Christ though he kill me and I will endeavour to live to serve him though he should afterwards damn me Mat. 4.5 Rev. 12.10 Job 12.13 Exod. 20.13 Act. 16.28 Job 13.15 Christian Though I dâ— sometimes resolve against Satans temptations and labour to resist them yet I find my temptations are renewed and I am not able to withstand them for they come in as a flood upon me Ch. I that say unto the proud waves hitherto shalt thou come but no further I will by my spirit put the Enemy Satan to flight when he comes in like a flood against thee Job 38.11 See Esa 59.19 Marg. Christian But Lord I find am not only troubled with fear and sad temptations but also with strong and powerful corruptions Ch. I will subdue all thy iniquities and thy sins shall not have dominion over thee Mich. 7.19 Rom. 6.14 Christian Oh but this doth much trouble me that I do not find any love in my heart to thee Ch. What though thou dost not yet I will circumcise thy heart and thou shalt love me and when thou apprehendest my love to thee thou wilt love me again Deut. 30.6 1 Job 40.19 Christian I have sinned Lord against thy mercies and abased thy love yea loveâ— my sins more then thee therefore I cannot think that eveâ— thou wilt look upon me with any love or delight Ch. So did my servant David and my people Israel do yet as I loved them so will I love theâ— freely and betroth theâ— to me in loving kindnesâ— and mercy 2 Sam 12.8 9. Hos 2.5 and 14.4 and 2.9 Christian But Lord â— have not only sin'd against thy mercies but against thy corrections and chastisements also Ch. So did my people Israel formerly do for when I smote them they went on forwardly in the way of their evil hearts but I led them and restored comforts to them Esa 57.17.18 Christian I but my condition is worse then all that for I have been long under the means of grace and yet I am altogether fruitless and like the barren Fig-tree Ch. Thou troubled soul in me is thy fruit found and I will purge thee and thou shalt bring forth fruit abundantly for they that are planted in my house shall flourish and be fat and like a green Olive Tree Joh. 15.5 Psal 92.12 13 14. Christian I Lord its true if I were a branch in thee and a true member of thy house then I could believe these promises of thine alas I am neither of both but separated from thee and thy people C. Do not say that thou art none of mine for â— have bought thee with my blood and do not speak that thou art separated from my people for I will give thee in mine house and within my walls a place and a name of Sonâ— and Daughters Esa 56.3.5 Christian Sure if I were not an out-cast and a Reprobate I should not be thus as I am in a wilderness condition Ch. Israel was counted an out-cast and she cried out yet I was then a God to her and she a people to me Jer. 30.16.17.22 Christian Oh if I were but one of thine I should then count my self the happiest in all the world Ch. Fear not my Spouse for I am thy Husband and thy Father Christian If I were one of thy Children thou wouldst not hide thy selfe from me as thou dost Ch. I have hid my selfe and my face from some of my Prophers and people of old and yet it was in love to them and so it is to thee Psal 88.14 Esa 8.17 and 64.7 Christian But thou hast hid thy self from me and thou seemest also to be angry with me Esa 54.5 Jer. 31.9 Ch. Fury is not with me towards thee and though I be angry yet my anger is but for a moment Esa 27.4 and 54.8 Christian Yet Lord thou hast been angry with me a long time for thou hast forgotten me Ch. Zion did say so the Lord hath forsaken me and my Lord hath forgotten me yet I had not forgot her for she was graven upon the palmes of my hands Esa 49.14.15 Jer. 51.5 Christian But Lord if thou had'st not forgotten me thou would'st never have left me in such a wilderness and barren condition as I am in Ch. I have allured thee into the wilderness that I might speak comfortably unto thee Hos 2.14 Christian I have been many years in trouble and terrours and wanting peace in my soule which could not possibly have been if I had truly believed in thee Ch. But now will I speak peace unto thee and I will guide thee into the way of peace Psal 85.8 Luk. 1.79 Christian Lord wilt thou speak peace unto me and guide me into the way of peace i. e. The Preachers Lips that Preach't peace Ch. I will create the fruit of the lips Peace Peace and my spirit shall be in thee and his fruit shall be peace to thy soul Esa 57 19. and 55.12 Christian But Lord thy word saith there is no peace to the wicked Ch. No not to a man that will persist in his wicked way and doth not nor will not believe in me but thou art one of those that I bore the chastizement of thy peace and one of the children of peace Esa 53.5 and 54.13 Christian But Lord how can I have peace seeing a man cannot have peace before and without he does believe Ch. Thou shalt have faith and peace and I will give peace through believing 2 Thes 3.16.6 Christian But Lord theâ—â— I must know that I am one of thine Ch. Thou shalt know that I am the Lord thy God and that thou art one of my people Ezek. 34.30 Christian Oh how shall I know that Ch. My spirit shall bear witness with thy spirit that thou art my Child Rom. 8.16 Christian But how shall I know that it is thy spirit that beareth this witness and that it is not the spirit of delusion Ch. Thou maiest know that by its power in working in thy heart which no other spirit can work alike as also by the earnest and fruits thereof 2 Cor. 5.5 and 7.22 Gal. 5.22 23. Christian Lord what else shall I believe besides being one of thine Ch. Dost thou believe that Christian Yes Lord I do believe that thou art Jesus the Son of God and the Saviour of the world Act. 8.37 Joh. 6.69 and 11.27 Ch. But dost thou believe that I am thy Saviour Christian Lord I do believe that there is no other way to be saved but only by thee Act. 4.12 Ch. But dost thou believe that thou shalt be saved by me Christian Lord I do believe help my unbelief Mar. 9.24 Ch. To thee it is given to believe Phil. 1.29 Christian now Lord I doe believe Ch. What dost thou now believe Christian I believe that thou loved'st me and did'st give thy self for me and that thou art my Lord and my God and that I am justified and shall be saved by grace Gal. 2.20 Joh. 20.28 Act. 15.11 Ch. How
soul should redeem some special time for secret and private duties 85. It is the will of Christ that Christians should rejoyce more in what Christ hath done for them then in what they have done or can do for him 86. Christ kept the Law legally Christians kept it evangellically He kept it perfectly they kept it with full purpose and endeavour 87. Ask thy soul O Christian whether he be willing to receive Christ upon his own Terms and for his own sake and to accept of pardon and life through him freely without looking at all upon thy own righteousness Art thou contented that Christ should be honoured in and by thee and that thou shouldst be despised and dishonoured for his sake 88. God doth never out-speak or out-promise his Power Truth and Faithfulness 89. He is a strong Christian that seeks Gods Glory more then his own salvation but he is no Christian that seeks neither 90. It is a great ease to and an unburtherning of the to confess sin sensibly humbly brokenly and with hatred to it 91. Christ and sin are most magnified in the eyes of believers in their affliction but in a very different manner and to a different end For Christ appears as the greatest good and sin as the greatest evil and then Christ will be most desired and sin most despised 92. It is the duty of a Christian to suspect and search himself when he doth not know evil by himself 93. Account the least spiritual thing better then the greatest and best of outward and temporal things 94. Keeking from sin is Soul-preservative Physick but repentance for sin is Soul-Restorative Physick 95. Strive greatly to have and excercise a good conscience toward God and men to commit thy Soul Life and condition to the Lord and then expect the worst of men and the steb of Christ 96. Thou must die once whether thou suffer or no and thou canst but die once if thou suffer 97. The sins of Christians are new sufferings to Christ and the sufferings of Christians are wounds of Christ Eph. 1.30 Ezek. 6.9 98. Labour to act those Graces chiefly that are most contrary to your Master-sins 99. A Christian may know the weight of sin by the sufferings of Christ for if that strong Bar of Steel did bend under the weight of our sins what shall poor weak man do who is but a reed or rush 100. Sathan accuses God to men and men to God but Christ excuses and answers all his accusations against his people 101. He that will not take example from others shall make an example himself 102. O Lord as a sign that I shall be able to die for thee let me find my corruptions dying in me by power from thee 103. He that loves not Christ more then his life is like to lose Christ and his life but he that loves Christ more than his life will be sure to save and keep both Mark 10.49 Luke 14.26 104. Christians should account restraints from sin great mercys to them but Recoveries out of sin with spiritual advantage greater 105. Sin hath no Mother but a mans heart nor Father but Satan 106. Satan draws the Soul into it either by Power or Policy by Force or by Fraud 107. A Christian should desire to have his heart tyed to the Lord and to be strong in faith upon Christ in Love to Christ and in Resolution for him 108. The reason why men do not more magnifie Gods grace is because they do not behold their own vileness and the reason why men do not see their own vileness more is because they do not apprehend Gods goodness more clearly and fully 109. When a Christian comes to be as weary of his sins as of his afflictions God will certainly put an end to them 110. There will be a reviving of old sins if there be not effectual repentance for them and a care by faith through all duties and ordinances to get new strength against them and a constant watch kept over them 111. A Christian comes not to know the weakness of his grace till the spirit ceases to work in and by it nor the power of his corruption till Satan works therein by his Temptations 112. It should trouble a Christian much to have such Graces as he receives from God beget so little good in him 113. The Lord would soon turn from his wrath if men were turned from their wickedness 114. He commands most and best that commands in love humility and self-denyal 115. The world is a great nothing deluding the bad and disturbing and distracting the good 116. The Holy Law of God teaches a man to see his own deformity and requires from a man Conformity to it self 117. Sathan works more upon men by slight then by might avoid therefore his cunning and thou wilt avoid his cruelty 118. He hath not learned to rule well that hath not learned to obey well 119. An even through-paced self-fearing heart-melting Christian is always best 120. Rusling opinion-souring and Church-renting persons and professors have commonly more self then grace if any at all 121. The less a man strives for himself the more will Christ strive for him 122. Thoughts of our own death will much tend to deaden sin 123. Prayer is a good preparative to suffering when Christ had prayed he went out to meet Judas Joh. 18.4 124. Be never at peace with sin Satan or Christs implacable Enemies 125. In two cases 't is hard to act Faith 1. When there is nothing sensible or visible to second and support it 2. When there is very much of these outward things to fill and take the senses withal 126. As Christ was saved from death though he died Heb. 5.7 So are true Christians when they overcome death by their resurrection through Christ 127. Learn by lighter crosses to look and prepare for heavier 128. As our good works and â—â—rformances should have an operation upon our souls and hearts to strengthen faith so should our weaknesses and sins to work Repentance 129. No power can keep him in Bond whom truth and innocency acquits 130. If thou hast faln into sin through violent temptations seek speedily for Repentance for it recovery out of it and Reformation under it If God hath kept thee from falling still fear watch pray and live by faith in Christ 131. Prepare your self for death and pull out its sting 1. By bewailing sins past 2. Turning to God in time to come 3. Purposing a new life none can dy ill that hath had a care of living well perswade your self if you live well you shall die well and if you die well doubt not but you shall have Eternal Happiness 132. Wish not for a long life so much as for a good life he hath lived long who hath lived well a short life in grace endeth in an everlasting life of Glory 133. Distrust not Gods providence in any matter although you see the means wanting neither when you have them let them be reâ—â—ed
Sin was in power in Paul when it could carry him captive and sold under sin and that he found a law in his members warring against the law of his mind and bringing him into captivity to the law of sin Rom. 14.23 Christian Oh but neither Paul nor any other Saint hath sinned presumptuously as I have done Ch. My servant David pray'd that he might be kept from presumptuous sins for he was subject thereunto Ps 19.13 It is probable that David sined presumptuously in kiling Vriah and so are the best of my Saints Christi But Lord I have rebelled against thee Ch. So did my servants of ‖ old but I have received ‖ gifts for the Rebellious and to me belongs mercies and forgiveness though thou hast rebelled against me Dan. 9 9 ‖ Is 1.2 and 63.20 ‖ Is 68.18 Christian Oh but my Rebellion is the worst Rebellion of all for I have rebelled against the light I have professed thee and yet I have belied thee and made an hypocritical profession I seemed like Judas to be thy friend whilst in my heart I did not love thee Ch. The house of Israel and the house of Judah dealt treacherously against me the Lord and belied me and Ephraim my dear Son compassed me about with lies yet was I gracious to them Jer. 5.11.12 Hos 11.12 with Jer. 23.6 and 31.20 Christian But Lord Ephraim was never so wicked as I am and guilty of such Lukewarmness Hypocrisie and Backsliding as I am guilty of Ch. Yea Ephraim was a cake not turned And Ephraim fed upon winds and provoked me to anger most bitterly yet my bowels did still worke toward Ephraim that I could not destroy him Hos 8.8 and 12.1.14 with 11.8 Christian But I increased in sin and the more mercies I received the more my heart was exalted Ch. Even so did Ephraim sin more and more according as he was filled so his heart was exalted Hos 13.2 6. Christian But Lord what didst thou do to Ephraim Ch. I drew them with the cords of man and with bands of love and I was as the dew unto them Heb. 11.4 and 14.5 Christian Oh but I have forsaken the Lord and backslided from thee Ch. So did Israel and Judah Jer. 2 13. and 3.6 and 4.16 Christian But Lord I find that my heart is bent to continual backsliding yea my bakslidings are encreased Ch. So were ‖ they yet I healed their backslidings so will I heal thine also Hos 14.4 Jer. 3.14.22 ‖ Hos 11.7 Jer. 5.6 Christian But I have fell into gross sins that hath dishonoured thee and caused thine enemies to blaspheme Ch. So did my servant David 2 Sam. 12.14 and others of my Saints Christian I but then he did mourn and repent greatly for his sins but I cannot do so for I find my heart as hard as an Adamant Ch. So my people Israels hearts formerly were as hard as a Rock Adamant and Flint Jer. 5.3 Ezek. 3.9 Christian Oh but I have been long yea ever troubled with this hardness of heart Ch. Though thou hast yet I will take the stony heart out of thy flesh and I will give thee a heart of flesh Ezek. 36.26 Christian But I cannot repent me of the hardness of my heart Ch. What though yet I am exalted to give repentance unto thee Act. 5.31 Christian Oh but I do not find that I am sensible enough of my sin for if I were I should mourn and be ashamed for all the wickedness which I have committed against thee Ch. When thou doest see me whom thou hast pierced and when thou seest that I am pacified towards thee then thou shalt mourn loath thy self and be ashamed for all thy sins and abominations which thou hast committed against me Rev. 1.7 Ezek. 6.9 and 16.63 Christian But Lord I am a very great sinner and I would fain see the nature and number of my sins that I might truly repent me of them and be humbled for them Ch. If thou see all thy sins with their nature number and aggravations thou couldst never look upon them but with despair as Cain and Judas And it is not so much the sight of sin as the sight of my Love Grace Goodness and Glory that will lead thee to repentance and humble thee for thy sins Luk. 7.42.47 Zach. 12.10 Rom. 2.4 Esa 6.5 Gen. 4.13 Mat. 27.3 4 5. Christian Oh Lord I know I am as wicked a sinner and as ungodly a wretch as ever lived but though I know this yet methinks I am not broken with the sence thereof I cannot weep nor shed tears for my sins Oh no! I go many times to prayer and to hear Sermons and there is no more working nor relenting upon my soul then if I were a dead stock or stone Ch. Oh my dear soul do not thou belie thy self for I have heard many a sorrowful sigh comming from thy heart and I have seen many a teare drop from thine Eyes and I will yet pour out more of the Spirit of mourning upon thee But what if thou didst noâ— find these things in thy self yet I have offered up strong cries and teares unto my Father for thee Ezek. 9.4 Psal 34.17 Zack 12.11 Heb. 5.7 Christian Oh Lord that I had but faith to believe that I for my selfe Ch. Have faith in me and be not faithless but believing Mat. 11.22 Joh. 20.27 Christian Lord I find sâ— much Atheism and unbelief in my heart that I have oftentimes questionings in my selfe concerning God and concerning the Scriptures and word of God Ch. These are the temptations and suggestions of Satan and my own Disciples were and are troubled with them Luk. 24.25 Christian Oh Lord I am troubled with a thousand temptations Ch. Yet fear not my loving and dear Child for thou hast divers temptations yet it is that which my best Saints have had and I will not suffer thee to be tempted above what thou art able but I will succour thee in thy temptations and I will make a way that thou shalt escape and be delivered out of temptations Jam. 1 2.1â— Cor. 10.13 Heb. 2.18 2 Pet. 2.9 Christian But I think nâ— Saint hath such temptations aâ—â— mine for sometimes I am tempted to kill my selfe and sometimes to kill others in so much that I cannot look upon any weapon waters or the like but I am ready to do my self away therewith Ch. Satan tempted me to cast my selfe off the Pinacle of the Temple and he also tempted many of my dear Children to destroy themselves but do not thou harken to the Accuser for he doth accuse thee to me and me to thee but rather say unto him Satan it is written my Lord Jesus hath over-come thee and I hope through his blood and through his might and spirit to overcome thee likewise say also my God hath commanded me not to kill another nor to do hurt or violence to my selfe therefore get thee behind me thou Lier Murtherer and Enemy for I will put my trust in
13.26 Mat. 20.6 4. Pray that thy last days and last works may be best and that when thou comest to die thou maist have nothing else to do but to die 5. 'T is very hard to behold our own gifts without pride and the gifts of others if they excel ours without envy 6. Do not commend thy friend nor discommend thy soe too much least thou be judged to be partial 7. Oh my Soul will neither great Love great Mercy great Forbearance great Intreaty great Patience great Promises nor great Wages prevail with thee to serve Christ free better and more constant and self-denying 8. A deep sence of sin begets deep sorrow for sin and true sorrow for sin leads to well-grounded faith and from hence flows inward Peace Joy and Holiness 9. A Passionate and troubled spirit is like a little Rill of water which every shower of rain changeth the colour of it and makes it muddy 10. The fear of death is ingrafted in the common Nature of all men but faith works it out of Christians 11. Nothing will be terrible where the love of God is apprehended and nothing grievous where love to Christ is excercised 12. Careless hearing makes carnal hearts and carnal hearts makes cursed lives 13. Oh my Soul look for death hourly long for it greatly prepare for it carefully meet and welcome it joyfully for it is Christs servant to direct his spouse the Soul to him and thy friend that comes to set thee at liberty from thy sins It will discharge thee from thy prison dismist thee from thy sorrows and bring thee at once to enjoy all thy desires 14. Christians though disagrecing in opinion should agree in affection and though differing in controversie yet should agree in charity 15. He that cannot pitty the sinner and hate sin doth not reprove out of love to Christ nor from a gracious spirit 16. God makes Christians feel him or his hand that he may hear them strokes makes crys and whippings mournful complaints to him 17. My Soul bear up with Christ bear off from Sathan and the world bear down thy corruptions and bear forth thy Testimony 18. Clear knowledge of Christ in the understanding begets fervent love in the heart and both godliness in the life 19. He that would live for himselfe only or cheifly in the world is not worthy to live a day in it 20. I would be glad to be out of the world when I have no service to do for God in it 21. God hath set the tongue between the brains and heart that it may advise with both and guarded it with Teeth to keep it in and yet how unruly it is 22. A Christians security and safety is in doing his duty and he should always Study his duty more then his safety for if he will take care to please God God will take care to preserve him 23. The love of the Master the sweetness of the service and the greatness of the reward are sufficient encouragements to serve Christ 24. The heaviest afflictions on earth are but light in comparison of Christs sufferings sins desert or the punnishment of the wicked in Hell 25. Lay in lay up lay out for Christ and remember that you will shortly reach immortallity but never Eternity 26. Oh Christian why should not he please thee who art but finite that pleases God who is infinite even Jesus Christ 27. A Christian should desire to dye that he may be fully freed from sin and have a full fruition of Christ that he may be above all fears and doubts and may be able to serve the Lord incessantly and unweariedly 28. A true Christian when he goes from hence changes neither his work nor company but his place and condition only 29. Be still imployed in doing good and you shall not be much tempted or troubled with evil for the Devil hath great advantage both against those that are idle or ill-imployed David was found guilty of the first 2 Sam. 11.2 and Jehosophat in the last 2 Chron. 10.31 30. Sence of Misery must precede sence of Mercy and the more we feel and fear Misery the more we desire seek for and prize Mercy 31. It is the least of afflictions to be afflicted by men for they can afflict but the outward man only and of all Eâ—emies man is the â—â—akeâ—t Eâ—â—my But God 〈…〉 yea Satan and 〈…〉 do afflict the 〈…〉 is more intollerable 32. That Christian is most in prayer that hath most sence of his own wants and is most comfortable ordinarily that is most penitent and the same word in the Greek signifies to want and to pray and the same word in Hebrew to repent and to comfort 33. Be more thoughtful and careful how to use what you have to Gods glory then to gain more 34. Take heed of being humbled and yet unhumbled that is of being brought outwardly Low and yet the heart continue still high 35. Sometimes Ejaculations or short and suddain pantings and breathings out of desires to God may be more acceptable to him and more prevailing with him then long prayers 36. Never reckon what thou hast of outward worldly things unless it be to praise God for them or to serve God better with them 37. It is the property of a true Christian to justifie God and to judg himself under the greatest afflictions 38. Learn to know sin to disallow of it to dispise it to overcome it inwardly and to put it from thee to fear its return and to be more estranged toward it more watchful to avoid Temptations and wise to shun occasions that lead to it 39. To dye should be no more to a Christian then to breath or to pass over a great River on a sure Bridge or in a safe Boat or to return from a field where a man hath been working to his own house to take his rest 40. Make hast to do thy work Christian and God will make hast to give thee thy wages 41. The hardest dutys in Christianity are to deny self and to destroy sin 42. A heart unconverted is contented with nothing but what is helping it on to Hell and it hath never enough of that to wit sin and a heart converted is never satisfied but with what helps it toward heaven and yet thinks he hath never enough thereof to wit Christ and Grace 43. To take pains about unnecessary and unprofitable things is laboriously to mispend time 44. Get Christ O Christian to bind thy conscience to the peace and thy affections and flesh to the good behaviour 45. Be not ambitious of love and greatness and thou shalt not be so soon an object of Envy 46. He that converts a sinner covers a world or multitude of sins and gains more then a world to wit a Soul Jam. 5.20 Pro. 11.30 47. Take heed of covering any mans good with his evil but let the one plead for him as well as the other against him 48. One of the chiefest works of the soul is selfe
on more then God himself but pray to him for the prosperous use of them 134. Love all things for Gods sake and God only for his own and look you make him your friend whosoever be your enemy for 〈◊〉 this you shall do if as an obedient Child you always live in the eye of your heavenly Father 135. Give no offence to any man justly whether within or without for wo to them by whom offences come 136. Carry your self unto all so as the weak may be won the strong may be comforted and the wicked be ashamed 137. Delight to do all the good you can to Gods Children and to receive all the good you can from them 138. Think it the greatest work in the world to die well which to do you must inure your self to die before hand 1. By dying to your sins 2. Learning the word of affection before it actually leave you 3. In your last learning of if do it willingly yea joyfully whensoever wheresoever or howsoever God shall call you 139. Greive for nothing so much in the world as for your own sins and in them for nothing so much as for offending so loving a God 140. Let your meat apparel and recreation be lawful needful and moderate 141. Labour alwaies to learn to die defie the world deny the Devil despise the flesh and delight your self in the Lord be penitent for your sins past and present and yet despair not be strong in Faith and yet presume not Desire with the great Apostle to be dissolved and to be with Christ with whom even in death there is life 142. Use your life and keep it with as much quietness as you can so that you offend not God that ease that cometh with his displeasure turneth at length to an unspeakable pain and the gain of the world with the loss of his favourâ— is extream beggary and wretchedness 143. The greatest honour that man can give to God is to confess his truth truly and faithfully in time of trouble and affliction 144. It is but a folly for any one that truly professeth Christ crucified to look for the love of the world 145. Infidelity is the cause of all our misery which causeth us to fear man more then God and to esteem things present more than things to come 146. Love is that flower which shall never fade but shall flourish more and more till it be made perfect in that place where Faith and Hope shall have no office but shall then fully possess that which they have so long patiently waited for in this world 147. After the Lord hath made a Christian to know what he is in himself he will doubtless shew him comfort and declare to him what he is in Jesus Christ his Son 148. The mind of man cannot be contented patiently to bear the troubles either of Soul or body until it be regenerated and possessed by Gods spirit 149. Why should we Christians fear death can death deprive us of Christ who is all our comfort our joy and our life 150. Let us tarry with Christ one hour in Tribulation and affliction and doubtless he will keep us for ever with him in joys everlasting 151. Patience and Perseverance under great tryals are the proper notes whereby Gods children are known from counterfeits they that persevere not were alwaies but Hypocrites 152. If Christ be our Captain we must follow him as good Souldiers if we keep company with him in afflictions we shall be â—â—re of his society in Glory if we forsake not him he will never forsake us if we confess him he will confess us if we be ashamed of him he will be ashamed of us Therefore as he forsook Father Heaven and all things to come to us so let us forsake all things to come to him being most sure and certain that we shall not lose thereby 153. Afflictions are in separable but not infallible notes of Salvation for none shall be saved but he must suffer afflictions but all that are afflicted shall not be saved 154. Wealth is not the way to heaven but the Contrary let all our care be how to live well and then to be sure we shall never dye poor 155. Afflictions and sufferings are sometimes the way to Glory in this world Joseph had never been a Courtier had he not first been a prisoner 156. Gods children are ever the better for being miserable It is good for me that I was afflicted let God use us how he will on Earth so that we may have what he hath promised to those that love him in Heaven who would not be a Lazarus for a day that he might sit in Abrahams bosome for ever Some Heavenly Meditations Exhortations and Consolations of that blessed Martyr Mr. John Bradford and other Martyrs written out of prison to several Friends To Mr. J.H. COnsider what this life is Consider what death is Consider what is prepared for you after death 1. Concerning this life know it is full of misery vanity and wo it is a plain banishment and hath nothing in it that hath continuance it is therefore compared to a vapour to smoak to a shaddow yea to a warfare to a vail of misery wherein we are compassed about on every side with most fierce and fearful Enemies and should we desire to dwell there should we be fond to live in this toylsome and laborious world should we wish to continue in this wretched estate should we take pleasure to remain in this dangerous condition Daniels den was not so dreadful as is this Dungeon we dwell in 2. Concerning death to Gods dear children what other thing is it then the dispatcher of all displeasure the end of Travil the door of desires the gate of gladness the port of Paradise the heaven of Heaven the entiance into rest and quietness the path-way into Felicity and the beginning of all blessedness It is a very bed of Down and therefore compared to a sleep for the bodies of Gods people to rest out of which they shall arise and awake most fresh and flourishing to everlasting life It is a passage to the Father a chariot to Heaven the Lords messenger a leader unto Christ a going to our home a deliverance from prison and bondage a dismission from war a security from all sorrow and a freedom from all misery Should we be dismay'd at it should we be afraid of it should we trouble to hear of it should such a freind as this is be unwelcome should the foulness of his face fear us from his good conditions should the hardness of his husk hinder us from his sweet kernel should the roughness of the Tyde tye us to the bank and shore should the hardness of the saddle set us on our feet to perish by the way rather then leap up and endure the same a little and so to be where we would be 3. Concerning that which is prepared for you after death if I should go about to express it the more
the fiery Chariot leaving these sorry Mantles and old Cloaks of our carcases behind us in ashes for a little time which God shall restore unto us again in a glorious manner To a faithful friend of his by Mr. John Bradford Martyr BE willing to carry the Cross of Christ least you carry the Cross of the world the flesh and the Devil One of these four Crosses you must carry three of them bring to hell and therefore the greatest part go that way which is the broad way only the forth bringeth to Heaven but few go that way as well because the way is straight as also because but few walk in it how beit though it be straight it is but short and the few are many if you consider the godly as the Patriarks Prophets Apostles Martyrs and Confessors and Christ Jesus with all his guard and train Think not scorn to come after them who are gone before you I hourly look for Elias fiery Chariot to come and catch me up to Heaven my Cloak that is my Carcase I shall leave behind me in ashes which I doubt not my Lord will raise up and restore to me again at the last day glorified even like unto his most glorious Body That portion of the good spirit which my Father hath lent me I wish to be doubled yea trebled upon you all If we suffer in the cause of Christ our sufferings are but short and the time of ease to Gods Enemies is not long the time of our rejoycing shall be endless but the time of their torments shall be everlasting and intollerable Our breakfast is sharp but our supper will be sweet The afflictions of this life may not be compared in any part with the glory that shall be revealed To his godly Friends G. and N. By Mr. John Bradford Martyr CAst your care on the Lord for he careth for you and hath counted all the hairs on your head so that one shall not perish if you commit your selves to his ordering whereas else your heads and bodies yea and souls too shall perish if ye withdraw your selves as unwilling to take his Cup and to drink of it not that I would have you to thrust your selves headlong or rashly to pull them upon you or that I would not have you use such honest and lawful means as you may in the fear of God and with a good conscience to a void the Cross and give place to evil but that I would have you willingly to put forth your hand to take it when God offereth it in such a manner as with a good Conscience you cannot escape then take it kiss it and thank God for it It is a most sure sign that God loveth you as he saith Whom I love I chastise Rev. 3.19 And if ye are not partakers of correction surely ye are no children Heb. 12.8 But if once chastise you and ye kiss the rod verily he will cast the rod into the fire and will imbrace you and kiss you as a mother doth her child when she perceiveth it to take her correction in good part Consider not the things of this life my dearly beloved brethren which is a very prison to all Gods children but the things of Everlasting life which is our very home but to the believing of this you must open the eyes of your Faith as Moses did who set more by trouble with Gods people then by the riches of Egypt and Pharoahs Court. Your house home goods yea life and all that ever ye have God hath given you as love-tokens and to admonish you of his love and to win your love to him again now he will try your love whether you set more by him then by his tokens or no. If ye for his tokens sake that is for your house home goods yea life will go with the world least you should lose them then be assured your love as he cannot but espy it to be a Strumpets love so will he reject and cast it away with the world In another Letter to the same persons by Mr. John Bradford Martyr MY dearly beloved heavy is this anger fallen upon us all doleful is this day Now hath Antichrist gotten all his power again now is Christs Gospel trodden under foot now is Gods people a division and a prey for the wicked Now is the greatest of all plagues fallen upon us the want of Gods word and all these judgments we have yea I alone have justly deserved Oh that as I write with my hands I alone so I could wish David 2 Sam. 24 17. and with Jonas in heart say so But I do not I do not I see how grievously I have sinned and how great a misery is fallen upon us for my unthankfulness for Gods word for mine hypocrisy in professing preaching hearing and speaking of Gods word for my not praying to God for the continuance of it for my not loving it throughly as it required Oh good Father it is we that have sinned and therefore deserve the taking away of thy good word it is we that have done amiss we have dealt unjustly with thy Gospel we have procured thy wrath and therefore just art thou in punishing us just art thou in plaguing us for we are very miserable But good Lord and dear Father of Mercies whose justice is such that thou wilt not punish the poor souls of this Realm which yet have not thus sinned against thee as we have done for many yet never heard thy word for our trespasses and whose mercy is so great that thou will put our sins out of thy Remembrance for thy Christ sake if we believe and repent O Lord let us remember that all thy dearest children have carried the Cross of gracious affliction in this life in whose company thou dost place us and dost lay such a Cross upon us as thou wilt make us able to bear to thy glory and our Salvation in Christ for whose sake we pray thee to shorten the days of this our great misery fallen upon us most justly and in the mean season to give us Patience Repentance Faith and thy eternal Consolation Amen Amen Amen To Mr. J. H. and his wife Prisoners in New-Gate I have heard my good Brother and Sister how God hath brought you both into his School-house of correction he I say hath brought you where you are and though your reason and wit tell you it is by chance and fortune or otherwise yet my dear beloved know for certain that whatsoever was the means God your Father was the worker hereof and that for your good though it may be your old Adam and poor sences may tell you otherwise yet I say of a truth it is your duty to think that this Cross is of Gods sending and cometh from him and it is out of his love and Fatherly affection for your benefit and profit sake But here perhaps you will object what benefit what advantage can it be You are now kept in close prison your children
certain godly persons LEt us prav unto God so to furnish us with Faith and Patience that we may rather dye ten times then to deny him once it is very requisite that the Members of Christ comfort one another make prayers together confer one with another so shall you be stronger and Gods spirit shall not be absent from you but be in the midst of you to teach you to comfort you to make you wise in all godliness patient in tribulation and strong in persecution Ye see how the congregation of the wicked by helping one another make their wicked Religion and themselves strong against God his truth and his people If any smart Gods people shall be the first if any suffer shame they begin if any be subject to slander it is those that he loveth so that Christ sheweth no face nor favour nor love almost in this world outwardly to them but doth as it were lay clay upon the sore eyes of those that are sorrowful yet the patient man seeth as St. Paul saith life hid under these miseries and adversities and light and sight hid under this foul clay The will of our Father be done in all things if he will life life be it if he will death death be it It is a trouble to loose the treasures of this life but yet a very great pain if they be kept with offence to God cry call pray and in Christ daily require help succour mercy wisdome grace and defence that the wickedness of this world prevail not against us We began well God preserve us to the end This life is short and miserable happy are they that can spend it to the glory of God We may be tempted of the world the flesh and the Devil but yet although these things pinch yet they do not pierce and although they work sin in us yet in Christ no condemnation to them that are grafted in him Mr. Richard Rooth In a Letter to certain Martyrs condemned at Colchester OH dear hearts in Christ what a Crown of glory shall ye receive with Christ in the Kingdome of God Oh that it had been the good will of God that I had been ready to have gone with you for I lie in the Bishops little ease in the day and in the night I lie in the coal-house and we look every day when we shall be condemned for they say I shall be burned within ten days before Easter but I lie still at the pools brink and every one stepeth in before me but we abide patiently the Lords leisure in many bonds in fetters and stocks by which we have received great joy in the Lord. Oh my dear hearts now shall you be cloathed with long white garments upon mount Sion with the multitude of Saints and with Jesus Christ our Saviour who will never forsake us Oh blessed Virgins you have played the wise Virgins part because you have taken oyl into your lamps that you may enter with the Bridegroom when he cometh into everlasting joy But as for the foolish they shall be shut out because they made not themselves ready to suffer with Christ nor venture to take up his Cross O how precious shall your death be in the sight of the Lord dear and precious in his sight is he detah of all his Saints Farewell mine own dear Hearts and pray the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all Amen Pray pray pray By me Richard Rooth written with my own blood Mr. John Philpot In a Letter to Mr. R.H.R.G.M.H. and J.C. GLorious is the course of the Martyrs at this day Never had the Elect of God a better time for their glory then this is Now may they be assured under the Cross that they are Christs Disciples for ever Many go on well till they come to the Pikes and then they turn their backs and give over in the plain field to the shame of Christ and his Church that hath so faint hearted Souldiers in his camp at the time of need in that wherein his glory ought most manfully to be shewed Be content to have your Faith tryed every day by some Cross or other as it pleaseth God to put it upon you and if God put no grievous Cross upon you let your brethrens Cross be your Cross which is a certain token of true brotherly love Hitherto we have not resisted unto blood-shedding our blood must not be too dear for the Lord and then his Kingdome shall not be too dear for us We have taken our Press-mony a great while let us now learn to serve him faithfully and not to fly out of the Lords camp into the world as many do Mr. John Careless To several Martyrs condemned to die for the truth in New-Gate SO great honour is not permitted to the highest Angel in Heaven as to suffer for the name of Christ Full glad may you be that ever God gave you a life to lose for his sake A weak Faith hath ever a cold charity annexed unto it which is quenched with every unkind word Nothing can anger the malicious mind and cankered heart of Satan more then the mirth gladness and hearty rejoycing of Gods Children in their good Christ Only Christs true Disciples do mourn for his absence therefore they shall doubtless rejoyce in his presence which will be so much the more joyful by how much the more his absence is sorrowful According to your Faith and as you believe so shall it be unto you and as you think God to be unto you such a one you shall find him to be think therefore ever sweetly of the Lord and of his goodness Mr. John Careless In a Letter to Mr. John Bradford NOw with a merry heart and joyful tears I take my farewel of you mine own dear brother in the Lord begging him to send us shortly a joyful meeting in his kingdome that we may both sing praises together unto him with his holy Angels and blessed spirits for ever and ever Farewel thou blessed of the Lord farewel in Christ depart unto thy rest and pray for me for Gods sake Well I will hope in God and pray all night that God would send me some comfort to morrow and if the Lord give you leasure to morrow let me hear four words of comfort from you for Gods sake Oh that my life and a thousand such wretched lives more might go for yours Oh why doth God suffer me and such other poor worms to live that can do nothing but consume the Alms of the Church and yet take you away so worthy a work-man and Labourer in the Lords vineyard But wo be to our sins and great unthankfulness which is the cause of taking away of such instruments of the Lord as should set forth his glory and instruct his people if we had been thankful to God for the good Ministers of his word we had not been so soon deprived of them The Lord forgive our great ingratitude and his and give us true repentance and
the enjoyment of a God still blest From thee is all the rest for which I look For it is written in thy sacred book That those that cast and roul themselves on thee Thou wilt receive O Lord receive thou me For still this Prayer I will pray though brief Lord I believe Lord help my unbelief Thou art now mine by faith I thine by love From this perswasion let me never move Oh that my ways were directed to keep thy Statutes Psal 119.5 1. O That I could stand firm at last And not be reeling too and fro O that I could my God hold fast And never never let him go 2. How often do I go astray And leave my rest my wonted bliss Like a lost sheep in the High-way Which dangerous and barren is 3. I have no pleasure in my sin And yet I Act it o're and o're I 'm still the same that I have been Though fain I would be so no more 4. I long to keep the Law of God But still I break it to my pain My stomach serves to take that food But straight I cast it up again 5. My God! O take me unto thee With fire hot zeal melt thou my heart That now I may new-moulded be And made sound in my better part 6. Lord lead me by thy grace that I May never wander from thee more Thou art my life I cannot die Thou art my all I can't be poor I see another Law in my members warring against the Law of my mind c. Rom. 7.23 WRetch that I am my wishes are my pain Two Laws so different rend my heart in twain My heart divided bleeds in either part Offending either Law I 'm sure to smart Inslav'd to sin I 'm forc'd to bear this yoke I kiss the rod ev'n whilst I feel the stroak The ingrateful serpent in my brest I warm How I drink poyson and imbrace my harm My pleasure is my trouble and the heat Of fond desire what is' t but a cold sweat Alas I 'm taken with the baits of Sin Those corrupt joyes but feed the worm within I triumph when my heart me pris'ner takes My minde is griev'd thus at the spoil it makes O Jesus for me wounded see my wound Give me thy Bruises that I may be sound With thy blood wash my heart in blood imbru'd Give me that peace which may this War conclude Help thou my unbelief Mark 9.24 HElp Master of my faith I 'm forc't to wink At this bright truth in these great depths I sink O 't is beyond my reach I cannot tread Nor can I swim unless thou hold my head My reasons at a stand thus are thy ways Past finding out How dazling are thy rays O Sun of righteousness to humane sight Thou art so glorious I can't see for light My joys are chang'd to doubts and fears which roul Like stormy billows in my wavering soul Shine forth my Son amidst these showers of tears Let thy clear beams pierce through these cloud of fears Shew me thy hidden Mauna Angels food I long to tast and see that thou art good I 'm come to see the Lord though vile and poor O let me in I 'le die else at thy door Oh Lord restore me to thy Grace I hope thou dost but hide thy face O Jesus do but look on me Like Peter I 'le weep bitterly By thy bright face shew me my stain I 'le pour forth tears to wash it clean I hope the day will come again anon The Sun of Righteousness is set not gone Having the Loyns of your mind girded THere is a God! my soul how durst thou stray Thou 'lt meet his vengeance if thou go this way Return Return Lo this path seems too broad Here many go the way to heaven's no road My soul put on thy Garments gird them fast 'T will make thee comely thus to go straight-lac't And now I am resolv'd in spight of Hell And my false Heart I'ie still strive to do well In all my warfare I 'le hold fast my shield Then Satan do thy worst I 'le win the field A Farewel to the World 1. FAls-hearted world farewel farewel I find thee too unkind I took thee for a friend did love to play with thee all day But thou didst cheat me still I to my shame lost every game Thy stakes were pleasures and deceitful toies Mine were true coyn full weight large solid joys 2. Now thou hast got all that I had I see Thou slightest me Thou used'st to imbrace me kindly and give me thy hand With many promises of love but lo Thou art my foe Though all my serious thoughts and company Fool that I was I left to follow thee 3. But I 'le return to them again I 'le rome no more from home The mind that stays within shall ne're complain of Wind or Rain Of care or greif for storms shake only breasts that seek their rests Without doors where is nought but toile as though To be kept warm they 'd lie in beds of snow 4. 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