for_o everblessed_n eternity_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o not_o follow_v our_o own_o fancy_n but_o serve_v god_n in_o what_o manner_n he_o will_v have_v we_o by_o a_o perfect_a resignation_n of_o ourselves_o to_o his_o good_a pleasure_n the_o eternal_a song_n of_o the_o saint_n in_o heaven_n be_v the_o subject_n of_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o consider_v with_o great_a delight_n that_o all_o the_o angel_n and_o glorious_a saint_n shall_v eternal_o glorify_v the_o adorable_a trinity_n with_o this_o sacred_a trisagion_n holy_a holy_a holy_a lord_n god_n of_o sabbath_n methinks_v the_o first_o of_o the_o seraphin_n begin_v this_o anthem_n with_o a_o admirable_a air_n and_o all_o the_o choirs_fw-fr of_o angel_n join_v their_o voice_n all_o sing_v with_o a_o tone_n more_o or_o less_o elevate_v proportion_v to_o the_o degree_n they_o possess_v in_o glory_n and_o this_o innumerable_a multitude_n of_o angelical_a voice_n make_v a_o most_o melodious_a and_o admirable_a harmony_n wherewith_o the_o divine_a person_n be_v much_o delight_v it_o come_v into_o my_o thought_n that_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n of_o jesus_n christ_n the_o noble_a of_o all_o create_a entity_n the_o sacred_a virgin_n mother_n of_o god_n and_o queen_n of_o angel_n with_o all_o the_o multitude_n of_o holy_a patriarch_n prophet_n apostle_n martyr_n confessor_n and_o virgin_n do_v bear_v a_o part_n in_o this_o sacred_a harmony_n with_o great_a contentment_n and_o my_o soul_n be_v much_o delight_v therewith_o desire_v to_o glorify_v god_n as_o much_o as_o possible_a i_o see_v that_o the_o church_n militant_a in_o a_o holy_a emulation_n of_o the_o church_n triumphant_a do_v use_v to_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n a_o like_a canticle_n repeat_v in_o her_o divine_a office_n on_o all_o occasion_n gloria_fw-la patri_fw-la &_o filio_fw-la &_o spiritui_fw-la sancto_fw-la glory_n be_v to_o the_o father_n and_o to_o the_o son_n and_o to_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o so_o heaven_n and_o earth_n do_v echo_n forth_o incessant_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o adorable_a trinity_n i_o hearty_o wish_v that_o all_o creature_n have_v voice_n to_o praise_n god_n continual_o and_o with_o much_o affection_n i_o often_o repeat_v glory_n be_v to_o the_o father_n and_o to_o the_o son_n and_o to_o the_o holy_a ghost_n tribus_fw-la honour_n unus_fw-la amen_n ten_o day_n this_o day_n begin_v my_o prayer_n i_o feel_v my_o soul_n prevent_v with_o a_o extraordinary_a sweetness_n i_o represent_v my_o god_n in_o the_o fund_z of_o my_o heart_n as_o my_o belove_a and_o i_o return_v he_o thanks_o for_o his_o manifold_a visit_n my_o disposition_n be_v then_o as_o a_o spiritual_a springtime_n i_o scent_v the_o odour_n of_o the_o flower_n of_o virtue_n perfume_a my_o interiour_n and_o i_o make_v thereof_o a_o crown_n for_o the_o bridegroom_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o set_v it_o on_o his_o head_n and_o he_o seem_v to_o be_v much_o please_v with_o it_o and_o my_o soul_n take_v great_a complacency_n therein_o i_o observe_v that_o when_o the_o spiritual_a bridegroom_n come_v to_o visit_v his_o spouse_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o the_o holy_a communion_n or_o by_o any_o visit_n extraordinary_a it_o be_v with_o different_a effect_n sometime_o the_o soul_n be_v as_o it_o be_v inebriate_v with_o divine_a love_n at_o other_o time_n she_o have_v a_o feel_n of_o great_a variety_n of_o virtue_n wherewith_o the_o interiour_n be_v beautify_v as_o a_o garden_n with_o flower_n the_o soul_n be_v be_v not_o then_o take_v up_o sole_o with_o the_o sweet_n of_o love_n but_o be_v adorn_v with_o variety_n of_o virtue_n sometime_o she_o present_v this_o sometime_o that_o sometime_o altogether_o to_o her_o belove_a my_o second_o prayer_n be_v a_o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o thought_n and_o i_o perceive_v that_o every_o step_v the_o divine_a bridegroom_n of_o our_o soul_n make_v in_o the_o garden_n of_o his_o spouse_n give_v a_o new_a birth_n to_o different_a flower_n this_o be_v no_o small_a contentment_n to_o the_o soul_n but_o what_o ought_v most_v to_o affect_v she_o herein_o be_v that_o her_o beloved_n be_v please_v to_o take_v with_o she_o his_o recreation_n who_o delight_v to_o be_v sometime_o with_o the_o child_n of_o man_n then_o it_o be_v he_o refresh_v we_o with_o the_o perfume_n and_o odour_n of_o his_o grace_n as_o glorify_v and_o we_o must_v give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o his_o divine_a will._n other_o time_n he_o visit_v a_o soul_n in_o this_o crucify_a state_n bring_v with_o he_o nothing_o but_o thorn_n and_o nail_n and_o bitterness_n and_o suffering_n but_o a_o soul_n must_v not_o think_v that_o her_o beloved_n be_v not_o then_o well_o please_v with_o she_o because_o of_o this_o rough_a usage_n for_o this_o be_v his_o will_n and_o it_o be_v best_a for_o she_o i_o be_v much_o astonish_v to_o see_v the_o excess_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o i_o who_o deserve_v to_o have_v be_v treat_v as_o a_o enemy_n but_o he_o be_v please_v to_o unite_v i_o to_o himself_o with_o such_o ravish_a transport_n as_o transcend_v expression_n o_o that_o i_o have_v a_o heart_n so_o full_a of_o love_n as_o may_v be_v answerable_a to_o the_o greatness_n of_o his_o mercy_n vouchsafe_v unto_o i_o o_o jesus_n the_o love_n of_o my_o heart_n if_o you_o continue_v thus_o i_o shall_v die_v of_o love_n for_o you_o o_o amorous_a flame_n consume_v my_o heart_n to_o ash_n that_o nothing_o may_v be_v find_v there_o but_o love_n and_o humility_n o_o my_o friend_n come_v and_o see_v what_o great_a thing_n god_n have_v do_v for_o my_o soul_n my_o three_o prayer_n be_v take_v up_o with_o the_o amiable_a communication_n that_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n be_v please_v to_o have_v with_o our_o soul_n the_o divine_a nature_n unite_v the_o three_o adorable_a person_n in_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n the_o person_n of_o the_o son_n unite_v two_o nature_n in_o jesus_n and_o grace_n unite_v jesus_n to_o purify_a soul_n and_o this_o union_n of_o grace_n and_o love_n be_v perfect_v by_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n and_o wonderful_a communication_n in_o contemplation_n this_o union_n sometime_o be_v so_o high_a and_o elevate_v that_o jesus_n and_o the_o soul_n seem_v to_o be_v but_o one_o thing_n one_o spirit_n one_o knowledge_n one_o love_n and_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n the_o soul_n of_o our_o soul_n and_o in_o this_o state_n she_o glorify_v god_n in_o a_o transcendent_a way_n be_v wonderful_o unite_v to_o that_o love_n and_o glory_n jesus_n render_v to_o the_o divinity_n and_o the_o divinity_n to_o itself_o the_o design_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n by_o communicate_v himself_o to_o we_o in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v to_o augment_v this_o gracious_a union_n that_o as_o he_o pray_v to_o his_o father_n we_o may_v be_v one_o as_o they_o be_v one_o by_o which_o wonderful_a union_n he_o give_v unto_o we_o a_o fullness_n of_o grace_n and_o divine_a love_n imprint_v on_o we_o unless_o we_o be_v refractory_a the_o like_a inclination_n he_o receive_v from_o his_o father_n to_o keep_v we_o continual_o unite_v to_o he_o by_o love_n and_o honour_v he_o with_o the_o grateful_a sacrifice_n of_o our_o humiliation_n my_o last_o prayer_n be_v a_o amorous_a repose_n of_o myself_o in_o jesus_n find_v myself_o in_o this_o disposition_n i_o dwell_v upon_o it_o know_v well_o that_o a_o soul_n unite_v to_o jesus_n be_v transform_v into_o he_o by_o amorous_a affection_n and_o so_o glorify_v god_n do_v love_n and_o honour_n and_o adore_v the_o divinity_n by_o the_o love_n and_o adoration_n of_o jesus_n christ_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o amorous_a repose_n find_v all_o her_o want_n supply_v as_o courage_n in_o adversity_n humility_n in_o success_n perseverance_n in_o good_a action_n and_o grace_n to_o practise_v all_o those_o virtue_n which_o god_n command_v on_o all_o occasion_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o the_o soul_n be_v thus_o amorous_o unite_v to_o jesus_n in_o prayer_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v she_o participate_v of_o his_o spirit_n and_o disposition_n and_o consequent_o be_v more_o in_o love_n with_o the_o cross_n and_o suffering_n to_o have_v union_n with_o jesus_n christ_n in_o prayer_n and_o to_o be_v divide_v from_o he_o in_o our_o life_n and_o action_n be_v a_o illusion_n for_o one_o principal_a effect_n of_o pure_a prayer_n be_v to_o imprint_v in_o we_o a_o love_n to_o follow_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n there_o now_o come_v into_o my_o mind_n a_o excellent_a observation_n of_o a_o father_n of_o the_o church_n that_o the_o holy_a spirit_n have_v visible_o descend_v to_o we_o as_o well_o as_o the_o son_n do_v not_o as_o the_o son_n visible_o return_v to_o heaven_n but_o take_v up_o his_o mansion_n with_o we_o here_o on_o earth_n to_o unite_v our_o heart_n with_o our_o heavenly_a father_n as_o in_o the_o divinity_n he_o be_v the_o union_n of_o the_o father_n and_o the_o son_n
o_o sacred_a spirit_n of_o love_n and_o union_n what_o consolation_n be_v it_o to_o my_o soul_n and_o what_o encouragement_n for_o my_o weakness_n that_o you_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o unite_v my_o heart_n to_o god_n from_o who_o you_o proceed_v from_o all_o eternity_n o_o divine_a spirit_n so_o unite_v i_o to_o yourself_o that_o i_o may_v never_o forsake_v you_o but_o depend_v absolute_o on_o your_o conduct_n in_o you_o and_o by_o you_o i_o adore_v i_o love_v and_o return_v all_o possible_a thanks_o to_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n for_o all_o grace_n and_o favour_n receive_v in_o this_o retreat_n amen_n chap._n vi_o another_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o adorable_a person_n of_o jesus_n christ_n first_o day_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n i_o enter_v into_o this_o retreat_n be_v great_o desirous_a to_o know_v jesus_n christ_n and_o my_o first_o prayer_n pass_v in_o view_n of_o the_o incarnation_n a_o mystery_n to_o be_v admire_v by_o man_n and_o angel_n to_o all_o eternity_n the_o source_n of_o all_o our_o happiness_n a_o mystery_n bright_a than_o the_o morning_n star_n which_o usher_v in_o the_o day_n to_o mortal_a eye_n by_o show_v to_o we_o the_o sun_n of_o grace_n to_o enlighten_v the_o darkness_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o clothe_v we_o with_o immortality_n and_o glory_n a_o mystery_n of_o mercy_n a_o evidence_n of_o the_o greatness_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o christ_n manifest_v in_o our_o flesh_n to_o die_v for_o we_o a_o mystery_n big_a with_o wonder_n where_o god_n be_v make_v man_n and_o man_n become_v god_n by_o a_o hypostatical_a union_n o_o unspeakable_a mystery_n what_o grandeur_n and_o secret_n be_v contain_v in_o thou_o above_o our_o understanding_n o_o mystery_n that_o bring_v heaven_n upon_o earth_n that_o scatter_v our_o darkness_n that_o cure_v all_o our_o evil_n that_o teach_v i_o to_o know_v and_o love_n god_n thus_o debase_v and_o annihilate_v for_o love_n of_o i_o o_o what_o sweetness_n do_v i_o taste_v in_o this_o consideration_n what_o wonder_n do_v i_o discover_v of_o the_o goodness_n of_o god_n herein_o beyond_o all_o expression_n o_o happy_a those_o who_o know_v it_o by_o experience_n hereafter_o i_o will_v not_o trouble_v myself_o how_o i_o may_v love_n god_n according_a to_o his_o goodness_n or_o do_v he_o homage_n according_a to_o his_o greatness_n or_o praise_n and_o adore_v he_o according_a to_o his_o excellency_n see_v the_o only_o beget_v son_n of_o the_o father_n be_v bear_v of_o a_o virgin-mother_n and_o give_v himself_o to_o i_o to_o discharge_v these_o infinite_a obligation_n for_o i_o o_o my_o jesus_n see_v you_o have_v whole_o give_v yourself_o to_o i_o that_o i_o may_v by_o you_o acquit_v my_o obligation_n my_o care_n shall_v be_v to_o love_n god_n by_o your_o love_n to_o obey_v by_o your_o obedience_n and_o to_o adore_v by_o your_o adoration_n be_v you_o my_o light_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o conductor_n to_o find_v you_o to_o know_v you_o to_o be_v perfect_o unite_v to_o you_o in_o this_o retreat_n in_o my_o second_o prayer_n i_o consider_v the_o great_a happiness_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n in_o be_v choose_v from_o all_o eternity_n to_o be_v the_o mother_n of_o the_o only_o beget_v son_n of_o god_n and_o i_o say_v within_o myself_o doubtless_o this_o be_v the_o great_a favourite_n of_o god_n among_o all_o creature_n enable_v with_o more_o eminent_a grace_n than_o any_o other_o for_o there_o can_v be_v no_o great_a privilege_n or_o prerogative_n communicate_v to_o a_o mere_a creature_n then_o to_o be_v the_o mother_n of_o god_n how_o be_v your_o thought_n o_o my_o god_n above_o the_o thought_n of_o man_n you_o bring_v your_o design_n about_o in_o way_n most_o admirable_a this_o most_o excellent_a of_o all_o creature_n the_o great_a favourite_n of_o heaven_n mother_n of_o god_n must_v be_v espouse_v to_o a_o carpenter_n a_o poor_a tradesman_n work_v for_o his_o live_n she_o bring_v forth_o her_o son_n the_o king_n of_o glory_n in_o a_o stable_a fly_v into_o egypt_n live_v but_o poor_o and_o suffer_v infinite_a shame_n and_o dolour_n to_o see_v her_o belove_a jesus_n crucify_a behold_v the_o design_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n about_o this_o bless_a virgin_n who_o he_o have_v choose_v to_o be_v the_o mother_n of_o his_o only_a son_n the_o weakness_n of_o humane_a reason_n can_v fathom_v this_o but_o this_o be_v to_o teach_v we_o to_o have_v a_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n suffering_n and_o abjection_n see_v god_n deal_v thus_o with_o his_o dear_a friend_n he_o be_v please_v to_o put_v they_o in_o this_o condition_n that_o they_o may_v be_v able_a to_o render_v he_o the_o great_a love_n and_o service_n be_v possible_a upon_o earth_n to_o love_n god_n supernatural_o be_v to_o love_v he_o at_o our_o own_o expense_n and_o be_v content_a with_o suffering_n for_o his_o sake_n a_o creature_n have_v nothing_o more_o to_o do_v for_o god_n then_o to_o offer_v to_o he_o what_o he_o most_o value_v namely_o his_o own_o interest_n and_o satisfaction_n o_o my_o soul_n do_v not_o now_o complain_v that_o thou_o can_v do_v nothing_o for_o god_n it_o be_v enough_o that_o thou_o can_v suffer_v for_o he_o it_o be_v no_o easy_a thing_n to_o sound_v the_o depth_n of_o this_o verity_n in_o my_o three_o prayer_n i_o be_v much_o take_v up_o with_o the_o grandeur_n of_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n of_o jesus_n be_v elevate_v to_o the_o divinity_n in_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n where_o by_o a_o personal_a union_n it_o enter_v into_o a_o state_n of_o purity_n and_o love_n towards_o the_o divinity_n in_o so_o transcendent_a a_o manner_n and_o surpass_v the_o understanding_n of_o man_n and_o angel_n that_o we_o be_v fit_a for_o nothing_o but_o adoration_n o_o what_o grandeurs_n be_v communicate_v to_o the_o most_o sacred_a humanity_n in_o the_o first_o bless_a moment_n of_o the_o incarnation_n my_o understanding_n though_o enlighten_v by_o faith_n find_v itself_o lose_v in_o this_o ocean_n of_o wonder_n and_o my_o will_n be_v actuate_v with_o a_o esteem_n and_o love_n of_o jesus_n beyond_o all_o expression_n hence_o such_o a_o joy_n possess_v my_o soul_n in_o know_v jesus_n with_o such_o content_a and_o satisfaction_n that_o all_o other_o knowledge_n seem_v nothing_o to_o it_o and_o with_o st._n paul_n non_fw-la aestimavi_fw-la i_o scire_fw-la aliquid_fw-la nisi_fw-la jesum_fw-la i_o esteem_v myself_o to_o know_v nothing_o but_o jesus_n and_o he_o crucify_a i_o perceive_v that_o a_o amorous_a union_n with_o jesus_n christ_n do_v elevate_v a_o soul_n to_o a_o wonderful_a excellency_n because_o it_o put_v we_o in_o possession_n of_o whole_a jesus_n his_o divinity_n his_o humanity_n his_o mystery_n and_o verity_n for_o this_o union_n be_v accompany_v with_o a_o perfect_a amity_n and_o that_o make_v all_o thing_n common_a among_o friend_n o_o my_o jesus_n although_o i_o be_o of_o myself_o nothing_o but_o weakness_n and_o misery_n be_v a_o sinful_a creature_n nevertheless_o i_o love_v you_o with_o all_o my_o heart_n and_o have_v my_o part_n in_o you_o i_o can_v supply_v my_o want_n with_o your_o perfection_n as_o belong_v to_o i_o and_o among_o my_o inability_n present_v they_o to_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n to_o acquit_v my_o manifold_a obligation_n o_o how_o admirable_a be_v this_o union_n with_o jesus_n christ_n what_o wonderful_a benefit_n do_v it_o bring_v to_o a_o soul_n who_o have_v nothing_o of_o herself_o have_v all_o thing_n in_o he_o and_o by_o this_o mean_n become_v infinite_o rich_a these_o thought_n continue_v yet_o with_o i_o in_o my_o four_o prayer_n and_o i_o admire_v jesus_n from_o the_o first_o moment_n of_o his_o birth_n in_o his_o application_n towards_o his_o divine_a father_n to_o who_o he_o then_o offer_v himself_o a_o sacrifice_n to_o do_v he_o homage_n and_o in_o his_o amiable_a communication_n towards_o we_o his_o poor_a brethren_n little_a worm_n of_o the_o earth_n in_o these_o discovery_n i_o be_v much_o trouble_v that_o i_o can_v not_o serve_v he_o by_o reason_n of_o my_o inability_n and_o can_v not_o please_v he_o by_o reason_n of_o my_o infidelity_n o_o that_o i_o be_v so_o happy_a as_o to_o spend_v myself_o in_o his_o service_n and_o die_v with_o love_n this_o be_v a_o favour_n grant_v but_o to_o some_o special_a favourite_n and_o alas_o i_o be_o a_o most_o unworthy_a and_o ungrateful_a wretch_n at_o this_o time_n methinks_v i_o hear_v our_o saviour_n speak_v to_o i_o and_o give_v i_o a_o strong_a impression_n of_o his_o presence_n o_o what_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o know_v jesus_n o_o what_o favour_n be_v it_o to_o find_v he_o what_o sweet_a repose_n find_v that_o soul_n who_o have_v a_o feel_a knowledge_n of_o jesus_n in_o she_o when_o this_o science_n of_o jesus_n appear_v in_o her_o interiour_n all_o be_v sweet_a and_o lovely_a full_a
of_o joy_n and_o peace_n and_o it_o then_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o heretofore_o she_o be_v wander_v in_o darkness_n in_o effect_v it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o she_o now_o live_v in_o another_o world_n with_o other_o light_n and_o other_o principle_n and_o other_o proceed_v and_o another_o taste_n of_o spiritual_a thing_n she_o now_o seek_v occasion_n to_o mortify_v her_o sense_n obedience_n dependence_n contempt_n loss_n do_v relish_v with_o she_o and_o she_o be_v please_v only_o to_o live_v a_o life_n of_o faith_n make_v no_o matter_n of_o the_o mockery_n of_o worldly_a man_n who_o judge_v not_o but_o by_o sense_n or_o at_o best_o but_o according_a humane_a reason_n second_o day_n jesus_n a_o infant_n begin_v my_o morning_n prayer_n these_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n be_v present_v to_o my_o thought_n consideravi_fw-la opera_fw-la tua_fw-la &_o expavi_fw-la i_o have_v consider_v your_o work_n o_o my_o saviour_n and_o stand_v amaze_v with_o admiration_n and_o how_o can_v i_o be_v otherwise_o affect_v to_o see_v the_o eternal_a god_n a_o infant_n to_o see_v that_o immensity_n which_o the_o heaven_n can_v contain_v lie_v swaddle_v in_o a_o manger_n eternity_n but_o one_o day_n old_a omnipotency_n become_v weakness_n the_o joy_n of_o angel_n in_o a_o suffer_a condition_n o_o god_n of_o love_n who_o can_v but_o fall_v into_o a_o ecstasy_n to_o see_v these_o wonder_n this_o excess_n of_o goodness_n above_o the_o comprehension_n of_o man_n and_o angel_n but_o bless_a saviour_n it_o be_v your_o glory_n to_o have_v nothing_o and_o do_v nothing_o but_o what_o be_v altogether_o incomprehensible_a i_o observe_v a_o great_a silence_n in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n where_o the_o whole_a creation_n seem_v to_o be_v strike_v dumb_a with_o admiration_n of_o the_o great_a mystery_n then_o bring_v to_o pass_v i_o behold_v how_o the_o virgin_n mary_n and_o good_a joseph_n fix_v their_o eye_n on_o the_o infant_n god-man_n lie_v in_o a_o manger_n speak_v not_o one_o word_n be_v transport_v with_o love_n and_o admiration_n and_o whole_o astonish_v at_o a_o humiliation_n so_o prodigious_a and_o i_o wonder_v all_o creature_n do_v not_o stand_v immovable_a for_o a_o whole_a age_n at_o the_o sight_n of_o so_o incomprehensible_a a_o mystery_n all_o expression_n be_v below_o this_o excess_n of_o love_n and_o condescension_n let_v we_o o_o my_o soul_n be_v silent_a with_o a_o respectful_a attention_n love_a adore_a admire_v these_o great_a thing_n god_n have_v do_v for_o we_o methinks_v i_o have_v a_o desire_n to_o stand_v always_o in_o silence_n at_o the_o foot_n of_o infant_n jesus_n i_o apply_v myself_o in_o my_o second_o prayer_n to_o consider_v the_o universal_a denudation_n of_o all_o thing_n that_o seem_v most_o necessary_a at_o his_o come_n into_o the_o world_n to_o be_v bear_v as_o a_o exile_n out_o of_o his_o mother_n house_n to_o have_v no_o lodging_n usual_a for_o man_n but_o a_o stable_a which_o be_v prepare_v for_o beast_n to_o be_v his_o bedchamber_n and_o a_o manger_n for_o his_o cradle_n to_o suffer_v the_o rigour_n of_o winter_n for_o want_n of_o fire_n what_o poor_a miserable_a creature_n can_v be_v reduce_v to_o a_o great_a denudation_n notwithstanding_o this_o be_v that_o which_o ravish_v both_o heaven_n and_o earth_n and_o the_o glorious_a angel_n find_v nothing_o in_o heaven_n of_o equal_a admiration_n and_o therefore_o hither_o they_o come_v to_o contemplate_v these_o wonder_n and_o to_o bring_v the_o glad_a tiding_n thereof_o to_o man_n make_v the_o air_n to_o echo_v with_o their_o joyful_a melody_n and_o without_o any_o mention_n of_o the_o divinity_n declare_v only_o to_o they_o that_o they_o shall_v find_v a_o infant_n wrap_v in_o swaddle_a clothes_n lie_v in_o a_o manger_n and_o hither_o the_o shepherd_n run_v transport_v with_o joy_n and_o the_o world_n have_v follow_v they_o when_o the_o wise_a man_n demand_v of_o herod_n where_o he_o be_v bear_v who_o be_v king_n of_o the_o jew_n this_o idea_n of_o royalty_n do_v much_o affright_v he_o and_o in_o rage_n he_o design_v a_o cruelty_n more_o barbarous_a than_o what_o as_o yet_o the_o sun_n do_v ever_o behold_v it_o be_v a_o great_a truth_n that_o grandeur_n and_o a_o elevate_a condition_n though_o in_o the_o person_n of_o god_n himself_o make_v man_n be_v attend_v with_o many_o evil_n and_o commotion_n but_o abjection_n and_o humiliation_n in_o the_o infant_n jesus_n have_v force_n enough_o to_o win_v our_o heart_n and_o yet_o we_o will_v not_o understand_v this_o in_o my_o three_o prayer_n i_o discover_v that_o since_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n which_o be_v the_o wonderful_a union_n of_o the_o creator_n with_o the_o creature_n than_o son_n of_o man_n be_v call_v to_o a_o high_a degree_n of_o prayer_n and_o converse_n with_o god_n then_o former_o the_o gift_n of_o sublime_a prayer_n be_v one_o effect_n of_o this_o divine_a mystery_n and_o we_o ought_v to_o value_n and_o preserve_v it_o as_o a_o treasure_n the_o heart_n of_o jesus_n be_v the_o centre_n of_o man_n and_o when_o a_o poor_a soul_n be_v distract_v she_o must_v gentle_o lead_v herself_o to_o the_o heart_n of_o jesus_n to_o offer_v to_o the_o eternal_a father_n the_o holy_a disposition_n of_o that_o adorable_a heart_n to_o unite_v that_o little_a we_o do_v with_o that_o infinite_a service_n jesus_n render_v to_o his_o eternal_a father_n thus_o our_o little_a will_v be_v make_v great_a by_o jesus_n christ_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v this_o divine_a heart_n of_o jesus_n for_o the_o future_a be_v thy_o oratory_n it_o be_v in_o he_o and_o by_o he_o thou_o must_v offer_v all_o thy_o prayer_n to_o god_n to_o make_v they_o acceptable_a to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n make_v this_o thy_o school_n to_o learn_v there_o the_o supereminent_a knowledge_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n which_o be_v quite_o contrary_a to_o that_o of_o the_o world_n thou_o will_v find_v there_o principle_n sublime_a and_o pure_a a_o treasure_n which_o will_v enrich_v thou_o with_o purity_n love_n and_o fidelity_n and_o what_o be_v very_o plentiful_a in_o this_o treasury_n humiliation_n poverty_n and_o suffering_n the_o love_n and_o esteem_v of_o these_o thing_n be_v a_o precious_a jewel_n which_o principal_o and_o original_o be_v find_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o jesus_n other_o heart_n how_o noble_a soever_o have_v more_o or_o less_o of_o it_o according_a to_o the_o measure_n they_o receive_v from_o this_o exhaustible_a treasury_n in_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o have_v a_o strong_a idea_n of_o the_o disposition_n which_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o st._n joseph_n have_v towards_o the_o infant_n jesus_n it_o be_v reveal_v to_o a_o holy_a soul_n that_o the_o bless_a virgin_n pass_v all_o the_o time_n in_o prayer_n while_o her_o sacred_a womb_n be_v the_o tabernacle_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o never_o cease_v to_o adore_v the_o word_n make_v flesh_n that_o st._n joseph_n enter_v with_o the_o holy_a virgin_n into_o the_o stable_a at_o bethlehem_n be_v elevate_v in_o high_a contemplation_n upon_o the_o mystery_n there_o to_o be_v accomplish_v and_o in_o this_o prayer_n be_v so_o replenish_v with_o the_o holy_a spirit_n that_o his_o desire_n for_o the_o come_n of_o the_o messiah_n be_v more_o pure_a and_o more_o ardent_a then_o of_o all_o the_o holy_a patriarch_n before_o and_o that_o next_o to_o the_o holy_a virgin_n he_o be_v enlighten_v with_o the_o wonder_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n at_o the_o moment_n of_o the_o wonderful_a nativity_n of_o the_o infant_n jesus_n such_o ray_n of_o glory_n and_o admirable_a splendour_n be_v dart_v from_o his_o soul_n as_o pierce_v the_o spirit_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o st._n joseph_n and_o discover_v to_o they_o the_o infinite_a grandeurs_fw-fr of_o that_o babe_n through_o all_o the_o weakness_n their_o eye_n be_v witness_v of_o and_o in_o deep_a silence_n and_o contemplation_n they_o offer_v to_o he_o a_o pure_a and_o amorous_a offering_n of_o their_o whole_a be_v as_o to_o their_o god_n o_o who_o can_v comprehend_v the_o wonderful_a effect_n that_o his_o presence_n cause_v in_o their_o heart_n these_o consideration_n do_v sweet_o possess_v my_o soul_n during_o my_o prayer_n and_o i_o find_v myself_o in_o a_o disposition_n of_o great_a love_n for_o internal_a prayer_n in_o silence_n and_o solitude_n with_o infant-jesus_n three_o day_n jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a in_o my_o morning_n prayer_n i_o find_v in_o myself_o a_o great_a esteem_n and_o love_n for_o poverty_n see_v jesus_n have_v so_o esteem_v and_o love_v it_o and_o we_o have_v a_o obligation_n to_o be_v conform_v to_o he_o and_o i_o say_v within_o myself_o o_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n what_o riches_n do_v thou_o bring_v to_o a_o soul_n thou_o give_v her_o possession_n of_o a_o kingdom_n of_o peace_n thou_o do_v purify_v she_o to_o unite_v she_o to_o jesus_n in_o his_o humiliation_n which_o
another_o as_o i_o have_v love_v you_o which_o be_v the_o subject_n of_o my_o second_o prayer_n i_o then_o find_v that_o when_o a_o soul_n have_v make_v a_o good_a entrance_n into_o the_o heart_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o by_o the_o light_n of_o prayer_n see_v the_o infinite_a love_n of_o god_n towards_o man_n grace_n then_o discover_v how_o this_o divine_a charity_n be_v free_a generous_a and_o magnificent_a free_a have_v a_o love_n for_o we_o when_o object_n of_o his_o just_a displeasure_n generous_n surmount_v all_o difficulty_n and_o conquer_a all_o resistance_n magnificent_a in_o give_v his_o own_o life_n for_o our_o redemption_n this_o be_v a_o zeal_n true_o divine_a for_o the_o salvation_n of_o soul_n now_o his_o pleasure_n be_v that_o the_o charity_n we_o have_v for_o our_o neighbour_n be_v regulate_v by_o this_o divine_a model_n that_o we_o love_v they_o to_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o obey_v his_o command_n that_o we_o love_v they_o generous_o without_o any_o regard_n to_o natural_a aversion_n or_o injury_n they_o have_v do_v we_o or_o any_o temporal_a advantage_n we_o may_v receive_v from_o they_o but_o after_o the_o example_n of_o jesus_n to_o love_n and_o do_v good_a even_o to_o our_o great_a enemy_n o_o how_o many_o great_a saint_n consider_v the_o ardent_a love_n of_o christ_n to_o we_o have_v burn_v with_o the_o flame_n of_o a_o holy_a zeal_n and_o spend_v themselves_o in_o labour_n to_o do_v good_a to_o those_o soul_n for_o who_o christ_n die_v but_o alas_o we_o have_v little_a zeal_n for_o god_n for_o our_o neighbour_n or_o ourselves_o my_o three_o prayer_n pass_v in_o consideration_n of_o the_o prodigious_a goodness_n of_o jesus_n to_o man_n who_o seem_v to_o forget_v himself_o and_o depose_v the_o grandeur_n of_o his_o majesty_n to_o debase_v himself_o in_o the_o search_n of_o our_o soul_n to_o indulge_v and_o love_v they_o with_o as_o much_o affection_n as_o if_o they_o do_v contribute_v to_o his_o felicity_n he_o prevent_v they_o with_o wonderful_a mercy_n and_o though_o they_o be_v unworthy_a of_o his_o love_n he_o give_v they_o sensible_a feeling_n thereof_o by_o speak_v to_o the_o heart_n in_o this_o or_o suchlike_a manner_n my_o sister_n my_o spouse_n my_o love_n take_v a_o delight_n in_o thou_o know_v thou_o well_o who_o i_o be_o it_o be_v i_o that_o be_o thy_o god_n thy_o creator_n thy_o saviour_n it_o be_v i_o who_o come_v from_o the_o bosom_n of_o my_o father_n into_o this_o world_n to_o find_v thou_o be_v lose_v and_o tell_v thou_o how_o i_o love_v thou_o and_o i_o demand_v nothing_o but_o love_n again_o my_o soul_n thus_o prevent_v with_o the_o blessing_n of_o this_o sweetness_n and_o powerful_o touch_v with_o a_o sense_n thereof_o want_v word_n to_o express_v my_o thankfulness_n however_o i_o say_v o_o my_o god_n you_o be_v my_o love_n i_o love_v you_o and_o will_v love_v you_o eternal_o with_o all_o my_o heart_n for_o what_o else_o have_v i_o to_o return_v but_o love_n for_o love_n it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a love_n for_o you_o to_o debase_v the_o grandeur_n of_o your_o divinity_n to_o search_v after_o poor_a sinful_a soul_n nor_o be_v it_o less_o wonderful_a for_o you_o to_o draw_v these_o soul_n out_o of_o themselves_o to_o free_v they_o from_o their_o misery_n and_o advance_v they_o to_o your_o embrace_n and_o place_v they_o in_o your_o heart_n as_o some_o rich_a treasure_n this_o be_v the_o wonderful_a excess_n of_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n zelator_n of_o soul_n this_o love_n that_o so_o humble_a jesus_n do_v elevate_v a_o soul_n to_o these_o amorous_a exercise_n and_o make_v she_o see_v she_o own_o unworthiness_n and_o the_o incomparable_a beauty_n of_o her_o well-beloved_a in_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o have_v a_o deep_a impression_n of_o jesus_n humble_v and_o do_v penance_n for_o we_o i_o behold_v he_o as_o it_o be_v annihilate_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o his_o eternal_a father_n to_o honour_v his_o eternal_a be_v by_o sacrifice_v his_o humanity_n which_o he_o continue_v his_o whole_a life_n and_o consummate_v on_o the_o cross_n i_o behold_v also_o how_o be_v charge_v with_o our_o sin_n he_o do_v continual_a penance_n for_o we_o to_o satisfy_v the_o divine_a justice_n and_o give_v content_a to_o that_o infinite_a love_n he_o have_v for_o our_o soul_n let_v we_o love_v then_o o_o my_o soul_n our_o jesus_n as_o he_o have_v love_v we_o and_o imitate_v his_o suffering_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o penance_n and_o annihilation_n i_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n and_o therefore_o aught_o to_o entertain_v a_o spirit_n of_o penance_n and_o thereby_o make_v advantage_n of_o all_o evil_n and_o infirmity_n which_o happen_v to_o i_o my_o principal_a affair_n in_o this_o world_n ought_v to_o be_v to_o annihilate_v myself_o and_o to_o suffer_v to_o annihilate_v myself_o to_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o infinite_a grandeurs_fw-fr of_o god_n and_o to_o suffer_v as_o a_o just_a punishment_n of_o my_o sin_n after_o confession_n have_v but_o one_o gloria_fw-la patri_fw-la for_o my_o penance_n it_o come_v into_o my_o thought_n that_o no_o penance_n be_v little_a when_o it_o be_v unite_v to_o the_o suffering_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o by_o they_o have_v do_v penance_n for_o our_o sin_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o one_o only_o ave_fw-la maria_n unite_v to_o the_o suffering_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n which_o be_v of_o infinite_a merit_n and_o do_v infinite_o satisfy_v his_o eternal_a father_n become_v a_o penance_n which_o wonderful_o satisfy_v for_o our_o sin_n my_o soul_n be_v comfort_v with_o this_o truth_n and_o i_o have_v no_o more_o to_o do_v than_o to_o unite_v my_o little_a cross_n to_o the_o cross_n of_o jesus_n six_o day_n jesus_n contemplate_v and_o enjoy_v our_o bless_a saviour_n do_v fill_v my_o soul_n with_o such_o super-abundant_a consolation_n in_o my_o morning_n prayer_n that_o i_o seem_v to_o have_v some_o part_n of_o that_o state_n of_o enjoyment_n which_o be_v reserve_v for_o the_o saint_n in_o glory_n o_o amorous_a enjoyment_n how_o wonderful_o do_v thou_o purify_v our_o soul_n thou_o take_v our_o heart_n off_o from_o the_o world_n thou_o do_v crucify_v we_o with_o a_o delightful_a martyrdom_n thou_o do_v enlighten_v thou_o do_v purify_v thou_o do_v inflame_v thou_o do_v mortify_v thou_o do_v fortify_v thou_o make_v we_o live_v and_o die_v together_o a_o small_a taste_n of_o this_o ocean_n of_o delight_n will_v inebriate_v the_o soul_n of_o man_n and_o the_o angel_n in_o glory_n this_o be_v that_o bless_a life_n which_o be_v grant_v to_o some_o servant_n of_o god_n honour_v he_o by_o continual_a enjoyment_n which_o he_o pour_v into_o their_o soul_n it_o be_v a_o great_a secret_a of_o the_o interiour_n life_n to_o be_v passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n in_o we_o whether_o he_o visit_v we_o with_o dolorous_a and_o crucify_a or_o joyful_a and_o beatify_a impression_n our_o fidelity_n consist_v in_o a_o pure_a correspondence_n to_o his_o design_n without_o reluctance_n if_o he_o please_v to_o make_v our_o soul_n a_o garden_n of_o delight_n embrace_v his_o favour_n all_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v good_a in_o themselves_o but_o that_o which_o he_o put_v we_o in_o be_v best_a for_o we_o o_o how_o the_o state_n of_o jesus_n suffer_v be_v adorable_a o_o how_o his_o state_n of_o enjoy_v be_v admirable_a we_o must_v apply_v ourselves_o to_o one_o or_o other_o according_a to_o the_o design_n of_o the_o divine_a wisdom_n i_o find_v a_o image_n of_o jesus_n in_o contemplation_n his_o look_n and_o posture_n ravish_v i_o and_o this_o take_v up_o my_o second_o prayer_n i_o be_v not_o satisfy_v with_o behold_v his_o divine_a aspect_n i_o admire_v and_o adore_v he_o consider_v the_o profound_a attention_n he_o have_v to_o the_o grandeur_n of_o his_o eternal_a father_n and_o how_o he_o be_v absorp_v in_o the_o divinity_n i_o make_v it_o my_o work_n to_o contemplate_v also_o by_o he_o and_o in_o he_o unite_n myself_o to_o the_o utmost_a of_o my_o power_n to_o his_o divine_a entertainment_n o_o jesus_n contemplate_v jesus_n take_v up_o with_o your_o father_n with_o who_o you_o pass_v in_o prayer_n whole_a night_n make_v as_o bright_a as_o the_o day_n of_o eternity_n jesus_n live_v a_o retire_a life_n in_o the_o divine_a essence_n you_o be_v the_o object_n of_o my_o love_n i_o see_v nothing_o so_o beautiful_a as_o you_o be_v in_o this_o state_n my_o soul_n have_v no_o great_a delight_n upon_o earth_n than_o to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o jesus_n to_o think_v of_o he_o to_o speak_v of_o he_o to_o sigh_v after_o he_o o_o how_o happy_a be_v that_o soul_n which_o jesus_n make_v his_o mansion_n i_o know_v not_o how_o jesus_n come_v into_o a_o soul_n but_o he_o be_v there_o sometime_o soon_o than_o perceive_v fill_v she_o with_o blessing_n and_o make_v she_o to_o find_v that_o
and_o redeemer_n to_o lie_v out_o thyself_o upon_o the_o creature_n and_o not_o correspond_v to_o his_o inspiration_n who_o call_v thou_o to_o himself_o what_o a_o horrible_a infidelity_n will_v this_o be_v let_v we_o not_o grieve_v the_o holy_a spirit_n by_o who_o we_o be_v seal_v to_o the_o day_n of_o redemption_n the_o subject_n of_o my_o three_o prayer_n be_v the_o admirable_a oeconomy_n of_o the_o incarnation_n in_o that_o by_o the_o excess_n of_o love_n and_o goodness_n god_n be_v make_v man_n and_o man_n become_v god_n i_o have_v profound_a veneration_n for_o the_o adorable_a humanity_n absorb_v in_o the_o divinity_n and_o with_o a_o amorous_a confidence_n behold_v the_o divinity_n as_o it_o be_v annihilate_v in_o the_o humanity_n which_o seem_v to_o i_o as_o a_o tabernacle_n of_o honour_n where_o god_n dwell_v with_o infinite_a delight_n this_o humanity_n also_o in_o a_o manner_n divinize_v take_v infinite_a delight_n in_o the_o divinity_n from_o whence_o it_o receive_v wonderful_a impression_n of_o annihilation_n to_o be_v poor_a abject_a and_o despise_v crucify_a for_o after_o god_n be_v make_v man_n he_o inspire_v the_o humanity_n with_o ardent_a desire_n and_o love_n of_o suffering_n for_o we_o man_n and_o our_o salvation_n o_o jesus_n when_o you_o communicate_v yourself_o to_o a_o soul_n she_o receive_v impression_n from_o you_o which_o incline_v she_o to_o a_o love_n of_o contempt_n and_o suffering_n and_o when_o a_o soul_n feel_v in_o herself_o the_o great_a propension_n to_o suffering_n and_o self-denial_n it_o be_v then_o she_o most_o participate_v of_o your_o communication_n and_o have_v the_o great_a assurance_n of_o they_o for_o o_o good_a jesus_n your_o spirit_n be_v full_a of_o such_o impression_n from_o the_o divinity_n and_o the_o soul_n where_o you_o reign_v as_o king_n do_v infallible_o receive_v the_o like_a impression_n from_o your_o presence_n in_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o be_v touch_v with_o a_o great_a desire_n to_o leave_v this_o mortal_a life_n so_o full_a of_o sin_n and_o misery_n and_o deprive_v of_o the_o beatifical_a vision_n of_o god_n my_o saviour_n oh_o how_o irksome_a be_v it_o not_o to_o be_v in_o a_o capacity_n to_o contemplate_v at_o leisure_n this_o infinite_a beauty_n this_o essence_n full_a of_o infinite_a perfection_n this_o only_a true_a object_n of_o the_o love_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v deliver_v from_o this_o prison_n of_o flesh_n that_o i_o may_v behold_v jesus_n the_o light_n of_o my_o eye_n and_o joy_n of_o my_o heart_n must_v i_o yet_o continue_v long_o in_o this_o banishment_n what_o a_o cross_n be_v it_o to_o live_v here_o what_o a_o punishment_n be_v the_o delay_n death_n how_o welcome_a will_v thou_o be_v in_o my_o embrace_n we_o must_v languish_v with_o love_n after_o the_o infinite_a beauty_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o sigh_v to_o enjoy_v he_o o_o my_o soul_n do_v not_o amuse_v thyself_o with_o creature_n love_v the_o cross_n which_o be_v the_o highway_n to_o happiness_n be_v it_o possible_a to_o believe_v in_o jesus_n christ_n and_o love_v he_o and_o to_o languish_v with_o desire_n to_o enjoy_v he_o to_o stand_v much_o in_o fear_n of_o death_n be_v a_o sign_n we_o have_v little_a desire_n to_o see_v the_o infinite_a beauty_n of_o god_n see_v death_n only_o open_v the_o gate_n of_o paradise_n o_o death_n thou_o be_v desirable_a come_v and_o put_v i_o in_o possession_n of_o the_o object_n of_o my_o love_n that_o i_o may_v live_v with_o jesus_n who_o be_v the_o source_n of_o life_n and_o the_o joy_n of_o the_o bless_a in_o the_o interim_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o have_v neither_o love_n nor_o life_n nor_o operation_n but_o what_o be_v in_o he_o and_o for_o he_o our_o sovereign_a happiness_n vivit_fw-la in_o i_o christus_fw-la eight_o day_n jesus_n our_o light_n jesus_n be_v present_a to_o i_o in_o my_o first_o prayer_n as_o the_o light_n of_o the_o world_n which_o discover_v to_o i_o such_o a_o beauty_n in_o the_o mystery_n of_o our_o religion_n with_o ray_n of_o a_o new_a light_n that_o i_o see_v more_o than_o ever_o the_o vanity_n of_o the_o world_n and_o the_o strange_a sottishness_n of_o such_o man_n who_o prefer_v the_o darkness_n of_o falsehood_n before_o the_o light_n of_o truth_n insanias_fw-la falsas_fw-la the_o beam_n of_o this_o light_a work_n wonder_n in_o a_o soul_n for_o it_o leave_v such_o impression_n as_o bring_v she_o to_o know_v truth_n in_o another_o manner_n then_o by_o the_o sole_a light_n of_o reason_n or_o faith_n either_o if_o we_o be_v in_o the_o closet_n of_o some_o great_a king_n in_o the_o dark_a we_o know_v well_o there_o be_v excellent_a piece_n there_o we_o may_v know_v their_o number_n bigness_n and_o value_n of_o the_o precious_a stone_n the_o rareness_n of_o the_o paint_n and_o what_o else_o we_o see_v not_o but_o when_o once_o the_o least_o light_n of_o day_n appear_v than_o we_o begin_v to_o have_v a_o view_n of_o all_o their_o riches_n beauty_n and_o excellency_n and_o the_o whole_a order_n of_o the_o closet_n salute_v our_o eye_n and_o in_o admiration_n thereof_o we_o be_v take_v with_o it_o in_o a_o extraordinary_a manner_n when_o it_o please_v god_n to_o give_v we_o a_o sight_n of_o his_o divine_a beauty_n discover_v they_o to_o a_o soul_n by_o the_o least_o ray_n of_o his_o heavenly_a light_n than_o the_o soul_n be_v wonderful_o affect_v and_o be_v more_o than_o ever_o transport_v with_o admiration_n look_v upon_o all_o thing_n of_o the_o world_n as_o nothing_o i'faith_o indeed_o give_v we_o a_o certain_a assurance_n of_o her_o object_n but_o leave_v in_o obscurity_n but_o one_o sole_a ray_n from_o the_o eye_n of_o jesus_n when_o he_o be_v please_v to_o dart_v it_o into_o a_o soul_n do_v confirm_v fortify_v encourage_v and_o refresh_v she_o with_o illustration_n extraordinary_a and_o sovereign_a consolation_n accedite_fw-la ad_fw-la eum_fw-la &_o illuminamini_fw-la we_o can_v approach_v to_o jesus_n and_o not_o be_v enlighten_v i_o come_v to_o know_v in_o my_o second_o prayer_n that_o when_o jesus_n be_v please_v to_o manifest_v himself_o to_o a_o soul_n he_o infuse_v a_o light_n into_o she_o which_o give_v she_o a_o marvellous_a facility_n to_o believe_v the_o verity_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a she_o have_v a_o certainty_n and_o as_o it_o be_v experience_n that_o his_o thought_n his_o word_n his_o action_n his_o proceed_n his_o doctrine_n his_o suffering_n be_v divine_a and_o bring_v a_o sovereign_a honour_n to_o the_o divinity_n o_o science_n of_o jesus_n how_o be_v thou_o sweet_a and_o admirable_a all_o other_o knowledge_n in_o respect_n of_o thou_o be_v but_o ignorance_n and_o vanity_n i_o have_v by_o the_o great_a goodness_n of_o god_n have_v some_o little_a experience_n to_o know_v jesus_n in_o this_o manner_n but_o i_o can_v express_v it_o the_o more_o this_o knowledge_n increase_v the_o less_o be_v it_o explicable_a the_o profound_a attention_n to_o jesus_n do_v so_o take_v up_o my_o spirit_n that_o it_o take_v away_o my_o speech_n it_o call_v i_o from_o all_o creature_n to_o converse_v with_o he_o alone_o and_o draw_v i_o out_o of_o myself_o to_o be_v ravish_v with_o he_o o_o world_n how_o blind_a be_v thou_o not_o to_o see_v the_o beauty_n of_o the_o poor_a and_o abject_a state_n of_o jesus_n his_o doctrine_n and_o his_o maxim_n be_v the_o only_a true_a light_n all_o that_o thou_o have_v o_o ignorant_a world_n seduce_v by_o the_o prince_n of_o darkness_n be_v but_o mere_a darkness_n thy_o opinion_n thy_o employment_n thy_o hope_n thy_o fear_n thy_o desire_n thy_o entertainment_n be_v but_o darkness_n and_o disorder_n thou_o stumble_v almost_o at_o every_o step_n because_o thou_o walk_v in_o darkness_n out_o of_o which_o thou_o can_v never_o get_v but_o by_o jesus_n christ_n for_o as_o the_o sun_n be_v the_o principle_n of_o corporal_a light_n to_o the_o world_n so_o christ_n the_o sun_n of_o righteousness_n be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o spiritual_a light_n and_o who_o his_o grace_n and_o doctrine_n do_v not_o enlighten_v they_o wander_v in_o darkness_n ego_fw-la sum_fw-la lux_fw-la mundi_fw-la qui_fw-la sequitur_fw-la i_o non_fw-la ambulat_fw-la in_o tenebris_fw-la my_o three_o prayer_n pass_v in_o continual_a astonishment_n in_o that_o i_o have_v so_o little_o know_v jesus_n christ_n and_o of_o that_o extreme_a blindness_n wherein_o i_o have_v live_v at_o present_a i_o have_v almost_o a_o continual_a sight_n and_o a_o sweet_a and_o forceable_a inclination_n to_o regard_v this_o admirable_a object_n so_o that_o i_o think_v every_o moment_n lose_v which_o be_v not_o so_o employ_v to_o behold_v he_o with_o amorous_a affection_n be_v a_o cure_n for_o all_o my_o evil_n for_o when_o my_o soul_n be_v afflict_v with_o fear_n of_o lose_v god_n favour_n or_o with_o experience_n of_o her_o misery_n or_o with_o difficulty_n about_o perfection_n one_o
great_a so_o full_a of_o glory_n you_o come_v to_o humble_v yourself_o and_o to_o annihilate_v yourself_o in_o a_o soul_n so_o criminal_a so_o unfaithful_a it_o be_v true_a abjection_n be_v not_o inconsistent_a with_o the_o condition_n of_o your_o mortal_a life_n but_o since_o now_o you_o be_v in_o glory_n methinks_v you_o ought_v to_o be_v exempt_a from_o they_o if_o my_o soul_n have_v any_o love_n for_o your_o interest_n she_o will_v not_o procure_v you_o such_o humiliation_n and_o therefore_o she_o will_v do_v better_a not_o to_o communicate_v so_o often_o for_o than_o she_o will_v not_o be_v the_o occasion_n of_o humble_v you_o so_o often_o this_o sentiment_n join_v with_o the_o knowledge_n of_o my_o own_o unworthiness_n will_v make_v i_o abstain_v from_o communicate_v if_o i_o do_v not_o know_v withal_o that_o your_o delight_n be_v to_o be_v with_o such_o soul_n as_o desire_v likewise_o to_o take_v their_o delight_n in_o you_o and_o that_o you_o have_v say_v in_o st._n john_n that_o if_o we_o do_v not_o eat_v your_o adorable_a flesh_n we_o shall_v not_o have_v life_n in_o you_o when_o i_o consider_v my_o indignity_n and_o yet_o present_v myself_o to_o communicate_v with_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v a_o everflowing_a source_n of_o vice_n and_o sin_n i_o shall_v be_v very_o much_o afflict_v to_o see_v jesus_n christ_n so_o ill_o lodge_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o imperfection_n not_o know_v in_o what_o part_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o may_v place_v he_o where_o he_o may_v not_o see_v thing_n unworthy_a of_o his_o presence_n this_o sight_n will_v doubtless_o cause_v i_o a_o great_a deal_n of_o pain_n if_o another_o regard_n do_v not_o encourage_v i_o i_o consider_v that_o when_o the_o sun_n enter_v into_o a_o stink_a and_z and_o offensive_a dungeon_n he_o be_v receive_v there_o more_o in_o his_o own_o brightness_n and_o lustre_n than_o in_o the_o dungeon_n itself_o and_o that_o so_o he_o be_v there_o without_o prejudice_v his_o grandeur_n or_o purity_n when_o i_o have_v this_o idea_n before_o my_o eye_n i_o say_v to_o my_o lord_n it_o be_v true_a you_o enter_v into_o i_o all_o miserable_a as_o i_o be_o but_o it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o you_o be_v more_o in_o yourself_o in_o your_o glory_n and_o in_o your_o brightness_n be_v therefore_o receive_v in_o yourself_o o_o divine_a jesus_n in_o your_o beauty_n and_o in_o your_o grandeur_n i_o rejoice_v that_o the_o offensiveness_n and_o straightness_n of_o my_o dungeon_n can_v prejudice_v your_o beauty_n or_o your_o greatness_n enter_z therefore_o into_o i_o without_o go_v out_o of_o yourself_o be_v receive_v in_o i_o but_o more_o in_o yourself_o o_o bright_a sun_n of_o glory_n live_v for_o ever_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o your_o own_o splendour_n and_o magnificence_n but_o do_v not_o cease_v to_o live_v also_o in_o the_o middle_n of_o my_o obscurity_n and_o misery_n convert_v i_o unto_o you_o whole_o and_o without_o reserve_v chap._n ii_o to_o communicate_v worthy_o we_o must_v put_v ourselves_o in_o a_o state_n conformable_a to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n jesus_n christ_n choose_v to_o give_v himself_o to_o we_o in_o this_o stupendous_a mystery_n in_o the_o state_n of_o death_n as_o to_o any_o thing_n that_o concern_v the_o life_n of_o the_o sense_n but_o as_o a_o fountain_n of_o life_n in_o regard_n of_o the_o interiour_n life_n a_o divine_a life_n a_o life_n of_o grace_n a_o life_n of_o contemplation_n and_o of_o continual_a application_n of_o the_o mind_n to_o adore_v the_o majesty_n of_o god_n his_o father_n a_o life_n i_o say_v poor_a and_o nothing_o to_o the_o exterior_a but_o shine_v with_o the_o divine_a and_o most_o awful_a lustre_n and_o infinite_o rich_a under_o the_o vail_n of_o the_o outward_a species_n that_o hide_v it_o from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n thus_o and_o with_o these_o disposition_n he_o present_v himself_o to_o we_o require_v that_o we_o likewise_o present_v ourselves_o unto_o he_o with_o disposition_n conformable_a to_o he_o his_o sacred_a humanity_n that_o he_o give_v we_o in_o the_o holy_a communion_n be_v raise_v to_o a_o divine_a life_n by_o the_o hypostatical_a union_n so_o also_o must_v we_o be_v by_o grace_n viz._n our_o understanding_n must_v be_v elevate_v above_o itself_o by_o a_o high_a illustration_n of_o faith_n and_o our_o will_n inflame_v by_o a_o sublime_a sense_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o so_o in_o fine_a our_o whole_a soul_n must_v be_v animate_v with_o the_o life_n of_o grace_n o_o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o life_n of_o grace_n how_o admirable_a be_v thou_o how_o high_a how_o ineffable_a thou_o raise_v man_n from_o earth_n to_o heaven_n thou_o make_v he_o live_v in_o god_n i_o and_o of_o god_n too_o since_o thou_o do_v prepare_v he_o to_o live_v in_o this_o world_n upon_o the_o same_o substance_n which_o nourish_v the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n o_o great_a life_n of_o grace_n thou_o be_v poor_a to_o the_o exterior_a but_o most_o rich_a to_o the_o interiour_n thou_o appear_v low_a but_o be_v most_o high_a i_o be_o ravish_v with_o thy_o beauty_n i_o can_v live_v a_o moment_n without_o thou_o who_o make_v we_o live_v with_o a_o life_n divine_a who_o place_v the_o soul_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o god_n and_o dispose_v she_o to_o see_v god_n place_v in_o she_o own_o heart_n when_o the_o charm_n and_o beauty_n of_o this_o life_n have_v once_o discover_v themselves_o to_o the_o soul_n she_o willing_o quit_v all_o other_o thing_n to_o embrace_v they_o and_o whatsoever_o else_o seem_v to_o she_o no_o better_o than_o death_n and_o corruption_n she_o renounce_v the_o world_n pleasure_n and_o riches_n she_o condemn_v herself_o to_o pennance_n mortification_n and_o poverty_n to_o obtain_v this_o divine_a life_n and_o feel_v a_o sacred_a hunger_n after_o this_o adorable_a nourishment_n that_o be_v she_o only_o support_v o_o that_o i_o do_v thorough_o know_v that_o i_o do_v faithful_o pursue_v this_o divine_a life_n a_o life_n so_o little_o know_v so_o little_o practise_v in_o the_o world_n where_o people_n do_v not_o thirst_v after_o the_o live_a water_n of_o your_o eternal_a fountain_n o_o my_o god_n o_o jesus_n draw_v i_o after_o you_o through_o all_o the_o action_n and_o duty_n of_o the_o life_n of_o grace_n which_o be_v at_o its_o great_a height_n among_o injury_n and_o misery_n draw_v i_o o_o lord_n and_o i_o will_v run_v after_o you_o in_o the_o odour_n of_o your_o perfume_n what_o a_o pleasure_n be_v it_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o see_v you_o march_v like_o a_o giant_n in_o the_o way_n of_o grace_n nourish_v and_o strengthen_v in_o your_o course_n with_o the_o bread_n of_o heaven_n ambulavit_fw-la in_o fortitudine_fw-la cibi_fw-la illius_fw-la usque_fw-la ad_fw-la montem_fw-la dei_fw-la to_o live_v in_o death_n as_o jesus_n seem_v to_o do_v in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n to_o change_v glory_n for_o contempt_n to_o be_v most_o delight_v when_o one_o be_v annihilate_v and_o even_o sacrifice_v be_v the_o true_a character_n of_o the_o life_n of_o grace_n it_o make_v all_o thing_n die_v to_o the_o exterior_a and_o live_v only_o to_o the_o interiour_n and_o above_o all_o thing_n it_o confer_v the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n keep_v the_o soul_n almost_o in_o a_o continual_a exercise_n and_o elevation_n by_o fix_v its_o regard_n upon_o that_o infinite_a and_o incomprehensible_a be_v which_o she_o adore_v and_o be_v not_o able_a to_o understand_v and_o therefore_o annihilate_v herself_o in_o his_o presence_n suspend_v with_o admiration_n of_o those_o divine_a grandeur_n which_o she_o see_v annihilate_v in_o the_o holy_a eucharist_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o great_a be_v thy_o vileness_n how_o extreme_a be_v thy_o poverty_n what_o be_v man_n that_o thou_o o_o lord_n be_v mindful_a of_o he_o do_v visit_v he_o and_o take_v pleasure_n to_o come_v and_o dwell_v personal_o in_o he_o his_o soul_n be_v draw_v out_o of_o nothing_o his_o body_n be_v but_o a_o piece_n of_o clay_n and_o still_o you_o vouchsafe_v to_o set_v your_o eye_n upon_o he_o how_o can_v a_o creature_n so_o filthy_a so_o wretched_a so_o gross_a receive_v within_o it_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o god_n sink_n and_o humble_v yourself_o to_o the_o very_a centre_n of_o your_o nothing_n and_o confess_v your_o indignity_n o_o my_o soul_n cast_v down_o your_o eye_n and_o acknowledge_v that_o you_o be_v unworthy_a so_o much_o as_o to_o lift_v they_o up_o towards_o this_o formidable_a grandeur_n and_o more_o than_o all_o be_v penetrate_v with_o the_o deep_a sense_n of_o admiration_n gratitude_n and_o love_n of_o this_o excessive_a goodness_n which_o condescend_v in_o this_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n to_o annihilate_v itself_o to_o come_v and_o give_v itself_o to_o you_o even_o in_o the_o state_n of_o your_o own_o nothing_o we_o must_v needs_o be_v very_o much_o in_o love_n with_o our_o
condition_n of_o interiour_n captivity_n where_o the_o soul_n lie_v bind_v and_o tie_v up_o in_o darkness_n and_o prison_n for_o this_o condition_n honour_v the_o captivity_n of_o jesus_n confine_v to_o the_o narrow_a compass_n of_o a_o little_a host_n this_o divine_a lord_n of_o we_o shut_v himself_n up_o in_o this_o strait_a prison_n for_o the_o love_n of_o we_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n be_v contract_v under_o these_o little_a species_n and_o so_o render_v himself_o a_o prisoner_n to_o man_n yes_o he_o render_v himself_o in_o appearance_n his_o slave_n give_v all_o of_o himself_o to_o man_n and_o still_o sacrifice_v himself_o to_o his_o eternal_a father_n for_o man_n he_o still_o suffer_v as_o i_o may_v say_v and_o die_v for_o man_n and_o communicate_v to_o he_o all_o the_o merit_n of_o his_o precious_a blood_n and_o passion_n o_o divine_a captive_n captivate_v my_o heart_n so_o strong_o that_o it_o may_v never_o be_v able_a to_o re-enter_v into_o its_o natural_a liberty_n but_o that_o whole_o destroy_v and_o annihilate_v it_o may_v never_o be_v capable_a of_o any_o other_o life_n than_o that_o which_o be_v more_o than_o humane_a never_o enjoy_v any_o other_o liberty_n than_o that_o of_o your_o child_n let_v the_o world_n look_v upon_o they_o as_o slave_n and_o load_v they_o with_o all_o indignity_n as_o the_o outcast_n of_o man_n in_o despite_n of_o all_o contempt_n they_o be_v still_o your_o child_n every_o time_n we_o approach_v to_o this_o sacrament_n wherein_o jesus_n christ_n give_v himself_o to_o we_o whole_a and_o entire_a we_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a obligation_n and_o contract_n to_o give_v up_o ourselves_o whole_o &_o entire_o to_o he_o and_o to_o endeavour_v to_o render_v all_o our_o action_n divine_a wherefore_o a_o virtuous_a soul_n ought_v not_o to_o say_v i_o have_v not_o have_v time_n enough_o to_o prepare_v myself_o before_o communion_n for_o she_o ought_v to_o aim_v at_o no_o other_o thing_n in_o all_o the_o action_n of_o her_o life_n than_o to_o receive_v this_o bread_n of_o life_n to_o the_o end_n she_o may_v live_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n and_o keep_v herself_o continual_o in_o such_o disposition_n as_o she_o see_v he_o in_o in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n chap._n iii_o to_o receive_v the_o communion_n worthy_o we_o must_v imitate_v those_o action_n which_o jesus_n christ_n practise_v when_o he_o institute_v it_o i_o remark_n principal_o three_o action_n that_o jesus_n christ_n be_v please_v to_o do_v for_o our_o example_n when_o he_o institute_v the_o holy_a sacrament_n and_o we_o can_v make_v a_o perfect_a communion_n without_o the_o practice_n of_o they_o 1._o he_o never_o perform_v any_o exterior_a act_n of_o such_o a_o profound_a humility_n in_o truth_n he_o annihilate_v himself_o in_o the_o work_n of_o his_o incarnation_n both_o according_a to_o his_o humane_a nature_n which_o he_o deprive_v of_o its_o natural_a substance_n in_o a_o extraordinary_a way_n of_o conception_n and_o according_a to_o his_o divinity_n which_o he_o plunge_v into_o the_o abiss_n of_o humane_a misery_n yet_o he_o debase_v himself_o far_o when_o he_o choose_v a_o stable_a to_o be_v bear_v in_o as_o the_o most_o poor_a and_o abject_a of_o man_n still_o more_o when_o he_o condescend_v to_o take_v the_o badge_n of_o sinner_n in_o his_o circumcision_n but_o the_o low_a abiss_n and_o centre_n of_o annihilation_n be_v in_o the_o chamber_n where_o he_o make_v the_o last_o supper_n and_o where_o he_o do_v a_o thing_n that_o be_v the_o most_o humble_v of_o all_o humane_a action_n wash_v the_o foot_n dry_v they_o kiss_v they_o with_o his_o adorable_a lip_n and_o this_o even_a to_o the_o great_a of_o his_o enemy_n and_o most_o wicked_a miscreant_n that_o ever_o live_v even_o to_o judas_n o_o my_o jesus_n this_o be_v too_o much_o debase_v of_o your_o grandeur_n it_o be_v too_o profound_a a_o humiliation_n of_o your_o majesty_n it_o be_v my_o duty_n who_o be_o a_o mere_a nothing_o by_o the_o condition_n of_o my_o be_v and_o become_v less_o than_o nothing_o by_o the_o enormity_n of_o my_o sin_n it_o be_v my_o duty_n to_o annihilate_v myself_o under_o the_o foot_n of_o the_o vile_a of_o creature_n what_o a_o intolerable_a pride_n will_v it_o be_v in_o i_o if_o have_v see_v the_o god_n of_o majesty_n humble_v himself_o so_o profound_o to_o give_v example_n and_o have_v hear_v he_o tell_v i_o so_o with_o his_o own_o mouth_n exemplum_fw-la dedi_fw-la vobis_fw-la ut_fw-la &_o vos_fw-la it_o a_o faciatis_fw-la i_o have_v give_v you_o a_o example_n that_o you_o shall_v do_v so_o as_o you_o have_v see_v i_o do_v what_o a_o pride_n i_o say_v will_v it_o be_v in_o i_o to_o approach_v to_o your_o communion_n without_o the_o sentiment_n of_o the_o great_a humility_n that_o i_o can_v possible_o exhibit_v in_o any_o action_n of_o my_o life_n the_o second_o action_n our_o divine_a master_n practise_v when_o he_o institute_v this_o great_a sacrament_n be_v a_o sublime_a prayer_n one_o of_o the_o most_o perfect_a as_o well_o as_o one_o of_o the_o last_o that_o he_o make_v in_o all_o his_o life_n lift_v up_o his_o hand_n eye_n and_o heart_n to_o god_n his_o father_n by_o a_o act_n of_o a_o most_o respectful_a reverence_n and_o though_o he_o be_v himself_o his_o own_o heaven_n where_o his_o father_n reign_v he_o recollect_n himself_o into_o this_o most_o sacred_a humanity_n as_o into_o a_o new_a heaven_n and_o there_o address_v his_o prayer_n to_o his_o father_n who_o be_v present_a to_o he_o and_o his_o first_o petition_n be_v glorify_v i_o o_o father_n which_o be_v to_o say_v give_v i_o the_o joy_n of_o humiliation_n and_o opprobry_n of_o the_o cross_n which_o i_o have_v so_o long_o desire_v and_o sigh_v after_o teach_v his_o church_n to_o look_v upon_o contempt_n and_o cross_n as_o her_o glory_n and_o the_o great_a honour_n she_o can_v desire_v upon_o earth_n he_o demand_v also_o the_o institution_n of_o this_o ineffable_a mystery_n of_o the_o holy_a eucharist_n which_o he_o be_v go_v to_o make_v in_o obedience_n to_o his_o eternal_a will_n and_o decree_n know_v that_o it_o be_v to_o be_v unto_o we_o a_o fountain_n of_o eternal_a life_n and_o unto_o himself_o the_o beginning_n of_o a_o perpetual_a death_n as_o continue_v there_o in_o quality_n of_o a_o sacrifice_n even_o to_o the_o consummation_n of_o the_o world_n it_o be_v my_o duty_n therefore_o after_o his_o example_n to_o prepare_v my_o soul_n to_o receive_v his_o divine_a mystery_n by_o the_o most_o pure_a and_o most_o perfect_a prayer_n as_o god_n shall_v enlighten_v and_o inspire_v i_o the_o most_o assure_a be_v to_o apply_v one_o self_n to_o he_o by_o a_o simple_a regard_n of_o faith_n accompany_v with_o respect_n and_o love_n consider_v he_o full_a of_o grace_n full_a of_o mercy_n and_o blessing_n in_o this_o awful_a mystery_n and_o that_o he_o come_v unto_o we_o with_o all_o his_o riches_n and_o give_v himself_o without_o any_o reserve_n even_o render_v himself_o in_o a_o manner_n passive_a for_o all_o the_o design_n that_o he_o intend_v to_o accomplish_v within_o we_o whether_o he_o come_v himself_o in_o person_n to_o operate_v there_o the_o marvellous_a effect_n of_o his_o love_n this_o sole_a regard_n of_o faith_n in_o its_o simplicity_n contain_v all_o the_o perfection_n of_o other_o acts._n it_o be_v sufficient_a to_o have_v god_n by_o regard_n unto_o he_o and_o by_o love_n this_o be_v to_o attain_v to_o the_o end_n where_o the_o heart_n rest_v all_o other_o exercise_n of_o meditation_n and_o practice_n of_o interiour_n virtue_n be_v but_o only_a mean_n to_o arrive_v unto_o god_n when_o he_o be_v once_o find_v the_o soul_n be_v to_o repose_v there_o and_o rest_n satisfy_v the_o three_o and_o most_o endear_n action_n that_o i_o admire_v in_o our_o lord_n when_o he_o institute_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n and_o when_o he_o make_v his_o love_n appear_v in_o its_o great_a lustre_n and_o in_o its_o most_o ardent_a fervour_n as_o well_o towards_o god_n the_o father_n as_o towards_o man_n even_o his_o enemy_n when_o he_o come_v into_o the_o world_n his_o love_n be_v a_o rise_a sun_n but_o when_o he_o come_v to_o leave_v the_o world_n in_o the_o vigour_n of_o his_o life_n and_o in_o the_o excess_n of_o charity_n that_o he_o show_v in_o die_v for_o we_o he_o be_v a_o sun_n in_o the_o heat_n of_o noon_n day_n the_o gospel_n tell_v we_o that_o have_v love_v his_o own_o that_o be_v in_o the_o world_n he_o kindle_v the_o flame_n of_o his_o charity_n and_o raise_v they_o to_o the_o high_a point_n imaginable_a when_o he_o institute_v the_o holy_a and_o adorable_a sacrament_n in_o finem_fw-la dilexit_fw-la eos_fw-la but_o that_o which_o be_v most_o inconceivable_a in_o it_o which_o the_o most_o of_o any_o thing_n demonstrate_v the_o eminence_n of_o his_o charity_n be_v that_o he_o do_v not_o
divinity_n o_o how_o great_a be_v the_o dignity_n of_o pure_a soul_n when_o they_o communicate_v o_o how_o low_a and_o abject_a be_v all_o the_o grandeurs_fw-fr of_o the_o world_n they_o be_v a_o mere_a nothing_o compare_v with_o this_o for_o what_o glory_n be_v comparable_a to_o that_o of_o a_o soul_n intimate_o unite_v with_o the_o supreme_a be_v my_o god_n how_o delightful_a and_o transport_v be_v the_o sight_n of_o the_o wonder_n and_o profound_a secret_n wrap_v up_o in_o your_o mystery_n how_o they_o penetrate_v the_o soul_n you_o disclose_v they_o to_o this_o union_n with_o jesus_n in_o communion_n be_v inessable_a for_o as_o the_o father_n and_o the_o son_n be_v one_o in_o unity_n of_o essence_n the_o word_n and_o humane_a nature_n one_o in_o unity_n of_o person_n so_o the_o soul_n that_o be_v one_o in_o jesus_n partake_v of_o both_o the_o union_n divine_a and_o humane_a jesus_n be_v in_o she_o according_a to_o both_o his_o nature_n and_o she_o be_v all_o in_o jesus_n and_o while_o she_o do_v all_o thing_n in_o he_o he_o work_v all_o in_o she_o he_o pray_v adore_v love_n suffer_v labour_n insomuch_o that_o this_o perfect_a union_n produce_v a_o certain_a unity_n between_o god_n jesus_n and_o the_o soul_n and_o between_o all_o their_o operation_n it_o settle_v a_o kind_n of_o partnership_n and_o community_n of_o good_n and_o possession_n between_o they_o in_o a_o word_n it_o import_v more_o than_o can_v be_v express_v now_o this_o condition_n must_v needs_o be_v most_o holy_a and_o divine_a where_o god_n work_v in_o the_o soul_n and_o the_o soul_n in_o god_n in_o i_o manet_fw-la &_o ego_fw-la in_o eo_fw-la and_o the_o alliance_n between_o they_o grow_v continual_o straight_a and_o close_o proportionable_o to_o her_o increasing_n in_o virtue_n in_o this_o life_n and_o receive_v its_o ultimate_a perfection_n only_o in_o heaven_n o_o amiable_a jesus_n with_o what_o a_o profusion_n of_o goodness_n and_o love_n you_o entertain_v our_o soul_n in_o this_o sacrament_n you_o conceal_v your_o presence_n under_o the_o external_n species_n to_o give_v we_o occasion_n and_o advantage_n to_o exercise_v our_o faith_n which_o behold_v you_o so_o much_o more_o clear_o as_o you_o be_v more_o secret_o and_o obscure_o present_a again_o on_o the_o other_o side_n you_o manifest_a and_o show_v yourself_o by_o innumerable_a effect_n of_o your_o grace_n and_o divine_a sentiment_n which_o you_o breath_n in_o the_o soul_n to_o excite_v and_o exercise_v our_o love_n what_o can_v a_o soul_n do_v when_o she_o see_v herself_o so_o prevent_v so_o convince_v so_o press_v by_o evident_a instance_n and_o experimental_a proof_n of_o your_o endless_a and_o unwearied_a bounty_n what_o can_v she_o do_v but_o love_n love_n without_o stint_n render_v love_n for_o love_n how_o many_o excellent_a thing_n may_v be_v say_v upon_o this_o subject_a but_o how_o can_v those_o sentiment_n be_v express_v that_o can_v hardly_o be_v conceive_v chap._n xi_o the_o four_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o confer_v the_o high_a love_n oftentimes_o before_o and_o after_o communion_n i_o be_v take_v up_o with_o contemplate_v the_o perfection_n of_o god_n which_o be_v one_o and_o the_o same_o in_o themselves_o yet_o they_o be_v different_a in_o our_o manner_n of_o conception_n and_o the_o verity_n of_o their_o effect_n now_o when_o any_o one_o of_o they_o discover_v itself_o it_o appear_v in_o full_a beauty_n and_o majesty_n and_o all_o the_o other_o seem_v to_o sink_v in_o to_o it_o and_o lend_v all_o their_o ornament_n and_o excellence_n to_o increase_v its_o lustre_n a_o instance_n hereof_o we_o have_v in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n where_o the_o divine_a love_n display_v all_o its_o magnificence_n and_o the_o other_o attribute_n contribute_v to_o that_o design_n the_o bright_a of_o their_o charm_n and_o perfection_n eternity_n immensity_n wisdom_n omnipotence_n justice_n mercy_n and_o whatsoever_o be_v most_o eminent_a and_o adorable_a in_o the_o divine_a nature_n be_v present_a there_o and_o attend_v upon_o the_o triumph_n of_o love_n each_o of_o these_o perfection_n espouse_v the_o interest_n and_o put_v on_o the_o inclination_n of_o love_n which_o be_v liberality_n and_o magnificence_n and_o according_o operate_v in_o a_o soul_n when_o love_n make_v his_o triumphant_a entry_n at_o the_o time_n of_o communion_n for_o love_n as_o its_o proper_a effect_n produce_v in_o the_o soul_n a_o reciprocal_a love_n eternity_n imprint_n continuance_n and_o perseverance_n immensity_n spread_v the_o affection_n and_o give_v it_o a_o unbounded_a extent_n wisdom_n shed_v round_o about_o a_o supernatural_a light_n to_o guide_v its_o good_a purpose_n and_o illustrate_v the_o way_n of_o virtue_n omnipotence_n inspire_v a_o invincible_a strength_n to_o surmount_v all_o difficulty_n and_o obstacle_n thus_o in_o communion_n a_o soul_n do_v not_o only_o receive_v the_o impression_n of_o love_n but_o of_o love_n attend_v with_o the_o lustre_n and_o excellency_n of_o all_o the_o divine_a perfection_n it_o be_v observable_a that_o jesus_n christ_n together_o with_o his_o eternal_a father_n send_v the_o holy_a ghost_n upon_o the_o apostle_n to_o replenish_v they_o with_o love_n in_o the_o same_o place_n where_o he_o have_v give_v they_o himself_o in_o the_o sacrament_n so_o that_o this_o divine_a sanctuary_n be_v choose_v two_o several_a time_n to_o be_v the_o theatre_n where_o the_o two_o great_a action_n of_o love_n be_v represent_v that_o ever_o the_o goodness_n of_o god_n exhibit_v out_o of_o himself_o the_o first_o in_o give_v we_o his_o son_n to_o reside_v in_o our_o heart_n who_o from_o all_o eternity_n rest_v in_o his_o own_o bosom_n and_o thereby_o enable_v we_o to_o live_v divine_o by_o he_o as_o he_o live_v by_o his_o father_n the_o second_o in_o send_v on_o we_o the_o adorable_a spirit_n of_o the_o father_n and_o the_o son_n to_o be_v the_o knot_n of_o the_o eternal_a espousal_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o her_o god_n to_o beautify_v she_o with_o he_o in_o create_v light_n to_o warm_v she_o with_o his_o sacred_a flame_n to_o animate_v she_o with_o his_o heavenly_a force_n and_o virtue_n and_o in_o a_o word_n to_o render_v she_o entire_o spiritual_a and_o both_o these_o action_n be_v perpetuate_v in_o the_o holy_a church_n when_o at_o the_o same_o time_n we_o be_v feast_v with_o the_o precious_a body_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o inebriate_v with_o the_o spirit_n of_o his_o love_n o_o who_o can_v conceive_v the_o admirable_a commerce_n and_o caress_n that_o be_v interchange_v between_o jesus_n christ_n and_o pure_a soul_n in_o this_o divine_a sacrament_n the_o world_n which_o discern_v nothing_o but_o by_o meditation_n of_o the_o sense_n be_v too_o gross_a and_o stupid_a to_o comprehend_v they_o it_o think_v that_o soul_n which_o be_v escape_v from_o its_o snare_n and_o dis-engaged_n from_o its_o business_n lead_v a_o idle_a and_o unprofitable_a life_n it_o fancy_v they_o do_v nothing_o because_o their_o action_n be_v not_o see_v that_o their_o fire_n be_v extinguish_v because_o it_o do_v not_o blaze_v in_o the_o eye_n of_o men._n but_o on_o the_o contrary_a they_o resemble_v those_o mountain_n full_a of_o sulphur_n which_o carry_v vast_a globe_n of_o fire_n in_o their_o bosom_n though_o they_o break_v out_o but_o at_o certain_a time_n and_o then_o they_o be_v not_o only_o see_v but_o whole_a province_n feel_v the_o conflagration_n town_n and_o village_n be_v burn_v and_o field_n cover_v with_o ash_n in_o like_a manner_n those_o retire_a soul_n which_o burn_v inward_o with_o divine_a love_n and_o for_o the_o most_o part_n shine_v only_o to_o god_n and_o themselves_o yet_o when_o the_o command_n and_o service_n of_o the_o lord_n excite_v they_o to_o external_n duty_n they_o produce_v such_o extraordinary_a effect_n that_o number_n of_o soul_n be_v set_v on_o fire_n with_o their_o virtue_n example_n and_o instruction_n in_o this_o kind_n we_o have_v have_v many_o great_a servant_n of_o god_n who_o have_v conceive_v a_o thousand_o good_a desire_n in_o their_o retirement_n and_o inflame_v with_o heavenly_a fire_n by_o the_o frequent_a use_n of_o the_o most_o holy_a communion_n issue_n from_o their_o retreat_n and_o this_o sacred_a table_n like_o lion_n breathe_v nothing_o but_o flame_n and_o set_v all_o on_o fire_n about_o they_o such_o have_v make_v the_o great_a conversion_n of_o sinner_n change_v the_o face_n of_o whole_a province_n and_o kingdom_n and_o all_o this_o perform_v only_o by_o one_o or_o a_o small_a number_n of_o such_o servant_n of_o god_n who_o appear_v so_o powerful_a in_o work_n and_o word_n that_o all_o their_o action_n seem_v to_o be_v so_o many_o miracle_n here_o we_o must_v observe_v that_o this_o interiour_n fire_n in_o a_o person_n not_o sufficient_o retire_v within_o himself_o or_o that_o from_o time_n to_o time_n be_v not_o careful_a to_o lay_v on_o more_o fuel_n to_o nourish_v it_o i_o mean_v to_o
elevate_v his_o heart_n by_o frequent_a prayer_n to_o god_n and_o contemplation_n of_o his_o divine_a perfection_n or_o that_o dissipate_v his_o spirit_n abroad_o by_o the_o impulse_n of_o nature_n engage_v himself_o in_o temporal_a affair_n without_o be_v call_v thereto_o by_o the_o inspiration_n and_o guidance_n of_o grace_n though_o something_o of_o zeal_n appear_v in_o the_o thing_n and_o as_o one_o think_v a_o good_a intention_n i_o say_v this_o interiour_n fire_n in_o such_o a_o person_n be_v to_o be_v compare_v to_o these_o meteor_n or_o lambent_a fire_n which_o be_v carry_v about_o with_o every_o motion_n of_o the_o air_n and_o shine_v but_o do_v not_o burn_v chap._n xii_o the_o five_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o give_v strength_n and_o perseverance_n in_o the_o service_n of_o god_n one_o day_n as_o i_o enter_v into_o a_o church_n i_o hear_v they_o sing_v these_o word_n in_o honour_n of_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n ambulavit_fw-la in_o fortitudine_fw-la cibi_fw-la illius_fw-la usque_fw-la ad_fw-la montem_fw-la dei_fw-la he_o walk_v in_o the_o strength_n of_o this_o bread_n even_o to_o the_o mount_n of_o god_n these_o word_n affect_v i_o and_o make_v i_o hope_n that_o notwithstanding_o my_o misery_n and_o continual_a weakness_n i_o may_v be_v so_o strengthen_v by_o receive_v this_o divine_a bread_n that_o at_o last_o i_o may_v arrive_v to_o the_o mount_n of_o god_n may_v raise_v myself_o above_o the_o low_a inclination_n of_o nature_n and_o mount_v to_o the_o participation_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n and_o perfection_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n which_o life_n be_v a_o high_a mountain_n which_o no_o body_n can_v climb_v by_o the_o mere_a strength_n of_o nature_n i_o observe_v before_o that_o the_o peculiar_a intention_n of_o jesus_n in_o institute_v the_o holy_a sacrament_n be_v to_o give_v we_o a_o foundation_n to_o life_n and_o strength_n and_o for_o that_o reason_n it_o be_v the_o only_a sacrament_n that_o be_v give_v in_o the_o form_n of_o nourishment_n the_o rest_n be_v prescribe_v by_o way_n of_o remedy_n to_o purge_v the_o soul_n from_o sin_n or_o confer_v by_o ceremony_n of_o cousecration_n to_o dedicate_v the_o person_n to_o the_o peculiar_a duty_n of_o religion_n and_o holy_a thing_n and_o so_o other_o respective_o but_o this_o be_v the_o only_a one_o give_v by_o way_n of_o heavenly_a nurture_n to_o enable_v we_o to_o live_v by_o the_o life_n of_o grace_n a_o perpetual_a life_n over_o which_o the_o death_n of_o sin_n have_v no_o power_n for_o jesus_n christ_n among_o other_o effect_n of_o this_o divine_a food_n assure_v we_o that_o it_o bestow_v eternal_a life_n qui_fw-la manducat_fw-la hunc_fw-la panem_fw-la vivet_fw-la in_o aeternum_fw-la and_o it_o seem_v very_o reasonable_a and_o conform_a to_o the_o infinite_a goodness_n of_o god_n that_o the_o most_o excellent_a of_o sacrament_n shall_v confer_v the_o most_o excellent_a of_o grace_n which_o be_v that_o of_o perseverance_n a_o grace_n so_o sublime_a so_o divine_a so_o precious_a that_o we_o can_v merit_v it_o by_o any_o or_o all_o the_o good_a action_n we_o can_v do_v but_o how_o rare_a and_o how_o noble_a soever_o it_o be_v we_o have_v much_o subject_n to_o hope_n that_o the_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o god_n of_o all_o consolation_n will_v grant_v we_o it_o since_o he_o have_v already_o enrich_v we_o with_o that_o which_o be_v infinite_o more_o than_o this_o grace_n the_o prefence_n of_o his_o only_a son_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n corporal_a nutriment_n be_v elementary_a and_o material_a and_o therefore_o no_o better_o than_o corruption_n yet_o if_o the_o body_n can_v take_v it_o always_o in_o a_o just_a proportion_n and_o be_v perfect_o well_o dispose_v to_o draw_v the_o strength_n it_o afford_v it_o will_v continue_v our_o natural_a life_n and_o we_o shall_v never_o die_v how_o much_o more_o will_v the_o heavenly_a bread_n the_o live_a bread_n which_o contain_v in_o itself_o the_o everflowing_a source_n of_o life_n confer_v a_o perpetuity_n and_o infectibility_n of_o spiritual_a life_n by_o grace_n if_o the_o soul_n due_o use_v and_o be_v dispose_v to_o receive_v the_o abundance_n of_o grace_n virtue_n and_o supernatural_a strength_n that_o this_o adorable_a food_n bring_v with_o it_o when_o we_o communicate_v we_o drink_v of_o the_o same_o fountain_n the_o bless_a do_v in_o heaven_n but_o to_o they_o it_o be_v the_o water_n of_o life_n everlasting_a and_o what_o else_o can_v it_o be_v to_o we_o but_o that_o of_o the_o life_n of_o never_o fail_a grace_n which_o be_v the_o pledge_n and_o assurance_n of_o the_o eternity_n of_o glory_n o_o my_o soul_n do_v thou_o think_v that_o any_o of_o the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n after_o they_o have_v taste_v the_o delight_n of_o that_o torrent_n of_o pleasure_n can_v be_v oloy_v with_o they_o or_o be_v content_v to_o be_v deprive_v of_o that_o divine_a and_o happy_a life_n how_o then_o can_v thou_o be_v so_o unconstant_a and_o irresolute_a in_o the_o way_n of_o grace_n and_o unfaithful_a in_o the_o union_n thou_o have_v contract_v with_o god_n who_o haste_n drink_v the_o water_n of_o joy_n from_o the_o same_o fountain_n of_o thy_o saviour_n when_o he_o present_v himself_o real_o and_o in_o person_n and_o demand_n to_o be_v admit_v into_o thy_o heart_n say_v not_o to_o he_o as_o st._n peter_n do_v retire_v from_o i_o o_o lord_n but_o breath_n out_o the_o sentiment_n of_o perfect_a love_n say_v with_o the_o spouse_n tenui_fw-la eum_fw-la nec_fw-la dimittam_fw-la i_o will_v never_o abandon_v he_o o_o what_o a_o pleasant_a society_n how_o profound_a a_o peace_n do_v the_o enjoyment_n of_o the_o sovereign_n good_a bring_v to_o the_o soul_n but_o both_o imperfect_a till_o they_o be_v finish_v in_o heaven_n the_o full_a possession_n thereof_o she_o can_v acquire_v on_o earth_n serve_v only_o to_o inflame_v her_o thirst_n more_o the_o more_o she_o taste_v god_n the_o more_o she_o desire_v he_o and_o since_o there_o be_v no_o possibility_n of_o satisfy_v her_o desire_n in_o this_o life_n she_o suffer_v a_o continual_a martyrdom_n that_o make_v she_o both_o die_v and_o live_v together_o her_o pain_n be_v full_a of_o sweetness_n and_o that_o sweetness_n beget_v a_o languish_a and_o long_v after_o her_o belove_a she_o be_v disgu_v with_o all_o create_a thing_n and_o forcible_o draw_v off_o from_o they_o nothing_o please_v she_o in_o this_o condition_n but_o that_o which_o augment_v her_o flame_n she_o can_v read_v with_o satisfaction_n unless_o there_o be_v some_o mention_n of_o her_o belove_a all_o conversation_n and_o discourse_n be_v burden_n some_o and_o tedious_a unless_o the_o subject_n be_v his_o love_n my_o god_n you_o see_v the_o bottom_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o conceive_v thing_n that_o i_o can_v utter_v it_o be_v true_a i_o suffer_v but_o i_o will_v not_o but_o suffer_v i_o can_v do_v nothing_o but_o aspire_v to_o a_o full_a possession_n of_o your_o infinite_a goodness_n it_o be_v very_o much_o that_o you_o vouchsafe_v to_o give_v yourself_o unto_o i_o in_o the_o adorable_a sacrament_n with_o such_o a_o immense_a love_n but_o still_o you_o give_v i_o only_o a_o hide_a treasure_n i_o possess_v you_o indeed_o but_o do_v not_o enjoy_v you_o to_o my_o heart_n desire_v i_o be_o in_o the_o condition_n of_o holy_a simeon_n who_o hold_v you_o in_o his_o arm_n in_o the_o temple_n and_o yet_o dye_v with_o a_o desire_n to_o see_v you_o it_o be_v time_n o_o lord_n now_o permit_v my_o soul_n to_o depart_v in_o peace_n and_o quit_v this_o mortal_a life_n because_o i_o receive_v within_o i_o the_o spring_n and_o source_n of_o immortality_n i_o know_v for_o certain_a that_o in_o paradise_n i_o shall_v obtain_v the_o perfect_a accomplishment_n of_o all_o my_o desire_n yet_o i_o do_v not_o desire_v it_o till_o it_o be_v your_o good_a will_n and_o pleasure_n your_o love_n make_v i_o press_v forward_o and_o tend_v incessant_o to_o the_o beatifical_a union_n but_o it_o be_v your_o love_n too_o that_o stop_v my_o course_n that_o draw_v i_o back_o inspire_v i_o with_o the_o high_a indifference_n and_o absolute_a dependence_n on_o your_o divine_a will._n o_o jesus_n how_o admirable_a be_v your_o providence_n you_o open_a my_o eye_n to_o see_v the_o comfortable_a and_o bless_a sight_n of_o the_o power_n and_o purity_n of_o love_n which_o ought_v to_o possess_v the_o soul_n that_o have_v the_o happiness_n to_o receive_v you_o often_o in_o the_o holy_a communion_n i_o relinquish_v and_o resign_v myself_o more_o than_o ever_o into_o your_o divine_a hand_n guide_v i_o as_o it_o shall_v best_o please_v you_o there_o be_v nothing_o leave_v to_o ask_v you_o more_o since_o you_o have_v unasked_a bestow_v yourself_o upon_o i_o and_o crown_v i_o with_o mercy_n even_o beyond_o all_o my_o hope_n my_o business_n be_v to_o remain_v annihilate_v in_o your_o presence_n and_o quiet_o receive_v your_o divine_a
be_v the_o degree_n of_o perfection_n o_o my_o god_n how_o hard_o a_o thing_n be_v it_o for_o we_o not_o to_o seek_v ourselves_o and_o not_o at_o all_o to_o pretend_v to_o esteem_v and_o excellence_n the_o desire_n we_o have_v thereof_o be_v as_o intime_fw-la to_o we_o as_o the_o marrow_n of_o our_o bone_n and_o in_o a_o manner_n in_o all_o our_o action_n whether_o for_o ourselves_o or_o our_o neighbour_n we_o seek_v more_o or_o less_o our_o own_o excellence_n the_o great_a saint_n have_v have_v little_a esteem_n of_o their_o own_o talent_n in_o their_o own_o eye_n when_o they_o have_v be_v oblige_v to_o make_v they_o glorious_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o other_o and_o unless_o they_o do_v cause_v they_o to_o appear_v for_o the_o good_a of_o other_o they_o do_v tend_v to_o humiliation_n plunge_v themselves_o in_o their_o own_o nothing_o to_o bring_v down_o thereby_o all_o pride_n of_o heart_n chap._n xi_o that_o we_o ought_v to_o leave_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n to_o become_v annihilate_v if_o we_o put_v ourselves_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o jesus_n christ_n he_o will_v treat_v we_o as_o his_o father_n treat_v he_o for_o divine_a love_n have_v severity_n as_o well_o as_o divine_a justice_n happy_a be_v that_o soul_n which_o all_o on_o fire_n with_o divine_a love_n be_v not_o content_v nor_o satisfy_v till_o she_o have_v so_o whole_o sacrifiee_v herself_o to_o god_n that_o the_o love_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v burn_v to_o nothing_o this_o love_n be_v a_o sun_n full_a of_o fire_n and_o light_n which_o by_o little_a and_o little_o draw_v up_o the_o vapour_n from_o the_o earth_n that_o be_v the_o creature_n and_o drink_v they_o up_o i_o have_v a_o business_n in_o hand_n which_o put_v i_o to_o hard_a labour_n namely_o to_o mortify_v myself_o in_o spirit_n and_o affection_n to_o all_o creature_n if_o i_o can_v bring_v it_o about_o i_o shall_v be_v happy_a all_o that_o i_o have_v do_v hitherto_o be_v but_o a_o preparation_n to_o take_v up_o my_o cross_n and_o entire_o to_o follow_v christ_n in_o his_o humiliation_n i_o see_v he_o bear_v in_o a_o poor_a abject_a manner_n in_o the_o eye_n of_o man_n and_o thus_o like_o a_o giant_n he_o begin_v the_o course_n of_o his_o abjection_n why_o do_v we_o delay_v to_o follow_v he_o by_o annihilation_n poverty_n and_o self-contempt_n let_v we_o never_o leave_v he_o whatsoever_o we_o suffer_v for_o my_o part_n i_o have_v make_v a_o solemn_a protestation_n that_o i_o will_v follow_v he_o so_o close_o by_o be_v crucify_v to_o the_o world_n that_o every_o moment_n of_o my_o life_n i_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o say_v it_o be_v not_o i_o that_o live_v but_o jesus_n crucify_v who_o live_v in_o i_o let_v we_o not_o wonder_v at_o the_o proceed_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o preach_v to_o we_o nothing_o but_o death_n and_o annihilation_n the_o cross_n and_o abnegation_n it_o be_v because_o our_o soul_n infect_v with_o sin_n wherein_o we_o be_v conceive_v be_v so_o strong_o corrupt_v that_o all_o her_o operation_n be_v impure_a jesus_n christ_n be_v come_v by_o his_o grace_n to_o cleanse_v this_o impurity_n which_o be_v so_o deep_o fix_v and_o in_o grain_n that_o except_o we_o resolute_o correspond_v to_o the_o working_n of_o grace_n in_o we_o we_o shall_v still_o remain_v in_o our_o imperfection_n which_o grace_n tend_v to_o bring_v we_o to_o self-contempt_n and_o annihilation_n have_v this_o day_n receive_v my_o saviour_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n i_o keep_v myself_o as_o it_o be_v whole_o annihilate_v while_o he_o continue_v in_o i_o and_o permit_v he_o to_o in_o i_o and_o for_o i_o what_o he_o please_v both_o in_o relation_n to_o his_o father_n and_o my_o poor_a soul_n and_o those_o person_n for_o who_o i_o have_v intercede_v in_o the_o dreadful_a sacrifice_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o i_o ought_v not_o to_o mingle_v the_o operation_n of_o a_o impure_a creature_n with_o those_o of_o jesus_n o_o that_o jesus_n will_v alone_o work_v in_o i_o what_o be_v my_o duty_n i_o ought_v to_o plunge_v myself_o in_o my_o own_o nothing_o in_o his_o presence_n if_o i_o must_v love_v god_n jesus_n will_v work_v this_o in_o i_o if_o i_o must_v pray_v jesus_n will_v be_v my_o advocate_n if_o i_o must_v glorify_v his_o father_n he_o will_v glorify_v he_o and_o i_o will_v sweet_o consent_v to_o all_o his_o operation_n o_o jesus_n be_v you_o all_o that_o i_o may_v be_v nothing_o work_v your_o will_n in_o i_o i_o will_v remain_v in_o my_o nothing_n to_o let_v you_o work_v all_o in_o i_o without_o resistance_n many_o good_a soul_n honour_v the_o abjection_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o few_o will_v practise_v they_o or_o imitate_v his_o poverty_n and_o humiliation_n shall_v we_o think_v that_o it_o do_v not_o beseem_v you_o to_o be_v so_o debase_v and_o thus_o to_o suffer_v o_o jesus_n be_v not_o this_o to_o make_v no_o account_n of_o your_o example_n and_o condemn_v you_o of_o folly_n who_o be_v the_o wisdom_n of_o the_o father_n it_o be_v a_o great_a folly_n to_o be_v thus_o censorious_a and_o certain_o the_o more_o we_o participate_v of_o your_o poverty_n and_o humiliation_n the_o more_o we_o participate_v of_o your_o wisdom_n come_v then_o o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a and_o live_v poor_a with_o he_o and_o thereby_o testify_v our_o love_n to_o he_o and_o our_o fidelity_n chap._n xii_o that_o we_o must_v renounce_v our_o sense_n and_o human_a reason_n to_o love_v humiliation_n the_o impediment_n that_o our_o sensitive_a part_n bring_v to_o perfection_n be_v easy_a to_o be_v discover_v but_o the_o interposition_n of_o human_a reason_n be_v nice_a and_o delicate_a and_o few_o discover_v they_o they_o be_v hard_a to_o conquer_v and_o many_o can_v be_v persuade_v of_o their_o badness_n for_o reason_n be_v ingenious_a to_o seduce_v by_o a_o thousand_o fair_a pretence_n which_o we_o dare_v hardly_o condemn_v appear_v so_o reasonable_a but_o the_o example_n of_o jesus_n christ_n be_v above_o all_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n what_o reason_n be_v there_o that_o the_o roman_a emperor_n shall_v live_v in_o triumph_n that_o cruel_a herod_n shall_v shine_v with_o honour_n and_o melt_v in_o pleasure_n that_o the_o hard-hearted_a jew_n shall_v enjoy_v all_o worldly_a content_n and_o abundance_n and_o in_o the_o interim_n the_o son_n of_o god_n shall_v be_v bear_v in_o a_o stable_a shall_v fly_v by_o night_n into_o egypt_n live_v a_o poor_a life_n in_o a_o shop_n with_o a_o carpenter_n overwhelm_v with_o pain_n and_o disgrace_n however_o these_o be_v the_o proceed_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n to_o confound_v thereby_o our_o human_a prudence_n and_o teach_v we_o to_o renounce_v ourselves_o if_o we_o will_v be_v good_a follower_n of_o jesus_n christ_n as_o long_o as_o we_o give_v more_o ear_n to_o the_o persuasion_n of_o human_a reason_n than_o to_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n we_o shall_v never_o make_v any_o great_a progress_n in_o piety_n if_o one_o be_v in_o a_o poor_a and_o abject_a condition_n human_a prudence_n be_v for_o advancement_n and_o riches_n when_o any_o occasion_n present_v itself_o if_o one_o be_v bear_v to_o honour_n and_o possession_n reason_n say_v leave_v they_o not_o to_o become_v poor_a and_o abject_a how_o can_v we_o draw_v ourselves_o out_o of_o nature_n to_o imitate_v divine_a jesus_n if_o we_o will_v always_o follow_v the_o maxim_n of_o man_n we_o be_v very_o busy_a to_o live_v in_o the_o world_n according_a to_o our_o condition_n but_o we_o do_v not_o remember_v sufficient_o that_o our_o chief_a care_n aught_o to_o be_v to_o live_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o let_v all_o other_o obligation_n give_v place_n unto_o it_o jesus_n christ_n execute_v the_o eternal_a purpose_n of_o his_o father_n in_o a_o poor_a despise_v painful_a life_n do_v infinite_o glorify_v he_o thereby_o before_o the_o incarnation_n god_n be_v not_o infinite_o love_v and_o glorify_v out_o of_o himself_o but_o only_o in_o himself_o inasmuch_o as_o the_o humiliation_n of_o one_o that_o be_v god_n bring_v a_o infinite_a glory_n to_o god_n which_o before_o he_o have_v not_o a_o christian_a soul_n likewise_o execute_v the_o divine_a will_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n by_o follow_v his_o son_n in_o a_o life_n of_o humiliation_n and_o self-contempt_n do_v glorify_v he_o with_o sovereign_a honour_n for_o it_o be_v decree_v from_o all_o eternity_n that_o the_o member_n shall_v live_v the_o life_n of_o the_o head_n quos_fw-la praedestinavit_fw-la conform_v fieri_fw-la and_o first_o suffer_v with_o he_o that_o they_o may_v at_o last_o with_o he_o be_v glorify_v all_o human_a reason_n must_v yield_v to_o this_o divine_a determination_n o_o jesus_n how_o strange_a be_v the_o foundation_n of_o that_o perfection_n to_o which_o you_o call_v we_o they_o be_v nothing_o but_o death_n renunciation_n
poverty_n abandonment_n and_o cross_n so_o that_o whatsoever_o be_v agreeable_a to_o nature_n seem_v whole_o contrary_a to_o grace_n why_o do_v you_o not_o dear_a saviour_n bring_v man_n to_o his_o nothing_n in_o a_o moment_n by_o your_o omnipotency_n to_o make_v he_o thereby_o a_o new_a creature_n why_o will_v you_o that_o he_o must_v annihilate_v himself_o and_o contribute_v to_o his_o own_o destruction_n o_o how_o the_o method_n of_o your_o wisdom_n be_v admirable_a your_o design_n be_v hereby_o to_o bring_v man_n to_o love_v you_o but_o he_o can_v never_o do_v this_o more_o generous_o than_o by_o the_o strong_a effort_n of_o self-contempt_n and_o annihilation_n human_a reason_n prompt_v we_o to_o self-love_n and_o self-esteem_a divine_a reason_n inspire_v we_o with_o self-contempt_n and_o abnegation_n abraham_n sacrifice_v his_o son_n do_v foolish_o in_o the_o judgement_n of_o human_a reason_n as_o be_v a_o enemy_n to_o himself_o and_o his_o whole_a family_n but_o this_o be_v a_o action_n of_o wonderful_a prudence_n in_o the_o judgement_n of_o divine_a reason_n show_v thereby_o that_o he_o love_v god_n more_o than_o himself_o and_o his_o dear_a relation_n come_v then_o o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o strive_v to_o be_v dead_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n and_o to_o annihilate_v ourselves_o for_o his_o sake_n i_o see_v a_o unspeakable_a beauty_n in_o the_o horror_n of_o mortification_n and_o suffering_n see_v they_o be_v the_o source_n from_o whence_o purity_n flow_v into_o the_o soul_n chap._n xiii_o that_o self_n denial_n and_o annihilation_n be_v better_a learn_v by_o practice_n than_o speculation_n i_o know_v now_o better_o than_o ever_o that_o abjection_n be_v the_o way_n wherein_o we_o must_v march_v to_o advance_v assure_o to_o the_o perfection_n we_o aim_v at_o all_o other_o way_n be_v liable_a to_o deceit_n but_o self-denial_n be_v without_o delusion_n o_o how_o few_o do_v consider_v the_o proceed_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o few_o dive_v into_o and_o comprehend_v his_o holy_a disposition_n but_o few_o set_v upon_o a_o perfect_a imitation_n of_o what_o they_o know_v let_v we_o fall_v to_o work_v we_o know_v enough_o of_o it_o we_o be_v not_o ignorant_a how_o jesus_n humble_v himself_o in_o the_o womb_n of_o his_o virgin-mother_n and_o there_o remain_v nine_o month_n and_o at_o his_o nativity_n do_v increase_v his_o humiliation_n by_o be_v bear_v in_o a_o stable_a continue_v they_o all_o his_o life-time_n and_o finish_v they_o by_o his_o death_n upon_o the_o cross_n the_o grand_a theatre_n of_o his_o humiliation_n we_o know_v all_o this_o it_o only_o remain_v to_o imitate_v he_o grace_n will_v conduct_v we_o if_o we_o faithful_o correspond_v to_o god_n inspiration_n to_o this_o end_n god_n permit_v that_o our_o friend_n fall_v off_o from_o we_o that_o some_o little_a disgrace_n happen_v that_o we_o be_v somewhat_o despise_v and_o suffer_v by_o other_o that_o our_o imperfection_n be_v discover_v and_o make_v know_v and_o that_o we_o be_v censure_v for_o undertake_v to_o aim_v at_o perfection_n all_o this_o tend_v to_o humble_v we_o be_v good_a what_o way_n soever_o it_o come_v and_o no_o better_a thing_n can_v arrive_v unto_o we_o to_o be_v faithful_a on_o these_o occasion_n do_v far_o transcend_v all_o speculation_n if_o you_o still_o complain_v of_o cross_a accident_n if_o you_o do_v hide_v yourself_o from_o the_o eye_n of_o man_n if_o you_o love_v not_o poverty_n and_o contempt_n and_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o world_n have_v still_o some_o hold_n upon_o you_o thou_o be_v not_o annihilate_v and_o god_n have_v not_o wrought_v the_o marvel_n of_o his_o love_n in_o thy_o heart_n hear_v sing_v in_o the_o church_n these_o word_n of_o the_o psalmist_n in_o toto_fw-la cord_n meo_fw-la exquisivi_fw-la te_fw-la i_o have_v seek_v thou_o o_o lord_n with_o my_o whole_a heart_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o our_o bless_a saviour_n answer_v i_o interior_o thou_o have_v make_v a_o fair_a search_n after_o i_o every_o where_o but_o thou_o will_v not_o find_v i_o any_o where_o on_o earth_n but_o there_o where_o i_o have_v be_v in_o the_o station_n of_o my_o mortal_a life_n in_o solitude_n and_o silence_n in_o poverty_n and_o suffering_n in_o persecution_n and_o reproach_n in_o cross_n and_o annihilation_n the_o saint_n find_v i_o in_o heaven_n in_o the_o splendour_n of_o glory_n and_o joy_n ineffable_a but_o this_o be_v after_o they_o have_v find_v i_o on_o earth_n in_o disgrace_n and_o pain_n i_o be_o thorough_o convince_v of_o this_o truth_n and_o humble_o thank_v our_o bless_a saviour_n for_o make_v it_o so_o clear_a unto_o i_o and_o i_o beseech_v his_o infinite_a goodness_n so_o to_o imprint_v it_o in_o my_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v practise_v it_o without_o delay_n alas_o how_o long_o shall_v i_o behold_v the_o excellency_n of_o humiliation_n by_o divine_a irradiation_n dart_v into_o my_o soul_n and_o practise_v they_o so_o little_a divine_a jesus_n take_v from_o i_o this_o rebellious_a heart_n if_o it_o refuse_v to_o be_v conformable_a to_o you_o in_o your_o annihilation_n open_v my_o breast_n and_o take_v it_o from_o i_o for_o i_o have_v rather_o have_v none_o at_o all_o and_o die_v than_o have_v a_o heart_n that_o have_v other_o maxim_n and_o affection_n than_o what_o you_o have_v teach_v i_o o_o my_o belove_a jesus_n i_o do_v not_o in_o this_o desire_n cruelty_n to_o myself_o but_o a_o signal_n favour_n the_o eternal_a father_n who_o behold_v you_o hang_v on_o the_o cross_n with_o complacency_n will_v not_o be_v offend_v with_o this_o bloody_a spectacle_n o_o my_o jesus_n what_o a_o love_n have_v i_o for_o your_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n the_o view_n of_o their_o beauty_n so_o well-pleasing_a to_o your_o eternal_a father_n do_v at_o present_a so_o ravish_v and_o transport_v i_o that_o i_o shall_v become_v as_o it_o be_v a_o fool_n i_o shall_v lose_v my_o sense_n and_o speak_v i_o know_v not_o what_o unless_o dear_a jesus_n you_o put_v a_o stop_n to_o your_o divine_a motion_n and_o eclipse_v those_o heavenly_a ray_n which_o present_v to_o my_o view_n suffering_n and_o humiliation_n so_o amiable_a i_o have_v a_o particular_a devotion_n to_o make_v a_o litany_n of_o jesus_n in_o all_o his_o humiliation_n and_o when_o i_o feel_v a_o repugnancy_n to_o the_o practice_n of_o annihilation_n and_o self-denial_n i_o find_v great_a encouragement_n by_o recite_v it_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a jesus_n unknown_a and_o despise_v jesus_n hate_v calumniate_v and_o persecute_v jesus_n abandon_v by_o man_n and_o tempt_v by_o the_o devil_n jesus_n betray_v and_o sell_v at_o a_o vile_a price_n jesus_n blame_v accuse_v and_o condemn_v unjust_o jesus_n array_v with_o a_o shameful_a garment_n jesus_n buffet_v and_o mock_v jesus_n repute_v a_o fool_n and_o to_o have_v a_o devil_n jesus_n scourge_v in_o a_o bloody_a manner_n be_v bind_v with_o cord_n jesus_n think_v worse_o of_o than_o barrabas_n jesus_n expose_v naked_a with_o infamy_n jesus_n crown_v with_o thorn_n and_o salute_v with_o scoff_v jesus_n sorrowful_a to_o death_n jesus_n oppress_v with_o injury_n pain_n and_o humiliation_n jesus_n affront_v spit_v upon_o and_o despiteful_o use_v jesus_n charge_v with_o your_o cross_n and_o our_o sin_n jesus_n crucify_v between_o two_o thief_n jesus_n dishonour_v before_o man_n and_o think_v as_o nothing_o o_o good_a jesus_n who_o have_v suffer_v for_o the_o love_n of_o i_o a_o infinity_n of_o disgrace_n and_o humiliation_n above_o my_o comprehension_n imprint_n powerful_o in_o my_o soul_n a_o esteem_n and_o love_n of_o they_o that_o i_o may_v practice_v they_o by_o your_o example_n chap._n fourteen_o that_o a_o soul_n espouse_v jesus_n christ_n espouse_n also_o his_o cross_n and_o suffering_n the_o infinite_a wisdom_n of_o god_n have_v condescend_v to_o espouse_v the_o lowness_n of_o our_o human_a nature_n by_o his_o incarnation_n this_o same_o human_a nature_n have_v espouse_v the_o cross_n suffering_n abjection_n death_n and_o when_o a_o soul_n espouse_n jesus_n christ_n she_o contract_v a_o eternal_a union_n with_o all_o these_o during_o her_o pilgrimage_n o_o happy_a alliance_n she_o be_v marry_v to_o jesus_n and_o contempt_n and_o suffering_n be_v the_o dowry_n o_o precious_a riches_n if_o she_o love_v she_o belove_v indeed_o she_o ought_v to_o have_v a_o tender_a affection_n to_o the_o gift_n she_o present_v to_o he_o at_o the_o espousal_n because_o she_o give_v they_o and_o he_o much_o value_v they_o o_o my_o soul_n be_v thus_o espouse_v to_o jesus_n christ_n behold_v then_o how_o strict_o thou_o be_v bind_v and_o engage_v to_o he_o for_o hereafter_o thou_o must_v suffer_v pain_n of_o body_n grief_n of_o mind_n affront_n and_o injury_n thou_o must_v be_v well_o content_a with_o humiliation_n love_v disgrace_n and_o make_v sport_n for_o other_o thou_o must_v be_v content_a to_o be_v think_v but_o unconstant_a by_o devotee_n
the_o treasure_n of_o the_o earth_n we_o ought_v daily_o according_a to_o our_o ability_n to_o examine_v ourselves_o to_o the_o end_n to_o purify_v our_o heart_n from_o all_o affection_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o this_o supernatural_a life_n it_o reside_v in_o the_o superior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o therefore_o we_o must_v not_o wonder_v if_o the_o inferior_a part_n have_v degust_n and_o aversion_n from_o it_o we_o must_v expect_v that_o nature_n sense_n friend_n the_o world_n and_o ordinary_a christian_n will_v keep_v a_o noise_n and_o trouble_v our_o ear_n with_o many_o argument_n against_o it_o but_o to_o all_o this_o it_o be_v enough_o to_o answer_v in_o few_o word_n with_o st._n blandina_fw-la christiana_n sum_n christiana_n sum_n i_o be_o a_o christian_n let_v we_o say_v to_o such_o who_o endeavour_n to_o divert_v we_o i_o have_v undertake_v to_o lead_v this_o supernatural_a life_n i_o will_v never_o abandon_v it_o maugre_o all_o the_o contradiction_n of_o worldly_a maxim_n and_o the_o repugnance_n of_o sensual_a nature_n i_o know_v to_o become_v a_o perfect_a christian_a i_o must_v be_v turn_v up-side_n down_o destroy_v annihilate_v according_a to_o my_o natural_a inclination_n hate_v in_o a_o manner_n all_o that_o the_o world_n natural_o love_v riches_n honour_n pleasure_n yea_o though_o innocent_a and_o love_v what_o the_o world_n natural_o hate_v poverty_n contempt_n and_o suffering_n this_o be_v a_o great_a attempt_n but_o we_o have_v powerful_a help_n for_o we_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n through_o christ_n strengthen_v we_o chap._n iii_o that_o we_o ought_v with_o st._n paul_n to_o convert_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n i_o be_o now_o resolve_v in_o good_a earnest_n to_o convert_v myself_o whole_o to_o god_n to_o be_v take_v sole_o with_o his_o divine_a beauty_n and_o infinite_a goodness_n forsake_v all_o creature_n which_o heretofore_o have_v too_o much_o take_v up_o my_o time_n and_o affection_n o_o my_o god_n deal_v with_o i_o as_o you_o do_v with_o your_o apostle_n strike_v i_o down_o to_o the_o ground_n humble_v i_o make_v i_o blind_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o to_o you_o who_o be_v in_o the_o interior_a of_o my_o heart_n beam_a forth_o light_n which_o discover_v sufficient_o your_o divine_a presence_n this_o make_v i_o ask_v you_o o_o my_o god_n what_o you_o will_v have_v i_o to_o do_v and_o methinks_v you_o answer_v that_o this_o manifestation_n of_o your_o presence_n in_o i_o shall_v make_v such_o a_o extraordinary_a impression_n on_o i_o as_o to_o change_v my_o life_n and_o conform_v myself_o whole_o to_o your_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n behold_v it_o seem_v to_o i_o this_o be_v what_o you_o will_v have_v i_o to_o do_v first_o not_o to_o persecute_v the_o sentiment_n and_o inclination_n i_o have_v to_o a_o christian_a life_n by_o take_v part_n with_o the_o struggle_n of_o old_a adam_n in_o i_o st._n paul_n persecute_v jesus_n christ_n in_o persecute_v the_o primitive_a christian_n and_o i_o also_o persecute_v the_o same_o jesus_n when_o i_o stifle_v the_o motion_n of_o grace_n in_o i_o and_o will_v not_o suffer_v my_o soul_n to_o live_v his_o life_n which_o he_o do_v lead_v here_o for_o i_o to_o follow_v pardon_v i_o good_a jesus_n i_o will_v no_o long_o persecute_v you_o by_o stifle_v your_o holy_a inspiration_n i_o desire_v to_o be_v a_o christian_a and_o your_o disciple_n i_o will_v profess_v christianity_n in_o the_o face_n of_o the_o sun_n and_o only_o be_v ashamed_a to_o live_v after_o the_o law_n of_o old_a adam_n to_o be_v a_o christian_n this_o be_v my_o glory_n this_o be_v my_o life_n this_o be_v my_o delight_n poverty_n contempt_n pain_n humiliation_n i_o will_v no_o more_o be_v afraid_a of_o you_o but_o make_v much_o of_o you_o see_v jesus_n have_v love_v you_o even_o to_o death_n to_o live_v this_o life_n we_o must_v become_v blind_a and_o have_v no_o other_o light_n than_o what_o the_o ray_n of_o faith_n afford_v we_o for_o nature_n can_v teach_v we_o the_o grandeur_n excellence_n and_o eminency_n of_o christianity_n st_o paul_n after_o his_o conversion_n suffer_v a_o thousand_o hardship_n he_o be_v whip_v banish_v despise_a mock_v imprison_a torment_a use_v as_o if_o he_o be_v the_o filth_n and_o offscouring_a of_o the_o world_n which_o be_v as_o much_o as_o to_o say_v st._n paul_n after_o his_o conversion_n be_v a_o christian_a to_o death_n nothing_o can_v deter_v he_o from_o live_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n christ_n let_v we_o then_o o_o my_o soul_n be_v true_a christian_n that_o be_v let_v we_o be_v content_a to_o live_v in_o suffering_n persecution_n mortification_n and_o the_o ignominy_n of_o the_o cross_n of_o jesus_n christ_n let_v we_o embrace_v the_o wisdom_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a and_o become_v as_o fool_n in_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n who_o persecute_v true_a christian_n that_o be_v those_o who_o die_v to_o themselves_o and_o all_o thing_n else_o to_o live_v to_o jesus_n poor_a christian_a life_n little_o be_v thou_o know_v how_o ill_o be_v thou_o treat_v in_o the_o world_n thou_o dwelle_v in_o the_o lip_n of_o many_o but_o few_o afford_v thou_o a_o place_n in_o their_o heart_n i_o be_o full_o persuade_v that_o a_o soul_n true_o convert_v love_v god_n entire_o that_o this_o entire_a love_n of_o god_n be_v a_o perfect_a union_n with_o his_o goodness_n that_o such_o a_o union_n imply_v a_o universal_a detachment_n from_o the_o creature_n that_o such_o a_o detachment_n can_v be_v get_v without_o the_o profession_n of_o virtue_n and_o among_o the_o rest_n poverty_n and_o self-denial_n by_o which_o we_o be_v interior_o disengage_v from_o earthly_a thing_n and_o exterior_o when_o god_n please_v content_o suffer_v misery_n sickness_n loss_n of_o good_n and_o whatever_o the_o world_n natural_o abhor_v as_o evil_n but_o by_o the_o work_n of_o grace_n be_v for_o our_o great_a good_a because_o they_o advance_v our_o union_n with_o god_n when_o we_o abound_v with_o riches_n and_o honour_n we_o live_v in_o a_o continual_a fear_n of_o have_v too_o great_a a_o affection_n for_o they_o but_o in_o suffering_n a_o soul_n possess_v a_o strong_a assurance_n of_o divine_a love_n nothing_o but_o grace_n can_v teach_v we_o these_o verity_n and_o a_o great_a grace_n can_v only_o make_v we_o relish_v and_o practise_v they_o the_o weight_n of_o our_o natural_a inclination_n still_o hinder_v we_o from_o rise_v to_o so_o great_a perfection_n when_o we_o give_v up_o ourselves_o to_o god_n with_o resolution_n daily_o to_o advance_v in_o virtue_n we_o can_v more_o easy_o conceive_v what_o this_o perfection_n be_v than_o practice_n it_o however_o let_v we_o take_v courage_n nothing_o be_v impossible_a to_o god_n and_o we_o shall_v find_v doubtless_o this_o jewel_n by_o a_o perfect_a abnegation_n that_o be_v possess_v nothing_o not_o the_o very_a mean_n of_o serve_v god_n but_o with_o a_o spirit_n of_o resignation_n to_o follow_v jesus_n naked_a on_o the_o cross_n we_o must_v divest_v ourselves_o of_o all_o creature_n that_o we_o may_v be_v sole_o unite_v to_o he_o yea_o dear_a jesus_n my_o desire_n be_v only_o to_o be_v for_o you_o my_o resolution_n be_v to_o serve_v you_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n you_o please_v be_v it_o by_o action_n or_o by_o suffer_v or_o contemplation_n i_o will_v be_v attach_v to_o nothing_o but_o you_o my_o desire_n be_v to_o be_v disengaged_a from_o all_o creature_n to_o find_v you_o and_o possess_v you_o as_o my_o only_a happiness_n chap._n xv._o of_o the_o alliance_n we_o must_v make_v with_o the_o holy_a folly_n of_o the_o cross_n after_o many_o illustration_n of_o grace_n which_o have_v clear_v up_o to_o i_o the_o beauty_n of_o the_o sacred_a folly_n of_o the_o cross_n after_o many_o proposal_n and_o review_v i_o have_v at_o last_o espouse_v it_o say_v with_o fervour_n the_o same_o word_n which_o christ_n use_v to_o his_o spouse_n in_o the_o canticle_n sponsabo_fw-la te_fw-la in_o aeternum_fw-la my_o friend_n my_o spouse_n my_o sister_n i_o have_v espouse_v thou_o for_o ever_o methinks_v i_o say_v these_o word_n for_o ever_o but_o yet_o faint_o my_o infinite_a frailty_n make_v i_o fearful_a i_o may_v become_v a_o inconstant_a lover_n notwithstanding_o i_o say_v for_o ever_o with_o a_o real_a heart_n in_o hope_n that_o by_o virtue_n of_o that_o immense_a love_n whereby_o the_o divinity_n have_v for_o ever_o espouse_v our_o human_a nature_n and_o this_o same_o humanity_n have_v espouse_v the_o cross_n suffering_n and_o abjection_n our_o bless_a saviour_n will_v vouchsafe_v i_o some_o part_n of_o the_o grace_n of_o this_o divine_a alliance_n to_o enable_v i_o to_o walk_v his_o way_n and_o live_v his_o life_n in_o annihilation_n humiliation_n and_o self-denial_n let_v we_o then_o o_o my_o soul_n live_v this_o life_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n any_o other_o life_n be_v but_o a_o real_a death_n jesus_n
our_o soul_n tend_v to_o he_o as_o to_o her_o centre_n and_o sweet_a repose_n this_o repose_n work_v in_o she_o a_o will_n to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o his_o ordination_n with_o a_o entire_a love_n this_o resignation_n when_o it_o be_v general_a and_o real_a indeed_o do_v powerful_o free_v she_o from_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n make_v her_o passive_a to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n and_o his_o holy_a attract_v and_o inspiration_n what_o good_a thought_n god_n send_v she_o in_o the_o morning_n she_o nourish_v all_o day_n long_o make_v use_n of_o they_o on_o all_o occasion_n and_o take_v from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n whatever_o happen_v peace_n or_o trouble_n sweet_a or_o bitter_a rest_n or_o labour_n because_o it_o be_v god_n will_n who_o glorify_v himself_o by_o all_o event_n this_o carry_v a_o soul_n on_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o pure_a virtue_n chap._n ii_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n make_v we_o little_a value_n the_o absence_n of_o the_o creature_n i_o find_v my_o heart_n and_o soul_n so_o content_a in_o that_o god_n be_v inseparable_o unite_v to_o i_o that_o i_o be_o hardly_o sensible_a of_o the_o absence_n of_o my_o dear_a friend_n i_o know_v not_o when_o i_o shall_v suffer_v any_o thing_n for_o all_o mortification_n prove_v sweet_a unto_o i_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o abundant_a joy_n the_o presence_n of_o god_n afford_v unto_o i_o god_n be_v in_o i_o and_o i_o in_o he_o and_o nothing_o can_v separare_fw-la i_o from_z he_o because_o he_o be_v always_o present_a in_o i_o by_o his_o immensity_n which_o be_v his_o essence_n the_o thought_n hereof_o do_v so_o affect_v my_o heart_n that_o i_o value_v not_o the_o privation_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o rather_o i_o get_v this_o advantage_n in_o that_o methinks_v by_o their_o absence_n god_n be_v more_o intimate_o present_a with_o i_o and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o i_o be_o elevate_v above_o all_o creature_n though_o some_o be_v holy_a person_n and_o dear_a to_o i_o by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o i_o feel_v my_o heart_n more_o unite_v to_o god_n as_o to_o its_o centre_n where_o i_o find_v true_a quiet_a and_o repose_v i_o take_v for_o a_o special_a grace_n and_o favour_v the_o employment_n god_n give_v i_o by_o his_o sacred_a providence_n what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o creature_n see_v god_n be_v in_o i_o and_o i_o in_o he_o see_v he_o be_v for_o i_o and_o i_o for_o he_o o_o what_o riches_n it_o be_v to_o possess_v god_n but_o this_o can_v be_v without_o be_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n bless_a mary_n magdalen_n be_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o forsake_v it_o yea_o her_o dear_a brother_n lazarus_n and_o her_o belove_a sister_n martha_n find_v god_n present_a in_o her_o soul_n and_o that_o suffice_v i_o participate_v a_o little_a the_o joy_n of_o this_o saint_n in_o possess_v god_n after_o i_o have_v so_o happy_o find_v he_o when_o a_o soul_n complain_v of_o the_o absence_n of_o any_o creature_n it_o be_v a_o sign_n she_o have_v not_o yet_o find_v god_n so_o well_o as_o she_o ought_v but_o may_v not_o some_o creature_n be_v instrumental_a to_o bring_v we_o to_o god_n i_o grant_v it_o but_o when_o we_o have_v find_v he_o why_o dont_fw-fr we_o then_o leave_v off_o all_o affection_n to_o worldly_a thing_n alas_o how_o flat_o be_v the_o gust_n that_o creature_n afford_v after_o we_o have_v taste_v of_o god_n sweetness_n &_o it_o be_v but_o a_o torment_n to_o we_o to_o continue_v with_o they_o o_o my_o god_n see_v i_o have_v find_v you_o i_o will_v never_o forsake_v you_o my_o soul_n be_v so_o present_a with_o you_o that_o methinks_v i_o enjoy_v you_o separate_a i_o more_o and_o more_o from_o all_o creature_n that_o this_o sweet_a enjoyment_n may_v increase_v in_o my_o soul_n what_o need_n shall_v i_o then_o have_v of_o converse_n with_o creature_n it_o be_v of_o singular_a profit_n to_o consider_v how_o many_o holy_a man_n and_o woman_n have_v as_o it_o be_v bury_v themselves_o in_o solitude_n fly_v the_o society_n of_o all_o creature_n that_o they_o may_v be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n saint_n mary_n of_o egypt_n hide_v herself_o in_o a_o vast_a desert_n to_o be_v far_o from_o the_o sight_n and_o remembrance_n of_o the_o world_n that_o she_o may_v only_o find_v her_o god_n and_o creator_n o_o my_o god_n how_o happy_a be_v she_o by_o thus_o find_v you_o live_v without_o the_o help_n of_o any_o creature_n without_o clothes_n and_o almost_o without_o any_o refection_n she_o have_v no_o person_n to_o comfort_v she_o no_o person_n to_o complain_v to_o of_o her_o suffering_n no_o person_n to_o take_v part_n of_o her_o consolation_n she_o alone_o be_v with_o god_n alone_o in_o a_o general_a deprivation_n of_o all_o creature_n o_o how_o this_o spirit_n of_o separation_n from_o all_o create_a thing_n be_v excellent_a o_o how_o necessary_a be_v it_o to_o a_o soul_n who_o desire_v to_o be_v whole_o for_o god_n and_o enjoy_v the_o sweet_n of_o his_o divine_a presence_n but_o to_o come_v to_o this_o we_o must_v suffer_v much_o both_o from_o ourselves_o and_o other_o to_o the_o end_n we_o may_v be_v free_v from_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n god_n himself_o who_o will_v be_v all_o in_o all_o to_o his_o creature_n oftentimes_o bring_v we_o home_o to_o himself_o by_o great_a variety_n of_o afflict_a event_n this_o make_v the_o life_n of_o the_o servant_n of_o god_n full_a of_o continual_a alteration_n as_o well_o in_o temporal_a affair_n as_o spiritual_a design_v for_o his_o great_a glory_n sometime_o it_o go_v well_o sometime_o ill_o with_o they_o in_o their_o soul_n and_o body_n by_o constant_a change_n these_o vicissitude_n oblige_v they_o to_o love_v nothing_o but_o the_o sovereign_n good_a and_o in_o this_o general_n abandon_v of_o all_o creature_n god_n be_v please_v to_o let_v they_o feel_v the_o sweet_n of_o his_o divine_a presence_n and_o by_o this_o happy_a experience_n of_o god_n presence_n they_o grow_v insensible_a of_o the_o privation_n of_o thing_n dear_a to_o they_o in_o which_o before_o they_o find_v contentment_n it_o be_v true_a those_o servant_n of_o god_n with_o who_o we_o can_v converse_v be_v as_o so_o many_o conduit-pipe_n by_o which_o god_n convey_v some_o stream_n of_o live_a water_n so_o that_o we_o learn_v from_o they_o eternal_a verity_n and_o many_o secret_n of_o spirituality_n with_o much_o advantage_n to_o our_o soul_n but_o these_o be_v only_a pipe_n jesus_n christ_n god-man_n be_v the_o true_a source_n and_o fountain_n from_o whence_o those_o stream_n flow_v which_o we_o receive_v from_o they_o or_o rather_o by_o they_o it_o be_v from_o the_o splendour_n of_o his_o divinity_n we_o can_v have_v a_o prospect_n of_o his_o grandeur_n and_o perfection_n it_o be_v from_o his_o sacred_a humanity_n we_o must_v learn_v the_o exercise_n of_o all_o christian_a perfection_n when_o you_o please_v dear_a saviour_n you_o will_v make_v a_o soul_n to_o know_v the_o difference_n that_o be_v between_o the_o springhead_n and_o the_o pipe_n between_o draw_v the_o live_a water_n of_o your_o grace_n from_o yourself_o and_o from_o your_o saint_n between_o a_o view_n of_o your_o interiour_n and_o the_o perfection_n of_o servant_n and_o so_o to_o lose_v the_o presence_n of_o the_o holy_a person_n to_o enjoy_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o a_o more_o transcendent_a manner_n be_v no_o loss_n but_o a_o gain_n to_o be_v without_o the_o converse_n of_o god_n servant_n to_o have_v more_o of_o their_o divine_a master_n company_n be_v no_o prejudice_n but_o a_o advantage_n the_o pierce_a side_n of_o jesus_n christ_n be_v as_o it_o be_v a_o sacred_a mouth_n from_o whence_o his_o heart_n speak_v more_o divine_o to_o we_o in_o dumb_a eloquence_n than_o can_v the_o tongue_n of_o saint_n and_o angel_n chap._n iii_o that_o we_o can_v and_o aught_o to_o conserve_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o occasion_n of_o extroversion_n a_o soul_n may_v be_v as_o much_o separate_v from_o creature_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o town_n and_o city_n as_o in_o the_o desert_n behold_v how_o i_o conceive_v this_o may_v be_v do_v when_o god_n once_o make_v a_o soul_n sensible_a of_o his_o grandeur_n and_o give_v her_o lively_a resentment_n of_o his_o presence_n this_o soul_n thus_o illuminate_v begin_v to_o be_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o regardless_o of_o it_o because_o the_o light_n that_o bring_v she_o to_o know_v and_o taste_n god_n present_a make_v the_o creature_n disgustful_a to_o she_o neither_o be_v it_o so_o much_o the_o insufficiency_n of_o creature_n that_o cause_v this_o disgust_n as_o the_o all-sufficiency_n of_o god_n and_o the_o lively_a feel_n of_o his_o divine_a presence_n which_o may_v be_v have_v as_o well_o among_o the_o crowd_n of_o man_n as_o in_o the_o
purity_n in_o the_o soul_n we_o find_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o we_o and_o the_o follow_a instruction_n in_o my_o judgement_n may_v conduce_v to_o purify_v the_o soul_n and_o preserve_v she_o in_o purity_n 1._o a_o indifference_n to_o every_o condition_n to_o any_o employ_v whatsoever_o whereby_o god_n may_v be_v glorify_v 2._o to_o be_v regular_a in_o our_o exterior_a action_n not_o to_o busy_v ourselves_o too_o much_o and_o to_o do_v they_o with_o great_a attention_n 3._o to_o be_v well_o root_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o mortification_n to_o love_v suffer_v and_o humiliation_n a_o manifest_a sign_n of_o a_o purify_a interiour_n 4._o to_o have_v a_o great_a love_n for_o jesus_n christ_n die_v on_o the_o cross_n for_o we_o 5._o to_o have_v a_o continual_a recourse_n to_o god_n for_o a_o supply_n of_o his_o grace_n with_o a_o constant_a dependence_n on_o it_o 6._o to_o be_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o worldly_a thing_n it_o be_v say_v that_o god_n be_v in_o the_o fond_a of_o the_o soul_n and_o there_o be_v hide_v so_o as_o to_o find_v he_o we_o must_v hide_v ourselves_o there_o also_o by_o recollection_n and_o a_o internal_a life_n which_o spiritual_a author_n call_v the_o state_n of_o introversion_n the_o night_n time_n be_v most_o conduce_v to_o advanee_n this_o disposition_n when_o all_o creature_n be_v in_o a_o manner_n dead_a to_o we_o make_v no_o impression_n on_o our_o sense_n whereby_o we_o better_o conserve_v that_o reverence_n we_o owe_v to_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o we_o o_o how_o many_o irreverence_n be_v we_o guilty_a of_o on_o this_o account_n we_o leave_v he_o alone_o when_o we_o perceive_v he_o be_v in_o the_o fond_a of_o our_o soul_n to_o receive_v our_o homage_v and_o we_o turn_v our_o eye_n from_o his_o majesty_n though_o he_o regard_v we_o just_o as_o if_o one_o by_o special_a favour_n admit_v into_o the_o closet_n of_o his_o prince_n to_o converse_v with_o he_o shall_v present_o turn_v his_o head_n to_o look_v out_o of_o the_o window_n to_o behold_v the_o passenger_n a_o soul_n that_o be_v sensible_a of_o god_n presence_n be_v not_o guilty_a of_o such_o ordinary_a miscarriage_n the_o least_o word_n or_o action_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o god_n be_v troublesome_a to_o she_o because_o that_o be_v unwilling_a to_o leave_v that_o respect_n she_o owe_v to_o god_n presence_n she_o fear_v the_o least_o irreverence_n as_o death_n and_o see_v that_o all_o creature_n be_v nothing_o to_o the_o creator_n she_o often_o cry_v out_o quis_fw-la ut_fw-la deus_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la &_o omne_fw-la who_o be_v like_a unto_o god_n my_o god_n be_v all_o in_o all_o unto_o my_o heart_n in_o this_o state_n the_o soul_n have_v not_o only_o a_o great_a respect_n for_o god_n as_o god_n but_o for_o jesus_n christ_n god_n and_o man_n and_o for_o his_o doctrine_n and_o for_o his_o maxim_n the_o privation_n of_o all_o creature_n do_v relish_v better_a with_o she_o than_o the_o possession_n know_v for_o certain_a that_o to_o enjoy_v god_n by_o such_o happy_a experience_n be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o the_o world_n chap._n v._o that_o our_o union_n with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n aught_o to_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o our_o action_n that_o soul_n have_v no_o small_a obligation_n to_o god_n who_o manifest_v his_o presence_n in_o her_o interiour_n and_o make_v her_o sensible_a of_o this_o bless_a union_n i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o this_o union_n be_v so_o full_a of_o sweetness_n and_o desirable_a that_o it_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o the_o enjoyment_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o it_o be_v also_o full_a of_o extreme_a rigour_n separate_v a_o soul_n without_o any_o pity_n from_o whatsoever_o nature_n love_v most_o dear_o she_o must_v then_o bid_v adieu_o to_o the_o most_o innocent_a pleasure_n by_o be_v general_o dead_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n or_o what_o relate_v to_o he_o o_o what_o a_o pain_n be_v it_o not_o to_o dare_v because_o god_n be_v present_a to_o be_v complacent_fw-la to_o our_o friend_n or_o be_v serviceable_a to_o they_o with_o a_o natural_a inclination_n but_o only_o upon_o a_o motive_n of_o grace_n for_o such_o a_o soul_n must_v not_o follow_v the_o order_n of_o nature_n as_o from_o nature_n but_o as_o elevate_v by_o grace_n if_o the_o world_n call_v upon_o we_o let_v we_o not_o regard_v it_o for_o it_o will_v withdraw_v we_o from_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n to_o please_v ourselves_o or_o other_o by_o divertisement_n a_o soul_n attract_v to_o enjoy_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n have_v another_o rule_n those_o who_o be_v not_o thus_o attract_v nor_o have_v this_o enjoyment_n may_v do_v well_o to_o comply_v with_o their_o neighbour_n by_o charitable_a complacence_n the_o fidelity_n which_o a_o soul_n owe_v to_o god_n present_a require_v of_o she_o not_o to_o charge_v herself_o with_o affair_n but_o what_o be_v necessary_a and_o to_o manage_v they_o with_o the_o spirit_n of_o indifferency_n aim_v only_o to_o do_v god_n will_v which_o sometime_o we_o meet_v with_o as_o well_o in_o ill_a as_o good_a success_n she_o must_v be_v more_o take_v up_o with_o god_n than_o those_o affair_n know_v well_o no_o business_n be_v of_o great_a importance_n than_o to_o conserve_v her_o union_n with_o god_n present_a it_o no_o less_o concern_v she_o to_o be_v well_o resign_v to_o the_o order_n of_o divine_a providence_n to_o be_v content_a with_o poverty_n with_o misery_n with_o desolation_n never_o seek_v deliverance_n upon_o natural_a motive_n but_o be_v please_v with_o abjection_n and_o humiliation_n to_o say_v with_o st._n paul_n placeo_fw-la mihi_fw-la in_o infirmitatibus_fw-la i_o be_o well_o please_v with_o my_o infirmity_n such_o a_o soul_n will_v give_v herself_o up_o absolute_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n to_o let_v he_o work_v she_o into_o what_o form_n he_o please_v as_o soft_a wax_n and_o set_v what_o impression_n he_o think_v best_o upon_o she_o receive_v all_o with_o profound_a humility_n and_o if_o she_o be_v leave_v naked_a she_o rest_v content_v o_o how_o a_o soul_n so_o dead_a to_o all_o creature_n be_v a_o please_a mansion_n for_o god_n to_o dwell_v in_o it_o be_v his_o delight_n to_o take_v there_o his_o habitation_n o_o how_o a_o soul_n that_o find_v god_n thus_o present_a with_o she_o be_v trouble_v to_o be_v oblige_v to_o quit_v the_o sweetness_n of_o his_o presence_n and_o when_o this_o be_v often_o make_v life_n somewhat_o troublesome_a and_o she_o cry_v out_o o_o my_o god_n the_o well-beloved_a of_o my_o soul_n when_o will_v you_o deliver_v i_o from_o this_o burdensome_a necessity_n this_o be_v the_o great_a of_o misery_n to_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o creature_n be_v no_o misery_n in_o comparison_n but_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o you_o to_o enjoy_v who_o i_o be_v create_v and_o without_o who_o i_o can_v but_o be_v miserable_a make_v i_o cry_v out_o quando_fw-la veniam_fw-la &_o apparebo_fw-la ante_fw-la faciem_fw-la tuam_fw-la o_o when_o shall_v i_o come_v to_o enjoy_v your_o presence_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o i_o be_o like_o a_o traveller_n who_o see_v a_o far_o off_o a_o high_a mountain_n and_o the_o way_n before_o he_o but_o be_v on_o foot_n he_o must_v sweat_v to_o get_v thither_o in_o like_a manner_n i_o have_v some_o prospect_n of_o perfection_n and_o the_o obligation_n of_o a_o soul_n long_v after_o god_n but_o i_o can_v accomplish_v they_o however_o i_o have_v a_o desire_n and_o i_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o a_o abundance_n of_o grace_n to_o mount_v to_o perfection_n holy_a virgin_n mother_n of_o god_n intercede_v for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v receive_v a_o participation_n of_o your_o grace_n to_o enable_v and_o conduct_v i_o in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n we_o must_v have_v a_o care_n that_o the_o contentment_n we_o enjoy_v by_o this_o union_n with_o god_n present_a do_v not_o exclude_v a_o union_n with_o the_o cross_n contempt_n poverty_n and_o suffering_n a_o strict_a tie_n to_o the_o interiour_n of_o jesus_n glorify_v do_v require_v also_o a_o strict_a conjunction_n to_o the_o interiour_n of_o jesus_n crucify_a those_o two_o union_n go_v hand_n in_o hand_n here_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o have_v part_n in_o the_o state_n of_o jesus_n in_o heaven_n without_o have_v part_n in_o the_o state_n of_o jesus_n on_o earth_n let_v we_o take_v courage_n and_o love_n as_o yet_o rather_o to_o suffer_v than_o enjoy_v we_o have_v but_o this_o short_a life_n to_o suffer_v in_o but_o our_o enjoyment_n shall_v be_v to_o all_o eternity_n chap._n vi_o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o we_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o suffer_v and_o enjoy_v perfection_n do_v not_o consist_v in_o a_o general_a freedom_n from_o interiour_n and_o exterior_a trouble_n hitherto_o my_o weakness_n can_v not_o comprehend_v how_o a_o soul_n at_o the_o same_o time_n may_v be_v happy_a
secret_a order_n well_o know_v to_o herself_o and_o walk_v peaceable_o in_o the_o pursuance_n of_o those_o affair_n which_o have_v immediate_a relation_n to_o god_n and_o be_v content_a also_o to_o be_v extrovert_v by_o secular_a affair_n as_o good_n and_o honour_n to_o serve_v our_o corporal_a necessity_n and_o help_v our_o neighbour_n but_o it_o be_v god_n present_a in_o we_o that_o set_v a_o a_o soul_n on_o work_n by_o his_o order_n and_o necessary_a instruction_n 1._o we_o must_v undertake_v no_o business_n yea_o not_o good_a work_n without_o a_o mission_n that_o be_v without_o some_o interiour_n call_v from_o god_n and_o therefore_o it_o concern_v we_o to_o have_v recourse_n to_o he_o by_o prayer_n to_o know_v his_o will_n lest_o we_o do_v what_o he_o do_v not_o require_v of_o we_o 2_o when_o we_o know_v that_o god_n set_v we_o on_o work_n we_o ought_v to_o be_v very_o faithful_a in_o the_o performance_n of_o it_o i_o observe_v that_o affair_n of_o obligation_n do_v not_o distract_v our_o introversion_n 3._o we_o must_v acknowledge_v our_o insufficiency_n to_o bring_v our_o endeavour_n to_o a_o happy_a issue_n it_o be_v the_o sun_n that_o make_v the_o plant_n to_o grow_v to_o blossom_n and_o fructify_v and_o not_o the_o gardener_n that_o set_v and_o water_n they_o in_o like_a manner_n it_o be_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n that_o make_v our_o endeavour_n prosperous_a paul_n may_v plant_v and_o apollo_n may_v water_v but_o god_n give_v the_o increase_n 4_o to_o regulate_v the_o time_n of_o our_o exercise_n without_o which_o the_o soul_n will_v languish_v and_o grow_v feeble_a charity_n well_o order_v begin_v at_o home_n i_o must_v not_o for_o other_o neglect_v the_o most_o important_a affair_n of_o my_o own_o salvation_n o_o my_o god_n when_o i_o be_o in_o the_o privation_n of_o the_o sensible_a sweet_n of_o your_o presence_n and_o find_v a_o dryness_n on_o my_o soul_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o not_o hard_a to_o bear_v it_o but_o when_o i_o be_o ravish_v with_o enjoyment_n to_o be_v call_v from_o it_o to_o mind_v other_o business_n this_o seem_v to_o i_o more_o difficult_a and_o mortify_a we_o may_v strive_v to_o have_v the_o like_a content_n in_o other_o affair_n but_o our_o infirm_a condition_n will_v not_o suffer_v it_o and_o do_v what_o we_o can_v we_o fall_v short_a of_o the_o sweet_n of_o such_o enjoyment_n it_o remain_v then_o to_o make_v a_o excellent_a act_n of_o abnegation_n and_o by_o a_o amorous_a resignation_n of_o our_o will_n to_o god_n make_v it_o our_o contentment_n to_o have_v no_o other_o contentment_n than_o god_n good_a pleasure_n who_o will_v not_o have_v we_o to_o be_v disturb_v to_o want_v enjoyment_n and_o thus_o we_o offer_v up_o to_o god_n a_o excellent_a sacrifice_n see_v we_o give_v to_o god_n what_o be_v most_o dear_a and_o precious_a to_o we_o by_o die_v to_o ourselves_o to_o live_v to_o he_o i_o be_o therefore_o resolve_v to_o fall_v a_o work_n without_o trouble_v my_o spirit_n too_o much_o with_o the_o idea_n of_o affair_n that_o i_o may_v still_o conserve_v a_o actual_a endeavour_n to_o practice_n on_o divers_a occasion_n and_o maxim_n of_o christianity_n and_o evangelical_n council_n by_o self-denial_n and_o a_o love_n of_o suffering_n for_o christ_n sake_n and_o if_o i_o continue_v in_o this_o spirit_n of_o sacrifice_n and_o entire_a abnegation_n it_o will_v make_v i_o content_a with_o that_o little_a service_n god_n require_v of_o i_o be_v unworthy_a by_o reason_n of_o my_o sin_n to_o be_v advance_v to_o great_a performance_n he_o be_v indeed_o our_o sovereign_a lord_n and_o he_o may_v be_v do_v with_o his_o creature_n what_o he_o please_v but_o whatever_o we_o undertake_v let_v we_o have_v a_o care_n to_o do_v our_o work_n for_o god_n with_o purity_n of_o intention_n and_o in_o ill_a success_n to_o have_v a_o spirit_n of_o resignation_n which_o may_v prove_v to_o we_o of_o more_o worth_n than_o the_o conversion_n of_o soul_n when_o we_o be_v in_o the_o heat_n of_o our_o affair_n it_o much_o concern_v we_o not_o to_o let_v they_o deface_v in_o our_o soul_n the_o incomparable_a idea_n of_o the_o interiour_n of_o jesus_n which_o be_v the_o copy_n we_o must_v endeavour_v to_o write_v after_o in_o imitation_n whereof_o we_o always_o find_v sufficient_a matter_n of_o glorify_v god_n which_o be_v the_o only_a pretention_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v both_o for_o time_n and_o eternity_n in_o this_o abiss_n of_o perfection_n i_o find_v how_o to_o behave_v myself_o in_o prayer_n in_o action_n in_o affair_n in_o contempt_n in_o temptation_n in_o aridity_n in_o disconsolation_n and_o without_o the_o idea_n of_o this_o divine_a interiour_n we_o do_v but_o blunder_v in_o the_o way_n to_o perfection_n and_o seek_v our_o own_o esteem_n and_o excellency_n there_o be_v in_o spiritual_a person_n three_o sort_n of_o purity_n 1._o purity_n of_o conscience_n 2._o purity_n of_o virtue_n 3._o purity_n of_o perfection_n whoever_o be_v careful_a to_o avoid_v sin_n even_o those_o that_o proceed_v from_o frailty_n have_v purity_n of_o conscience_n those_o who_o on_o all_o occasion_n practice_n virtue_n without_o a_o mixture_n of_o nature_n have_v purity_n of_o virtue_n and_o those_o who_o be_v divest_v entire_o of_o themselves_o and_o the_o creature_n endeavour_v pure_o to_o practise_v the_o perfect_a act_n of_o virtue_n be_v arrive_v to_o the_o purity_n of_o perfection_n by_o these_o degree_n of_o purity_n we_o may_v discover_v the_o different_a state_n of_o virtuous_a soul_n chap._n viii_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n bring_v we_o into_o a_o disesteem_a of_o other_o thing_n after_o god_n have_v manifest_v himself_o to_o a_o soul_n make_v she_o to_o see_v that_o he_o be_v all_o the_o soul_n enamour_a on_o this_o adorable_a presence_n take_v no_o rest_n but_o in_o he_o find_v herself_o ill_a at_o ease_n without_o he_o who_o be_v all_o in_o all_o unto_o she_o o_o how_o powerful_a be_v this_o divine_a idea_n to_o withdraw_v a_o soul_n from_o all_o creature_n that_o she_o may_v be_v unite_v to_o her_o all_o how_o do_v she_o happy_o loose_v herself_o in_o this_o great_a all_o o_o my_o god_n say_v she_o how_o true_a be_v it_o that_o you_o be_v all_o and_o i_o be_o nothing_o dear_a lord_n what_o can_v we_o do_v for_o you_o you_o be_v all_o and_o have_v no_o need_n of_o our_o good_n of_o the_o all_o of_o our_o soul_n how_o little_a be_v you_o know_v and_o belove_v i_o know_v not_o what_o man_n intend_v in_o not_o have_v their_o thought_n take_v up_o about_o he_o who_o be_v our_o all_o where_o be_v thou_o o_o my_o soul_n when_o thou_o be_v not_o in_o this_o all_o without_o doubt_n thou_o be_v in_o nothing_o for_o as_o long_o as_o thou_o be_v in_o thyself_o or_o in_o the_o creature_n thou_o be_v in_o the_o depth_n of_o nothingness_n the_o content_n i_o have_v in_o that_o god_n be_v all_o be_v more_o as_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o for_o he_o than_o myself_o for_o my_o joy_n be_v to_o know_v he_o to_o be_v what_o he_o be_v before_o i_o be_v any_o thing_n o_o great_a all_o be_v you_o for_o ever_o what_o you_o be_v and_o that_o you_o shall_v be_v our_o all_o everlasting_o do_v comfort_n and_o ravish_v i_o i_o see_v that_o god_n be_v not_o only_o all_o but_o that_o all_o glory_n all_o grandeur_n all_o beatitude_n be_v in_o he_o neither_o lose_v he_o any_o thing_n by_o his_o communication_n to_o his_o creature_n he_o take_v infinite_a pleasure_n to_o do_v good_a to_o they_o by_o his_o mercy_n and_o no_o less_o content_a be_v he_o to_o punish_v they_o by_o his_o justice_n because_o they_o deserve_v it_o for_o nothing_o can_v disturb_v his_o happiness_n o_o what_o felicity_n be_v it_o to_o a_o soul_n that_o love_v god_n pure_o to_o be_v assure_v that_o god_n shall_v be_v infinite_o happy_a to_o all_o eternity_n and_o that_o no_o malice_n of_o man_n can_v alter_v his_o beatitude_n such_o a_o soul_n be_v great_o please_v to_o consider_v the_o contentment_n god_n take_v to_o make_v she_o live_v to_o make_v she_o die_v to_o keep_v she_o in_o health_n or_o in_o sickness_n to_o supply_v her_o corporal_a necessity_n and_o furnish_v she_o interiour_n with_o all_o grace_n for_o god_n draw_v great_a glory_n to_o himself_o by_o all_o his_o creature_n be_v comfort_v then_o o_o my_o soul_n and_o be_v not_o disconsolate_a see_v that_o god_n be_v always_o happy_a be_v not_o trouble_v for_o any_o thing_n see_v that_o every_o thing_n which_o torment_v thou_o may_v bring_v glory_n to_o god_n do_v not_o value_v any_o thing_n but_o god_n alone_o see_v in_o his_o presence_n the_o most_o excellent_a creature_n be_v as_o pure_a nothing_o tanquam_fw-la nihilum_fw-la ante_fw-la te_fw-la it_o be_v easy_a and_o pleasant_a for_o a_o soul_n to_o value_v nothing_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n she_o find_v in_o
of_o god_n and_o his_o divine_a perfection_n let_v such_o a_o soul_n be_v in_o light_n or_o darkness_n in_o peace_n or_o war_n elevate_v or_o deject_v she_o be_v still_o the_o same_o because_o god_n will_n be_v she_o and_o she_o desire_v nothing_o but_o what_o please_v he_o her_o chief_a care_n be_v to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o god_n will_v in_o so_o great_a variety_n of_o interiour_n state_n and_o why_o shall_v a_o soul_n be_v concern_v at_o this_o variety_n for_o if_o i_o pure_o desire_v to_o please_v god_n it_o will_v be_v all_o one_o to_o i_o whether_o i_o do_v it_o by_o suffering_n or_o enjoy_v chap._n x._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o confidence_n to_o divine_a providence_n dear_o lord_n draw_v the_o passion_n and_o affection_n of_o my_o heart_n whole_o after_o you_o o_o that_o i_o can_v go_v out_o of_o myself_o to_o abide_v only_o in_o you_o oh_o that_o i_o have_v no_o love_n but_o for_o you_o no_o fear_n no_o desire_n no_o joy_n but_o in_o you_o and_o that_o my_o affection_n be_v only_o for_o you_o o_o that_o your_o grace_n will_v mortify_v in_o i_o the_o fear_n hope_n sadness_n and_o desire_n of_o nature_n that_o you_o may_v be_v the_o sole_a object_n of_o my_o love_n this_o be_v the_o purity_n we_o must_v aim_v at_o or_o else_o we_o possess_v our_o soul_n in_o vain_a our_o bless_a saviour_n say_v in_o the_o gospel_n that_o one_o sparrow_n shall_v not_o be_v forget_v of_o god_n why_o then_o have_v we_o such_o fear_n to_o want_v who_o be_v chief_o call_v upon_o to_o rely_v on_o providence_n if_o god_n permit_v we_o to_o be_v in_o want_n it_o be_v to_o bring_v we_o to_o perfection_n by_o suffering_n god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v we_o daily_o his_o precious_a body_n and_o will_v he_o deny_v we_o bread_n i_o can_v believe_v it_o all_o thought_n to_o to_o the_o contrary_n be_v from_o the_o enemy_n or_o nature_n solicitous_a for_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n my_o confidence_n ought_v to_o be_v in_o god_n alone_o though_o it_o happen_v that_o we_o fall_v into_o trouble_n temptation_n or_o sickness_n which_o seem_v to_o deprive_v we_o of_o the_o good_a temper_n of_o soul_n to_o attend_v to_o our_o devotion_n we_o ought_v to_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n and_o say_v god_n only_o and_o his_o holy_a will._n if_o the_o idea_n of_o some_o state_n of_o perfection_n present_v itself_o to_o the_o understanding_n if_o we_o make_v some_o resolution_n upon_o the_o feeling_n of_o a_o actual_a favour_n we_o ought_v the_o more_o entire_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o god_n and_o say_v i_o desire_v god_n only_o and_o his_o holy_a will._n this_o abandon_v make_v a_o soul_n peaceable_a and_o content_a and_o dead_a to_o the_o world_n to_o which_o though_o she_o may_v feel_v some_o motion_n of_o affection_n yet_o they_o be_v troublesome_a and_o gain_v no_o consent_n in_o this_o state_n she_o be_v whole_o absorb_v in_o god_n find_v her_o repose_n in_o he_o alone_o and_o out_o of_o he_o be_v no_o contentment_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o whatever_o accident_n may_v happen_v they_o shall_v not_o disturb_v her_o quiet_a she_o be_v ground_v in_o god_n her_o sovereign_a peace_n and_o though_o she_o may_v feel_v some_o emotion_n in_o the_o inferior_a part_n they_o do_v not_o reach_v the_o superior_a faculty_n we_o must_v be_v perfect_a as_o god_n will_v have_v we_o not_o as_o we_o will_v have_v it_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v far_o different_a from_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n the_o world_n believe_v that_o king_n lewis_n must_v be_v saint_v by_o conquer_a the_o holy_a land_n god_n make_v he_o he_o a_o saint_n indeed_o but_o not_o by_o his_o victory_n but_o his_o captivity_n not_o by_o his_o triumph_n but_o his_o suffering_n we_o intend_v to_o sanctity_n ourselves_o by_o action_n and_o god_n will_v do_v it_o by_o affliction_n we_o must_v give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o his_o conduct_n absolute_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o his_o will_n and_o only_o love_v his_o design_n when_o shall_v i_o be_v so_o mortify_v to_o my_o own_o endeavour_n as_o to_o abandon_v myself_o whole_o to_o divine_a providence_n i_o must_v follow_v pure_o the_o design_n of_o god_n love_v only_o his_o good_a pleasure_n put_v my_o confidence_n in_o he_o and_o he_o will_v have_v a_o care_n of_o i_o in_o such_o a_o way_n as_o shall_v be_v best_a to_o advance_v his_o glory_n doubtless_o it_o be_v a_o effect_n of_o grace_n in_o we_o not_o to_o rely_v on_o our_o own_o providence_n but_o to_o depend_v chief_o on_o god_n assistance_n we_o must_v therefore_o elevate_v ourselves_o above_o nature_n which_o rely_v on_o creature_n and_o fear_n want_n and_o abhor_v suffering_n that_o we_o may_v put_v our_o sole_a confidence_n in_o god_n whoever_o trust_v in_o he_o and_o be_v confound_v there_o be_v as_o well_o martyr_n of_o providence_n as_o martyr_n for_o faith_n they_o be_v more_o hide_v and_o sometime_o suffer_v little_a less_o than_o the_o other_o be_v content_a with_o all_o occurrence_n of_o providence_n which_o deprive_v they_o of_o their_o good_n or_o honour_n or_o call_v their_o life_n in_o question_n for_o conscience_n sake_n and_o sometime_o to_o enjoy_v god_n in_o a_o more_o perfect_a way_n they_o despise_v and_o forsake_v the_o accommodation_n of_o this_o life_n that_o they_o may_v sacrifice_v themselves_o to_o god_n with_o the_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n in_o pious_a exercise_n or_o if_o providence_n have_v so_o order_v that_o they_o shall_v be_v bear_v subject_n to_o disease_n and_o misery_n they_o bear_v they_o with_o perfect_a resignation_n there_o be_v also_o spiritual_a martyr_n who_o providence_n have_v order_v to_o suffer_v much_o by_o interiour_n pain_n o_o how_o advantageous_a be_v it_o for_o such_o soul_n to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n design_n upon_o they_o and_o be_v faithful_a therein_o as_o for_o i_o the_o love_n of_o god_n will_n shall_v hereafter_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o my_o action_n and_o undertake_n i_o will_v abandon_v myself_o and_o all_o creature_n and_o put_v my_o confidence_n in_o god_n alone_o if_o our_o imperfection_n disturb_v our_o inward_a peace_n and_o union_n with_o god_n we_o must_v repair_v it_o without_o too_o much_o disquiet_v ourselves_o for_o our_o pass_a fault_n union_n with_o god_n be_v never_o without_o love_n and_o love_n will_v blot_v out_o our_o offence_n and_o bring_v the_o soul_n to_o repose_v in_o her_o wont_a centre_n chap._n xi_o to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n one_o excellent_a effect_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o make_v we_o as_o it_o be_v insensible_a of_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n will_n a_o soul_n that_o be_v enrich_v with_o this_o indifferency_n can_v desire_v nothing_o else_o yea_o not_o virtue_n themselves_o except_o in_o order_n to_o god_n pleasure_n we_o must_v strict_o examine_v ourselves_o concern_v this_o general_a disengagement_n from_o creature_n and_o not_o easy_o believe_v we_o have_v it_o except_o on_o several_a occasion_n we_o find_v so_o by_o experience_n our_o bless_a saviour_n vouchsafe_v i_o extraordinary_a attract_v to_o be_v whole_o he_o he_o put_v i_o into_o a_o state_n of_o wonderful_a interiour_n peace_n and_o quiet_a so_o that_o it_o cost_v i_o little_a to_o do_v virtuous_o i_o aspire_v after_o dear_a solitude_n and_o holy_a poverty_n my_o health_n be_v but_o feeble_a and_o in_o probability_n my_o life_n here_o can_v be_v long_o and_o therefore_o i_o endeavour_v to_o live_v so_o disengage_v as_o if_o in_o effect_n i_o be_v already_o dead_a my_o dear_a jesus_n infuse_v into_o my_o soul_n a_o spirit_n of_o denudation_n and_o i_o do_v cherish_v it_o that_o i_o may_v live_v no_o more_o in_o myself_o but_o my_o continuance_n in_o this_o pilgrimage_n may_v be_v beneath_o i_o and_o i_o without_o any_o gust_n or_o affection_n to_o it_o so_o that_o at_o present_a i_o suffer_v not_o a_o little_a to_o see_v myself_o so_o far_o from_o god_n amid_o the_o distraction_n and_o necessity_n of_o the_o body_n and_o other_o affair_n incumbent_a on_o i_o for_o when_o god_n manifest_v himself_o to_o a_o soul_n experimental_o taste_v his_o infinite_a goodness_n to_o live_v here_o below_o be_v a_o pain_n unto_o she_o however_o she_o continue_v in_o great_a peace_n because_o in_o her_o interiour_n she_o be_v pure_o resign_v to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n i_o be_o so_o habituate_v to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n alone_o and_o not_o to_o please_v myself_o but_o in_o he_o and_o to_o have_v no_o joy_n but_o for_o he_o that_o i_o can_v rejoice_v to_o see_v myself_o perfect_a nor_o be_v sad_a at_o my_o imperfection_n god_n be_v my_o all_o his_o will_n his_o pleasure_n and_o nothing_o else_o all_o reflection_n on_o myself_o seem_v to_o full_o
indisposition_n of_o health_n i_o ought_v to_o value_v it_o and_o not_o forsake_v my_o usual_a devotion_n nor_o have_v recourse_n to_o such_o refreshment_n as_o satisfy_v sensuality_n but_o to_o take_v pleasure_n for_o once_o to_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o body_n that_o have_v often_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o soul_n notwithstanding_o this_o must_v be_v do_v with_o discretion_n 3._o i_o must_v rejoice_v at_o cross_n and_o difficulty_n which_o i_o meet_v withal_o as_o afford_v matter_n to_o practise_v many_o great_a virtue_n which_o prepare_v the_o soul_n for_o great_a grace_n and_o make_v her_o worthy_a of_o great_a love_n what_o god_n please_v to_o give_v oftentimes_o to_o his_o best_a friend_n in_o this_o life_n be_v fair_a occasion_n to_o suffer_v for_o christ_n sake_n by_o a_o generous_a renunciation_n of_o what_o the_o world_n most_o affect_v and_o nature_n most_o desire_n 4._o i_o ought_v to_o be_v strong_o persuade_v that_o i_o shall_v be_v so_o far_o rich_a in_o virtue_n as_o i_o shall_v be_v poor_a in_o worldly_a good_n provide_v i_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o grace_n of_o my_o vocation_n which_o invite_v i_o to_o be_v dead_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o only_a god_n i_o must_v therefore_o have_v a_o care_v not_o to_o harken_v to_o the_o argument_n of_o humane_a prudence_n which_o still_o find_v pretension_n enough_o to_o shun_v contempt_n and_o suffering_n our_o sensuality_n do_v much_o retardus_n in_o the_o way_n to_o perfection_n but_o humane_a reason_n more_o be_v more_o subtle_a and_o powerful_a to_o persuade_v the_o only_a remedy_n be_v to_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o grace_n and_o fall_v in_o love_n with_o the_o folly_n of_o the_o cross_n chap._n xiii_o to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n spirit_n we_o must_v not_o use_v violence_n in_o the_o practice_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n by_o bind_v ourselves_o severe_o to_o this_o or_o that_o way_n but_o sweet_o follow_v the_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n we_o must_v row_v against_o the_o stream_n of_o our_o corrupt_a nature_n but_o not_o strive_v against_o the_o wind_n that_o come_v from_o heaven_n work_v we_o must_v but_o by_o follow_v god_n holy_a inspiration_n which_o be_v sensible_a enough_o to_o holy_a heart_n a_o soul_n accustom_v to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n spirit_n do_v know_v his_o motion_n i_o can_v explicate_v this_o as_o i_o will_v but_o it_o be_v a_o assure_a truth_n she_o know_v they_o by_o experience_n i_o must_v whole_o depend_v on_o divine_a providence_n without_o any_o dependence_n on_o creature_n though_o holy_a cast_v myself_o into_o the_o arm_n of_o god_n as_o a_o infant_n that_o take_v no_o care_n but_o to_o lie_v in_o the_o mother_n bosom_n to_o suck_v the_o teat_n and_o delight_v therewith_o do_v love_v she_o dear_o i_o confess_v our_o bless_a saviour_n treat_v i_o after_o this_o manner_n for_o without_o any_o solicitude_n of_o i_o to_o nourish_v my_o soul_n with_o spiritual_a food_n or_o without_o any_o search_n into_o book_n for_o that_o end_n but_o only_o in_o his_o sacred_a heart_n i_o experience_n that_o i_o want_v nothing_o which_o sometime_o do_v strike_v i_o with_o admiration_n and_o fear_n that_o i_o have_v be_v negligent_a to_o do_v my_o duty_n but_o this_o fear_n do_v present_o vanish_v see_v god_n be_v please_v to_o provide_v for_o i_o before_o i_o think_v on_o it_o this_o make_v i_o know_v experimental_o that_o god_n will_v have_v i_o whole_o depend_v upon_o he_o without_o any_o support_n from_o creature_n for_o if_o i_o seek_v to_o they_o his_o care_n diminish_v and_o my_o soul_n fall_v into_o indigence_n find_v little_a succour_n from_o the_o creature_n she_o have_v recourse_n to_o which_o make_v she_o soon_o retire_v to_o the_o pap_n of_o providence_n and_o this_o suffice_v a_o mother_n sometime_o have_v milk_n in_o one_o pap_n and_o not_o in_o the_o other_o if_o the_o little_a infant_n will_v change_v he_o be_v deceive_v but_o find_v little_a help_n from_o the_o left_a pap_n he_o return_v to_o the_o right_n and_o now_o will_v not_o quit_v it_o be_v grow_v wise_a by_o experience_n my_o soul_n thus_o find_v little_a help_n from_o the_o creature_n return_v present_o to_o the_o pap_n of_o providence_n and_o there_o abide_v i_o fear_v sometime_o to_o have_v too_o many_o consolation_n in_o prayer_n but_o this_o do_v satisfy_v i_o that_o god_n will_v have_v i_o live_v as_o a_o infant_n that_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o such_o comfort_n he_o make_v choice_n of_o other_o soul_n for_o great_a performance_n that_o regard_v his_o glory_n if_o a_o infant_n shall_v leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o mother_n to_o do_v her_o service_n he_o will_v fall_v and_o hurt_v himself_o and_o do_v no_o good_a he_o must_v then_o let_v other_o work_n and_o be_v content_a with_o his_o mother_n embrace_n wherefore_o what_o i_o have_v to_o do_v be_v to_o stick_v close_o to_o god_n and_o let_v other_o travel_v in_o great_a affair_n as_o more_o grow_v up_o in_o grace_n in_o comparison_n of_o who_o a_o little_a infant_n be_v nothing_o but_o weakness_n my_o perfection_n consist_v in_o my_o fidelity_n in_o a_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o myself_o to_o god_n which_o will_v increase_v as_o i_o advance_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n and_o his_o design_n i_o must_v therefore_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n passive_a and_o in_o my_o thought_n desire_n action_n disposition_n interior_a and_o exterior_a depend_v on_o the_o pure_a conduct_n of_o god_n and_o his_o pleasure_n a_o soul_n well_o illuminate_v love_v not_o the_o disposition_n she_o find_v in_o herself_o but_o god_n who_o give_v they_o and_o his_o will_n be_v the_o sole_a object_n of_o her_o complacency_n it_o be_v all_o one_o to_o she_o to_o be_v in_o this_o or_o that_o disposition_n as_o best_o please_v god_n and_o love_a nothing_o more_o than_o a_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o herself_o to_o his_o providence_n o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o be_v at_o present_a the_o object_n of_o my_o love_n which_o by_o thou_o be_v purify_v augment_v and_o inflame_v whosoever_o possess_v thou_o do_v know_v and_o taste_v the_o amiable_a transport_n of_o great_a liberty_n of_o spirit_n a_o soul_n lose_v herself_o happy_o in_o thou_o after_o have_v lose_v all_o creature_n for_o the_o love_n of_o abjection_n and_o find_v herself_o no_o where_n but_o in_o god_n be_v dead_a to_o all_o thing_n beside_o he_o o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o be_v the_o disposition_n of_o disposition_n and_o all_o other_o do_v refer_v to_o thou_o happy_a be_v they_o that_o know_v thou_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o all_o other_o grace_n a_o soul_n in_o abandon_v have_v a_o pure_a regard_n to_o god_n and_o be_v not_o concern_v but_o for_o his_o interest_n yea_o desire_v not_o abjection_n nor_o any_o thing_n else_o but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n few_o word_n can_v explicate_v the_o great_a effect_n that_o it_o work_v in_o the_o interiour_n to_o establish_v a_o soul_n perfect_o in_o god_n it_o be_v abandon_v that_o make_v her_o insensible_a in_o all_o kind_n of_o accident_n and_o nothing_o but_o the_o loss_n of_o abandon_v can_v afflict_v she_o you_o be_v admirable_a o_o my_o god_n you_o be_v admirable_a in_o your_o holy_a operation_n and_o assention_n that_o you_o make_v in_o soul_n who_o you_o conduct_v from_o light_n to_o light_v by_o your_o divine_a providence_n which_o be_v not_o know_v but_o by_o experience_n sometime_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o grace_n to_o love_v abjection_n be_v the_o high_a pitch_n but_o now_o i_o see_v that_o abandon_v mount_v the_o soul_n to_o a_o more_o elevate_a state_n o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o doubtless_o will_v be_v the_o ultimate_a disposition_n i_o desire_v nothing_o but_o thou_o and_o death_n as_o the_o gate_n whereby_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o eternal_a abandon_v dear_a death_n how_o pleasant_a and_o lovely_a do_v thou_o seem_v unto_o i_o what_o allurement_n do_v i_o see_v in_o thou_o deliver_v i_o from_o my_o captivity_n that_o i_o may_v full_o enjoy_v my_o well-beloved_a however_o if_o thy_o come_n will_v interrupt_v my_o abandon_v come_v not_o for_o thou_o be_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n and_o all_o thy_o delight_n will_v be_v bitter_a to_o i_o o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o be_v the_o belove_a of_o my_o heart_n which_o ardent_o breathe_v after_o thou_o but_o when_o shall_v i_o know_v that_o i_o possess_v thou_o perfect_o this_o shall_v be_v when_o the_o divine_a will_n shall_v reign_v perfect_o in_o i_o for_o my_o soul_n shall_v be_v establish_v in_o a_o entire_a indifferency_n to_o all_o event_n and_o mean_n of_o perfection_n when_o she_o shall_v have_v no_o other_o joy_n then_o in_o god_n no_o other_o content_n no_o other_o felicity_n our_o bless_a saviour_n say_v often_o to_o a_o soul_n abandon_v to_o his_o will_n think_v upon_o i_o and_o i_o will_v think_v upon_o
thou_o that_o be_v to_o say_v let_v thy_o care_n be_v to_o be_v lose_v in_o i_o and_o i_o will_v take_v order_n for_o thy_o affair_n such_o a_o soul_n do_v not_o spend_v much_o time_n in_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n but_o in_o the_o praise_n of_o god_n her_o exercise_n be_v a_o pure_a consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n in_o who_o arm_n she_o quiet_o repose_v herself_o fear_v nothing_o but_o infidelity_n chap._n fourteen_o how_o the_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o ourselves_o to_o god_n make_v we_o find_v a_o paradise_n upon_o earth_n so_o much_o as_o a_o soul_n be_v faithful_a to_o this_o abandon_v so_o much_o do_v she_o abound_v with_o consolation_n for_o she_o be_v content_a with_o the_o state_n wherein_o providence_n have_v put_v she_o and_o be_v well-pleased_n with_o all_o god_n ordination_n concern_v herself_o as_o be_v most_o for_o his_o glory_n and_o have_v a_o tender_a love_n for_o the_o decree_n of_o god_n will_n who_o from_o all_o eternity_n have_v determine_v to_o conduct_v she_o in_o this_o way_n which_o she_o will_v not_o change_v for_o one_o more_o elevare_v though_o one_o sigh_n will_v gain_v it_o moreover_o such_o a_o soul_n take_v much_o delight_n in_o know_v that_o many_o soul_n be_v conduct_v by_o more_o excellent_a way_n whereby_o god_n may_v be_v more_o glorify_v for_o see_v she_o desire_v pure_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n she_o be_v well-pleased_n that_o god_n be_v glorify_v by_o other_o and_o rejoice_v at_o it_o say_v with_o great_a resentment_n omnis_fw-la spiritus_fw-la laudet_fw-la dominum_fw-la let_v every_o spirit_n praise_v our_o lord_n every_o way_n every_o state_n this_o resentment_n somewhat_o resemble_v that_o of_o the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n where_o the_o angel_n rejoice_v more_o at_o the_o glory_n which_o the_o seraphin_n render_v to_o god_n than_o at_o their_o own_o service_n and_o that_o great_a difference_n which_o a_o angel_n see_v between_o himself_o and_o a_o seraphin_n do_v not_o raise_v in_o he_o the_o least_o desire_n to_o be_v a_o seraphin_n and_o his_o joy_n be_v great_a in_o that_o the_o divine_a will_n have_v make_v he_o only_o in_o the_o order_n of_o angel_n thus_o it_o ought_v to_o be_v with_o holy_a soul_n on_o earth_n who_o participate_v of_o one_o another_o good_a be_v content_a with_o the_o grace_n god_n bestow_v upon_o they_o and_o see_v no_o good_a disposition_n in_o themselves_o or_o other_o which_o do_v not_o comfort_v they_o o_o what_o profound_a peace_n be_v here_o there_o be_v but_o little_a difference_n to_o be_v in_o the_o state_n of_o blessedness_n or_o in_o a_o perfect_a abandon_v to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n because_o there_o be_v nothing_o can_v afflict_v such_o a_o soul_n and_o she_o can_v want_v nothing_o that_o content_v the_o heart_n great_a saint_n do_v not_o wait_v for_o paradise_n with_o impatience_n have_v in_o a_o manner_n find_v it_o upon_o earth_n by_o a_o perfect_a abandon_v to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n o_o holy_a virgin_n how_o be_v you_o content_a that_o your_o son_n shall_v ascend_v into_o heaven_n without_o your_o company_n have_v not_o you_o as_o much_o right_a to_o follow_v he_o as_o the_o holy_a father_n detain_v in_o limbo_n they_o be_v his_o servant_n only_o but_o you_o his_o mother_n also_o and_o yet_o you_o remain_v upon_o earth_n to_o partake_v of_o misery_n and_o they_o mount_v to_o heaven_n to_o possess_v joy_n eternal_a and_o a_o crown_n of_o glory_n how_o different_a be_v this_o distribution_n your_o own_o dear_a son_n holy_a virgin_n vouchsafe_v to_o go_v to_o limbo_n to_o assist_v the_o holy_a father_n and_o carry_v they_o from_o thence_o with_o he_o and_o you_o who_o be_v so_o near_o he_o who_o have_v serve_v and_o accompany_v he_o during_o his_o mortal_a life_n even_o in_o his_o passion_n and_o ignominy_n now_o he_o be_v full_a of_o glory_n leave_v you_o here_o and_o what_o i_o more_o admire_v you_o amorous_o acquiesce_v in_o this_o abandon_v and_o be_v content_a to_o want_v his_o corporal_a presence_n with_o spiritual_a joy_n o_o what_o marvel_n do_v pass_v in_o your_o soul_n o_o admirable_a mother_n which_o transcend_v our_o understanding_n all_o that_o we_o can_v discover_v be_v that_o you_o be_v as_o well_o content_a with_o the_o privation_n as_o presence_n of_o jesus_n to_o remain_v in_o jerusalem_n among_o his_o crucifyer_n as_o the_o company_n of_o angel_n who_o sing_v his_o praise_n when_o it_o be_v the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n and_o the_o eternal_a father_n have_v so_o ordain_v o_o my_o soul_n when_o shall_v thou_o be_v perfect_o abandon_v to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n do_v thou_o find_v thyself_o as_o equal_o content_a in_o privation_n as_o enjoyment_n when_o will_v thou_o be_v satisfy_v with_o all_o event_n dis-engaged_n whole_o from_o what_o be_v not_o god_n and_o value_v nothing_o but_o his_o good_a pleasure_n see_v that_o the_o mother_n of_o god_n be_v content_a to_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o visible_a presence_n of_o jesus_n because_o he_o will_v have_v it_o so_o ought_v not_o thou_o to_o desire_v sole_o the_o will_n of_o god_n with_o a_o indifferency_n to_o all_o thing_n else_o if_o thou_o may_v choose_v thou_o ought_v rather_o to_o embrace_v desolation_n than_o consolation_n neglect_v and_o contempt_n than_o honour_n and_o endearment_n see_v jesus_n and_o mary_n have_v most_o love_v a_o suffer_a life_n but_o this_o perfect_a abandon_v this_o holy_a indifferency_n to_o any_o state_n this_o union_n with_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n be_v yet_o a_o mine_n of_o great_a treasure_n it_o be_v the_o sublimest_n pure_a perfect_a disposition_n that_o can_v be_v in_o the_o soul_n it_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o other_o disposition_n and_o they_o without_o it_o be_v of_o no_o value_n yea_o in_o some_o sort_n be_v but_o imperfection_n contemplation_n a_o desire_n to_o be_v charitable_a a_o will_v to_o help_v our_o neighbour_n in_o spiritual_a thing_n be_v good_a and_o holy_a disposition_n however_o god_n do_v not_o always_o require_v these_o of_o we_o when_o god_n be_v please_v to_o leave_v a_o soul_n in_o aridity_n poor_a and_o desolate_a she_o will_v be_v unfaithful_a if_o then_o she_o shall_v attempt_v such_o matter_n but_o union_n to_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n can_v never_o lead_v we_o to_o imperfection_n but_o always_o elevate_v we_o in_o grace_n and_o therefore_o aught_o to_o be_v permanent_a in_o we_o when_o a_o soul_n have_v lose_v all_o she_o may_v believe_v she_o have_v lose_v nothing_o so_o that_o she_o lose_v not_o this_o disposition_n of_o union_n with_o the_o will_n of_o god_n which_o indeed_o can_v be_v lose_v if_o our_o heart_n be_v elevate_v above_o all_o earthly_a thing_n such_o a_o soul_n can_v say_v true_o with_o some_o great_a saint_n deus_fw-la meus_fw-la &_o omne_fw-la o_o my_o god_n you_o be_v my_o all_o in_o possess_v you_o i_o have_v all_o thing_n else_o how_o ignorant_a be_v we_o in_o complain_v of_o the_o loss_n of_o whatever_o this_o world_n afford_v see_v the_o loss_n of_o they_o if_o we_o be_v not_o our_o own_o enemy_n may_v make_v we_o find_v a_o more_o pure_a union_n with_o god_n good_a pleasure_n for_o we_o never_o advance_v more_o in_o virtue_n than_o in_o a_o state_n of_o denudation_n and_o if_o we_o desire_v nothing_o but_o the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o be_v content_a with_o that_o whatever_o it_o be_v we_o can_v want_v no_o disposition_n to_o perfection_n every_o state_n every_o gracious_a disposition_n have_v its_o proper_a worth_n they_o be_v good_a and_o please_a and_o aught_o to_o be_v value_v though_o some_o have_v more_o excellency_n in_o themselves_o than_o other_o but_o we_o must_v be_v content_a with_o those_o god_n be_v please_v to_o vouchsafe_v we_o in_o peace_n submission_n humility_n and_o indifferency_n to_o every_o state_n repose_v ourselves_o in_o the_o will_n of_o god_n as_o in_o our_o centre_n a_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n somewhat_o approach_v to_o the_o peace_n and_o felicity_n of_o the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n chap._n xv._o how_o the_o beauty_n that_o be_v in_o the_o order_n of_o god_n content_v a_o soul_n i_o never_o yet_o have_v well_o understand_v this_o verity_n so_o often_o repeat_v not_o one_o hair_n of_o your_o head_n shall_v fall_v to_o the_o ground_n without_o the_o will_n of_o your_o heavenly_a father_n the_o clear_a and_o full_a understanding_n of_o which_o will_v make_v a_o soul_n happy_a on_o earth_n and_o the_o cross_n which_o before_o do_v afflict_v her_o spirit_n will_v be_v a_o joy_n unto_o she_o and_o cordial_a comfort_n for_o than_o she_o taste_v the_o wonderful_a sweetness_n contain_v in_o the_o order_n of_o god_n to_o bring_v she_o to_o happiness_n so_o that_o paradise_n without_o this_o order_n will_v be_v as_o a_o hell_n unto_o she_o and_o to_o be_v in_o a_o suffer_a condition_n with_o this_o order_n will_v become_v a_o paradise_n the_o order_n
which_o the_o world_n will_v take_v from_o you_o against_o my_o will_n o_o how_o miserable_a be_o i_o if_o i_o set_v my_o affection_n on_o any_o thing_n beside_o you_o know_v that_o this_o be_v my_o duty_n and_o my_o happiness_n o_o my_o god_n from_o this_o moment_n i_o for_o ever_o forbid_v any_o creature_n to_o possess_v my_o heart_n hark_v hither_o my_o will_n i_o now_o give_v thou_o this_o express_a command_n that_o thou_o open_v not_o the_o door_n of_o my_o heart_n but_o to_o my_o well-beloved_a who_o infinite_a love_n have_v prevent_v we_o from_o all_o eternity_n the_o six_o day_n the_o justice_n of_o god_n to_o take_v a_o prospect_n of_o the_o divine_a justice_n be_v not_o less_o please_v to_o good_a man_n nor_o less_o admirable_a thou_o will_v see_v it_o o_o my_o soul_n govern_v the_o whole_a universe_n the_o throne_n of_o this_o divine_a justice_n be_v establish_v in_o heaven_n the_o arrest_n be_v pronounce_v on_o earth_n and_o the_o execution_n thereof_o in_o the_o region_n of_o darkness_n it_o be_v divine_a justice_n that_o set_v a_o crown_n upon_o heir_n head_n who_o have_v fight_v the_o battle_n of_o the_o lord_n of_o host_n with_o courage_n and_o fidelity_n and_o for_o these_o momentary_a and_o light_a affliction_n reward_v they_o with_o a_o eternal_a weight_n of_o glory_n o_o justice_n crown_v and_o glorify_v we_o how_o lovely_a be_v thou_o it_o be_v divine_a justice_n that_o thunder_v commination_n against_o sinner_n on_o earth_n to_o bring_v they_o to_o repentance_n by_o the_o terror_n of_o everlasting_a suffering_n and_o sometime_o chastise_v they_o with_o temporal_a affliction_n that_o they_o may_v not_o be_v torment_v to_o all_o eternity_n o_o amiable_a justice_n that_o treat_v so_o here_o poor_a sinner_n as_o to_o make_v they_o penitent_n and_o not_o miserable_a but_o o_o how_o terrible_a be_v the_o divine_a justice_n which_o in_o hatred_n of_o sin_n do_v punish_v eternal_o those_o who_o will_v not_o be_v bring_v to_o any_o amendment_n o_o how_o do_v a_o severe_a but_o just_a sentence_n condemn_v such_o to_o everlasting_a flame_n always_o devour_v and_o never_o consume_a they_o which_o the_o breath_n of_o god_n anger_n have_v kindle_v and_o shall_v never_o be_v extinguish_v o_o my_o god_n you_o do_v not_o spare_v your_o own_o son_n take_v our_o sin_n upon_o he_o to_o show_v we_o the_o better_a how_o to_o detest_v sin_n o_o who_o can_v but_o tremble_v consider_v your_o severity_n o_o who_o dare_v provoke_v the_o almighty_a to_o anger_v quis_fw-la novit_fw-la potestatem_fw-la irae_fw-la tuus_fw-la o_o my_o god_n i_o do_v consider_v this_o and_o fly_v for_o refuge_n to_o your_o mercy_n the_o seven_o day_n the_o mercy_n of_o god_n o_o divine_a mercy_n how_o do_v thou_o ravish_v my_o heart_n it_o be_v to_o thou_o my_o soul_n will_v sing_v eternal_o miserecordias_fw-la domini_fw-la in_o aeternum_fw-la cantabo_fw-la in_o my_o retire_a thought_n i_o look_v upon_o this_o world_n as_o a_o great_a hospital_n fill_v with_o some_o sick_a some_o maim_a some_o lame_a some_o blind_a some_o languish_v some_o incurable_a and_o divine_a mercy_n go_v a_o visit_n of_o they_o these_o she_o encourage_v those_o she_o comfort_v bind_v up_o the_o wound_n of_o other_o and_z offers_z remedy_n proper_a to_o each_o misery_n not_o absolute_o abandon_v any_o one_o though_o never_o in_o so_o desperate_a a_o condition_n o_o amiable_a mercy_n of_o our_o god_n into_o what_o corner_n of_o the_o world_n do_v not_o thou_o go_v to_o exercise_v thy_o goodness_n be_v there_o any_o miserable_a son_n of_o adam_n who_o have_v not_o taste_v the_o sweet_n of_o comfort_n who_o ever_o make_v his_o address_n to_o thou_o that_o have_v not_o find_v most_o tender_a compassion_n in_o thy_o bosom_n o_o my_o soul_n what_o must_v we_o pant_v after_o but_o the_o more_o than_o material_a embrace_n of_o this_o adorable_a mercy_n in_o what_o can_v thou_o put_v thy_o hope_n and_o confidence_n except_o in_o the_o source_n of_o this_o inexhaustible_a goodness_n the_o whole_a world_n be_v full_a of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n and_o will_v thou_o o_o my_o soul_n afflict_v thyself_o and_o be_v discourage_v with_o temporal_a misery_n and_o momentary_a suffering_n it_o be_v the_o work_n of_o mercy_n thus_o to_o punish_v thou_o do_v not_o the_o suffering_n of_o this_o life_n work_n for_o we_o a_o far_o more_o eternal_a weight_n of_o glory_n be_v thou_o o_o my_o soul_n terrify_v with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o thy_o sin_n consider_v god_n be_v a_o god_n of_o infinite_a mercy_n and_o desire_v not_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n he_o who_o refuse_v to_o throw_v himself_o into_o the_o arm_n of_o god_n mercy_n be_v ignorant_a or_o else_o lay_n not_o to_o heart_n that_o mercy_n attend_v the_o great_a sinner_n to_o the_o last_o moment_n of_o life_n for_o their_o conversion_n miserecordia_fw-la tua_fw-la subsequetur_fw-la i_o omnibus_fw-la diebus_fw-la aquavitae_fw-la meae_fw-la o_o my_o god_n as_o your_o mercy_n have_v prevent_v i_o so_o grant_v that_o it_o may_v follow_v i_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n soli_fw-la deo_fw-la sit_fw-la gloria_fw-la the_o end_n of_o the_o three_o book_n book_n iv_o of_o solitude_n and_o the_o practice_n of_o two_o excellent_a retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n chap._n i._o of_o the_o beauty_n of_o christian_a solitude_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v a_o esteem_n of_o all_o sort_n of_o profession_n whereof_o god_n be_v the_o author_n who_o though_o he_o be_v but_o one_o do_v nevertheless_o afford_v to_o his_o church_n different_a state_n of_o live_v it_o concern_v we_o therefore_o to_o think_v very_o honourable_o of_o they_o all_o and_o manifest_a as_o much_o by_o our_o word_n but_o to_o betake_v ourselves_o only_o to_o what_o god_n call_v we_o the_o excellency_n of_o other_o way_n ought_v not_o to_o withdraw_v we_o from_o our_o proper_a vocation_n a_o soul_n then_o may_v delight_v herself_o in_o behold_v the_o church_n as_o a_o most_o beautiful_a meadow_n replenish_v with_o great_a variety_n of_o flower_n of_o singular_a virtue_n and_o so_o take_v complacency_n in_o all_o state_n of_o life_n to_o apply_v herself_o only_o to_o that_o which_o she_o have_v a_o call_n from_o heaven_n and_o this_o also_o because_o god_n require_v it_o from_o she_o a_o solitary_a retire_a life_n be_v so_o beautiful_a and_o have_v such_o charm_a attractive_n that_o when_o the_o soul_n have_v once_o experience_n of_o it_o she_o find_v there_o her_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n be_v to_o take_v a_o farewell_n of_o one_o of_o my_o friend_n who_o be_v return_v home_o and_o have_v part_v with_o he_o this_o thought_n forthwith_o strong_o cease_v my_o imagination_n alas_o my_o god_n when_o shall_v i_o return_v home_o to_o myself_o that_o be_v to_o you_o see_v your_o goodness_n be_v more_o manifest_a in_o afford_v i_o a_o place_n in_o the_o idea_n of_o your_o understanding_n from_o all_o eternity_n before_o time_n give_v i_o a_o existence_n among_o create_a entity_n now_o i_o be_o your_o creature_n let_v i_o consider_v myself_o daily_o as_o in_o you_o who_o be_v my_o inheritance_n and_o everlasting_a possession_n to_o be_v be_v at_o home_n o_o my_o soul_n be_v not_o to_o be_v with_o thyself_o but_o with_o god_n thy_o creator_n o_o how_o great_a be_v the_o blindness_n of_o man_n not_o to_o understand_v that_o they_o have_v no_o other_o country_n but_o the_o divinity_n from_o whence_o they_o proceed_v by_o their_o creation_n inconsiderate_a creature_n whether_o be_v you_o go_v for_o my_o part_n i_o will_v return_v home_o to_o the_o fountain_n of_o my_o be_v my_o true_a home_n who_o be_v great_a beautiful_a admirable_a eternal_a and_o incomprehensible_a o_o what_o joy_n be_v it_o to_o consider_v that_o my_o true_a home_n be_v such_o as_o he_o be_v be_v it_o possible_a o_o my_o god_n that_o you_o be_v the_o home_n and_o centre_n of_o my_o soul_n why_o do_v we_o not_o ready_o go_v out_o from_o the_o clog_a crowd_n of_o creature_n where_o we_o be_v in_o perpetual_a banishment_n to_o return_v to_o our_o home_n the_o bosom_n of_o our_o creator_n what_o can_v i_o desire_v in_o heaven_n or_o in_o earth_n beside_o you_o my_o portion_n and_o inheritance_n for_o ever_o comfort_v thyself_o o_o my_o soul_n consider_v that_o thou_o shall_v return_v to_o the_o divinity_n thy_o glorious_a home_n and_o in_o the_o interim_n rest_v content_a with_o jesus_n thy_o crucify_a home_n and_o repose_v o_o how_o amiable_a also_o how_o great_a and_o admirable_a be_v jesus_n crucify_v my_o soul_n can_v find_v no_o peace_n but_o by_o rest_v in_o he_o where_o nature_n taste_v a_o bitterness_n a_o thousand_o time_n more_o sweet_a than_o all_o worldly_a delicacy_n without_o he_o all_o other_o pleasure_n be_v but_o dream_a fancy_n o_o jesus_n crucify_v the_o world_n know_v not_o your_o sweet_n the_o beauty_n of_o your_o suffering_n be_v hide_v from_o their_o sight_n they_o
behold_v you_o on_o the_o cross_n with_o carnal_a eye_n else_o next_o to_o the_o divinity_n they_o will_v discover_v nothing_o more_o sweet_a and_o lovely_a do_v not_o therefore_o stay_v i_o up_o with_o flower_n but_o with_o thorn_n do_v not_o encompass_v i_o with_o apple_n but_o with_o nail_n because_o i_o languish_v with_o love_n the_o beauty_n and_o sweet_n of_o jesus_n pierce_v my_o heart_n and_o i_o can_v suffer_v more_o than_o to_o be_v without_o suffer_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o my_o suffering_n and_o crucify_a jesus_n but_o some_o say_v to_o suffer_v much_o be_v hurtful_a to_o we_o alas_o do_v we_o find_v it_o hurtful_a to_o we_o to_o love_v much_o wherefore_o will_v you_o that_o love_v crucify_a shall_v be_v more_o moderate_a than_o love-enjoying_a which_o too_o often_o weaken_v the_o soul_n and_o sometime_o wound_v we_o to_o death_n a_o too_o great_a solicitude_n about_o corporal_a health_n be_v a_o sign_n we_o do_v not_o take_v up_o our_o abode_n in_o the_o wound_n of_o jesus_n crucify_v we_o be_v never_o better_o than_o when_o sigh_v under_o the_o burden_n of_o the_o cross_n god_n behold_v himself_o take_v infinite_a delight_n in_o his_o own_o perfection_n out_o of_o himself_o he_o be_v alike_o please_v to_o see_v those_o perfection_n crown_v in_o his_o creature_n his_o mercy_n do_v triumph_n in_o the_o bless_a saint_n and_o angel_n and_o his_o justice_n in_o hell_n a_o soul_n introvert_v in_o solitude_n with_o god_n alone_o find_v sweetness_n unspeakable_a in_o consider_v these_o marvel_n she_o feel_v also_o a_o excessive_a joy_n to_o see_v that_o the_o travel_n and_o sigh_n and_o suffering_n and_o blood_n of_o jesus_n be_v crown_v with_o a_o glory_n by_o the_o elect_a on_o earth_n whether_o it_o be_v by_o suffering_n or_o enjoy_v when_o they_o conquer_v a_o temptation_n the_o blood_n of_o jesus_n be_v crown_v when_o they_o practise_v heroic_a act_n of_o virtue_n the_o blood_n of_o jesus_n be_v crown_v all_o glory_n be_v to_o he_o both_o in_o time_n and_o eternity_n o_fw-fr mortal_n come_v and_o see_v if_o there_o be_v any_o beauty_n goodness_n and_o perfection_n comparable_a to_o that_o of_o jesus_n our_o god_n and_o saviour_n o_o how_o lovely_a be_v he_o and_o yet_o how_o little_a be_v he_o belove_v how_o great_a and_o yet_o how_o despise_v how_o infinite_a in_o his_o perfection_n and_o yet_o how_o little_o know_v o_o the_o only_a desire_n of_o my_o soul_n discover_v yourself_o somewhat_o more_o clear_o to_o i_o that_o be_v ravish_v with_o your_o beauty_n i_o may_v be_v sole_o take_v up_o with_o your_o perfection_n shall_v any_o creature_n after_o this_o oblige_v i_o to_o regard_v it_o no_o my_o eye_n shall_v be_v fix_v on_o god_n alone_o farewell_n then_o poor_a creature_n i_o be_o above_o you_o you_o shall_v never_o more_o amuse_v i_o i_o leave_v you_o to_o place_v my_o thought_n on_o my_o well-beloved_a methinks_v i_o feel_v his_o powerful_a attract_v draw_v i_o out_o of_o myself_o to_o possess_v he_o alone_o my_o friend_n do_v not_o molest_v i_o any_o more_o leave_v i_o in_o myself_o to_o possess_v my_o god_n and_o admire_v his_o perfection_n you_o may_v serve_v he_o by_o help_v other_o but_o leave_v i_o to_o serve_v he_o in_o himself_o i_o desire_v none_o but_o he_o nor_o to_o be_v take_v up_o with_o any_o thing_n but_o he_o see_v he_o be_v please_v to_o let_v i_o know_v it_o be_v his_o pleasure_n farewell_o creature_n farewell_n friend_n farewell_n devotee_n farewell_n world_n i_o be_o go_v to_o god_n to_o unite_v myself_o unto_o he_o by_o a_o constant_a retreat_n that_o shall_v never_o suffer_v a_o separation_n chap._n ii_o of_o the_o necessity_n of_o solitude_n i_o be_o resolve_v on_o the_o vigil_n of_o all_o saint_n to_o mount_v up_o to_o heaven_n to_o congratulate_v their_o happiness_n and_o beg_v their_o charity_n for_o sure_o they_o will_v be_v very_o liberal_a on_o their_o general_a festival_n and_o my_o soul_n hope_n for_o great_a succour_n from_o they_o in_o her_o misery_n however_o i_o will_v chief_o solicit_v the_o bless_a hermit_n and_o solitary_a monk_n who_o habitation_n in_o this_o life_n be_v in_o desert_n and_o monastery_n i_o have_v a_o call_v from_o heaven_n to_o address_v myself_o to_o they_o to_o beg_v their_o intercession_n for_o some_o part_n of_o their_o spirit_n of_o introversion_n retirement_n from_o the_o world_n and_o interiour_n poverty_n which_o be_v the_o true_a life_n of_o holy_a recluse_n be_v in_o a_o profound_a solitude_n of_o soul_n by_o a_o denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n while_o their_o body_n inhabit_v the_o most_o secret_a desert_n great_a saint_n what_o do_v you_o here_o upon_o earth_n you_o labour_v not_o to_o help_v other_o be_v far_o remove_v from_o the_o company_n of_o man_n so_o that_o you_o seem_v to_o be_v but_o unprofitable_a servant_n alas_o how_o ill_o do_v sensual_a man_n judge_v of_o the_o interiour_n of_o saint_n i_o tell_v you_o these_o be_v the_o great_a servant_n of_o god_n who_o in_o their_o desert_n offer_v up_o continual_a sacrifice_n to_o the_o grandeur_n of_o a_o incomprehensible_a majesty_n by_o profound_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n and_o annihilation_n of_o themselves_o and_o be_v in_o a_o denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n their_o desire_n be_v for_o god_n and_o he_o alone_o this_o be_v the_o happy_a state_n this_o be_v the_o paradise_n my_o soul_n sigh_v after_o at_o present_a to_o live_v so_o sequester_v from_o creature_n as_o if_o i_o be_v in_o the_o desert_n of_o lybia_n good_a jesus_n there_o be_v nothing_o impossible_a to_o your_o grace_n grant_v i_o this_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n and_o if_o exterior_a poverty_n be_v necessary_a to_o possess_v this_o interiour_n whereof_o i_o speak_v make_v i_o as_o poor_a as_o job_n if_o my_o friend_n must_v leave_v i_o i_o will_v free_o part_v with_o they_o and_o be_v content_a to_o be_v forget_v in_o their_o affection_n for_o ever_o o_o my_o god_n estrange_v i_o from_o all_o creature_n give_v i_o that_o profound_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n which_o methinks_v i_o understand_v though_o i_o can_v express_v it_o thus_o dead_a to_o the_o world_n i_o shall_v enter_v into_o the_o joy_n of_o my_o saviour_n for_o there_o be_v no_o enjoy_n of_o god_n without_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o how_o shall_v i_o get_v this_o treasure_n who_o have_v the_o dominion_n of_o temporal_a possession_n i_o must_v either_o real_o quit_v they_o to_o gain_v this_o jewel_n or_o possess_v they_o as_o if_o i_o possess_v nothing_o the_o example_n of_o the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n afford_v i_o both_o comfort_n and_o satisfaction_n the_o saint_n be_v rich_a for_o they_o want_v nothing_o and_o notwithstanding_o they_o be_v poor_a in_o spirit_n because_o they_o continual_o annihilate_v all_o the_o riches_n of_o their_o glory_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o great_a god_n be_v ready_a to_o part_v with_o their_o felicity_n and_o to_o be_v annihilate_v if_o such_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n in_o this_o manner_n i_o must_v possess_v what_o i_o have_v be_v prepare_v to_o part_n with_o it_o when_o god_n will_v have_v it_o so_o i_o observe_v that_o for_o want_n of_o solitude_n the_o soul_n do_v not_o discern_v the_o more_o subtle_a working_n of_o god_n in_o her_o interior_a which_o afterward_o she_o discover_v by_o experience_n these_o be_v great_a grace_n but_o come_v to_o no_o effect_n for_o want_v of_o introversion_n and_o attention_n i_o know_v well_o enough_o that_o faith_n be_v sufficient_a to_o direct_v the_o soul_n to_o attain_v to_o the_o knowledge_n and_o love_n of_o her_o creator_n but_o it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o the_o god_n of_o love_n have_v more_o secret_a and_o in-time_n way_n wherewith_o the_o divine_a wisdom_n work_v the_o soul_n into_o a_o temper_n to_o make_v her_o sensible_a of_o his_o amorous_a embrace_n o_o my_o god_n how_o be_v you_o hide_v in_o the_o fund_z of_o our_o soul_n and_o you_o do_v not_o discover_v yourself_o to_o we_o except_v in_o a_o perfect_a solitude_n when_o we_o be_v out_o of_o the_o noise_n of_o creature_n god_n and_o the_o soul_n be_v alone_o together_o o_o poor_a mortal_n how_o long_o shall_v your_o heart_n hanker_v after_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o world_n turn_v yourselves_o perfect_o to_o god_n and_o see_v and_o taste_v how_o sweet_a he_o be_v happy_a be_v those_o moment_n although_o but_o short_a wherein_o we_o have_v a_o taste_n of_o the_o divine_a sweetness_n and_o partake_v of_o the_o effect_n of_o his_o sensible_a presence_n such_o a_o soul_n will_v find_v in_o herself_o a_o certain_a aversion_n and_o disgust_n of_o worldly_a vanity_n a_o desire_n to_o leave_v they_o a_o love_n of_o solitude_n and_o silence_n to_o be_v the_o more_o at_o liberty_n to_o attend_v to_o god_n service_n all_o other_o thing_n now_o appear_v to_o she_o but_o as_o dross_n and_o dung_n and_o
have_v inflame_v affection_n for_o you_o be_v my_o great_a work_n but_o to_o bring_v my_o heart_n to_o such_o a_o temper_n it_o must_v become_v like_o dry_a wood_n be_v empty_v of_o humidity_n by_o a_o separation_n from_o all_o creature_n this_o desire_n of_o inflame_a affection_n put_v i_o upon_o purify_n my_o heart_n and_o the_o expectation_n of_o enjoyment_n make_v i_o eager_a in_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n by_o embrace_v evangelical_n counsel_n and_o maxim_n of_o christianity_n see_v poverty_n contempt_n and_o cross_n increase_v the_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n they_o be_v welcome_a to_o i_o for_o i_o ardent_o desire_v to_o see_v they_o arise_v to_o their_o high_a elevation_n i_o know_v a_o good_a religious_a man_n who_o in_o his_o solitude_n be_v in_o continual_a prayer_n not_o only_o by_o the_o elevation_n of_o his_o spirit_n but_o by_o union_n with_o god_n in_o a_o wonderful_a manner_n my_o soul_n find_v great_a contentment_n in_o his_o discourse_n and_o conversation_n in_o sickness_n his_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n be_v not_o so_o vigorous_a nor_o his_o peace_n of_o soul_n so_o savorous_a though_o always_o great_a worldly_n conversation_n seem_v but_o as_o dream_n to_o he_o and_o when_o past_a they_o do_v only_o leave_v confuse_v idea_n in_o his_o memory_n a_o bless_a man_n doubtless_o while_o here_o on_o earth_n and_o converse_v with_o i_o in_o simplicity_n of_o heart_n by_o obedience_n he_o declare_v to_o i_o what_o wonderful_a enjoyment_n god_n be_v please_v to_o vouchsafe_v unto_o he_o he_o tell_v i_o that_o to_o attain_v purity_n of_o heart_n we_o must_v divest_v ourselves_o of_o all_o affection_n to_o creature_n and_o not_o satisfy_v our_o natural_a desire_n which_o be_v a_o great_a mortification_n when_o it_o be_v continual_a in_o sickness_n we_o must_v stand_v very_o much_o upon_o our_o guard_n for_o we_o easy_o relax_v and_o yield_v too_o much_o to_o nature_n not_o to_o correspond_v to_o a_o know_a inspiration_n be_v gross_a infidelity_n and_o much_o retard_v our_o advancement_n in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n a_o principal_a point_n of_o devotion_n be_v by_o a_o punctual_a fidelity_n to_o omit_v no_o occasion_n to_o practise_v virtue_n whether_o of_o humility_n patience_n abjection_n or_o any_o other_o this_o contemplative_a tell_v i_o that_o the_o choice_a effect_n wrought_v in_o we_o by_o revelation_n or_o vision_n be_v this_o punctual_a fidelity_n to_o god_n call_v it_o be_v a_o affair_n will_v take_v up_o the_o whole_a soul_n to_o free_v herself_o from_o any_o engagement_n with_o creature_n and_o conquer_v she_o own_o natural_a inclination_n that_o she_o may_v enter_v into_o the_o state_n of_o jesus_n crucify_v and_o into_o his_o way_n with_o his_o spirit_n that_o be_v with_o his_o intention_n and_o disposition_n let_v we_o o_o my_o soul_n in_o the_o profound_a silence_n of_o our_o solitude_n often_o say_v to_o jesus_n o_o divine_a jesus_n despise_v for_o i_o contemptible_a poor_a for_o i_o a_o poor_a creature_n annihilate_v for_o i_o a_o mere_a nothing_o term_n which_o in_o some_o sort_n express_v the_o perfect_a union_n that_o the_o soul_n ought_v to_o have_v with_o jesus_n crucify_a and_o this_o union_n be_v the_o grand_a occupation_n of_o solitary_n in_o the_o court_n of_o king_n the_o cook_n and_o baker_n and_o other_o mean_a officer_n labour_v more_o than_o a_o gentleman_n of_o the_o chamber_n who_o have_v little_a to_o do_v but_o to_o attend_v his_o majesty_n as_o a_o companion_n rathen_a than_o a_o servant_n a_o favourite_n have_v yet_o less_o employ_v be_v admit_v into_o his_o prince_n closet_n to_o converse_v free_o with_o he_o and_o entertain_v each_o other_o with_o mutual_a caress_n in_o the_o house_n of_o god_n they_o who_o be_v appoint_v most_o for_o action_n be_v not_o the_o great_a favourite_n those_o to_o who_o god_n vouchsase_v extraordinary_a visit_n in_o contemplation_n labour_v less_o and_o yet_o be_v more_o accept_v by_o he_o it_o be_v not_o for_o we_o to_o apply_v ourselves_o too_o much_o to_o exterior_a action_n of_o charity_n but_o to_o correspond_v to_o god_n holy_a inspiration_n if_o he_o call_v we_o to_o solitude_n to_o attend_v on_o himself_o alone_o out_o of_o the_o noise_n of_o creature_n be_v it_o not_o great_a pity_n that_o temporal_a affair_n shall_v take_v up_o the_o best_a day_n of_o our_o year_n and_o the_o choice_a hour_n of_o our_o day_n leave_v we_o little_a time_n in_o comparison_n to_o apply_v ourselves_o to_o the_o one_o thing_n necessary_a the_o work_n of_o our_o eternal_a salvation_n it_o will_v be_v better_o for_o we_o if_o we_o will_v allot_v more_o time_n to_o our_o holy_a retirement_n to_o converse_v with_o god_n by_o prayer_n and_o contemplation_n and_o begin_v on_o earth_n what_o we_o must_v continue_v without_o end_n in_o ever_o bless_a eternity_n chap._n v._o how_o we_o may_v put_v our_o soul_n and_o sense_n into_o a_o solitude_n let_v we_o not_o deceive_v ourselves_o in_o be_v content_a to_o receive_v the_o seed_n of_o divine_a inspiration_n without_o bring_v forth_o any_o fruit_n according_a to_o the_o design_n of_o god_n if_o we_o have_v a_o discern_a spirit_n in_o the_o way_n of_o grace_n we_o shall_v soon_o discover_v that_o this_o our_o only_a affair_n and_o all_o the_o rest_n be_v but_o amusement_n and_o folly_n to_o nourish_v this_o divine_a seed_n in_o we_o we_o must_v shun_v the_o conversation_n of_o worldly_a wiseman_n who_o be_v guide_v only_o by_o carnal_a prudence_n and_o so_o be_v stranger_n to_o the_o proceeding_n of_o grace_n leave_v in_o we_o more_o or_o less_o by_o their_o discourse_n some_o impression_n of_o their_o ill_a opinion_n which_o will_v retard_v our_o advancement_n in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n to_o put_v the_o soul_n into_o solitude_n we_o must_v retire_v from_o all_o creature_n and_o put_v ourselves_o absolute_o in_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n to_o do_v with_o we_o what_o he_o please_v and_o apply_v ourselves_o to_o he_o alone_o with_o all_o possible_a endeavour_n to_o be_v faithful_a herein_o we_o must_v resolve_v to_o suffer_v much_o for_o we_o can_v abide_v peaceable_o in_o this_o divine_a hermitage_n without_o leave_v parent_n friend_n worldly_a entertainment_n affair_n and_o to_o suffer_v almost_o a_o continual_a persecution_n on_o every_o side_n for_o one_o tell_v you_o that_o it_o be_v a_o hypocritical_a and_o unprofitable_a life_n another_o that_o so_o much_o solitude_n can_v be_v good_a in_o that_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v some_o charity_n for_o our_o neighbour_n but_o let_v they_o talk_v on_o every_o one_o be_v to_o follow_v his_o own_o work_n and_o the_o will_n of_o god_n according_a to_o their_o vocation_n the_o best_a and_o most_o noble_a employment_n in_o the_o world_n be_v to_o converse_v with_o god_n and_o do_v that_o on_o earth_n which_o the_o saint_n and_o angel_n do_v in_o heaven_n how_o the_o devil_n persecute_v a_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n under_o fair_a pretence_n but_o she_o must_v stop_v her_o ear_n and_o quit_v all_o to_o adhere_v to_o her_o sovereign_a good_a when_o he_o vouchsafe_v to_o call_v she_o to_o attend_v on_o he_o alone_o when_o god_n say_v he_o will_v lead_v a_o soul_n into_o a_o solitude_n ducam_fw-la eam_fw-la in_o solitudinem_fw-la it_o be_v a_o singular_a mercy_n for_o we_o shall_v find_v but_o few_o in_o the_o world_n prepare_v for_o the_o cross_n and_o resolve_v to_o go_v through_o all_o the_o difficulty_n of_o a_o life_n so_o supernatural_a a_o soul_n that_o be_v in_o such_o a_o happy_a disposition_n will_v live_v solitary_a not_o trouble_v herself_o with_o the_o cry_n of_o other_o when_o god_n once_o speak_v powerful_o to_o the_o heart_n it_o will_v make_v more_o impression_n on_o we_o than_o all_o the_o noise_n of_o the_o world_n it_o come_v into_o my_o mind_n that_o to_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o call_v of_o god_n which_o i_o have_v to_o solitude_n require_v of_o i_o to_o spend_v six_o hour_n a_o day_n in_o prayer_n and_o to_o comply_v therewith_o to_o retire_v myself_o about_o five_o in_o the_o afternoon_n and_o eat_v little_a at_o night_n methinks_v also_o i_o ought_v to_o observe_v a_o general_a solitude_n not_o only_o in_o relation_n to_o my_o soul_n but_o to_o my_o interiour_n and_o exterior_a sense_n yea_o when_o i_o shall_v converse_v with_o my_o friend_n and_o behold_v she_o i_o conceive_v this_o may_v be_v do_v sacred_a solitude_n consist_v in_o be_v alone_o with_o god_n in_o a_o vacancy_n from_o creature_n and_o whatevet_n be_v not_o god_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o then_o when_o we_o discourse_v of_o god_n and_o his_o affair_n we_o make_v our_o tongue_n solitary_a and_o so_o speak_v like_o a_o hermit_n when_o we_o will_v not_o give_v ear_n to_o any_o but_o divine_a discourse_n our_o ear_n turn_v hermit_n when_o we_o will_v not_o allow_v our_o eye_n any_o object_n but_o such_o as_o be_v please_v to_o god_n we_o put_v they_o into_o
co-operation_n o_o how_o do_v i_o discover_v clear_o the_o abuse_n most_o man_n commit_v by_o profane_v the_o faculty_n of_o their_o soul_n in_o employ_v they_o about_o vanity_n and_o unprofitable_a curiosity_n as_o be_v for_o the_o most_o part_n our_o worldly_a affair_n we_o see_v not_o except_v in_o a_o retreat_n and_o solitude_n how_o worldly_a business_n hinder_v the_o actual_a knowledge_n and_o love_n of_o god_n wherein_o consist_v the_o true_a life_n of_o our_o soul_n o_o the_o happy_a condition_n of_o true_a solitary_n o_o how_o great_a wisdom_n be_v it_o to_o free_v ourselves_o from_o worldly_a affair_n the_o better_a to_o mind_v the_o one_o thing_n necessary_a that_o be_v to_o live_v a_o life_n divine_a for_o which_o we_o be_v create_v let_v we_o o_o my_o soul_n fly_v from_o distraction_n and_o the_o amusement_n of_o affair_n which_o engage_v we_o in_o a_o thousand_o discourse_n vanity_n extravagancy_n and_o weakness_n let_v we_o be_v faithful_a o_o my_o soul_n and_o give_v ourselves_o up_o whole_o to_o god_n that_o we_o may_v live_v up_o to_o the_o end_n of_o our_o creation_n in_o my_o three_o prayer_n this_o truth_n make_v deep_a impression_n on_o i_o that_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n make_v man_n after_o the_o image_n of_o god_n which_o afterward_o be_v disfigure_v by_o sin_n the_o same_o adorable_a trinity_n vouchsafe_v to_o imprint_v it_o anew_o and_o more_o exact_o in_o our_o holy_a baptism_n when_o we_o be_v baptise_a in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o father_n and_o of_o the_o son_n and_o of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n we_o owe_v our_o christianity_n to_o this_o impression_n of_o the_o three_o divine_a person_n we_o enter_v not_o into_o the_o church_n but_o by_o this_o great_a and_o ineffable_a mystery_n which_o be_v the_o foundation_n of_o our_o catholic_n faith_n i_o do_v not_o see_v that_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n bring_v forth_o any_o thing_n create_v of_o a_o more_o noble_a production_n than_o a_o christian_a the_o whole_a machine_n of_o the_o world_n be_v less_o considerable_a for_o the_o order_n thereof_o be_v only_o natural_a but_o a_o christian_a be_v a_o supernatural_a work_n wherein_o it_o seem_v the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n take_v delight_n to_o be_v bear_v as_o it_o be_v anew_o by_o imprint_v his_o image_n in_o our_o soul_n shall_v we_o deface_v this_o image_n to_o make_v our_o soul_n deform_v by_o some_o monstruous_a resemblance_n yet_o this_o be_v that_o we_o do_v o_o my_o soul_n when_o instead_o of_o careful_o preserve_v the_o image_n of_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n imprint_v on_o we_o by_o baptism_n not_o consider_v the_o great_a honour_n and_o happiness_n we_o receive_v thereby_o we_o deform_v ourselves_o by_o sin_n and_o deface_v this_o image_n with_o unclean_a resemblance_n o_o my_o soul_n when_o shall_v we_o be_v purify_v fly_v from_o the_o world_n and_o betake_v thyself_o to_o a_o holy_a solitude_n for_o my_o four_o prayer_n god_n be_v please_v to_o inspire_v i_o with_o this_o thought_n that_o my_o conversation_n ought_v to_o be_v in_o heaven_n already_o that_o be_v in_o god_n for_o it_o be_v god_n be_v our_o heaven_n and_o it_o be_v in_o he_o i_o ought_v to_o take_v up_o my_o mansion_n see_v i_o be_v create_v to_o consider_v his_o eternal_a and_o temporal_a affair_n and_o to_o contemplate_v his_o infinite_a perfection_n i_o call_v the_o eternal_a affair_n of_o god_n his_o divine_a interiour_n operation_n the_o generation_n of_o the_o eternal_a word_n the_o procession_n of_o the_o holy_a spirit_n and_o the_o infinite_a complacency_n which_o he_o take_v in_o his_o incomprehensible_a beauty_n and_o grandeur_n the_o eternal_a design_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o word_n make_v flesh_n which_o be_v to_o be_v accomplish_v in_o the_o fullness_n of_o time_n in_o which_o however_o he_o take_v a_o infinite_a satisfaction_n from_o all_o eternity_n i_o call_v the_o temporal_a affair_n of_o god_n the_o execution_n of_o his_o divine_a decree_n touch_v the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n and_o passion_n of_o jesus_n christ_n the_o creation_n of_o the_o world_n the_o justification_n and_o reprobation_n of_o man_n god_n before_o all_o time_n have_v infinite_a sally_n in_o himself_o by_o the_o production_n of_o the_o son_n and_o holy_a spirit_n have_v in_o time_n have_v sally_n out_o of_o himself_o full_a of_o wonder_n and_o admiration_n o_o my_o god_n how_o a_o soul_n enlighten_v from_o heaven_n find_v great_a joy_n and_o content_v in_o contemplate_v these_o eternal_a and_o temporal_a verity_n out_o of_o which_o all_o be_v but_o deceit_n and_o vanity_n but_o how_o low_o spirit_v be_v they_o who_o never_o attempt_v the_o knowledge_n of_o these_o truth_n for_o my_o part_n i_o will_v never_o more_o stand_v in_o admiration_n to_o see_v the_o holy_a hermit_n forsake_v the_o world_n with_o intention_n never_o more_o to_o return_v to_o earthly_a matter_n when_o once_o they_o have_v discover_v the_o truth_n and_o beauty_n of_o thing_n eternal_a and_o divine_a o_o my_o god_n make_v i_o dead_a to_o the_o world_n that_o i_o may_v live_v to_o you_o alone_o and_o my_o thought_n may_v be_v only_o take_v up_o with_o your_o perfection_n second_o day_n behold_v what_o sudden_o come_v into_o my_o mind_n about_o this_o great_a and_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n i_o be_o wonderful_o content_a to_o be_v in_o a_o state_n of_o inability_n to_o understand_v it_o in_o that_o the_o power_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v lead_v captive_a by_o faith_n surround_v with_o cloud_n this_o inability_n this_o obscurity_n this_o captivity_n be_v please_v to_o i_o and_o for_o the_o future_a i_o will_v believe_v that_o there_o be_v no_o better_a way_n upon_o earth_n to_o please_v god_n then_o by_o submit_v our_o understanding_n and_o will_n to_o his_o revelation_n yea_o i_o do_v more_o value_v this_o captivity_n to_o faith_n in_o believe_v what_o i_o see_v not_o than_o all_o splendour_n imaginable_a how_o be_v this_o submission_n of_o our_o spirit_n natural_o curious_a and_o inquisitive_a please_v to_o god_n how_o much_o hereby_o do_v we_o honour_v and_o glorify_v he_o o_o glorious_a saint_n with_o all_o due_a reverence_n i_o challenge_v you_o to_o be_v more_o in_o love_n with_o your_o eternal_a splendour_n than_o i_o be_o with_o these_o cloud_n of_o holy_a faith_n if_o you_o be_v content_a i_o be_o no_o less_o to_o be_v so_o happy_a as_o willing_o to_o captivate_v my_o understanding_n to_o the_o high_a mystery_n god_n have_v reveal_v and_o that_o which_o fill_v i_o with_o joy_n and_o make_v i_o happy_a before_o i_o come_v to_o heaven_n be_v to_o find_v my_o will_n in_o perfect_a submission_n to_o my_o god_n and_o to_o the_o mean_a creature_n for_o love_n of_o he_o o_o bless_a soul_n i_o be_o a_o little_a too_o bold_a with_o you_o yet_o i_o speak_v the_o truth_n and_o you_o well_o know_v it_o i_o aspire_v to_o perfection_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o this_o submission_n be_v the_o way_n to_o practice_v it_o a_o way_n sure_a and_o excellent_a in_o my_o second_o prayer_n i_o yet_o find_v my_o soul_n take_v up_o with_o the_o grandeur_n of_o this_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n and_o be_v almost_o lose_v in_o this_o ocean_n of_o infinite_a wonder_n be_v full_a of_o faith_n and_o sweetness_n at_o the_o sight_n of_o such_o adorable_a perfection_n though_o all_o surround_v with_o cloud_n of_o darkness_n for_o as_o soon_o as_o this_o mystery_n present_v itself_o to_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o soul_n her_o light_n be_v obscure_v and_o cast_v our_o spirit_n into_o a_o thick_a darkness_n which_o yet_o bring_v with_o it_o a_o light_n to_o see_v what_o reason_n can_v nox_fw-la illuminatio_fw-la mea_fw-la my_o night_n have_v some_o day_n and_o i_o perceive_v the_o infinite_a distance_n between_o the_o creator_n and_o his_o creature_n and_o be_v plunge_v into_o the_o abiss_n of_o my_o own_o nothingness_n i_o acknowledge_v o_o my_o god_n and_o adore_v your_o grandeur_n and_o perfection_n i_o admire_v i_o love_v i_o obey_v o_o my_o god_n i_o adore_v and_o believe_v steadfast_o what_o you_o be_v please_v to_o reveal_v to_o your_o church_n i_o neither_o know_v nor_o comprehend_v nor_o desire_v it_o but_o be_o content_a with_o my_o ignorance_n and_o submission_n let_v we_o o_o my_o soul_n abide_v as_o low_a and_o abject_a as_o grace_n can_v make_v we_o for_o nothing_o render_v we_o more_o please_v to_o god_n than_o profound_a humility_n and_o annihilation_n god_n who_o be_v infinite_o delight_v to_o dwell_v in_o his_o own_o grandeur_n be_v also_o well_o please_v to_o see_v a_o abject_a creature_n content_a with_o its_o own_o nothing_o it_o be_v a_o error_n in_o spirituality_n and_o savour_v of_o self-love_n to_o shun_v abjection_n under_o pretence_n to_o advance_v ourselves_o in_o divine_a love_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o comply_v with_o god_n will_n and_o march_v on_o in_o the_o way_n of_o abjection_n if_o god_n be_v please_v
to_o require_v it_o of_o we_o my_o three_o prayer_n pass_v on_o in_o these_o thought_n that_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n be_v eternal_o knowledge_n and_o love_v substantial_a my_o soul_n ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o produce_v in_o herself_o a_o actual_a knowledge_n and_o love_n of_o god_n the_o better_a to_o resemble_v this_o adorable_a trinity_n a_o soul_n in_o the_o state_n of_o contemplation_n render_v this_o honour_n to_o god_n in_o a_o more_o peculiar_a manner_n enjoy_v god_n by_o the_o gift_n of_o prayer_n in_o as_o transcendent_a a_o manner_n as_o mortality_n permit_v it_o be_v true_a the_o prospect_n i_o have_v of_o this_o divine_a life_n here_o below_o draws_z my_o soul_n powerful_o after_o it_o and_o i_o love_v it_o better_o than_o former_o but_o i_o see_v that_o to_o persevere_v therein_o we_o must_v be_v very_o poor_a in_o spirit_n that_o be_v not_o only_o free_a from_o exorbitant_a passion_n but_o all_o distract_n image_n which_o pass_v by_o the_o sense_n that_o be_v not_o mortify_v news_n attend_v with_o curiosity_n or_o the_o eye_n attach_v to_o sensible_a object_n or_o such_o like_a immortification_n fill_v the_o soul_n with_o unprofitable_a image_n which_o make_v her_o uncapable_a of_o divine_a impression_n by_o correspond_v to_o which_o we_o most_o benefit_n ourselves_o and_o most_o glorify_v god_n in_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o be_v take_v up_o with_o a_o view_n of_o those_o amorous_a complacency_n and_o those_o infinite_a joy_n wherewith_o the_o three_o divine_a person_n replenish_v the_o soul_n of_o the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o happiness_n of_o the_o saint_n be_v the_o clear_a vision_n of_o the_o ineffable_a mystery_n of_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n and_o to_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o that_o knowledge_n and_o love_n which_o be_v reciprocal_a among_o the_o divine_a person_n to_o see_v god_n clear_o be_v the_o beatifical_a vision_n alas_o how_o ought_v we_o to_o be_v humble_v to_o consider_v how_o infinite_o we_o fall_v short_a in_o our_o devotion_n of_o the_o continual_a hallelujah_n of_o the_o saint_n in_o glory_n yet_o this_o be_v the_o end_n of_o our_o creation_n and_o our_o hope_n be_v at_o last_o to_o bear_v they_o company_n o_o how_o this_o life_n be_v poor_a and_o miserable_a where_o all_o be_v vanity_n and_o vexation_n of_o spirit_n the_o view_n of_o my_o own_o weakness_n make_v i_o sensible_a that_o all_o i_o do_v for_o god_n be_v as_o nothing_o what_o shall_v i_o say_v at_o the_o sight_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o unworthiness_n i_o have_v nothing_o to_o say_v dear_a lord_n but_o that_o i_o merit_v eternal_a confusion_n which_o must_v needs_o fall_v upon_o i_o unless_o your_o goodness_n have_v pity_n on_o i_o according_a to_o the_o greatness_n of_o your_o mercy_n can_v we_o imagine_v we_o can_v do_v any_o thing_n too_o much_o for_o god_n it_o be_v for_o the_o glory_n of_o his_o bounty_n and_o goodness_n that_o he_o be_v please_v to_o accept_v of_o our_o small_a service_n and_o endeavour_n and_o reward_v they_o eternal_o o_o how_o great_a a_o truth_n be_v it_o that_o grace_n and_o glory_n be_v the_o effect_n of_o his_o pure_a goodness_n and_o mercy_n vouchsafe_v to_o we_o bless_a be_v his_o name_n to_o all_o eternity_n three_o day_n in_o my_o first_o prayer_n of_o this_o day_n i_o consider_v that_o the_o three_o divine_a person_n be_v happy_a in_o contemplation_n of_o themselves_o from_o all_o eternity_n when_o they_o create_v the_o world_n the_o preservation_n and_o government_n thereof_o do_v not_o at_o disturb_v their_o repose_n and_o felicity_n the_o father_n be_v the_o centre_n of_o the_o son_n and_o the_o father_n and_o the_o son_n be_v the_o centre_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n three_o in_o one_o and_o one_o in_o three_o infinite_o happy_a in_o each_o other_o before_o all_o time_n and_o shall_v be_v to_o all_o eternity_n o_o what_o ravish_v beauty_n do_v they_o behold_v in_o each_o other_o and_o what_o unspeakable_a delight_n do_v they_o take_v in_o their_o infinite_a perfection_n nothing_o without_o they_o can_v interrupt_v their_o joy_n or_o add_v to_o their_o happiness_n though_o true_a solitary_n who_o live_v the_o life_n of_o god_n in_o like_a manner_n repose_v only_o in_o he_o and_o be_v dead_a to_o themselves_o and_o all_o creature_n live_v only_o in_o he_o to_o he_o and_o for_o he_o o_o divine_a life_n of_o solitude_n thou_o be_v here_o begin_v on_o earth_n and_o can_v not_o be_v perfect_v but_o in_o heaven_n a_o true_a hermit_n life_n be_v not_o a_o sensual_a but_o divine_a life_n god_n call_v i_o to_o contemplation_n i_o will_v repair_v to_o church_n as_o to_o a_o hermitage_n where_o i_o may_v live_v this_o divine_a life_n the_o psalmody_n there_o much_o rejoice_v my_o heart_n and_o lift_v up_o my_o soul_n to_o contemplation_n through_o natural_a consideration_n i_o have_v condescend_v to_o please_v other_o against_o my_o own_o inclination_n but_o now_o i_o have_v the_o happiness_n to_o converse_v with_o the_o three_o divine_a person_n i_o can_v no_o more_o relish_v the_o company_n of_o my_o friend_n and_o relation_n except_o rare_o to_o maintain_v peace_n and_o union_n or_o for_o some_o great_a necessity_n and_o if_o they_o be_v displease_v i_o must_v not_o value_v it_o my_o second_o prayer_n be_v a_o amorous_a attention_n upon_o what_o past_a eternal_o among_o the_o three_o divine_a person_n how_o the_o father_n know_v his_o divine_a perfection_n do_v beget_v his_o son_n and_o how_o the_o father_n and_o the_o son_n by_o a_o infinite_a love_n do_v produce_v the_o holy_a ghost_n the_o father_n be_v a_o infinite_a ocean_n of_o perfection_n by_o a_o infinite_a fecundity_n beget_v his_o son_n and_o they_o be_v absorb_v in_o each_o other_o produce_v the_o holy_a spirit_n by_o a_o everlasting_a flux_n and_o reflux_n of_o love_n this_o i_o do_v contemplate_v with_o great_a repose_n of_o soul_n and_o yield_v up_o the_o intellectual_a power_n thereof_o to_o the_o obedience_n of_o faith_n to_o receive_v some_o ray_n of_o divine_a light_n about_o such_o great_a and_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n god_n then_o work_v in_o my_o soul_n i_o become_v passive_a content_v myself_o to_o behold_v simple_o and_o sweet_o the_o infinite_a operation_n of_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n and_o say_v within_o myself_o bless_a trinity_n know_v yourselves_o for_o i_o can_v do_v nothing_o towards_o it_o it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o contemplate_v that_o mutual_a love_n which_o be_v among_o you_o which_o i_o believe_v and_o admire_v with_o adoration_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o no_o other_o mystery_n of_o our_o faith_n can_v so_o take_v up_o and_o content_v my_o soul_n nothing_o be_v more_o divine_a than_o the_o divinity_n no_o other_o practice_n be_v so_o charm_v to_o i_o we_o be_v create_v to_o know_v that_o knowledge_n and_o to_o love_v that_o love_n which_o god_n have_v to_o himself_o to_o all_o eternity_n in_o my_o three_o prayer_n i_o consider_v the_o soul_n of_o just_a man_n and_o bless_a spirit_n be_v as_o so_o many_o sacred_a vessel_n into_o who_o god_n infuse_v his_o love_n and_o knowledge_n by_o a_o continual_a emanation_n which_o love_n and_o knowledge_n return_v to_o god_n its_o source_n as_o the_o water_n of_o a_o run_a fountain_n rise_v as_o high_a as_o the_o spring_n from_o whence_o it_o have_v its_o origen_n this_o love_n and_o knowledge_n do_v establish_v god_n in_o we_o and_o also_o do_v firm_o establish_v we_o in_o god_n so_o that_o god_n take_v a_o delight_n and_o repose_v in_o the_o soul_n and_o the_o soul_n find_v her_o centre_n and_o rest_n in_o he_o thereby_o faint_o represent_v how_o the_o divine_a person_n have_v a_o mutual_a repose_n in_o each_o other_o empty_a vessel_n be_v most_o capable_a to_o be_v fill_v and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o our_o soul_n be_v empty_a of_o self-love_n and_o nature_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o be_v they_o capable_a of_o divine_a love_n and_o knowledge_n a_o soul_n in_o such_o a_o state_n delight_v in_o solitude_n and_o care_v not_o to_o live_v in_o the_o thought_n and_o affection_n of_o man_n what_o most_o sadden_v our_o spirit_n and_o retard_v we_o in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v a_o natural_a aversion_n we_o have_v from_o a_o hide_a life_n for_o man_n natural_o desire_v to_o be_v know_v and_o love_v and_o think_v life_n be_v as_o nothing_o without_o repute_n and_o as_o long_o as_o we_o be_v full_a of_o this_o liquor_n we_o be_v not_o vessel_n proper_a to_o receive_v the_o influence_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o knowledge_n let_v we_o o_o my_o soul_n empty_v ourselves_o of_o self-love_n that_o divine_a love_n may_v take_v place_n in_o we_o in_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o find_v a_o amorous_a complacency_n in_o my_o soul_n in_o that_o god_n be_v but_o one_o do_v subsist_v in_o three_o person_n know_v and_o love_v themselves_o
god_n a_o infinite_a fullness_n contain_v a_o infinity_o of_o perfection_n each_o of_o which_o have_v a_o infinity_o of_o excellency_n incomprehensible_a a_o fullness_n which_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o good_a in_o the_o creature_n we_o be_v of_o ourselves_o but_o a_o mere_a privation_n and_o pure_a nothing_o full_a of_o imperfection_n and_o liable_a to_o infinite_a misery_n alas_o o_o my_o god_n i_o now_o see_v more_o than_o ever_o that_o you_o be_v all_o good_a omne_fw-la bonum_fw-la you_o be_v the_o source_n of_o our_o be_v and_o existence_n and_o without_o your_o continual_a influx_n for_o our_o preservation_n we_o shall_v in_o a_o moment_n return_v to_o our_o first_o nothing_o the_o general_a idea_n of_o this_o truth_n be_v in_o every_o understanding_n but_o well_o to_o consider_v it_o and_o lodge_v it_o in_o our_o heart_n be_v very_o rare_a we_o believe_v this_o as_o many_o other_o point_n of_o our_o religion_n but_o without_o deep_a reflection_n or_o correspondent_a action_n hence_o it_o proceed_v that_o we_o be_v without_o perfect_a self-denial_n and_o abnegation_n be_v not_o sufficient_o persuade_v that_o of_o ourselves_o we_o be_v nothing_o and_o therefore_o god_n leave_v in_o we_o many_o imperfection_n unconquered_a that_o we_o may_v know_v by_o experience_n that_o we_o be_v of_o ourselves_o nothing_o but_o weakness_n o_o my_o god_n for_o ever_o bless_v be_v your_o holy_a name_n for_o discover_v to_o i_o your_o fullness_n and_o my_o poverty_n i_o adore_v your_o infinite_a fullness_n with_o a_o cordial_a affection_n because_o it_o show_v your_o grandeur_n and_o i_o be_o please_v with_o my_o poverty_n because_o it_o humble_v i_o in_o your_o presence_n i_o be_o well_o content_a o_o my_o god_n to_o be_v nothing_o that_o you_o may_v be_v all_o kneel_v down_o to_o make_v my_o second_o prayer_n i_o desire_v our_o bless_a saviour_n to_o take_v up_o my_o thought_n with_o what_o he_o please_v and_o it_o come_v into_o my_o mind_n to_o consider_v the_o three_o divine_a person_n as_o they_o be_v to_o teach_v other_o the_o centre_n of_o all_o happiness_n repose_n and_o glory_n i_o behold_v this_o fix_o and_o with_o a_o amorous_a resentment_n and_o complacency_n of_o mind_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o repose_n the_o joy_n and_o the_o glory_n that_o the_o divine_a person_n have_v in_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n be_v infinite_o below_o that_o repose_n and_o glory_n they_o have_v in_o themselves_o and_o that_o delight_v they_o have_v in_o the_o saint_n be_v much_o below_o that_o which_o they_o have_v in_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n i_o sometime_o adore_v this_o divine_a centre_n in_o itself_o and_o sometime_o i_o adore_v the_o occupation_n of_o the_o soul_n of_o jesus_n towards_o this_o divine_a centre_n and_o i_o endeavour_v to_o fix_v my_o thought_n with_o a_o complacency_n therein_o god_n then_o give_v i_o to_o see_v that_o accidental_a occasion_n of_o charity_n be_v not_o repugnant_a to_o my_o solitude_n and_o design_n of_o extraordinary_a devotion_n but_o to_o take_v upon_o i_o the_o care_n of_o a_o family_n and_o to_o have_v a_o continual_a eye_n over_o they_o as_o i_o have_v former_o be_v inconsistent_a with_o it_o for_o that_o engage_v i_o to_o many_o conference_n many_o letter_n much_o care_n and_o extroversion_n and_o for_o the_o present_a god_n do_v not_o require_v that_o of_o i_o but_o call_v i_o to_o a_o retreat_n to_o solitude_n to_o exterior_a and_o interiour_n silence_n to_o mortification_n to_o converse_v with_o he_o alone_o this_o be_v my_o present_a affair_n upon_o earth_n in_o my_o three_o prayer_n i_o discover_v how_o just_a and_o reasonable_a it_o be_v not_o only_o to_o adore_v the_o divine_a life_n of_o the_o most_o sacred_a trinity_n but_o also_o to_o honour_v the_o service_n which_o the_o soul_n of_o jesus_n render_v to_o his_o father_n on_o earth_n by_o a_o continual_a and_o ineffable_a application_n i_o observe_v that_o all_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o life_n of_o jesus_n be_v honour_v according_a to_o the_o various_a application_n of_o devout_a soul_n as_o inspire_v from_o heaven_n some_o have_v a_o special_a devotion_n to_o jesus_n as_o regard_v mary_n magdalen_n with_o a_o eye_n of_o mercy_n other_o be_v much_o take_v with_o his_o divine_a discourse_n with_o the_o samaritan_n woman_n and_o her_o conversion_n and_o shall_v we_o forget_v to_o adore_v the_o divine_a regard_n and_o converse_v the_o soul_n of_o jesus_n continual_o have_v with_o the_o divine_a person_n there_o be_v nothing_o in_o god_n make_v man_n more_o worthy_a of_o veneration_n this_o be_v his_o most_o noble_a employment_n while_o he_o be_v upon_o earth_n let_v we_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n according_a to_o our_o duty_n set_v upon_o this_o work_n without_o delay_n let_v our_o great_a care_n be_v to_o please_v jesus_n and_o then_o many_o worldly_a affair_n will_v become_v burdensome_a unto_o we_o let_v we_o recollect_v our_o spirit_n and_o affection_n from_o other_o thing_n and_o place_v they_o whole_o on_o god_n our_o final_a happiness_n a_o true_a christian_a indeed_o will_v be_v so_o generous_a as_o to_o esteem_v all_o thing_n beside_o god_n not_o worth_a his_o labour_n it_o be_v true_a while_o the_o soul_n be_v imprison_v in_o the_o wall_n of_o flesh_n she_o can_v always_o soar_v up_o to_o heaven_n on_o the_o wing_n of_o contemplation_n but_o this_o she_o must_v sigh_v after_o and_o consider_v her_o present_a condition_n on_o all_o occasion_n exercise_v herself_o in_o work_n of_o humility_n in_o my_o four_o prayer_n god_n and_o his_o perfection_n do_v possess_v my_o soul_n rejoice_v in_o that_o he_o be_v perfect_a and_o happy_a i_o have_v a_o mind_n then_o to_o take_v up_o my_o thought_n whole_o with_o the_o perfection_n of_o god_n without_o any_o reflection_n on_o my_o own_o interiour_n or_o request_v any_o thing_n to_o supply_v my_o want_n for_o it_o be_v not_o seasonable_a to_o do_v this_o when_o god_n call_v we_o to_o contemplate_v his_o adorable_a perfection_n the_o soul_n than_o forget_v his_o own_o interest_n to_o mind_n only_o those_o of_o god_n i_o than_o be_v press_v with_o a_o vehement_a desire_n to_o forget_v myself_o entire_o and_o have_v god_n only_o in_o my_o remembrance_n i_o be_v then_o much_o please_v with_o the_o multitude_n that_o follow_v jesus_n in_o the_o desert_n take_v no_o care_n for_o bodily_a provision_n their_o divine_a master_n provide_v for_o they_o be_v well_o please_v with_o their_o affection_n in_o be_v only_o attentive_a to_o his_o word_n what_o content_n be_v it_o to_o i_o to_o remember_v how_o mary_n magdalen_n forget_v herself_o yea_o in_o some_o sort_n our_o bless_a saviour_n in_o not_o serve_v he_o in_o her_o castle_n at_o bethanie_n by_o reason_n she_o be_v so_o intent_n on_o his_o divine_a word_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o not_o be_v too_o solicitous_a for_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n if_o we_o think_v on_o god_n he_o will_v think_v on_o we_o and_o nothing_o necessary_a shall_v be_v want_v to_o we_o six_o day_n in_o my_o first_o prayer_n my_o soul_n find_v herself_o much_o take_v with_o the_o beauty_n of_o those_o excellent_a word_n in_o the_o gospel_n be_v you_o perfect_a as_o your_o heavenly_a father_n be_v perfect_a i_o consider_v how_o impossible_a it_o be_v for_o mortal_n even_o to_o conceive_v the_o idea_n of_o a_o infinite_a perfection_n and_o if_o we_o can_v conceive_v it_o how_o can_v we_o imitate_v it_o but_o god_n the_o father_n have_v provide_v against_o this_o inconvenience_n in_o send_v to_o we_o the_o perfect_a image_n of_o all_o his_o infinite_a perfection_n his_o eternal_a son_n and_o expose_v he_o to_o our_o view_n say_v to_o we_o be_v perfect_a as_o your_o heavenly_a father_n be_v perfect_a open_v your_o eye_n and_o behold_v this_o model_n here_o be_v the_o perfection_n you_o must_v imitate_v let_v it_o be_v your_o care_n to_o conform_v to_o this_o exemplar_n and_o you_o will_v be_v perfect_a as_o i_o be_o perfect_a it_o be_v hard_a to_o say_v to_o what_o sublimity_n of_o perfection_n we_o be_v call_v by_o a_o christian_a life_n and_o how_o glorious_a a_o thing_n it_o be_v even_o to_o pretend_v to_o imitate_v god_n himself_o but_o alas_o how_o far_o be_v we_o from_o the_o spirit_n of_o this_o grand_a exemplar_n jesus_n will_v have_v we_o to_o be_v annihilate_v poor_a despise_v live_v a_o hide_a life_n in_o solitude_n by_o daily_a converse_n with_o god_n but_o just_o contrary_a we_o desire_v to_o appear_v in_o the_o world_n to_o be_v esteem_v to_o have_v all_o thing_n according_a to_o our_o heart_n desire_v and_o enjoy_v the_o creature_n alas_o we_o do_v not_o sufficient_o endeavour_v to_o dive_v into_o the_o inclination_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n to_o conform_v ourselves_o thereto_o and_o annihilate_v our_o own_o the_o science_n of_o jesus_n be_v not_o well_o know_v there_o be_v few_o person_n that_o study_v it_o
give_v she_o a_o right_a to_o the_o riches_n of_o glory_n for_o truth_n have_v say_v it_o bless_a be_v the_o poor_a in_o spirit_n for_o they_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n o_o how_o a_o soul_n which_o once_o have_v behold_v the_o beauty_n of_o holy_a poverty_n be_v ready_a to_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a and_o conform_v herself_o to_o his_o example_n she_o find_v herself_o free_v of_o her_o fetter_n which_o keep_v man_n captive_n and_o slave_n to_o the_o world_n and_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o creature_n be_v the_o great_a treasure_n upon_o earth_n she_o grow_v rich_a by_o her_o loss_n and_o when_o god_n will_v have_v she_o to_o possess_v good_n and_o honour_n it_o be_v yet_o with_o a_o disposition_n to_o quit_v they_o and_o possess_v god_n alone_o she_o therefore_o only_o keep_v they_o by_o a_o pure_a dependence_n on_o the_o divine_a will_n without_o a_o esteem_n or_o love_n for_o they_o but_o love_v in_o they_o sole_o the_o will_n of_o god_n these_o be_v the_o impression_n my_o first_o prayer_n make_v in_o i_o in_o my_o second_o prayer_n i_o continue_v to_o consider_v the_o poor_a and_o abject_a state_n of_o jesus_n christ_n god_n in_o his_o eternal_a decree_n have_v a_o love_n for_o the_o humane_a way_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a those_o soul_n who_o be_v favour_v with_o illustration_n from_o heaven_n be_v strong_o carry_v the_o same_o way_n discern_v clear_o that_o they_o can_v do_v nothing_o better_a upon_o earth_n than_o to_o tread_v the_o footstep_n of_o god_n himself_o to_o this_o end_n the_o divine_a wisdom_n elevate_v they_o above_o themselves_o and_o their_o natural_a inclination_n to_o conduct_v they_o sole_o by_o the_o instinct_n of_o grace_n whereby_o they_o make_v a_o glorious_a conquest_n over_o the_o weakness_n of_o nature_n self-love_n and_o carnal_a prudence_n which_o stand_v in_o the_o way_n to_o christian_a perfection_n and_o hinder_v we_o from_o follow_v jesus_n in_o his_o abjection_n it_o high_o concern_v we_o to_o die_v daily_o to_o the_o world_n that_o we_o may_v attain_v to_o the_o purity_n of_o divine_a love_n that_o be_v possess_v and_o love_n god_n alone_o the_o pride_n of_o adam_n will_v not_o die_v in_o we_o unless_o we_o be_v content_a to_o follow_v jesus_n in_o his_o abjection_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o fall_v in_o love_n with_o this_o state_n of_o jesus_n christ_n which_o be_v little_o know_v to_o the_o world_n and_o take_v it_o for_o a_o sovereign_a favour_n from_o heaven_n to_o become_v so_o contemptible_a for_o god_n sake_n as_o to_o pass_v for_o one_o hardly_o good_a for_o any_o thing_n o_o jesus_n how_o few_o companion_n have_v you_o of_o your_o extreme_a poverty_n many_o honour_n this_o virtue_n in_o you_o but_o few_o practice_n it_o they_o must_v be_v faithful_a friend_n indeed_o who_o follow_v you_o in_o these_o way_n so_o bitter_a and_o distasteful_a to_o flesh_n and_o blood_n o_o jesus_n be_v merciful_a unto_o i_o and_o grant_v i_o this_o fidelity_n that_o i_o may_v never_o forsake_v you_o in_o life_n nor_o death_n my_o three_o prayer_n be_v take_v up_o with_o a_o general_a view_n of_o the_o humiliation_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n for_o which_o i_o feel_v my_o soul_n have_v much_o love_n and_o respect_n these_o divine_a humiliation_n do_v ravish_v i_o beyond_o comparison_n and_o i_o discover_v such_o wonderful_a beauty_n in_o they_o that_o i_o can_v not_o be_v satisfy_v with_o behold_v they_o i_o be_v deep_o possess_v with_o a_o desire_n to_o conform_v myself_o to_o jesus_n in_o his_o humiliation_n and_o to_o spend_v my_o day_n in_o his_o imitation_n and_o i_o be_v much_o trouble_v i_o can_v not_o yet_o quit_v all_o thing_n to_o live_v a_o poor_a abject_a retire_a life_n it_o be_v no_o less_o the_o work_n of_o grace_n to_o bring_v we_o to_o relish_v the_o abjection_n of_o jesus_n christ_n as_o to_o be_v take_v with_o his_o grandeur_n his_o grandeur_n be_v incomprehensible_a but_o nothing_o in_o my_o eye_n seem_v more_o great_a and_o rich_a and_o precious_a than_o his_o humiliation_n the_o unspeakable_a love_n that_o jesus_n christ_n have_v for_o soul_n do_v manifest_v itself_o by_o make_v they_o partaker_n of_o his_o humiliation_n be_v content_n o_o my_o soul_n with_o what_o part_n he_o shall_v give_v thou_o for_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o a_o punishment_n to_o abound_v with_o riches_n and_o honour_n whereby_o we_o become_v unlike_a to_o jesus_n and_o march_v on_o in_o way_n contrary_a to_o his_o practice_n and_o example_n when_o i_o reflect_v upon_o my_o sin_n i_o can_v sufficient_o admire_v the_o great_a grace_n god_n be_v please_v to_o vouchsafe_v i_o a_o strong_a argument_n to_o convince_v of_o his_o infinite_a goodness_n and_o afford_v much_o matter_n of_o humiliation_n consider_v how_o unworthy_a i_o be_o of_o the_o least_o favour_n but_o for_o i_o a_o poor_a wretch_n to_o have_v a_o call_v to_o solitude_n to_o converse_v only_o with_o god_n and_o his_o holy_a angel_n what_o a_o mercy_n be_v this_o it_o come_v into_o my_o mind_n that_o moses_n who_o have_v be_v a_o captain_n of_o thief_n be_v afterward_o a_o holy_a hermit_n and_o i_o have_v a_o special_a devotion_n to_o he_o desire_v he_o to_o help_v i_o by_o his_o prayer_n o_o the_o wonderful_a effect_n of_o grace_n that_o a_o robber_n shall_v become_v a_o hermit_n i_o have_v a_o devotion_n to_o saint_n that_o have_v be_v great_a sinner_n methinks_v they_o be_v powerful_a with_o god_n to_o help_v sinner_n to_o be_v convert_v this_o view_n of_o the_o extreme_a humiliation_n of_o jesus_n yet_o continue_v be_v the_o subject_n of_o my_o four_o prayer_n and_o i_o find_v in_o myself_o great_a desire_n to_o begin_v a_o new_a kind_n of_o life_n to_o give_v myself_o absolute_o to_o god_n as_o a_o sacrifice_n by_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n of_o the_o world_n by_o a_o vow_n of_o poverty_n but_o i_o be_v not_o yet_o in_o a_o condition_n to_o forsake_v my_o temporal_a affair_n i_o resolve_v to_o make_v such_o a_o vow_n when_o all_o thing_n be_v settle_v and_o i_o take_v care_n that_o my_o affair_n may_v be_v so_o regulate_v as_o to_o put_v i_o in_o a_o condition_n to_o comply_v with_o the_o call_n of_o god_n have_v take_v this_o resolution_n i_o find_v my_o heart_n inflame_v with_o desire_n to_o be_v whole_o for_o god_n and_o to_o conform_v myself_o as_o much_o as_o possible_a to_o jesus_n in_o his_o humiliation_n nature_n feel_v some_o afflict_a resentment_n hereat_o and_o furnish_v i_o with_o argument_n to_o divert_v i_o from_o it_o but_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n scatter_v these_o thought_n and_o teach_v i_o to_o neglect_v the_o help_n of_o creature_n by_o cast_v myself_o whole_o into_o the_o arm_n of_o his_o providence_n o_o my_o jesus_n the_o only_o love_n of_o my_o soul_n though_o the_o most_o despise_a of_o man_n your_o divine_a attract_v and_o inspiration_n do_v so_o powerful_o invite_v i_o to_o follow_v you_o in_o your_o way_n of_o poverty_n that_o i_o shall_v never_o soon_o enough_o see_v the_o happy_a moment_n to_o engage_v myself_o thereto_o by_o a_o vow_n never_o to_o be_v recall_v four_o day_n jesus_n the_o fountain_n of_o grace_n and_o piety_n in_o my_o first_o prayer_n god_n give_v i_o to_o see_v the_o infinite_a grandeurs_fw-fr of_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n unite_v to_o the_o divinity_n in_o the_o same_o person_n this_o ineffable_a union_n be_v the_o general_a and_o amorous_a object_n of_o my_o regard_n which_o wrought_v in_o my_o soul_n a_o very_a great_a esteem_n and_o singular_a love_n and_o union_n with_o jesus_n christ_n this_o state_n of_o jesus_n rejoice_v my_o heart_n and_o i_o dwell_v upon_o it_o my_o soul_n be_v satisfy_v with_o wonderful_a contentment_n i_o have_v interior_a assurance_n and_o very_o great_a certitude_n of_o the_o divinity_n of_o jesus_n nothing_o in_o he_o seem_v dark_a unto_o i_o though_o all_o surpass_v the_o strength_n of_o reason_n i_o behold_v he_o as_o the_o principal_a of_o grace_n and_o glory_n this_o manifestation_n be_v in_o i_o by_o a_o divine_a light_n and_o i_o find_v it_o fill_v my_o heart_n with_o most_o please_a impression_n the_o small_a conviction_n we_o have_v of_o the_o divinity_n of_o jesus_n make_v we_o such_o cold_a christian_n and_o that_o we_o walk_v so_o slow_o in_o the_o way_n of_o grace_n for_o who_o firm_o believe_v that_o jesus_n be_v god_n will_v have_v a_o singular_a esteem_n of_o his_o doctrine_n of_o his_o counsel_n of_o his_o proceed_n and_o think_v it_o his_o glory_n for_o to_o follow_v he_o the_o perfect_a belief_n of_o the_o divinity_n of_o jesus_n carry_v a_o soul_n to_o real_a endeavour_n after_o perfection_n to_o despise_v the_o world_n to_o take_v up_o the_o cross_n and_o follow_v jesus_n in_o his_o abjection_n this_o be_v to_o be_v the_o image_n of_o jesus_n christ_n
gracious_a look_n from_o jesus_n do_v easy_o scatter_v these_o cloud_n appease_v this_o storm_n and_o bring_v a_o calm_a and_o serenity_n to_o my_o soul_n methinks_v i_o see_v clear_o that_o diffidence_n in_o ourselves_o and_o confidence_n in_o jesus_n to_o keep_v ourselves_o at_o his_o foot_n in_o prayer_n or_o any_o other_o manner_n near_o he_o as_o grace_n shall_v suggest_v be_v a_o excellent_a mean_n to_o pray_v well_o and_o to_o receive_v from_o the_o father_n of_o light_n what_o be_v necessary_a to_o advance_v we_o in_o our_o way_n to_o perfection_n we_o must_v well_o observe_v that_o what_o light_n and_o motion_n we_o have_v from_o grace_n do_v more_o unite_v we_o to_o god_n by_o proficiency_n in_o virtue_n but_o natural_a light_n and_o sentiment_n do_v not_o produce_v the_o like_a effect_n for_o example_n i_o may_v see_v my_o frailty_n and_o weakness_n by_o knowledge_n acquire_v by_o experience_n of_o the_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n i_o may_v know_v the_o same_o also_o by_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n grace_n with_o knowledge_n give_v i_o also_o strength_n and_o courage_n to_o humble_v myself_o to_o confess_v my_o frailty_n to_o have_v recourse_n to_o god_n for_o his_o assistance_n a_o natural_a light_n have_v not_o the_o like_a effect_n but_o leave_v a_o man_n in_o his_o pride_n and_o misery_n or_o what_o be_v worse_o in_o sadness_n and_o disconsolation_n our_o bless_a saviour_n in_o my_o four_o prayer_n give_v i_o a_o sight_n and_o sentiment_n of_o his_o adorable_a person_n above_o all_o expression_n the_o eye_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v fix_v to_o behold_v the_o beauty_n the_o goodness_n the_o grandeur_n and_o perfection_n of_o that_o admirable_a compositum_fw-la my_o will_n can_v not_o be_v satisfy_v with_o those_o pleasure_n and_o contentment_n she_o then_o receive_v o_o what_o great_a happiness_n do_v a_o enlarge_a soul_n receive_v when_o the_o veil_n be_v a_o little_a draw_v from_o these_o divine_a mystery_n methinks_v i_o can_v have_v stand_v behold_v this_o divine_a object_n all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n i_o consider_v chief_o that_o the_o holy_a soul_n of_o jesus_n be_v enlighten_v with_o the_o divinity_n to_o know_v what_o measure_v he_o ought_v to_o take_v during_o his_o mortal_a life_n to_o fulfil_v the_o decree_n of_o his_o eternal_a father_n his_o wonderful_a wisdom_n in_o choose_v a_o humble_a poor_a and_o suffer_a life_n to_o instruct_v we_o man_n and_o give_v we_o example_n and_o that_o worldly_a wisdom_n be_v but_o mere_a folly_n false_a and_o pernicious_a to_o her_o follower_n in_o this_o view_n of_o jesus_n every_o thing_n in_o he_o seem_v to_o i_o charm_v and_o admirable_a not_o the_o least_o glance_n from_o his_o eye_n or_o word_n from_o his_o mouth_n or_o sigh_n or_o tear_v from_o he_o but_o at_o present_a be_v to_o i_o a_o object_n of_o infinite_a delight_n and_o seem_v to_o i_o sufficient_a to_o take_v up_o a_o soul_n for_o ever_o with_o contemplation_n but_o the_o contemplation_n of_o god_n must_v be_v accompany_v with_o imitation_n and_o by_o the_o conduct_n of_o his_o grace_n we_o must_v enter_v into_o his_o state_n poor_a abject_a and_o suffer_v it_o be_v in_o vain_a to_o think_v to_o attain_v to_o perfection_n any_o other_o way_n the_o only_a imitation_n and_o conformity_n to_o jesus_n make_v the_o soul_n capable_a of_o pure_a contemplation_n and_o contemplation_n will_v preserve_v she_o in_o this_o conformity_n nine_o day_n jesus_n suffer_v and_o die_v jesus_n in_o the_o idea_n of_o ecce_fw-la homo_fw-la crown_v with_o thorn_n clad_v with_o a_o purple_a robe_n in_o derision_n buffet_v mock_v spit_v upon_o and_o scourge_v be_v the_o object_n and_o subject_n of_o my_o morning_n prayer_n i_o take_v great_a gust_n though_o full_a of_o compassion_n to_o see_v he_o in_o this_o posture_n because_o he_o himself_o be_v never_o more_o satisfy_v in_o that_o he_o can_v never_o better_o satisfy_v his_o father_n and_o present_o i_o say_v o_o my_o jesus_n you_o be_v never_o thus_o array_v before_o now_o all_o the_o glory_n of_o mount_n tabor_n do_v not_o clothe_v you_o with_o such_o beauty_n doubtless_o the_o eternal_a father_n take_v infinite_a complacency_n to_o behold_v you_o in_o this_o state_n for_o you_o be_v a_o holocaust_n all_o surround_v with_o dolour_n and_o death_n with_o contempt_n and_o annihilation_n in_o this_o entertainment_n i_o communicate_v and_o receive_v my_o jesus_n in_o this_o state_n who_o speak_v in_o this_o manner_n to_o my_o soul_n i_o come_v to_o thou_o to_o make_v thou_o like_o myself_o thou_o will_v be_v never_o whole_o acceptable_a to_o i_o or_o my_o divine_a father_n till_o thou_o become_v like_o i_o i_o then_o find_v in_o myself_o a_o great_a desire_n to_o be_v so_o and_o that_o i_o may_v take_v content_o all_o disgrace_n and_o loss_n that_o any_o accident_n bring_v upon_o i_o as_o so_o many_o advantage_n to_o make_v i_o like_a to_o my_o saviour_n ecce_fw-la homo_fw-la i_o than_o remain_v much_o comfort_v and_o fortify_v and_o very_o devout_a to_o jesus_n in_o this_o state_n in_o my_o second_o prayer_n i_o find_v my_o soul_n attract_v with_o a_o wonderful_a gust_n to_o behold_v jesus_n crucify_v a_o spectacle_n please_v to_o the_o eternal_a father_n the_o comfort_n of_o heaven_n and_o the_o terror_n of_o hell_n i_o discover_v a_o certain_a way_n of_o beauty_n which_o clothe_v the_o horror_n of_o calvary_n with_o wonderful_a comeliness_n o_o my_o god_n say_v i_o what_o pleasure_n be_v it_o to_o see_v the_o god_n of_o beauty_n die_v for_o man_n upon_o a_o cross_n this_o beauty_n be_v not_o in_o his_o visage_n now_o all_o disfigure_v but_o in_o the_o goodness_n of_o god_n which_o be_v here_o all_o in_o splendour_n and_o in_o the_o triumph_n of_o a_o incomparable_a love_n which_o sacrifice_v his_o most_o precious_a life_n for_o our_o redemption_n the_o eternal_a father_n be_v much_o delight_v with_o this_o beauty_n the_o bruise_n and_o wound_n and_o blood_n upon_o his_o sacred_a head_n and_o face_n do_v not_o make_v he_o disfigure_v in_o my_o eye_n because_o the_o beauty_n of_o divine_a justice_n which_o be_v thereby_o infinite_o glorify_v give_v he_o a_o grace_n which_o be_v unspeakable_a speciosus_fw-la forma_fw-la prae_fw-la filiis_fw-la hominum_fw-la in_o this_o state_n jesus_n appear_v to_o i_o the_o most_o beautiful_a of_o man_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v so_o take_v with_o jesus_n crucify_v that_o i_o can_v not_o but_o love_v he_o in_o the_o state_n of_o his_o annihilation_n the_o grace_n which_o this_o view_n leave_v in_o my_o soul_n be_v a_o particular_a esteem_n and_o love_n for_o suffering_n i_o see_v nothing_o more_o beautiful_a see_v they_o be_v a_o kind_n of_o ornament_n to_o god_n himself_o and_o render_v he_o a_o object_n of_o singular_a complacency_n to_o his_o eternal_a father_n jesus_n have_v sanctify_v the_o state_n of_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o suffering_n through_o which_o he_o pass_v to_o make_v they_o source_n of_o grace_n to_o such_o soul_n as_o love_v they_o for_o his_o sake_n if_o the_o holy_a place_n where_o christ_n be_v on_o earth_n be_v in_o singular_a veneration_n much_o more_o ought_v the_o state_n of_o jesus_n christ_n if_o the_o man_n of_o the_o world_n think_v it_o a_o great_a honour_n to_o participate_v of_o the_o grandeur_n of_o their_o prince_n how_o happy_a and_o honourable_a ought_v a_o true_a christian_n to_o think_v himself_o to_o be_v if_o he_o be_v partaker_n of_o the_o humiliation_n of_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n the_o crown_n and_o sceptre_n be_v the_o glory_n of_o a_o king_n poverty_n contempt_n and_o suffering_n be_v the_o glory_n of_o a_o servant_n of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o my_o three_o prayer_n i_o be_v pierce_v with_o a_o wonderful_a feel_n at_o the_o sight_n of_o jesus_n suffer_v and_o die_v on_o the_o cross_n be_v not_o able_a to_o comprehend_v how_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o a_o god_n shall_v condescend_v so_o low_a i_o say_v o_o my_o jesus_n why_o do_v you_o not_o rather_o let_v all_o man_n perish_v for_o it_o be_v more_o just_a beyond_o comparison_n that_o man_n shall_v be_v lose_v be_v guilty_a than_o you_o suffer_v be_v most_o innocent_a but_o in_o this_o triumph_n of_o your_o love_n you_o have_v no_o regard_n to_o yourself_o but_o to_o satisfy_v divine_a justice_n and_o that_o infinite_a charity_n you_o have_v for_o your_o poor_a brethren_n in_o their_o miserable_a condition_n suffer_v then_o even_o the_o death_n of_o the_o cross_n see_v dear_a jesus_n it_o be_v your_o pleasure_n i_o consider_v the_o eternal_a obligation_n we_o have_v to_o jesus_n christ_n in_o that_o he_o die_v for_o our_o salvation_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o hitherto_o i_o have_v be_v as_o in_o darkness_n in_o regard_n to_o this_o incomparable_a benefit_n jesus_n christ_n be_v our_o true_a and_o faithful_a friend_n indeed_o and_o yet_o alas_o he_o be_v neither_o know_v nor_o regard_v as_o
happiness_n i_o make_v colloquy_n among_o many_o lover_n of_o jesus_n i_o think_v i_o hear_v st._n romuald_v say_v my_o dear_a jesus_n my_o sweet_a love_n the_o inestimable_a object_n of_o my_o desire_n the_o delight_n of_o saint_n the_o joy_n of_o angel_n who_o will_v give_v i_o to_o love_v you_o as_o much_o by_o myself_o as_o they_o do_v altogether_o another_o answer_v see_v your_o perfection_n o_o good_a jesus_n have_v no_o limit_n the_o love_n which_o all_o heart_n have_v for_o you_o aught_o to_o be_v infinite_a another_o say_v o_o saviour_n the_o fruit_n be_v testimony_n of_o true_a love_n your_o appear_v to_o i_o admirable_a in_o the_o effect_n of_o your_o suffering_n and_o that_o bloody_a death_n you_o endure_v for_o i_o but_o what_o have_v i_o do_v as_o yet_o to_o testify_v my_o love_n or_o make_v you_o love_v i_o another_o conclude_v and_o say_v let_v we_o love_n and_o suffer_v and_o let_v we_o die_v by_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o same_o love_n which_o make_v jesus_n die_v upon_o the_o cross_n o_o sacred_a love_n how_o kind_o cruel_a art_n thou_o to_o those_o who_o fall_v into_o thy_o hand_n for_o thou_o do_v cut_v and_o mortify_v and_o humble_a and_o annihilate_v all_o thy_o servant_n more_o or_o less_o carry_v the_o mark_n of_o thy_o severity_n st._n philip_n nereus_n in_o his_o rib_n st._n francis_n in_o his_o hand_n and_o foot_n and_o very_a heart_n but_o o_o divine_a love_n i_o fear_v not_o thy_o cruelty_n mortify_v i_o crucify_v i_o burn_v i_o alive_a i_o desire_v to_o die_v by_o no_o other_o hand_n the_o conclusion_n of_o all_o the_o prayer_n of_o my_o solitude_n be_v a_o absolute_a abandon_v of_o myself_o to_o jesus_n christ_n to_o who_o i_o give_v myself_o up_o in_o a_o new_a manner_n irrevocable_o to_o live_v or_o die_v to_o act_v or_o suffer_v to_o be_v in_o such_o a_o state_n as_o best_o please_v he_o ardent_o desire_v that_o his_o sacred_a love_n will_v make_v i_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n but_o himself_o the_o martyrdom_n of_o love_n be_v long_o than_o that_o of_o tyrant_n and_o sometime_o more_o torment_v fight_v against_o all_o our_o natural_a inclination_n break_v through_o all_o opposition_n whatsoever_o to_o practise_v the_o virtue_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a without_o doubt_n we_o suffer_v much_o to_o follow_v that_o grace_n which_o call_v we_o to_o die_v on_o a_o cross_n poor_a contemn_a and_o abandon_v but_o he_o that_o love_v find_v sweetness_n in_o these_o suffering_n it_o be_v a_o great_a wonder_n to_o make_v a_o creature_n of_o nothing_o but_o it_o be_v a_o far_o great_a to_o make_v a_o sinner_n a_o saint_n and_o this_o o_o jesus_n be_v the_o only_a work_n of_o your_o grace_n it_o be_v you_o that_o be_v victorious_a and_o triumphant_a in_o all_o your_o elect_n over_o the_o corruption_n and_o malignity_n of_o sin_n o_o jesus_n how_o great_a be_v the_o power_n of_o your_o grace_n how_o be_v your_o right_a hand_n glorify_v by_o work_a wonder_n o_o jesus_n the_o infinite_a source_n of_o power_n and_o virtue_n of_o grace_n and_o sanctity_n of_o beauty_n and_o perfection_n o_o that_o i_o have_v as_o yet_o so_o little_o know_v you_o in_o heaven_n they_o only_o see_v you_o clear_o but_o yet_o it_o be_v a_o favour_n and_o happiness_n beyond_o expression_n to_o have_v some_o knowledge_n of_o you_o in_o this_o life_n when_o i_o behold_v jesus_n my_o soul_n want_v word_n and_o can_v say_v nothing_o but_o jesus_n and_o in_o say_v jesus_n it_o say_v all_o it_o will_v though_o it_o be_v ineffable_a o_o jesus_n vouchsafe_v i_o some_o little_a sight_n of_o you_o in_o this_o banishment_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v be_v comfort_v jesus_n god_n and_o man_n the_o eternal_a splendour_n and_o crown_n of_o saint_n be_v you_o hereafter_o the_o only_a object_n of_o my_o desire_n and_o love_n that_o i_o may_v be_v so_o unite_v to_o you_o as_o never_o to_o suffer_v a_o separation_n when_o jesus_n once_o possess_v a_o soul_n her_o thought_n be_v on_o he_o her_o word_n be_v to_o he_o and_o her_o love_n be_v for_o he_o she_o than_o live_v in_o a_o region_n of_o light_n beautiful_a beyond_o all_o expression_n and_o in_o her_o ardour_n of_o love_n she_o seem_v whole_o passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o jesus_n in_o she_o jesus_n be_v enlighten_v enflame_v pierce_v and_o consummate_v jesus_n be_v more_o in_o the_o soul_n then_o herself_o and_o life_n more_o in_o she_o then_o herself_o all_o be_v convert_v into_o jesus_n by_o a_o co-operation_n of_o love_n which_o she_o feel_v but_o can_v explicate_v it_o seem_v to_o my_o soul_n that_o hitherto_o she_o have_v be_v but_o in_o continual_a amusement_n how_o many_o vain_a idea_n have_v take_v up_o her_o thought_n but_o at_o the_o sight_n of_o jesus_n all_o creature_n appear_v but_o as_o dream_n and_o they_o flee_v before_o he_o as_o owl_n at_o sunrising_n i_o know_v you_o then_o o_o amiable_a jesus_n i_o see_v that_o you_o be_v verity_n and_o all_o the_o world_n but_o vanity_n o_o divine_a jesus_n reign_n for_o ever_o in_o my_o soul_n establish_v your_o empire_n in_o my_o heart_n and_o be_v absolute_a king_n there_o for_o it_o be_v you_o let_v all_o the_o bless_a angel_n and_o saint_n in_o heaven_n and_o all_o creature_n bless_v you_o and_o praise_v you_o and_o help_v i_o to_o return_v you_o thanks_o for_o all_o the_o favour_n your_o infinite_a goodness_n have_v vouchsase_v i_o in_o this_o retreat_n add_v this_o also_o o_o most_o merciful_a jesus_n to_o your_o other_o grace_n that_o i_o may_v have_v a_o perpetual_a dependence_n on_o your_o holy_a will_n and_o live_v in_o you_o and_o for_o you_o who_o live_v and_o reign_v world_n without_o end_n amen_n the_o end_n of_o the_o four_o book_n book_n v._o of_o communion_n and_o its_o effect_n chap._n i._o of_o preparation_n before_o communion_n a_o person_n that_o often_o receive_v his_o god_n in_o the_o holy_a communion_n aught_o to_o direct_v all_o the_o action_n of_o his_o life_n to_o that_o end_n and_o render_v they_o a_o preparation_n to_o it_o and_o as_o those_o act_n whereby_o we_o prepare_v ourselves_o aught_o to_o be_v most_o holy_a most_o replenish_v with_o grace_n so_o by_o consequence_n the_o life_n of_o one_o that_o do_v often_o frequent_a the_o sacrament_n aught_o to_o be_v a_o continue_a exercise_n of_o holy_a and_o supernatural_a acts._n we_o ought_v to_o lead_v a_o life_n worthy_a of_o the_o divine_a bread_n which_o be_v give_v we_o in_o this_o adorable_a sacrament_n a_o common_a and_o material_a bread_n support_v the_o life_n of_o nature_n but_o he_o who_o be_v himself_o the_o bread_n of_o grace_n bestow_v on_o we_o a_o life_n of_o grace_n a_o life_n holy_a and_o divine_a and_o infinite_o raise_v above_o the_o humane_a life_n and_o therefore_o be_v little_o know_v little_o seek_v by_o such_o as_o lead_v a_o common_a life_n and_o be_v unwilling_a to_o leave_v themselves_o and_o their_o temporal_a concern_v to_o live_v to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o to_o that_o end_n give_v himself_o to_o they_o that_o he_o may_v be_v their_o life_n o_o my_o god_n how_o ignorant_a and_o earthly_a have_v my_o past_a life_n be_v since_o i_o be_o so_o little_o acquaint_v with_o this_o life_n more_o than_o humane_a but_o now_o out_o of_o your_o mercy_n you_o vouchsafe_v to_o bestow_v on_o i_o such_o sentiment_n as_o incline_v i_o to_o enter_v upon_o this_o life_n for_o i_o plain_o see_v that_o a_o soul_n well_o settle_v in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n aught_o to_o live_v no_o long_o according_a to_o nature_n but_o according_a to_o grace_n the_o motion_n maxim_n and_o design_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n take_v their_o original_a from_o grace_n and_o be_v of_o a_o very_a different_a relish_n from_o such_o as_o affect_v soul_n which_o move_v only_o by_o the_o impression_n of_o nature_n for_o the_o soul_n actuate_v by_o this_o life_n embrace_n contempt_n suffering_n abjection_n and_o her_o delight_n be_v to_o be_v annihilate_v in_o the_o esteem_n and_o love_n of_o creature_n so_o far_o it_o be_v from_o seek_v those_o thing_n never_o so_o little_a to_o live_v this_o life_n be_v to_o live_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n and_o to_o become_v one_o and_o the_o same_o with_o he_o and_o it_o be_v a_o excellent_a disposition_n to_o live_v by_o he_o while_o the_o soul_n receive_v he_o as_o its_o proper_a nourishment_n qui_fw-la manducat_fw-la i_o vivet_fw-la propter_fw-la i_o your_o delight_n o_o lord_n be_v to_o be_v with_o the_o child_n of_o man_n but_o these_o delight_n ought_v to_o be_v reciprocal_a that_o be_v to_o say_v that_o soul_n ought_v to_o take_v their_o delight_n in_o you_o in_o your_o state_n of_o poverty_n and_o abjection_n that_o so_o you_o may_v take_v your_o delight_n in_o they_o what_o a_o excess_n of_o goodness_n be_v this_o o_o lord_n that_o be_v so_o
i_o quite_o forget_v myself_o and_o be_v no_o more_o and_o act_v only_o in_o you_o and_o you_o in_o i_o in_o i_o manet_fw-la &_o ego_fw-la in_o eo_fw-la and_o continue_v thus_o absorp_v in_o you_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n be_v thus_o unite_v with_o you_o i_o shall_v learn_v your_o secret_n discover_v your_o purpose_n and_o see_v with_o you_o and_o your_o light_n the_o way_n that_o you_o take_v to_o love_n honour_n and_o glorify_v your_o father_n which_o he_o reveal_v unto_o you_o at_o the_o instant_n of_o your_o incarnation_n ever_o since_o that_o happy_a minute_n you_o be_v become_v the_o light_n of_o the_o world_n he_o that_o will_v follow_v you_o shall_v not_o walk_v in_o darkness_n who_o can_v know_v the_o secret_n of_o the_o father_n better_o than_o the_o son_n or_o his_o design_n and_o thought_n than_o he_o who_o be_v equal_a to_o his_o father_n be_v privy_a to_o all_o the_o sacred_a counsel_n of_o the_o divinity_n these_o he_o teach_v we_o by_o word_n of_o mouth_n he_o open_v they_o to_o we_o by_o the_o comportment_n and_o example_n of_o his_o life_n let_v we_o see_v approve_v imitate_v herein_o consist_v the_o right_a transformation_n the_o grace_n bestow_v on_o we_o in_o the_o holy_a communion_n principal_o tend_v to_o annihilate_v in_o we_o all_o inclination_n of_o nature_n and_o in_o their_o place_n introduce_v other_o most_o conformable_a to_o those_o of_o jesus_n christ_n according_a to_o the_o measure_n that_o a_o soul_n conform_v to_o jesus_n christ_n proportional_o she_o become_v more_o capable_a of_o divine_a communication_n for_o a_o soul_n grow_v not_o more_o pure_a but_o in_o as_o much_o as_o she_o participate_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a who_o whole_a aim_n be_v to_o crucify_v we_o to_o all_o that_o be_v mere_o according_a to_o the_o inclination_n of_o nature_n how_o different_a be_v the_o judgement_n and_o discernment_n of_o true_a christian_n from_o those_o of_o worldly_a man_n how_o quite_o another_o thing_n be_v the_o thought_n and_o conviction_n of_o a_o illuminate_v person_n and_o those_o of_o one_o who_o live_v only_o according_a to_o reason_n there_o be_v soul_n upon_o which_o jesus_n enter_v into_o they_o by_o way_n of_o communion_n make_v such_o admirable_a impression_n that_o lead_v turn_v into_o the_o fine_a gold_n by_o the_o philosophers-stone_n will_v not_o be_v more_o change_v than_o they_o be_v for_o in_o effect_v this_o sacrament_n be_v the_o mystery_n of_o the_o omnipotence_n of_o god_n where_o the_o word_n of_o consecration_n by_o a_o miraculous_a power_n change_v the_o substance_n of_o bread_n and_o wine_n into_o the_o body_n and_o blood_n of_o jesus_n christ_n by_o which_o mutation_n we_o be_v instruct_v that_o under_o the_o weak_a and_o common_a species_n lie_v a_o secret_a virtue_n which_o be_v able_a to_o transform_v the_o most_o imperfect_a soul_n into_o the_o great_a servant_n of_o god_n one_o of_o the_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n that_o most_o astonish_v i_o be_v that_o when_o we_o receive_v jesus_n in_o the_o holy_a communion_n we_o be_v so_o little_o change_v and_o his_o presence_n so_o un-active_a in_o we_o we_o experience_v none_o of_o his_o wondrous_a operation_n he_o ought_v to_o be_v to_o the_o soul_n a_o grain_n of_o good_a seed_n that_o make_v very_o great_a production_n jesus_n ought_v to_o do_v admirable_a thing_n jesus_n ought_v to_o form_n jesus_n in_o we_o and_o produce_v by_o his_o grace_n all_o his_o own_o sentiment_n and_o fill_v our_o life_n with_o all_o the_o state_n of_o he_o yet_o he_o make_v no_o change_n in_o i_o he_o do_v not_o strip_v i_o of_o my_o humane_a inclination_n that_o i_o may_v live_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n a_o thing_n which_o fright_v i_o very_o much_o and_o give_v i_o reason_n to_o fear_v that_o i_o do_v not_o approach_v unto_o he_o with_o all_o the_o preparation_n requisite_a whereupon_o i_o flee_v to_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n and_o beg_v it_o with_o all_o instance_n for_o in_o that_o alone_o be_v my_o hope_n chap._n x._o the_o three_o effect_n of_o communion_n which_o be_v the_o perfect_a and_o consummate_v union_n the_o design_n of_o our_o lord_n in_o give_v we_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v lay_v open_a to_o we_o in_o the_o prayer_n he_o make_v to_o god_n the_o father_n while_o he_o be_v actual_o institute_v it_o rogo_fw-la pater_fw-la ut_fw-la sint_fw-la unum_fw-la i_o ask_v you_o that_o they_o may_v be_v make_v partaker_n of_o the_o union_n that_o be_v between_o we_o wherefore_o the_o union_n he_o enjoy_v with_o god_n the_o father_n be_v the_o model_n of_o that_o which_o he_o desire_v we_o shall_v contract_v with_o he_o by_o mean_n of_o this_o divine_a sacrament_n now_o he_o be_v so_o much_o one_o with_o his_o father_n that_o whosoever_o see_v he_o see_v also_o his_o father_n and_o if_o we_o be_v transform_v into_o jesus_n christ_n according_a to_o his_o intention_n in_o the_o communion_n whosoever_o shall_v see_v we_o will_v at_o the_o same_o time_n see_v christ_n but_o this_o consummate_v alliance_n with_o god_n be_v not_o discernible_a in_o the_o most_o of_o those_o that_o receive_v the_o communion_n because_o that_o consummation_n presupposes_a another_o which_o fail_v in_o the_o great_a part_n of_o communicant_n viz._n the_o consummation_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o jesus_n christ_n which_o be_v then_o obtain_v when_o by_o the_o attraction_n of_o grace_n she_o be_v whole_o annihilate_v as_o to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o supernatural_a succeed_v in_o their_o place_n be_v clear_v from_o all_o disposition_n but_o those_o of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a a_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n receive_v the_o holy_a communion_n aught_o to_o remain_v simple_o unite_v to_o jesus_n present_a and_o receive_v in_o quietness_n and_o tranquillity_n such_o effect_n of_o grace_n as_o he_o work_v in_o she_o which_o be_v to_o live_v no_o long_o to_o or_o in_o herself_o but_o to_o enter_v effective_o into_o the_o poor_a and_o abject_a state_n of_o jesus_n to_o live_v like_o he_o to_o live_v by_o his_o spirit_n to_o live_v no_o long_o as_o the_o world_n nor_o by_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o world_n moreover_o the_o union_n of_o the_o divine_a and_o humane_a nature_n in_o the_o person_n of_o jesus_n christ_n be_v another_o most_o expressive_a image_n of_o the_o union_n he_o assume_v we_o to_o by_o the_o virtue_n of_o this_o sacrament_n for_o we_o assure_o believe_v that_o his_o sacred_a humanity_n be_v whole_o absorb_v and_o plunge_v in_o the_o divinity_n after_o such_o a_o unspeakable_a manner_n that_o there_o be_v no_o comparison_n which_o can_v be_v draw_v from_o any_o create_a thing_n may_v serve_v to_o illustrate_v it_o to_o compare_v it_o with_o the_o star_n which_o be_v lose_v and_o drown_v in_o the_o light_n of_o the_o sun_n be_v a_o too_o weak_a and_o imperfect_a similitude_n and_o fall_v infinite_o short_a for_o there_o be_v a_o immense_a distance_n and_o disproportion_n between_o divine_a and_o create_v thing_n but_o the_o soul_n need_v not_o such_o allusion_n she_o be_v content_v to_o behold_v it_o in_o god_n by_o the_o obscure_a light_n of_o faith_n and_o thereupon_o fall_v into_o act_n of_o admiration_n adoration_n and_o love_n and_o discern_v that_o the_o intention_n of_o jesus_n christ_n by_o unite_n himself_o to_o she_o in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v to_o perfect_v she_o in_o himself_o she_o accept_v of_o it_o joyful_o and_o resign_v herself_o entire_o to_o the_o divine_a operation_n and_o wish_n she_o can_v say_v with_o st._n paul_n vivo_fw-la ego_fw-la jam_fw-la non_fw-la ego_fw-la vivit_fw-la verò_fw-la in_o i_o christus_fw-la i_o be_o no_o more_o i_o live_v no_o more_o but_o jesus_n christ_n be_v my_o life_n and_o my_o be_v now_o it_o be_v evident_a that_o this_o high_a and_o consummate_v perfection_n be_v the_o effect_n of_o a_o eminent_a love_n and_o that_o it_o can_v be_v raise_v to_o such_o a_o degree_n without_o destroy_v in_o the_o lover_n every_o thing_n that_o be_v not_o god_n and_o by_o consequence_n it_o cost_v nature_n dear_a and_o require_v a_o firm_a and_o generous_a soul_n and_o very_o faithful_a to_o the_o impression_n of_o grace_n light_a and_o knowledge_n be_v ineffectual_a of_o themselves_o to_o this_o great_a work_n nothing_o but_o the_o real_a and_o earnest_a practice_n of_o pure_a virtue_n in_o the_o full_a extent_n of_o the_o grace_n give_v we_o and_o as_o occasion_n shall_v afford_v the_o exercise_n can_v bring_v a_o soul_n to_o this_o eminent_a perfection_n such_o a_o soul_n can_v be_v more_o charm_v and_o delight_v than_o to_o observe_v the_o amorous_a invention_n of_o the_o wisdom_n and_o mercy_n of_o god_n in_o derive_v upon_o christian_n the_o fullness_n of_o his_o divinity_n by_o mean_n of_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n where_o jesus_n christ_n present_v we_o his_o humanity_n to_o draw_v we_o into_o partake_v of_o his_o
martyrdom_n end_v both_o together_o chap._n viii_o the_o interiour_n cross_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o obscurity_n the_o soul_n in_o the_o state_n of_o obscurity_n hardly_o know_v herself_o she_o be_v so_o change_v from_o what_o she_o be_v for_o in_o the_o state_n of_o enjoyment_n the_o inferior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o all_o her_o repugnance_n to_o suffering_n be_v quite_o lose_v in_o her_o present_a delight_n so_o that_o the_o soul_n feel_v no_o pain_n at_o all_o nothing_o hinder_v her_o repose_n she_o taste_v nothing_o but_o sweetness_n and_o have_v no_o sentiment_n unless_o of_o peace_n and_o tranquillity_n but_o on_o the_o contrary_a in_o the_o state_n of_o interiour_n suffer_v the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v as_o it_o be_v absorp_v in_o the_o repugnance_n and_o disgust_n of_o nature_n her_o light_n be_v so_o surround_v with_o darkness_n that_o she_o be_v leave_v in_o obscurity_n and_o all_o her_o joy_n be_v take_v from_o she_o although_o she_o may_v be_v very_o well_o resign_v she_o imagine_v she_o be_v not_o for_o her_o intellectual_a conformity_n be_v cloud_v from_o she_o but_o she_o have_v always_o before_o her_o eye_n the_o revolt_n of_o nature_n and_o the_o contradiction_n she_o find_v to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n and_o in_o a_o manner_n believe_v she_o have_v no_o intellectual_a resignation_n she_o become_v doubtful_a of_o her_o condition_n whereby_o she_o be_v much_o terrify_v and_o plunge_v in_o a_o sea_n of_o bitterness_n a_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n of_o misery_n be_v well_o please_v to_o god_n but_o she_o not_o know_v it_o remain_v full_a of_o doubt_n and_o sadness_n yet_o if_o you_o ask_v this_o soul_n if_o she_o be_v resign_v to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n she_o will_v ready_o reply_v yes_o and_o that_o she_o have_v rather_o die_v than_o not_o will_n what_o please_v god_n however_o this_o act_n of_o resignation_n do_v not_o free_v she_o from_o her_o fear_n because_o she_o will_v this_o in_o a_o manner_n without_o know_v it_o be_v she_o will._n our_o bless_a saviour_n by_o a_o admirable_a design_n of_o providence_n to_o purify_v this_o soul_n the_o more_o by_o her_o suffering_n hinder_v her_o reflection_n on_o this_o act_n of_o conformity_n and_o resignation_n so_o that_o she_o receive_v no_o comfort_n by_o this_o conformity_n be_v in_o the_o dark_a and_o yet_o be_v not_o altogether_o leave_v in_o desolation_n but_o in_o this_o state_n she_o be_v please_v to_o god_n though_o she_o be_v much_o displease_v with_o herself_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o a_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n of_o obscurity_n be_v more_o faithful_a to_o god_n than_o in_o abundance_n of_o illumination_n to_o be_v thus_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o thick_a darkness_n and_o believe_v the_o perfection_n of_o the_o divinity_n and_o the_o mystery_n of_o our_o holy_a faith_n as_o firm_o as_o if_o they_o be_v clear_v up_o unto_o we_o by_o the_o great_a light_n and_o illustration_n do_v testify_v a_o extraordinary_a fidelity_n in_o the_o soul_n to_o god_n and_o a_o annihilation_n of_o our_o judgement_n and_o a_o high_a esteem_n of_o god_n veracity_n what_o wonder_n be_v it_o to_o see_v god_n and_o his_o grandeur_n in_o abundance_n of_o light_n but_o to_o do_v this_o when_o the_o soul_n be_v in_o darkness_n this_o be_v admirable_a happy_a be_v those_o soul_n who_o god_n conduct_n in_o this_o way_n let_v they_o not_o complain_v of_o their_o privation_n see_v this_o be_v to_o the_o end_n they_o may_v more_o glorify_v god_n and_o best_a testify_v their_o fidelity_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o be_v in_o a_o indifferency_n for_o any_o condition_n for_o a_o state_n of_o light_n or_o darkness_n benedicite_fw-la lux_fw-la &_o tenebrae_fw-la domino_fw-la and_o if_o divine_a providence_n try_v we_o with_o obscurity_n let_v we_o be_v comfort_v and_o believe_v that_o god_n deal_v well_o with_o we_o esteem_v this_o privation_n as_o a_o favour_n from_o heaven_n i_o confess_v it_o be_v a_o difficult_a matter_n to_o be_v as_o well_o satisfy_v in_o darkness_n as_o in_o the_o splendour_n of_o paradise_n but_o if_o we_o make_v serious_a reflection_n that_o the_o perfection_n of_o christianity_n consist_v in_o a_o life_n of_o privation_n and_o poverty_n of_o spirit_n it_o will_v be_v no_o matter_n of_o admiration_n behold_v s._n john_n live_v he_o not_o in_o a_o desert_n deprive_v of_o all_o thing_n his_o delight_n be_v austerity_n hunger_n poverty_n to_o be_v unknown_a to_o the_o world_n and_o to_o lose_v his_o life_n by_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o hangman_n and_o which_o be_v more_o he_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o conversation_n of_o jesus_n christ_n one_o of_o the_o great_a interior_a cross_n be_v to_o lose_v the_o sight_n of_o our_o eye_n nevertheless_o there_o be_v something_o in_o this_o cross_n that_o make_v it_o lovely_a in_o that_o it_o put_v we_o in_o a_o more_o absolute_a dependence_n on_o god_n i_o have_v a_o devotion_n to_o be_v in_o the_o spiritual_a life_n what_o a_o blind_a man_n be_v in_o the_o corporal_n he_o go_v and_o come_v he_o talk_v to_o his_o friend_n he_o do_v his_o little_a affair_n he_o eat_v and_o drink_v and_o all_o this_o without_o see_v his_o way_n or_o his_o friend_n or_o the_o room_n or_o heaven_n or_o earth_n only_o he_o give_v himself_o up_o to_o the_o guidance_n of_o his_o conductor_n it_o be_v true_a to_o do_v all_o these_o action_n of_o our_o civil_a life_n in_o this_o sort_n be_v not_o so_o please_v but_o they_o be_v as_o real_o do_v as_o in_o the_o light_n so_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v without_o light_n do_v the_o action_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n not_o so_o pleasant_o indeed_o but_o yet_o true_o and_o perfect_o see_v she_o perform_v they_o in_o the_o annihilation_n of_o her_o light_n and_o proper_a satisfaction_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o a_o soul_n ought_v not_o to_o complain_v so_o much_o of_o the_o linger_n of_o this_o our_o pilgrimage_n where_o we_o live_v in_o the_o obscurity_n of_o faith_n and_o not_o so_o earnest_o desire_v the_o dissolution_n of_o this_o mortal_a body_n under_o pretence_n to_o see_v clear_o and_o be_v unite_v perfect_o to_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n for_o real_o i_o fear_v these_o complaint_n be_v not_o so_o innocent_a as_o we_o image_v see_v they_o may_v proceed_v from_o a_o disgust_n of_o suffering_n in_o a_o state_n of_o privation_n and_o so_o we_o be_v more_o concern_v for_o our_o own_o satisfaction_n than_o content_a with_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n chap._n ix_o of_o the_o heaviness_n of_o interior_a cross_n god_n sometime_o treat_v a_o soul_n in_o a_o manner_n as_o a_o reprobate_n banish_v she_o from_o his_o presence_n and_o deprive_v she_o of_o all_o enjoyment_n for_o more_o or_o less_o time_n as_o he_o think_v good_a during_o this_o state_n to_o preserve_v a_o perfect_a resignation_n to_o god_n will_v be_v to_o practice_v pure_a virtue_n and_o those_o soul_n must_v be_v very_o faithful_a that_o be_v capable_a thereof_o the_o soul_n in_o enjoyment_n be_v as_o if_o she_o be_v glorify_v she_o feel_v no_o trouble_n her_o passion_n neither_o disturb_v her_o peace_n nor_o darken_v her_o light_n she_o be_v full_a of_o contentment_n delight_v in_o god_n the_o creature_n do_v not_o divert_v she_o from_o the_o creator_n and_o if_o at_o any_o time_n they_o seem_v to_o stop_v her_o course_n she_o present_o double_v her_o pace_n to_o hasten_v after_o her_o well-beloved_a be_v a_o tracted_a with_o the_o odour_n of_o his_o perfume_n but_o in_o the_o state_n of_o interiour_n suffer_v the_o soul_n become_v a_o captive_n load_v with_o iron_n buffet_v with_o temptation_n disturb_v with_o rebellious_a passion_n lose_v in_o extravagant_a thought_n so_o that_o she_o can_v draw_v near_o to_o god_n but_o like_o a_o poor_a criminal_a lie_v in_o a_o dark_a dungeon_n be_v leave_v to_o herself_o without_o any_o sensible_a relief_n this_o be_v her_o sad_a conditition_n in_o this_o miserable_a captivity_n without_o either_o divine_a or_o humane_a consolation_n the_o influence_n of_o heavenbeing_n withhold_v from_o she_o and_o the_o refreshment_n of_o earth_n deny_v she_o crucify_v between_o they_o both_o without_o help_n from_o either_o in_o this_o state_n the_o soul_n be_v in_o continual_a fear_n of_o offend_a god_n and_o fall_v from_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n that_o she_o seek_v comfort_n from_o creature_n and_o be_v so_o injurious_a to_o her_o divine_a centre_n from_o who_o only_o she_o ought_v to_o receive_v repose_n and_o contentment_n however_o she_o may_v much_o honour_n god_n by_o these_o interior_a suffering_n if_o she_o thereby_o do_v homage_n to_o the_o dereliction_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o his_o torment_n on_o the_o cross_n the_o eminency_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n find_v matter_n of_o practice_n in_o all_o sort_n of_o suffering_n interior_a or_o exterior_a but_o methinks_v the_o soul_n can_v never_o be_v
little_a or_o no_o service_n but_o i_o rest_v content_v herein_o see_v god_n hereby_o do_v magnify_v his_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n to_o i_o i_o doubt_v not_o but_o there_o be_v many_o soul_n in_o heaven_n who_o have_v in_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n do_v little_a service_n for_o god_n as_o solitare_v in_o the_o desert_n and_o many_o person_n without_o talent_n and_o yet_o have_v high_a place_n in_o the_o mansion_n of_o eternity_n they_o spend_v all_o their_o time_n to_o purify_v their_o interiour_n by_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v from_o the_o infinite_a bounty_n of_o god_n and_o the_o service_n they_o render_v he_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o his_o name_n be_v only_o write_v in_o his_o omniscience_n but_o will_v be_v lay_v open_a to_o the_o world_n at_o the_o great_a day_n of_o manifestation_n chap._n v._o of_o the_o impediment_n of_o prayer_n i_o clear_o see_v and_o know_v by_o experience_n that_o the_o temporal_a affair_n of_o our_o oeconomy_n do_v not_o a_o little_a take_v we_o off_o from_o god_n we_o do_v ill_o in_o it_o yea_o it_o be_v our_o obligation_n it_o be_v please_v to_o god_n to_o manage_v our_o temporal_n with_o a_o good_a intention_n though_o it_o will_v be_v better_o if_o we_o can_v to_o lay_v aside_o these_o worldly_a distraction_n to_o spend_v our_o time_n only_o in_o god_n service_n and_o those_o who_o have_v a_o call_v from_o god_n to_o attend_v on_o he_o alone_o in_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n and_o contemplation_n can_v without_o be_v unfaithful_a to_o his_o grace_n continue_v in_o the_o solicitous_a distraction_n of_o worldly_a affair_n i_o must_v needs_o say_v that_o worldly_a business_n darken_v and_o hinder_v my_o soul_n in_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n and_o i_o will_v never_o spend_v time_n therein_o upon_o humane_a consideration_n but_o pure_o because_o god_n have_v so_o order_v it_o however_o it_o must_v be_v our_o care_n not_o to_o spend_v more_o time_n therein_o than_o necessity_n require_v too_o delicate_a diet_n though_o it_o may_v strengthen_v nature_n yet_o it_o weaken_v grace_n when_o the_o body_n be_v bring_v down_o by_o abstinence_n the_o soul_n be_v more_o vigorous_a in_o her_o elevation_n to_o god_n i_o find_v this_o true_a in_o i_o by_o experience_n a_o soul_n must_v be_v very_o well_o ground_v in_o grace_n that_o among_o temporal_a employment_n and_o worldly_a care_n can_v keep_v herself_o up_o in_o fervour_n and_o purity_n she_o meet_v with_o a_o thousand_o occasion_n to_o move_v she_o to_o anger_n impatience_n sadness_n and_o vain_a joy_n and_o though_o she_o do_v not_o give_v way_n to_o they_o yet_o she_o be_v sensible_a of_o they_o and_o this_o must_v needs_o more_o or_o less_o disturb_v she_o interiour_n peace_n whereby_o she_o be_v unite_v to_o god_n her_o happiness_n a_o little_a thing_n will_v hinder_v a_o soul_n from_o raise_v herself_o to_o contemplation_n and_o a_o less_o matter_n will_v somewhat_o darken_v she_o when_o elevate_v because_o the_o least_o emotion_n of_o spirit_n will_v indispose_v she_o to_o receive_v divine_a impression_n therefore_o a_o man_n of_o prayer_n must_v be_v a_o man_n dead_a and_o mortify_v for_o that_o be_v not_o pure_a prayer_n which_o do_v not_o work_v in_o we_o a_o victory_n over_o our_o passion_n and_o vicious_a inclination_n and_o bring_v we_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o all_o christian_a virtue_n i_o see_v now_o more_o clear_o than_o ever_o that_o the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n do_v not_o persevere_v and_o gather_v strength_n but_o in_o those_o who_o be_v dead_a to_o sensuality_n austere_a to_o themselves_o penitent_a and_o disengage_v from_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n it_o be_v true_a as_o for_o corporal_a austerity_n a_o tender_a complexion_n must_v follow_v the_o council_n of_o a_o director_n but_o common_o we_o be_v too_o indulgent_a to_o ourselves_o and_o far_o from_o the_o practice_n of_o great_a penitent_n who_o be_v very_o severe_a to_o themselves_o and_o also_o great_a contemplative_n we_o deceive_v ourselves_o if_o we_o think_v to_o enter_v into_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n and_o take_v delight_n in_o worldly_a thing_n though_o in_o rigour_n this_o may_v in_o some_o sort_n be_v permit_v to_o candidate_n of_o devotion_n yet_o not_o to_o proficient_n in_o who_o the_o spirit_n of_o prayer_n and_o conformity_n to_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_a aught_o to_o be_v whole_o predominant_a for_o it_o be_v our_o duty_n to_o live_v conformable_o to_o that_o state_n where_o god_n have_v put_v we_o gerson_n say_v very_o well_o if_o we_o refuse_v exterior_a consolation_n we_o shall_v receive_v interiour_n the_o reason_n hereof_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v this_o because_o interiour_n consolation_n participate_v of_o the_o purity_n of_o their_o source_n which_o be_v the_o union_n of_o god_n with_o the_o soul_n and_o will_v not_o permit_v any_o mixture_n with_o impurity_n and_o imperfection_n for_o sensual_a joy_n and_o consolation_n be_v earthly_a impure_a and_o imperfect_a and_o consequent_o be_v contrary_a to_o the_o spirit_n of_o grace_n which_o make_v the_o soul_n pure_a and_o penitent_a and_o mortify_v to_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n moreover_o interiour_n consolation_n be_v slender_a participation_n of_o those_o infinite_a delight_n which_o god_n have_v in_o himself_o of_o himself_o and_o he_o be_v jealous_a of_o such_o favour_n not_o communicate_v they_o but_o to_o a_o soul_n entire_o belove_v that_o take_v no_o delight_n but_o in_o he_o alone_o but_o when_o earthly_a consolation_n enter_v into_o a_o soul_n they_o draw_v she_o partly_o from_o god_n and_o so_o god_n withdraw_v his_o favour_n from_o she_o for_o this_o reason_n the_o saint_n who_o will_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n mortify_v themselves_o without_o reserve_n as_o much_o as_o humane_a weakness_n will_v permit_v that_o no_o sensual_a or_o worldly_a pleasure_n may_v have_v any_o part_n in_o their_o affection_n but_o god_n alone_o take_v courage_n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o embrace_v the_o cross_n and_o follow_v jesus_n christ_n who_o will_v conduct_v we_o through_o the_o garden_n of_o his_o delight_n let_v we_o not_o trouble_v ourselves_o with_o worldly_a affair_n unless_o we_o know_v it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n for_o otherwise_o we_o shall_v find_v affliction_n of_o spirit_n and_o decay_v in_o spirituality_n thrice_o happy_a be_v he_o who_o shun_v multiplicity_n for_o this_o will_v dispose_v he_o to_o pure_a love_n many_o thing_n seem_v to_o we_o necessary_a which_o serve_v but_o to_o entertain_v the_o corruption_n of_o nature_n still_o work_v in_o we_o if_o god_n shall_v severe_o examine_v all_o our_o action_n perhaps_o he_o will_v hardly_o find_v one_o in_o all_o respect_n well_o please_v to_o he_o we_o too_o much_o follow_v nature_n and_o our_o humane_a inclination_n if_o grace_n set_v we_o a_o work_n we_o hardly_o go_v through_o with_o it_o but_o nature_n creep_v in_o some_o way_n or_o other_o to_o sully_v our_o action_n what_o be_v pure_o natural_a can_v be_v meritorious_a all_o merit_n proceed_v from_o a_o principle_n of_o grace_n and_o therefore_o no_o action_n but_o what_o have_v a_o influence_n from_o grace_n can_v dispose_v we_o to_o a_o union_n with_o god_n o_o how_o rare_a a_o thing_n be_v pure_a virtue_n that_o which_o seem_v best_a be_v not_o for_o the_o most_o part_n without_o some_o blemish_n those_o who_o have_v illustration_n from_o heaven_n discover_v these_o impurity_n other_o in_o the_o dark_a see_v nothing_o but_o grosser_n fault_n and_o imperfection_n from_o all_o this_o we_o may_v conclude_v that_o there_o be_v principal_o four_o great_a obstacle_n which_o hinder_v for_o the_o most_o part_n the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n 1._o to_o engage_v ourselves_o in_o worldly_a affair_n more_o than_o the_o order_n of_o god_n require_v 2._o to_o be_v too_o delicate_a and_o use_v very_o little_a corporal_a austerity_n 3._o to_o practise_v little_a either_o interiour_n or_o exterior_a retreat_n and_o to_o have_v no_o love_n for_o recollection_n and_o for_o solitude_n 4._o want_v of_o zeal_n and_o courage_n in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n and_o so_o live_v a_o life_n mere_o humane_a by_o follow_v our_o naetural_a inclination_n but_o he_o shall_v never_o be_v a_o man_n of_o prayer_n who_o do_v not_o live_v a_o supernatural_a life_n and_o practise_v all_o christian_a virtue_n with_o a_o faithful_a and_o generou_n resolution_n and_o bless_a be_v he_o who_o by_o his_o constancy_n in_o spiritual_a exercise_n have_v bring_v his_o soul_n to_o such_o a_o temper_n that_o it_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n as_o easy_a for_o he_o to_o pray_v as_o breath_n hic_fw-la accipiet_fw-la benedictionem_fw-la à _fw-la domino_fw-la &_o misericordiam_fw-la à _fw-la deo_fw-la salutari_fw-la svo_fw-la quia_fw-la haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la quaerentium_fw-la dominum_fw-la he_o that_o thus_o seek_v god_n while_o he_o may_v be_v find_v shall_v enjoy_v he_o there_o where_o he_o can_v never_o be_v lose_v chap._n
he_o please_v without_o her_o knowledge_n or_o discovery_n before_o the_o soul_n can_v fix_v in_o this_o state_n she_o must_v suffer_v much_o from_o her_o imagination_n which_o will_v be_v still_o propose_v her_o representation_n light_n and_o sentiment_n according_a to_o her_o usual_a practice_n but_o the_o soul_n must_v quit_v all_o these_o to_o yield_v herself_o passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n yea_o even_o spiritual_a lecture_n at_o this_o time_n prove_v hurtful_a because_o it_o keep_v up_o the_o ordinary_a way_n of_o work_v in_o the_o soul_n neither_o be_v this_o to_o tempt_v god_n see_v he_o will_v have_v the_o soul_n to_o treat_v with_o he_o in_o this_o manner_n and_o her_o present_a disposition_n thus_o require_v she_o ought_v to_o be_v faithful_a in_o comply_v with_o it_o there_o be_v many_o degree_n of_o this_o denudation_n whereof_o i_o speak_v the_o first_o take_v from_o the_o soul_n what_o light_n and_o affection_n she_o get_v discursive_a meditation_n to_o give_v she_o in_o lieu_n thereof_o a_o more_o noble_a knowledge_n and_o love_n of_o god_n the_o second_o evacuate_v this_o knowledge_n by_o infuse_v particular_a and_o distinct_a notion_n of_o god_n the_o three_o after_o our_o way_n of_o conception_n be_v a_o pure_a and_o general_a knowledge_n of_o god_n by_o faith_n the_o soul_n must_v pass_v through_o these_o several_a disposition_n as_o it_o please_v god_n to_o conduct_v she_o therein_o and_o remain_v in_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n adhere_v only_o to_o god_n and_o his_o good_a pleasure_n we_o must_v not_o be_v discourage_v at_o the_o difficulty_n we_o shall_v meet_v with_o in_o this_o sublime_a exercise_n but_o prepare_v ourselves_o to_o bear_v the_o cross_n they_o must_v endure_v who_o be_v call_v to_o this_o state_n and_z content_o loose_a ourselves_o to_o be_v find_v in_o god_n doubt_v frequent_o arise_v for_o although_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o prayer_n have_v often_o assurance_n of_o she_o well_o do_v yet_o this_o sometime_o do_v not_o appear_v and_o the_o humane_a spirit_n which_o be_v whole_o blind_a herein_o be_v much_o terrify_v but_o when_o the_o soul_n thus_o die_v to_o herself_o and_o the_o world_n not_o by_o she_o own_o but_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n in_o she_o she_o be_v not_o idle_a as_o she_o may_v fear_v but_o dispose_v herself_o to_o receive_v the_o divine_a enaction_n altogether_o extraordinary_a and_o supernatural_a which_o be_v hinder_v in_o she_o by_o her_o own_o operation_n for_o the_o humane_a spirit_n must_v die_v before_o a_o new_a supernatural_a life_n can_v arise_v in_o she_o the_o soul_n begin_v this_o passive_a prayer_n by_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n in_o himself_o confuse_v and_o general_a after_o which_o she_o receive_v divine_a infusion_n as_o god_n see_v good_a or_o remain_v suffer_v in_o a_o total_a denudation_n desire_v nothing_o else_o but_o to_o suffer_v see_v she_o find_v at_o present_a that_o this_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n the_o soul_n can_v well_o give_v a_o account_n of_o what_o pass_v in_o she_o in_o this_o state_n of_o passivity_n god_n work_v in_o she_o and_o by_o she_o what_o she_o know_v not_o only_o she_o see_v obscure_o that_o all_o go_v well_o with_o she_o in_o her_o interiour_n and_o that_o god_n be_v she_o and_o that_o suffice_v and_o indeed_o she_o need_v not_o fear_n see_v a_o soul_n thus_o passive_a and_o give_v up_o total_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n be_v more_o under_o the_o sacred_a wing_n of_o his_o protection_n than_o ever_o and_o belong_v in_o a_o singular_a manner_n to_o his_o providence_n nor_o be_v it_o expedient_a the_o soul_n shall_v always_o know_v this_o work_n of_o god_n in_o she_o who_o will_v but_o hinder_v it_o by_o her_o reflection_n and_o complacence_n and_o therefore_o god_n keep_v often_o from_o her_o knowledge_n for_o her_o good_a this_o passive_a contemplation_n can_v be_v understand_v but_o by_o experience_n for_o god_n take_v posseossin_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o a_o much_o other_o manner_n than_o in_o active_a prayer_n it_o be_v god_n that_o work_v his_o wonder_n as_o he_o please_v and_o the_o soul_n receive_v the_o divine_a operation_n cooperate_a therewith_o in_o a_o sort_n very_o sublime_a and_o spiritual_a for_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o idle_a but_o act_n with_o a_o real_a activity_n elevate_v above_o her_o ordinary_a manner_n of_o work_v this_o be_v possible_a for_o the_o bless_a in_o heaven_n be_v perfect_o passive_a and_o yet_o very_o active_a their_o power_n work_v in_o a_o most_o sublime_a manner_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o our_o prayer_n be_v pure_a it_o appear_v more_o passive_a in_o respect_n of_o we_o who_o apprehend_v not_o thing_n spiritual_a but_o by_o the_o service_n of_o our_o sense_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n have_v daily_a experience_n of_o divine_a impression_n not_o only_o in_o prayer_n but_o in_o many_o other_o matter_n according_a to_o that_o of_o st._n paul_n spiritualis_fw-la homo_fw-la judicat_fw-la omne_fw-la the_o spiritual_a man_n discern_v all_o thing_n and_o this_o be_v wrought_v in_o a_o different_a manner_n for_o sometime_o god_n immediate_o infuse_v his_o light_n and_o love_n into_o the_o soul_n without_o any_o previous_a disposition_n sometime_o by_o the_o look_n on_o a_o image_n sometime_o by_o bring_v to_o mind_n some_o passage_n in_o scripture_n we_o have_v read_v before_o sometime_o by_o a_o sermon_n sometime_o by_o conference_n etc._n etc._n but_o it_o be_v god_n always_o who_o work_v powerful_o in_o the_o soul_n these_o exterior_a thing_n be_v only_a subservient_fw-fr to_o his_o grace_n the_o soul_n than_o make_v no_o act_n but_o be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o god_n and_o his_o perfection_n or_o with_o jesus_n and_o his_o state_n or_o the_o subject_n give_v she_o in_o prayer_n i_o understand_v not_o this_o before_o this_o light_n be_v infuse_v into_o i_o and_o now_o my_o former_a exercise_n in_o prayer_n seem_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n what_o be_v it_o that_o the_o soul_n pretend_v to_o by_o her_o meditation_n and_o affection_n but_o to_o unite_v herself_o to_o god_n but_o when_o she_o do_v already_o possess_v he_o she_o need_v not_o but_o to_o repose_v herself_o in_o he_o and_o live_v in_o he_o and_o of_o he_o as_o she_o desire_v and_o all_o the_o sacrament_n especial_o the_o holy_a eucharist_n serve_v only_o to_o establish_v and_o plunge_v she_o more_o deep_o in_o god_n oh_o how_o rare_o do_v a_o soul_n free_v herself_o from_o all_o her_o own_o operation_n and_o yet_o that_o hinder_v her_o perfect_a union_n with_o god_n she_o leave_v he_o to_o come_v to_o he_o again_o when_o she_o have_v nothing_o to_o do_v but_o to_o keep_v close_o to_o he_o i_o observe_v that_o upon_o my_o wake_n my_o soul_n have_v a_o eye_n to_o jesus_n christ_n and_o repose_v herself_o as_o in_o his_o bosom_n by_o who_o she_o find_v herself_o attract_v to_o the_o contemplation_n of_o the_o divinity_n by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n this_o divine_a idea_n of_o jesus_n christ_n eclipse_v all_o the_o image_n of_o creature_n and_o at_o last_o my_o soul_n be_v insensible_o lose_v in_o a_o general_n and_o amorous_a knowledge_n of_o god_n and_o afterward_o she_o perceive_v no_o more_o of_o what_o god_n wrought_v in_o she_o be_v then_o environ_v with_o darkness_n which_o cloud_v the_o light_n of_o her_o understanding_n i_o also_o lay_v aside_o all_o exterior_a occupation_n except_o such_o as_o i_o see_v clear_o god_n require_v of_o i_o spiritual_a entertainment_n action_n of_o charity_n visit_v the_o poor_a etc._n etc._n to_o intermeddle_v much_o with_o such_o like_a thing_n do_v take_v up_o the_o time_n for_o prayer_n and_o contemplation_n which_o be_v my_o chief_a and_o principal_a affair_n and_o as_o i_o ought_v to_o serve_v god_n in_o a_o denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n so_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v dis-engaged_n from_o too_o many_o exteteriour_a occupation_n to_o treasure_n up_o time_n enough_o with_o mary_n magdalen_n for_o the_o one_o thing_n necessary_a and_o because_o solitude_n and_o retirement_n from_o worldly_a conversation_n do_v much_o cherish_v this_o manner_n of_o life_n i_o must_v embrace_v it_o as_o much_o as_o possible_a but_o however_o with_o a_o high_a esteem_n of_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o active_a life_n which_o be_v excellent_a in_o the_o order_n of_o divine_a providence_n sometime_o the_o string_n be_v to_o be_v slakn_v a_o little_a to_o divert_v my_o thought_n by_o recreation_n or_o exterior_a action_n i_o have_v know_v solitary_n that_o have_v do_v so_o for_o the_o preservation_n of_o their_o health_n and_o advancement_n of_o their_o spiritual_a exercise_n i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o my_o life_n have_v be_v too_o much_o take_v up_o with_o amusement_n and_o therefore_o now_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v more_o solitary_a and_o retire_v otherwise_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o grace_n of_o my_o vocation_n nor_o conform_v myself_o to_o
grace_n and_o gift_n from_o god_n ought_v not_o to_o rejoice_v in_o the_o abundance_n of_o such_o favour_n but_o her_o whole_a content_a aught_o to_o be_v in_o the_o pleasure_n that_o god_n take_v to_o be_v so_o bountiful_a to_o his_o creature_n so_o unworthy_a of_o his_o blessing_n wretched_a be_v that_o man_n who_o have_v less_o care_n of_o his_o soul_n than_o his_o body_n love_v more_o to_o follow_v the_o inclination_n of_o sensuality_n than_o the_o inspiration_n of_o grace_n wretched_a be_v he_o who_o be_v all_o for_o the_o good_a thing_n of_o this_o life_n a_o good_a house_n good_a apparel_n good_a provision_n etc._n etc._n and_o be_v content_a to_o have_v a_o bad_a soul_n wretched_a be_v he_o who_o by_o his_o vicious_a course_n of_o life_n make_v himself_o the_o most_o contemptible_a thing_n of_o his_o whole_a family_n for_o he_o who_o forsake_v god_n to_o follow_v his_o sensuality_n be_v in_o worse_a state_n than_o the_o mean_a creature_n o_o sad_a condition_n believe_v it_o be_v far_o more_o easy_a to_o command_v our_o passion_n than_o obey_v they_o to_o conquer_v our_o natural_a inclination_n than_o to_o satisfy_v they_o and_o therefore_o more_o pleasant_a to_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o salvation_n than_o perdition_n it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a punishment_n to_o suffer_v the_o continual_a lash_n of_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n a_o unspeakable_a torment_n to_o have_v our_o heart_n always_o terrify_v with_o the_o judgement_n of_o god_n hang_v over_o our_o head_n with_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n which_o be_v uncertain_a and_o the_o horror_n of_o hell_n which_o can_v be_v avoid_v by_o such_o who_o neglect_v the_o service_n of_o god_n and_o die_v in_o their_o sin_n to_o become_v slave_n to_o the_o world_n and_o our_o passion_n and_o vicious_a inclination_n most_o cruel_a and_o ungrateful_a tyrant_n and_o to_o have_v no_o repose_n nor_o contentment_n not_o one_o only_a moment_n of_o true_a solid_a joy_n be_v to_o suffer_v a_o hell_n in_o time_n before_o that_o of_o eternity_n we_o shall_v find_v nothing_o to_o be_v compare_v to_o the_o way_n of_o heaven_n the_o yoke_n of_o our_o bless_a saviour_n be_v easie_n his_o burden_n light_n his_o will_n be_v lovely_a his_o help_n be_v powerful_a and_o the_o consolation_n wherewith_o he_o refresh_v the_o soul_n of_o his_o servant_n so_o abundant_a that_o they_o be_v far_o more_o happy_a with_o their_o cross_n than_o carnal_a man_n with_o all_o their_o worldly_a delight_n and_o pleasure_n chap._n vi_o how_o to_o comport_v ourselves_o well_o in_o superiority_n jesus_n be_v your_o light_n and_o your_o guide_n and_o your_o support_n in_o superiority_n to_o be_v in_o this_o condition_n seem_v to_o some_o troublesome_a and_o insupportable_a because_o thing_n do_v not_o succeed_v as_o they_o desire_v but_o believe_v themselves_o to_o be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o the_o increase_n of_o grace_n in_o the_o soul_n of_o their_o subject_n who_o may_v have_v be_v better_o govern_v by_o a_o person_n more_o capable_a and_o advance_v in_o perfection_n it_o be_v indeed_o well_o say_v and_o the_o pretence_n be_v specious_a and_o yet_o notwithstanding_o all_o this_o may_v proceed_v from_o self-love_n and_o desire_v of_o our_o own_o excellence_n prostrate_v thyself_o at_o the_o foot_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o if_o he_o dart_v into_o thy_o soul_n divine_a irradiation_n thou_o will_v discover_v the_o truth_n of_o what_o i_o have_v say_v herein_o that_o little_a resignation_n we_o have_v to_o the_o ordination_n of_o god_n create_v these_o trouble_n in_o we_o god_n only_o expect_v from_o we_o such_o a_o certain_a measure_n of_o glory_n and_o we_o be_v for_o render_v more_o than_o he_o require_v of_o we_o it_o be_v our_o happiness_n not_o to_o conform_v our_o will_n to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n touch_v the_o manner_n of_o glorify_v himself_o what_o please_v he_o do_v not_o content_v we_o he_o will_v have_v we_o glorify_v he_o by_o suffer_v and_o we_o be_v for_o action_n we_o be_v for_o give_v alm_n and_o he_o for_o receive_v in_o a_o word_n we_o do_v not_o entire_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o the_o pure_a will_n of_o god_n we_o ought_v not_o to_o perplex_v and_o disquiet_v ourselves_o with_o the_o defect_n and_o imperfection_n of_o those_o with_o who_o we_o live_v and_o be_v under_o our_o charge_n they_o be_v mortal_a and_o infirm_a creature_n and_o not_o angel_n and_o to_o expect_v they_o shall_v be_v faultless_a be_v to_o look_v for_o impossibility_n and_o flatter_v our_o impatience_n which_o will_v have_v no_o occasion_n of_o displeasure_n this_o be_v but_o to_o afflict_v ourselves_o for_o the_o loss_n of_o our_o own_o esteem_n which_o appear_v by_o our_o ill_a conduct_n in_o such_o small_a matter_n and_o yet_o we_o pretend_v only_o to_o seek_v god_n honour_n and_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n those_o who_o true_o seek_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n sometime_o be_v trouble_v but_o it_o be_v a_o displeasure_n join_v with_o peace_n and_o tranquillity_n yea_o abound_v with_o influence_n of_o heaven_n and_o divine_a love_n a_o displeasure_n that_o rather_o increase_v than_o take_v away_o the_o peace_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o dispose_v she_o to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o god_n and_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o all_o christian_a virtue_n i_o know_v no_o better_a mean_n to_o be_v humble_v in_o our_o own_o eye_n and_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o other_o than_o the_o miscarriage_n that_o arrive_v by_o our_o manifold_a imperfection_n if_o i_o do_v a_o good_a action_n for_o which_o other_o think_v the_o worse_a of_o i_o i_o shall_v not_o seem_v so_o to_o myself_o but_o if_o i_o shall_v fall_v into_o a_o gross_a imperfection_n which_o neither_o i_o nor_o other_o discover_v how_o shall_v i_o be_v ashamed_a and_o learn_v thereby_o a_o lesson_n of_o mortification_n when_o nature_n be_v surprise_v and_o as_o it_o be_v amaze_v to_o see_v she_o own_o frailty_n what_o prop_n can_v she_o find_v to_o uphold_v her_o ambition_n she_o must_v needs_o be_v humble_v by_o this_o mean_n and_o so_o draw_v much_o good_a from_o evil_n who_o be_v we_o that_o we_o shall_v presume_v to_o think_v that_o out_o pain_n and_o industry_n can_v add_v any_o thing_n to_o augment_v god_n glory_n know_v we_o not_o that_o he_o be_v self-sufficient_a by_o reason_n of_o his_o infinite_a perfection_n and_o therefore_o so_o replenish_v with_o his_o own_o glory_n that_o all_o the_o glory_n creature_n can_v render_v to_o he_o be_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n alas_o the_o great_a saint_n in_o this_o respect_n can_v true_o say_v they_o be_v unprofitable_a servant_n all_o creature_n be_v oblige_v to_o serve_v their_o creator_n it_o be_v their_o duty_n and_o not_o to_o do_v it_o make_v they_o guilty_a but_o this_o bring_v no_o profit_n to_o god_n who_o be_v no_o less_o nor_o more_o happy_a in_o himself_o thereby_o but_o only_o from_o hence_o it_o proceed_v that_o he_o bestow_v on_o his_o servant_n great_a and_o glorious_a reward_n for_o my_o part_n i_o will_v never_o afflict_v myself_o nor_o be_v discourage_v for_o not_o do_v all_o the_o good_a i_o desire_v and_o aught_o to_o do_v in_o the_o charge_n incumbent_a on_o i_o but_o instead_o of_o be_v trouble_v with_o my_o own_o insufficiency_n i_o will_v rejoice_v in_o the_o all-sufficiency_n of_o god_n o_o my_o god_n what_o complacency_n do_v i_o take_v to_o see_v you_o so_o rich_a and_o so_o all-sufficient_a i_o be_o well_o content_a with_o my_o weakness_n see_v they_o make_v it_o more_o evident_a that_o you_o stand_v not_o in_o need_n of_o your_o creature_n o_o beautiful_a sun_n enrich_v with_o a_o infinite_a light_n live_v happy_a in_o yourself_o absorp_v in_o your_o own_o beam_n nothing_o can_v alter_v your_o felicity_n for_o all_o the_o sin_n of_o man_n or_o devil_n though_o they_o offend_v you_o yet_o do_v not_o hurt_v you_o no_o more_o than_o dirt_n cast_v against_o the_o sun_n will_v darken_v his_o splendour_n in_o his_o highnoon_n glory_n when_o i_o consider_v the_o defect_n in_o myself_o and_o the_o fault_n i_o have_v not_o hinder_v in_o other_o either_o for_o want_v of_o zeal_n or_o capacity_n i_o will_v exercise_v my_o mind_n in_o such_o thought_n as_o these_o o_o my_o god_n your_o beauty_n be_v not_o sully_v hereby_o nor_o your_o glory_n darken_v nor_o your_o mercy_n diminish_v i_o know_v it_o be_v my_o duty_n to_o be_v sorry_a for_o what_o sin_n offend_v your_o majesty_n but_o likewise_o i_o ought_v to_o rejoice_v that_o you_o be_v immutable_a in_o yourself_o and_o your_o blessedness_n can_v be_v disturb_v by_o our_o iniquity_n chap._n vii_o that_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v our_o intention_n purify_v from_o all_o self-interest_n the_o soul_n that_o seek_v pure_o to_o please_v god_n aught_o to_o be_v content_a with_o all_o design_n of_o providence_n whatsoever_o whether_o of_o mercy_n or_o justice_n give_v herself_o up_o whole_o into_o the_o hand_n of_o
god_n to_o deal_v with_o she_o as_o seem_v best_a please_v to_o he_o for_o aught_o she_o know_v it_o be_v best_o for_o she_o to_o be_v afflict_v and_o therefore_o she_o willing_o submit_v to_o god_n chastisement_n rejoice_v thereat_o and_o bless_v he_o for_o they_o yea_o if_o she_o may_v but_o bring_v glory_n to_o god_n thereby_o she_o be_v content_a to_o be_v cast_v into_o hell_n in_o this_o state_n her_o love_n be_v whole_o centre_v in_o god_n and_o she_o give_v herself_o up_o to_o the_o rigour_n of_o justice_n that_o she_o may_v be_v entir_o sacrifice_v to_o god_n glory_n which_o be_v a_o intention_n pure_a from_o all_o self-interest_n a_o indifferency_n to_o any_o state_n do_v possess_v that_o soul_n which_o have_v a_o well_o purify_v intention_n with_o a_o perfect_a resignation_n to_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n to_o remain_v content_a with_o her_o present_a condition_n be_v satisfy_v with_o whatsoever_o portion_n of_o grace_n she_o have_v receive_v with_o profound_a humility_n and_o mortification_n be_v thus_o dispose_v she_o have_v no_o mind_n to_o any_o thing_n but_o what_o please_v god_n and_o do_v that_o faithful_o and_o by_o this_o mean_n obtain_v wonderful_a peace_n of_o conscience_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n to_z will_v nothing_o but_o what_o god_n will_v require_v a_o great_a degree_n of_o mortification_n and_o be_v dead_a to_o all_o greature_n for_o this_o be_v the_o highway_n to_o the_o purity_n of_o divine_a love_n what_o do_v the_o ancient_a hermit_n search_n for_o in_o the_o desert_n but_o by_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n to_o arrive_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o divine_a love_n let_v we_o fear_v and_o sigh_v to_o see_v ourselves_o so_o engage_v and_o beset_v with_o several_a temptation_n in_o the_o world_n it_o be_v a_o hard_a matter_n but_o some_o or_o other_o may_v cease_v upon_o we_o and_o rob_v we_o of_o that_o perfect_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n which_o put_v we_o in_o full_a possession_n of_o god_n alone_o it_o be_v a_o special_a favour_n of_o god_n to_o have_v a_o vocation_n to_o the_o poor_a and_o abject_a state_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o it_o be_v no_o small_a grace_n when_o god_n conduct_n we_o to_o they_o by_o a_o happy_a necessity_n with_o little_a noise_n or_o stir_v to_o call_v the_o eye_n of_o other_o upon_o we_o it_o be_v well_o enough_o if_o the_o soul_n consent_v pure_o to_o the_o ordination_n and_o event_n of_o divine_a providence_n chap._n viii_o a_o conference_n clear_v many_o difficulty_n touch_v prayer_n qu_n in_o what_o consist_v precise_o good_a mental_a prayer_n i_o find_v many_o sort_n thereof_o in_o book_n the_o saint_n have_v practise_v it_o with_o much_o difference_n and_o yet_o all_o so_o good_a that_o i_o be_o take_v with_o they_o to_o which_o of_o they_o shall_v i_o betake_v myself_o ans_fw-fr the_o way_n of_o soul_n in_o mental_a prayer_n be_v so_o wonderful_a various_a that_o it_o be_v best_a for_o every_o one_o to_o hold_v to_o that_o which_o they_o find_v most_o proper_a for_o they_o or_o else_o they_o will_v loose_v their_o time_n in_o a_o wilderness_n of_o thought_n without_o spiritual_a profit_n hence_o it_o be_v that_o in_o mystical_a author_n we_o seldom_o meet_v with_o what_o be_v proper_a for_o every_o soul_n and_o though_o we_o find_v very_o sublime_a and_o solid_a verity_n concern_v prayer_n in_o the_o write_n of_o st._n teresa_n bless_a john_n de_fw-fr la_fw-fr croix_n and_o other_o yet_o they_o have_v but_o describe_v their_o own_o experience_n and_o not_o how_o the_o case_n stand_v with_o other_o soul_n unless_o a_o light_a discovery_n in_o some_o thing_n agreeable_a to_o their_o illumination_n such_o instruction_n be_v good_a to_o read_v but_o not_o exact_o to_o be_v follow_v so_o as_o to_o conform_v ourselves_o entire_o to_o their_o manner_n of_o prayer_n we_o shall_v find_v in_o such_o book_n matter_n very_o profitable_a and_o it_o be_v time_n well_o spend_v in_o spiritual_a lecture_n and_o not_o without_o delight_n to_o virtuous_a soul_n qu._n from_o whence_o proceed_v these_o different_a manner_n of_o prayer_n seeing_z there_o be_v but_o one_o sovereign_a and_o single_a verity_n in_o god_n to_o be_v know_v one_o sovereign_a good_a to_o be_v love_v and_o charity_n be_v of_o the_o selfsame_a nature_n in_o all_o soul_n one_o will_v think_v there_o aught_o to_o be_v a_o great_a conformity_n among_o all_o those_o who_o know_v and_o love_n god_n ans_fw-fr that_o which_o make_v so_o many_o different_a manner_n of_o prayer_n arise_v from_o the_o different_a manner_n of_o know_v god_n some_o converse_v with_o he_o by_o meditation_n and_o humane_a ratiocination_n other_o receive_v from_o god_n heavenly_a irradiation_n above_o the_o power_n of_o reason_n by_o which_o he_o manifest_v himself_o immediate_o to_o the_o soul_n as_o the_o sun_n by_o his_o beam_n other_o contemplate_n god_n by_o the_o obscure_a light_n of_o faith_n in_o a_o ineffable_a manner_n which_o be_v a_o kind_n of_o see_v he_o without_o see_v he_o these_o different_a manner_n of_o treat_v with_o god_n make_v not_o only_o different_a manner_n of_o prayer_n but_o cause_n also_o much_o diversity_n in_o every_o manner_n for_o example_n in_o the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n which_o seem_v more_o simple_a than_o the_o other_o there_o be_v many_o degree_n which_o represent_v to_o the_o soul_n different_a view_v of_o god_n and_o divine_a matter_n when_o faith_n be_v seat_v in_o a_o understanding_n well_o purify_v from_o image_n and_o alien_a representation_n she_o than_o discover_v god_n more_o sublime_o as_o he_o be_v in_o himself_o though_o but_o in_o a_o manner_n negative_a general_a and_o confuse_a yet_o efficacious_a to_o work_v in_o the_o heart_n a_o great_a esteem_n of_o god_n and_o ardent_a charity_n all_o book_n and_o sermon_n and_o conference_n will_v not_o satisfy_v a_o soul_n advance_v to_o this_o kind_n of_o know_v god_n for_o those_o manner_n of_o speak_v and_o conceive_v god_n seem_v to_o she_o too_o full_a of_o imperfection_n i'faith_o whole_o purify_v content_v herself_o with_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o the_o light_n of_o glory_n which_o discover_v god_n in_o his_o infinity_o although_o but_o obscure_o and_o according_a to_o the_o measure_n that_o faith_n be_v more_o or_o less_o pure_a and_o simple_a these_o discovery_n be_v more_o or_o less_o perfect_a qu._n be_v all_o sort_n of_o people_n capable_a of_o these_o sublime_a manner_n of_o prayer_n and_o if_o any_o one_o desire_n to_o attain_v they_o by_o what_o mean_n must_v he_o go_v about_o it_o ans_fw-fr the_o gift_n of_o prayer_n be_v not_o proper_a for_o all_o people_n yea_o some_o great_a saint_n have_v never_o have_v it_o as_o some_o good_a servant_n of_o god_n who_o have_v become_v holy_a in_o the_o exercise_n of_o a_o active_a life_n which_o will_v not_o afford_v they_o much_o time_n for_o contemplation_n and_o accustom_a themselves_o to_o the_o ordinary_a method_n of_o meditation_n which_o be_v good_a and_o advantageous_a for_o such_o soul_n who_o god_n call_v not_o to_o a_o more_o sublime_a way_n those_o who_o god_n favour_v with_o the_o extraordinary_a gift_n of_o prayer_n do_v possess_v a_o inestimable_a treasure_n and_o with_o this_o only_a grace_n which_o be_v the_o source_n of_o many_o more_o they_o be_v rich_a enough_o though_o never_o so_o poor_a in_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n but_o see_v it_o be_v the_o mere_a gift_n of_o god_n i_o account_v it_o folly_n and_o rashness_n to_o think_v we_o can_v bring_v ourselves_o to_o the_o sublime_a state_n of_o contemplation_n unless_o god_n elevate_v we_o by_o his_o immediate_a work_n and_o special_a favour_n all_o that_o we_o can_v do_v therein_o be_v to_o dispose_v ourselves_o by_o correspond_v faithful_o to_o the_o motion_n of_o grace_n by_o die_v daily_o to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n in_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n and_o leave_v god_n to_o do_v the_o rest_n except_o god_n build_v the_o house_n they_o labour_v in_o vain_a who_o think_v to_o raise_v the_o edifice_n by_o their_o own_o ability_n qu._n a_o soul_n establish_v in_o a_o sublime_a manner_n of_o prayer_n and_o that_o have_v a_o long_a time_n practise_v it_o can_v she_o easy_o fall_v from_o this_o state_n ans_fw-fr if_o such_o a_o soul_n give_v herself_o over_o to_o her_o sensual_a inclination_n and_o commit_v gross_a imperfection_n become_v faithless_a to_o god_n holy_a inspiration_n she_o may_v fall_v from_o it_o but_o it_o be_v very_o credible_a she_o will_v return_v to_o it_o for_o she_o can_v long_o endure_v the_o loss_n of_o so_o great_a a_o happiness_n without_o force_v herself_o by_o her_o humiliation_n and_o penitence_n to_o recover_v her_o former_a state_n and_o as_o much_o as_o she_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n so_o much_o she_o advance_v to_o god_n but_o she_o can_v never_o attain_v it_o without_o practice_n a_o fidelity_n and_o therefore_o it_o high_o concern_v she_o to_o free_v herself_o from_o too_o many_o worldly_a affair_n and_o love_v retirement_n notwithstanding_o those_o which_o god_n require_v of_o we_o as_o belong_v to_o our_o duty_n will_v not_o hinder_v we_o from_o arise_v to_o such_o a_o degree_n of_o prayer_n as_o god_n have_v prepare_v for_o we_o from_o all_o eternity_n qu._n the_o most_o elevate_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n be_v not_o without_o darkness_n and_o privation_n and_o sometime_o perplex_v with_o interiour_n cross_n and_o desolation_n but_o be_v there_o not_o a_o state_n of_o light_n and_o enjoyment_n to_o be_v attain_v here_o wherein_o the_o soul_n may_v possess_v god_n clear_o and_o peaceable_o without_o any_o disturbance_n ans_fw-fr no_o the_o permanent_a state_n of_o enjoyment_n be_v reserve_v for_o heaven_n in_o this_o life_n indeed_o we_o be_v visit_v without_o divine_a irradiation_n and_o glimmering_n of_o glory_n but_o they_o be_v only_o now_o and_o then_o and_o transient_a the_o term_n of_o this_o life_n be_v work_v time_n and_o not_o of_o rest_n for_o acquisition_n not_o possession_n where_o the_o soul_n may_v daily_o purchase_v new_a grace_n and_o advance_v herself_o in_o prayer_n according_a to_o her_o progress_n in_o virtue_n and_o purity_n by_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o call_v of_o god_n on_o all_o occasion_n god_n usual_a way_n be_v to_o make_v soul_n pass_v through_o darkness_n temptation_n dereliction_n desolation_n exterior_a and_o interiour_n suffering_n to_o come_v to_o a_o good_a stock_n of_o virtue_n and_o a_o high_a degree_n of_o purity_n which_o raise_v they_o to_o a_o more_o sublime_a state_n of_o prayer_n and_o be_v exercise_v some_o way_n or_o other_o to_o raise_v they_o near_o to_o heaven_n by_o spiritual_a ascension_n they_o at_o length_n leave_v time_n to_o meet_v with_o eternity_n neither_o must_v we_o wonder_v to_o see_v the_o way_n of_o the_o just_a thus_o beset_v with_o thorn_n and_o briar_n for_o this_o be_v expedient_a to_o advance_v they_o in_o perfection_n and_o divine_a love_n qu._n how_o much_o time_n must_v we_o employ_v daily_o in_o prayer_n if_o we_o mean_v to_o profit_v thereby_o so_o as_o to_o attain_v perfection_n ans_fw-fr we_o can_v much_o advance_v in_o prayer_n without_o a_o long_a and_o constant_a usuage_n of_o this_o divine_a exercise_n it_o be_v not_o enough_o to_o do_v good_a work_n but_o we_o must_v spend_v some_o hour_n in_o our_o daily_a devotion_n it_o be_v by_o prayer_n we_o advance_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n and_o not_o otherwise_o we_o must_v be_v careful_a to_o employ_v much_o time_n in_o the_o exercise_n thereof_o if_o god_n call_v we_o to_o it_o and_o not_o apply_v ourselves_o to_o the_o active_a way_n let_v we_o not_o be_v too_o solicitous_a to_o discharge_v our_o other_o obligation_n for_o a_o soul_n in_o the_o state_n of_o continual_a prayer_n perform_v ready_o what_o she_o ought_v on_o all_o occasion_n when_o the_o time_n come_v for_o confession_n she_o be_v present_o all_o dolorous_a love_n &_o contrition_n when_o she_o communicate_v she_o be_v all_o humility_n all_o desire_n and_o flame_a affection_n when_o she_o be_v to_o correct_v she_o be_v all_o sweetness_n and_o charity_n when_o she_o be_v to_o help_v her_o neighbour_n she_o be_v all_o zeal_n and_o love_n when_o she_o must_v act_v for_o god_n she_o have_v a_o intention_n purify_v from_o all_o self-interest_n and_o all_o this_o she_o perform_v in_o virtue_n of_o prayer_n as_o it_o be_v without_o distinct_a act_n but_o habitual_o and_o in_o a_o excellent_a sublime_a manner_n by_o the_o special_a operation_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n and_o not_o by_o meditation_n or_o consideration_n which_o be_v mean_n only_o to_o find_v god_n a_o soul_n that_o thus_o once_o have_v lay_v hold_n on_o god_n do_v take_v her_o repose_n and_o rest_n in_o he_o make_v it_o her_o only_a business_n to_o love_n and_o worship_n he_o in_o spirit_n and_o truth_n finis_fw-la
the_o poor_a we_o be_v in_o spirit_n the_o rich_a we_o be_v in_o grace_n the_o more_o a_o soul_n be_v nothing_o in_o herself_o the_o more_o god_n be_v all_o in_o she_o and_o be_v please_v to_o work_v great_a thing_n for_o she_o jesus_n present_v himself_o to_o my_o spirit_n in_o my_o second_o prayer_n discover_v to_o i_o in_o general_a the_o different_a state_n of_o his_o life_n passive_a in_o his_o suffering_n active_a in_o virtue_n and_o how_o he_o be_v the_o origen_n and_o source_n of_o all_o purity_n to_o which_o we_o aspire_v by_o a_o spiritual_a life_n i_o conceive_v first_o that_o there_o be_v a_o purity_n of_o suffering_n which_o be_v great_a indeed_o when_o we_o suffer_v without_o seek_v relief_n carry_v this_o cross_n for_o god_n sake_n as_o long_o as_o he_o please_v there_o be_v a_o purity_n of_o action_n when_o we_o act_n not_o whether_o interior_o or_o exterior_o but_o by_o the_o motion_n of_o god_n spirit_n with_o pure_a intention_n here_o argument_n of_o humane_a reason_n be_v cut_v off_o and_o we_o stir_v not_o without_o some_o impression_n of_o grace_n work_v only_o for_o god_n by_o his_o work_n in_o we_o we_o must_v labour_v hard_a and_o be_v perfect_o dead_a to_o the_o world_n before_o we_o can_v come_v to_o this_o state_n of_o purity_n there_o be_v a_o purity_n of_o intention_n when_o we_o have_v only_o a_o eye_n to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n to_o do_v what_o please_v he_o without_o act_v upon_o other_o motive_n though_o good_a and_o laudable_a wherein_o seem_v to_o be_v some_o self-interest_n as_o fear_v to_o offend_v to_o be_v faithful_a to_o god_n call_n to_o be_v more_o love_v and_o reward_v a_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n have_v no_o regard_n to_o herself_o but_o sole_o to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n her_o end_n and_o object_n there_o be_v a_o purity_n of_o employment_n when_o a_o soul_n will_v not_o divert_v her_o thought_n from_o god_n but_o by_o order_n from_o god_n himself_o by_o some_o motion_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n hence_o we_o shun_v unnecessary_a visit_n unprofitable_a word_n superfluous_a occupation_n and_o that_o be_v superfluous_a to_o one_o soul_n which_o be_v not_o to_o another_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o different_a degree_n of_o grace_n impart_v to_o they_o we_o must_v suffer_v many_o mortification_n to_o attain_v this_o purity_n and_o such_o a_o soul_n must_v fear_v nothing_o more_o than_o infidelity_n this_o be_v but_o a_o branch_n of_o the_o purity_n of_o action_n there_o be_v a_o purity_n of_o virtue_n when_o we_o practise_v only_o what_o god_n will_v have_v we_o to_o do_v there_o be_v a_o purity_n of_o spiritual_a delight_n when_o the_o superior_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n receive_v no_o consolation_n willing_o from_o any_o creature_n or_o sensual_a thing_n but_o stand_v upon_o her_o guard_n to_o keep_v they_o out_o and_o there_o be_v a_o purity_n of_o prayer_n when_o the_o soul_n elevate_v above_o herself_o by_o the_o working_n of_o god_n in_o she_o be_v in_o ecstasy_n of_o spirit_n and_o unite_v to_o god_n alone_o by_o contemplation_n a_o soul_n that_o once_o have_v have_v a_o feel_n of_o god_n in_o she_o see_v a_o infinite_a difference_n between_o he_o and_o the_o holy_a creature_n and_o enter_v into_o a_o great_a interior_a solitude_n converse_v with_o god_n alone_o all_o these_o sort_n of_o purity_n appear_v to_o i_o in_o the_o interiour_n of_o jesus_n as_o in_o their_o source_n in_o my_o three_o prayer_n i_o come_v to_o know_v that_o the_o mystery_n or_o state_n of_o jesus_n christ_n be_v not_o only_o the_o exemplar_n but_o also_o the_o efficient_a of_o our_o state_n so_o that_o we_o suffer_v not_o only_o to_o imitate_v jesus_n in_o his_o suffering_n but_o because_o jesus_n by_o his_o suffering_n imprint_n on_o we_o the_o virtue_n of_o his_o spirit_n to_o give_v we_o the_o grace_n to_o suffer_v for_o he_o when_o we_o pray_v it_o be_v not_o only_a to_o imitate_v jesus_n in_o contemplation_n but_o because_o he_o infuse_v into_o our_o heart_n the_o gift_n of_o prayer_n by_o his_o holy_a spirit_n and_o if_o a_o soul_n arrive_v to_o that_o height_n as_o to_o possess_v jesus_n christ_n in_o a_o extraordinary_a manner_n he_o than_o do_v all_o in_o she_o and_o for_o she_o she_o be_v only_o pliable_a to_o his_o divine_a operation_n we_o can_v continue_v in_o this_o state_n without_o wonderful_a purity_n the_o least_o sally_n of_o immortified_a nature_n will_v much_o endamage_v it_o how_o often_o have_v god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v i_o experience_n of_o this_o when_o jesus_n unite_n himself_o unto_o i_o in_o the_o holy_a communion_n annihilate_v all_o my_o thought_n word_n and_o affection_n to_o become_v to_o i_o all_o thing_n in_o i_o he_o be_v my_o thankfulness_n my_o offer_n my_o humility_n my_o charity_n my_o prayer_n and_o i_o do_v nothing_o but_o remain_v unite_v to_o he_o who_o work_v all_o for_o my_o soul_n as_o it_o be_v annihilate_v in_o his_o presence_n word_n as_o well_o as_o thought_n fail_v we_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o word_n who_o plead_v to_o his_o father_n for_o those_o soul_n he_o possess_v in_o such_o a_o mysterious_a manner_n what_o marvel_n be_v there_o hide_v beyond_o expression_n in_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o consider_v that_o be_v a_o christian_n i_o have_v a_o strict_a obligation_n to_o follow_v christ_n but_o beside_o that_o general_a tie_n i_o have_v a_o special_a vocation_n to_o imitate_v jesus_n in_o his_o humiliation_n to_o follow_v he_o in_o this_o way_n with_o purity_n i_o must_v forsake_v all_o grandeur_n and_o be_v content_a with_o poverty_n and_o objection_n and_o labour_v stout_o for_o a_o perfect_a abnegation_n of_o myself_o since_o god_n have_v give_v i_o a_o generous_a resolution_n to_o sacrifice_v myself_o whole_o to_o his_o service_n i_o will_v follow_v his_o call_n though_o i_o die_v for_o it_o methinks_v i_o be_o enable_v to_o do_v it_o with_o great_a peace_n and_o liberty_n of_o spirit_n what_o evil_a can_v happen_v to_o i_o if_o i_o die_v for_o god_n who_o die_v for_o i_o those_o who_o choose_v to_o be_v poor_a out_o of_o desire_n to_o follow_v jesus_n be_v peculiar_a object_n of_o god_n care_n and_o providence_n which_o extend_v itself_o to_o all_o man_n but_o especial_o to_o those_o who_o be_v the_o lively_a image_n of_o his_o son_n he_o be_v their_o father_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n and_o set_v a_o watch_n about_o they_o more_o than_o other_o for_o be_v it_o possible_a he_o shall_v not_o give_v bread_n to_o they_o who_o leave_v all_o their_o temporal_n to_o serve_v he_o better_o and_o love_v he_o pure_a let_v we_o stifle_v all_o humane_a reason_n on_o this_o subject_n let_v we_o go_v whither_o grace_n call_v we_o and_o fear_v nothing_o if_o we_o die_v in_o the_o service_n it_o will_v be_v happy_a for_o we_o it_o be_v a_o great_a favour_n from_o god_n when_o we_o breathe_v out_o our_o soul_n in_o the_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n five_o day_n jesus_n zelator_n of_o soul_n in_o my_o first_o prayer_n i_o apply_v myself_o to_o jesus_n as_o zelator_n of_o soul_n for_o who_o he_o give_v his_o most_o precious_a blood_n i_o behold_v what_o i_o can_v not_o comprehend_v that_o this_o zeal_n of_o jesus_n for_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n be_v infinite_a it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o soul_n receive_v some_o small_a portion_n of_o this_o holy_a zeal_n and_o i_o be_v powerful_o incline_v to_o lay_v out_o myself_o for_o my_o neighbour_n good_a offer_v myself_o to_o god_n to_o do_v and_o suffer_v what_o he_o please_v but_o i_o perceive_v this_o zeal_n for_o soul_n must_v be_v infuse_v into_o we_o we_o must_v not_o run_v before_o we_o be_v send_v otherwise_o we_o shall_v neither_o do_v good_a for_o other_o nor_o ourselves_o but_o disturb_v our_o interiour_n and_o commit_v many_o disorder_n when_o this_o zeal_n be_v kindle_v in_o our_o soul_n by_o the_o breathe_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n it_o put_v nothing_o out_o of_o order_n but_o we_o go_v in_o perfection_n and_o advance_v in_o prayer_n however_o all_o must_v be_v regulate_v by_o prudence_n lest_o we_o outrun_v our_o call_n and_o hurt_v ourselves_o while_o we_o will_v do_v good_a to_o other_o for_o our_o care_n must_v be_v to_o procure_v the_o good_a of_o other_o according_a to_o the_o grace_n confer_v upon_o we_o some_o in_o a_o active_a life_n by_o preach_v and_o instruct_v some_o by_o work_n of_o corporal_a charity_n other_o by_o offer_v up_o to_o god_n their_o contemplative_a life_n their_o solitude_n their_o austerity_n their_o suffering_n their_o prayer_n there_o be_v many_o way_n to_o be_v instrumental_a for_o the_o good_a of_o other_o let_v every_o one_o employ_v his_o proper_a talon_n our_o bless_a saviour_n be_v near_o his_o passion_n leave_v we_o as_o a_o legacy_n this_o divine_a commandment_n love_v you_o one_o