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part_n i_o clear_o see_v that_o this_o union_n crucify_a do_v advance_v we_o in_o the_o participation_n of_o the_o state_n of_o christ_n suffer_v which_o be_v the_o great_a advantage_n a_o soul_n can_v pretend_v to_o in_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n see_v this_o put_v we_o in_o a_o condition_n of_o most_o express_v our_o love_n to_o god_n this_o great_a truth_n well_o consider_v will_v wonderful_o comfort_v a_o soul_n that_o desire_v to_o be_v conform_v to_o the_o image_n of_o jesus_n crucify_a the_o crucify_a union_n carry_v mortification_n to_o the_o marrow_n of_o the_o soul_n make_v it_o die_v to_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n see_v that_o she_o live_v by_o the_o privation_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o the_o sensible_a union_n do_v nourish_v itself_o by_o reflection_n upon_o such_o a_o state_n which_o will_v indeed_o purify_v a_o soul_n from_o worldly_a affection_n however_o she_o will_v go_v on_o but_o slow_o to_o the_o purity_n of_o perfection_n if_o god_n be_v not_o very_o 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please_v a_o soul_n that_o find_v attract_v from_o god_n to_o depend_v on_o his_o providence_n the_o matter_n and_o manner_n of_o her_o prayer_n must_v receive_v thankful_o what_o come_v from_o god_n whether_o it_o be_v contemplatio_fw-la or_o meditation_n be_v it_o with_o delight_n or_o difficulty_n with_o sweetness_n or_o aridity_n a_o soul_n so_o pure_o unite_v to_o the_o divine_a will_n and_o dead_a to_o all_o thing_n else_o possess_v god_n in_o a_o wonderful_a manner_n not_o only_o in_o consolation_n but_o interiour_n cross_v purity_n of_o prayer_n as_o the_o present_a light_n i_o have_v tell_v i_o consist_v in_o a_o simple_a view_n of_o god_n by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n without_o discourse_n or_o imagination_n reason_n and_o imagination_n have_v their_o part_n in_o meditation_n but_o not_o in_o pure_a prayer_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o soul_n ought_v to_o be_v absorb_v in_o god_n and_o remain_v there_o in_o repose_n be_v dead_a as_o it_o be_v to_o she_o own_o 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she_o receive_v the_o same_o to_o be_v apply_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o most_o excellent_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n do_v not_o consist_v in_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o in_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o spirit_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n that_o be_v ineffable_a for_o this_o supreme_a region_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v the_o sacred_a temple_n where_o god_n be_v please_v to_o dwell_v where_o she_o feel_v and_o taste_v a_o sweetness_n above_o all_o create_a entity_n the_o soul_n conduct_v by_o faith_n and_o attract_v by_o these_o divine_a perfume_n find_v god_n in_o this_o his_o sanctuary_n and_o converse_v with_o he_o with_o such_o a_o familiarity_n as_o astonish_v the_o angel_n to_o behold_v it_o it_o be_v here_o where_o she_o make_v pure_a prayer_n seeing_z there_o be_v nothing_o but_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n without_o any_o creature_n to_o interrupt_v this_o sacred_a interview_n god_n work_v all_o that_o pass_v by_o himself_o without_o representation_n or_o discourse_n or_o gust_n of_o devotion_n this_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o capable_a of_o sensible_a object_n god_n alone_o take_v possession_n thereof_o communicate_v his_o illustration_n and_o sentiment_n which_o be_v necessary_a for_o a_o pure_a union_n with_o he_o perfect_a prayer_n than_o be_v a_o certain_a experimental_a manifestation_n which_o god_n give_v of_o himself_o of_o his_o goodness_n peace_n and_o sweetness_n a_o admirable_a gift_n that_o be_v not_o impart_v but_o to_o the_o pure_a soul_n and_o ordinary_o be_v but_o of_o small_a continuance_n but_o the_o condition_n of_o mortality_n will_v not_o permit_v of_o more_o where_o we_o must_v live_v in_o humility_n patience_n and_o suffering_n the_o soul_n return_v from_o these_o divine_a embrace_n carry_v away_o with_o her_o great_a love_n and_o a_o high_a esteem_n of_o god_n a_o profound_a knowledge_n of_o her_o own_o imperfection_n and_o find_v herself_o altogether_o dispose_v to_o act_n and_o suffer_v and_o practice_v pure_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n few_o person_n arrive_v to_o this_o purity_n of_o perfect_a prayer_n because_o few_o make_v themselves_o susceptible_a of_o those_o divine_a motion_n by_o a_o entire_a annihilation_n of_o their_o own_o power_n these_o great_a favour_n will_v be_v more_o frequent_o bestow_v if_o we_o have_v heart_n prepare_v to_o receive_v they_o favour_n which_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o can_v be_v know_v but_o by_o experience_n for_o my_o part_n i_o know_v nothing_o i_o only_o have_v hear_v say_v that_o in_o this_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n there_o be_v admirable_a union_n most_o intimate_a embrace_n ardour_n of_o love_n so_o pure_a as_o may_v almost_o compare_v with_o the_o flame_n of_o seraphim_n we_o come_v to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o god_n by_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n and_o this_o denudation_n be_v acquire_v by_o continual_a mortification_n and_o sometime_o by_o divine_a infusion_n we_o must_v therefore_o pray_v much_o and_o die_v daily_o to_o ourselves_o and_o all_o creature_n since_o that_o original_a sin_n have_v deprave_v our_o nature_n we_o can_v live_v a_o life_n of_o grace_n without_o die_v a_o continual_a death_n when_o god_n act_v with_o we_o in_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n we_o shall_v soon_o die_v to_o ourselves_o for_o he_o break_v we_o all_o to_o piece_n on_o a_o sudden_a with_o wonderful_a contrition_n of_o heart_n and_o kill_v our_o corruption_n unknown_a to_o we_o so_o that_o a_o soul_n die_v more_o in_o one_o day_n by_o the_o love_a stroke_n of_o his_o powerful_a hand_n than_o she_o will_v in_o some_o year_n by_o ordinary_a mortification_n let_v we_o therefore_o adore_v this_o divine_a and_o love_a hand_n which_o kill_v we_o to_o make_v we_o live_v and_o never_o complain_v but_o of_o the_o little_a return_v we_o make_v for_o his_o gracious_a favour_n the_o loss_n of_o good_n of_o friend_n of_o honour_n of_o consolation_n do_v much_o conduce_v to_o bring_v a_o soul_n to_o this_o live_a death_n for_o common_o we_o quit_v such_o allurement_n when_o we_o lose_v the_o material_n of_o those_o fetter_n in_o this_o divine_a exercise_n the_o soul_n be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o god_n without_o divert_v her_o thought_n on_o any_o other_o object_n and_o though_o then_o to_o reflect_v on_o the_o effect_n of_o prayer_n will_v be_v a_o kind_n of_o distraction_n yet_o without_o her_o think_n god_n leave_v powerful_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o pregnant_a disposition_n to_o practice_v great_a virtue_n and_o above_o all_o a_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n see_v he_o can_v possible_o please_v god_n more_o than_o by_o suffer_v for_o he_o chap._n fourteen_o of_o the_o hunger_a of_o the_o soul_n after_o god_n and_o of_o she_o be_v satiate_v with_o he_o i_o sometime_o find_v myself_o in_o
produce_v in_o her_o admirable_a effect_n to_o have_v taste_v of_o they_o once_o or_o twice_o be_v sufficient_a to_o make_v her_o rich_a by_o infuse_v into_o her_o understanding_n a_o certitude_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o our_o holy_a faith_n and_o inflame_v the_o will_n with_o ardent_a and_o solid_a affection_n to_o practice_v virtue_n and_o thus_o she_o know_v more_o of_o god_n in_o a_o moment_n than_o before_o she_o do_v in_o many_o month_n by_o these_o extraordinary_a grace_n a_o soul_n be_v more_o convince_v and_o dispose_v to_o suffer_v contempt_n and_o poverty_n and_o leave_v all_o thing_n to_o follow_v christ_n than_o by_o a_o thousand_o discursive_a meditation_n however_o god_n do_v not_o cease_v to_o communicate_v these_o effect_n by_o other_o way_n as_o by_o spiritual_a lecture_n holy_a conference_n meditation_n etc._n etc._n but_o when_o god_n be_v please_v to_o work_v all_o by_o himself_o in_o a_o soul_n he_o do_v much_o for_o she_o in_o a_o little_a time_n one_o of_o the_o principal_a virtue_n that_o this_o state_n imprint_n in_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o draw_v she_o to_o god_n and_o keep_v she_o with_o he_o so_o that_o she_o be_v more_o in_o he_o than_o herself_o divine_a love_n be_v a_o weight_n that_o always_o carry_v she_o to_o her_o well-beloved_a amor_fw-la meus_fw-la pondus_fw-la meum_fw-la if_o a_o great_a prince_n shall_v send_v some_o magnificent_a present_n to_o one_o of_o his_o poor_a subject_n this_o will_v give_v he_o more_o knowledge_n of_o his_o prince_n royal_a grandeur_n and_o bounty_n than_o to_o send_v he_o all_o the_o orator_n of_o his_o realm_n to_o set_v forth_o his_o greatness_n by_o their_o eloquence_n so_o a_o soul_n know_v more_o of_o god_n by_o the_o aforesaid_a favour_n than_o by_o the_o large_a discourse_n of_o famous_a preacher_n these_o extraordinary_a favour_n be_v not_o necessary_a to_o salvation_n nor_o yet_o to_o perfection_n but_o very_o advantageous_a to_o confirm_v we_o in_o grace_n for_o these_o more_o special_a communication_n work_v in_o the_o soul_n this_o admirable_a repose_n and_o sweet_a calmness_n to_o dispose_v she_o for_o the_o receipt_n of_o great_a grace_n which_o bring_v she_o to_o a_o more_o intimate_a union_n wherein_o she_o suck_v from_o the_o bosom_n of_o the_o divinity_n a_o sweetness_n ineffable_a strengthen_v purify_n and_o comfort_v when_o the_o soul_n be_v not_o in_o this_o quiet_a let_v she_o do_v what_o she_o can_v no_o endeavour_n of_o she_o can_v procure_v it_o if_o god_n send_v it_o let_v we_o receive_v it_o if_o he_o send_v it_o not_o we_o must_v be_v patient_a and_o prepare_v ourselves_o thereto_o by_o the_o exercise_n of_o mortificacation_n and_o pure_a virtue_n according_a to_o the_o grace_n betstow_v upon_o we_o have_v be_v in_o this_o prayer_n of_o quiet_a many_o day_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v take_v from_o i_o for_o contest_v a_o little_a with_o my_o friend_n to_o persuade_v he_o to_o prevent_v another_o with_o a_o charitable_a courtesy_n o_o my_o god_n how_o nice_a and_o delicate_a a_o thing_n be_v grace_n and_o the_o great_a the_o grace_n it_o be_v the_o more_o delicate_a i_o learn_v by_o this_o substraction_n how_o poor_a a_o thing_n a_o creature_n be_v how_o unable_a we_o be_v of_o ourselves_o to_o retain_v your_o grace_n and_o to_o see_v that_o this_o also_o proceed_v from_o grace_n i_o will_v hereafter_o make_v it_o my_o work_n to_o love_v pure_a virtue_n and_o practice_v perfect_a mortification_n chap._n xvii_o of_o the_o intimate_a union_n of_o the_o love_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o prayer_n the_o wonderful_a secret_n of_o this_o disposition_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o prayer_n can_v hardly_o be_v express_v only_o we_o may_v call_v it_o the_o prayer_n of_o unity_n of_o love_n because_o herein_o the_o will_n feel_v no_o other_o love_n in_o her_o affection_n than_o that_o which_o god_n have_v for_o himself_o one_o only_a love_n seem_v sufficient_a for_o god_n and_o the_o love_a soul_n it_o be_v enough_o for_o she_o to_o adhere_v to_o he_o with_o great_a simplicity_n and_o unity_n with_o this_o only_a love_n which_o god_n have_v for_o his_o infinite_a beauty_n and_o perfection_n the_o particular_a love_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v absorb_v like_o a_o drop_n of_o water_n in_o the_o infinite_a ocean_n of_o his_o love_n by_o a_o union_n inexplicable_a and_o be_v so_o lose_v be_v find_v more_o perfect_a as_o a_o spark_n of_o fire_n in_o a_o little_a coal_n cast_v into_o a_o furnace_n give_v a_o heat_n infinite_o great_a than_o what_o it_o have_v of_o itself_o alone_o it_o seem_v to_o the_o soul_n that_o she_o do_v not_o love_n but_o god_n love_v himself_o in_o she_o and_o in_o this_o manner_n her_o will_n have_v such_o impression_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n have_v no_o other_o sentiment_n nor_o interiour_n disposition_n than_o those_o which_o god_n have_v for_o himself_o when_o she_o love_v god_n in_o this_o manner_n as_o he_o love_v himself_o she_o also_o hate_v sin_n in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o god_n hate_v it_o by_o this_o ineffable_a union_n in_o this_o state_n of_o prayer_n the_o soul_n receive_v wonderful_a discovery_n of_o the_o admirable_a wisdom_n of_o god_n in_o his_o proceed_n about_o the_o redemption_n of_o mankind_n by_o the_o life_n and_o death_n of_o his_o son_n so_o full_a of_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n god_n love_v himself_o can_v but_o love_v the_o cross_n which_o satisfy_v his_o justice_n and_o the_o soul_n can_v but_o have_v a_o will_v to_o suffer_v see_v she_o be_v in_o the_o unity_n of_o love_n with_o god_n which_o unity_n must_v needs_o elevate_v the_o soul_n above_o nature_n and_o as_o the_o soul_n of_o jesus_n whole_o absorb_v in_o the_o love_n of_o his_o father_n do_v rejoice_v in_o his_o suffering_n and_o humiliation_n so_o if_o we_o be_v in_o the_o unity_n of_o this_o love_n contempt_n and_o mortification_n dolour_n and_o death_n itself_o will_v be_v lovely_a and_o desirable_a though_o quite_o contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n this_o unity_n of_o love_n do_v so_o powerful_o constrain_v we_o to_o love_v suffering_n that_o i_o make_v little_a difference_n between_o love_n and_o the_o cross_n and_o i_o see_v so_o clear_o that_o all_o the_o counsel_n of_o jesus_n christ_n do_v so_o wonderful_o advance_v the_o purity_n of_o love_n that_o no_o natural_a aversion_n shall_v deter_v i_o from_o they_o i_o find_v in_o my_o heart_n a_o tacit_n consent_v of_o love_n to_o abandon_v myself_o to_o divine_a providence_n and_o not_o to_o disquiet_v myself_o about_o perfection_n for_o i_o must_v pacify_v all_o the_o emotion_n of_o my_o heart_n as_o well_o good_a as_o bad_a to_o be_v in_o so_o profound_a a_o peace_n as_o to_o attain_v this_o union_n when_o god_n be_v please_v to_o communicate_v to_o a_o soul_n this_o purity_n of_o love_n he_o dispose_v she_o to_o so_o great_a a_o favour_n by_o some_o suffering_n cross_n and_o humiliation_n he_o that_o know_v the_o riches_n of_o true_a love_n know_v these_o also_o for_o they_o be_v inseparable_a so_o that_o he_o who_o will_v not_o suffer_v can_v arrive_v to_o purity_n of_o love_n my_o prayer_n then_o tend_v to_o unite_v i_o intimate_o and_o continual_o to_o the_o only_a love_n wherewith_o god_n love_v himself_o and_o my_o soul_n have_v at_o present_a attract_v to_o nothing_o else_o in_o this_o love_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o she_o find_v the_o practice_n of_o all_o virtue_n in_o a_o more_o excellent_a manner_n than_o in_o themselves_o i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o love_n be_v a_o weight_n that_o continual_o carry_v the_o soul_n towards_o her_o belove_a object_n and_o my_o will_n bend_v always_o towards_o god_n it_o move_v thither_o by_o a_o long_a inclination_n full_a of_o love_n and_o sweetness_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o understanding_n herein_o do_v not_o with_o its_o light_n assist_v my_o will_n for_o i_o find_v my_o affection_n all_o on_o fire_n and_o pant_v after_o god_n without_o any_o previous_a illustration_n i_o find_v i_o think_v divine_a love_n immediate_o work_v on_o my_o heart_n by_o such_o most_o secret_a touch_v as_o put_v i_o in_o a_o state_n of_o perfect_a union_n i_o find_v nothing_o to_o explicate_v this_o better_a than_o a_o needle_n touch_v by_o the_o adamant_n which_o then_o turn_v continual_o by_o a_o secret_a virtue_n to_o the_o pole_n and_o be_v unquiet_a till_o there_o it_o fix_v thus_o it_o stand_v with_o my_o soul_n be_v touch_v i_o know_v not_o how_o by_o divine_a love_n have_v no_o repose_n but_o by_o fix_v on_o god_n and_o part_v with_o all_o creature_n she_o gentle_o tend_v to_o her_o divine_a centre_n without_o any_o violence_n be_v sweet_o attract_v to_o a_o perfect_a union_n my_o understanding_n in_o this_o state_n see_v well_o enough_o what_o pass_v in_o my_o will_n and_o affection_n but_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o contribute_v
in_o their_o hearr_n to_o engage_v they_o efficacious_o in_o his_o love_n and_o service_n so_o be_v it_o amen_n the_o content_n book_n i._o of_o the_o love_n of_o humiliation_n which_o be_v the_o solid_a foundation_n of_o all_o christian_a perfection_n chap._n 1._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o attain_v christian_a perfection_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o humility_n pag._n 1._o chap._n 2._o the_o foundation_n of_o christian_a humility_n 5_o chap._n 3._o that_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v his_o own_o nothing_o 8_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o great_a saint_n have_v attain_v to_o perfection_n by_o a_o singular_a love_n of_o self-contempt_n and_o abjection_n 11_o chap._n 5._o that_o we_o have_v only_o so_o much_o of_o the_o true_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n as_o we_o have_v a_o inclination_n to_o abjection_n 14_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o own_o nothing_o inspire_v we_o with_o self-contempt_n and_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 17_o chap._n 7._o that_o god_n be_v glorify_v by_o our_o annihilation_n 20_o chap._n 8._o that_o the_o soul_n be_v rich_a when_o she_o possess_v the_o love_n of_o self-contempt_n 23_o chap._n 9_o what_o profit_n we_o draw_v from_o humiliation_n 26_o chap._n 10._o the_o way_n how_o to_o arrive_v to_o perfect_a humiliation_n 29_o chap._n 11._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o leave_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n to_o become_v annihilate_v 32_o chap._n 12._o that_o we_o must_v renounce_v our_o sense_n and_o humane_a reason_n to_o love_v humiliation_n 34_o chap._n 13._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 14._o that_o a_o soul_n espouse_v jesus_n christ_n espouse_n his_o cross_n and_o suffering_n 41_o chap._n 15._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 16._o to_o be_v content_a with_o abjection_n after_o our_o fault_n repair_v the_o injury_n to_o god_n and_o make_v up_o our_o ruin_n 46_o chap._n 17._o consideration_n upon_o tho_o vileness_n of_o this_o corruptible_a body_n 51_o chap._n 18._o consideration_n upon_o the_o natural_a inclination_n we_o have_v to_o evil_n 54_o book_n ii_o of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n which_o be_v the_o life_n of_o all_o true_a christian_n chap._n 1._o the_o idea_n or_o description_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 75_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o high_a esteem_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v of_o the_o christian_a life_n 60_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o ought_v with_o st._n paul_n to_o convert_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n 63_o chap._n 4._o of_o the_o alliance_n we_o must_v make_v with_o the_o holy_a folly_n of_o the_o cross_n 67_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o ought_v to_o conform_v our_o interiour_n to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ._n 70_o chap._n 6._o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n 74_o chap._n 7._o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supertural_a life_n 77_o chap._n 8._o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 80_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 81_o chap._n 10._o our_o great_a happiness_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o christianity_n 87_o chap._n 11._o that_o truth_n be_v only_o find_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n the_o rest_n be_v vanity_n 91_o chap._n 12._o there_o be_v many_o way_n in_o christianity_n all_o which_o be_v according_a to_o the_o life_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 94_o chap._n 13_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n 98_o chap._n 14._o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 101_o chap._n 15._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o humane_a prudence_n 105_o chap._n 16._o the_o conclusion_n that_o we_o ought_v to_o apply_v ourselves_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 108_o book_n iii_o of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o divine_a providence_n chap._n 1._o our_o first_o thought_n in_o the_o morning_n ought_v to_o be_v that_o god_n be_v present_a 111_o chap._n 2._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n make_v we_o little_a value_n the_o absence_n of_o the_o creature_n 114_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o can_v and_o aught_o to_o conserve_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o occasion_n of_o extroversion_n 118_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v clear_o see_v in_o a_o purify_a interior_a 121_o chap._n 5._o that_o our_o union_n with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n aught_o to_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o our_o action_n 125_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o we_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o suffer_v and_o enjoy_v 128_o chap._n 7._o that_o the_o divine_a presence_n make_v we_o to_o love_v prayer_n or_o action_n as_o best_o please_v god_n 132_o chap._n 8._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n bring_v we_o into_o a_o disesteem_a of_o other_o thing_n 136_o chap._n 9_o where_o we_o may_v best_o find_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n 139_o chap._n 10._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o divine_a providence_n 143_o chap._n 11._o to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n 146_o chap._n 12._o we_o ought_v to_o comport_v ourselves_o with_o a_o respectful_a reverence_n in_o god_n presence_n 149_o chap._n 13._o to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n spirit_n 153_o chap._n 14._o how_o the_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o ourselves_o to_o god_n make_v we_o find_v a_o paradise_n upon_o earth_n 157_o chap_n 15._o how_o the_o beauty_n that_o be_v in_o the_o order_n of_o god_n content_n a_o soul_n 161_o chap._n 16._o the_o practice_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o the_o seven_o day_n of_o the_o week_n 163_o the_o first_o day_n the_o be_v of_o god_n 164_o the_o second_o day_n the_o omnipotency_n of_o god_n 166_o the_o three_o day_n of_o the_o wisdom_n of_o god_n 167_o the_o four_o day_n the_o patience_n of_o god_n 169_o the_o five_o day_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 174_o the_o six_o day_n the_o justice_n of_o god_n 172_o the_o seven_o day_n the_o mercy_n of_o god_n 173_o book_n iv_o of_o solitude_n and_o the_o practice_n of_o two_o excellent_a retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n chap._n 1._o of_o the_o beauty_n of_o christian_a solitude_n 175_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o necessity_n of_o solitude_n 179_o chap._n 3._o the_o difficulty_n of_o solitude_n 182_o chap._n 4._o the_o occupation_n of_o solitude_n 186_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o may_v put_v our_o soul_n and_o sense_n into_o a_o solitude_n 189_o chap._n 6._o a_o solitude_n or_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o infallible_a mystery_n of_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n 192_o first_o day_n 195_o second_o day_n 199_o three_o day_n 203_o four_o day_n 207_o five_o day_n 211_o six_o day_n 215_o seven_o day_n 219_o eight_o day_n 224_o nine_o day_n 228_o ten_o day_n 232_o chap._n 6._o another_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o adorable_a person_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 236_o first_o day_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n ibid._n second_o day_n jesus_n a_o infant_n 241_o three_o day_n jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a 245_o four_o day_n jesus_n the_o fountain_n of_o grace_n and_o piety_n 249_o five_o day_n jesus_n zealator_n of_o soul_n 253_o six_o day_n jesus_n contemplate_v and_o enjoy_v 257_o seven_o day_n jesus_n our_o exemplar_n and_o guide_n 262_o eight_o day_n jesus_n our_o light_n 266_o nine_o day_n jesus_n suffer_v and_o die_v 280_o ten_o day_n jesus_n rise_v from_o death_n and_o gloririous_a 285_o book_n v._o of_o communion_n and_o its_o effect_n chap._n 1._o of_o preparation_n before_o communion_n 291_o chap._n 2._o to_o communicate_v worthy_o we_o must_v put_v ourselves_o in_o a_o state_n conformable_a to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n 294_o chap_n 3._o to_o receive_v the_o communion_n worthy_o we_o must_v imitate_v those_o action_n which_o jesus_n christ_n practise_v when_o he_o institute_v it_o 298_o chap._n 4._o interiour_n entertainment_n during_o communion_n 303_o chap._n 5._o other_o entertainment_n to_o give_v thanks_o after_o communion_n 306_o chap._n 6._o another_o method_n of_o thanksgiving_n after_o communion_n 309_o chap._n 7._o the_o first_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o beget_v in_o we_o the_o love_n of_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n 313_o chap._n 8._o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n 316_o chap._n 9_o the_o second_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o transform_v we_o 319_o chap._n 10._o the_o three_o effect_n of_o communion_n which_o be_v the_o perfect_a and_o consummate_a union_n 323_o chap._n 11._o the_o four_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o confer_v the_o high_a love_n 327_o chap._n 12._o the_o five_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o give_v strength_n and_o perseverance_n in_o the_o service_n
of_o god_n 332_o book_n vi_o of_o interiour_n and_o exterior_a cross_n chap._n 1._o that_o we_o must_v have_v a_o high_a esteem_n for_o cross_n 337_o chap._n 2._o that_o we_o must_v have_v a_o love_n for_o cross_n 341_o chap_n 3._o that_o we_o must_v have_v a_o great_a love_n for_o cross_n 444_o chap._n 4._o god_n be_v please_v to_o send_v we_o cross_n in_o the_o place_n of_o persecution_n that_o our_o life_n may_v be_v a_o continual_a martyrdom_n 347_o chap._n 5._o of_o exterior_a cross_n by_o the_o loss_n of_o good_n chap._n 6._o disposition_n during_o sickness_n where_o the_o body_n suffer_v and_o the_o soul_n rejoice_v chap._n 7._o other_o disposition_n in_o the_o time_n of_o sickness_n where_o body_n and_o soul_n be_v on_o the_o cross_n 357_o chap._n 8._o the_o interiour_n cross_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o obscurity_n 360_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o heaviness_n of_o interior_a cross_n 364_o chap._n 10._o the_o great_a fruit_n we_o may_v reap_v from_o interior_a cross_n 368_o chap._n 11._o that_o we_o must_v bear_v patient_o our_o imperfection_n 371_o book_n vii_o of_o ordinary_a prayer_n and_o contemplation_n chap._n 1._o what_o esteem_v we_o ought_v to_o have_v for_o prayer_n 377_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o different_a sort_n of_o mental_a prayer_n 380_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o what_o manner_n of_o prayer_n god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v we_o 384_o chap._n 4._o that_o above_o all_o thing_n it_o be_v necessary_a to_o practice_v prayer_n 387_o chap._n 5._o of_o the_o impediment_n of_o prayer_n 392_o chap._n 6._o of_o the_o mean_n that_o facilitate_v the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n 396_o chap._n 7._o that_o we_o must_v not_o presume_v of_o ourselves_o to_o attempt_v any_o manner_n of_o prayer_n but_o what_o be_v ordinary_a 400_o chap._n 8._o how_o to_o pass_v from_o ordinary_a prayer_n to_o contemplation_n 404_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o prayer_n of_o faith_n 407_o chap._n 10_o of_o the_o sacred_a darkness_n of_o prayer_n 411_o chap._n 11._o of_o the_o light_n of_o prayer_n 414_o chap._n 12._o of_o passive_a prayer_n 414_o chap._n 13._o of_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n 421_o chap._n 14._o of_o the_o hunger_a of_o the_o soul_n after_o god_n and_o of_o she_o be_v satiate_v with_o he_o 425_o chap._n 15._o of_o infuse_a prayer_n 429_o chap._n 16._o of_o prayer_n of_o quiet_a 433_o chap._n 17._o of_o the_o intimate_a union_n of_o the_o love_n of_o the_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o prayer_n 437_o chap._n 18._o of_o interior_a silence_n where_o god_n speak_v and_o be_v hear_v 441_o chap._n 19_o of_o most_o purify_v contemplation_n 444_o chap._n 20._o of_o the_o different_a caress_n god_n vouchsafe_v a_o soul_n in_o prayer_n 448_o book_n viii_o some_o maxim_n of_o great_a importance_n to_o conduct_v we_o in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n chap._n 1._o to_o have_v above_o all_o thing_n a_o extreme_a horror_n of_o sin_n 453_o chap._n 2._o to_o keep_v a_o even_a pace_n with_o grace_n neither_o out-running_a it_o nor_o follow_v too_o slow_o 456_o chap._n 3._o that_o a_o soul_n must_v whole_o give_v herself_o up_o to_o god_n 459_o chap._n 4._o we_o ought_v to_o make_v it_o our_o business_n to_o be_v content_a to_o suffer_v 461_o chap._n 5._o to_o renounce_v or_o self_n whole_o and_o strive_v against_o our_o proper_a inclination_n 463_o chap._n 6._o how_o to_o comport_v ourselves_o well_o in_o superiority_n 466_o chap._n 7._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v our_o intention_n purify_v from_o all_o self-interest_n 469_o chap._n 8._o a_o conference_n clear_v many_o difficulty_n touch_v prayer_n 471_o the_o interiour_n christian_n book_n i._o of_o the_o love_n of_o humiliation_n which_o be_v the_o solid_a foundation_n of_o all_o christian_a perfection_n chap._n i._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o attain_v christian_a perfection_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o humility_n let_v we_o endeavour_v after_o perfection_n not_o because_o it_o be_v a_o sublime_a and_o elevate_a condition_n but_o because_o it_o be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n we_o ought_v not_o to_o set_v upon_o the_o practice_n of_o piety_n by_o a_o motive_n of_o grandeur_n and_o to_o become_v great_a saint_n but_o only_o to_o do_v what_o god_n will_v and_o expect_v from_o we_o and_o rest_v therewith_o content_a and_o satisfy_v our_o happiness_n consist_v in_o a_o constant_a dependence_n on_o his_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n with_o a_o perfect_a submission_n and_o resignation_n thereunto_o i_o must_v be_v content_a with_o my_o condition_n whatever_o it_o be_v see_v it_o be_v what_o god_n expect_v from_o i_o and_o it_o be_v no_o small_a presumption_n to_o assume_v to_o ourselves_o what_o great_a saint_n have_v find_v in_o the_o practice_n of_o piety_n god_n call_v some_o person_n to_o glorious_a performance_n other_o he_o place_v in_o a_o low_a rank_n in_o all_o this_o we_o must_v suffer_v he_o to_o work_v his_o will_n upon_o we_o and_o receive_v with_o thankfulness_n his_o divine_a impression_n whether_o great_a or_o little_a it_o be_v enough_o for_o we_o that_o they_o come_v from_o god_n this_o be_v the_o way_n god_n call_v we_o to_o walk_v in_o a_o way_n sublime_a pleasant_a full_a of_o peace_n in_o which_o we_o desire_v nothing_o but_o to_o please_v god_n it_o concern_v we_o to_o take_v whatever_o he_o give_v with_o simplicity_n of_o heart_n be_v it_o never_o so_o little_a it_o be_v certain_o more_o than_o we_o deserve_v to_o be_v annihilate_v in_o god_n be_v to_o will_v nothing_o but_o what_o god_n will_v and_o in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v otherwise_o we_o seek_v ourselves_o and_o our_o own_o satisfaction_n and_o not_o pure_o god_n and_o his_o good_a pleasure_n we_o must_v labour_v for_o perfection_n with_o a_o spirit_n whole_o dis-engaged_n from_o all_o self-interest_n to_o suffer_v to_o live_v poor_a and_o despise_a be_v the_o only_a way_n among_o infinite_a other_o mean_n the_o eternal_a father_n make_v choice_n of_o for_o we_o to_o attain_v to_o glory_n and_o regain_v those_o excellency_n adam_n lose_v for_o himself_o and_o we_o by_o sin_n this_o be_v his_o design_n from_o eternity_n his_o son_n in_o the_o fullness_n of_o time_n embrace_v the_o cross_n with_o affection_n and_o be_v inflame_v with_o the_o desire_n of_o suffer_v value_v the_o cross_n as_o a_o thing_n of_o great_a excellency_n be_v the_o altar_n choose_v for_o the_o life-giving_a sacrifice_n by_o his_o heavenly_a father_n prefer_v the_o glory_n and_o the_o will_n of_o god_n before_o the_o natural_a inclination_n of_o his_o humanity_n which_o have_v a_o repugnancy_n in_o the_o sensitive_a part_n thereof_o to_o pain_n and_o suffering_n this_o be_v evident_a from_o that_o of_o the_o evangelist_n pater_n si_fw-la possibile_fw-la est_fw-la transe_n at_o etc._n etc._n father_n if_o it_o be_v possible_a let_v this_o cup_n pass_v from_o i_o yet_o not_o my_o will_n but_o thou_o be_v fulfil_v and_o that_o of_o the_o psalmist_n sacrificium_fw-la &_o oblationem_fw-la noluisti_fw-la etc._n etc._n thou_o will_v not_o have_v sacrifice_n or_o oblation_n but_o thou_o have_v prepare_v a_o body_n for_o i_o and_o behold_v i_o come_v to_o do_v thy_o will_n and_o so_o he_o do_v run_v his_o course_n with_o joy_n though_o full_a of_o suffering_n because_o he_o know_v it_o be_v the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o his_o father_n wherefore_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o welove_a and_o esteem_v the_o cross_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v we_o participate_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o christ_n and_o please_v his_o heavenly_a father_n for_o to_o suffer_v be_v to_o sacrifice_v to_o god_n our_o pleasure_n and_o interest_n unite_n ourselves_o to_o the_o design_n that_o jesus_n have_v by_o suffer_v to_o repair_v his_o father_n glory_n o_o my_o soul_n if_o these_o verity_n have_v make_v deep_a impression_n in_o thou_o thou_o ought_v from_o henceforth_o to_o glory_n in_o be_v despise_v see_v thy_o glory_n be_v to_o procure_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n which_o can_v be_v do_v more_o advantageous_o than_o by_o imitate_v his_o only_a son_n o_o good_a jesus_n possess_v my_o heart_n with_o your_o divine_a spirit_n that_o may_v enable_v i_o to_o live_v your_o life_n o_o how_o your_o humiliation_n seem_v great_a unto_o i_o your_o abjection_n honourable_a your_o poverty_n rich_a and_o your_o cross_n pleasant_a my_o soul_n do_v languish_v to_o possess_v your_o spirit_n and_o desire_v it_o most_o ardent_o whatever_o have_v not_o a_o relish_n of_o your_o spirit_n be_v not_o grateful_a to_o i_o o_o that_o i_o have_v inflame_v affection_n to_o embrace_v the_o cross_n and_o that_o i_o can_v bear_v the_o great_a can_v happen_v to_o i_o in_o the_o interim_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o i_o do_v nothing_o and_o when_o occasion_n present_v itself_o i_o find_v difficulty_n to_o suffer_v the_o least_o affliction_n dear_a saviour_n how_o be_v this_o life_n troublesome_a unto_o i_o strengthen_v
i_o forthwith_o to_o set_v upon_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o life_n hide_a crucify_a despise_a which_o you_o have_v teach_v we_o by_o your_o example_n that_o i_o may_v true_o say_v with_o st._n paul_n absit_fw-la mihi_fw-la gloriari_fw-la nisi_fw-la in_o cruse_n domini_fw-la nostri_fw-la your_o cross_n dear_a jesus_n be_v my_o glory_n and_o i_o will_v glory_v in_o nothing_o else_o honour_n pleasure_n riches_n i_o declare_v my_o mortal_a enemy_n see_v your_o property_n be_v to_o incline_v i_o perpetual_o to_o deviate_v from_o those_o way_n to_o which_o jesus_n call_v i_o i_o abhor_v you_o as_o enemy_n of_o my_o perfection_n ah_o dear_a saviour_n make_v i_o partaker_n of_o your_o life_n humble_a poor_a despise_a or_o let_v i_o live_v no_o long_o in_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n when_o heaven_n shall_v be_v my_o habitation_n i_o shall_v be_v content_a to_o be_v in_o glory_n because_o there_o you_o be_v also_o in_o triumph_n but_o see_v that_o on_o earth_n you_o will_v not_o be_v but_o in_o a_o abject_a condition_n i_o desire_v there_o to_o be_v with_o you_o also_o alas_o i_o march_v but_o slow_o to_o arrive_v at_o perfection_n however_o in_o reality_n i_o will_v fain_o be_v whole_o humble_v both_o interiorly_a and_o exterior_o as_o your_o divine_a wisdom_n see_v best_a for_o i_o if_o it_o be_v your_o will_n i_o will_v search_v after_o external_a humiliation_n for_o i_o find_v no_o better_a food_n for_o a_o christian_a soul_n perhaps_o they_o will_v prove_v hard_a of_o digestion_n to_o i_o yet_o for_o all_o that_o they_o may_v become_v by_o use_n profitable_a and_o delicious_a o_o dear_a saviour_n see_v it_o be_v say_v of_o you_o by_o the_o evangelical_n prophet_n saturabitur_fw-la opprobriis_fw-la give_v i_o my_o fill_n of_o opproby_n and_o abjection_n ravish_v with_o your_o sweetness_n and_o consolation_n those_o who_o know_v well_o how_o to_o use_v such_o favour_n as_o for_o i_o let_v my_o repast_n be_v with_o gall_n and_o vinegar_n because_o by_o their_o relish_n i_o shall_v be_v render_v more_o like_a unto_o you_o o_o jesus_n why_o be_v you_o circumcise_v o_o mary_n why_o be_v you_o purify_v your_o heart_n be_v not_o sully_v and_o yet_o you_o submit_v yourselves_o to_o the_o abjection_n of_o sinner_n because_o to_o be_v despise_v be_v the_o object_n of_o your_o most_o tender_a affection_n there_o be_v never_o two_o heart_n more_o full_a of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o never_o more_o inflame_v desire_n after_o humiliation_n see_v then_o that_o one_o be_v the_o measure_n of_o the_o other_o if_o we_o will_v testify_v that_o we_o love_v god_n we_o must_v also_o love_v to_o suffer_v for_o he_o how_o unjust_a be_v our_o complaint_n against_o those_o who_o undervalue_v we_o and_o how_o unreasonable_o be_v we_o disquiet_v when_o we_o be_v scorn_v by_o other_o we_o ought_v rather_o to_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o be_v not_o despise_v enough_o and_o thus_o it_o will_v be_v with_o we_o if_o we_o have_v a_o heart_n entire_o christian_n it_o be_v true_a grace_n can_v only_o infuse_v such_o inclination_n into_o our_o soul_n nature_n egg_n we_o on_o to_o the_o contrary_n and_o it_o be_v my_o unhappiness_n that_o i_o who_o write_v this_o shall_v i_o fear_v fall_v short_a hereof_o in_o time_n of_o trial_n for_o i_o be_o altogether_o frail_a and_o good_a for_o nothing_o and_o for_o aught_o i_o know_v what_o i_o have_v say_v or_o do_v which_o appear_v so_o beautiful_a may_v be_v rot_v within_o witness_v my_o often_o relapse_n which_o sufficient_o tell_v i_o what_o a_o poor_a abject_a creature_n i_o be_o and_o how_o much_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v despise_v chap._n ii_o the_o foundation_n of_o true_a christian_a humility_n when_o i_o consider_v that_o god_n be_v all_o in_o all_o that_o he_o possess_v in_o himself_o incomprehensible_a perfection_n that_o he_o have_v create_v and_o provide_v for_o we_o infinite_a good_a thing_n i_o can_v but_o acknowledge_v that_o all_o honour_n all_o glory_n all_o praise_n all_o adoration_n be_v due_a unto_o he_o o_o how_o just_a a_o debt_n be_v all_o this_o from_o we_o to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n when_o i_o consider_v o_o god_n that_o i_o be_o a_o pure_a nothing_o that_o i_o have_v in_o myself_o a_o inexhaustible_a mine_n of_o imperfection_n and_o misery_n that_o i_o have_v commit_v great_a offence_n and_o be_o yet_o liable_a to_o more_o unless_o prevent_v by_o grace_n i_o acknowledge_v that_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v the_o scorn_n of_o man_n all_o sort_n of_o opprobry_n and_o disgrace_n all_o malady_n of_o soul_n and_o body_n darkness_n punishment_n temporal_a and_o eternal_a to_o be_v afflict_v mock_v persecute_v by_o all_o creature_n as_o executioner_n of_o divine_a justice_n and_o i_o look_v upon_o myself_o as_o the_o mark_n whereat_z shall_v be_v aim_v these_o arrow_n of_o deserve_a indignation_n god_n can_v never_o be_v sufficient_o honour_v love_a exalt_a glorify_a and_o i_o can_v never_o be_v enough_o debase_v hate_v despise_a and_o persecute_v i_o ought_v to_o have_v not_o only_o this_o humility_n of_o spirit_n but_o likewise_o a_o will_n and_o affection_n to_o suffer_v for_o god_n always_o esteem_v myself_o worthy_a of_o all_o scorn_n and_o contempt_n though_o never_o so_o public_a if_o it_o may_v conduce_v to_o god_n glory_n and_o the_o good_a of_o other_o for_o if_o i_o be_v honour_v as_o my_o condition_n require_v if_o i_o do_v not_o debase_v myself_o below_o the_o mean_a vassal_n it_o be_v because_o the_o order_n of_o government_n forbid_v it_o and_o will_v not_o be_v expedient_a for_o those_o who_o may_v abuse_v this_o condescension_n however_o as_o for_o i_o i_o ought_v to_o have_v this_o will_n and_o inclination_n and_o believe_v it_o be_v the_o place_n be_v due_a unto_o i_o alas_o dear_n saviour_n i_o can_v be_v acceptable_a in_o your_o sight_n unless_o i_o have_v a_o humble_a heart_n and_o this_o i_o can_v have_v but_o by_o your_o grace_n for_o if_o all_o natural_a good_a proceed_v from_o your_o bounty_n much_o more_o must_v all_o 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a_o injury_n i_o ought_v not_o to_o look_v on_o the_o design_n of_o man_n who_o intention_n oftentimes_o be_v only_o to_o hurt_v to_o revenge_v and_o solace_v themselves_o with_o other_o misery_n but_o to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o the_o purpose_n of_o god_n which_o be_v to_o chastise_v i_o to_o better_v i_o and_o to_o humble_v i_o the_o jew_n put_v jesus_n christ_n to_o death_n out_o of_o revenge_n and_o envy_n and_o god_n the_o father_n have_v a_o design_n thereby_o to_o save_v mankind_n i_o will_v not_o hereafter_o hunt_v after_o applause_n and_o honour_n for_o i_o be_o resolve_v not_o to_o follow_v the_o inclination_n of_o deprave_a nature_n but_o follow_v the_o example_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o suffer_v for_o i_o i_o will_v desire_v poverty_n contempt_n pain_n and_o unite_n they_o to_o his_o suffering_n i_o will_v earnest_o beseech_v he_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o his_o mercy_n to_o have_v pity_n on_o i_o if_o we_o will_v once_o serious_o endeavour_v to_o know_v 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action_n chap._n iii_o that_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v his_o own_o nothing_o our_o bless_a saviour_n give_v i_o so_o clear_a a_o sight_n of_o my_o own_o nothing_o and_o unworthiness_n that_o i_o be_o convince_v this_o be_v the_o place_n of_o my_o abode_n which_o i_o neither_o can_v nor_o aught_o to_o abandon_v when_o it_o please_v god_n to_o vouchsafe_v i_o no_o heavenly_a influence_n in_o my_o prayer_n and_o recollection_n i_o have_v no_o cause_n to_o complain_v if_o the_o dew_n of_o heaven_n mollify_v my_o heart_n they_o only_o flow_v from_o his_o pure_a mercy_n o_o how_o well-pleased_a be_o i_o with_o this_o view_n of_o my_o own_o weakness_n and_o unworthiness_n in_o this_o i_o acquiesce_v as_o in_o my_o centre_n if_o it_o be_v your_o will_n my_o god_n to_o leave_v i_o in_o this_o place_n i_o be_o content_a for_o this_o be_v only_o belong_v to_o i_o provide_v you_o be_v in_o your_o place_n o_o my_o god_n it_o be_v enough_o that_o be_v to_o say_v in_o your_o own_o 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be_v as_o happy_a and_o triumphant_a in_o go_v out_o of_o herself_o for_o the_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n to_o embrace_v abjection_n as_o in_o go_v out_o of_o the_o world_n to_o possess_v heaven_n so_o many_o sally_n as_o she_o make_v out_o of_o herself_o for_o the_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n be_v so_o many_o glorious_a ascension_n which_o delight_n even_o god_n himself_o the_o saint_n and_o angel_n behold_v it_o with_o admiration_n the_o same_o faith_n which_o open_v my_o eye_n to_o see_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a do_v assure_v i_o that_o the_o triumph_n of_o a_o soul_n in_o humiliation_n be_v no_o less_o admirable_a than_o in_o glory_n what_o can_v be_v do_v more_o to_o make_v we_o have_v the_o high_a esteem_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n when_o we_o see_v god_n the_o father_n among_o so_o many_o possible_a way_n have_v from_o all_o eternity_n choose_v this_o for_o his_o son_n while_o he_o live_v upon_o earth_n how_o do_v his_o well-beloved_a son_n who_o be_v infinite_o 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to_o discover_v the_o excellency_n of_o this_o state_n and_o yet_o so_o much_o glory_n and_o grandeur_n be_v envelop_v in_o the_o shadow_n of_o this_o life_n that_o they_o who_o live_v it_o do_v most_o glorify_v god_n and_o exalt_v his_o honour_n take_v courage_n then_o and_o let_v we_o tend_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o divine_a love_n which_o we_o shall_v find_v in_o the_o solid_a practice_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n let_v other_o do_v what_o they_o please_v we_o will_v follow_v the_o conduct_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n and_o march_v stout_o after_o jesus_n christ_n abject_a and_o crucify_a o_o what_o happy_a advantage_n enjoy_v that_o soul_n to_o who_o god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v a_o view_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n a_o life_n hide_a and_o unknown_a to_o worldly_a man_n it_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o all_o
delight_n be_v to_o honour_v the_o eternal_a father_n which_o be_v best_a effect_v by_o this_o mean_n a_o faithful_a soul_n will_v never_o part_v with_o a_o esteem_n and_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n as_o to_o the_o interiour_n because_o her_o desire_n be_v to_o please_v god_n and_o we_o best_o please_v he_o by_o humiliation_n let_v we_o well_o ground_n ourselves_o in_o this_o exercise_n of_o the_o design_n of_o god_n who_o will_v have_v we_o conformable_a to_o his_o son_n and_o consequent_o to_o have_v a_o love_n for_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n whatever_o dispose_v we_o to_o this_o conformity_n aught_o to_o be_v precious_a to_o we_o as_o few_o natural_a talent_n sickness_n ill_a success_n and_o the_o like_a the_o spirit_n of_o the_o world_n and_o nature_n find_v therein_o their_o punishment_n but_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n take_v pleasure_n therein_o and_o so_o advance_v a_o faithful_a soul_n to_o perfection_n we_o be_v not_o yet_o spiritualise_v if_o we_o be_v not_o faithful_a to_o the_o love_n of_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n and_o we_o be_v not_o faithful_a herein_o if_o we_o be_v not_o content_a with_o those_o thing_n that_o humble_v we_o and_o cause_n abjection_n a_o right_a prospect_n of_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n be_v supernatural_a and_o delicate_a and_o require_v time_n to_o bring_v it_o to_o perfection_n and_o must_v be_v first_o try_v in_o ourselves_o before_o we_o extend_v it_o to_o other_o as_o for_o my_o particular_a when_o i_o see_v a_o person_n in_o great_a misery_n and_o poverty_n i_o be_o not_o much_o trouble_v at_o it_o because_o i_o consider_v the_o real_a good_a that_o soul_n may_v procure_v to_o herself_o by_o this_o abjection_n on_o the_o contrary_a i_o be_o in_o fear_n for_o those_o who_o be_v advance_v to_o honour_n and_o have_v great_a natural_a ability_n for_o the_o difficulty_n they_o must_v needs_o find_v to_o curb_v the_o spirit_n of_o nature_n and_o the_o world_n and_o bring_v they_o off_o from_o the_o love_n of_o these_o thing_n which_o be_v so_o powerful_a in_o they_o and_o hinder_v in_o they_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n christ_n let_v we_o therefore_o remember_v that_o the_o purity_n of_o virtue_n consist_v in_o a_o faithful_a tendance_n to_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n and_o by_o how_o much_o a_o soul_n be_v more_o faithful_a herein_o the_o great_a advancement_n she_o make_v in_o virtue_n abjection_n be_v as_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o more_o she_o be_v humble_v the_o near_o she_o draw_v to_o her_o repose_n and_o by_o consequence_n have_v a_o great_a feeling_n of_o god_n in_o inward_a peace_n a_o peace_n that_o the_o world_n nor_o nature_n can_v ever_o give_v we_o a_o peace_n that_o pass_v all_o understanding_n chap._n vi_o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n nothing_o but_o god_n make_v man_n poor_a annihilate_v sacrifice_v can_v honour_v god_n according_a to_o his_o greatness_n the_o design_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n to_o this_o end_n be_v admirable_a full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n of_o unspeakable_a love_n and_o mercy_n towards_o man_n and_o most_o ardent_a zeal_n for_o his_o own_o glory_n o_o the_o wonderful_a oeconomy_n that_o discover_v itself_o in_o all_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a o_o the_o ineffable_a mystery_n of_o jesus_n by_o you_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v love_v glorify_a honour_a and_o his_o justice_n satisfy_v to_o the_o utmost_a rigour_n in_o this_o mystery_n be_v contain_v a_o inexplicable_a commerce_n and_o traffic_n of_o god_n the_o father_n with_o his_o son_n the_o interest_n of_o his_o glory_n in_o the_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n the_o will_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v that_o his_o son_n shall_v be_v incarnate_a circumcise_a poor_a scorn_v and_o crucify_v and_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o all_o these_o state_n of_o his_o life_n intend_v thereby_o to_o render_v to_o his_o father_n all_o the_o humiliation_n respect_n love_n and_o adoration_n which_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o these_o be_v the_o annihilation_n which_o so_o much_o elevate_v and_o exalt_v the_o christian_a reliligion_n to_o these_o she_o owe_v her_o grandeur_n and_o excellence_n o_o amiable_a eminent_a and_o excellent_a religion_n how_o unknown_a be_v thou_o to_o worldly_a man_n who_o taste_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o sensual_a pleasure_n o_o christian_n religion_n how_o be_v thou_o admirable_a how_o be_v thou_o ineffable_a who_o chief_a business_n be_v to_o employ_v your_o child_n with_o the_o divine_a traffic_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n with_o his_o son_n incarnate_a when_o thy_o heavenly_a light_n shine_v upon_o a_o soul_n she_o see_v the_o deceit_n the_o vanity_n and_o pitiful_a baseness_n of_o the_o thought_n of_o those_o man_n who_o love_v not_o god_n nor_o aim_n at_o his_o glory_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o wretched_a will_v thou_o make_v thyself_o if_o thou_o follow_v thy_o sensual_a appetite_n and_o walk_v not_o in_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o we_o can_v do_v of_o ourselves_o but_o by_o grace_n and_o power_n of_o the_o same_o jesus_n who_o be_v our_o hope_n and_o only_a helper_n we_o ought_v to_o bear_v no_o less_o respect_n to_o the_o maxim_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n than_o to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v establish_v they_o see_v we_o ought_v to_o believe_v that_o they_o be_v full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o ineffable_a sanctity_n to_o have_v no_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o humiliation_n be_v to_o undervalue_v the_o wisdom_n of_o jesus_n christ_n some_o be_v so_o brutish_a as_o to_o be_v lead_v only_o by_o sensuality_n other_o follow_v only_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n but_o neither_o of_o they_o know_v the_o excellency_n of_o christianity_n but_o such_o only_a who_o be_v conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n o_o life_n supernatural_a how_o sublime_a be_v thou_o how_o do_v thou_o so_o elevate_v a_o soul_n as_o to_o become_v blind_a to_o thing_n here_o below_o yea_o to_o herself_o and_o to_o see_v nothing_o but_o god_n in_o she_o by_o the_o ray_n of_o grace_n be_v please_v o_o divine_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o some_o part_n of_o this_o holy_a life_n which_o the_o world_n can_v neither_o receive_v nor_o know_v quem_fw-la mundus_fw-la non_fw-la potest_fw-la accipere_fw-la nec_fw-la scit_fw-la eum_fw-la as_o st._n john_n testify_v the_o world_n can_v receive_v it_o be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o creature_n nor_o can_v know_v it_o be_v blind_v with_o sensuality_n what_o a_o malediction_n be_v this_o but_o what_o a_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o know_v and_o embrace_v this_o supernatural_a life_n this_o be_v wrought_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o apostle_n who_o return_v with_o joy_n to_o be_v find_v worthy_a to_o live_v this_o life_n that_o be_v to_o be_v whip_v and_o despise_v for_o the_o name_n of_o jesus_n very_o if_o there_o be_v nothing_o to_o suffer_v here_o i_o know_v not_o why_o we_o shall_v desire_v to_o live_v here_o we_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o imitate_v that_o great_a saint_n who_o suffer_v a_o great_a martyrdom_n among_o rose_n and_o suavity_n than_o by_o rack_n and_o torture_n worldly_n pleasure_n be_v a_o kind_n of_o torment_n to_o a_o soul_n that_o love_v jesus_n christ_n crucify_v let_v we_o take_v a_o resolution_n o_o my_o soul_n not_o to_o be_v please_v but_o with_o the_o cross_n and_o when_o that_o do_v not_o relish_n let_v we_o please_v ourselves_o with_o our_o own_o annihilation_n see_v the_o creature_n be_v nothing_o in_o effect_n but_o what_o she_o be_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n but_o she_o be_v no_o more_o in_o his_o eye_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o be_v a_o christian_n and_o she_o be_v no_o more_o a_o christian_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o love_v this_o supernatural_a life_n while_o then_o we_o be_v too_o sensible_a of_o a_o suffer_a condition_n we_o have_v no_o great_a share_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n that_o be_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n abject_a suffer_v and_o annihilate_v chap._n vii_o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n god_n have_v be_v very_o gracious_a to_o we_o to_o draw_v we_o out_o of_o nothing_o but_o more_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a in_o withdraw_v we_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o occasion_n of_o displease_v he_o but_o the_o choice_a of_o his_o favour_n be_v to_o advance_v we_o from_o a_o common_a to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n that_o be_v when_o the_o eternal_a father_n do_v lead_v we_o into_o the_o state_n of_o the_o mortal_a life_n of_o jesus_n by_o abjection_n suffering_n and_o annihilation_n which_o be_v the_o choice_a of_o his_o mercy_n and_o favour_n on_o earth_n because_o thereby_o we_o bring_v to_o he_o the_o great_a glory_n a_o soul_n be_v not_o all_o at_o once_o elevate_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o this_o life_n but_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o behold_v the_o beauty_n thereof_o be_v
according_a to_o nature_n and_o must_v employ_v all_o mean_n and_o motive_n to_o this_o effect_n i_o will_v set_v down_o some_o of_o they_o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n or_o mean_n to_o renounce_v all_o creature_n and_o ourselves_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o denudation_n say_v with_o great_a fervour_n and_o affection_n away_o creature_n get_v hence_o from_o i_o and_o leave_v a_o place_n in_o my_o heart_n for_o god_n alone_o 2._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o do_v this_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o poverty_n for_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a to_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a unless_o in_o due_a circumstance_n we_o be_v willing_a to_o leave_v all_o thing_n for_o jesus_n sake_n and_o become_v poor_a to_o follow_v he_o let_v we_o therefore_o be_v content_a to_o quit_v all_o thing_n joyful_o and_o be_v glad_a to_o have_v nothing_o to_o possess_v god_n himself_o alone_o 3._o '_o tisae_n good_a motive_n to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o abjection_n what_o great_a happiness_n be_v there_o o_o my_o soul_n than_o to_o live_v in_o humiliation_n see_v this_o be_v the_o life_n of_o god_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v despise_v with_o jesus_n be_v a_o state_n of_o beatitude_n worldly_n prosperity_n be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o our_o happiness_n 4._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o abandon_v all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o oblation_n sacrifice_v and_o annihilate_v ourselves_o sincere_o to_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o god_n with_o such_o a_o confidence_n in_o he_o so_o as_o to_o rely_v never_o more_o on_o any_o creature_n quid_fw-la enim_fw-la mihi_fw-la est_fw-la in_o caelum_fw-la aut_fw-la à _fw-la te_fw-la quid_fw-la volui_fw-la super_fw-la terram_fw-la deus_fw-la cordis_fw-la mei_fw-la o_o my_o god_n shall_v any_o creature_n take_v part_n of_o my_o heart_n with_o you_o when_o all_o be_v you_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o love_v you_o too_o much_o i_o may_v give_v place_n to_o something_o else_o but_o see_v i_o be_o infinite_o below_o my_o duty_n in_o that_o particular_a what_o creature_n can_v pretend_v to_o have_v the_o least_o part_n with_o you_o chap._n ix_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n it_o be_v wonderful_a to_o see_v the_o great_a liberty_n which_o a_o soul_n enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n when_o the_o illumination_n of_o this_o state_n irradiate_a a_o soul_n thorough_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a region_n of_o light_n full_a of_o peace_n and_o love_n marvellous_a large_a and_o spacious_a in_o which_o she_o live_v in_o high_a union_n with_o god_n a_o union_n which_o be_v not_o so_o liable_a to_o vicissitude_n and_o disturbance_n as_o former_o because_o accidental_a occurrence_n as_o sickness_n disgrace_n etc._n etc._n do_v not_o hurt_v such_o a_o soul_n by_o reason_n they_o make_v no_o strong_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o by_o consequence_n be_v become_v less_o sensible_a she_o be_v not_o easy_o 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herself_o in_o this_o high_a condition_n for_o oftentimes_o she_o must_v act_v according_a to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o dictate_v of_o pure_a reason_n which_o afford_v her_o matter_n of_o sigh_n and_o languish_n after_o her_o belove_a this_o be_v that_o which_o kindle_v in_o her_o breast_n a_o ardent_a desire_n to_o be_v dissolve_v and_o leave_v this_o earthly_a tabernacle_n wherein_o by_o the_o common_a misery_n of_o mankind_n she_o live_v a_o life_n displease_v to_o herself_o for_o be_v not_o whole_o for_o god_n as_o she_o desire_v it_o seem_v to_o her_o a_o kind_n of_o death_n and_o see_v she_o can_v continual_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n without_o vicissitude_n it_o be_v as_o it_o be_v a_o death_n unto_o she_o a_o death_n unknown_a to_o sensual_a man_n but_o such_o that_o be_v spiritual_a be_v very_o sensible_a thereof_o o_o jesus_n deliver_v i_o from_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n see_v here_o i_o can_v live_v your_o life_n of_o purity_n in_o 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behold_v whither_o a_o soul_n be_v conduct_v who_o many_o think_v good_a for_o nothing_o o_o how_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n be_v different_a from_o the_o thought_n of_o god_n let_v then_o every_o one_o honour_v god_n by_o the_o way_n and_o life_n that_o be_v proper_a for_o they_o otherwise_o they_o will_v fall_v into_o perturbation_n of_o spirit_n and_o be_v disquiet_v will_v become_v troublesome_a to_o themselves_o and_o other_o but_o this_o be_v not_o the_o work_n of_o a_o day_n we_o shall_v find_v it_o a_o hard_a task_n to_o become_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o ourselves_o every_o state_n be_v good_a yea_o the_o most_o abject_a all_o grace_n be_v excellent_a yea_o the_o least_o and_o mean_a there_o be_v many_o sort_n of_o grace_n which_o we_o perhaps_o do_v not_o much_o value_n and_o yet_o be_v real_o to_o be_v more_o esteem_v than_o vision_n rapt_n or_o revelation_n to_o labour_v and_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v of_o great_a worth_n than_o ecstasy_n it_o be_v a_o truth_n well_o enough_o know_v by_o many_o though_o practise_v but_o by_o few_o that_o a_o little_a matter_n hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o god_n grace_n in_o we_o one_o only_o small_a natural_a inclination_n unmortified_a suffice_v to_o retard_v our_o progress_n to_o perfection_n for_o this_o reason_n we_o must_v exact_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n annihilate_v in_o we_o every_o motion_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o god_n some_o way_n or_o other_o as_o for_o example_n to_o give_v no_o refreshment_n to_o the_o body_n by_o meat_n drink_z or_o sleep_v &c_n &c_n but_o for_o necessity_n we_o must_v also_o mortify_v in_o we_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o temporal_a commodity_n yea_o love_v abjection_n pain_n and_o poverty_n will_v nothing_o but_o what_o may_v conduce_v to_o advance_v god_n glory_n i_o more_o value_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o humiliation_n and_o suffering_n than_o in_o consolation_n chap._n xiii_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n o_o god_n what_o a_o poor_a christian_n be_o i_o in_o occasion_n of_o trial_n i_o have_v imprint_v in_o i_o some_o idaea_n and_o sentiment_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n but_o when_o it_o come_v to_o put_v they_o in_o practice_n my_o timorous_a nature_n shrink_v and_o make_v excuse_n to_o shun_v suffering_n and_o then_o the_o occasion_n be_v over_o i_o have_v great_a regreat_a for_o not_o be_v courageous_a and_o come_v to_o know_v thereby_o my_o little_a virtue_n and_o small_a perfection_n i_o then_o see_v that_o the_o rule_n of_o perfection_n be_v the_o conformity_n which_o we_o have_v with_o jesus_n crucify_v poor_a and_o abject_a when_o that_o be_v great_a our_o perfection_n be_v great_a also_o but_o that_o i_o find_v i_o have_v little_a or_o no_o affective_a conformity_n with_o jesus_n crucify_v behold_v here_o those_o light_n and_o direction_n i_o have_v learn_v by_o conference_n with_o a_o holy_a person_n and_o be_v good_a for_o my_o practice_n and_o solid_a establishment_n in_o a_o 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but_o that_o we_o may_v not_o be_v want_v to_o cooperate_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n vouchsafe_v unto_o we_o holy_a solitude_n be_v the_o region_n of_o divine_a communication_n ducam_fw-la eam_fw-la in_o solitudinem_fw-la &_o loquar_fw-la ad_fw-la cor_fw-la ejus_fw-la say_v god_n by_o the_o prophet_n i_o will_v lead_v a_o soul_n into_o solitude_n and_o speak_v interior_o to_o her_o heart_n 4._o the_o reason_n why_o we_o see_v so_o few_o even_o devout_a christian_n make_v progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v because_o they_o limit_v the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v hinder_v its_o enlargement_n by_o natural_a argument_n and_o human_a prudence_n they_o say_v it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o i_o ought_v not_o to_o aspire_v to_o so_o high_a perfection_n those_o who_o live_v in_o the_o world_n can_v be_v so_o elevate_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n these_o and_o suchlike_a excuse_n they_o make_v which_o hinder_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n from_o work_v full_o what_o he_o intend_v if_o we_o do_v but_o consider_v the_o ardent_a desire_n that_o jesus_n have_v to_o advance_v soul_n in_o the_o way_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o how_o ready_a he_o be_v to_o bestow_v on_o we_o new_a grace_n upon_o our_o faithful_a correspond_v with_o the_o former_a we_o will_v be_v both_o ravish_v and_o ashamed_a also_o to_o be_v so_o backward_o in_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n who_o desire_v nothing_o so_o much_o as_o that_o we_o may_v love_v he_o perfect_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o but_o as_o while_o jesus_n be_v on_o earth_n it_o be_v say_v of_o he_o that_o the_o world_n know_v he_o not_o and_o his_o own_o receive_v he_o not_o for_o see_v he_o bear_v in_o a_o stable_a circumcise_a as_o a_o sinner_n live_v poor_o as_o a_o carpenter_n persecute_v accuse_v condemn_v to_o die_v a_o infamous_a death_n on_o the_o cross_n they_o will_v not_o take_v he_o for_o the_o promise_a messiah_n so_o as_o yet_o he_o be_v not_o well_o know_v and_o many_o christian_n themselves_o do_v not_o receive_v he_o nor_o let_v his_o spirit_n and_o maxim_n reign_v in_o their_o heart_n yea_o some_o who_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o perfection_n do_v not_o as_o they_o ought_v esteem_n and_o embrace_v his_o humiliation_n and_o abjection_n for_o we_o too_o much_o desire_v honour_n and_o preferment_n and_o too_o much_o fear_v abjection_n and_o suffering_n o_o my_o soul_n what_o have_v thou_o do_v hitherto_o not_o to_o have_v as_o yet_o begin_v this_o life_n crucify_v and_o annihilate_v i_o confess_v my_o folly_n and_o blindness_n o_o my_o god_n make_v i_o present_o to_o set_v upon_o it_o and_o let_v not_o any_o day_n pass_v over_o without_o the_o happiness_n of_o suffer_v something_o for_o your_o love_n chap._n fourteen_o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o have_v oftentimes_o no_o need_n of_o any_o other_o care_n than_o to_o be_v faithful_a to_o a_o ordinary_a way_n of_o devotion_n without_o pretend_v to_o 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they_o become_v powerful_a and_o courageous_a to_o admiration_n chap._n xv._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o human_a prudence_n the_o supernatural_a life_n be_v a_o continual_a mortification_n of_o deprave_a nature_n 1._o for_o it_o be_v certain_a first_o that_o we_o can_v live_v this_o excellent_a life_n but_o by_o annihilate_v our_o sense_n and_o reason_n 2._o second_o that_o this_o life_n be_v whole_o according_a to_o the_o spirit_n which_o can_v be_v but_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n which_o inspire_v the_o soul_n with_o his_o influence_n and_o sacred_a motion_n 3._o three_o that_o the_o soul_n which_o live_v this_o life_n must_v be_v elevate_v above_o sense_n und_fw-ge reason_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o prayer_n or_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n which_o can_v be_v do_v but_o by_o offer_v up_o herself_o to_o god_n as_o a_o continual_a sacrifice_n that_o though_o oftentimes_o w_n must_v do_v thing_n sensual_a as_o to_o eat_v and_o drink_v yet_o these_o must_v be_v do_v as_o grace_n direct_v we_o and_o other_o thing_n according_a to_o reason_n as_o to_o love_v our_o relation_n and_o friend_n yet_o this_o must_v be_v only_o in_o god_n and_o as_o his_o oracle_n do_v dictate_v to_o we_o o_o life_n of_o grace_n how_o be_v thou_o a_o continual_a death_n and_o mortification_n who_o live_v christianly_o live_v a_o martyrdom_n tota_n vita_fw-la christiana_n crux_fw-la est_fw-la &_o martyrium_fw-la however_o it_o be_v a_o joyful_a martyrdom_n for_o solid_a joy_n can_v but_o make_v glad_a the_o soul_n where_o grace_n inhabit_v o_o that_o this_o fundamental_a truth_n of_o our_o salvation_n do_v once_o well_o sink_v into_o our_o heart_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o eternal_a king_n of_o glory_n leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o father_n and_o become_v man_n to_o live_v and_o die_v in_o infinite_a humiliation_n jesus_n give_v we_o life_n by_o his_o death_n he_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o grace_n by_o ruine_v himself_o according_a to_o nature_n he_o purchase_v eternity_n for_o we_o by_o yield_v up_o his_o temporal_a life_n and_o the_o evangelist_n express_v his_o death_n do_v on_o set_v purpose_n use_v these_o word_n emisit_fw-la spiritum_fw-la he_o send_v forth_o his_o spirit_n without_o doubt_n he_o send_v it_o into_o the_o heart_n of_o his_o faithful_a servant_n to_o the_o end_n they_o may_v learn_v to_o live_v by_o his_o spirit_n to_o he_o who_o die_v for_o they_o so_o say_v st._n paul_n misit_fw-la deus_fw-la spiritum_fw-la filii_fw-la svi_fw-la in_o corda_fw-la nostra_fw-la ut_fw-la qui_fw-la vivunt_fw-la jam_fw-la non_fw-la sibi_fw-la vivre_fw-fr sed_fw-la ei_fw-la qui_fw-la pro_fw-la ipsis_fw-la mortuus_fw-la est_fw-la what_o remain_v then_o but_o that_o we_o banish_v our_o carnal_a spirit_n which_o carry_v we_o on_o to_o sensual_a delight_n although_o sometime_o not_o sinful_a let_v we_o love_v the_o spirit_n of_o penance_n of_o suffer_v of_o self-denial_n and_o humiliation_n gerson_n have_v a_o excellent_a say_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o nature_n be_v mortify_v by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o grace_n be_v infuse_v we_o must_v often_o call_v to_o mind_n that_o the_o grain_n of_o wheat_n cast_v into_o the_o earth_n except_o it_o die_v can_v bring_v forth_o fruit_n if_o we_o do_v not_o die_v to_o ourselves_o and_o the_o world_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o nature_n we_o can_v never_o become_v perfect_a christian_n nor_o bring_v forth_o the_o fruit_n of_o divine_a love_n we_o must_v be_v as_o nothing_o before_o man_n that_o we_o may_v be_v something_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n why_o shall_v the_o disciple_n be_v above_o his_o master_n the_o spirit_n of_o grace_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o nature_n do_v continual_o jar_v and_o war_n one_o against_o the_o other_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o spiritual_a life_n will_v afford_v we_o light_n to_o discern_v their_o different_a motion_n but_o when_o
secret_a order_n well_o know_v to_o herself_o and_o walk_v peaceable_o in_o the_o pursuance_n of_o those_o affair_n which_o have_v immediate_a relation_n to_o god_n and_o be_v content_a also_o to_o be_v extrovert_v by_o secular_a affair_n as_o good_n and_o honour_n to_o serve_v our_o corporal_a necessity_n and_o help_v our_o neighbour_n but_o it_o be_v god_n present_a in_o we_o that_o set_v a_o a_o soul_n on_o work_n by_o his_o order_n and_o necessary_a instruction_n 1._o we_o must_v undertake_v no_o business_n yea_o not_o good_a work_n without_o a_o mission_n that_o be_v without_o some_o interiour_n call_v from_o god_n and_o therefore_o it_o concern_v we_o to_o have_v recourse_n to_o he_o by_o prayer_n to_o know_v his_o will_n lest_o we_o do_v what_o he_o do_v not_o require_v of_o we_o 2_o when_o we_o know_v that_o god_n set_v we_o on_o work_n we_o ought_v to_o be_v very_o faithful_a in_o the_o performance_n of_o it_o i_o observe_v that_o affair_n of_o obligation_n do_v not_o 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all_o be_v you_o for_o ever_o what_o you_o be_v and_o that_o you_o shall_v be_v our_o all_o everlasting_o do_v comfort_n and_o ravish_v i_o i_o see_v that_o god_n be_v not_o only_o all_o but_o that_o all_o glory_n all_o grandeur_n all_o beatitude_n be_v in_o he_o neither_o lose_v he_o any_o thing_n by_o his_o communication_n to_o his_o creature_n he_o take_v infinite_a pleasure_n to_o do_v good_a to_o they_o by_o his_o mercy_n and_o no_o less_o content_a be_v he_o to_o punish_v they_o by_o his_o justice_n because_o they_o deserve_v it_o for_o nothing_o can_v disturb_v his_o happiness_n o_o what_o felicity_n be_v it_o to_o a_o soul_n that_o love_v god_n pure_o to_o be_v assure_v that_o god_n shall_v be_v infinite_o happy_a to_o all_o eternity_n and_o that_o no_o malice_n of_o man_n can_v alter_v his_o beatitude_n such_o a_o soul_n be_v great_o please_v to_o consider_v the_o contentment_n god_n take_v to_o make_v she_o live_v to_o make_v she_o die_v to_o keep_v she_o in_o health_n or_o 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of_o god_n and_o his_o divine_a perfection_n let_v such_o a_o soul_n be_v in_o light_n or_o darkness_n in_o peace_n or_o war_n elevate_v or_o deject_v she_o be_v still_o the_o same_o because_o god_n will_n be_v she_o and_o she_o desire_v nothing_o but_o what_o please_v he_o her_o chief_a care_n be_v to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o god_n will_v in_o so_o great_a variety_n of_o interiour_n state_n and_o why_o shall_v a_o soul_n be_v concern_v at_o this_o variety_n for_o if_o i_o pure_o desire_v to_o please_v god_n it_o will_v be_v all_o one_o to_o i_o whether_o i_o do_v it_o by_o suffering_n or_o enjoy_v chap._n x._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o confidence_n to_o divine_a providence_n dear_o lord_n draw_v the_o passion_n and_o affection_n of_o my_o heart_n whole_o after_o you_o o_o that_o i_o can_v go_v out_o of_o myself_o to_o abide_v only_o in_o you_o oh_o that_o i_o have_v no_o love_n but_o for_o you_o no_o fear_n no_o desire_n no_o joy_n but_o in_o 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be_v to_o make_v we_o love_v what_o jesus_n love_v the_o most_o of_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n o_o my_o god_n how_o long_o shall_v we_o live_v in_o the_o low_a sentiment_n of_o nature_n give_v i_o to_o suffer_v or_o to_o die_v o_o my_o soul_n be_v ashamed_a to_o live_v without_o suffer_v for_o that_o methinks_v be_v to_o live_v without_o love_n the_o fruit_n which_o we_o gather_v from_o the_o holy_a communion_n be_v not_o discern_v by_o abundance_n of_o sensible_a sweetness_n or_o by_o reception_n of_o much_o light_n in_o the_o understanding_n but_o by_o a_o firm_a and_o vigorous_a resolution_n of_o the_o will_v to_o suffer_v and_o to_o mortify_v itself_o and_o the_o more_o one_o advance_n in_o mortification_n the_o more_o one_o also_o increase_v in_o purity_n of_o love_n jesus_n who_o be_v the_o nourishment_n of_o our_o love_n in_o heaven_n where_o love_n will_v be_v infinite_o pure_a be_v likewise_o the_o nourishment_n of_o our_o love_n upon_o earth_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n which_o by_o consequence_n ought_v to_o be_v sovereign_o pure_a i_o mean_v without_o any_o mixture_n of_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v not_o god_n but_o this_o can_v be_v without_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n and_o even_o to_o ourselves_o and_o this_o death_n be_v not_o compass_v but_o by_o mortification_n and_o all_o that_o which_o crucify_v nature_n chap._n viii_o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_a after_o holy_a communion_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o as_o jesus_n receive_v of_o his_o divine_a father_n the_o fullness_n of_o light_n and_o true_a love_n in_o the_o hypostatical_a union_n so_o he_o make_v his_o friend_n partaker_n thereof_o in_o the_o sacramental_a union_n and_o thereby_o lay_v a_o obligation_n upon_o they_o to_o live_v by_o the_o same_o life_n to_o guide_v themselves_o by_o the_o light_n and_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o
comformity_n to_o all_o his_o state_n this_o divine_a light_n discover_v to_o i_o a_o great_a many_o verity_n very_o important_a for_o my_o direction_n and_o conduct_n 1._o that_o we_o be_v never_o to_o be_v without_o suffering_n for_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n be_v the_o spirit_n of_o the_o cross_n the_o grace_n that_o feed_v and_o support_v it_o be_v the_o fruit_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o the_o adorable_a bread_n so_o full_a of_o delight_n inspire_v no_o other_o sentiment_n than_o those_o of_o the_o cross_n venite_fw-la mittamus_fw-la lignum_fw-la in_o panem_fw-la ejus_fw-la 2._o that_o as_o jesus_n manifest_v the_o purity_n of_o the_o love_n he_o bear_v we_o by_o die_v for_o we_o upon_o the_o cross_n so_o ought_v we_o to_o prove_v the_o sincerity_n of_o we_o by_o nail_v it_o to_o the_o cross_n 3_o that_o he_o work_v our_o salvation_n by_o the_o only_a mean_n of_o suffer_v therefore_o it_o be_v a_o manifest_a deceit_n to_o hope_v that_o we_o can_v cooperate_v towards_o our_o salvation_n by_o any_o other_o mean_n than_o that_o of_o suffer_v 4._o that_o we_o must_v attend_v and_o harken_v very_o diligent_o to_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n within_o we_o which_o of_o itself_o sometime_o furnish_v we_o with_o cross_n of_o providence_n or_o else_o inspire_v we_o to_o seek_v they_o of_o ourselves_o we_o must_v embrace_v they_o all_o cheerful_o or_o search_v they_o amorous_o 5._o that_o no_o other_o soul_n but_o what_o be_v in_o love_n with_o cross_n can_v taste_v the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n and_o its_o heavenly_a sweetness_n for_o god_n who_o mix_v the_o pleasure_n of_o worldling_n with_o wormwood_n and_o gall_n do_v often_o sweeten_v our_o suffering_n after_o a_o admirable_a manner_n moreover_o i_o be_v teach_v in_o the_o holy_a communion_n that_o jesus_n be_v a_o sun_n which_o be_v eclipse_v during_o this_o transitory_a life_n but_o now_o shine_v in_o heaven_n full_a of_o lustre_n and_o glory_n and_o according_a to_o the_o measure_n soul_n partake_v of_o his_o eclipse_n and_o darkness_n they_o shall_v proportionable_o share_v of_o his_o splendour_n in_o glory_n why_o then_o flee_v we_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o the_o cross_n for_o that_o which_o eclipse_v a_o soul_n with_o jesus_n christ_n be_v the_o seed_n of_o a_o immense_a glory_n in_o heaven_n what_o be_v the_o reason_n that_o we_o see_v nothing_o but_o cross_n in_o church_n all_o the_o altar_n be_v adorn_v with_o the_o cross_n the_o priest_n go_v to_o celebrate_v wear_v the_o cross_n in_o his_o vestment_n while_o he_o be_v say_v mass_n while_o he_o be_v say_v mass_n he_o make_v a_o great_a many_o sign_n of_o the_o cross_n when_o he_o be_v about_o to_o communicate_v to_o we_o he_o first_o give_v we_o his_o benediction_n with_o the_o sign_n of_o the_o cross_n even_o the_o last_o action_n he_o do_v hold_v the_o bless_a sacrament_n in_o his_o hand_n and_o ready_a to_o present_v it_o to_o we_o be_v form_v the_o sign_n of_o the_o cross_n with_o the_o sacred_a host_n we_o be_v tell_v 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poor_a the_o more_o dead_a one_o be_v to_o the_o world_n i_o ought_v even_o exterior_o if_o people_n will_v believe_v i_o to_o live_v poor_o and_o become_v vile_a and_o contemptible_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o man_n follow_v the_o example_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o live_v thirty_o year_n in_o a_o shop_n like_o a_o servant_n therefore_o it_o be_v my_o duty_n to_o tend_v contrary_a to_o all_o that_o which_o the_o world_n with_o its_o wisdom_n of_o the_o flesh_n esteem_v and_o that_o sudden_o for_o i_o be_o already_o grow_v old_a and_o have_v not_o yet_o begin_v in_o become_v wretched_a according_a to_o the_o opinion_n of_o the_o world_n i_o shall_v answer_v the_o grace_n of_o my_o vocation_n who_o be_o call_v to_o poverty_n and_o a_o solitary_a life_n i_o shall_v obtain_v peace_n and_o become_v a_o man_n of_o prayer_n assist_v i_o with_o your_o powerful_a grace_n o_o jesus_n and_o grant_v i_o perseverance_n let_v we_o follow_v jesus_n o_o my_o soul_n he_o from_o the_o very_a first_o instant_n of_o his_o life_n walk_v like_o a_o giant_n in_o the_o way_n of_o humiliation_n and_o suffering_n the_o way_n that_o his_o father_n appoint_v he_o all_o his_o concern_n be_v to_o cooperate_v with_o his_o father_n eternal_a purpose_n which_o regard_v himself_o let_v we_o walk_v courageous_o in_o the_o rough_a and_o holy_a path_n which_o jesus_n have_v trace_v out_o let_v we_o not_o fear_v our_o natural_a weakness_n since_o he_o do_v not_o fear_v his_o humanity_n but_o show_v himself_o obedient_a even_o to_o death_n and_o to_o the_o death_n of_o the_o cross_n let_v we_o count_v every_o thing_n folly_n that_o be_v contrary_a to_o this_o wisdom_n and_o let_v we_o quit_v one_o for_o all_o every_o thing_n else_o to_o follow_v none_o but_o he_o chap._n ix_o the_o second_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o transform_v we_o the_o follow_a consideration_n after_o communion_n entertain_v i_o long_o and_o continue_v a_o whole_a morning_n that_o the_o principal_a effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o produce_v in_o we_o a_o intimate_a union_n with_o jesus_n this_o union_n be_v a_o perfect_a assimulation_n to_o his_o state_n and_o mystery_n and_o this_o assimulation_n be_v the_o same_o thing_n which_o they_o call_v a_o transformation_n into_o god_n and_o render_v a_o person_n whole_o divine_a and_o devote_v to_o the_o interest_n of_o god_n insomuch_o that_o by_o grace_n he_o become_v divine_a as_o have_v no_o other_o inclination_n than_o those_o of_o god_n live_v by_o the_o life_n of_o god_n and_o desire_v nothing_o but_o the_o love_n and_o glory_n of_o god_n in_o this_o sight_n which_o appear_v to_o i_o very_o clear_a i_o behold_v the_o lowness_n and_o imperfection_n of_o such_o sentiment_n and_o action_n as_o be_v mere_o natural_a i_o wonder_v at_o the_o blindness_n of_o man_n who_o set_v such_o a_o value_n upon_o a_o operation_n of_o nature_n though_o it_o be_v of_o itself_o so_o infinite_o vile_a and_o contemptible_a it_o seem_v they_o never_o understand_v the_o importance_n of_o advance_v towards_o perfection_n with_o all_o their_o source_n nor_o the_o miserable_a condition_n of_o a_o imperfect_a soul_n this_o light_n wonderful_o separate_v i_o from_o imperfection_n and_o i_o be_o now_o as_o full_a of_o horror_n of_o it_o as_o i_o be_v former_o full_a of_o sin_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o jesus_n who_o so_o prodigious_o debase_v himself_o in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n by_o a_o miracle_n of_o love_n of_o mercy_n and_o of_o incomparable_a bounty_n do_v thus_o excite_v i_o to_o rise_v from_o nature_n to_o grace_n and_o and_o from_o a_o humane_a to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n towards_o which_o i_o feel_v in_o myself_o such_o strong_a inclination_n and_o such_o powerful_a obligation_n by_o my_o frequent_a communion_n that_o i_o have_v rather_o have_v die_v than_o have_v pass_v one_o moment_n of_o my_o life_n in_o the_o state_n of_o nature_n we_o ought_v to_o tend_v incessant_o to_o the_o purity_n of_o jesus_n and_o if_o to_o enter_v into_o 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of_o the_o will_n be_v this_o death_n and_o this_o death_n be_v not_o ordinary_o wrought_v but_o by_o privation_n this_o kind_n of_o prayer_n be_v uniform_a and_o not_o much_o liable_a to_o alteration_n nor_o bring_v any_o damage_n to_o the_o body_n for_o nature_n have_v nothing_o to_o do_v in_o it_o be_v not_o procurable_a by_o great_a endeavour_n of_o humane_a industry_n but_o depend_v pure_o on_o the_o will_n of_o god_n who_o alone_o give_v it_o when_o and_o to_o who_o he_o please_v it_o be_v true_a this_o pure_a and_o naked_a contemplation_n of_o god_n by_o faith_n be_v give_v but_o rare_o and_o to_o those_o who_o have_v pass_v through_o many_o purgatory_n and_o state_n of_o penance_n to_o fit_v they_o for_o it_o in_o the_o beginning_n it_o dart_v into_o the_o soul_n but_o transient_a irradiation_n like_o flash_n of_o lightning_n if_o at_o any_o time_n they_o continue_v about_o half_a a_o hour_n it_o be_v very_o much_o however_o they_o work_v in_o the_o soul_n very_o great_a effect_n one_o of_o the_o principal_n be_v that_o this_o light_n of_o faith_n discover_v to_o we_o the_o verity_n of_o divine_a mystery_n imperfection_n and_o the_o perfection_n we_o want_v and_o practical_a virtue_n and_o all_o this_o at_o once_o not_o successive_o one_o after_o another_o by_o discourse_n which_o can_v never_o arrive_v to_o produce_v a_o knowledge_n so_o clear_a and_o universal_a but_o indeed_o the_o understanding_n have_v much_o ado_n to_o die_v to_o its_o own_o operation_n and_o not_o act_v by_o humane_a light_n by_o be_v whole_o give_v up_o to_o the_o obscurity_n of_o faith_n however_o this_o must_v be_v do_v to_o be_v right_o dispose_v for_o divine_a operation_n there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o contemplation_n but_o what_o god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v we_o must_v be_v receive_v with_o submissive_a thankfulness_n while_o we_o live_v in_o mortal_a body_n we_o shall_v have_v always_o something_o to_o purify_v and_o therefore_o always_o something_a to_o suffer_v 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faith_n be_v a_o participation_n of_o the_o eternal_a wisdom_n she_o only_o conduct_n we_o with_o true_a assurance_n for_o her_o light_n though_o dark_a be_v certain_a and_o their_o obscurity_n do_v incomparable_o transcend_v the_o clear_a evidence_n of_o natural_a reason_n moreover_o to_o make_v prayer_n more_o intellectual_a and_o that_o nature_n may_v have_v no_o hand_n in_o it_o we_o must_v leave_v off_o some_o thing_n which_o usual_o do_v raise_v our_o heart_n to_o god_n with_o a_o sensible_a devotion_n as_o music_n rich_a ornament_n devout_a picture_n in_o church_n and_o the_o like_a this_o be_v good_a and_o profitable_a in_o the_o begin_n of_o a_o spiritual_a life_n and_o some_o time_n after_o but_o when_o a_o soul_n have_v attain_v purity_n of_o prayer_n there_o be_v no_o need_n to_o take_v her_o nourishment_n that_o be_v her_o knowledge_n and_o love_n but_o from_o pure_a faith_n and_o supernatural_a light_n infuse_v into_o she_o when_o we_o take_v not_o good_a heed_n we_o keep_v not_o ourselves_o sufficient_o passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n but_o we_o go_v a_o bege_n for_o the_o life_n of_o the_o soul_n to_o sensible_a object_n when_o god_n himself_o will_v nourish_v she_o with_o more_o purify_a knowledge_n and_o divine_a love_n why_o shall_v we_o hanker_v after_o sensible_a gust_n of_o devotion_n see_v nature_n be_v common_o too_o much_o take_v with_o they_o to_o the_o damage_n of_o naked_a faith_n and_o the_o hindrance_n of_o our_o pure_a union_n with_o god_n which_o require_v a_o total_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n notwithstanding_o when_o god_n try_v we_o with_o dereliction_n and_o give_v we_o not_o admittance_n into_o his_o presence_n but_o by_o thing_n sensible_a and_o discursive_a prayer_n we_o must_v humble_o comply_v with_o this_o state_n and_o not_o pretend_v to_o high_a elevation_n in_o our_o address_n to_o he_o yet_o if_o a_o soul_n in_o
this_o interiour_n poverty_n and_o dereliction_n find_v that_o she_o have_v a_o call_n to_o interiour_n suffering_n she_o ought_v not_o to_o seek_v after_o sensible_a thing_n to_o raise_v she_o to_o god_n but_o courageous_o bear_v this_o interiour_n cross_n as_o long_o as_o it_o please_v her_o divine_a bridegroom_n to_o continue_v her_o trial_n this_o state_n be_v bitter_a indeed_o but_o withal_o purify_n and_o make_v a_o soul_n capable_a of_o more_o intimate_a union_n with_o god_n chap._n x._o of_o the_o sacred_a darkness_n of_o prayer_n on_o st._n mary_n magdalen_n day_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o prayer_n change_v and_o become_v more_o simple_a more_o strong_a and_o elevate_v my_o spirit_n go_v on_o know_v god_n not_o by_o light_n or_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o by_o a_o certain_a darkness_n wherewith_o god_n be_v surround_v as_o with_o a_o cloud_n this_o darkness_n make_v i_o see_v that_o god_n can_v be_v know_v but_o be_v infinite_o above_o our_o understanding_n which_o 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aforesaid_a manner_n understand_v well_o that_o the_o knowledge_n we_o have_v of_o god_n by_o this_o way_n be_v great_a than_o that_o we_o learn_v by_o discourse_n or_o light_n or_o gust_n in_o prayer_n to_o know_v we_o can_v know_v god_n be_v to_o know_v he_o as_o much_o as_o he_o can_v be_v know_v in_o this_o life_n his_o grandeur_n be_v infinite_o above_o our_o understanding_n and_o that_o our_o understanding_n may_v live_v whole_o to_o god_n it_o must_v die_v to_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n who_o we_o see_v by_o naked_a faith_n in_o a_o luminous_a obscurity_n by_o this_o way_n god_n be_v more_o know_v and_o love_v than_o by_o many_o light_n and_o affection_n all_o which_o be_v lose_v in_o the_o obscurity_n of_o this_o sacred_a darkness_n which_o make_v a_o soul_n see_v that_o the_o perfection_n of_o god_n be_v incomprehensible_a many_o good_a effect_n arise_v from_o hence_o as_o a_o profound_a joy_n and_o peace_n of_o conscience_n a_o firmness_n in_o our_o good_a resolution_n and_o practice_n of_o virtue_n a_o great_a love_n of_o self-denial_n in_o imitation_n of_o the_o unspeakable_a humiliation_n of_o jesus_n christ_n one_o of_o the_o sure_a mark_n to_o know_v whether_o this_o prayer_n of_o darkness_n come_v from_o god_n be_v to_o see_v whether_o it_o leave_v in_o the_o soul_n the_o knowledge_n of_o our_o misery_n and_o infidelity_n for_o the_o more_o we_o possess_v god_n the_o better_a we_o see_v the_o least_o imperfection_n as_o for_o example_n whether_o our_o intention_n be_v pure_a or_o nature_n have_v some_o interest_n with_o grace_n whether_o we_o too_o easy_o leave_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o other_o thing_n whether_o we_o comply_v with_o god_n inspiration_n or_o commit_v infidelity_n these_o and_o such_o like_o be_v clear_o see_v by_o this_o mean_n do_v much_o humble_v we_o and_o make_v we_o careful_a to_o amend_v they_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o disposition_n know_v nothing_o of_o god_n but_o that_o he_o be_v incomprehensible_a and_o lose_v herself_o in_o this_o darkness_n that_o surround_v his_o grandeurs_n this_o view_n with_o a_o view_n see_v nothing_o distinct_o of_o god_n in_o particalar_n but_o be_v a_o know_a ignorance_n of_o what_o god_n be_v in_o himself_o for_o though_o the_o excessive_a glory_n of_o this_o divine_a sun_n make_v his_o light_n inaccessible_a to_o our_o weak_a eye_n yet_o this_o darkness_n pierce_v our_o interiour_n and_o we_o know_v god_n in_o a_o transcendent_a manner_n by_o strong_a impression_n of_o the_o divinity_n and_o be_v raise_v to_o a_o most_o intimate_a union_n with_o he_o god_n require_v of_o a_o soul_n great_a purity_n in_o this_o state_n this_o then_o be_v a_o excellent_a manner_n to_o take_v up_o our_o thought_n with_o god_n in_o our_o address_n to_o he_o by_o annihilate_v all_o our_o light_n and_o knowledge_n to_o get_v into_o this_o sacred_a darkness_n that_o surround_v his_o glory_n that_o be_v thus_o dead_a to_o our_o own_o ability_n we_o may_v confess_v that_o god_n be_v as_o much_o above_o our_o understanding_n as_o he_o be_v amiable_a above_o our_o affection_n thus_o to_o know_v god_n and_o confess_v he_o be_v above_o our_o understanding_n and_o to_o love_n god_n and_o acknowledge_v we_o can_v love_v he_o according_a to_o his_o perfection_n be_v to_o live_v dead_a to_o ourselves_o and_o our_o ability_n and_o such_o god_n love_v best_a and_o know_v with_o approbation_n chap._n xi_o of_o the_o light_n of_o prayer_n god_n sometime_o in_o prayer_n discover_v himself_o to_o a_o soul_n as_o the_o sun_n fill_v she_o with_o light_n by_o which_o and_o in_o which_o he_o be_v know_v and_o all_o other_o thing_n she_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o or_o which_o the_o omniscient_a be_v please_v to_o manifest_v to_o she_o we_o see_v well_o enough_o this_o light_n by_o which_o we_o know_v god_n but_o god_n himself_o be_v inaccessible_a as_o we_o behold_v the_o light_n of_o the_o natural_a sun_n and_o not_o the_o body_n thereof_o which_o blind_v our_o eye_n and_o by_o the_o benefit_n of_o its_o beam_n the_o thing_n of_o this_o world_n be_v make_v visible_a to_o we_o one_o bear_v blind_a imagine_v that_o if_o he_o can_v see_v the_o light_n he_o may_v see_v the_o sun_n but_o he_o will_v find_v by_o experience_n that_o this_o light_n will_v only_o serve_v to_o make_v he_o clear_o see_v that_o he_o can_v behold_v the_o sun_n by_o reason_n of_o its_o excessive_a brightness_n in_o the_o same_o manner_n when_o we_o be_v in_o interiour_n darkness_n we_o think_v we_o can_v know_v god_n better_o in_o the_o light_n and_o when_o this_o light_n come_v it_o only_o serve_v to_o let_v we_o see_v that_o god_n can_v be_v know_v by_o we_o in_o mortal_a body_n when_o in_o prayer_n i_o have_v a_o view_n of_o god_n or_o some_o of_o his_o perfection_n of_o jesus_n or_o some_o of_o his_o disposition_n or_o maxim_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o all_o these_o object_n have_v a_o particular_a light_n in_o they_o which_o serve_v much_o to_o discover_v their_o excellency_n to_o the_o soul_n but_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o these_o verity_n namely_o we_o must_v slay_v from_o evil_a and_o do_v good_a hate_v sin_n and_o embrace_v virtue_n and_o such_o like_a as_o consider_v bare_o in_o themselves_o have_v no_o particular_a light_n in_o they_o to_o manifest_v their_o goodness_n but_o their_o beauty_n and_o excellency_n be_v discover_v to_o we_o by_o help_n of_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n as_o those_o body_n which_o be_v out_o of_o the_o sun_n see_v not_o themselves_o but_o by_o the_o light_n thereof_o for_o this_o reason_n i_o believe_v it_o be_v best_a for_o a_o soul_n to_o take_v up_o her_o thought_n with_o god_n and_o those_o verity_n that_o regard_v he_o or_o with_o jesus_n and_o christian_a truth_n as_o resident_a in_o this_o sacred_a breast_n by_o this_o mean_v the_o heart_n and_o affection_n will_v be_v much_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o god_n to_o adore_v and_o serve_v he_o and_o imitate_v the_o perfection_n of_o jesus_n christ_n this_o sort_n 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the_o will_n of_o god_n if_o i_o have_v not_o a_o great_a care_n the_o devil_n will_v deceive_v i_o and_o make_v i_o delay_v to_o my_o own_o ruin_n chap._n xx._n of_o the_o different_a caress_n god_n vouchsafe_v a_o soul_n in_o prayer_n those_o who_o practise_v prayer_n know_v by_o experience_n that_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n in_o different_a manner_n all_o most_o intimate_a most_o pure_a and_o full_a of_o sweetness_n oftentimes_o by_o the_o please_a attraction_n of_o his_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n so_o delightful_a to_o the_o soul_n that_o for_o the_o time_n she_o in_o a_o manner_n enjoy_v a_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n sometime_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n by_o the_o rigour_n of_o his_o justice_n try_v she_o with_o interior_a and_o exterior_a suffering_n so_o that_o only_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n remain_v unite_v to_o god_n the_o inferior_a part_n be_v in_o a_o suffer_a condition_n sometime_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n by_o 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