in him of him comes all our good and not from our selues And the more good we haue the greater debters of his wee are and soe much more we haue whereof to accuse our selues as not corresponding to greater fauours by greater seruices and to greater benefits by greater acknowledgments He who is taught by the diuine truth attributes nothing to himselfe but Not being and sinning For if wee remoue all that which God gaue vs when he created vs and which euery day he conserues in vs wee shall not finde any being in vs but onely a nothing and that to nothing we should returne as of nothing we are made And taking alsoe away the fauour of God which through Iesus Christ is communicated vs what should become of the greatest Saint on earth but that which became of Peeter when he denyed his Lord and of Paule who persecuted him that had redeemed him and that which euery one findes by experience that himselfe was before our Lord carryed his hand ouer him taking from him his old hart and giuing him a new one in place thereof Iustification is nothing else but a resurrection of the soule which was dead in sinne and now liues by the spiritt of that life which God infused into it by the death of his blessed sonne And as that body should bee both madd and foolish which would attribute life and motion to it selfe and not to the soule which dwells in it and giues it life soe is that soule deadly blinde which esteemes that the life of good workes which she findes her selfe to haue doth proceede from her selfe and not from the spirit of that life which was infused into her by Almighty God And sometymes God punishes such soules as these by taking away that which formerly hee had giuen them to the end that obseruing that they can neither see nor heare nor taste nor in fine doe that which formerly they did it may be plaine to them that it was some other who imparted that life which was in them and that they did but receiue it that the soule is noe other thing without the grace of Iesus Christ then the body is when the soule departs from the same And therefore my freind be sure that thou see noe other thing in thy selfe but faultes and know that thou hast nothing else of thine owne If our Lord discomfors thee consider how weake and poore thou growest and with how little conformity thou receiuest that which thou doest soe well deserue If he comfort thee consider with how little humility thou receiuest it it being reason that thou shouldst soe much the more abase thy selfe as God honours thee and that by soe much more thou shouldst be confounded with shame as thou seest that God treates thee as though thou wert good when indeede thou art not soe Consider how little profitt thou makest of the inspirations and inward speeches of our Lord and how often our Lord saith somewhat to thee and how soone thou forgettest to put it in execution it being reason that euery word of his should last with thee all the dayes of thy life without any neede of repeating it How often doeth our Lord infuse pretious liquor into thee and thou hauing a hart all full of holes doest suffer that to bee spilt which in reason thou shouldest keepe a long tyme And though it would be sitt that how much more God comforts thee soe much more thou shouldst forgett and neglect the comforts of this world and soe much more vnite and shutt vp thy soule to the end that thou mightest againe and againe receiue God into it it happens sometymes that by the comfort which he giues vs wee are made more giddy through our owne lightnes and wee scatter and powre out our harts more then before What shall wee say of our frailties but that euery thing being well examined we finde that wee doe nothing right and that it were much reason that we should rather be confounded by considering how faultily it is performed then that once it should passe by the least parte of our thoughts that we had done any thing which were worth the looking on It is certaine that if a Page serue a king and that he make him not due reuerence they will punish him If he answeare not or doe it not soone enough or giue not a quicke account of any message they will alsoe punish him And in fine they whome we serue are not contented though we doe what they bidd vs but withall we must doe it well if we meane not to be reprehended and reproached And tell mee now my freind which of vs is he who carryes such a profound reuerence to our Lord as is fitt where is that adoration of such an incomprehensible Maiesty and such a profound internall kind of trembling as they haue in heauen of whome it is said in the holy Masse That the Powers tremble Where is that confusion and shame which we should haue to appeare before that infinite wisedome which well doth see what kind of things we are which discouers vs to the very bottome where is that soe exact obedience as that we should not neede to haue the same thing commaunded twice where is that discretiō wherewith we ought to serue such a thing as God where is the gratitude which is due for soe innumerable and soe vnspeakeable benefitts And lastly where is that seruice both of body and soule which is deserued by soe high a lord and soe great a God Certainely hee who hath eyes to see will neuer discouer in himselfe any thing els but a profoundity of miseries and faultes And when in the euening hee takes account of himselfe what kind of man he hath beene all that day he findes nothing but errours which he hath committed in thinking speaking and doeing and he findes diuers good workes which hee hath failed to doe by not hauing loued and being thankfull to God and by not hauing loued and not hauing supported the weakenes of his neighbour as he ought to haue done besides innumerable other things which he should haue performed and hath omitted And if with the fauour of our Lord he haue done any thing which was good he sindes that hee spotted it with pride or vaine glory or tepidity or with not answering God as he was bound to doe or with two thousand other faultes which God makes him know and with two thousand others which yet he is not able to discerne but yet he beleiues that there they are and for soe wicked doth hee esteeme himselfe as that the least parte of his sinnes he holds to be that which he discouers For as he knowes that God is more good then he is able to conceiue soe alsoe doth he beleiue that himselfe is more wicked then he can arriue to vnderstand And though God doe him fauours yet doth he not attribute to himselfe any parte thereof but onely the faultes which he committed in not answearing and profiting thereby as
lyer the father of lyes and some after the end of many labours and teares haue sweate hard to returne into the freindshipp of God though through all their life they continued with this dagger in their hart of How haue I offended God hauing vouchsafed mee soe many blessings And it seemed to them as if they enioyed not the benefitt of his pardon through the continual greife and shame which they had for committing the offence Others there are whoe being once gone away neuer turne againe like ill made hawkes whoe flying from the fist of their Lord fall to feede vpon carryon and being soe fleshed returne noe more and hauing formerly tasted the foode of Angells Luc. 15 growe to take delight in the huskes of swyne Of these S. Peter saith 2. Pet 2. That it had beene better for them not to haue knowne the way of our lord then to leaue it after it was knowne And it happens to them as to the dogge who returnes to eate what he had vomitted as to the hogg whoe wallowes in his myre from side to side And our Lord himselfe said Luc. 9 That he who puts his hand to the plowgh and lookes backe is not fitt for the kingdome of heauen but returnes to be worldly againe and is both made an obiect of scorne to the deuill and is alsoe placed as a marke to fright others from offending God In this sorte did the wife of Loth vndoe her selfe Gen. 19. For God hauing vouchsafed her soe great a fauour as to deliuer her from the fyre which came from heauen vpon Sodam and Gomorrah where shee dwelt and commaunding her not to looke backe againe she obeyed not his voice but turning her head backe was transformed into a pillar of salte which beasts licke vp And heere it is to be cōsidered that if God punished her soe seuerely whoe had not beene a sinner in that Citty but onely because she obeyed not his commaundement of not looking backe for what can the sinner hope whoe is deliuered from the punishment of God through his great mercy if yet dispising that excessiue goodnes he turne back his hart towards the flesh potts of Egypt and his sinnes past I beseech God euen for God's owne sake to deliuer euery soule from falling downe into soe great a misery as this For as S. Paule affirmes Heb. 11 it is a fearefull and horrible thing to fall into the hands of the liuing God and what is man that he should be able to endure the wrath and fury of Almighty God For as any huge fire is able to deuoure some little woefull straw soe doth the mighty wrath of God swallow vp the soules bodyes of all such persons as depart from him And as when some wife whoe had beene deerely beloued by her husband committs the fowle sinne of adultery that husband is inraged soe much the more against her at she had bene more beloued by him soe that wrath of God is very vnsufferable which he expresses against that soule which he had formerly drawne out of the captiuity of sinne and of bound had made free and being naked and voyd of grace had made rich and rarely adorned with the same grace and of a wicked slaue had exalted to be his most honoured beloued wife What would such a woman deserue who being vngratefull for soe great fauours I say not should committ adultery against such a generous and pious husband but through whose hart any such thought should once passe though shee were a thowsand mile off from the fact Who could euer thinke of giuing a buffett to one that had endured soe many for him and to put fresh dishonours to crucifye a secōd tyme that person whose former wounds it were much more fitt for him to bathe dresse and asswage then to add new ones to the old What kinde of wickednes shall wee call it which is able euen to amaze and astonish the world for one to leaue God for the deuill and hauing beene walking in the way to heauen to goe thrust his very feete into hell and to like better to haue to doe with God inraged then with God all gentle and appeased Madam I haue not written this as thinking that this misery will lay hould on you For my confidence is not in you but in him whoe with soe much mercy and pitty redeemed you out of the captiuity wherein you were and taught you soe well what belongs to his loue as to haue giuen you cleerely to vnderstand thereby that hee meant not to vndertake the busines in iest neither will hee that either you or I shall make a iest thereof In this lord who loues with soe great fidelity doe I place my confidence and not in you whoe haue kept so ill correspondance with his true loue But I haue written this to the end that of your selfe you may hunt out a litle sent of the danger wherein you are that you may recōmend your selfe more and more to our Lord and in fine that you may be soe discreete as not to cast away your tyme in the admitting of vnprofitable thoughts Our lord will cleere vp these things and will finish that which he hath begunne and will not take this Crowne from mee and therefore am I in patience and hope that you shall not depriue mee of that which God hath giuen mee You haue heere many seruants of God both men and woemen who recommend you to his mercy with much care and I beseech him to graunt it most completely to you Amen A Letter of the Authour to a Lady at the Feast of the Epiphany or three kings Wherein hee shewes how shee is to goe and adore the Infant Iesus with those kings being guided by the starre of faith and that shee is to offer him the gould of diuine loue I Wrote to your Ladyship this last Aduent of the great fauour which our Lord did vs in vouchsafing to come to vs and of the happines of that soule which disposes himselfe to receiue him I hope in his mercy that hee is come home to you and that you haue receiued him with faith and loue And therefore now there remaines noe more but that you offer your selfe in perpetuall sacrifice to him who hath vouchsafed to offer himselfe to you as a deere guest and that you imitate the faith and presents which were made by those wise men to the Blessed Infant as soone as they found him out as you haue already imitated them in the care they had to finde him It will doe well that you contemplate how this great lord is soe humbled in that poore open stable and that maunger where the naturall discourse and humaine reason of those kings was farre from thinking that they should finde him But the starre which with vs is Faith refuses expresly to passe any further on and declares with most resplendent beames as by soe many tongues that hee who is aboue all reason and
imployed but that wherein you suffer something for your beloued which alone ought to giue you comfort and ground to thinke that you loue our lord For as for other things though you should be taken vp to the third heauen you knowe not whether you loue your selfe therein or him For perhaps it is but the delight in hauing that fulfilled which you desire and not purely because that is done which is pleasing to God And since you are already dedicated to the loue of God and are redeemed by him see that you still be doeing your duty exactly well that soe like a good huswife you may appeare at the day of iudgment all rich with loue and euen cut in pieces in this warre after the imitation of Christ our lord who dyed in this battaile by the hands of loue Inuiting as many as loue him to suffer of that which he suffered and to answere with loue to his loue and being ready to giue himselfe as an eternall reward to them who passe through these amorous aflictions for his sake and your ladyship shall be one of them by the greate mercie of him who hath made election of you for this purpose A Letter of the Authour to a Cauallier his freind who was sicke and desired to enter into Religion The Authour shewes that the carrying of the Crosse in the company of Christ our Lord is exercised best in sicknes when it is borne with patience He also defends the Fathers of the Society of Iesus aduifing him also to esteeme them the rather because he had beene instructed by them YOu doe well in being contented to serue in that house of our great Lord in the Office of being sicke For to passe from doeing to suffering is a signe that Christ our lord aduaunces his seruants raises them from belowe the staires to attend aboue Certainly there is nothing in this exile of ours which is soe fitt for vs as to carry the Crosse in company of our lord who did soe loue it who for loue dyed vpon it Now this is better exercised in sicknes which is soe vnsauoury to flesh and bloud and which caÌ„not cause vain glory in the patieÌ„t then in health how well soeuer it be employed Great were the workes which Christ our Lord performed in this mortall life but in his sufferring he exceeded them all all the world That soe wee might vnderstaÌ„d what the Apostle S. Iames saith Brethren â— Iames 1. esteeme it as a reason of supreme ioy to see your selues in many afflictions And the same Apostle saith that the worke of patâ—ence is perfect Soe that you must be gratâ—full to our lord for hauing sent you sicknesse and if you beare this Crosse burden well he may perhaps aduaÌ„ce you to the carrying of others which are more interiour and irkesome and which he prouides for such alone as are his nearest freinds that so they may comforme themselues to him whose Crosse was extremely great euen in that which was to be seene but incomparably more extreame in that part thereof which was inuisible And though it may seeme to you that God hath taken away your other Offices or imployments because you gaue him not a good account thereof yet forbeare not to be thankefull to him who hath ordered the matter as now wee see For to be corrected by the hand of such a father and with soe great loue puts vs rather into neede of humility for the moderating of our ioy and comfort then of patience wherewith to endure the punishment But yet neuertheles I am in some feare that perhaps you may not profit by this feauer of yours For some beginners are wonte to giue liberty to the soule in the infirmities of their body though yet they be not such as threaten daunger or death It is a thing very contrary to reason for a man to turne Phisick into poyson and to take occasion of growing worse by that which was sent a man by our Lord to make him better Call therefore vpon him with your hart and beseech him that since he strikes you Gen 33. in the strength of your body it may be to make you goe more lightly towards him with your soule And forasmuch as this siâ—â—enes is sent you that your body by the payne thereof may pay for that sinne which hath beene committed by the same body you must not suffer it to be the occasion of your incurring new debts since it was meant that it should discharge the ould You must liue with great reflection vpon your self and giue noe credit to flesh and blood in all that which it shall desire of you but offer it to the Crosse of our lord in the company of his owne holy spirit And he who was content to let his Crosse be sided by the Crosses of two murdering theeues will not driue you from him And since you cannot now continue your custome of meditation or spirituall reading as you would yet faile not to be doeing somewhat the best you can so that it be without euident disaduantage to your health For our lord is soe powerfull and soe good as that he giues strength to such as haue a mynde to take paines And sometimes he bestowes more fauour vpon sick men in they re beds who cannot pray then vpon others who spend many houres in that holy exercise And perhaps he will vouchsafe this mercy to you since it costs him noe more then his very will And I beseech you for the loue of our lord Eph. 4. Vt non circumferaris omuivento doctrinae that you be not whirled about with euery wynde of doctrine and that you esteeme of those persons by whose meanes our lord hath shewed mercy on you Imitating the man who was borne blinde in the ghospell Iohn 9 From whome noe persuasion of any man could take the good opinion which he entertained of that person who had cured him of his continuall blindnes He tooke that benefitt for a great token of the goodnes of his Maister when he sayd si peccator est nescio vnuÌ„ scio quod cum cacus essem modo video whether or noe he be a sinner I cannot tell but one thing I knowe that I who was blinde doe now see And though he said as we haue heard yet he beleiued well that his Maister was a iust person as may appeare by the holy kinde of earnestnes which he vsed towards the Iewes and besides by our lords making himself knowen to him in the temple in reward of that faith which he defended My selfe haue heard some things which are said by such as oppose and emulate those Fathers but I find not yet that any one of them is grounded vpon reason neither doe I beleiue that there is any but yet I like well that yet when you defend them it bee rather with meekenes and few words then otherwise For our lord hath these thinges in great recommandation and his pleasure is that they should be carried
not perhapps the commaundements of God more worthy to be desired then thousands of gold and siluer where shall we finde a true paire of scales to weigh euery thing out for iust as much as it is that soe we may not thus for euer liue in lyes Men fly as farre as they cann from being deceiued in their temporall states But why fly they not with greater diligence from being deceiued in some what els which imports them more They complaine if they be cosened in halfe the worth of any thing which they are to buy yea and there is noe meanes to appease them but they will needes be seeking a remedy against that abuse And yet they are very ready to loose their soules for a little gaine or for an act of murmurring or some other sinne And we cannot soe much as preuaile with them to the end that they may haue some feeling of it and say I am deceiued let soe great a wrong as this be remoued That soule O men which you are loosing is more worth then all that which can be giuen you in exchaunge thereof what doe you gett by gayning it all if you loose your selues alone what doth it profitt you to see euery body good if withall your selues be wicked what doth it profitt you to gaine and growe great in point of fortune with preiudice to your soules and to be mighty in the sight of men but not to be acknowledged in the sight of God The day will come infallibly it will come when God will destroy all them whoe worke iniquity and for what then will that serue to which they haue most pretended heere O day of giuing accounte for all the daies of our liues how little art thou considered and therefore how little art thou feared And men in the meane tyme runne with the bridle loose and in their teeth for the gathering of this little miserable flower which soe quickly Fades and they see with their very eyes that it is euen slipping from betweene their fingers and yet there is neuer want of some body who hath a minde to hould fast this world whilst still it is flying speedily from them Sir our true repose and our kingdome is not to be had in this world What is this life but a way from our owne houses reaching to the place where theeues desire to cutt our throates since euery day we walke on more and more and it is noe whether els but towards death Now who would be soe absurdly inconsiderate as that when he were to be conducted to execution and that much hast were vsed to dispatch him the delinquent should yet fall into great aflictioÌ„ because lie were not sumptuously cladd or who in such a case would attend to busy himselfe about hearing some relation of the liues of others or would delight himselfe with looking vpon some publick entertainement and pastime Or would put himselfe to study what the reason might be why men put not of their hatts to him with a good graces And yet how many doe wee see through our sinnes depriued of all sense who goeing as we all doe to that resting place of their graues yea and running faster thither then any arrow flyes out of a bowe doe yet detaine themselues foolishly some vpon fine cloathes others vpon a certaine paltry smoake of honour and others who grow angry at the hart because iust that which they desire is not done And yet those very things which they desire are neither such as helpe them to obtaine true felicity not hinder them from falling into eternall misery What in the name of God is this which hath soe blinded vs as that we should make Tyme of Eternity and Eternitie of Tyme For soe haue men despised that eternall blisse which God hath prepared for them in heauen as if it were but temporall and soe haue they lodged all their loue vpon this transitory world as if this were the thing which is eternall How few are there on earth whoe passe through it like straungers as S. Peter saith we must 1. Peteâ— 2. and who fasten their harts vpon the Future as vpon their Cittie and true place of rest Let the tongue say what it will but our workes proclayme vs to be Cittizens of this world since we extreamely desire to be accommodated and exalted heere and so take noe care though we should be but as straungers in the next world Perhaps we are growne to be of opinion that the kingdome of heauen may be obteyned without any great labour or care But the truth is that euen they who take most paines will finde that still they haue enough to doe that still they must continue in doubt whether it will serue the turne or noe and what then will become of the rechlesse person but that he will be sure to loose it Our life is a very match of wrastling and he whoe wrastles as the Apostle saith must wholly vntye and dis-intangle himselfe that he may gaine his crowne 1. Cor. 9. Wee are running for a wager and the Prize is noe lesse then the kingdome of heauen Yet not all they who runne are to haue this Prize but they onely who runne best What a madd man were hee who should shackle his feete and then thinke that he were to carry the Prize which must be giuen to that man whoe runnes a pace And it is not a lesse absurde strange thing that a man should ensnare his soule with the heauy aflictioÌ„s of flesh and bloud which permitt him not to flye vp towards God God commaundes that to him who should strike thee vpon one of thy cheekes thou shouldest turne the other Maâ—â— 5. â— which is as much as to say that not onely thou must not reuenge thy selfe for the iniury receiued but that thou art to keepe thy hart prepared to endure an other if it be giuen and still if another blowe be offered to turne the other cheeke that is to prepare thy selfe for enduring iniuries more and more in such sort that the other may be sooner weary of doeing ill then thou of suffering it for thy goodnes is to be greater then his mallice But how then shall hee bee able to make a speedy course in this way who is fettered in the chaines of worldly Honour which requires that we reuenge the iniuries which are done vs. For as S. Gregory saith Noe man feeles the weight of dishonour but he who loues his owne honour And therefore if this loue be not laid a side how shall we be euer able to runne If God commaund that wee must rather dye then committ a mortall sinne how shall we be able to comply with his will heerein if wee cast not of the chaynes of that inordinate loue which we carry to this life Couetousnes is a Chaine which permitts vs not to liue in good neighbourhood with others Enuy is a Chaine Anger is a Chaine and the loue of our selues is a Chaine and roote of all the rest
worth accounting himselfe rich in possessing that a lone insteede of many other things which he had before O God ô Lord ô thou the true repose of the most interiour part of our soules and when shall wee beginn I say not to loue thee but at least to desire to loue thee When I say shall we conceiue a desire of thee such a one as may be worthy of thee When shall veritie be able to preuaile more with vs then vanity beauty then deformity repose then restles care the Creatour who is soe richly full and all-sufficient before the creature whoe is soe very empty and poore Deare Lord and whoe at length will open our eyes that we may knowe that there is nothing out of thee which either hath any countenance in it selfe or is able to giue any true contentment to vs who will make some little discouery of thee to vs that soe being all enamored of thee wee may goe may runne may flye and may remaine eternally with thee Woe be to vs for wee are extreamely farre from God and wee are in soe little paine for that distance as that wee can scarce be said to feele it What is become of the profound and tender sighes of those soules which had tasted once of God and were afterwards estraunged a little from him what is become of that holy affection Psal 31. wherewith Dauid said If I shall giue sleepe to mine eyes or slumbering to myne eyelids till I haue found a house wherein our Lord may dwell And this house wee our selues are when wee destroy not our selues by scattering our harts vpon variety of things but recollect them to the vnity of one desire and of one loue and then it is that we finde our selues and are indeede the house of God For my part I beleeue that he said true who affirmed the cause of our tepidity to be this That he who hath not tasted yett of God doth not knowe in very deede what it is either to haue hunger or saciety And so wee are neither hungry after God nor are wee entirely satisfied by creatures but we remaine as certaine frozen things being neither heere nor there full of dulnes and discouragement without all taste of spiritt and fitt to cause a vomitt in his stomacke who likes not seruants who are Luke warme but desires to haue them inflamed with the fire of loue This fire himselfe brought into the world Luke 22 and desires nothing but that it may burne and to the end that it may doe soe himselfe did burne and was consumed vpon the Crosse num 19. like that redd Cow which was carried out of the campe And this he did of sett purpose to the end that wee taking of that wood of the Crosse vpon our selues might make a fire and might warme our selues and keepe correspondence with soe great a louer with some loue of ours considering how iust a thing it is that we should be wounded by the sweete dart of loue since wee see him not onely wounded but killed by it It is but reason that wee be taken by the loue of him who was taken thereby for vs deliuered ouer for our sakes into such fierce hands Lett vs enter into that prison of his loue since he entred into the prison of ours and thereby was made as tame as any lambe before them who treated him soe ill And this prison was that which made him remaine quiet vpon the Crosse For more strange and rude were those ropes and prisons of his lòue then the nailes and ropes which restrayned his person These later laying hould but vpon his body but his loue being that which seized his soule And therefore lett our harts be tyed by his loue that tye of saluation and lett vs not desire such liberty as may carry vs out of his prison For as he is very ill in health who is not wounded and made sick of his loue soe is he very ill at liberty who is not restrayned in that prison Lett vs now resist him noe longer let vs yeild our selues conquered by his armes which are his benefitts whereby he procures to kill vs that soe we may euer liue with him He desires to burne vs vp that soe the old man who was conforme to Adā being cōsumed the new man who is conforme to Christ our Lord may rise againe by loue He desires to melt our hardnes to the end that as vpon mettall which is made liquid by heate that forme is imprinted which is desired by the worke-man soe wee being softned by that loue which makes vs melt by hearing our beloued speake to vs may be ready without all resistance that soe Christ our Lord may imprint vpon vs what figure shall be most pleasing to him Now that figure which he desires to imprint is noe other then that of Loue. Iohn 15. For Christ our Lord is very Loue it selfe he cōmaunded that we should loue one another as he loued vs. Gal. 2 And S. Paule tells vs that we must soe be in loue with Christ our Lord as he loued vs and deliuered himselfe vp for vs. Soe that vnlesse we loue we are vnlike him our countenance hath noe resemblance to his but we are poore naked blinde deafe and dumbe and dead For loue a lone is that which quickenes all things and loue is that which is the spirituall-cure of our soules For the soule without loue is iust such a thing as the body is without the soule Let vs therefore loue and we shall liue let vs loue and we shall grow like God nay we shall wound him whoe is to be wounded by loue alone Lett vs loue and all things shall be ours since they are all to serue vs as it is written They that loue God shall proue well in all things If we loue this loue lett vs apply the axe of diligence to the roote of our owne selfe-loue and soe bring this enemy of ours to the ground What haue we of our selues let vs hedge our selues in God and make noe account at all of any thing els Let not our owne losses trouble vs but the losses of God which are the soules who depart from him And because it is a hard thing for a man to leaue to loue himselfe let vs shed many teares whereby it may be made easy for vs to dig vp this earth Let vs groane out to God from the very profoundest of our harts for our teares doe euen wound almighty God though they be soe weake and soft and though he be omnipotent Lett vs entertaine good thoughts for as Dauid saith Psal 38. My thought is a very fournace But aboue all let vs place our selues and not come quickly out againe but make our habitation in the woundes of Christ our Lord and particularly in his sacred side For there his hart being deuided and peirced for vs will receiue ours into it and soe it will growe warme through the greatnes of his loue For
amongst wicked persons did not curse them who cursed him nor did he reuenge himselfe though he had power enough ouer such as did him mischeife He despised honour and to be rich and to be regaled And to obey the will of his father he offered himselfe to the Crosse Hee who wants knowledge let him come to heere this Doctour as he is sitting in this Chaire He whoe will heare a good sermon let him come to Christ our Lord being in the pulpitt of the Crosse and he shall be free from errour because Truth which is Christ our Lord himselfe shall free him And if wee be chaungeable and weake in working let vs looke vpon this author of our faith and see how he is nayled to that Crosse both hand and foote and that immoueably to the end that by his grace we may be constant perseuerant in doeing well He who will goe to Christ our Lord for the cure of his inconstancy shall obtaine a perseuerance like that of Anna 1. kings 1. the mother of Samuell of whome it is said That she turned her countenance noe more towards seuerall wayes He who dwells in Christ our lord doth not wander hither and thither but stands fast in goodnes according to the Scripture which saith that such a one is euer cleere like the sunne Eccl. 27. and that his light is not diminished For hee who is in Christ participates of Christ And so as Christ is Iust he is alsoe Iust if Christ be firme he is alsoe firme though in a farre inferiour degree For as in one body there is but one spirit which diffuses it selfe through all the partes of that body and they all liue by one humane life and not one of them by the life of a man and another by the life of a lyon or any other beast soe all they who are in Christ our lord liue by his Spirit as the braunch liues by the life of the vine and as the members liue by the head And hee who possesses this Spirit is like to Christ our Lord and partakes of his conditions although as I said it be in a farre inferiour degree And hee who hath not the spirit of Christ Rom. 8 let him hearken to S. Paule who saith If any man haue not the spirit of Christ that man is not of Christ Lett a man therefore view and reuiew himselfe to see if he finde a conformity of his soule with that of Christ our Lord and if hee haue it it will be easy for him to keepe the commaundements of Christ since hee is of the same condition with him And though he be not yet of conformity with Christ lett him goe to Christ and beg his spirit of him whereby he may be strengthned according to that which Dauid desired thus Confirme mee with thy principall or cheife spirit For it will profitt mee little Psal 50. that Christ came into the world if withall he come not into my hart Christ brought downe goodnes peace and Ioy in the holy Ghost with many other benedictions If I liue in wickednes warre vngodly melancholy or inordinate delight Christ our Lord dwells not in my soule And it is in effect with mee as if he had not come into the world at all sauing that it will turne to my greater miserie for I shall be punished soe much the more because I would not admitt of that saluation which was offered mee with so good a will Christ our lord dyed for vs all and is ready to receiue vs all Let vs make towards him though it be but to doe him curtesy and let vs not permit that soe great and pretious labours and afflictions of his may remaine fruitelesse The price of them are our soules if wee will carry them to Christ Let vs cast our selues downe at his feete detesting our sinnes and our former wicked life distrusting our owne knowledge and worth and strength and so perseuering to beg to knock and to cry out he will fill vs with knowledge how to addresse our selues and with power to worke and with perseuerance that wee may not fainte as it is written Esay 40. They who confide in our Lord shall proceede from strength to strength they shall take the wings of an egle they shall fly and not faint And since there are more excellencies in Christ our Lord then there are miseries in vs let vs goe on towards him acknowledging that hee is our onely remedy for by this meanes we shall not dispaire through our owne miseries but take comfort and partake of his excellencies This my lord seemed sufficient to me for the addresse of a person who hath a minde to draw neere to God But because in your lordship there is the capacity of two persons your lordship will haue neede of two rules That which is said may suffice forasmuch as cōcernes your owne particular person but in respect that you are a man who haue soe great charge ouer soe many others it wil be necessary for you to haue more more care of your selfe For there are many who for as much as cōcernes their owne particular cōscience are good men yet they faile in being good Lords good Magistrats And this second parte is more hard and it is the worke of one who is a kinde of perfect man for it takes that first kind of goodnes for graunted and then passes further on For hee whoe forasmuch as concernes himselfe is not Iust will not be Iust in what he ought to doe towards others But yet it suffices not for one who hath charge ouer many that hee be Iust for as much as concernes onely his owne particular person Ely for his owne part was a good man but he was not good for as much as concerned his sonnes since he for boreto punish them therefore he was greiuously punished by almighty God So that great lords haue neede of a manyfold kinde of goodnes since they haue a manifold kinde of person As for this second part which to be concernes a cōmon or publique person me thinkes there is noe better glasse wherein a man who is a lord ouer others ought to looke then vpon that lord of men and angells whose person he represēts Hee who sitts in the place of another it is but reason that he haue the properties of him whose place he holds A lord of vassailes is a Lieutenant of God who ordaines that some shall gouerne and commaund and that others shall obey He who resists those former doth by the testimony of S. Paule resist she ordination of God Rom. 13. who disposes of all things according to subordination Now therefore lett a man consider what office God exercises towards man and soe a great lord shall know how hee is to carry himselfe towards his people God chastises such as erre without any acceptation of persons and in this he is soe strict that he hath not any who is so great a fauourit of his but that
fine your lord O blessed tyme wherein is represented to vs the coming of God in flesh to dwell amongst vs Luke 1. to illuminate our darkenes and to addresse our feete in the way of peace and to adopt vs for his brethren and to designe vs for the enioying of the same inheritāce with himselfe It is not without cause that you desire his coming and that you prepare your hart for his habitation For this lord was desired long before he came Agge and the Prophet called him The desire of all Nations Psal 9. and indeede hee giues himselfe to none but such as desire him God heares the desire of the poore for his eares are laid close to the sighing of our harts and he cares for nothing els in vs but that To such a hart hee comes and cannot deny himselfe as it is said in the Canticles Cant. 4 Thou hast wounded my hart O thou my sister and my spouse thou hast wounded my hart by the cast of one of thyne eyes and by a haire of thy head Is it possible for any thing to be more tender then that which is wounded by the sight of a single eye Is it possible for any thing to be more weake then that which is tyed fast by one single haire where now are they who say that God is hard to be obteyned that he is rigourous to be delt with and insupportable to be endured Wee must quarrell with our selues since because wee will be looking many seuerall wayes we place not our sight vpon God nor will wee shutt that eye of ours which behouldes creatures that so with all our thought wee may cōsider God alone Hee who shootes in a Crosse bowe shutts one of his eyes that hee may see better with the other how to hitt the white we the while will not shutt vp all that sight of ours which hinders vs from being able to hunte wound our lord with loue Let him recollect and make sure his loue and lett him lodge it in God whosoeuer hath a minde to obtaine God For as God is loue soe is he onely to be hunted and taken with loue and he will haue nothing to doe with them who loue him not And if they say that they know him already as they ought 2. Iohn 4. S. Iohn will tell them that they say not true But our lord who is wounded with an eye is tyed with a haire For that which loue takes the recollected and reflected thought conserues that it may not be lost And to the end that men might be put into confidence that they should be able to arriue to almighty God and that hee hath noe minde to slipp away he makes himselfe one of them and layes himselfe in the armes of a virgin swathed vp hand and foot without power to fly from that man who is disposed to seeke him O celestiall bread which descendest out of the bosome of thy Father and art laid in the publique places of this world inuiting as many as will that they may come to enioye thee and feede vpon thee And whoe is hee whoe can endure to withhould him selfe from goeing to thee and from receiuing thee since thou giuest thy selfe vpon noe harder cōdition then onely that wee be content to hunger after thee For doest thou peraduenture aske more of vs then onely that a soule may sigh for thee and confessing her sinnes may receiue and loue thee Great is the misery of those men who when bread comes to seeke them in their owne howses they choose rather to dye of hunger then to stoope to take it vp O sloath what a deale of mischeife thou doest O blindenes what a deale of benediction doest thou loose O sleepines what a deale of aduantage doest thou steale away since considering the promise that whosoeuer seekes shall finde Mat. 7 21 Mark 11. Luc. 11 Iohn 14. 16 and he who askes shall obtaine and to him who knockes it shall be opened it is cleare that if wee proue not well the fault is ours But what shall things passe still after this manner Though God himselfe is come to cure vs shall wee still continue sicke He being at the gate of our hart crying out and saying Open to mee O thou my freind and my spouse shall we being all wrapt vp in vanities Cant. 4. suffer him to stand calling there and not soe much as open him the gate O my soule come hither and tell mee for I aske thee on the part of God what in fine is that thing which detaines thee from goeing all with all thy forces after God What doest thou loue if thou doe not loue this Spouse of thine Or rather why doest thou not loue him much who did soe mightily loue thee He had noe busines on earth but to attend to the loue of thee and to seeke thy profitt with his owne losse And what hast thou to doe in this world but to exercise thy selfe all in loue of this king of heauen Doest thou not see how all that which heere thou seest must haue an end as also all that which thou hearest which thou touchest which thou tastest and wherewith thou doest converse Doest thou not see that all this is but cobwebs which cannot cloath thee and keepe thee warme Where art thou if thou haue not thy being in Iesus Christ our lord what art thou thinking what account art thou making what doest thou seeke out of that onely one complete God Let vs rowse vp our selues at last breake of this badd sleepe Let vs awake for it is broad day since Iesus Christ our lord who is the light is come Let vs doe the wookes of light since there was tyme wherein wee did the workes of darknes O that the memory of that tyme wherein wee know not God might sèrue vs now for sharp spurrs to make vs runne greedily after him O that we could runne O that wee could fly O that wee might burne and be transformed into him What must a creature doe when he sees his creator made man and all for loue of him alone who euer heard of such a loue as this that one louing another should by loue be converted into that other It is true that God loued vs when hee made vs after his Image but a farre greater worke it was to make himselfe after our image He abases himselfe to vs that hee may exalt vs to him He makes himselfe man that hee may make vs Gods He descēdes from heauen that he may carry vs thither in his cōpany and in fine he dyed that he might giue vs life And now shall it be possible that in the midst of these things I should lye sleeping and without any sense of gratitude for soe great loue O lord illuminate myne eyes that they may not sleepe in such a death as this And thou who hast done vs this great fauour Ps 12. giue vs alsoe a right feeling of it For otherwise the
greater the benefitt is the more hurt it will doe vs in the end O Lord open thou myne eyes that they may consider thee descending out of the bosome of thy father and entring into that of thy virgin mother that I may giue thee great thankes for this benefit Make mee able to humble my selfe for thee Make mee able to consider thee lying in a maunger insteade of a bed crying out through could being opprest with pouerty make me learne thereby how to cast all delicacy farre from mee Make thy teares sighes shew sound themselues forth in myne eares that soe they may mollify my hart that soe it may deliuer it self couer as wax to euery inclination of thy will And doe not thou permitt that God should weepe and that man should haue noe feeling of it for I know not at which of these two things wee might wonder most Seale vp O lord thy wordes in my soule that I may neuer sinne against thee Let the blood which thou didst shed for mee be gathered vp into my hart and be thou all my onely loue that soe thou maist not repent thy selfe of all these great afflictions which thou enduredst for mee It is I whom thou soughtst and whome thou seekest still and for mee thou hast made all those tiltings and triumphes and shewed forth all thy liueries and vndergone all that cost Let me neuer see my selfe belonging to any other then thee since thou hast deserued me soe well Come Madam let that hart of yours now prepare it selfe for God is vpon the point of being borne and hee hath neither howse nor bedd wherein to lye Let your hart be all inflamed with loue for the Infant suffers much cold And yet if your hart be but euen soe much as luke warme this Infant with his cold will giue it greater heat For how much the more cold he suffers for vs so much the more loue he shewes to beare vs where I finde my selfe to be more beloued there am I obliged more to loue Exteriourly hee suffers cold and yet through the great loue he beares vs he can endure noe cloathes but he lyes naked as soone as he is borne naked they lay him vpon the Crosse because in his bearth in his death he shewed the greatest excesse of loue Madam you must prouide a cradle wherein you may rock him a sleepe which signifies the repose of contemplation and see that you tend and treat him well for he is the sonne of a great high king and he is the sonne alsoe of a virgin and he takes much gust to lodge himselfe in the hart of virgins for the meat he eates is flesh which is crucified dead And because he hath a great deale of poore people amongst his kindred whome yet he loues deerely well you must be alsoe sure to loue them for they are the brethren of our creators As soone as he is borne in your hart you must take care to nurse him and I beseech him to keepe and saue you for his mercies sake Amen A Letter to a certaine Lady who is taught with what disposition she is to receiue Christ our lord into her soule and with what care she is to keept him and of the great misery where into that soule falls which committs mortall sinne and what a great treason it is to leaue God and follow the deuill especially for such as haue beene particularly fauoured by almighty God THE grace and peace of the holy ghost be in your hart and assist you in this holy tyme that you may prepare your soule for that Infant who is now to be borne For he hath noe howse but in those soules which are well disposed to receiue him He comes as a straunger and in great pouertie Giue him your hart Mat. 25 that soe he may say in the last day I was a straunger and you receiued mee But yet consider withall that as there is nothing so much to be desired by you as to lodge this Infant in your soule so is there nothing which requires more care and diligence then to prepare the lodging ready in such sort as he desires He comes in humility and pouertie and they who receiue him must be humble and poore He comes to vndertake great labours and with labour that howse must be adorned wherein he voutchafes to dwell He is chast and he loues such as are chast And though he be very little and a very Infant yet withall he is very great and he is God and soe it must be no little thing to prepare a lodging for a great God Our lord is choise and nice and by reason of some-one mortall sinne which some man makes litle difficulty to committ he refuses to enter into the soule And if he be there already one mortall sinne sends him away And when he is gone he comes not back againe soe soone but makes it plaine by the difficulty which he hath to returne with how great diligence he is to be kept by vs when we haue him there O my good lady and how riche is he who possesses God and how often in the day were he to looke downe vpon his hart asking our Lord if hee be there What chaynes should he cast about him of humble petitions and teares begging of him as Dauid did in these words Psal 21. O lord depart not from mee How full of caution ought a man to walke least he should doe somewhat which might offend our Lord least being offended he should be gone For if hee be all good what shall it be to loose him but to fall into the Abisse of all miseries They are sadd things which a soule feeles when it hath lost God and such as will hardly be beleiued though all the world should speake of them This appeares well in our first parents Adam and Eue. For Eue looking vpon the fruite of the forbidden tree it seemed very beautifull to her eye and that if she might eate thereof it would proue very pleasing to her and giue her great contentment But as soone ast she had eaten her eyes were opened to behould those great miseries which came vpon her by that meanes experience taught her that the bitternes of breaking the cōmaundment of God was greater then the pleasure to haue eaten the fruite And then she saw that the apparance which the forbiddē fruite had of being soe very faire and full of gust was but a deceite of the deuill who made a false glasse for her to looke through And hee alsoe gaue her a loathing of those other fruites which God commaunded her to eate Soe as they seemed vnsauoury to her and she thought that all the gust and hidden good had consisted in that which God forbad O how many haue beene deceiued by the deuill through false imagination he promising them contentment gust they afterwards making bitter lamentation for giuing credit to him whom euen before they knew to be a
frailties with great diligence for amongst those pouerties and miseries is this pretious Iewell wont to bee founde And through our sinnes we haue soe much matter to worke vpon by way of examining and bewayling the same that vnlesse it be some man who will absent his eyes from looking vpon himselfe there is none who may not be sure to finde cause and cause enough not onely to be humbled but euen confounded Woe be to vs if we be found to be of them of whome God saith Thou art become as the face of a strumpet nor wouldst thou blush For what thing is there more deformed then the impudent boldnes of such a person as hath so much reason to be full of shame And who is he that dares once cast vp his eyes to God or his creatures if he consider well how he hath offended him made himselfe vnworthy of them who is there amongst vs who failes not in the perfect loue which he owes to God since wee loue him not with our whole vnderstanding beleiuing his truth with that firme constancy which is fitt and enterteyning those considerations those thoughts and purposes by meanes whereof we might doe him more faithfull seruice who is he who loues him with his whole hart not giuing any parte thereof to others yea or to himselfe but onely in God and for God and who renouncing all proper interest hath proceeded to loue God for God himselfe And he who shall consider how little he hath mortified his passions and what a stiffe warre he makes against the kingdome of the loue of God will easily discerne that he loues not God with all his soule And our Lord commaunding vs alsoe to loue him with all our strength we are yet content to doe it with such a deale of tepidity as wee may well desire him to pardon For the strength which wee employ vpon complying with the loue of our selues and appetites being soe aliue in vs makes vs mightily faile in the diligence which we owe to the seruice of God and to the feruour of our loue of him S. Augustine saith that the encrease of Charitie in vs is the decrease of our owne appetites and desires and then will our charity be perfect when there shall be noe such desires in vs at all Now by the name of such desires he vnderstands that inordinate selfe loue which euery one beares to himselfe And because amongst all them who descēd of Adam there is noe one excepting onely Iesus Christ our Lord and his most sacred Mother who hath not found in himselfe some excesse of this selfe loue therefore is there none of them who hath not fay led somewhat of perfection in the loue of God For when the loue of my selfe is wholly aliue in mee the loue of God is dead and then is a man in state of Mortall sinne And when the loue of God liuēs and raignes in mee in vertue of which loue I fully purpose not to offend God mortally then am I in state of grace though I may faile somewhat of that perfect loue of God because still I comply in somewhat with the loue either of my selfe or of creatures And from this want of diuine loue doth grow our faultines in our other workes because that is the life of them From hence alsoe proceede the faultes we make in the loue of our neighbours by our not hauing compassion of their miseryes nor taking ioy in their blessings as concerning persons who are very straightly ioyned to God and adopted in the Sacrament of Baptisme for his children And we alsoe faile in our workes towards them because we faile in our loue to him who said That which you haue done to any of my little ones you haue done to mee Now from the defect of these two Loues of God and of our neighbour which are the rootes of our good workes many other imperfections grow into those very workes which we doe though sometymes such workes themselues are not sinnes nay being performed in the state of grace they are meritorious of eternall life But of such as these if we meane to liue in the way of humility and truth wee are to giue the glory to God and to yeild him humble thankes who holpe vs to embrace that which was good with our free will and ordeyned that it should be meritorious by that Grace which through his mercy he bestowed vpō vs. Now wee must not vpon this reason forbeare to sifte out those faultes with care which we comitt to these actions of ours but it is a much more secure practise to consider very particularly that which is faulty in vs then that which may goe for a point of vertue And be well assured that how much soeuer you shall consider and sifte yet still there will much lye hidden from you in regard whereof you shall haue reason enough to say with deepe sighing to our Lord O clense me from my hidden sinnes Hence comes it that wee loue not our neighbours in such sorte as God would haue vs or at least not so much as hee would haue vs. Hence comes it that wee tollerate not their imperfections nor fly from giuing them disgusts And in fine from hence grow all those other faultes which defile our soules like filth which is euer dropping as from a sore Our sinnes are greater then any thought of man is able to vnderstand and onely he who created our hart and cleerely penetrates to the bottome of it is able to comprehend what our frailty is And many tymes doth that discouer it selfe to be filthy before his iudgment which seemes in the sight of ours to be very perfect Therefore as Iob hath showed vs the way we must feare all our workes how good soeuer they may seeme to vs and we must not take pleasure in our selues by reason of them nor delight our selues therein euen in the most secret part of our hartes For he onely is pleasing to God who is displeasing to himselfe he onely is Iust in the sight of God whoe knowes that grace and Iustice proceedes from the mercy of God There is not a thing from which God is more auerted then a hart which carryes liking to it selfe For God in such a one findes noe vessell empty into which he may powre the riches of his mercy and soe such a hart remaines with the naturall pouerty wherewith and wherein it shall still cōtinue because it would not abase and empty it selfe that soe the waters of Grace might runne into it and soe it might liue contented in God and might bring forth fruite as a garden would doe wherein there were abundance of water All our good comes from God he whoe beleiues that of himself he is able euen to moue his tongue towards the saying soe much as Lord Iesus that person makes himselfe God since he attributes that to himselfe which onely belongs to God And God giues himselfe to vs vpon condition that we must acknowledge this truth That
be ouer carefull for paines must be taken but sollicitude is forbidden and for the taking of it away our lord willes vs to confide in our heauenly Father He who hath this confidence perceiues well that the busines dependes vpon God and that his diuine wisedome knowes how to addresse him and therefore a Christian man is to be perswaded that it giues noe aduantage euen to the very busines it selfe if we fall into any vnquiet kinde of anguish or euen to superfluity of thinking of it which is thus forbidden by holy scripture Ne affligas temetipsum in consilio tuo Doe not afflict thy selfe in thine owne counsell but say thus to your selfe It is God who must doe it and not I. Perhaps our lord will not haue it remedied by this meanes And if he will yet his will alsoe is that it be done with peace and with my spirituall gaine and without my losse And soe procure that your heart may euer goe in celebration of that Christian Sabaoth whereof S. Paul speaketh and then we may say to our lord Descend â—hou into my heart for it is all free for thee and it hath nothing which may distract me from hearing thee and from speaking to thee You haue reason to desire the helpe of prayers to this purpose for it is not soe easily obtained I beseech our lord who called you to his owne seruice continue you in his grace and carry you afterwardes with himselfe to eternall rest A Letter of the Authour to a Virgin who liued in Recollection Of the valew of a soule and the care wherwith it is to be kept from falling And that if it fall it must haue hope and soe rise againe I Know not with what wordes I may be able to expresse the fault which accuses mee and the punishment which I feare I looke back vpon the much time which hath passed without writing to you whilst yet you were recommended to me that soe by meanes of my care you might proceede and proffit in the seruice of our heauenly king since he was pleased to receaue you for his through that word which I preached vnto you And I in the meane time like an ill seruant of Christ our Lord haue beene negligent in negotiating this businesse which he held to be soe truly his as that it filled him full of care and soe full as to make him giue his life for the dispatch thereof And not onely haue I sinned against him but against you alsoe To him I haue beene an ill seruant and to you I haue beene an ill Father since I haue not preserued the stock nor sustained you with the food of his word his who made mee his steward to the end that in the true time â— 4 I might wisely and faithfully dispence it â—12 to euery one according to that which he should neede I am much grieued for my negligence as it becomes a guilty person and I apprehend the punishment of my fault Not that I feare soe much least our Lord should punish or scourge or afflict me for it with vexations and torments as that he may permitt your soule to receiue some disaduantage thereby For when a man hath noe knowledge of what belongs to children nor cares how he may bring them vpp it is but reason both that he see them dye and that they may alsoe continue dead in his sight that soe the greife thereof may bee a torment to him may keepe those eyes open which his carelesnes had shutt My good sister for I will presume to say that you are mine because you are the Spouse of my Lord O how happy were he who might know how it is with you that soe he might either be delighted in your good or receiue the torment of sorrow for your ill how happy were he who might know if those feruent teares of yours still continue which washed your soule in the high presence of your Spouse and which watered it with deuotion that soe it might giue fruit to the Lord thereof And if your long watches last wherein you were wont to treate in secrecy and solitude with him whom your soule loues Reflecting vpon those sorrowes which he endured for loue of you and you desiring to endure somewhat like that for the loue of him I beseech him of his mercy that you may not haue lost that holy silence of yours which was discourse with God your rich pouerty which gaue you more full satisfaction then all the wealth of this world That coÌ„tempt of your selfe which gaue you price valew in the sight of our Lord and that holy change of your life which cast them into wonder who saw you praised God in you Let it not please him that mine eares may euer heare that the seruant of Christ is other then shee vsed to bee Let it neuer come to passe that shee should liue with any other nor regard any other nor thinke of any other then onely Christ our Lord to whome shee offered her selfe Make noe exchange whereby you may bee soe deceiued as that hauing tasted of that heauenly guift hauing fed vpon the cruÌ„mes of the table of God you should now afterward come to tast the bitternes of Egypt those meate which are deuoured by meÌ„ cast of from him Who when heere they shall haue satisfied themselues with the foode of swine shall burne heereafter in the coÌ„pany of deuills Seruant of Iesus Christ how is it with you indeed tel me how it is with you I beseech Iesus you bee wel in his sight S. Paule said that euen his very life consisted in the good of his children and euen I though not with that great fire but with the little which God giues mee doe yet adueÌ„ture to say that my life consistes in that you be well in the sight of God I can take noe pleasure in this body if the soule of my daughter be dead nor shall delight haue any place in me til I may know that your Spouse whome I lodged in you doth still inhabite your hart If it be any otherwise it is I who haue made the fault I will performe the peÌ„nance but yet see that you bee not angry with him Doe not my good Sister afflict me more then already I am afflicted through mine owne fault by the loue which I carry to your soule and if you bee offended with my negligeÌ„ce be appeased by this coÌ„session which is full of shame and greife And beleiue that through the fauour of our Lord you shall wel finde that I wil mend And vpon this motiue you must forget that I haue beene an ill Father to you since vpon the same God forgets that we haue been ill sonnes ill seruaÌ„ts to him And if yet you will require further satisfactioÌ„ be your owne caruer and require of me what you will Onely retourne to the way of God if you should haue left it or els make mee know that you continue in it that so I
may be sure that thinges goe wel with you that I may haue strēgth to beare that pēnāce which you shall impose vpon me for my negligece Negligence I meane in writing to you but not in remembring you For in this our Lord hath not permitted that I should be forgetfull For soe great was the loue which I carryed towards you vpon seeing that you were growne to be the true seruant of God and you entred soe deepely into my hart when I considered those mercyes which our Lord had vouchsafed to you that it neuer parted more from thence though it haue failed to strengthen and comfort you in this way as it should haue done Pardon me my good Sister for the loue of Iesus Christ and bee not cruel against yourfelfe but be as cruell against me as you shall thinke fit Be sure to loue our Lord for he deserues not to be ill vsed for the negligence of his seruant And if you should haue forgotten your duety to him you know his condition already well enough and that he hath promised to receiue the soule which will retourne and that if you will forgiue me he wil pardon you And he will shew you such mercyes as he shewed before and wil enable you to sing those Canticles to him which you sung in your first beginning and birth to Christ our Lord. Doe not now giue cause of ioy to those infernal spirits since there was a time wherein you wounded them with sorrow Doe not greiue your good Angel since he hath giuen God much praise for you and hath reioyced at your vocation Doe not reuerse that solemne Festiuity which was celebrated in the kingdome of heauen vpon the day of your cōuersion And if through my sinnes any of these things should haue happened yet still you must not be dismayed For our Lord will stretch forth his armes and will receiue you since he stretched them out for you vpon the Crosse And it is vsual with him to loue that person more who hauing runn away out of the warr doth yet returne to fight with greater courage then that other who though he neuer forsook the feild yet was neuer but slack in doeing him seruice This is a kind of warr wherein the losse of the victory consists not in the not receiuing any woundes but in flying out of the battaille rendring himselfe to the enemye in the quality of a man who is ouercome Take courage and begin yet once againe for you shall find Christ our Lord close at hand to help you And seing your humility and how much you are ashamed of yourselfe he will not put you to confusion Nor when he shall perceiue that you are lying prostrate at his feete will he cast you off or kick you out of his sight And if you call vpon those intercessours of yours who are in heauen they will not make themselues deafe to the cryes which you send vp from hence As for me because I haue made the fault whereby you haue incurred the inconuenience if there be any I wil alsoe performe the pennance as I said before And I wil beseech our Lord to restore and raise that vp which my negligence made fit for ruine Let all your thoughts beate vpon his hauing begunn the worke and not vpon my hauing neglected it And then he will put things in good order because he is the true louer of soules and pretends not to see mens sinnes that soe they may retract them by sorrow I beseech him euen by what himself is that he wil keep you in close protection vnder his wings and make you gratious in his sight and that he wil punish me in whatsoeuer sort he shal thinke fit And I beg of you by him that you wil write to me though I confesse myselfe to be vnworthy of your answeare A letter of the Authour to a woman who was afflicted with grieuous and dangerous temptations He encourages her to suffer and shewes that the fraite of afflictions is great when they are well borne BEE comforted Esaye 40. bee comforted O you my people sayth the lord your God speake to the hart of Ierusalem and call her hither for her punishment is ended and her sinne is pardoned Confide my good sister for these words are spoaken to you and they commaunde you to be comforted through his fauour who will defende you though your owne infirmities and those infernall powers striue to plucke you downe But if they be carefull to persecute you more carefull is Christ our lord to ouershadow you and to defende you and to fetch you of from this combatt adorned with new Crownes which are incomparably more to be esteemed and reioyced in then your tribulation deserues to be lamented What is the matter what is that which afflicts you what is that which frights you your God is the curer of these wounds be not troubled there at For at the instant that he closes them he will shine to you as a sunne seauen times more bright then before you were subiect to this affliction your spirituall prosperities will incomparably excell those which are past since that which you suffer now doth so farre exceede in bitternesse that which formerly you suffered For these flowds of anguish vse to serue but for a preface to an aboundance of spirituall delight as the tribulations of Iob were messengers to him Iob 24. of a doubling of his estate and comfort which God bestowed vpon him God afflicted him first and then he comforted him he tryed him and then he crowned him he hid himself from him a litle but afterwards he shewed himselfe more deare and sweeter then he had seemed before to be offended This is the stile which our lord holdes with his seruants He mortifies them so farre that he seemes as if he would place them in the verie torments of hell but then instantly againe he drawes them out and putts them into perfect ease and so as that the whale is neither able to retaine him nor yet so much as to touch him with anie offence whome she had swallowed Our aduersaries the deuills Ionas 2 are full of pride and they threaten to devoure vs but let vs say to them in their teeth Come and spare not for you shall be ouercome Take what councell you list it shall come to nothing for God is on our side Let it not my good sister passe once so much as in your thought to be afrayd of these infernall wolues For hee who conquered them once vpon the Crosse hath conquered them in you and will do so againe and will despoyle them to their great shame And how soeuer it may seeme to you that the encounter is fierce and the enemie so strong as to fright you be not yet dismayde E saye 19. For it is our lord who sayth Shall perhaps the prize be taken out of the hand of the strong man And shall that which was seised by the mightie be resumed Most certainly the
the loue of him And if God will vouchsafe to open our eyes that so Psal 118. with Dauid wee may consider the wonderfull things of his lawe wee shal finde that not onely there is daunger hanging ouer vs through this self leue in those things which are playnely and grossely visible and exteriour but more and much more euen in those other things wherein many thinke that true sanctity doth consist And if you aske mee what those things are I say that they are noe other then vertues the peace of soule the kingdome of heauen yea and euen our lord himself And thus you may see how great our daunger is since there is daunger euen in that which is security and how great the mischeif is of proper and inordinate loue since the stinge thereof thrustes it self into such holy things Not that it is able to make them ill for that it cannot doe but in regard that by causing vs to desire good things as our owne last end and for loue of our selues wee make our selues ill since wee inuert that order which the loue of God prescribes which is to loue that which is good and our selues withall for the seruice of God and for his loue and all this in the same manner and with the same measure which is best pleasing to his Diuine Maiesty The loue of God doth not consist whatsoeuer we will needes be saying in the desire of much vertue noe nor euen of God himself if it be inordinately done and with excesse of affliction as wee are wont to desire other things For if I be moued for the loue of God to desire any thing my maine desire to haue that thing must bee to haue it if God will and how and when and to what proportion he will and not to bee greedy of it for my owne good but to the end that the will of God may bee accomplished though his pleasure were that my soule should remayne without vertue and that I should neuer enter into heauen I say though his pleasure should be so for indeede it is not But at the least our will must soe be lodged in the will of God as that it may bee prepared to will any thing which God would haue vs will without any manner of exception For if our owne self-loue bee aliue in vs that mischeif is so much the wors and more inward by how much the better the thing is which wee desire For in these things as seeming to bee very safe a man is wont to extend his appetite as farre as he lists And whilest wee say that wee desire the loue of God wee are full of self-loue which makes vs desire him for the loue of our selues without any rule or measure whereas it ought to bee iust the contrary I remember some Doctours tell mee that Lucifer was the first whoe committed this sinne and how the thing which he desired was good namely felicity but that he desired it not how nor when nor in whome nor for whome it was fitt that he should haue desired it but with an vnbridled appetite which aymed at his owne priuate good as any couetous wretch might desire much pelfe or any ambitious man much honour Certainely if the ends and rootes of our desiring one and the same thing be different the thing it self which is materialy desired falles out after a sorte not to be the same But rather as I sayd before the better the thing it self is the more daungerous is the inordinate desire thereof For there is nothing worse then for a man to desire any thing as his owne last end for the loue of himself This last end is that soueraigne God of Goods which is God whoe ought to bee the ayme and end of all our desires And now if any should say by not vnderstanding well what I affirme that I seeme to teach that wee must not be feruent in desiring to become more and more vertuous but that wee must as well leaue all to God which belong to the soule as that which concernes the body my answere is That as in these exteriour things wee must bee diligent but not afflict our selues with excesse of care and anguish but must putt our selues wholy into the hands of God and take with patience whatsoeuer comes so in those things which importe the soule wee must be sure to be more diligent but yet with condition that if notwithstanding our diligence wee cannot haue all wee would wee must not suffer our selues to growe impatient For that would be a worse fault then the former which gaue vs soe much trouble But wee must conforme our selues wholy to the will of God to whome humility and patience in the midst of our frailties is more pleasing then a proud deuotion and complacence in the strength which wee conceane our selues to haue And if wee cannot obtayne at the hands of God that wee may liue without faults yet lett vs render him most humble thankes for hauing giuen vs the knowledge of them For was perhaps any other thing the perdition of that proud Pharisee but the cōtentment Luc. 18. which he tooke in his owne good workes And did any thing saue the Publicane but the knowledge which hee had of his ill deedes and the displeasur which he conceiued against himself for them desiring mercy of our Lord It is not the case of euery one to conserue humility in the middest of great vertues but there be very few whoe are not disgusted with their owne faultes And therefore though the former of these two wayes be higher yet the later is safer All which is dispensed by our God who is of soueraigne wisedome and who guides vs by seuerall wayes to the same end which is himself And though wee be neuer so couetous mee thinks this ought to stay our stomach with a sufficiency of comfort that wee may hope to goe to heauen whether it be whith the height and perfection of vertue as some goe or by the knowledge of what we want and doeing pennance for the same as many others doe But notwithstanding all this wee must not forbeare to imitate the best wee see since our Lord hath giuen vs a desire thereof and since an account is to be demaunded of vs if wee doe it not Wee must therefore desire to be better soe that yet withall wee loose not our inward peace though wee obtayne not all wee desire For otherwise I doe not thinke that euer there was a man in the world leauing him onely aside whome euery body knowes who desired not to be better then he was but yet this did not take theire peace from them because they desired nothing out of any particular appetite which neuer confesses that it hath enough but onely for the loue of God with whoe 's distribution and portion they would be well content though he gaue them lesse esteeming that to bee true loue which contents it self with what he giues more then to desire to haue much though
haue confidence in God I Haue receiued many of your letters since I saw you last And in some of them you tould mee that your soule was troubled and in others that our lord had begunne to giue you comfort Yea and I thinke you sayd in some one of them that the peace and comfort which formerly you had receiued was entirely retourned I answeared none of those letters eyther because my sinnes hindered mee from the grace of giuing you comfort or els because I knew you had sufficient confidence in mee without receiuing my answeares But now at last I receiue a letter from you whereby you tell mee that you are as much afflicted as euer if it be not rather more and you desire mee to write I am in paine through your paine and this hath moued mee to entreate that for the loue of Christ Iesus crucified you suffer not your selfe to be blinded by that darknes which superfluity of sadnes is wont to drawe ouer our soules but remember how faithfull that lord is to whom you haue offered yourselfe And that it is an vsual thing with his infinit wisdome to saue the soules of his seruants by meanes which they cannot reach to vnderstand hiding his loue from them sometimes and shewing them a countenance of some rigour and all this not because he is cruell but out of pure and perfect mercye Because he knowes that our infirmityes are better cured when wee are layd vnder the scourge of tribulation then when we are carryed vp in the hands of prosperity and comfort You tell me that desolation wherein you are seemes very bitter to you and that you cannot beare the rigour of that angry face of our lord which you say he shewes to you and that absence alsoe from him wherein you liue But I tell you my good sister that though tribulation may be of as much daunger to you as you declare yet the state of comfort is still subiect to as much Nay prosperity is much more to be feared then aduersity For in the former the soule runnes hazard to depart from God but in the latter though it suffer payne yet that very payne it selfe incites one to drawe nearer to him And if you say that the great weight of discomfort doth sometimes put the soule in daunger of sinning through impatience you say nothing but truth But yet you must knowe withall that much oftener and by assaults of greater daunger the soule is brought into daunger by the sweetnes of gust Remember the Apostle saint Paule who through the grace of him who was crucifyed did esteeme it for glory to suffer the afflictions of the Crosse Cor. 7. And though he were enuironed by warrs without and feares within yet his soule was safely kept as in a hauen most secure But soe great was the daunger which he rann by the faire and cleare weather of consolations and reuelations that if God had not permitted him to be seized vpon by the tempest both of inward and outward troubles which layd such load vpon his neck as made him stoope that great Saint might haue beene in daunger through the occasion of comfort whom soe many discomforts could not once pluck downe 1. Cor. 12 By this meanes the bitter was the cure of the sweete and the Angel of Satan was the occasion of benefit to him to whom that great communication of Almighty God might haue beene the occasion of falling if through humane frailty he had puffed vp himselfe If now this might haue happened to that vessel of election and if it were necessary for him to suffer that soe he might bee freed from the daungers of comfort how can you meruaile if God haue watered your ioy with teares if your harpe be set to sad tunes and if those sweet communications Iob 18. which you had before with Almighty God be turned into such an vnsauoury departure from him His eyes are able to discerne that which your cannot And hee knowes full well the vanity of that hart of yours which would not perhapps be able to endure the weight of diuine fauours Or els perhapps he may see that you are likely to suffer decay of health by the excesse of the sweetnes of that diuine gust which he gaue you Or else that you esteemed more of your selfe then you did of others who want these comforts Or els in fine it may haue happened for any one of many other faults which may haue taken hould of the imperfection of your hart Iere. 17. which cannot be throughly sifted by any but by that God alone who made it Yea and if you should not be in any necessity of this kind of phisick because though our lord should comfort you still yet perhapps you were not to fall into these inconueniences yet there are many other reasons why our lord may thinke fit to treate his seruants after this manner All which are grounded vpon his loue to vs though in the blind eye of flesh and bloud they may seeme to grow from disfauour You know it is a common saying He who loues thee will make thee cry And the holy scripture saith that a wound giuen by a freind is better then the treacherous kisse of an enemy And beleiue you for certaine that our lord loues you and therefore doth he treate you after this manner For it is written Heb. 12. our lord punnishes whom he loues and he corrects such a one as he receiues for his sonne And as in former times God sent most hideous Martyrdomes to his beloued seruants by the hands of base and bloudy executioners ingaging them in bitter warrs that afterward he might honour them with pretious crownes soe now when those exteriour Martyrdomes are ceased he sēdes others which bee interiour And these how soeuer they are not visible be yet as great or greater then those For then men tormented them and God gaue them comfort and by the strength of this Omnipotent God those torments were ouerwrought and maistered which were inflicted on them by weake men But now he who discomforts is our Lord who hides himselfe and the Deuils like cruell executioners doe by a thousand deuices torment the minde which is farr more sensible then the body And from that torment doth many times redound a torment euen to the very body it selfe And soe the whole man both within and without is layd vpon the discomforts of a Crosse And he sighes and grones and askes succour of our Lord. And our Lord the while makes himselfe deafe and is more hiddē from the soule then if there were seauen wals betweene him and it Yea and it doth alsoe expresly feele that our Lord hath absented himselfe from it and that not onely in the way of not doeing it any fauour Matth. 15. but rather expresly seeming to disfauour it As he proceeded with the Cananean when at the first he did but forbeare to answeare but afterward he compared her to a dog That indeed is an hower
walke in the middest of the shadow of death you may yet feare noe ill See you call vpon him for though you should bee in the whales belly yet he harkenes to his seruants euen when they are there Call vpon his Blessed Mother Ionas 3. who is also ours Call vpon the Saints who are our Fathers and our brethren for with such helpes as those you cannot feare to loose the celestiall kingdome And if our lord will haue you passe through Purgaâ—ory let his name be blessed still for soe that you may haue hope to see him you shall gladly endure any thing which may be imposed I beseech Christ our Lord who dyed for you to accompany you at your death and receiue you into his owne armes when you departe out of this life Say you to him as hee sayd to his Father In manus â—uas Pater commendo spiritum meum Luc. 23. And I confide in his mercy that you shall be receiued by him as a sonne and treated as the heire of God and coheyre with Christ our Lord. A Letter of the Authour to a Religious woeman who was neere her death He encourages her and shewes how she is to carry her self at that time DEuout seruant of Christ our Lord you sent mee word that you were in the last dayes of your life and that this was the time wherein you desired mee to remember you Soe I doe And though the newes you giue mee is not pleasing to flesh and bloud yet when I looke vpon you with christian eyes it is to recreate my soule And soe is it also to recreate yours as our Lord saith in the Ghospell when those things beginne to shew themselues Luc. 21. looke about you and lift vp your heades for your redemption is neere at hand For though Christ haue freed you by his goodnes the merit of his bloud from mortall sinnes yet still you are in daunger of committing euen then and you actually committ venial sinnes and you are still in the captiuity of your body which is soe subiect to miserie as that it makes euen a S. Paul and others who are like him sigh and groane and say as him self relates it Rom. 8. that they liued in expectation of the redemption of tâ—eir body But there you shall neither sinne mortally not venially For by meanes of the bloud of that lambe which was shed for vs hell where they euer sinne shall haue nothing to doe with you but onely Purgatory where though they suffer yet they sinne not And from thence you shall goe forth to see your Spouâ—e to enioy that blisse which he wonne for you with the nailes in his hands and with his feete fastened to the Crosse And forasmuch as it is a stranger thing to see God nailed vpon a Crosse then to see you placed in heauen I confide in his goodnes that since he had mercy enough to make him doe the more he will not want it for that which is the lesse Thither will he carry you thither I say will he carry you to remaine with himself For the espousalls which heere were celebrated betweene you when you soleÌ„nely made Profession that you would liue and dye in the state of Religion was one day to be concluded by that being together both of him the spouse and of her his fellow spouse in heauen There shall you see your self in soe great liberty and aboundance that you will esteeme your inclosure afflictions heere for well employed And there will they giue you a body which though in substance it shall be the very same which heere you haue yet shall it be very different in health and life and other things And you will incomparably more reioyce in it there then you haue suffered in it heere All entire all entire in bodye and soule are yow to bee blessed there and soe beautified as is fitt for the honour of him who tooke you for his spouse Iesus Christ the lord both of this the other world Be not therefore dismayed when you are to dye by thinking of what your owne sinnes deserue Christ our lord can doe all things and he loues you will not forsake you And since he hath preserued you in this time of your nauigation amongst all the tempests of this life be sure that he will not suffer you to perish now that you are goeing to disinbarke Putt your self wholly into his haÌ„d offering your self entirely to him both in life death and to whatsoeuer he will And beg pardon of him by his bloud for all that wherein you haue offended him and being confessed communicated cast your self headlong at his feete and desire of him one drop of his bloud whereby you may be washed and haue great confidence that you shall bee soe Be as reserued to yourselfe as free from all conuersation as the state of your sicknesse will permit For our Lord before he was to dy left his disciples that he might pray in solitude to his father giuing vs so to vnderstaÌ„d that in this traunce we must reseÌ„ble him And let your discourse be with Christ our lord with his Bl Mother And to the end that your infirmity diuert you not from them it will be well that you behould an image of the Crucifix of his Mother staÌ„ding by him Giue thaÌ„kes to our lord with your whole hart for the fauour he hath done you whether they be generall or particular and cast your self into the wounds of Christ oul Lord which is that Sanctuary out of which his Iustice must not drawe such malefactours as are repentant And repose you there and conceiue strong hope that by meanes of his bloud and death you shall goe and enioy that life in heauen which neuer is to haue an end Our Lord IESVS be euer with you Amen A Letter of the Authour to a woeman who did greatly feele the absence and disfauour of our Lord. He animates her to confide in our Lord and he assigned diuerse causes why God afflictes his seruants and of the fruit which his Diuine Maiesty reapes from thence DOe not conceiue that to be anger in our Lord which indeede proceedes from true loue For as he who beares ill will to another doth flatter sometimes and fawne vpon him so true loue sometimes corrects and chides And the holy scripture saith That the woundes which are giuen by him who loues are better then the false kisses of him who hates And therefore we doe him an extreame wrong who reproues or punishes vs out of the bowells of his loue if we thinke or say that he persecutes vs as if he loues vs not Doe not forgett that the Mediatour betweene God the Father and vs is Iesus Christ our lord by whome we are beloued and tyed with so strong a bond of loue that nothing is able to vndoe it if man himself do not cutt the knott by the guilt of mortall sinne Haue you so soone forgotten that the bloud of
Iesus Christ cryes out in the demaunde of mercie for vs and that his crye is so lowde as that it drownes the crye of our sinnes so that it cannot be heard Doe you not know that if our sinnes should still remayne aliue notwithstanding that Christ Iesus dyed to defeate them his death should be of litle worth since it could not worke that effect Let no man sett a light price vpon that which was so highly valued by Almighty God that he holdes it for a sufficient yea a superaboundant discharge forasmuch as concernes his parte therein of all the sinnes of the whole worlde and of a thousand worldes if there were so manie They who are lost are not lost for want of payment but for want of seruing themselues thereof by meanes of Faith and Pennance and the Sacraments of the holie Church Settle once this truth in your hart and doe it soundly that Christ our lord tooke the businesse of our redemption to his owne charge as verily as if it had beene his owne and he calles our sinnes his by the mouth of Dauid saying Longè a salute mea verba delictorum eorum And he demaunded pardon for them though himselfe committed none and he desired with a most profound internall loue that his seruants might be beloued as if he had desired it for himself and as he desired it Iohn 17. he obtayned it For according to the ordinance of God he and we are so much one thing that either he and we must be beloued or he and we must be abhorred And since he neither is nor can euer be abhorred neither can we also be so if we be incorporated into him by Faith and Loue. But indeede because he is beloued we are also beloued and that iustly because he weighes more towards the making of vs to be beloued then we doe to make him be abhorred And the Father loues his Sonne more then he abhorres such sinners as are conuerted to him And as one who was much beloued by his Father he said to him to this effect Either loue them or loue not me for I offer myself in pardon of their sinnes to the ende that they may be incorporated into myself The greater loue ouercame the lesser hate we are beloued pardoned and iustified we haue great hope not to be forsaken there where there is so strong a knott of loue If through our weakenesse we be afflicted with excessiue feares as now you are conceiuing that God hath forgotten you our lord hath prouided you a comfort saying thus by the Prophet Isai 49. Shall the mother perhaps be able to forgett to take pittie vpon the childe of her wombe well if she doe yet will not I forgett thee for I carrie thee written in my hands O writing which art so firme whose penne be hard nayles whose inke is the bloud it self of him who writes and the paper is his owne very flesh and his word saith thus I haue loued thee with an eternall loue â—eve 31. and therefore I haue drawen thee towards me with mercie Such a writing therefore as this must not be litle esteemed especially when one findes in himself that his soule is drawen by the sweetenesse of good purposes which are signes of that eternall loue where with our Lord hath chosen and loued him Be not therefore scandalized or afflicted for any of these things which happen to you since they all are dispensed by those very hands which were nayled to the Crosse for you in testimony of the loue hee bate you And if you desire to vnderstand what you gett heereby in the inteÌ„tion of God who sendes them you must know that they are tryalls whereby you may be examined that afterward as one who hath beene faithfull in the conflict you may be crowned by the haÌ„d of our lord with a Crowne of Iustice And to the ende you may not thinke that the particulars which you endure are signes of reprobation and that they are sent by our Lord to none but wicked men heare what Dauid saith in his owne person and of many others who walked in the way of God I sayd in the excesse of my soule Psal 30. that I am cast of before the countenance of thine eyes And though this dismay of hart and the disfauour which wee finde in the middest thereof be a thing which doth much afflicte and that the soule can take no ayme of how it standes in the sight of God nor how it shall stande nor what ende that Crosse shall haue yet neuerthelesse there are few things in the world which are so forcible to purge sinnes or which teach a man soe manie tâ—utâ—es as doth this darke obscuritie and inward affliction which makes the soule sweate droppes of bloud Our lord sendes this to his seruants that they may not departe this life without feeling what crosses and tribulations are And therefore he wounds them in the spiritt wherein they liue For if he should but wound them in temporall things to which they are dead they would haue no sence at all thereof You must therefore be sure to giue a good accompt of that dangerous passage wherein God hath beene pleased to bestow you and you must adore his iudgements And being comforted through confidence in his goodnesse bowe downe that head of yours without anie more sifting into the matter and open the mouth of your hart to swallow downe this pill of darkenesse and desolation and disfauour of God through the obedience which you owe to the same God And knowe for certaine that vnlesse you haue a minde to breake your word and vnsay your self in this tryall which God sendes to you you must resolue to make yourself strong as the Angell did Iosue Ioâ—uâ— 1. and you must liue dying euerie day 1. Coâ— 15. as S. Paul did You must be baked in the fire of tribulation that so you may grow hard like anie bricke and fitt to resist the raynes and windes of temptation and troubles and that you be not soft like the dawbing of a wall which is instantly dissolued by water and no way fitt for a strong building For the people who are to be placed in that house of heauen must be beaten and hammerd here on carth by the knockes of manie tribulations and temptations as it is written Our lâ—â—dâ—ryâ—d them and found them worthie of him self Sap. 3. Learne you therefore to sustaine your self with strong foode and striue to conuerte these stones of tribulation into bread if you desire to haue the testimonie of being the childe of God And if he giue you an appetite to eate the white and new bread of consolation remitt it back againe to the will of our lord and be content with being sure that you shall haue so much of that in the next world as that the sweetnesse thereof will farre and farre exceede the recompence which might be due for anie bitternesse sustayned in this And in steede of those hard
God can suffer him vpon the earth This is that truth where in we must liue and without this we liue in lyes And sometimes the more vertue we thinke we haue and the better we esteeme ourselues in health the more sicke and miserable we be through the want of this For confiding in ourselues we thinke we are somewhat whereas indeede it is not soe in his sight who discernes our harts and saith Apoc. 3. Thou hast the name of one who liues whereas indeede thou art dead He hath the name of one that liues who falles not into publike sinnes which the world condemnes for enormous But if neuerthelesse he fall into other sinnes which are condemned in the iudgement of Almightie God for what doth it serue him to be absolued by the world when he is censured by that iust Iudge The world knowes not how to holde that man for wicked nor to punish him for such who onely hath a good opinion and complacence in himself with pride or at least is not displeasing to himself but in the iudgement of God that man is held for proude and blinde who doth not euen stinke to himself as if he carried some dead dog tyed to his nose and who hath not a profound internall shame in the sight of his Creatour as heere men vse to haue when they are presented before some Iudge hauing beene taken in the maÌ„ner with enormous crimes And if this pride arriue to be a mortall sinne then doth it wholy square agree to him which was said before in the person of God and if it be but veniall this suytes with him but in parte Thou hast the face of a harlott â—ier 3. and knowest not what belongs to the hauing of any shame Now it is an ill fauoured spott in a soule to be voyde of shame as it is euen exteriourly when women want it The world condemnes not a man's confidence in himself nor the estimation which he may haue of himself nor a resolute will which he may haue to procure his owne contentmoÌ„t But in the sight of God these and such other things are great offences and they hinder grace and our friendship with him if they be mortall and if they be but veniall yet they hinder the profitt which we might make of the grace we haue and it destroyes all inward communication with our Lord. The deuill knowing this it troubles him not much that a soule may be aliue after the large manner if interiourly and spiritually it be dead And many times he procures not that such a person may fall into apparant and deformed sinnes for if he should coÌ„mitt any such he would be much confounded thereat For obseruing that he had done things which euen in the eyes of the world were so wicked he would take penance to hart and would be displeasing to himself in his very soule and so would mende But the deuill desires to holde him tyed fast vp in a deepe interiour blindenesse and so keepes him safe for himself without inducing him to committ other sinnes For if he fell into them also he would peraduenture giue ouer both the one and the other and so escape out of his hand You therefore must be sure to carry your eyes open vpon your owne hart and when you finde not there a profound contempt and confusion of yourself in the high presence of Almightie God be you well assured that you are farre from knowing yourself and that you haue yet no other eyes but of flesh and bloud and no true celestiall light at all For this light searches into the most hidden corners and makes the soule highly ashamed euen of those things which in the sight of worldly eyes will seeme to haue beene well done After this shame teares of griefe and true humility are wont to growe whereby the soule is wholy and absolutely made subiect to God to euery creature for his sake Now when this is wanting all things goe after another fashion and the wound is not cured but onely skinned And in that case we must call vpon our Celestiall Phisition not giue ouer till by litle and litle we may gett some small thread of light whereby to enter and see the retraites and darke holes thereof and finde her faultes euen in those things which haue apparance to be well done Our Lord doth not instantly imparte this guift but when himself is best pleased to doe it And in the meane time let vs know that we must be sure not to putt confidence in our owne workes and if yet this vertue be now wanting to vs let vs confide in our Lord that he will bestow it vpon vs in his good time Matth 7. Marke 11. Luc. 11. For he that promised That he will not giue a stone to him who shall demaunde bread and that our Father of heauen will giue a good spirit to such as aske it I beseech him to be your light that so you may know him to honour him and that you may know yourself to despise yourself And departe you wholy from yourself that you may be wholy subiect to him You must also consider that you must not want some bodie euen heere on earth who may call you to an account therefore soe you gett great store of sanctity against the time when you shall goe into another world And in the meane while be sure there be nothing in you for which it may importe me to chide you and for which you may haue reason to be ashamed as hauing beene a cause of payne to vs both Christ our Lord keepe you euer in that side of his which was pierced by a launce Amen A Letter of the Authour to a certaine Preacher against the temptation of disconfideÌ„ce of the benefitts which we enioy in Christ our lord DOe not Sir I beseech you conceiue anie vnkindenesse at my hands but forgiue me as S. Paul saith since God hath forgiuen the offences which we haue committed against him You know alreadie how full of faults I am which might suffice to make anie man fayle in the seruice which he owes Sometimes I haue wanted a messenger as I did where I haue beene of late and doe yet remaine For if no bodie bring me word of anie I know not where I am to seeke him I beseech you Sir beleiue that in a matter of more importance I will haue loue enough for the doeing you seruice I holde this distrust of Saluation to which you tell me you are subiect for a most plaine temptation Nay I holde it not onely to be certaine but sottish also For it deserues no better name then that if it will not be discharged by the consideration of those benefitts which we possesse in Christ our lord as if this businesse were the worke of our hands or the rewarde of our meritts and not by the grace of God through Iesus Christ You must therefore enlarge your litle hart towards the immensenesse of that loue wherewith