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A29132	The last conflicts and death of Mr. Thomas Peacock, batchelour of divinity, and fellow of Brasen-nose Colledge in Oxford published by E.B. from the copy of that famous divine Mr Robert Bolton, late minister of Broughton in Northhampton-shire.	Bolton, Robert, 1572-1631.; Bagshaw, Edward, 1629-1671.	1646 (1646)	Wing B414A; ESTC R34191	21,040	82

And assoon as ever the comforts of grace shine upon it those former tremblings of heart for grief are presently changed into leapings for joy just as the same wrinkles of the face which serve for crying when the heart is grieved serve for laughter when it is filled with joy This was the case of Mr Peacock in this manner he grieved in this manner he rejoyced and this happy issue God made of his bitter afflictions So that amidst the numerous and various afflictions of Gods dear Saints and Children this conclusion of the Prophet David remaines sure and firm Mark the upright man and behold the just for the end of that man is peace So I rest Thine in the Lord E.B. Mr PEACOKS Visitation MAster Peacock the servant of God in the beginning of his visitation for the space of two weeks and foure dayes was full of most Heavenly consolations shewing by sweet meditations and gracious ejaculations the entertainment he found with his God in his sicknes with whom he so much desired to be acquainted in his health We are saith one comming to visit him miserable comforters Nay saith he Ye are good for this is the priviledge even of Gods children that their very presence affords comfort Sometimes he craved pardon for his actions for the circumstances by them badly observed otherwhile he desired to have some matter given him to meditate upon Finally he said his hope was firmly setled on the rock Christ Iesus He hoped that the Lord would give him a place though it were in the lowest room of his Saints And he thanked God he had no trouble of conscience the Lord did not suffer Satan to vex him In so much that some seeing his great comfort feared left he would be overtaken with sorrow before his death he much rejoyced that the Lord had so disposed of him that he had seen his friēds in the Countrey Here first was his yeelding unto death suspected and his hoped recovery doubted Calling some of his friends aside I thought saith he I had been in a good estate but I see it now farre otherwise For these things my conscience layes against me First I brought up my scholars in Gluttony letting thē eat their fill of meat when they mealed with me This some endeavoured to pull out by putting into his minde 1. The preventing of many inconveniencies 2. His well known moderation 3. The great care he took for good conference when they were at table with him But saith he while I was talking they did undoe themselves And further I did unadvisedly expound places of Scripture at the table many times and for these I feel now a Hell in my conscience Again I have procured my own death by often eating like a beast when I came jostling up and down to my friends in the Countrey And now I see before my face those dishes of meat wherewith I clogged my stomack Well saith one to him If all the things you accuse your self of were undone would you doe them again Nay why then doubt not but a Reprobate would desire to be saved if a desire would serve the turne indeed he may have a desire but of bare willingnes not with an intent and purpose in using of the means Another time a worthy friend of his asking him how he did he cryed out Sinne Sinne Sinne What doth any lye on your conscience Yea. What My unconsideratenes I did eat too much of such meat to breakfast such a morning my self being an eye-witnes of his great abstinence could not choose but admire the tendernes of his self-accusing conscience Well said he God be thanked there is no greater As we must not extenuate our sinnes so neither must we too much aggravate our sinne Let drunkards and gluttons have those terrible horrours I thank God I never continued in any known sinne against my conscience He was willing that he should pray with him kneeling down he said he was then uncapable of prayers Afterward he kneeled down of his own accord shortly after he broke out into such speeches A damnable wretched c. these are nor your words saith one you cannot deny but you have had good experience of Gods mercies I cannot Then be comforted for whom he loveth once he loveth to the end Yet Satan took such advantage of his infirmities that though he could finde some comfort yet no particular assurance You have lived profitably said one I have endeavoured You are now humbled and the Lord looks that you should ask mercy M. Dod was sent for who being come they were private awhile afterwards we comming in to them M. Dod put him in minde of Gods kindenes whereof he shewed to him foure parts 1. To take small things in good part 2. To passe by infirmities 3. To be easily intreated 4. To be intreated for the greatest Sir there is now in you the image of the old Adam sin and sorrow there shall be in you the image of the new holines and happinesse The life to come may be set out by three things 1. The estate of itself happines holines and glory 2. By the the company every one shall love you better then any one even the best can love you here 3. The place There are three differences between the afflictions of the good and of the bad 1. In the cause for they come to the good for Gods love 2. In the measure as farre as they need and are able to bear 3. In the end for their good Of those former doubts we afterwards heard not a word from him Upon the Sabbath-day he desired to be alone after noon he was fearfully troubled In his countenance appeared evident tokens of a sorrowfull minde born up with a weak body his spirit was wounded Satan had foiled him Those his terrible wrestlings with tentations gripes of conscience and restles terrours none can understand much lesse expresse but he which felt them Satan had winnowed him and shewed him nothing but chaffe His tender conscience was goared with the fiery darts of the Devil pointed with the edge of sinne and sense of Gods heavy wrath As through a false glasse the dazled eye of his astonished and amazed soul could see nothing but hideously appearing sinne and the terrible image of death and damnation He had drunk deeply of the cup of the dreggs of Hell His adversary had represented unto him his once most gracious God now as a most severe Judge displeased angry and chiding with him yea yeelding him up into his clawes that so by this deadly stratagem he might take from him all hope of help that way and so not onely stop the sensible flowing of Gods grace and cut the chains of Gods love whereby he had tyed him and would draw him after him but finally break his Christian heart Oh that you had seen or that we that were present had had eyes to have seen his seeming forlone soul What with barkings of conscience and with the too heavy burthen of

have the means of his salvation neglected then the Lord dishonoured Suffer us to pray for our selves Look to it you would now shew your faculty in praying Can you say Amen No but in a certain gerall fashion One prayed and in the mean time he rested most quietly I pray you saith he when prayer was ended Goe hence to bed doe not trouble your selves in vain Let not the Devil delude you abusing your minde and tongue I know you speak not these words I wonder that intelligent Scholars should speak thus We are perswaded you are in as good estate as our selves Look how it is with your selves in truth One that watched with him asked him Sir how can you discern this change by the absence of God if you never enjoyed his presence I thought I had it once but now I see it is farre otherwise But God deals with you as he dealt with the Church Isa. 54.7 He forsook it a while and hid his face from it but he returned to it again and so no doubt the case stands with you Never add not affliction to the afflicted Oh me wretch groaning pitifully Hope no worse of your self then we doe of you All of us have seen cleerly which way your carriage was still sent after the spirit and we are assured that you will come to the spirit howsoever you seem to have lost your way To all particulars he would answer I desire grace generally I did good outwardly all hypocritically One asked him Doe you love such an one his most dear and worthy to be dear friend Yes Why For his goodnes Why then you are Gods childe for by this we know we are translated from death to life because we own the brethren Many like forcible proofs he would shift off with his former evasions and afterwards became more wary against himself either loth to grant any thing or granting it staggeringly or what then fearing lest he should be pressed he wished that some were put in minde 1. Of their great care for building and too small care for Scholars in them 2. Their giving so long leave of absence from the Colledge and desired amendment After noon came a worthy Governour of a Colledge in our University and requested him to be of good comfort and to pluck up his spirit I cannot Why can you not Because I have no grace no more then a Backstock Why doe you think so By this affliction Doe you desire grace I cannot He spake most strongly I can as well leap over the Church But are you not sorry that you cannot desire it I cannot Would you not be in Heaven I would not One standing by said The Devil himself would if he could. By the way you shall have the opinion of a much respected Minister apposite hereto which he gave in private A proud man saith he will scorne to seek any good from his enemy so the Devils pride will not let him think himself beholding to God for Heaven if he might get it You have said one the testimony of faith you love the Brethren I did not Doe not you love us No * The Devil now seeth he should be cast into straits if you should grant this what is it that doth most trouble you I undertook too much upon me foolishly I had gotten a little Logick and Greek and meanly instructed in the rules did set my self to read to Scholars and afterwards undertook other busines which distracted my minde and body from them I have destroyed a thousand souls You may see the falsehood of him that suggesteth this unto you you never had a thousand he puts a false glasse before you The good effects of your pains appears in many of your Scholars Oh they were of themselves capable Name one in whom they doe not There is one pointing at a Master of Arts there present He justified his care of him and gave thanks to God that ever he came to him It is not so I did foolishly You confesse you did foolishly therefore not of malice Again cōsider what would have become of many of them if you had not taken them Better farre better All in the Colledge know the contrary But I feel it It is false believe not the Devil It is too true When vvill you make amends God will give you your hearts desire Never Are you sorry that he vvill not No there is no grace in my heart it is dead Such was Davids case What doe you compare me with him Behold Christ himself Nothing to me God can make his death available He cannot He is omnipotent In me he cannnot because it stands with his purpose Whom God loveth once he loveth to the end But he did never love me You have tasted of his love I deceived my self in a certain vain-glory I exposed my head to many things outwardly all You could say the Lords Prayer and therein call him Father Hypocritically I was wont to enquire of Master Mason what was meant by Abba-father rather in curiosity then truly to be edified God will give a good issue Never I have no sense We will pray with you Doe not dishonour God It is well that you will not have God dishonoured here he sticked saying I pray trouble me not with distinctions After came one who with vehement action of body pressed and urged him to trust in God I cannot said he I cannot he will not have me saved his sentence is passed Doe you desire to be saved No. Do you desire to desire No Would you be damned No. Look at the sinnes of other men as great as yours and yet they are saved They were good and godly they found grace here is the difference my sinnes are horrible he repeated that towards his Scholars All of us know you took pains Outwardly you did your best No. I see novv what it is you strictly look back to your own actions as a Justiciary who will none of Gods mercy and now he hath justly met with you your judgement is just These words affected him strangely another willed him to look to it it seemed neer Popery Doe you hope to be justified by your merits I fear to be damned for my sinnes The other asked whether he could say Amen No. Have you no tongue What is that to the purpose Name Jesus I cannot If I had your tongue in my hand I would make you speak Turning his speech to a friend present Oh saith he if you did but feel my greif but an houre you would have compassion The other replyed If you were in the fire you would wish to get out I had rather be in the fire then here I will pray for you Sinne not Let the fault be mine Although my purpose was barely to relate the passages of this gracious mans visitation and to referre to your spirituall eye what you could tracke and finde therein yet let your gentle construction withhold from me the deserved censure of bold blindnes in that now and then I