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divine_n and_o holy_a saint_n do_v say_v that_o it_o shall_v be_v a_o work_n of_o far_o more_o merit_n &_o perfection_n and_o a_o resignation_n more_o entire_a and_o complete_a for_o a_o man_n not_o only_o to_o accept_v and_o endure_v these_o thing_n patient_o but_o also_o to_o love_v and_o desire_v they_o for_o as_o much_o as_o they_o be_v effect_n of_o the_o good_a pleasure_n and_o will_v of_o god_n so_o ordain_v by_o his_o divine_a justice_n and_o confer_v unto_o his_o great_a glory_n imitate_v therein_o the_o bless_a saint_n in_o heaven_n who_o conform_v themselves_o in_o all_o accident_n unto_o the_o will_n of_o god_n as_o s._n thomas_n and_o s._n anselmus_n declare_v by_o this_o comparison_n â—3_n s._n tho._n 2.2_o q._n 19_o be_v 10._o ad_fw-la 1._o ansel_n 1._o similitu_fw-la c._n â—3_n learn_v we_o that_o in_o heaven_n our_o will_n and_o the_o will_n of_o god_n shall_v in_o as_o perfect_a manner_n agree_v as_o the_o two_o eye_n of_o a_o body_n one_o of_o which_o can_v look_v 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augustin_n in_o his_o life_n that_o he_o during_o the_o siege_n of_o the_o city_n of_o bonna_n where_o he_o make_v his_o residence_n be_v besiege_v see_v so_o great_a desolation_n &_o slaughter_n which_o the_o vandal_n make_v comfort_v himself_o with_o this_o sentence_n of_o the_o wiseman_n non_fw-la erit_fw-la magnus_fw-la magnum_fw-la putans_fw-la quod_fw-la cadunt_fw-la ligna_fw-la &_o lapides_fw-la &_o moriuntur_fw-la mortales_fw-la he_o shall_v never_o be_v great_a who_o account_v it_o a_o great_a wonder_n to_o see_v wood_n and_o stone_n fall_v and_o mortal_n die_v now_o we_o with_o great_a reason_n may_v comfort_v ourselves_o in_o consider_v all_o these_o thing_n proceed_v from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n and_o how_o ever_o the_o cause_n why_o he_o send_v these_o misery_n and_o calamity_n be_v unknown_a unto_o we_o yet_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a but_o they_o shall_v be_v just_a the_o judgement_n of_o god_n be_v profound_a and_o a_o bottomless_a abisle_n as_o the_o prophet_n say_v 3.57_o psal_n 3.57_o iudicia_fw-la tua_fw-la abyssus_fw-la multa_fw-la neither_o be_v we_o with_o our_o shallow_a and_o scanty_a understanding_n to_o undertake_v to_o sound_v or_o dive_v into_o they_o which_o will_v be_v great_a presumption_n in_o we_o quis_fw-la enim_fw-la cognovit_fw-la sâ—nsum_fw-la domini_fw-la 40.30_o ad_fw-la ronvere_n 11.34_o &_o isa_n 40.30_o aut_fw-la quis_fw-la consiliarius_fw-la eius_fw-la fuit_fw-la who_o have_v know_v the_o meaning_n of_o god_n or_o who_o have_v be_v his_o counsellor_n it_o belong_v only_o to_o we_o to_o receive_v they_o with_o humility_n and_o to_o believe_v that_o nothing_o either_o can_v or_o do_v proceed_v from_o a_o knowledge_n so_o infinite_a which_o be_v not_o wise_o and_o holy_o design_v and_o so_o design_v as_o to_o have_v for_o its_o end_n our_o great_a good_a and_o profit_n on_o this_o foundation_n we_o be_v to_o