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say_v he_o for_o i_o be_o in_o god_n and_o god_n be_v in_o i_o the_o cross_n which_o god_n have_v send_v be_v small_a every_o one_o must_v bear_v his_o cross_n that_o he_o may_v follow_v christ_n who_o have_v suffer_v so_o great_a thing_n for_o i_o though_o he_o deserve_v no_o such_o suffering_n this_o cross_n increase_v my_o hope_n the_o lord_n be_v gracious_a who_o enter_v not_o into_o judgement_n with_o his_o poor_a servant_n christ_n have_v dye_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o be_v rise_v again_o for_o my_o justification_n a_o while_n after_o mr._n wickelmans_fw-mi a_o dutch_a minister_n come_v and_o speak_v to_o he_o in_o the_o latin_a tongue_n to_o who_o he_o answer_v in_o the_o same_o language_n god_n strengthen_v i_o and_o he_o will_v preserve_v i_o from_o all_o evil_n i_o give_v thanks_o unto_o my_o god_n for_o that_o unspeakable_a goodness_n which_o he_o have_v pour_v upon_o i_o he_o succour_v i_o in_o this_o work_n he_o have_v be_v always_o present_a with_o i_o even_o to_o this_o 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