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time_n of_o health_n page_n 14_o vii_o meditation_n concern_v sickness_n page_n 16_o viii_o remedy_n against_o sin_n page_n 20_o ix_o meditation_n of_o death_n page_n 21_o x._o resolution_n against_o the_o vexation_n and_o the_o vanity_n of_o the_o world_n page_n 25_o part_n ii_o meditation_n at_o first_o sicken_n i._o a_o prayer_n in_o time_n of_o sickness_n page_n 28_o ii_o concern_v prayer_n page_n 33_o iii_o meditation_n at_o first_o sickening_a page_n 36_o iu_o direction_n and_o consolation_n in_o time_n of_o sickness_n and_o death_n page_n 39_o v._o a_o prayer_n before_o take_v of_o physic_n page_n 42_o vi_o a_o prayer_n before_o physic_n be_v work_a page_n 44_o vii_o six_o meditation_n to_o cure_v the_o fear_n of_o death_n page_n 45_o viii_o rule_v to_o make_v our_o call_v and_o election_n sure_a page_n 50_o ix_o against_o doubt_n of_o god_n mercy_n page_n 52_o x._o read_v of_o chapter_n or_o portion_n of_o scripture_n page_n 55_o part_n iii_o meditation_n at_o grow_v weak_a i._o a_o prayer_n upon_o danger_n of_o death_n page_n 56_o ii_o consolation_n concern_v death_n page_n 60_o iii_o against_o impatience_n in_o sickness_n page_n 63_o iu_o consolation_n in_o the_o lord_n christ_n etc._n etc._n page_n 67_o v._o read_v of_o scripture_n or_o part_n of_o chap._n page_n 69_o vi_o a_o prayer_n where_o friend_n be_v to_o join_v ibid._n vii_o meditation_n upon_o the_o day_n of_o death_n and_o of_o doom_n page_n 72_o viii_o short_a prayer_n upon_o any_o release_n of_o pain_n page_n 75_o ix_o consolation_n against_o pain_n and_o fear_n of_o die_a page_n 77_o x._o ejaculation_n to_o father_n son_n and_o holy_a ghost_n page_n 79_o part_n iu_o meditation_n upon_o certain_a sign_n of_o death_n i._o short_a prayer_n upon_o any_o intermission_n of_o pain_n page_n 81_o ii_o a_o prayer_n to_o be_v use_v by_o friend_n page_n 82_o iii_o question_n with_o answer_n upon_o any_o sign_n of_o die_a page_n 85_o iu_o portion_n of_o scripture_n to_o be_v read_v page_n 87_o v._o more_o question_n and_o answer_n ibid._n vi_o short_a prayer_n upon_o any_o abate_n of_o pain_n page_n 90_o vii_o friend_n to_o help_v with_o short_a ejaculation_n page_n 91_o viii_o more_o of_o these_o short_a ejaculation_n page_n 92_o ix_o a_o prayer_n by_o friend_n at_o leave_v this_o life_n page_n 93_o x._o another_o by_o friend_n at_o yield_v up_o the_o ghost_n page_n 95_o part_n v._o be_v ten_o bless_v example_n of_o holy_a person_n relate_v to_o a_o happy_a passage_n out_o of_o this_o life_n to_o a_o better_a i._o the_o sickness_n and_o death_n of_o the_o earl_n of_o hanaw_n page_n 97_o ii_o the_o last_o word_n of_o mr._n john_n meauty_n page_n 113_o iii_o mrs._n juxons_n life_n and_o death_n page_n 114_o iu_o archbishop_n of_o armagh_n life_n and_o death_n page_n 118_o v._o mr._n rhodes_n his_o life_n and_o death_n page_n 123_o vi_o mrs._n rhodes_n her_o life_n and_o death_n page_n 128_o vii_o dr._n harris_n his_o life_n and_o death_n page_n 133_o viii_o mrs._n scot_n life_n and_o death_n page_n 141_o ix_o mounseur_fw-fr du_fw-fr moulins_n life_n and_o death_n page_n 149_o x._o mr._n crook_n life_n and_o death_n page_n 156_o part_n i._o meditation_n in_o time_n of_o health_n i._o short_a sentence_n to_o mind_v we_o of_o our_o mortality_n nullum_fw-la momentum_fw-la sine_fw-la motu_fw-la ad_fw-la mortem_fw-la quotidie_fw-la morimur_fw-la quotidie_fw-la enim_fw-la demitur_fw-la pars_fw-la aquavitae_fw-la &_o tunc_fw-la quoque_fw-la cum_fw-la crescimus_fw-la vita_fw-la decrescit_fw-la mille_fw-la modis_fw-la morimur_fw-la mortales_fw-la nascimur_fw-la uno_fw-la sunt_fw-la hominum_fw-la morbi_fw-la mille_fw-la sed_fw-la una_fw-la salus_fw-la non_fw-fr est_fw-fr malum_fw-la in_o morte_fw-la nisi_fw-la post_fw-la mortem_fw-la ossa_fw-la arida_fw-la &_o sepulchra_fw-la sunt_fw-la praeceprore_n nostri_fw-la qui_fw-la moritur_fw-la vitiis_fw-la antequam_fw-la
there_o be_v thy_o forbear_n mercy_n whereby_o thou_o do_v wait_v for_o the_o conversion_n of_o foul_a offender_n 3._o there_o be_v thy_o alter_a mercy_n which_o from_o vanity_n and_o vice_n do_v settle_v we_o in_o way_n of_o holiness_n 4._o there_o be_v thy_o embrace_a mercy_n whereby_o thou_o assure_v we_o be_v now_o convert_v of_o thy_o favour_n in_o christ_n jesus_n 5._o there_o be_v thy_o confirm_a mercy_n which_o strengthen_v we_o in_o the_o course_n of_o godliness_n 6._o there_o be_v thy_o comfort_a mercy_n which_o set_v we_o in_o the_o hope_n and_o expectation_n of_o future_a glory_n 7._o there_o be_v thy_o crown_a mercy_n which_o give_v we_o assurance_n and_o full_a possession_n of_o eternal_a happiness_n in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n yea_o lord_n thy_o boundless_a mercy_n do_v every_o where_o and_o every_o way_n and_o every_o day_n most_o gracious_o enlarge_v themselves_o towards_o we_o both_o in_o give_v we_o all_o good_a thing_n and_o in_o forgive_a we_o all_o our_o offending_n but_o yet_o it_o must_v be_v our_o care_n that_o we_o take_v heed_n never_o to_o presume_v upon_o this_o mercy_n but_o to_o have_v this_o sentence_n always_o in_o our_o mind_n and_o memory_n the_o lord_n be_v merciful_a that_o he_o may_v be_v fear_v amen_n so_o be_v it_o iv_o of_o the_o danger_n and_o evil_n of_o sin_n 1._o who_o will_v be_v so_o hardy_a as_o to_o commit_v any_o one_o sin_n if_o he_o do_v at_o all_o consider_v the_o example_n of_o god_n judgement_n for_o sin_n and_o that_o first_o upon_o the_o whole_a world_n which_o he_o have_v make_v 2._o upon_o his_o church_n the_o quintessence_n of_o the_o world_n when_o they_o sin_v in_o the_o wilderness_n 3._o upon_o his_o saint_n the_o quintessence_n of_o his_o church_n as_o david_n his_o belove_a 4._o on_o the_o angel_n in_o heaven_n offend_v 5._o on_o his_o dear_a son_n himself_o when_o he_o take_v our_o sin_n upon_o he_o and_o so_o feel_v the_o bitterness_n of_o god_n justice_n upon_o which_o one_o say_v well_o 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present_a horror_n that_o they_o have_v feel_v gain_v hereby_o nothing_o but_o to_o that_o hell_n which_o be_v within_o they_o a_o second_o hell_n to_o be_v without_o they_o the_o conscience_n leave_v not_o where_o the_o fiend_n begin_v but_o both_o together_o join_v in_o torture_v 3._o what_o can_v we_o think_v of_o sin_n let_v the_o pleasure_n or_o the_o profit_n or_o the_o pretence_n thereof_o be_v what_o it_o may_v be_v yet_o before_o the_o execution_n of_o the_o least_o sin_n let_v we_o consider_v that_o either_o we_o must_v repent_v that_o sin_n and_o that_o with_o a_o sorrow_n equal_a to_o the_o pleasure_n that_o we_o have_v in_o it_o or_o else_o we_o shall_v for_o that_o one_o sin_n be_v condemn_v to_o everlasting_a torment_n let_v this_o then_o o_o let_v this_o only_a one_o consideration_n sink_v deep_a and_o dwell_v upon_o our_o heart_n and_o then_o it_o will_v prove_v a_o help_n to_o we_o during_o our_o life_n 4._o some_o obdurate_a forehead_n there_o be_v that_o will_v seem_v to_o laugh_v their_o sin_n out_o of_o countenance_n but_o certain_o their_o heart_n must_v needs_o bleed_v when_o their_o face_n do_v countenance_v a_o smile_n they_o do_v wear_v out_o many_o wake_a hour_n when_o they_o think_v they_o rest_v yea_o as_o their_o thought_n afford_v they_o no_o sleep_n no_o more_o do_v their_o sleep_n afford_v they_o rest_n but_o while_o their_o sense_n be_v tie_v up_o their_o sin_n be_v let_v loose_a fright_v they_o with_o horrible_a dream_n therefore_o sin_n no_o more_o lest_o a_o worse_a thing_n come_v unto_o you_o 5._o see_v the_o tongue_n of_o a_o sinner_n begin_v first_o to_o dissemble_v next_o to_o lie_v next_o to_o swear_v next_o to_o blaspheme_v and_o the_o next_o thing_n that_o the_o sinner_n take_v in_o hand_n be_v the_o practice_n of_o evil_a action_n and_o here_o as_o in_o other_o case_n the_o devil_n use_v his_o old_a method_n he_o first_o teach_v the_o man_n the_o art_n of_o fraud_n and_o cozen_n after_o that_o the_o practice_n of_o extortion_n and_o oppression_n then_o the_o trade_n of_o open_a theft_n and_o violence_n so_o as_o by_o this_o time_n the_o man_n be_v grow_v a_o perfect_a artist_n and_o proficient_a be_v show_v the_o way_n to_o swallow_v any_o bait_n and_o to_o scruple_n at_o nothing_o at_o all_o v._o health_n the_o fit_a time_n for_o repentance_n 1._o let_v we_o not_o delay_v our_o repentance_n from_o day_n to_o day_n but_o even_o in_o our_o youth_n begin_v so_o necessary_a so_o profitable_a a_o work_n can_v we_o think_v it_o fit_a to_o undertake_v by_o the_o serious_a exercise_n of_o repentance_n which_o be_v the_o work_n of_o work_n to_o turn_v our_o sinful_a soul_n towards_o god_n when_o sickness_n have_v seize_v upon_o we_o and_o when_o we_o be_v not_o able_a to_o turn_v our_o tire_a limb_n upon_o our_o soft_a bed_n if_o we_o find_v it_o so_o hard_a a_o matter_n to_o turn_v to_o heavenward_o now_o we_o shall_v find_v it_o far_o hard_a then_o for_o our_o sin_n will_v wax_v strong_a every_o day_n but_o our_o strength_n for_o resistance_n will_v become_v weak_a our_o conscience_n will_v frighten_v we_o pain_n will_v distract_v we_o fear_v of_o death_n will_v amaze_v we_o visit_v of_o friend_n will_v disturb_v we_o so_o as_o if_o we_o be_v not_o beforehand_o furnish_v with_o a_o competency_n of_o faith_n and_o patience_n and_o holy_a consolation_n we_o shall_v not_o on_o our_o sick_a bed_n be_v able_a to_o meditate_v ourselves_o nor_o to_o observe_v the_o word_n of_o counsel_n or_o of_o comfort_n from_o other_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v able_a to_o pray_v alone_o nor_o to_o join_v with_o other_o that_o will_v pray_v with_o we_o therefore_o let_v we_o beware_v and_o begin_v repentance_n betimes_o he_o shall_v be_v sure_a to_o forget_v god_n at_o his_o death_n that_o do_v not_o daily_o remember_v he_o in_o his_o life_n let_v we_o then_o prepare_v ourselves_o betimes_o for_o sickness_n and_o death_n let_v we_o pull_v out_o the_o sting_n of_o death_n by_o early_o bewail_v of_o sin_n past_a by_o timely_a cleave_v to_o god_n for_o the_o future_a with_o purpose_v and_o practise_v sincerity_n of_o life_n and_o conversation_n 2._o we_o be_v the_o israel_n of_o god_n our_o sin_n be_v the_o egyptian_n that_o keep_v we_o in_o bondage_n let_v we_o pray_v that_o these_o egyptian_n may_v be_v drown_v in_o that_o red_a sea_n and_o wash_v away_o by_o that_o precious_a blood_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 3._o in_o our_o health_n let_v we_o take_v heed_n of_o all_o sin_n for_o sin_n be_v the_o only_a enemy_n to_o christ_n they_o be_v those_o soldier_n that_o apprehend_v he_o those_o tormentor_n that_o scourge_v he_o those_o thorn_n that_o gore_v his_o head_n those_o nail_n that_o pierce_v his_o foot_n that_o spear_n that_o spill_v his_o blood_n that_o cross_n that_o take_v away_o his_o life_n 4._o take_v heed_n for_o he_o that_o do_v not_o repent_v to_o day_n have_v a_o day_n more_o to_o repent_v of_o and_o yet_o a_o day_n less_o to_o repent_v in_o it_o be_v the_o say_n of_o a_o holy_a man_n when_o he_o hear_v a_o clock_n to_o strike_v hark_v here_o be_v one_o hour_n more_o that_o i_o have_v to_o answer_v for_o 5._o defer_v not_o repentance_n till_o sickness_n come_v it_o may_v present_o be_v violent_a and_o then_o if_o our_o reason_n continue_v which_o be_v oftentimes_o otherwise_o it_o will_v be_v most_o necessary_a to_o employ_v that_o reason_n and_o our_o best_a thought_n on_o the_o high_a concernment_n on_o the_o world_n that_o we_o be_v go_v to_o and_o not_o on_o the_o world_n that_o we_o be_v about_o to_o leave_v let_v terrene_a thing_n always_o give_v place_n to_o celestial_a thing_n that_o so_o we_o may_v be_v in_o heaven_n here_o vi_o holy_a resolution_n in_o time_n of_o health_n 1._o i_o will_v always_o remember_v
which_o be_v evil_a as_o wanton_a discourse_n wander_v thought_n and_o wicked_a company_n and_o indeed_o all_o the_o vanity_n of_o the_o world_n 6._o we_o must_v be_v frequent_a in_o humble_a faithful_a and_o devout_a prayer_n for_o none_o be_v overcome_v by_o a_o temptation_n till_o he_o give_v over_o holy_a constant_a and_o zealous_a pray_v 7._o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o our_o heart_n let_v we_o resolve_v constant_o to_o embrace_v and_o to_o observe_v whatsoever_o be_v find_v to_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n yea_o though_o all_o the_o world_n shall_v repine_v and_o persecute_v we_o for_o it_o so_o shall_v our_o duty_n and_o our_o service_n be_v regulate_v by_o precept_n and_o wing_a by_o promise_n 8._o a_o sovereign_a remedy_n it_o will_v prove_v to_o be_v meditate_v at_o all_o hour_n on_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n observe_v careful_o and_o do_v what_o have_v be_v say_v diligent_o et_fw-la in_o aeternum_fw-la non_fw-la peccabis_fw-la ix_o meditation_n of_o death_n the_o high_a delight_n and_o the_o great_a confidence_n that_o be_v in_o man_n can_v shift_v off_o the_o importunate_a and_o the_o violent_a trouble_n of_o this_o adversary_n that_o example_n in_o dan._n 5._o may_v serve_v for_o all_o that_o chaldean_a tyrant_n be_v carouse_v with_o his_o concubine_n sing_v triumphant_a carol_n to_o the_o praise_n of_o his_o carve_a god_n yet_o how_o be_v his_o courage_n abate_v when_o death_n write_v he_o a_o letter_n of_o summons_n now_o no_o music_n no_o pleasant_a move_a jest_n can_v remove_v his_o deep-struck_a melancholy_n o_o death_n how_o imperious_a be_v thou_o to_o carnal_a mind_n some_o do_v fear_n not_o so_o much_o to_o be_v dead_a as_o to_o die_v and_o some_o do_v fear_n not_o so_o much_o to_o die_v as_o to_o be_v dead_a whereas_o the_o true_a christian_n arm_v only_o with_o humble_a confidence_n and_o holy_a believe_v in_o his_o future_a happiness_n can_v comfortable_o encounter_v he_o and_o in_o triumph_n can_v sing_v as_o 1_o cor._n 15.55_o o_o death_n where_o be_v thy_o sting_n etc._n etc._n look_v cheerful_o towards_o heaven_n he_o can_v unfeigned_o say_v i_o desire_v to_o be_v dissolve_v and_o to_o be_v with_o christ_n that_o dissolution_n be_v happy_a which_o part_v the_o soul_n from_o the_o body_n do_v unite_v both_o body_n and_o soul_n to_o god_n he_o that_o see_v the_o glory_n of_o the_o end_n can_v but_o contemn_v the_o hardness_n of_o the_o way_n of_o all_o sleep_n death_n may_v be_v say_v to_o be_v the_o sweet_a child_n begin_v it_o to_o we_o strong_a man_n seek_v it_o and_o king_n themselves_o fall_v to_o this_o centre_n the_o pace_n of_o death_n may_v be_v soft_a but_o iâ—_n be_v sure_a and_o every_o man_n live_v he_o never_o so_o long_o be_v a_o die_a man_n till_o he_o be_v dead_a we_o shall_v labour_v to_o get_v a_o particular_a knowledge_n and_o assurance_n both_o of_o our_o happiness_n in_o death_n and_o of_o our_o salvation_n after_o death_n and_o here_o remember_v that_o it_o be_v of_o excellent_a use_n 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