to lye at the side of the Pool though we want strength to go in 3. 'T is proper for the soul when it prayes bests to judge it self to pray worst Observe Pride in Prayer eates out the heart of Prayer Experience is a good concomitent of Prayer but no way safe to be a Foundation of Faith or Prayer God's promised Word is only a fit Foundation for that work In a word Nothing can or is a fit Foundation but this which doth stand when all falls Prayer is a Duty God calls for and it is a way to acknowledge God but it was never intended to change or alter God but to change us and not force God but fit us for what 's promised and purposed of God for us That heart prays best that appears least in its own name or nature And that heart prevailes most that prays most in the Name that is to say in the true Nature of Christ Then we may describe Prayer thus Prayer is the exercise of God's Spirit in us pouring out the Soul to God in the Name that is to say in the Nature of Christ and in his Interest pleading with God for supply of wants in answer to his Will Observe So Prayer is the Language of God in us not to alter God but us not to beget new Grace in God but from his old Grace to bring down renewed supplies to us Observe He prayes best that stands least in his own will Observe The way to keep a heart from sinful listings up in Prayer is truly to know the Life of Prayer is not its own but comes down from God before it is in him Observe Nothing prevails with God but what 's his own therefore prevailing Prayer is not ours but God's The true sence of this layes down what the Devil by duty would lift up that heart seldome prevailes by Prayer under temptatation straits and difficulties that keeps its eye upon the Difficulties and not on a Promise That Faith or Prayer honours God best that trusteth and eyes God most in the face of a seeming impossibility That soul is most prevalent with God in Prayer that seeth nothing out of God capable to help or answer Prayer So much concerning Prayer Let me now speak a word of Advice to my Relations and Friends as to the Deceit that attends men and women in their Affection of Love 1. Be careful in loving Sanits that you love them as Saints if so you will love them best in whom you see most of Christ and Grace though strangers other wayes to you 2. They that are most faithful and downright in reproving you for sin or neglect of duty to Christ are the fitest objects of a Christians Love and when there is least Deceit in thy love these will be not least but most beloved 3. That Love is commonly the best that loves that most that is seen least and that is not so much for acts without as Grace within 4. If it be a true Love it is a lasting Love and holds out in times of danger as well as in times of prosperous duty 5. True Love is seen most and known best when as the party beloved is in a low suffering condition for the Life of true Love lies much in sympathizing with that it loves So then that Love that only loves while and when the object beloved can communicate or answer its Love with a reciprocal good or profit but when the object lies under sufferings or censures or wants it draws back and dyes it 's a false Love for true Love doth principally manifest it self in Unity Community and Sympathy and in the last is seen most 6. Where true Love is there is a Spirit that attends it that is the Life of it and where this Love doth God-like and Christ-like go forth to love the Spirit of that Love goes forth into the object beloved indearing and uniting the heart and life of each other As Jonathan and David 7. True God-like and Christ-like Love is not only a sympathizing and uniting Love but it 's a bearing covering Love it 's nimble eyed to see Beauty but very dim to see Deformity But because there is so much deceit in Love let me advise you to take heed of false Love or imitating Love that will deceive 1. That Love will deceive that loves Parts more than Principles yet think it is for Principles they love 2. When as their Love to the party beloved is very high and violent while the party is in credit but if under reproach or clouds or censures their seeming Love is with great ease readiness turned into censuring and for the most part without either examination or reluctancy but in true Love where Life goes out it is not so easily called in but will turn and search and search before it will shift 3. A third deceit rides only upon or most upon the wing of Oneness in Judgment as to the visible wayes of God Christ or in other wayes but others that have more Grace are not so much beloved unless they be of the same length breadth heighth in point of Judgment this sort of Love is the most universally deceivable in this day and yet the most sad threed-bare Love that ever the Devil spun 4. It is when Souls love only so long as they are beloved 5. Another Deceit in Love is When men in their Love under the notion of Religion or Grace are more to women than to men and in women to men more than to women all Love ought to be lookt after but this to have a double watch Now because the best way to try the Truth of Love is by the Properties that the Scriptures witness to be in true Love I shall say no more as to the Truth or Deceit that is in Love by the rule of my own experience but beseech my Relations and Friends to mind well what the Apostle saith of true Love in 1 Cor. 13.4 to the 8th verse where the very natural and essential Properties of Love is asserted and so asserted that they that can witness what 's there said may assuredly know their Love is true and if the contrary be found in you or any you may with the same assurance know your Love though it appear never so high yet it is but false deceitful imitating Love It is good to consider well what Love is true Spiritual Love springs out of God and what it truly is it returns to God carrying the heart where it is truly placed along with it to God and there it 's fixed and centered And though it may shake hands in its passage with an inferiour good yet 't is not at home but as it is and when it is with God for in that Union is its being and in communion with that good is its well being If you take Love in its Parts you will see more of is Excellency Observe a good mans description of Love Desire is Love in motion persuit after good the
leave off loving nay it will rather endure hard dealings and conquer them with Love than leave off loving Did not Christ do so with the Spouse Cant. 5. And what hard usage did God receive from his People as you may see in Jer. 2d and 3d. chapters yet God follows them with Love O what hard usage did Paul receive for and in the way of his Love from them he loved and yet he loved still a sweet lesson for Saints in this day to learn O that God would give me and all his People power seriously to try our Love by these Rules Love is laid down in Scripture as one of the chiefest signs of our Son-ship O therefore we had need be careful we are not mistaken especially in this day wherein there is so much imitation of Love and yet not Love the Lord help us to try that we may be found in the Truth and the Love of the Truth and true Love may be found in us O if ever the lesson that Christ preached to his Disciples in the 14.15.16 chapters of John and that John preached in 1 Joh. 2 3 4 5 chapters as to this great Duty of Love there was never a season that called for that service like this and never was the dear Appointments and Service of God less honoured with this Saint-honouring Grace of Love than now in this day the Devil knows it is the sinewes and nerves that keeps Saints one and he also knows the way to destroy the People of God is to devide the People of God They are very blind that in looking back cannot see â—hat so long as the People of God kept in â—nity they were kept in prosperity and when â—hey devided they soon fell O that God â—ould give his People hearts to know from â—hence they are fallen and to do their first works and to remember their former virgin-Virgin-Love which formerly appeared to bear blossoms till the sad frost of a revolting spirit caused it to be nipt with cold blasts of God's Northern winds O would any souls recover Love labour to be acquainted more with the God of Love and live more under the sence of the want of Love and covet to be first in that work and where you see a want of Love love them into Love And the God of all Love Peace and Grace live with you Amen Amen I have done with speaking of true God like Love I might speak something of natural Love and also the Love of Friends of Relations or Neighbours upon a natural account but of that I shall forbear only Brief Word or two to my Children which mind as followeth VVHen and wheresoever you find shews of Love take a longer time 〈◊〉 try it than to trust it Meet with no friendâ—â— Love but answer it with Love and where 〈◊〉 intend to continue in Friendship and â—ove stay not from loving till you are beloâ—ed but love that you may be loved know that â—ove that your Love begets will not only â—â—st longest but will end most honourably 2. Take heed of a pleasant smooth lanâ—age where there is an evil life 3. Trust none that speaks fair to you if â—â—u find them prone to speak evil of others 4. Look well behind men and before men â—ore you intrust any secret in men or woâ—en 5. If you would gain and receive a friendâ—â— esteem of all walk humbly towards every â—in for the best way to be honoured as a â—â—â—ster is to be to all like a Servant to the â—â—ants but not to the carnal wills of men 6. If you would retain friendship among 〈◊〉 what ever you hear speak evil of none 7. To retain Friendship long take heed 〈◊〉 leave not your interest loose among any In word my dear Children if you wisely and friendly profitably live in the world as to the world mind this rule So live among men that you may overseâ— all men learn something from every man but confide in no man and yet so as to suffer no man to lose but rather to gain by you In the next place I shall speak a wordt the nature of Sorrow or Mourning seeing there are so many promises annexed to truâ—â— Mourners And in this mind two things 1. What Deceits attend Mourning thaâ— we may not be deceived 2. The Properties of true Mourning 1. Deceit is when we take the sudden motion of a natural tender affection for the exercises of true conviction or a heart trusâ— affected from Grace for some nature is such that upon the least sudden motion of any sorrow or sometimes from sudden joy they cannot but mourn and if this come at a season of praying or preaching without care it may be and I fear is taken as a fruit of Grace 2. When a soul mourns more for peace than for the want of presence So did Saâ—â— and Judas c. 3. There is a hidden occult quality 〈◊〉 some natures that they cannot but in a wâ—â—â— of sympathy weep and mourn when they seâ—â—â— another mourn it may be those that they see mourn may mourn from true conviction and then in a way of sympathy they cannot but mourn too and so being among true Mourners they and others may conclude it true 4. Deceit is when any ones mourning is produced from a sad reflection of guilt 〈◊〉 crossing Light more than for their dealing â—nkindly with God and his Love Quest What are the truest Signs of a true â—ourner Answ These 1. True Mourning in real â—ourners brings or draws up the soul into a â—ore single closing in with God or it raiseth 〈◊〉 the heart to a more special expectation â—â—â—d choice compliance with God see and â—ind well Isa 38. last part of the 16 verse 2. Such prize deliverance from sin much â—â—re then freedom from sorrow Isa 38.17 â—â—al 40.1 2. 3. They are a people that are as seriously â—â—ected with their unsuitable frames of heart their mourning as for the matter they â—â—urn for 4. Answers from God in their mourning â—â—ess their answer brings Power as well as â—â—don it will not satisfie Psal 51. 〈◊〉 A true Mourner mourns most kindly 〈◊〉 freely when he injoys God in sealing up â—â—â—on must fully Luke 7.38 and 47.48 〈◊〉 Such a heart mourns for that most that is seen least I mean more for heart-sins unseen than for sins without that are seen See Job 42.3 6. see David Psal 19.12 and 51.5 6 7. and Isa 6.5 7. The property of such a soul is The nearer it draws to God the more the work of mourning and shame doth increase See Jer. 3. and last verse and see Job 42.2 3 6. Besides these Deceits there are yet some Deceits that are harder to be discerned and that is in point of joy and boldness and appearance of life in duties For know There are many that from eloquence duty and some concurrents of natures abiâ—â—â—ty joyning with imitating sorrow or joy do so heat and warm and lift up the soul that it concludes that joy
for Truth that is but an imitation and likeness and not the Truth it self That souls may have a little help in this work could not but lend my small mite of Experience and write down in this day of my Restraint what Experience I have had of the Deceits that attend God's dear Appointments through mens mistakes and also the Deceits that attend Prayer and Sorrow for Sin or at least so pretended and the Deceit in Love and that grand Deceit that attends Souls in Duty calling the heat and warmness and elivations they gain from thence Experiences and Refreshments from Presence These and many more hath my soul met with in my day which for the help of others I have as I said before asserted in this day of my Restraint Though my beloved Friends if any such reade this I must tell you that I am sensible although this time of my Imprisonment be a season fit for this service upon my account yet by reason of that Cloud that 's cast upon me out of pretended ends to bring honour to God And how much dirt is not onely by them cast in my face but in the face of all that shew tenderness and love to me so that it 's a bad season for sure I cannot expect but that even what I have here writ shall meet with many repulses and little acceptance therefore I wish it might have come from some other hands than mine being willing to suffer any thing so the Truth may be at liberty and not suffer for my sake But yet sure some sons of Truth will imbrace the Truth for the Truths sake to them I principally recommend this And I have set down some of those dear refreshing Upholds I have enjoyed from God since I came into this Prison that others may through the knowledge of Prison-mercies learn not to fear a Prison O my Friends a Prison is not to be feared if we suffer not as evil-doers and do but enjoy God there for Gods Presence makes a Prison a Palace None knows the worth power and riches of Presence till it be enjoyed and when enjoyed the less of creature-comforts attend it and the more of sufferings and crosses accompany it the more glorious and sweet it is Now my dear Friends I beg of you in reading what by me is here writ To let your eyes be off from the dirt which is though unjustly cast upon me when you reade any of Gods Love and Beauty and let not the Clouds that lie on me hinder you from searching and imbracing what is here asserted in faithfulness and love for your service That you may by others mistakes learn to stand fast and to keep close to God to Christ and to his Truth following of the Lamb in this latter day with that Love Faith and Patience that the Day and Work of the Day calls for That you may be so I commend you and my own soul to God and the Word of his Grace and remain Yours in that Love of which Christ is the Life P. H. A TABLE of the Particulars that in this Book I have spoken to 1. THe first is to shew the Condition I was in when I first came into Prison and how God did meet me and support me and from what Scriptures God did hand out Comfort to me when I came in first and the particular Censures that were cast upon me Page 1. to 12 2. The second general head is the gain and advantages Saints reap by Sufferings which was by the Lord shewed me from Matth. 16.25 laid down in nine particulars Page 9 to 12 3. Grounds why Saints have no cause to fear Suffering for Christ and his Cause pag. 14-16 4. When men are said to suffer and yet not truly suffering as Saints And when and who are true Sufferers with the Grounds for Saints to suffer rather than to save themselves by accusing others p. 17-20 5. The movings of my going beyond Sea and the cause of my Return inserting the sad Scandals that were cast upon me with my Answers to them p. 21 22 6. Is eight Queries relating to the primitive Appointments of our Lord whether they are now as then to be enjoyed p. 23-27 7. Is five Queries as to the spirits and principles of men in this day whether they are fit to meet God in his dear Appointments yea or no and the sad evil improvements some made of these Queries and my Grounds why I did propound them p. 27-29 8. The Character of a Covetous-minded Rich-man in five particulars with the Description of a covetous mind in poor men in four particulars p. 31-33 9. Several useful Observations for all that fear God and in particular to my Children both as to the nature of Prayer and resisting Sin and the deceit of false-love and the properties of true Love and who they are that are to be loved and what Love is p. 34-46 10. Directions for my Children how to love and who to trust and with what Prudence they should behave themselves in the world p. 49 50 11. What deceit there is in Mourners or in Mourning though it may seem to be for Sin with the true properties of a true Mourner p. 50 51 12. A Discovery of false Joy and Peace and listings up from heat of Duties and Eloquence c. and not from Presence p. 52-55 13. The true signs of a souls enjoying the promised Spirit and they are ten in number p. 55 56 14. How a soul may know when God withdraws whether it be only the Dissertion that is proper to Saints or finally forsaking p. 57 58 15. A Discovery of the sad Deceits that attend Conversion what they are and who they are that are deceived and that in seven Soul-destroying Deceits are laid down p. 58-60 16. Some Deceits that attend men and women in their external Walking or Worship p. 60 61 17. Is an Answer to a Christian Friends Letter as to four things 1. The heads of what I did deliver from John 3.16 About God's Love in giving Christ 2. Was to prove the Soul immortal 3. Whether the Peace that was purchased by Christ be a particular Grace or a state 4. Is the difference between the two Covenants viz. the Covenant of Works and the Covenant of Grace p. 62-104 18. Is fifty one Texts of Scripture that I formerly spoke from with the Doctrine that was observed and my Grounds why I did insert such a Breviate of them in this Book p. 105-116 19. Is to shew a way to prove there is a God without making use of the blessed Scriptures in Answer to some Atheists p. 117 125 20. Is an Answer to another Letter in Answer to three Questions 1. How to answer the Roman Catholicks in point of Transubstantiation 2. How to prove to the Jews and that unanswerably that Christ is come And 3. how many wayes the word Gospel is taken and what is in truth the Gospel p. 126-132 21. I have inserted one of the Hymns I made
and sometimes from the evil to come Isa 57.1 Thirdly There is no cause of fear of that which accomplisheth no Evil but alwayes Good if all doth Rom. 8.28 then Sufferings â—o being part Fourthly There is ground of fear of them or that which is conquered before we encounter with it as all sufferings and censures â—â—e Rom. 8.33 35 39. Fifthly There is no fear to walk in that way which Christ our Captain hath gone before us in and tryed it and not only so but he holds us by the hand nay heart all the way Sixthly There is no fear of that though never so great a cross if it be the eminent way to the Crown as Sufferings are See Acts 14.22 2 Tim. 3.12 Seventhly There is no fear to meet with God in the way and day of his favours for Saints suffering season is God's observing season to give forth his Loves 't is his very high market dayes See Psal 43.2 3 4. Jer. 33.3 Eighthly What cause of fear is there of that which doth not nor can destroy the Foundation of Faith O it is so far from that that it is rather an opportunity for the Foundation to give forth it self like a Fountain ful of all fresh Springs See I pray see David see the three Children see Daniel what streams of Light Love nay Life was given forth at such suffering seasons Psal 23.4 and 27.1 2 3. and 138.3 7. Ninthly What cause is there of fear of that which is appointed to testifie and seal to our Faith and our Interest in God's Love and eternal Life Tenthly What cause is there to fear that which is but the opening the door to let us into converse with God as all Sufferings of Saints is no more but God's turning the key to unlock the door and let Souls into a living converse with God for where the world shuts Saints out God takes them in Psal 25. The worlds frowning time is God's smiâ—ling time when the comforts of the world seem to be silent then God opens the eâ—â— for instruction Job 36.15 Hab. 3.17 1.19 Micah 7.8 Eleventhly What cause is there to fear be imployed in that or of that which is the way not only to follow Christ but it 's that by which the soul is made conformable to Christ and to his Death and the Power of his Resurrection 't is what Paul groaned for Phil. 3.10 Twelfthly What cause is there to fear to meet with that which is to accomplish the end of our Faith to wit the Salvation of our souls and eternal Glory with God Christ and all the Assembly of Saints the First-born and Angels for evermore See Heb. 12.22 23 24. O these considerations did follow me many dayes and nights till my Soul cryed out Lord where am I Lord what am I that I should be thus honoured O blessed be God for ever After this or upon this consent from these considerations there was a question did arise in me which was to this purpose Why men may suffer much and long and yet be nothing Paul saith 1 Cor. 13.3 of a man give his body to be burnt it will not do without Charity So then the question was who are true Sufferers or when doth a soul suffer rightly and when not Answer A man may suffer that is a Professor of Christ and yet not for Christ but is an evil doer or busie body and his profesâ—ession will not make his sufferings good Secondly A man may suffer for the Profession of Christ and yet not for Christ as â—â—us First When men will suffer because they will suffer and not because God wills it Secondly When men suffer because others suffer and suffering is cryed up as honourable so in the crowd of this cry with the rest in this crowd some men crowd in Thirdly When men are by providence brought into a state or strait that if they go back they shall un-man themselves so more out of the resolution of an heroick nature than from the exercises of Grace they suffer this is not to suffer as a Saint but as a man Fourthly When mens interest is so interwoven with the Interest of Christ that if they do not stand by Christ they will lose their own so to gain their own they stand by him this is not right A soul is said to suffer as a Saint and 〈◊〉 becomes a Christian so as God and Christ will own it and crown it First When they singly suffer for being Saints and rather than they will deny it 〈◊〉 forsake it they will forsake all As in Hâ—â—â— 11.35 They accepted not deliverance Secondly When they suffer for their owning or standing by God's and Christ's Caâ—â—â— or Interest and rather than they will forsake either they will forsake their lives or 〈◊〉 that 's dear to them in the world So David suffered so did Daniel suffer and the threâ— Children and the Apostles Acts 4. and Acts 5. and so Paul Thirdly When souls are brought to such state that unless they willingly suffer some other of God's People must suffer now rather than they should suffer the soul is willing to suffer this is that which God will own and it is what Christ did for us and â—erefore we ought saith the Apostle to lay own our lives for the Brethren 1 John 3.16 and this it is that Christ intends in that John 13.14 chap. 15.12 It was Pauls joy 〈◊〉 suffer for the Colossians Col. 1.24 These Scriptures are a sufficient ground to suffer rather than to free our selves from it the manner of some is by accusing others â—â—d bringing others to suffer to free themselves and say Charity begins at home these â—â—uls have little acquaintance with Christ's â—â—w Command and they will one day see 〈◊〉 the way to lose and not to save as Christ â—â—th Mat. 16.25 And now if any will demand by what rule â—â—ey should rather suffer than save themselvs 〈◊〉 putting others upon suffering let them â—â—â—k well upon those blessed Scriptures aforeâ—entioned and they will see it a duty and â—â—â—nt-like to suffer for the Brethren and it not the action of a Saint but of Satan to 〈◊〉 themselves by accusing others 〈◊〉 blessed be my dear Father that of all the Evils that attend me thou didst never suffer that to come into my heart Fourthly To suffer as a Saint is when the World out of their envy against Saints Holiness and Piety as being contrary to them they are carried out in envy to hate them and to do all the hurt they can against them though they cannot in particular charge them with any thing justly not so much as against their own Law yet cannot love them Now thus to suffer willingly not for any thing we have done to the World only because we are called out of the world thus to suffer is to suffer as a Saint therefore Christ makes provision for this when he tells his Disciples that the World hated him and so would hate them in that they were not of
continued sailes of Love Delight is Love in rest or acquiescing in the â—â—ssession of it Delight is the Sabbath of Love Fear is Love in awe of the beloved Hope is Love in expectation Zeal is Love in fire or flame And so Zeal is most properly attributed to God This was a good Friends description of Love And now mind True Love never dies to what it truly loves for it never so loves but where it lives it lives in union and communion with the Good it loves Now that you may the better see the Nature and undeceivable Properties of true Love or Charity see 1 Cor. 13.4 to the 8th vers see the 4th vers Charity or Love suffers long that is it is not easily provoked or a better reading is It 's slow to anger so that a heart truly inriched with this Grace of Love is a mild and meek heart not full of fire and fury but if occasions be offered it is drawn as the God of Love is to afflict but not willingly 2. Not only slow to anger but kind the word may be read Bountiful that is the heart thus loving is not only bound up from fury of one hand but it 's on the other hand at that season full of Kindness or Bounty that is to say it 's not only backward to answer evil with anger but to conquer it with Kindness and readiness to do good against evil 3. It envies not that is to say it doth not only cease from acts of fury shewing it self passionate but at that time it doth not so much inwardly envy or wish hurt to any oâ— grude or repine or envy the good of others though it self may want that good in that sence it 's quietly contented with its own portion and God's dispose to enemies and friends 4. Love vaunteth not it self that is as you may see in the Margent of your Books it 's not inconsiderate but weigheth all things and is serious and considerate in doing and loving and saying it doth not do things rashly 5. It 's not puffed up that is it is not the property of a heart inriched with true Love to swell to be frothyly fil'd with the wind of it 's own conceits as bear gifts or imitating-grace upon every occasion of its own advance will be 6. In the 5th verse It doth not behave it self unseemly This may as an antient Father well observed be taken two wayes As First Love will not suffer a soul to do unseemly or uncomely things So Secondly It accounts no service unseemly wherein it is to serve the party beloved though it be below it self as to men therefore God imbrates an opportunity to love and serve his when in their blood and loathed by others â—e he then washes and binds them up So Christ washed his Disciples feet and counts â—t no way unseemly 7. Love seeks not her own a true Property of Love indeed for it 's the nature of true â—ove delightfully to seek the good of what or of that it loves The word imports as if it were dim-sighted as to self-interest or self-seeking and its great pursuit is delightfully to do good and seek the good of others as if that only practice were its proper posture O this is God-like and Christ-like all self-love and false-love is quite of another nature 8. It is not easily provoked Some read it is not easily imbittered or sharp that is to say it 's not full of biting and cutting words but manifesteth it self smoothly and sweetly though it meets with provocations 9. It thinks no evil that is it is not imagining or contriving evil against any nor easily drawn to think evil of others but as it lives in a harmless way it self so it is ready to judge others do so too not like the spirit of jealousie and the eye of gilt which is alwayes either imagining evil against others or judging others and yet for jealousie it will tell you love makes it do so but true Love is of another nature than either 10. From the 6th verse It rejoyces not is iniquity Some reade and its most properly to be read Rejoyces not in injustice but in the Truth as the words follow or with the Truth that is it cannot rejoyce in any unjust proceeding in afflicting any but its delight is to have the Truth heard and vindicated and Justice to be done justly and for none to suffer without just cause quite contrary to Hypocrites love which if it hath a prejudice against one or if one stands in its way of profit or honour how ready are they to asperse and cast dirt in their faces and if any other cast dirt upon them and bring unjust reproaches or suffering upon one that so stands in their way O how they rejoyce O sad property of professing Love in this day 11. In verse the 9th Love beareth all things Now if we will believe the best Grecians in the reading of these words it is not then so to be read but it covers all things that is if it meets with some evil usage or if it seeth a brother fall into some evil it is so far from being prone to blaze it and report it that its naturally prone to cover and with al lawful-wise wayes to hide it with one hand whilst it helps the fallen soul with the other quite contrary to the way of some in this day though they profess and that highly to Love yet so soon as they hear of an infirmity or that a brother or a sister is fallen they are presently on fire to devulge it even so hasty and greedy that they cannot spare time to search and see whether the report be true or no but as the Prophet saith Jer. 20.10 Report and we will report these Souls in this work do rather think to make themselves Saints than judg themselves to fin but alas though they profess Love they know it not in the day of God they will see themselves mistaken 12. It believes all things that is it is ready to believe all good and good of all though there be some evil in others or against it self yet Love is very dark-sighted as to aggravate it and is very hardly brought to believe it but is ready to think all is like it self 13. It hopes all things that is it is very hardly brought off from expecting of good where good should be or is professed to be and though some contrary evil ariseth yet a heart filled with Love is still hoping the best and making the best of it 14. It endures all things In this much is to be minded it endures any hardships to serve what or that it loves it will and doth indure very harsh and hard dealings from others for its loving one censures and another frowns and another throws dirt in its face as they did in the face of Christ for loving of poor souls And again it will endure much hardship and hard usage from that or them it loves before it will
That heart that 's finally forsaken is not nor cannot be sensible that it is so but the contrary as Psal 13. 77.6 7. 4. They are not tender in point of sin but sin without sence As they in Rom. 2. 5. They do not nor cannot long for the returns of Presence for mind God never leaves a love and longing after Presence in a soul that 's finally forsaken if that be there there is Gods pledge to shew he will return 't is that that keeps possession for God till he comes see Isa 54. at large Jer. 31.18 19 20. There is many more but these also are such by which God hath comforted my soul in a time of dissertion Now there be some general Deceits relating to Conversion and the very body of Religion that I desire to leave to my Children and Friends and those Deceits are as follow 1. Deceit is When souls rest satisfied with something that 's like it and yet at that time and also before never passed under or know what it is to be inriched with the nature of the thing as thus Because Conversion is a change therefore any change because it 's a turning therefore any turning because it 's light therefore any light and because there is life and joy therefore if any it must be that Here was the young man in the Gospel deceived Mat. 19 20. And so the Pharises Luke 18.11 12. And so at the last day Mat. 7.22 2. Deceit is the resting satisfied with some thing that doth and must of necessity accompany the truth of the thing and at that time not see nor know it doth truly arise from the truth in them as the only cause as whether that love that comfort that zeal that sorrow that joy doth arise from the truth in them suitable to John 4.14 Rom. 5.4 2 Cor. 3.18 2 Pet. 1.5 6. 3. Deceit is When the soul doth rest satisfied in a bare saying or sight of the Truth both in nature causes and effects and yet then cannot witness either of them truly in themselves only things to be but not in himself in being like them in Jer. 8. apply 5 7 8 verses and Jer. 23.25 26 27. Rom. 2. 4. Deceit is When souls rest satisfied with their state though without witnessing the Truth truly within yet comparing them with themselves or some others that do more differ from the truth than they suitable to Jehu 2 Kings 10.15 and Luke 18.11 12. 2 Cor. 12. to the 17. 5. Deceit is When souls confidently affirm and are perswaded that they are truly inriched with the Truth and yet at that time they cannot witness those things that are unseparable concomitants of truth As First An universal conformity to Truth as David Psal 119.6 Luke 1.6 Secondly An universal Antipathy to all things contrary to it as in Psal 97.16 Psal 119.104 128.113 Thirdly A living growth in or growing up in the Truth Psal 92.12 Ephes 4.15 1 Pet. 1.22 2 Pet. 3.8 Fourthly A feeding upon it not that there is or will be a perfection in action or else no truth but where Life is in the principle there must be a growth in it and feeding on it these concomitants are or else that soul that lives in sence as it judges of having truth in it is deceived 6. When souls rest satisfied in the increase of some thing that doth accompany the Truth of Grace but see not nor have not an increase in the Power or Principle of Truth only in gifts or profession or outward conformity in their lives without or in language and rest there as if all were right 7. When a soul is brought to a sight of the want of Truth and a sight of the worth of Truth and so cries down the living without it and cries up the riches and glory of it and so rests satisfied in a bare seeing the want and crying up the worth and so contents its self in a bare sight and saying without witnessing that Power Riches and Glory in its own soul These Deceits are some of them that attend souls in relation to Conversion and the work of Grace within But there be some Deceits that attend Men Women in their external Walkings or Worshippings I will only hint a few As 1. When things though false yet in their outward appearance are named as God names such things in Scripture that are his true Appointments and so rest satisfied with the customary titles given to it and never search into the nature or truth of it as Preaching Praying Singing Baptism and breaking Bread c. because it is called so therefore it is so 2. Deceit is When the soul doth enjoy a true appearance or appointment and is taken up there in the bare appearance or appointment yet doth not know the true nature of it in its Life and Power 3. Deceit is When the satisfaction of and love to or delight in the nature of truth is only produced by and measured suitable to the measure of their performance or eloquence in it or the warmth and heat they draw from it and not from the light sence and true enjoyment of Presence But no more at this time Just at this time having a Letter from a Friend I shall leave off what I was going on in and in the next place answer that and therefore I think it necessary to write down the Letter it self and so go on in answering of it Octob. 9th 1663. Dear and pretious Brother YOU whom God hath made instrumental of much good to my soul for which I do bless God and do dayly pray that God would give you suitable upholds to carry you through all your sufferings with such patience as your sufferings call for I must confess in some sence they differ from most for not only I but many were at a stand to hear what Censures were passed upon you by such who appeared eminent for God But since I searched and saw they were false I am ashamed of my readinss to receive them These are to intreat your pains now you are confined to mind your promises in giving me the Heads of what you preached from John 3.16 and that from Phil. 1.23 24. about the Immortality of the Soul and a word or two what that Peace is that is purchased by Christ for Christians and whether a peculiar Grace or State and a word or two of the Difference between the Old and New Covenants In doing of which you will refresh the heart of Your loving Friend in the Lord. Now in answer to this Letter I shall begin with the Heads of what I declared of my apprehensions from John 3. the first part of the 16th verse For God so loved the World that he gave his only begotten Son From the words many rich Truths may be observed but I shall first observe something in general You must mind that these words is a reason of what in the 15th verse is affirmed viz. That whosoever believes shall not perish but have
possess us a Deludge in which thousands of souls are lulled asleep and are kept from heart-work thinking all is right within because they are judged and do judge themselves to be right without and that it is so see Mat. 8.11 12. chap. 12.43 44. Mat. 13.20 21. Luke 13.25 26 27. Isa 58.1 2. Because in some of my Queries I mentioned the Sin of Covetousness which is a Sin that is as secret as dangerous I shall briefly here set down the Characters of a covetous-minded man either in rich men or poor men In answer to which first Mind what Covetousness is in the Eye of the Scripture it is an inordinate desire of Gain or Increase Now the Characters must be drawn either from the nature of Covetousness or from a frame of heart not contented with its state for Contentation is set by the holy Ghost in a direct opposition to Covetousness Heb. 13.5 Now in minding what hath been said of Covetousness the Characters of such a mind will the better appear First When they do by unjust and unrighteous Wayes labour to increase their Estates Hab. 2.9 10 11 Micah 2.2 Jer. 6.13 chap. 8.10 chap 22.17 Secondly When they do by any action declare their love to or longing after that which in anothers Deut. 5.21 Jos 7.21 Thirdly When the wants of poor Saints are seen by them or made known to them yet they are not free to communicate to their wants sutable to what God hath blessed them with Prov. 21.26 sutable to that in 2 Cor. 9.5 compared with 1 John 3.17 with Rom. 13. last part of the 9th verse Fourthly When they toyl and labour after Riches as by it they are made to lose their life favour in their language and service of God turning their Christian savour into sadness and losing their former forwardwardness and life in God's wayes by posting after the things of this life 1 Tim. 6.10 2 Tim. 4.10 contrary to Psal 119.36 Fifthly When the love of the world doth not only hold men in but take men off from the Service of God 2 Pet. 2. the last part of the 14th verse joyned with the 15th sutable to Isa 57. apply the 9th and the 10th verse with the 17th verse Ezek. 33.31 These five are to try Rich and Poor but especially the Rich And the Characters of a covetous mind in poor men follow First When they are not chearfully contented with what they have but would have what they have not Heb. 13.5 with a restless mind rising and reasoning against Providence 2. When they appear complaining or repining at their own Poverty by comparing their Poverty with others Riches This is well as the first is contrary to content and so therein Covetousness 3. When they are not free and willing to go on in any way or work for God unless they are by the rich so supplyed that they may be wholly freed from bodily labour Acts 20.33 34. sutable to such in 1 Thes 4.11 2 Th. 3.10 11 12. Now this relates to some but not to all 4. Mind what hath been said from â—oth and you will mind that strait-heartedâ—ess in a Rich man is Covetousness and Discontent in a Poor man at or with his Estate is no less for that which is contraâ—y to Contentation is Covetousness by the Lord so decided Heb. 13.5 c. Disquieted or troublesome or disconâ—ented demands of Poor men to be supplyed â—y the Rich is as sure a Character of Coveâ—â—usness as Strait-handedness in a Rich man â—e supply the wants of the Poor and both are 〈◊〉 be judged Covetousness O how much doth this Sin reign in the â—earts and lives of men and women that pretend much for God and are cryers down of others sins and persons for sinning and at the same time harbour this sin that is no less than Idolatry in their own brest Few or none but will say that it is a sin to own an Idolater in fellowship and that all true Believers are bound to withdraw from them and though Covetousness be the same yet how are poor souls satisfied or at least silent But I shall leave this and say no more to it Some Observations useful for all that fear God but in particular left for my Children VVHen ever a heart hath a sensible injoyment of God and his Love in Christ especially as a return of Prayers mind these things First Expect a fresh assault of Satan with high attempts to draw the soul aside either to looseness under that love or some other evil improvements When Christ was in the Wilderness and was inriched with high Inrichments of God he was presently set on by Satan Mat. 4.1 3 5 8. And as soon as Hezekiah Isa 38.5 was delivered and inriched with God's Love was presently set on to be tempted Isa 39.1 So let all that fear the Lord at all seasons but in an especial manner then double their worth Secondly Sin and Satan never gets into us and is imbraced but as Sin comes God goes and so Sin gets strength and the Soul gathers weakness If so Thirdly That Soul that doth not so much as resist Sin in its first attempts he may be confident he will be overcome O then take this from a soul that hath had experience Keep the watch most over thy heart thy eyes and words Fourthly It is easie to sin God out of sight but not so easie to pray him in If so O stand fast in God's Fear and when most injoyed let him be most prized and Sin most feared Fifthly Sin least seen is the most futile and hardest conquered Then watch and mourn most for that which is least seen Heart-Sin as to men seemeth least but as to God hated most Sixthly No soul seeketh for Pardon suitably unless he is as much and as eagerly desirous of Power against Sin as Pardon Seventhly Sins of Constitution are most to be feared Heb. 12.1 But when Sins of Constitution get into custome then Sin hath got both its wings only a mighty Power of God can conquer it O fear the Sin of Constitution as Death and Custome as Hell for if they once joyn they will cause the soul to fly out of sight of Presence and sight of Experience and all ability to return If so mind When a soul is there to go back it cannot to go forward is death and Hell so then all it can do under its loss is to shrink down into its empty nothing state and lye low in it self with its eye singly on Free-Grace in Christ Eighthly No heart thus truly lying low but is lifted up when up stand in fear sin no more Observations as to Duty 1. Lye low and pray till God come in but pray most when he is come in for the soul prays best when he injoys God most Call while he is near Isa 55.6 Psal 21.13 Cant. 1.4 2. A Soul doth not gain but lose by keeping from Duty for the want of the Life of Duty Observe 'T is good
heat and lifting up must be from presence and yet sometimes this heat joy and liftings up may only arise from the unity of Light and Life for do but mind how Peace doth arise from a bare union of Light and Life if the Liâ—â—â— be but one with the Light and doth not crâ—â—â— it that soul must needs have peace thouâ—â— the Light may be but a deceivable Light 〈◊〉 if the Life cross it not Peace is maintained and many times such souls in such condiâ—â—ons do conclude that their joy and peace from Presence Therefore it doth concus to know the Truth or Deceit of such Jâ—â—â— Peace Confidence and liftings up you 〈◊〉 see the Truth and also the Deceits in what follows As 1. When the increase of Confidence and Comfort doth not crucifie or mortifie sin but leaves the soul or gives the soul as little power against sin as when it first found it unless it be restraint of sin not mortification 2. When the joy and comfort they in joy â—â—â—y it doth not increase more care in their â—atch but the heart growes higher and looâ—er to that work both which you will see by â—â—e difference Christ makes between the â—eart the Devil is cast out of and that the â—evil went out of Mat. 12.43 44 45. 3. When their peace and comfort by it â—â—n and doth allow of private sins and both â—â—â—n subsist and stand together and if at any â—â—e there be any trouble for such sins a litâ—â—â— sorrow with some performance of duties 〈◊〉 lick it whole will end it without fresh â—â—plication of Jesus Christ when as anoâ—â—er heart cannot after so sinning have any â—ace but from a true manifestation of God's â—â—ve in him Psal 51.8 9. Job 34.29 4. When the sence of propriety in God â—â—kes them high and confident in mercies in â—â—es of prosperity but in crosses or time of â—ress their confidence comfort strength â—â—es Prov. 24.10 5. When the soul only takes comfort from or rejoyces in that part of Gods Word which speaks out comfort but not in that which crosses corruption and requires duty Now a true Joy Comfort and Confidence arising from a true sence and sight of propriety in God makes the soul to love and delight in each and all God's Words as well one as the other See Psal 119.57 70 72 77 97. Apply 114. with 127 128 167. 6. If it be true such a soul is made ablâ— by it to distinguish between the comfortâ— that flow from Presence and that which flowâ— from other things though it have an angelical stamp upon it Do but see and apply Exod. 33.23 with 13 14 15. and chap. 34.9 And so David 7. All false Joy and Comfort begins at wrong end as thus all that Joy and Comfort ariseth from sence and 't is sence onlâ— that gives light But true Joy and Comforâ— ariseth from sight and that sight begeâ—sence So Moses Exod. 33.15 16. So Dâ—vid Psal 116.10 and 43.5 That Chriâ—â— intends John 10.4 5. A stranger they will 〈◊〉 hear 8. False Comforts and Joy will triumâ— over unseen sufferings but when seen aâ—â— felt it fails and falls But true Joy Coâ—fort and Confidence from fight of Presencâ— is most weighty and serious and chearfuâ— when suffering for God is seen and felt Sâ—â— David and the three Children and Daniel â—nd Paul and those in Acts 5. ult Rom. 5.1 〈◊〉 c. Now because some have with their false â—iftings up great gifts and parts and so not â—o easiely discovered I will add a few more to â—o these 9. Though they may be imployed in hearâ—ng or declaring such and such Truths yet do not in themselves savour what is said or what they say or declare See John 6.60 10. What ever such have that looks like â—ife yet it lasteth not long but is in a decliâ—ing posture like Ephraim Hos 7.8 9. and Mat. 13.20 21. 11. It 's more troubled at negatives than â—or want of affirmatives that is to say it 's â—roubled sometimes at things that are contraâ—y to life but seldom or never troubled for â—he want of life like the Pharises Luke 4. â— 39 40. So much to this particular In the next place I would lay down some â—rue signes or discoveries whether or no we â—ave the true promised Spirit the Scripture â—peaks of and they are as followeth 1. That heart that is truly inriched with â—he Spirit of God is very chearfully carried â—ut to comply and close with God in all its â—â—ence and sufferings as Job Job 1.31 â—hap 40.5 43.5 So David 2. That heart by it is made capable to distinguish and know God or Christ's Call from all false calls or discoveries though in a night-season See Cant. 5.3 4. 3. To such a heart Presence is alwayes pretious but most pretious when it gives most power against sin Psal 40.1 2 c. 4. It enjoys nothing in its own account livingly and lovingly but when it enjoys Presence clearly Psal 73.25 26. 5. It fears no dammage nor danger when sin is from it and Presence is with it Psal 23.4 27.1 and 112.7 6. It makes the heart to make sweet applications of God's Love in and from the bitterest lashes and out of darkness applications of Light See Micah 7.8 see David 1 Sam. 30.6 2 Sam. 15.24 25. 7. It 's that which leads the Soul not only to but into the Spirit and Life of all Truth John 16.23 imitating-light life and grace only leads to but not into any truth 8. It never gives the soul a fresh view of Christ but it gives the soul a renewed participation of what is communicable by Christ John 16.13 14. 2 Cor. 3. ult 9. It never brings the soul sensible comforts but it livingly sets the soul at liberty not only to live and to love God but it transforms the heart into the Glory of what it injoys or beholds 2 Cor. 3.17 18. 10. That heart that is truly inriched with it it cannot live without it and if without it it is as a body without a soul and mind this that when that lies hid all comforts on this side God cannot make it live till it returns Job 34.29 There is many more but I do but hint at them and that by which God hath in measure satisfied my sould with If any shall object and say that they have felt these or most of these but they are so often eclipsed that they fear it cannot be right and they are often fearful that they had only a sight and taste of it and that God hath finally forsaken the soul I shall only let you know what hath been a comfort to my soul and is a testimony that it 's only Gods hiding his face and not a final forsaking Mind these things 1. If the soul be finally forsaken that soul is willing to be forsaken and not troubled at it but rather rejoyces in it 2. If finally forsaken there is an evil spirit presently possesses it as in Saul 3.
everlasting Life Now that the Comfort of these words may be discovered I shall first observe this general Truth from these words God So loved The word So is so unexpressible so admirable so matchless so that Observe Doct. The Love of God in giving Christ is a rich admirable and unexpressible Love For the opening of this mind 1. Scriptures to prove it 2. We shall by way of illustration lay down many things to make good this Truth As for Scriptures mind these Rom. 5.8 But God commendeth his Love towards us in that while we were yet Sinners Christ dyed for us Ephes 2.4 But God who is rich in Mercy for his great Love wherewith he hath loved us even when we were dead in sins c. chap. 3.19 And to know the Love of Christ which passeth knowledge that ye might be filled with all the Fulness of God In 1 John 3.1 Behold what manner of Love the Father hath bestowed upon us that we should be called the Sons of God! chap. 4.9 10. In this was manifested the Love of God towards us because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world that we might live through Him verse 10. Herein is Love not that we loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be a Propitiation for our Sins See John 17.23 I in them and thou in me that they may be made perfect in one and that the World may know that thou hast sent me and hast loved them as thou hast loved me And you may see what is said of Christs Love in that sence Gal. 2.20 I am crucified with Christ nevertheless I live yet not I but Christ liveth in me and the Life which I now live in the flesh I live by the Faith of the Son of God who loved me and gave himself for me Joh. 13.14 Greater Love hath no man than this that a man lay down his life for his Friend Now for Illustration mind 1. Consider in what relation Christ stood with God when God gave Christ 2. Consider to what God gave him 3. How God gave him 4. For whom God gave him 5. God's Ends in that work Lastly The Improvements 1. In what relation Christ stood with God there was the bond of nature in the highest degree for he was his Son Psal 2.7 I will declare the Decree the Lord hath said unto me Thou art my son this day have I begotten thee Heb. 5.5 So also Christ glorified not himself to be made an High Priest but Him that said unto him Thou art my Son this day have I begotten thee 2. There was the tye of singularity and peculiarity his Son nay his only Son as in this 3d of John had God had another Son in that sence though the giving up had been 〈◊〉 high token of Love yet not so much as in â—his sence his only Son 3. As there was such an high Affinity in Nature so there was an unexpressable heighth 〈◊〉 Unity of Affection See upon God's â—â—de in Mat. 3.17 And loe a Voice from Heaâ—â—en saying This is my beloved Son in whom 〈◊〉 am well pleased and chap. 12.18 Behold â—y Servant whom I have chosen my Beloved in whom my soul is well pleased I will put my Spiâ—it upon him and he shall shew Judgement to the Gentiles and chap. 17.5 While he yet speak â—ehold a bright Cloud overshadowed them and â—ehold a Voice out of the Cloud which said This 〈◊〉 my Beloved Son in whom I am well pleased â—ear ye him and in Mark 1.11 And there â—ame a Voice from Heaven saying Thou art my â—eloved Son in whom I am well pleased and in 2 Pet. 1.17 For he received from God the Father Honour and Glory when there came such a Voice to him from the excellent Glory This is my beloved Son in whom I am well pleased So you may see in Christ what a high unexpressable Love he had to his Father his Fathers Will was his Will and to answer his Fathers Pleasure was so great a pleasure to him that Life and all must go as little enough to speak out his Love Now consider all this and you will see that the one might have restrained God and have tyed up his hands from giving up his Son and Christ might have pleaded on the other side Why me Father why me that am thy only Son c. but God looks over all in this act 4. There were bonds of Honour both on one Throne in one Glory It might seem in the eye of carnal reason to be below God thus to abase Christ and that in relation to a point of Honour O what Love must there be to over-look this 5. He stood related to God as the chief est and eminentest object of his Delight Prov. 8.30 Then I was by him as one brough up with him and I was dayly his Delight rejoycing alwayes before him Isa 42.1 Behol my Servant whom I uphold mine Elect in whom my Soul delighteth I have put my Spirit upon him and He shall bring forth Judgment to the Gentiles O now reason from all and you will not be able to express this Love of God in giving the Lord Jesus Christ as he did O admirable Love Secondly Consider to what God gave him 1. To Death Phil. 2.8 And being found in fashion as a man he humbled himself and became obedient unto Death even the Death of the Cross O could not he have given him to suffering and not to death O what Love must that be that did and could cause God thus to overlook as it were the Love and care of Christ's Life and thus to give him to death 2. The Death of the Cross Phil. 2.8 And being found in fashion as a man he humbled himself and became obedient unto Death even the Death of the Cross and Gal. 3.13 Christ hath redeemed us from the Curse of the Law being made a Curse for us as it is written Cursed is every one that hangeth on a Tree the most contemptible Death that could be a cursed Death a shameful dishonourable Death O see what blessed Love was here shewed in this cursed and shameful Death 3. Not only to death and the death of the Cross but to all the Aggravations that could possibly accompany either As thus 1. He suffered as a Sinner in the highest sence 1 Cor. 15.3 For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received How that Christ dyed for our Sins according to the Scriptures and in the 2 Cor. 5.21 For he hath made him to be sin for us who knew no sin that we might be made the Righteousness of God in him Sins make suffering unsufferable else it is but a chastisment if sin be not in it but if it be then it is a punishment yet even so must our dear Christ suffer as a fruit of the Fathers Love 2d Aggravation was the exercise of God's Rage Fury and Wrath in the Law against Sin this O this in the highest of
well in all states and straits beleive what God saith and consider and reason with thy soul thus Do I want this or that well did God give me his Son the greater and will he withhold the lesser No no. Now mind some Particulars As 1. We may from this be certain of God's Satisfaction by Christ for all Sin for sure God would never have done this had or could there have been a Dis-satisfaction to have over-ballanced his Satisfaction Mind these Scriptures Mat. 13.11 c. Ephes 5.27 O see Heb. 10.10 12 14 17 verses and you will see this made clear 2. To assure us of the certainty of poor Souls Salvation Rom. 5.10 it is there fully asserted from this foundation 3. To assure us That there is no Enemy left unconquered for had any thing been too strong for God this work could not have been accomplished but nothing could nor was too strong for God neither Sin as Rom. 7. nor Law nor Death nor World nor Devil and if so look upon and encounter with all these as conquered before you encounter 4. It 's to assure us That the Foundation of Salvation is more sure than to stand upon such a weak changeable foundation as our duties or goodness is It 's done only and singly by God and the Foundation is as sure as he is 't is alone his rich Love and unchangeable Grace in Christ See the Text c. 5. 'T is to assure us and that with all clearness That God's Love to the worst of Sinners is as great as to Jesus Christ Seeing all this God gave up Christ to was to accomplish not his but their good see John 17.23 24 26.1 Tim. 13.14 O what Comfort is here to a poor soul consider what dear what rich what delightful Love was there and is there in God for Christ and what will this Love carry God to do for Christ do but mind it and then consider that that Love the same Love with all its Riches with all its Strength with all its movings is in the heart of God for me O soul lye down and admire this Love 6. To assure us That as God's Love was not caused by us nor moved or brought forth from any cause in us so it cannot be changed or destroyed by us certainly if Sins foreseen would not nor could not keep God from giving Christ sure when they are brought forth they cannot turn God and Christ from loving of us 7. To assure us in way of Comfort That the whole and full and sole work of suffering for Sin and satisfying of Justice for Sin is done by Christ so that what sorrows and sufferings do attend Saints there is no such end produced by it as to satisfie unsatisfied Justice but all that befals Saints are Fruits of Love to put away Sin Isa 26.9 and to give down more Grace Rom. 5 c. 8. It is furthermore to assure us and that of Certainty from all that hath been said That there is a willingness in God not only to save but to receive poor Sinners into his Grace and Favour or else he would never have given so much to accomplish it all his Cost and Labour declares this which you will fully see if you go over all that hath bee said And further to convince a poor sad sighing Soul of this Truth consider 1st Upon what terms God tenders his Love in Christ see Prov. 9.4 Isa 55.1 Joh. 7.34 Rev. 22.17 c. all is Free 2dly See how God doth beseech intreat and woo souls to entertain and accept this Love in Christ Isa 65.2 Cor. 9.10 Mat. 23. â—7 3dly Consider how long God waits upon poor souls for their receiving and entertaining of this Love though he meets with many Repulses Isa 65.2 Cor. 5.5 Jer. 15.6 4thly Consider how much God bemoans the creature that neglects to imbrace this Tender Jer. 2.14 Mat. 23.37 5thly Consider that after souls have slighted God's Grace and turned their back upon his Tenders and abused his Long-suffering and Forbearance yet if at last they return how joyfully doth he entertain them and not upbraid them See Jer. 31.20 Luke 15.20 Jam. 1.5 Further If thou wouldst see God's willingness to meet with thy desire and willingness minde these Considerations First Consider God is so willing that he woos us to be willing as I said before 2dly No soul is willing so soon but God's willingness was before him and his willingness is a fruit of God's 3dly No soul was ever willing and God or Christ unwilling Joh. 6.37 If anâ—â—â—â— come unto Christ he will in no wise cast hiâ—â—ut 4thly God is willing when we are not willing 5thly Consider That when God's willingness hath begun to beget in a soâ—â—â— willingness if the souls willingness makes him go God runs and if it makes the soul only say I will God saith I do Psal 32.5 O know soul that it is not possible for a soul to be really willing to be saved and God not to save it Did we know what is in God by what is done by God especially in giving of his Son we should believe more and fear and sin less There were many more Particulars that I observed from this Text but I have not time now to relate them only these I thought good in this my time of Confinement to write over in answer to your desire And I wish God may afford you as much comfort from them as he hath to me Amen Amen In Phil. 1. 23d vers with its dependance on the 22d vers and relation to the 24th v. The words are these ver 23. For I am in a strait betwixt two having a desire to depart and to be with Christ which is far better I shall not stand to open the words but take from them in general three Observations As thus Doct. 1. The true sence of the great Priviledges Saints enjoy by Christ when separated from the body of flesh with the consideration of the duties they owe to Christ in the flesh puts the heart in its desires to a great stand Doct. 2. In point of Priviledges it 's best for Saints to depart and be with Christ or to be with Christ is a Saints best being Doct. 3. That heart who doth truly affect its duty to Christ is willing to abide in it though by it he may for a season be deprived of part of his Priviledge And first of the first and in it mind First I shall shew you the certainty of the Souls separation from the body and that it dyes not with the body as some say but when it 's separated it doth enjoy Priviledges with the Lord Jesus Christ as is implyed in this word After I have done that I shall let you know in what sence the Soul is taken and also give you the Scriptures and Reasons that some have to prove the Soul to be mortal with a brief Answer to that And then we shall give you sufficient Scriptures and Reasons that there is
be uncloathed but cloathed upon that Mortality might be swallowed up of Life And now see a little what is at home Phil 3.20 But our conversation is in Heaven from whence also we look for the Saviour the Lord Jesus Christ O! what Sorrows Sins Sighings and Complainings do attend us here But there is freedom from all There is glorious Sights without sinning There is Smiles without Frowns There is Love without Envie There is eternal Embracings without disputings There is all things New and never grows old There is no weariness in that way There is the answer of Faith without Fears There is all delightful Joyes without Tears In a word we shall know as we are known and see God and sin no more O come Lord Jesus come quickly my soul longs for this Love Quest Now if any should say Why then was Paul or any in a strait if this be so they need be in no strait in this debait how could Paul be in a strait Answ From these Causes Cause 1. There is a great union and near relation between soul and body being espoused together by God himself and when the soul groans and longs to be dissolved then Interest and Propriety in this affinity puts in its appeals and so makes a stop or a stand and so produces a Strait Cause 2. Is taken from the nature of Heaven and Glory which is far above and beyond the low capacity of the Soul that though the soul loves it yet when it 's a going it fears and is at a stand or strait Cause 3. Is because the dispute in the Case lies between the Affection and Judgment Now where Affection carries and Judgment joyns in Spirituals it goes delightfully and where Judgment carries and Affection stoops or joyns in with Judgment there it goes on powerfully but when they are divided and there is ground for both both ways there is great struglings and straits so is there in this Case Judgment and Affection look upward and downward Cause 4. Is a point of Interest or Propriety on both sides as in the Text To dye is gain to live is Christ Now you must know that Propriety divided will cause great debates and make the mind thus imployed to be at a stand Cause 5. It is a reasoning between Love and Loyalty Love is a fire or affection that ascends and flies high Loyalty looks to its duty though it be to go backward or forward Now when this comes in competition they will as in this Text cause a stand or strait Cause 6. An unaccustomed Change in any thing will cause a stand or stop and so a strait as the departure of the soul from the body is Cause 7. You must mind that Death is compared to a sleep and no man is willing to go to sleep till he be fully weary and for the most part Death comes to take us from the world before we are fully weary of the world And sometimes there is some work to do and men are not willing without some reasonings to go to sleep before their work is done Some Child to bring up or some Wife to love a little longer or Husband c. These are some of the Causes why Souls are at a stand or strait when Death comes I should now shew you some of the Scriptures and Reasons that some bring to prove the Soul mortal but they are not worth the mentioning only mind their Scriptures Gen. 2.17 Josh 2.13 1 Kings 2.2 Job 4.19 21. Chap. 14.1 2. 7.8 9 10 11 12. chap. 34.15 Psal 89.46 Psal 103.15 16. 115.17 Eccles 3.19 1 Cor. 15.18 these be the most of their Scriptures and the Reasons they draw are from them and they have some natural Reasons but in truth they are not worth the mentioning And as for their Scriptures and their Reasons from thence do but reade the verses before and after and you will soon see the deceit and in all your minding of any thing they say seems of force do but well mind the Reasons and the Scriptures I have here laid down to prove the Soul immortal and you will see the Truth and also the falshood of that sad Opinion of holding the Mortallity of the Soul Now we should make some improvement of this Truth but being streightned I shall leave that Beseeching God to do you as much good in the knowledge of this Truth as he hath done to my soul and so the LORD JEHOVAH be your Strength Now in answer to your desires because I cannot get time to write at large my apprehensions of the difference betwixt the Old-Covenant and the New as the Scripture calls them or the Covenant of Works and the Covenant of Grace Take a brief hint of a few Particulars of the different Property and that thus 1. The Condition of the Old Covenant was such that it did lay an Impossibility of attaining the promised Good by it and that you may see by viewing these Scriptures Lev. 18.5 Ezek. 20.11 Rom. 10.5 Gal. 3.12 2. It kept souls in Fears without any grounds of Certainty or Assurance for that which was done as it might be to day was to do again to morrow as if it had not been before See Heb. 7.19 27. chap. 9.9 and chap. 10.11 3. It was exceeding Costly even so that the Cost did exceed the Comforts all their Service did so declare it see 1 Chron. 21.24 4. The Word or Declaration of it was in comparison with the Declaration of the Gospel but a bare voice or sound of words Heb. 12.9 compared with Act. 15 24. The Promises belonging to it could not take place till the Condition made way and the Condition depended upon an impossibility so that both together in it self did signify but little more than a sound of words in comparison of the Declaration of the Gospel or Covenant of Grace 5. It begat great Fear in all that heard it but the Spirit and Saving-Faith in none see Heb. 12.21 Gal. 3.2 Now blessed be God this is ended and taken out of the way 〈◊〉 And that it is so you may be assured from Heb. 7.12 18. chap. 8.7 13. 2 Cor. 3.17 c. Now the Comforts of this Change lies in the removing of the evil that did attend us in that And 2dly In the Fruition of the Good that is brought in by the New-Covenant or the Covenant of Grace If you enquire after that Good I must tell you it is not to be in its fulness expressed by the tongue of Men and Angels but take a few Particulars that have been of great use and comfort to my soul and they are these First In that the Condition as well as the Promises of Good have their immediate dependance as to performance onely upon God Jer. 31.32 33 34. chap. 32.39 40. Ezek. 11.17 20. chap. 36.25 26 27. c. Secondly The Good of Promises are not caused but causes of Performance so that the good of Promises is the life of Duties So that the
time I spake from with the bare mentioning of the Text and the Doctrine I observed from thence without any more but only the Text and Doctrine and though I cannot mention them in order yet as many as I can remember I shall wishing God may make proof and improvement of them to them that reade them And the first I shall mention is this in Gen. 48.21 But it was not the first that ever I spake from for I cannot nor shall not set them down in order as I tould you Doct. 1. It is the portion of the best of our Relations here below to dye and be deprived each of other Doct. 2. The loss of the best Relation cannot deprive a soul of the Priviledge of God's promised Presence Doct. 3. The sence of the enjoyment of God's presence bears up and ballances the Soul under the loss or separation of outward Relations 1 Cor. 3.18 Doct. 1. Those that will be wise in a Gospel-sence must become Fools Doct. 2. Those that are yet in the worlds wisdome and not yet become Fools in a Gospel-sence their state is a state of deceit We raised all into one Doctrine Those that are not in a Gospel-sence become Fools but are yet in the worlds wisdome their state is not standing but a state of deceit Isa 30.15 Doct. It is God's way to crown and confirm his great works of Restoration by the pouring forth of his Spirit and it is good for Saints to expect and wait for it This minding the time when and the end Mark 13.37 Doct. Watching is a Duty proper for Saints alwayes to be imployed in Ezek. 22.14 Doct. 1. There is a day when God will deal with men Doct. 2. There is no hearts nor hands of wicked men can endure that Day We reduced both into one Doctrine Notwithstanding Gods Long-forbearance and mens foolish-confidence or security yet he hath a day to deal with wicked men in which day hands and hearts that is to say all supports will fail them or they will not be able to endure Cant. 2.15 Doct. There are little yet subtil evils attend the People of God and hinder their growth the sence of which should make them seek to Christ for a removal Zeph. 3.18 Doct. In the latter dayes there will be in the Solemn Assemblys great cause of sorrow and to be really and candidly imployed in it is kindly taken of God Matth. 12. latter end of ver 44. Doct. To have a fair appearance as to Form yet in the heart to be empty as to Life and Power doth not free but further the miserable state of that soul Isa 22. part of the 14. v. Doct. Not to be imployed in the present work of our Generation but neglect to answer God's Call to the present work of the day is a sad sin that God will surely punish 1 Cor. 1.27 first part of the verse Doct. It was the great design of God in his great and Gospel-Work to make choice of or chuse that which the world doth most undervalue Psal 69.32 Doct. 1. God's Goodness to particular Saints especially upon Zions account is matter of great joy and gladness Doct. 2. That Humble souls are only fit to meet God in such imployment Doct. 3. It is not only propper to but the Priviledge of Humble Souls to bless or rejoyce in God's Goodness to particular Saints or Zion in general All was reduced to one Doctrine The rejoycing at or in the Goodness of God to particular Saints especially upon Zions account is a Priviledge and Imployment proper only to Humble Souls Luke 21. first part of the 8th ver Doct. 1. It was Christ's care to forewarn Saint of Deceits Doct. 2. There is and will be variety of Deceits or Deceivers Doct. 3. The sence of the many Deceâ—ts or Deceivers should cause Saints to take heed VVe reduced all into one Doctrine Doct. Saints aswell as Sinners from the advice of Christ and the sence of Deceits ought to take heed Psal 119.1 Doct. There is a blessedness annexed to God's Wayes but properly applicable to none but they that are Pure and Undefiled in them Isa 61.3 Doct. 1. Though it be Christ's work to Proclaim and bring forth Comfort to all sensible sinners yet most eminently to Mourners in Sion Doct. 2. It is a commendable and comely Posture for Saints in Sion to be Mourners Doct. 3. It is not a Saints present enjoyment either of countenance or outward accommodation but a future change that is a Saints gain or ground of Comfort Doct. 4. What Saints appear to be and are in their outward condition in their Sorrow and Sufferings the quite contrary they will be when God appears to dispence his promised Grace and Glory Doct. 5. It is a great part of a Saints Portion to bring glory to God Col. 4.2 Doct. 1. It is the Duty of Saints not only to pray but to continue in Prayer Doct. 2. Watchfulness in Prayer is and ought to be a Saints practice Doct. 3. Thankfulness is part of a Saints compleat Performance of the duty of Prayer First Supplication 2dly Watchful Observation 3dly A thankful Application is comprehended in prayer Act. 15.30 Doct. It was and ought to be the Practice of the Members of Sion especially Ministers to enquire after the state and condition of particular Souls Jer. 6.16 Doct. They and they only prosecute or seek Truth truly that stand in the way of Truth while they seek after it Gal. 6.2 Doct. 1. Among the People of God there are some that are under burthens Doct. 2. The Burthens of particular Saints are not only to be born by themselves but ought to be born by all Doct. 3. The Law of Christ is not performed if that Duty be neglected Rev. 3. last part of the 1. v. Doct. 1. Even in the Church of Christ there are some that have a name to live and yet are dead Doct. 2. To have a name to live and not have the Power and Life but to be dead is that which exposeth the creature to the sad sence of Gods displeasure VVe reduced all into one Doctrine To have a name to live and yet have not the power of Life but are dead their outward propriety amongst Saints will not free but doth rather further their sad censure from God's displeasure Psal 23.4 The presence of God is a sufficient support to Saints in the lowest state or the greatest affliction This in general but in particular see Doct. 1. Afflictions and Death is the portion of Saints Doct. 2. Not the least but the lowest state in Affliction is a Saints portion Doct. 3. This state to Souls is but a shadow Doct. 4. In the lowest state of Affliction Saints have no cause of fear Doct. 5. God's presence with Saints in the greatest Afflicton removes fears or It is enough for souls in any state if God be with them Doct. 6. The true sence not only of God's strength in his Love but souls profit by his lashes doth in
Scepter own Must to themselves now dye For He alone that 's on the Throne Mat. 16.24 25. Gives Life and Liberty Now I true Liberty doe know Isa 61.1 To Christ I 'le praises sing 2 Cor. 3.17 For he through Death will bring me No more to sigh and sin Rev. 2.7 17 I wish this news abroad may spread home Isa 25.8 That all my foes may see Rev. 7.17 21.4 And Saints with understanding read And know my Liberty What if false Witness should arise Jer. 6.13 And labour to betray My Innocency by their lyes Mat. 24.9 and 10.21 My life to take away Yet Christ's Cause I will witness to Luke 21.16 Tho for the same I dye Act. 20.24 21.13 I shall not fear what man can do Against my Liberty For now my soul hath sweet support Psal 27.1 Through Christ my Rock Tower Micah 7.8 In whom's my peace joy and comfort With fresh supplies each hour Hab. 3.19 His Love is now my whole delight Psa 138.7 His Presence stands me by Isa 43.2 I have him alwayes in my sight O here 's my Liberty God is my Witness and my Guide Psal 23.1.2 3 4 5. My conscience to keep clear I know the Lord is on my side Therefore I need not fear Jsal 118.6 Through Christ I am now freed from Jer. 10.11 And Hypocrites cruelty Rom. 8.1 38 So soon as God receives my breath death Act. 7.59 My Soul gains Liberty Patience with Balm my sores supplys Psal 37.3 4 5 7. I live above controul In Prison though my body lies Job 34.29 They can't inslave my Soul My free converse with Christ is sweet Cant. 5.13 Which brings in choice supply Psa 104.34 That they which now my body keep Joh. 14.17 Knows no such Liberty God did for me this place appoint Gen. 45.7 8 Before they brought me here And doth my soul with Grace anoint Mica 7.8 9 That cheerefully I bear Hab. 3.18 And now his Will and Pleasure 's mine Act. 21.13 He doth my soul make free Psa 11.2 6 7 8. To live above though they combine To take my Liberty I know my sufferings will have end Job 23.10 Till then I 'le them endure Hab. 3.2 A Saviour he to me wil send Heb. 10.37 My Freedome to procure Isa 19.20 And though ther 's some that it withstand Psa 91.14 He 'll make them know and see Isa 43.4 That he alone by his own Hand Dan. 3.17 Will gain my Liberty But some Sanballats still do plot Nehem. 6.5 8 12. My Body to keep here Ye Judas-like say they let not But rather would me clear Isa 24.16 But God will one day make them know 1 Joh. 3.12 And they shall not deny That they like Cain have alone Haeted my Liberty Till then I shall with sweet content Job 14.14 Attend on God and say Psa 27.14 That tho their evil bows are bent Psal 62.5 6 7. 21. 8 9 10 11. God doth the Scepter sway And he will turn them upside down And my soul satisfy 2 Tim. 4.8 And he 'l give me th' Eternal Crown Jam. 1.12 In perfect Liberty Rev. 2.10 Amen Amen Come my Lord and Life come quickly saith the groaning soul of P. H. I did intend to have inserted my Reasons that I gave for not taking the Covenant And the Reasons I gave against the Armies signing the Address to make O. C. Protector because as I said before they were such things which some spirits did very much reproach me for But I do not upon second thoughts think it fit to insert here lest by it I throw dirt in the face of some who did out of uprightness of heart in the point of the Covenant follow God in hopes of the Accomplishment of the Latter-Day-Reformation And though the Covenant was a step too low tâ— follow God in the breaking forth of that greaâ— Light and Power by which God will usher-iâ— the Accomplishment of those Prophecies and Promises that relate to Latter-Day-Work yeâ— surely there were many who in uprightness oâ— heart did aim at God and his Interest in that Work seeing no better or larger at that time 'T is good to love all God's Lambs and not tâ— throw dirt at any of them though we should judge them lame Lambs yet if Lambs theâ—â— are to be beloved Now as to the other that is to say my Reasons against the Signing of the Address they were publickly known and so were the dealingâ— of some with me for that matter But lest I should be thought to cast dirt in the face of such thaâ— have dealt so with me I shall forbear I shalâ— rather cross my own heart and follow my Lord in blessing when cursed and in being silent under censures 'T is an evil day but yet that which the Scriptures of Truth have told us of that such things must be not only betwixt Saints and Sinners but between professed Brethren And it is good for all that love and long for the coming oâ— our Lord not only to pray for it but be willinâ— to face and imbrace such sorrows censures and sufferings that attend Latter-day-Work seeing its that which must be and it 's that though iâ— crosseth which ushereth-in the prayed-for and â—onged-for Crown To which Grace and Crown of Glory I leave my self and all who in faithfulness wait for the coming of our Lord. Amen Amen Come Lord Jesus come quickly In the close of this that I have writ it will be convenient to give some account of my Imprisonment now in the Tower and the rather in that one cause of somes censuring me as was and â—s pretended relates to my former Liberty and my present Imprisonment For before I was imprisoned that was as some said the ground of their Jealousy In that so many were imprisoned and yet I that was so notoriously known should be at liberty Though it was well known I was a Prisoner in the Marshal-Generals house I got out only upon 1000 l. bond to appear when sent for What charges I was at and what hardships I underwent I shal forbear to assert but my long Liberty was by some judged a ground of their Jealousie of me And now when I was taken out of my bed the twentieth day of August 1663 and carried before the Secretary Sir Henry Bennet who would â—dmit me to speak but little for my self but sent me to this place And when I told him I must starve if he sent me thither having no means to keep me he did assure me that the King did allow Maintenance for all each Prisoner though to this day which is twenty five weeks I have not had one bit of bread or drop of drink allowed me And had it not been for the goodness of God and some few Friends I
5thly Wheresoever I did or do live it hath been and is my desire to be doing any service or office of love for any and to be bound up from that is death to my very natural disposition But as the case stands with me under this sort of suffering by professing friends whatever I do is converted to evil improvements as witness since I came into this place though I had no allowance yet by the solicitation of a Kinsman â—n Order was procured for my walking sometimes iâ— the Tower with my Keeper I being sickly Prâ—sently these People gave it forth that I had Liberty to do what go where I would so affirmed it as an evidence that my being here was but a cover and yet having this liberty I could 〈◊〉 but improve it to do any service of love for 〈◊〉 of the Prisoners that were in want or sick and that not to my pain but loss as is well knower although not weâ—abâ—â— to bear it yet did takâ— great delight in it when they that did and dâ— carry on this Reproach against me saw it they daily sent in Messages and Messengers to those Prisoners To take care of me and to have nothing to do with me as they told me themselves And so though I see some in want of that Help which I can afford and do delight in the doing of it the Lord knows yet I must forbear doing of it or else in doing I must have my ears filled with such sad sinful Reproaches the sence of which â—ends not only to break my heart but bind up my bands from doing that which is life for me to do 〈◊〉 I am not only made sensible of these 〈◊〉 dangers but senbsile of this present day that 〈◊〉 the time the Scriptures of Truth have to 〈…〉 at Brethren shall betray Brethren a◠〈…〉 â—â—port and we will report Jeâ—◠〈◊〉 〈…〉 Division now is not so much in Pâ—â—â—◠〈…〉 â—ut it 's as much and more in Spirit and 〈◊〉 â—â—â—ple that to unite must be alone the Work 〈◊〉 Almighty God and that in an admirable 〈◊〉 But before this uniting there must and 〈◊〉 be a great of dividing and breaking And beâ—â—â—â— the promised Gathering there will be a greater Scattering in answer to what the Promises and Prophecies in the Scripture hold forth but I shall not enter into that lest I become a new object of somes Reproach but the sence of what I see makes me sensible that it is beyound the art and power of man to turn this stream and should it be by them turned out of one channel into another the Currant will be the same till the promised Power brings the matter into a new Model Till which I heartily wish That all the Sons of Sion would sit still and lie at rest in the Will of God And for my own part I am made so uncapable by these sad Reproaches to help forward the Work of Union that I am made a Cover for the dividing Spirit and to see the present Distractions and the unavoidable Ruine my soul is not able to bear it I had rather if my Father see it good to be enriched with a Jeremiah's frame of spirit to weep alone and to be as a Pelican in the Wilderness mourning away my dayes but in this as in all things I am at the Lords dispose And let him order them to dispose of me as they please So thy pleasure be done O Lord into whose hands I commit my Life and recommend all my Relations and those endeared Friends that faithfully fear thee Amen Amen P. H. A Letter from a Friend Dear Friend I Have heard of your Sufferings and Censures and have by the hand of some Faithful Friends seen something of your Vindication the truth of which I believed before I saw it Only in faithfulness I cannot but tell you that besides what is publickly reported there is something else that is some trouble to some that dearly love you and that is your appearance to withdraw your Affections from some of your Old Friends and your too much love to others which I pray you let me for my satisfaction before I go into the Country have an answer to and not only for my own satisfaction but also to enable me to satisfie any where I come I shall and do daily pray for and sympathize with you as a man of Sorrows for so you are But hoping you will not be troubled at my request I remain Sir yours in the Faith and Patience of Jesus E. D. March the 10. 1663. The Answer My Choice Friend YOurs I received and do rejoyce to see so much of Christian â—eâ—derness towards me and to the Name of Christ it is more than thousands have done that readily believe and readily report but never came to inform or to reform And as to what you say I have heard the same but if you will as candidly hear and consider as you have candidly writ I think you will be satisfied Now that I have forsaken my Old Friends it is in a measure true and I must needs forsake them that will not come near me nor suffer me to come near them and have been and are the chief Instruments in wounding my name and Christ's Name through me and will neither come near me nor suffer others to come but will cast dirt in their faces and must go with it abroad if they shew me any countenance or do me any service this is publickly known and by some felt Now consider and put your self in my condition to forsake where and with whom I am forsaken is no just crime the Righteous God will so judge and my tears for that will witness my Innocency before him to 〈…〉 leave my Cause And as for my too much love or too great to some which is so sadly censure 〈◊〉 answer and that in faithfulness before the Loâ—â— There were so few that did or still do either faithfully love me and in my state and straits faithfully tender or sympathize with me that where I did or do find it I am even overcome with it and t is with me towards them as it was with David's love to Jonathan for sure it was Jonathans sympathizing love which begat that endearedness between them and made them as one soul so it was and is with me 'T is true at first in my sad and unheard-of Sufferings and Censures I looked about me and saw as David did Psal 142.4 and then I was too ready to embrace love and shew love to some whose Principles I could not own when I came to see them but til then I fear I shewed too much love because they appeared to pitty me in my sad trials but God knows I was soon made sensible of that and if I sinned it was there and it hath cost me many tears For I desire to own none but such who live truly in the Life of that Love which lives in Jesus But as for that little Remnant whose soul did and still doth truly sympathize with me and with Tears and Prayers wait at God's Throne for me and for their love to me are Hated and Reproached for my sake I have not nor do not repent of my loving them and had I ten times more than I have it should freely go to reward them for their service and sufferings for me after my Relations were provided for and all is too little my Life cannot answer their love And I know God will not reprove it for as for their Innocency God knows and I know in their love to my soul and body This is a true account of my condition and Affections in this matter So desiring God may keep me and you and all that fear Him faithful owning God's Judging more than mans Censuring walking so that we my render up our Account with joy I Remain Sir Yours in the Truth Tribulation and Travel of Christ Jesus P. H. FINIS