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misery_n i_o present_o meet_v with_o a_o excuse_n for_o it_o whether_o a_o just_a one_o thou_o know_v o_o lord_n for_o i_o do_v suspect_v it_o for_o because_o that_o thou_o *_o have_v command_v we_o not_o only_a continency_n that_o be_v from_o what_o thing_n we_o be_v to_o withdraw_v our_o love_n but_o also_o justice_n that_o be_v where_o we_o be_v to_o place_v it_o and_z *_o will_v that_o not_o only_a thyself_o but_o also_o our_o neighbour_n be_v love_v by_o we_o i_o often_o seem_v to_o myself_o *_o to_o be_v please_v with_o his_o proficiency_n or_o with_o the_o good_a hope_n i_o have_v thereof_o when_o i_o be_o delight_v with_o the_o commendation_n of_o one_o understanding_n thing_n a_o right_a and_o again_o *_o to_o be_v grieve_v in_o his_o behalf_n when_o i_o hear_v one_o blame_v what_o he_o be_v ignoraat_fw-mi of_o or_o what_o be_v praise_v worthy_a for_o indeed_o i_o find_v myself_o afflict_v also_o with_o my_o own_o praise_n when_o either_o such_o thing_n be_v commend_v in_o i_o 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for_o my_o own_o sake_n but_o for_o my_o neighbour_n good_a i_o ought_v to_o take_v content_a in_o my_o praise_n but_o whether_o indeed_o it_o be_v so_o i_o be_o ignorant_a and_o less_o do_v i_o know_v of_o myself_o than_o of_o thou_o in_o this_o matter_n therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n reveal_v thou_o myself_o unto_o i_o that_o i_o may_v confess_v my_o discover_a wound_n unto_o my_o brethren_n who_o may_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o i_o let_v i_o yet_o more_o diligent_o question_v myself_o in_o this_o matter_n if_o it_o be_v in_o respect_n of_o my_o neighbour_n benefit_n only_o that_o i_o be_o so_o touch_v with_o my_o own_o praise_n why_o then_o be_o i_o less_o move_v in_o the_o injurious_a disparagement_n of_o another_o than_o if_o it_o be_v of_o myself_o and_o why_o be_o i_o much_o more_o nettle_v with_o a_o contumely_n throw_v upon_o myself_o than_o when_o it_o be_v so_o upon_o another_o in_o my_o presence_n with_o the_o same_o injustice_n 141.5_o psal_n 141.5_o can_v i_o also_o plead_v my_o ignorance_n and_o uncertainty_n for_o this_o or_o shall_v i_o endeavour_v here_o also_o to_o delude_v myself_o and_o nor_o confess_v the_o truth_n before_o thou_o both_o in_o heart_n and_o tongue_n lord_n such_o a_o folly_n put_v thou_o far_o from_o i_o and_o let_v not_o my_o own_o mouth_n go_v about_o to_o anoint_v and_o perfume_v my_o head_n with_o the_o flatter_a oil_n of_o sinner_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o needy_a and_o the_o best_a when_o with_o secret_a lament_n displease_v myself_o and_o invocate_a thy_o mercy_n until_o these_o my_o deficiency_n be_v repair_v and_o perfect_v into_o a_o full_a repose_n and_o peace_n a_o peace_n hide_v from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o arrogant_a and_o self-conceited_a chap._n xxxviii_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a chief_z speech_n that_o be_v eloquent_a and_o good_a action_n that_o be_v public_a and_o eminent_a cause_n in_o we_o a_o most_o perilous_a temptation_n from_o this_o our_o love_n of_o praise_n which_o subtlety_n assay_v to_o procure_v the_o applause_n of_o other_o to_o the_o advance_n of_o my_o own_o private_a excellency_n even_o then_o also_o when_o such_o love_n of_o praise_n in_o i_o be_v censure_v by_o i_o and_o for_o that_o very_a reason_n because_o it_o be_v so_o censure_v and_o often_o do_v a_o man_n more_o vain_o glory_n of_o the_o very_a contempt_n of_o vainglory_n and_o therefore_o now_o in_o truth_n the_o contempt_n of_o vainglory_n be_v not_o gloryed-of_a by_o he_o for_o he_o utter_o contemn_v it_o not_o so_o long_o as_o within_o himself_o he_o retein_v still_o some_o glory_v chap._n thirty-nine_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v from_o other_o there_o be_v yet_o within_o we_o another_o disease_n in_o the_o same_o kind_n of_o temptation_n namely_o a_o vanity_n in_o man_n of_o self_n love_v and_o pleaâ—â—ng_v themselves_o in_o themselves_o *_o whether_o it_o happen_v that_o they_o please_v or_o that_o they_o displease_v abroad_o and*_n wherein_o they_o affect_v not_o the_o please_a of_o other_o but_o these_o man_n whilst_o thus_o please_v themselves_o much_o do_v they_o displease_v thou_o not_o only_o in_o glory_v in_o some_o thing_n not_o good_a as_o in_o good_a but_o also_o in_o thy_o good_a thing_n as_o if_o in_o their_o own_o or_o also_o in_o glory_v in_o they_o as_o thou_o but_o as_o confer_v on_o they_o for_o some_o merit_n of_o their_o own_o or_o also_o as_o in_o thou_o without_o any_o their_o merit_v but_o yet_o not_o sociable_o joy_v in_o they_o but_o as_o envy_v the_o same_o grace_n of_o thou_o to_o other_o in_o all_o these_o and_o the_o like_a peril_n and_o travel_n thou_o see_v the_o fear_n and_o tremble_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o i_o rather_o perceive_v such_o wound_n to_o be_v by_o thou_o continual_o cure_v within_o i_o than_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o receive_v chap._n xl._n a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n former_o speak_v in_o this_o book_n s._n augustine_n sometime_o extraordinary_a transportment_n in_o the_o contemplation_n and_o love_n of_o god_n o_o truth_n where_o have_v not_o thou_o walk_v along_o with_o i_o and_o be_v instruct_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v avoid_v and_o what_o affect_v when_o i_o recount_v unto_o thou_o my_o mental_a discovery_n such_o as_o i_o be_v able_a to_o make_v and_o consult_v thou_o concern_v they_o i_o surveigh_v the_o world_n abroad_o with_o the_o sense_n serve_v i_o for_o that_o purpose_n and_o after_o this_o i_o reflect_v *_o upon_o the_o vegetable_a life_n of_o my_o own_o body_n and_o *_o upon_o those_o my_o sense_n from_o hence_o i_o enter_v further_o into_o the_o inner_a chamber_n of_o my_o memory_n those_o manifold_a capacity_n fill_v with_o a_o innumerable_a store_n of_o wonderful_a thing_n i_o consider_v they_o and_o remain_v amaze_v at_o they_o and_o none_o of_o they_o can_v i_o discern_v without_o thou_o and_o yet_o i_o find_v none_o of_o they_o 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more_o do_v my_o glory_n overturn_v my_o reason_n than_o his_o drink_n do_v he_o and_o he_o that_o very_a night_n shall_v dâ—gest_v his_o distemper_n but_o i_o have_v long_a time_n sleep_v and_o rise_v again_o with_o i_o and_o so_o be_v to_o do_v thou_o god_n know_v for_o how_o many_o day_n some_o difference_n therefore_o indeed_o there_o be_v upon_o what_o ground_n a_o man_n rejoice_v and_o no_o doubt_n a_o christian_n hope_v in_o thou_o incomparable_o excel_v that_o vanity_n of_o he_o but_o the_o advantage_n in_o this_o point_n between_o we_o be_v on_o his_o side_n and_o he_o be_v much_o the_o happy_a of_o the_o two_o not_o only_o because_o his_o heart_n be_v swell_v with_o mirth_n when_o i_o be_v shrink_v with_o care_n but_o that_o he_o with_o his_o pray_n for_o people_n have_v get_v some_o good_a wine_n i_o by_o lie_v to_o they_o seek_v for_o empty_a glory_n i_o say_v many_o thing_n to_o this_o purpose_n to_o those_o my_o intimate_v and_o often_o on_o these_o occasion_n observe_v how_o my_o pulse_n beat_v and_o i_o find_v thing_n be_v not_o well_o with_o i_o and_o i_o sorrow_v and_o by_o it_o double_v my_o evil_n and_o if_o i_o sometime_o light_a on_o some_o prosperous_a occurrent_a that_o please_v i_o i_o be_v almost_o loath_a to_o entertain_v or_o solace_v myself_o in_o it_o because_o when_o hardly_o yet_o seize_v on_o it_o fly_v away_o again_o from_o i_o chap._n vii_o of_o his_o friend_n alipius_n his_o scholar_n at_o carthage_n who_o he_o there_o reclaim_v from_o the_o vain_a sport_n of_o the_o circus_n but_o infect_v he_o with_o manicheisme_n these_o thing_n be_v much_o bemoan_v among_o a_o company_n of_o we_o that_o live_v friendly_a together_o though_o i_o communicate_v my_o thought_n more_o familiar_o with_o alipius_n and_o nebridius_fw-la alipius_n be_v bear_v in_o the_o same_o town_n where_o i_o be_v and_o his_o parent_n of_o the_o best_a rank_n there_o young_a than_o i_o and_o before_o time_n my_o scholar_n both_o when_o i_o first_o set_v up_o school_v â—n_o my_o own_o town_n and_o afterward_o at_o carthage_n and_o he_o love_v i_o dear_o for_o my_o seem_n piety_n &_o learning_n and_o i_o he_o again_o for_o his_o great_a inclination_n to_o virtue_n which_o in_o so_o slender_a a_o age_n be_v very_o eminent_a yet_o have_v the_o stream_n of_o the_o licentious_a custom_n of_o carthage_n extreme_o give_v to_o those_o vain_a sport_n carry_v he_o away_o to_o a_o immoderate_a affection_n to_o the_o show_v of_o the_o circus_n raâ—es_n circus_n which_o be_v chief_o all_o manner_n of_o raâ—es_n i_o than_o profess_a rhetoric_n at_o carthage_n and_o keep_v a_o public_a school_n but_o by_o reason_n of_o some_o unkindness_n rise_v between_o his_o father_n and_o i_o he_o at_o that_o time_n be_v none_o of_o my_o auditor_n and_o i_o know_v well_o that_o he_o be_v miserable_o bewitch_v with_o the_o circus_n and_o be_v much_o afflict_v that_o so_o great_a a_o hopefulness_n will_v be_v or_o rather_o be_v already_o lose_v but_o in_o this_o coniuncture_n find_v no_o mean_n either_o of_o admonish_v or_o of_o restrain_v he_o from_o the_o good_a will_n of_o a_o friend_n or_o from_o the_o authority_n of_o a_o master_n for_o i_o imagine_v he_o have_v the_o same_o opinion_n of_o i_o with_o his_o father_n though_o it_o be_v much_o otherwise_o and_o he_o neglect_v his_o father_n quarrel_n begin_v kind_o to_o salute_v i_o come_v many_o time_n into_o my_o auditory_a hear_v some_o part_n of_o my_o lecture_n and_o so_o erelong_o depart_v whence_o i_o still_o forget_v to_o negotiate_v with_o he_o that_o he_o will_v not_o suffer_v a_o blind_a and_o precipitate_a affection_n to_o such_o vain_a sport_n to_o ruin_v so_o good_a a_o wit_n but_o thou_o o_o lord_n who_o sit_v at_o the_o helm_n and_o stee_a the_o course_n of_o all_o thing_n which_o thou_o have_v create_v thou_o do_v not_o then_o forget_v he_o that_o one_o day_n he_o shall_v be_v number_v among_o thy_o child_n and_o be_v a_o bishop_n and_o dispenser_n of_o thy_o holy_a sacrament_n and_o that_o his_o reformation_n in_o this_o matter_n may_v be_v clear_o attribute_v to_o thou_o thou_o effect_v it_o by_o i_o indeed_o but_o unknown_a to_o i_o for_o one_o day_n i_o be_v in_o the_o wont_a place_n and_o my_o scholar_n about_o i_o he_o come_v in_o salute_v i_o sit_v down_o attend_v to_o my_o lecture_n whilst_o for_o the_o illustrate_v the_o subject_n in_o hand_n to_o â—ender_v it_o both_o more_o pleasant_a and_o more_o plain_a i_o borrow_v a_o very_a apt_a similitude_n as_o i_o think_v from_o the_o circensian_a show_n not_o without_o a_o tart_a derision_n of_o such_o as_o be_v fond_o captivate_v with_o such_o a_o madness_n thou_o know_v o_o our_o god_n without_o any_o thought_n at_o that_o time_n of_o confer_v any_o thing_n to_o the_o cure_n of_o alipius_n his_o malady_n but_o he_o present_o apply_v it_o to_o himself_o and_o think_v it_o be_v aim_v at_o he_o and_o whence_o another_o will_v have_v take_v occasion_n to_o have_v be_v angry_a with_o i_o that_o good_a youth_n do_v *_o to_o be_v angry_a with_o himself_o and_o for_o it_o yet_o more_o dear_o *_o to_o love_v i_o for_o thou_o have_v say_v it_o long_o ago_o 9.8_o pro._n 9.8_o rebuke_v the_o wise_a and_o he_o will_v love_v thou_o yet_o i_o then_o intend_v no_o rebuke_n towards_o he_o but_o thou_o employe_v we_o know_v and_o not_o know_v in_o thy_o design_n according_a to_o the_o order_n thou_o have_v appoint_v and_o that_o order_n be_v always_o most_o just_a thus_o from_o my_o heart_n and_o tongue_n thou_o apply_v burn_v coal_n whereby_o thou_o may_v scorch_v and_o awaken_v the_o stupefy_v soul_n of_o that_o hopeful_a disposition_n and_o so_o may_v heal_v it_o let_v he_o conceal_v thy_o praise_n who_o weigh_v not_o thy_o mercy_n which_o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v confess_v unto_o thou_o for_o alipius_n present_o upon_o those_o word_n recover_v himself_o out_o of_o that_o deep_a ditch_n wherein_o he_o be_v willing_o sink_v and_o blind_v with_o a_o miserable_a 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the_o writing_n of_o any_o other_o philosopher_n full_a of_o fallacy_n and_o lie_n according_a to_o the_o element_n and_o corporeal_a principle_n of_o this_o world_n but_o rather_o on_o these_o which_o after_o many_o several_a way_n insinuate_v god_n and_o his_o eternal_a word_n and_o then_o to_o exhort_v i_o to_o the_o humility_n of_o christ_n hide_v from_o the_o wise_a and_o reveal_v to_o babe_n he_o take_v occasion_n to_o speak_v of_o the_o same_o victorinus_n with_o who_o when_o at_o rome_n he_o have_v have_v very_o intimate_a acquaintance_n and_o tell_v i_o something_o of_o he_o which_o i_o think_v not_o fit_a to_o be_v conceal_v contain_v great_a matter_n of_o praise_n and_o glory_n to_o thy_o grace_n which_o ought_v to_o be_v re-acknowledged_n
great_a mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n of_o thy_o son_n and_o by_o the_o ministry_n of_o thy_o preacher_n of_o it_o chap._n ii_o yet_o how_o may_v i_o call_v upon_o or_o invoke_v my_o god_n my_o god_n and_o my_o lord_n since_o to_o invoke_v he_o be_v to_o call_v he_o into_o i_o and_o what_o mansion_n within_o i_o where_o my_o god_n may_v reside_v god_n within_o i_o that_o make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v there_o then_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n any_o room_n so_o spacious_a in_o i_o that_o can_v receive_v thou_o nay_o can_v the_o vast_a globe_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thing_n that_o thou_o have_v make_v and_o i_o a_o small_a point_n within_o their_o womb_n can_v these_o in_o any_o wise_a receive_v thou_o or_o be_v it_o so_o that_o since_o nothing_o that_o be_v can_v be_v without_o thou_o therefore_o whatever_o be_v must_v needs_o receive_v thou_o since_o than_o i_o also_o be_o in_o be_v what_o need_v i_o entreat_v thy_o access_n into_o i_o who_o therefore_o be_o because_o thou_o be_v in_o i_o who_o be_o not_o yet_o a_o thing_n so_o low_a and_o remote_a as_o hell_n or_o the_o grave_a and_o yet_o thou_o be_v present_a there_o for_o if_o i_o go_v down_o into_o hell_n thou_o be_v there_o also_o 139.7_o psal_n 139.7_o therefore_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v o_o my_o god_n not_o be_v at_o all_o but_o only_o by_o thy_o be_v in_o i_o or_o rather_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v but_o by_o be_v in_o thou_o of_o who_o and_o by_o who_o and_o in_o who_o 11.36_o rom._n 11.36_o all_o thing_n be_v it_o be_v so_o lord_n even_o so_o whether_o then_o may_v i_o invoke_v thou_o see_v i_o be_o already_o in_o thou_o or_o from_o whence_o thou_o draw-near_a unto_o i_o for_o whither_o can_v i_o retire_v beyond_o the_o utmost_a limit_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o invite_v from_o thence_o my_o god_n into_o i_o who_o have_v say_v i_o fill_v the_o heaven_n and_o the_o earth_n 23.24_o jer._n 23.24_o chap._n iii_o but_o do_v the_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thus_o fill_v by_o thou_o therefore_o 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it_o the_o sordid_a furniture_n thereof_o must_v be_v very_o offensive_a to_o thy_o holy_a eye_n i_o know_v and_o confess_v it_o but_o who_o can_v purge_v and_o cleanse_v it_o beside_o thou_o vulg_n psal_n 19.12_o psal_n 116.10_o psal_n 32.6_o psal_n 26.12_o vulg_n or_o to_o what_o other_n beside_o thou_o shall_v i_o cry_v cleanse_v i_o o_o lord_n from_o my_o secret_a sin_n and_o from_o my_o presumptuous_a wickedness_n deliver_v thy_o servant_n i_o believe_v thou_o have_v and_o will_v forgive_v they_o and_o therefore_o do_v i_o speak_v and_o confess_v they_o o_o lord_n thou_o know_v have_v not_o i_o confess_v against_o i_o my_o sin_n unto_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n i_o hope_v thou_o have_v forgive_v the_o wickedness_n of_o my_o sin_n i_o do_v not_o contend_v in_o judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o thou_o be_v the_o truth_n nor_o will_v i_o be_v deceive_v in_o harken_v to_o excuse_n whilst_o perhaps_o my_o iniquity_n tell_v lie_n unto_o i_o therefore_o do_v i_o not_o contend_v in_o 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the_o assistance_n of_o the_o art_n of_o a_o magician_n in_o those_o year_n i_o teach_v the_o art_n of_o rhetoric_n and_o a_o victorious_a loquacity_n i_o sell_v myself_o overcome_v by_o lust_n yet_o then_o o_o lord_n thou_o know_v i_o rather_o wish_v to_o have_v honest_a and_o virtuous_a scholar_n such_o as_o be_v so_o call_v and_o to_o they_o i_o teach_v deceit_n without_o deceit_n yet_o not_o those_o deceit_n whereby_o the_o life_n of_o a_o innocent_a shall_v be_v endanger_v but_o whereby_o sometime_o the_o life_n of_o the_o guilty_a may_v be_v preserve_v and_o thou_o o_o god_n behelde_v then_o afar_o off_o some_o little_a fidelity_n in_o i_o though_o stagger_v in_o a_o slippery_a station_n and_o only_o sparkle_v a_o little_a as_o it_o be_v through_o a_o cloud_n of_o smoke_n which_o in_o that_o schoolmastership_n i_o exhibit_v towards_o those_o who_o love_v vanity_n and_o seek_v after_o lease_v 4.2_o psal_n 4.2_o myself_o also_o in_o the_o same_o be_v their_o companion_n in_o 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a_o prey_n to_o those_o fiend_n that_o be_v by_o error_n to_o become_v their_o scorn_n and_o laughter_n chap._n iii_o yet_o addict_v to_o astrology_n and_o by_o a_o learned_a physician_n dissuade_v from_o it_o but_o on_o the_o other_o side_n those_o planet-gazer_n who_o they_o style_v mathematician_n be_v free_o and_o unscrupulous_o consult_v by_o i_o because_o in_o their_o divination_n forsooth_o no_o sacrifice_n no_o prayer_n be_v make_v to_o any_o spirit_n which_o be_v notwithstanding_o christian_n and_o true_a piety_n by_o consequence_n renounce_v and_o condemn_v for_o since_o it_o be_v a_o good_a thing_n to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o o_o lord_n and_o to_o say_v â—_o psal_n 41._o â—_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o and_o heal_v my_o soul_n for_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o and_o then_o to_o take_v heed_n of_o not_o abuse_v the_o indulgency_n of_o thy_o forgiveness_n to_o a_o further_a licence_n of_o sin_v but_o to_o remember_v the_o say_n of_o our_o lord_n behold_v thou_o be_v 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luckiness_n in_o they_o and_o that_o in_o their_o speak_v many_o thing_n that_o shall_v be_v speak_v some_o thing_n which_o do_v after_o come_v to_o pass_v not_o foreknow_v by_o those_o who_o say_v they_o but_o happen_v on_o by_o their_o not_o say_v nothing_o thou_o procure_v i_o say_v a_o friend_n of_o i_o a_o curious_a consulter_n of_o astrologer_n though_o himself_o not_o much_o see_v in_o it_o who_o relate_v to_o i_o something_o from_o his_o father_n which_o though_o he_o make_v little_a reflection_n thereupon_o serve_v very_o much_o for_o the_o overthrow_n of_o the_o vain_a esteem_n of_o that_o science_n this_o man_n therefore_o by_o name_n firminus_n ingenuous_o educate_v and_o well_o study_v in_o eloquence_n consult_v i_o as_o one_o very_o dear_a to_o he_o what_o i_o collect_v from_o his_o constellation_n as_o he_o call_v they_o concern_v some_o important_a affair_n of_o he_o to_o which_o his_o secular_a hope_n aspire_v and_o i_o who_o be_v now_o somewhat_o incline_v to_o 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be_v i_o my_o lord_n have_v thou_o pity_v on_o i_o woe_n be_v i_o behold_v i_o conceal_v not_o my_o wound_n from_o thou_o thou_o be_v a_o physician_n i_o be_o sick_a thou_o be_v full_a of_o mercy_n i_o of_o misery_n be_v not_o man_n life_n upon_o the_o earth_n a_o continual_a temptation_n and_o who_o be_v there_o that_o can_v be_v in_o love_n with_o such_o trouble_n and_o difficulty_n thou_o command_v that_o they_o shall_v be_v suffer_v but_o not_o that_o they_o shall_v be_v love_v no_o man_n love_v what_o he_o suffer_v though_o he_o love_v to_o suffer_v for_o though_o he_o joy_n that_o he_o can_v tolerate_v and_o suffer_v
it_o yet_o he_o will_v choose_v there_o be_v no_o such_o thing_n for_o he_o to_o suffer_v in_o adversity_n i_o long_o for_o prosperity_n in_o prosperity_n i_o apprehend_v and_o dread_a adversity_n and_o what_o middle_a station_n can_v there_o be_v find_v between_o these_o two_o where_o this_o life_n may_v not_o be_v a_o temptation_n to_o we_o there_o be_v a_o woe_n to_o the_o prosperity_n of_o this_o world_n once_o and_o again_o 1._o for_o the_o many_o fear_n in_o they_o of_o adversity_n 2._o and_o for_o the_o many_o miscarriage_n and_o misbehaviour_n in_o they_o of_o our_o joy_n and_o there_o be_v a_o woe_n to_o the_o adversity_n of_o this_o world_n once_o again_o and_o a_o three_o time_n 1._o from_o the_o impatient_a longing_n we_o have_v in_o they_o after_o miss_v prosperity_n 2._o from_o the_o pain_n and_o suffering_n of_o the_o adversity_n itself_o 3._o and_o from_o the_o frequent_a shipwreck_n therein_o of_o patience_n be_v not_o man_n life_n therefore_o upon_o earth_n a_o 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which_o both_o my_o interior_a and_o exterior_a then_o shall_v enjoy_v with_o thou_o when_o death_n shall_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o victory_n chap._n xxxi_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v there_o be_v another_o evil_n of_o the_o day_n 9.27_o day_n beside_o the_o former_a night_n evil_a mat._n 6.34_o 1_o cor._n 6.13_o 1_o cor._n 15_o 53._o 1_o cor._n 9.27_o and_o i_o wish_v the_o day_n be_v sufficient_a for_o it_o for_o here_o we_o must_v by_o eat_v and_o drink_v repair_v the_o daily_a ruin_n of_o the_o body_n until_o the_o time_n thou_o shall_v destroy_v both_o the_o meat_n and_o the_o belly_n and_o shall_v slay_v this_o my_o indigency_n with_o a_o miraculous_a satiety_n and_o shall_v clothe_v this_o corruptible_a with_o a_o eternal_a incorruption_n but_o now_o this_o my_o necessity_n be_v very_o pleasant_a and_o sweet_a unto_o i_o and_o against_o this_o sweetness_n i_o now_o fight_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v 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experience_n discover_v it_o vulgar_a â—ob_v 8.1_o vulgar_a and_o no_o man_n may_v be_v secure_a in_o this_o life_n which_o be_v whole_o call_v a_o temptation_n that_o as_o he_o may_v have_v be_v make_v of_o worse_a better_a so_o he_o may_v not_o become_v from_o better_a worse_a the_o only_a hope_n the_o only_a confidence_n the_o only_a secure_a promise_n to_o rely_v on_o be_v thy_o mercy_n o_o lord_n chap._n xxxiii_o 4._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o ear_n in_o music_n where_o whether_o music_n be_v useful_a in_o church_n the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o ear_n have_v more_o strong_o ensnare_v and_o captive_v i_o but_o thou_o have_v dissolve_v these_o bond_n and_o have_v set_v i_o at_o liberty_n i_o confess_v i_o do_v now_o still_o a_o little_a repose_n and_o acquiesse_n in_o the_o melody_n of_o those_o sound_n which_o be_v animate_v with_o thy_o sacred_a hymn_n when_o these_o be_v sing_v with_o a_o sweet_a &_o skilful_a voice_n yet_o not_o so_o 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these_o my_o groan_n in_o confession_n testify_v how_o much_o i_o dislike_v and_o loathe_v myself_o thou_o thereby_o become_v so_o much_o the_o more_o splendent_a and_o beauteous_a and_o amiable_a unto_o i_o so_o much_o the_o more_o love_v and_o long_v for_o by_o i_o that_o so_o i_o may_v be_v ashamed_a of_o myself_o and_o throw_v away_o myself_o and_o make_v choice_n of_o thou_o and_o seek_v neither_o to_o please_v thou_o nor_o myself_o for_o i_o but_o only_o for_o thy_o sake_n therefore_o o_o lord_n though_o always_o manifest_a and_o disclose_v to_o thou_o i_o be_o whatever_o i_o be_o yet_o not_o without_o fruit_n do_v i_o confess_v unto_o thou_o as_o be_v show_v before_o which_o confession_n of_o i_o to_o thou_o be_v act_v not_o with_o the_o word_n of_o my_o flesh_n and_o outward_a sound_n but_o with_o the_o word_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o loud_a cry_n of_o my_o thought_n which_o thy_o ear_n only_o discern_v where_o in_o what_o thing_n i_o be_o evil_a my_o confession_n to_o 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