the soul to know that he is not able to satisfie Divine justice and so the Law may be called a School-master to Christ though the Text leads to the Ceremonial the Ceremonies being the Gospel of the Jewes These three steps of Love Christ takes in the Law by his first approach Secondly In his Gospel approach he takes these steps First He holds forth himself to the sinner a Mediator of the New Covenant and a free pardoner of sin this keeps the soul from despair Secondly He lets you know that he is as able and as willing as ever to do it Colos. 1.19 c. This keeps the soul in heart and hope Thirdly By that which they call the Reflex Act he brings home a particular Promise of grace to the soul as Revel. 3.17 and the Spirit of Christ thus argues He that is athirst must freely come But saies the Spirit Thou art thirstie Therefore come freely Thus I use to say A pitiful nasty ragged fatherless friendless Child is lying dying in a ditch A noble bountiful hand means to save him and adopt him first sends a servant to awaken him and bring him to his Court-gate then bids another let him in a third to wash him and put him on clean clothes another to read him the Order of his House another to set him at Table with his Children another to shew him his present and future estate Thus the Spirit of Humiliation first wakens a miserable lost sinner and that by the Law and can onely bring him to the Gate Then Vocation opens the Door Then Justification puts on Christs Righteousness Sanctification teacheth him how to walk taking away the Power of sin Adoption makes him a Brother and gives him his Priviledges And Glory begun here in part by sanctifying shewes him his estate And all this hath its rise from Free Grace Ezekiel 16. for God found us in our Blood The Lord open your eyes and make this a time of Love to you dear Child 27. But whilst I speak to you of Free-grace I must let you know that in the next place I must commend unto you accurate walking as the fruits thereof and for your better understanding I commend unto you divers of the aforesaid Books so my own thoughts are that it consists in all manner of Christian Circumspection Ephes. 5.15 to look within you without you about you beneath you to all and every duty and the rather because God's eye is ever and every where upon you Oh that you could so walk so think and not only so but you have bad men observing who by your negligence may either infest your Liberties or infect you with their Evils or at best be harder drawn-on to the wayes of God by your carelesse example Adde hereunto that you have the eyes of good men upon you and if they be young Christians you may make the Wayes of God like Giants and Brazen Walls unto them carry much difficulty and discouragement with them or if ancient Christians you may send them with grief to their graves by your miscarriages and not only so but the very way of Religion is like a narrow Bridge you need step advisedly that you may keep upon it or if fall you may recover with much trouble there is great cause you should be wise for Free-grace will never teach sin nor folly which that you may have help in consider what is said from the above-said Arguments and weigh them well and not only so but study the Lives of all the Saints in Scripture and do but see what trophees of their failings sin hath hung up and Satan David's sins of Adultery and Murder Peter's Denial of his Master Hezekiah's Pride and Vanity in shewing his Treasury Jonah's Impatience and Folly with the like And see Paul's and Samuel's Integrity Phineas his Zeal Nathaniel's Truth c. On the other hand Oh walk in this Gallery among these Pictures and for your security rest not without Assurance of God's Love which will make you wary Who would endanger it much lesse forfeit it The empty Purse fears not the Thief but the full looks to every Danger every Temptation And really nothing is a greater safeguard than the freeness of this Love communicated to the Soul stay you no-where on this side of it it will keep you steady in a trembling world Thus may you walk and from this blessed Principle dear Child 28. And that all this may be carried-on and is property the life of Faith remember That the hardest thing in the world is To believe in Jesus Christ to these and all other good ends Faith is a short word and easily spoken but Oh how hard is it in the nature of it when if ever the Lord works it in us he findes nothing not a spark of it till he comes nay he finds us opposit to the work of it nay he finds us unwilling to be made willing to close with the offer of Christ though made so freely Hypocrisie and all evil hath its fountain here we believe not all the other graces sink when this fails all must have its cure we bind the lame arm we anoint it we warmit and yet nothing helps because it is out of joynt Oh we believe not Anger rageth Lust provokes Covetousness cozens c. and all is We believe not Nature cannot reach this Art cannot compasse it to look near 1700 years back upon the Son of Mary who was the Son of God lived not forty years preached but three years and half reproached home to his grave and to believe in him for a Savior I say this must be the work of another world and the outstretched Arm of God See Ephes. 1.18 19 20 c. To believe that another will pay all my debts and become poor to make me rich to dye to make me live Oh Miracle of Mercy My Child to believe things incredible to hope things delayed and to love God when he seems angry are Luthers wonders and mine and thine It is unbelief is that death in the pot that lifts up sense that brings an ill report of God that overhastens our mercies and sets God a time for our deliverances Faith is the gift of God and the greatest which overcomes difficulties sets Mercy to work against Justice fetcheth the work done either by without or against Means throws Mountains into the Sea A little little grain like Mustard-seed will do Wonders enliven a dead heart save even a damned soul for such we are This will not be had without the Word and Spirit Rom. 10.17 and the Glory of it See Heb. 11. for this hear beg pray weep fast seek labour strive use violence read ask wish sigh and if you do believe the Lord help your unbelief dear Child 29. In the next which looks like the last indeed I must give you my thoughts about Death which certainly must be your portion though young and I must tell you it is a great word to say I dare dye many Books and
this you must know that all labour tends not to growth no more than Ants grow in bulk though very much in labour Every great Hearer is not a great Grower Nay a tree may grow in parts though not in all Grow soundly in the Root Jesus Christ and the Freeness of his Grace and then you wil not grow as Weeds do but as good Grain To which purpose I advise you observe what you gain against Corruption and so much you may hope you may thrive in Grace as the House of David and the House of Saul Do not therefore keep the Devils counsel but let some able Friend watch you to whom communicate your Decays or Growth When a Ship is observed by a Land-mark her way is easily observed Therfore mind much this one thing in all make much of a Rule and keep to it as few under the warm Gospel but know whether they be hypocrites or otherwise Even so you shall feel your Growth An old stock will not serve turn which hath been the delusion of many when every day needs new Incomes of the Spirit and so advancement to Heaven Long to grow strive to grow bewail decayes grow in both the Tables Duties The Apostle tells us of growth from Vertue yea at last to patience by affliction if we hear the Rod c. Christ's method is He hath all Grace He giveth out what he pleaseth He maintains what he gives He perfects what he maintains He crowns what he perfects And thus Christ loves you more than ever you could hate him without whose watering by his Blood you can never grow The best Evidence of Growth is to grow more humble more holy attend that well and see how it is from Meal to Meal from one Sabbath to another one Sermon to another are you fed or surfeited A very very little Grace if true is saving a little Growth if right is comforting Believe and live Believe and grow all decays comes through want of Faith to fetch blood from the life vein the Lord Christ The South North blow upon thee for Growth my Child 7. In all things as you will have use so you need to study Conscience well for it eats drinks walks sleeps buyes sells accompanies you to every duty service work doing or suffering for which you have Ames his Cases and some others It is a judging your self according to the judgment of God I write none of these Heads to you as intending any common place which this and others would make but only to leave with you a few practical thoughts upon each Our Saviour made the Jews to buy a Knife to cut their own throats when he told them the Parable of the Servants and Son sent and killed and so the Spirit by the Jews Isa. 5. when he made them impannel a Jury among themselves and by Conscience their Judge So Nathan by David it is a witness with a witness and Judge Paramount therefore I wish you to observe it narrowly if you suffer it to be defiled with the least sin whilst it hath life you may hear of it and therefore Samuel and Paul in all kept all clear there the least filth must be washt out by the Blood of Christ David paid dear for it Cains Building and Sauls Harping will do but little to cure it it may be quiet and good unquiet and good and so on the other hand but this I have noted that false Lights or dim ones have helpt much to the violation of it present things and the out-sides of things have also broke in upon it and in sinning whether the wound be in the Head or Conscience first is a question but not hardly resolved Your wisdom will be to live upon a directing word and then Conscience will make a soft bed for you in your greatest sorrow A wounded Conscience who can bear Go to our first Parent and he will tell you so who might have gathered fruit to eat rather than leaves to cover himself Do not grieve Conscience twice it must be your best friend yea when friends and world and all leave you to sollitariness If it whimper a little do not make it roar out and yet do not stifle it but attend it and carry it up to Mount Calvary for peace Remember good Conscience and Sin cannot live together Let but this Bird sing sweetly within and let Heaven and Earth come together thou shalt be safe my poor Child 8. Next I am to remember you that you have much work to do in a little time which calls you up to labour as the Day the Lark and the Lark the Husbandman Eccles. 12. the whole Chapter I hope you have it About Redemption of time you have many Treatises The greatest of your work in your short time is to get Christ and live upon him and to him And this is the life of Faith which you can never live unless Faith have to live upon it self which will digest nothing but word and promises Therefore now you are young lay in a good Stock for Faith to live on but you must do it seasonably you are young I say and may have a little time before you which certainly hath Eternity hanging upon it called a Race a Day or Hour the old World had their Day Jerusalem a Day the Gospel is called the Day of Grace Therefore lay in seasonably and not only so but abundantly for your market may be at the highest foolish Virgins had Oyl in their Lamps none in their Vessels Store is no Sore for you know not what Promises you may need for Want for Reproach for Sickness and Death The Kingdom of Heaven must suffer Violence Violent Faith Love Prayer must storm it The time will come when wishes will not help your own Works and Righteousness will fail Lastly Lay up your stock for Faith conveniently that you may reach a word when you need it most Ah that you would be wise Ask your heart at night what you have done that day in this point because every night may be your last Therefore secure your Principles walk up to the compass of every duty clear your Evidences keep close Communion with God Look out to growing Evils and fit for them And these is the work of your Generation I say it is your work you may easier make barrs to the Sea and order the Influences of Heaven than call back yesterday Therefore work and pray repent believe get assurances of Heaven to day I say to day and be happy for ever Dear Child 9. I must also invite you to Content in a Low Condition for which you have great furtherance as Mr. Burroughs for Contentment whose Writings are all savory But for my own thoughts they are these That though many write and speak of the Contempt of the World some cloyster up themselves from it yet very few are Masters of this Art which the Apostle himself had been long learning Constitution Age Experience Parts Afflictions Fulness Honor Glory will
to pray in praying fast in fasting so to read in Reading Many doutbless take up a cursory trade to read out the Cries of a defiled or rackt Conscience I say Read with delight not as under a load or as a Labourer who waits for the shadow of the Evening which you shall never do unless your Heart be connatural with the Word and therefore remember as Justification takes away Guilt and Punishment Sanctification takes away the Power and Filth Glorification takes away the presence of Sin So Effectual Calling takes away that jarre that is betwixt the Soul and the Law of God by reason of Sin the Called of God read but their Fathers blessed Will in reading his Word his Testament his Legacies his Precepts his Threatnings against Sin c. all which his Childe dilights to hear and read This one Book well read will answer any Question or Case and you 'l finde Solomons Proverbs the best Politicks and Christ crucified the best Divinity But in reading the Scriptures let me reach out this Experience When you have prayed over your purpose that way then in every Chapter first minde the Method then note the hard things you understand not and get helps to clear them to you And Lastly gather out the chief Doctrines oâ— Lessons then in reading onâ— Chapter you may understanâ— many And if you read the Bible with the Annotations oâ— some Divines or the Dutcâ— translated it will not be amiss I have formerly commended to you a Little English Library in this kinde which I now fear your so much altered Condition will not give you time to be vers'd in However Remember David Psal. 119. how every Vers. almost shews Love to the Word And truly you may be assured you shall upon mine and your own Experience finde that you shall have no more Christ nay God Spirit Faith Peace Comfort than you have Scripture Nor will you have any Christ a Saviour that is not a Scripture Christ Oh that the Word may dwell plentifully in you my poor Child 4. Pray continually is the Apostles Counsel to the Thessalonians And for this you may have far better helps then from my unworthy unable self There are many helps to Devotien Mr. Baxter Burrows Gurnal Bridg c. Yet you shall have what I promised even my Experience I hope you know That Prayer is the breathing forth of holy Desires or lifting up the Soul upon God or asking the Things we need from God in and by Christ according to his Holy Will not without Confessions and Thanksgiving This Work must have Time Seriousnesse Composure And this take undoubtedly That Prayers can never fly high where the Person is not accepted can have no strength without Faith About this Duty I must let you know There are Three Miscarriages usually First before the Duty Unpreparednesse Unsuteablenesse reaking hot out of the World Self sin into that service as if men could leap into Gods bosome out of the Devils lap Before Prayer you need to study God your self and the way to him John 6. You need to take a time when he is most like to hear even when he is inditing for you and puts Words into your mouth Hos. 14. The Second Failer in Prayer is When you do not watch to Prayer O the Hurreys of our Hearts the Thorowfare that carries crooked Thoughts through us the Vanity Folly Obliquities of our Spirit As the Heart must be whipt to the Duty so it must be bound fast to it How few pray how many say words Oh How many say their Prayers backwards call him Father who is not their Father would not have his Name hollowed nor his Kingdome come c. 3. And Lastly After this duty there is either an aptness to be proud And adde another Note as if the Lord was in our Debt or upon miscarriage in point of Inlargement we grow weary and peevish and call for our Prayers again if we succeed not as Lovers for the Portion not the Person call for their Love-Tokens back Look on Th. Goodwin on Isa. 55.6 7 8. Be plain and honest with God shew your Sores and his Love to you You cannot be so bad as he is good With the old Martyr I cry Pray pray pray My dearest Child Regard no injury in thy heart 5. Keep a constant Watch upon your whole man for which much hath been written as Mr. Reyners Rule for the new Creature Mr. Brinsleys Watch and many others from the Thonghts and affections to all cases almost But since I promised the Addition of my Experience to your Self I have held that very True noted by David yea by some Heathens That our Life is seventy Years half of which time spends its self in Eating Drinking and Sleeping the Remainder is Thirty Five and of that you may allow the first Fifteen even for Child-hood till when ordinarily little is minded that is solid then Twenty only are left of the Number and of them even half spent in by-business and then tell me how little do we live How needful is it then that you be upon your Watch continually when so many Silver Brooks run by many Doors unregarded It is hard to Watch most are very Drowsie The Disciples themselves could not Watch one Hour My Advice is That mainly you Watch your self in what you are And where you are These Two go far in your Watch to see your self in a good Estate And to be where you should be in your Duty and Employment argues a curious Eye and a careful Head But to be very accurate in your Watch and to keep off from troublesome Anneares keep a Book by you I mean it litterally in which every Night before you sleep you set down on the one side the Lords gracious Providence and Dealings with you and your dealings with him on the other side This Watch well kept fits for Prayer Fastings Sabbaths Sacraments and Death upon which Judgment follows I pray Watch so That Thoughts Affections Head Heart Hand Foot and all have a share in and benefit by the Work The Flesh and the World in all the Pleasures and Profits of them send up fumes to the Head occasioning sleep Therefore the Lord is forced to keep us waking by Affliction as the Thorn to the singing Bird David sought God early The Three Women early looking after Christ Remember thy Creator betimes And this Watching is the Circumspect Walking Ephes. 5.16 Look round about you continually as if you walked with God as Enoch before God as Abraham or after God as David he walked in God's wayes If you do not Watch you will be Tempted I say Tempted The Lord watch over thee that thou mayest watch my dearest Child 6. For thy growth in grace I am the more zealous because 2 Pet. 3.18 the Apostle propounds it as a Cure against all the Errors of the wicked For this also there are divers helps as M. Symmons his Cure to Distressed Consciences a Choice Piece and many others But