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A46836	The exceeding riches of grace advanced by the spirit of grace, in an empty nothing creature, viz. Mris. Sarah Wight lately hopeles and restles, her soule dwelling far from peace or hopes thereof : now hopefull, and joyfull in the Lord, that hath caused light to shine out of darknes ... / published for the refreshing of poor souls, by an eye and ear-witness of a good part thereof, Henry Jesse ...	Jessey, Henry, 1603-1663.; Saltmarsh, John, d. 1647.	1647 (1647)	Wing J688; ESTC R18578	106,320	192

loved me That that I admire most is that Iesus Christ should dye for such a one e Rom. 5 6-8 9. Then being sensible of her bodily ilnesse having kept her bed since April 6. Shee said I am sore from the crown of the head to the foot but t is nothing t is nothing When Iesus Christ was in the world he cured bodies and not bodies onely but soules too Then turning her selfe in the bed shee said Now I have my desire I desired nothing but a crucified Christ and I have him I desired nothing but a crucified Christ and I have him a crucified Christ a naked Christ I have him and nothing els I am sore all over I can neither heare nor see I desired him so and I have him so and I have nothing els And said Wee should be as well content to beare he crosse of Christ as the crown f Gal. 6. 14. Act. 2● 24. For he was made perfect by suffering g Heb. 2. 10. and he had no sin it was for us Therefore wee should be contented to beare the Crosse h 1 Pet. 2. 21 22. Hah Had I known this I would not have been in such a condition as I was meaning it seems in murmuring and not waiting patiently the Lords time But Gods time is the best time to reveale himselfe and to open mine eyes to see and mine ears to hear and he gives power to wait Was I afraid to name the Devill Nothing but free Grace makes the difference between me and the Devill All 's free mercy free and goodnesse free and love free The Lord proclaimed his own Name he cald himselfe Gracious Mercifull Long-suffering i Exod. 34. 6. Ah how sick am I at the heart what a stitch I have Soon after shee said I thank you for giving me the water Iesus Christ hath given you water He hath given you and he will give you more Shee said also God hath two thrones one is in the highest Heavens the other is in the lowest hearts He dwels as truly in the lowest hearts as in the highest Heavens in the poorest contemptible heart k Isa. 66. 2. When Solomon built a Temple he said The Heavens of Heavens cannot contein thee and how shall this house that I have built l 1 King 8. 27. But God builds a house for himselfe to dwell in and he dwels in it for ever for ever for ever Doe not you know that God hath two Thrones The highest Heavens and the lowest hearts Happy is that people that is in such a case whose God is the Lord whose joy is their strength m Psal. 144. 15. And so saying shee smiled her eyes being still fast closed So shee lay still and was not heard to speake any more from that Tuesday till Thursday following Thursday April 15. 1647. This day about 7 of the clock in the morning shee began thus Daniel in the Lyons den the three children in the siery farnace n Dan. 6. end Dan. 3.26 28. the Lord delivered them and so he doth me Then calling for water to drink shee said again as formerly Christ hath given you water to drink freely give me water freely so shee drank three or foure times her little cup full of water And shee still remaining deaf and with her eyes fast closed up shee said Have not I a Mother some where I pray you pray her to pardon me the murmurings against her For nothing els troubles me God hath pardoned Hath the Creator pardoned and shall not the Creature Thus speaking the teares ran fast down her checks for a great while and shee said When the prodigall came home his earthly father pardon'd him o Luk. 15. 20. 32. and his heavenly Father pardon'd him And will not my Mother pardon me If shee should it s not that will doe me good If shee will not it lyes heavy upon me But God hath pardon'd mee Another time when many were present shee said thus with teares trickling down If any did know what it is to murmure against a God and against a Parent and felt for it what I have felt they would never doe it Nothing more burdens me then my murmurings and disobedience against my Mother This shee spake weeping What a warning is this to all children that have murmured or been disobedient against father or mother to repent in time and seek pardon and mercy for helpe against it least it be as heavy a burthen to them when they are in trouble as it hath been to this hand-maid and to divers others Yet she said her disobedience was not wilfull but shee was hurried to it in the violence of temptation Then shee desired her mother might come to her to testifie that she had pardon'd her yet could shee then neither heare nor see but said I know a Iacob from an Esau. Her mother came to her and took her daughters hand and put it to her own neck where her daughter felt a skare that was there through the enemy whereby her daughter knowing her cast her head into her mothers bosome and wept greatly and kissed her and stroaked her face and said I know you mother and I love you with another love then I loved you before Then shee asked for water to wash her EYES desiring she might now see her Mother also and that shee might heare her mother speak and tell her that shee had pardon'd her disobedience And water being brought her eyes were wash'd and they being still fast folded up M ris Dupper her neighbour in Lawrence Pountney-lane held open her eyes and shee saw and knew her mother and then immediately her EARES also were opened that shee might heare her mother speake to her and shee testified to her that shee had pardon'd her and lov'd her as her own soule And then her heart was at rest shee was satisfied Her bearing then continued about halfe an houre viz. till shee ceased then to speake and then it was againe taken from her and her eyes were presently closed up again In this time of her hearing her mother told her that her Brother was come viz. M r Ionathan Vaughan her mothers son by her former husband Who being then a Student of Alsoules Colledge in Oxford having remained there severall yeares was now come to London to see his Mother and Sister and other friends and was to return thither again shortly From thence he had lately writ a Consolatory Letter to his Sister expressing his confidence that Iesus Christ the Lyon of the Tribe of Iudah both could and would deliver her c. Of which her Mother also was perswaded and waited for by which the Lord the more enabled her to bear this sad affliction that bad so long continued Shee was glad to hear of her Brother that had mourned and pray'd for her that he was now come at such a time and shee desired to see and hear him But at that time he was abroad And before he came shee had

both Sermons these came to see her M r and M ris Liggon the Relator M ris Dawson a Ministers widow M ris Berny of Norfolk and many others amongst which was a Gentlewoman in sad despair that hearing of her came to have speech with her and had The Relator writ then what was said after he came thither The Conference followeth Gentlewoman The Devill Rules in me M ris Sarah Christ will fetch you from him he will dispossesse him and possesse himselfe Gentle I am under sin M ris Sarah Shall sin separate from the love of Christ God hides himselfe from the house of Jacob though dear to him Shee speaking low one asked the Gentlewoman if shee did heare M ris Sarah O that you might heare a Joh. 5. 25. Eph. 4. 20 21. Christ speak to you Gentle I cannot beleeve I am justified for such are sanctified and so am not I. M ris Sarah You speak of sanctifying It s against the scope of the Scripture to put sanctifying before justifying You should beleeve that God justifieth the ungodly b Ro. 4.5 that 's for you to beleeve now and thence would arise your sanctification And that you cannot come to him except he draw you c Jo. 6.44 10.29 That all power is in his hand He is greater then all and none can pull you out of his hands Devils nor Angels nor sin can keep from him when he will draw you Gentlew. None knows my condition how desperate it is M ris Sarah The heart is deceitfull above all things and desperately wicked who can know it d Jer. 17. 9. He that hath Balme of e Jer. 8. 22. he and he alone can heale it None can wound the soule but himselfe and none can heale it but himselfe I found that everlasting armes were under me and kept me though I knew it not He taught Ephraim to goe though he wist it not f Hos. 11. 3. Gentlew. I am rebellious against him M ris Sarah He ascended and gaue gifts to men even to the rebellious g Ps. 68.18 The great gift he gives them is himselfe and from that great gift are all other gifts as all the streames are from the fountaine If thou knewest that gift of God thou wouldst aske it and he would give it h Joh. 4. 10. Shee had a vaile before her heart but he took it away and he gave her to aske shee could not aske till then I found that no other sin separates from Christ but unbeliefe and did he come to finde faith in earth in earthen hearts i Luk. 18. 8. there 's nothing but death and unbeliefe and envy and rebellion and all manner of evill till Christ came and he gaue faith to me he found it not Qu In what manner was his giving faith to you M ris Sarah At first I saw cleerly Christ crucified for my sins It was neither Judas nor Pilate nor Herod nor any other so much as my sins That he was the skape-goat that bare them all away into the Wildernesse of forgetfulnesse never to be remembred any more k Levit. 16.21 I cannot tell my misery how great it was and I cannot tell the mercy that a full Christ came to such an empty creature to such a one as I that was as Ephraim an untamed heiser unaccustomed to the yoke Then his Name was proclam'd to me that he was a Saviour to save sinners mercifull gracious long-suffering abounding in goodnesse and abounding in truth to fulfill all that mercy and goodnesse and he is the way to the Father Ah! that he should love such a one and marry such a one that was a murmurer disobedient unholy Such a one God was pleasd to make an object of mercy There 's an end of my misery though I thought there was no end of it but there 's no end of his mercy my misery was the misery of a creature but his mercy is the mercy of a God and there 's no end of it I was brought as low at the lowest hell The gates were open to receive me that then mercy should come to shut them that Christ came to fetch me out He is good and doth good not to them that are good but he makes good nor to fill them that are full but to fill them that are empty I le leave in them an afflicted and poore people and they shall trust in the Name of the Lord they that are afflicted and poore it s they shall trust in his name l Zeph. 3. 12. And what 's his Name but forgiving iniquity transgression and sin I made thee rest from thy hard bondage wherein thou wast made to serve hard bondage and made to serve this hard bondage m Isa. 14. 3. Yet God delivered when none els could In the first verse the LORD will have mercy on Jacob and will yet choose Israel I had no will nor no desire to him nothing but perversnesse and wretchednesse as in Israel I might speak and speak a long time dayes and weekes and moneths and not able to tell all my misery The Lord loved me and he chastend me as he saith to Laodicea As many as I love I rebuke and chasten n Rev. 3. 19. Gentlew. All afflictions are for good to them that love God but they bring me no good at all M ris Sarah I warrant you David could not say His afflictions were good for him when he said They are gone over my head my heart failes mee o Psal. 40. 12. But it was afterwards that he said It is good for me to be afflicted The Prodigall whilst he was in his sin and misery could not say it was best for him But how did his Father friends rejoyce afterwards p Luk. 15.32 I desire all the Saints might rejoyce as much for me as they did for him Christ came to seek and to save that that was lost I found it so I read God is good to them that are of a pure heart and I was troubled at it for mine was not pure q Psal. 73. 1. That heart is pure that he makes pure he finds it not pure but he makes it pure When I read I read the promises over and over but I could remember nothing of them but if I reade but a tittle of the judgements that remained with me I could remember the verse where they are At last the promises terrified me most of all because they were for others but not for me None could burst these brazen gates but Christ alone I was worse then a Beast Beasts praise God in their kinde But I dishonoured him But all this hindred not his love to me Would you love God first or would you have him love you first Gentlew. I doe not love him M ris Sarah We are by nature far from loving him wee are enemies to him God reconciles enemies q Rom. 5. 8-10 It s wee were enemies to God `not God an

handmaid for divers yeeres and was no small occasion of trouble to the said superior afterwards 2. Branch The like Caution it may be also to all Inferiours to wives to children to servants flock and subjects against fearing man that shall dye more then the living God and obeying man rather then God by doing speaking or acting of any thing to please men that the word or conscience shew to be displeasing to God Lest for your so doing your terrors and punishment may be as great or greater then those of this hand-maid for the like offence Yea lest God tear you in pieces and there be none to deliver you Psal. 50.22 and lest both you and your Commander repent when it is too late I heard of a Maid in Suffolk whose Parents feared she should grow too pure and precise and on a Lords day evening the Mother bid her do some work which she judging unlawfull or at least doubting of entreated to be spared in it but her Father threatning to beat her she did it and the next morning she kept her bed and so did shee many weeks together upon it being terrified in Conscience for her preferring man before God being unfit for work it repented her Parents and her self too too late I never could hear that she got any comfort Also a young Gentleman being a scholar of whose deep despairing of ever being saved and of his strong perswasion that he should be damned Master Case Master Whitakers Master Chr. Love and the Relator with many other Preachers and Christians had notice and sad observation His Father a Gentleman in the Countrey brought him up to London to procure some to speak to him and to pray for him having him present with them This Christian duty was solemnly performed by those before-named and by others in several solemn daies of Fasting and Prayer The beginning and chief first moving cause of those so sad perswasions was because of the Oaths and Subscriptions imposed by the Governours in the Vniversity which he submitted to with the multitude that stuck not at them though he had his Conscience warning him yet thus doubtingly or against his Conscience he yeilded to the Ordinances of his Superiours But his thus doing brought great sorrow on his own soul and on his Parents and friends that sympathized with him Amongst others the Relator could more sympathize herein then many others in regard himselfe had been much afflicted in Spirit for his Vniversity Oaths and Subscriptions and yet had found though his sin abounded therein it being done with a staggering or worse with a relucting Conscience yet the n Rom. 5. 20. Grace of God had the more abounded and been magnified towards him in manifesting that he had forgiven so soul and hainous sins After all meanes used with this young Gentleman many severall daies he returned home more wounded and terrified because so many had taken so much pains with him and he was no whit better and therefore far the worse in his account as he shew'd after his returne home in many sad Letters in black lines to the Relator and because he could write no other language but the language of hell as he said he therefore would cease to weary him with it And so he ceased writing And although since that time the Lord hath given him hopes of his love in pardoning his sins and transgressions yet these sad examples and many moe of like nature that might be produced may suffice for a Warning to Heads and Governours in Vniversities and Corporations and to all Magistrates Officers Masters Husbands and Parents all Superiours whatsoever to beware of laying on heavie burdens by o Seeing OATHS should be given and taken onely in such cases and in such ritae and forme as is warranted by the word of God viz. in truth righteousness and judgement Ier. 4 2. Revel 10. 5 6 Oaths Subscriptions or Commands on any persons whose Consciences when they are distressed they are never able to relieve or release from Hellish continual fears and torments Psal. 50. 22. Matth. 27.3 4. To be an end ef all strife Hebrewes 6. 16. Because of Oaths so frequent not warranted this land mourneth Ier. 23. 10 Oh that Reformamation were herein as in all things else And for all Persons to keep the heart and Conscience above a Prov. 4.23 Hebrew Luk. 12.4 5 Act. 5.29 Luk. 14.26 27. 2 Tim. 4 12 13. Heb. 10.26 27. all keeping Fearing God above all Fiftly Learn hence to fly Censuring the most vile and desperate of all sinners Say not they and Reprobates though they are damn'd already in their own perswasion as this Party was So was M ris Honywood M ris Drake c. and yet obtained mercie Sixtly Be not weary therefore of using all good means for help to such as are hopeless and desparate as these parties were The Lord may come in the last hour He is not weary nor b Isa. 40.28 faint in seeking your good daily However your c 1 Cor. 15. 58. labour of love is accepted of the Lord. Seventhly Limit not the Holy One of Israel any outward means whatsoever seeing he gave the Party Faith and glorious joy in himself when she was struck deaf and blind that till that deafness was as one in hell already But rather believe the Proverb Jehovah ijreh Iehovah will be seen in the Mount d Gen. 22. 14. Eightly Exalt the Lord the Creator e Isa. 2. 11. Psal 8.1.2 Act. 3. 12. alone and not the Creature Say not What a one is shee But What a f Mic. ● 18 God is he in all reading and speaking of her or to her For the Lord is jealous of his glory and will not g Isa. 42.8 give it to an image of him Ninthly Behold here what 's the most effectuall means of humbling the heart and melting it and of furthering faith and love and what 's the greatest support and comfort in the greatest troubles and burdens about sin namely the discovery of the abundant h Eph. 2.4 Rom. 4.5 Grace of God in justifying the ungodly in giving his own Son to reconcile i Ro. 5. 6. 10 Isa. 53.5 enemies and the love k Eph. 3.19 Eph. 5.25 Ezek. 16.6 ●2 of Christ whilst we were in our sins and had nothing in us that is lovely that yet he so loved us as that he gave himself for us Tenthly and lastly Let all such as read or heare these wonderfull dealings of the Lord herein Consider how it is with their own soules First If the Lord hath sealed thee by his Spirit to the day of Redemption in the Spirit magnifie God and feed on him and on his Sons love daily in the Gospel promises and priviledges And the more thou hast received be the more humble l 1 Cor. 4.7 and thankfull to God and serviceable to him in m Is. 116.12 the Power of his Son and the more pittifull and tender to others n Tit. 3.2 ● considering thy self o Gal. 6.1 Secondly If thou hast no experience of such kinde of speakings of the Spirit to thee or of such maner or measure of Faith as here is mentioned both of which the Relator wanting waits for 1. Do not decry or cry down what thou knowest not a. Envy not others 3. Be not dejected because more is given to others then to thee But blesse the Lord in his various dispensations that best knoweth what kinde and measure is meetest for all Mat. 25.15 Eph. 4.7 16.4 Pray for more pourings out of his Spirit upon his sons and daughters as he hath promised to do in the last dayes Act. 2. 17. 33.38 39 John 7.38 39. Thirdly If thou art of a sorrowfull spirit by reason of sin fearing because it is so and so with thee that there never was an effectuall work upon thy heart finding such a power of sinne and corruption such dulnes coldnes hardnes of heart lazines filthines pride self-ishnes or the like basenesse Doth not thou so much backward in toiling to make out the former worke and still questioning about it and how bad thou hast been and art since as forward at that abundant GRACE herein magnified and ADVANCED to them that yet are a far off without God ungodly enemies to him to unfitted unprepared ones to the CHIEFEST OF SINNERS Fourthly If thou hast desires after full enjoyment of Jesus Christ and some hopes that he is thine but no assurance of it Blesse the Lord and be thankful to him that hath done so much for thee that did more desire sin and vanity But rest not in such desires but seek and presse hard for assurance And lastly If thou hast long sought and waited for assurance that Christ is thine and yet hast not attain'd it 1. Beware of murmuring and quarrelling against God and by this Example seeing how grieve to her son her murmuring hath been 2. Despair not because she obtain'd mercy that was so deep in that sin 3. Wait humbly and patiently on the Lord that hides himself that thou maist still seek and the more prize his mercy when at last he shal manifest it to thy soule For therefore will the LORD wait that hee may be gracious to you and therefore will hee bee exalted that hee may have mercy upon you For the LORD is a God of judgement BLESSED are all they that wait for him Isa. 30.18 A power to wait is also from him that bids you wait and promiseth that they that murmured shall learn doctrine Isa. 29.24 And to put his law in our heart Heb. 8.10 Namely to enable us to what hee commands us THE GOD OF ALL GRACE perfect the good work he hath begun in thee Phil. 1.6 To him be all glory by Christ Jesus * Greek to the age of ages Eph. 3.21 AMEN From July 7. till the end of Septemb. 1647. she remained at High-gate hoping then to returne to LONDON having eaten no bread nor flesh at all since March last and but very little of any other sustenance through the weaknesse of her stomach and yet looks as well as formerly At the writing hereof in this second Edition September 27 1647. H. J. FINIS

a token you have some Faith though you see it not The Corn that is sown in the Ground is first hid then the n Mar. 4. 28. blade and growth appeares You are wounded it s not you that wound your selfe but he saith I wound and I heale Therefore he saith to one o Mar. 5. 34. Goe in Peace thy faith hath made thee whole Thou beleevest I can heale thee This faith in me hath made thee whole So for you though yet you see it not you beleeve Christ can heale you Desire he would but speak the word and manifest it to your soule Another asked her Doe you think Christ is willing you should beleeve Woman Yea But there are Mountaines in the way S. Behold he comes leaping over the p Cant. 2. 8. Mountain of Opposition that are in the way Woman If the world knew the worth of the glimpse of faith they would prize it who cannot beleeve Quest. What is faith S. A beleeving Christ is a sure and strong Rock and refuge to fly too q Heb. 6.18 Had it not befor him you had been swallowed up Would you rest on our own righteousnesse on any thing in you Woman I am much looking at that to feele something in me S. That 's but filthy rags r Isa. 64.6 and he will take them away and cloath you with change of raiment s Eze. 16 10.-14 as Josephs t Gen. 41.14 rags were taken away and he was cloath'd with better raiment Woman When I was troubled about my condition about ten years agoe one day as I mused a voice said plainly to me Marie thou shalt dye and live againe and thou shalt glorifie God greatly Thy ways are not my ways nor thy thoughts my thoughts This fild me with joy unspeakable and I said Yea Lord let it be as thou wilt I was perswaded it was an Answer from God Then I could not but send for my friends that they might heare what God had done for me and I told them of this Then I presumed that I had faith and I looked that God would doe great things for me that he had thus spoken to me and done so much for me I was carried on thus for a time But after this I was led to sin againe and I fear'd I should sinne and I said Lord shall I sin againe it went to my heart The voice answered me Though thou doe thy sins are buried in the bottome of the Sea They are bound in a bundle and cast into the depth of the Sea I was not led to sin by this But I forgate Gods goodnes and I fell into sin by little and little and now I have been a backslider S. Here are backslidings He saith I have seen his wayes and I le heale him and restore comforts to him I le heale their backslidings I le love them freely mind that What joy is it to a Shepherd when he finds a lost sheep more joy then over all the rest You are the lost sheep he will joy over you u Hos. 14. ● Woman Legions of sins are before me S. Legions of Devils were within me not before me but within me Yet he hath cloathed me and c●● out Legion Mat. 8. end Who came Christ for Was it for the righteous w Mat. 9. 13. You are an alien without God without Covenant of promise Woman I am confident that 's my case S. God drawes such souls Christ dyed to reconcile such soules the Spirit ties both ends together he tied them and Christ together uniting them to Christ. So did he with those Ephesians They were dead in sinne and trespasses strangers from God without God far off twaine but these had he made neer Such does God draw and makes up the breaches See the condition they were in Eph. 2. 12. and Hosea the first and second Chapters He said They are not my people and then it shall be said now they are the children of the living God Hos. 1. 12. Before not people as now not onely people but children before they were dead people now they are living children the living God gives them new life They have life from God that they may live to God In Ephes. 2. a Eph. 2. 1. 5-8 10. You that were dead hath he quickned and by Grace yee are saved through Faith not of works least any should boast We would boast if we did any thing in it He works Faith and he builds up still he builds higher and higher till his work be finished We are his workmanship Woman My condition is very dangerous and hopeles S. How is it Woman I have an evill heart of unbeliefe in departing from God S. Have you departed from him then you had him How have you departed from him if you never had him Woman I never had him S. What if now you shall have him and you be a childe not onely a servant but a childe an heir of God Woman I should admire it S. He will shew mercy to be admired He will come and be admired in his Saints that beleeve b 2 Thess. 1.10 He raiseth up a bondslave to be with him in glory It is a faithfull saying though the soule doubt of it and its worthy of all acceptation though the soul would not accept it That Jesus Christ came to save the chiefest of sinners c 1 Tim. 1. 15. The Lord will deliver you of two Burthens the burthen of sin and your other burthen also Your extremity is Gods opportunitie In him Judah shall be saved Woman In my prosperity a poor woman came to me that had her son in slavery and she beg'd of me to give her somewhat towards her son's release But I thought all was little enough for my selfe my sister gave her somewhat but I would give her nothing the woman wept And now I think on my d An Item to all wisely to cōsider the poores cry Prov. 21. 13. Psal. 41. 1-3 unmercifulnes when now my soule is in slavery my self his slavery is nothing to mine S. Christ came to deliver them that are captives and bond-slaves e Luk. 4. 18. not them that are at liberty The Son makes free f Joh. 8. 36. not them that were free but them that were in bondage Woman I am without hope of mercy and my heart failes and gives up all S. Some refused g Psal. 77.2 to be comforted and would not be heal'd yet he heales them He looks after the Out-casts h Ps. 147.2 that none look after Woman That 's my case S. Yet there was mercy for them and why is this written but for our instruction and comfort i Rom. 15. 5. that we might have hope Woman Not one word will abide with mee that 's spoken S. The time was not yet come For in the appointed time it will surely speak and not lie it will speak truth and peace lasting peace abundant mercy and love Wait therefore for that

time The Name of God is to be Preached and Proclaim'd that he is gracious to graceles ones and mercifull to miserable ones and long-suffering and abundant in goodnesse and truth e Exod. 34. 6. to them that have abundance of sin and he would that repentance and remission of sins should be published in his Name f Luk. 24. 47. When he gives you a glimpse of his love you are apt to bely the Lord as Judah did and to say it is not he unlesse it comes with a full perswasion to you yet this hindred not the Lords coming in and healing them Though not a person but the Land was fild with sin against the Holy One of Israel yet Israel hath not been forsaken g Jer. 51. 5. He said I am forsaken and not onely forsaken but forgotten Zion said so and Israel said so yet he is not forsaken For a farewell she said Go and Beleeve the Lord Jesus makes you whole and so Go in peace beleeving its Christ must make you whole and none els May 28. A maid in deep despair came to her The Relator being present writ then also After other expressions the Maid said as followeth Maid It hath been sad with me since it was said to me Repentance is hid from thine eyes and wo unto them when they depart from the living God S. Ans. The Lord saith I le put my feare in their hearts that they shall not depart from me h Je. 32.40 Maid But I have departed from him therefore I am none of his people S. There saith he where it was said i Hos. 1. 12. They are not my people there it shall be said they are the children of God Maid I am without God an enemy to him S. Well let it be so you are without God in the world a stranger an enemy yet such hath he reconciled by the death of his Son k Ephes. 2. 12. all the want is you cannot see it so Maid I am far off from him S. He gives peace peace to them that are far off Maid I had a great deal of light and I departed from it S. So did Judah they departed from the living God and went to dead Idol Gods yet he would marry them Maid I have done so S. So did they before you and yet he married them Maid But I have rejected him S. You can doe nothing els but reject him but your greatest rejecting is to reject * Thus leading her to the root sin that looked at branches more so did shee often a promise from God when he holds one out to you then you say it is not to me Thus I find as you doe in rejecting promises and that was my greatest sin Maid Your sin was not like mine S. No sin was like mine as I judged Mine was against such light that I judged I had sin'd against the Holy Ghost Maid That word terrifies me that was said to me Repentance is hid from thine eyes S. That word when I read it I was ready to teare it out of my book There were three other Scriptures that were terrible to me He that beleeves not is condemned already l John 3. 18. was one Another was He that beleeveth not the Son the wrath of God abides on him m v. 36. A third was He that made them will not have mercy on them n Is. 27. 11. no mercy none at all But above all this Repentance o Hos. 13. 14. is hid from mine eyes Maid Was it so with you and then said The Discoveries of Christ and promises are more terrible to me then the curses of the Law S. Sometimes it was so with me salvation was turnd into condemnation to me promises that were never so sweet were terrible to me Maid When he would have healed me I resisted and would not S. Who hath resisted his will Here is Gods mercy to you that by his Spirit he hath convinced you of sin when you might have gone without any sight of it Maid I have not the light of it S. You see you are in darkenesse Christ came to be light to them that are in darkness p Lu. 1.79 Christ would not unbottome you of your selfe but to bottome you on himselfe q Hos. 2.7.14 Hos. 14.3 Maid He that overcometh to him will he give to sit on his Throne r Re. 3.21 and to eat of the hidden Manna s Re. 2.17 One may goe farre and not overcome He that endures to the end shall be saved t Mat. 24.13 but I fear I shal not S. He saith u 2 chr 20.15 feare not nor be dismayed for the battel is not yours but the Lords you lye down in your shame but he is your strength your al in al. Maid Better never to have known the Truth and holy Command then having known it to depart w 2 Pet. 2. 21. as I have departed S. All the Scriptures you bring are to bring you off from your sandy foundation you would build on something you would finde in your selfe and feed on husks your prodigals portion x Lu. 15.16 Christ is unbottoming you of your own righteousnesse y Phil. 3.7 and of all evill to make known himself his righteousnes to you and to set you on that Rock that is higher then you Maid Not one glimmering light of him have I. S. Ans. Had you these eight yeers enjoyed such light and comforts as you would have had you would have rested in them But God would not have you rest short of himselfe z Isa. 55. 1 2 3. 8. Maid I have sin'd against all the meanes and light he hath given me S. You will the more prize his mercy and the more love him when you shall see his love to you notwithstanding all this a Mic. 7. 18. 1 Tim. 1. 13-17 Maid Iudas after his sin he repented I have not so much as he had S. He had a naturall Repentance you wait for Repentance from Christ b Act. 5. 31. who is sent to give Repentance to them that have no Repentance Maid I have sin'd with Iudas But he saith Returne And I have not returned S. Doth he expect they should returne in their own strength No. But he turns them and they are turned c Je. 31.18 Judah was given over to reproach and to treachery and whoredome and to all manner of sin Their sinnes were such as could not be numbred They would none of God but were weary of him d Isa. 43.24 yet he would not forsake them e Jer. 51.5 but would have mercy on them and would love them freely and would forgive them and blot out their sins for his own sake f 25. that they might not boast of their own righteousnes g 1 Co. 1.29 but glory in the Lord onely Maid I go on in sin and what hope for such S. Ephraim feeds on wind and the house of Israel