abroad and in his anger to doe mee the greatest hurt hâ—e could which then he thought to be to fall under the rod he dealt with all the prompters that none of them should helpe me and so as he thought I must necessarily be beaten When I found my selfe at this strait I gathered all my wits together as we say and listned the more carefully to my fellowes that construed before me and having also some easie word to my lot for parsing I made hard shift to escape for that time And when I observed my adversaries displeasure to continue against me so as I could have no helpe from my prompters I doubled my diligence and attention to our masters construing our next lesson to us and observing carefully how in construction one word followed and depended upon another which with heedfull observing two or three lessons more opened the way to shew me how one word was governed of another in the parsing so as I needed no prompter but became able to bee a prompter my selfe and so the evill intended to mee by my fellow scholler turned to my great good Let all those who have found the like gracious worke towards themselves as many have in matters of more moment if they observe it come joyne with me in praising the Lord for the same whose providence governeth all things and who doth powerfully declare himselfe to bee the only true God by such over ruling the powers of darknesse and the malicious and evill intentions of men bringing light out of darknesse good out of evill life out of death and making all things worke together for the good and comfort of them that feare him O mercifull Lord God who even in my childhood didst shew mee this grace and favour as thou hast often done since in many cases of extremitie give mee grace to magnifie thy blessed name therefore and of thy free grace and unchangeable mercie continue thy goodnesse to mee thy unworthy servant for my support in my last need that death may not be death unto me but a passage from temporall to eternall life and a change of the one for the other as it is to all thine elect according to the mighty working of our Saviour dying for us whereby he hath purchased eternall life for every poore penitent soul that believes in him Blessed be the Lord our strength and our redeemer for ever Amen 7 Vpon six verses of the 12 Chapter of S. Luke IN one of my paper-books which I had when I was a school-boy I find this short note written with mine own hand at that time Lu. 12.35 to the 40. v. whether it was the text of some Sermon I then heard or upon what other occasion I then wrote it is forgotten as all worldly things must shortly be with me But now turning to the place of that Gospel I find it to be a part of our blessed Saviours Sermon to his Disciples not long before his passion and to contain a most waighty and necessary duty enjoyned to us all for our timely preparation for death and our Lords second comming in these words following Vers 35. Let your loynes begirded about and your lights burning Vers 36. And ye your selves like unto men that waite for their Lord when hee will returne from the wedding that when he commeth and knocketh they may open unto him immediately Vers 37. Blessed are those servants whom the Lord when he commeth shall finde watching verily I say unto you that hee shall gird himselfe and make them to sit downe to meat and will come forth and serve â—hem Vers 38. And if he shall come in the second watch or come in the third watch and find them so Blessed are those servants Vers 39. And this know that if the good man had known what houre the thiefe would come he would have watched and nâ—t have suffered his house to be broken thorough Verse 40. Be ye therefore ready also for the sonne of man commeth at an houre when you think not In which word our blessed Saviour requires of us for our own good and finall comfort an hourely watchfulnesse and preparation for the time of our change that we may be ready when it commeth telling us plainly that it will come at an houre we thinke not and therefore to be expected and provided for that houre if we will be safe urging this most needfull dutie by two examples or parables the one from the happie reward of so doing twise pronouncing those servants blessed whom the Lord when hee commeth shall find watching the other from the danger of neglecting this watch wherein we wilfully give the thiefe opportunity to breake our house thorough to our utter undoing That if the former reason of reward and blessing will not moove us out of love and dutie to see so gracious a Lord and for our owne finall glory to be ready with our loines girded all carnall and worldly affections suppressed and our lights burning in bumble 〈◊〉 repentance and obedience to open unto him at the first knock yet the very feare of being surprised by that cruell murthering thiefe our ghostly enemy who every houre watcheth to take us at advantage for bringing us to utter confusion should awaken us and make us careful to put this holy duty into serious and conti uall practise for our owne finall safety and peace and the glory of our most graâ—ious God in our salvation reckoning every day and houre to be our last and so graciously imploying our few remaining daies of mortality here as neither desiring nor needing any morrow that so whensoever wee shall be called hence we may be ready and enter into the joy oâ— our blessed Lord and Saviour and remaine with him where he is in glory for ever and ever Here this weake meditation of mine I will conclude with M George Withers prayer and meditation upon the 98. Psalme O Almighty Son of God we blesse and praise thee for the manifestation of thy mercy to the whole world is the miraculous work of our redemption thou didst come unto us in despised weaknesse yet hast thou therein shewen such unresistable power that it prevailed against the wisdome of the worldly wise and magnified thy derided crosse above all the most renowned deities of the Gentiles This thou didst by appearing in a contemptible state oh how glorious and how powerfull wilt thou be in thy second comming It now draweth niâ—h O let it not come upon us as a thief in the night but as the travaile upon a woman who keepeth a just reckoning and joyes in the hopes of her birth more then she feares the paines of her trâ—velling so according to the counsell of thy holy Spirit we may expect and receive thee with praises triumphs and rejoycings Amen Vpon a Stage-play which I saw when I was a child IN the City of Gloucester the manner is as I think it is in other like corporations that when Players of Enterludes come to towne they first attend
of life and death of salvation and damnation at that Acts 2.20 great and terrible day of the Lord wherein 2 Pet. 3.10 the heavens shall passe away with a great noise and the elements shall melt with fervent heat the earth also and the workes that are therein shall be burnt up the dead raised the living changed and all mankinde brought together to give a most strict accompt not for their ill works alone but for their neglect of good duties not for actions alone but for their words and that not for filthy and mischievous words only but for every idle word and the thoughts of the heart And this my soule is that infinite almighty and most glorious and dreadful Majestie against whom we have rebelled in the highest treasons his wisdome power justice being incomprehensible and his wrath insupportable O come let us worship and fall downe prostrate with all aweful reverence trembling and feare and then in the second place consider how infinitely gracious and good this our most blessed God the King of eternall glory hath beene to such a worme and vile wretch as my unworthy selfe For besides those most blessed and extraordinary priviledges which I have with my countrey-men in being borne an Englishman in the time of the most glorious Sun-shine of the Gospell of grace seconded with such Halcyon daies of blessed peace the publike miracles of mercy which God hath wrought even in my life time in the preservation of this Church and Kingdome our gracious Princes our selves and our posterities specially in these two famous deliverances never to be forgotten by any true English heart from the Spanish invincible Armado and the Popish hellish Powder plot O blessed Lord God how infinitely good and gracious hast thou been unto me most unworthy in all the particular passages of my earthly pilgrimage First in spirituall blessings by thy preventing mercy keeping me from some grievous sinnes into which my owne wicked corruptions by Sathans damnable enticements had els drawne me In thy sparing mercies in my acting of other sins wherinto I was faln In thy pardoning mercies that miracle of miracles in translating me out of that damnable estate of mine unregenerate time into rhe glorious liberty of thine owne children of grace and adoption in IESUS CHRIST and for thy renewing mercies by the work of thy holy spirit making me to loath all sinne and to apply my selfe to all duties of holinesse and righteousnesse in universall new obedience to thy most holy will and a constant will and resolution to serve and please thee love feare adore and obey thee in all true repentance and sanctification all the remaining houres of my life and lastly for the assurance thou hast given me of the upshot of all thy finall and crowning mercies in the life to come Then again in temporall blessings by preserving mee from harme in most desperate dangers giving mee the helpe of good education blessing me with a most gracious and comfortable fellowship in marriage and us both with hopefull children and grandchildren especially for our eldest son the true staffe of our age and for thy bountifull providing for us and them in outward necessaries and shewing us mercy in all our occasions yea good Lord for thy fatherly chastisements sent amongst us and therein for that gentle paralyticall infirmity of mine owne aged body whereby I have beene gratiously taken off from worldly cares and employments and have held and still by thy goodnesse have this blessed time and opportunity for heavenly meditations and Christ in preparation of my self for my change and dissolution and my finall translation into those glorious mansions which our most blessed Saviour hath provided for us in his heavenly kingdome O most blessed Lord God how shall I poore weakling do to admire thy providence adore thy Majestie love feare serve and obey thee and glorifie thy most holy name as I am most bounden and heartily desire to do in all sincerity duty and thankfulnes for all thy numberles and incomprehensible mercies blessings comforts and deliverances vouchsafed unto me even in this fraile life and valley of teares and for the glorious upshot of all thy crowning mercies reserved for me in the life to come Oh fill my heart with thy gracious spirit for enabling me to pay my humble vowes unto thy Majestie in all true sanctified obedience and faithfull and serious endeavours of soule and body to walke acceptably before thee from henceforth and for ever Amen And now my soule should wee in the third place consider how wickedly and ungraciously I have misbehaved my self all the days of my flesh towards this most high glorious almighty and most dreadful Majestie and towards this most gracious and mercifull God and Saviour of ours But here alas I am confounded wâ—h shame astonishment of heart and horror of conscience but to think of the manifold frailties prophannes pollutions of my youth and the sinful negligencies rashnesses improvidence unfruitfulnes and unthankfulnes and other sins and transgressions of thought word or deed of my whole mispent life by past Yea O Lord my God in my ungrateful and froward neglect of thy gracious time of visitation graunted mee of thine unspeakable mercie these foure last yeares aswell for my sound humiliation and serious daily repentance for my manifold sins and corruptions as for improving that precious time in those gracious duties and spirituall exercises publike and private which my conscience tels me I should have performed with more fervour of spirit feare and trembling and syncerity and intention of heart then I have done But O Lord I finde that were mine eyes fountaines of teares powred out every moment of my life should my heart fall asunder into drops of blood in my brest for anger and indignation against my selfe for my grievous sins and transgressions yet should I come infinitely short of that sorrow and hearts griefe which mine offences would justly require and exact at my hands And therefore O Lord my God though it bee my most earnest suit and the earnest desire and constant prayer of my humble soule that my hard and dull heart may by thy grace be so softned and quickned as to be truly broken and dissolved into sighs of true contrition and that I may weepe day and night for my sinnes and offences all my life long unto my dying houre yet all could not serve to draw thy mercy upon me for the least of my transgressions for in the point of redemption of mankind and purgation of sinne nothing could serve the turn but the precious blood of IESUS CHRIST God and Man in one person blessed for ever Either the sonne of God must die or else all mankind be eternally damned and their sinnes only are properly said to have pierced him who at length are saved by his blood Come then my soule let us set our humble faith on worke to lay fast hold upon this blessed Saviour of ours who only is become our reconciliation and peace-maker
to walke exactly Ephes 5.15 in a holy life have little store of that grace and little hold of that Saviour whereof they presume so much Shortly as it is our great comfort that there is no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus Rom. 8. So that which followes must bee our great care to walke not after the flesh but after the spirit That new and living way by the blood of Christ will guide us streight to heaven between those two dangerous rocks of despaire and presumption Rec. 4. Nov. 1630. In the conclusion of this Letter I was encouraged to continue my honourable Lords service which I did for the yeare following and then 30. Novemb. 1631. being suddainly taken with a disease called vertigo capitis which I doubted might turne to an Apoplexy I withdrew my selfe home and entred into a course of Physick under which I was holden so long as I was by GODS mercy taken off from my further worldly imployments and with my noble Lords extraordinary favour in my farewell retired my self into Northamptonshire since which time it hath pleased our most gracious Lord God to adde some more yeares to my life for my better preparation for the time of my change blessed be his most holy name for it and let his holy spirit of grace I humbly beseech him teach both my selfe and all others that shall read this worthy letter to learne and practise that most necessary and blessed lesson of joyning faith and obedience true beliefe and holy life together in the short race of our earthly pilgrimage that so being true children of grace here we may be assured to bee heires of glory in the life to come through Jesus Christ our only Lord and Saviour Amen 23. Vpon the words revealed to S. Augustine In te stas non stas IT is written of Saint Augustine that after his conversion to the faith he was grievously vexed with inward conflicts against his corrupt affections complaining of his inbred hereditary habituall inveterate vices and after long strugling with them by purposing and vowing strong resolution watching fasting selfe-revenging and other good meanes finding still hâ—s owne weaknesse and the encreasing violence of his owne corruptions as he was intentively musing and meditating what to doe more hee heard a voice speaking to him these words Jn te stas non stas Whereupon rightly apprehending that his owne strength of wit carnal I reason and other powers and helpes of nature could not serve the turne for effecting that which was the peculiar and proper worke of grace hee betooke himselfe to his Saviour by humble faithfull and fervent prayer and at last found such inward assistance from the holy spirit of grace as strengthened him to stand and make good his resolutions with more comfort then before Whether the Lord in speciall favour to this gracious servant of his did vouchsafe to give him this vocall instruction by words to his eares or howeveâ— the matter thereof was suggested or revealed to him by the Holy Ghost I enquire not but sure I am they are words of great use and warning to us all not to trust to our selves or any strength or power of nature for any spirituall worke to be wrought in us or by us but to have our recourse to our Saviour and to seeke helpe from him and his grace which cannot bee had elsewhere how often it falls out that selfe opinion of a mans owne wit makes his wit his owne overthrow and selfe-confidence of his owne strength in evill company instead of reclaiming others to make himselfe worse then they O blessed Lord Iesu our most blessed Saviour who knowest both the miserable infirmities and debilities of our depraved nature and the subtile and advantagious power of our ghostly enemies and having thy selfe in our flesh and for us overcome them in all their temptations dost best know Hebrews 2.18 to succour them that bee tempted have mercie upon us thy weake and unworthy servants and give us grace to learne that necessarie lesson of self-deny all and with humble faith to put our whole trust in thee for ever Esay 26.4 For in the Lord Jehovah is everlasting strength and Iude 24. thou only art able to keepe us from falling that so being weake in our selves wee may bee strong in thee and in the power of thy grace be enabled to stand fast in the evill day and in all things Romans 8.11 through thee who lovest us to hee more then conquerors for 2 Timothie 4.18 Thou O Lord hast delivered us and dost deliver us and we hope wilt deliver us from every evill worke and wilt preserve us unto thy heavenly kingdome to thee be all glory and praise for ever Amen 24. Vpon the building of Pauls Church in London WHensoever that goodly monument of antiquity was built it was evident to my understanding that the Christian Church of those times did hold that not Saint Peter but the holy Christian faith was the rocke or foundation whereupon the militant Church of CHRIST was to be founded for under the Chauncell of that mother Church of the chiefe Citie of England there is an under-Church built with strong arches and pillars called Sancta Fides usually called S. Faiths which is indeed the proper foundation of the Church of Paul's By which demonâ—â—rative argument it appeares that the good people in those dayes did better understand the true meaning of our blessed Saviour in the 16. Chapter and 18. verse of Saint Matthew's Gospell concerning the Rocke whereupon hee would build his Church then the Romanists of later times have done who would make the world believe that our Saviour did then appoint S. Peter and after him his successors in the Cathedrall Church of Rome to be that rocke of the Catholike Church of Christ and the supreme Vicar and head of the Church in whose breast all infallibilitie of judgment and power of determining in all matters of the Church should bee only resident For certainly if there had beene any such conceit broached at the building of Pauls the fundamentall Church of holy faith should have beene named Saint Peters as if our Saviour had meant to build his Church upon Saint Peter's person and not upon the Christian faith which hee as the mouth of all the Disciples professed that our Saviour was the true Messiah Christ the sonne of the living God our Saviours question being made expresly to all the Disciples verse 15. and hee answering for them all O most blessed Lord Jesu who art the way the truth and the life and seest into what miserable combustions the state of Christendome is brought by these antichristian wastings of thine owne blessed workes for maintenance of private supremacie and Soveraigntie here as if thy kingdome were of this world which thy self hast Ioh. 8.36 expresly disclaimed have mercy upon thy poore distracted and distressed Church and make up the breaches thereof against all the wicked plots and machinations of the adversary by inclining the
hearts of all that professe thy holy name to agree in the truth of thy holy word that wee may all live in Christian unity peace and godly love waiting for the accomplishment of the number of thine elect that these daies of sin and dissension being finished we may bee received into thine everlasting peace through thine owne blessed merits and mediation for us Amen 25. Vpon the reading of a paper casually taken out of an old bundle at my first comming to Stanwick VPon my resolving to make Stanwick the place of my retiring my selfe from the businesse of this world that I might with more freedom prepare my self for a better amongst other necessaries sent thither from Westminster there was certaine bundles of old letters notes and writings sent thither upon my remoove which was in Iune 1632. that I might there peruse them before they were laid aside for wast papers And when I came thither in the first bundle I tooke to looke over I lighted upon a sheet of paper foulded up and endorsed only with the name of a very worthy Preacher of mine old acquaintance and having quite forgotten what it might conâ—erne I opened it and found it to be an abstract of one of his Sermons taken by my selfe about 40. yeares before upon this Text Deut. 32.29 O that they were wise that they would understand this and would consider that later end wherein I found the necessity of that Christian duty of preparation for the time of our dissolution so powerfully pressed by that man of God as I was glad to light upon it so seasonably for a gracious introduction to my further meditations of that necessary subject O blessed Lord God what just cause have I to condemne mine owne dulnes and corruption that having so long before by mine owne hand taken an abstract of such a pretious instruction did neglect the comfort and use thâ—reof more then for the present for many yeares not remembring that J had any such thing But withall how infinitely bounden am I to thy Majestie O most gracious and mercifull Heavenly Father by whoâ—e speciall providence it was preserâ—â—â— in my many remooves to remote dwellings and severall alterations of 〈◊〉 fortunes and now so season 〈◊〉 brought to my hands in this last 〈◊〉 of my life when I have most 〈◊〉 of holy preparatio◠〈◊〉 to teach me 〈◊〉 to 〈◊〉 in speedy and serious practise that lesson which I took out so long a goe O Lord my God bury J beloâ—â— thee this neglect of mine with the reâ—â— of the manifold sinnes of my youth in the bottomlesse seas of thy mercies and by thy holy Spirit sanctifiâ— and strengthen me now at last whiles it is yet called to day blessed be thy most blessed name for it and apply my selfe wholly to this blessed learning of being wise to salvation that by thy blessing and mercies J may by humble and stedfast faith fruitfull repentance and new obedience be provideâ— of that Saviour besides whom there is no other against my last â—eed so to cover all my misdoings and sins of all kinds from being imputed unto me and to cloath me with his perfect righteousnesse that when the houre of my change shall come I may be found of thee in peace through his merits and mediation our eternall advocate and most blessed peace-maker Amen And although this paper of mine be but a briefe or abstract of that which was largely delivered by that worthy messenger of God yet as short and imperfect as it is I conceive good use may be made thereof by the humble minded and conscionable reader and therefore being a relique of mine owne hand for so many yeares preserved I have thought fit to annexe the originall it self to this meditation in hope some gracious use may be made thereof for our preparation for our later end which cannot be far from any of us for Jnter breve vitae spatium nihil pâ—â—cul diei potest DEUT. 32.29 O that they were wise that they would understand this and would consider their later end THese words are part of the last song of Moses the man of God which he sung unto the people Swan like at his being readie to leave the world Dying mens words have deepest impression let these as Moses dying words are repuire your attention yea and not as the words of Moses alone but as the words of godly Moses for v. 20 The Lord said I will hide my face from them I will see what their end will be c. and in the first verse Hearken yee heavens and I will speake and let the earth heare the voice of my mouth 2. My doctrine shall dropp as the raine and my speech shall still as the dew and the shower upon the herbes and as the great raine upon the grasse Hearken with your earthly bodies and with your heavenly soules for you have all of you part oâ— heaven within you that both soule and body as herbs watered with Aprill showers may bring forth fruit unto God that waters them and wisheth here the best things unto you wisdome and understanding to provide for your later end for all flesh is grasse and must have an end a withering as well as a growing a harvest as well as a spring happie is the soule that is so watered with grace here that hee shall reape glorie in the Lords great harvest to come This Text hath two parts the things recommended to them and the inducment or introduction therunto The wish O that The matter that they would be 1. Wise 2. Vnderstand 3. Consider their later end Here when the Lord wisheth that all men would bee saved and come to the knowledge of the truth I presume not to enter into the secret cabinet of Gods eternall counsell and election but humbly content my selfe with what hee hath revealed namely that God offereth his grace to all and would have all men to bee saved desiring not the death but the conversion of a sinner Why will yee lie O house of Israel Perditio tua ex te Now when God recommends any thing unto us we may conclude it to bee absolutely good and absolutely necessary for us and therefore the greater shall our sinne bee if wee neglect the counsell of God The matter recommended unto us is wisdome to be wise to salvation and this extends to poore as well as to rich generally to all for all have soules and all are invited to be wise to save them Doth any man want wisdome let him aske of God Iames 5. who giveth to all men liberally and repr â—â—heth no man and it shall be giveâ— unto him As there is a wiâ—domeâ—â— which meâ— in theâ— severall callings doe governe themselves and their worldly occasions so there is a wisdome whereby wee are taught to governe our soules unto eternall life And if wee were as profound in policie as Machiavillians and had all the wisdome of the learned for the managing of earthly things yet all were nothing
without this wisdome to salvation which wee are here exhorted unto The feare of God is the beginning of wisdome for this wisdome dwells not with wicked men This is not every mans wish or desire The most affect worser things some worldly honour some earthly riches some sensuall pleasure but few that look after this heavenly Kingdome all for the body none for the soule as if we had no soules to save and therefore the Holy Ghost stirres us up to bee wise that wee may understand which is the next part of the matter propounded understanding What do we not understand already yes but wee understand not what belongs to our peace and as wee should understand unto salvation It were a great steppe to grace that wee had so much understanding of GOD as the honest Heathen had who by their understanding and reason kept themselves from grosse sinnes intemperance injustice anger distempered passions and kept themselves in just dealing with others and a tranquillitie of minde to themselves But wee come short of the fowles for the Stork knowes her appointed times and of the beasts for the Oxe knowes his Master but wee know not our maker and even in the least of creeping things the Ant provides in Summer what must keepe her in Winter and wee should bee likewise to gather here what should be needful for us at our going hence In every man and woman God hath infused a reasonable soule and in every soule hath set up a Candle the light of reason to guide the understanding and when we commit sinne this candle is for the time smothered betweene Sathan and our owne corruption or else wee should not sinn with the greedines we doe How can yee say that the man hath reason that drinkes himselfe into a beast when no beast will be so intemperate How doth the Gallant understand himselfe when he layes his life to pawne nay his soule with his life in a triviall quarrell What reason hath the blasphemer for his swearing or the adulterer for hunting the houses of death Surely if our understanding were cleare as God made it we should never sinne and therefore it is not without a cause that Gods children are wished here to bee wise and to understand that so wee may consider our later end which is the object aime and end of all our wisdome and understanding and so we come to the last part Is there then so great wisdome and understanding to know that we must all die we all know that well enough Oh but to consider this that is so well known as we should is a point of highest wisdome and deepest understanding to know it so as to consider it as it ought to bee considered is a point of absolute necessity to him that will have any care of his salvation To consider our later end is so to judge of earthly things that they may helpe us to a blessed end for finis coronat opus and hee that remembers his later end as hee should doe shall never sinne as the wise man saith It will be a scar-crow to him to keepe him from sinne when he considers of it and himselfe as he should doe Who is he amongst us all that doth consider of Gods blessings heaped upon us as he ought to doe He might have made us insensible creatures as stones in the wall onely vegetative creatures as trees or herbes sensible creatures as Todes or the like But he hath made us reasonable creatures and that not Indians and Turkes to worship the Divell and the murtherer Mahomet instead of GOD but Christians and amongst them not Idolaters and Schismaticks but bred up with the sincere milke of the Word of GOD in the purest Church that God hath now in the whole world O who is then a wise and understanding man that will not consider this to advance and magnifie the goodnesse of the Lord unto him who by so many steps of mercy and goodnesse hath advanced him above all the creatures of the world And as this consideration should moove us to thankfulnesse to GOD so it would keepe us in obedience towards him for to what end have wee all these preferments from God but that we should remember to glorifie him that hath bestowed them and to fit our selves for that future glory which hee hath reserved for us at our later end Oh then that they would be wise and understand and consider their later end their later end that is their death that they must die consider it as wel as know it and so wisely provide for that which cannot be avoided Death shall gnaw them as sheepe saith the Prophet David as sheep doth the grasse some now some anone the whole pasture over in a while and then as the fresh grass springs up so death comes over againe and crops it yet still the root remaines there is a root of eternitie which death cannot take from us but how soone we shall be cropt off by death no man knowes we may reckon of years and perhaps not live a weeke or a day nay this night the sheet that covers thee may be thy winding sheet before to morrow What manner of men should we be in holines and righteousnes of life if wee did thus consider of death and how much doth it concerne us to consider and prepare for our later end which is so uncertaine unto us All worldly things honour riches pleasures nay life it selfe hath an end but that end is not the end of us there is something else to bee considered in that word namely what followeth that end and that is judgement for the same day wee dye are wee brought to judgement and called to the strictest accompt that can possibly bee imagined not to answer for our owne sinnes alone but for Adams and for our corruption which came from him and for the sinnes of those that shall come after us whom our ill example or neglect of instruction hath corrupted and not for deeds alone but for words also and not for wicked and sinfull words but for idle words even for every idle word and for our very thoughts O Lord what shall wee sinfull wretches doe when we come to this accompt who let us take as much care as wee can of our words even in our prayers and best devotions yet we shall shew our imperfections and weaknesses even then how great then is the numberlesse number of our iniquities when they shall bee gathered together into one totall how should wee answer for one of a thousand let us then consider seriously of this great and strict accompt and provide our selves of a Saviour that may cover our misdeeds and the errours of our words and thoughts that they may not bee imputed unto us in that judgement From which consideration of a judgement there may be also further considered that there is a Hell a place of torment where the wicked shall have their particular being with the Divell and his Angels whom they served in this
life separated from the joyfull presence of our glorified Saviour in whose face is perfect joy for evermore and if there were no further paine of sense in hell but this poena damni only this deprivation of God's presence that were a hell sufficient of it self wherunto there is added paines of sense fire eternall utter darknesse But withall this consideration of the Judgement which shewes such terrible things to the wicked brings the faithfull to another issue the blisse and heaven and everlasting salvation the comforts and joyes wherof it lyeth not in my power to declare nor in the heart of any man to conceive but there will bee the full fruition of what wee hope for here and an absolute deliverance from all those things which trouble or feare us here And yet I have not done one thing more this consderation of our end brings us to namely that wee must not end when we come to our end but there is an eternitie that attends us after-wards whether of life to salvation or of eternal confusion And this is a consideration of weight indeed I read of a good Christian in time of persecution who being condemned to die for his conscience his wife perswaded him to yeeld to the kings will and save his life why saith hee how long thinkest thou I may live if I should doe so shee answered twentie or thirtie yeares perhaps Alas saith hee and if it were so many thousand yeares what were that to eternitie O let us make use of this and consider sadly and seriously of this maine point that this thorâ— lifâ— of ours is but a moment whereupon eternitie depends and therefore it much concernes us all to listen to this wish of th Holy Ghost and to labour to bee wise and understand and consider our later end 26. Vpon the Turkies comming duly to their roost at night SEe how these silly fowles which at their owne libertie wander and feed abroad in Gardens Fields and Orchards all the day long and many times farre off from their usuall roosting places yet notwithstanding the company of other fowles of their owne kinde met abroad discovery of new places of better feeding and other enticements or impediments do ever towards Sunne-set draw themselves homewards before it be darke so to have time and daylight enough to flie up to their perches of roost where only they looke for safety and quiet in the night approaching This providence taught these sillie creatures by instinct of nature as it directly shames and condemnes some of us who when we are got abroad are easily drawne by ill company good-fellowship or other idle vanitie to deferre our comming home till we are not able to come home but must be led home like beasts or lie in a ditch by the way to the hazard of soule and body so it may bee a necessary remembrance usefull to us all that in all our worldly occasions of this life wee bethinke our selves of the Sun-setting with us I meane the houre of death which must as certainly come upon every one of us at one time or other as the Sun-setting closeth up every day that goes over our heads that like the sons and daughters of wisdome we may everyday remember that our last night is at hand and so provide to make our peace with God by Iesus Christ our only peace-maker whiles it is called to day that that night doe not surprise us or take us unprovided for it O mercifull Lord God strengthen my feeble soule by thy holy Spirit of grace that with the humble wings of true repentance and a lively faith J may before hand flie up into the Arke of my Saviours perfect righteousnes that whensoever that night shall come upon me I may bee found there in safetie and so received into thine everlasting peace Amen 27. Vpon the remove of houshold from one dwelling to another THe day appointed for this remoove was set downe many daies agoe and most of the stuffe packed up and made readie for carriage yet see how full of trouble and perplexitie the day it selfe is by taking leave of old friends and neighbours some things forgotten to bee done before some new interruptions falling out in the instant so that many times the carriages are benighted and fall short of getting to the new home in due time Wee are all in this world but sojourners and our home is not here but in Heaven for which wee should bee everyday so wise by preparing our selves that wee might not bee combred upon the day of our remoovall but to have them nothing to doe but to lift up our soules unto our Saviour the Lord Iesus and so depart in peace yet how contrary to this is the practice of many who leave all their busines to the very remoove-day the day of death not having so much as setled their outward estate or made their wils before wherby they grow so perplexed and distracted with thoughts of this world care of wife and children visitations of neighbours pangs and distresses of sicknes fear of death inward horrours and temptations aâ— makes their departure many times very discomfortable O most glorious Lord God I know not how sufficiently as I desire and ought to praise thy most holy name for thy great mercy towards me in this gentle visitation of sicknes which thy most gracious and tender hand hath laid upon me whereby I am taken off from all worldly cares and thoughts and have also of thine infinite goodnesse such gracious times and opportunities to prepare my selfe for my remove and change O let my soule for ever praise and magnifie thy holy name therefore And withall J most humbly beseech thee to stretch thy hand of mercy yet further upon me that as my body shall decay wherein I most humbly submit my selfe to thy blessed good will and pleasure my soule may be strengthened by thy powerfull spirit of grace and the good worke begun in me made more and more perfect that when this earthly tabernacle shall be dissolved my soule united by faith to my blessed Redeemer the Lord Iesus may bee then received of thee in peace through his precious merits and mediation who is our alone Saviour and peace-maker Amen 28. Vpon the casuall hearing of a verse in the new Testament read by a child AS I was to passe through the roome where my little grand-childe was set by her Grandmother to reade her mornings Chapter which fell out to bee the ninth of S. Matthews Gospell just as I came in shee was uttering those words in the second verse Jesus said to the sicke of the palsie sonne bee of good comfort thy sinnes are forgiven thee Which words sorting so fitly with my case whose whol left side is taken with that kinde of disease and whose soule desires nothing so much as such a gracious word from my Saviour I stood at a stand at the uttering of them and could not but conceive some joy and comfort in those blessed words