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conquer_v thy_o enemy_n with_o his_o own_o weapon_n which_o he_o prepare_v for_o thy_o destruction_n 8._o when_o therefore_o thy_o sin_n be_v mercy_n and_o never_o to_o distrust_v his_o mercy_n suggest_v to_o thy_o memory_n conceive_v a_o perfect_a hatred_n of_o they_o as_o of_o thing_n detestable_a to_o the_o divine_a goodness_n yet_o be_v sure_a to_o have_v a_o hopeful_a confidence_n in_o thy_o saviour_n passion_n and_o i_o tell_v thou_o yet_o more_o shall_v thou_o seem_v to_o hear_v god_n say_v unto_o thou_o away_o thou_o be_v none_o of_o the_o number_n of_o my_o sheep_n yet_o thou_o be_v not_o to_o lose_v thy_o confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n but_o humble_o to_o reply_v thou_o have_v just_a reason_n o_o my_o sovereign_a lord_n god_n to_o shake_v i_o off_o for_o my_o sin_n sake_n but_o i_o have_v great_a reason_n to_o be_v confident_a of_o thy_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n and_o to_o believe_v that_o thou_o will_v pardon_v i_o therefore_o i_o humble_o beg_v salvation_n for_o this_o 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reprobate_n for_o thy_o love_n o_o sweet_a life_n o_o love_v jesus_n what_o a_o heaven_n what_o a_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o love_v thou_o o_o how_o lovely_a how_o love_v and_o yet_o how_o little_a love_v be_v my_o god_n o_o source_n of_o all_o goodness_n and_o centre_n of_o all_o good_a soul_n what_o be_v the_o great_a love_n of_o mother_n friend_n life_n or_o any_o thing_n else_o be_v not_o thou_o my_o god_n all_o this_o to_o i_o and_o all_o in_o all_o ah_o my_o soul_n what_o do_v thou_o ever_o best_a love_n and_o do_v thou_o love_v thy_o lord_n god_n as_o much_o i_o blush_v o_o my_o dear_a lord_n i_o sigh_v and_o be_o ashamed_a to_o answer_v i_o will_v henceforth_o do_v any_o thing_n suffer_v any_o thing_n and_o leave_v all_o thing_n for_o thy_o love_n i_o will_v not_o live_v but_o
serious_o such_o remedy_n as_o be_v proper_a for_o the_o preservation_n of_o this_o jewel_n among_o which_o the_o chief_a be_v mortification_n of_o our_o rebellious_a flesh_n by_o austerity_n hence_o s._n thomas_n call_v chastity_n from_o chastise_v aquin._n s._n thomas_n of_o aquin._n it_o be_v better_a our_o stomach_n pain_n we_o than_o our_o conscience_n and_o that_o we_o lose_v health_n of_o body_n than_o purity_n of_o soul_n and_o salvation_n of_o both_o this_o remedy_n of_o mortification_n be_v absolute_o necessary_a when_o carnal_a motion_n arise_v first_o in_o the_o body_n and_o thence_o redound_v into_o the_o imagination_n but_o if_o from_o the_o fancy_n they_o descend_v to_o the_o body_n we_o be_v to_o apply_v these_o follow_a remedy_n 1._o let_v we_o avoid_v idleness_n 2._o let_v we_o negotium_fw-la amor_fw-la otiosorum_fw-mi negotium_fw-la change_v our_o employment_n if_o we_o be_v assault_v in_o company_n let_v we_o seek_v solitude_n if_o in_o solitude_n let_v we_o hasten_v into_o company_n etc._n etc._n 3._o silence_n temperance_n ephrem_fw-la s._n ephrem_fw-la and_o custody_n of_o sense_n be_v three_o powerful_a preserver_n of_o chastity_n 4._o let_v we_o make_v great_a account_n of_o little_a thing_n and_o shake_v off_o the_o first_o motion_n of_o this_o nature_n as_o we_o will_v a_o burn_a coal_n from_o off_o our_o new_a garment_n 5._o ler_n we_o humble_o but_o modest_o and_o discreet_o lie_v open_v their_o nature_n and_o manner_n to_o our_o spiritual_a guide_n 6._o let_v we_o careful_o avoid_v all_o suspect_a company_n familiarity_n meeting_n etc._n etc._n though_o our_o intention_n be_v never_o so_o spiritual_a 7._o let_v we_o strive_v rather_o to_o slight_v scorn_n and_o neglect_v these_o temptation_n than_o formal_o to_o resist_v they_o 5._o in_o vehement_a temptation_n 1._o make_v the_o sign_n of_o the_o cross_n upon_o your_o heart_n 2._o use_v some_o brief_a and_o burn_a aspiration_n as_o lord_n deliver_v i_o i_o suffer_v violence_n o_o my_o god_n answer_v for_o i_o i_o be_o thou_o o_o jesus_n body_n and_o soul_n help_v i_o 3._o defy_v the_o devil_n with_o st._n antony_n fie_o antony_n isay_n 38._o 14._o s._n antony_n beast_n thou_o be_v a_o angel_n i_o who_o be_o now_o a_o beast_n will_v aim_n to_o be_v a_o angel_n and_o get_v thy_o lose_a place_n be_v go_v the_o lodging_n be_v already_o take_v up_o jesus_n be_v here_o who_o be_v my_o lord_n and_o love_n i_o be_o preingage_v in_o a_o former_a and_o pure_a affection_n 6._o let_v we_o prepare_v beforehand_o certain_a place_n of_o refuge_n for_o our_o shelter_n and_o succour_v till_o the_o storm_n be_v pass_v over_o 1._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o his_o angel_n say_v how_o be_v it_o possible_a god_n see_v i_o and_o shall_v i_o sin_v in_o his_o sight_n 2._o death_n and_o eternity_n the_o delight_n be_v momentary_a the_o punishment_n be_v eternâ—lâ—_n death_n be_v at_o my_o door_n and_o shall_v i_o adventure_v 3._o christ_n sacred_a wound_n let_v we_o there_o hide_v and_o secure_v ourselves_o and_o say_v my_o god_n hang_v on_o the_o cross_n and_o shall_v i_o think_v of_o take_v my_o pleasure_n 4._o the_o love_n of_o god_n o_o jesu_n my_o love_n and_o my_o life_n i_o will_v either_o love_v thou_o or_o love_v nothing_o at_o all_o let_v i_o rather_o lose_v my_o life_n than_o thy_o love_n 5._o humility_n thou_o be_v just_a o_o my_o lord_n god_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v my_o pride_n be_v cause_n of_o this_o villainy_n which_o i_o feel_v etc._n etc._n and_o take_v chaste_a we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a this_o for_o a_o infallible_a truth_n we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a let_v we_o be_v obedient_a to_o our_o superior_n or_o let_v we_o not_o look_v to_o have_v our_o flesh_n obedient_a to_o our_o spirit_n 6._o devotion_n to_o saint_n excel_v in_o this_o virtue_n especial_o to_o the_o chaste_a virgin_n mary_n 7._o the_o last_o remedy_n be_v to_o make_v use_n of_o these_o antidote_n timely_a orderly_o and_o discreet_o without_o which_o no_o rule_n document_n or_o direction_n will_v aught_o avail_v we_o the_o 12._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v in_o extraordinary_a desolation_n and_o darkness_n we_o must_v live_v by_o faith_n in_o this_o case_n and_o know_v that_o a_o sensible_a choice_n of_o god_n and_o goodness_n be_v not_o now_o necessary_a but_o a_o rational_a adhere_n to_o he_o be_v sufficient_a our_o fidelity_n to_o god_n be_v show_v in_o the_o performance_n of_o our_o duty_n now_o as_o at_o other_o time_n without_o lose_v either_o our_o confidence_n in_o he_o or_o seek_v comfort_n in_o our_o suffering_n but_o aspire_v if_o not_o sweet_o yet_o sincere_o in_o this_o or_o the_o like_a manner_n lord_n i_o choose_v thou_o and_o accept_v of_o thy_o divine_a pleasure_n and_o providence_n in_o all_o thing_n i_o reject_v whatsoever_o may_v possess_v that_o place_n and_o dominion_n in_o my_o soul_n which_o be_v due_a to_o thou_o alone_o dispose_v of_o i_o and_o i_o as_o shall_v be_v most_o for_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n let_v i_o be_v either_o all_o thou_o or_o nothing_o at_o all_o the_o 13._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v tempt_v to_o despair_v of_o god_n mercy_n by_o reason_n of_o our_o frequent_a fall_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n this_o grievous_a malady_n spring_v from_o three_o cause_n or_o error_n for_o they_o who_o be_v trouble_v in_o this_o point_n do_v not_o true_o weigh_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v 2._o what_o sin_n be_v 3._o what_o contrition_n and_o sorrow_n of_o heart_n be_v 1._o almighty_a god_n be_v a_o boundless_a be_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v and_o bottomless_a sea_n of_o mercy_n he_o be_v natural_a bounty_n itself_o he_o be_v ever_o ready_a to_o receive_v revive_v and_o relieve_v a_o penitent_a soul_n though_o she_o alone_o have_v commit_v a_o thousand_o time_n a_o day_n the_o sin_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n he_o consider_v not_o what_o she_o have_v be_v but_o what_o she_o desire_v and_o resolve_v now_o to_o be_v and_o who_o so_o deny_v his_o power_n or_o will_v to_o pardon_v sinner_n as_o often_o as_o there_o be_v moment_n in_o time_n go_v about_o to_o deprive_v he_o of_o his_o honour_n and_o divinity_n itself_o for_o he_o can_v not_o be_v god_n if_o he_o be_v not_o good_a and_o faithful_a in_o his_o promise_n o_o love_a lord_n god_n who_o be_v not_o only_o ready_a to_o receive_v a_o penitent_n petition_n but_o even_o woo_v he_o to_o present_v it_o who_o can_v true_o consider_v what_o thou_o be_v and_o despair_v of_o thy_o mercy_n 2._o sin_n sin_n 2._o what_o sin_n be_v a_o voluntary_a and_o deliberate_a aversion_n from_o god_n and_o conversion_n to_o creature_n 3._o contrition_n be_v of_o that_o efficacy_n that_o it_o deliver_v from_o all_o sin_n contrition_n 3._o what_o contrition_n give_v confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o the_o past_a and_o courage_n to_o avoid_v it_o for_o the_o future_a let_v we_o apply_v this_o to_o our_o comfort_n the_o 14._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v perplex_v with_o great_a sadness_n this_o passion_n be_v a_o great_a hindrance_n to_o devotion_n and_o perfection_n it_o be_v the_o bait_n of_o the_o devil_n the_o bane_n of_o our_o spirit_n the_o root_n mother_n and_o nursery_n of_o infinite_a misery_n and_o mischief_n the_o chief_a cause_n of_o sadness_n nature_n the_o cause_n of_o sadness_n 1._o nature_n be_v these_o 1._o nature_n when_o melancholy_a over-sways_a the_o sanguine_a humour_n this_o can_v neither_o merit_n nor_o demerit_n but_o the_o devil_n take_v thereby_o occasion_n to_o fill_v our_o spirit_n with_o unquietness_n these_o have_v need_v aswell_o of_o corporal_a as_o spiritual_a physic_n 2._o a_o tenderness_n of_o heart_n and_o self-love_n 2._o self-love_n passionate_a love_n of_o ourselves_o we_o can_v brook_v the_o least_o contradiction_n etc._n etc._n but_o we_o sigh_v and_o sob_v as_o if_o all_o the_o world_n be_v interest_v in_o our_o misfortune_n and_o shall_v bear_v a_o part_n in_o our_o doleful_a ditty_n the_o remedy_n be_v to_o bid_v such_o weep_v on_o for_o their_o penance_n or_o use_v some_o coporall_a austerity_n 3._o a_o immortification_n of_o our_o passion_n which_o when_o we_o seek_v in_o passion_n 3._o passion_n good_a earnest_n to_o root_v out_o assault_v we_o so_o strong_o that_o it_o seem_v impossible_a to_o cure_v they_o and_o hence_o we_o grow_v sad_a the_o remedy_n be_v to_o conquer_v this_o bad_a nature_n by_o counsel_n courage_n and_o diligence_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o pray_v hearty_o suffer_v willing_o stoop_v humble_o it_o be_v for_o heaven_n we_o fight_v and_o suffer_v 4._o a_o secret_a root_n of_o pride_n vain_a pride_n 4._o secret_a pride_n esteem_n and_o false_a opinion_n we_o have_v of_o ourselves_o when_o thing_n fall_v not_o out_o according_a to_o our_o like_n expectation_n or_o importunate_a desire_n whereupon_o we_o grow_v sad_a and_o trouble_a
inclination_n the_o three_o verity_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v a_o good_a will_n and_o purpose_n to_o confess_v my_o sin_n entire_o in_o due_a time_n and_o place_n according_a to_o thy_o ordinance_n and_o that_o of_o thy_o holy_a church_n we_o may_v add_v to_o these_o the_o devout_a frequentation_n sign_n three_o other_o sign_n of_o the_o sacrament_n which_o give_v life_n and_o justify_v grace_n the_o warrant_n of_o a_o skilful_a guide_n and_o a_o lively_a confidence_n in_o the_o divine_a bounty_n the_o 26._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o know_v not_o well_o when_o we_o give_v consent_n to_o sinful_a thought_n 1._o if_o when_o the_o thought_n be_v represent_v sin_n rule_v to_o know_v when_o we_o consent_v to_o sin_n we_o present_o fly_v to_o the_o crucifix_n expel_v it_o disdain_v it_o dislike_v it_o it_o be_v not_o sin_n but_o merit_n 2._o but_o if_o we_o careless_o linger_v in_o it_o when_o well_o perceive_v it_o be_v venial_a 3._o and_o if_o we_o consent_v to_o the_o thought_n and_o desire_v the_o action_n our_o sin_n be_v equal_a to_o the_o act_n if_o it_o be_v commit_v 4._o but_o if_o we_o intend_v not_o the_o act_n but_o linger_v delightful_o in_o the_o thought_n and_o the_o thing_n itself_o be_v mortal_a and_o deliberate_o entertain_v it_o be_v also_o mortal_a the_o 27._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v well_o distinguish_v between_o venial_a and_o mortal_a sin_n 1._o what_o need_v we_o determine_v let_v we_o confess_v it_o as_o it_o be_v commit_v 2._o mortal_a sin_n can_v be_v commit_v without_o great_a corruption_n of_o he_o who_o commit_v it_o or_o great_a hurt_n to_o his_o neighbour_n or_o great_a contempt_n and_o neglect_n of_o god_n say_v richardas_n a_o s._n victore_fw-la and_o s._n thomas_n thomas_n rich._n à _fw-fr s._n victore_fw-la s._n thomas_n say_v he_o sin_v mortal_o who_o total_a intention_n of_o mind_n be_v withdraw_v from_o god_n who_o be_v our_o last_o end_n 3._o let_v we_o conclude_v with_o s._n augustin_n gerson_n s._n august_n gerson_n and_o gerson_n that_o it_o be_v dangerous_a even_o in_o prelate_n and_o confessor_n to_o define_v what_o be_v mortal_a sin_n or_o give_v rule_n therein_o the_o 28._o doubt_n if_o that_o say_n of_o divine_n terrify_v eligenda_fw-la faciens_fw-la contra_fw-la dubium_fw-la incidit_fw-la in_o peccatum_fw-la in_o dubiis_fw-la securior_fw-la pars_fw-la est_fw-la eligenda_fw-la we_o he_o that_o do_v against_o his_o doubt_n sin_n and_o in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a the_o secure_a part_n be_v to_o be_v choose_v we_o may_v in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a secure_o follow_v a_o probable_a opinion_n now_o scruple_n be_v not_o doubt_n but_o false_a apprehension_n and_o therefore_o on_o all_o side_n we_o may_v and_o sometime_o must_v go_v against_o our_o own_o erroneous_a conscience_n especial_o when_o obedience_n command_v it_o let_v we_o therefore_o with_o s._n augustin_n incertum_fw-la s._n augustin_n tene_fw-la certum_fw-la dimitte_n incertum_fw-la lay_v hold_v of_o that_o which_o be_v certain_a and_o let_v go_v the_o uncertain_a and_o what_o way_n be_v more_o sure_a and_o secure_a than_o obedience_n the_o 29._o and_o last_o doubt_n if_o final_o we_o be_v apprehensive_a and_o fearful_a lest_o we_o shall_v grow_v weary_a in_o the_o way_n of_o virtue_n and_o not_o persevere_v constant_o in_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n let_v we_o excite_v our_o tepidity_n by_o the_o frequent_a perusal_n of_o this_o follow_a discourse_n and_o practice_v according_o the_o patriarch_n jacob_n in_o hope_n of_o obtain_v the_o beautiful_a rachel_n serve_v laban_n seven_o year_n with_o diligence_n and_o patience_n but_o be_v cozen_v by_o that_o disloyal_a worldling_n with_o ill_a favour_a lia_n what_o do_v he_o he_o neither_o lose_v courage_n nor_o confidence_n but_o with_o new_a constancy_n begin_v his_o other_o seven_o year_n service_n with_o such_o admirable_a alacrity_n and_o a_o heart_n so_o fix_v upon_o his_o desire_a reward_n that_o the_o time_n seem_v 29._o gen._n 29._o but_o a_o week_n to_o he_o o_o my_o soul_n thou_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o eternal_a beatitude_n consist_v essential_o in_o the_o bless_a vision_n and_o fruition_n of_o god_n signify_v by_o rachel_n according_a to_o s._n bernard_n for_o bernard_n s._n bernard_n this_o thou_o have_v bind_v thyself_o to_o serve_v god_n but_o alas_o the_o world_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o devil_n do_v so_o often_o beguile_v &_o blind_v thou_o that_o thou_o take_v blear-eyed_a lia_n for_o beautiful_a rachel_n the_o world_n for_o heaven_n the_o flesh_n for_o the_o spirit_n and_o diabolical_a illusion_n for_o divine_a inspiration_n but_o what_o lose_v not_o courage_n nor_o confidence_n renew_v thy_o protestation_n of_o loyal_a service_n serve_v god_n one_o other_o seven_o year_n suffer_v another_o slavery_n to_o get_v heaven_n to_o die_v in_o final_a grace_n and_o to_o be_v eternal_o join_v to_o that_o bless_a beauty_n thou_o love_v follow_v jesus_n to_o mount_v calvary_n to_o consummatum_fw-la est_fw-la 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this_o inflame_a desire_n consider_v that_o thy_o lord_n god_n by_o reason_n of_o his_o admirable_a excellency_n of_o goodness_n majesty_n wisdom_n beauty_n and_o other_o infinite_a perfection_n be_v more_o than_o worthy_a to_o be_v serve_v and_o honour_v by_o thou_o and_o all_o creature_n that_o to_o serve_v and_o succour_v thou_o this_o greatness_n have_v condescend_v to_o compassionate_v thy_o weakness_n and_o to_o suffer_v for_o thou_o in_o his_o sacred_a humanity_n for_o thirty_o three_o year_n space_n during_o which_o time_n he_o cure_v and_o salve_v thy_o stink_a sore_n which_o be_v gangrene_v by_o the_o soul_n contagion_n of_o sin_n not_o with_o medicinal_a oil_n ordinary_a wine_n and_o common_a plaster_n but_o with_o the_o most_o precious_a balsom_a of_o his_o own_o sacred_a blood_n and_o with_o unguent_n confect_v of_o his_o pure_a flesh_n tear_v from_o his_o body_n by_o scourge_n thorn_n and_o nail_n weigh_v also_o the_o importance_n of_o this_o his_o service_n since_o 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it_o ask_v but_o the_o divine_a will_n be_v ever_o accompany_v with_o unspeakable_a goodness_n and_o so_o can_v never_o fail_v but_o be_v the_o rule_n right_a but_o the_o divine_a will_n be_v infallible_o right_a and_o queen-regent_n of_o all_o other_o will_n deserve_v to_o be_v follow_v and_o obey_v by_o they_o all_o thou_o be_v therefore_o always_o to_o petition_v for_o those_o thing_n which_o be_v conform_v to_o god_n hoâ—y_n will_v and_o when_o thou_o suspect_v whether_o some_o desire_n of_o thou_o be_v true_o such_o to_o make_v thy_o demand_n conditional_a and_o not_o to_o wish_v it_o but_o only_o so_o far_o forth_o as_o thy_o lord_n god_n be_v well_o please_v thou_o shall_v obtain_v it_o in_o thing_n also_o which_o be_v know_v to_o be_v certain_o agreeable_a to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n such_o as_o be_v virtue_n and_o grace_n thou_o be_v to_o pray_v for_o they_o rather_o that_o thou_o may_v by_o their_o mean_n better_o please_v satisfy_v and_o serve_v he_o than_o for_o any_o other_o end_n or_o consideration_n whatsoever_o though_o never_o so_o spiritual_a four_o that_o thy_o prayer_n and_o exercise_n text._n four_o a_o connexion_n with_o the_o former_a exercise_n the_o other_o before-described_n spiritual_a exercise_n be_v so_o join_v together_o as_o that_o thou_o undertake_v not_o the_o one_o without_o the_o practice_n of_o the_o other_o for_o pray_v thou_o never_o so_o long_o and_o never_o so_o much_o to_o obtain_v any_o virtue_n unless_o thou_o also_o labour_n and_o exercise_v thyself_o in_o the_o way_n to_o get_v it_o thou_o only_o tempt_v god_n but_o obtain_v not_o thy_o desire_n explication_n fiftly_o remember_v that_o before_o thou_o favour_n five_o thanksgiving_n for_o receive_a favour_n demand_v new_a favour_n thou_o be_v to_o render_v humble_a thanks_o for_o they_o thou_o have_v former_o receive_v by_o these_o or_o the_o like_a expression_n o_o my_o good_a and_o gracious_a lord_n god_n who_o have_v make_v i_o redeem_v i_o and_o rescue_v i_o from_o my_o enemy_n often_o than_o i_o myself_o know_v or_o can_v conceive_v succour_v i_o now_o also_o and_o deny_v not_o to_o grant_v this_o my_o present_a petition_n though_o i_o have_v be_v hitherto_o rebellious_a to_o thy_o will_n and_o ungrateful_a to_o thy_o goodness_n and_o if_o thy_o demand_n be_v for_o some_o particular_a virtue_n whereof_o thou_o now_o stand_v in_o great_a need_n by_o reason_n of_o some_o temptation_n trouble_n or_o contradiction_n which_o urge_v thou_o forget_v not_o to_o thank_v he_o for_o that_o occasion_n of_o thy_o trial_n and_o exercise_n which_o through_o his_o gracious_a assistance_n may_v redound_v so_o much_o to_o thy_o spiritual_a good_a six_o since_o prayer_n have_v its_o passion_n six_o a_o reflection_n upon_o god_n goodness_n and_o promise_n and_o christ_n passion_n whole_a force_n power_n and_o hope_n of_o obtain_v from_o god_n goodness_n and_o mercy_n from_o christ_n merit_n and_o passion_n and_o from_o the_o divine_a promise_n therefore_o thou_o may_v fit_o usher_v in_o thy_o demand_n by_o some_o of_o these_o follow_a saying_n o_o my_o god_n grant_v unto_o thy_o servant_n i_o beseech_v thou_o this_o grace_n for_o thy_o supreme_a goodness_n sake_n that_o thy_o most_o dear_a son_n merit_n may_v impetrate_v for_o i_o the_o grant_v of_o my_o petition_n remember_v o_o my_o lord_n thy_o own_o love_a promise_n and_o incline_v thy_o ear_n to_o hear_v my_o prayer_n at_o other_o time_n thou_o may_v ask_v by_o the_o merit_n of_o the_o most_o glorious_a virgin_n and_o suffrage_n of_o the_o saint_n which_o be_v powerful_a to_o prevail_v in_o thy_o pious_a demand_n seven_o thou_o be_v to_o pray_v with_o perseverance_n seven_o perseverance_n perseverance_n for_o if_o the_o continue_a importunity_n of_o the_o evangelicall_n widow_n inflect_v the_o hard-hearted_a judge_n to_o give_v she_o what_o she_o ask_v how_o shall_v perseverant_a petition_n be_v reject_v by_o he_o who_o be_v mercy_n and_o goodness_n itself_o therefore_o after_o thy_o prayer_n hope_n text._n prayer_n must_v also_o be_v strengthen_v with_o hope_n strengthen_v thy_o soul_n with_o a_o live_v by_o hope_n in_o god_n that_o through_o his_o infinite_a love_n he_o will_v bestow_v on_o thou_o the_o now_o demand_v grace_n or_o gift_n or_o something_o that_o be_v better_a for_o thou_o or_o both_o together_o and_o although_o he_o so_o long_a delay_n his_o answer_n that_o thou_o may_v doubt_v he_o deny_v what_o thou_o ask_v yet_o remain_v constant_o in_o this_o hope_n and_o never_o slacken_v therefore_o either_o thy_o prayer_n or_o thy_o practice_n or_o thy_o confidence_n knock_v and_o though_o god_n seem_v to_o reject_v thy_o prayer_n yet_o persevere_v knock_v 3._o yea_o though_o it_o may_v seem_v to_o thou_o that_o god_n reject_v thou_o and_o thy_o prayer_n yet_o do_v thou_o still_o humble_v thyself_o more_o and_o more_o before_o he_o increase_a thy_o faith_n and_o comfort_v thyself_o with_o hope_n in_o thy_o saviour_n for_o the_o more_o fervent_o and_o frequent_o thou_o interpose_v this_o constant_a hope_n in_o god_n even_o in_o such_o violent_a repulse_n and_o as_o it_o be_v manifest_a reprobation_n of_o thy_o prayer_n the_o more_o thou_o becom_a please_v and_o grateful_a unto_o he_o 4._o and_o therefore_o thou_o be_v always_o deny_v and_o always_o thank_v he_o as_o well_o when_o he_o grant_v as_o when_o he_o deny_v to_o return_v he_o grateful_a thanks_o who_o thou_o acknowledge_v no_o less_o good_a wise_a and_o love_a in_o thy_o behalf_n when_o he_o seem_v to_o cast_v out_o thy_o petition_n than_o when_o he_o grant_v it_o keep_v then_o a_o ever-constant_a courageous_a and_o joyful_a mind_n in_o all_o event_n whether_o good_a or_o bad_a and_o humble_o submit_v thyself_o to_o the_o infallible_a wisdom_n and_o all-ordering_a providence_n of_o thy_o lord_n god_n chap._n xxii_o what_o inward_a or_o mental_a prayer_n be_v and_o what_o contemplation_n and_o the_o use_n thereof_o
honour_n be_v to_o he_o devout_a for_o to_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v the_o best_a prayer_n and_o make_v thou_o true_o devout_a the_o most_o acceptable_a prayer_n and_o therefore_o to_o endure_v this_o dryness_n with_o perfect_a patience_n and_o humble_a resignation_n make_v thou_o true_o devout_a because_o true_a devotion_n consist_v in_o no_o other_o thing_n than_o to_o have_v a_o ready_a will_n to_o follow_v christ_n thy_o lord_n with_o thy_o cross_n on_o thy_o shoulder_n whither_o and_o which_o way_n he_o please_v have_v and_o desire_v god_n only_o for_o god_n and_o sometime_o leave_v god_n for_o god_n 9_o if_o therefore_o spiritual_a person_n especial_o religious_a man_n and_o woman_n will_v seerious_o examine_v and_o measure_v their_o progress_n in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n and_o piety_n by_o this_o rule_n and_o not_o by_o the_o feel_n of_o sensible_a devotion_n which_o many_o do_v chief_o devotion_n and_o not_o sensible_a devotion_n regard_v they_o sure_o will_v make_v better_a use_n of_o sensible_a comfort_n in_o their_o exercise_n of_o devotion_n which_o their_o love_a lord_n afford_v to_o make_v they_o more_o zealous_a in_o submit_v to_o his_o sacred_a will_n which_o dispose_v all_o thing_n in_o order_n to_o our_o salvation_n and_o benefit_n deceive_v wherein_o many_o be_v deceive_v 10._o and_o in_o this_o also_o many_o be_v much_o deceive_v that_o when_o they_o be_v trouble_v with_o impure_a and_o perverse_a thought_n they_o present_o become_v fearful_a and_o fainthearted_a and_o as_o if_o god_n have_v utter_o forsake_v they_o think_v it_o impossible_a that_o his_o holy_a spirit_n shall_v inhabit_v a_o heart_n so_o trouble_v and_o torment_v and_o they_o so_o intricate_a themselves_o in_o these_o fancy_n till_o by_o degree_n they_o fall_v into_o a_o grievous_a dislike_n of_o themselves_o and_o last_o into_o a_o certain_a dangerous_a despair_n which_o they_o no_o soon_o apprehend_v in_o themselves_o but_o they_o present_o run_v to_o their_o wont_a way_n to_o recover_v their_o quiet_n but_o hereby_o they_o show_v themselves_o little_a grateful_a to_o god_n who_o therefore_o permit_v they_o to_o be_v thus_o trouble_v and_o tempt_v to_o bring_v they_o to_o the_o clear_a knowledge_n of_o their_o own_o nothing_o that_o so_o as_o wretched_a frail_a and_o desolate_a creature_n they_o may_v more_o serious_o seek_v he_o and_o more_o diligent_o draw_v near_o he_o 11._o wherefore_o o_o my_o belove_a distress_n what_o thou_o be_v to_o do_v in_o this_o distress_n that_o which_o thou_o must_v do_v in_o such_o a_o distress_n be_v this_o enter_v straight_o into_o a_o profound_a reflection_n upon_o thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o there_o humble_a thyself_o and_o confess_v thy_o peevish_a affection_n and_o passion_n and_o acknowledge_v thy_o pronesse_n to_o fall_v if_o leave_v to_o thyself_o into_o all_o manner_n of_o wickedness_n and_o that_o without_o thy_o love_a lord_n care_v and_o custody_n help_n and_o defence_n thou_o will_v be_v cast_v down_o headlong_o incontinent_o 12._o this_o do_v raise_v thy_o heart_n with_o a_o good_a hope_n and_o confidence_n in_o thy_o creator_n see_v it_o be_v he_o only_a who_o permit_v thou_o to_o fall_v into_o this_o adversity_n that_o thou_o may_v take_v hold_n of_o the_o occasion_n to_o draw_v near_o unto_o he_o by_o humble_a prayer_n and_o therefore_o thou_o be_v oblige_v to_o render_v grateful_a thanks_o to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n for_o these-like_a trouble_n and_o temptation_n and_o take_v this_o as_o a_o certainty_n that_o all_o such_o perverse_a thought_n be_v soon_o expel_v with_o meek_a sufferance_n and_o patience_n than_o with_o much_o solicitude_n and_o study_n chap._n xxix_o that_o the_o worthy_a frequent_v of_o the_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v a_o efficacious_a mean_n to_o conquer_v our_o passion_n the_o sacred_a communion_n or_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o eucharist_n be_v receive_v by_o devout_a christian_n for_o divers_a end_n but_o if_o thou_o desire_v to_o take_v it_o for_o the_o particular_a strengthen_n of_o thy_o soul_n against_o the_o assault_n of_o evil_a inclination_n attend_v to_o what_o i_o shall_v now_o teach_v thou_o 2._o the_o day_n before_o thou_o intend_v thou_o meditate_v the_o day_n before_o thy_o communion_n of_o thy_o saviour_n desire_n etc._n etc._n to_o come_v to_o thou_o to_o communicate_v meditate_v if_o thy_o leisure_n give_v thou_o leave_v of_o the_o great_a desire_n thy_o dear_a saviour_n have_v to_o unite_v himself_o to_o thou_o by_o the_o mean_n of_o this_o sacrament_n and_o thereby_o to_o root_v out_o thy_o vicious_a affection_n for_o this_o his_o desire_n be_v so_o immense_a that_o no_o create_a understanding_n can_v comprehend_v it_o 3._o but_o that_o thou_o may_v have_v a_o small_a glimpse_n thereof_o consider_v these_o two_o thing_n first_o what_o pleasure_n our_o lord_n take_v to_o dwell_v in_o we_o since_o the_o holy_a scripture_n call_v this_o his_o delight_n and_o in_o sin_n my_o delight_n be_v to_o be_v with_o the_o child_n of_o man_n child_n give_v i_o thy_o heart_n and_o how_o much_o he_o hate_v sin_n requital_n of_o this_o love_n he_o only_o require_v our_o heart_n secondâ—y_o how_o much_o he_o hate_v our_o sin_n which_o â—â—â—der_v his_o near_a union_n with_o we_o and_o be_v direct_o opposite_a to_o his_o incompaâ—â—ble_a perfection_n for_o he_o be_v the_o â—â—ely_a and_o chief_a good_a the_o pure_a light_n use_v most_o perfect_a beauty_n can_v but_o detest_v that_o which_o be_v mere_a darkness_n frailty_n and_o the_o corruption_n and_o canker_n of_o our_o wretched_a soul_n 4._o and_o that_o this_o love_a desire_n of_o thy_o dear_a lord_n may_v take_v yet_o deep_a impression_n in_o thy_o mind_n meditate_v often_o of_o his_o marvelous_a work_n relate_v in_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n especial_o of_o his_o most_o bitter_a passion_n and_o cruel_a death_n which_o he_o do_v express_o suffer_v to_o deliver_v thy_o soul_n from_o sin_n and_o to_o cleanse_v it_o from_o such_o affection_n as_o be_v contrary_a to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n concern_v which_o point_n all_o the_o illuminate_v doctor_n of_o god_n church_n do_v unanimous_o conclude_v and_o teach_v that_o christ_n our_o saviour_n will_v again_o if_o it_o be_v needful_a exposâ—_n himself_o to_o a_o thousand_o death_n to_o free_v we_o from_o the_o least_o evil_a passion_n or_o affection_n 5._o by_o such_o consideration_n thou_o he_o and_o move_v thy_o soul_n to_o a_o reciprocal_a desire_n and_o affection_n towards_o he_o will_v easy_o gather_v the_o great_a desire_n thy_o dear_a saviour_n have_v to_o dwell_v with_o thou_o and_o from_o thence_o conclude_v how_o fit_n it_o be_v that_o thou_o shall_v reciprocal_o stir_v up_o in_o thyself_o a_o ardent_a affection_n to_o receive_v and_o entertain_v he_o which_o thou_o may_v do_v by_o these_o and_o the_o like_a jaculatory_a prayer_n come_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n help_v thy_o caitif_a creature_n to_o conquer_v her_o enemy_n when_o o_o when_o my_o dear_a spouse_n will_v that_o happy_a hour_n come_v that_o i_o may_v receive_v thou_o the_o bread_n of_o life_n and_o be_v comfort_v and_o encourage_v by_o thou_o may_v full_o conquer_v myself_o and_o total_o subdue_v my_o own_o evil_a passion_n and_o disorder_a affection_n 6._o and_o when_o thou_o be_v heighten_v battle_n and_o then_o provoke_v thy_o passion_n to_o battle_n with_o the_o hope_n of_o thy_o sweet_a saviour_n come_v into_o thy_o soul_n then_o provoke_v thy_o passion_n to_o battle_n call_v up_o thy_o affection_n and_o curb_v they_o again_o and_o again_o with_o perfect_a hatred_n and_o disdain_n and_o this_o do_v produce_v act_n and_o desire_n of_o the_o virtue_n which_o be_v opposite_a to_o these_o vice_n and_o let_v this_o be_v thy_o evening_n entertainment_n and_o morning_n â—mploymâ—â—t_n 7._o but_o when_o the_o hour_n of_o sacred_a fear_v be_v near_o the_o time_n of_o communion_n thou_o be_v to_o fear_v communion_n draw_v near_o think_v serious_o of_o thy_o own_o fault_n fail_n and_o unfaithfulnesse_n to_o thy_o lord_n god_n since_o the_o time_n of_o thy_o last_o approach_n to_o the_o sacred_a table_n for_o which_o ingratitude_n and_o unworthiness_n thou_o tremble_v with_o fear_n and_o confusion_n before_o his_o dread_a majesty_n but_o then_o again_o encourage_v and_o comfort_v thy_o confidence_n but_o also_o to_o have_v courage_n and_o confidence_n self_n with_o the_o consideration_n of_o his_o goodness_n his_o readiness_n to_o pardon_v and_o his_o inclination_n to_o mercy_n and_o with_o a_o pious_a confidence_n that_o he_o will_v have_v thou_o receive_v he_o notwithstanding_o thy_o own_o indignity_n go_v on_o with_o alacrity_n of_o spirit_n to_o the_o holy_a banquet_n and_o joyful_o embrace_v thy_o lord_n god_n in_o thy_o soul_n 8._o the_o sacred_a communion_n thus_o want_n after_o communion_n discover_v thy_o want_n perform_v present_o shut_v up_o thyself_o within_o the_o closet_n of_o thy_o own_o heart_n and_o discover_v to_o thy_o saviour_n thy_o
want_n and_o thy_o weakness_n say_v in_o thy_o mind_n thou_o see_v o_o my_o sweet_a saviour_n how_o i_o be_o possess_v with_o this_o passion_n and_o pester_v with_o this_o perverse_a affection_n thou_o also_o well_o know_v o_o my_o lord_n my_o weakness_n to_o resist_v it_o and_o that_o â—â—_o be_v not_o possible_a for_o i_o by_o my_o own_o diligence_n to_o be_v deliver_v therefore_o this_o battle_n be_v thou_o i_o resign_v this_o my_o quarrel_n against_o these_o enemy_n into_o thy_o powerful_a hand_n and_o from_o thou_o alone_o i_o look_v for_o the_o victory_n 9_o after_o thou_o have_v thus_o silent_o help_n and_o constant_o hope_v for_o the_o divine_a help_n pray_v turn_v thyself_o to_o the_o eternal_a father_n and_o pious_o present_v his_o dear_a son_n jesus_n unto_o he_o for_o the_o same_o effect_n for_o which_o thou_o now_o receive_v he_o into_o thy_o soul_n and_o expect_v with_o constant_a hope_n his_o divine_a help_n which_o although_o thou_o present_o perceive_v not_o yet_o thou_o shall_v infallible_o and_o plentiful_o receive_v when_o it_o shall_v be_v most_o expedient_a for_o thou_o chap._n xxx_o how_o to_o excite_v in_o we_o the_o affection_n of_o love_n by_o the_o sacred_a communion_n if_o thou_o desire_v to_o stir_v up_o in_o thy_o soul_n by_o mean_n of_o this_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n that_o fervent_a love_n of_o thy_o lord_n god_n which_o destroy_v and_o consume_v all_o self-will_n and_o self_n love_n within_o thou_o settle_v thyself_o in_o the_o evening_n which_o precede_v thy_o communion_n to_o meditate_v upon_o thy_o lord_n immense_a love_n and_o liberality_n towards_o liberality_n consider_v god_n love_n and_o liberality_n thou_o unworthy_a wretch_n the_o work_n of_o his_o own_o hand_n how_o not_o content_a to_o have_v form_v thou_o of_o nothing_o to_o his_o image_n and_o likeness_n and_o to_o have_v send_v his_o only_a son_n from_o heaven_n to_o inhabit_v our_o earth_n and_o to_o serve_v thou_o for_o the_o space_n of_o three_o and_o thirty_o year_n in_o continual_a labour_n and_o travail_n and_o last_o to_o undergo_v his_o most_o bitter_a passion_n and_o ignominious_a death_n for_o thy_o redemption_n he_o will_v further_o bequeath_v this_o his_o son_n unto_o thou_o in_o the_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o eucharist_n for_o the_o perpetual_a food_n and_o refresh_n of_o thy_o soul_n 2._o and_o that_o by_o the_o due_a consideration_n communion_n especial_o show_v in_o the_o sacred_a communion_n of_o this_o special_a benefit_n of_o sacred_a communion_n thou_o may_v become_v all_o fire_n and_o love_n thou_o shall_v thus_o order_v thy_o devout_a exercise_n consider_v in_o the_o first_o place_n who_o it_o thou_o weigh_v first_o who_o it_o be_v that_o come_v thus_o unto_o thou_o be_v that_o confer_v on_o thou_o this_o so_o large_a and_o liberal_a gift_n sure_o it_o be_v thy_o lord_n god_n himself_o the_o divine_a and_o increated_a wisdom_n and_o goodness_n who_o worth_a and_o perfection_n infinite_o exceed_v the_o reach_n of_o all_o create_a capacity_n 3._o then_o look_v upon_o the_o gift_n itself_o thou_o 2._o what_o he_o give_v thou_o which_o be_v the_o true_a and_o only_a son_n of_o god_n of_o equal_a height_n nature_n and_o substance_n with_o the_o heavenly_a father_n and_o holy_a ghost_n now_o if_o a_o small_a gift_n proceed_v from_o a_o king_n have_v its_o high_a value_n in_o respect_n of_o the_o giver_n how_o high_o be_v this_o gift_n to_o be_v value_v by_o we_o which_o be_v god_n and_o give_v by_o god_n himself_o as_o a_o token_n of_o his_o true_a love_n and_o a_o perpetual_a memorial_n of_o his_o tender_a affection_n towards_o we_o 4._o again_o reflect_v upon_o the_o eternity_n love_n 3._o the_o eternity_n of_o his_o love_n of_o this_o love_n by_o which_o it_o be_v decree_v by_o his_o most_o divine_a most_o hide_a and_o most_o holy_a wisdom_n that_o he_o will_v thus_o give_v thou_o himself_o for_o thy_o food_n and_o refection_n and_o hence_o begin_v with_o joy_n and_o jubily_n of_o heart_n to_o sing_v and_o say_v within_o thyself_o o_o infinite_a goodness_n of_o my_o god_n and_o be_v it_o even_o so_o that_o thou_o love_v i_o in_o thy_o endless_a eternity_n do_v thou_o o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n so_o much_o value_v i_o thy_o poor_a and_o unworthy_a creature_n that_o thou_o remembr_v i_o in_o thy_o bless_a eternity_n and_o have_v a_o ardent_a affection_n and_o desire_v to_o give_v i_o thyself_o for_o the_o food_n of_o my_o soul_n 5._o and_o final_o look_v into_o the_o purity_n love_n 4._o the_o purity_n of_o his_o love_n of_o this_o love_n which_o so_o great_a a_o lord_n show_v unto_o so_o mean_v a_o worm_n how_o different_a be_v it_o from_o all_o earthly_a affection_n how_o free_a from_o the_o least_o mixture_n of_o profit_n and_o self-interest_n how_o far_o be_v it_o above_o thy_o merit_n and_o how_o pure_o be_v it_o a_o work_n of_o his_o only_a mercy_n and_o bounty_n 6._o have_v thus_o serious_o and_o sweet_o with_o affection_n and_o admiration_n meditate_a of_o the_o divine_a goodness_n thy_o heart_n may_v break_v forth_o admiration_n hence_o break_v forth_o into_o admiration_n into_o these_o rapture_n whence_o be_v it_o o_o my_o lord_n that_o thou_o so_o love_v i_o a_o abject_a creature_n why_o o_o king_n of_o glory_n will_v thou_o so_o near_o join_v i_o to_o thyself_o who_o be_o but_o a_o little_a dust_n and_o ash_n i_o well_o conceive_v thy_o design_n o_o my_o dear_a lord_n this_o thy_o excessive_a love_n towards_o i_o it_o be_v to_o win_v i_o reciprocal_o to_o thy_o love_n o_o the_o purity_n of_o divine_a love_n thou_o love_v i_o o_o my_o god_n and_o give_v thy_o whole_a self_n unto_o i_o for_o no_o other_o end_n but_o that_o i_o may_v in_o gratitude_n give_v thou_o my_o love_n life_n and_o all_o entire_o and_o this_o for_o no_o need_n thou_o have_v of_o i_o but_o mere_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n and_o for_o my_o advancement_n and_o profit_n that_o by_o this_o sweet_a tie_n and_o happy_a union_n of_o love_n my_o earthly_a heart_n may_v be_v raise_v up_o to_o become_v one_o with_o thy_o divine_a heart_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n explication_n here_o all_o ravish_v with_o joy_n to_o see_v prize_v and_o ravishment_n to_o see_v thyself_o so_o high_o prize_v thyself_o so_o high_o prize_v and_o belove_v of_o thy_o lord_n god_n withdraw_v into_o the_o secret_a part_n of_o thy_o own_o heart_n and_o there_o acknowledge_v that_o all_o this_o powerful_a love_n be_v to_o entice_v thy_o poor_a and_o inconsiderate_a self_n unto_o his_o divine_a majesty_n make_v so_o he_o and_o make_v a_o entire_a oblation_n of_o thyself_o to_o he_o absolute_a a_o oblation_n of_o thyself_o unto_o he_o that_o thy_o memory_n may_v scarce_o think_v of_o any_o thing_n but_o thy_o god_n thy_o affection_n may_v abhor_v all_o content_n which_o come_v any_o way_n without_o he_o and_o thy_o understanding_n may_v admit_v of_o no_o other_o object_n for_o its_o continual_a entertainment_n than_o he_o who_o be_v the_o only_a satiety_n and_o satisfaction_n of_o all_o thy_o inward_a faculty_n and_o outward_a sense_n and_o since_o there_o be_v no_o action_n among_o religion_n and_o this_o be_v the_o chief_a act_n of_o religion_n all_o they_o which_o concern_v our_o religion_n and_o loyalty_n to_o god_n which_o can_v compare_v with_o this_o of_o receive_v he_o worthy_o in_o the_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n either_o in_o appease_v perfect_o strive_v to_o perform_v it_o most_o perfect_o his_o anger_n or_o unite_n we_o to_o his_o love_n force_v thyself_o to_o the_o utmost_a of_o thy_o power_n to_o prepare_v purify_v and_o open_v thy_o heart_n unto_o he_o and_o to_o shut_v it_o against_o all_o thing_n create_v 7._o then_o offer_v and_o dedicate_v thyself_o humble_o and_o whole_o with_o heart_n and_o text._n text._n affection_n to_o the_o divine_a pleasure_n he_o dedicate_a thyself_o whole_o â—o_o he_o and_o retain_v a_o ever_o ready_a and_o inflame_a desire_n to_o please_v god_n and_o follow_v his_o bless_a will_n and_o when_o this_o holy_a desire_n and_o affection_n shall_v be_v thorough_o enkindle_v in_o thy_o soul_n thou_o will_v see_v i_o to_o move_v thy_o lord_n god_n also_o to_o be_v so_o much_o enamour_v with_o thou_o that_o he_o desire_v thou_o shall_v free_o open_v thy_o heart_n to_o he_o that_o he_o may_v the_o next_o morning_n enter_v he_o and_o free_o open_v thy_o heart_n to_o he_o in_o unto_o thou_o feast_n with_o thou_o and_o take_v his_o full_a delight_n in_o thou_o then_o do_v thou_o also_o declare_v thy_o mutual_a desire_n to_o receive_v he_o with_o these_o kind_n of_o jaculatory_a prayer_n o_o heavenly_a and_o divine_a manna_n when_o will_v that_o wish_a hour_n come_v that_o i_o shall_v to_o thy_o own_o content_n receive_v thou_o into_o my_o soul_n ah_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v sure_o unite_v unto_o thou_o by_o
great_a use_n of_o this_o exercise_n for_o thy_o spiritual_a profit_n exercise_n of_o spiritual_a communion_n with_o more_o reverence_n and_o profit_n frame_v thy_o intention_n overnight_o to_o apply_v all_o the_o mortification_n of_o thy_o vicious_a passion_n all_o the_o act_n of_o virtue_n and_o whatsoever_o good_a thou_o shall_v any_o way_n perform_v for_o the_o obtain_n of_o this_o happy_a effect_n and_o that_o thou_o may_v worthy_o open_v the_o gate_n of_o thy_o heart_n to_o give_v due_a entertainment_n to_o so_o divine_a a_o guest_n and_o in_o the_o morning_n settle_v thy_o thought_n upon_o the_o serious_a consideration_n of_o the_o great_a happiness_n of_o that_o sweet_a soul_n which_o worthy_o receive_v this_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n whereby_o sin_n breach_n be_v repair_v lose_v virtue_n be_v restore_v languish_v force_n be_v recrute_v and_o each_o good_a return_n to_o its_o first_o beauty_n by_o the_o communication_n of_o the_o fruit_n of_o christ_n merit_n and_o passion_n then_o force_n and_o excite_v thy_o heart_n to_o a_o ardent_a desire_n of_o these_o comfort_n by_o thy_o lord_n come_v and_o turn_v towards_o he_o say_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o receive_v thou_o sacramental_o but_o do_v thou_o o_o increated_a goodness_n and_o unlimited_a power_n pardon_v all_o my_o imperfection_n and_o make_v i_o worthy_a to_o receive_v thou_o spiritual_o to_o the_o honour_n of_o thy_o holy_a name_n and_o the_o true_a comfort_n of_o my_o poor_a soul_n chap._n xxxii_o of_o thanksgiving_n all_o our_o good_a action_n be_v of_o god_n all_o goodness_n be_v from_o god_n god_n and_o from_o god_n and_o therefore_o a_o thankful_a gratitude_n be_v due_a to_o he_o for_o all_o our_o well_o perform_v exercise_n for_o each_o victory_n obtain_v against_o our_o enemy_n and_o for_o all_o and_o singular_a his_o blessing_n and_o benefit_n 2._o and_o that_o thou_o may_v not_o be_v defective_a show_v to_o who_o therefore_o all_o gratitude_n must_v be_v 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with_o vain_a and_o vile_a fancy_n and_o perpetual_o tosse_v i_o to_o and_o fro_o between_o love_n and_o hatred_n joy_n and_o grief_n hope_v and_o fear_n and_o the_o rest_n of_o thy_o numerous_a and_o enormous_a irascible_a and_o concupiscible_a power_n and_o passion_n ay_o i_o how_o sad_a be_v my_o state_n how_o deplorable_a my_o condition_n oh_o how_o long_o lord_n must_v i_o dwell_v with_o these_o devil_n how_o long_o must_v i_o endure_v the_o violence_n of_o these_o passion_n o_o my_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o salvation_n break_v these_o fetter_n for_o i_o command_v a_o calm_a o_o thou_o only_a ruler_n of_o sea_n and_o wind_n and_o appease_v the_o surge_n of_o these_o my_o unmortified_a appetite_n oh_o restore_v i_o to_o myself_o again_o reduce_v reason_n to_o her_o lose_a dominion_n in_o my_o soul_n and_o bring_v back_o i_o thy_o poor_a creature_n to_o thou_o my_o powerful_a creator_n o_o let_v not_o this_o passenger_n perish_v amid_o these_o boisterous_a billow_n nor_o 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will_v o_o my_o lord_n thou_o can_v both_o cleanse_v and_o cure_v i_o to_o this_o end_n thou_o descend_v from_o jerusalem_n to_o jericho_n o_o pious_a samaritan_n from_o heaven_n to_o earth_n o_o compassionate_a saviour_n where_o thou_o find_v i_o in_o this_o pitiful_a plight_n sore_o beat_v wound_a half_a dead_a and_o utter_o despoil_v of_o all_o natural_a and_o spiritual_a riches_n by_o thief_n and_o robber_n which_o be_v the_o sense_n of_o my_o body_n and_o the_o faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n o_o pass_v not_o by_o i_o sweet_a jesus_n but_o merciful_o bind_v up_o my_o bleed_a wound_n with_o the_o swath_a band_n of_o thy_o death_n and_o passion_n power_n upon_o they_o the_o wine_n of_o thy_o precious_a blood_n and_o supple_a they_o with_o the_o oil_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a grace_n 4._o i_o intend_v o_o my_o lord_n strengthen_v i_o in_o this_o hour_n i_o intend_v o_o sweet_a saviour_n a_o total_a reformation_n of_o life_n and_o manner_n a_o entire_a mortification_n of_o my_o corporeal_a sense_n and_o spiritual_a faculty_n a_o absolute_a change_n in_o my_o whole_a man_n o_o grant_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o love_a lord_n the_o powerful_a assistance_n of_o thy_o special_a grace_n for_o the_o performance_n of_o this_o great_a and_o good_a purpose_n teach_v i_o now_o o_o my_o bless_a master_n to_o live_v inward_o pious_o spiritual_o as_o i_o love_v former_o to_o live_v outward_o vain_o sensual_o o_o let_v i_o henceforth_o yield_v to_o thy_o divine_a motion_n obey_v thy_o call_n imitate_v thy_o example_n and_o follow_v thy_o will_n o_o let_v i_o never_o more_o act_v or_o omit_v any_o thing_n be_v it_o never_o so_o little_a for_o my_o own_o like_n but_o pure_o and_o perfect_o for_o thy_o love_n 5._o grant_v o_o good_a jesus_n that_o at_o each_o word_n of_o my_o mouth_n at_o each_o glance_n
disorder_a love_n to_o any_o worldly_a person_n no_o favour_n or_o friendship_n o_o my_o only_a amiable_a lord_n god_n no_o greatness_n or_o goodness_n of_o any_o one_o shall_v make_v i_o fwerve_v from_o my_o exact_a duty_n to_o thee-ward_n no_o carnal_a affection_n to_o kindred_n no_o tenderness_n of_o amity_n no_o private_a or_o public_a respect_n no_o connivency_n or_o correspondency_n shall_v make_v i_o partial_a in_o the_o reproof_n of_o vice_n or_o praise_v of_o virtue_n o_o take_v up_o my_o whole_a heart_n with_o thy_o holy_a love_n that_o thy_o perfect_a image_n and_o perpetual_a memory_n may_v blot_v out_o all_o species_n of_o foreign_a object_n i_o renounce_v all_o vain_a vicious_a idle_a and_o unprofitable_a thought_n fancy_n and_o imagination_n o_o let_v my_o mind_n not_o only_o yield_v no_o consent_n but_o no_o entrance_n unto_o they_o o_o let_v i_o never_o more_o contristate_v thy_o holy_a spirit_n with_o these_o vanity_n nor_o hinder_v my_o soul_n advancement_n and_o union_n with_o thou_o by_o these_o divertisment_n i_o will_v henceforth_o compel_v my_o heart_n to_o some_o good_a employment_n i_o will_v no_o long_o permit_v it_o to_o wander_v and_o waste_v itself_o in_o any_o idle_a and_o superfluous_a curiosity_n no_o my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n thy_o bitter_a and_o bless_a passion_n thy_o blessing_n and_o benefit_n shall_v be_v the_o continual_a occupation_n of_o my_o interior_a o_o what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o transitory_a thing_n who_o be_o make_v for_o eternity_n i_o renounce_v all_o care_n and_o solicitude_n which_o necessity_n obedience_n and_o charity_n do_v not_o oblige_v i_o to_o no_o natural_a passion_n of_o joy_n sorrow_n hope_v fear_v love_n hatred_n anger_n or_o shamefacedness_n shall_v make_v any_o impression_n in_o this_o heart_n of_o i_o which_o be_v preingage_v in_o thy_o affection_n seal_v up_o and_o settle_v in_o thy_o contemplation_n no_o pretext_n of_o lawfulness_n nor_o show_v of_o fittingness_n nor_o conceit_n of_o compassion_n nor_o excuse_v of_o necessity_n shall_v procure_v the_o admittance_n of_o such_o passion_n into_o my_o soul_n as_o may_v any_o way_n distract_v darken_v or_o dull_v the_o point_n of_o my_o affection_n and_o devotion_n towards_o thou_o my_o only_a lord_n and_o love_n i_o renounce_v all_o bitterness_n of_o heart_n against_o any_o one_o be_v he_o good_a be_v thou_o eternal_o praise_v in_o he_o and_o by_o he_o o_o bountiful_a bestower_n of_o all_o blessing_n be_v he_o wicked_a correct_v he_o o_o merciful_a creator_n comfort_n encourage_v and_o raise_v he_o to_o amendment_n have_v he_o offend_v affront_v injure_v or_o slight_v i_o i_o deserve_v o_o great_a god_n to_o be_v tread_v on_o by_o all_o creature_n and_o therefore_o i_o free_o forgive_v he_o for_o the_o past_a and_o give_v he_o free_a leave_n to_o add_v stripe_n to_o his_o injury_n for_o the_o future_a be_o i_o deny_v the_o grant_n of_o my_o most_o lawful_a and_o just_a demand_n thou_o best_a know_v o_o eternal_a wisdom_n what_o be_v best_a for_o my_o state_n and_o condition_n o_o deny_v not_o thy_o love_n to_o my_o soul_n and_o let_v i_o be_v refuse_v in_o all_o other_o my_o request_n whatsoever_o i_o renounce_v all_o vainglory_n all_o self-liking_a and_o pride_n which_o may_v arise_v from_o worldly_a praise_n all_o delight_n spring_v from_o any_o gift_n of_o nature_n or_o grace_n which_o be_v in_o i_o not_o unto_o i_o lord_n but_o to_o thy_o holy_a name_n be_v give_v all_o honour_n and_o glory_n alas_o what_o be_o i_o what_o have_v i_o what_o can_v i_o all_o be_v thou_o o_o my_o bountiful_a lord_n god_n nothing_o be_v i_o but_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o deserve_v only_a shame_n and_o confusion_n 7._o i_o renounce_v all_o desire_n of_o delight_n in_o my_o devotion_n all_o sensible_a gust_n of_o grace_n and_o all_o sweetness_n and_o solace_n in_o the_o inferior_a faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n ah_o my_o heart_n what_o be_v all_o this_o to_o thou_o follow_v thou_o thy_o saviour_n thou_o seek_v thy_o crucify_a jesus_n this_o be_v not_o he_o but_o his_o gift_n o_o my_o lord_n it_o be_v thyself_o i_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o if_o thou_o send_v i_o comfort_n for_o the_o encouragement_n of_o my_o weakness_n be_v thou_o ever_o praise_v for_o thou_o do_v like_o a_o most_o benign_a and_o bountiful_a god_n if_o thou_o withdrawe_v they_o still_o bless_v be_v thy_o providence_n which_o have_v secret_a and_o several_a way_n of_o conduct_a soul_n to_o thyself_o and_o if_o thou_o will_v make_v trial_n of_o my_o fidelity_n by_o permit_v i_o to_o be_v dull_a dry_a and_o desolate_a in_o my_o devotion_n be_v thou_o equal_o and_o eternal_o bless_v i_o renounce_v all_o scrupulosity_n of_o conscience_n which_o reflect_v any_o way_n upon_o the_o least_o diffidence_n or_o distrust_n in_o thy_o mercy_n i_o be_o a_o sinner_n o_o jesus_n but_o thou_o be_v a_o saviour_n i_o have_v great_a reason_n to_o dread_v thy_o justice_n but_o great_a to_o hope_v in_o thy_o goodness_n heaven_n and_o earth_n shall_v soon_o fail_v than_o my_o confidence_n in_o thou_o my_o merciful_a maker_n if_o thou_o kill_v i_o i_o will_v trust_v in_o thou_o and_o if_o i_o have_v former_o hate_v thou_o and_o betray_v thou_o as_o judas_n do_v i_o will_v now_o with_o penitent_a magdalen_n run_v to_o thy_o bless_a foot_n weep_v and_o bemoan_v my_o misery_n and_o hope_v to_o obtain_v thy_o mercy_n and_o final_o o_o my_o lord_n i_o absolute_o entire_o and_o irrevocable_o renounce_v my_o whole_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o total_o resign_v whatsoever_o any_o way_n concern_v i_o to_o thy_o holy_a will_n and_o pleasure_n i_o offer_v up_o unto_o thou_o the_o full_a sacrifice_n both_o principal_a and_o accessory_n of_o all_o that_o by_o thy_o gift_n and_o grace_n i_o be_o have_v and_o can_v myself_o good_n grace_n body_n soul_n sense_n heart_n will_n all_o i_o leave_v no_o right_a or_o title_n to_o any_o selfness_n in_o any_o thing_n whatsoever_o i_o be_o no_o more_o myself_o but_o thy_o slave_n o_o lord_n not_o my_o will_n but_o thou_o be_v do_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n o_o let_v i_o will_v what_o thou_o will_v or_o not_o will_n at_o all_o let_v all_o my_o desire_n be_v involuntary_a if_o they_o swerve_v never_o so_o little_a from_o thy_o divine_a pleasure_n die_v self-will_n live_v jesus_n my_o lord_n my_o love_n my_o all_o for_o saturday_o of_o conformity_n to_o christ_n crucify_a the_o six_o exercise_n 1._o crucify_a jesu_n thou_o only_a lord_n of_o my_o life_n life_n of_o my_o love_n and_o love_n of_o my_o soul_n o_o that_o i_o can_v reform_v my_o life_n deiform_a my_o love_n and_o conform_v my_o soul_n to_o thou_o the_o absolute_a pattern_n of_o all_o perfection_n o_o that_o i_o can_v imprint_v thy_o lively_a and_o lovely_a image_n in_o my_o heart_n fasten_v all_o my_o affection_n and_o imperfection_n to_o thy_o sacred_a cross_n drown_v all_o my_o desire_n and_o defect_n in_o thy_o dear_a wound_n put_v off_o myself_o total_o and_o put_v thou_o on_o entire_o o_o sacred_a humanity_n o_o my_o suffer_a saviour_n o_o that_o i_o can_v perfect_o imitate_v thou_o the_o pure_a exemplar_n of_o all_o virtue_n that_o i_o can_v give_v up_o my_o whole_a self_n to_o thou_o by_o a_o act_n of_o irrevocable_a donation_n as_o thou_o demand_v and_o command_v but_o alas_o i_o be_o yet_o o_o my_o jesus_n all_o self-love_n sin_n and_o sensuality_n i_o acknowledge_v o_o my_o lord_n what_o i_o have_v and_o what_o i_o want_v i_o know_v what_o i_o desire_v and_o what_o i_o deserve_v i_o confess_v i_o be_o wound_v i_o be_o wicked_a i_o be_o wretched_a and_o i_o tremble_o come_v to_o thou_o my_o heavenly_a physician_n to_o be_v cure_v convert_v comfort_v o_o sweet_a saviour_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n and_o for_o thy_o passion_n sake_n forget_v and_o forgive_v what_o i_o have_v be_v pity_v what_o i_o be_o satisfy_v for_o what_o i_o deserve_v and_o supply_v what_o i_o desire_v 2._o behold_v most_o merciful_a jesu_n i_o first_o cast_v myself_o at_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n pierce_v and_o fasten_v to_o the_o cruel_a cross_n for_o my_o transgression_n pierce_v my_o flesh_n o_o my_o lord_n with_o thy_o fear_n and_o fasten_v my_o soul_n to_o thy_o love_n o_o let_v not_o pride_n and_o presumption_n nestle_v any_o long_o in_o that_o heart_n which_o thou_o o_o meek_a saviour_n love_v so_o tender_o and_o redeem_v at_o so_o dear_a a_o rate_n o_o my_o vain_a glory_n and_o arrogancy_n what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o you_o how_o much_o do_v i_o now_o detest_v you_o wash_v off_o these_o stain_n o_o jesu_n from_o my_o poor_a soul_n in_o these_o sweet_a stream_n flow_v from_o thy_o wound_a foot_n o_o drown_v these_o my_o imperfection_n in_o these_o sacred_a sea_n of_o piety_n give_v i_o o_o gracious_a lord_n such_o true_a humility_n of_o spirit_n that_o i_o may_v
ourselves_o 18._o if_o on_o the_o contrary_a our_o nature_n be_v so_o facile_a and_o flexible_a that_o we_o scarce_o find_v difficulty_n in_o any_o thing_n we_o wonder_v to_o hear_v mention_n of_o rebellion_n contradiction_n desolation_n etc._n etc._n from_o all_o which_o we_o be_v secure_a and_o quiet_a and_o therefore_o we_o fear_v our_o action_n proceed_v rather_o from_o a_o natural_a promptitude_n than_o solid_a virtue_n 19_o if_o we_o so_o addict_v ourselves_o to_o recollection_n that_o we_o look_v upon_o work_n of_o obedience_n and_o the_o external_a practice_n of_o our_o duty_n as_o impediment_n to_o perfection_n 20._o if_o we_o find_v such_o a_o calm_a in_o our_o passion_n imperfection_n and_o temptation_n that_o we_o hope_v the_o worst_a be_v past_a 21._o if_o scrupulosity_n overwhelm_v we_o 1._o we_o must_v obey_v our_o spiritual_a director_n 2._o we_o must_v do_v our_o best_a endeavour_n but_o here_o arise_v two_o difficulty_n 1._o if_o our_o directour_n knowledge_n be_v small_a his_o experience_n less_o etc._n etc._n 2._o if_o we_o can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o that_o we_o have_v do_v our_o best_a etc._n etc._n 22._o if_o we_o fear_v we_o detest_v not_o sin_n sufficient_o because_o we_o feel_v not_o so_o great_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n as_o we_o do_v sometime_o for_o a_o temporal_a loss_n 23._o if_o we_o can_v ground_v ourselves_o in_o a_o firm_a hope_n of_o mercy_n for_o that_o we_o be_v so_o frail_a and_o inconstant_a we_o sin_v daily_o and_o amend_v not_o our_o life_n we_o repay_v unto_o god_n evil_a for_o good_a we_o promise_v fidelity_n and_o practice_v nothing_o less_o 24._o if_o we_o go_v not_o on_o with_o alacrity_n because_o we_o know_v not_o that_o our_o sin_n be_v forgive_v that_o our_o confession_n be_v good_a and_o that_o we_o be_v in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n 25._o though_o we_o can_v in_o this_o life_n assure_v ourselves_o infallible_o to_o be_v in_o good_a state_n yet_o if_o we_o can_v comfort_v ourselves_o with_o most_o probable_a token_n of_o grace_n whereby_o we_o may_v feel_v the_o pulse_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o somewhat_o ease_v our_o anguish_n 26._o if_o we_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o know_v not_o well_o when_o we_o give_v consent_n to_o sinful_a thought_n 27._o if_o we_o can_v well_o distinguish_v between_o venial_a and_o mortal_a sin_n 28._o if_o these_o say_n of_o divine_n terrify_v we_o they_o sin_n who_o do_v against_o their_o doubt_n and_o in_o doubtful_a thing_n the_o secure_a part_n be_v to_o be_v follow_v 29._o if_o final_o we_o be_v apprehensive_a and_o fearful_a lest_o we_o shall_v grow_v weary_a in_o the_o way_n of_o virtue_n and_o not_o persevere_v constant_o in_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n maxim_n of_o mystical_a divinity_n the_o first_o maxim_n that_o our_o end_n be_v perfection_n and_o divine_a union_n and_o that_o prayer_n be_v the_o way_n to_o it_o it_o be_v not_o sufficient_a for_o we_o who_o be_v resolve_v upon_o a_o spiritual_a course_n to_o lead_v a_o ordinary_a good_a life_n which_o consist_v in_o the_o avoid_n of_o sin_n and_o scandal_n and_o in_o the_o punctual_a performance_n of_o our_o external_a duty_n to_o god_n and_o our_o neighbour_n but_o our_o end_n and_o aim_n must_v be_v to_o attain_v the_o perfection_n of_o god_n holy_a love_n and_o a_o happy_a union_n of_o our_o soul_n with_o their_o first_o beginning_n by_o live_v in_o abstraction_n recollection_n and_o perpetual_a contemplation_n as_o far_o forth_o as_o god_n holy_a spirit_n shall_v enable_v we_o and_o our_o frailty_n can_v correspond_v the_o chief_a mean_n to_o attain_v this_o our_o end_n be_v prayer_n without_o which_o all_o religion_n be_v but_o a_o shadow_n without_o a_o body_n or_o a_o body_n without_o a_o soul_n and_o all_o outward_a observance_n will_v prove_v but_o a_o superficial_a not_o a_o real_a devotion_n for_o it_o be_v the_o constant_a doctrine_n of_o divine_n that_o what_o god_n 2._o s._n augustine_n s._n basil_n s._n chrysostom_n s._n thomas_n 2_o 2._o q._n 83._o a._n 2._o in_o his_o eternal_a disposition_n have_v determine_v to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o he_o give_v we_o in_o time_n by_o the_o intervention_n of_o prayer_n tie_v as_o it_o be_v to_o this_o instrument_n the_o conversion_n of_o sinner_n the_o advancement_n of_o soul_n the_o perfection_n of_o saint_n etc._n etc._n so_o that_o as_o his_o divine_a decree_n be_v that_o we_o must_v till_o the_o earth_n if_o we_o will_v reap_v the_o fruit_n thereof_o and_o provide_v materials_n if_o we_o will_v raise_v up_o building_n and_o the_o like_a so_o his_o absolute_a order_n be_v that_o we_o must_v pray_v if_o we_o will_v have_v spiritual_a benefit_n to_o be_v pour_v into_o our_o soul_n and_o supernatural_a gift_n and_o grace_n to_o be_v grant_v unto_o we_o let_v we_o therefore_o in_o the_o first_o place_n resolve_v to_o prosecute_v prayer_n courageous_o constant_o and_o perseverant_o at_o set_a time_n if_o we_o intend_v to_o make_v speedy_a progress_n in_o sincere_a virtue_n and_o lay_v a_o sure_a groundwork_n of_o solid_a spirituality_n and_o let_v nothing_o upon_o any_o pretext_n whatsoever_o hinder_v or_o divert_v we_o from_o it_o as_o far_o as_o obedience_n and_o discretion_n will_v give_v we_o leave_v lord_n heal_v my_o wound_n supply_v my_o want_n satisfy_v my_o wish_n the_o second_o maxim_n that_o beginuers_n may_v profitable_o make_v use_n of_o this_o follow_a exercise_n of_o mental_a prayer_n and_o introversion_n until_o they_o obtain_v great_a light_n and_o more_o experience_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n this_o divine_a exercise_n consist_v of_o three_o part_n in_o general_a and_o nine_o point_n in_o particular_a 1._o preparation_n of_o 3._o act_n 1._o a_o affective_a &_o lively_a apprehension_n of_o god_n presence_n 2._o a_o cordial_a and_o profound_a act_n of_o humility_n 3._o a_o pure_a intention_n to_o please_v and_o praise_n god_n only_o 2._o consideration_n of_o 1._o my_o wound_n both_o internal_a and_o external_a 2._o my_o want_n which_o be_v many_o in_o every_o degree_n 3._o my_o wish_n and_o humble_a desire_n 3._o conclusion_n also_o of_o 3._o act_n 1._o contrition_n for_o my_o sin_n 2._o resignation_n in_o my_o want_n 3._o complacence_n in_o god_n and_o confidence_n in_o his_o goodness_n a_o more_o ample_a and_o practical_a description_n of_o this_o exercise_n the_o first_o part_n be_v preparation_n of_o three_o acts._n 1._o a_o lively_a apprehension_n of_o god_n presence_n not_o only_o in_o all_o place_n and_o all_o creature_n by_o his_o power_n and_o essence_n but_o in_o our_o soul_n by_o his_o mercy_n love_n care_n and_o providence_n o_o my_o soul_n where_o be_v we_o god_n 1._o part._n 1_o presence_n of_o god_n who_o see_v we_o what_o be_v he_o that_o be_v with_o we_o and_o within_o we_o by_o who_o light_n we_o see_v by_o who_o fire_n we_o burn_v and_o by_o who_o love_n we_o live_v live_v my_o most_o glorious_a and_o gracious_a lord_n in_o who_o presence_n i_o kneel_v in_o who_o arm_n i_o rest_v and_o after_o who_o love_n i_o breathe_v o_o that_o thou_o be_v as_o dear_a to_o my_o soul_n as_o thou_o be_v near_o it_o alas_o why_o do_v she_o not_o care_n as_o much_o for_o her_o god_n as_o he_o do_v for_o her_o good_a why_o do_v i_o not_o love_v thy_o presence_n o_o my_o amiable_a lord_n since_o thou_o be_v present_a by_o love_n thou_o be_v my_o father_n my_o physician_n and_o my_o food_n hear_v i_o heal_v i_o help_v i_o i_o be_o wound_v i_o be_o wicked_a i_o be_o wretched_a out_o of_o thou_o there_o be_v no_o rest_n without_o thou_o there_o be_v no_o hope_n remain_v with_o i_o reign_n within_o i_o let_v i_o be_v thou_o all_o thou_o ever_o thou_o 2._o profound_a and_o cordial_a humility_n acknowledge_v unfeigned_o before_o god_n and_o his_o angel_n our_o wickedness_n weakness_n and_o wretchedness_n what_o we_o be_v and_o what_o we_o deserve_v and_o so_o rest_v quiet_a in_o our_o centre_n of_o nothing_o o_o my_o soul_n what_o have_v we_o humility_n 2_o profound_a humility_n be_v what_o be_v we_o what_o have_v we_o what_o can_v we_o do_v what_o do_v we_o deserve_v what_o do_v we_o desire_v what_o have_v our_o love_a father_n and_o liberal_a lord_n that_o he_o have_v not_o give_v we_o what_o have_v we_o proud_a and_o prodigal_a child_n that_o we_o have_v not_o receive_v mere_o from_o his_o merciful_a hand_n and_o heart_n what_o have_v we_o receive_v that_o we_o have_v not_o abuse_v by_o self-love_n or_o self-delight_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n give_v tear_n to_o my_o eye_n word_n to_o my_o tongue_n sigh_n to_o my_o heart_n and_o love_n to_o my_o spirit_n for_o i_o need_v they_o all_o to_o deplore_v my_o misery_n and_o implore_v thy_o mercy_n to_o admire_v thy_o beauty_n and_o adore_v thy_o bounty_n to_o sigh_v after_o thou_o and_o suffer_v for_o thou_o what_o i_o have_v be_v it_o grieve_v i_o to_o
possess_v my_o heart_n that_o there_o be_v no_o room_n at_o all_o remain_v for_o any_o bastard_n or_o base_a love_n of_o thing_n create_v good_a jesus_n how_o true_o happy_a and_o holy_a shall_v i_o be_v if_o i_o can_v clear_o behold_v my_o own_o nothing_o in_o thy_o all_o if_o i_o can_v embrace_v cross_n as_o crown_n and_o swallow_v down_o all_o contempr_n and_o confusion_n as_o milk_n and_o honey_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v so_o elevate_v in_o spirit_n above_o myself_o by_o ecstasy_n of_o love_n as_o to_o be_v able_a and_o willing_a to_o humble_v myself_o under_o all_o creature_n without_o repugnancy_n alas_o shall_v i_o never_o be_v content_a to_o forsake_v all_o and_o be_v forsake_v by_o all_o yea_o have_v lost_n and_o leave_v all_o foâ—_n one_o to_o be_v leave_v by_o that_o one_o who_o iâ—_n my_o all_o and_o so_o remain_v quiet_a iâ—_n my_o own_o nothing_o how_o long_o shall_v i_o he_o wallow_v in_o flesh_n and_o blood_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o delay_v and_o dally_v in_o false_a love_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o sigh_v and_o not_o enjoy_v seek_v and_o not_o find_v live_v and_o not_o love_n come_v my_o lord_n and_o love_n lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o let_v the_o fire_n of_o thy_o sweet_a love_n so_o consume_v in_o i_o aâ—l_a dross_n of_o self-love_n and_o so_o transform_v my_o spirit_n into_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v take_v all_o from_o thou_o indifferent_o give_v all_o to_o thou_o liberal_o and_o rest_n and_o repose_v in_o thou_o eternal_o lord_n let_v i_o be_v thou_o or_o nothing_o love_n or_o not_o live_v the_o three_o part_n be_v the_o conclusion_n which_o consist_v also_o of_o three_o acts._n 1._o contrition_n which_o be_v a_o hearty_a and_o humble_a sorrow_n for_o our_o sin_n ingratitâ—des_n disloyalty_n tepidity_n etc._n etc._n o_o my_o god_n how_o little_a do_v i_o love_v contrition_n 3._o part._n 1._o contrition_n thou_o when_o i_o so_o careless_o offend_v thy_o majesty_n oh_o that_o i_o have_v never_o sin_v mortal_o though_o it_o have_v cost_v i_o my_o life_n immediate_o o_o that_o i_o be_v sure_a never_o more_o to_o swerve_v from_o thy_o sacred_a will_n and_o commandment_n let_v i_o henceforth_o endure_v dear_a jesus_n a_o thousand_o death_n of_o my_o body_n rather_o than_o admit_v one_o deadly_a sin_n again_o into_o my_o soul_n o_o pity_n and_o pardon_v my_o past_a folly_n and_o frailty_n and_o prevent_v i_o with_o thy_o gracious_a blessing_n against_o future_a fall_n how_o great_a o_o lord_n be_v my_o obligation_n to_o serve_v and_o please_v thou_o be_v it_o but_o for_o thy_o favour_n confer_v thy_o benefit_n bestow_v and_o thy_o love_n pour_v out_o upon_o i_o and_o yet_o ungrateful_a wretch_n that_o i_o be_o how_o poor_o have_v i_o correspond_v oh_o that_o i_o have_v so_o deep_a a_o sense_n of_o my_o sin_n that_o my_o heart_n may_v break_v with_o sorrow_n hide_v not_o o_o lord_n thy_o face_n from_o i_o shut_v not_o up_o thy_o mercy_n gate_n against_o i_o for_o though_o i_o have_v most_o grievous_o go_v astray_o yet_o i_o be_o resolve_v upon_o a_o entire_a amendment_n correction_n reformation_n of_o my_o whole_a man_n this_o strong_a resolution_n which_o be_v thy_o gracious_a gift_n ground_n my_o hope_n in_o thy_o goodness_n embolden_v my_o confidence_n in_o thâ—_n mercy_n and_o give_v i_o courage_n and_o comfort_n in_o thy_o love_n 2._o resignation_n in_o all_o our_o wanâ—â—_n wish_n desolation_n and_o distress_n â—â—_o the_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n i_o be_o indifferent_a o_o my_o dear_a lord_n resignation_n 2._o resignation_n to_o sickness_n and_o health_n to_o light_v and_o darkness_n to_o delight_v and_o desolation_n i_o be_o thou_o sweet_a jesus_n put_v i_o where_o thou_o will_v do_v with_o i_o as_o thou_o will_v send_v i_o what_o thou_o will_v i_o be_o content_a not_o only_o to_o have_v nothing_o but_o to_o be_v nothing_o so_o thou_o â—_o my_o lord_n be_v all_o thing_n unto_o i_o i_o acknowledge_v myself_o unworthy_a to_o beg_v and_o less_o worthy_a to_o obtain_v and_o therefore_o i_o resign_v myself_o still_o to_o beg_v and_o yet_o still_o to_o want_v even_o that_o which_o i_o most_o wish_v which_o be_v all_o light_n all_o liberty_n all_o love_n all_o comfort_n all_o content_a yea_o even_o all_o virtue_n peace_n and_o perfection_n so_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v thou_o o_o father_n i_o be_o thou_o ever_o thou_o all_o thy_o body_n and_o soul_n for_o time_n and_o eternity_n live_v jesus_n only_o 3._o complacence_n and_o confidence_n the_o first_o that_o our_o god_n be_v what_o he_o be_v the_o next_o that_o he_o will_v heal_v our_o wound_n supply_v our_o want_n satisfy_v our_o wish_n and_o turn_v all_o to_o our_o good_a i_o be_o glad_a o_o my_o glorious_a lord_n confidence_n 3._o complacence_n and_o confidence_n god_n that_o thou_o be_v so_o worthy_a of_o all_o love_n though_o i_o of_o all_o other_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o love_v thou_o i_o be_o as_o joyful_a for_o what_o thou_o be_v o_o great_a god_n as_o if_o all_o thou_o have_v be_v all_o mine_n and_o i_o will_v love_v thou_o in_o all_o i_o be_o and_o have_v as_o be_v all_o thou_o thy_o cross_n be_v my_o comfort_n thy_o will_n my_o well_n fare_n and_o thy_o love_n my_o life_n so_o that_o if_o i_o can_v but_o suffer_v for_o thou_o do_v thy_o will_n and_o follow_v thy_o love_n i_o shall_v do_v all_o that_o be_v necessary_a i_o be_o indeed_o dry_a dark_a and_o desolate_a but_o since_o it_o be_v thy_o will_n i_o be_o sure_a it_o be_v my_o good_a and_o therefore_o sufficient_a for_o i_o and_o satisfactory_a to_o thou_o i_o hope_v thou_o will_v one_o day_n complete_a thy_o own_o heavenly_a design_n in_o my_o soul_n heal_v my_o wound_n supply_v my_o want_n fulfil_v my_o desire_n and_o fill_v my_o yet_o empty_a heart_n with_o thy_o sweet_a presence_n and_o perfect_a love_n in_o the_o mean_a space_n i_o will_v say_v and_o sing_v live_v jâ—sus_n live_v my_o lord_n my_o love_n my_o life_n my_o all_o who_o name_n bâ—_n bless_v by_o all_o who_o will_v be_v accomplish_v in_o all_o who_o honour_n be_v advance_v above_o all_o a_o advertisement_n touch_v the_o precedent_a exercise_n 1._o we_o must_v perform_v it_o daily_o diligent_o discreet_o and_o with_o great_a confidence_n and_o courage_n 2._o yet_o without_o propriety_n that_o it_o may_v neither_o hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n within_o nor_o work_n of_o due_a obligation_n and_o obedience_n without_o 3._o if_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o introversion_n we_o find_v dryness_n and_o feel_v little_a devotion_n we_o may_v sometime_o fit_o resume_v in_o lieu_n of_o the_o second_o part_n or_o consideration_n our_o wont_a exercise_n whereto_o our_o mind_n be_v more_o addict_v end_v the_o same_o with_o the_o conclusion_n here_o prescribe_v be_v ever_o due_o dispose_v to_o follow_v the_o holy_a spirit_n invitation_n to_o high_a matter_n if_o we_o faithful_o observe_v these_o thing_n we_o shall_v infallible_o receive_v comfort_n and_o speedy_o perceive_v our_o own_o unspeakable_a profit_n and_o progress_n by_o 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and_o conversation_n enter_v into_o his_o secret_a cabinet_n eat_v at_o his_o table_n repose_v on_o his_o breast_n be_v his_o minion_n become_v all_o one_o with_o he_o o_o honour_n most_o admirable_a o_o holiness_n most_o amiable_a o_o happiness_n most_o angelical_a o_o life_n o_o love_n the_o 27._o maxim_n that_o confidence_n in_o god_n goodness_n be_v the_o main_a support_n of_o our_o spiritual_a edifice_n we_o must_v be_v confident_a that_o our_o love_a lord_n will_n first_o pardon_v our_o sin_n second_o strengthen_v we_o in_o all_o necessity_n three_o bring_v we_o final_o to_o eternal_a happiness_n and_o to_o strengthen_v this_o confidence_n we_o must_v deep_o engrave_v these_o two_o maxim_n maxim_n 2._o maxim_n in_o our_o soul_n and_o then_o we_o shall_v easy_o be_v content_a to_o leave_v ourselves_o in_o the_o arm_n of_o his_o paternal_a providence_n and_o lose_v ourselves_o in_o the_o abyss_n of_o his_o piety_n first_o that_o what_o ever_o befall_v we_o come_v immediate_o 4_o 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doubtful_a or_o fearful_a etc._n etc._n second_o on_o earth_n in_o the_o church_n earth_n second_o on_o earth_n militant_a what_o be_v not_o for_o we_o sacrament_n scripture_n example_n prayer_n if_o we_o go_v not_o to_o heaven_n where_o be_v the_o fault_n what_o can_v god_n do_v that_o he_o have_v not_o do_v and_o what_o can_v we_o have_v more_o than_o we_o have_v for_o our_o consolation_n and_o salvation_n who_o can_v choose_v but_o take_v courage_n comfort_n and_o confidence_n three_o look_v upon_o christ_n jesus_n christ_n three_o in_o christ_n 1._o why_o come_v he_o into_o this_o world_n 2._o how_o do_v he_o carry_v himself_o in_o it_o towards_o sinner_n both_o in_o his_o life_n and_o death_n 3._o why_o be_v he_o call_v jesus_n and_o term_v a_o friend_n of_o publican_n and_o sinner_n 4._o why_o do_v he_o â—â—y_v that_o he_o come_v to_o call_v sinner_n and_o not_o the_o just_a and_o to_o do_v mercy_n and_o not_o justice_n 5._o what_o access_n and_o comfort_n give_v he_o to_o all_o 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know_v my_o necessity_n and_o what_o be_v best_a for_o i_o he_o be_v rich_a enough_o to_o provide_v for_o i_o will_v he_o let_v i_o perish_v will_v he_o reject_v i_o then_o reason_n thus_o further_o with_o yourself_o in_o who_o shall_v i_o confide_v if_o not_o in_o god_n in_o myself_o or_o other_o we_o be_v all_o inconstant_a all_o ignorant_a of_o what_o be_v best_a all_o impotent_a and_o want_v mean_n to_o help_v o_o how_o much_o better_a be_v it_o to_o trust_v in_o god_n than_o man_n five_o reflect_v upon_o your_o own_o experience_n five_o our_o own_o experience_n experience_n 1._o who_o do_v god_n ever_o deceive_v in_o his_o promise_n 2._o who_o ever_o call_v hearty_o on_o he_o and_o be_v refuse_v 3._o have_v he_o not_o hitherto_o merveilous_o protect_v and_o preserve_v you_o and_o dispose_v all_o for_o your_o good_a why_o then_o shall_v you_o doubt_v or_o distrust_v his_o providence_n for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v no_o lord_n blessed_n be_v the_o man_n that_o trust_v in_o thou_o heaven_n and_o earth_n may_v perish_v but_o no_o tittle_n of_o my_o hope_n in_o thou_o my_o dear_a and_o only_a saviour_n this_o shall_v be_v my_o anchor_n and_o stay_v if_o he_o kill_v i_o i_o will_v trust_v in_o he_o i_o will_v rest_v secure_a in_o his_o divine_a providence_n and_o endeavour_v to_o get_v a_o habitual_a and_o stable_a trust_n in_o his_o paternal_a protection_n without_o any_o care_n or_o fear_n as_o do_v a_o child_n in_o his_o father_n bâ—som_n this_o be_v the_o ready_a way_n to_o become_v unmoveable_a and_o immutable_a quiet_a and_o content_a be_v he_o god_n be_v he_o good_a be_v he_o my_o god_n my_o father_n my_o jesus_n jesus_n crucify_v be_v his_o goodness_n infinite_a do_v he_o want_v power_n wisdom_n or_o will_n to_o pardon_v protect_v and_o perfect_v i_o i_o must_v sure_o have_v little_a faith_n less_o hope_n and_o no_o love_n if_o i_o will_v not_o take_v thy_o word_n o_o lord_n thy_o work_n thy_o wound_n thy_o life_n and_o thy_o love_n for_o secure_a pledge_n of_o thy_o care_n towards_o i_o and_o sufficient_a motive_n to_o place_v my_o whole_a confidence_n in_o thou_o the_o 28._o maxim_n that_o the_o measure_n of_o our_o progress_n in_o perfectionâ—_n be_v the_o conformity_n of_o our_o wiâ—â—_n with_o the_o divine_a will_n 1._o for_o our_o perfection_n consist_v in_o love_n and_o the_o great_a sign_n of_o love_n be_v to_o have_v one_o and_o the_o same_o will_n with_o the_o belove_a so_o that_o look_v how_o much_o we_o have_v of_o our_o own_o will_n so_o much_o less_o have_v we_o of_o god_n will_n and_o love_n and_o consequent_o be_v so_o much_o the_o further_o from_o the_o union_n of_o our_o spirit_n with_o he_o perfection_n 1._o in_o this_o exercise_n of_o conformity_n consist_v all_o perfection_n o_o what_o holiness_n and_o happiness_n what_o privilege_n and_o
go_v on_o in_o our_o introversion_n with_o perfect_a freedom_n and_o liberty_n simplicity_n and_o purity_n without_o further_a fear_n or_o reflection_n let_v we_o i_o say_v keep_v on_o soft_a and_o fair_a according_a to_o order_n and_o obedience_n in_o our_o exercise_n of_o humility_n recollection_n and_o inward_a conversation_n with_o god_n check_v and_o desire_n we_o must_v curb_v importunate_a desire_n curb_v all_o importune_a pretension_n desire_n and_o resolution_n of_o do_v strange_a matter_n and_o rest_v content_a in_o what_o god_n send_v and_o our_o poverty_n afford_v neither_o run_v before_o his_o grace_n nor_o beyond_o our_o own_o strength_n let_v we_o leave_v all_o intermeddle_v peace_n of_o little_o meddle_v come_v great_a peace_n with_o other_o do_n and_o affair_n look_v only_o to_o our_o own_o care_n and_o charge_n think_v all_o other_o more_o perfect_a than_o ourselves_o and_o be_v true_o glad_a that_o our_o dear_a lord_n be_v pure_o love_v and_o perfect_o serve_v by_o they_o this_o be_v a_o sure_a way_n to_o avoid_v many_o stumble_a block_n of_o our_o enemy_n to_o begin_v to_o taste_v the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n in_o this_o life_n to_o live_v without_o solicitude_n and_o die_v without_o fear_n or_o trouble_v for_o the_o further_a practice_n of_o this_o point_n further_a practice_n of_o this_o point_n important_a point_n and_o to_o obtain_v this_o happy_a quiet_a and_o content_a of_o mind_n first_o we_o must_v careful_o avoid_v and_o contemn_v all_o curiosity_n to_o see_v hear_v know_v or_o have_v a_o hand_n in_o what_o concern_v we_o not_o second_o we_o must_v labour_v to_o be_v as_o it_o be_v blind_a deaf_a dumb_a insensible_a pass_v by_o all_o thing_n or_o let_v they_o pass_v by_o we_o for_o all_o be_v vanity_n solomon_n one_o to_o one_o s._n giles_n my_o god_n and_o all_o s._n francis_n whatsoever_o have_v a_o end_n be_v nothing_o s._n terese_n what_o be_v that_o to_o thou_o follow_v thou_o i_o jesus_n christ_n three_o what_o be_v it_o we_o will_v see_v hear_v or_o know_v novelty_n vanity_n a_o transitory_a toy_n a_o foolish_a fable_n a_o impertinent_a object_n a_o fly_a shadow_n a_o false_a deceit_n four_o to_o what_o end_n either_o it_o will_v defile_v our_o soul_n or_o disquiet_v our_o mind_n or_o distract_v our_o spirit_n or_o divert_v our_o intention_n or_o imprint_v idle_a image_n or_o excite_v our_o passion_n or_o renew_v our_o vicious_a affection_n all_o which_o be_v great_a hindrance_n in_o a_o spiritual_a and_o contemplative_a course_n ah_o poor_a soul_n what_o amiable_a and_o admirable_a light_n and_o love_n do_v we_o leave_v and_o lose_v for_o a_o vain_a curiosity_n etc._n etc._n the_o 30._o maxim_n that_o cross_n be_v to_o be_v suffer_v not_o seek_v to_o be_v take_v not_o make_v to_o be_v conceal_v not_o complain_v of_o it_o be_v far_o better_o to_o take_v cross_n when_o where_o and_o how_o we_o find_v they_o than_o to_o make_v they_o ourselves_o for_o this_o be_v loss_n of_o time_n and_o a_o nourishment_n of_o self-love_n let_v we_o not_o therefore_o cast_v ourselves_o indiscreet_o upon_o difficulty_n or_o seek_v out_o occasion_n of_o humility_n and_o patience_n but_o be_v ready_a to_o receive_v and_o indifferent_a to_o accept_v such_o as_o befall_v we_o and_o we_o shall_v find_v enough_o to_o do_v let_v we_o make_v as_o little_a outward_a show_n as_o may_v be_v of_o our_o inward_a suffering_n but_o keep_v that_o secret_a to_o ourselves_o till_o obedience_n and_o just_a reason_n induce_v we_o to_o reveal_v it_o and_o then_o let_v we_o do_v it_o simple_o sincere_o and_o resigned_o o_o what_o peace_n what_o profit_n what_o pleasure_n shall_v we_o find_v in_o this_o real_a proceed_n complaint_n be_v common_o accompany_v with_o self-seeking_a and_o small_a trouble_n be_v soon_o cure_v by_o quiet_a suffering_n than_o much_o show_n or_o speak_v of_o they_o do_v this_o cross_n come_v from_o 2._o see_v the_o conflict_n ch_n 10._o n._n 2._o man_n and_o be_v it_o not_o rather_o permit_v and_o provide_v by_o our_o belove_a lord_n from_o all_o eternity_n to_o purify_v we_o from_o pride_n to_o purge_v we_o from_o the_o love_n of_o creature_n and_o to_o dispose_v we_o for_o heaven_n and_o happiness_n the_o 31._o maxim_n that_o temptation_n can_v hurt_v we_o if_o we_o cast_v our_o whole_a care_n upon_o god_n when_o temptation_n passion_n practice_n 4._o rule_n of_o practice_n repugnancy_n or_o repine_n rage_n in_o the_o inferior_a portion_n of_o our_o soul_n we_o be_v present_o to_o reflect_v 1._o that_o we_o have_v make_v choice_n of_o god_n love_n for_o our_o end_n and_o resolve_v to_o stand_v to_o it_o till_o death_n 2._o that_o we_o must_v willing_o submit_v to_o the_o trouble_n as_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n to_o permit_v it_o 3._o that_o we_o must_v continue_v in_o our_o practice_n of_o piety_n and_o recollection_n as_o if_o we_o feel_v no_o affliction_n neither_o think_v on_o they_o nor_o fear_v they_o but_o assure_v ourselves_o that_o nothing_o can_v injure_v we_o so_o long_o as_o we_o rely_v upon_o god_n and_o resent_v our_o own_o weakness_n 4._o that_o prayer_n may_v be_v our_o chief_a refuge_n and_o support_v against_o all_o their_o surprisal_n and_o therefore_o we_o may_v say_v brief_o and_o hearty_o perfect_a thy_o strength_n o_o powerful_a lord_n in_o my_o weakness_n let_v thy_o mercy_n triumph_v on_o the_o throne_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o detest_v from_o my_o heart_n whatsoever_o be_v contrary_a to_o thy_o holy_a will_n in_o this_o point_n n._n and_o all_o thing_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o suffer_v it_o as_o long_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n thou_o please_v though_o never_o so_o cross_a to_o my_o crooked_a nature_n sweet_a saviour_n remain_v with_o i_o and_o let_v thy_o love_n reign_n in_o i_o and_o then_o i_o neither_o want_v other_o company_n nor_o desire_v further_a comfort_n the_o 32._o maxim_n that_o desolation_n dereliction_n affliction_n distraction_n be_v to_o be_v transcend_v by_o generous_a resolution_n in_o time_n of_o desolation_n etc._n etc._n we_o be_v not_o to_o dispute_v with_o ourselves_o nor_o examine_v the_o cause_n or_o circumstance_n of_o our_o suffering_n for_o we_o be_v then_o neither_o competent_a nor_o indifferent_a judge_n but_o we_o must_v refer_v that_o until_o the_o time_n of_o prayer_n talk_v not_o now_o with_o your_o passionate_a and_o partial_a heart_n but_o speak_v to_o god_n about_o some_o other_o thing_n transcend_v and_o dissemble_v your_o trouble_n in_o some_o such_o manner_n good_a god_n when_o shall_v this_o pilgrimage_n have_v a_o end_n my_o life_n be_v a_o continual_a warfare_n upon_o earth_n wherein_o all_o be_v vanity_n all_o be_v affliction_n of_o spirit_n all_o be_v full_a of_o frailty_n misery_n instability_n o_o lord_n what_o be_v man_n that_o thou_o shall_v mind_v he_o a_o weak_a reed_n wag_v with_o every_o wind_n and_o contristate_v with_o every_o little_a cross_n and_o contrariety_n burdensome_a to_o himself_o and_o troublesome_a to_o other_o etc._n etc._n there_o be_v more_o profit_n and_o less_o danger_n to_o suffer_v desolation_n than_o to_o abound_v with_o consolation_n to_o desire_v sensible_a love_n and_o contrition_n than_o to_o feel_v it_o to_o resist_v temptation_n distraction_n passion_n with_o patience_n and_o resignation_n than_o to_o have_v none_o at_o all_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n of_o high_a and_o heroic_a virtue_n 1._o to_o be_v resign_v when_o it_o seem_v we_o neither_o be_v nor_o can_v be_v resign_v 2._o to_o be_v patient_n when_o we_o be_v full_a of_o motion_n to_o anger_n 3._o to_o be_v humble_a meek_a and_o quiet_a in_o time_n of_o sickness_n serious_a business_n multiplicity_n of_o employment_n 4._o to_o be_v constant_a and_o invariable_a in_o all_o the_o diversity_n and_o variety_n of_o our_o own_o changeable_a humour_n disposition_n inclination_n internal_a invitation_n external_a instigation_n let_v we_o not_o think_v we_o lose_v our_o time_n when_o we_o be_v involuntary_o distract_v in_o prayer_n but_o rather_o comfort_v ourselves_o in_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o comfort_n because_o we_o then_o remain_v in_o that_o state_n in_o which_o god_n will_v have_v we_o let_v we_o conceive_v ourselves_o as_o within_o the_o wall_n of_o a_o strong_a castle_n without_o which_o be_v great_a noise_n outcry_n tumult_n alarm_n but_o we_o safe_a and_o secure_a within_o slight_v their_o vain_a attempt_n if_o our_o desire_n be_v to_o love_n god_n and_o our_o intention_n to_o be_v with_o he_o and_o we_o hold_v no_o discourse_n with_o other_o divertisment_n we_o have_v make_v a_o good_a and_o profitable_a prayer_n etc._n etc._n the_o 33._o maxim_n that_o perfection_n consist_v in_o put_v off_o all_o propriety_n and_o put_v on_o pure_a and_o naked_a charity_n this_o will_v make_v we_o love_v god_n above_o all_o thing_n and_o all_o thing_n in_o and_o for_o he_o only_o unite_n our_o spirit_n to_o god_n and_o in_o he_o to_o our_o
neighbour_n the_o practice_n of_o this_o spiritual_a uncloathing_n of_o our_o soul_n behold_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o love_n i_o general_o and_o total_o renounce_v all_o thing_n but_o thou_o cast_v myself_o into_o the_o arm_n of_o thy_o most_o holy_a disposition_n and_o protection_n o_o my_o soul_n return_v sweet_o to_o thy_o seat_n of_o rest_n repose_v quiet_o and_o confident_o in_o the_o bosom_n of_o divine_a bounty_n remain_v here_o without_o divert_v or_o distract_n thyself_o to_o other_o object_n rely_v secure_o upon_o his_o mercy_n and_o providence_n cut_v off_o incontinent_o all_o superfluous_a care_n and_o solicitude_n and_o protest_v thou_o desire_v nothing_o but_o the_o advance_n of_o his_o honour_n accomplish_v of_o his_o will_n his_o love_n and_o himself_o take_v courage_n my_o naked_a soul_n for_o if_o thou_o be_v unclothe_v sometime_o and_o deprive_v of_o thy_o lover_n embrace_n feeling_n of_o his_o comfort_n and_o pleasure_n of_o his_o presence_n it_o be_v only_o that_o himself_o alone_o may_v pure_o possess_v thou_o o_o my_o lord_n and_o lover_n look_v upon_o this_o soul_n which_o i_o have_v endeavour_v to_o strip_v entire_o from_o all_o sensual_a affection_n therefore_o i_o have_v not_o only_o abandon_v but_o hate_v father_n mother_n brethren_z sister_n land_n live_v liberty_n yea_o and_o my_o own_o life_n that_o i_o may_v become_v thy_o disciple_n and_o be_v it_o yet_o to_o do_v again_o i_o will_v cast_v off_o mother_n and_o run_v over_o father_n to_o come_v to_o thou_o my_o love_a jesus_n confirm_v o_o lord_n my_o courage_n live_v o_o rich_a nakedness_n live_v my_o belove_n to_o i_o and_o i_o to_o he_o let_v i_o see_v no_o one_o but_o only_a jesus_n let_v alone_o his_o other_o gift_n though_o never_o so_o excellent_a and_o holy_a i_o be_o indifferent_a to_o leave_v they_o or_o keep_v they_o in_o the_o manner_n and_o measure_n he_o please_v it_o be_v naked_a jesus_n i_o only_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o unclothe_v i_o then_o my_o lord_n 1._o of_o all_o sin_n great_a and_o small_a 2._o of_o all_o affection_n to_o it_o even_o the_o least_o venial_a 3._o of_o all_o curiosity_n 4._o of_o all_o sensuality_n 5._o of_o all_o inordinate_a passion_n 6._o of_o all_o vanity_n 7._o of_o all_o self-love_n and_o self-will_n let_v i_o be_v reduce_v to_o nothing_o put_v off_o myself_o and_o put_v on_o i_o thyself_o crucify_v deprive_v i_o of_o all_o that_o dista_v thou_o that_o thou_o may_v say_v of_o i_o this_o be_v my_o belove_a son_n in_o 18_o mat._n 12._o 18_o who_o i_o please_v myself_o this_o be_v my_o disciple_n who_o i_o jesus_n love_n this_o be_v my_o rest_n for_o ever_o here_o i_o will_v dwell_v because_o i_o have_v make_v choice_n of_o it_o in_o this_o heart_n be_v my_o harbour_n there_o you_o shall_v infallible_o find_v i_o the_o 34._o maxim_n that_o zeal_n and_o eagerness_n must_v be_v temper_v with_o moderation_n and_o discretion_n we_o must_v moderate_v our_o natural_a vivacity_n activity_n and_o agility_n of_o spirit_n by_o shun_v all_o precipitation_n and_o indiscreet_a forwardness_n and_o fervour_n soft_a and_o sure_a let_v we_o look_v before_o we_o leap_v let_v we_o take_v our_o eye_n in_o our_o hand_n for_o that_o which_o be_v well_o do_v be_v twice_o do_v and_o a_o thing_n wary_o begin_v be_v well_o nigh_o half_o bring_v about_o let_v we_o lend_v our_o hand_n and_o not_o give_v our_o heart_n to_o any_o work_n let_v we_o endeavour_n to_o perform_v all_o our_o action_n with_o a_o free_a and_o disinterest_v mind_n without_o which_o all_o be_v drudgery_n and_o slavery_n let_v we_o not_o be_v over_o eager_a perfection_n consist_v not_o in_o multiplicity_n of_o action_n but_o in_o simplicity_n of_o intention_n not_o in_o variety_n of_o exercise_n and_o devotion_n but_o in_o peace_n of_o mind_n and_o purity_n of_o heart_n not_o in_o say_v or_o do_v much_o but_o in_o suffer_v and_o love_v much_o etc._n etc._n let_v we_o sometime_o check_v our_o importunate_a spirit_n as_o jesus_n do_v martha_n martha_n martha_n thou_o be_v 41_o luc._n 10._o 41_o trouble_v about_o many_o thing_n when_o as_o there_o be_v but_o one_o thing_n only_o necessary_a which_o be_v a_o real_a cordial_a and_o total_a abnegation_n of_o thyself_o in_o all_o thing_n let_v not_o indiscreet_a zeal_n serve_v for_o a_o cloak_n to_o cover_v our_o passionate_a heart_n and_o inward_a hatred_n of_o other_o true_a zeal_n be_v full_a of_o compassion_n free_a from_o indignation_n and_o perfect_a charity_n either_o will_v not_o see_v what_o be_v amiss_o in_o other_o or_o seek_v out_o the_o best_a interpretation_n of_o it_o excuse_v the_o fault_n and_o pity_v the_o party_n the_o 35._o maxim_n that_o we_o must_v never_o rely_v upon_o our_o own_o natural_a judgement_n experience_n and_o knowledge_n this_o have_v deceive_v many_o and_o cast_v they_o headlong_o into_o confusion_n &_o despair_n hence_o so_o many_o apostasy_n rebellion_n dissension_n division_n and_o scandal_n in_o religion_n o_o how_o pleasant_a beautiful_a and_o edify_v a_o thing_n be_v it_o to_o see_v person_n of_o great_a perfection_n glorious_a endowment_n venerable_a for_o age_n honourable_a for_o learning_n renown_v in_o dignity_n etc._n etc._n to_o be_v true_o humble_a supple_a simple_a soft_a like_o wax_n capable_a of_o any_o impression_n and_o condescend_v to_o other_o reason_n and_o command_v bless_a be_v the_o meek_a humble_a and_o obedient_a spirit_n for_o god_n will_v not_o permit_v they_o to_o go_v astray_o or_o be_v deceive_v the_o 36._o maxim_n that_o we_o must_v seek_v no_o comfort_n in_o any_o creature_n for_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o we_o must_v practice_n the_o practice_n cheerful_o forsake_v all_o and_o be_v content_a to_o be_v forsake_v by_o all_o rest_v only_o in_o god_n by_o prayer_n patience_n and_o confidence_n adieu_o friend_n familiar_n confessor_n counselor_n book_n exercise_n angel_n welcome_o solitude_n cross_n eclipse_n shame_n wound_n wantâ—_n darkness_n desolation_n death_n yes_o o_o father_n because_o thou_o so_o please_v be_v the_o creature_n in_o which_o i_o delight_v more_o love_a lovely_a or_o beautiful_a than_o god_n my_o creator_n have_v it_o be_v more_o bountiful_a or_o beneficial_a tome_n can_v it_o more_o just_o require_v or_o more_o liberal_o requite_v my_o love_n can_v it_o make_v i_o holy_a or_o happy_a quiet_a or_o content_a shall_v i_o leave_v light_n for_o darkness_n life_n for_o death_n substance_n for_o shadow_n all_o for_o nothing_o answer_v impartial_o and_o resolve_v effectual_o the_o high_a practice_n of_o this_o practice_n the_o high_a practice_n maxim_n in_o order_n to_o contemplation_n be_v to_o estimate_v thing_n according_a to_o 3._o read_v the_o spir._n con._n ch_n 4._o n._n 3._o their_o real_a value_n and_o then_o alas_o what_o comfort_n can_v a_o devout_a soul_n which_o have_v taste_v the_o sweet_n of_o her_o belove_a in_o contemplation_n find_v in_o the_o best_a of_o creature_n how_o far_o be_v they_o from_o afford_v she_o any_o solid_a and_o 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most_o certain_a that_o whosoever_o leave_v recollection_n to_o look_v after_o earthly_a consolation_n enjoy_v neither_o god_n nor_o the_o world_n whereas_o a_o soul_n which_o retire_v herself_o from_o the_o world_n to_o possess_v god_n enjoy_v true_o both_o god_n and_o the_o world_n together_o the_o 37._o and_o last_o maxim_n that_o we_o must_v walk_v and_o persevere_v in_o these_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n with_o the_o two_o foot_n of_o faith_n and_o obedience_n to_o perform_v this_o we_o must_v 1._o leave_v all_o for_o one_o all_z other_o for_o god_n ourselves_o for_o god_n god_n himself_o when_o he_o withdraw_v himself_o by_o recollection_n by_o abnegation_n by_o resignation_n 2._o leave_v one_o for_o all_o 3._o leave_v one_o and_o all_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o maxim_n consist_v in_o these_o five_o point_n 1._o to_o have_v a_o ardent_a desire_n affection_n practice_n the_o practice_n and_o intention_n to_o love_v see_v please_v and_o enjoy_v god_n 2._o to_o curb_v our_o 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and_o i_o will_v answer_v for_o thou_o be_v content_a i_o be_o thy_o sufficiency_n be_v indifferent_a all_o be_v my_o will_n be_v confident_a all_o be_v well_o i_o forgive_v thou_o all_o thou_o demand_v i_o will_v give_v thou_o all_o thou_o desire_v i_o will_v never_o desert_v thou_o nor_o withdraw_v my_o eye_n hand_n heart_n from_o thou_o therefore_o go_v on_o quiet_o courageous_o confident_o other_o time_n let_v we_o answer_v he_o meek_o and_o faithful_o o_o good_a jesus_n save_v i_o for_o i_o be_o thou_o o_o sweet_a saviour_n support_v i_o for_o i_o be_o weak_a o_o love_a guide_n direct_v i_o for_o i_o be_o blind_a etc._n etc._n thus_o bold_o let_v we_o keep_v on_o our_o way_n 1._o let_v pass_n all_o by_o insensibility_n 2._o out-passing_a all_o by_o fervour_n 3._o pass_v under_o all_o by_o humility_n 4._o pass_v over_o all_o by_o generosity_n and_o elevation_n of_o spirit_n under_o this_o maxim_n be_v solve_v many_o material_a doubt_n arise_v in_o our_o daily_a progress_n to_o 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absence_n let_v we_o have_v recourse_n to_o these_o four_o thing_n which_o will_v supply_v our_o defect_n and_o satisfy_v for_o our_o fault_n 1._o obedience_n 2._o resignation_n 3._o confidence_n 4._o good_a desire_n therefore_o in_o all_o our_o fear_n cross_n and_o trouble_n let_v we_o make_v use_n of_o these_o four_o point_n in_o this_o or_o practice_n the_o practice_n the_o like_a manner_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n who_o deserve_v from_o i_o all_o love_n and_o honour_n and_o who_o i_o desire_v to_o serve_v with_o all_o my_o soul_n behold_v i_o come_v out_o of_o confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n have_v no_o other_o end_n but_o only_o to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o wherefore_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o thy_o will_n beseech_v thou_o to_o turn_v all_o to_o thy_o glory_n and_o my_o good_a the_o 4._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v doubtful_a that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o we_o that_o we_o want_v grace_n that_o we_o only_o seek_v ourselves_o that_o we_o yield_v to_o all_o temptation_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o build_v upon_o these_o three_o foundation_n humility_n in_o acknowledge_v our_o own_o deformity_n sincerity_n in_o confess_v it_o and_o confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o it_o and_o so_o persevere_v constant_o and_o courageous_o in_o a_o course_n of_o prayer_n according_a to_o direction_n and_o obedience_n we_o shall_v soon_o find_v ease_n rest_n and_o peace_n the_o 5._o doubt_n if_o our_o conscience_n be_v unquiet_a and_o our_o soul_n fearful_a by_o reason_n of_o our_o proness_n to_o sin_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o apply_v these_o follow_a plaster_n and_o put_v these_o tent_n into_o our_o spiritual_a wound_n as_o deep_a as_o we_o can_v every_o day_n for_o a_o time_n till_o the_o cure_n be_v perfect_v 1._o let_v we_o be_v assure_v that_o we_o be_v conscience_n plaster_n for_o a_o trouble_a conscience_n now_o at_o this_o present_a in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n suppose_v we_o have_v already_o or_o be_v now_o resolve_v to_o do_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o the_o expiation_n of_o our_o past_a sin_n and_o the_o avoid_v all_o sin_n for_o the_o future_a 2._o that_o have_v a_o will_v to_o please_v god_n and_o perform_v our_o duty_n our_o prayer_n be_v profitable_a to_o we_o and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n and_o we_o may_v without_o presumption_n take_v courage_n and_o comfort_n though_o we_o be_v yet_o full_a of_o passion_n and_o â—mperfections_n 3._o that_o the_o feel_n of_o trouble_n fear_n temptation_n etc._n etc._n be_v neither_o sin_n in_o we_o nor_o sign_n of_o god_n anger_n against_o we_o 4._o that_o we_o be_v not_o bind_v to_o reflect_v continual_o whether_o we_o have_v consent_v to_o sin_n or_o not_o nor_o to_o judge_v whether_o this_o or_o that_o consent_n he_o mortal_a or_o venial_a nor_o to_o meddle_v with_o the_o sin_n of_o our_o
wherein_o we_o judge_v amiss_o and_o whereupon_o we_o ground_n our_o particular_a fear_n for_o that_o be_v the_o easy_a way_n to_o remove_v they_o 8._o let_v we_o weigh_v the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n we_o the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n which_o must_v cure_v we_o which_o must_v cure_v our_o disease_n to_o wit_n first_o the_o infinite_a goodness_n of_o god_n and_o christ_n merit_n and_o what_o soul_n can_v fear_v have_v so_o gracious_a a_o god_n and_o so_o great_a a_o ransom_n 2._o the_o credit_n and_o compassion_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o the_o prayer_n and_o patronage_n of_o saint_n and_o angel_n who_o be_v secure_a for_o themselves_o be_v solicitous_a for_o we_o 3._o the_o testimony_n and_o sweet_a promise_n of_o holy_a scripture_n for_o how_o often_o have_v god_n tell_v we_o i_o be_o prone_a to_o pity_v i_o be_o ready_a to_o receive_v sinner_n i_o will_v help_v they_o who_o do_v their_o endeavour_n if_o therefore_o he_o deny_v not_o his_o mercy_n to_o they_o that_o seek_v it_o and_o they_o seek_v it_o who_o do_v what_o lie_v in_o they_o let_v we_o be_v confident_a he_o will_v not_o deny_v we_o his_o mercy_n he_o also_o frequent_o call_v on_o we_o turn_v to_o i_o and_o i_o will_v turn_v to_o you_o now_o he_o can_v but_o say_v truth_n and_o fulfil_v his_o promise_n and_o do_v not_o that_o soul_n convert_v herself_o to_o god_n who_o do_v her_o best_a to_o get_v his_o grace_n and_o be_v reconcile_v unto_o he_o who_o then_o can_v choose_v but_o be_v of_o good_a comfort_n if_o he_o be_v of_o good_a will_n by_o this_o doctrine_n and_o these_o prescribe_a remedy_n it_o appear_v that_o the_o only_a way_n to_o overcome_v scruple_n be_v 1._o to_o obey_v our_o spiritual_a director_n 2._o to_o do_v our_o best_a endeavour_n but_o here_o arise_v two_o difficulty_n in_o this_o easy_a lesson_n the_o first_o be_v if_o our_o directoâ—â—_n difficulty_n the_o first_o difficulty_n knowledge_n be_v small_a his_o experience_n less_o and_o his_o conscience_n not_o very_o good_a how_o dare_v we_o trust_v our_o soul_n upon_o his_o warrant_n gerson_n answer_v thou_o wiâ—e_v answer_n gerson_n answer_n judger_n i_o say_v thou_o err_v and_o aâ—â—_n deceive_v for_o thou_o have_v not_o commit_v thyself_o and_o thy_o soul_n to_o a_o man_n because_o of_o his_o discretion_n and_o learning_n but_o to_o god_n himself_o and_o for_o his_o love_n thou_o obeye_v man_n because_o he_o be_v by_o he_o ordain_v thy_o prelate_n and_o superior_n therefore_o our_o obedience_n will_v be_v oftentimes_o so_o much_o more_o please_v to_o god_n and_o profitable_a to_o our_o soul_n by_o how_o much_o more_o infirm_a and_o unworthy_a he_o be_v who_o we_o refuse_v not_o to_o obey_v for_o god_n sake_n the_o other_o difficulty_n be_v if_o we_o difficulty_n the_o second_o difficulty_n can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o that_o we_o do_v our_o best_a endeavour_n nor_o know_v that_o we_o have_v perform_v our_o duty_n s._n thomas_n answer_v we_o must_v answer_n st._n thomas_n answer_n first_o remove_v that_o which_o hinder_v grace_n to_o wit_n sin_n 2._o we_o must_v convert_v our_o heart_n from_o creature_n to_o our_o creator_n in_o a_o word_n we_o must_v detest_v sin_n and_o choose_v god_n and_o follow_v his_o ordinary_a mean_n appoint_v in_o his_o church_n for_o our_o direction_n and_o this_o be_v the_o summary_n of_o our_o duty_n the_o 22._o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v we_o detest_v not_o sin_n sufficient_o because_o we_o feel_v not_o so_o great_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n as_o we_o do_v sometime_o for_o a_o temporal_a loss_n let_v we_o assure_v ourselves_o first_o we_o can_v never_o have_v so_o much_o sorrow_n for_o our_o sin_n as_o god_n justice_n in_o rigour_n require_v 2._o god_n do_v not_o exact_v it_o of_o we_o because_o it_o be_v not_o in_o our_o power_n 3._o true_a sorrow_n consist_v not_o in_o feeling_n but_o in_o reason_n and_o freewill_n 4._o it_o be_v better_a to_o have_v sorrow_n sometime_o only_o in_o desire_n than_o feeling_n 5._o it_o be_v not_o necessary_a this_o corporal_a or_o sensible_a grief_n be_v so_o great_a for_o spiritual_a as_o for_o temporal_a loss_n but_o it_o suffice_v to_o use_v humane_a and_o moral_a diligence_n with_o firm_a purpose_n of_o a_o void_a sin_n 6._o it_o l_v dangerous_a to_o make_v such_o comparison_n and_o reflection_n for_o weak_a and_o fearful_a conscience_n as_o if_o such_o a_o thing_n shall_v happen_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v shall_v i_o rather_o choose_v death_n than_o such_o a_o sin_n and_o the_o like_a i_o say_v there_o be_v no_o obligation_n to_o make_v such_o act_n the_o 23._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v ground_v ourselves_o in_o a_o firm_a hope_n of_o mercy_n for_o that_o we_o be_v so_o frail_a and_o inconstant_a we_o sin_v daily_o and_o amend_v not_o our_o life_n we_o receive_v god_n blessing_n and_o repay_v ill_a for_o good_a we_o promise_v protest_v and_o vow_v fidelity_n and_o practice_v nothing_o less_o tell_v i_o afflict_a soul_n shall_v you_o see_v christ_n die_v daily_o for_o your_o daily_a sin_n will_v you_o despair_v of_o mercy_n even_o so_o efficacious_a be_v his_o former_a death_n if_o you_o fall_v hourly_o rise_v again_o courageous_o and_o purpose_n to_o stand_v more_o constant_o and_o fear_v nothing_o but_o draw_v humility_n out_o of_o your_o frailty_n say_v whereof_o be_o i_o proud_a now_o where_o be_v my_o strong_a resolution_n why_o do_v i_o judge_v other_o who_o be_v so_o feeble_a sickle_n frail_a as_o i_o be_o o_o lord_n this_o be_v the_o worm_n that_o be_v so_o proud_a then_o cast_v â—ll_o into_o christ_n sacred_a wound_n and_o leave_v all_o there_o go_v on_o with_o as_o much_o quiet_a and_o confidence_n as_o if_o you_o have_v not_o sin_v the_o 24._o doubt_n if_o we_o go_v not_o on_o which_o the_o alacrity_n because_o we_o know_v not_o that_o our_o sin_n be_v forgive_v that_o our_o confession_n be_v good_a and_o that_o we_o be_v in_o state_n of_o grace_n we_o must_v take_v notice_n that_o in_o seek_v these_o assurance_n we_o may_v oftentimes_o direct_o lose_v they_o 1._o in_o seek_v they_o too_o eager_o and_o unquiet_o 2._o in_o be_v self-lover_n and_o unwilling_a to_o be_v trouble_v 3._o in_o be_v ignorant_a of_o what_o we_o be_v bind_v to_o know_v for_o it_o seem_v we_o conceive_v those_o work_n nothing_o worth_a which_o be_v perform_v without_o gust_n content_n satisfaction_n to_o ourselves_o and_o quiet_a the_o way_n than_o be_v brief_o this_o 1._o to_o seek_v true_a peace_n 2._o in_o god_n 3._o from_o his_o mercy_n not_o our_o own_o industry_n 4._o to_o be_v resign_v to_o want_v peace_n if_o he_o please_v 5._o to_o omit_v nothing_o we_o will_v or_o shall_v do_v by_o reason_n of_o the_o trouble_n we_o feel_v the_o 25._o doubt_n though_o we_o can_v in_o this_o life_n assure_v ourselves_o infallible_o to_o be_v in_o good_a estate_n yet_o if_o we_o can_v comfort_v ourselves_o with_o most_o probable_a token_n of_o grace_n whereby_o we_o may_v feel_v the_o pulse_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o somewhat_o ease_v our_o anguish_n saint_n thomas_n and_o s._n bernard_n assign_v bernard_n 4._o sign_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n out_o of_o s._n tho._n and_o bernard_n these_o four_o sign_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n 1._o to_o feel_v a_o ready_a willingness_n in_o our_o heart_n to_o hear_v god_n word_n and_o to_o learn_v the_o mean_n to_o love_n and_o serve_v he_o 2._o to_o feel_v a_o forwardness_n to_o do_v good_a work_n 3._o to_o feel_v a_o hearty_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n 4._o to_o feel_v a_o firm_a purpose_n to_o avoid_v all_o sin_n gerson_n add_v a_o five_o who_o so_o can_v verity_n a_o â—_o out_o of_o gerson_n to_o pronounce_v these_o three_o verity_n pronounce_v hearty_o and_o sincere_o these_o three_o verity_n though_o he_o have_v commit_v all_o sin_n and_o shall_v be_v prevent_v with_o sudden_a death_n let_v he_o secure_v himself_o he_o be_v in_o state_n of_o grace_n the_o first_o verity_n o_o lord_n if_o in_o soul_n oh_o that_o we_o will_v often_o recite_v these_o three_o truth_n especial_o when_o we_o feel_v our_o conscience_n burden_a what_o infinite_a profit_n and_o comfort_n will_v redound_v to_o our_o soul_n this_o or_o that_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o thy_o goodness_n it_o true_o displease_v and_o grieve_v i_o and_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o do_v penance_n for_o it_o because_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o who_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o honour_n and_o have_v transgress_v thy_o law_n and_o will_n which_o be_v most_o holy_a just_a and_o reasonable_a the_o second_o verity_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v a_o good_a purpose_n and_o desire_v by_o thy_o grace_n to_o take_v heed_n i_o fall_v not_o into_o sin_n again_o and_o to_o avoid_v to_o my_o power_n the_o occasion_n thereof_o and_o to_o mortify_v my_o passion_n and_o bad_a
of_o the_o same_o in_o the_o morning_n shut_v out_o all_o other_o thought_n from_o thy_o heart_n and_o let_v thy_o employment_n be_v to_o reflect_v upon_o and_o repeat_v the_o point_n prepare_v overnight_o for_o this_o morning_n exercise_n and_o think_v that_o thou_o be_v present_o to_o talk_v with_o thy_o lord_n god_n 3._o wherefore_o make_v as_o it_o be_v confer_v 3._o weigh_v his_o majesty_n with_o who_o thou_o confer_v a_o stand_n for_o a_o short_a space_n before_o thou_o be_v in_o the_o place_n of_o prayer_n imagine_v that_o thy_o great_a creator_n who_o the_o angel_n adore_v be_v present_a in_o the_o oratory_n expect_v thou_o to_o enter_v discourse_n with_o he_o and_o behold_v thy_o behaviour_n in_o thy_o prayer_n let_v this_o truth_n make_v a_o deep_a impression_n in_o thy_o mind_n and_o thereupon_o yield_v he_o most_o profound_a reverence_n with_o body_n and_o heart_n as_o crave_v permission_n to_o confer_v with_o his_o majesty_n 4._o then_o with_o bend_a knee_n begin_v petition_n 4._o begin_v with_o oblation_n and_o petition_n thy_o prayer_n first_o offer_v up_o to_o thy_o lord_n god_n all_o the_o cogitation_n word_n and_o action_n of_o thy_o whole_a life_n particular_o present_v unto_o he_o this_o present_a exercise_n now_o intend_v to_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n and_o humble_o implore_v his_o gracious_a assistance_n that_o thou_o may_v perform_v this_o thy_o practice_n with_o such_o attention_n devotion_n and_o reverence_n as_o befit_v one_o that_o speak_v with_o his_o lord_n and_o saviour_n 5._o incontinent_o after_o this_o imagine_v mystery_n then_o apply_v thy_o sense_n to_o the_o mystery_n thyself_o present_a to_o the_o mystery_n thou_o intend_v to_o meditate_v on_o and_o in_o the_o very_a place_n where_o it_o befall_v for_o this_o will_v fix_v thy_o fancy_n from_o wander_a as_o if_o thy_o theme_n be_v of_o christ_n incarnation_n think_v thou_o see_v the_o glorious_a archangel_n enter_v the_o secret_a chamber_n of_o the_o sacred_a virgin_n and_o there_o listen_v to_o their_o mutual_a discourse_n so_o if_o thy_o subject_n be_v of_o thy_o saviour_n flagellation_n suppose_v a_o pillar_n before_o thou_o with_o thy_o dear_a lord_n fasten_v thereunto_o and_o eye_n those_o inhuman_a executioner_n how_o cruel_o they_o whip_v and_o beat_v he_o and_o thus_o thou_o be_v to_o vary_v thy_o fancy_n and_o conform_v it_o to_o the_o manner_n of_o the_o mystery_n 6._o and_o when_o the_o mystery_n be_v thus_o present_a to_o thy_o mind_n make_v thy_o petition_n obtain_v and_o beg_v what_o thou_o intend_v to_o obtain_v and_o beg_v that_o which_o thou_o propose_v to_o obtain_v by_o this_o exercise_n as_o if_o thy_o meditation_n be_v concern_v christ_n incarnation_n let_v thy_o prayer_n be_v for_o spiritual_a light_n that_o thou_o may_v clear_o penetrate_v and_o perceive_v that_o ineffable_a love_n which_o move_v he_o to_o be_v make_v man_n for_o thy_o sake_n if_o it_o be_v of_o his_o passion_n ask_v the_o grace_n of_o compassion_n and_o condole_v with_o thy_o dear_a saviour_n suffering_n and_o so_o let_v thy_o petition_n be_v for_o such_o pious_a affection_n as_o be_v usher_v in_o by_o the_o argument_n of_o thy_o prayer_n 7._o this_o do_v begin_v with_o thy_o first_o point_n after_o this_o beg_v in_o with_o the_o first_o point_n point_n and_o if_o that_o alone_o furnish_v thou_o with_o fuel_n sufficient_a to_o inflame_v thy_o affection_n persevere_v therein_o for_o the_o whole_a space_n assign_v to_o thy_o prayer_n but_o if_o otherwise_o then_o pass_v on_o to_o the_o second_o and_o brief_o take_v this_o for_o a_o maxim_n in_o all_o meditation_n that_o whensoever_o thou_o feel_v thy_o affection_n enkindle_v stay_v there_o and_o digest_v well_o that_o consideration_n till_o thou_o have_v therein_o full_o satisfy_v thy_o devotion_n 8._o and_o suffer_v not_o thy_o understanding_n mystery_n and_o beware_v of_o fancy_v high_a mystery_n to_o roam_v after_o high_a and_o delicate_a mystery_n but_o make_v use_n of_o its_o discourse_n so_o far_o only_a as_o many_o help_n to_o heat_v thy_o will_n with_o pious_a affection_n and_o solid_a resolution_n wherefore_o from_o each_o consideration_n extract_v some_o affection_n and_o from_o every_o affection_n draw_v some_o determinate_a and_o particular_a resolution_n to_o do_v this_o very_a day_n this_o or_o that_o thing_n for_o thy_o lord_n honour_n to_o reform_v this_o or_o that_o fault_n or_o imperfection_n and_o to_o mortify_v thy_o sensuality_n in_o this_o or_o that_o occasion_n and_o this_o be_v the_o true_a fruit_n and_o profit_n of_o prayer_n 9_o be_v resolute_a also_o in_o stay_v out_o expire_v or_o leave_v off_o before_o the_o time_n allot_v for_o prayer_n be_v expire_v the_o full_a time_n allot_v for_o thy_o prayer_n and_o stir_v not_o from_o it_o through_o any_o dryness_n in_o devotion_n or_o any_o trouble_n of_o distraction_n for_o such_o a_o prayer_n be_v for_o the_o most_o part_n more_o profitable_a to_o a_o soul_n use_v diligent_a resistance_n and_o patient_a expectance_n of_o god_n grace_n than_o when_o it_o sensible_o partake_v of_o the_o sweet_n and_o abundance_n of_o devotion_n 10._o thy_o exercise_n be_v end_v thyself_o in_o the_o end_n reflect_v how_o thou_o have_v behave_v thyself_o insist_v a_o while_n in_o the_o examination_n of_o thyself_o and_o reflect_v how_o thou_o have_v behave_v thyself_o in_o thy_o prayer_n if_o thou_o find_v all_o well_o give_v thy_o good_a god_n all_o the_o thanks_o if_o thou_o have_v be_v negligent_a resolve_v upon_o amendment_n and_o take_v notice_n of_o the_o cause_n of_o this_o ill_a success_n that_o thou_o fail_v not_o for_o the_o future_a 11._o let_v the_o matter_n or_o mystery_n medition_n and_o order_n well_o the_o matter_n of_o thy_o medition_n thou_o mean_v to_o meditate_v upon_o be_v well_o order_v as_o if_o thou_o propose_v to_o thyself_o thy_o saviour_n life_n and_o passion_n make_v thy_o entrance_n at_o his_o incarnation_n and_o due_o proceed_v in_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o ensue_a mystery_n and_o leap_v not_o inconstant_o from_o one_o to_o another_o chap._n xxxvi_o a_o exercise_n before_o the_o sacred_a communion_n 1._o the_o conformation_n of_o the_o place_n for_o place_n 1._o the_o place_n the_o settle_n of_o thy_o mind_n may_v be_v to_o imagine_v thy_o saviour_n christ_n encompass_v with_o his_o angel_n and_o saint_n who_o all_o adore_v his_o divine_a majesty_n with_o all_o possible_a reverencâ—_n 2._o make_v thou_o also_o thy_o humble_a house_n 2._o beg_v of_o thy_o saviour_n to_o fit_v up_o thy_o poor_a house_n address_n unto_o he_o and_o since_o he_o vouchsafe_v to_o divert_v into_o the_o harbour_n of_o thy_o poor_a heart_n entreat_v he_o to_o send_v before_o he_o such_o ornament_n as_o be_v necessary_a for_o his_o worthy_a entertainment_n because_o thy_o poverty_n be_v uncapable_a to_o provide_v what_o be_v suitable_a to_o so_o great_a a_o majesty_n 3._o then_o reflect_v who_o it_o be_v that_o intend_v it_o 3._o think_v what_o guest_n be_v to_o lodge_v in_o it_o to_o lodge_v with_o thou_o it_o be_v sure_o he_o who_o the_o angel_n name_v jesus_n the_o saviour_n of_o man_n kind_a he_o who_o only_o can_v cure_v thy_o wound_n he_o who_o so_o dear_o love_v thou_o and_o take_v such_o care_n of_o thy_o salvation_n that_o he_o come_v purposely_o and_o personal_o to_o procure_v it_o interpose_v his_o authority_n hazard_v his_o honour_n and_o lose_v his_o life_n for_o thou_o upon_o a_o ignominious_a cross_n and_o be_v sure_a to_o insist_v upon_o this_o pious_a consideration_n as_o be_v very_o proper_a to_o prepare_v thy_o soul_n for_o the_o receive_n of_o this_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n according_a to_o our_o saviour_n precept_n as_o often_o as_o you_o shall_v do_v these_o thing_n you_o shall_v do_v they_o in_o remembrance_n of_o i_o 4._o consider_v to_o what_o end_n thy_o dear_a thou_o 4._o why_o he_o come_v to_o thou_o lord_n come_v unto_o thou_o sure_o to_o conclude_v a_o union_n between_o himself_o and_o thy_o soul_n whence_o result_v a_o certain_a divine_a life_n which_o thou_o henceforth_o enjoy_v by_o this_o sweet_a union_n with_o thy_o saviour_n for_o the_o food_n we_o take_v beget_v humour_n of_o the_o same_o quality_n which_o itself_o be_v of_o and_o consequent_o no_o marvel_n if_o this_o heavenly_a food_n and_o divine_a nourishment_n do_v in_o some_o sort_n deify_v the_o soul_n he_o that_o eat_v i_o shall_v live_v for_o i_o say_v our_o lord_n 5._o let_v thy_o next_o consideration_n be_v to_o who_o he_o come_v to_o a_o little_a worm_n come_v 5._o to_o who_o he_o come_v of_o the_o earth_n to_o a_o vessel_n full_a of_o filth_n and_o rottenness_n and_o perhaps_o which_o be_v far_o worse_o even_o to_o his_o enemy_n to_o the_o contemner_n of_o his_o command_n to_o the_o wilful_a transgressor_n of_o his_o law_n to_o a_o base_a runaway_n who_o have_v forsake_v the_o colour_n of_o his_o lord_n god_n and_o take_v part_n with_o the_o devil_n 6._o make_v
therefore_o thy_o humble_a petition_n 6._o make_v thy_o petition_n supplication_n to_o thy_o sweet_a saviour_n that_o since_o he_o vouchsafe_v free_o to_o come_v unto_o thou_o for_o his_o own_o mercy_n sake_n and_o for_o no_o merit_n of_o thou_o he_o will_v also_o be_v please_v to_o prevent_v thou_o with_o his_o grace_n and_o adorn_v thou_o with_o the_o gift_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n that_o thou_o may_v become_v a_o worthy_a receptacle_n for_o his_o sacred_a body_n as_o he_o former_o by_o the_o like_a prevention_n prepare_v for_o himself_o a_o happy_a and_o holy_a habitation_n in_o the_o virginal_a entrails_n of_o his_o most_o bless_a mother_n chap._n xxxvii_o how_o we_o may_v devout_o offer_v up_o the_o sacrifice_n of_o the_o mass_n when_o thou_o feel_v thy_o heart_n object_n 1._o 1._o free_a thy_o fancy_n from_o all_o outward_a object_n inflame_v by_o this_o forego_n or_o the_o like_a exercise_n free_a thy_o fancy_n of_o all_o sensible_a object_n and_o shut_v the_o window_n of_o thy_o sense_n so_o be_v up_o to_o thy_o lord_n god_n and_o fix_v there_o the_o eye_n of_o thy_o soul_n upon_o he_o only_o pure_o free_o and_o quiet_o exclude_v all_o tumult_n of_o outward_a thought_n and_o implore_v the_o assistance_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n by_o recite_v the_o hymn_n of_o the_o holy_a church_n veni_fw-la creator_n spiritus_fw-la etc._n etc._n 2._o then_o come_v to_o put_v on_o the_o mystery_n 2._o in_o vest_v thyself_o mark_v the_o mystery_n sacred_a vestment_n mark_v with_o attention_n those_o mystery_n which_o they_o mean_v and_o signify_v and_o from_o that_o very_a instant_n of_o time_n take_v upon_o thou_o christ_n person_n who_o thou_o represente_v in_o this_o holy_a action_n that_o so_o thou_o may_v be_v move_v to_o conform_v each_o outward_a and_o inward_a deed_n to_o he_o who_o thou_o now_o personate_v decent_a 3._o let_v thy_o outward_a deportment_n be_v decent_a 3._o and_o as_o for_o the_o outward_a composure_n of_o the_o body_n see_v that_o thy_o go_v forth_o of_o the_o vestry_n be_v with_o all_o decency_n and_o gravity_n let_v thy_o countenance_n be_v cherfull_a thy_o eye_n humble_o cast_v down_o and_o not_o curious_a to_o pry_v after_o any_o passage_n do_v in_o the_o church_n let_v thy_o voice_n be_v low_a and_o sober_a read_v those_o sacred_a word_n neither_o precipitant_o nor_o over-pausing_o but_o beseem_o between_o both_o those_o extreme_n let_v the_o holy_a ceremony_n be_v pious_o and_o punctual_o observe_v and_o let_v all_o be_v attentive_o perform_v take_v more_o care_n in_o the_o canon_n and_o most_o of_o all_o when_o thou_o come_v to_o the_o word_n of_o consecration_n 4._o let_v thy_o inward_a composition_n also_o correspond_v with_o thy_o outward_a carriage_n correspondent_a 4._o and_o thy_o inward_a composition_n correspondent_a and_o therefore_o come_v to_o the_o foot_n of_o the_o atar_n look_v upon_o christ_n thy_o lord_n and_o thy_o love_n sit_v in_o his_o throne_n of_o glorious_a majesty_n attend_v by_o his_o angel_n and_o bless_a saint_n and_o think_v he_o be_v present_o come_v down_o from_o his_o throne_n to_o the_o altar_n to_o enrich_v thy_o poor_a soul_n with_o the_o treasure_n of_o his_o divinity_n and_o consider_v so_o high_a a_o majesty_n confess_v thy_o own_o misery_n meanness_n and_o nothing_o and_o so_o true_o humble_v thyself_o both_o inward_o and_o outward_o begin_v the_o action_n of_o the_o sacrifice_n and_o keep_v this_o presence_n of_o thy_o saviour_n sit_v in_o his_o throne_n and_o behold_v thy_o devotion_n until_o thou_o come_v to_o the_o consecration_n which_o do_v thou_o have_v he_o then_o before_o thou_o upon_o the_o altar_n thou_o touch_v he_o with_o thy_o hand_n and_o embrace_v he_o in_o thy_o heart_n there_o present_a in_o the_o sacrament_n 5._o in_o thy_o first_o memento_n contemplate_v memento_n 5._o in_o thy_o first_o memento_n thy_o lord_n jesus_n crucify_v repose_v in_o thy_o heart_n and_o depose_v all_o thy_o necessity_n and_o want_n in_o his_o sacred_a and_o sugar_a wound_n and_o first_o offer_v up_o thy_o whole_a mass_n to_o his_o holy_a head_n head_n to_o christ_n holy_a head_n intend_v it_o to_o the_o eternal_a honour_n of_o the_o most_o bless_a trinity_n and_o for_o the_o increase_n of_o the_o accidental_a glory_n of_o his_o dear_a mother_n thy_o angel_n guardian_n and_o thy_o particular_a protector_n and_o patron_n in_o heaven_n all_o which_o thou_o shall_v join_v together_o in_o the_o wound_n of_o thy_o lord_n venerable_a head_n and_o beseech_v they_o that_o as_o thou_o in_o this_o vale_n of_o misery_n strive_v to_o augment_v their_o glory_n so_o they_o in_o their_o happy_a and_o heavenly_a mansion_n will_v be_v please_v to_o remember_v thou_o and_o join_v with_o thou_o in_o the_o oblation_n of_o this_o divine_a sacrifice_n to_o thou_o and_o their_o creator_n 6._o come_v then_o to_o the_o wound_n hand_n to_o his_o right_a hand_n of_o his_o right_a hand_n pray_v for_o the_o state_n ecclesiastical_a that_o be_v for_o the_o pope_n 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