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assay_v to_o speak_v of_o thou_o and_o yet_o wo_n to_o they_o who_o in_o thy_o praise_n be_v silent_a though_o in_o it_o they_o be_v no_o more_o than_o mute_a who_o be_v most_o eloquent_a nothing_o eloquent_a or_o whereln_n the_o very_a dumb_a say_v something_o and_o such_o as_o say_v most_o say_v nothing_o chap._n v._n o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v that_o i_o may_v for_o ever_o repose_v and_o acquiesce_v in_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o have_v my_o soul_n wholly-poss_a with_o and_o inebriate_v by_o they_z so_o to_o enjoy_v a_o eternal_a oblivion_n of_o all_o past_a evil_n and_o the_o perpetual_a embrace_n of_o thou_o my_o only_a good_a and_o in_o this_o so_o much_o on_o both_o side_n longed-for_a union_n what_o good_a be_v thou_o to_o i_o let_v thy_o mercy_n indulge_v i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o or_o what_o good_a be_o i_o to_o thou_o that_o thou_o exact_a of_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v love_v thou_o and_o if_o i_o do_v it_o not_o be_v high_o displease_v and_o threaten_v to_o 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judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o if_o thou_o lord_n shall_v mark_v iniquity_n 130.3_o psal_n 130.3_o o_o lord_n who_o shall_v abide_v it_o chap_n vi._n a_o account*_n of_o st._n augustine_n infancy_n nourish_v and_o sustain_v by_o the_o divine_a providence_n yet_o suffer_v i_o thy_o justice_n lay_v aside_o to_o speak_v unto_o thy_o mercy_n 18.27_o gen._n 18.27_o i_o dust_n and_o ash_n yet_o suffer_v i_o to_o speak_v be_v it_o be_v unto_o the_o mercy_n of_o my_o god_n i_o speak_v and_o not_o to_o man_n so_o apt_a to_o scoff_n at_o i_o and_o perhaps_o thou_o also_o for_o the_o present_a lâ—â—â—liest_a at_o i_o 25.16_o psal_n 25.16_o but_o in_o
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in_o the_o air_n etc._n etc._n be_v more_o to_o purpose_n than_o five_o element_n colourable_o diversify_v to_o suit_v the_o five_o cave_n of_o darkness_n which_o be_v mere_a nothing_o in_o themselves_o yet_o mortal_a to_o those_o who_o believe_v they_o but_o my_o verse_n and_o my_o poetry_n i_o exercise_v on_o the_o element_n that_o true_o be_v so_o and_o for_o medea_n fly_v i_o neither_o believe_v it_o sing_v nor_o sing_v it_o to_o be_v believe_v but_o the_o other_o i_o believe_v alas_o alas_o by_o what_o stair_n be_v i_o convey_v into_o the_o depth_n of_o hell_n 9.18_o prov._n 9.18_o for_o toil_a and_o sweat_v in_o quest_n of_o still-wanted_n truth_n whilst_o i_o seek_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n for_o to_o thou_o
quickness_n of_o apprehension_n and_o subtlety_n of_o reason_v be_v thy_o gift_n though_o i_o do_v not_o sacrifice_v my_o due_a acknowledgement_n thereof_o unto_o thou_o therefore_o serve_v it_o not_o for_o my_o use_n but_o my_o perdition_n rather_o 15.12_o luke_n 15.12_o because_o i_o desire_v to_o have_v that_o so_o liberal_a a_o part_n of_o my_o portion_n in_o my_o own_o hand_n and_o do_v not_o preserve_v my_o strength_n for_o thy_o service_n but_o go_v far_o from_o thou_o into_o a_o remote_a country_n that_o i_o may_v waste_v it_o upon_o meretricious_a delight_n for_o â–³_o what_o profit_v it_o i_o so_o good_a a_o thing_n not_o right_o employ_v for_o i_o perceive_v not_o that_o thâ—â—â—_n art_n â—ven_v by_o the_o studious_a and_o ingenious_a be_v so_o difficult_o understand_v till_o afterward_o i_o go_v about_o to_o teach_v these_o unto_o they_o when_o he_o be_v account_v most_o excellent_a among_o they_o that_o be_v lesse-slow_o capable_a of_o those_o my_o exposition_n but_o yet_o â–³_o what_o do_v this_o profit_n i_o meanwhile_o imagine_v that_o thou_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n who_o be_v the_o truth_n be_v only_o a_o lucid_n and_o immense_a body_n and_o that_o myself_o be_v a_o piece_n of_o that_o lump_n perverseness_n too_o great_a but_o so_o it_o be_v with_o i_o nor_o will_v i_o now_o blush_v to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o my_o god_n thy_o mercy_n towards_o i_o and_o to_o call_v upon_o thou_o who_o then_o blush_v not_o to_o profess_v to_o man_n my_o blasphemy_n and_o to_o bark_v against_o thou_o â–³_o what_o then_o profit_v i_o *_o that_o my_o wit_n in_o all_o those_o science_n so_o nimble_a and_o *_o so_o many_o knotty_a book_n without_o any_o humane_a assistance_n so_o easy_o unfold_v by_o i_o when_o i_o so_o foul_o and_o sacrilegious_o err_v in_o the_o doctrine_n of_o piety_n or_o what_o hindrance_n be_v a_o far_o slow_a capacity_n to_o those_o thy_o little_a one_o that_o never_o stray_v far_o from_o thou_o but_o within_o the_o nest_n of_o thy_o church_n secure_o feather_v themselves_o and_o have_v the_o wing_n of_o their_o charity_n nourish_v with_o a_o orthodox_n faith_n o_o lord_n our_o god_n let_v we_o ever_o trust_v in_o the_o overspread_n of_o thy_o wing_n cover_v thou_o we_o with_o they_o and_o bear_v thou_o we_o upon_o they_o 4._o isa_n 46.3_o 4._o bear_v we_o both_o when_o thy_o young_a one_o and_o when_o never_o so_o age_v carry_v we_o on_o they_o still_o because_o our_o infirmity_n when_o thou_o be_v with_o it_o be_v strength_n and_o our_o strength_n when_o it_o be_v only_o our_o own_o be_v infirmity_n and_o all_o our_o good_a life_n always_o only_o with_o thou_o and_o because_o we_o turn_v away_o from_o thou_o we_o lose_v it_o let_v we_o now_o return_v unto_o thou_o o_o lord_n that_o we_o may_v repossess_v it_o for_o with_o thou_o live_v our_o good_a still_o without_o any_o decay_n thereof_o for_o thou_o thyself_o art_n it_o and_o we_o need_v not_o fear_n lest_o at_o our_o return_n our_o former_a habitation_n shall_v be_v ruin_v and_o demolish_v for_o we_o indeed_o in_o depart_v from_o thence_o fall_n and_o come_v to_o ruin_n but_o our_o house_n in_o this_o our_o absence_n which_o be_v thy_o eternity_n can_v never_o fall_v lib_fw-la v._o chap._n i._n oblation_n of_o his_o confession_n to_o god_n their_o end_n be_v to_o set_v forth_o his_o praise_n accept_v o_o lord_n the_o sacrifice_n of_o these_o my_o confession_n offer_v unto_o thou_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o my_o tongue_n 35.10_o psal_n 35.10_o make_v and_o move_v by_o thou_o to_o confess_v unto_o thy_o name_n and_o heal_v thou_o all_o my_o bone_n that_o they_o may_v say_v o_o lord_n who_o be_v like_a unto_o thou_o it_o be_v not_o at_o all_o to_o teach_v thou_o that_o which_o be_v do_v within_o he_o when_o any_o one_o confess_v it_o unto_o thou_o for_o the_o closeness_n of_o the_o heart_n exclude_v not_o thy_o eye_n nor_o the_o hardness_n of_o it_o repel_v thy_o hand_n but_o that_o thou_o do_v often_o in_o pity_n and_o otherwile_v also_o in_o vengeance_n melt_v and_o dissolve_v it_o at_o pleasure_n and_o there_o be_v nothing_o hide_v from_o thy_o heat_n 19.6_o psa_fw-la 19.6_o but_o yet_o let_v my_o soul_n be_v still_o praise_v and_o speak_v good_a of_o thou_o that_o for_o this_o it_o may_v love_v thou_o and_o let_v it_o be_v confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o that_o for_o they_o it_o may_v praise_v thou_o the_o whole_a creation_n cease_v not_o nor_o rest_v from_o praise_v thou_o both_o every_o spirit_n by_o their_o own_o mouth_n turn_v immediate_o upon_o thou_o and_o all_o corporeal_v also_o live_v or_o inanimate_a by_o the_o mouth_n of_o those_o who_o in_o they_o contemplate_v thy_o wisdom_n that_o so_o our_o weary_a and_o sick_a soul_n may_v thus_o erect_v itself_o and_o move_v towards_o thou_o and_o lean_v on_o the_o thing_n which_o thou_o have_v make_v may_v by_o they_o be_v conduct_v unto_o thou_o who_o make_v they_o all_o so_o admirable_o and_o there_o find_v refection_n and_o true_a strength_n chap._n ii_o invitation_n of_o all_o other_o stray_a sinner_n to_o return_v to_o the_o omnipotent_a god_n by_o confession_n the_o wicked_a discontent_a and_o restless_a may_v depart_v and_o fly_v from_o thou_o but_o still_o thou_o see_v they_o and_o divide_v the_o darkness_n 1.4.31_o gen._n 1.4.31_o and_o behold_v all_o thing_n round_o about_o they_o be_v still_o fair_a and_o lovely_a in_o thy_o sight_n only_o themselves_o deform_v for_o alas_o in_o thus_o abandon_v thou_o how_o have_v they_o hurt_v or_o frustrate_v thou_o at_o all_o or_o any_o way_n discompose_v thy_o absolute_a empire_n from_o the_o high_a heaven_n to_o the_o low_a abyss_n just_a and_o entire_a for_o whither_o flee_v they_o when_o they_o flee_v from_o before_o thy_o face_n or_o where_o be_v they_o not_o discover_v by_o thou_o they_o flee_v only_o 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o *_o that_o themselves_o may_v not_o see_v thou_o when_o see_v they_o and_o may_v yet_o blindfold_a still_o run_v against_o thou_o who_o never_o departe_v from_o any_o of_o the_o thing_n make_v by_o thou_o *_o that_o they_o be_v unjust_a may_v run_v against_o thou_o and_o so_o be_v just_o hurt_v by_o thou_o withdraw_v from_o thy_o lenity_n and_o softness_n and_o so_o dash_v against_o thy_o uprightness_n and_o fall_v upon_o thy_o sharpness_n ignorant_a that_o thou_o who_o be_v circumscribe_v by_o no_o place_n be_v yet_o in_o every_o place_n and_o the_o only_o he_o that_o be_v present_a to_o those_o who_o be_v far_o from_o thou_o let_v they_o then_o return_v and_o let_v they_o seek_v thou_o because_o though_o they_o have_v leave_v thou_o their_o creator_n yet_o have_v not_o thou_o leave_v thy_o creature_n let_v they_o then_o return_v only_o and_o seek_v thou_o and_o lo_o thou_o be_v present_a in_o their_o heart_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o all_o those_o who_o make_v confession_n unto_o thou_o and_o cast_v themselves_o upon_o thou_o and_o in_o thy_o bosom_n deplore_v their_o former_a vexatious_a deviation_n and_o then_o how_o will_v thou_o indulgent_a wipe_v off_o again_o such_o tear_n from_o their_o eye_n and_o this_o wipe_v also_o provoke_v more_o tear_n and_o make_v they_o to_o joy_n in_o these_o sorrowing_n because_o thou_o o_o lord_n and_o not_o man_n flesh_n and_o blood_n but_o thou_o o_o lord_n that_o creat_v they_o do_v thus_o recreate_v and_o comfort_v they_o where_o be_v i_o then_o when_o i_o seek_v for_o thou_o for_o thou_o be_v just_a before_o i_o but_o i_o be_v stray_v from_o myself_o and_o not_o able_a to_o find_v myself_o much_o less_o can_v i_o find_v thou_o chap._n iii_o the_o passage_n of_o the_o 29_o year_n of_o his_o age_n the_o come_n of_o faustus_n a_o eloquent_a manichean_a bishop_n to_o carthage_n the_o philosopher_n tenant_n in_o the_o science_n find_v much_o more_o probable_a than_o the_o manichean_o i_o will_v now_o recount_v before_o my_o god_n the_o story_n of_o the_o tweny-ninth_a year_n of_o my_o age_n there_o be_v then_o come_v to_o carâ—haâ—e_v a_o mani_n hâ—an_n bishop_n call_v faustus_n a_o great_a snare_n of_o the_o devil_n be_v and_o many_o be_v catch_v by_o the_o sweet_a bait_n of_o his_o smooth_a tongue_n which_o though_o i_o also_o much_o rellish_v in_o he_o yet_o can_v i_o well_o distinguish_v it_o from_o the_o verity_n of_o the_o thing_n which_o i_o desire_v to_o learn_v of_o he_o examine_v only_o what_o nourish_v provision_n of_o science_n he_o set_v before_o i_o and_o not_o in_o how_o rich_a a_o dish_n of_o language_n he_o serve_v it_o up_o for_o fame_n have_v before_o report_v he_o most_o know_v in_o all_o excellent_a learning_n and_o exquisite_o skill_v in_o the_o liberal_a arts._n and_o i_o have_v read_v former_o and_o still_o retain_v in_o memory_n much_o of_o the_o philosopher_n tenant_n begin_v to_o compare_v those_o with_o these_o long_a fable_n
do_v unto_o i_o *_o by_o vain_a man_n only_o take_v with_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o die_a life_n by_o some_o on_o one_o side_n do_v mad_a thing_n and_o some_o on_o the_o other_o side_n promise_v vain_a *_o and_o thus_o to_o reform_v my_o present_a ill_a course_n thou_o secret_o make_v use_v of_o both_o their_o and_o my_o own_o faulty_a inclination_n for_o both_o those_o who_o thus_o disturb_v my_o quiet_n be_v blind_v with_o a_o sottish_a madness_n and_o those_o who_o invite_v my_o removal_n favour_v only_o earthly_a advantage_n and_o myself_o who_o loathe_v my_o present_a misery_n yet_o court_v elsewhere_o but_o a_o false_a felicity_n but_o another_o end_n why_o i_o shall_v leave_v this_o place_n and_o go_v to_o that_o thou_o then_o well_o know_v my_o god_n neither_o show_v thou_o it_o to_o i_o nor_o to_o my_o mother_n who_o miserable_o lament_v my_o departure_n and_o follow_v i_o to_o the_o seaside_n that_o either_o she_o may_v yet_o reduce_v or_o else_o herself_o also_o accompany_v i_o and_o i_o feign_v that_o my_o design_n be_v only_o to_o accompany_v a_o friend_n till_o he_o have_v a_o favourable_a wind_n for_o his_o embarquement_n and_o shall_v put_v to_o sea_n and_o thus_o i_o lie_v to_o my_o mother_n and_o to_o such_o a_o mother_n and_o get_v away_o from_o she_o nevertheless_o thou_o in_o thy_o great_a mercy_n do_v not_o instant_o revenge_v this_o fault_n upon_o i_o but_o save_v i_o from_o the_o water_n of_o the_o sea_n a_o soul_n so_o stain_v with_o execrable_a filthiness_n unto_o the_o baptismal_a water_n of_o thy_o grace_n with_o which_o i_o be_v once_o wash_v and_o make_v clean_o those_o river_n also_o of_o my_o mother_n eye_n may_v be_v dry_v up_o which_o from_o her_o sad_a face_n daily_o water_v the_o ground_n under_o her_o foot_n pour_v out_o unto_o thou_o in_o my_o behalf_n there_o she_o refuse_v upon_o any_o term_n to_o return_v back_o without_o i_o i_o with_o much_o ado_n persuade_v she_o for_o that_o night_n to_o take_v some_o rest_n in_o a_o 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it_o yet_o he_o will_v choose_v there_o be_v no_o such_o thing_n for_o he_o to_o suffer_v in_o adversity_n i_o long_o for_o prosperity_n in_o prosperity_n i_o apprehend_v and_o dread_a adversity_n and_o what_o middle_a station_n can_v there_o be_v find_v between_o these_o two_o where_o this_o life_n may_v not_o be_v a_o temptation_n to_o we_o there_o be_v a_o woe_n to_o the_o prosperity_n of_o this_o world_n once_o and_o again_o 1._o for_o the_o many_o fear_n in_o they_o of_o adversity_n 2._o and_o for_o the_o many_o miscarriage_n and_o misbehaviour_n in_o they_o of_o our_o joy_n and_o there_o be_v a_o woe_n to_o the_o adversity_n of_o this_o world_n once_o again_o and_o a_o three_o time_n 1._o from_o the_o impatient_a longing_n we_o have_v in_o they_o after_o miss_v prosperity_n 2._o from_o the_o pain_n and_o suffering_n of_o the_o adversity_n itself_o 3._o and_o from_o the_o frequent_a shipwreck_n therein_o of_o patience_n be_v not_o man_n life_n therefore_o upon_o earth_n a_o continual_a temptation_n without_o any_o remission_n chap._n xxix_o not_o have_v yet_o a_o perfect_a continency_n in_o respect_n of_o all_o other_o object_n beside_o god_n but_o extend_v some_o undue_a attention_n and_o affection_n unto_o they_o and_o now_o be_v all_o my_o hope_n no_o where_o but_o in_o thy_o very_a great_a mercy_n o_o lord_n god_n give_v i_o but_o grace_n to_o do_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o command_v what_o thou_o will_v though_o command_v my_o continency_n vulg_n wisd_v 8_o 21._o vulg_n and_o i_o know_v say_v one_o that_o no_o man_n can_v be_v continent_n unless_o god_n give_v it_o and_o this_o be_v also_o a_o point_n of_o wisdom_n to_o know_v who_o gift_n it_o be_v for_o by_o this_o continency_n we_o be_v unite_v and_o recollect_v unto_o that_o one_o thing_n true_o amiable_a from_o which_o we_o have_v faulty_o dissipate_v and_o spill_v ourselves_o upon_o many_o thing_n for_o less_o do_v he_o love_v thou_o who_o love_v any_o thing_n else_o with_o thou_o which_o 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first_o thou_o have_v command_v i_o continency_n from_o illicit_v carnal_a copulation_n and_o also_o concern_v wedlock_n itself_o thou_o have_v counsel_v something_o better_a than_o that_o which_o thou_o have_v indulge_v and_o because_o thou_o give_v that_o thy_o command_n have_v be_v observe_v by_o i_o even_o before_o i_o i_o be_v make_v priest_n and_o a_o dispenser_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n but_o yet_o there_o live_v still_o in_o my_o memory_n of_o which_o i_o have_v speak_v so_o much_o the_o former_a image_n of_o such_o thing_n which_o my_o long_a evil_a custom_n of_o they_o have_v fix_v there_o and_o these_o haunt_v i_o still_o when_o i_o be_o awake_a they_o void_a of_o strength_n but_o in_o sleep_n prevail_v not_o only_o even_o to_o delectation_n but_o also_o even_o to_o consentment_n and_o to_o fact_n very_o like_a unto_o they_o and_o so_o much_o power_n have_v the_o delusion_n of_o this_o image_n in_o that_o inferior_a part_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o in_o my_o flesh_n that_o those_o false_a vision_n persuade_v i_o when_o a_o sleep_n to_o what_o true_a sight_n when_o awake_a can_v no_o way_n entice_v i_o and_o be_v it_o not_o then_o also_o the_o same_o i_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o yet_o so_o much_o difference_n there_o be_v between_o myself_o and_o myself_o in_o such_o a_o moment_n of_o time_n when_o resign_v up_o to_o sleep_v and_o when_o return_v to_o vigilancy_n where_o then_o be_v my_o reason_n by_o which_o when_o awake_a my_o mind_n resist_v any_o such_o suggestion_n and_o though_o the_o thing_n themselves_o present_v themselves_o before_o i_o remain_v unshaken_a be_v it_o then_o clasp_v up_o with_o my_o eye_n be_v it_o lull_v asleep_a with_o my_o corporeal_a sense_n and_o whence_o then_o in_o our_o sleep_n also_o do_v we_o many_o time_n resist_v and_o remember_v our_o former_a resolution_n and_o chaste_o persevere_v therein_o yield_v no_o assent_n to_o such_o lustful_a allurement_n and_o yet_o when_o in_o sleep_v it_o happen_v otherwise_o this_o 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seduce_a fancy_n even_o in_o the_o flux_n of_o the_o flesh_n but_o also_o from_o yield_v any_o consent_n unto_o they_o for_o that_o no_o listen_n or_o inclination_n towards_o they_o not_o so_o much_o as_o that_o which_o the_o least_o check_n can_v master_v shall_v harbour_v any_o more_o in_o the_o chaste_a affection_n of_o i_o refresh_v myself_o with_o sleep_n not_o only_o in_o some_o time_n of_o this_o present_a life_n but_o in_o this_o yet_o vigorous_a age_n be_v no_o great_a matter_n to_o thou_o the_o almighty_a who_o be_v able_a to_o do_v above_o all_o that_o we_o ask_v or_o think_v but_o here_o i_o have_v relate_v to_o my_o good_a lord_n what_o a_o one_o as_o yet_o i_o be_o in_o this_o sort_n of_o my_o evil_n rejoice_v with_o fear_n for_o that_o which_o herein_o thou_o have_v give_v and_o mourning_n for_o that_o wherein_o i_o be_o yet_o imperfect_a with_o hope_n that_o thou_o will_v consummate_v in_o i_o thy_o mercy_n until_o the_o time_n of_o that_o full_a harmony_n and_o peace_n which_o both_o my_o interior_a and_o exterior_a then_o shall_v enjoy_v with_o thou_o when_o death_n shall_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o victory_n chap._n xxxi_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v there_o be_v another_o evil_n of_o the_o day_n 9.27_o day_n beside_o the_o former_a night_n evil_a mat._n 6.34_o 1_o cor._n 6.13_o 1_o cor._n 15_o 53._o 1_o cor._n 9.27_o and_o i_o wish_v the_o day_n be_v sufficient_a for_o it_o for_o here_o we_o must_v by_o eat_v and_o drink_v repair_v the_o daily_a ruin_n of_o the_o body_n until_o the_o time_n thou_o shall_v destroy_v both_o the_o meat_n and_o the_o belly_n and_o shall_v slay_v this_o my_o indigency_n with_o a_o miraculous_a satiety_n and_o shall_v clothe_v this_o corruptible_a with_o a_o eternal_a incorruption_n but_o now_o this_o my_o necessity_n be_v very_o pleasant_a and_o sweet_a unto_o i_o and_o against_o this_o sweetness_n i_o now_o fight_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v inveigle_v with_o it_o and_o i_o wage_v a_o daily_a war_n against_o it_o bring_v my_o body_n into_o subjection_n by_o frequent_v fasting_n and_o behold_v these_o pain_n be_v remove_v with_o pleasure_n for_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n be_v pain_n and_o they_o burn_v up_o and_o kill_v like_o a_o fever_n unless_o cure_v with_o the_o physic_n of_o our_o nourishment_n which_o cure_n because_o it_o be_v still_o ready_a at_o hand_n from_o the_o abound_a comfort_n of_o thy_o gift_n with_o which_o both_o the_o land_n and_o the_o water_n and_o the_o air_n serve_v our_o infirmity_n these_o our_o calamity_n be_v call_v by_o the_o name_n of_o dainty_n now_o thou_o have_v teach_v i_o that_o i_o shall_v come_v to_o receive_v this_o my_o food_n as_o i_o do_v physic_n but_o whilst_o i_o be_o pass_v from_o
temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n abroad_o dote_v on_o what_o they_o have_v make_v within_o desert_v he_o by_o who_o they_o be_v make_v and_o deface_v that_o which_o they_o be_v make_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n and_o my_o glory_n concern_v all_o these_o do_v now_o sing_v a_o hymn_n and_o do_v sacrifice_n praise_v to_o thou_o my_o sanctifier_n for_o all_o these_o beautiful_a piece_n of_o art_n which_o be_v transfer_v first_o from_o a_o idea_n in_o the_o soul_n into_o the_o work_n of_o a_o skilful_a hand_n be_v derive_v original_o from_o that_o beauty_n *_o which_o be_v above_o the_o soul_n and_o *_o after_o which_o my_o soul_n languish_v day_n and_o night_n and_o the_o drawer_n and_o admirer_n of_o these_o exterior_a beauty_n do_v learn_v from_o the_o first_o beauty_n a_o worthy_a estimation_n of_o they_o but_o learn_v not_o from_o it_o a_o right_a use_n of_o they_o and_o there_o also_o the_o true_a beauty_n be_v and_o they_o see_v it_o not_o that_o they_o shall_v seek_v no_o further_o 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thy_o brightness_n with_o a_o sick_a and_o wound_a spirit_n and_o beat_v back_o and_o dazzle_v by_o it_o i_o say_v who_o can_v ever_o attain_v thither_o i_o be_o utter_o cast_v away_o from_o the_o sight_n of_o thy_o eye_n thou_o be_v the_o truth_n who_o preside_v above_o all_o thing_n and_o i_o out_o of_o my_o covetousness_n be_v not_o willing_a to_o loose_v thou_o but_o yet_o greedy_o desire_v also_o to_o possess_v what_o be_v a_o lie_n together_o with_o thou_o as_o no_o man_n desire_v so_o to_o speak_v lie_n as_o to_o be_v ignorant_a what_o be_v truth_n and_o therefore_o i_o lose_v thou_o because_o thou_o vouchsafe_v not_o to_o be_v enjoy_v together_o with_o a_o lie_n chap._n xlii_o his_o recourse_n for_o a_o remedy_n to_o all_o these_o his_o malady_n not_o *_o to_o evil_a angel_n or_o demon_n with_o the_o platonist_n or_o other_o practise_v evil_a art_n as_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n because_o sinner_n like_o man_n spirit_n like_o god_n and_o now_o who_o can_v i_o 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cor._n 11_o 14_o but_o the_o devil_n it_o be_v transform_v himself_o as_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n and_o this_o much_o allure_v proud_a flesh_n to_o repair_v unto_o he_o because_o he_o have_v no_o body_n of_o flesh_n for_o they_o be_v mortal_n and_o sinner_n and_o thou_o o_o lord_n with_o who_o they_o seek_v reconciliation_n be_v sinless_a and_o immmortal_a now_o the_o mediate_a person_n between_o god_n and_o man_n it_o be_v meet_v he_o shall_v have_v something_o like_a to_o god_n something_o like_o to_o man_n lest_z in_o both_o like_a to_o man_n he_o shall_v be_v at_o too_o great_a a_o distance_n from_o god_n or_o in_o both_o like_a to_o god_n he_o shall_v stand_v too_o remote_a from_o man_n therefore_o also_o this_o counterfeit_a mediator_n by_o who_o according_a to_o thy_o secret_a judgement_n our_o pride_n deserve_v to_o be_v delude_v have_v one_o thing_n common_a with_o man_n that_o be_v sin_n and_o will_v seem_v to_o have_v the_o other_o thing_n common_a with_o god_n whilst_o 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great_a be_v these_o my_o disease_n many_o and_o great_a they_o be_v but_o great_a be_v the_o cure_n which_o thou_o have_v provide_v and_o well_o may_v we_o have_v imagine_v thy_o word_n to_o have_v be_v too_o remote_a from_o have_v any_o alliance_n with_o we_o and_o so_o have_v despair_v of_o ourselves_o have_v it_o not_o thus_o be_v make_v flesh_n and_o dwell_v among_o we_o affright_v with_o these_o my_o sin_n and_o with_o the_o load_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o have_v once_o a_o thought_n and_o a_o design_n of_o retire_v myself_o into_o some_o desert_n solitude_n but_o thou_o do_v prohibit_v it_o unto_o i_o and_o confirm_v i_o say_v that_o therefore_o christ_n die_v for_o all_o 5.15_o 2_o cor._n 5.15_o that_o they_o who_o live_v shall_v not_o henceforth_o live_v unto_o themselves_o but_o unto_o he_o who_o die_v for_o they_o behold_v o_o lord_n i_o cast_v all_o my_o care_n upon_o thou_o let_v i_o live_v and_o i_o will_v consider_v the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n 119.18_o 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