conquer_v thy_o enemy_n with_o his_o own_o weapon_n which_o he_o prepare_v for_o thy_o destruction_n 8._o when_o therefore_o thy_o sin_n be_v mercy_n and_o never_o to_o distrust_v his_o mercy_n suggest_v to_o thy_o memory_n conceive_v a_o perfect_a hatred_n of_o they_o as_o of_o thing_n detestable_a to_o the_o divine_a goodness_n yet_o be_v sure_a to_o have_v a_o hopeful_a confidence_n in_o thy_o saviour_n passion_n and_o i_o tell_v thou_o yet_o more_o shall_v thou_o seem_v to_o hear_v god_n say_v unto_o thou_o away_o thou_o be_v none_o of_o the_o number_n of_o my_o sheep_n yet_o thou_o be_v not_o to_o lose_v thy_o confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n but_o humble_o to_o reply_v thou_o have_v just_a reason_n o_o my_o sovereign_a lord_n god_n to_o shake_v i_o off_o for_o my_o sin_n sake_n but_o i_o have_v great_a reason_n to_o be_v confident_a of_o thy_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n and_o to_o believe_v that_o thou_o will_v pardon_v i_o therefore_o i_o humble_o beg_v salvation_n for_o this_o 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guess_v by_o some_o evident_a sign_n that_o these_o thing_n be_v from_o heaven_n yet_o still_o deny_v they_o all_o access_n unto_o thou_o and_o drive_v they_o far_o from_o thou_o nor_o need_v thou_o fear_v lest_o any_o such_o resistance_n ground_v upon_o thy_o own_o indignity_n shall_v displease_v god_n for_o if_o the_o vision_n come_v from_o he_o he_o know_v well_o how_o to_o make_v they_o manifest_v notwithstanding_o thy_o opposition_n and_o be_v secure_a to_o be_v thereby_o no_o loser_n since_o he_o who_o give_v his_o grace_n to_o the_o humble_a can_v be_v angry_a with_o he_o who_o practise_v such_o high_a act_n of_o that_o virtue_n 11._o these_o be_v the_o common_a and_o particular_a after_o these_o general_a temptation_n follow_v other_o in_o particular_a ordinary_a engine_n which_o our_o enemy_n make_v use_v of_o in_o this_o last_o passage_n after_o which_o follow_v his_o other_o train_a band_n of_o temptation_n according_a to_o each_o one_o particular_a inclination_n and_o 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that_o thou_o often_o renew_v thy_o accustom_a exercise_n but_o often_o renew_v thy_o exercise_n spiritual_a exercise_n as_o if_o thou_o be_v yet_o a_o young_a beginner_n and_o a_o freshwater_n soldier_n now_o enter_v the_o list_n 2._o for_o if_o we_o behold_v and_o desire_v to_o follow_v the_o perfection_n whereunto_o god_n have_v call_v we_o we_o shall_v find_v it_o to_o be_v so_o high_a and_o so_o copious_a that_o obtain_v for_o perfection_n be_v very_o high_a and_o hard_o to_o be_v obtain_v after_o our_o best_a spend_a endeavour_n we_o shall_v scarce_o presume_v to_o say_v that_o we_o have_v learn_v the_o first_o principle_n thereof_o and_o beside_o this_o that_o which_o seem_v to_o we_o a_o virtue_n may_v indeed_o sometime_o be_v a_o vice_n our_o judgement_n be_v deceive_v by_o some_o secret_a pride_n chap._n xxi_o of_o holy_a prayer_n we_o have_v hitherto_o o_o beloved_a prayer_n the_o four_o weapon_n be_v holy_a prayer_n through_o the_o divine_a assistance_n hear_v and_o learn_v 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i_o abhor_v and_o detest_v whatsoever_o i_o have_v do_v say_v think_v or_o desire_v contrary_a to_o thy_o holy_a will_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n i_o renounce_v all_o company_n and_o occasion_n which_o may_v induce_v i_o to_o offend_v thou_o 7._o i_o cast_v myself_o at_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n to_o be_v thy_o slave_n for_o ever_o with_o a_o firm_a resolution_n to_o bear_v thy_o cross_n till_o death_n and_o to_o do_v penance_n and_o satisfaction_n for_o my_o past_a pride_n and_o pleasure_n desire_v nothing_o but_o to_o live_v at_o thy_o foot_n like_o the_o penitent_a magdalen_n in_o solitude_n silence_n submission_n o_o good_a jesus_n out_o of_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n merit_n and_o meekness_n suffer_v not_o i_o thy_o poor_a creature_n to_o be_v damn_v and_o separate_v from_o thou_o eternal_o o_o amiable_a eternity_n o_o eternal_a amity_n of_o god_n shall_v i_o leave_v and_o lose_v thou_o for_o filthy_a pleasure_n frail_a creature_n fond_a friendship_n fade_a honour_n no_o 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suffer_v utter_a shipwarck_n in_o these_o fearful_a tempest_n i_o suffer_v violence_n o_o my_o lord_n answer_v for_o i_o the_o companion_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o have_v deceive_v i_o sense_n have_v corrupt_v and_o conquer_v my_o judgement_n oh_o how_o i_o be_o drag_v up_o and_o down_o by_o my_o al-mastering_a appetite_n command_v by_o my_o servant_n and_o fetter_v by_o my_o slave_n o_o tyranny_n o_o indignity_n ah_o my_o soul_n o_o noble_a spirit_n fair_a as_o the_o angel_n form_v to_o thy_o creator_n lovely_a resemblance_n stamp_v with_o his_o divine_a character_n and_o heir_n apparent_a to_o his_o glorious_a kingdom_n to_o be_v thus_o subject_a to_o the_o base_a and_o brutal_a desire_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n o_o intolerable_a bondage_n o_o unworthy_a servitude_n 3._o o_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o only_a physician_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v almighty_a and_o al-mercy_n and_o i_o be_o all_o weakness_n and_o all_o misery_n there_o be_v no_o part_n leave_v sincere_a in_o my_o whole_a body_n and_o soul_n from_o the_o contagious_a poison_n of_o passion_n from_o the_o infectious_a leprosy_n of_o sin_n and_o sensuality_n all_o be_v out_o of_o order_n o_o my_o lord_n i_o acknowledge_v it_o to_o my_o own_o shame_n and_o confusion_n each_o sense_n be_v go_v astray_o each_o member_n of_o my_o body_n be_v corrupt_v each_o power_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v pervert_v my_o understanding_n be_v obscure_v with_o self-love_n my_o memory_n distract_v with_o sensual_a â—bâ—ects_n my_o will_n possess_v with_o peevish_a inclination_n my_o affection_n be_v vain_a my_o passion_n violent_a my_o disposition_n vicious_a my_o body_n be_v burdensome_a my_o imagination_n troublesome_a my_o life_n irksome_a these_o be_v my_o wound_n o_o my_o heavenly_a surgeon_n o_o put_v to_o thy_o help_a hand_n i_o beseech_v thou_o see_v fear_v and_o search_v they_o before_o the_o gangrene_n enter_v and_o the_o grief_n grow_v incurable_a my_o soul_n be_v sick_a even_o to_o death_n if_o thou_o 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sense_n and_o spiritual_a faculty_n a_o absolute_a change_n in_o my_o whole_a man_n o_o grant_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o love_a lord_n the_o powerful_a assistance_n of_o thy_o special_a grace_n for_o the_o performance_n of_o this_o great_a and_o good_a purpose_n teach_v i_o now_o o_o my_o bless_a master_n to_o live_v inward_o pious_o spiritual_o as_o i_o love_v former_o to_o live_v outward_o vain_o sensual_o o_o let_v i_o henceforth_o yield_v to_o thy_o divine_a motion_n obey_v thy_o call_n imitate_v thy_o example_n and_o follow_v thy_o will_n o_o let_v i_o never_o more_o act_v or_o omit_v any_o thing_n be_v it_o never_o so_o little_a for_o my_o own_o like_n but_o pure_o and_o perfect_o for_o thy_o love_n 5._o grant_v o_o good_a jesus_n that_o at_o each_o word_n of_o my_o mouth_n at_o each_o glance_n
have_v angel_n saint_n and_o god_n himself_o for_o thy_o companion_n and_o comforter_n final_o reflect_v upon_o the_o conflict_n which_o thou_o have_v undertake_v and_o consider_v how_o much_o thou_o have_v to_o do_v thou_o will_v find_v little_a leisure_n to_o spend_v in_o idle_a talk_n chap._n fourteen_o of_o the_o order_n to_o be_v observe_v in_o fight_v against_o our_o enemy_n in_o thy_o spiritual_a combat_n against_o thy_o disorder_a affection_n and_o passion_n follow_v this_o method_n first_o enter_v into_o the_o cabinet_n of_o thy_o enemy_n mark_v which_o be_v thy_o great_a enemy_n heart_n and_o let_v thy_o inquisitive_a thought_n search_v and_o examine_v with_o exact_a diligence_n which_o be_v the_o affection_n that_o there_o bear_v the_o great_a sway_n and_o with_o what_o thought_n and_o motion_n thou_o be_v most_o frequent_o tempt_v and_o trouble_v second_o and_o have_v find_v thy_o with_o and_o single_a out_o the_o fierce_a to_o fight_v with_o foe_n turn_v thy_o weapon_n against_o that_o single_a enemy_n which_o then_o actual_o molest_v thou_o most_o near_o endanger_v thou_o and_o be_v now_o ready_a to_o grapple_v with_o thou_o oppress_v thou_o and_o ruin_v thou_o three_o but_o in_o time_n of_o peace_n with_o they_o but_o when_o they_o appear_v not_o seek_v they_o thy_o passion_n when_o no_o enemy_n appear_v in_o field_n to_o provoke_v thou_o to_o battalle_a begin_v thou_o with_o they_o and_o make_v thy_o strong_a onset_n upon_o those_o which_o have_v chief_o indomage_v thou_o most_o frequent_o foil_v thou_o and_o wrought_v thy_o great_a confusion_n before_o thy_o lord_n god_n chap._n xv._o what_o course_n he_o must_v take_v who_o be_v conquer_v and_o grievous_o wound_v by_o his_o enemy_n if_o thou_o chance_v to_o fall_v into_o some_o vice_n either_o through_o frailty_n and_o weakness_n or_o through_o wickedness_n and_o wilful_a malice_n turn_v thou_o with_o speed_n when_o thou_o be_v fall_v rise_v with_o all_o speed_n all_o speed_n to_o god_n and_o first_o reflect_v upon_o thy_o own_o baseness_n &_o hearty_o hate_v thyself_o then_o recollect_v thy_o spirit_n and_o convert_v thyself_o again_o to_o thy_o creator_n confess_v to_o he_o thy_o ingratitude_n and_o say_v with_o a_o inflame_a heart_n o_o my_o lord_n he_o hold_v i_o have_v do_v fervour_n pray_v with_o fervour_n like_o myself_o for_o what_o better_o can_v be_v expect_v from_o i_o than_o baseness_n fall_n and_o sinfulness_n i_o be_o sorry_a o_o my_o god_n with_o my_o whole_a heart_n and_o i_o confess_v i_o shall_v have_v do_v far_o worse_o and_o fall_v more_o grievous_o have_v not_o the_o hand_n of_o thy_o goodness_n keep_v i_o stay_v i_o and_o uphold_v i_o for_o which_o i_o render_v thou_o most_o humble_a thanks_o and_o now_o o_o my_o love_a lord_n do_v thou_o like_v thyself_o according_a to_o the_o treasure_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o let_v i_o not_o live_v out_o of_o thy_o grace_n nor_o ever_o offend_v again_o thy_o most_o sacred_a majesty_n 2._o have_v thus_o sincere_o pour_v fearful_a be_v not_o over-solicitous_a or_o fearful_a forth_o thy_o heart_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v not_o solicitous_a and_o thoughtful_a whether_o he_o have_v forgive_v this_o thy_o sin_n or_o no_o for_o such_o a_o curiosity_n savour_v of_o pride_n endanger_v thou_o to_o fall_v into_o the_o snare_n of_o satan_n render_v thou_o unquiet_a and_o consume_v time_n to_o little_a purpose_n therefore_o cast_v thyself_o pure_o into_o the_o paternal_a bosom_n of_o thy_o merciful_a lord_n resume_v thy_o wont_a exercise_n and_o take_v up_o thy_o weapon_n again_o as_o though_o thou_o have_v not_o fall_v yea_o shall_v thou_o chance_v to_o fall_v many_o time_n a_o day_n and_o receive_v many_o grievous_a wound_n from_o thy_o enemy_n yet_o never_o despair_v never_o grow_v fainthearted_a or_o over-fearfull_a of_o thyself_o but_o still_o stand_v upon_o thy_o accustom_a guard_n against_o all_o new_a assault_n and_o do_v the_o same_o thing_n with_o no_o less_o confidence_n the_o second_o three_o four_o time_n and_o as_o often_o as_o thy_o need_n shall_v require_v as_o thou_o do_v at_o the_o first_o 3._o this_o kind_n of_o exercitation_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o displease_v the_o devil_n by_o how_o much_o he_o well_o know_v it_o be_v high_o please_v to_o god_n and_o for_o this_o reason_n he_o move_v all_o his_o engine_n to_o make_v we_o tepid_a and_o slack_a in_o frequent_v it_o do_v thou_o therefore_o use_v inclination_n but_o be_v diligent_a and_o use_v violence_n to_o thy_o own_o inclination_n violence_n to_o thyself_o and_o the_o more_o difficulty_n thou_o find_v by_o so_o much_o more_o redouble_v thy_o diligence_n in_o do_v it_o and_o esteem_v it_o not_o a_o thing_n over-irksome_a to_o renew_v it_o divers_a time_n in_o one_o and_o the_o same_o fall_n and_o if_o after_o the_o first_o next_o and_o three_o relapse_n thou_o feel_v a_o grievous_a trouble_n confusion_n and_o diffidence_n in_o thyself_o yet_o still_o endeavour_v by_o all_o mean_n to_o recover_v the_o inward_a quiet_a of_o thy_o soul_n sovereign_n recover_v the_o quiet_a of_o thy_o soul_n and_o reconciliation_n to_o thy_o sovereign_n and_o then_o reconcile_v thyself_o to_o thy_o love_a lord_n for_o that_o disquietness_n of_o conscience_n remain_v after_o the_o sin_n commit_v be_v not_o any_o sign_n of_o thy_o sorrow_n for_o have_v offend_v thy_o saviour_n but_o rather_o of_o fear_n for_o thy_o own_o private_a damage_n which_o thou_o have_v thereby_o deserve_v 4._o now_o the_o way_n to_o recover_v this_o fault_n the_o way_n to_o get_v this_o quiet_a be_v to_o forget_v thy_o fault_n quiet_a of_o mind_n may_v be_v this_o have_v true_o turn_v thyself_o to_o thy_o god_n and_o humble_o crave_v pardon_n for_o thy_o sin_n think_v no_o more_o of_o it_o but_o forget_v it_o total_o for_o the_o future_a and_o fix_v thy_o thought_n only_o upon_o thy_o lord_n infinite_a love_n by_o which_o he_o earnest_o desines_n to_o unite_v thou_o to_o himself_o and_o make_v thou_o partaker_n of_o his_o eternal_a beatitude_n and_o when_o by_o this_o or_o the_o like_a consideration_n thou_o have_v settle_v thy_o mind_n and_o state_v thy_o heart_n in_o tranquillity_n turn_v thy_o thought_n again_o to_o contemplate_v thy_o fall_n and_o do_v as_o thou_o be_v direct_v in_o the_o begin_n of_o this_o chapter_n and_o when_o thou_o go_v to_o confession_n as_o thou_o shall_v frequent_o do_v recall_v all_o thy_o fall_n and_o defect_n into_o thy_o memory_n discover_v they_o faithful_o and_o confess_v they_o simple_o to_o thy_o ghostly_a father_n chap._n xvi_o that_o we_o shall_v keep_v our_o heart_n ever_o quiet_a and_o joyful_a in_o our_o lord_n explication_n as_o when_o we_o have_v lose_v the_o quiet_a of_o our_o heart_n we_o be_v to_o use_v all_o possible_a endeavour_n to_o recover_v it_o as_o be_v aforesaid_a so_o thou_o must_v know_v quiet_a no_o accident_n can_v just_o deprive_v we_o of_o quiet_a that_o no_o accident_n whatsoever_o can_v with_o any_o just_a reason_n deprive_v we_o of_o the_o same_o for_o it_o be_v most_o true_a and_o thou_o have_v be_v often_o tell_v it_o that_o we_o must_v be_v angry_a with_o ourselves_o for_o our_o sin_n yet_o our_o grief_n must_v be_v govern_v with_o discretion_n and_o accompany_v with_o tranquillity_n and_o our_o sorrow_n must_v produce_v act_n and_o resolution_n of_o amendment_n of_o our_o life_n not_o of_o disquiet_n and_o anxiety_n in_o ourselves_o as_o for_o other_o painful_a and_o unpleasing_a accident_n as_o the_o sickness_n death_n yea_o and_o eternal_a damnation_n of_o our_o dear_a friend_n or_o the_o scourge_n of_o plague_n famine_n war_n saccaging_n burn_n and_o other_o evil_n fall_v upon_o ourselves_o though_o as_o they_o be_v thing_n contrary_a to_o our_o will_n for_o though_o we_o must_v needs_o abhor_v thing_n contrary_a to_o nature_n yet_o we_o may_v love_v they_o as_o come_v from_o god_n permission_n and_o so_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o his_o holy_a will_n nature_n we_o must_v needs_o reject_v they_o yet_o we_o may_v by_o the_o efficacious_a work_n of_o god_n grace_n not_o only_o desire_v they_o but_o even_o be_v delight_v with_o they_o as_o be_v the_o just_a punishment_n of_o the_o wicked_a and_o exercise_n of_o virtue_n to_o the_o good_a for_o which_o end_v out_o love_a lord_n permit_v they_o to_o befall_v we_o thus_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o god_n holy_a will_n we_o may_v quiet_o and_o peaceable_o pass_v through_o the_o midst_n of_o all_o this_o life_n bitterness_n and_o contrariety_n and_o take_v this_o for_o a_o truth_n that_o all_o disquiet_n of_o mind_n be_v displease_v to_o our_o dear_a lord_n because_o it_o be_v never_o without_o some_o imperfection_n and_o evermore_o proceed_v from_o some_o perverse_a root_n of_o self-love_n 1._o to_o obtain_v therefore_o this_o quiet_a of_o sentinel_n text._n thou_o be_v to_o appoint_v a_o sentinel_n heart_n in_o thy_o spiritual_a conflict_n thou_o
abstraction_n introversion_n annihilation_n this_o be_v to_o begin_v your_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n and_o to_o fortast_n that_o endless_a felicity_n in_o which_o your_o faith_n shall_v be_v turn_v into_o clear_a vision_n your_o hope_n change_v into_o full_a possession_n and_o your_o charity_n knit_v to_o her_o belove_a centre_n and_o perfection_n where_o you_o shall_v praise_n god_n incessant_o love_v he_o entire_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o the_o table_n of_o the_o maxim_n 1._o that_o our_o end_n be_v perfection_n and_o divine_a union_n and_o that_o prayer_n be_v the_o way_n to_o it_o 2._o that_o beginner_n may_v profitable_o make_v use_n of_o the_o follow_a exercise_n of_o mental_a prayer_n and_o introversion_n until_o they_o obtain_v great_a light_n and_o more_o experience_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n 3._o that_o of_o all_o internal_a prayer_n the_o affective_a be_v most_o noble_a necessary_a and_o profitable_a 4._o that_o meditation_n be_v a_o seek_v contemplation_n a_o see_v of_o god_n 5._o that_o continual_a recollection_n be_v the_o exercise_n of_o exercise_n and_o the_o immediate_a way_n to_o bring_v we_o to_o perfection_n and_o divine_a union_n the_o practice_n of_o this_o exercise_n be_v declare_v in_o ten_o canon_n 1._o that_o all_o place_n be_v proper_a for_o recollection_n but_o the_o more_o quiet_a the_o more_o proper_a 2._o that_o to_o pray_v on_o our_o knee_n be_v a_o posture_n most_o please_v to_o god_n 3._o that_o we_o must_v especial_o at_o first_o prefix_v to_o ourselves_o certain_a and_o set_v time_n of_o recollection_n 4._o that_o we_o must_v frame_v a_o act_n of_o pure_a intention_n at_o our_o entrance_n into_o recollection_n 5._o that_o we_o must_v brief_o examine_v our_o conscience_n and_o produce_v act_n of_o contrition_n self-confusion_n humility_n and_o resolution_n of_o amendment_n 6._o that_o we_o must_v also_o make_v a_o act_n of_o perfect_a resignation_n before_o we_o fall_v upon_o this_o exercise_n 7._o that_o we_o must_v bring_v with_o we_o some_o theme_n subject_n or_o groundwork_n of_o our_o prayer_n and_o recollection_n 8._o that_o we_o must_v look_v on_o god_n by_o faith_n and_o leave_v off_o all_o discourse_n 9_o that_o we_o must_v carry_v god_n with_o we_o from_o our_o prayer_n 10._o that_o we_o must_v put_v on_o christ_n and_o imitate_v his_o example_n in_o all_o our_o action_n 6._o that_o for_o this_o pure_a perfect_a and_o transcendent_a prayer_n no_o certain_a rule_n can_v be_v prescribe_v 7._o that_o the_o contemplative_a must_v be_v very_o observant_a of_o the_o divine_a visit_n light_n and_o call_v 8._o that_o the_o only_a way_n to_o get_v true_a peace_n of_o mind_n be_v to_o be_v total_o resign_v to_o god_n 9_o that_o a_o contemplative_a soul_n must_v lay_v a_o solid_a groundwork_n to_o serve_v she_o in_o time_n of_o desolation_n 10._o that_o in_o this_o high_a exercise_n of_o recollection_n the_o three_o theological_a virtue_n faith_n hope_n and_o charity_n must_v perfect_v and_o possess_v the_o three_o power_n of_o our_o soul_n understanding_n memory_n and_o will._n 11._o that_o our_o understanding_n must_v be_v settle_v in_o pure_a faith_n 12._o that_o our_o memory_n must_v be_v settle_v in_o pure_a hope_n 13._o that_o our_o will_n must_v be_v settle_v in_o pure_a charity_n 14._o that_o this_o exercise_n of_o recollection_n and_o annihilation_n be_v the_o short_a &_o secure_a way_n to_o divine_a union_n 15._o that_o all_o sort_n of_o people_n may_v safe_o addict_v themselves_o to_o this_o holy_a exercise_n of_o recollection_n 16._o that_o outward_a observance_n be_v help_n in_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o exercise_n 17._o that_o prayer_n for_o other_o be_v best_a practise_v by_o a_o general_a intention_n 18._o that_o all_o virtue_n be_v best_a practise_v by_o addict_v ourselves_o to_o contemplation_n or_o this_o internal_a exercise_n of_o recollection_n some_o example_n for_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o divine_a way_n of_o prayer_n some_o further_a advice_n for_o the_o same_o practice_n of_o this_o pure_a prayer_n 19_o that_o corporal_a austerity_n must_v be_v always_o subject_a to_o obedience_n 20._o that_o contemplative_n must_v always_o have_v the_o seven_o verity_n which_o concern_v the_o divine_a nature_n whereupon_o all_o contemplation_n be_v ground_v either_o habitual_o or_o formal_o in_o their_o memory_n 21._o that_o jâ—culâ—tory_a prayer_n be_v the_o near_a disposition_n to_o contemplation_n 22._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v the_o great_a exâ—rcisâ—_n of_o contemplative_n and_o the_o short_a way_n to_o divine_a union_n a_o more_o sublime_a way_n to_o practice_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n 23._o that_o humiliation_n be_v a_o relic_n of_o god_n love_n 24._o that_o humility_n be_v the_o solid_a groundwork_n of_o all_o spirituality_n 25._o that_o silence_n and_o solitude_n be_v our_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n 26._o that_o the_o perfect_a love_n of_o god_n and_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o must_v be_v our_o constant_a and_o continual_a employment_n 27._o that_o confidence_n in_o god_n goodness_n be_v the_o main_a support_n of_o our_o spiritual_a edifice_n 28._o that_o the_o measure_n of_o our_o progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v the_o conformity_n of_o our_o will_n to_o the_o divine_a will_n 29._o that_o vnquietness_n of_o mind_n be_v the_o bane_n of_o devotion_n and_o curse_v of_o contemplation_n 30._o that_o cross_n be_v to_o be_v suffer_v not_o seek_v to_o be_v take_v not_o make_v to_o be_v conceal_v not_o complain_v of_o 31._o that_o temptation_n can_v hurt_v we_o if_o we_o cast_v our_o whole_a care_n upon_o god_n 32._o that_o desolation_n dereliction_n affliction_n distraction_n be_v to_o be_v transcend_v by_o generous_a resolution_n 33._o that_o perfection_n consist_v in_o put_v off_o all_o propriety_n and_o put_v on_o pure_a and_o naked_a charity_n 34._o that_o zeal_n and_o eagerness_n must_v be_v temper_v with_o moderation_n and_o discretion_n 35._o that_o we_o must_v never_o rely_v upon_o our_o own_o natural_a judgement_n experience_n and_o knowledge_n 36._o that_o we_o must_v seek_v no_o comfort_n in_o any_o creature_n 37._o that_o we_o must_v walk_v and_o persevere_v in_o these_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n with_o the_o two_o foot_n of_o faith_n and_o obedience_n under_o this_o maxim_n be_v solve_v many_o material_a doubt_n arise_v in_o our_o daily_a progress_n to_o perfection_n the_o first_o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v that_o god_n will_v forsake_v we_o by_o reason_n of_o our_o ingratitude_n and_o disloyalty_n 2._o if_o our_o sin_n trouble_v we_o in_o respect_n of_o confession_n and_o satisfaction_n 3._o if_o we_o can_v neither_o pray_v with_o fervour_n nor_o suffer_v with_o patience_n neither_o feel_v god_n present_a nor_o be_v content_a in_o his_o absence_n 4._o if_o we_o be_v doubtful_a that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o we_o that_o we_o want_v grace_n that_o we_o only_o seek_v ourselves_o that_o we_o yield_v to_o all_o temptation_n etc._n etc._n 5._o if_o our_o conscience_n be_v unquiet_a and_o our_o soul_n fearful_a by_o reason_n of_o our_o proness_n to_o sin_n etc._n etc._n 6._o if_o we_o be_v full_a of_o fear_n and_o apprehension_n of_o our_o estate_n by_o reason_n we_o feel_v in_o our_o soul_n such_o slender_a effect_n of_o god_n grace_n and_o love_n and_o have_v little_a devotion_n no_o inward_a peace_n etc._n etc._n 7._o if_o some_o extreme_a cross_n calamity_n or_o affliction_n have_v seize_v our_o heart_n etc._n etc._n 8._o if_o we_o desire_v to_o conquer_v the_o devil_n and_o overcome_v all_o temptation_n whatsoever_o 9_o if_o we_o want_v comfort_n in_o long_a and_o dangerous_a temptation_n and_o trouble_n 10._o if_o we_o wonder_v that_o god_n will_v have_v we_o suffer_v temptation_n since_o our_o frailty_n be_v subject_a to_o yield_v and_o so_o offend_v his_o divine_a majesty_n 11._o if_o we_o be_v solicit_v by_o our_o enemy_n to_o unchastness_n 12._o if_o we_o be_v in_o extraordinary_a desolation_n and_o darkness_n 13._o if_o we_o be_v tempt_v to_o despair_v of_o god_n mercy_n by_o reason_n of_o our_o frequent_a fall_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n 14._o if_o we_o be_v perplex_v with_o great_a sadness_n etc._n etc._n other_o remedy_n against_o sadness_n another_o antidote_n against_o melancholy_a and_o pusillanimity_n 15._o if_o we_o suspect_v that_o our_o sadness_n and_o temptation_n proceed_v from_o our_o own_o fault_n or_o negligence_n or_o some_o secret_a sin_n or_o our_o want_n of_o correspondency_n with_o god_n grace_n etc._n etc._n 16._o if_o we_o doubt_v that_o god_n be_v displease_v with_o our_o prayer_n that_o our_o affliction_n befall_v we_o through_o our_o own_o occasion_n and_o can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o to_o think_v we_o have_v do_v what_o god_n require_v 17._o if_o nature_n have_v show_v herself_o a_o stepmother_n unto_o we_o in_o give_v we_o a_o hard_a and_o harsh_a disposition_n whence_o proceed_v a_o reluctancy_n to_o work_n of_o virtue_n and_o mortification_n of_o vice_n so_o that_o we_o distrust_v of_o ever_o overcome_v
ourselves_o 18._o if_o on_o the_o contrary_a our_o nature_n be_v so_o facile_a and_o flexible_a that_o we_o scarce_o find_v difficulty_n in_o any_o thing_n we_o wonder_v to_o hear_v mention_n of_o rebellion_n contradiction_n desolation_n etc._n etc._n from_o all_o which_o we_o be_v secure_a and_o quiet_a and_o therefore_o we_o fear_v our_o action_n proceed_v rather_o from_o a_o natural_a promptitude_n than_o solid_a virtue_n 19_o if_o we_o so_o addict_v ourselves_o to_o recollection_n that_o we_o look_v upon_o work_n of_o obedience_n and_o the_o external_a practice_n of_o our_o duty_n as_o impediment_n to_o perfection_n 20._o if_o we_o find_v such_o a_o calm_a in_o our_o passion_n imperfection_n and_o temptation_n that_o we_o hope_v the_o worst_a be_v past_a 21._o if_o scrupulosity_n overwhelm_v we_o 1._o we_o must_v obey_v our_o spiritual_a director_n 2._o we_o must_v do_v our_o best_a endeavour_n but_o here_o arise_v two_o difficulty_n 1._o if_o our_o directour_n knowledge_n be_v small_a his_o experience_n less_o etc._n etc._n 2._o if_o we_o can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o that_o we_o have_v do_v our_o best_a etc._n etc._n 22._o if_o we_o fear_v we_o detest_v not_o sin_n sufficient_o because_o we_o feel_v not_o so_o great_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n as_o we_o do_v sometime_o for_o a_o temporal_a loss_n 23._o if_o we_o can_v ground_v ourselves_o in_o a_o firm_a hope_n of_o mercy_n for_o that_o we_o be_v so_o frail_a and_o inconstant_a we_o sin_v daily_o and_o amend_v not_o our_o life_n we_o repay_v unto_o god_n evil_a for_o good_a we_o promise_v fidelity_n and_o practice_v nothing_o less_o 24._o if_o we_o go_v not_o on_o with_o alacrity_n because_o we_o know_v not_o that_o our_o sin_n be_v forgive_v that_o our_o confession_n be_v good_a and_o that_o we_o be_v in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n 25._o though_o we_o can_v in_o this_o life_n assure_v ourselves_o infallible_o to_o be_v in_o good_a state_n yet_o if_o we_o can_v comfort_v ourselves_o with_o most_o probable_a token_n of_o grace_n whereby_o we_o may_v feel_v the_o pulse_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o somewhat_o ease_v our_o anguish_n 26._o if_o we_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o know_v not_o well_o when_o we_o give_v consent_n to_o sinful_a thought_n 27._o if_o we_o can_v well_o distinguish_v between_o venial_a and_o mortal_a sin_n 28._o if_o these_o say_n of_o divine_n terrify_v we_o they_o sin_n who_o do_v against_o their_o doubt_n and_o in_o doubtful_a thing_n the_o secure_a part_n be_v to_o be_v follow_v 29._o if_o final_o we_o be_v apprehensive_a and_o fearful_a lest_o we_o shall_v grow_v weary_a in_o the_o way_n of_o virtue_n and_o not_o persevere_v constant_o in_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n maxim_n of_o mystical_a divinity_n the_o first_o maxim_n that_o our_o end_n be_v perfection_n and_o divine_a union_n and_o that_o prayer_n be_v the_o way_n to_o it_o it_o be_v not_o sufficient_a for_o we_o who_o be_v resolve_v upon_o a_o spiritual_a course_n to_o lead_v a_o ordinary_a good_a life_n which_o consist_v in_o the_o avoid_n of_o sin_n and_o scandal_n and_o in_o the_o punctual_a performance_n of_o our_o external_a duty_n to_o god_n and_o our_o neighbour_n but_o our_o end_n and_o aim_n must_v be_v to_o attain_v the_o perfection_n of_o god_n holy_a love_n and_o a_o happy_a union_n of_o our_o soul_n with_o their_o first_o beginning_n by_o live_v in_o abstraction_n recollection_n and_o perpetual_a contemplation_n as_o far_o forth_o as_o god_n holy_a spirit_n shall_v enable_v we_o and_o our_o frailty_n can_v correspond_v the_o chief_a mean_n to_o attain_v this_o our_o end_n be_v prayer_n without_o which_o all_o religion_n be_v but_o a_o shadow_n without_o a_o body_n or_o a_o body_n without_o a_o soul_n and_o all_o outward_a observance_n will_v prove_v but_o a_o superficial_a not_o a_o real_a devotion_n for_o it_o be_v the_o constant_a doctrine_n of_o divine_n that_o what_o god_n 2._o s._n augustine_n s._n basil_n s._n chrysostom_n s._n thomas_n 2_o 2._o q._n 83._o a._n 2._o in_o his_o eternal_a disposition_n have_v determine_v to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o he_o give_v we_o in_o time_n by_o the_o intervention_n of_o prayer_n tie_v as_o it_o be_v to_o this_o instrument_n the_o conversion_n of_o sinner_n the_o advancement_n of_o soul_n the_o perfection_n of_o saint_n etc._n etc._n so_o that_o as_o his_o divine_a decree_n be_v that_o we_o must_v till_o the_o earth_n if_o we_o will_v reap_v the_o fruit_n thereof_o and_o provide_v materials_n if_o we_o will_v raise_v up_o building_n and_o the_o like_a so_o his_o absolute_a order_n be_v that_o we_o must_v pray_v if_o we_o will_v have_v spiritual_a benefit_n to_o be_v pour_v into_o our_o soul_n and_o supernatural_a gift_n and_o grace_n to_o be_v grant_v unto_o we_o let_v we_o therefore_o in_o the_o first_o place_n resolve_v to_o prosecute_v prayer_n courageous_o constant_o and_o perseverant_o at_o set_a time_n if_o we_o intend_v to_o make_v speedy_a progress_n in_o sincere_a virtue_n and_o lay_v a_o sure_a groundwork_n of_o solid_a spirituality_n and_o let_v nothing_o upon_o any_o pretext_n whatsoever_o hinder_v or_o divert_v we_o from_o it_o as_o far_o as_o obedience_n and_o discretion_n will_v give_v we_o leave_v lord_n heal_v my_o wound_n supply_v my_o want_n satisfy_v my_o wish_n the_o second_o maxim_n that_o beginuers_n may_v profitable_o make_v use_n of_o this_o follow_a exercise_n of_o mental_a prayer_n and_o introversion_n until_o they_o obtain_v great_a light_n and_o more_o experience_n in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n this_o divine_a exercise_n consist_v of_o three_o part_n in_o general_a and_o nine_o point_n in_o particular_a 1._o preparation_n of_o 3._o act_n 1._o a_o affective_a &_o lively_a apprehension_n of_o god_n presence_n 2._o a_o cordial_a and_o profound_a act_n of_o humility_n 3._o a_o pure_a intention_n to_o please_v and_o praise_n god_n only_o 2._o consideration_n of_o 1._o my_o wound_n both_o internal_a and_o external_a 2._o my_o want_n which_o be_v many_o in_o every_o degree_n 3._o my_o wish_n and_o humble_a desire_n 3._o conclusion_n also_o of_o 3._o act_n 1._o contrition_n for_o my_o sin_n 2._o resignation_n in_o my_o want_n 3._o complacence_n in_o god_n and_o confidence_n in_o his_o goodness_n a_o more_o ample_a and_o practical_a description_n of_o this_o exercise_n the_o first_o part_n be_v preparation_n of_o three_o acts._n 1._o a_o lively_a apprehension_n of_o god_n presence_n not_o only_o in_o all_o place_n and_o all_o creature_n by_o his_o power_n and_o essence_n but_o in_o our_o soul_n by_o his_o mercy_n love_n care_n and_o providence_n o_o my_o soul_n where_o be_v we_o god_n 1._o part._n 1_o presence_n of_o god_n who_o see_v we_o what_o be_v he_o that_o be_v with_o we_o and_o within_o we_o by_o who_o light_n we_o see_v by_o who_o fire_n we_o burn_v and_o by_o who_o love_n we_o live_v live_v my_o most_o glorious_a and_o gracious_a lord_n in_o who_o presence_n i_o kneel_v in_o who_o arm_n i_o rest_v and_o after_o who_o love_n i_o breathe_v o_o that_o thou_o be_v as_o dear_a to_o my_o soul_n as_o thou_o be_v near_o it_o alas_o why_o do_v she_o not_o care_n as_o much_o for_o her_o god_n as_o he_o do_v for_o her_o good_a why_o do_v i_o not_o love_v thy_o presence_n o_o my_o amiable_a lord_n since_o thou_o be_v present_a by_o love_n thou_o be_v my_o father_n my_o physician_n and_o my_o food_n hear_v i_o heal_v i_o help_v i_o i_o be_o wound_v i_o be_o wicked_a i_o be_o wretched_a out_o of_o thou_o there_o be_v no_o rest_n without_o thou_o there_o be_v no_o hope_n remain_v with_o i_o reign_n within_o i_o let_v i_o be_v thou_o all_o thou_o ever_o thou_o 2._o profound_a and_o cordial_a humility_n acknowledge_v unfeigned_o before_o god_n and_o his_o angel_n our_o wickedness_n weakness_n and_o wretchedness_n what_o we_o be_v and_o what_o we_o deserve_v and_o so_o rest_v quiet_a in_o our_o centre_n of_o nothing_o o_o my_o soul_n what_o have_v we_o humility_n 2_o profound_a humility_n be_v what_o be_v we_o what_o have_v we_o what_o can_v we_o do_v what_o do_v we_o deserve_v what_o do_v we_o desire_v what_o have_v our_o love_a father_n and_o liberal_a lord_n that_o he_o have_v not_o give_v we_o what_o have_v we_o proud_a and_o prodigal_a child_n that_o we_o have_v not_o receive_v mere_o from_o his_o merciful_a hand_n and_o heart_n what_o have_v we_o receive_v that_o we_o have_v not_o abuse_v by_o self-love_n or_o self-delight_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n give_v tear_n to_o my_o eye_n word_n to_o my_o tongue_n sigh_n to_o my_o heart_n and_o love_n to_o my_o spirit_n for_o i_o need_v they_o all_o to_o deplore_v my_o misery_n and_o implore_v thy_o mercy_n to_o admire_v thy_o beauty_n and_o adore_v thy_o bounty_n to_o sigh_v after_o thou_o and_o suffer_v for_o thou_o what_o i_o have_v be_v it_o grieve_v i_o to_o
most_o certain_a that_o whosoever_o leave_v recollection_n to_o look_v after_o earthly_a consolation_n enjoy_v neither_o god_n nor_o the_o world_n whereas_o a_o soul_n which_o retire_v herself_o from_o the_o world_n to_o possess_v god_n enjoy_v true_o both_o god_n and_o the_o world_n together_o the_o 37._o and_o last_o maxim_n that_o we_o must_v walk_v and_o persevere_v in_o these_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n with_o the_o two_o foot_n of_o faith_n and_o obedience_n to_o perform_v this_o we_o must_v 1._o leave_v all_o for_o one_o all_z other_o for_o god_n ourselves_o for_o god_n god_n himself_o when_o he_o withdraw_v himself_o by_o recollection_n by_o abnegation_n by_o resignation_n 2._o leave_v one_o for_o all_o 3._o leave_v one_o and_o all_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o maxim_n consist_v in_o these_o five_o point_n 1._o to_o have_v a_o ardent_a desire_n affection_n practice_n the_o practice_n and_o intention_n to_o love_v see_v please_v and_o enjoy_v god_n 2._o to_o curb_v our_o sense_n from_o all_o curiosity_n vanity_n apprehension_n etc._n etc._n which_o may_v either_o defile_v our_o soul_n or_o disturb_v our_o mind_n or_o distract_v our_o spirit_n either_o seduce_v we_o from_o the_o right_a way_n or_o affright_v we_o when_o we_o be_v in_o it_o 3._o then_o we_o must_v take_v jesus_n by_o the_o right_a hand_n by_o faith_n and_o confidence_n abandon_v ourselves_o total_o to_o his_o mercy_n and_o rest_v in_o his_o providence_n with_o a_o filial_a indifferency_n 4._o we_o must_v take_v our_o spiritual_a guide_n by_o the_o left_a hand_n by_o punctual_a obedience_n 5._o in_o our_o way_n we_o must_v have_v these_o or_o the_o like_a thought_n recollection_n and_o devotion_n well_o i_o be_o go_v to_o heaven_n to_o my_o father_n and_o creator_n to_o my_o eternal_a rest_n and_o centre_n to_o see_v love_n and_o praise_v my_o god_n for_o evermore_o there_o only_o be_v true_a life_n true_a love_n true_a light_n and_o true_a liberty_n o_o jesus_n how_o long_o o_o jerusalem_n when_o jesus_n be_v with_o i_o and_o for_o i_o him_z i_o will_v follow_v after_o he_o i_o will_v sigh_v and_o for_o he_o i_o will_v suffer_v come_v what_o can_v if_o i_o err_v let_v my_o guide_n look_v to_o it_o for_o i_o be_o obedient_a if_o i_o stumble_v jesus_n will_v not_o let_v i_o fall_v for_o i_o be_o faithful_a if_o i_o can_v have_v the_o fruit_n of_o penance_n i_o will_v keep_v that_o of_o obedience_n what_o i_o can_v get_v by_o recollection_n i_o will_v procure_v by_o resignation_n what_o i_o want_v by_o indifferency_n i_o will_v supply_v by_o confidence_n though_o my_o desert_n fail_v my_o desire_n shall_v prevail_v what_o have_v a_o end_n be_v nothing_o live_v eternity_n sometime_o let_v we_o hearken_v to_o jesus_n speak_v o_o my_o child_n my_o servant_n my_o spouse_n what_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o thou_o follow_v thou_o i_o let_v all_o pass_n i_o be_o here_o all_o be_v one_o and_o one_o be_v all_o trouble_v not_o thyself_o with_o multiplicity_n be_v silent_a and_o i_o will_v answer_v for_o thou_o be_v content_a i_o be_o thy_o sufficiency_n be_v indifferent_a all_o be_v my_o will_n be_v confident_a all_o be_v well_o i_o forgive_v thou_o all_o thou_o demand_v i_o will_v give_v thou_o all_o thou_o desire_v i_o will_v never_o desert_v thou_o nor_o withdraw_v my_o eye_n hand_n heart_n from_o thou_o therefore_o go_v on_o quiet_o courageous_o confident_o other_o time_n let_v we_o answer_v he_o meek_o and_o faithful_o o_o good_a jesus_n save_v i_o for_o i_o be_o thou_o o_o sweet_a saviour_n support_v i_o for_o i_o be_o weak_a o_o love_a guide_n direct_v i_o for_o i_o be_o blind_a etc._n etc._n thus_o bold_o let_v we_o keep_v on_o our_o way_n 1._o let_v pass_n all_o by_o insensibility_n 2._o out-passing_a all_o by_o fervour_n 3._o pass_v under_o all_o by_o humility_n 4._o pass_v over_o all_o by_o generosity_n and_o elevation_n of_o spirit_n under_o this_o maxim_n be_v solve_v many_o material_a doubt_n arise_v in_o our_o daily_a progress_n to_o perfection_n the_o first_o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v that_o god_n will_v forsake_v we_o by_o reason_n of_o our_o ingratitude_n and_o disloyalty_n it_o be_v true_a we_o have_v be_v be_v still_o and_o ever_o shall_v be_v ungrateful_a tepid_a and_o defective_a in_o our_o correspondency_n to_o the_o divine_a love_n and_o light_a and_o god_n may_v in_o justice_n forsake_v we_o and_o yet_o be_v a_o good_a god_n but_o we_o must_v be_v confident_a in_o his_o mercy_n that_o he_o will_v not_o do_v it_o for_o jesus_n sake_n in_o fury_n and_o rigour_n though_o he_o may_v sometime_o withdraw_v the_o feeling_n of_o his_o presence_n to_o try_v our_o loyalty_n his_o holy_a will_v be_v do_v let_v we_o never_o say_v god_n will_v forsake_v we_o but_o say_v we_o will_v never_o forsake_v god_n let_v we_o first_o say_v do_v god_n love_v we_o who_o can_v doubt_v it_o and_o do_v we_o love_v he_o if_o we_o will_v we_o do_v let_v we_o never_o say_v we_o shall_v never_o amend_v all_o be_v lose_v but_o let_v we_o often_o say_v we_o be_v sinner_n wicked_a wretched_a weak_a none_o more_o than_o we_o but_o it_o true_o grieve_v we_o to_o be_v so_o we_o will_v endeavour_v to_o remedy_v all_o sure_o we_o be_v our_o god_n be_v almighty_a all-mercy_n all-meekness_n he_o we_o will_v serve_v and_o in_o he_o we_o will_v trust_v in_o despite_n of_o nature_n and_o maugre_o the_o devil_n and_o for_o he_o all_o desolation_n and_o death_n itself_o be_v most_o welcome_a unto_o we_o the_o 2._o doubt_n if_o our_o sin_n trouble_v we_o in_o respect_n of_o confession_n and_o satisfaction_n let_v we_o cast_v off_o servile_a fear_n and_o be_v confident_a that_o what_o be_v pass_v be_v pardon_v by_o god_n mercy_n and_o our_o humble_a confession_n &_o what_o be_v to_o come_v may_v be_v prevent_v by_o god_n grace_n and_o our_o diligence_n and_o endeavour_n the_o 3._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v neither_o pray_v with_o fervour_n nor_o suffer_v with_o patience_n neither_o feel_v god_n present_a nor_o be_v content_a in_o his_o absence_n let_v we_o have_v recourse_n to_o these_o four_o thing_n which_o will_v supply_v our_o defect_n and_o satisfy_v for_o our_o fault_n 1._o obedience_n 2._o resignation_n 3._o confidence_n 4._o good_a desire_n therefore_o in_o all_o our_o fear_n cross_n and_o trouble_n let_v we_o make_v use_n of_o these_o four_o point_n in_o this_o or_o practice_n the_o practice_n the_o like_a manner_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n who_o deserve_v from_o i_o all_o love_n and_o honour_n and_o who_o i_o desire_v to_o serve_v with_o all_o my_o soul_n behold_v i_o come_v out_o of_o confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n have_v no_o other_o end_n but_o only_o to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o wherefore_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o thy_o will_n beseech_v thou_o to_o turn_v all_o to_o thy_o glory_n and_o my_o good_a the_o 4._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v doubtful_a that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o we_o that_o we_o want_v grace_n that_o we_o only_o seek_v ourselves_o that_o we_o yield_v to_o all_o temptation_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o build_v upon_o these_o three_o foundation_n humility_n in_o acknowledge_v our_o own_o deformity_n sincerity_n in_o confess_v it_o and_o confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o it_o and_o so_o persevere_v constant_o and_o courageous_o in_o a_o course_n of_o prayer_n according_a to_o direction_n and_o obedience_n we_o shall_v soon_o find_v ease_n rest_n and_o peace_n the_o 5._o doubt_n if_o our_o conscience_n be_v unquiet_a and_o our_o soul_n fearful_a by_o reason_n of_o our_o proness_n to_o sin_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o apply_v these_o follow_a plaster_n and_o put_v these_o tent_n into_o our_o spiritual_a wound_n as_o deep_a as_o we_o can_v every_o day_n for_o a_o time_n till_o the_o cure_n be_v perfect_v 1._o let_v we_o be_v assure_v that_o we_o be_v conscience_n plaster_n for_o a_o trouble_a conscience_n now_o at_o this_o present_a in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n suppose_v we_o have_v already_o or_o be_v now_o resolve_v to_o do_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o the_o expiation_n of_o our_o past_a sin_n and_o the_o avoid_v all_o sin_n for_o the_o future_a 2._o that_o have_v a_o will_v to_o please_v god_n and_o perform_v our_o duty_n our_o prayer_n be_v profitable_a to_o we_o and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n and_o we_o may_v without_o presumption_n take_v courage_n and_o comfort_n though_o we_o be_v yet_o full_a of_o passion_n and_o â—mperfections_n 3._o that_o the_o feel_n of_o trouble_n fear_n temptation_n etc._n etc._n be_v neither_o sin_n in_o we_o nor_o sign_n of_o god_n anger_n against_o we_o 4._o that_o we_o be_v not_o bind_v to_o reflect_v continual_o whether_o we_o have_v consent_v to_o sin_n or_o not_o nor_o to_o judge_v whether_o this_o or_o that_o consent_n he_o mortal_a or_o venial_a nor_o to_o meddle_v with_o the_o sin_n of_o our_o
serious_o such_o remedy_n as_o be_v proper_a for_o the_o preservation_n of_o this_o jewel_n among_o which_o the_o chief_a be_v mortification_n of_o our_o rebellious_a flesh_n by_o austerity_n hence_o s._n thomas_n call_v chastity_n from_o chastise_v aquin._n s._n thomas_n of_o aquin._n it_o be_v better_a our_o stomach_n pain_n we_o than_o our_o conscience_n and_o that_o we_o lose_v health_n of_o body_n than_o purity_n of_o soul_n and_o salvation_n of_o both_o this_o remedy_n of_o mortification_n be_v absolute_o necessary_a when_o carnal_a motion_n arise_v first_o in_o the_o body_n and_o thence_o redound_v into_o the_o imagination_n but_o if_o from_o the_o fancy_n they_o descend_v to_o the_o body_n we_o be_v to_o apply_v these_o follow_a remedy_n 1._o let_v we_o avoid_v idleness_n 2._o let_v we_o negotium_fw-la amor_fw-la otiosorum_fw-mi negotium_fw-la change_v our_o employment_n if_o we_o be_v assault_v in_o company_n let_v we_o seek_v solitude_n if_o in_o solitude_n let_v we_o hasten_v into_o company_n etc._n etc._n 3._o silence_n temperance_n ephrem_fw-la s._n ephrem_fw-la and_o custody_n of_o sense_n be_v three_o powerful_a preserver_n of_o chastity_n 4._o let_v we_o make_v great_a account_n of_o little_a thing_n and_o shake_v off_o the_o first_o motion_n of_o this_o nature_n as_o we_o will_v a_o burn_a coal_n from_o off_o our_o new_a garment_n 5._o ler_n we_o humble_o but_o modest_o and_o discreet_o lie_v open_v their_o nature_n and_o manner_n to_o our_o spiritual_a guide_n 6._o let_v we_o careful_o avoid_v all_o suspect_a company_n familiarity_n meeting_n etc._n etc._n though_o our_o intention_n be_v never_o so_o spiritual_a 7._o let_v we_o strive_v rather_o to_o slight_v scorn_n and_o neglect_v these_o temptation_n than_o formal_o to_o resist_v they_o 5._o in_o vehement_a temptation_n 1._o make_v the_o sign_n of_o the_o cross_n upon_o your_o heart_n 2._o use_v some_o brief_a and_o burn_a aspiration_n as_o lord_n deliver_v i_o i_o suffer_v violence_n o_o my_o god_n answer_v for_o i_o i_o be_o thou_o o_o jesus_n body_n and_o soul_n help_v i_o 3._o defy_v the_o devil_n with_o st._n antony_n fie_o antony_n isay_n 38._o 14._o s._n antony_n beast_n thou_o be_v a_o angel_n i_o who_o be_o now_o a_o beast_n will_v aim_n to_o be_v a_o angel_n and_o get_v thy_o lose_a place_n be_v go_v the_o lodging_n be_v already_o take_v up_o jesus_n be_v here_o who_o be_v my_o lord_n and_o love_n i_o be_o preingage_v in_o a_o former_a and_o pure_a affection_n 6._o let_v we_o prepare_v beforehand_o certain_a place_n of_o refuge_n for_o our_o shelter_n and_o succour_v till_o the_o storm_n be_v pass_v over_o 1._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o his_o angel_n say_v how_o be_v it_o possible_a god_n see_v i_o and_o shall_v i_o sin_v in_o his_o sight_n 2._o death_n and_o eternity_n the_o delight_n be_v momentary_a the_o punishment_n be_v eternâ—lâ—_n death_n be_v at_o my_o door_n and_o shall_v i_o adventure_v 3._o christ_n sacred_a wound_n let_v we_o there_o hide_v and_o secure_v ourselves_o and_o say_v my_o god_n hang_v on_o the_o cross_n and_o shall_v i_o think_v of_o take_v my_o pleasure_n 4._o the_o love_n of_o god_n o_o jesu_n my_o love_n and_o my_o life_n i_o will_v either_o love_v thou_o or_o love_v nothing_o at_o all_o let_v i_o rather_o lose_v my_o life_n than_o thy_o love_n 5._o humility_n thou_o be_v just_a o_o my_o lord_n god_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v my_o pride_n be_v cause_n of_o this_o villainy_n which_o i_o feel_v etc._n etc._n and_o take_v chaste_a we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a this_o for_o a_o infallible_a truth_n we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a let_v we_o be_v obedient_a to_o our_o superior_n or_o let_v we_o not_o look_v to_o have_v our_o flesh_n obedient_a to_o our_o spirit_n 6._o devotion_n to_o saint_n excel_v in_o this_o virtue_n especial_o to_o the_o chaste_a virgin_n mary_n 7._o the_o last_o remedy_n be_v to_o make_v use_n of_o these_o antidote_n timely_a orderly_o and_o discreet_o without_o which_o no_o rule_n document_n or_o direction_n will_v aught_o avail_v we_o the_o 12._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v in_o extraordinary_a desolation_n and_o darkness_n we_o must_v live_v by_o faith_n in_o this_o case_n and_o know_v that_o a_o sensible_a choice_n of_o god_n and_o goodness_n be_v not_o now_o necessary_a but_o a_o rational_a adhere_n to_o he_o be_v sufficient_a our_o fidelity_n to_o god_n be_v show_v in_o the_o performance_n of_o our_o duty_n now_o as_o at_o other_o time_n without_o lose_v either_o our_o confidence_n in_o he_o or_o seek_v comfort_n in_o our_o suffering_n but_o aspire_v if_o not_o sweet_o yet_o sincere_o in_o this_o or_o the_o like_a manner_n lord_n i_o choose_v thou_o and_o accept_v of_o thy_o divine_a pleasure_n and_o providence_n in_o all_o thing_n i_o reject_v whatsoever_o may_v possess_v that_o place_n and_o dominion_n in_o my_o soul_n which_o be_v due_a to_o thou_o alone_o dispose_v of_o i_o and_o i_o as_o shall_v be_v most_o for_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n let_v i_o be_v either_o all_o thou_o or_o nothing_o at_o all_o the_o 13._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v tempt_v to_o despair_v of_o god_n mercy_n by_o reason_n of_o our_o frequent_a fall_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n this_o grievous_a malady_n spring_v from_o three_o cause_n or_o error_n for_o they_o who_o be_v trouble_v in_o this_o point_n do_v not_o true_o weigh_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v 2._o what_o sin_n be_v 3._o what_o contrition_n and_o sorrow_n of_o heart_n be_v 1._o almighty_a god_n be_v a_o boundless_a be_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v and_o bottomless_a sea_n of_o mercy_n he_o be_v natural_a bounty_n itself_o he_o be_v ever_o ready_a to_o receive_v revive_v and_o relieve_v a_o penitent_a soul_n though_o she_o alone_o have_v commit_v a_o thousand_o time_n a_o day_n the_o sin_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n he_o consider_v not_o what_o she_o have_v be_v but_o what_o she_o desire_v and_o resolve_v now_o to_o be_v and_o who_o so_o deny_v his_o power_n or_o will_v to_o pardon_v sinner_n as_o often_o as_o there_o be_v moment_n in_o time_n go_v about_o to_o deprive_v he_o of_o his_o honour_n and_o divinity_n itself_o for_o he_o can_v not_o be_v god_n if_o he_o be_v not_o good_a and_o faithful_a in_o his_o promise_n o_o love_a lord_n god_n who_o be_v not_o only_o ready_a to_o receive_v a_o penitent_n petition_n but_o even_o woo_v he_o to_o present_v it_o who_o can_v true_o consider_v what_o thou_o be_v and_o despair_v of_o thy_o mercy_n 2._o sin_n sin_n 2._o what_o sin_n be_v a_o voluntary_a and_o deliberate_a aversion_n from_o god_n and_o conversion_n to_o creature_n 3._o contrition_n be_v of_o that_o efficacy_n that_o it_o deliver_v from_o all_o sin_n contrition_n 3._o what_o contrition_n give_v confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o the_o past_a and_o courage_n to_o avoid_v it_o for_o the_o future_a let_v we_o apply_v this_o to_o our_o comfort_n the_o 14._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v perplex_v with_o great_a sadness_n this_o passion_n be_v a_o great_a hindrance_n to_o devotion_n and_o perfection_n it_o be_v the_o bait_n of_o the_o devil_n the_o bane_n of_o our_o spirit_n the_o root_n mother_n and_o nursery_n of_o infinite_a misery_n and_o mischief_n the_o chief_a cause_n of_o sadness_n nature_n the_o cause_n of_o sadness_n 1._o nature_n be_v these_o 1._o nature_n when_o melancholy_a over-sways_a the_o sanguine_a humour_n this_o can_v neither_o merit_n nor_o demerit_n but_o the_o devil_n take_v thereby_o occasion_n to_o fill_v our_o spirit_n with_o unquietness_n these_o have_v need_v aswell_o of_o corporal_a as_o spiritual_a physic_n 2._o a_o tenderness_n of_o heart_n and_o self-love_n 2._o self-love_n passionate_a love_n of_o ourselves_o we_o can_v brook_v the_o least_o contradiction_n etc._n etc._n but_o we_o sigh_v and_o sob_v as_o if_o all_o the_o world_n be_v interest_v in_o our_o misfortune_n and_o shall_v bear_v a_o part_n in_o our_o doleful_a ditty_n the_o remedy_n be_v to_o bid_v such_o weep_v on_o for_o their_o penance_n or_o use_v some_o coporall_a austerity_n 3._o a_o immortification_n of_o our_o passion_n which_o when_o we_o seek_v in_o passion_n 3._o passion_n good_a earnest_n to_o root_v out_o assault_v we_o so_o strong_o that_o it_o seem_v impossible_a to_o cure_v they_o and_o hence_o we_o grow_v sad_a the_o remedy_n be_v to_o conquer_v this_o bad_a nature_n by_o counsel_n courage_n and_o diligence_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o pray_v hearty_o suffer_v willing_o stoop_v humble_o it_o be_v for_o heaven_n we_o fight_v and_o suffer_v 4._o a_o secret_a root_n of_o pride_n vain_a pride_n 4._o secret_a pride_n esteem_n and_o false_a opinion_n we_o have_v of_o ourselves_o when_o thing_n fall_v not_o out_o according_a to_o our_o like_n expectation_n or_o importunate_a desire_n whereupon_o we_o grow_v sad_a and_o trouble_a
chief_a how_o can_v we_o but_o hope_v that_o he_o will_v be_v our_o jesus_n let_v we_o think_v thus_o god_n love_v we_o and_o we_o desire_v with_o all_o our_o heart_n to_o love_v he_o &_o we_o trust_v in_o his_o love_n and_o for_o it_o we_o will_v both_o sigh_v and_o suffer_v pray_v and_o obey_v deny_v ourselves_o and_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n this_o sauce_n will_v digest_v all_o our_o bitterness_n the_o 15._o doubt_n if_o we_o suspect_v that_o our_o sadness_n and_o temptation_n proceed_v from_o our_o own_o fault_n or_o negligence_n or_o some_o secret_a sin_n or_o our_o want_n of_o correspondency_n with_o god_n grace_n etc._n etc._n 1._o if_o it_o be_v so_o must_v we_o therefore_o complain_v and_o not_o rather_o the_o more_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o god_n will_v we_o have_v often_o deserve_v hell_n our_o past_a sin_n and_o present_a negligence_n merit_v eternal_a punishment_n and_o be_v it_o not_o a_o special_a favour_n to_o be_v punish_v in_o this_o life_n with_o small_a trouble_n and_o temptation_n this_o be_v not_o hell_n nor_o eternity_n of_o discomfort_n nor_o what_o we_o deseruâ—_v why_o then_o be_v we_o not_o both_o content_a and_o grateful_a 2._o in_o this_o fatherly_a chastisement_n there_o be_v both_o mercy_n and_o justice_n justice_n because_o we_o have_v often_o shut_v the_o door_n of_o our_o heart_n against_o god_n give_v a_o deaf_a ear_n to_o his_o call_n and_o therefore_o it_o be_v just_a that_o we_o shall_v now_o call_v and_o knock_v at_o the_o gate_n of_o his_o mercy_n and_o not_o be_v hear_v mercy_n because_o our_o suffering_n be_v small_a in_o comparison_n of_o our_o deserve_n if_o this_o be_v most_o true_a why_o lament_v we_o our_o misfortune_n be_v there_o any_o proportion_n between_o time_n and_o eternity_n betwixt_o this_o desolation_n and_o the_o never-ending_a lamentation_n of_o the_o damn_a in_o hell_n 3._o let_v we_o then_o receive_v and_o kiss_v his_o paternal_a rod_n with_o a_o filial_a reverence_n cry_v out_o with_o s._n augustin_n o_o augustin_n s._n augustin_n lord_n spare_v we_o not_o here_o so_o thou_o spare_v we_o hereafter_o we_o have_v merit_v hell_n and_o dare_v we_o ask_v sweetness_n in_o prayer_n o_o pride_n and_o presumption_n it_o be_v sufficient_a lord_n that_o thou_o admitte_v we_o into_o thy_o presence_n and_o permit_v we_o to_o open_v our_o unworthy_a mouth_n unto_o thou_o and_o lament_v our_o misery_n before_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o shall_v we_o have_v heart_n to_o murmur_n or_o tongue_n to_o complain_v of_o any_o usage_n the_o 16._o doubt_n if_o we_o doubt_v that_o god_n be_v displease_v with_o our_o prayer_n that_o our_o affliction_n befall_v we_o through_o our_o own_o occasion_n and_o can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o to_o think_v we_o have_v do_v what_o god_n require_v 1._o we_o must_v firm_o believe_v that_o beside_o our_o own_o fault_n which_o deserve_v it_o our_o chastisement_n be_v a_o disposition_n of_o the_o most_o high_a and_o holy_a providence_n of_o god_n who_o wisdom_n impart_v his_o blessing_n as_o he_o know_v best_o for_o his_o servant_n if_o all_o receive_v not_o spiritual_a gust_n and_o joy_n in_o prayer_n let_v they_o say_v with_o s._n bernard_n give_v i_o o_o lord_n simplicity_n bernard_n s._n bernard_n humility_n and_o charity_n but_o for_o high_a favour_n as_o i_o be_o unworthy_a of_o they_o so_o i_o be_o uncapable_a to_o make_v use_n of_o they_o i_o leave_v they_o therefore_o for_o thy_o special_a friend_n and_o favourite_n 2._o let_v we_o therefore_o conceive_v these_o affliction_n to_o be_v send_v we_o from_o god_n 1._o to_o humble_v we_o for_o shall_v he_o visit_v we_o with_o great_a light_n and_o elevate_v we_o in_o contemplation_n we_o shall_v present_o take_v complacency_n in_o our_o imaginary_a devotion_n and_o prefer_v ourselves_o before_o other_o 2._o to_o try_v our_o fidelity_n and_o perseverance_n in_o his_o love_n for_o the_o chief_a end_n of_o prayer_n be_v to_o obey_v and_o please_v god_n and_o offer_v he_o all_o that_o we_o be_v and_o have_v but_o to_o receive_v relief_n and_o comfort_n be_v only_o the_o secondary_a end_n 3._o let_v we_o further_o consider_v that_o this_o very_a internal_a trouble_n and_o anguish_n may_v and_o aught_o to_o comfort_v we_o as_o be_v a_o token_n of_o god_n love_n for_o love_n be_v the_o first_o wheel_n of_o our_o natural_a and_o spiritual_a clock_n set_v all_o the_o other_o passion_n a_o work_n if_o therefore_o we_o grieve_v that_o we_o serve_v god_n so_o tepid_o etc._n etc._n this_o grief_n proceed_v of_o love_n and_o be_v a_o evident_a sign_n of_o a_o good_a will_n to_o serve_v he_o 4._o let_v we_o ground_n ourselves_o in_o that_o often_o repeat_v maxim_n that_o all_o thing_n do_v not_o only_o befall_v we_o by_o god_n permission_n but_o also_o that_o he_o send_v they_o for_o our_o good_a and_o therefore_o let_v we_o say_v with_o confident_a and_o courageous_a judith_n take_v heart_n for_o our_o 27._o jud._n 8._o 27._o god_n have_v send_v we_o these_o affliction_n to_o amend_v we_o and_o not_o to_o destroy_v we_o the_o 17._o doubt_n if_o nature_n have_v show_v herself_n a_o stepmother_n unto_o we_o in_o give_v we_o a_o hard_a and_o harsh_a disposition_n whence_o proceed_v a_o reluctancy_n to_o work_n of_o virtue_n and_o mortification_n of_o vice_n so_o that_o we_o distrust_v of_o ever_o overcome_v ourselves_o let_v we_o take_v courage_n the_o violent_a 12_o mat._n 11._o 12_o get_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n and_o let_v we_o lay_v hold_n on_o these_o two_o truth_n 1._o that_o god_n will_v be_v all_o shall_v save_v two_o verity_n 1._o god_n will_v be_v that_o all_o shall_v be_v save_v be_v save_v and_o therefore_o give_v every_o one_o sufficient_a grace_n and_o mean_n to_o that_o end_n if_o then_o we_o have_v the_o worst_a nature_n in_o the_o world_n and_o do_v but_o correspond_v diligent_o with_o that_o grace_n which_o god_n give_v we_o we_o have_v no_o reason_n at_o all_o to_o fear_v let_v we_o fight_v valiant_o under_o christ_n our_o good_a captain_n with_o the_o armour_n of_o prayer_n and_o mortification_n and_o not_o cease_v to_o be_v his_o soldier_n as_o long_o as_o any_o blood_n and_o breath_n remain_v in_o our_o body_n let_v we_o learn_v to_o discover_v and_o then_o as_o other_o do_v to_o detest_v our_o own_o peevish_a and_o perverse_a disposition_n let_v we_o not_o flatter_v ourselves_o but_o lay_v the_o axe_n to_o the_o root_n not_o to_o the_o branch_n to_o wit_n resolve_v to_o humble_v our_o proud_a heart_n in_o all_o occasion_n with_o courage_n constancy_n &_o confidence_n for_o one_o year_n and_o we_o shall_v find_v more_o peace_n and_o quiet_a than_o we_o can_v imagine_v if_o we_o sweat_v drop_n of_o blood_n it_o be_v for_o eternity_n where_o not_o one_o drop_n shall_v be_v lose_v nor_o one_o wound_n uncounted_a nor_o one_o soldier_n uncrowned_a 2._o that_o to_o have_v bad_a nature_n and_o etc._n 2._o bad_a nature_n be_v no_o sin_n etc._n etc._n to_o feel_v motion_n against_o grace_n reason_n etc._n etc._n be_v neither_o sin_n nor_o imperfection_n so_o long_o as_o we_o yield_v not_o our_o consent_n to_o their_o lead_n etc._n etc._n the_o 18._o doubt_n if_o on_o the_o contrary_a our_o nature_n be_v so_o facile_a and_o flexible_a that_o we_o scaree_o find_v difficulty_n in_o any_o thing_n we_o wonder_v to_o hear_v mention_n of_o rebellion_n contradiction_n desolation_n etc._n etc._n from_o all_o which_o we_o be_v secure_a and_o quiet_a and_o therefore_o we_o fear_v our_o action_n be_v rather_o of_o a_o natural_a promptitude_n than_o solid_a virtue_n it_o be_v true_a that_o devotion_n and_o perfection_n consist_v not_o in_o this_o external_a quiet_a and_o ease_n but_o in_o the_o victory_n over_o ourselves_o in_o habit_n of_o solid_a virtue_n in_o pure_a charity_n and_o indifferency_n we_o be_v therefore_o in_o peace_n a_o dangerous_a peace_n this_o case_n to_o humble_v ourselves_o and_o to_o conceive_v we_o know_v not_o what_o mortification_n and_o abnegation_n mean_v what_o marvel_n if_o a_o 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wherein_o we_o judge_v amiss_o and_o whereupon_o we_o ground_n our_o particular_a fear_n for_o that_o be_v the_o easy_a way_n to_o remove_v they_o 8._o let_v we_o weigh_v the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n we_o the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n which_o must_v cure_v we_o which_o must_v cure_v our_o disease_n to_o wit_n first_o the_o infinite_a goodness_n of_o god_n and_o christ_n merit_n and_o what_o soul_n can_v fear_v have_v so_o gracious_a a_o god_n and_o so_o great_a a_o ransom_n 2._o the_o credit_n and_o compassion_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o the_o prayer_n and_o patronage_n of_o saint_n and_o angel_n who_o be_v secure_a for_o themselves_o be_v solicitous_a for_o we_o 3._o the_o testimony_n and_o sweet_a promise_n of_o holy_a scripture_n for_o how_o often_o have_v god_n tell_v we_o i_o be_o prone_a to_o pity_v i_o be_o ready_a to_o receive_v sinner_n i_o will_v help_v they_o who_o do_v their_o endeavour_n if_o therefore_o he_o deny_v not_o his_o mercy_n to_o they_o that_o 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good_a how_o dare_v we_o trust_v our_o soul_n upon_o his_o warrant_n gerson_n answer_v thou_o wiâ—e_v answer_n gerson_n answer_n judger_n i_o say_v thou_o err_v and_o aâ—â—_n deceive_v for_o thou_o have_v not_o commit_v thyself_o and_o thy_o soul_n to_o a_o man_n because_o of_o his_o discretion_n and_o learning_n but_o to_o god_n himself_o and_o for_o his_o love_n thou_o obeye_v man_n because_o he_o be_v by_o he_o ordain_v thy_o prelate_n and_o superior_n therefore_o our_o obedience_n will_v be_v oftentimes_o so_o much_o more_o please_v to_o god_n and_o profitable_a to_o our_o soul_n by_o how_o much_o more_o infirm_a and_o unworthy_a he_o be_v who_o we_o refuse_v not_o to_o obey_v for_o god_n sake_n the_o other_o difficulty_n be_v if_o we_o difficulty_n the_o second_o difficulty_n can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o that_o we_o do_v our_o best_a endeavour_n nor_o know_v that_o we_o have_v perform_v our_o duty_n s._n thomas_n answer_v we_o must_v answer_n st._n thomas_n answer_n first_o remove_v that_o which_o hinder_v grace_n to_o wit_n sin_n 2._o we_o must_v convert_v our_o heart_n from_o creature_n to_o our_o creator_n in_o a_o word_n we_o must_v detest_v sin_n and_o choose_v god_n and_o follow_v his_o ordinary_a mean_n appoint_v in_o his_o church_n for_o our_o direction_n and_o this_o be_v the_o summary_n of_o our_o duty_n the_o 22._o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v we_o detest_v not_o sin_n sufficient_o because_o we_o feel_v not_o so_o great_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n as_o we_o do_v sometime_o for_o a_o temporal_a loss_n let_v we_o assure_v ourselves_o first_o we_o can_v never_o have_v so_o much_o sorrow_n for_o our_o sin_n as_o god_n justice_n in_o rigour_n require_v 2._o god_n do_v not_o exact_v it_o of_o we_o because_o it_o be_v not_o in_o our_o power_n 3._o true_a sorrow_n consist_v not_o in_o feeling_n but_o in_o reason_n and_o freewill_n 4._o it_o be_v better_a to_o have_v sorrow_n sometime_o only_o in_o desire_n than_o feeling_n 5._o it_o be_v not_o necessary_a this_o corporal_a or_o sensible_a grief_n be_v so_o great_a for_o spiritual_a as_o for_o temporal_a loss_n but_o it_o suffice_v to_o use_v humane_a and_o moral_a diligence_n with_o firm_a purpose_n of_o a_o void_a sin_n 6._o it_o l_v dangerous_a to_o make_v such_o comparison_n and_o reflection_n for_o weak_a and_o fearful_a conscience_n as_o if_o such_o a_o thing_n shall_v happen_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v shall_v i_o rather_o choose_v death_n than_o such_o a_o sin_n and_o the_o like_a i_o say_v there_o be_v no_o obligation_n to_o make_v such_o act_n the_o 23._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v ground_v ourselves_o in_o a_o firm_a hope_n of_o mercy_n for_o that_o we_o be_v so_o frail_a and_o inconstant_a we_o sin_v daily_o and_o amend_v not_o our_o life_n we_o receive_v god_n blessing_n and_o repay_v ill_a for_o good_a we_o promise_v protest_v and_o vow_v fidelity_n and_o practice_v nothing_o less_o tell_v i_o afflict_a soul_n shall_v you_o see_v christ_n die_v daily_o for_o your_o daily_a sin_n will_v you_o despair_v of_o mercy_n even_o so_o efficacious_a be_v his_o former_a death_n if_o you_o fall_v hourly_o rise_v again_o courageous_o and_o purpose_n to_o stand_v more_o constant_o and_o fear_v nothing_o but_o draw_v humility_n out_o of_o your_o frailty_n say_v whereof_o be_o i_o proud_a now_o where_o be_v my_o strong_a resolution_n why_o do_v i_o judge_v other_o who_o be_v so_o feeble_a sickle_n frail_a as_o i_o be_o o_o lord_n this_o be_v the_o worm_n that_o be_v so_o proud_a then_o cast_v â—ll_o into_o christ_n sacred_a wound_n and_o leave_v all_o there_o go_v on_o with_o as_o much_o quiet_a and_o confidence_n as_o if_o you_o have_v not_o sin_v the_o 24._o doubt_n if_o we_o go_v not_o on_o which_o the_o alacrity_n because_o we_o know_v not_o that_o our_o sin_n be_v forgive_v that_o our_o confession_n be_v good_a and_o that_o we_o be_v in_o state_n of_o grace_n we_o must_v take_v notice_n that_o in_o seek_v these_o assurance_n we_o may_v oftentimes_o direct_o lose_v they_o 1._o in_o seek_v they_o too_o eager_o and_o unquiet_o 2._o in_o be_v self-lover_n and_o unwilling_a to_o be_v trouble_v 3._o in_o be_v ignorant_a of_o what_o we_o be_v bind_v to_o know_v for_o it_o seem_v we_o conceive_v those_o work_n nothing_o worth_a which_o be_v perform_v without_o gust_n content_n satisfaction_n to_o ourselves_o and_o quiet_a the_o way_n than_o be_v brief_o this_o 1._o to_o seek_v true_a peace_n 2._o in_o god_n 3._o from_o his_o mercy_n not_o our_o own_o industry_n 4._o to_o be_v resign_v to_o want_v peace_n if_o he_o please_v 5._o to_o omit_v nothing_o we_o will_v or_o shall_v do_v by_o reason_n of_o the_o trouble_n we_o feel_v the_o 25._o doubt_n though_o we_o can_v in_o this_o life_n assure_v ourselves_o infallible_o to_o be_v in_o good_a estate_n yet_o if_o we_o can_v comfort_v ourselves_o with_o most_o probable_a token_n of_o grace_n whereby_o we_o may_v feel_v the_o pulse_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o somewhat_o ease_v our_o anguish_n saint_n thomas_n and_o s._n bernard_n assign_v bernard_n 4._o sign_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n out_o of_o s._n tho._n and_o bernard_n these_o four_o sign_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n 1._o to_o feel_v a_o ready_a willingness_n in_o our_o heart_n to_o hear_v god_n word_n and_o to_o learn_v the_o mean_n to_o love_n and_o serve_v he_o 2._o to_o feel_v a_o forwardness_n to_o do_v good_a work_n 3._o to_o feel_v a_o hearty_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n 4._o to_o feel_v a_o firm_a purpose_n to_o avoid_v all_o sin_n gerson_n add_v a_o five_o who_o so_o can_v verity_n a_o â—_o out_o of_o gerson_n to_o pronounce_v these_o three_o verity_n pronounce_v hearty_o and_o sincere_o these_o three_o verity_n though_o he_o have_v commit_v all_o sin_n and_o shall_v be_v prevent_v with_o sudden_a death_n let_v he_o secure_v himself_o he_o be_v in_o state_n of_o grace_n the_o first_o verity_n o_o lord_n if_o in_o soul_n oh_o that_o we_o will_v often_o recite_v these_o three_o truth_n especial_o when_o we_o feel_v our_o conscience_n burden_a what_o infinite_a profit_n and_o comfort_n will_v redound_v to_o our_o soul_n this_o or_o that_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o thy_o goodness_n it_o true_o displease_v and_o grieve_v i_o and_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o do_v penance_n for_o it_o because_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o who_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o honour_n and_o have_v transgress_v thy_o law_n and_o will_n which_o be_v most_o holy_a just_a and_o reasonable_a the_o second_o verity_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v a_o good_a purpose_n and_o desire_v by_o thy_o grace_n to_o take_v heed_n i_o fall_v not_o into_o sin_n again_o and_o to_o avoid_v to_o my_o power_n the_o occasion_n thereof_o and_o to_o mortify_v my_o passion_n and_o bad_a
inclination_n the_o three_o verity_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v a_o good_a will_n and_o purpose_n to_o confess_v my_o sin_n entire_o in_o due_a time_n and_o place_n according_a to_o thy_o ordinance_n and_o that_o of_o thy_o holy_a church_n we_o may_v add_v to_o these_o the_o devout_a frequentation_n sign_n three_o other_o sign_n of_o the_o sacrament_n which_o give_v life_n and_o justify_v grace_n the_o warrant_n of_o a_o skilful_a guide_n and_o a_o lively_a confidence_n in_o the_o divine_a bounty_n the_o 26._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o know_v not_o well_o when_o we_o give_v consent_n to_o sinful_a thought_n 1._o if_o when_o the_o thought_n be_v represent_v sin_n rule_v to_o know_v when_o we_o consent_v to_o sin_n we_o present_o fly_v to_o the_o crucifix_n expel_v it_o disdain_v it_o dislike_v it_o it_o be_v not_o sin_n but_o merit_n 2._o but_o if_o we_o careless_o linger_v in_o it_o when_o well_o perceive_v it_o be_v venial_a 3._o and_o if_o we_o consent_v to_o the_o thought_n and_o desire_v the_o action_n our_o sin_n be_v equal_a to_o the_o act_n if_o it_o be_v commit_v 4._o but_o if_o we_o intend_v not_o the_o act_n but_o linger_v delightful_o in_o the_o thought_n and_o the_o thing_n itself_o be_v mortal_a and_o deliberate_o entertain_v it_o be_v also_o mortal_a the_o 27._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v well_o distinguish_v between_o venial_a and_o mortal_a sin_n 1._o what_o need_v we_o determine_v let_v we_o confess_v it_o as_o it_o be_v commit_v 2._o mortal_a sin_n can_v be_v commit_v without_o great_a corruption_n of_o he_o who_o commit_v it_o or_o great_a hurt_n to_o his_o neighbour_n or_o great_a contempt_n and_o neglect_n of_o god_n say_v richardas_n a_o s._n victore_fw-la and_o s._n thomas_n thomas_n rich._n à _fw-fr s._n victore_fw-la s._n thomas_n say_v he_o sin_v mortal_o who_o total_a intention_n of_o mind_n be_v withdraw_v from_o god_n who_o be_v our_o last_o end_n 3._o let_v we_o conclude_v with_o s._n augustin_n gerson_n s._n august_n gerson_n and_o gerson_n that_o it_o be_v dangerous_a even_o in_o prelate_n and_o confessor_n to_o define_v what_o be_v mortal_a sin_n or_o give_v rule_n therein_o the_o 28._o doubt_n if_o that_o say_n of_o divine_n terrify_v eligenda_fw-la faciens_fw-la contra_fw-la dubium_fw-la incidit_fw-la in_o peccatum_fw-la in_o dubiis_fw-la securior_fw-la pars_fw-la est_fw-la eligenda_fw-la we_o he_o that_o do_v against_o his_o doubt_n sin_n and_o in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a the_o secure_a part_n be_v to_o be_v choose_v we_o may_v in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a secure_o follow_v a_o probable_a opinion_n now_o scruple_n be_v not_o doubt_n but_o false_a apprehension_n and_o therefore_o on_o all_o side_n we_o may_v and_o sometime_o must_v go_v against_o our_o own_o erroneous_a conscience_n especial_o when_o obedience_n command_v it_o let_v we_o therefore_o with_o s._n augustin_n incertum_fw-la s._n augustin_n tene_fw-la certum_fw-la dimitte_n incertum_fw-la lay_v hold_v of_o that_o which_o be_v certain_a and_o let_v go_v the_o uncertain_a and_o what_o way_n be_v more_o sure_a and_o secure_a than_o obedience_n the_o 29._o and_o last_o doubt_n if_o final_o we_o be_v apprehensive_a and_o fearful_a lest_o we_o shall_v grow_v weary_a in_o the_o way_n of_o virtue_n and_o not_o persevere_v constant_o in_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n let_v we_o excite_v our_o tepidity_n by_o the_o frequent_a perusal_n of_o this_o follow_a discourse_n and_o practice_v according_o the_o patriarch_n jacob_n in_o hope_n of_o obtain_v the_o beautiful_a rachel_n serve_v laban_n seven_o year_n with_o diligence_n and_o patience_n but_o be_v cozen_v by_o that_o disloyal_a worldling_n with_o ill_a favour_a lia_n what_o do_v he_o he_o neither_o lose_v courage_n nor_o confidence_n but_o with_o new_a constancy_n begin_v his_o other_o seven_o year_n service_n with_o such_o admirable_a alacrity_n and_o a_o heart_n so_o fix_v upon_o his_o desire_a reward_n that_o the_o time_n seem_v 29._o gen._n 29._o but_o a_o week_n to_o he_o o_o my_o soul_n thou_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o eternal_a beatitude_n consist_v essential_o in_o the_o bless_a vision_n and_o fruition_n of_o god_n signify_v by_o rachel_n according_a to_o s._n bernard_n for_o bernard_n s._n bernard_n this_o thou_o have_v bind_v thyself_o to_o serve_v god_n but_o alas_o the_o world_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o devil_n do_v so_o often_o beguile_v &_o blind_v thou_o that_o thou_o take_v blear-eyed_a lia_n for_o beautiful_a rachel_n the_o world_n for_o heaven_n the_o flesh_n for_o the_o spirit_n and_o diabolical_a illusion_n for_o divine_a inspiration_n but_o what_o lose_v not_o courage_n nor_o confidence_n renew_v thy_o protestation_n of_o loyal_a service_n serve_v god_n one_o other_o seven_o year_n suffer_v another_o slavery_n to_o get_v heaven_n to_o die_v in_o final_a grace_n and_o to_o be_v eternal_o join_v to_o that_o bless_a beauty_n thou_o love_v follow_v jesus_n to_o mount_v calvary_n to_o consummatum_fw-la est_fw-la 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