wee repent for our sinnes when wee desire and purpose to shun them when in the discussion of the conscience wee shall vnderstand that they are euill and displeasing vnto God For the euils which either out of ignorance or infirmity or yet or mallice wee haue committed this discussion and this examination doth detect sets them before the eies of the minde that they may bee lamented and blotted out Therefore the things which we haue committed with more precipitancy then prudence and feare to be euil we must diligently discusse and by a wise retractation inquire whether they be iust or vniust profitable or vnprofitable Hence wee may collect that who doe not often examine themselues can seldome or neuer haue a right and sanctified life For euen as a line is not thought to bee exorbitant and swaruing from straightnesse when it is look't on without the helpe of the rule but assoone as the rule is laide to it the obliquity and crookednesse of the line is discouered so the defects of our liues do passe by and out of our knowledge whilest that the Rule of Examination doth not ponder all our workes For this discussion of the Conscience is the rule which directs our actions and shewes what is crooked and what is streight what is acceptable and what is odious to God in them If therefore the rule be necessarie to Artificers to the doing of their workes according to arte surely then is the examination of our thoughts and workes necessary to vs to the end that wee may liue well and frame our liues according to the rule of vertue When wee doe purpose to clense a house wee first gather and sweepe all the filth in one place that wee may afterwards cast it our So is the house of our conscience to bee clensed examination gathers our sinnes together and repentance after that casts them out But if by this exercise we doe not see our sins and defects and gather them into some corner of our memory euen to our confusion and teares for them how shall we euer cast them out One doth very aptly compare the examination of the conscience to the moouing of the humours in the body by physicke for as the art of physicke doth first by the benefit of some medecine mooue and collect the humours and afterwards by some potion driues them out so the art of holy liuing doth first by examination mooue our sinnes and as it were pull them out of their residence and after by true repentance castes them out This to bee the true fruite of examinatiō the Prophet shewes Let vs search and trie our waies Lam 3. turne againe to the Lord. For what other thing is it to search our waies but to discusse our manners affections words workes and thoughts What is this inquisition but to trie by examination whether these same things bee good or euill acceptable or odious vnto God And what will hence follow Surely that wee may returne vnto the Lord and by true repentance put away his indignation and obtaine his mercy and fauour Therfore the discussion of Conscience is auailcable hereunto that wee may detest and lament our sinnes Thus holy Dauid stirred vp himselfe to the destruction of his sinnes Psal 6. I am wearie of my groning euery night wash I my bed and water my couch with my teares Hee had said before Turne mee O LORD and deliuer my soule O saue mee for thy mercies sake In which words hee praies that the Lord would pardon his former sinnes But that I may obtaine pardon saith hee I will weary my selfe with mounrning I will in the place of my rest call to minde my sinnes and will sill my bowels with sorrow and griefe For this is the way O Lord to bend and incline thy mercy and allure thee to spare and forgiue my sinnes But now let vs briefly lay downe the necessities of this discussion 1 It detects our sinnes and giues light and wisdome to know them For whilst wee accustome our selues to looke into our selues and to separate the euill frō the good we are instructed of the Lord who is faithfull how to doe that is good shun that is euill When Gedeon was threshing wheate by the wine-presse to hide it frō the Midianits Iud. 6. the Angell of the Lord appeared vnto him who taught him the will of God and made him captaine to ouercome the Midianits And what is this to thresh wheat and hide it from the Midianits but to examine thy life by a wise consideration to auoid the snares of the diuell Doth not GOD looking vpon this thy labour send his messenger to make thee captaine against thy enemies whilst thou feelest a light sent frō heauen to make thee know thy sins and stirre thee vp by teares and repentance to cast them out What is it to thresh wheate saith a holy father but by streightnesse of iudgement to separate the graines of vertues Greg. 3. Mor. from the chaffe of vices Therefore those that by iudgement and examination separato their good deeds either from wicked workes or affections doe prepare themselues to receiue the beames of diuine light At the last day when God shal iudge the world he wil first examine the consciences 1. Cor. 4. and by the examination manifest them that after hee may giue vnto the Godly most ample rewards and to the wicked most bitter torments because euen nature doth teach that no man is to bee iudged good or euill till his cause bee knowne of the Iudge God will set before man his sinnes Psal 49. hee will write them in his sight with the pencill of his wisdome that hee may know himselfe guilty and GOD iustly punishing him and the same order if wee will doe aright must wee obserue namely first by a prudent examination ponder all our thoughts and workes before either wee arraigne our selues as guilty or acquite our selues as innocents For neuer whilst wee here liue will there bee awanting in our hearts sufficient matter to humble vs and to prouoke vs to a holy repentance except our liues lie hid vnder the vaile of selfe loue 2 Another reason of the necessity hereof is for that no man can without it sufficiently conceiue a detestation of his sinnes For who euer was mooued to detest the misery hee knowes not Who euer grieues for the stripes hee feeles not Or the infamy hee knowes not such is he who is vtterly ignorant of his defects and miseries who doubtlesse will neuer grieue for them nor by any censure of amendement will cast them out And how shall hee not be ignorant of his defects who neuer lookes into himselfe Who doth not examine and discusse himselfe And who neuer obserues what hee caries either in his hands or in his heart Therefore discussion of the consciēce is the beginning of all soueraigne sorrow and repentance whereby when wee behold our owne cases and estates wee are stirred vp to sorrow and detestation for
God would not spare him that offendeth Greg. 9. Mor. And what is it that this holy man who did such admirable workes feared in them was it not least fraud and deceit should mixe themselues in his actions and earthly concupiscence should like a theefe secretly lurke to steale away the goodnesse of them Exod. 30. Therefore as the sacred perfumes composed of many sorts of spices were to bee beaten to pouder and set before the Arke of testimony so must our good workes not be few but many not proceeding from one but mixt with all vertues and by the pestle of the heart through inward discussion of the Conscience broken and bruised all to peeces and powder that they may giue a gratefull sauour in the nostrels of GOD. For as these spices if they bee not powned cast fourth no fragrant smell so if our good workes passe not vnder the hand of discussion but be presented in grosse vnto God they loose the sweet smell which they should haue Now if our good workes must come vnder this examination much more must our euill and wicked actions bee subiect to it For seeing thereby not onely our sinnes and defects but also the quality and greatnesse of the euill committed it cannot but mooue it to sorrow and repentance which being true and vnfeined bends the mercy of GOD towards vs and obteines remission in Iesus Christ Is 38. What doth the good King that hee might get GOD to bee propitious vnto him I will walke weakely all my yeres in the bitternesse of my soule where the common translation goeth thus I will recall all my yeares in the bitternesse of my soule All the yeares saith hee of my life I will remember my sinnes committed against thee and I will season this remembrance with grieuous sorrow and repentance and because I haue offended thy diuine Maiestie I will euen consume my selfe with griefe and affliction I will surely say O Lord if thus I liue if thus I must spend and wast my daies if in such so filthy and odious things so vnworthy of man I shall loose the life of my soule why should I liue And whilst I thus say and with griefe consume my selfe feeling thy reprehension in my heart I am by thy mercy brought to life againe I now see that in the false feigned and hurtfull peace which I had with my sinnes there was hidden most bitter bitternesse But whilst I see this and grieue for it thou O Lord who wouldest not the death of a sinner but that hee might bee turned and liue hast taken away and deliuered my soule from that miserable condition of sinne that it should not perish and hast cast behind thy backe all my sinnes These fruits did Ezechias gather from the recogitation of his sins And the same shall wee also doe as often as with sorrow and griefe wee discusse and recogitate our sinnes Ber. Learne therefore saith that deuout father to commaund thy selfe to order thy life to compote thy manners to iudge thy selfe to accuse thy self with thy selfe and often to condemne thy selfe and suffer not thy selfe to escape vnpunished Let thy conscience iudging and condemning thee sit quiet let Iustice stand as guilty no man loues thee better no man will iudge more faithfully In the morning take an account of thy selfe for the night past and giue a Law vnto thy selfe for the day come At night take an account of the past and lay a commandement on thy selfe for the night to come so shalt thou be kept from all wicked and daungerous transcursions and wandrings out of the way Seeing then all that wee doe must be thus discussed many of them being by the mercy of God good and not a few by our owne frailty euill it follower that all both good and bad must appeare before the conscience that what is good in them may by the mercy of God be accepted and what is euill out of our frailty may through his mercy and our due repentance be put out and pardoned Now hauing thus seene the matter of our discussion it followeth that we speake how it is to be done We say that Kingdome is happy where the Iudges loue no guifts nor seeke for rewards but iudge iustly but more truely is that soule happy in which reason illuminated by God examines all the actions and dissembles nothing nor leaues any thing that is vniust without iust punishment If then this examen of the conscience bee a certaine kinde of spirituall iudgement the forme of iudgement most be obserued in it that it be rightly and profitably performed of vs. Now in that iudgement wherin a man is not onely accused of some crime but also of ingratitude towards him whom by his offence he hath hurt 1. There must bee a commemoration of the benefit 2. An inquisition and probation of the crime 3. Lastly a sentence of the Iudge condemning the guilty and with due punishment censuring him Of this kinde it seemeth the examen of Conscience isâ—â— in which wee must not onely accuse our selues of some faultes and defects but of ingratitude towards GOD which being prooued against vs wee cannot but pronounce sentence against our selues and punish our selues by repentance for it For as black doth appeare better if placed neere vnto that which is white so our sins being set neere to the benefits of God will more euidently shew themselues To this discussion the Prophet exhorts what haue I don Mich. 6. O my people and wherein haue I grieued thee That so remembring his benefits hee might draw them to the knowledge of their sinnes and ingratitude and so bring them to a desire of their conuersion The next thing is to take a time accommodate and fit for this examen which may be some short time before we prepare our selues for sleepe There is one time of searching out the things that are aboue vs and another time of discussing the things that are with in vs. For their is a time for euery thing vnder the Sunne Therefore there is a time of contemplating the wonderfull workes of God and there is a time of considering our owne infirmities This is a time of weeping but that is a time of laughing For sorrow may bee for a night but ioy commeth in the morning Psal 29. Why should there not be a time of laughing in the morning of diuine contemplation in the contemplation of eternall light And why should there not be a time of weeping in the euening of horrible sights in considering the darkenesse of mans conscience Therefore in this time of weeping and considering our owne darkenesse fiue things are to bee done which concurre to the forme and manner of this examen 1. Is a commemoration of the benefits of GOD and an humble and feruent thanksgiuing 2. A desire of grace that wee may bee able to search out and know our sinnes and defects 3. An inquisition and discussion of the conscience whereby we may acknowledge the sinnes
vnchangeable most profound most euident and is wholy altogether for with one onely simple aspect it teacheth from one Eternity to the other seeing with one onely glimpse whatsoeuer is possible to be seene or knowne so that from that that God is God hee so knoweth whatsoeuer hee knoweth that hee can know nothing de nouo which before hee knew not because nothing can bee new vnto him for all things past present and to come and which by any meanes are possible hee knoweth distinctly and euidently without all mixture of doubt opinion or perplexity Whence I learne that as God forgets not mee but remembers mee and all mine so distinctly as if I were in the world alone so I should neuer forget my God nor the things that belong vnto him 4 If I would meditate of Gods Omnipotency I consider first that hee is infinitely Potent to do what hee will Luke 1. without any limits or bounds nothing is impossible with God Secondly that this Omnipotency is onely proper vnto God so that onely God in his owne nature and essence hath power but no creature hath any but participated from God onely God can doe what hee doth without the helpe of any other yet doth hee so participate this to his creatures that euery creature can doe that which is conuenient to his nature Thirdly that this Omnipotency of God doth exercise it selfe euermore in doing good vnto vs this being the Fountaine from whence all his Diuine Benefites do flow For hee created the heauen and the earth for vs wherein what benefites wee receiue by the Light by the Firmament by the Sunne and Moone by the Birds and Fishes by the Beasts of the earth and all the Treasures thereof the tongue of Men and Angels cannot declare And after the creation in that hee conserues the world and all that is in it for vs and by his Prouidence disposeth of all things for our good calling vs to the grace of his Iustification by the Ministery of his blessed Word and Sacraments and neuer leauing to accompany vs with his benefites and graces vntill hee bring vs to himselfe if wee will vse the holy meanes which to this purpose bee hath in Iesus Christ ordained for vs. Heere must wee giue diligence that the whole structure of our liues and of our considerations may chiefly depend vpon these three fingers of Gods Wisedome Omni-potencie and Goodnesse to which the actions and affections of these three Diuine Vertues of Faith Hope and Charity may answere For Faith answers vnto his Wisedome Hope to his Omni-potencie and Charitie to his Goodnesse Albeit all the three vertues and their actions respect the three Attributes of God together 5 If wee would meditate of the infinite Mercy of God then consider first that it goes before all his workes of Iustice for before God punish any sinners hee offers them infinite mercies Secondly that his mercy doth euer accompany the workes of Iustice Psal 76. for in the midst of punishment hee cannot forget to bee mercifull Thirdly Hab. 3. that the latitude of his mercy reacheth to all his creatures Sap. 11. Psal 35. and all their miseries yea euen to the bruit beasts Fourthly that hee is in a speciall manner mercifull vnto sinners and all kinds of sinne Psal 5. expecting â—â—ely their repentance that hee night cast their sinnes into the â—ottome of the Sea Mich. 3. and put them as farre from them as the East is from the West Psal 102 Math. 18 Hee forgiues seuenty times seuen times Ergo should I bee mercifull towards â—ny neighbour in imitation of his â—ercies vnto mee Ergo may I also conceiue great confidence of his mercy to mee a sinner Fifthly that in a more speciall manner hee is mercifull to such is loue and serue him such as are the vessels of mercy Rom. 9. This mercy of his towards his Elect is Eternall Psal 102 hauing neither beginning nor ending but is euen as God himselfe from euerlasting to euerlasting this mercy preuents accompanies and followes them euen to the last gaspe Rom. 8 This mercy is most high Ier. 31. for it aduanceth the elect to most excellent good things Psal 107. so that as the heauen is higher then the earth Psal 35. Psal 102. so is his mercy greater then their misery Sixthly and lastly he hath expressed his Mercie in the most exact manner that can bee possible For seeing as God hee could not bee sorrowfull for our hurt which is an effect of mercy his infinite Mercie prouided that his Sonne should take our nature on him Heb. 2. that hee might in all things bee like his brethren sin excepted and so become mercifull and sorrowfull for vs nay not content to haue inward compassion hee tooke on him all our miseries and paines Heb. 4. and hath not so left vs but by his Word and Sacraments hee helpes our necessities and infirmities considering wee are but men and stand in need of many remedies 6 If wee would meditate of the infinite Goodnesse of God First consider that hee hath in him all the degrees of goodnesse which are in the creatures infinitely more excellent then in them Secondly that all the goodnesse is so in his owne Essence that hee doth not participate it from any other thing nor can bee taken from it Thirdly that this Goodnesse so excels all the goodnesse of the creatures as the thing it selfe doth the name Fourthly that God is most propense and ready to communicate his goodnesse to all but chiefly to man for goodnesse hath a diffusiue power And this hee doth not constrainedly but onely out of his goodnesse nor doth hee communicate his goodnesse for his owne benefite as men doe nor yet doth hee suffer his propensity of goodnesse to bee idle but exerciseth it by all meanes possible powring it out according to the order of his infinite Wisedome Therefore when I pray I will poure out my soule in his sight 1. Reg. 1. Psal 141. I will poure out my prayer before him Nay I will poure out my heart before him O thou infinite Goodnesse which chiefly desirest to bee communicated if thou didst not communicate thy goodnesse it were impossible there should bee any goodnesse besides thee make mee partaker of these excellencies wherwith thou hast communicated thy selfe that I may loue thee serue thee obey thee not for feare but of loue willingly not for my owne benefite but onely for thy seruice not with a sparing minde and heart but with a liberall and generous Spirit Thus may wee meditate of all Gods other Attributes 15 How to meditate on the Lords Prayer or any words of the holy Scripture In meditating on either of them it is very good to pause and stay so long vpon euery word of the Lords Prayer or any sentence of Scripture as long as our soules should finde any rellish or profite by it In euery Petition I may meditate on these points following 1
Ensigne put all his Troupes to the sword themselues being such as illustrate many with the light of God and stirre them vp to emulation it cannot bee but such as are deuoted to this most fruitfull exercise must needs prosperously succeed And not without cause for there the mindes besieged with all kind of euils do gather new forces and are made more puissant both to tame the vnruly passions and also to acquire more vertues For albeit they enter vn-armed yet they go out armed and more valiant to fight of which that our Sauiours most couragious confronting of his aduersaries after his prayer in the Garden was a sure argument For Prayer establisheth the heart with magnanimity it is conceiued as if it were with the fortitude and strength of God instilled into it And what can so encourage the heart of man as the hand of the Creator stretched out to helpe And how can hee want the Hand that hath the Heart of his Creator Where two or three are gathered together in my Name there am I in the midst of them What shall I speake of those hidden comforts the knowledge of God the contempt of the world the peace of conscience and many other true tokens of the sonnes of God which are imprinted in the mindes of such as vse this holy exercise Beleeue it whatsoeuer by the most wise and eloquent men and Orators of the world can in this kinde bee spoken is lesse then these Orators of God by thus exercising themselues doe obtaine What then ought wee to doe seeing God requires this incessant duety of ours but that so much of our short time heere as may be taken from the necessary employment about things of this present life and our ordinary Callings should bee consecrated vnto prayer For this is as it were the very spirit of life which lifteth vp man from the dregges of this world into the fellowship and vnspeakeble fruition of the most hidden things of God There are but three sorts of good things in this life wherewith mans heart is rauished and all these are most richly attained vnto in this heauenly exercise That which is profitable is hereby by obtained euen vnto a certaine kinde of immunity from indigence and need of the profitable good things for it is plaine that men addicted vnto prayer are lesse vexed with hunger thirst heate cold and such like and therefore they vse both meate and cloathing most sparingly That which is honest they obtaine euen to the most high familiarity with God And that which is pleasant they obtaine euen to the most in-effable and most chaste delights and pleasures of heauen which in this world they most happily take a taste of That I may therefore giue a right farewell to this point the drift of all men prayers is to bee so grounded on the vnmoueable rocke of faith that there bee no haesitation in him that prayes but that hee assuredly trusts by Christ to obtaine the good things hee demands which assurance must be deriued from these 3. reasons which are so strong against all the incursions of sins passions and all temptations and so able to affect the heart as that they can moue euen the stones 1 Reason God albeit hee had not prouided for mans helpe neither the Incarnation Passion and Death of his onely begotten Sonne nor the holy vse of the Word and Sacraments nor any other thing yet of his owne goodnesse and naturall propensity vnto mercy hee is most mercifull nor can hee manifest his goodnesse and mercy in so high a degree to his other workes as in sparing for it is the highest degree of goodnesse and mercy to do good to such of whom hee is iniuried Seeing therefore God hath made all his workes to manifest his goodnesse and nothing makes so much to the end of his glory and manifestation as to haue mercy on men most miserable sinners certaine hope may be conceiued that hee will grant pardon to them that faithfully aske it and giue them both grace and glory God is more propense to doe good then the fire is to burne if therefore the fire as often as nothing hinders it burnes and consumes all that is put vpon it Surely nor will God so long as nothing with-stands him but haue mercy but nothing hinders God nor can as long as man doth seriously will and desire God to haue mercy on him therefore euen the most wicked may hope if they seriously desire it that God will forgiue their sinnes and giue them all necessaries Theee was neuer any man liuing from the worlds beginning so wickedly giuen to wine or intemperancy that was so much delighted with the pleasures thereof as God is delighted in hauing mercy If therefore the Drunkard and intemperate man doe not onely willingly take his pleasures but is violently carried away with the streame of them Surely God without any disgrace of so great Maiesty nay with much honour and dignity doth as it were hastily runne to take those pleasures of shewing mercy The euent proues it true hee therefore sent his Word into the world his Sonne because hee is delighted in quickenesse of mercy for his Word runneth very swiftly Seeing then that God when hee sheweth mercy doth a thing to himselfe honourable first to the glory of his great Name agreeable to his Palate and Disposition and therefore pleasant to him yea let mee say also profitable for so many seruants hee gaines as there be men on whom hee shewes mercy Who can be so mad and barbarous as not to conceiue most vn-controuleable hope and assure himselfe that the most munificent Lord will giue him whatsoeuer hee penitently and seriously asketh 2 Reason The most mercifull God from euerlasting when there was none to entreate him nor as yet the world was created being most propense vnto goodnesse fore-seeing Adams fall decreed that Iesus Christ our Redeemer should be incarnate and when the fulnesse of time came hee was incarnate of the blessed Virgine was borne and for the space of thirty three yeares suffered all kinds of discommodities and at last dying the most shamefull death of the Crosse purchased my saluation with his pretious bloud and by this price of his bloud so offered himselfe to the Father for me being but one as if hee had thought of redeeming none but mee so that his bloud all of it was no lesse shed for mee then if Christ had shed it for none else which the Apostle seemeth to haue thought saying I liue in the faith of the Son of God who loued mee and gaue himselfe for mee where hee speaketh more particularly then when hee saith Who gaue himselfe for vs and loued vs. If then Christ shed euery drop of his bloud for mee being but one If all his labours and bloudy sweate in the Garden were for mee being but one If hee cryed vnto the Father with strong cries and teares for mee being but one as if the matter had onely concerned the forgiuenesse of the
in this methode is most singularly proposed by what meanes one may come to the sublime and perfect practise of all that is written in all the bookes of God and godly men Besides this is shewed by the confession of many who thought themselues before to haue had a sufficient loue of God according to the frailty of man and that they serued him according to his will but yet hauing read some such direction and methode as this is they affirmed that almost they had not serued him at all and that now they serued him more in one day then in ten before And the same shal be also fully manifested by experience of theÌ„ who reading these things againe and againe will euer doe according to this forme or such like euer doing all they doe to the praise and glory of our most potent LORD God shall grow mighty and powerfull seruants of his for euer 2 The 2. point which in this 4. iourney of the soule to heuen I proposed was a daily short methode of practising such holy duties as wold make our whole liues a sweet smelling sacrifice to God This I will dispose into these sixe considerasitions 1 The duties which are to be done the former part of the day 2 Those to be don in the euening 3 Such as are to be don euery weeke 4 The duties to be don euery month 5 The duties to be don euery yeare Lastly the duties which at all times are to be done 1 The first worke of the day is is leauing of our beds and applying of our mindes to watch labour Wherin we must preuent the sun and euer thinke we heare the voice of the Angell arise quickly Act. 12. This timely rising is of great moment for vpon it dependeth the whole sensible deuotion of the whole day and the diuine visitation Assoone therefore as thou art vp turne thy heart and minde vnto God and labour in that first moment of day to bind him vnto thee with the affections of thy loue For it is iust thou shouldest consecrate vnto GOD the first fruits of the day and first receiue him into the closet of thy heart as that guest who to this end turneth in vnto thee and bringeth with him a troupe of vnspeakable graces to season thy heart and sanctifie all the actions of that day To this end therefore thou must cast from thy heart al thy cogitations wherwith Satan laboureth to exercise thee offer vnto God the first fruits of thy cogitations either in thought or some holy meditation vpon thy knees vntill thou hast coÌ„ceiued some affect feeling of deuotion labouring to cast froÌ„ thee al vaine cogitations which then doe chifely infest thy minde for hereby thou shalt be more deuout to euery good worke and more expedite al that day This is of great moment because if thou openest the gate of thy heart to any vaine cogitation or care it will make thee vnquiet and lesse apt to pray It is in the power of thy will Gods grace assisting it to admit this cogitation but not to reiect it after it is admitted because after it hath gotten the possession and dominion of the heart it will be very difficult to cast it out Whilst thou art it cloathing thy selfe inuocate the blessed Trinity and pray with heart and deuotion for the obtayning of zeale to pray of holinesse and diligence in performing the duties of thy calling For this purpose thou must haue in memory some such short praiers as may stirre vp thy affection This done and thy selfe being fully made ready cast downe thy selfe before God and with as great affection of minde as thou canst giue him thankes that hee hath giuen thee as quiet night and wholesome sleepe that hee hath graunted thee a new day and longer time to acquire thy eternall saluation and that hee hath deliuered thee from many daungers both of body and mind from all the iullusions of Sathan and thou shalt instantly begge of him grace to shunne all kinde of sinnes to performe worthily the duties of thy calling and in all things so to seeke his most holy will that thou maist be acceptable vnto him offer vp vnto him thy body and soule thy cogitations desires words and workes in the vnion and merit of Iesus Christ that from it and it onely they may become acceptable to him Lastly put on a full resolution of shunning some particular defect and sinne and of exercising some particular vertue and aske of GOD a speciall faour and helpe to the performance of this holy worke 2 After we are thus risen from our beds wee are to prepare our selues after a little while to pray For he that comes to pray vnprepared is like vnto him that teÌ„pts God because hee doth not so much please God and obtaine any thing of him as he doth prouoke his indignation against him Now the preparation which then is to bee made is of two sorts 1 If a man bee not of a good memory or much exercised in matters of deuotion hee must from some booke or paper appointed to that vse read againe the points of meditation which he reade the night before as wee shall after shew that the mind bee not in the time of praier wandring to seeke matter and so bee distracted The 2. is conteined in those words of Abrham beginning his praier to God Gen. 18. I haue begunne to speake vnto my Lord and I am but dust and asâ—es In which words are three things which this excellent preparatioÌ„ consists 1 That thou thinke thou must pray because thou art but dust and ashes 2 That thou consider him to whom thou speakest that hee is thy Lord God 3 That thou meditate the things thou art to speake A holy father interpreting these words saith thus Thinke not O Lord Chrys that I am ignoraÌ„t of my self and do exceed my bouÌ„ds vse too much confidence For I know that I am but dust ashes but as I know this and know it clearely so neither am I ignorant of this that the greatnesse of thy mercy is plentifull that thou art rich in goodnes wouldst haue all men to be saued Think therefore whom thou art to wit a most vile man a most ingrate sinner for thou art indeed dust and ashes dunge and stinch it selfe and with this cogitation humble thy selfe Thinke also to whom thou doest pray namely to the most wise mercifull and potent God the louer of Angels nature the repairer of mans nature the framer and maker of all things Admire his dinine Maiesty inâ—â—mously present which susteines thee loue his infinit goodnesse which is ready to heare thee and graciously to fauour thee be rooted in hope in that thou canst neuer depart out of the presence of so great a King either empty or forsaken Lastly thinke what good affect thou wilt drawne from thy meditation that thou maist direct thy considerations vnto it and what thou wilt pray for that so thou maist obserue
Father most wise Son most holy Spirit O three Persons truely distinct and one most pure simple Deitie O thou that art the Author of nature giuer of grace the first and vniuersall cause of all things and the most in deficient fountaine of all goodnesse here O Lord I know thou art present after a most heauenly spirituall true comfortable and most effectuall and powerfull manner to the soule of the worthy receiuer I worship thee as my God with my whole heart and with al my strēgth humbly praying thee in the merites of my Sauiour Christ that all my thoughts my desires words and workes may be now euer acceptable vnto thee that thou will heare my praiers and for thy mercies sake not without comfort dispatch them from thee I thank thee O foūtain of goodnesse for the innumerable great benefits which frō the very momēt of my conception vntill this instant houre I haue receiued of thy boūty for the infinit benefits which euē now at this very time I receiue from thee for those infinit benefits which euen vnto the ende of my life and for all eternity I shall receiue out of the treasures of thy immense goodnesse and bounty For I am O Lord without all comparison lesse then least of thy mercies vnworthy altogether whom thou shouldest remember susteine or comfort with the least of thy benefits But now especially most deere Father and mercifull God I giue thee thanks frō the bottome of my heart First for the most infinit riches which thou hast placed in the humanity of thy onely begotten Sonne my Lord Iesus Christ and because thou hast giuen him vnto mee for a Father a Teacher a Guide and a Redeemer Secondly for that great plenty of benefits wherewith thou hast not onely inriched me but also all those whom by thy effectuall grace through the whole Church thou callest to sanctification and newnesse of life and admittest to thy most sweete familiarity Thirdly also I thanke the most deere Father euen with all the strength of my minde for this thy great merey in taking me from the miseries of this world wherein many of thy seruants farre more worthy then I are plunged in calling mee to the knowledge of thy great name and graunting mee so many helps to serue thee as I haue Fourthly for all the talents and guifts both Naturall Spirituall and Temporall bestowed on mee that by them I might profitably spend my time helpe others according to my calling and power and dispose my selfe by thy mercy to attaine eternall felicity Fifthly for this vicissitude and change of consolations and desolations of prosperities and aduersities wherewith thou hast wonderfully wouen and seasoned my life that neither through continuall aduersity I should bee cast downe nor yet by assiduity of prosperity I should be made drunke Sixthly for this inestimable benefit of calling and admitting mee this day to the most heauenly participation of all the rich treasures that are hidden in the life death resurrection ascention glorification of thy onely begotten Sonne and most sweet Sauiour And now O my Lord God being animated with these and other thy innumerable benefits I presume humbly to sue for more Giue mee Lord and all that now are prepared for this heauenly feast Matth. 15 this day our dayly bread It is not good O my God to take the childrens bread and giue it vnto dogs but though this be so yet sometimes the whelps doe eate of the crummes which fall from their Masters table Therefore albeit I am in thy house like a despicable whelpe yet this day by thy mercy let mee feed on the bread of thy children and furnish my soule with all graces which may make me worthily to taste of thy supper Giue me thy most abundant grace that I may come to this my Redeemers bāquet with such assured faith profound humility due reuerence humble feare feruent charity constant hope and thirsting affections that I may there appeare to bee welcome vnto thee and may receiue into my soule all the fruits of this thy most heauenly Sacrament And because O my sweete Father Sauiour and Sanctifier this is a seruice wherewith thou art well pleased and by which thou conueiest vnto vs the bottomlesse Ocean of all thy mercies and graces I will now powre out my heart further in thy sight and because thy Sonne my Sauiour is omnipotent I will for his infinit merits sake pray vnto thee for all men Be mercifull therfore O Father of al mercies to the whole world and replenish it with thy faith and knowledge turning the Nations which are voide of faith to the knowledge of the truth in thy Sonne Christ Iesus Turkes Barbarians Heretiques Schismatiques Idolaters and the perfidious Iewes compell them now at length to enter into the house of the Church Let not so many millions created in thy image perish Let not that most pretious bloud of thy Sonne be shed for them in vaine I lament O Lord before thee these my brethren thus estranged from thee and the miserable condition wherein they lie intangled and if I could I would beleeue in thee with all the vnderstandings of these people I would loue thee with all their willes and I would perpetually serue thee with all their strengths But alas I can doe nothing but desire and lament and powre out my laments and desires before thy great Maiesty Haue mercy O Lord vpon thy whole Church increase in it the purity of faith and cleannesse of sanctification and extend it by the labour of thy good and painfull seruants to the ends of the whole world Behold with the eye of thy mercy thy righteous ones those that labour more and more for a further measure of sanctification preserue and increase in them true righteousnesse Behold all miserable sinners lying and stinking in the puddle of their sinnes draw them vnto thee and take them by a mighty hand out of that so miserable an estate Helpe Lord all those pastours of thy flocke and giue them grace that both by word and example they may shine vnto all men and their light may guide and direct others to saluation O Lord make them the salt of the earth the light of this cloudy world the cities placed vpon a high hill and giue them grace not onely to aspire vnto but to attaine that purity of life that zeale of thy glory which their place and dignity requires O Lord poure out thy mercies vpon our King and all other Kings and gouerours nobles plebeians and all the whole ranke of secular men that call vpon thy name deliuer them from their aduersaries ioyn them together in the peace of thy Gospell inrich them with a zeale and care of obseruing thy commandements that they may liue as it becommeth Christians and may obtaine that eternall saluation to which they were created Forget not the kingdoms principalities of thy Church but make thē more potēt then their enemies giue victory to their armies against the