_n this_o may_v in_o some_o sort_n be_v permit_v to_o candidate_n of_o devotion_n yet_o not_o to_o proficient_n in_o who_o the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n and_o conformity_n to_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_a aught_o to_o be_v whole_o predominant_a for_o it_o be_v our_o duty_n to_o live_v conformable_o to_o that_o state_n where_o god_n have_v put_v we_o gerson_n say_v very_o well_o if_o we_o refuse_v exterior_a consolation_n we_o shall_v receive_v interiour_n the_o reason_n hereof_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v this_o because_o interiour_n consolation_n participate_v of_o the_o purity_n of_o their_o source_n which_o be_v the_o union_n of_o god_n with_o the_o soul_n and_o will_v not_o permit_v any_o mixture_n with_o impurity_n and_o imperfection_n for_o sensual_a joy_n and_o consolation_n be_v earthly_a impure_a and_o imperfect_a and_o consequent_o be_v contrary_a to_o the_o spirit_n of_o grace_n which_o make_v the_o soul_n pure_a and_o penitent_a and_o mortify_v to_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n moreover_o interiour_n consolation_n be_v slender_a participation_n of_o those_o infinite_a delight_n which_o god_n have_v in_o himself_o of_o himself_o and_o he_o be_v jealous_a of_o such_o favour_n not_o communicate_v they_o but_o to_o a_o soul_n entire_o belove_v that_o take_v no_o delight_n but_o in_o he_o alone_o but_o when_o earthly_a consolation_n enter_v into_o a_o soul_n they_o draw_v she_o partly_o from_o god_n and_o so_o god_n withdraw_v his_o favour_n from_o she_o for_o this_o reason_n the_o saint_n who_o will_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n mortify_v themselves_o without_o reserve_n as_o much_o as_o humane_a weakness_n will_v permit_v that_o no_o sensual_a or_o worldly_a pleasure_n may_v have_v any_o part_n in_o their_o affection_n but_o god_n alone_o take_v courage_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o embrace_v the_o cross_n and_o follow_v jesus_n christ_n who_o will_v conduct_v we_o through_o the_o garden_n of_o his_o delight_n let_v we_o not_o trouble_v ourselves_o with_o worldly_a affair_n unless_o we_o know_v it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n for_o otherwise_o we_o shall_v find_v affliction_n of_o spirit_n and_o decay_v in_o spirituality_n thrice_o happy_a be_v he_o who_o shun_v multiplicity_n for_o this_o will_v dispose_v he_o to_o pure_a love_n many_o thing_n seem_v to_o we_o necessary_a which_o serve_v but_o to_o entertain_v the_o corruption_n of_o nature_n still_o work_v in_o we_o if_o god_n shall_v severe_o examine_v all_o our_o action_n perhaps_o he_o will_v hardly_o find_v one_o in_o all_o respect_n well_o please_v to_o he_o we_o too_o much_o follow_v nature_n and_o our_o humane_a inclination_n if_o grace_n set_v we_o a_o work_n we_o hardly_o go_v through_o with_o it_o but_o nature_n creep_v in_o some_o way_n or_o other_o to_o sully_v our_o action_n what_o be_v pure_o natural_a can_v be_v meritorious_a all_o merit_n proceed_v from_o a_o principle_n of_o grace_n and_o therefore_o no_o action_n but_o what_o have_v a_o influence_n from_o grace_n can_v dispose_v we_o to_o a_o union_n with_o god_n o_o how_o rare_a a_o thing_n be_v pure_a virtue_n that_o which_o seem_v best_a be_v not_o for_o the_o most_o part_n without_o some_o blemish_n those_o who_o have_v illustration_n from_o heaven_n discover_v these_o impurity_n other_o in_o the_o dark_a see_v nothing_o but_o grosser_n fault_n and_o imperfection_n from_o all_o this_o we_o may_v conclude_v that_o there_o be_v principal_o four_o great_a obstacle_n which_o hinder_v for_o the_o most_o part_n the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n 1._o to_o engage_v ourselves_o in_o worldly_a affair_n more_o than_o the_o order_n of_o god_n require_v 2._o to_o be_v too_o delicate_a and_o use_v very_o little_a corporal_a austerity_n 3._o to_o practise_v little_a either_o interiour_n or_o exterior_a retreat_n and_o to_o have_v no_o love_n for_o recollection_n and_o for_o solitude_n 4._o want_v of_o zeal_n and_o courage_n in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n and_o so_o live_v a_o life_n mere_o humane_a by_o follow_v our_o naetural_a inclination_n but_o he_o shall_v never_o be_v a_o man_n of_o prayer_n who_o do_v not_o live_v a_o supernatural_a life_n and_o practise_v all_o christian_a virtue_n with_o a_o faithful_a and_o generou_n resolution_n and_o bless_a be_v he_o who_o by_o his_o constancy_n in_o spiritual_a exercise_n have_v bring_v his_o soul_n to_o such_o a_o temper_n that_o it_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n as_o easy_a for_o he_o to_o pray_v as_o breath_n hic_fw-la accipiet_fw-la benedictionem_fw-la à _fw-la domino_fw-la &_o misericordiam_fw-la à _fw-la deo_fw-la salutari_fw-la svo_fw-la quia_fw-la haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la quaerentium_fw-la dominum_fw-la he_o that_o thus_o seek_v god_n while_o he_o may_v be_v find_v shall_v enjoy_v he_o there_o where_o he_o can_v never_o be_v lose_v chap._n
by_o jesus_n christ_n there_o be_v no_o other_o mean_n to_o attain_v salvation_n 6._o that_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n which_o consist_v in_o the_o perfect_a knowledge_n and_o pure_a love_n of_o the_o divine_a person_n be_v the_o true_a model_n of_o perfect_a prayer_n these_o deep_o consider_v be_v very_o instrumental_a to_o elevate_v a_o contemplative_a soul_n to_o so_o high_a a_o pitch_n that_o sometimos_fw-la she_o in_o a_o wonderful_a manner_n participate_v of_o that_o life_n eternal_a which_o be_v in_o god_n himself_o i_o have_v make_v a_o resolution_n to_o desire_v of_o god_n that_o my_o prayer_n may_v be_v altogether_o intellectual_a to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v not_o feel_v such_o sensible_a gust_n of_o heavenly_a consolation_n which_o prejudice_n nature_n these_o be_v but_o sweet_a baiâ—s_n for_o self-love_n which_o sully_n the_o purity_n of_o prayer_n and_o diminish_v the_o contemplative_a attention_n which_o continue_v more_o strong_a and_o vigorous_a when_o keep_v on_o the_o point_n of_o the_o spirit_n whereby_o the_o fire_n of_o divine_a love_n burn_v bright_a and_o with_o more_o constant_a flame_n this_o be_v that_o continual_a union_n which_o be_v the_o object_n of_o perfection_n and_o whatever_o hinder_v this_o aught_o to_o be_v suspect_v as_o be_v sensible_a gust_n of_o devotion_n in_o inferior_a nature_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o therefore_o entire_o give_v up_o ourselves_o to_o god_n in_o prayer_n to_o receive_v from_o he_o such_o impression_n as_o he_o think_v best_o let_v our_o chief_a care_n be_v full_o to_o submit_v ourselves_o to_o he_o and_o to_o be_v disengage_v from_o all_o worldly_a thing_n and_o accept_v with_o thankfulness_n whatever_o he_o give_v we_o if_o he_o give_v we_o nothing_o let_v nothing_o content_v we_o and_o peaceable_o acquiesce_v in_o union_n with_o his_o divine_a will._n a_o soul_n faithful_a in_o the_o state_n of_o privation_n will_v soon_o or_o late_a as_o god_n see_v best_a be_v raise_v to_o pure_a union_n and_o enjoyment_n on_o the_o lofty_a wing_n of_o contemplation_n chap._n ix_o of_o the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n this_o prayer_n be_v a_o bare_a reflection_n or_o simple_a remembrance_n of_o god_n who_o be_v believe_v by_o naked_a faith_n as_o he_o be_v see_v and_o know_v by_o the_o light_n of_o glory_n it_o be_v the_o same_o object_n here_o and_o there_o but_o know_v by_o the_o soul_n in_o a_o different_a manner_n the_o way_n of_o know_v god_n here_o be_v but_o learned_a ignorance_n earth_n be_v the_o land_n of_o believe_v heaven_n of_o see_v to_o see_v god_n as_o we_o be_v see_v of_o he_o and_o understand_v all_o divine_a mystery_n be_v reserve_v for_o the_o light_n of_o glory_n here_o we_o must_v walk_v by_o the_o obscurity_n of_o faith_n this_o faith_n must_v be_v naked_a without_o image_n or_o representation_n simple_a and_o without_o discourse_n universal_a without_o a_o distinct_a consideration_n of_o particular_n the_o operation_n of_o the_o will_n be_v conform_v to_o that_o of_o the_o understanding_n naked_a simple_a universal_a spiritual_a independent_a on_o the_o sense_n we_o must_v expect_v great_a combat_n in_o this_o way_n from_o our_o spirit_n which_o will_v still_o be_v work_v and_o rely_v on_o creature_n but_o though_o it_o be_v much_o distaste_v by_o the_o understand_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n yet_o she_o must_v strive_v to_o die_v to_o her_o own_o operation_n and_o willing_o entertain_v what_o help_v she_o in_o this_o combat_n as_o aridity_n privation_n desolation_n which_o at_o last_o leave_v the_o soul_n in_o exercise_n of_o pure_a faith_n whereby_o god_n be_v know_v in_o a_o high_a manner_n than_o those_o light_n which_o serve_v as_o a_o medium_fw-la between_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n for_o this_o union_n of_o our_o spirit_n with_o god_n by_o pure_a faith_n be_v immediate_a and_o so_o more_o elevate_v the_o will_v also_o must_v die_v to_o what_o ever_o be_v not_o god_n to_o live_v only_o in_o he_o and_o to_o he_o by_o pure_a love_n for_o the_o life_n 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faith_n be_v a_o participation_n of_o the_o eternal_a wisdom_n she_o only_o conduct_n we_o with_o true_a assurance_n for_o her_o light_n though_o dark_a be_v certain_a and_o their_o obscurity_n do_v incomparable_o transcend_v the_o clear_a evidence_n of_o natural_a reason_n moreover_o to_o make_v prayer_n more_o intellectual_a and_o that_o nature_n may_v have_v no_o hand_n in_o it_o we_o must_v leave_v off_o some_o thing_n which_o usual_o do_v raise_v our_o heart_n to_o god_n with_o a_o sensible_a devotion_n as_o music_n rich_a ornament_n devout_a picture_n in_o church_n and_o the_o like_a this_o be_v good_a and_o profitable_a in_o the_o begin_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n and_o some_o time_n after_o but_o when_o a_o soul_n have_v attain_v purity_n of_o prayer_n there_o be_v no_o need_n to_o take_v her_o nourishment_n that_o be_v her_o knowledge_n and_o love_n but_o from_o pure_a faith_n and_o supernatural_a light_n infuse_v into_o she_o when_o we_o take_v not_o good_a heed_n we_o 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sin_n but_o even_o from_o passion_n and_o occasion_n thereof_o and_o whatever_o may_v induce_v we_o to_o evil_a in_o a_o word_n we_o detest_v sin_n above_o all_o thing_n detestable_a in_o ourselves_o and_o other_o also_o interior_o bewail_v the_o unhappiness_n of_o our_o mortal_a condition_n in_o which_o we_o so_o often_o offend_v god_n and_o be_v in_o danger_n to_o lose_v he_o i_o know_v a_o virtuous_a soul_n who_o god_n have_v make_v so_o sensible_a of_o the_o horror_n of_o sin_n because_o injurious_a to_o god_n that_o she_o perfect_o detest_v it_o with_o ardent_a desire_n never_o more_o to_o commit_v any_o she_o do_v with_o continual_a prayer_n and_o tear_n implore_v the_o divine_a majesty_n to_o preserve_v she_o from_o it_o offer_v her_o self_n to_o suffer_v any_o thing_n yea_o the_o pain_n of_o purgatory_n or_o hell_n it_o self_n if_o it_o be_v necessary_a rather_o than_o commit_v a_o mortal_a sin_n to_o which_o no_o evil_a can_v be_v compare_v she_o understand_v that_o sin_n be_v a_o rebellion_n against_o god_n and_o injurious_a to_o he_o but_o that_o all_o the_o pain_n we_o can_v endure_v either_o in_o time_n or_o eternity_n be_v but_o evil_a to_o the_o creature_n and_o all_o creature_n be_v as_o nothing_o in_o comparison_n of_o god_n all_o the_o evil_a of_o punishment_n they_o be_v capable_a to_o endure_v have_v less_o malignity_n in_o it_o than_o one_o only_a sin_n and_o see_v the_o divine_a justice_n have_v not_o ordain_v the_o pain_n of_o purgatory_n or_o hell_n but_o for_o the_o chastisement_n of_o sin_n commit_v she_o desire_v they_o may_v work_v in_o she_o this_o good_a effect_n as_o to_o serve_v she_o for_o a_o remedy_n against_o sin_n so_o as_o never_o to_o commit_v it_o say_v to_o god_n lord_n you_o just_o punish_v sinner_n because_o they_o have_v offend_v your_o infinite_a majesty_n punish_v i_o in_o mercy_n that_o i_o may_v not_o offend_v you_o in_o other_o the_o pain_n be_v the_o punishment_n of_o sin_n precede_v and_o the_o great_a be_v the_o 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can_v not_o proceed_v but_o from_o the_o pure_a love_n of_o god_n and_o from_o the_o perfect_a hatred_n of_o sin_n and_o in_o both_o respect_n must_v needs_o be_v in_o a_o high_a degree_n well_o please_v to_o god_n and_o we_o may_v very_o well_o believe_v that_o god_n bestow_v on_o such_o a_o soul_n very_o wonderful_a grace_n chap._n ii_o to_o keep_v a_o even_a pace_n with_o grace_n neither_o out-running_a it_o nor_o follow_v too_o slow_o it_o be_v our_o unhappiness_n that_o either_o we_o do_v not_o act_v answerable_o to_o the_o full_a power_n of_o what_o grace_n we_o have_v receive_v by_o the_o repugnance_n of_o our_o sensuality_n or_o by_o our_o natural_a levity_n and_o inconstancy_n of_o mind_n or_o on_o the_o contrary_a when_o the_o heart_n be_v heat_v with_o the_o fervour_n of_o devotion_n we_o will_v force_v grace_n beyond_o her_o strength_n by_o undertake_v extraordinary_a exercise_n and_o austerity_n prejudicial_a to_o we_o it_o be_v our_o duty_n to_o shun_v both_o these_o extremity_n to_o correspond_v faithful_o to_o what_o the_o grace_n we_o have_v can_v do_v and_o also_o to_o be_v humble_v in_o consideration_n of_o that_o little_a we_o have_v receive_v offer_v up_o to_o god_n those_o motion_n of_o natural_a love_n which_o carry_v we_o to_o thing_n extraordinary_a above_o our_o ability_n not_o but_o that_o we_o ought_v daily_o to_o desire_v the_o increase_n of_o grace_n and_o divine_a love_n in_o we_o but_o it_o must_v be_v with_o humility_n and_o resignation_n without_o interiour_n disquiet_v well_o know_v that_o we_o can_v never_o advance_v in_o grace_n by_o the_o strength_n of_o nature_n what_o hinder_v we_o from_o full_o correspond_v to_o the_o motion_n of_o grace_n be_v some_o secret_a attache_n to_o creature_n our_o affection_n be_v not_o thorough_o purify_v for_o when_o grace_n act_v in_o a_o soul_n whole_o disengaged_n from_o the_o world_n she_o give_v up_o herself_o full_o to_o god_n conduct_n and_o move_v towards_o he_o as_o her_o centre_n with_o more_o violence_n than_o a_o stone_n hold_v in_o the_o air_n be_v let_v go_v will_v descend_v to_o the_o earth_n i_o say_v with_o more_o violence_n for_o god_n be_v a_o centre_n of_o infinite_a goodness_n have_v more_o powerful_a attraction_n than_o the_o finite_a centre_n of_o the_o earth_n the_o near_a any_o thing_n approach_v to_o its_o centre_n the_o fast_a it_o move_v so_o the_o soul_n hasten_v to_o the_o great_a union_n with_o god_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o she_o approach_v to_o he_o with_o inflame_a affection_n but_o we_o must_v have_v a_o care_v not_o to_o advance_v too_o speedy_o to_o the_o elevate_a state_n of_o perfection_n whether_o as_o yet_o the_o grace_n we_o have_v do_v not_o invite_v we_o oftentimes_o we_o will_v rather_o regulate_v ourselves_o by_o the_o grace_n we_o see_v in_o other_o than_o our_o own_o for_o observe_v they_o do_v wonderful_o well_o in_o perfect_a themselves_o and_o profit_v other_o we_o will_v needs_o follow_v their_o example_n and_o this_o may_v soon_o proceed_v from_o a_o natural_a desire_n of_o our_o own_o excellence_n and_o esteem_n then_o from_o a_o motion_n of_o grace_n and_o to_o please_v god_n and_o so_o we_o put_v ourselves_o out_o of_o the_o way_n go_v rather_o back_o than_o advance_v we_o will_v be_v follow_v their_o way_n and_o not_o walk_v in_o that_o where_o grace_n have_v put_v we_o it_o concern_v we_o therefore_o every_o one_o to_o observe_v and_o follow_v faithful_o the_o attract_v of_o that_o gracethey_n have_v receive_v for_o what_o have_v we_o to_o do_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o other_o which_o make_v a_o glorious_a show_n and_o to_o which_o we_o have_v not_o a_o call_v from_o god_n the_o beauty_n of_o christianity_n be_v not_o in_o the_o outside_o for_o the_o great_a saint_n seem_v sometime_o more_o despicable_a than_o other_o but_o interior_a grace_n omnis_fw-la gloria_fw-la filiae_fw-la regis_fw-la ab_fw-la intus_fw-la which_o work_v wonderful_o in_o they_o make_v they_o in_o love_n with_o contempt_n and_o poverty_n with_o pain_n and_o suffering_n whereby_o they_o become_v like_a to_o jesus_n poor_a despise_a suffer_v and_o forsake_a behold_v herein_o the_o essence_n life_n and_o heart_n of_o christianity_n for_o it_o be_v in_o his_o suffer_a saint_n that_o god_n work_v the_o most_o admirable_a effect_n of_o grace_n and_o he_o take_v the_o great_a delight_n in_o they_o because_o they_o be_v so_o many_o copy_n of_o his_o well-beloved_a son_n in_o small_a character_n but_o here_o lie_v the_o mystery_n that_o a_o soul_n suffer_v herself_o to_o be_v in_o the_o hand_n of_o grace_n as_o soft_a wax_n pliable_a to_o her_o impression_n and_o faithful_a to_o follow_v her_o direction_n to_o be_v faithful_a i_o say_v to_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o motion_n of_o grace_n be_v all_o in_o all_o in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n chap._n iii_o that_o a_o soul_n must_v whole_o give_v herself_o up_o to_o god_n it_o high_o concern_v we_o to_o keep_v close_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n and_o not_o confide_v in_o our_o own_o ability_n which_o may_v quite_o destroy_v the_o work_n of_o god_n in_o we_o what_o can_v a_o poor_a creature_n do_v if_o the_o sovereign_a creator_n work_v not_o his_o will_n in_o we_o all_o the_o solicitude_n and_o contrivance_n on_o our_o part_n be_v not_o so_o prevalent_a as_o to_o abandon_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n by_o who_o grace_n we_o be_v what_o we_o be_v and_o without_o which_o we_o be_v nothing_o but_o frailty_n and_o infirmity_n it_o be_v best_a with_o we_o when_o we_o have_v in_o our_o prospect_n and_o affection_n god_n alone_o and_o his_o good_a pleasure_n be_v content_a with_o whatever_o he_o please_v to_o give_v either_o for_o soul_n or_o body_n in_o this_o state_n a_o soul_n go_v on_o very_a well_o in_o all_o affair_n for_o a_o indifferency_n to_o
in_o their_o hearr_n to_o engage_v they_o efficacious_o in_o his_o love_n and_o service_n so_o be_v it_o amen_n the_o content_n book_n i._o of_o the_o love_n of_o humiliation_n which_o be_v the_o solid_a foundation_n of_o all_o christian_a perfection_n chap._n 1._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o attain_v christian_a perfection_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o humility_n pag._n 1._o chap._n 2._o the_o foundation_n of_o christian_a humility_n 5_o chap._n 3._o that_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v his_o own_o nothing_o 8_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o great_a saint_n have_v attain_v to_o perfection_n by_o a_o singular_a love_n of_o self-contempt_n and_o abjection_n 11_o chap._n 5._o that_o we_o have_v only_o so_o much_o of_o the_o true_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n as_o we_o have_v a_o inclination_n to_o abjection_n 14_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o own_o nothing_o inspire_v we_o with_o self-contempt_n and_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 17_o chap._n 7._o that_o god_n be_v glorify_v by_o our_o annihilation_n 20_o chap._n 8._o that_o the_o soul_n be_v rich_a when_o she_o possess_v the_o love_n of_o self-contempt_n 23_o chap._n 9_o what_o profit_n we_o draw_v from_o humiliation_n 26_o chap._n 10._o the_o way_n how_o to_o arrive_v to_o perfect_a humiliation_n 29_o chap._n 11._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o leave_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n to_o become_v annihilate_v 32_o chap._n 12._o that_o we_o must_v renounce_v our_o sense_n and_o humane_a reason_n to_o love_v humiliation_n 34_o chap._n 13._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 14._o that_o a_o soul_n espouse_v jesus_n christ_n espouse_n his_o cross_n and_o suffering_n 41_o chap._n 15._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 16._o to_o be_v content_a with_o abjection_n after_o our_o fault_n repair_v the_o injury_n to_o god_n and_o make_v up_o our_o ruin_n 46_o chap._n 17._o consideration_n upon_o tho_o vileness_n of_o this_o corruptible_a body_n 51_o chap._n 18._o consideration_n upon_o the_o natural_a inclination_n we_o have_v to_o evil_n 54_o book_n ii_o of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n which_o be_v the_o life_n of_o all_o true_a christian_n chap._n 1._o the_o idea_n or_o description_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 75_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o high_a esteem_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v of_o the_o christian_a life_n 60_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o ought_v with_o st._n paul_n to_o convert_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n 63_o chap._n 4._o of_o the_o alliance_n we_o must_v make_v with_o the_o holy_a folly_n of_o the_o cross_n 67_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o ought_v to_o conform_v our_o interiour_n to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ._n 70_o chap._n 6._o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n 74_o chap._n 7._o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supertural_a life_n 77_o chap._n 8._o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 80_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 81_o chap._n 10._o our_o great_a happiness_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o christianity_n 87_o chap._n 11._o that_o truth_n be_v only_o find_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n the_o rest_n be_v vanity_n 91_o chap._n 12._o there_o be_v many_o way_n in_o christianity_n all_o which_o be_v according_a to_o the_o life_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 94_o chap._n 13_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n 98_o chap._n 14._o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 101_o chap._n 15._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o humane_a prudence_n 105_o chap._n 16._o the_o conclusion_n that_o we_o ought_v to_o apply_v ourselves_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 108_o book_n iii_o of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o divine_a providence_n chap._n 1._o our_o first_o thought_n in_o the_o morning_n ought_v to_o be_v that_o god_n be_v present_a 111_o chap._n 2._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n make_v we_o little_a value_n the_o absence_n of_o the_o creature_n 114_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o can_v and_o aught_o to_o conserve_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o occasion_n of_o extroversion_n 118_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v clear_o see_v in_o a_o purify_a interior_a 121_o chap._n 5._o that_o our_o union_n with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n aught_o to_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o our_o action_n 125_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o we_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o suffer_v and_o enjoy_v 128_o chap._n 7._o that_o the_o divine_a presence_n make_v we_o to_o love_v prayer_n or_o action_n as_o best_o please_v god_n 132_o chap._n 8._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n bring_v we_o into_o a_o disesteem_a of_o other_o thing_n 136_o chap._n 9_o where_o we_o may_v best_o find_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n 139_o chap._n 10._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o divine_a providence_n 143_o chap._n 11._o to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n 146_o chap._n 12._o we_o ought_v to_o comport_v ourselves_o with_o a_o respectful_a reverence_n in_o god_n presence_n 149_o chap._n 13._o to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n spirit_n 153_o chap._n 14._o how_o the_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o ourselves_o to_o god_n make_v we_o find_v a_o paradise_n upon_o earth_n 157_o chap_n 15._o how_o the_o beauty_n that_o be_v in_o the_o order_n of_o god_n content_n a_o soul_n 161_o chap._n 16._o the_o practice_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o the_o seven_o day_n of_o the_o week_n 163_o the_o first_o day_n the_o be_v of_o god_n 164_o the_o second_o day_n the_o omnipotency_n of_o god_n 166_o the_o three_o day_n of_o the_o wisdom_n of_o god_n 167_o the_o four_o day_n the_o patience_n of_o god_n 169_o the_o five_o day_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 174_o the_o six_o day_n the_o justice_n of_o god_n 172_o the_o seven_o day_n the_o mercy_n of_o god_n 173_o book_n iv_o of_o solitude_n and_o the_o practice_n of_o two_o excellent_a retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n chap._n 1._o of_o the_o beauty_n of_o christian_a solitude_n 175_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o necessity_n of_o solitude_n 179_o chap._n 3._o the_o difficulty_n of_o solitude_n 182_o chap._n 4._o the_o occupation_n of_o solitude_n 186_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o may_v put_v our_o soul_n and_o sense_n into_o a_o solitude_n 189_o chap._n 6._o a_o solitude_n or_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o infallible_a mystery_n of_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n 192_o first_o day_n 195_o second_o day_n 199_o three_o day_n 203_o four_o day_n 207_o five_o day_n 211_o six_o day_n 215_o seven_o day_n 219_o eight_o day_n 224_o nine_o day_n 228_o ten_o day_n 232_o chap._n 6._o another_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o adorable_a person_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 236_o first_o day_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n ibid._n second_o day_n jesus_n a_o infant_n 241_o three_o day_n jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a 245_o four_o day_n jesus_n the_o fountain_n of_o grace_n and_o piety_n 249_o five_o day_n jesus_n zealator_n of_o soul_n 253_o six_o day_n jesus_n contemplate_v and_o enjoy_v 257_o seven_o day_n jesus_n our_o exemplar_n and_o guide_n 262_o eight_o day_n jesus_n our_o light_n 266_o nine_o day_n jesus_n suffer_v and_o die_v 280_o ten_o day_n jesus_n rise_v from_o death_n and_o gloririous_a 285_o book_n v._o of_o communion_n and_o its_o effect_n chap._n 1._o of_o preparation_n before_o communion_n 291_o chap._n 2._o to_o communicate_v worthy_o we_o must_v put_v ourselves_o in_o a_o state_n conformable_a to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n 294_o chap_n 3._o to_o receive_v the_o communion_n worthy_o we_o must_v imitate_v those_o action_n which_o jesus_n christ_n practise_v when_o he_o institute_v it_o 298_o chap._n 4._o interiour_n entertainment_n during_o communion_n 303_o chap._n 5._o other_o entertainment_n to_o give_v thanks_o after_o communion_n 306_o chap._n 6._o another_o method_n of_o thanksgiving_n after_o communion_n 309_o chap._n 7._o the_o first_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o beget_v in_o we_o the_o love_n of_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n 313_o chap._n 8._o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n 316_o chap._n 9_o the_o second_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o transform_v we_o 319_o chap._n 10._o the_o three_o effect_n of_o communion_n which_o be_v the_o perfect_a and_o consummate_a union_n 323_o chap._n 11._o the_o four_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o confer_v the_o high_a love_n 327_o chap._n 12._o the_o five_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o give_v strength_n and_o perseverance_n in_o the_o service_n
of_o god_n 332_o book_n vi_o of_o interiour_n and_o exterior_a cross_n chap._n 1._o that_o we_o must_v have_v a_o high_a esteem_n for_o cross_n 337_o chap._n 2._o that_o we_o must_v have_v a_o love_n for_o cross_n 341_o chap_n 3._o that_o we_o must_v have_v a_o great_a love_n for_o cross_n 444_o chap._n 4._o god_n be_v please_v to_o send_v we_o cross_n in_o the_o place_n of_o persecution_n that_o our_o life_n may_v be_v a_o continual_a martyrdom_n 347_o chap._n 5._o of_o exterior_a cross_n by_o the_o loss_n of_o good_n chap._n 6._o disposition_n during_o sickness_n where_o the_o body_n suffer_v and_o the_o soul_n rejoice_v chap._n 7._o other_o disposition_n in_o the_o time_n of_o sickness_n where_o body_n and_o soul_n be_v on_o the_o cross_n 357_o chap._n 8._o the_o interiour_n cross_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o obscurity_n 360_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o heaviness_n of_o interior_a cross_n 364_o chap._n 10._o the_o great_a fruit_n we_o may_v reap_v from_o interior_a cross_n 368_o chap._n 11._o that_o we_o must_v bear_v patient_o our_o imperfection_n 371_o book_n vii_o of_o ordinary_a prayer_n and_o contemplation_n chap._n 1._o what_o esteem_v we_o ought_v to_o have_v for_o prayer_n 377_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o different_a sort_n of_o mental_a prayer_n 380_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o what_o manner_n of_o prayer_n god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v we_o 384_o chap._n 4._o that_o above_o all_o thing_n it_o be_v necessary_a to_o practice_v prayer_n 387_o chap._n 5._o of_o the_o impediment_n of_o prayer_n 392_o chap._n 6._o of_o the_o mean_n that_o facilitate_v the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n 396_o chap._n 7._o that_o we_o must_v not_o presume_v of_o ourselves_o to_o attempt_v any_o manner_n of_o prayer_n but_o what_o be_v ordinary_a 400_o chap._n 8._o how_o to_o pass_v from_o ordinary_a prayer_n to_o contemplation_n 404_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n 407_o chap._n 10_o of_o the_o sacred_a darkness_n of_o prayer_n 411_o chap._n 11._o of_o the_o light_n of_o prayer_n 414_o chap._n 12._o of_o passive_a prayer_n 414_o chap._n 13._o of_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n 421_o chap._n 14._o of_o the_o hunger_a of_o the_o soul_n after_o god_n and_o of_o she_o be_v satiate_v with_o he_o 425_o chap._n 15._o of_o infuse_a prayer_n 429_o chap._n 16._o of_o prayer_n of_o quiet_a 433_o chap._n 17._o of_o the_o intimate_a union_n of_o the_o love_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o prayer_n 437_o chap._n 18._o of_o interior_a silence_n where_o god_n speak_v and_o be_v hear_v 441_o chap._n 19_o of_o most_o purify_v contemplation_n 444_o chap._n 20._o of_o the_o different_a caress_n god_n vouchsafe_v a_o soul_n in_o prayer_n 448_o book_n viii_o some_o maxim_n of_o great_a importance_n to_o conduct_v we_o in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n chap._n 1._o to_o have_v above_o all_o thing_n a_o extreme_a horror_n of_o sin_n 453_o chap._n 2._o to_o keep_v a_o even_a pace_n with_o grace_n neither_o out-running_a it_o nor_o follow_v too_o slow_o 456_o chap._n 3._o that_o a_o soul_n must_v whole_o give_v herself_o up_o to_o god_n 459_o chap._n 4._o we_o ought_v to_o make_v it_o our_o business_n to_o be_v content_a to_o suffer_v 461_o chap._n 5._o to_o renounce_v or_o self_n whole_o and_o strive_v against_o our_o proper_a inclination_n 463_o chap._n 6._o how_o to_o comport_v ourselves_o well_o in_o superiority_n 466_o chap._n 7._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v our_o intention_n purify_v from_o all_o self-interest_n 469_o chap._n 8._o a_o conference_n clear_v many_o difficulty_n touch_v prayer_n 471_o the_o interiour_n christian_n book_n i._o of_o the_o love_n of_o humiliation_n which_o be_v the_o solid_a foundation_n of_o all_o christian_a perfection_n chap._n i._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o attain_v christian_a perfection_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o humility_n let_v we_o endeavour_v after_o perfection_n not_o because_o it_o be_v a_o sublime_a and_o elevate_a condition_n but_o because_o it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n we_o ought_v not_o to_o set_v upon_o the_o practice_n of_o piety_n by_o a_o motive_n of_o grandeur_n and_o to_o become_v great_a saint_n but_o only_o to_o do_v what_o god_n will_v and_o expect_v from_o we_o and_o rest_v therewith_o content_a and_o satisfy_v our_o happiness_n consist_v in_o a_o constant_a dependence_n on_o his_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n with_o a_o perfect_a submission_n and_o resignation_n thereunto_o i_o must_v be_v content_a with_o my_o condition_n whatever_o it_o be_v see_v it_o be_v what_o god_n expect_v from_o i_o and_o it_o be_v no_o small_a presumption_n to_o assume_v to_o ourselves_o what_o great_a saint_n have_v find_v in_o the_o practice_n of_o piety_n god_n call_v some_o person_n to_o glorious_a performance_n other_o he_o place_v in_o a_o low_a rank_n in_o all_o this_o we_o must_v suffer_v he_o to_o work_v his_o will_n upon_o we_o and_o receive_v with_o thankfulness_n his_o divine_a impression_n whether_o great_a or_o little_a it_o be_v enough_o for_o we_o that_o they_o come_v from_o god_n this_o be_v the_o way_n god_n call_v we_o to_o walk_v in_o a_o way_n sublime_a pleasant_a full_a of_o peace_n in_o which_o we_o desire_v nothing_o but_o to_o please_v god_n it_o concern_v we_o to_o take_v whatever_o he_o give_v with_o simplicity_n of_o heart_n be_v it_o never_o so_o little_a it_o be_v certain_o more_o than_o we_o deserve_v to_o be_v annihilate_v in_o god_n be_v to_o will_v nothing_o but_o what_o god_n will_v and_o in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v otherwise_o we_o seek_v ourselves_o and_o our_o own_o satisfaction_n and_o not_o pure_o god_n and_o his_o good_a pleasure_n we_o must_v labour_v for_o perfection_n with_o a_o spirit_n whole_o dis-engaged_n from_o all_o self-interest_n to_o suffer_v to_o live_v poor_a and_o despise_a be_v the_o only_a way_n among_o infinite_a other_o mean_n the_o eternal_a father_n make_v choice_n of_o for_o we_o to_o attain_v to_o glory_n and_o regain_v those_o excellency_n adam_n lose_v for_o himself_o and_o we_o by_o sin_n this_o be_v his_o design_n from_o eternity_n his_o son_n in_o the_o fullness_n of_o time_n embrace_v the_o cross_n with_o affection_n and_o be_v inflame_v with_o the_o desire_n of_o suffer_v value_v the_o cross_n as_o a_o thing_n of_o great_a excellency_n be_v the_o altar_n choose_v for_o the_o life-giving_a sacrifice_n by_o his_o heavenly_a father_n prefer_v the_o glory_n and_o the_o will_n of_o god_n before_o the_o natural_a inclination_n of_o his_o humanity_n which_o have_v a_o repugnancy_n in_o the_o sensitive_a part_n thereof_o to_o pain_n and_o suffering_n this_o be_v evident_a from_o that_o of_o the_o evangelist_n pater_n si_fw-la possibile_fw-la est_fw-la transe_n at_o etc._n etc._n father_n if_o it_o be_v possible_a let_v this_o cup_n pass_v from_o i_o yet_o not_o my_o will_n but_o thou_o be_v fulfil_v and_o that_o of_o the_o psalmist_n sacrificium_fw-la &_o oblationem_fw-la noluisti_fw-la etc._n etc._n thou_o will_v not_o have_v sacrifice_n or_o oblation_n but_o thou_o have_v prepare_v a_o body_n for_o i_o and_o behold_v i_o come_v to_o do_v thy_o will_n and_o so_o he_o do_v run_v his_o course_n with_o joy_n though_o full_a of_o suffering_n because_o he_o know_v it_o be_v the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o his_o father_n wherefore_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o welove_a and_o esteem_v the_o cross_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v we_o participate_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o christ_n and_o please_v his_o heavenly_a father_n for_o to_o suffer_v be_v to_o sacrifice_v to_o god_n our_o pleasure_n and_o interest_n unite_n ourselves_o to_o the_o design_n that_o jesus_n have_v by_o suffer_v to_o repair_v his_o father_n glory_n o_o my_o soul_n if_o these_o verity_n have_v make_v deep_a impression_n in_o thou_o thou_o ought_v from_o henceforth_o to_o glory_n in_o be_v despise_v see_v thy_o glory_n be_v to_o procure_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n which_o can_v be_v do_v more_o advantageous_o than_o by_o imitate_v his_o only_a son_n o_o good_a jesus_n possess_v my_o heart_n with_o your_o divine_a spirit_n that_o may_v enable_v i_o to_o live_v your_o life_n o_o how_o your_o humiliation_n seem_v great_a unto_o i_o your_o abjection_n honourable_a your_o poverty_n rich_a and_o your_o cross_n pleasant_a my_o soul_n do_v languish_v to_o possess_v your_o spirit_n and_o desire_v it_o most_o ardent_o whatever_o have_v not_o a_o relish_n of_o your_o spirit_n be_v not_o grateful_a to_o i_o o_o that_o i_o have_v inflame_v affection_n to_o embrace_v the_o cross_n and_o that_o i_o can_v bear_v the_o great_a can_v happen_v to_o i_o in_o the_o interim_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o i_o do_v nothing_o and_o when_o occasion_n present_v itself_o i_o find_v difficulty_n to_o suffer_v the_o least_o affliction_n dear_a saviour_n how_o be_v this_o life_n troublesome_a unto_o i_o strengthen_v
interest_n to_o advance_v god_n glory_n a_o soul_n ought_v to_o be_v well-pleased_a that_o her_o body_n shall_v be_v crumble_v to_o dust_n and_o as_o it_o be_v reduce_v to_o nothing_o to_o exalt_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n and_o glorify_v his_o justice_n a_o holy_a person_n much_o wonder_v how_o the_o saint_n who_o be_v powerful_a with_o god_n keep_v their_o body_n so_o long_o entire_a not_o obtain_v that_o they_o may_v be_v humble_v by_o putrefaction_n because_o they_o know_v the_o inestimable_a value_n of_o humiliation_n which_o most_o glorify_v god_n aught_o as_o it_o seem_v to_o have_v procure_v it_o to_o their_o body_n but_o if_o god_n think_v best_a to_o glorify_v himself_o by_o preserve_v they_o from_o corruption_n his_o divine_a will_n be_v and_o must_v be_v the_o rule_n of_o their_o desire_n sometime_o i_o have_v desire_v death_n as_o amiable_a because_o it_o will_v give_v i_o free_a access_n to_o enjoy_v god_n but_o at_o present_a i_o have_v the_o spirit_n of_o annihilation_n this_o annihilation_n be_v a_o state_n above_o that_o of_o death_n and_o by_o it_o we_o offer_v a_o perfect_a sacrifice_n a_o soul_n which_o seek_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n desire_v death_n to_o enter_v into_o this_o perfect_a annihilation_n what_o be_v most_o horrible_a in_o death_n paleness_n deformity_n noisomness_n putrefaction_n please_v she_o best_o for_o these_o be_v companion_n of_o a_o perfect_a annihilation_n to_o humble_v she_o as_o much_o as_o possible_a o_o death_n how_o lovely_a be_v thou_o to_o such_o a_o soul_n it_o be_v a_o strange_a thing_n that_o the_o fire_n of_o divine_a love_n burn_v no_o bright_a in_o our_o heart_n upon_o the_o frequent_v of_o the_o sacrament_n oftentimes_o we_o exercise_v ourselves_o twice_o a_o day_n in_o mental_a prayer_n sometime_o by_o holy_a conference_n daily_a lecture_n and_o consideration_n now_o i_o think_v the_o cause_n of_o this_o be_v that_o we_o be_v sad_a deject_v with_o abjection_n which_o so_o chill_v the_o heart_n that_o the_o 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to_o enjoyment_n without_o have_v regard_n to_o her_o proper_a satisfaction_n chap._n xviii_o consideration_n upon_o the_o natural_a inclination_n we_o have_v to_o evil_n a_o stone_n hold_v in_o the_o air_n if_o let_v go_v fall_v natural_o to_o the_o ground_n by_o its_o own_o weight_n and_o it_o be_v no_o more_o matter_n of_o wonder_n when_o we_o fall_v into_o imperfection_n if_o god_n leave_v we_o to_o ourselves_o we_o be_v present_o in_o our_o own_o nothing_o weakness_n and_o infirmity_n and_o if_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n be_v not_o very_o great_a unto_o we_o we_o shall_v fall_v more_o often_o they_o may_v be_v think_v valiant_a who_o bear_v up_o stout_o against_o the_o blast_n of_o strong_a temptation_n alas_o take_v we_o at_o the_o best_a we_o be_v as_o frail_a as_o glass_n on_o a_o cupboard_n if_o some_o be_v soon_o break_v it_o be_v because_o they_o be_v more_o use_v and_o find_v in_o the_o hand_n of_o a_o ill_a manager_n those_o that_o stand_v still_o on_o the_o cupboard_n if_o they_o have_v reason_n will_v not_o brag_v of_o their_o strength_n but_o only_o acknowledge_v that_o they_o have_v not_o be_v try_v by_o occasion_n when_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n keep_v we_o from_o fall_v we_o ought_v not_o to_o take_v complacence_n therein_o as_o if_o we_o be_v better_a than_o other_o by_o reason_n of_o such_o divine_a favour_n but_o our_o content_a aught_o to_o be_v in_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n who_o be_v so_o munificent_a to_o his_o creature_n yea_o the_o most_o unworthy_a to_o be_v thus_o please_v only_o with_o god_n will_n be_v also_o very_o necessary_a when_o it_o be_v god_n pleasure_n to_o leave_v a_o soul_n to_o combat_v with_o some_o singular_a imperfection_n a_o long_a time_n without_o victory_n for_o it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n to_o leave_v a_o soul_n thus_o to_o fight_v it_o out_o she_o ought_v to_o be_v as_o well_o content_a as_o if_o she_o be_v more_o elevate_v by_o grace_n see_v in_o this_o state_n she_o meet_v with_o the_o divine_a pleasure_n which_o be_v the_o object_n of_o her_o complacency_n insomuch_o that_o the_o soul_n have_v no_o more_o inclination_n for_o one_o grace_n than_o another_o but_o indifferent_a to_o all_o be_v content_a to_o have_v her_o fault_n make_v know_v to_o glorify_v god_n by_o the_o love_n of_o abjection_n secret_n fault_n do_v we_o the_o great_a hurt_n when_o manifest_v if_o we_o make_v good_a use_n of_o it_o they_o may_v bring_v no_o small_a advantage_n to_o we_o i_o have_v at_o present_a a_o wonderful_a distaste_n of_o this_o life_n which_o be_v hardly_o a_o life_n but_o a_o continual_a death_n because_o it_o deprive_v we_o of_o knowledge_n and_o and_o love_n in_o perfection_n o_o how_o this_o mortal_a life_n be_v a_o great_a punishment_n and_o full_a of_o cross_n here_o we_o sin_n here_o we_o forget_v god_n and_o run_v a_o hazard_n to_o lose_v he_o eternal_o love_v here_o find_v little_a nourishment_n be_v feed_v with_o slender_a knowledge_n sometime_o much_o cloud_v and_o continual_a propension_n to_o evil_a dear_a saviour_n when_o will_v you_o deliver_v i_o from_o the_o body_n of_o this_o death_n this_o be_v the_o desire_n of_o st._n paul_n which_o i_o take_v the_o courage_n to_o make_v be_v so_o much_o out_o of_o love_n with_o this_o miserable_a life_n the_o end_n of_o the_o first_o book_n book_n ii_o of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n which_o be_v the_o life_n of_o all_o true_a christian_n chap._n i._n the_o idea_n or_o description_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n we_o can_v never_o attain_v perfection_n by_o the_o sole_a conduct_n of_o human_a reason_n which_o be_v the_o light_n of_o philosopher_n faith_n be_v the_o light_n of_o christian_n which_o teach_v we_o to_o renounce_v the_o ratiocination_n of_o carnal_a prudence_n to_o follow_v in_o simplicity_n a_o jesus_n crucify_a to_o observe_v the_o commandment_n of_o god_n as_o
delight_n be_v to_o honour_v the_o eternal_a father_n which_o be_v best_a effect_v by_o this_o mean_n a_o faithful_a soul_n will_v never_o part_v with_o a_o esteem_n and_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n as_o to_o the_o interiour_n because_o her_o desire_n be_v to_o please_v god_n and_o we_o best_o please_v he_o by_o humiliation_n let_v we_o well_o ground_n ourselves_o in_o this_o exercise_n of_o the_o design_n of_o god_n who_o will_v have_v we_o conformable_a to_o his_o son_n and_o consequent_o to_o have_v a_o love_n for_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n whatever_o dispose_v we_o to_o this_o conformity_n aught_o to_o be_v precious_a to_o we_o as_o few_o natural_a talent_n sickness_n ill_a success_n and_o the_o like_a the_o spirit_n of_o the_o world_n and_o nature_n find_v therein_o their_o punishment_n but_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n take_v pleasure_n therein_o and_o so_o advance_v a_o faithful_a soul_n to_o perfection_n we_o be_v not_o yet_o spiritualise_v if_o we_o be_v not_o faithful_a to_o the_o love_n of_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n and_o we_o be_v not_o faithful_a herein_o if_o we_o be_v not_o content_a with_o those_o thing_n that_o humble_v we_o and_o cause_n abjection_n a_o right_a prospect_n of_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n be_v supernatural_a and_o delicate_a and_o require_v time_n to_o bring_v it_o to_o perfection_n and_o must_v be_v first_o try_v in_o ourselves_o before_o we_o extend_v it_o to_o other_o as_o for_o my_o particular_a when_o i_o see_v a_o person_n in_o great_a misery_n and_o poverty_n i_o be_o not_o much_o trouble_v at_o it_o because_o i_o consider_v the_o real_a good_a that_o soul_n may_v procure_v to_o herself_o by_o this_o abjection_n on_o the_o contrary_a i_o be_o in_o fear_n for_o those_o who_o be_v advance_v to_o honour_n and_o have_v great_a natural_a ability_n for_o the_o difficulty_n they_o must_v needs_o find_v to_o curb_v the_o spirit_n of_o nature_n and_o the_o world_n and_o bring_v they_o off_o from_o the_o love_n of_o these_o thing_n which_o be_v so_o powerful_a in_o they_o and_o hinder_v in_o they_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n christ_n let_v we_o therefore_o remember_v that_o the_o purity_n of_o virtue_n consist_v in_o a_o faithful_a tendance_n to_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n and_o by_o how_o much_o a_o soul_n be_v more_o faithful_a herein_o the_o great_a advancement_n she_o make_v in_o virtue_n abjection_n be_v as_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o more_o she_o be_v humble_v the_o near_o she_o draw_v to_o her_o repose_n and_o by_o consequence_n have_v a_o great_a feeling_n of_o god_n in_o inward_a peace_n a_o peace_n that_o the_o world_n nor_o nature_n can_v ever_o give_v we_o a_o peace_n that_o pass_v all_o understanding_n chap._n vi_o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n nothing_o but_o god_n make_v man_n poor_a annihilate_v sacrifice_v can_v honour_v god_n according_a to_o his_o greatness_n the_o design_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n to_o this_o end_n be_v admirable_a full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n of_o unspeakable_a love_n and_o mercy_n towards_o man_n and_o most_o ardent_a zeal_n for_o his_o own_o glory_n o_o the_o wonderful_a oeconomy_n that_o discover_v itself_o in_o all_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a o_o the_o ineffable_a mystery_n of_o jesus_n by_o you_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v love_v glorify_a honour_a and_o his_o justice_n satisfy_v to_o the_o utmost_a rigour_n in_o this_o mystery_n be_v contain_v a_o inexplicable_a commerce_n and_o traffic_n of_o god_n the_o father_n with_o his_o son_n the_o interest_n of_o his_o glory_n in_o the_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n the_o will_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v that_o his_o son_n shall_v be_v incarnate_a circumcise_a poor_a scorn_v and_o crucify_v and_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o all_o these_o state_n of_o his_o life_n intend_v thereby_o to_o render_v to_o his_o father_n all_o the_o humiliation_n respect_n love_n and_o adoration_n which_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o these_o be_v the_o annihilation_n which_o so_o much_o elevate_v and_o exalt_v the_o christian_a reliligion_n to_o these_o she_o owe_v her_o grandeur_n and_o excellence_n o_o amiable_a eminent_a and_o excellent_a religion_n how_o unknown_a be_v thou_o to_o worldly_a man_n who_o taste_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o sensual_a pleasure_n o_o christian_n religion_n how_o be_v thou_o admirable_a how_o be_v thou_o ineffable_a who_o chief_a business_n be_v to_o employ_v your_o child_n with_o the_o divine_a traffic_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n with_o his_o son_n incarnate_a when_o thy_o heavenly_a light_n shine_v upon_o a_o soul_n she_o see_v the_o deceit_n the_o vanity_n and_o pitiful_a baseness_n of_o the_o thought_n of_o those_o man_n who_o love_v not_o god_n nor_o aim_n at_o his_o glory_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o wretched_a will_v thou_o make_v thyself_o if_o thou_o follow_v thy_o sensual_a appetite_n and_o walk_v not_o in_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o we_o can_v do_v of_o ourselves_o but_o by_o grace_n and_o power_n of_o the_o same_o jesus_n who_o be_v our_o hope_n and_o only_a helper_n we_o ought_v to_o bear_v no_o less_o respect_n to_o the_o maxim_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n than_o to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v establish_v they_o see_v we_o ought_v to_o believe_v that_o they_o be_v full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o ineffable_a sanctity_n to_o have_v no_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o humiliation_n be_v to_o undervalue_v the_o wisdom_n of_o jesus_n christ_n some_o be_v so_o brutish_a as_o to_o be_v lead_v only_o by_o sensuality_n other_o follow_v only_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n but_o neither_o of_o they_o know_v the_o excellency_n of_o christianity_n but_o such_o only_a who_o be_v conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n o_o life_n supernatural_a how_o sublime_a be_v thou_o how_o do_v thou_o so_o elevate_v a_o soul_n as_o to_o become_v blind_a to_o thing_n here_o below_o yea_o to_o herself_o and_o to_o see_v nothing_o but_o god_n in_o she_o by_o the_o ray_n of_o grace_n be_v please_v o_o divine_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o some_o part_n of_o this_o holy_a life_n which_o the_o world_n can_v neither_o receive_v nor_o know_v quem_fw-la mundus_fw-la non_fw-la potest_fw-la accipere_fw-la nec_fw-la scit_fw-la eum_fw-la as_o st._n john_n testify_v the_o world_n can_v receive_v it_o be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o creature_n nor_o can_v know_v it_o be_v blind_v with_o sensuality_n what_o a_o malediction_n be_v this_o but_o what_o a_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o know_v and_o embrace_v this_o supernatural_a life_n this_o be_v wrought_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o apostle_n who_o return_v with_o joy_n to_o be_v find_v worthy_a to_o live_v this_o life_n that_o be_v to_o be_v whip_v and_o despise_v for_o the_o name_n of_o jesus_n very_o if_o there_o be_v nothing_o to_o suffer_v here_o i_o know_v not_o why_o we_o shall_v desire_v to_o live_v here_o we_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o imitate_v that_o great_a saint_n who_o suffer_v a_o great_a martyrdom_n among_o rose_n and_o suavity_n than_o by_o rack_n and_o torture_n worldly_n pleasure_n be_v a_o kind_n of_o torment_n to_o a_o soul_n that_o love_v jesus_n christ_n crucify_v let_v we_o take_v a_o resolution_n o_o my_o soul_n not_o to_o be_v please_v but_o with_o the_o cross_n and_o when_o that_o do_v not_o relish_n let_v we_o please_v ourselves_o with_o our_o own_o annihilation_n see_v the_o creature_n be_v nothing_o in_o effect_n but_o what_o she_o be_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n but_o she_o be_v no_o more_o in_o his_o eye_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o be_v a_o christian_n and_o she_o be_v no_o more_o a_o christian_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o love_v this_o supernatural_a life_n while_o then_o we_o be_v too_o sensible_a of_o a_o suffer_a condition_n we_o have_v no_o great_a share_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n that_o be_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n abject_a suffer_v and_o annihilate_v chap._n vii_o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n god_n have_v be_v very_o gracious_a to_o we_o to_o draw_v we_o out_o of_o nothing_o but_o more_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a in_o withdraw_v we_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o occasion_n of_o displease_v he_o but_o the_o choice_a of_o his_o favour_n be_v to_o advance_v we_o from_o a_o common_a to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n that_o be_v when_o the_o eternal_a father_n do_v lead_v we_o into_o the_o state_n of_o the_o mortal_a life_n of_o jesus_n by_o abjection_n suffering_n and_o annihilation_n which_o be_v the_o choice_a of_o his_o mercy_n and_o favour_n on_o earth_n because_o thereby_o we_o bring_v to_o he_o the_o great_a glory_n a_o soul_n be_v not_o all_o at_o once_o elevate_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o this_o life_n but_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o behold_v the_o beauty_n thereof_o be_v
ashamed_a to_o be_v so_o much_o attach_v to_o worldly_a thing_n she_o be_v take_v with_o the_o excellency_n of_o this_o admirable_a way_n and_o begin_v to_o be_v mortify_v to_o herself_o and_o the_o world_n aspire_v after_o a_o profound_a oblivion_n and_o contempt_n of_o all_o creature_n and_o desire_v to_o be_v in_o privation_n the_o better_a to_o curb_v her_o sensual_a inclination_n and_o practice_n virtue_n thus_o the_o soul_n proceed_v in_o the_o purgative_a way_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n the_o soul_n thus_o purge_v advance_v to_o partake_v of_o the_o divine_a illumination_n of_o this_o life_n and_o become_v in_o a_o manner_n clear-sighted_a thereby_o her_o understanding_n receive_v many_o illustration_n and_o discovery_n of_o its_o excellency_n and_o grandeur_n she_o see_v the_o wonder_v couch_v in_o the_o mystery_n of_o jesus_n poor_a suffer_v and_o annihilate_v she_o perceive_v the_o eminency_n of_o those_o sanctify_a soul_n who_o have_v follow_v jesus_n in_o his_o humiliation_n she_o begin_v to_o apprehend_v that_o a_o soul_n which_o have_v no_o knowledge_n nor_o esteem_n of_o this_o life_n be_v bury_v in_o darkness_n she_o be_v amaze_v at_o the_o blindness_n of_o christian_n in_o be_v besot_v on_o empty_a vanity_n and_o last_o she_o perceive_v that_o there_o be_v enjoyment_n in_o suffering_n and_o that_o by_o cross_n and_o privation_n we_o come_v to_o union_n with_o god_n the_o soul_n thus_o illuminate_v enter_v into_o the_o unitive_a state_n of_o this_o life_n and_o tend_v to_o a_o continual_a union_n with_o god_n who_o she_o see_v present_a in_o her_o interiour_n nothing_o can_v hinder_v this_o union_n as_o long_o as_o the_o soul_n find_v enjoyment_n in_o suffering_n this_o proceed_n of_o grace_n in_o a_o soul_n be_v not_o extraordinary_a god_n behave_v himself_o in_o a_o soul_n as_o a_o king_n in_o a_o kingdom_n new_o conquer_v who_o kill_v and_o destroy_v all_o that_o oppose_v the_o establishment_n of_o his_o dominion_n notwithstanding_o the_o prince_n hereby_o seem_v to_o put_v all_o thing_n in_o disorder_n it_o be_v but_o to_o procure_v peace_n and_o to_o rule_v without_o disturbance_n by_o the_o conquest_n of_o his_o enemy_n god_n proceed_v in_o like_a manner_n as_o soon_o as_o he_o enter_v into_o a_o soul_n to_o set_v up_o his_o kingdom_n he_o make_v a_o havoc_n of_o all_o his_o enemy_n by_o penitential_a rigour_n to_o bring_v the_o soul_n whole_o to_o his_o obedience_n then_o he_o establish_v the_o maxim_n of_o his_o policy_n and_o convince_v the_o soul_n how_o good_a and_o just_a they_o be_v by_o the_o follow_a illustration_n first_o that_o the_o great_a treasure_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o have_v part_n of_o the_o poverty_n of_o jesus_n christ._n second_o that_o the_o great_a glory_n be_v to_o be_v partaker_n of_o his_o abjection_n three_o that_o the_o great_a joy_n be_v to_o suffer_v pain_n with_o he_o four_o that_o the_o life_n of_o christianity_n be_v to_o deny_v ourselves_o take_v up_o our_o cross_n and_o follow_v jesus_n that_o when_o we_o cease_v to_o die_v to_o ourselves_o and_o crucify_v our_o lust_n we_o leave_v off_o to_o be_v christian_n and_o die_v in_o a_o manner_n to_o christianity_n because_o we_o lose_v the_o spirit_n thereof_o five_o that_o there_o be_v nothing_o more_o amiable_a more_o precious_a and_o more_o honourable_a in_o the_o world_n than_o to_o imitate_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a seeino_o this_o state_n be_v most_o precious_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n his_o father_n final_o the_o soul_n be_v persuade_v of_o these_o verity_n which_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n evident_a unto_o she_o though_o by_o the_o obscure_a light_n of_o faith_n have_v no_o love_n for_o any_o thing_n upon_o earth_n nor_o any_o pretension_n but_o those_o of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o these_o be_v only_o to_o suffer_v and_o be_v annihilate_v to_o perfect_a in_o his_o person_n the_o design_n of_o his_o eternal_a father_n by_o die_v on_o the_o cross_n then_o she_o absolute_o forsake_v herself_o to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o the_o maxim_n and_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n unite_n and_o conform_v herself_o as_o much_o as_o may_v be_v to_o his_o state_n and_o her_o thought_n be_v far_o different_a from_o other_o sentiment_n and_o this_o be_v not_o to_o be_v wonder_v at_o see_v st._n peter_n say_v of_o christian_n that_o they_o be_v gens_n sancta_fw-la genus_fw-la electum_fw-la regale_n sacerdotium_fw-la a_o holy_a nation_n a_o choose_a people_n a_o royal_a priesthood_n to_o offer_v to_o god_n sacrifice_n of_o good_a odour_n which_o be_v by_o crucify_a themselves_o with_o jesus_n christ_n who_o be_v a_o continual_a sacrifice_n o_o the_o sublime_a state_n of_o a_o soul_n in_o this_o supreme_a degree_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n alas_o the_o sentiment_n of_o nature_n do_v too_o much_o take_v up_o our_o heart_n so_o that_o those_o of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n have_v little_a or_o no_o place_n in_o they_o what_o a_o misery_n be_v this_o chap._n viii_o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o without_o cause_n esteem_v ourselves_o spiritual_a if_o we_o march_v not_o straight_o without_o reserve_n by_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n or_o pretend_v to_o any_o thing_n on_o earth_n then_o to_o be_v conformable_a to_o he_o this_o do_v not_o consist_v in_o sole_a speculation_n for_o we_o can_v never_o do_v it_o better_o than_o when_o the_o occasion_n of_o abjection_n and_o contempt_n present_v themselves_o to_o embrace_v they_o hearty_o as_o the_o most_o necessary_a mean_n to_o make_v we_o conformable_a to_o jesus_n christ_n god_n the_o father_n can_v praedestinate_v we_o to_o be_v conform_v to_o the_o image_n of_o his_o son_n but_o he_o must_v prepare_v for_o we_o from_o all_o eternity_n many_o occasion_n of_o contempt_n and_o abjection_n which_o time_n bring_v forth_o our_o fidelity_n lie_v in_o comply_v with_o these_o occasion_n to_o follow_v jesus_n without_o reserve_n by_o his_o light_n and_o power_n i_o will_v tell_v you_o how_o it_o must_v be_v do_v we_o ought_v before_o all_o thing_n to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o jesus_n abject_a and_o despise_a repose_v ourselves_o in_o his_o bosom_n abide_v there_o with_o delight_n and_o then_o make_v upon_o ourselves_o some_o short_a and_o sharp_a reflection_n reflection_n that_o may_v form_v in_o we_o the_o image_n of_o jesus_n christ_n without_o any_o great_a trouble_n to_o ourselves_o these_o when_o do_v to_o the_o purpose_n be_v as_o so_o many_o powerful_a thunderbolt_n to_o beat_v down_o our_o natural_a inclination_n and_o destroy_v the_o maxim_n of_o human_a prudence_n according_a to_o which_o we_o common_o square_v our_o action_n such_o reflection_n breath_n into_o we_o a_o supernatural_a wisdom_n which_o give_v we_o a_o relish_n of_o the_o proceed_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_v so_o little_o know_v by_o worldly_a man_n but_o perhaps_o it_o will_v be_v better_a to_o regard_v nothing_o but_o the_o infinite_a beauty_n of_o jesus_n in_o the_o state_n of_o his_o abjection_n without_o make_v any_o reflection_n on_o ourselves_o or_o busy_v ourselves_o with_o our_o own_o misery_n consider_v only_o the_o example_n of_o jesus_n expose_v to_o our_o view_n and_o the_o power_n we_o receive_v from_o his_o grace_n to_o follow_v he_o it_o be_v enough_o if_o he_o vouchsafe_v to_o cast_v a_o glance_n of_o his_o divine_a ray_n on_o our_o natural_a repugnance_n to_o quell_v and_o conquer_v they_o o_o my_o jesus_n i_o will_v regard_v you_o in_o your_o humiliation_n and_o then_o you_o will_v look_v propitious_o upon_o i_o and_o that_o be_v sufficient_a o_o jesus_n annihilate_v in_o your_o suffering_n make_v i_o as_o it_o be_v lose_v in_o myself_o by_o suffer_v with_o you_o that_o i_o may_v be_v absorb_v in_o you_o and_o by_o you_o in_o god_n shall_v the_o man_n of_o this_o world_n be_v more_o provident_a than_o the_o child_n of_o light_n what_o shall_v they_o have_v a_o care_n of_o their_o affair_n and_o i_o neglect_v my_o business_n i_o will_v enrich_v myself_o as_o 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please_a to_o he_o and_o see_v this_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n do_v bring_v with_o it_o a_o universal_a peace_n and_o this_o peace_n can_v be_v preserve_v without_o suffer_v content_o all_o injury_n whatsoever_o this_o excellent_a life_n do_v teach_v we_o holy_a patience_n now_o this_o patience_n preserve_v this_o peace_n and_o this_o peace_n bring_v with_o it_o a_o admirable_a liberty_n and_o resolution_n to_o mind_n principal_o the_o one_o thing_n necessary_a which_o be_v to_o give_v up_o ourselves_o to_o god_n and_o his_o direction_n chap._n x._o our_o great_a happiness_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o christianity_n i_o have_v a_o great_a resentment_n of_o joy_n and_o thankfulness_n to_o see_v myself_o a_o member_n of_o christ_n church_n and_o in_o the_o number_n of_o the_o faithful_a i_o have_v a_o sensible_a taste_n of_o this_o happiness_n which_o be_v incomparable_a o_o my_o god_n what_o shall_v i_o return_v unto_o you_o for_o have_v prevent_v i_o with_o this_o signal_n mercy_n why_o have_v you_o choose_v i_o out_o among_o so_o many_o thousand_o alas_o this_o be_v the_o excess_n of_o your_o sole_a bounty_n to_o i_o to_o be_v a_o child_n of_o the_o church_n o_o what_o a_o happiness_n be_v this_o it_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o to_o be_v monarch_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n the_o church_n be_v the_o congregation_n of_o the_o faithful_a that_o be_v of_o those_o who_o believe_v and_o confess_v jesus_n christ_n and_o have_v no_o other_o maxim_n nor_o sentiment_n than_o he_o o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o then_o live_v as_o become_v our_o profession_n that_o jesusmay_v live_v in_o we_o according_a to_o his_o holy_a will_n and_o inclination_n to_o be_v a_o member_n of_o christ_n church_n be_v to_o be_v a_o person_n who_o ought_v to_o have_v a_o affection_n for_o humiliation_n and_o cross_n to_o be_v well_o content_v not_o to_o thrive_v in_o the_o world_n and_o to_o advance_v in_o virtue_n by_o opprobrious_a usage_n and_o 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they_o become_v powerful_a and_o courageous_a to_o admiration_n chap._n xv._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o human_a prudence_n the_o supernatural_a life_n be_v a_o continual_a mortification_n of_o deprave_a nature_n 1._o for_o it_o be_v certain_a first_o that_o we_o can_v live_v this_o excellent_a life_n but_o by_o annihilate_v our_o sense_n and_o reason_n 2._o second_o that_o this_o life_n be_v whole_o according_a to_o the_o spirit_n which_o can_v be_v but_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n which_o inspire_v the_o soul_n with_o his_o influence_n and_o sacred_a motion_n 3._o three_o that_o the_o soul_n which_o live_v this_o life_n must_v be_v elevate_v above_o sense_n und_fw-ge reason_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o prayer_n or_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n which_o can_v be_v do_v but_o by_o offer_v up_o herself_o to_o god_n as_o a_o continual_a sacrifice_n that_o though_o oftentimes_o w_n must_v do_v thing_n sensual_a as_o to_o eat_v and_o drink_v yet_o these_o must_v be_v do_v as_o grace_n direct_v we_o and_o other_o thing_n according_a to_o reason_n as_o to_o love_v our_o relation_n and_o friend_n yet_o this_o must_v be_v only_o in_o god_n and_o as_o his_o oracle_n do_v dictate_v to_o we_o o_o life_n of_o grace_n how_o be_v thou_o a_o continual_a death_n and_o mortification_n who_o live_v christianly_o live_v a_o martyrdom_n tota_n vita_fw-la christiana_n crux_fw-la est_fw-la &_o martyrium_fw-la however_o it_o be_v a_o joyful_a martyrdom_n for_o solid_a joy_n can_v but_o make_v glad_a the_o soul_n where_o grace_n inhabit_v o_o that_o this_o fundamental_a truth_n of_o our_o salvation_n do_v once_o well_o sink_v into_o our_o heart_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o eternal_a king_n of_o glory_n leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o father_n and_o become_v man_n to_o live_v and_o die_v in_o infinite_a humiliation_n jesus_n give_v we_o life_n by_o his_o death_n he_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o grace_n by_o ruine_v himself_o according_a to_o nature_n he_o purchase_v eternity_n for_o we_o by_o yield_v up_o his_o temporal_a life_n and_o the_o evangelist_n express_v his_o death_n do_v on_o set_v purpose_n use_v these_o word_n emisit_fw-la spiritum_fw-la he_o send_v forth_o his_o spirit_n without_o doubt_n he_o send_v it_o into_o the_o heart_n of_o his_o faithful_a servant_n to_o the_o end_n they_o may_v learn_v to_o live_v by_o his_o spirit_n to_o he_o who_o die_v for_o they_o so_o say_v st._n paul_n misit_fw-la deus_fw-la spiritum_fw-la filii_fw-la svi_fw-la in_o corda_fw-la nostra_fw-la ut_fw-la qui_fw-la vivunt_fw-la jam_fw-la non_fw-la sibi_fw-la vivre_fw-fr sed_fw-la ei_fw-la qui_fw-la pro_fw-la ipsis_fw-la mortuus_fw-la est_fw-la what_o remain_v then_o but_o that_o we_o banish_v our_o carnal_a spirit_n which_o carry_v we_o on_o to_o sensual_a delight_n although_o sometime_o not_o sinful_a let_v we_o love_v the_o spirit_n of_o penance_n of_o suffer_v of_o self-denial_n and_o humiliation_n gerson_n have_v a_o excellent_a say_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o nature_n be_v mortify_v by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o grace_n be_v infuse_v we_o must_v often_o call_v to_o mind_n that_o the_o grain_n of_o wheat_n cast_v into_o the_o earth_n except_o it_o die_v can_v bring_v forth_o fruit_n if_o we_o do_v not_o die_v to_o ourselves_o and_o the_o world_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o nature_n we_o can_v never_o become_v perfect_a christian_n nor_o bring_v forth_o the_o fruit_n of_o divine_a love_n we_o must_v be_v as_o nothing_o before_o man_n that_o we_o may_v be_v something_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n why_o shall_v the_o disciple_n be_v above_o his_o master_n the_o spirit_n of_o grace_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o nature_n do_v continual_o jar_v and_o war_n one_o against_o the_o other_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o spiritual_a life_n will_v afford_v we_o light_n to_o discern_v their_o different_a motion_n but_o when_o
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the_o sweet_a perfume_n of_o a_o sensible_a devotion_n we_o must_v take_v up_o our_o cross_n to_o follow_v christ_n as_o well_o when_o we_o suffer_v in_o soul_n as_o body_n for_o it_o be_v the_o property_n of_o a_o true_a christian_a to_o glory_n in_o the_o cross_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o do_v extend_v as_o well_o to_o his_o soul_n as_o to_o his_o body_n the_o divine_a soul_n of_o jesus_n be_v leave_v without_o sensible_a influence_n and_o succour_n from_o the_o superior_a part_n and_o from_o his_o father_n for_o some_o time_n we_o must_v love_v to_o be_v conformable_a to_o he_o herein_o and_o rest_v there_o with_o resignation_n and_o contentment_n let_v our_o affection_n be_v more_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o her_o suffering_n here_o than_o of_o enjoyment_n and_o if_o we_o complain_v of_o any_o thing_n let_v it_o be_v when_o we_o do_v not_o suffer_v something_o for_o jesus_n christ_n the_o end_n of_o the_o second_o book_n book_n iii_o of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o divine_a providence_n chap._n i._o our_o first_o thought_n in_o the_o morning_n ought_v to_o be_v that_o god_n be_v present_a as_o soon_o as_o i_o awake_v i_o ought_v to_o consider_v that_o i_o be_o in_o the_o bosom_n of_o god_n for_o in_o he_o we_o live_v move_v and_o have_v our_o be_v we_o live_v and_o be_v indeed_o in_o his_o presence_n and_o yet_o hardly_o think_v of_o he_o i_o be_o surround_v with_o his_o grandeur_n his_o mercy_n his_o riches_n his_o divine_a perfection_n and_o yet_o be_o take_v up_o with_o petty_a matter_n o_o what_o blindness_n what_o darkness_n be_v this_o i_o fall_v from_o one_o sleep_n into_o another_o my_o soul_n be_v no_o more_o awake_a by_o day_n than_o by_o night_n my_o interior_a sense_n be_v then_o bind_v up_o as_o before_o the_o exterior_a i_o be_o like_o a_o blind_a man_n asleep_o double_o blind_a for_o sleep_n take_v away_o his_o sight_n a_o second_o time_n when_o he_o awake_v he_o see_v not_o the_o light_n 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in_o his_o creature_n and_o there_o we_o may_v find_v he_o but_o his_o presence_n in_o the_o interiour_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v in_o a_o more_o special_a manner_n there_o be_v his_o holy_a temple_n where_o he_o please_v to_o dwell_v and_o where_o the_o soul_n may_v see_v and_o taste_v god_n with_o a_o suavity_n transcend_v all_o sensual_a delight_n and_o pleasure_n a_o soul_n thus_o conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n and_o attract_v with_o this_o divine_a sweetness_n seek_v to_o find_v god_n in_o this_o his_o sanctuary_n and_o converse_v with_o he_o in_o such_o a_o familiar_a manner_n as_o make_v the_o angel_n stand_v in_o admiration_n now_o it_o be_v when_o the_o soul_n can_v make_v pure_a prayer_n seeing_z here_o be_v nothing_o but_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n without_o the_o intermeddle_v of_o any_o creature_n god_n work_v all_o of_o himself_o without_o representation_n or_o discourse_n or_o sensible_a gust_n of_o devotion_n this_o supreme_a purity_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v 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of_o god_n and_o his_o divine_a perfection_n let_v such_o a_o soul_n be_v in_o light_n or_o darkness_n in_o peace_n or_o war_n elevate_v or_o deject_v she_o be_v still_o the_o same_o because_o god_n will_n be_v she_o and_o she_o desire_v nothing_o but_o what_o please_v he_o her_o chief_a care_n be_v to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o god_n will_v in_o so_o great_a variety_n of_o interiour_n state_n and_o why_o shall_v a_o soul_n be_v concern_v at_o this_o variety_n for_o if_o i_o pure_o desire_v to_o please_v god_n it_o will_v be_v all_o one_o to_o i_o whether_o i_o do_v it_o by_o suffering_n or_o enjoy_v chap._n x._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o confidence_n to_o divine_a providence_n dear_o lord_n draw_v the_o passion_n and_o affection_n of_o my_o heart_n whole_o after_o you_o o_o that_o i_o can_v go_v out_o of_o myself_o to_o abide_v only_o in_o you_o oh_o that_o i_o have_v no_o love_n but_o for_o you_o no_o fear_n no_o desire_n no_o joy_n but_o in_o 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he_o be_v no_o contentment_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o whatever_o accident_n may_v happen_v they_o shall_v not_o disturb_v her_o quiet_a she_o be_v ground_v in_o god_n her_o sovereign_a peace_n and_o though_o she_o may_v feel_v some_o emotion_n in_o the_o inferior_a part_n they_o do_v not_o reach_v the_o superior_a faculty_n we_o must_v be_v perfect_a as_o god_n will_v have_v we_o not_o as_o we_o will_v have_v it_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v far_o different_a from_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n the_o world_n believe_v that_o king_n lewis_n must_v be_v saint_v by_o conquer_a the_o holy_a land_n god_n make_v he_o he_o a_o saint_n indeed_o but_o not_o by_o his_o victory_n but_o his_o captivity_n not_o by_o his_o triumph_n but_o his_o suffering_n we_o intend_v to_o sanctity_n ourselves_o by_o action_n and_o god_n will_v do_v it_o by_o affliction_n we_o must_v give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o his_o conduct_n absolute_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o his_o will_n and_o only_o love_v his_o 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occurrence_n of_o providence_n which_o deprive_v they_o of_o their_o good_n or_o honour_n or_o call_v their_o life_n in_o question_n for_o conscience_n sake_n and_o sometime_o to_o enjoy_v god_n in_o a_o more_o perfect_a way_n they_o despise_v and_o forsake_v the_o accommodation_n of_o this_o life_n that_o they_o may_v sacrifice_v themselves_o to_o god_n with_o the_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n in_o pious_a exercise_n or_o if_o providence_n have_v so_o order_v that_o they_o shall_v be_v bear_v subject_n to_o disease_n and_o misery_n they_o bear_v they_o with_o perfect_a resignation_n there_o be_v also_o spiritual_a martyr_n who_o providence_n have_v order_v to_o suffer_v much_o by_o interiour_n pain_n o_o how_o advantageous_a be_v it_o for_o such_o soul_n to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n design_n upon_o they_o and_o be_v faithful_a therein_o as_o for_o i_o the_o love_n of_o god_n will_n shall_v hereafter_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o my_o action_n and_o undertake_n i_o will_v abandon_v myself_o and_o all_o creature_n and_o put_v my_o confidence_n in_o god_n alone_o if_o our_o imperfection_n disturb_v our_o inward_a peace_n and_o union_n with_o god_n we_o must_v repair_v it_o without_o too_o much_o disquiet_v ourselves_o for_o our_o pass_a fault_n union_n with_o god_n be_v never_o without_o love_n and_o love_n will_v blot_v out_o our_o offence_n and_o bring_v the_o soul_n to_o repose_v in_o her_o wont_a centre_n chap._n xi_o to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n one_o excellent_a effect_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o make_v we_o as_o it_o be_v insensible_a of_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n will_n a_o soul_n that_o be_v enrich_v with_o this_o indifferency_n can_v desire_v nothing_o else_o yea_o not_o virtue_n themselves_o except_o in_o order_n to_o god_n pleasure_n we_o must_v strict_o examine_v ourselves_o concern_v this_o general_a disengagement_n from_o creature_n and_o not_o easy_o believe_v we_o 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distraction_n and_o necessity_n of_o the_o body_n and_o other_o affair_n incumbent_a on_o i_o for_o when_o god_n manifest_v himself_o to_o a_o soul_n experimental_o taste_v his_o infinite_a goodness_n to_o live_v here_o below_o be_v a_o pain_n unto_o she_o however_o she_o continue_v in_o great_a peace_n because_o in_o her_o interiour_n she_o be_v pure_o resign_v to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n i_o be_o so_o habituate_v to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n alone_o and_o not_o to_o please_v myself_o but_o in_o he_o and_o to_o have_v no_o joy_n but_o for_o he_o that_o i_o can_v rejoice_v to_o see_v myself_o perfect_a nor_o be_v sad_a at_o my_o imperfection_n god_n be_v my_o all_o his_o will_n his_o pleasure_n and_o nothing_o else_o all_o reflection_n on_o myself_o seem_v to_o full_o
indisposition_n of_o health_n i_o ought_v to_o value_v it_o and_o not_o forsake_v my_o usual_a devotion_n nor_o have_v recourse_n to_o such_o refreshment_n as_o satisfy_v sensuality_n but_o to_o take_v pleasure_n for_o once_o to_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o body_n that_o have_v often_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o soul_n notwithstanding_o this_o must_v be_v do_v with_o discretion_n 3._o i_o must_v rejoice_v at_o cross_n and_o difficulty_n which_o i_o meet_v withal_o as_o afford_v matter_n to_o practise_v many_o great_a virtue_n which_o prepare_v the_o soul_n for_o great_a grace_n and_o make_v her_o worthy_a of_o great_a love_n what_o god_n please_v to_o give_v oftentimes_o to_o his_o best_a friend_n in_o this_o life_n be_v fair_a occasion_n to_o suffer_v for_o christ_n sake_n by_o a_o generous_a renunciation_n of_o what_o the_o world_n most_o affect_v and_o nature_n most_o desire_n 4._o i_o ought_v to_o be_v strong_o persuade_v that_o i_o shall_v be_v so_o far_o rich_a in_o virtue_n as_o 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pap_n he_o return_v to_o the_o right_n and_o now_o will_v not_o quit_v it_o be_v grow_v wise_a by_o experience_n my_o soul_n thus_o find_v little_a help_n from_o the_o creature_n return_v present_o to_o the_o pap_n of_o providence_n and_o there_o abide_v i_o fear_v sometime_o to_o have_v too_o many_o consolation_n in_o prayer_n but_o this_o do_v satisfy_v i_o that_o god_n will_v have_v i_o live_v as_o a_o infant_n that_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o such_o comfort_n he_o make_v choice_n of_o other_o soul_n for_o great_a performance_n that_o regard_v his_o glory_n if_o a_o infant_n shall_v leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o mother_n to_o do_v her_o service_n he_o will_v fall_v and_o hurt_v himself_o and_o do_v no_o good_a he_o must_v then_o let_v other_o work_n and_o be_v content_a with_o his_o mother_n embrace_n wherefore_o what_o i_o have_v to_o do_v be_v to_o stick_v close_o to_o god_n and_o let_v other_o travel_v in_o great_a affair_n as_o more_o grow_v up_o in_o grace_n in_o comparison_n 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kind_n of_o accident_n and_o nothing_o but_o the_o loss_n of_o abandon_v can_v afflict_v she_o you_o be_v admirable_a o_o my_o god_n you_o be_v admirable_a in_o your_o holy_a operation_n and_o assention_n that_o you_o make_v in_o soul_n who_o you_o conduct_v from_o light_n to_o light_v by_o your_o divine_a providence_n which_o be_v not_o know_v but_o by_o experience_n sometime_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o grace_n to_o love_v abjection_n be_v the_o high_a pitch_n but_o now_o i_o see_v that_o abandon_v mount_v the_o soul_n to_o a_o more_o elevate_a state_n o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o doubtless_o will_v be_v the_o ultimate_a disposition_n i_o desire_v nothing_o but_o thou_o and_o death_n as_o the_o gate_n whereby_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o eternal_a abandon_v dear_a death_n how_o pleasant_a and_o lovely_a do_v thou_o seem_v unto_o i_o what_o allurement_n do_v i_o see_v in_o thou_o deliver_v i_o from_o my_o captivity_n that_o i_o may_v full_o enjoy_v my_o well-beloved_a however_o 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have_v inflame_v affection_n for_o you_o be_v my_o great_a work_n but_o to_o bring_v my_o heart_n to_o such_o a_o temper_n it_o must_v become_v like_o dry_a wood_n be_v empty_v of_o humidity_n by_o a_o separation_n from_o all_o creature_n this_o desire_n of_o inflame_a affection_n put_v i_o upon_o purify_n my_o heart_n and_o the_o expectation_n of_o enjoyment_n make_v i_o eager_a in_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n by_o embrace_v evangelical_n counsel_n and_o maxim_n of_o christianity_n see_v poverty_n contempt_n and_o cross_n increase_v the_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n they_o be_v welcome_a to_o i_o for_o i_o ardent_o desire_v to_o see_v they_o arise_v to_o their_o high_a elevation_n i_o know_v a_o good_a religious_a man_n who_o in_o his_o solitude_n be_v in_o continual_a prayer_n not_o only_o by_o the_o elevation_n of_o his_o spirit_n but_o by_o union_n with_o god_n in_o a_o wonderful_a manner_n my_o soul_n find_v great_a contentment_n in_o his_o discourse_n and_o 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the_o soul_n be_v in_o lieu_n of_o speak_v and_o the_o soul_n answer_v by_o acquiescence_n and_o admiration_n that_o can_v be_v express_v in_o effect_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n do_v not_o understand_v any_o interiour_n word_n after_o the_o manner_n that_o mystique_a divine_n explain_v they_o in_o their_o write_n but_o the_o lively_a and_o clear_a representation_n that_o be_v make_v to_o she_o of_o the_o state_n of_o jesus_n in_o each_o mystery_n without_o any_o thing_n else_o serve_v she_o for_o discourse_n while_o she_o be_v in_o this_o condition_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o jesus_n say_v hear_v daughter_n and_o see_v and_o forget_v your_o people_n and_o the_o house_n of_o your_o father_n to_o enter_v into_o a_o imitation_n of_o i_o to_o which_o word_n the_o soul_n make_v answer_v by_o acquiessing_n and_o without_o any_o noise_n in_o she_o interiour_n she_o signify_v her_o acceptance_n by_o a_o most_o efficatious_a consent_n she_o hear_v by_o see_v and_o jesus_n speak_v by_o manifest_v himself_o another_o while_n at_o the_o communion_n i_o have_v a_o general_a view_n of_o the_o multitude_n of_o the_o great_a wonder_n that_o jesus_n operate_v in_o these_o mystery_n of_o faith_n in_o favour_n of_o man_n with_o who_o he_o take_v his_o delight_n this_o general_a view_n raise_v i_o to_o a_o high_a admiration_n which_o nevertheless_o terminate_v in_o a_o sense_n of_o a_o most_o profound_a acknowledgement_n of_o the_o goodness_n of_o god_n see_v that_o all_o these_o wonder_n tend_v to_o no_o other_o end_n than_o to_o manifest_v unto_o we_o the_o intenseness_n of_o the_o love_n he_o bear_v we_o and_o import_v that_o he_o expect_v love_n for_o love_n that_o be_v your_o only_a design_n my_o good_a jesus_n in_o bestow_v on_o i_o this_o divine_a food_n to_o bestow_v on_o i_o the_o life_n of_o your_o love_n but_o this_o life_n may_v very_o well_o cause_n my_o death_n o_o love_n love_n love_n be_v all_o that_o i_o can_v then_o say_v be_v strike_v dumb_a with_o admiration_n chap._n vi_o another_o method_n of_o thanksgiving_n after_o communion_n i_o find_v a_o great_a gust_n in_o the_o understanding_n of_o these_o word_n fortis_fw-la est_fw-la ut_fw-la mors_fw-la dilectio_fw-la love_n be_v strong_a as_o death_n methinks_v i_o see_v they_o practical_o verify_v in_o the_o holy_a communion_n where_o i_o see_v that_o love_n have_v reduce_v jesus_n to_o the_o state_n of_o death_n and_o of_o a_o sacrifice_n immolate_a as_o death_n reduce_v he_o upon_o mount_n calvary_n i_o consider_v that_o while_o his_o love_n sever_v he_o from_o the_o splendour_n of_o his_o glory_n to_o unite_v himself_o to_o i_o it_o excite_v i_o at_o the_o same_o time_n to_o separate_v myself_o from_o creature_n from_o myself_o and_o from_o all_o other_o thing_n thereby_o to_o unite_v myself_o to_o he_o alone_o my_o soul_n thorough_o penetrate_v with_o a_o desire_n to_o correspond_v with_o this_o design_n of_o her_o belove_a jesus_n and_o clear_o discern_v that_o the_o love_n of_o cross_n and_o contempt_n be_v necessary_a to_o dispose_v and_o prepare_v she_o for_o this_o great_a favour_n she_o look_v on_o they_o with_o affection_n and_o delight_n as_o so_o many_o spring_n whence_o flow_v her_o happiness_n another_o wonder_n which_o sometime_o my_o mind_n have_v be_v intent_n upon_o and_o receive_v great_a comfort_n from_o it_o be_v the_o infinite_a desire_n that_o god_n have_v to_o communicate_v himself_o and_o to_o lift_v we_o up_o to_o a_o full_a participation_n of_o his_o divinity_n this_o view_n well_o penetrate_v into_o discover_v so_o many_o wonder_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n towards_o man_n of_o the_o felicity_n to_o which_o they_o be_v destine_v after_o the_o misery_n of_o this_o world_n of_o the_o dignity_n of_o their_o creation_n since_o the_o end_n for_o which_o they_o be_v make_v be_v to_o possess_v god_n of_o the_o infinite_a desire_n god_n have_v to_o unite_v himself_o to_o they_o and_o of_o the_o perfect_a correspond_v and_o compliance_n they_o be_v from_o thence_o oblige_v to_o especial_o such_o soul_n as_o be_v choose_v and_o in_o a_o particular_a manner_n call_v to_o this_o state_n that_o after_o all_o this_o it_o be_v scarce_o possible_a to_o resist_v such_o cogent_a impulse_n and_o attractive_n of_o god_n they_o make_v one_o desire_v to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n the_o better_a to_o prepare_v for_o so_o great_a a_o work_n of_o love_n the_o hurry_v and_o business_n of_o the_o world_n be_v not_o to_o be_v any_o long_o endure_v and_o one_o become_v passionate_o in_o love_n with_o solitude_n my_o soul_n reflect_v diligent_o upon_o the_o grace_n be_v give_v thou_o and_o correspond_v to_o the_o love_n of_o god_n towards_o thou_o which_o thou_o be_v now_o so_o thorough_o acquaint_v with_o thou_o have_v no_o other_o business_n but_o this_o for_o thou_o must_v never_o betake_v thyself_o to_o any_o other_o employment_n unless_o thou_o receive_v express_v order_n from_o god_n for_o it_o the_o more_o one_o be_v estrange_v from_o creature_n the_o better_a a_o soul_n be_v dispose_v to_o this_o divine_a union_n wherefore_o disgrace_n ought_v to_o be_v our_o felicity_n because_o they_o be_v the_o mean_n to_o obtain_v it_o the_o cross_n purity_n of_o love_n union_n god_n alone_o these_o be_v the_o degree_n that_o grace_n lead_v we_o through_o and_o our_o fidelity_n call_v we_o to_o there_o be_v also_o another_o good_a method_n of_o give_v thanks_o after_o communion_n which_o consist_v in_o abandon_v and_o resign_v ourselves_o absolute_o and_o without_o reserve_v to_o the_o power_n and_o dependence_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o come_v into_o our_o heart_n aught_o to_o be_v master_n there_o and_o command_v as_o sovereign_n when_o it_o please_v he_o to_o continue_v with_o a_o soul_n to_o entertain_v she_o and_o to_o unite_v she_o to_o he_o by_o a_o most_o delightful_a feel_n of_o his_o presence_n we_o must_v not_o think_v that_o
to_o remain_v thus_o unite_v be_v to_o do_v nothing_o for_o it_o be_v the_o do_n of_o all_o that_o god_n demand_v of_o we_o and_o the_o cooperate_a with_o he_o in_o the_o great_a work_n of_o grace_n which_o be_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o the_o divinity_n this_o union_n be_v a_o repose_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o it_o be_v find_v in_o several_a and_o different_a manner_n sometime_o it_o be_v diffuse_v through_o all_o the_o soul_n sometime_o it_o be_v only_o in_o the_o superior_a part_n thereof_o other_o while_o it_o restrain_v itself_o to_o the_o supreme_a point_n of_o the_o will_n and_o if_o the_o soul_n be_v faithful_a she_o do_v not_o considerable_o interrupt_v this_o union_n for_o the_o trouble_n of_o the_o interiour_n part_n or_o distraction_n of_o the_o imagination_n may_v indeed_o lessen_v the_o tranquillity_n thereof_o but_o can_v destroy_v it_o the_o thing_n that_o weaken_v it_o the_o most_o and_o as_o it_o be_v smother_v it_o be_v the_o passion_n when_o violent_a care_n that_o touch_v one_o to_o the_o quick_a trouble_v of_o mind_n pleasure_n of_o sense_n wherefore_o one_o must_v be_v dead_a to_o all_o these_o and_o endeavour_v to_o die_v perpetual_o to_o they_o another_o time_n jesus_n enter_v into_o my_o soul_n in_o communion_n do_v not_o impart_v to_o it_o this_o union_n so_o desirable_a but_o deprive_v it_o of_o it_o whether_o it_o be_v in_o punishment_n for_o her_o imperfection_n or_o that_o he_o design_v she_o at_o that_o time_n for_o other_o employment_n and_o require_v exterior_a duty_n from_o she_o for_o the_o good_a of_o her_o neighbour_n her_o business_n be_v then_o to_o remain_v in_o peace_n and_o to_o make_v a_o free_a offering_n of_o the_o most_o noble_a thing_n in_o the_o world_n to_o wit_n the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n to_o god_n himself_o who_o take_v a_o infinite_a delight_n to_o see_v himself_o thus_o honour_v by_o his_o creature_n and_o he_o be_v often_o please_v to_o be_v glorify_v in_o this_o manner_n by_o perfect_a soul_n 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approach_v to_o the_o divine_a source_n from_o whence_o the_o soul_n rceive_v all_o strength_n and_o virtue_n prayer_n be_v a_o holy_a fire_n to_o which_o who_o draw_v near_o have_v warm_a affection_n for_o god_n who_o shun_v it_o must_v of_o necessity_n fall_v into_o tepedity_n and_o lukewarmness_n whatever_o our_o condition_n be_v whether_o in_o sickness_n or_o health_n in_o abjection_n or_o honour_n in_o poverty_n or_o abundance_n let_v we_o never_o fail_v of_o our_o duty_n to_o god_n by_o prayer_n in_o the_o best_a manner_n we_o can_v be_v the_o powerful_a mean_n to_o procure_v and_o advance_v our_o union_n with_o god_n our_o only_a happiness_n i_o can_v possible_o wish_v a_o great_a good_a to_o any_o person_n i_o love_v than_o the_o gift_n of_o prayer_n know_v that_o thereby_o we_o enter_v into_o the_o cabinet_n of_o the_o secret_n of_o god_n and_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o his_o grace_n prayer_n then_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o grace_n in_o the_o soul_n without_o which_o by_o degree_n she_o tend_v to_o ruin_v no_o affair_n whatsoever_o can_v ever_o hinder_v the_o saint_n from_o their_o constant_a devotion_n jesus_n christ_n himself_o have_v show_v we_o this_o by_o his_o example_n spend_v whole_a night_n in_o prayer_n and_o contemplation_n our_o disorder_n proceed_v much_o by_o too_o light_o engage_v ourselves_o for_o want_v of_o circumspection_n in_o humane_a affair_n to_o which_o we_o have_v no_o call_n from_o god_n and_o therefore_o be_v not_o favour_v by_o he_o with_o success_n whereby_o we_o fall_v into_o many_o defect_n and_o become_v too_o often_o indispose_v to_o prayer_n and_o prayer_n fail_v we_o we_o want_v all_o thing_n the_o first_o wheel_n that_o must_v set_v all_o a_o go_v in_o our_o spiritual_a life_n be_v this_o maxim_n that_o our_o perfection_n consist_v principal_o in_o our_o interiour_n but_o it_o can_v go_v well_o with_o our_o interiour_n without_o fidelity_n to_o grace_n which_o work_v in_o we_o a_o love_n of_o mortification_n and_o austerity_n a_o inclination_n to_o solitude_n and_o a_o kind_n of_o abhorrence_n of_o sensual_a pleasure_n and_o such_o vanity_n as_o the_o world_n admire_v now_o this_o grace_n that_o bring_v forth_o these_o good_a fruit_n in_o we_o be_v not_o obtain_v but_o by_o prayer_n nor_o ordinary_o augment_v but_o by_o prayer_n nor_o well_o know_v so_o as_o to_o correspond_v to_o its_o motion_n but_o by_o prayer_n but_o it_o be_v very_o difficult_a and_o in_o a_o manner_n impossible_a to_o preserve_v the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n in_o the_o multiplicity_n of_o affair_n which_o for_o the_o most_o part_n be_v instrumental_a to_o divert_v our_o thought_n from_o god_n and_o so_o few_o soul_n attain_v to_o perfection_n because_o few_o dispose_n themselves_o to_o pure_a prayer_n neglect_v it_o too_o much_o under_o a_o pretence_n of_o gain_v time_n to_o do_v good_a to_o other_o a_o soul_n that_o will_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n must_v discreet_o shun_v the_o obstacle_n of_o perfection_n though_o 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without_o discouragement_n i_o behold_v even_o with_o content_a other_o command_v their_o passion_n and_o myself_o fight_v for_o victory_n other_o do_v much_o for_o god_n and_o i_o in_o a_o manner_n do_v nothing_o other_o strong_a and_o courageous_a in_o the_o service_n of_o god_n and_o myself_o nothing_o but_o weakness_n and_o misery_n i_o be_o comfort_v in_o consider_v the_o design_n of_o god_n concern_v i_o and_o acquiesce_v in_o his_o good_a pleasure_n for_o god_n refuse_v we_o not_o sometime_o to_o take_v unprofitable_a servant_n into_o his_o house_n who_o only_o serve_v to_o set_v forth_o his_o bounty_n and_o magnificence_n as_o we_o see_v with_o we_o some_o great_a person_n do_v show_v their_o grandeur_n when_o we_o have_v nothing_o to_o do_v but_o only_o to_o pray_v we_o seem_v to_o some_o to_o be_v but_o unprofitable_a and_o do_v god_n but_o
to_o the_o same_o sort_n of_o prayer_n and_o without_o a_o special_a vocation_n we_o ought_v not_o to_o apply_v ourselves_o but_o to_o the_o more_o ordinary_a way_n of_o devotion_n whether_o we_o converse_v with_o god_n by_o discursive_a consideration_n to_o raise_v our_o affection_n take_v some_o book_n to_o our_o assistance_n or_o whether_o we_o call_v to_o mind_v some_o subject_n wherein_o we_o former_o have_v find_v some_o gust_n and_o spiritual_a advantage_n let_v this_o be_v do_v with_o humility_n dependence_n and_o fidelity_n for_o a_o soul_n have_v no_o call_n from_o god_n to_o a_o more_o elevate_a prayer_n if_o she_o cease_v she_o own_o operation_n she_o cease_v to_o pray_o and_o fall_v into_o distraction_n or_o be_v guilty_a of_o idleness_n but_o it_o be_v far_o otherwise_o with_o she_o when_o she_o be_v raise_v from_o meditation_n by_o the_o working_n of_o god_n in_o she_o to_o prayer_n of_o contemplation_n it_o be_v true_a that_o a_o soul_n have_v place_v herself_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o think_v on_o the_o subject_a she_o have_v prepare_v aught_o to_o meditate_v thereon_o with_o great_a attention_n of_o spirit_n but_o if_o god_n please_v to_o take_v her_o thought_n up_o with_o something_o else_o she_o ought_v without_o any_o disturbance_n leave_v she_o own_o to_o comply_v with_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n for_o when_o god_n be_v thus_o please_v to_o possess_v a_o soul_n by_o the_o operation_n of_o his_o grace_n she_o ought_v to_o put_v no_o obstacle_n thereto_o which_o we_o do_v too_o often_o by_o our_o industry_n which_o seem_v to_o we_o necessary_a and_o without_o which_o we_o believe_v we_o shall_v do_v nothing_o when_o as_o then_o we_o shall_v give_v way_n to_o those_o divine_a operation_n to_o the_o end_n they_o may_v become_v more_o efficacious_a otherwise_o we_o have_v less_o respect_n for_o god_n than_o we_o will_v have_v for_o some_o earthly_a prince_n to_o who_o we_o speak_v with_o much_o reverence_n as_o long_o as_o he_o be_v please_v to_o give_v we_o audience_n but_o as_o soon_o as_o he_o think_v good_a to_o speak_v we_o present_o be_v silent_a and_o give_v ear_n to_o his_o word_n with_o much_o attention_n and_o respect_n not_o presume_v in_o the_o least_o sort_n to_o interrupt_v he_o our_o principal_a affair_n be_v to_o serve_v god_n the_o vnum_fw-la necessarium_fw-la recommend_v to_o we_o by_o our_o bless_a saviour_n and_o therefore_o it_o concern_v we_o not_o to_o distract_v ourselves_o with_o too_o many_o exterior_a employment_n though_o good_a and_o lawful_a because_o if_o the_o heart_n be_v bind_v with_o a_o chain_n of_o gold_n it_o be_v no_o more_o at_o liberty_n to_o converse_v with_o god_n than_o if_o it_o be_v fetter_v with_o link_n of_o iron_n wherefore_o whatever_o we_o can_v do_v for_o the_o service_n of_o god_n and_o good_a of_o our_o neighbour_n let_v we_o do_v it_o with_o willingness_n of_o heart_n according_a to_o our_o talent_n and_o ability_n but_o above_o all_o we_o must_v have_v a_o esteem_n of_o prayer_n and_o a_o desire_n to_o practice_v it_o be_v firm_o persuade_v there_o be_v nothing_o whereby_o we_o can_v better_o serve_v god_n or_o more_o profit_n ourselves_o in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n for_o my_o part_n i_o in_o some_o sort_n more_o value_n prayer_n though_o imperfect_a than_o the_o best_a action_n that_o carry_v more_o of_o outward_a splendour_n and_o and_o seem_v more_o glorious_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o man_n we_o must_v therefore_o never_o be_v disgu_v with_o prayer_n nor_o quit_v the_o frequent_a exercise_n thereof_o because_o we_o to_o our_o think_n make_v little_a advancement_n therein_o but_o persevere_v faithful_o to_o practice_v it_o in_o the_o best_a manner_n we_o can_v and_o expect_v with_o patience_n the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n if_o we_o do_v our_o endeavour_n we_o have_v discharge_v our_o duty_n and_o obligation_n the_o servant_n that_o have_v but_o one_o talon_n be_v blame_v by_o his_o lord_n because_o he_o do_v not_o improve_v it_o by_o his_o industry_n when_o my_o soul_n be_v not_o in_o a_o temper_n for_o the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n i_o use_v short_a reflection_n to_o call_v to_o mind_n what_o be_v most_o distasteful_a to_o i_o and_o i_o make_v a_o resolution_n to_o do_v it_o or_o set_v upon_o it_o present_o if_o i_o can_v as_o to_o converse_v with_o one_o from_o who_o i_o have_v a_o aversion_n or_o make_v some_o visit_n where_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v be_v much_o mortify_v that_o i_o may_v conquer_v myself_o in_o those_o thing_n which_o raise_v a_o continual_a war_n within_o i_o i_o have_v oftentimes_o by_o this_o facilit_v the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n god_n be_v please_v by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o to_o dispose_v our_o heart_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o we_o offer_v violence_n to_o ourselves_o to_o surmount_v all_o difficulty_n chap._n viii_o how_o to_o pass_v from_o ordinary_a prayer_n to_o contemplation_n a_o soul_n that_o do_v not_o nourish_v in_o herself_o any_o voluntary_a imperfection_n have_v efficacious_a desire_n to_o live_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n aught_o to_o be_v passive_a to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n in_o prayer_n and_o aspire_v after_o great_a simplicity_n by_o give_v a_o check_n to_o the_o discourse_n of_o her_o understanding_n and_o multiplicity_n of_o act_n in_o her_o will_n and_o affection_n i_o be_o not_o ignorant_a that_o she_o ought_v to_o exercise_v herself_o in_o meditation_n and_o a_o low_a degree_n of_o prayer_n till_o god_n be_v please_v to_o raise_v she_o to_o contemplation_n but_o withal_o she_o must_v elevate_v herself_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o feel_v interior_a attract_v and_o shun_v a_o false_a humility_n which_o hinder_v we_o to_o follow_v the_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n who_o communicate_v his_o grace_n to_o the_o perfect_a to_o augment_v their_o purity_n and_o to_o the_o imperfect_a to_o purify_v their_o soul_n from_o terrene_a desire_n in_o my_o judgement_n it_o be_v of_o great_a importance_n in_o the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n to_o receive_v with_o humility_n the_o impression_n of_o the_o ray_n of_o the_o divine_a sun_n who_o ride_v in_o the_o interiour_n of_o our_o soul_n it_o be_v he_o that_o can_v enlighten_v we_o without_o the_o succour_n of_o our_o discourse_n who_o inflame_v we_o with_o divine_a love_n without_o trouble_v our_o will_n with_o the_o production_n of_o a_o multiplicity_n of_o act_n and_o in_o a_o manner_n almost_o imperceptible_o make_v all_o virtue_n to_o grow_v ripe_a in_o we_o and_o arrive_v to_o perfection_n if_o a_o soul_n make_v it_o her_o work_n to_o mortify_v all_o her_o imperfection_n and_o desire_n to_o live_v a_o suffer_a life_n for_o prayer_n she_o need_v not_o much_o trouble_v herself_o god_n will_v do_v her_o work_n for_o she_o and_o in_o a_o manner_n above_o her_o hope_n and_o understanding_n god_n do_v not_o work_v this_o but_o in_o such_o a_o soul_n that_o free_o put_v herself_o into_o his_o hand_n with_o all_o submissive_a humility_n to_o be_v guide_v by_o he_o in_o this_o state_n of_o prayer_n the_o subject_n prepare_v for_o our_o exercise_n sometime_o may_v be_v useful_a sometime_o god_n suggest_v some_o other_o matter_n as_o he_o see_v best_o and_o the_o soul_n must_v peaceable_o comply_v with_o his_o communication_n we_o can_v give_v certain_a rule_n to_o such_o who_o be_v in_o this_o state_n of_o prayer_n god_n work_v in_o they_o as_o he_o please_v in_o different_a manner_n all_o the_o counsel_n can_v be_v give_v be_v to_o keep_v themselves_o in_o a_o entire_a indifferency_n to_o illustration_n or_o privation_n to_o sweetness_n or_o rigour_n nevertheless_o i_o believe_v we_o may_v profitable_o descend_v to_o a_o low_a degree_n of_o prayer_n when_o we_o have_v no_o overture_n to_o one_o more_o elevate_v but_o this_o be_v not_o to_o be_v do_v till_o we_o often_o knock_v at_o the_o gate_n of_o mercy_n with_o a_o holy_a importunity_n but_o if_o the_o bridegroom_n of_o our_o soul_n be_v not_o please_v to_o vouchsafe_v we_o 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this_o interiour_n poverty_n and_o dereliction_n find_v that_o she_o have_v a_o call_n to_o interiour_n suffering_n she_o ought_v not_o to_o seek_v after_o sensible_a thing_n to_o raise_v she_o to_o god_n but_o courageous_o bear_v this_o interiour_n cross_n as_o long_o as_o it_o please_v her_o divine_a bridegroom_n to_o continue_v her_o trial_n this_o state_n be_v bitter_a indeed_o but_o withal_o purify_n and_o make_v a_o soul_n capable_a of_o more_o intimate_a union_n with_o god_n chap._n x._o of_o the_o sacred_a darkness_n of_o prayer_n on_o st._n mary_n magdalen_n day_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o prayer_n change_v and_o become_v more_o simple_a more_o strong_a and_o elevate_v my_o spirit_n go_v on_o know_v god_n not_o by_o light_n or_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o by_o a_o certain_a darkness_n wherewith_o god_n be_v surround_v as_o with_o a_o cloud_n this_o darkness_n make_v i_o see_v that_o god_n can_v be_v know_v but_o be_v infinite_o above_o our_o understanding_n which_o 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she_o receive_v the_o same_o to_o be_v apply_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o most_o excellent_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n do_v not_o consist_v in_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o in_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o spirit_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n that_o be_v ineffable_a for_o this_o supreme_a region_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v the_o sacred_a temple_n where_o god_n be_v please_v to_o dwell_v where_o she_o feel_v and_o taste_v a_o sweetness_n above_o all_o create_a entity_n the_o soul_n conduct_v by_o faith_n and_o attract_v by_o these_o divine_a perfume_n find_v god_n in_o this_o his_o sanctuary_n and_o converse_v with_o he_o with_o such_o a_o familiarity_n as_o astonish_v the_o angel_n to_o behold_v it_o it_o be_v here_o where_o she_o make_v pure_a prayer_n seeing_z there_o be_v nothing_o but_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n without_o any_o creature_n to_o interrupt_v this_o sacred_a interview_n god_n work_v all_o that_o pass_v by_o himself_o without_o 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act_n and_o suffer_v and_o practice_v pure_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n few_o person_n arrive_v to_o this_o purity_n of_o perfect_a prayer_n because_o few_o make_v themselves_o susceptible_a of_o those_o divine_a motion_n by_o a_o entire_a annihilation_n of_o their_o own_o power_n these_o great_a favour_n will_v be_v more_o frequent_o bestow_v if_o we_o have_v heart_n prepare_v to_o receive_v they_o favour_n which_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o can_v be_v know_v but_o by_o experience_n for_o my_o part_n i_o know_v nothing_o i_o only_o have_v hear_v say_v that_o in_o this_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n there_o be_v admirable_a union_n most_o intimate_a embrace_n ardour_n of_o love_n so_o pure_a as_o may_v almost_o compare_v with_o the_o flame_n of_o seraphim_n we_o come_v to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o god_n by_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n and_o this_o denudation_n be_v acquire_v by_o continual_a mortification_n and_o sometime_o by_o divine_a infusion_n we_o must_v therefore_o pray_v much_o and_o die_v daily_o to_o ourselves_o and_o all_o creature_n since_o that_o original_a sin_n have_v deprave_v our_o nature_n we_o can_v live_v a_o life_n of_o grace_n without_o die_v a_o continual_a death_n when_o god_n act_v with_o we_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n we_o shall_v soon_o die_v to_o ourselves_o for_o he_o break_v we_o all_o to_o piece_n on_o a_o sudden_a with_o wonderful_a contrition_n of_o heart_n and_o kill_v our_o corruption_n unknown_a to_o we_o so_o that_o a_o soul_n die_v more_o in_o one_o day_n by_o the_o love_a stroke_n of_o his_o powerful_a hand_n than_o she_o will_v in_o some_o year_n by_o ordinary_a mortification_n let_v we_o therefore_o adore_v this_o divine_a and_o love_a hand_n which_o kill_v we_o to_o make_v we_o live_v and_o never_o complain_v but_o of_o the_o little_a return_v we_o make_v for_o his_o gracious_a favour_n the_o loss_n of_o good_n of_o friend_n of_o 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be_v inseparable_a so_o that_o he_o who_o will_v not_o suffer_v can_v arrive_v to_o purity_n of_o love_n my_o prayer_n then_o tend_v to_o unite_v i_o intimate_o and_o continual_o to_o the_o only_a love_n wherewith_o god_n love_v himself_o and_o my_o soul_n have_v at_o present_a attract_v to_o nothing_o else_o in_o this_o love_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o she_o find_v the_o practice_n of_o all_o virtue_n in_o a_o more_o excellent_a manner_n than_o in_o themselves_o i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o love_n be_v a_o weight_n that_o continual_o carry_v the_o soul_n towards_o her_o belove_a object_n and_o my_o will_n bend_v always_o towards_o god_n it_o move_v thither_o by_o a_o long_a inclination_n full_a of_o love_n and_o sweetness_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o understanding_n herein_o do_v not_o with_o its_o light_n assist_v my_o will_n for_o i_o find_v my_o affection_n all_o on_o fire_n and_o pant_v after_o god_n without_o any_o previous_a illustration_n i_o find_v i_o think_v divine_a love_n immediate_o work_v on_o my_o heart_n by_o such_o most_o secret_a touch_v as_o put_v i_o in_o a_o state_n of_o perfect_a union_n i_o find_v nothing_o to_o explicate_v this_o better_a than_o a_o needle_n touch_v by_o the_o adamant_n which_o then_o turn_v continual_o by_o a_o secret_a virtue_n to_o the_o pole_n and_o be_v unquiet_a till_o there_o it_o fix_v thus_o it_o stand_v with_o my_o soul_n be_v touch_v i_o know_v not_o how_o by_o divine_a love_n have_v no_o repose_n but_o by_o fix_v on_o god_n and_o part_v with_o all_o creature_n she_o gentle_o tend_v to_o her_o divine_a centre_n without_o any_o violence_n be_v sweet_o attract_v to_o a_o perfect_a union_n my_o understanding_n in_o this_o state_n see_v well_o enough_o what_o pass_v in_o my_o will_n and_o affection_n but_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o contribute_v
nothing_o to_o work_v this_o amorous_a tendency_n towards_o god_n not_o but_o that_o sometime_o it_o present_v some_o excellent_a truth_n to_o quicken_v love_n but_o yet_o that_o truth_n be_v there_o without_o it_o i_o admire_v that_o after_o the_o visit_n of_o friend_n i_o always_o find_v my_o will_n convert_v to_o god_n the_o only_a centre_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o i_o know_v not_o how_o this_o amorous_a inclination_n be_v entertain_v and_o preserve_v in_o i_o i_o find_v by_o experience_n that_o in_o this_o state_n my_o soul_n be_v well_o dispose_v to_o practice_v all_o sort_n of_o virtue_n though_o she_o make_v thereof_o no_o formal_a resolution_n after_o the_o exercise_n of_o this_o prayer_n the_o soul_n be_v extreme_o in_o love_n with_o mortification_n and_o self-denial_n desire_v nothing_o but_o god_n alone_o she_o understand_v also_o that_o she_o can_v persevere_v in_o this_o happy_a state_n without_o a_o constant_a love_n of_o the_o cross_n of_o which_o she_o daily_o become_v 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at_o other_o time_n when_o the_o soul_n be_v in_o doubt_n or_o trouble_v with_o some_o disorder_n or_o discourage_v by_o she_o own_o weakness_n she_o find_v god_n show_v himself_o present_a with_o she_o to_o instruct_v to_o quicken_v to_o strengthen_v to_o succour_v she_o according_a to_o her_o present_a necessity_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n be_v dispose_v to_o whatsoever_o god_n please_v desire_v nothing_o require_v of_o she_o god_n work_v his_o will_n in_o she_o and_o she_o be_v humble_a and_o faithful_a and_o altogether_o submissive_a and_o pliable_a to_o his_o operation_n thus_o the_o soul_n must_v stand_v affect_v in_o respect_n of_o god_n but_o she_o can_v never_o come_v to_o this_o without_o great_a combat_n continual_a death_n and_o long_a suffering_n however_o all_o the_o cross_n can_v be_v endure_v in_o this_o world_n be_v but_o a_o cheap_a rate_n to_o purchase_v the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n but_o for_o a_o moment_n in_o this_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n the_o 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he_o please_v without_o her_o knowledge_n or_o discovery_n before_o the_o soul_n can_v fix_v in_o this_o state_n she_o must_v suffer_v much_o from_o her_o imagination_n which_o will_v be_v still_o propose_v her_o representation_n light_n and_o sentiment_n according_a to_o her_o usual_a practice_n but_o the_o soul_n must_v quit_v all_o these_o to_o yield_v herself_o passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n yea_o even_o spiritual_a lecture_n at_o this_o time_n prove_v hurtful_a because_o it_o keep_v up_o the_o ordinary_a way_n of_o work_v in_o the_o soul_n neither_o be_v this_o to_o tempt_v god_n see_v he_o will_v have_v the_o soul_n to_o treat_v with_o he_o in_o this_o manner_n and_o her_o present_a disposition_n thus_o require_v she_o ought_v to_o be_v faithful_a in_o comply_v with_o it_o there_o be_v many_o degree_n of_o this_o denudation_n whereof_o i_o speak_v the_o first_o take_v from_o the_o soul_n what_o light_n and_o affection_n she_o get_v discursive_a meditation_n to_o 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image_n of_o creature_n and_o at_o last_o my_o soul_n be_v insensible_o lose_v in_o a_o general_n and_o amorous_a knowledge_n of_o god_n and_o afterward_o she_o perceive_v no_o more_o of_o what_o god_n wrought_v in_o she_o be_v then_o environ_v with_o darkness_n which_o cloud_v the_o light_n of_o her_o understanding_n i_o also_o lay_v aside_o all_o exterior_a occupation_n except_o such_o as_o i_o see_v clear_o god_n require_v of_o i_o spiritual_a entertainment_n action_n of_o charity_n visit_v the_o poor_a etc._n etc._n to_o intermeddle_v much_o with_o such_o like_a thing_n do_v take_v up_o the_o time_n for_o prayer_n and_o contemplation_n which_o be_v my_o chief_a and_o principal_a affair_n and_o as_o i_o ought_v to_o serve_v god_n in_o a_o denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n so_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v dis-engaged_n from_o too_o many_o exteteriour_a occupation_n to_o treasure_n up_o time_n enough_o with_o mary_n magdalen_n for_o the_o one_o thing_n necessary_a and_o because_o solitude_n and_o retirement_n from_o worldly_a conversation_n do_v much_o cherish_v this_o manner_n of_o life_n i_o must_v embrace_v it_o as_o much_o as_o possible_a but_o however_o with_o a_o high_a esteem_n of_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o active_a life_n which_o be_v excellent_a in_o the_o order_n of_o divine_a providence_n sometime_o the_o string_n be_v to_o be_v slakn_v a_o little_a to_o divert_v my_o thought_n by_o recreation_n or_o exterior_a action_n i_o have_v know_v solitary_n that_o have_v do_v so_o for_o the_o preservation_n of_o their_o health_n and_o advancement_n of_o their_o spiritual_a exercise_n i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o my_o life_n have_v be_v too_o much_o take_v up_o with_o amusement_n and_o therefore_o now_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v more_o solitary_a and_o retire_v otherwise_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o grace_n of_o my_o vocation_n nor_o conform_v myself_o to_o
the_o will_n of_o god_n if_o i_o have_v not_o a_o great_a care_n the_o devil_n will_v deceive_v i_o and_o make_v i_o delay_v to_o my_o own_o ruin_n chap._n xx._n of_o the_o different_a caress_n god_n vouchsafe_v a_o soul_n in_o prayer_n those_o who_o practise_v prayer_n know_v by_o experience_n that_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n in_o different_a manner_n all_o most_o intimate_a most_o pure_a and_o full_a of_o sweetness_n oftentimes_o by_o the_o please_a attraction_n of_o his_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n so_o delightful_a to_o the_o soul_n that_o for_o the_o time_n she_o in_o a_o manner_n enjoy_v a_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n sometime_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n by_o the_o rigour_n of_o his_o justice_n try_v she_o with_o interior_a and_o exterior_a suffering_n so_o that_o only_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n remain_v unite_v to_o god_n the_o inferior_a part_n be_v in_o a_o suffer_a condition_n sometime_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n by_o 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and_o more_o perfect_a communication_n be_v more_o proper_a for_o it_o the_o understanding_n herein_o be_v more_o liable_a to_o illusion_n the_o will_n be_v more_o assure_v in_o her_o way_n and_o the_o devil_n can_v counterfeit_v what_o pass_v in_o she_o in_o the_o feeling_n of_o pure_a love_n for_o the_o soul_n that_o have_v experience_n of_o the_o effect_n of_o pure_a love_n can_v easy_o be_v deceive_v from_o hence_o it_o come_v that_o the_o purity_n of_o the_o will_n be_v the_o principal_a disposition_n for_o the_o prayer_n of_o union_n be_v it_o ordinary_a or_o more_o sublime_a by_o the_o powerful_a influence_n of_o prevent_a grace_n this_o purity_n be_v altogether_o necessary_a god_n be_v not_o please_v to_o work_v these_o wonder_n but_o in_o a_o purify_a soul_n and_o this_o purity_n consist_v in_o willing_a nothing_o but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n be_v dead_a to_o all_o other_o thing_n content_v herself_o with_o the_o order_n of_o providence_n god_n find_v the_o soul_n thus_o 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that_o a_o mistress_n of_o a_o house_n that_o have_v a_o king_n and_o queen_n in_o her_o closet_n willing_a to_o converse_v with_o she_o will_v have_v a_o care_v not_o to_o divert_v herself_o by_o other_o matter_n and_o quit_v they_o to_o wash_v dish_n in_o the_o kitchen_n what_o strange_a incivility_n will_v this_o be_v yea_o what_o infidelity_n will_v it_o be_v in_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v honour_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o cabinet_n of_o her_o heart_n to_o have_v she_o near_o himself_o to_o converse_v with_o she_o and_o to_o ravish_v she_o with_o these_o spiritual_a delight_n which_o be_v ineffable_a soul_n that_o be_v thus_o favour_v of_o god_n if_o they_o quit_v he_o for_o exterior_a employment_n and_o temporal_a affair_n neglect_v the_o presence_n of_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n for_o some_o inconsiderable_a business_n by_o this_o strange_a neglect_n or_o contempt_n of_o his_o special_a favour_n must_v needs_o be_v guilty_a of_o deep_a ingratitude_n o_o my_o soul_n be_v thou_o faithful_a to_o the_o divine_a call_n thou_o be_v too_o much_o favour_v of_o god_n consider_v thy_o too_o frequent_a not_o comply_v with_o his_o grace_n he_o call_v thou_o to_o himself_o his_o attract_v be_v powerful_a and_o sweet_a let_v we_o quit_v temporal_a thing_n and_o leave_v they_o to_o who_o will_v take_v they_o fear_v not_o we_o shall_v want_v nothing_o have_v god_n in_o possession_n if_o divine_a providence_n dispense_v to_o we_o with_o so_o liberal_a a_o hand_n the_o great_a favour_n of_o god_n spiritual_a grace_n let_v we_o not_o think_v he_o will_v deny_v we_o his_o lesser_a blessing_n which_o concern_v the_o body_n and_o be_v as_o nothing_o in_o comparison_n let_v we_o betake_v ourselves_o to_o prayer_n and_o never_o leave_v it_o for_o that_o be_v our_o great_a and_o sole_a affair_n the_o end_n of_o the_o seven_o book_n book_n viii_o some_o maxim_n of_o great_a importance_n to_o conduct_v we_o in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n chap._n i._o to_o have_v above_o all_o thing_n a_o extreme_a horror_n of_o sin_n there_o be_v nothing_o of_o great_a concern_v to_o we_o in_o this_o world_n than_o to_o manage_v well_o our_o love_n and_o hatred_n to_o which_o passion_n our_o will_n principal_o owe_v her_o motion_n our_o love_n ought_v whole_o to_o be_v fix_v on_o god_n who_o be_v a_o infinite_a good_a and_o our_o final_a happiness_n our_o hatred_n ought_v to_o have_v no_o other_o object_n but_o sin_n which_o be_v a_o infinite_a evil_n and_o utter_a ruin_n of_o our_o soul_n love_n make_v all_o thing_n easy_a and_o what_o be_v do_v with_o great_a love_n be_v of_o great_a value_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n who_o know_v to_o love_v cordial_o know_v how_o to_o do_v whatever_o god_n require_v of_o he_o see_v love_n include_v in_o it_o all_o perfection_n hatred_n also_o make_v all_o thing_n easy_a for_o from_o a_o torrent_n of_o hatred_n common_o flow_v a_o inundation_n of_o evil_n he_o who_o real_o and_o from_o his_o heart_n hate_v a_o infinite_a 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the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n do_v not_o at_o all_o hinder_v her_o co-operation_n whether_o it_o be_v to_o act_v with_o god_n in_o prayer_n or_o exterior_a employment_n god_n by_o this_o mean_n work_n in_o the_o soul_n a_o disposition_n to_o enjoy_v or_o suffer_v of_o action_n or_o contemplation_n of_o darkness_n or_o light_n as_o he_o please_v for_o than_o she_o desire_v to_o do_v nothing_o of_o herself_o but_o to_o follow_v entire_o the_o attract_v and_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n a_o soul_n that_o set_v herself_o a_o work_n without_o a_o eye_n to_o god_n and_o her_o interiour_n be_v imprudent_a for_o what_o she_o so_o undertake_v be_v of_o no_o value_n in_o that_o she_o do_v not_o the_o will_n of_o god_n but_o withdraw_v herself_o from_o her_o necessary_a dependence_n endeavour_n as_o it_o be_v to_o conduct_v god_n when_o she_o ought_v only_o to_o be_v conduct_v by_o he_o if_o we_o be_v sensible_a of_o our_o misery_n herein_o we_o will_v be_v afraid_a of_o ourselves_o 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he_o for_o receive_v in_o a_o word_n we_o do_v not_o entire_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o the_o pure_a will_n of_o god_n we_o ought_v not_o to_o perplex_v and_o disquiet_v ourselves_o with_o the_o defect_n and_o imperfection_n of_o those_o with_o who_o we_o live_v and_o be_v under_o our_o charge_n they_o be_v mortal_a and_o infirm_a creature_n and_o not_o angel_n and_o to_o expect_v they_o shall_v be_v faultless_a be_v to_o look_v for_o impossibility_n and_o flatter_v our_o impatience_n which_o will_v have_v no_o occasion_n of_o displeasure_n this_o be_v but_o to_o afflict_v ourselves_o for_o the_o loss_n of_o our_o own_o esteem_n which_o appear_v by_o our_o ill_a conduct_n in_o such_o small_a matter_n and_o yet_o we_o pretend_v only_o to_o seek_v god_n honour_n and_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n those_o who_o true_o seek_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n sometime_o be_v trouble_v but_o it_o be_v a_o displeasure_n join_v with_o peace_n and_o tranquillity_n yea_o abound_v with_o influence_n of_o heaven_n and_o divine_a love_n a_o displeasure_n that_o rather_o increase_v than_o take_v away_o the_o peace_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o dispose_v she_o to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o god_n and_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o all_o christian_a virtue_n i_o know_v no_o better_a mean_n to_o be_v humble_v in_o our_o own_o eye_n and_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o other_o than_o the_o miscarriage_n that_o arrive_v by_o our_o manifold_a imperfection_n if_o i_o do_v a_o good_a action_n for_o which_o other_o think_v the_o worse_a of_o i_o i_o shall_v not_o seem_v so_o to_o myself_o but_o if_o i_o shall_v fall_v into_o a_o gross_a imperfection_n which_o neither_o i_o nor_o other_o discover_v how_o shall_v i_o be_v ashamed_a and_o learn_v thereby_o a_o lesson_n of_o mortification_n when_o nature_n be_v surprise_v and_o as_o it_o be_v amaze_v to_o see_v she_o own_o frailty_n what_o prop_n can_v she_o find_v to_o uphold_v her_o ambition_n she_o must_v needs_o be_v humble_v by_o this_o mean_n and_o so_o 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