full of storms and calms more dangerous untill He brings him unto his Glory For if we believe it to be Gospel-truth that our bodies are capable to become the Temples of the Holy Ghost dwelling in us we must also believe that He will manifest Himself so as we shall discern his being in us by such a Divine Life with such extasies of joy as no Soul can reach without his assistance which if we practise to observe we shall find will prove to be our greatest consolation that the heart of man can have XXIX WE talk of Death as we do of Eating Drinking and Sleeping and do flatter our selves too much by thinking we are as ready for the Grave without a full consideration how nice and great a preparation is fit for our appearance at the Resurrection when our whole Lives here spent in the service of God is not too high a price for the Crown of Glory we then expect And yet few men do afford the hundred part of their time to become capable to receive that inestimable Purchase which Christ has made for us by his bloudshed And nothing is more strange then that we should so much forget what we are always a doing which is dying and is God's great mercy to free our Souls from the Dungeon of this World to fix them in his Eternal Bliss XXX GOD sees our first intentional approches towards Heaven so that we cannot make more hast in our Addresses unto Him then He makes to meet and welcom our sincere devotions with Raptures and Extasies of joy to encourage and guide our frail nature to love and serve Him above the World that can in no degree afford so high delights as our Souls find when our whole hearts are offered up to Him in daily Sacrifice while that holy flame lasts XXXI OUr greatest concern is to live so Righteously as to be ever ready to die which no man can think of too often nor prepare to much for if he considers that every moment advances towards the Grave through which we must pass to Eternal joy or Eternal misery and is an argument enough not to mispend our time but Day and Night to call on God for his Divine guiding Light to shew us the way to Him XXXII SLeep is so like Death that it is no wonder if we Dream often that we are amongst the dead for though we are not now visited by Visions as of old yet such frequent conversation with dead friends when we Sleep may be looked on as kind notions from above to give us some reflections on the Grave towards which we do walk as fast in our Sleep as when we are awake so that we ought to imploy more of our thoughts on every minute that so hasts on to our Eternity then men generally do and by such Dreams we may learn to converse Day and Night with God in our humble Addresses to make us fit company for His departed Saints when we Die XXXIII IF we could attain to as great Faith as the first Martyrs had we might have as much felicity in Piety as they had who rejoyced so much to leave this World that no torments could deâ—er them from death to be with Christ. And if we could raise our Souls to fancy the Glory of Heaven as they did we should believe that nothing there is so dirty as our brightest Diamonds where the beauty of Holiness by Faith as by reflection does Eclipse all the beauty wealth honour and glory of this World in the hearts of such as are become Regenerate And if our Souls were so sanctified and advanced in Divine Love as those Blessed Martyrs were we should admit no Rivals with God in our hearts where He delights to Reign alone And then we should find our God every where with us carefully providing for all our wants and supplying all our defects as if He attended on us Dust and Ashes with his Providence to guard us while we sleep and to watch if our first waking thoughts be set on Him and to expect them as his due and his delight as if the Almighty courted us for favours more then we do him for his mercies and his blessings and when our Souls become thus enlightned by his Divine Rays from Heaven we shall find our hearts so full of Him that a Wilderness â— Prison or a Dungeon will seem a Throne and will be our Heaven here and then we shall know no joy like having God ever in our sight with hearts fixed on our Eternal Bliss already thus begun XXXIV IF we consider the extent of Miracles those we call the greatest are but as wonderful as the smallest for every thing we see all we think every motion that answers to our thoughts in every part of our selves is Miraculous as to Dust and Ashes and so in the same Ballance we may weigh our Birth and Dissolution and Resurrection to be equally Miraculous But if we consult our own consciences and throughly examine our own hearts we may be confirmed in the belief that there is no higher Miracle then when the Holy Ghost turns the hearts of men from their long habitual idolized carnal appetites into a Spiritual affection towards God with such Heavenly transports as do create the peace of conscience with such a settled joy in God's service as will accompany our Souls from hence to Heaven which Spiritual Resurrection from sin being God's work in us is a sure mark of our Adoption and by this Miracle of mercy to become thus Regenerate we may account it the highest because of highest concern to us to be so raised from Hell to Heaven And a greater Miracle to confirm the Christian Doctrine no man needs to seek after then what he may thus find in himself if thus led by the Holy Ghost and thus exalted from Reprobate Dust to be the Adopted Son of God XXXV PIety is the best policy because by it we obtain all that the heart of man can wish in this World and the next which every Pious man has a great proportion of here and the Fool only thinks he can mock God or flatter Him while he does only deceive himself in hoping to serve God and the Devil at once to satisfie vitious natural appetites and enjoy Spiritual felicities at the same time as if the way to Heaven were through Hell But if we do doubt whether Eternal happiness is preferable before short fruition on Earth we may enquire of a Voluptuous sinner when he is become truly Reâ—generate if he does not find that the peace of conscience is a more constant delight then the greatest Momentary gratifications of flesh and bloud For when he is so called to an assurance of his Sonship by his Spiritual comforts from the Holy Ghost within him and such transports as do afford Heavenly joys with some glimps of that Glory which he shall participate of at the Resurrection He will perceive it is the same gift of God beyond humane acquisition so that
Christ praying in y e Garden â—u 〈◊〉 And there appeared an Angel c. v. 43. And when he rose up from Prayer and was come to His Disciples He found them sleeping c. v. 45. And said unto them c. v. 46. Mid-night THOUGHTS Writ as some think by a London-Whigg OR A Westminster-Tory Others think by a QUAKER OR A JESUIT But call him what they please they may find him a true PENITENT Of the Church of CHRIST London Printed for Benj. Clark Bookseller in George-Yard in Lombard-street 1682. THe Constant Meditations of a Man who for many â—ears built on Sand which every blast of cross Fortune â—as defaced But now he has â—aid new Foundations on the Rock of his Salvation which no Storms can shake and will out-last the Conflagration of the World when time shall melt into Eternity TO THE READER YOV are to know that the Author being no Scholar had no design to teach others nor other Aims by writing these his Mid-night Thoughts then by reviewing them to keep up his own heart to Heaven But by this practice he grew to such a habit of Nightly Meditations at his first waking as prov'd more pleasant then sleep and in a short time became more delightful then any other Thoughts could entertain his mind with So that without any intent to publish them they swell'd into this bulk you see and brought him such consolation that he thought it Gods Mercy to bring him this way to Heaven And if any Reader do find the like advantage by doing the like he will have as 〈◊〉 cause to thank God as the Author has who set his fancy on work this way to defend his heart from indulging such vain Thoughts as day and night did formerly invade and seduce him unto evil purposes And on this account the Author was perswaded by some Friends to transcribe these loose Papers as they were first writ and tacked together without any method of coherence observed as appears by the frequent repetitions of the same expressions in many of them yet they wish'd him to keep them as they were to shew how such unlearned men as himself might better imploy their busie fancies at all times on the serious thoughts of their Eternity then to drop into their Graves without any consideration whither they are going And the Author on the same account was some time after by the same Friends against his own Iudgment over-ruled and perswaded to permit them to be Printed without his Name who gave him such Arguments for it as he could not resist hoping that amongst so much sincere natural Devotion something of great use may be found to enrich the Souls of those who are of no more capacity then himself who knew no true felicity until he learnt to meditate on his Eternity which every man has some Talents to practice on Mid-night THOUGHTS I. MOst men do miss of the Feâ—icity they seek on Earth because the Wealth and Honours that we gain and all our joys in them are with our selves still perishing in the height of our Fruitions and in a little time must all return unto the dust we came from Yet nothing does disturb the heart of man so often and so much as pampering of it with hopes of what we seldom reach and always over-valuing what we aim at which our Fancies like Magnifying Glasses represent unto us with such multiplied Felicities as dazle our understanding and captivate our reason with an expectation of what we never find But such men as can set their hearts on God above all his creatures and delight in him and his Celestial joyes will find a constant Felicity here by an inward assurance of Eternal Glory hereafter for sâ—ch a man can never want arguments to encrease his joys on earth when his repeated sorrows for past sins do create new joys for those sorrows and every new victory over a new temptation does afford him fresh joys for such frequent conquests over Satan and himself So that if we can set our whole hearts sincerely to delight in God and his service We may have so many tasts of his Heavenly joys here and such frequent glimpses of that glory that we cannot hide our comforts in the Holy Ghost from our own hearts while we live and when we die our Souls will rejoyce to fly into Christs arms for the consummation of all our hopes all our joys unto Eternity And whoever doth observe will find that the deepest sorrows for sin does raise the highest joys for our reconciliation and will prove our fullest happiness on earth II. THe more we search into the ways of Devotion the clearer we shall see and experimentally find that true Divine Philosophy when fixed in the heart of a Divine Lover is the highest extract of all the blessedness that mans nature is capable of in this world For God may be said to delight in filling those Souls with his Celestial joys that study him and will bring a regenerate man to such a sense and contempt of his past life that he shall soon arrive at so great a degree of Felicity in his approaches and converse with him in Holy Meditations as to lament when he thinks of what joys he has lost by wandring so long from God For the felicity to love God and to be beloved of God is a pleasant Meditation to entertain a pious mans heart his whole life And will invite him to spend more time with God then with all his creatures III. WE should always pray with such intention of Spirit in that great duty unto God and with such fervent zeal as if our Souls were that moment to expire and to carry our Pardon with us to Heaven And every time that we receive the Holy Sacrament we should consider that we are climbing a step nearer to Heaven then we were before so to shew our desires to be there And whoever will have patience to read these plain Lessons and mind them so seriously as to practice them sincerely will find more pleasure therein then he can fancy before he tries if he never tried to Meditate till now because a firm fixed ratified Devotion has in all Ages been experimentally approved of for the highest delightful diversion that the heart of man can enjoy IV. DElight in the Lord and he will give thee thy hearts desire that thou maist still increase that delight more and more in his mercies and blessings in his love and thy trust therein with a comfortable peace of Conscience until he brings thee unto the supream delight of all delights to see his face in Glory and until then to entertain thy heart with the joyful assurance of that Felicity to come as the highest desire a man can have by continual improving thy delight in God for from him who is the Fountain of Mercy and Grace continual joys do flow V. WE are to seek earnestly and to pray daily for Christs righteousness as our chief treasure and not to rest until our
Celestial joys as the highest and most delightful entertainment he can wish for on this side of Heaven for God is the Centre of a Divine Lovers Soul it cannot move from him without some impulsive force which we should disdain to yield unto XIX HOw frail is humane Nature that can never be so much pleased on Earth as within some time not to become weary of what we most delight in And how much greater frailty is it to know how to be ever pleased and for ever happy but cannot set our hearts sincerely to endeavour for it And yet there is another frailty in some men above all the rest most wonderful that such as have on serious thoughts of their Eternity resigned their hearts to God and for some time known no joy like their transports for Heaven that such men so raised should prove so weakly fixed as boldly dare make room for Satan in their hearts again as the more welcome guest where God did sometime dwell this were a dreadful thing to think on if the mercies of God were not far beyond the reach of sinners to deface And from hence we may learn that holiness is the peculiar gift of God and that we are raised to all degrees of Piety by his holy Spirit who of ourselves can neither rise nor stand one moment in his favour longer than supported by the same Spirit thus to give us humble thoughts of our own little or no strength And yet we are not obliged to rest in such humility but ought to labour and to pray for more and more Talents of faith and grace till their encrease do raise our Souls higher and higher in ambitious zeal to become Divine Lovers and not to be content with less preferment than adopted Sons when we find the Holy Ghost thus at work within us and so may strive to raise our new affections by holy thoughts to the highest pitch of devour extasies of Devotion and by this Divine experiment to try if we can love God too much and have more zeal in prayer than he does like of or can so tire him with our importunate addresses that He will turn away his face and deny his love unto Souls wholly devoted to serve and please him But when we find our hearts full of such sincere raptures in Devotion we may assure our selves they come from God who does ever approve and accept of such flaming sacrificed hearts as are enkindled from above and are much different from any such Enthusiams as Satan can infuse only to infect those wavering hearts that do still incline to be his Vassals XX. THose who have obtained of God to become truly Regenerate do find that a sincere repentance with contrition and conversion of heart to God are rewarded with peace of Conscience and so great a delight in humble converses with God on their meditations of Heaven and their Eternal bâ—iss that all Worldly pleasures do give way to those Divine transports which flow from the Holy Ghost within them And no time so proper to meet God as when they awake at mid-night before any Worldly concerns entertain their hearts for he that chearfully recommends his Soul to God when he lyes down to rest will to his infinite comfort find God ready to receive his first waking ejaculations who begins the day with the same adoration and trusts in him that he lay down to sleep with so that our mid-night conferences with God will by custom grow more pleasant than sleep and will fix such a Divine love on our Creator as will produce great joy here and some glimpse of that glory we shall have in Heaven for God never receives our sincere Addresses without multiplying of his favours in return by such manifestations of his grace as will preserve us in his service until we meet again to pursue those holy meditations which will bring us unto Him in Heaven when we die XXI A Righteous man is a Divine Philosopher that enjoys all his heart can wish in this World by his faith in Christ Love to God Charity to men purity and humility And the Holy Ghost is the great Chymist that conveys all these ingredients into the furnace of a pious heart and there by His influence and operation produces the grand Elixir of true righteousness which preserves the Soul unto Eternal happiness And whoever finds the Holy Ghost thus working in him will find the comfort and consolation of his Salvation in this life which with the serious consideration of his future felicity will be entertainment for his whole time here and keep him always ready for his summons to Heaven and will make his passage thither as easie to the Righteous as it is terrible to an impenitent sinner XXII IT is impossible to fancy and to find any Earthly entertainment for the heart of man but Devotion that can raise his delights higher and higher by fruitions without laâ—situde unto Eternity which elevated devotion is a felicity that the Divine Lover only has and is created in his heart with his Resurrection from sin to grace by a continual succession of growing joys on the assurance he finds of his second Resurrection to Glory at the day of Judgement which is God's peculiar work in the Souls of his Beloved to make them see that He is never absent from such as are totally devoted to love and serve Him for such and only such can securely enjoy God in all his Creatures here and have him also to eternity in Heaven If then the rugged way thither be so pleasant to a Righteous man what will his Seraphick joys be there and how worthy of our utmost endeavours to live so that we may die capable to participate of those joys then XXIII MEn do generally create terrors to fright their own hearts as they do Children with ugly Vizards we represent Death unto our fancies in dismal forms as a Messenger sent from Satan to hurry us from our present delights into everlasting flames And then 't is no wonder that habitual impenitent sinners do start back from the approach of Death when so dressed But the Regenerate Man has an Antidote against this evil He summons his Celestial thoughts and sets his Soul in order as a great Prince in State incircled with Heavenly joys as his Nobility and is also attended by crouds of Guardian Angels to receive the same Death with caresses of great friendship who appears before him drest in bright gorgeous Raiments as an Embassador sent from the King of Kings to consummate a League of Amity and to give him possession of his new Conquest with a Crown of Eternal Glory long fought for and at last obtained So that we generally mistake our passage into the next World and call it death which is assured Life and that Eternal It is our faults if we be frighted at the terrors of torment there where everlasting joys do answer every pious mans expectations who looks on the pangs of his departing Soul but as the
though God has promised pardon unto penitent sinners He has not promised one hour of Life to repent in since therefore we can neither prevent death nor foresee it let us always expect it as at hand and prepare for our Eternal Glory in the presence of God while we have time to do it LXXXI MOst men do say and do believe they love God and no doubt many good men do more or less but all mankind ought to enquire into their own hearts if they find not more joy in their idle diversions then in God's company if they be not quickly weary of conversing with God in Meditation and Prayers hasting to return unto their diversions which they love better then Him and then consider the consequence of such contempts and how much our selves do scorn a divided heart where we love much more then doth God despise those who prefer his Creatures before Himself LXXXII GOD knows our frailties and doth allow us diversions but they must be such as we may own in his sight and see Him in them with grateful hearts for such refreshments as Humane Nature does require and such as we may glorifie his Name in their frâ—itions and be sure not to flatter our selves into evil temptations by our fair-fac'd diversions too much indulged lest they sting us to death with smiles LXXXIII THere is another kind of happy and blessed diversions free from sinful vanities and fading glories of the World which David so much delighted in by his retirements to converse with God as his Souls chiefest joy and whoever seeks God with the like zeal no doubt will find Him as David did and be as fully happy as he was in God's esteem which is an ambition that does become good Christians as the best diversions we can have to raise our hearts to Heaven LXXXIV MEn ought with great care to watch their diversions for we are often betrayed into a neglect of God even by innocent diversions which by custom do insensibly engage our hearts to consent unto evil actions when we design nothing that is ill So that if we serve God as we ought we shall delight to converse with him in our retirements and account our holy Meditations of Heaven to be our most pleasant diversions so to refresh our Spirits when tired with Worldly affairs and we shall find that such Celestial diversions will be blessed with Divine joys that cannot be shaken by Carnal appetites nor by glistering Vanities when once fixed and ratified by God's reception of us into his List of Adopted Sons and then be so guided by his Holy Spirit as to grow higher and higher in his favour till we participate of his Glory which inward assurance will be a more pleasant subject for our diversion then all the Wit the Wealth the Honours and Beauties of this World can entertain our hearts with And when God dwells thus in the Souls of men it is the most ravishing diversion we can have to see our selves live ready to enter into His Eternal joy at a minutes warning LXXXV WHen we approach God with sincere hearts there can be no diversion more delightful then our Souls union with Him who knows all our wants all our oppressions and sees all our concerns whatever and is as ready to redress our grievances and to bless our honest endeavours as we can be to desire it which our pious diversions above all other diversions the most delightful so that the best of idle diversions though innocent is like warming frozen Vipers in our breasts until we give them strength to bite us to death And if we do observe it we shall find that there is no real essential pleasure in any diversions but in true Devotion which the Regenerate man finds to be true LXXXVI WE have two very remarkable notions fit for frequent consideration to judge how our hearts stand towards God and how we may discern his love to us The first is to observe if we have more joy in our retired Devotions then in the fruition and conversation of his Creatures in which we cannot be mistaken if we diligently observe how his Holy Spirit works in us at those times From whence arises the second consideration to observe how our Souls are elevated by his Divine comforts descending on us in such Devotions which is the best assurancc we can have that we do love God above all his Creatures and doth also shew that He sees it likes it and rewards us for it by his returns of Grace in giving a delightful perseverance in such sincerity to Him which is the highest experiment that our frail Natures can make when we love God so well as to câ—nverse with Him in our humble Addresses before all Carnal selicities and can rejoyce to go to Him when He calls for us LXXXVII AFter all that has or can be said the only way which God himself hath in his Holy Gospel fixed on for the exaltation of his Glory in the forgiveness of sins is that all sinners should come to Him merely upon the account of Grace in the bloud of Christ and not to rest on nor support our selves with general hopes of mercy mixed with our endeavours and obedience but to come up to the Gospel Rule by a fixed Faith in Christ and make that way our all by giving Glory to God therein as He hath appointed lest we perish Eternally For no man shall receive pardon and forgiveness of sins but those who come unto God by the bloud of Christ. And the sin against the Holy Ghost is only excepted from such forgiveness LXXXVIII ALl the Arguments we can hear or read or fancy to our selves by conversing with God in holy Meditations of Heaven and Eternal Bliss in his presence there will not extinguish the natural affection between our Souls and Bodies so far as to desire or to be willing to have a separation by death without a miraculous addition of Faith and Grace to work beyond the reach of our Nature though we do believe that the time between our Death and our Resurrection is but a moment to Eternity and though that moment should last an hundred thousand years it will be as undiscernible for its duration as while we sleep one minute So that we must be satisfied in this mystery without farther enquiry and pray to be contented in that point to be as happy when we die as God's departed Saints are until they and we arise together And this is great comfort to know that we shall be with them in death if we do sincerely endeavour to live and die in God's favour as they did And so make ready to go where we all pretend to desire to be when we can stay no longer here LXXXIX WE must not entertain Spiritual Pride nor welcom flattering Enthusiasms in our devotions nor attribute such Holiness to our selves as is the immediate gift of God but we may nay we must joy and rejoyce to find the Holy Ghost at work within our hearts
our own hearts strictly how they stand towards God and with what sincere delight we serve him in our Devotions for the bright flaming zeal of a sincere sigh will pierce Heaven when luke-warm words uttered aloud can find no entrance nor is at all regarded by Almighty God who allows us to knock hard at Heaven gates for entrance when our groaning hearts express our desires for He loves to be pressed with violence for his favours to shew that we value what we pray for XCIX ENdeavour above all things while thy Soul is in communion with God to keep thy affection up to Him and strive not so much for long eloquent language as to be heart-wounded in thy Petitions for when thy Devotion flags thy Prayer is done We ought always to pray as if we were that moment to die which will keep our hearts intent on the great work we are about And he that in praying can adorn his sorrow for past sins with penitential tears before he parts from God will wash them off with tears of joy for that sorrow C. THere is nothing in our view more destructful to the Souls of men then the false opinion that Christianity does impose slavish Laws upon us as if Piety only consisted in heavy burthens to be poor miserable dejected Cyphers in the World made up for sorrows and sufferings with self-denial vows against all humane natural fruitions and felicities For most men being bred up in these mistaken prejudices cannot easily be perswaded that the true Christian Gospel Rules for a Spiritual life does exceed those carnal appetites we so much struggle for and the Regenerate man as much despises in comparison of his Souls continual feasting on the expectation of Heaven whose firm belief of his Eternal joy as an adopted Son of God is a felicity above all the fading enjoyments this World can afford the most ambitious luxurious person who has all that his heart can wish that way So that no man can have a more chearful Soul then he whose faith in Christ and trust in God makes participate of all the lawful pleasures this World affords and when piously used is a delight far above what the wicked can pretend to when the terrors of an evil conscience must imbitter his fruitions And this no man can so well judge of as a converted sinner become Regenerate who has tasted and forsaken the most voluptuous pleasures this World has for the present joys his Soul finds by Faith in his Eternal Bliss which shews that a good Christian lives more pleasantly in this World then a vitious man can do CI. WHen Christ has wrought his great miracle of Conversion in the hearts of the most obdurate sinners those near lost men by his grace becoming truly Regenerate such Evangelical sincerity will grow in their hearts towards God as to take more pleasure in his service then all their past carnal fruitions did afford them So that whoever is enriched with this Grace will find Divine comforts in their retirements to be alone with God such as will beget Heavenly Raptures and preserve their hearts the whole day after from Satanical assaults and by the custom of such early Morning exercise will in time beget an habitual delight to begin the day with God and never forget those high Ejaculations until they meet the Lord again to renew and confirm their commerce for Heaven But it is no wonder that men generally great sinners are so hard to be converted because they cannot set a true value on what they understand not But most wretched those who have been thus enlightned and for some moments rais'd to Heaven yet are so frail by nature and by custom prone to evil as to forsake these Seraphick joys and return to fordid Earthly fruitions rather then continue in the assured everlasting joys of Heaven by persevering in that Righteousness which they have tasted and like not CII THough David did commit some great faults he was a man after God's own heart after that and one of the best patterns in Holy Writ fit for us to imitate for his love and gratitude to God who by custom grew to such a pious friendship with his great Maker that much of his life was spent with God alone in his retirements with whom he consulted all his affairs made all his complaints to and humbly begged whatever his needs were with such a familiar trust in God as his only support and only delight So that if we now consider David's great affairs as a King full of troubles ever in Wars though glorious by his Atchievements yet in frequent dangers vexed by a stubborn People hard to govern besides the disorders of his own Family so that we may think he omitted no opportunity to be with God that hath left so many Psalms full of such high Divine Raptures extant to manifest his great piety that it is a wonder he could get so much time for so many prayers praises and contemplations By which we may learn that in what calling so ever God has set us and what troubles so ever He appoints for us we may find time to converse with God by day and night So that if we repent confess and forsake our sins with hearts as servent towards God as David did no doubt we shall be as well received though neither Kings nor Prophets We may also call to mind that David as the least considerable person of his Family had the lowest imployment to keep his Fathers Sheep yet his heart was then set high on God or he might have been devoured by that Lion or that Bear he slew if God had not been with him And we may also think that he was better acquainted with God at his Flock then Saul was on his Throne else he had not escaped Saul's surious malice and so soon ascended that Throne By which we may see that the greatest King and meanest man may learn of David to love serve honour worship and trust in God with such a delight as will grow to a friendship with his Creator and raise his Soul up unto Heaven whatsoever his imployment on Earth is and those hours and years of our life which we trifle away as a burthen to be rid of not knowing how to spend idly enough we may imploy as David did and never be alone when most alone Thus we may enjoy a happy and blessed security on Earth and have a true courage above all such accidents as make ill men tremble And thus a pioâ—â— man enjoys a present communion with God and Christ by a lively Faith to such a degree as doth assure his Soul of Eternal Bliss in Heaven and when Satan finds us always in such company he will have small hopes to get an Audience for his Addresses to destroy us So that if we can live thus like David we may hope to die in God's favour like him and as chearfully resign our Souls into God's hands who loves us more then we can love him
labouring to change our conditions still aiming to get what we have not though the last acquisition rarely brings more satisfaction then what we had before Whereas a contented man has all that he desires and enjoys what he has because allotted to him by the Divine Providence who doth chuse better for those that do relie on Him then we can for our selves CLXXXIV WE ought not to repine at crosses nor to murmur at sickness or any other affliction whatever because they are God's Cordial Antidotes to repell the poison of such sins as He sees do use to infect our Souls with malignant diseases such as create a despairing conscience when we die and hazard Eternal Torments in the next World we are therefore to kiss the Rod that works so great a cure and that Hand that smites us in Love to make us fit for his Mercy by repentance and conversion from being great sinners to become his Adopted Sons and so above the venom of future biting afflictions for He only hath perfect peace whose mind is stayed on God the Rock of our Salvation CLXXXV NO man can do all that he should do but all men may do as much as they can do and God requires no more to obtain his Love here and Salvation hereafter But we are naturally so prone to flatter our selves in this point that when we think our hearts most safe we are often surprized by a forsaken sin and shamefully subdued by it For when we make a Covenant with our Eyes and Hearts not to go astray though we cannot hinder the first look or thought that is amiss we may so check them at first appearance as they shall not invade us a second time nor bite on to harm us so that if we do stumble heedlesly we may prevent wilful tumbling into Relapses and wallowing in them for which there is no excuse CLXXXVI IT is worthy of observing how some men by a long customed and settled habit of living ill have so Naturalized their sins to themselves and themselves to the Devil as in time they grow to think it a point of honour and conscience to be constant to that profession and are asham'd to quit Satans black Livery which they prefer before their first engagement to God in Baptism I have heard a Gentleman say that when he had lived many years in great Iniquities it pleased God by a long sickness to beget such remorse in his heart as upon his recovery to become a Convert But for a long time after he did conceal this change as asham'd to practise his conversion by a publick new course of life so much out of fashion and did many times in conversatioâ— seem to like what he liked not to avoid being thought an Hypocrite until he consider'd how much greater a shame it was to serve God in a corner so to smother his highest Act of Mercy towards him in not daring to own the thoughts of his Salvation and how unworthy he was to become an Adopted Son of God while he feared to declare his Hope of so high an Advancement On which account he did take courage to profess his Conversion which he thought not fully to manifest until the hour of his death By which we may see how dangerous it is to run on in habitual sins until we grow ashamed to forsake them CLXXXVII IT is a wonder to consider that mankind should be so universally bred up from our Infancy to study and by laborious callings to imploy our Talents of Sense and Reason in the acquisition of such perishing goods as the World affords and generally so late begin to inform our selves of our Souls intrinsick value being created for a participation of God's Glory when ascended into Heaven how unworthy an exchange then do we make who believe this and yet do violently labour for the short-liv'd vanities and indeed the nothingness of this World in comparison with Eternity at the immense price of our Immortal Souls loss and our Eternal joys in Heaven for everlasting flames in Hell And this because we do not consider that God did not make the World to mock man with fallacious delights in the enjoyment of his Creatures but intended it for our entertainment and diversions in our Journey to Heaven and therefore has given us rational Souls such as by living virtuously we may enjoy the World and Him together and so advance our selves by gratitude and love here to a confirmation of a full â—ruition of Him at the Resurrection Thus if we would sincerely study virtue and set a true value on the perfection of Righteousness we might enjoy this World with double pleasure and have Heaven hereafter with all its Glory also CLXXXVIII WE do mistake nothing in this World more then our pleasures which we do compell our fancies to comply in and do often take more pains to justifie those vanities then any delight we find in such short-liv'd fruitions Whereas if our hearts were set on God and our Souls raised to serious thoughts of our Eternal Bliss such Divine entertainments would grow to a continual feast â—ull of surprizing joys and such Heavenly delights that we should with pain suffer and with remorse endure our vain diversions and lament to see that our Nature does require such frequent relaxes from our most rarified and ratified Devotions CLXXXIX WE cannot want Arguments for Meditation if we call to mind our Christianity that is diligently examine if we do participate of Christs Righteousuess to such a degree that our conversion from sin and our natural corruptions be changed into such an Evangelical habit of Holiness as to manifest our Spiritual Resurrection and Election to our own hearts for then nothing can engage us unto higher gratitude and love then a true sense of so great a benefit received which when seriously considered will mount up our Souls to frequent extasies of blessed Joy by our devout approaches in Adoration of God the Father the Son and the Holy Ghost who are all three always working us up to our Salvation Then which nothing can be more worthy of our Meditation and sincere examination that we may be ready for the day of Judgment which no man can be that does not live so as to be chearfully ready to die for it is a much greater business to go out of the World then to live in it CXC NO other man can cozen us so much as we cozen our selves in what we like because we naturally raise fallacious reasonings against true reason to justifie our unlawful desires and do very easily perswade our selves to comply with our most idle fancies and eagerest appetites to what we know is against all Reason and Religion too thinking that our frailty is excuse enough to follow our blind inclinations to evil and do also indulge our aversion to goodness on the same account so long as our endeavours do prosper in wickedness But when we are Thunder-struck by some surprizing affliction then we can begin to think and