send the Spirit of thy Sonne into my dead heart whereby thou hast quickned mee by faith in the merits of my Sauiour enabled mee with boldnesse to draw neere vnto thee and to crie with confidence Abba Father O how hast thou shed thy loue abroad in my heart by the holy Ghost which thou hast giuen me whereby though I haue beene in great heauines through many temptations especially with the sense and horror of my sins yet hast thou wonderfully refreshed my fainting spirit and caused mee to reioyce with ioy vnspeakable and glorious O how haue these holy rauishments taken me vp into the third heauens How hath my soule now longed to put off this corruption and to be taken vp for euer to enioy thy glorious presence How gladly would I now haue obtained the marke before I had run my race How willingly would I haue the crowne before I had finished my course O the vnspeakable riches of the wisedome and mercy of my God toward me Didst thou not put this precious treasure of faith into an earthen vessel that the glorie might bee of God and not of man didst thou not Redeeme mee out of the hands of our enemies that so I might passe the time of my pilgrimage in feare and magnifie thy power daily in mine infirmities daily denying mine owne righteousnesse that still I may be found of thee in Christ that still I might liue by faith in the Sonne of God and grow vp in him to perfect holinesse Surely blessed Lord when I consider mine owne corruption daily more and more appearing in me and rebelling against thy righteous will and casting vp daily mists to dimme the eie of my Faith that I cannot so clearly discerne the light of thy countenance yea somtimes so leading me captiue into sinne that I am many times to seeke of the sence of thy Loue I am many times put to question the truth of my faith and to distrust my selfe whether I haue any faith or no. For alas Lord I must needs confesse to thy glory that although thou commandest mee to beleeue perfectly in thy Sonne and to be strong in faith yet I find on the other side such strength of corruption preuailing ouer mee and commanding mee forcibly to giue way thereunto and so not onely interrupting the sense of thy loue vnto me but also challenging my loue vnto thee that I am forced many times to feare whether I am led by the Spirit truly of faith or no whether euer thy loue were shed abroad in my heart if euer I loued thee in truth seeing it seemes vnto me that my loue vnto sinne is not altogether quenched nay I feele the power of corruption carrying mee so violently after the lusts of my heart that as I find my selfe lesse cheerfull and constant in thy seruice so on the other side I sometimes find my selfe lesse able to resist temptations more apt and inclinable to such lusts which heretofore I haue subdued yea often more fouly ouercome and foiled by them What shall I say vnto thee O thou searcher of my heart and preseruer of my soule dost thou not see how cold somtimes I am in prayer How dull in the hearing of the word How carelesse of thy Sabbaths How vnconscionable and negligent in my calling How rebellious and inordinate in my affections O how often haue I greeued thine holy Spirit by neglecting the good motions thereof yea many times willingly crossing the same and entertaining contrary suggestions of my cruell enemie How carelesse haue I beene to examaine my heart and renew my couenant with thee How deceitfull or carelesse in breaking often my vowes which I haue made vnto thee against speciall corruptions for renuwing of decayed graces O How often haue I beene ready to giue way to such curssed thoughts of blasphemie and fearefull impietie which might euen quench thy Spirit lead to the dispighting thereof How haue I sometimes bin readie to violate my Conscience by rushing on desperate euils yea how fearfully haue I wounded the same by committing grosse sinnes and to make vp the measure of my misery How haue I hardned my heart by sleeping in sinne and neglecting the sauing meanes of deepe humiliation to awaken me to repentance Alas Lord thou knowest ful wel that though thou hast followed mee with many secret and open afflictions to rouse me out of this sleepe of Security yet either it hath proued but a dreame and so I haue falne asleepe againe or if my heart hath bin awake yet it hath not bin vnto thee to make my sound peace but rather vnto my Enemie to cease his violence yea somtimes to the World to procure some temporary lenity rather to ease my present paine then to heale me thoroughly And surely righteous Lord euen thus it hath befalne that such as I haue sown I haue often reaped euen more hardnesse of heart lesse sense and remorse for sinne more boldnesse thereto and more ease therin lesse delight in holy duties lesse life in prayer lesse coÌ„science in the word more slights in my calling more distraction in my recknings and more confusion in my Spirit Yet still O Lord I heare a voice behinde me saying This is the way walke in it Yet still I finde thy hand ouer me to stay me from sinking still my better aduised heart tels me it was better with mee formerly then now when I had comfort in thy presence and conscience in thine Ordinances Still thy Spirit is readie to reuiue me with hope that I may recouer againe and my hope is confirmed heereby that the meanes are still offered me and I am capeable of them But alas Lord insted of comfort by them I reape nothing but further confusion because as I am vnable to apply them to my selfe so indeed I am not now fit for that comfort which I seeke for in thee For what peace can there be to mee while my corruptions stink before thee Or how can I look for comfort bâ—fore I be soundly healed O the vnspeakeable Riches of the wisedom and mercie of my God! how insearchable are thy Councels and thy waies past finding out As thou diddest bring light out of darkenesse in calling mee from darknes vnto light so doest thou cause thy light to shine in darkenesse that thy glorie may bee perfected in my infirmities And therefore though I am now thy Creature renewed after thine owne image yet seeing thou wilt haue the onely glory of thy worke therefore as the light of the righteous must shine more and more vnto the perfect day so the darknesse of corruptions must not bee dispelled vtterly at once but daily be banished more and more vnto the coming of Christ Therefore is it blessed Lord that though thou hast cancelled the guilt of my sin at once by faith in Christ yet hast thou wisely left the corruption of sinne to be abolished by degrees that so I might still liue by Faith in the death of Christ for the mortifying thereof that I
so to keepe vs vnder that wee more effectually may giue our selues to serue thee Or if it bee thy will and pleasure more abundantly to blesse vs and our trauaile to send vs abundance of all things wee beseech thee deare Father giue vs a thankfull heart to acknowledge them to bee thy good giftes and frame our hearts with such liberality that wee may be contented to distribute them according to the necesity of thy children being assured that thou hast to this ende made vs Stewards ouer them that maist at his hands require much on whome thou hast bestowed much so that we hauing the due estimation of thy benefits which we ought to haue may both reuerence thy goodnesse in thy benefits and supply the want of our bretheren to the releefe of their necessity and furtherance of thy glory The fift petition Forgiue vs our trespasses as we forgiue them that trespasse against vs. AND whereas most mercifull Father thy Sonne our Lord and Sauiour Iesus Christ hath in our nature paide the ransome and debt of all our sinnes which wee haue from the beginning of our life committed and do dayly commit wee beseech thy gracious gooodesse that thou wilt by thy holy spirit in our hearts assure our soules and consciences with a liuely faith that by that same one onely sufficient sacrifice the punishment of our sinnes is paide thy wrath appeased and thy Iustice satisfied whereby our consciences may be quieted set at peace with thee our mercifull Father and God Let vs deare Father feele in our soules and consciences that wee are vnited to thy deare Sonne Iesus Christ and made one body with him and heires with him of euerlasting glory so coupled and ioyned with him that wee are members of his body so that whatsoeuer hee hath done in his body wee may bee assured that it is ours that his righteousnesse is our righteousnesse his sanctification and holinesse is ours the curse condemnation and death which hee suffered is the same curse condemnation and death due for our sinns that wee know that our sins bee done away and cleane forgotten and forgiuen by thy mercifull loue goodnesse declared in offeâ—ing vp thy Sonne to death for vs wee may be driuen to loue thee vnfainedly from the bottome of our hearts for this thine vnspeakable loue And considering that thou hast in mercy pardoned so many our haynous offences we may gladly bee moued to forgiue one another their offences and put out of our heart all rancour malice hatred toward ouâ— Bretheren knowing that we are all members of one body Christ our Sauiour that so surely as we haue forgiuen them that offend vs we may be so certainely assured that our mercifull Father hath forgiuen vs like as we haue forgiuen our Bretheren The sixt petition Lead vs not into temptation but deliuer vs from euill ANd for as much most heauenly Father as we of our selues bee feeble and fraile and weak and haue a strong and subtile Aduersarie Sathan the Diuell who goeth about continually like a roaring Lyon seeking whome hee may deuoure we beseech thee strengthen vs by thy holy Spirit that wee may withstand his subtle suggestions and motions hold thou vs by thy mercifull hand and keepe vs alwaies in thy safegard and protection that wee be not ouercome in the mighty assaults of our aduersary And forasmuch as he often vseth euer our owne flesh armed against vs to conquer vs we beseech thee deare Father mortifie subdue and kill in our flesh all subtle suggestions and sinfull motions of Sathan that we yeeld not our selues as slaues thereunto but continually fight against them and bring them into subiection of the Spirit Grant vnto vs deare Father that we may not be drawne through the subtile and sliely torments of Sathan to haue our delight pleasure in the vanities of this world but by thy grace might and power may so in the prosperity of this life bee vpholden that our minds with full ioy and comfort may be lifted vp to our perfect consolation in our Lord and Sauiour Christ and in him take our full and perfect ioy and consolation so that no vaine delight of this world put vs from the same neyther any sharpe aduersaty as pouerty misery or calamity through the malice of the diuell driue vs to dispaire of thy mercifull goodnesse towards vs but alwaies being through thy grace and assistance defended we may be fully perfectly armed against all the subtile intrappings of Sathan and rest wholy in thy mercifull defence and aide For thou hast O Lord and eternall God in thy gouernment all things in heauen and earth all power dominion ouer all creatures Angels and diuels to rule them according to thy good pleasure and will to the profit and commoditie of thy Church and euery faithfull member thereof and to thine incomprehensible glorie that in all things in all ages for euer and euer thy glorious Name may be exalted and thy faithful flocke edified thâ—ough Christ our Lord Amen A Confession of sinnes with Faith and Repentance O Mercifull and heauenly Father we thy Seruants doe humbly pâ—ostrate our selues before thy Maiesty acknowledging here in thy sight our haynous offences committed against thy Maiesty seeing and beholding thy heauie wrath against them wee feele our selues laden O Lord our God with a huge company of horrible sins whereof the very least beeing but conceiued in thought is sufficient in iudgment to throw vs downe to the euerlasting burning lake Our owne consciences O Lord do beare witnesse against vs of our manifold transgressions of thy blessed Law of our security sencelesse blindnesse running headlong to destruction committing sinne after sin although not notorious to the world yet horrible before thine eyes The thoughts of our harts rise vp in iudgement against vs the vanity of our talke before thy Maiesty condeÌ„neth vs the wickednesse of our deeds from thy sight reiecteth vs all our wicked thoughts words and deeds with the inward corruption of our nature doe altogether as it were a whole lumpe loade of sinne lye heauy vpon vs and with their intollerable waight doe euen presse vs downe to Hell Wee doe daily groane vnder the burthen of them inwardly lamenting our owne folly too greedily running into them In heauen earth or hell wee see none able to sustaine the waight of them but euen thy dearely beloed Sonne Iesus Christ who in mercy infinite and compassion endlesse hath sustained and ouercome that endlesse punishment due vnto them in him therfore in him most mercifull Father and through him we come to thee being fully assured according to thy promise that thou wilt accept take that full recompence which hee thy deare Sonne hath made for vs as a iust ransome for the sinne of all those who with a true Faith take hold on him In him therfore we see thine anger towardes vs appeased thy wrath satisfied and our debts paide Increase in vs good Lord wee beseech thee this liuely
illustrious Prince Palatine the Lady Elizabeth with their Princely Issue Blesse the Lords of his Maiesties most honourable Priuie Counsell the Magistrates Ministers of this Land Shower downe thy blessings O Lord vpon both the Vniuersities and all Schooles of Learning Comfort all those that bee afflicted with any kind of crosse that they may profit by thy correction to newnesse of life And lastly gracious Lord God we come vnto thee for our selues heere gathered together rendering vnto thy glorious Maiesty most hearty Thankes which hast hitherto from our infancy presetued vs by thy mercy from all perils and daungers both of soule and body whereunto fraile man is subiect that thou hast sent vnto vs euerie thing necessarie for this present life as health foode apparrell and such like which many of thy deere Children do want being notwithstanding as preciouslie bought with the precious bloud of thy deere Sonne as we be yet be in misery and calamity oppressed with pouertie nakednesse imprisonment and banishment in vvhose case also deare Father thou mightest haue brought vs saue onely that thou dealest herein more fauourably with vs then with them For the which thy louing kindnesse we giue thee hearty thankes desiring thee that as thou hast hitherto thus fauorably in mercie preserued vs by thy protection and euen presently this day hast brought vs past all dangers therof so we beseech thee good Lord in like fauour to behold vs this night that we taking our naturall rest and quietnes may through thy protection bee defended that our Bodies resting our soules may bee occupied in beholding thy fauour and mercie towardes thy Children still looking for the comming of our Lord and Sauiour Iesus Christ for our full Redemption Graunt that our sleepe bee not immoderate according to the lust of our flesh but as much as is sufficient to refresh our weake nature that being thus refreshed both the body and the mind may be more able to doe their seuerall office and Function in that Vocation wherein thou hast placed vs. Grant that we laying our bodies downe to rest mâ—y be thereby put in minde oâ— our long rest of death that as we do now lay down our bodies in bed so we may be therby admonished that heereafter they shall be layde downe in the Graue to bee consumed to dust earth ashes from whence they were taken That we hauing this before our eyes may be stirred vp in minde warily to walke in this our Pilgrimage not knowing when the time shall be of our departure but alwaies to be found readie with ouâ— Lampes of pure faith clearly burning that we may be accepted to meete the Bridegroome when our mortall earthly and corruptible Bodies shall be made like to the glorious body of our Lord and Sauiour Iesus Christ there to reigne with him in perpetuall ioy and consolation together with all the Elect children of God continually lauding with thy Heauenly multitude the glorious Maiesty of thee our Lord God and heauenly Father in our God and Sauiour Iesus Christ For these and whatsoeuer else thou knowst to be needfull for vs and thy whole Church we pray vnto thee as he himselfe hath taught vs saying Our Father c. The Lord blesse vs saue vs the Lord make his face to shine vpon vs and be mercifull vnto vs The Lord turne his fauourable countenance vnto vs and graunt vs his peace The grace of our Lord Iesu Christ the loue of God the Father and the most comfortable Fellowship of God the holy Ghost be with vs preserue and keepe vs this night forth and for euermore Amen A forme of Prayer dayly to bee vsed of all faithfull Christians in their houses or elswhere ALmighty God and mercifull Father in and thorough Iesus Christ our Lord in whom and by whom we trust that thou art our God and Father we most humbly heere prostrate our selues before the Throne of thy Maiestie beseeching thee first good Father and God to pardon all our sinnes which wee confesse and acknowledge against our selues bâ—seeching thy gracious Spirit to worke in vs the knowledge of them daily more and more that thereby we may coâ—e vntâ— true Repentance for them together therewith vnto the knowledge of the heighth bredth depth and fulnesse in all sorts of thy grace and mercie whereby through Iesus Christ thou hast forgotten them and remoued them as farre from vs as the East is from the West And althogh we know by them too well good Lord that wee haue as much as in vs lay lyeth laboured to prouoke thine anger against vs heaping sinne vpon sinne and multiplying offences and transgressions against thy high grace and Maiesty breaking thy holy word Commandements yet thou O Lord hast not beene as Man nor thy affections as the affections of the Sonnes of men but hast continued gracious and mercifull and bountiful vnto vs in pardoning our sinnes and daily renewing in vs with the morning thy graces diuers and manifold Therefore we beseech thee most mercifull Father so to giue vs thy holy Spirit that wee prouoke thee no more that thou rise not against vs to destroy vs as we haue deserued for we haue bene are dry as stubble and yet thou hast not dispersed and consumed vs we haue beene vnfruitfull and thou hast not cut vs downe yea Lord we haue brought forth wild and sower Fruite corrupt and detestable and yet thou lettest thy raine to fall and Sun to shine vpon vs. Make vs therefore wee beseech thee sorry as becometh thy Children for that wee haue disobeyed thee so mercifull and louing a Father and frame vs daily and fashion vs to the likenesse of thy wel beloued Sonne Iesus Christ our Lord that in knowledge and true holinesse wee may glorifie thee before the world and by the fruits of godlinesse and righteousnesse be assured and made certaine of thy holy Spirit and of the loue wherewith thou louest vs. Make vs thankfull deere Father for the infinite vnspeakeable benefites of our election to life and euerlasting glory before all time and for our creation redemption and sanctification in time to bring thy glorious counsell to passe Worke in vs certaine faith and assured hope in thy promises the true feare of thy Maiesty perfect hate and detestation of all disordered and sinfull affections Worke in vs eternal loue of thy trueth and Gospell sincere affection and loue towards thy Children and amongst our selues patience knowledge vertue loue compassion with all graces of thy kingdome that in all on behauiour thou O God mayest be glorified in vs. Also wee beseech thee most mercifull Father for the benefites of this life That as thou art not onely the God of our spirites and soules but also of our bodies so it would please thee notwithstanding our sinnes to grant vs thy blessings of health peace and maintenance of which by thy gracious prouidence some of vs doe feele the want and some of vs haue for long time enioyed
we shall at length attaine the hauen Haue mercy vpon me thy poore seruant and vouchsafe mee this grace of hope to establish my wauering spirit that neither things present may discourage me from the hope of a good issue nor things to come may confound mee in the pursuit thereof as being so farre aboue my capacitie so exceeding my desart For I confesse O Lord vnfeignedly before thee by reason of this body of sinne which I carrie about mee I am a stranger from thee as all my Fathers were and in regard of my inward blindnesse cannot see afarre off to the price of the high calling that is set before mee and therefore am subiect to many distractions slauish feares both to diuert or stay mee in my iourney and to disappoint me of the marke which I should hasten too so that I manytimes misse of my way and manytimes am ready to giue ouer in the midst of my race O grant me the refore holy Father to liue by hope in what thou hast promised that I neither may be confounded in any present distresse nor yet may rest in any present comfort whatsoeuer that I may not bee deceiued with the counterfeite thereof nor yet may settle my selfe in any true measure of the same O grant me a liuely hope that I may not feare in death and giue me to apprehend that blessed hope of the appearance of Iesus Christ that I may attaine to the resurrection of the dead And that I may improue my vnfeigned hope in thee alone O strengthen my weake Faith to see more clearly within the vaile that so I may be strong in hope to enioy what yet I see not make me more acquainted with the secrets of thy speciall prouidence that by mine owne experience of thy wonderfull dealing in bringing contraries out of contraries euen light out of darknesse I may hope for the accomplishment of thy promises though neuer so impossible to humaine capacitie Aboue all make more expert the riches of the glorie of that great mystrie euen Christ in mee the hope of glory that so I may not bee weary nor faint in my mind let the ayme of my hope be to see thee who art inuisible and in thee those vnspeakable mercies which as yet I doe not see And grant me blessed Lord an vndaunted and inuincible hope euen to hope aboue hope that no oppositions may confound me Let my hope be patient that I may waite for that I yet enioy not and purifie my hope daily in the expectation of what I shall be that so I may be purged and fitted to the enioying therof season my hope with ioy that I may not quaile in any present troubles and quicken my weake fainting hope with the strong cries and groanes of thy blessed Spirit that I may fasten on the inestimable glory which is laid vpp for mee let the hope of the life to come stablish mee in thy blessed feare and so make mee liuely and diligent in all present occasions enableing me to hold fast the profession of my hope without wauering and to sanctifie my God in giuing a reason of my hope with meeknesse and feare to those which may demaund it And that I may not be disappointed of my hope comfort me O Lord with the sweet and glorious fruits thereof that seeing it is the hope of saluation and eternall life which is surely laid vp for me in the highest heauens grant mee in all occasions to lay hold vpon eternall life that I may not bee ashamed of my hope O let me haue hope euen in death because I haue hope in the resurrection from the dead And let the hope of what I enioy not humble mee daily in the sense of my imperfections which are the cause thereof that so I may daily feare and depart from euill And seeing I am a prisoner of hope O grant mee daily to groane vnder this body of sinne which I carry about me that so I may long for my glorious deliuerance from this body of death and in the hope of this deliuerance cause mee in all my troubles to commit my selfe in well doing into the hands of thee my faithfull Creator that so I may bee keept by thy mighty power through Faith Grant mee these things O God of my hope euen for thy deare Sonne Iesus Christ his sake the hope of mine endlesse glory to whome with thee O righteous Father with God the blessed Spirit the Comforter be ascribed all glory power dominion and thankesgiuing for euer and euer Amen A Prayer for the obtaining and encrease of Loue. HOly Father who out of the boundlesse riches of thy free Grace didst so loue me that thou gauest thine onely Sonne to death for me that being redeemed from the bondage of sinne and snares of destruction I might bee translated from death to life and therefore didst loue me first that I might serue thee in loue and offer vp my self a Free-will Offering gracious and acceptable before thee in all holy obedience and hast hereby assured me that I am beloued of thee if all my workes bee done in loue louing thee for thy selfe and all other things for thy sake Looke graciously vpon me thine vnworthy seruant and shedde thy loue into my heart by thy blessed Spirit that I may loue thee aboue all things and all things in for thee And that I may so loue thee that I may be more vnited vnto thee and fully at the length enioy thee O grant me first to know thee in Iesus Christ the Sonne of thy Loue that so I may know what loue in him thou hast shewed me that when I was dead in sinne thou diddest raise me vppe in him from dead workes that I might serue thee the liuing God in the newnesse of Spirit that so discerning in this liuely Mirrour of thy Loue vnto me mine owne vnworthinesse of thy loue and inability to loue thee againe I may wholly deny my selfe that I may be found of thee in Christ and by his power be enabled to loue thee againe Grant me therefore gracious God to trust perfectly in Iesus Christ that I may feele my selfe to be beloued of thee in him and inflame my hart with the loue of Christ that so in him I may loue thee againe And seeing nothing in me was able to hinder this thy loue in him to me Oh grant me that nothing within me or without me may hinder or separate my Loue from thee And seeing of thine owne free grace thou diddst loue me in him oh grant me for his sake onely to loue thee seeing hee thought nothing no not his precious blood too deere to expres his loue vnto me oh let mee thinke all things base in comparison of my loue vnto him Seing he loued me in deeds not only in words both doing for me what I could not do and suffring for me what I could neuer haue endured oh grant me to loue thee againe not in words but in deeds both dooing
what thou commandest with all sincerity and diligence and suffering what thou imposest with all ioy chearfulnes patience so to loue thee for thy mercies as to feare to offend thee in regard of my corruption so to feare in respect of mine owne aptnes to offend thee as to loue thee for thy free grace in Christ accepting mee in him aboue mine owne vnworthinesse not imputing my sinnes vnto mee and for his sake accepting my willing minde to doe what I cannot and enabling mee daily in him to doe aboue what I am able in my selfe yea doing in him all my workes aboue the worth thereof yea doing wonderfully by him in mee aboue what I presently can discerne yea aboue whatsoeuer I am able to aske or thinke that thou in him maist haue the glorie of all thy goodnesse O let thine vnspeakeable loue vnto mee enlarge my heart from thee to the loue of the Brethren that so I may know heereby that I am translated from life to death Grant me so to loue thine owne Image wheresoeuer I finde it stamped on Man that I may loue him best that is most like vnto thee and yet loath that in him which is vnlike vnto thee Giue mee to loue him with a pure heart as thou louest mee and to affect him feruentlie as thou affectest mee Grant mee to doe the best good to him as thou gauest the best for me and yet not to neglect to do the least as thou failest not mee in the least occasions Giue me to loue him constantly as thy loue to mee continues and not to be weary of well-doing that I may obtaine the reward And as thou louedst mee when I was thine enemie so grant me to loue my enemies pray for them that persecute me because they cary thine Image are thine Instruments to do me good that so I may ouercome euill with good heape coales of loue vpon their heads And seeing I am yet a stranger and soiourner in this world O grant mee not to loue the world nor the thinges therein but so to vse them as if I vsed them not and yet thereby be stirred vp to loue thy most wise prouidence who hast made all these thinges for me that I therein serue honor thee and that I may so do O knit my heart fast vnto thee by this hand of loue that I may loue thee more the more thou openest thine hand to fill mee with them and yet loue thee more constantly the more thou sustainest mee without them still returning thee the prayse both of giuing them to me and taking them from me that nothing may bâ—e able to seperate me from thy loue that I may daily more and more hate my corruption and all occasions thereof so to hate my sinne that still I may more loue thy mercie in pardoning thereof more admire thy wisedome in turning it to my good more loue and long for the appearance of Iesus Christ for the full abolishing of the same That so liuing in thy loue I may die in thy fauour and dying in loue I may liue for euer with thee to loue and glorifie thee my blessed God in Iesus Christ with the blessed Spirite one glorious God in three persons blessed for euermore to whom bee prayse and Dominion with all hearty loue and obedience of all that loue the comming of Iesus Christ Amen A Prayer to obtaine and preserue the Feare of God that wee may be kept constant thereby in holinesse to the end GLorious and euerlasting God whose Loue is as thy selfe free vnchangeable and because thou art not changed therefore the Sonnes of Iacob are not consumed and that they may not miscarâ—y thou hast promised to put thy Feare in their hearts that they shall not depart from thee And hauing accepted the blood of thy Sonne as a sufficient satisfaction for their sinnes dost daylie accept also the crie of that blood to preserue them in thy feare to present them blamelesse at the glorious appearance of thy righteous Sonne Iesus Haue mercy vpon mee thy poore seruant and put thy Feare in my heart that I may cleaue fast vnto thee and neuer depart from thine holy Couenant for I confesse vnfeignedly O Lord my God that as mine owne vnbeleeuing heart doth daily misgiue mee and is ready to betray mee to such occasions as may with-draw me from my stedfastnesse So there is no occasion without which without thy speciall Grace is not likely daily so to enueigle and estrange my heart from thee as that it may stagger and vtterly deny thee For if I looke on the right hand to faire shewes of the vvorld what are they else but so many baites to ensnare my wauering spirite and steale it from thee If I looke on the left hand to the sorrowes and stormes thereof are they not either as so many billowes to ouerthrow my weake Barke in the first setting out or else to sinke or swallow vp in the midway Aboue all O Lord my owne deceitfull heart is so subiect to presumption and secuâ—itie that I am in danger either to bee split vpon the Rockes euen at the shore or else to bee swallowed of quick-sandes in the very hauen Against all which seeing thy name O Lord is a strong tower and as thy name so is thy Feare O grant me in all things to feare thy great and glorious name to stand in awe of thy Maiesty that I may daily feare my owne selfe and so distrusting mine owne inability I may both feare to offend thee and in all thinges may study to please thee and that I may so feare thee as still to rely vpon thee and draw neere with confidence to thee O grant mee to feare thee for thy mercies that I may loue thee in the entertainement of them so to bee afraid of thy iudgements as to take warning by thy threatnings that I may auoid them as to answere thee by repentance that I may not bee swallowed vp of them Giue mee so to feare thee as not to bee daunted with thinges present least my life bee vnprofitable and vncomfortable neither to be distracted with things to come least I bee vnprepared to mine end And that I may bee continually prepared for thee O grant mee daily to make euen reckoning with thee by repentance that I bee not taken tardie and to renew my life daily in Christ so liuing by Faith in him that I may worke out my saluation in feare and trembling both renouncing the worth of whatsoeuer good I haue or can do as to bee iustified thereby yea though I know euill by my selfe yet not standing vpon my cleering because thou knowest all things and also not resting in any present measure as if I had attained or were already perfect but forgetting what is behind hastning that which is before I may presse towardes the marke for the price of the high calling of God in Iesus Christ That so being daily dead to sin yea to my selfe and hauing
heart and minde bee fully assured thou by thy heauenly prouidence rulest and guidest all things in heauen and earth so that nothing in the vvhole world commeth to passe but according to thine appointment that thou guidest and framest the affâ—ires doings of men that thou hast euen their hearts and all their powers in thy mercifull hand to turn them which way soeuer it seemeth best vnto thy godly wisedome so that whether we be in prosperity or aduersity we may acknoledge both of them to be thy worke in vs and therefore be no lesse thankfull for sicknesse then for health for sorrow then for comfort for a troubled minde then for a quiet for imprisonment and banishment then for liberty especially seeing wee know that thou turnest them all seeme they neuer so sharp to the comfort and commodity of thy children which feare thee and that in all thinges which shall befall vnto vs whether they be grieuous or ioyous prosperity or aduersity life or death thy holy name may be sanctified in vs by yeilding due and continuall praise and thankesgiuing to thy eternall Maiâ—sty that we neuer cease to put our ful trust and confidence in thy mercie who hast promised to be our defender buckler and shield to keepe vs as the apple of thine eye to deliuer vs when we cal vpon thee to open when wee knocke to giue when we aske that we knowing our owne weaknes that of our selues wee haue no power or strength to do no not so much as to will that which is good we may acknowledge al our strength comfort ioy faith loue hope and confidence to be thine onely guift and worke in vs. And for the same and the increase of the same and for all thy benefites in vs whereof we feele our selues destitute we may constantly flee vnto thee by heartie prayer requiring the same at thy mercifull hand And hauing felt thy mercifull dealing towards vs we may alway to the end of our life continue thankfull vnto thy blessed name that wee neuer speake or thinke of thee O LORD GOD without high reuerence and an obedient fear vnto thy glorious Name The third Petition Thy will bee done in earth as it is in heauen ANd forasmuch O Lord God as of our selues wee bee nothing but stubbornesse and rebellion against thy holy Maiesty we beseech thee deere Father that as thine Angels in heauen doe willingly obey thy holy and most blessed will without any resistance so wee thy most vild and vnworthy Seruants and Children in earth all stubobrnesse rebellion peruesnes by thy holy Spirit in vs being vtterly extinguished and quenched we may willingly submit our selues resigne and yeeld our whole affections to thee O Lord to bee gouerned after thy blessed and heauenly will That wee may feele in our selues no other motion or desire then a meete consent to thy holy will that whatsoeuer affections in vs fight against thy holy will thou wilt vtterly make them voide That wee neuer will any thing of our selues but that thy holy Spirite in vs may gouerne our hearts by whom inwardly being taught wee may learne to loue embrace and take comfort in those things that please thee and to hate those thinges that displease thee That our hearrs minds and wills being wholy subdued to thy blessed will we may willingly bee content with that estate of life which it pleaseth thy goodnesse to excercise vs withall in this world whether it be in aduersity or prosperity in sicknes or health in ignominy or glory in quietnesse or trouble in sorrow or gladnesse Grant vs deare Father this willing and patient minde that euen in our greatest distresse wee may bee content with thy good will and not to murmure or grudge against thy Maiesty knowing that thou wilt lay nothing vppon vs but that which shall turne to our goodnâ—sse and profit And that wee may patiently abide whatsoeuer it shall please thee to lay vppon vs that we be assured in our hearts that thou wilt lay no more vnto vs then thou wilt giue vs strength to beare euen in our greatest afflictions wilt find a way for our deliuerance and that thy power and strength is more fully declared when wee feele our selues vtterly voyd of strength and see no way of deliuerance that we may in our most greeuous assaults conflicts and anguish or mind submit our selues wholy to thy blessed will and looke for our deliuerance at thy hand when thou knowest it most expedient for vs and most for thy glory leauing the time and meanes of our deliuerance to thy good will and pleasure and that in the meane time we neuer cease but call vpon thee by hearty prayers continually as thou hast commaunded vntill such time as thou shalt heare our petitions And although after many and sundry callings vpon thee thou seeme not to regard vs but rather deale more extreamly with vs yet notwithstanding strengthen vs so with perseuerance in prayer that wee faint not but still continue in prayer being assured that although we feele our selues nothing released yet we may quiet our selues herein that we as thy Children haue laide our complaints griefes and sorrows in the bosome of thee our heauenly Father who will as a louing Father when he seeth it most conuenient helpe vs. And although thou seeme nothing to grant our requests yet wee honor thee in calling vppon tâ—y name seeing thou dost accept it as a most cheefe honor to bee called vppon in the day of truble The fourth petition Giue vs this day our dayly Bread ANd forasmuch deare Father as thou dost by thy mighty power nourish feede sustaine preserue and maintaine all liuing Creatures yea euen the very young flocks and Beasts we beseech thee to send vnto vs thy Children ouer whom thou hast a more speciall care all things necessary for this our present life that we hauing sufficient may walke euery one in our calling in sincerity and pure holynes before thy face acknowledging all our benifits of riches health wealth meate drinke apparell and all our substance to be thy meere gifts bestowed vpon vs and deliuered vnto vs from thine hands that we be not drawne from thee through setting our mindes too much vppon them but so moderately vse them as thy benefits for a time bestowed vppon vs knowing that thou wilt at our hands require an account how we haue vsed them That wee doe not carefully gape or seeke after them but discreetly to thy glory vse them acknowledging in them thy goodnesse and liberality towards vs. And seeing most mercifull Father that it is not our trauell labour paines study or endeauour which is able to get vs our liuing but onely in so much as it pleaseth thy goodnesse to blesse and prosper them we beseech thee that yet through our great Trauaily and paines wee be yet still poore and in meane estate that thou wilt giue vs a contented heart knowing that thereby thou lettest vs vnderstand that it is thy good will and pleasure
therefore in thine infinit wisdome thou hast now restrained vs from bodyly labours that wee might bee there by freed from all encombrances of care and worldly mindednesse and so might wholy apply our selues both to the publicke and priuate meanes and practice of thy worship therein euen all the day and that wee may so doe O grant vs wee humbly pray thee to call thy Sabbath a delight to consecrate it glorious vnto thee eschewing our owne waies and renouncing our owne will forsaking all vaine and ordinary words giuing no way to any loose or worldly thoughts but we may bind our selues to an entire and constant following thee in all the wayes of thy worship as may any way seeme to the saÌ„ctifying of this day And because I am like to meete with many hinderances herein both within and without mine owne heart within repining hereat as an heauy yoake and pleading for vnseasonable and carnall liberty The world without alluring by cunning pretences and contrary example and scorning my strictnes and scrupulousnesse herein O arme mee strongly gratious God against all these enchantments and foolish scarcrowes That I may not leane to mine owne wisdome but to thy sacred word studying the more carefully to please thee in all things that I may stop the mouthes of gainsayers or gloâ—ie herein the more that they are still opened against weldoing shall prouoake thee iustly to stoppe their mouthes in due time with confusion O perswade my heart as thou hast taught mee that thy yoake is easie thine ordinances not greeuous and grant mee to try mine ease by the diseasing of my flesh and to prepare for coÌ„fort therin by greefe for my fayllings which may still prouoake mee to continue therein and the subduing of my flesh may better fit mee to the cheerfull vndergoing thereof and the more I feele mine owne wants and greeue therein the more I may hunger after and value thy sweete ordinance whereby my wants may bee supplyed and sorrowes râ—freshed that so in the deniall of my selfe I may bee still found of thee in Christ and by his power may bee still enabled to goe through the spirituall occasions of the day and norished with hope of the acceptance of my weake endeauours therein So grant mee louing Father when I speake vnto thee to speake euen from thee From the sence of thy Maiesty to abase mee humbly before thee from the light of thy Truth to discerne my speciall wants by the light of faith to apprehend thy speciall fauour in Christ to cast me out of my selfe and cast mee boldly vppon thee and by remembrance of thy former mercies and faithfull promises to assure mee good successe in presence with thee and so from the sence of thy loue to offer a sacrifice of praise vnto thee that I may still receiue from thee by emptying my soule in compassion to others may bee more replenished by thee O grant mee Blessed Lord that when thou speakest to mee I may heare thee onely and alone by thee Let thy key open my heart that it may receiue thee inwardly Let it shut my heart againe that by meditation I may retaine thee constantly Let it open my heart againe by applying thine ordinance to my present and speciall wants and so breake the stony rocke againe that the teares of hearty Repentance may gush out plentifully O then let it shut my heart fast by confidence in thee that I sincke not in dispaire And then let it open and enlarge my heart againe with ioy vnspeakeable and glorious in the sence of thy rich mercies And now let it shut vp my heart againe against selfe loue spirituall pride that so it may be opened by speciall grace to all gratious and constant duties to thee my selfe and my neighbour And when we are to meet thee together in that holie communion O prepare the roome for thy selfe that thou mayest delight to feast with me and giue me an heauenly appetite that I may desire to feed on thee Humble my soule before thee that thou mayest stoope vnto me and ease my soule of its heauie burthen that it may ascend vnto thee and so knit my heart hereby vnto thee in an euerlasting fellowship When I obserue thy church enlarged by the admission of new members the breach of mine owne Vow to consider my decay and backe-slydings from thee and in the sense thereof to pray more earnestly for thy Blessings vpon thine owne Ordinance reioycing for the encrease of thy Church heereby and yet preparing vnto the bloodie Baptisme and so hungering afâ—er the full consummation of thy Chosen When I ioyne with the Congregation either in giuing thee praise or in prayer â—o receiue from thee O grant me to ioyne of conscience not custome to the satisfying of the flesh to humble each other that we may haue mutuall comfort to labour with one mind end that our paines may not be tedious or fruitlesse Giue mee so to praise thee that I bee more humbled in my selfe so to giue thee thankes that I part not stakes with thee so to sing vnto thee that I may sorrow for my sinnes so to reioyce before thee as that I may still hunger after thee and long for thy euerlasting presence So enlarge mee from thy bounty to all occasions for thy sake to fill the emptie to emptie the gorged stomacke to raise the humbled recall the wandring confirme the weakâ— informe the ignorant conuince the obstinate comfort the abiect and reconcile the auerse in all these giue mee good Lord a cheerfull heart rather choosing to preuent then bee preuented herein rather striuing with the last then giuing ouer with the first And so what I haue found a broad O grant me to communicate at home with my God in prayer to blesse it vnto mee with my selfe in priuate application to be bettered therby with my family in conference and instruction to increase the kingdome of Christ still raising my soule higher from the world by meditation of the wisedome and goodnes of my God in his wonderfull workes so still more abasing my flesh in the view and sence of mine owne vnprofitablenesse in the best I haue done yet comforting my soule in the promise of my God that hee will require no more then hee giues and shew his power in my weaknesse that though I find no more in my rekconing but a dearer and more deepe sence of my corruption as this day to discerne detest the same so this deepe sense of corruption may enable me to prepare more conscionably against the more publike occasions and prouoke mee more earnestly to hunger after the euerlasting Sabbath And euen so grant mee Gracious God thus to end the day with thee as I haue endeauoured to begin and continue the same in thee O pardon I humbly pray thee whaesoeuer hath bene mine and accept graciously and crowne thine owne worke in mee who am thy seruant and the Son of thy handmaide And so do heartily commend
might dayly grow vp in Christ to perfect holines therfore though corruption remaine in mee yet seeing it doth not raigne in mee here is my comfort that I am not vnder the Law but vnder Grace though I am sometimes as no better then lost in my selfe yet this is that I may still deny mine owne righteousnesse that I may be found of thee in Christ for the concerning of present corruption for the auesting of my person in him to bee enabled thereby to perfect holinesse Onely gracious God grant mee heere I pray thee still to iustifie thy wisedome in condemning mine owne folly and to aduance thy free and constant grace in the acknowledging of mine owne corruptions True it is holie Father that as thou madest man righteous at the first but he sought many inuentions to his owne ouerthrow so didst thou so restore me againe by thy power of Christ vnto a more durable state of holinesse that neither shall I euer fall away from thee finally neither though thou hast left corruption in mee yet seeing thy end heerein was to make mee still deny my selfe that I might stand fast in Christ in whom thou hast ingrafted mee therfore neither might I haue falne at al into such feareful distraction if I had kept me close vnto my hold neither though I haue fallen by letting goe my hold yet shall not my falling make thy truth without effect nay rather shall proue a meanes to make good the same And therefore I doe heere vnfainedly acknowledge before thee blessed Lord mine owne folly in letting goe my hold thou hast not beene wanting with all meanes to preserue me vpright but I haue beene wanting to the meanes and so I haue beene wanting vnto thee and to my selfe thou hast willed mee to liue by faith euen when I haue feeling of thy loue and my inward pride hath peruerted thy gracious feeling to make mee liue by sence and behold the Sunne when it shineth and so by peruerting the comfort of thy Spirit as an occasion to the flesh I haue iustly greiued thy Spirit and so thou with drewest thy face from mee and I haue beene troubled Troubled in my soule for the losse of thy fauour troubled of the world by seeking false remedies there from troubled in my Spiâ—it by the confusion of those remedies as breeding some times hardnesse of heart and so bringing forth troubles by exposing to outward euils and hindering in the vse of spirituall remedies sometimes herevpon breeding further trouble and inward horror and anguish of spirit many times laying the axe to the very roote challenging the maine And yet in all this farre lesse then I haue deserued that so I might haue hope in thy free grace for my recouerie And in all this aduancing thy righteousnesse in abasing my folly that so I might still renounce mine owne righteousnesse and labour to bee found in Christ for my recouery and perfection Onely keepe me here holy Father from presumptuous sinne that it may not haue dominion ouer me to turne thy grace into wantonnesse and then lead mee into thy priuy Chamber stay me with thy flaggons that I may not onely not sleepe in death but also awake and sing out of the dust and out of the deepe to admire thine infinite wisdome and to see thee who art inuisible that I may bee raised vp againe O giue me therefore most mighty Lord to condemme mine owne folly for being wise in mine owne eies in turning thy fauour as an occasion to the flesh grant mee to thanke my selfe that of the flesh I haue reaped such confusion and giue thee thankes the more thou hast sustained mee in the graue Grant me out of experience of mine owne foolishnesse to giue thee the glory of thy free goodnesse and out of the experience of thy power in my weaknesse to comfort my selfe that thou wilt returne againe And that thou maist vndoubtedly returne with speed O strengthen my weake faith I humbly pray thee with thy precious promises that thy foundation stands sure whatsoeuer my building may be thou knowest who are thine O let it comfort my fainting spirit that all things shall worke together for the best to those whome thou hast chosen that so I may wisely compare one thing with another things past with things present by those things to come that so I may liue by faith in the iudging of my present estate by looking behind and before and not be cast off my hold either by present temptations or future feares O establish me with thy precious promise that thou wilt keepe me to the end that so I may liue by faith in casting my selfe vppon thy mighty power and committing my selfe in weldoing into thine holy hands Teach mee to deny mine owne wisedome that I may trust perfectly in thy mercy and grant me in things to rely vppon the wisedome of thy word which is able to make mee wise and perfect to saluation Let thy word keepe me in all my waies that I may not decline to the right hand or to the left and let my supplications be alwaies manifest at the throne of grace that so I may be carefull for nothing O let me not in any case greiue thine holy Spirit any more but grant mee to entertaine and cherrish the motions therof by turning them into feruent prayers and conscioaÌ„ble practices seasonable to the occasion weane mee from the loue of the world that I may haue fellowship in thy loue and purge my heart from secret wickednesse that it bee not stolne away from thee keepe mee alwaies close vnto thee that I may not fall into open wickednesse and giue mee grace alwaies to remember my end that I may be still prepared against the comming of my Maister Sauiour Iesus Christ And so still accept me gracious Father as I am in him and not in my selfe as I would be in thee and not what I am in corruption as I shall be with thee not what I am in this present world enabling me still to desire aboue what I can do and to beleeue aboue what I can thinke or desire and so lead mee forward by thy power through the vally of teares that though I somtimes slippe yet I may vp againe though I stray a while yet I may thereby mend my pace follow close after the marke not looking on my selfe mine owne worth or inability but still looking vnto Iesus the Authour and finisher of my faith that so I may in him bee more then Conqueorr and so fighting still the good fight of faith I may finish my course with ioy and lay hold of eternall life in due season And so fil me O God of grace with all ioy in beleeuing that so I may liue by faith that I may bee readier to die in faith and to giue vp my soule by faith into thy holy hands apprehending by faith the Resurrection from the dead that so I may bee translated from death to life
forth into thy light so in thy time adde him also to thy Church and beget him againe vnto a liuely hope by the immortall seed of thine holy word deliuering him from the power of darkenes in which by nature we are all into the glorious liberty of the Sonnes of God And if it shall seeme good vnto thee to lay any further triall either of sickenesse or death vpon this thy seruant or the fruite of her wombe prepare vs all to a quiet and patient bearing of thine holy hand and to a comfortable and contented resting vpon thy prouidence assuring our selues that all things shall turne to the good and benefite of thy chosen And so into thine holy hands wee commend our selues with thy seruant and her issue together with hers and our Families and that great Familie of thy chosen wheresoeuer distressed and dispersed to be kept by thy mighty power through Faith vnto saluation Grant vs these things O God of our saluation for the merite of thy beloued Sonne our Lord and Sauiour Amen A Prayer for such as in this world be very rich and wealthy ETernall GOD and most mercifull Father from whom all good things doe come and proceede who in thy wisedome distributest thy benefits and bestowest thy blessings manifoldwife as seemeth good to thy heauenly will to some more to some lesse as thou who knowest all things seest it to be best for euery one I giue thee hearty thanks in that it hath pleased thee to bestow vpon me a most vnworthy sinner such large blessings of earthly treasures and riches in this life most humbly beseeching thee for thy great mercies sake to giue mee grace to vse them to thy glory and to the helpe and comfort of those that haue neede knowing that thou hast giuen mee this aboundance to the end that I should be ayding and helpfull to others vpon whom it hath pleased thee to lay the crosse of pouerty and that I am but as a Steward from thee which must render account how I haue bestowed them I beseech thee also good Lord that while I liue and possesse plenty of all things from thee I may bee carefull to doe good vnto all men but especially vnto them that be of the houshold of Faith according as thy holy word hath commanded me laying vp therby a good store of my selfe against the day of wrath and to make me friends of vnrighteous Mammon that when I depart hence they may receiue mee into euerlasting habitations And as these thy good gifts O heauenly Father so I beseech thee that I abuse them not either by getting retaining or otherwise by mispending of them Let not my heart at any time be affected towards them nor my minde drowned in the delight of them but that alwaies I may esteeme both them and all things else as vile dung and filthy durt in respect of thee And in the midst of mine aboundance keepe mee O Lord that I aduance not my selfe vaingloriously aboue my Brethren that I be not puffed vp nor high minded that I consume not thy treasure vpon pride whoredome gluttonie drunkennesse or any other wickednesse else whatsoeuer thereby purchasing thy heauy iudgement against me for the same But grant good Lord that as thou hast made me rich wealthy in worldly substance so thou wilt make me much richer in all goodnesse righteousnesse holinesse and innocencie of life thorough Iesus Christ our only Mediatour and Aduocate to whom with thee and the holy Ghost be praise for euer Amen A Prayer for such as bee poore and needy O Eternall and euerliuing God who appointed diuers sundry states and conditions of men some rich some poore some high some low and hast notwithstanding commanded euery one to be content with his estate and calling without repining or grudging against thee for the same I poore wretch and miserable caitiue whom it hath pleased thee to place in the lowest and meanest degree most entirely beseech thy Fatherly goodnesse to giue me grace to be well contented with the sâ—me to submit my will to thy will to depend wholly vppon thy prouidence to cast all my care vppon thee who hast promised to care for mee to repose all my affiance trust and confidence in theâ— and none else and to looke for all good things from thy mercifull hands And though I be poore and needy O Lord yet I beseech thee let mee not dispaire of thy helpe nor yet attempt any vnlawfull or vniust meanes to maintaine my estate withall contrary to thy will But grant that I hauing all things necessary in this life for body and soule may neither bee swallowed vp nor choaked with the cares of the world nor yet remaine barren and destitute of good workes through Iesus Christ our Lord who liueth and raigneth with thee and the holy Ghost world without end Amen A Prayer to obtaine grace of God against the assaults of the world the Flesh and the Diuell O Lord God of eternall glory and Father of endlesse mercy wee thy vnworthy Creatures are bold in the name of thy beloued Sonne to represent our selues before thee humbly beseeching thee for his sake that thou wilt vouchsafe to send downe thy holy Spirit into our hearts to guide and gouerne vs in all our godly waies and to defend vs from all manner of temptations of this world and the assaults thereof Lord God of thine vnspeakable goodnesse grant that thy grace may continue with vs alwaies and that at no time we swerue nor fall from thee Let thy truth euermore bee with vs and make vs constant in the same that wee neuer bee afraid of any thing which lieth in the power of man ouer our bodies but alwaies confessing that whomsoeuer thou pleasest to defend no Tyrant shall bee able to destroy Strengthen and increase Faith Loue and Charity in the hearts of all people Make vs able to resist the vaine pleasures of the world let not the perillous allurements haue any power to conquer ouercome vs nor the subtilties thâ—reof bee able to deceiue vs. Defend vs also O Lord from the many perils and temptations which the diuell our aduersarie practiseth against vs least wee fall into his snaâ—es Let neither his endeuours nor the wanton inticements of our owne flesh preuaile against vs. Wee know O Lord that without thy sufferance hee of himselfe can take no hold on vs nor bee able to diminish the least haire of our head Giue therefore vnto vs such grace from thee that we may be willing to striue against the world the flesh and the diuell and such strength as we may be able to breake and beate downe the forcâ— and vehemencie of their strong temptations Grant vs thy heauenly light whereby wee may perfectly see and perceiue those malicious and cruell engines which they lay to entrap vs least vnawares we fall into the fame Euen now O Lord in these perillous daies the diuell and his ministers doe most busily seeke to sift vs by
Thus am I bceome O Lord as one forlorne and out of minde free among the dead no better in mine owne account then a meere abiect and cast a-way whose hope is not onely perished from the earth but without hope or helpe from thee my God And all this is iustly come vpon me by reason of mine owne foolishnes who haue neglected my watch and so haue fallen from thee and haue bene carelesse of the means to restore me speedily againe whereby my wounds haue festered and seeme to be incureable and so my anguish is greater then I can expresse my sinnes are become a burthen that I am not able to beare my heart within wasteth with continuall sorrow and I daily receiue a sentence of death And yet though all this bee come vpon me yet thy foundation standeth sure thou knowest who are thine though thou hast chasticed mee sore for my folly yet thou hast not giuen mee ouer vnto death and therefore yet there is hope though I haue receiued a sentence of death yet it is that I might dye to mine owne confidence and trust in thee the liuing God who raiseth vp from the dead the more I feele my sinnes a burthen which I am not able to beare the more dost thou inuite me to come vnto thee that I may be raised and therefore I must finde my selfe daily lost in my selfe that I may bee found of thee in Christ not hauing mine owne righteousnes Though thy law doth thunder nothing but vengeance against me yet thou commandest mee still to beleeue in thy name and therefore though thou kill mee yet I will trust in thee For thou O my God wilt be found in the issues of death thou louedst me euen when I was thine enemie and therefore canst not reiect mee now I seâ—ke thee in truth Thou hast embraced mee with euerlasting compassions and therefore canst not neither wilt forsake me in my great extremitie and thou hast many times heretofore deliuered me from the Lyon and the Beare from many desperate snares thou hast many times rescued mee and wilt thou not deliuer me from euery euill worke and preserue mee constantly vnto thy glorious appearance yea certainely blessed Lord I beleeue helpe my vnbeleefe I beleeue that thou art able to do wonderfully aboue what I can thinke or desire and therefore that thou wilt not deny mee what I aske in thy name I beleeue that thou canst bring light out of darknesse and therefore thou wilt turne my darknes into light I beleeue that all things shall worke together to the best to those which are called according to thy purpose and therefore that thou wilt turne this my greatest abasement to my greatest comfort Onely I humbly pray thee giue mee patience to waite vpon thee vntill thou come and comfort me submit mee to thy wise physick whereby thou maiest heale mee that so being healed I may bee fit for comfort O heale me therefore I humbly pray thee by the blood of thy sonne wash me throughly from all my sinnes and clense mee from all mine iniquities Create in mee O Lord a cleane heart that I may appeare all faire before thee and renew a right spirit within mee that I may worship thee in spirit and truth Restore to me the ioy of thy saluation that I may be perswaded of thy loue vnto me and stablish me with thy free spirit that I may vnfeignedly loue thee againe and neuer depart from thy holy couenant grant me to renew my couenant daily with thee that thou maiest be for euer with me to keepe me in thy feare and keepe mee daily lowly in mine owne eyes that still I may bee accepted of thee in thy beloued Giue mee trust in thee by distrusting mine owne deceitfull heart especially in time of temptation and teach mee to rely on thy mighty power by faith euen when powers and principalities doe most oppose mee O strengthen mee with the strong cries of thy blessed Spirit that I may be feruent in prayer to wrestle with thy Maiesty that so thou maist hasten thy worke to comfort me And though I finde not that comfort I haue had or desire yet let this comfort me that I haue done thy will and let it humble mee still that I am not fit for the comfort I doe desire that so with patience I may waite for the same comforting my selfe that seeing this is the time of my warfare and not of my crowning therefore if I waite for what I am not fit for yet there is enough before mee to satisfie me aboundantly and therefore grant mee still to forget what is behind and to hasten to what is before to waite for the comming of my Lord and Sauiour and so prepare my selfe daily to his glorious appearance And euen so come Lord Iesus come quickly Amen FINIS