lyer the father of lyes and some after the end of many labours and teares haue sweate hard to returne into the freindshipp of God though through all their life they continued with this dagger in their hart of How haue I offended God hauing vouchsafed mee soe many blessings And it seemed to them as if they enioyed not the benefitt of his pardon through the continual greife and shame which they had for committing the offence Others there are whoe being once gone away neuer turne againe like ill made hawkes whoe flying from the fist of their Lord fall to feede vpon carryon and being soe fleshed returne noe more and hauing formerly tasted the foode of Angells Luc. 15 growe to take delight in the huskes of swyne Of these S. Peter saith 2. Pet 2. That it had beene better for them not to haue knowne the way of our lord then to leaue it after it was knowne And it happens to them as to the dogge who returnes to eate what he had vomitted as to the hogg whoe wallowes in his myre from side to side And our Lord himselfe said Luc. 9 That he who puts his hand to the plowgh and lookes backe is not fitt for the kingdome of heauen but returnes to be worldly againe and is both made an obiect of scorne to the deuill and is alsoe placed as a marke to fright others from offending God In this sorte did the wife of Loth vndoe her selfe Gen. 19. For God hauing vouchsafed her soe great a fauour as to deliuer her from the fyre which came from heauen vpon Sodam and Gomorrah where shee dwelt and commaunding her not to looke backe againe she obeyed not his voice but turning her head backe was transformed into a pillar of salte which beasts licke vp And heere it is to be cōsidered that if God punished her soe seuerely whoe had not beene a sinner in that Citty but onely because she obeyed not his commaundement of not looking backe for what can the sinner hope whoe is deliuered from the punishment of God through his great mercy if yet dispising that excessiue goodnes he turne back his hart towards the flesh potts of Egypt and his sinnes past I beseech God euen for God's owne sake to deliuer euery soule from falling downe into soe great a misery as this For as S. Paule affirmes Heb. 11 it is a fearefull and horrible thing to fall into the hands of the liuing God and what is man that he should be able to endure the wrath and fury of Almighty God For as any huge fire is able to deuoure some little woefull straw soe doth the mighty wrath of God swallow vp the soules bodyes of all such persons as depart from him And as when some wife whoe had beene deerely beloued by her husband committs the fowle sinne of adultery that husband is inraged soe much the more against her at she had bene more beloued by him soe that wrath of God is very vnsufferable which he expresses against that soule which he had formerly drawne out of the captiuity of sinne and of bound had made free and being naked and voyd of grace had made rich and rarely adorned with the same grace and of a wicked slaue had exalted to be his most honoured beloued wife What would such a woman deserue who being vngratefull for soe great fauours I say not should committ adultery against such a generous and pious husband but through whose hart any such thought should once passe though shee were a thowsand mile off from the fact Who could euer thinke of giuing a buffett to one that had endured soe many for him and to put fresh dishonours to crucifye a secōd tyme that person whose former wounds it were much more fitt for him to bathe dresse and asswage then to add new ones to the old What kinde of wickednes shall wee call it which is able euen to amaze and astonish the world for one to leaue God for the deuill and hauing beene walking in the way to heauen to goe thrust his very feete into hell and to like better to haue to doe with God inraged then with God all gentle and appeased Madam I haue not written this as thinking that this misery will lay hould on you For my confidence is not in you but in him whoe with soe much mercy and pitty redeemed you out of the captiuity wherein you were and taught you soe well what belongs to his loue as to haue giuen you cleerely to vnderstand thereby that hee meant not to vndertake the busines in iest neither will hee that either you or I shall make a iest thereof In this lord who loues with soe great fidelity doe I place my confidence and not in you whoe haue kept so ill correspondance with his true loue But I haue written this to the end that of your selfe you may hunt out a litle sent of the danger wherein you are that you may recōmend your selfe more and more to our Lord and in fine that you may be soe discreete as not to cast away your tyme in the admitting of vnprofitable thoughts Our lord will cleere vp these things and will finish that which he hath begunne and will not take this Crowne from mee and therefore am I in patience and hope that you shall not depriue mee of that which God hath giuen mee You haue heere many seruants of God both men and woemen who recommend you to his mercy with much care and I beseech him to graunt it most completely to you Amen A Letter of the Authour to a Lady at the Feast of the Epiphany or three kings Wherein hee shewes how shee is to goe and adore the Infant Iesus with those kings being guided by the starre of faith and that shee is to offer him the gould of diuine loue I Wrote to your Ladyship this last Aduent of the great fauour which our Lord did vs in vouchsafing to come to vs and of the happines of that soule which disposes himselfe to receiue him I hope in his mercy that hee is come home to you and that you haue receiued him with faith and loue And therefore now there remaines noe more but that you offer your selfe in perpetuall sacrifice to him who hath vouchsafed to offer himselfe to you as a deere guest and that you imitate the faith and presents which were made by those wise men to the Blessed Infant as soone as they found him out as you haue already imitated them in the care they had to finde him It will doe well that you contemplate how this great lord is soe humbled in that poore open stable and that maunger where the naturall discourse and humaine reason of those kings was farre from thinking that they should finde him But the starre which with vs is Faith refuses expresly to passe any further on and declares with most resplendent beames as by soe many tongues that hee who is aboue all reason and
greater the benefitt is the more hurt it will doe vs in the end O Lord open thou myne eyes that they may consider thee descending out of the bosome of thy father and entring into that of thy virgin mother that I may giue thee great thankes for this benefit Make mee able to humble my selfe for thee Make mee able to consider thee lying in a maunger insteade of a bed crying out through could being opprest with pouerty make me learne thereby how to cast all delicacy farre from mee Make thy teares sighes shew sound themselues forth in myne eares that soe they may mollify my hart that soe it may deliuer it self couer as wax to euery inclination of thy will And doe not thou permitt that God should weepe and that man should haue noe feeling of it for I know not at which of these two things wee might wonder most Seale vp O lord thy wordes in my soule that I may neuer sinne against thee Let the blood which thou didst shed for mee be gathered vp into my hart and be thou all my onely loue that soe thou maist not repent thy selfe of all these great afflictions which thou enduredst for mee It is I whom thou soughtst and whome thou seekest still and for mee thou hast made all those tiltings and triumphes and shewed forth all thy liueries and vndergone all that cost Let me neuer see my selfe belonging to any other then thee since thou hast deserued me soe well Come Madam let that hart of yours now prepare it selfe for God is vpon the point of being borne and hee hath neither howse nor bedd wherein to lye Let your hart be all inflamed with loue for the Infant suffers much cold And yet if your hart be but euen soe much as luke warme this Infant with his cold will giue it greater heat For how much the more cold he suffers for vs so much the more loue he shewes to beare vs where I finde my selfe to be more beloued there am I obliged more to loue Exteriourly hee suffers cold and yet through the great loue he beares vs he can endure noe cloathes but he lyes naked as soone as he is borne naked they lay him vpon the Crosse because in his bearth in his death he shewed the greatest excesse of loue Madam you must prouide a cradle wherein you may rock him a sleepe which signifies the repose of contemplation and see that you tend and treat him well for he is the sonne of a great high king and he is the sonne alsoe of a virgin and he takes much gust to lodge himselfe in the hart of virgins for the meat he eates is flesh which is crucified dead And because he hath a great deale of poore people amongst his kindred whome yet he loues deerely well you must be alsoe sure to loue them for they are the brethren of our creators As soone as he is borne in your hart you must take care to nurse him and I beseech him to keepe and saue you for his mercies sake Amen A Letter to a certaine Lady who is taught with what disposition she is to receiue Christ our lord into her soule and with what care she is to keept him and of the great misery where into that soule falls which committs mortall sinne and what a great treason it is to leaue God and follow the deuill especially for such as haue beene particularly fauoured by almighty God THE grace and peace of the holy ghost be in your hart and assist you in this holy tyme that you may prepare your soule for that Infant who is now to be borne For he hath noe howse but in those soules which are well disposed to receiue him He comes as a straunger and in great pouertie Giue him your hart Mat. 25 that soe he may say in the last day I was a straunger and you receiued mee But yet consider withall that as there is nothing so much to be desired by you as to lodge this Infant in your soule so is there nothing which requires more care and diligence then to prepare the lodging ready in such sort as he desires He comes in humility and pouertie and they who receiue him must be humble and poore He comes to vndertake great labours and with labour that howse must be adorned wherein he voutchafes to dwell He is chast and he loues such as are chast And though he be very little and a very Infant yet withall he is very great and he is God and soe it must be no little thing to prepare a lodging for a great God Our lord is choise and nice and by reason of some-one mortall sinne which some man makes litle difficulty to committ he refuses to enter into the soule And if he be there already one mortall sinne sends him away And when he is gone he comes not back againe soe soone but makes it plaine by the difficulty which he hath to returne with how great diligence he is to be kept by vs when we haue him there O my good lady and how riche is he who possesses God and how often in the day were he to looke downe vpon his hart asking our Lord if hee be there What chaynes should he cast about him of humble petitions and teares begging of him as Dauid did in these words Psal 21. O lord depart not from mee How full of caution ought a man to walke least he should doe somewhat which might offend our Lord least being offended he should be gone For if hee be all good what shall it be to loose him but to fall into the Abisse of all miseries They are sadd things which a soule feeles when it hath lost God and such as will hardly be beleiued though all the world should speake of them This appeares well in our first parents Adam and Eue. For Eue looking vpon the fruite of the forbidden tree it seemed very beautifull to her eye and that if she might eate thereof it would proue very pleasing to her and giue her great contentment But as soone ast she had eaten her eyes were opened to behould those great miseries which came vpon her by that meanes experience taught her that the bitternes of breaking the cōmaundment of God was greater then the pleasure to haue eaten the fruite And then she saw that the apparance which the forbiddē fruite had of being soe very faire and full of gust was but a deceite of the deuill who made a false glasse for her to looke through And hee alsoe gaue her a loathing of those other fruites which God commaunded her to eate Soe as they seemed vnsauoury to her and she thought that all the gust and hidden good had consisted in that which God forbad O how many haue beene deceiued by the deuill through false imagination he promising them contentment gust they afterwards making bitter lamentation for giuing credit to him whom euen before they knew to be a
not onely in that which giues vs gust but in the contrary alsoe For otherwise what wonder is it to see the spouse obey her fellow spouse in that which giues contentment to her selfe since for that there is noe greate neede of loue for the respect of proper interest is able to breed such obedience as that Nor doe I know with what eyes Christ our lord will looke vpon such a spouse as that since he obeyed his Father Matth. 26. for her sake in cases of soe extreame affliction saying Let it be not as I wil but as thou wilt Whereas shee saith iust the contrary Not as thou wilt but as I will for shee will be squared out by another rule then her head was and will needs make the will of God which is eternally good to be crocked that it may conforme it selfe to her will which seekes not that which is truly good for her and which eternally is to be soe but that which seemes likely to giue her some little temporall delight A wake O Virgin out of that sleepe wherein you are for it is broad day Take the sheild of Faith Rom. 13. since God hath armed you with it and driue away these dismayes beleeuing that you are beloued though you be not regaled by our lord And turne your complaint backe vpon yourself since a little present disfauour is of more power towards the drawing you downe then the many fauours which are past to keepe you fast on foot You now doe iust the contrary of what you should For whereas it were reason that in this time of tribulation you should remember your comforts of former times beleiuing that the trouble which now you haue is but to trye what proportion of trust you repose in God You doe yet call it into question whether his loue were true to you then or noe beleiuing rather in the shew and leafe then in the substance and roote You haue noe iust cause to be dismayed though you bee afflicted For our lord is nor gone from you but he went away with a meaning onely to stande by and to see how you carried yourselfe like a mother who hides herselfe behind a hanging to obserue and heare what her childe sayth and doth whilst he thinkes that he hath lost her but then shortly shee steps out and makes much of him If you feare that he hath forsaken you and giuen you a bill of separation for the faults and ignorances into which you may haue fallen you are much deceiued For in farr greater falls then those Ierem. 3. his course hath beene to comfort soules by saying Thou hast committed fornication with many louers but yet retourne to me and I will receiue thee Though God like well that his seruants should know and weigh the faults into which they fall yet it is not his pleasure that they should be dismayed or too excessiuely afflicted by them Nay he esteemes this to be of more disseruice to him then the very fall it selfe Neither is it alsoe his pleasure that a sinne which is as little as a graine of seede should be made by vs as bigg as an Elephant and much lesse that we should make that to be a sinne wich indeed is none Soe that if you haue not fallen into sinne and yet will needs be troubled as if you had you offend against his truth And if you had fallen you should offend against his mercye by not beleiuing that he hath pardoned you You offend alsoe against his loue by suspecting that he hath forgotten you And lastly you offend against the Crosses which he hath sent to you esteeming them to be messengers and signes of wrath whereas indeed they are effects of his goodnes Take therefore the courage now at last to sally out from the owne narrow thought beleiue of God according to his goodnes as it imports his honour that you should doe And liue not still in such blindnes as to measure the large hand of God by the rules of your owne poore woefull hart Nor conceiue you that now he will be a rigorous iudge who at others times and in your greatest occasions hath beene a most indulgent Father to you It was not you vpon whome he looked when he pardoned you and called you but he regarded his owne blood which he shedd Nor doth he now stand hanging vpon your handes as if he loued you for them but you are placed and written in his as he sayth by his Prophet Isay And in those handes he loues you and with those handes he guards you euen then when you thinke he giues you buffets But it is his mercye which is your remedye and safety and noe meritt of your owne You are a Daughter and you are to possesse heauen by way of inheritance and not as a meere day labourer Confide in God and giue him glory in that he lodges his eyes vpon soe vnworthy a thing as you and for that he purposes to exalt soe base a creature to such height of glory And know that he hath noe neede of anything in you and that if he desire anything it is but that you may offer him that sacrifice of praise for your owne good confessing him to be your gratious pardoner and your piteous rayser vp from your falls and your Centinell who neuer sleepes when there is questioÌ„ eyther of doeing you fauours or of drawing good out of your sinnes and your most wise conductour who carries and saues you by such pathes as seeme in the eye of your ignoraunce to be very farr about or rather quite out of the way And all this he doth through his owne goodnes alone considering what himselfe is Which carries a greater weight towards your saluation then your wickednes doth towards your condemnation and you are bound to beleiue that soe it is And it must not seeme straunge to you that the greater surmounts the lesse and the Creatour the creature But let it stand for the last conclusion that as noe goodnes in you was the cause why God loued and called you to his seruice soe will he take care that your wickednes and weakenes shall not hinder the course of those mercies which he resolues to shew you for all eternity Continew your Communions and I beseech our Lord to giue them his benediction For my part I like well thereof and vpon the dayes which are sett downe communicate from time to time and God will giue you strength that it may doe you no hurt for he hath noe quarrel to you I beg that he may be your Loue since he is your Louer A Letter to a Lady who was a Religious woman and in great affliction He shewes how troubâ—es are the proofe of Faith and Loue in the seruants of God and how confident they ought to be of his diuine Maiesty in the middest of their troubles AS soone as I receiued your letter I offe red thankes to our Lord for hauing giuen you a signe that your vocation came
them he found not what he sought he may goe at last with an intyre hart to him who alone is able to impart more to the soule then it is able to receiue Your ladyship must not therefore be carryed away by that great errour which yet is imbraced by many great ones of this world who are mightily affected to their owne will and who abound with particular appetites and who thinke belike that they are to abound as much more then others in desire of things as they are heere of more eminent ranke state but for my part I see not what they gather from hence but greater torments For after the rate of the desire is the paine And as S. Bernard saith Let our proper will cease and there will noe more be any hell And soe wee may say let this proper will cease and there will not be in the world either any sinne or any sorrow For that which comes to vs is not in it selfe the thing which giues vs paine but the coming of it when we would not haue it come And therefore doth God require our harts of vs that soe hee may free them from many miseries and may giue vs in exchaunge his owne which is peaceable reposed and Ioyfull in tribulation And a grosse foole is hee who had rather liue in his owne straitnes then in the latitude of Almightie God and who had rather dye in himselfe then liue in life And if at any tyme or in any thing we haue committed this sinne and haue enlarged the raynes to our owne desires let vs humble our selues before the father of mercies acknowledging our sinnes and hoping for pardon at his hands and taking that paine which grew vpon vs by the inordinatenes of our appetite towards the discounting and discharging of our fault For by this meanes God is wont to take away our sinnes like one who should take the boughes or branches of a tree and setting them first on fire should apply them afterwards to the tree it selfe and soe burne it vpp by the rootes Much better it is for a sinner that hee should grow into â—aine by occasion of his sinne then into peace and rest For as S. Augustine faith there is not a more wofull thing then the temporall felicitie of a sinner And as for vs let vs learne heereafter to giue all our desires to God And as a stone falls downeward and as fire flyes vpward and as euery thing in sine makes towards his proper place soe let our harts fly at full speede towards the center thereof which is God Who would not be amased to behould a great rocky Mountaine hanging loose in the ayre without falling downe to his proper place and who will not wonder to see a hart which was created to repose and rest in God detaine it selfe in the ayre and lesse then ayre Therefore whether it be that wee cannot take true rest in any other then in God or because this Lord of ours deserues of himselfe all our loue since he is the loadestone to which all spiritts looke let vs not fall heereafter into such a folly as that whereof I spake lett vs not spott our honour let vs not committ such a treason against such a lord as that heereafter any other desire may enter into our harts but of him or for the loue of him And soe will the sadd cloudes of these vnprositable hart-breaking melancholies and these both vaine hopes vaine feares fly from these harts of ours in their place a new morning will rise which will giue vs Ioy. For to see the light of heaué is the cause of Ioy but the blinde man cannot discerne it Tob 5. For this did Tobias say what ioy cann I have in this life since I cannot see the light of heauen It is a great truth that noe man who is not indeede vnbeguiled concerning this world can haue any true ioy of hart for though he thinkes hee sees yet indeede it is but a sight of earth and not a light of heauen But after this other sight a man growes cured at the very roote It will be fitt that your ladyshipp doe not thinke to make the like exercises of minde in the way of spiritt as before now that you are subiect to an vnlike disposition of body And many haue ignorantly afflicted them selues for not hauing beene able to weigh what their strength and state would permitt It is cleere that with this condition of body wherein you are you must not thinke of keeping the same method which you held before nor doth our lord aske any such things at your hands since his will is very wise and tempered alsoe with great mercie and demands nothing of vs but that for which hee giues vs meanes And not onely hee will not reape where he doth not sowe but euen when hee sowes he is content to reape lesse then hee hath sowed Your ladyship must not be discóforted for that which you are not able to performe for you might as well put your selfe to paine because you haue noe wings where with to flye Doe not place the ioye of your hart vpon hauing consolation or vpon making Prayer but vpon the accomplishment of the will of our Lord. And since his pleasure is that the tyme which before you spent in praying shall now be spent in vomiting let it be soe in the name of God and lett his contentement be ours and lett vs more esteeme that he be pleased then we would to possesse heauen and earth And if we be troubled with any scruple that such or such a punishement came to vs for our hauing committed such or such a sinne and that God chastises vs now for the thing which wee inordinately desired before in that case what haue we more to doe then to cast our selues at his feete desiring both correction and pardon And our lord will either giue them both or els the pardon without the correction but neuer the correction without the pardon if the fault be not our owne We must therefore take any tribulation as an earnest penny or introduction to peace and prouided that there may be peace betweene God vs let any thing come which he will send One onely thing wee haue to feare in this case which is least wee should slubber ouer our negligences vnder this occasion and pretence of I can doe noe more Wee must heere looke vpon our selues with many eyes for this EVE which liues within vs is soe desirous to be cherished and regaled and to be walking vp and downe the garden and to be eating of the forbidden fruite that she wants not a thousand inuentiòs to make reason beleeue that she demaunds not any thing of superfluity but of meare necessitie and she is in a mightie chafe if they beleiue her not Madam there is neede heere of two things The one that when wee clerely see that wee are able in such cases to performe our spirituall exercises wee must not omitt
we list Let vs giue itt to him who will haue goodnes to tolerate it and wisedome to conduct and cure it And certainely our lord would thereby vndergoe the weight as a man may say of a heauy end vnsufferable burden if his loue were not incomprehensible It is a great help towardes out denyeing of our selues when we consider that we are our owne enemies and our very being soe miserable may well serue to keepe vs from being so couetous to enioy our selues and to make vs cast our selues away and turne our selues out of house whatsoeuer it cost vs. And yet the truÌ„pet of the diuine goodnes soundes this out in our eares that Dauid goes forth into the field as being persecuted without any fault of his and that the poore people who were much in debt and such as were in anguish and bitternes of heart ioyned themselues to him Blessed be our lord Iesus Amen who is soe rich and patient in goodnes that his father thought fit to trust such poore sheepe as we are in his handes But that which is lamentable is that we are soe blinde withall that he begging that we will be his and binding himselfe to be ours vpon that condition yet woe woe be to vs we still resolue to seeke Quae nostra sunt non quae Iesu Christi Those thinges which are our owne 1. Cor 13. and not these things of Christ our lord And we will needes possesse our selues still without any reason at all but onely through blinde affection and without once resoluing to trye how sweet how iust and how profitable a thing it is to belong entirely to Christ our lord and to walke in the way of his holy will Christ our lord giue you light in all Amen and be wholy with you A Letter of the Authour to a great man his freind who entred into the state of Religion in the Society of Iesus HAuing vnderstood of the chaunge which you haue made I haue giuen many thankes to the immense bounty of our lord who hath so earnestly taught you soe mercifully found you and so powerfully conducted you thither where without any impediment of other employmeÌ„ts you may present him with your whole hart for a quiet peaceable habitation wherein he may conuerse and take delight as he vses to doe with his elect These are not sleight fauours nor must wee passe them ouer without particular acknowledgment and gratitude For this I hould to be that sacrifice which our lord expressely requires in recompence of his fauours and for want thereof he hath depriued very many of those which formerly he had imparted Soe much more must you haue a care of this as the fauour was greater through the great dangers which threatened you by reason of the greatenes of your person the many imployments which accompanyed you in the world And therefore as our lord hath not performed a lesse act in giuing you light that so leauing all things you may goe in pursuit of him then he did in fauour of the three Magi whome he enabled by a starr to doe the same you must bee sure to adore God to spread your self all prostrate vpon the ground acknowledging your owne nothing before that high Maiesty and giuing him thankes from the very bottome of your hart for the fauour you haue receiued and offering your self as an euerlasting present to him whose you are by so many Titles As for me I esteemed it not for one of the least that he hath voutchsafed to seeke the Post childe and that he hath placed him in the ranckâ— of them who are most honoured in his house and all this through his owne onely goodnes What hart is there in the world which would not melt into tendernes by the coÌ„sâ—deration of such a fauour as this to see himselfe pâ—â—euented by such a hand and so as if the question and doubt had beene whether God's mercy â—â—r our misery should preuaile but he hath mightilâ—â— happilly ouercome And not being conteâ—ted to send vs messengers both within and from without himselfe takes vs by the hand like another Lott Gen. 1 and drawes vs out of the place of danger vp the hill where wee may be saued Doe not you forget this goeing out of Egypt for it is a certaine thing where many wonderfull things of God are seene And this departure of ours is not obtayned for vs but by the bedding of the bloud of the lambe which â—ath cryed out before the Father with desiâ—e that it may bee applyed to our soules Cleansing them from all earthly appetites and consecrating them wholly to the desire of his diuine loue Christ our Lord hath beene heard whilest he was praying for you as wee may very well beleiue Giuing this stone to his Father that so of vilde and basâ— he may make it pretious and that it may bee sett and worne in the head of Christ our Lord as a fruite of those great afflictions which hee endured for the good of soules Great was that warre and hee conquered therein for he giues soules â—o his Father who may runne after him and adore him vt vinctis mambu post â—â—lâ—â— Câ—â—iant Prepare your selfe to receiue our Lord since you are redeemed by him you are already belonging to him you are the spoyles of his victory a piece of lande you are which is come to him by lott that he may câ—ltiuate and water it and make it fruitfull O how happy are you if you can but valew your owne happynes and consider from whome and through whome it hath proceeded Beseech him that since he hath done you soe much fauour without all desert of yours his goodnes may neuer permitt that your hart should serue any but him nor your eyes behould any other beauty then the beauty of God who hath beene so good to you A great burden it is which herein they haue Layd vpon you in exchaunge of those many other burdens whereof they haue eased you For now you are growne a deepe debtor of a most profound internall loue and of diligent seruice to that Lord who hath eased you of all those other obligations and giuen you the speede of a slag wherewith to â—unne in his wayes Thinke you vpon this and bee thankfull for this Abâ—â— 3. And since you are as poore towards paying as you were vnworthy towards receiuing you shall make an act of renounciation of all your goods into the hands of our Lord. Beseeching him that he will accept you all for his and soe take you vpon his owne accompt to serue himselfe of you according to his owne gust and desiring that he will dispose of you as shall please him best I beleiue I haue already sayd too much to a soule to which our Lord is already speaking For to such soules all humane discourse is accounted tedious and troublesome and it hath reason to be soe But the ioy which in our Lord I haue conceiued and the commandment which you sent
and loue wherewith this fauour is done vs it will enamour vs and oblige vs more to him then the fauour it self which he affordes what a thing is it that God doth soe much loue man as through the much loue he beares him and notwithstanding the great offences which man committes against him he yet doth not take this loue from him nor doth it euer make him say I will loue such a one noe more though he come to mee agayne I will not seeke him out nor will I send to entreate him that he may retourne to my house He saith noe such thing as this But that perseuering loue doth still burne with a liuely flame and this soe very clearely that as these great waters of his torments could not soe quench them as to make him forbeare to dye for vs soe neither can the much greater waters of our sinnes extinguish this enflamed charity of God towards vs. But it remaynes euer conquerour both in his paynes and in our offences sussering there and forgiuing heere Hee who shall wonder at this will haue reason For it would be a wonderfull thing if this kind of loue were shewed euen from an inferiour to a superiour or at the most from but an equall to an equall Butt now this loue from God to man is more then wonderfull And yet on the other side he who shall not beleiue it in respect that it is so straunge a thing putts a great affront vpon Almighty God since he beleiues it not because it is soe wonderfull a worke Whereas on the other side it is as cleare way whereby to knowe the workes of God if they be soe great as to make such wonder as know them For if he be wonderfull his workes are also to be soe And if the reste of his workes be wonderfull these of his loue are wonderfull in the highest degree forasmuch as they spring out of his goodnes in the manifestation whereof he takes more delight and glory and vses it more then in the manifestation of the other attributes As the Prophet Dauid saith Psal 144. Miserationes eius super omnia opera eius His mercyes are ouer all his workes How ill therefore are they aduised who refuse to beleiue that which God doth because it is much and who refuse to expecte and hope because that which he promises is much comparing and parallelling the great acts of God by the soe short measure of they re owne poore vnderstanding The woeman of Samaria cannot arriue to knowe how Christ our lord can come by any water and much lesse Iohn 4. how he can bestow any such water as that whosoeuer dranke thereof should thirst noe more But our lord saith that the woâ—man knowes not the guift of God nor who it is that aduises her to faith and penance and who is ready to infuse the holy Ghost into her hart And soe there are still men soe cowardly and weake in faith that they cannot beleiue any thing of God but onely in conformity with they re owne poorenes Placeing they re eyes vpon they re little strength and they re little desert and so like beasts of earth they creepe vpon the earth and rise noe higher But he that lookes vpon God who giues vs his sonne who is his loue and who sweetnes God to wards vs and in whome he is soe highly content and in whome his diuine eyes take delight how can he doubt of that hart but that it will bee fauourable to vs when wee call vpon it with pennance and pitifull in all those necessities which may occurre to vs. He therefore who knowes this and desires it as he ought may well hope that he shall haue it And with hauing that he hath all good and will haue nothing to feare as that slaue must doe who wantes loue Make therefore haste to loue this Lord who loues you soe much and hath conserued you so well And if euer you had a desire to reforme your self and to follow our Lord yet closer besure that you renew it and encrease it now For our Lord commaunded twice that his people should bee circumcised Gen. 17. Once when he enioyned Abraham to doe it and the second time â—osue 5 when he brought Iosue into the land of promise The first signifies the first coming of a man from a worldly and wicked life to follow the way of the will of God which is the streight way especially in the eyes of the world The second is when God will carry a soule to his kingdome and then he commaunds it to behould it self with new feruour and to amend it self and to cutt of all superfluity to the end that with purity and ioy it may expecte that crowne of a kingdome which the goodnes of God hath prepared for his seruants Your Lordship must vse to confesse and communicate often for it is a thing which giues most strength and comfort to heare the sentence of our absolution and to receiue our Lord Iesus Christ into our bosomes You must pray and read and giue almes and doe whatsoeuer other good worke our Lord shall inspire you to And let mee knowe how the world goes with you And if your Lordship recouer your health wee will yet remaine with hauing put our soule well in order and with hauing gotten strength against feare The Holy Ghost that great comforter which through Iesus Christ our Lord was giuen to such as are well disposed to receiue it dwell euer in your Lordship and teach you how you may best please him and guide you by the right way Amen A Letter of the Authour to a lady who was sick He comforts her in her afflictions and animates her to beare them for the loue of Christ our lord who was soe afflicted for her MAdam I haue vnderstood that you are sick and I am not sory for it For if it come to you through any excesse of pennance the punishment is well employed and if you be sick vpon noe other reason but onely because our lord seÌ„des it to you let vs bid it welcome in a good houre as being a part of his Crosse And though in some respect your paine puttes me to paine as our lord knowes yet on the other side I am glad of it because I cleary discerne the profits which will be made vpon this occasion by one whome I soe much desire to see improued They are not comforts which I wish to my children but they are corrections the time of comfort comes afterward For the present take not your eyes from of the Crosse nor your heart from him who placed you on it Giue not ouer till you finde that sufferance is of a sweet taste for that is the true touch of loue Take noe compassion vpon your selfe for there are both in heauen and earth who haue compassion on you from their very hearts and that which is laid on you was very well considered of before and it passed through the handes of one who
walke in the middest of the shadow of death you may yet feare noe ill See you call vpon him for though you should bee in the whales belly yet he harkenes to his seruants euen when they are there Call vpon his Blessed Mother Ionas 3. who is also ours Call vpon the Saints who are our Fathers and our brethren for with such helpes as those you cannot feare to loose the celestiall kingdome And if our lord will haue you passe through Purgaâ—ory let his name be blessed still for soe that you may haue hope to see him you shall gladly endure any thing which may be imposed I beseech Christ our Lord who dyed for you to accompany you at your death and receiue you into his owne armes when you departe out of this life Say you to him as hee sayd to his Father In manus â—uas Pater commendo spiritum meum Luc. 23. And I confide in his mercy that you shall be receiued by him as a sonne and treated as the heire of God and coheyre with Christ our Lord. A Letter of the Authour to a Religious woeman who was neere her death He encourages her and shewes how she is to carry her self at that time DEuout seruant of Christ our Lord you sent mee word that you were in the last dayes of your life and that this was the time wherein you desired mee to remember you Soe I doe And though the newes you giue mee is not pleasing to flesh and bloud yet when I looke vpon you with christian eyes it is to recreate my soule And soe is it also to recreate yours as our Lord saith in the Ghospell when those things beginne to shew themselues Luc. 21. looke about you and lift vp your heades for your redemption is neere at hand For though Christ haue freed you by his goodnes the merit of his bloud from mortall sinnes yet still you are in daunger of committing euen then and you actually committ venial sinnes and you are still in the captiuity of your body which is soe subiect to miserie as that it makes euen a S. Paul and others who are like him sigh and groane and say as him self relates it Rom. 8. that they liued in expectation of the redemption of tâ—eir body But there you shall neither sinne mortally not venially For by meanes of the bloud of that lambe which was shed for vs hell where they euer sinne shall haue nothing to doe with you but onely Purgatory where though they suffer yet they sinne not And from thence you shall goe forth to see your Spouâ—e to enioy that blisse which he wonne for you with the nailes in his hands and with his feete fastened to the Crosse And forasmuch as it is a stranger thing to see God nailed vpon a Crosse then to see you placed in heauen I confide in his goodnes that since he had mercy enough to make him doe the more he will not want it for that which is the lesse Thither will he carry you thither I say will he carry you to remaine with himself For the espousalls which heere were celebrated betweene you when you soleÌ„nely made Profession that you would liue and dye in the state of Religion was one day to be concluded by that being together both of him the spouse and of her his fellow spouse in heauen There shall you see your self in soe great liberty and aboundance that you will esteeme your inclosure afflictions heere for well employed And there will they giue you a body which though in substance it shall be the very same which heere you haue yet shall it be very different in health and life and other things And you will incomparably more reioyce in it there then you haue suffered in it heere All entire all entire in bodye and soule are yow to bee blessed there and soe beautified as is fitt for the honour of him who tooke you for his spouse Iesus Christ the lord both of this the other world Be not therefore dismayed when you are to dye by thinking of what your owne sinnes deserue Christ our lord can doe all things and he loues you will not forsake you And since he hath preserued you in this time of your nauigation amongst all the tempests of this life be sure that he will not suffer you to perish now that you are goeing to disinbarke Putt your self wholly into his haÌ„d offering your self entirely to him both in life death and to whatsoeuer he will And beg pardon of him by his bloud for all that wherein you haue offended him and being confessed communicated cast your self headlong at his feete and desire of him one drop of his bloud whereby you may be washed and haue great confidence that you shall bee soe Be as reserued to yourselfe as free from all conuersation as the state of your sicknesse will permit For our Lord before he was to dy left his disciples that he might pray in solitude to his father giuing vs so to vnderstaÌ„d that in this traunce we must reseÌ„ble him And let your discourse be with Christ our lord with his Bl Mother And to the end that your infirmity diuert you not from them it will be well that you behould an image of the Crucifix of his Mother staÌ„ding by him Giue thaÌ„kes to our lord with your whole hart for the fauour he hath done you whether they be generall or particular and cast your self into the wounds of Christ oul Lord which is that Sanctuary out of which his Iustice must not drawe such malefactours as are repentant And repose you there and conceiue strong hope that by meanes of his bloud and death you shall goe and enioy that life in heauen which neuer is to haue an end Our Lord IESVS be euer with you Amen A Letter of the Authour to a woeman who did greatly feele the absence and disfauour of our Lord. He animates her to confide in our Lord and he assigned diuerse causes why God afflictes his seruants and of the fruit which his Diuine Maiesty reapes from thence DOe not conceiue that to be anger in our Lord which indeede proceedes from true loue For as he who beares ill will to another doth flatter sometimes and fawne vpon him so true loue sometimes corrects and chides And the holy scripture saith That the woundes which are giuen by him who loues are better then the false kisses of him who hates And therefore we doe him an extreame wrong who reproues or punishes vs out of the bowells of his loue if we thinke or say that he persecutes vs as if he loues vs not Doe not forgett that the Mediatour betweene God the Father and vs is Iesus Christ our lord by whome we are beloued and tyed with so strong a bond of loue that nothing is able to vndoe it if man himself do not cutt the knott by the guilt of mortall sinne Haue you so soone forgotten that the bloud of
Iesus Christ cryes out in the demaunde of mercie for vs and that his crye is so lowde as that it drownes the crye of our sinnes so that it cannot be heard Doe you not know that if our sinnes should still remayne aliue notwithstanding that Christ Iesus dyed to defeate them his death should be of litle worth since it could not worke that effect Let no man sett a light price vpon that which was so highly valued by Almighty God that he holdes it for a sufficient yea a superaboundant discharge forasmuch as concernes his parte therein of all the sinnes of the whole worlde and of a thousand worldes if there were so manie They who are lost are not lost for want of payment but for want of seruing themselues thereof by meanes of Faith and Pennance and the Sacraments of the holie Church Settle once this truth in your hart and doe it soundly that Christ our lord tooke the businesse of our redemption to his owne charge as verily as if it had beene his owne and he calles our sinnes his by the mouth of Dauid saying Longè a salute mea verba delictorum eorum And he demaunded pardon for them though himselfe committed none and he desired with a most profound internall loue that his seruants might be beloued as if he had desired it for himself and as he desired it Iohn 17. he obtayned it For according to the ordinance of God he and we are so much one thing that either he and we must be beloued or he and we must be abhorred And since he neither is nor can euer be abhorred neither can we also be so if we be incorporated into him by Faith and Loue. But indeede because he is beloued we are also beloued and that iustly because he weighes more towards the making of vs to be beloued then we doe to make him be abhorred And the Father loues his Sonne more then he abhorres such sinners as are conuerted to him And as one who was much beloued by his Father he said to him to this effect Either loue them or loue not me for I offer myself in pardon of their sinnes to the ende that they may be incorporated into myself The greater loue ouercame the lesser hate we are beloued pardoned and iustified we haue great hope not to be forsaken there where there is so strong a knott of loue If through our weakenesse we be afflicted with excessiue feares as now you are conceiuing that God hath forgotten you our lord hath prouided you a comfort saying thus by the Prophet Isai 49. Shall the mother perhaps be able to forgett to take pittie vpon the childe of her wombe well if she doe yet will not I forgett thee for I carrie thee written in my hands O writing which art so firme whose penne be hard nayles whose inke is the bloud it self of him who writes and the paper is his owne very flesh and his word saith thus I haue loued thee with an eternall loue â—eve 31. and therefore I haue drawen thee towards me with mercie Such a writing therefore as this must not be litle esteemed especially when one findes in himself that his soule is drawen by the sweetenesse of good purposes which are signes of that eternall loue where with our Lord hath chosen and loued him Be not therefore scandalized or afflicted for any of these things which happen to you since they all are dispensed by those very hands which were nayled to the Crosse for you in testimony of the loue hee bate you And if you desire to vnderstand what you gett heereby in the inteÌ„tion of God who sendes them you must know that they are tryalls whereby you may be examined that afterward as one who hath beene faithfull in the conflict you may be crowned by the haÌ„d of our lord with a Crowne of Iustice And to the ende you may not thinke that the particulars which you endure are signes of reprobation and that they are sent by our Lord to none but wicked men heare what Dauid saith in his owne person and of many others who walked in the way of God I sayd in the excesse of my soule Psal 30. that I am cast of before the countenance of thine eyes And though this dismay of hart and the disfauour which wee finde in the middest thereof be a thing which doth much afflicte and that the soule can take no ayme of how it standes in the sight of God nor how it shall stande nor what ende that Crosse shall haue yet neuerthelesse there are few things in the world which are so forcible to purge sinnes or which teach a man soe manie tâ—utâ—es as doth this darke obscuritie and inward affliction which makes the soule sweate droppes of bloud Our lord sendes this to his seruants that they may not departe this life without feeling what crosses and tribulations are And therefore he wounds them in the spiritt wherein they liue For if he should but wound them in temporall things to which they are dead they would haue no sence at all thereof You must therefore be sure to giue a good accompt of that dangerous passage wherein God hath beene pleased to bestow you and you must adore his iudgements And being comforted through confidence in his goodnesse bowe downe that head of yours without anie more sifting into the matter and open the mouth of your hart to swallow downe this pill of darkenesse and desolation and disfauour of God through the obedience which you owe to the same God And knowe for certaine that vnlesse you haue a minde to breake your word and vnsay your self in this tryall which God sendes to you you must resolue to make yourself strong as the Angell did Iosue Ioâ—uâ— 1. and you must liue dying euerie day 1. Coâ— 15. as S. Paul did You must be baked in the fire of tribulation that so you may grow hard like anie bricke and fitt to resist the raynes and windes of temptation and troubles and that you be not soft like the dawbing of a wall which is instantly dissolued by water and no way fitt for a strong building For the people who are to be placed in that house of heauen must be beaten and hammerd here on carth by the knockes of manie tribulations and temptations as it is written Our lâ—â—dâ—ryâ—d them and found them worthie of him self Sap. 3. Learne you therefore to sustaine your self with strong foode and striue to conuerte these stones of tribulation into bread if you desire to haue the testimonie of being the childe of God And if he giue you an appetite to eate the white and new bread of consolation remitt it back againe to the will of our lord and be content with being sure that you shall haue so much of that in the next world as that the sweetnesse thereof will farre and farre exceede the recompence which might be due for anie bitternesse sustayned in this And in steede of those hard
into so great affliction and feare as the newes of what thou art ought to giue them comfort If thou O lord wert well knowne there is no soule which would not loue thee and confide in thee vnlesse it were strangely wicked For this it is that thou sayst It is I therefore doe not feare I am he who kill and giue life I cast men downe as low as hell and I draw them back againe that is I afflict a man till he thinkes he dyes and then againe I refresh I recreate and I giue him life I cast men into certaine discomforts which seeme hell to them but when they are there I forgett them not but I fetch them from thence and they are but therefore mortified that they may be quickened I sende them not thither to remayne there but that their entry into that shadow of hell may be a meanes to make them escape the substance of that true hell after death and that they may fly vp to heauen I am he who can deliuer you from all affliction for I am of infinite power And I am he who will deliuer you for I am of infinite goodnesse and I am he who know how to do it for I am of infinite wisedome I am your Aduocate for I embraced your cause as mine owne I am your surety for I haue made myself subiect to all your debts I am your Lord who haue purchased you with mine owne bloud and with no meaning to forgett you but to doe you honour if you will serue me because you were bought at so high a price I am he who haue so profoundly loued you that for the loue of you I haue beene contented to be transformed into you and to become passible and mortall I who in mine owne nature was very farre from being subiect to such miserie I am he who deliuered myself ouer to innumerable torments of bodie and farre greater torments of minde that you might take hart to endure some for loue of me and to confide that you shall in fine be freed from them since I am he who vndertake it I am your Father as I am God and your elder-brother as I am man I am your Christ your redemption and what feare can you then haue of your debts if by penance and Confession you demaunde a generall release of them I am your reconciliation and of whose wrath can you then be afraide I am that true-loues-knott of friendshipp and how then can you thinke that you are fallen out with God I am your defender and what opposites can you apprehende I am your freind and how then doe you feare that you can want anie thing which I haue vnlesse you will needes departe from me My bodie and my bloud is yours and why then doe you feare hunger nay my verie hart is yours and why then doe you feare to be forgotten yea and my diuinitie is yours and what doubt can you then haue of miserie For accessories vnto that Principall my Angells are yours to defende you My Saints are yours to pray for you My biessed mother is yours to be the carefull and indulgent mother of you all The earth is yours that you may serue me vpon it The heauen is yours for you shall enioy it and me in it The deuills and hell is also yours for you shall treade it and them vnder foote like slaues who are chayned vp in that prison This life is yours because with it you gett another which shall neuer ende Your honest entertainements and delights are yours For you direct them to my glorie Your paynes are yours for you endure them for my loue and for your owne true good Your temptations are yours because they are occasion of your meritt and of an euerlasting Crowne in heauen Your death is yours because it is to be the immediate steppe to your eternall life And all these things you possesse in me and by my meanes For neither did I gaine them for myself alone neither will I enioy them alone for when I putt myself into your companie by taking your flesh vpon me I did it to make you partakers of all the meritt which I should acquire by my labours my fasting eating sweating weeping and by the enduring of all my torments and death if the fault be not your owne Now you cannot account yourself poore who possesse so great riches if you doe not wittingly throw them away by your wicked life Be not dismayed for I will not forsake you It is true that you are no better then some thinne glasses but I will holde you fast in my hand Your weakenesse setts of my strength the more From your sinnes and miseries I draw the manifestation of my goodnesse and mercie There is nothing which shall be able to hurt you if you will loue me and confide in me Thinke not of me according to your owne opinion and the iudgments which are made by flesh and bloud but thinke of me by a strong faith with loue nor by the apparance of exteriour signes but by that hart of mine which was opened for you vpon the Crosse that you might dismisse all doubt whether you are beloued by me or no forasmuch as concernes my parte since you see such workes of loue without and a hart which was so wounded by that launce within Iohn 18. and yet more wounded by my loue How shall I denye myself to them who seeke me to do me honour since I went out to that way where those others sought me to offende me I offered myself to ropes and chaines which afflicted me and shall I refuse myself to the hart and armes of Christians where I desire to repose I yeilded myself to those scourges and to that hard pillar and shall I denye myself to that soule which will be subiect to me I turned not away my face from him who strooke me and shall I turne it away from him who will holde himself happy that he may beholde and adore me What litle confidence is this that seing me to be voluntarily torne in pieces by the hād of dogs for the loue of my children yet those children should be doubtfull whether I loue them or no though they be confessed to loue me Consider o yee sonnes of men and tell me whome I euer despised if he desired to be well with me whome haue I abandoned if he called on me from whome haue I fled if he sought me Matt. 9. I conuersed and I fedde with sinners yea I called and I iustified them who were forlorne Matt. 11. and euen fowle in sinne Nay I am importunate to winne their harts who loue me not I make myself a beggar to all the world and what cause is there then to suspect me of forgettfullnesse towards my children when there is so great diligence vsed both to loue me and to make expression of that loue And though I may cōceale it sometimes yet do I not leaue to loue but euen for the very loue
some by these meanes and to others who deserue no punishment he sendes them as tryalls and he presentes them with an occasion of meritt And though the thing which you endure may proceede from either of these two causes vet I am not sorrie that you perswade yourself that it is not so likelie to be a proofe of your vertues as the punishment of some light fault if that fault may well be accounted light which deserues so heauie a punishment For if the saints themselues aknowledge that there is no goodnesse in themselues but manie faultes and much wickednesse how much more must you doe it who know yourself to be farre from sanctitie and so full of sinne And now if you holde it for more probable that these fruits growe from this roote the remedie must be that you examine well if you haue done anie thing for which you may deserue punishment And know that for the most parte it vses to be some litle dust of vaine-glorie and if you see not the true reason of it esteeme your case to be so much the worse when not withstanding you are so full of faultes you can discerne none But now since the blow is come humble-yourself vnder the mightie hand of God as knowing that you are worthie of greater torment Beseech him to haue mercie on you and that he cast you not of from himself Say O lord I haue sinned and anie punishment how sharp soeuer is in itself too light for me considering the greatnesse of my sinnes If thou be pleased to punish me here I am extende the hand o lord discharge the blow Cutt burne and kill onely permitt not that I be diuided and driuen away from thee If I haue sinned let not thy punishment be to let me sinne anie more for the naturall punishment of a fault is payne and not a second fault But now neuerthelesse I would not that by your thinking your faultes to haue beene the cause of your crosses you should discomfort yourself and be so farre dismayed as to make you fall and that as by some precipices into despaire I desire on the one side that you humble yourself beleiuing that your sinnes haue deserued them and on the other side that you be comforted by remembring that you are the childe of God and none of them who are forgotten since your father hath beene carefull to correct you as a childe for feare least else you would haue beene worse And beleiue me in one thing though I be no Prophet that if our lord in his mercie had not humbled you as he hath done you would perhaps haue fallen into some parte of Lucifer's pride which had beene infinitely worse and therefore hath he kept you so humble that you neither dare nor euer so much as can holde vp your head Giue thankes therefore to our lord for this fauour and be happie in that you haue his grace But alreadie I know you will say thus to me If I could be sure that I were his childe and not his enemie and that this were the correction of a father and not the punishment of a Iudge If I could perswade myself out right that I were in his fauour what could I wish for more then that But I verily beleiue that vnlesse it might be hell there is not so wicked a creature as I am to be found and how then can I possesse such a thing as grace This life of mine is not a life of the sonnes of God but it is a life or to speake more truly it is a verie death of the damned O my good sister if you know the guift of God and what kinde of people they are who for the most parte are putt to suffer such things as these you would perhaps reioyce If I saw that the enemyes onely of God did endure them infallibly I should be much afflicted but I finde that his best friends are tempted in this kinde and why then should I not be comforted thereby Iob the holie man Iob. 7. saw himself one day in so sad a case that he sayd I haue despaired Such things had passed in his hart that he seemed to be fallen into despayre But to the ende that we may see that indeede he did not despaire he instantly goes to aske mercie and he who askes mercie despaires not Dauid sayd as we all know Psal 30. that God had cast him cleane out of his sight and that he saw himself couered with obscuritie and darkenesse and enuironed euen by the sorrowes of death and the danger of hell And he sayth that such things happened to him as no man will vnderstand but he through whose hart they had passed I will omitt the tribulations of S. Paul which were caused by Satan and which made him hang downe the head for of these you haue heard many other times In the liues of those holie Fathers I haue read manie things which I should neuer haue beleiued if the Authour were not a man of much authoritie And euen at this day we heare and see strange things which arriue to certaine deuout persons and seruants of our Lord and he hath drawen them out of these temptations with great spirituall gayne Whereby we gather that a man in such cases Rom. 4. must like Abraham beleiue that which he sees not and hope euen against hope itself Tell me my good Sister haue you seene these potters heate their fornace Haue you seene that smoake which is so thicke black That kindling of fyre and euen the resemblance of hell it self which passes there who would beleiue but that the potts which stand there within would be mouldred euen to dust by the rage of that fyre Or that at least they would not grow to be as fowle as pitch by the grossenesse of the smoake And yet when that furie is past and the fire quenched and the time come when they vnfurnace the potts you see that though they were soft and made of durt they come forth as hard as stone and they who formerly were so very browne shew themselues as white as snow and so neate and daintie otherwise that they become the table of kings We are called by S. Paul Rom. 9. by the name of potts of clay and certainely with great reason since we are so soft and weake in suffering the knockes of affliction Make account that you also are some poore litle pott that they haue putt you out to bake For you were so weake as that you could not well retaine and conserue the liquour of grace which was infused into you by Almightie God They will bake you my good Sister and you must haue patience They haue trust you into the furnace of tribulation Endure now those fyres those foggye flames and those obscurities and by confiding in the wisedome and goodnesse of our good potter you shall not be turned into ashes which may be carried away by the winde nor disfigured by anie ill marke which may be