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A79511	Nathans parable. Sins discovery, with it's [sic] filthy secret lurking in the brest of men. Or, some few discoveries what the sinfulness of sin is, and spoile it hath made on man, in nine particulars. With the sad experience of it on the author: written, if it may be, to warn all men, especially, the saints, to take heed and to beware of sin. With a letter written to his excellency the Lord General Cromwell. By Edmund Chillenden.	Chillenden, Edmund, fl. 1656.	1653 (1653)	Wing C3877; Thomason E723_3; ESTC R207232	24,570	27

20. 1 Pet. 4.2.2 4.8 do it in love debate and reason the case with thy neighbour and deal with him as with thine own heart plainly and sincerely and by this means you will and may save a soul from death And last of all have fervent charity for that is the bond of perfection and all is worth nothing where this business of love and charity is wanting therefore Holy and beloved as the Elect of God put on be you clothed with bowels of love mercie and pity for love will cover and hide a multitude of sins and so let all your things be done in love Col. 3.12 1 Cor. 16.14 And now The God of all grace who hath called you into his eternal glory by Christ Jesus Jam. 5.20 after that ye have suffered a while make you perfect stablish strengthen and settle you To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever Amen 1 Pet. 10.10 Yours not worthy because of my sins to be reckoned amongst the godly Edmund Chillenden Fom my house in Coleman street London this this 29 of Nov. 1643. Numb 32.23 But if you will not do so ye have sinned against the Lord and be sure your sin will finde you out Rom. 7.13 Sin is exceeding sinful SIN is of it self an evil sickness or disease that hath crept into all mankinde since the fall Rom. 5.18 19. and it may very fitly be called the evil of evils for the devils by reason of sin 2 Pet. 2.4 Job 8.44 Jude 6. vers fell from being Angels of light keeping not their first station or habitation to utter darkness debarred of that light liberty and happiness which they injoyed being by reason of it thrust down to hell there being kept in everlasting chains under darkness of damnation in that day he will judge the world 2 Pet. 2.4 Jude 6. Sin filled them full of all deadly poison and malice and so they became adversaries and enemies to God and his creatures men Joh. 8.44 Gen. 3.1 2. therefore he is called Satan Job 1.6 Rev. 20.2 1 Pet. 5.8 Zech. 3.1 1 Thess 2.18 Divel Deut. 32.17 with 1 Pet. 5.8 for your adversary the Devil as a rouring Lyon walks about seeking whom he may devour he is very malitious full of envy John 8.44 Mat. 4.1 he is called the Tempter laboring to draw men to sin indeavouring mans ruine and destruction Mat. 4.3 A Serpent and Dragon Mat. 10.8 1 Pet. 5.8 Eph. 6.12 Mat 4.3 9. 12.46 Rev. 12.19 he and all his Angels full of malicious venom and envy against God and his people Mat. 10.1 Eph. 6.12 and all this sin hath done for it made him a divel and hath filled him full of all manner of wicked filthiness Therefore sin is that deadly poison that contains and from whence all other poisons flow and proceed The Apostle Jam. 1.21 very fitly sets it forth where he calleth it filthiness and superfluity of naughtiness or abundance of naughtiness the very excrements or dung of all other filthiness the dreggs of it worse then all fit for no use stinking and loathsome it is sin and out of measure sinful Sin most abominable detestable and vile to be abhorred Now as it is thus in its own nature vile and poisonous so it causes men that it getteth harbor in to be filthy and poisonous they thereby become unprofitable useless fit for nothing Psal 14.3 They are all gone aside they are altogether become filthy unprofitable of no use Job 15.16 saith man is become abominable filthy horrible loathsome by reason of drinking in this poisonous sin and iniquity like water Eph. 4.18 19. with Rom. 3.11 to 19. it hath so filled them with the poisonous venome that the holy Ghost compares it to the 〈◊〉 of Aspes or Serpents and men that are so poisoned are called Serpents Mat. 23.33 Ye Serpents and generation of vipers Psal 58 4. speaking of wicked men saith They are estranged from their mothers wombe they go astray as soon as they be born they speak lies and they are of that venomous nature that he saith Their poison is the poison of a Serpent Psal 140.3 it is called vomit that which is loathsome Job 20.15 and men that swallow it down are called doggs Prov. 26.11 2 Pet. 2.22 Phil. 3.2 Psal 22.16 20. 59 6. 68 23. For doggs saith the Prophet have compassed me about base and vile persons filthy men so made by sin ravenously disposed wretches Rev. 22.15 Mat. 7.6 it is called mire and men are called Sows or Swine 2 Pet. 2.23 for it is of that poisonous nature that it presently disperses it self all over the body that it all bespots and besmears the creature and as the Prophet Isaiah 1.4 5. The whole-heart is sicke the whole heart is faint there is no part free from the crown of the head to the sole of the foot there is no soundness in it but wounds bruises and putrifying soares What shall or can be said more it is called darkness Joh. 1.5 3.15 1 Joh. 1.4 5 6 2.9 11. Blindness Eph. 4.18 Shame Jud. ●3 nakedness Rev. 3.18 folly Gen. 34.7 madness Psal 85.8 Act. 26.11 Luk. 6.7 whatsoever is filthy naught detestable or vile and paineful sin is the author and cause of 1. It will appear to be out of measure sinful by the spoile it hath brought and made on man What a breach did it make at the first on our first parents Gen. 2.25 compared with Gen. 1.27 Eccles 7.29 Gen. 5.1 who were created righteous and good Yea very good Gen. 1.31 in the very Image or likeness of God Eph. 4.24 Col. 3.10 and this made good David in Psal 8.4 5.6 say He had made him little lower then the Angels thou hast crowned him with honor and glory and of the very creation and form of his body he was a glorious creature Psal 139.14 I will praise thee for I am wonderfully and fearfully made curiously wrought of the earthly mould in rare and admirable comeliness beauty and proportion with all sufficient furniture so clad with skin and flesh and joyned with bones and sinews Job 10.11 that of all his creatures man was his most glorious on the earth for to him he subjected all other creatures and gave him the rule and dominion over the earth and sea and all things therein Gen. 1.28 for all the world was made for him even the glorious Sun Moon and Stars all for his use and service Deut. 4.19 And as he was thus created and made so he had singular wisdom and endowments Will Vnderstanding and many faculties all good Gen. 1.21 he had Knowledge Righteousness and Holiness for performance of all holy duties to his Creator Gen. 1.27 Col. 3.10 Eccles 7.29 31. Eph. 4.24 But now cometh sin and devests and spoiles all the glory of this admirable creature in his first and prime excellencies as it said of Reuben he was Jacobs first born his might the beginning of his strength the excellency

Nathans Parable SINS DISCOVERY With it's Filthy Secret Lurking in the brest of Men. OR Some few Discoveries what the sinfulness of Sin is and spoile it hath made on man in nine particulars With The Sad experience of it on the Author written if it may be to warn all men especially the Saints to take heed and to beware of Sin WITH A Letter written to his Excellency the Lord General CROMWELL By Edmund Chillenden Lam. 3.1 I am the man that have sinned and for that have seen affliction by the rod of his wrath Heb. 4.12 13. Take heed brethren lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God lest any of you be hardned through the deceitfulness of Sin Printed at London 1653 To all the Congregations of Saints walking in the faith and Order of the Gospel in England Ireland and Scotland Precious hearts I Have a sad theam to present you with it is of sin and the sad effects it hath produced in the world especially on man and in particular on my self so that I may say in the words of the Prophet Lam. 5.16 The Crown is faln from my head wo unto me that I have sinned for nothing but mischief hath attended me yea destruction and ruine in all things that can be thought of here below and were it not but that God who I have so offended had appeared to me indeed as the Apostle saith Eph. 2.4 Rich in mercy and in great love infinite and beyond all expression I had for ever perished and been punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord and the glory of his power Thess 1.5 for I deserved no less so that truly I have experienced that good saying of the Apostle That where sin hath abounded grace hath much more yea exceeding much more abounded Rom. 5.20 Oh rich grace rich grace and great mercies and loving kindness they are past finding out they cannot be fathomed they are high they are deep they are long and they are broad so that I cannot but stand and admire what manner of love it is that he hath bestowed on me 1 Joh. 2.1 I have therefore sent to you these few lines that you may take heed and beware of sin for it is a most deceitful yea a most deadly cruel enemy for it maketh such spoile on a man where it gets footing that if mercy yea rich mercy and love from God do not step in to help it destroyeth soul and body good name relations and all that is neer and dear therefore take heed and beware of sin and take that good counsel of the Apostle 1 Cor. 16.13 Watch ye stand fast in the faith quit you like men be strong in the Lord and in the power of his might Eph. 6.10 for if you do not sin will break in upon you and make grievous spoile and havocke For want of keeping this guard it hath broken in on me like an inundation of water and yet I thought once my mountain was so set and so strongly founded that it was not possible it could be moved Psal 30.7 when I was in my Tranquility and the candle of the Lord shone upon my head I said I would dye in my nest and multiply dayes as the sand I would spread my root by the waters I should flourish Job 29.3 18 19 20. all went well I had attained to some good progress in the knowledge of God and the practice of the things of God and I was now safe and my heart spoke a great deal of peace but behold when I thus slept the enemy sin came and stole in upon me and I will tell you how 1. First I grew a little cold and careless in the matters of God in those cold mad and distempered yeers 1647. and 1648. and then sin took occasion and by my base heart deceived me presently runs and layeth hold on me tempteth me and draweth me away Jon. 1.14 15 compare Rom. 7.11 and so hath slaine wounded and destroyed me 2. After that I was thus inticed my heart being by sin deceived then I became it's slave to serve it and this will be the case of every one that sin layeth hold of Now I must provide to lay alwayes for the carrying of it close and secret and here cometh vows oaths wishes execrations and all to save cover and hide this ugly companion sin 3. Then sin will seem very fair and smile on you flatter your heart and if he cometh once to be touched to be discovered and feareth he shall be dislodged he now will come with the help of his first-born the divel and belay you on every side First on the right hand and on the left under pretence of good towards God towards his wayes to thy self and relations For so have I found it that when I had some yeers since abandoned all the thoughts of any such thing and in July 1650. had earnestly besought the Lord for his favour and peace for my former evils and that he would now pardon and pass by my sin and hide his face from my sin the which he did and spoke much peace to me and did deliver my soul from the jaws of destruction when death had surrounded me I then did vow to the Lord to honour him and serve him all my dayes but there was more snares beset me For when in the yeer 1652. I was charged with evil by Master Thomas Halhead and his wife now behold how sin beset me and what alurements it layed before me to hide it keep it close and secret 1. Saith my base heart You are known to be a great professor of religion and if you make it known you are utterly lost in the hearts of all that are godly for a brother offended is harder to be won then a strong City Prov. 18.19 you shall never be in their affections againe 2. The name of God will be much dishonoured you must n t tell it in Gath nor publish it in Askelon lest the uncircumcised blaspheme you need not do it it is enough you have done it to God 3. The wayes of God that you profess which every man especially the Clergy which are great enemies to it and of you in particular watcheth to have somewhat to speak against it and dishonour it 4. Your own honour reputation and good name will utterly be lost and gone which as the wise man saith Eccl. 7.1 Is better then a precious ointment better then gold and silver Prov. 15.15 5. You are now in a capacity to do the poor people of God some good but that will utterly spoile you for ever 6. You will lose your place which is your lively-hood These and many more was my soul beset with and I was taken captive and so insnared consulting onely with my base heart that now I set my self with all my might to pursue these instructions that sin my base heart the divel and the world had layed before me but they

50.16.17 and admit of no reproof but harden their necks against it Pro. 29.1 Now the godly whose hearts are upright and who have kept their garments clean and have not been led aside to run in their pernicious wayes 2 Pet. 2.2 that have not known the depths of Satan they cannot indure such things but must testifie and bear their witness against them and avoid them having no fellowship with the works of darkness but to reprove them † But still according to rule in love and pity Mat. 18.16.17.18 1 Cor. 16.14 Ephes 5.11 Rev. 2.24 and now by this means the peace quiet and sweet Communion of the Church cometh to be broken † This my sin also hath caused for there cannot be any fellowship with light and darkness Christ and Belial the believer and the Infidel or unbeliever 2 Cor. 6.15 Sin wounds the heart soul and conscience it makes great spoyl there 2 Sam. 24.10 David he had committed sin in numbring the people and as soon as he had done his soul was wounded his heart smote him and he crieth out Lord I have sinned greatly in this that I have done for I have done very foolishly 1 Chro. 21.9 That upon this there cometh a great cloud and dismal darkness is drawn over the soul Psalm 38.6 great trouble bowing down and crushing that so all the day long there is nothing but sadness and gloominess heaviness and mourning Psalm 35.14 bowing down heavily Now the arrows of the Almighty take hold and they stick fast Job 6.4 the terrors of God do now set themselves in array and drink up the very spirit and make it like a parched and dried Heath and the face of God now cometh to be withdrawn and he hides his loving kindness Psalm 88.14 compared with Jer. 16.5 that maketh them cry out Lord where are thy loving kindnesses Psalm 89.49 the horror of the Lords wrath possesses them and is as fire in their bones that consumes them that they have no rest for their iniquities do daily go over their heads Psalm 38 4. they are heavier then they are able to bear the curses of the Law they now begin to terrifie Dan. 9.11 because of transgression and not obeying his voice now they cry for grief of heart their soul is sad we look for Judgment yea for Salvation but it is far from us because our sins are many and our transgressions are without number Psalm 32.4 Isay 59.11.12 so we become a burthen to our selves and we speak in the anguish of our spirit Job 7.11 and complain in the bitterness of our souls left comfortless desolate and cast down our salvation passed away and clean gone Job 30.15.16 the daies of affliction have ceased and taken hold on us we become a reproach to the wicked and ungodly because of our wickedness they laugh and blaspheme the Divel he triumphs and doth insult 2 Sam. 12.14 Rev. 18.10 ceases not to accuse us night and day before God in heaven our former acquaintance our familiar friends yea our natural kindred and our brethren they withdraw and are ashamed of us this spoyl doth sin make on a soul Psalm 38.11 I have here said somewhat of sin and the spoyl it maketh and hath made on man yet not the hundredth part that might be said I shall now shew you what spoyl it hath made on my self For what hath been said sin hath wrath in me and much more for as the Apostle saith I have been carnal and sold under sin Rom. 7.14 that as the wise man saith In the daies of my vanity I have not withheld the desire of mine eys nor my heart from any joy Eccles 2.10 And I have been compassed about with the iniquities of my heels Psalm 49.5 For in me that is in my flesh there dwelleth no good thing Rom. 7.18 O wretched man that I am who shall deliver me from the body of this death I bless God I can say with our good Apostle ver 25. I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord that by him and through the riches of Gods love I had gotten in some measure the victory of the sins of my youth Ephes 2.4.5 Rom. 8.37 Psalm 25.7 and with all my might endeavour'd after the wayes of God but happily I looked in the first place too soon to the outward holiness and like Jehu pursued it very eagerly so that in my heart I said Come see my zeal for God for Christ his wayes and people 2 Kings 10.16 and had not quite mortified those inbred lusts and evil concupiscense which sin had wrought in me Rom. 8. according to the Apostles counsel Col. 3.5 I should have then known how to have possessed my vessel in sanctification and honor but because of this the Lord hath been pleased to write many bitter things against me and hath made me to possess the iniquities of my youth Job 13.26 to lye down in shame and confusion to cover me because I have sinned against the Lord Jer. 3.25 the dregs of the old man were still alive and not put off there was the remainder of sin kept and spared which have been like as the Philistines were to Israel pricks in my eyes and thorns in my side to be a continual plague to me Numb 33.55 1 Sam. 15.19.20 which if the old man concerning my former conversation which was corrupt according to the deceiptful lust Ephes 4.22 had been quite subdued and all destroyed they had not now scourged me like the pricking brier and grieving thorn Ezec. 28.24 compared with Josh 23.13 There were spots that were left in my garments which wanted washing out which some labour would have soon dispatched but they being but spots they were not minded and my false heart flattering me all was well so long as it was secret and unknown though with my heart I utter'd perverse things Pro. 23.33 I was stricken and yet not sick they beat me and I felt it not I lay very secure in the midst of my great danger and have been drawn away with the wicked and with the workers of iniquity and yet it hath spoken peace to me as to its neighbour but it brought forth mischief Psalm 48.3 For as with a dart it hath stricken me through the liver casting me down wounded and have been slaine Prov. 7.23.26 and knew not that it was for my life by which I have gotten a wound and a dishonor yea a reproach that cannot be wiped away Pro. 6.33 knowing not whither to cause my shame to go for I have been as one of the fools in Israel 2 Sam. 13.13 Thus sin compassed me about and got my feet intangled in its net after I was thus wounded and cast down then I did endeavour to get out of the jawes of death and to ascend from the chambers of the dead that I might take hold on the paths of life Pro. 2.18.19 and to this I made some good progress and set my self to the work in good earnest and some years

so loud they go not upward toward heaven they ascend not but do remaine here below they are rejected of God as Caines sacrifice was Gen. 4.3 4 5. he will not hear in heaven for he is deaf and his ear is by sin made heavy Isa 59.1 compare Prov. 1.28 29 30 31. though they call upon him he will not hear them though they seek him early yet they shall not finde him and the reason is rendered For they hated knowledge and did not chuse the fear of the Lord they would none of his councel they despised all his reproofs Psal 81.11 12. therefore it shall and will be ill with them that are wicked for the reward of their hands shall be given unto them Isa 3.11 This David knew very well Psal 66.18 If I regard iniquity in my heart the Lord will not hear me as if the Prophet should have said If I regard hug and make much of my sin delight and take pleasure in it God will not regard me saith he This the Iews as wicked as they were knew well enough Ioh. 9.31 Now we know God heareth not sinners but if any man be a worshipper of God and do his will him be heareth Jam. 5.15 16. 1 Joh. 5.14 the prayer of the wicked is sin his sacrifice is a great abomination to the Lord he cannot endure it he loaths both it and them Prov. 15.8 29. with Prov. 21.27 How much more when he bringeth it with an evil wicked sinful mind being alienated and made strangers from God in their mindes by wicked and sinful works Eph. 2.12 Col. 1.21 Tit. 3.3 for what hope hath the hypocrite will the Lord hear his cry Job 27.8 9. No he is far from the wicked Prov. 15.29 When they spread forth their hands God he will not hear them he will hide his eyes from them and when they make many prayers God will not have regard their hands are full of blood Isa 1.15 therefore he loatheth their new Moons and their Sabbaths their solemn assemblies his soul hated them they were a trouble to him he was weary of bearing them Isa 66.3 This the Church crieth out of and sadly bewaileth Lam. 4.44 that because of her sins God he hod covered himself with a cloud that her prayers should not pass thorow O what a loss is the poor Church in now God he hath hid his face and she is much troubled Psal 30.7 Whereas she was wont by prayer to ride and soar aloft they were her Chariots and horses by which she pierced the heavens and went with boldness to the throne of grace Heb. 4.16 and received blessings from thence both spiritual and temporal but now she is debarred all by sin that puts a stop to every good thing 2 Pet. 1.4 1 Tim. 4.8 6.6 Jer. 5.25 8. It breaks the peace and blessed communion of the Church of God The Churches of Christ are a holy people called out of the world by the good word of his grace they being begotten againe purged and cleansed from all uncleanness and unholiness made pure by the washing of water by the word Eph. 5.26 27. of his own will Jam. 1.18 not of corruptible seed but of incorruptible by the word of God 1 Pet. 1.23 called to be Saints 1 Cor. 1.2 to walk together in a holy communion amongst themselves for the worship and service of God and they are called A spiritual house a holy priesthood to offer up spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ 1 Pet. 2.5 and therefore are called a holy nation a chosen generation a royal priesthood a peculiar people that they should shew forth the praises of him who hath called them out of darkness into his marvelous light 1 Pet. 2.8 and they may not suffer any unclean or unholy person to come in and be of fellowship with them Isa 52.11 Rev. 21.27 2 Cor. 6.17 for all that are to draw neer to God and bear his vessel are to be clean and holy for holiness becomes his house for ever Psal 93.5 for his way is holy and the polluted sinners may not enter into it they will defile his Sanctuary and holy things Isa 35.8 compare Numb 19.20 22. Ezek. 28.22 for sin is a contagious leprosie that will presently diffuse it self through the whole body as the Apostle saith A little leaven leaveneth the whole lump 1 Cor. 5.6 7. therefore when sin doth appear they are presently to labour to purge themselves of it according to the rule and command of Iesus Christ that they may be a holy lumpe and this must be done in love with all meekness and lowliness of spirit Gal. 6.1 2. with all faithfulness without any partiality favour or affection but where sin is there tell the sinner plainly of it Levit. 19.17 that so they may come to see their sins and bring their sacrifice that by repentance and forsaking they may finde mercy and so prosper Levit. 4.23.28 the Church being careful of this they walk sweetly and there is a very comely order amongst them they are Song 6.4 comely as Jerusalem Psal 4.1 2 3. Fair in situation the joy of the whole earth the City of the great King Now sin hath in the night crept in and there having got footing hath and doth mar al this glory and utterly dissipates all the peace and lovelinesse which was once theirs what by false teachers who do arise in and amongst the Churches speaking perverse things Act. 20.30 bringing in damnable errors even denying the Lord that bought them 2 Pet. 2.1 1 Tim. 4.1 and also often times the frailties of the Saints defiles their bodies and souls by reason of sin This my sin hath caused that the enemies without take occasion to blaspheme and the brethren within are often scandalized and grieved The Churches in the Apostles daies had woful experience of the sad work and spoil sin did make amongst them look on Corinth how they were infested and Galatia Philippi that they were removed to another Gospel see in the seven Churches of Asia Rev. 2.3 chap. and there you shall find sin eating out the very heart and life of God amongst the Churches for amongst them were bitter envyings strife and reproach that as the Prophet saith Every man hunted his brother with a net Philip. 1.15.16 1 Cor. 1.11.12.13 Mich. 7.1.2 those that were their guides they became vain talkers and deceivers of the minds of the simple even to the subverting of whole houses Tit. 2.10.11 teaching things which they ought not for filthy lucre sake so that nothing but rottenness and putrifaction did appear Isay 1.2.3.4.5 the grace of God turned into wantonness the holy liberty of the Gospel made a cloak of maliciousness Iude 4. 1 Pet. 2.16 and all manner of filthiness so that iniquity was established amongst them by a Law Rev. 2.4.5.14.15.20.21.22.23 Rev. 3.15 to 20. Psalm 94.20 and so come to have their faces made harder then a stone Ier. 5.3 hated to be rebuked and reformed Psalm

30.11 it hath been in measure he hath not alwayes chid neither hath he kept his anger he hath not dealt with me after my sins neither rewarded me according to my iniquities Psal 9.10 for he is and hath been to my soul exceeding plenteous in mercy But this friends sin hath done to me and brought upon me 1. A stain and a blot Prov. 6.33 and whither to cause my shame to go I know not 2 Sam. 13.13 2. It hath caused my familiars and my friends my companions with whom I have taken sweet counsell together and walked into the house of God in company to reproach me Psal 55.12 3. It hath put my brethren far from me and my acquaintance are verily estranged from me my kinsfolk have failed and my familiar friends have forgotten me Job 19.13 14. 4. It hath buried me in my good name which is better then precious oyntment Eccles 7.1 and rather to be chosen then great riches Pro. 22.1 what is it that it hath not brought upon me all manner of mischief that as I have said sin is the mother yea the father also of all mischief and evill that I may truly say that sin is exceeding or out of measure sinfull And now I do testifie to all the world that thorow grace and of the rich love of God Christ hath turned and cast his gracious looks upon me and darted his blessed rayes into my heart as hath wrought unfained sorrow and true repentance for my sins never to be repented of Lu. 22.61 for that sorrow which is after a godly manner worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of 2 Cor. 7.9 10. and this I manifested to the Saints and faithful Brethren of the Congregation meeting in Stone Chappell Pauls London with many teares Novemb. 6. 1653. and I do by this crave pardon of all men that I have any wayes by lying lips in this matter abused and do pray all the Saints and faithfull brethren of all the Congregations in the world that I have any wayes offended to forgive me as God for Christs sake hath forgiven them Eph. 4.32 And now what shall I say my grief is sore and my calamity great I would it were by the godly wise throughly weighed and that they were laid in the balance together Iob 6.2 I am perswaded they would say that in this age there hath not appeared any sorrow like my sorrow wherewith the Lord hath afflicted me in this his day of fierce anger Lamen 1.12 for it is to me so sad and heavy that truly I could wish and oh that I might have my request that God would grant the thing that I long for even that it would please God to destroy me that he would let loose his hand and cut me off Iob 6.8.9 for I confess I am not worthy to be reckoned amongst them that are living but far better it would be for me to be where I should be quiet sleep and be at rest Iob 3.13 and be no longer such a burthen to my self Iob 7.20 It is true I have sinned against the Lord who is the preserver of men and for that he hath made me to my neighbours a reproach Psalm 34.13 74.4 yea it is so as there was never any like it that I who not many moneths sithence had the candle of the Lord shining on my head and my steps were washed with butter and the rock powred out rivers of oyl Iob 29.23.6 that had my hands strengthened to do the young men yea the aged some right and break the jaws of some wicked men and deliver some poor souls from their spoils that was able in some small measure to help the poor and needy Iob 29.8.17 and send them away with a blessing But now what is befallen me shame and contempt † Mark it and take heed of sin beware of sin and they that are younger then my self they have me in derision I am their song and their by-word Iob 30.1.9.10 they abhor me and spare not to spit in my face What is there or can there be in this life a greater affliction then this that my very enemies should have their desire on me that before stood in fear of me should now boast themselves and triumph this hath befallen the man that was so righteous now the hand and judgment of God is against him for his actings against the King and his Party others they cry out and rejoyce and say this is he that was so much against the Clergy and they belch out their blasphemy now against the wayes of God the young children they despise me all my familiar friends and my old acquaintance are verily estranged from me Job 19.13.14.18 they whom with all my heart I loved are turned against me though I have fill'd their bellies and have cloathed their backs have fed at my table for whom I have been willing to spare no pains but to lay out my self to do them good that they and theirs might receive refreshment and comfort these O these are turned against me and reproach me bitterly * See what sin doth bring to men so that my affliction is such as it cannot be imagined it is that cannot by any mortal be born Psalm 55.12 all indeed that have had any esteem of me despise me Lament 1.8 because I have sinned grievously and yet this is nothing and not considered no not by some of my mothers children for they are angry with me and have put off all bowels of pity Cant. 1.6 they have forsaken me as a brook and as the stream of brooks they have passed away Job 6.15 for they bind the yoke of my iniquities fast on me with their hands till my strength faileth me and will not ease me though it be but with the touch of one of their fingers Mat. 23.4 Luk. 11.46 as if no pity were to be shown to him that is afflicted Ioh 6.14 for in the house of my friends I have been wounded Zech. 13.6 no love patience long-sufferance or forbearance no brotherly kindness or gentleness thought on I acknowledg it the just judgment of God against me thus to punish me for my sins by my deare friends who truly I do think did it out of zeal to God and detestation against my sin by which I had much abused them yet I think there was some slip and weakness in their proceeding against me but I do heartily forgive them that so by meekness I might be taught and recovered out of the snare of the divel 2 Tim. 2.25.29 Gal. 6.12 so that I may say where was the sounding of bowels where was mercy it was restrained from me Isay 63.15 O Lord I am oppressed undertake for me Isay 28.14 for thou hast spoken once yea twice yet I perceived not Iob 33.14 but now thou hast spoken terribly and hast broken all my bones thou hast cut me down like the grass thou hast blown me away as chaff before the wind Psalm 1.4 so that I have