Churches of Macedonia liberallie not onelie according to their power but also straining themselues beyonde their power Yea this reliefe must goe further euen to the bestowing of a mans life if neede so require As saint Iohn saith Hereby wee haue perceaued Loue that hee laide downe his life for vs therefore wee ought also to laie downe our liues for the bretheren L The fourth worke is true praier and saint Luke setteth out the faithfull and the children of God by this description That they call on the name of the Lorde As on the contrarie it is saide of the wicked That they call not vpon GOD. The true Christian calleth on the Lorde in truth For the spirite of adoption which is the spirite of Praier is his Schoolemaister to teach him to doe it In Praier hee is thus disposed First before hee praieth hee is stricken with some feare and reuerence in regarde of GODS Maiestie for hee considereth that praier is a familiar talking with God Secondlie hee is inwardlie touched with a liuelie feeling of his owne wants but especially hee is vexed and grieued at his owne sinne and rebellion and this sense of his miserie is as a spurre to quicken his benummed heart Thirdly hee humbleth himselfe before his God and laieth open his heart before the Lorde shewing a feruent and longing desire to obtaine those thinges of which he findeth an extreame want in himselfe as the Prophet Dauid did whose desire was like the yawning of the drie ground and this proceedeth from the spirite of God which stirreth vp groaninges in the heart which a man oftentimes for his life cannot expresse Fourthlie when hee maketh his request hee doubteth not but by faith hee beleeueth that God will graunt his requestes which hee maketh according to his worde The ground of this perswasion is double First Christ Iesus by whose merites as hee hath obtained remission of sinnes so he looketh to obtaine all things else The other ground is the comfortable promises of God which he hath made that he will heare them who truely call vpon him Fifthlie hee praieth not for a brunt or two but hee continueth in praier And although God seeme not to heare him at the first yet hee patiently waiteth on the Lord and still calleth vpon him LI The first worke is to walke in some lawfull calling with painefulnesse and vprightnesse so that in performing all the dueties of it a man may keepe a good conscience before God and men Thus Dauid determined to walke in the gouernement of his house and kingdome I will doe wiselie saith hee in the perfect waie till thou commest to mee I will walke in the vprightnesse of mine heart in the middest of mine house I will sette no wicked thing before mine eies I hate the worke of them that fall awaie it shall not cleaue vnto me This sinceritie of Dauids behauiour in his calling made him bold to offer himselfe to be tried not onely by men but much more by the Lord God himselfe and to bee punished accordingly Iudge mee O Lorde saith hee for I haue walked in mine innocencie prooue mee O Lorde and trie mee examine my reines and mine heart So vpright and cleare was hee in all his doings LII Thus much of faith and the benefites that come by faith Nowe followeth the spirituall exercise of a Christian in his manifolde temptations which are in this life inseparable companions of grace The reason is because the diuell hateth Christ with a deadly hatred and sheweth this hatred in a continuall persecution of his members as saint Iohn saith the Dragon was wroth with the Woman and went and made warre with the remnant of hir seed which kept the commandementes of God and haue the testimonie of Iesus Christ. Now therefore as soone as Christ Iesus beginneth to shewe anie token of his loue to anie man the Deuill contrariwise sheweth foorth his enmitie and stirres vp his fellow champions the flesh and the worlde to war against him for his confusion And furthermore the Lord in great wisedome permits temptations to the last ende of a Christian mans life to trie his faith to purge him of sinne to humble him and to make him depende of his maiestie to quicken and reuiue the graces of his spirit which otherwise would be dead and decay LIII The temptations of a Christian are specially sixe The first is when inwardly in his hart he is drawen away and entised by his owne concupiscence vnto anie sinne The Christians exercise in temptation is fight and battell betwixt the flesh and the spirit And this fighting standeth in foure things First the flesh stirres vp euill thoughtes and desires as a burning furnace continually â—endeth vp smoke and sparkes of fire and it â—ggeth a man forward to euill wordes and deeeds according to that of Saint Marke For from within euen from the hart of man proceed euill thoughts adulteries fornications murders theftes couetousnes wickednes deceite vncleannesse a wicked eye backbiting pride folishnes 2 The flesh hindreth and choketh the good motions desires of the hart as Paul saith I see an other law in my members rebelling against the law of my mind and leading me captiue to the law of sinne which is in my members Again the same flesh mingleth euerie good motioÌ„ and desire with some corruptions so that the godlie mislike the best thing they doe Esay saith of his owne the peoples righteousnes that it is but as a menstruous cloute The prayers of the saintes must be performed with swete odours before they can ascend vp sweete sauorie into the nostrilles of God And Paul said of himself he did that which he disliked not that he was ouertaken with grosse sins but because when hee was to do his dutie the flesh hindred him that he could not do that which he did exactly and soundly according to his wil and desire euen as a man who hath a iorney to go his mind is to dispatch it in all hast yet when he is in his trauel he goes but slowly by reason of a lamenesse in his ioints 3 The spirit on the contrarie kindles in the hart good motions desires puts a man forward to good words and deeds as it was in Dauid I will praise the Lord saith he who hath giuen me counsell my reines also teach me in the night season 4 The spirit rebuks a man for his euil intents desires and represseth the face of them and as it were nips them in the head Thus Esay describeth the inward motions of the spirit And thine eares shal heare a word behind thee saying this is the way walke yee in it when thou turnest to the right hand and when thou turnest to the left And Saint Iohn saith The spirit iudgeth the world of sinne This was in Dauid who when he did
indeede yet in the faithfull it wil be so for they haue in their harts a perswasion that wheras they are daÌ„ned in theÌ„selues yet in Christ the mercie of God is most plentiful to their saluation and all this God confirmeth and sealeth vnto them by his holie spirite and therefore they cannot but loue God again and that with a feruent loue euen aboue al things in the world and so they loue all Gods creatures and euen their enemies because they beare the image of God whom they loue like as if I haue a friend and loue him I loue all of his name all his kinred and all that appertaine vnto him And by the waie here is a good waie to know whether we haue faith or not Though faith onelie iustifie and make the marriage betweene our Soule and Christ and is properlie the marriage garment yea and the signe Tau that defendeth vs from the smiting and power of euill Angels anâ— is also the rocke on which Christs Churcâ— is built and standeth against all weather oâ— winde and tempest yet is faith neuer seuâ— red from hope and charitie then if a man will be sure that his faith is perfect let him examine himselfe whether he loue the law and in like manner if he will know whether hee loue the lawe that is loue God and his neighbour then let him examine himselfe whether he beleeue in Christ onelie for the remission of sin and obtaining the promises made in the scripture And euen so let him compare his hope of the life to come with faith and loue to the hatred of sin in his life which hatred the loue of the law ingendreth in him And if they accompanie not one another all three together then let him be sure all is but hypocrisie Timoth. Yet by your leaue faith cannot make a man iust before God without hope and charitie then they also with faith haue some stroke in iustification Euseb. I answere though they be inseparable yet I praise God I doe conceiue howe these three haue three separable sundrie offices Faith onlie is an vndoubted sure â—oue in Christ in the father through him â—ertifieth the conscience that the sin is forgiueÌ„ the daÌ„nation of the law taken awaie And with such perswasions mollifieth the â—art maketh it loue God again his law And as oft as we sin faith only keepeth that we forsake not our profession and that loue vtterlie quench not hope faile onlie maketh the peace again for a true beleeuer trusteth in Christ alone and not in his own workes nor ought else for the remission of sins The office of loue is to powre out againe the same goodnes that it hath receiued of God vpon hir neighbor to be to him as it feeleth Christ to be to it self The office of loue is onelie to haue compassion and to beare with hir neighbour the burden of his infirmities 1. Pet. 4. Loue couereth the multitude of sins that is to saie coÌ„sidereth the infirmities interpreteth al to the best taketh for no sin at al a thousand thinges of which the least were inough if a man loued not to goe to lawe for to trouble disquiet an whole Towne and sometime a whole Realme too The office of hope is to comfort in aduersitie and to make patient that we faint not nor fall downe vnder the Crosse or cast it of our backes Thus these three inseparable haue separable offices effects as heat drynes being inseparable in the fire haue yet their separable operations for drynes onelie expelleth the moistnes of all that is consumed by fire and heaâ— onelie destroieth the coldnes And it is not all one to saie the drynes onelie and the drynes that is alone neither is it all one to saie faith onelie and faith that is alone Timoth. You are to be commended you are so perfect in these high points of religion but I know you speake of experience for in you faith hope towardes God charity towards your neighbor are inseparable Euseb. I require no commendations shame and confusion befall mee eternallie that all glorie may be vnto God Timoth. But let vs talke on further of our dueties which we must performe if we will liue Christian like among men And I praie you tell mee what doe you meane that you giue so much vnto the poore considering you are so poore your self I speake my conscience if you had abilitie you woulde doe more theÌ„ an hundred of those rich men do Euseb. God knowes my heart it is a hell vnto me to see my brother for whom Christ shed his bloud to want if I haue anie thing in the world to giue him Among Christian men loue maketh all things common euerie man is others debter and euerie man is bound to minister to his neighbour and to supplie his neighbours lacke of that wherewith God hath indued him Christ is Lord ouer all euerie Christian is heire annexed with Christ therefore Lord ouer all and euerie one is Lord of whatsoeuer another hath if then my brother or neighbour need I haue to helpe him and if I shew not mercie but withdrawe my hands from him then rob I him of his owne am a thief A ChristiaÌ„ maÌ„ hath Christs spirit now Christ is merciful if I shall not be mercifull I haue not Christs spirit if I haue not Christs spirit theÌ„ am I none of his And though I shew mercie vnto my brother yet if I doe it not with such burning loue as Christ did vnto me I must knowledge my sinne and desire mercie in Christ. Timoth. If a man must be franke and free then a man must giue of his owne stocke to the poore and diminish his own substance Euseb. Yea indeed we are made stewards of those goods which God hath giuen vs shal a steward take all vnto himself without reproof I am sure that they which were couetous at Peters first Sermon after Christs ascention diminished their substance when they sold them gaue them to the poore I am sure that the Churches which were in Macedonia which sent reliefe vnto their Churches euen aboue their abilitie they beeing in extreame pouertie did dimisse their possessions and God graunt our conuersations may be like theirs And that wee should be like theÌ„ their examples of great compassion are recorded in the Scriptures Tim. Many of vs haue our selues wife children father mother kinsfolke to relieue so y t it wil be hard to deale after this manner Euseb. Had not these men I named so yea I warraÌ„t you had they And the waÌ„t of loue which you deeme of the Gospell of Christ knoweth not y t a maÌ„ should begin at himself theÌ„ desceÌ„d I wot not by what steps Loue seeketh not hir own profit but maketh a ma to forget himself turn this profit to another maÌ„ as Christ sought not himself or his own profit but ours This terme
any euill his hart smote him 2. Sam. 24. 10. Out of this doctrine issueth a notable difference betwixt the wicked the godly In the godly when they are tempred to sin there is a fight between the hart the hart that is betwene the hart it self In the wicked also there is a fight when they are tempted to sinne but this fight is onely betweene the heart and the conscience The wicked man whatsoeuer hee is hath some knowledge of good and euill and therefore when hee is in doing anie euill his conscience accuseth checketh and controuleth him he feeles it stirring in him as if it were some liuing thing that crauled in his body and gnawed vpon his hart and therevpon he is verie often greeued for his sinnes yet for all that hee liketh his sinnes verie well and loueth them and coulde finde in his hart to continue in them for euer so that indeede when hee sinneth hee hath in his hart a striuing and a conflict but that is onlie betweene himselfe and his conscience But the godlie haue an other kinde of battell and conflict for not onelie their consciences pricke them and reproue them for sinne but also their hartes are so renewed that they rise in hatred and detestation of sinne and when they are tempted to euill by their flesh and Sathan they feele a luste and desire to doe that which is good LIIII The second temptation is a quietnesse in the hart of a Christian because hee cannot according to his desire haue fellowshippe with Christ Iesus hee is exercised in this temptation on this manner 1 Christ let him see his excellencie how he is affected towards him 2 Then the Christian considering this desireth Christ and his righteousnes 3 He delighteth himselfe in Christ and hath some inioying of his benefits 4 Then he comes into the assemblie of the Church as into Gods wine-celler that in the word and sacraments he may feele a greater measure of the loue of Christ. 5 But he falles loue sicke that is hee becomes troubled in spirit because he cannot eioy the presence of Christ in the saide manner as he would 6 In this his spirituall sicknes hee first feeles the power of Christ supporting him that the spirite bee not quenched and hee heares Christ as it were whispering in his heart as a man speakes to his friende when hee is comming towardes him a farre off 7 After this Christ comes neerer but the Christian can no otherwise enioy him then a man enioyes the companie of his friend who is on the other side of a wall looking at him through the grate or lattesse 8 Then his eyes are opened to see the causes why Christ so withdrawes himselfe to be his owne securitie and negligence in seeking to Christ his slacknes in spirituall exercises as in prayer and thankes-giuing the deceiptfulnesse and malice of false teachers 9 Then he comes to feele more liuelie his fellowship with Christ. 10 Lastlie he prayeth that Christ would continue with him to the end LV The third temptation is trouble of mind because there is no feeling of Christ at all who seemeth to be departed for a time The exercise of a christiā in this tentatiō is this 1 The poore soule lying as a mā desolate in the night without comfort seekes for Christ by priuate prayer meditation but it will not preuaile 2 He vseth the helpe counsel praier of godlie brethren yet Christ cannot bee found 3 Then hee seekes to godly ministers to receiue some comfort by them by their meanes he can feele none 4 After that all meanes haue bene thus vsed and none will preuaile then by Gods great mercie when he hath least hope hee finds Christ feeles him come againe 5 Presently his faith reuiueth and layeth faster hold on Christ. 6 And he hath an earnest fellowshipp◠with Christ in his hart as before 7 Then comes againe the ioye of the holie ghost the peace of conscience as a sweete sleepe falles vpon him 8 Then his hart ariseth vp into heauen by holie affections and prayers which doe as pillers of smoke mount vpward sweet as myrrhe incense 9 Also hee is rauished there with the meditatiō of the glorious estate of the kingdome of heauen 10 He labours to bring others to consisider the glorie of Christ his kingdome 11 After all this Christ reueiles to his seruāt what his blessed estate is both in this life in the life to come more cleerely thē euer before makes him see those graces which he hath bestowed on him 12 Then the Christian prayeth that Christ would breath on him by his holy spirite that hee may bring forth the fruites of those graces which are in him 13 Lastlie Christ graunteth him this his request LVI The fourth temptation is securitie of hart rising of ouermuch delight in the pleasures of the world The exercise of a Christian in this temptation is this 1 He slumbers and is halfe a sleepe in the pleasures of this world 2 Christ by his word and spirit labours to withdrawe him from his pleasures and to make him more heartilie receiue his beloued 3 But he delayeth to doe it beeing loth to leaue his ease and sweet delights 4 Then Christ awakes him and stirres vp his heart by making him to see the vanitie of his pleasures 5 He then beginnes to be more earnestlie affected towards Christ. 6 With sorrowe hee settes his heart to haue fellowship with Christ after his olde manner and this he expresseth by bringing foorth sweete fruites of righteousnes 7 Then hee feeleth that Christ hath withdrawen his spirit 8 He almost dispaires for this 9 Yet by priuate praier seeks for Christ. 10 When that will not helpe he resorts to the ministers of the word at whose hands hee finds no comfort but discomfort 11 Not recouering his first estate through impatience of the loue of Christ hee makes his miserie knowen to strangers to see if they can comforte him and hee somewhat comforts himselfe in describing Christes excellencie to them 12 They then are rauished with him to seeke Christ and require then to knowe where to finde him 13 Answere is made in the assemblies of the Church 14 After this cōmunication the Christians faith and feeling reuiueth Christ returning to him againe 15 Thē Christ assureth him in his hart of his loue and liking towards him 16 Giuing further assurance to him that he shall grow vp and be made fruitfull in euerie good grace 17 m After this the Christian comes in such a high measure to loue Christ that nothing shal be able to seuer him from Christ. LVII The first temptation is a fall into some great sin as Noah into drunkennes Dauid into adulterie and murder Peter into the deniall of Christ. The exercise of a
euen of religion whereof I see you are an olde professor And first of all let me be bold to aske this question of you how it pleased God to make you a true Christian and a member of Christ Iesus whom I see you serue continually with a feruent zeale Eusebius For that olde acquaintance that was betweene vs and for that you are desirous to liue a godly life in Christ Iesus I will not conceale the good worke of my God in me therefore I pray you marke a little what I shall say and I will declare vnto you the truth euen foorth of the feeling of mine owne conscience The fall of Adam did make mee the heire of vengeance and wrath of God and heire of eternall damnation and did bring mee into captiuitie and bondage vnder the Diuell And the Diuell was my Lorde and my ruler my heade my gouernor and my prince yea and my god And my will was locked knit faster vnto the will of the Diuell then coulde an hundred thousand chaines binde a man vnto a post Vnto the Diuels will did I consent with all my heart with all my minde with all my might power strength will and life so that the lawe and will of the Diuell was written as well in my heart as in my members and I ran headlong after the Diuel with full soule and the whole swing of all the power I had as a stone cast vp into the aire commeth downe naturally of it self with al the violent swing of his own weight O with what deadly venemous heart did I hate mine enimies with howe great malice of minde inwardlie did I sley and murther With what violence and rage yea with what seruent lust committed I adulterie fornication and such like vncleannes With what pleasure and delectation like a glutton serued I my bellie With what diligence deceiued I Howe busilie sought I the things of the world whatsoeuer I did worke imagine or speak was abhominable in the sight of God for I could referre nothing vnto the honour of GOD neither was his lawe or will written in my members or in my hart neither was there anie more power in me to followe the will of GOD then in a stone to ascend vpward of it selfe And besides that I was a sleepe in so deepe blindnesse that I could neither see nor feele in what miserie thraldome and wretchednes I was till Moses came and awaked mee and published the lawe When I heard the lawe truelie preached how that I ought to loue and honour God with all my strength and might from the lowe bottome of the heart because hee did create mee lord ouer it and my neighbour yea mine enemies as my selfe inwardlie from the ground of my heart because God hath made them after the likenesse of his owne Image and they are his sonnes as well as I and Christ hath bought them with his bloud and made them heires of euerlasting life as well as I and howe I ought to doe whatsoeuer God biddeth and to abstaine from whatsoeuer God forbiddeth with all loue and meekenesse with a feruent and burning lust from the entire of the heart Then beganne my conscience to rage against the lawe and against God No sea bee it neuer so great a tempest was so vnquiet for it was not possible for mee a naturall man to consent to the lawe that it should be good or that God should be righteous which made the lawe in as much as it was contrarie vnto my nature and damned mee and all that I could doe and neuer shewed mee where to fetch helpe nor preached any mercy but onelie set mee at variance with God and prouoked and stirred mee to raile on God and to blaspheme him as a cruell tyrant And indeed it was not possible to doe otherwise to thinke that God made me of so poisoned a nature and gaue me an impossible lawe to performe I beeing not borne againe by the spirite and my wit reason and will beeing so fast glewed yea nailed and cheined vnto the wil of the Diuell This was the captiuitie and bondage whence Christ deliuered mee redeemed and loosed me His bloud his death his patience in suffering rebukes and wronges and the full wrath of God his prayers and fastings his meekenes fulfilling the vttermost points of the lawe appeased the wrath of God brought the fauour of God to mee againe obtained that God should loue mee first be my father and that a mercifull father that would consider my infirmitie weaknesse and would giue mee his spirit againe which hee had taken awaie in Adam to rule gouerne and strengthen mee and to breake the bandes of Sathan wherein I was so straight bound When Christ was on this wise preached and the promises rehearsed which are cōtained in the booke of God which preaching is called the gospell or glad-tidings and I had deepelie considered the same then my heart began to waxe soft melt at the bounteous mercie of God and kindnesse shewed of Christ. For when the gospell was preached the spirite of God me thought entred into my heart and opened my in warde eyes and wrought a liuely faith in me and made my woful conscience feele and taste how sweet a thing the bitter death of Christ is how merciful louing God is through Christs purchasing and merits and made mee beginne to loue againe and to consent to the lawe of God how that it is good and ought so to bee and that GOD is righteous that made it lastlie it wrought in me a desire to bee whole and to hunger and thirst after more righteousnesse and more strength to fulfil the law more perfectlie and in all that I doe or leaue vndone to seeke Gods honour and his will with meeknesse euermore condemning the imperfectnes of my deeds by the law Now then this good work of God to my saluation standeth in two pointes the working of the law and the working of the gospell the preaching of the lawe was a key that bound and damned my conscience the preaching of the gospell was an other key that loosed me againe These two salues I meane the lawe the gospell vsed God his preacher to heale and cure mee a wretched sinner withall The lawe did driue out my disease and made it appeare and was a sharpe salue and fretting corasiue killed the dead flesh and losed and drewe the sore out by the roote and all corruption It pulled from me all trust and confidence I had in my selfe and in mine owne workes merits deseruings and ceremonies and robbed me of all my righteousnes made me poore It killed me in sending me downe to hell and bringing mee almost to vtter desperation prepared the way of the Lord as it is written of Iohn Baptist. For it was not possible that Christ should come vnto mee as long as I trusted in my selfe or in any worldly thing or had anie righteousnes of mine owne or riches of holie workes
Then afterwarde came the Gospell a more gentle plaister which â—oupled and swaged my wounds of my conscience and brought me health It brought the spirit of God which loosed the bandes of Sathan and coupled me to God his wil through a strong faith ferueÌ„t loue Which bands were to strong for the Diuell the world or anie creature to loose And I a poore wretched sinner felt so great mercie that in my selfe I was most sure that God would not forsake mee or euer withdrawe his mercie and loue from mee And I boldlie cryed out with Paul saying Who shall separate me from the loue of GOD c. Finallie as before when I was bound to the Diuell and his wil I wrought all manner of wickednes for I coulde doe no otherwise it was my nature euen so nowe since I am coupled to God by Christes bloud I do good freelie because of the spirit and this my nature And thus I trust I haue satified your first demaund Timoth. Yea but mee thinkes you doe too much condemne your self in respect of sinne For I can remember that from your child-hood your were of a good and gentle nature and your behauior was alwaies honest and ciuill and you could neuer abide the companie of them which were roisters and ruffians and swearers and blasphemers and contemners of Gods word and drunkards which nowe are tearmed good fellowes And your dealing with all men hath beene euer commended for good faithfull and iust What meane you then to make your self so abhominable and accursed and to say you were so wholie addicted vnto wickednesse and your will so fearefully and miserablie in captiuitie vnto the will of the Diuell Euseb. Brother Timoth. I know what I say God giue mee grace to speake it with more liuelie feeling of my weaknes with a more bitter detestation of my sinne By nature through the fall of Adam am I the childe of wrath heire of the vengeance of God by birth yea and so from my first conception And I had my fellowshippe with the damned diuels vnder the power of darknes and rule of Sathan while I was yet in my mothers womb and although I showed not the fruites of sinne as soone as I was born nor loÌ„g after yet was I full of the naturall poyson froÌ„ whence all wicked deeds do spring caÌ„not but sin outwardly as soone as I am able to work be I neuer so yong if occasion be giuen for my nature is to sinne as is the nature of a serpent to sting and as a Serpent yet young or yet vnbrought foorth is full of poyson and cannot afterwarde when time and occasion is giuen but bring forth the fruites thereof And as an Adder a Toad or a Snake is hated of man not for the euill it hath done but for the poyson that is in it and hurt which it cannot but doe so am I hated of God for that naturall poyson which is concieued and borne with mee before I doe anie outwarde euill And as the euill which a venemous worme doth maketh it not a serpent but because it is a venemous worme therefore doth it euill and poysoneth euen so doe not our euill deedes make vs euill first but because wee are of nature euill therefore doe we euill and thinke euill to eternall damnation by the lawe and are contrarie to the will of God in our will and in all things consent vnto the will of the fiend Timoth. As yet I neuer had such a feeling of my sinne as you haue had and although I woulde bee loth to commit anie sinne yet the lawe was neuer so terrible vnto me condemning me pronouncing the sentence of death against mee and stinging my conscience with feare of euerlasting paine as I perceiue it hath beene vnto you therefore I feare oftentimes least my profession of religion should be onelie in truth meere hypocrisie I praie you let me heare your minde Euseb. A true saying it is that the right waie to goe vnto heauen is to sayle by hell and there is no man lyuing that feeleth the power and vertue of the bloude of Christ which first hath not felt the strange paynes of hell But yet in these paines there is a difference and it is the will of God that his children in their conuersion shall some of them feele more and some lesse Ezechias on his death bedde complaineth that the Lorde breaketh his bones like a Lion that he could not speake by reason of paine but chattered in his throte like a Crane and mourned like a Doue Iob saith that God is his enemie and hath set him vp as a marke to shoote at and that the arrowes of the almightie are vpon him and that the poison of them hath dronke vp his spirite Dauid bewaileth his estate in manie Psalmes but especiallie in the 130. Psalme where he beginneth on this manner Out of the deepe places haue I called vnto thee O Lorde which is as though hee shoulde saie O my poore soule fall not flatte downe vexe not thy selfe out of measure the burden of thy sinnes presse thee sore indeede but bee not for all that quite ouerwhelmed thou art thrust downe so lowe into the depth of deepes that thou had neede crie aloude to bee hearde of him which dwelleth in the highest heightes and the euerburning hell fire is not farre from that lake whither thine iniquities haue pluÌ„ged thee â—o that thou maiest perceiue as it were the Eccho of their cries and desperate howâ—nges which bee there cast out of all hope of euer comming forth But the Lord which bringeth foorth euen to the borders of hell his best beloued when they forget them selues knoweth also how well to bring them backe againe Goe no further then downwarde but liâ—t vp thy heart together with thine eie and seeke vnto the Lord to reach vnto thee his mercifull and helping hand Againe in the scriptures wee finde examples of men conuerted vnto the Lord without anie vehement sorrowe of their sinnes What anguish of coÌ„science had the theefe vppon the crosse for his former life in his present conuersion at the houre of death How was Lidia dismayed and cast downe in respect of hir wickednesse like as Dauid was or Iob whose heart God onelie is saide to haue opened to giue attendance to the preaching of Paul and Silas who also euen presentlie after was readie to entertaine them and to make them a feast in hir house which she could not haue done if shee had beene in the perplexities of Ezechias or Dauid The same may be spoken of the Iailer and of them which hearde Peters Sermon at Ierusalem who for all that they had murdred our Sauior Christ yet in their conuersioÌ„ their harts were onely for the time pricked So then God in preparing vs which in truth are nothing but fleshly and stincking doung-hils of sinne nay verie vncleannesse pollution it selfe I saie in preparing vs to be the teÌ„ples of his holy spirit
spirite which in me so fight perpetuallie the one against the other that I must goe either backward or forwarde and cannot stand long in one state If the spirite ouercome in tentations then is shee stronger and the flesh weaker But if the flesh get a custome then is the spirit none otherwise oppressed of the flesh then as though she had a mountaine on hir backe and as we sometime in our dreames thinke we beare heauier then a milstone on our breasts or when we dreame nowe and then that wee would runne awaie for feare of some thing our legges seeme heauier then leade Euen so is the spirite oppressed and ouerladen of the flesh through custome that shee strugleth and striueth to gette vp and to breake loose in vaine vntill the God of mercie which heareth my grone through Iesus Christ come and lose hir with his power and put something on the backe of the flesh to keepe hir downe to minish hir strength and to mortifie hir So then no sinner I am if you regard the spirit the profession of my heart toward the lawe of God my repentance and sorrowe that I haue both because I haue sinned and am yet full of sinne looke vnto the promises of mercie in our Sauiour Christ and vnto my faith A sinner am I if you looke to the frailty of my flesh which is a remnant of the olde Adam and as it were the state of the wild oliue tree euer and anone when occasion is giuen shooting forth his branches leaues bud blossome and fruite also which also is as the weakenes of one that is newlie recouered out of a great disease by the reason whereof all my deedes are imperfect and when occasions be great I fall into horrible deeds and the fruit of the sinne which remaineth in my members breaketh out Notwithstanding the spirit leaueth me not but rebuketh mee and bringeth mee home againe vnto my profession so that I neuer cast of the yoke of God from of my necke neither yeelde vp my selfe vnto sinne to serue it but fight a fresh and beginne a new battaile And I had rather you should vnderstande this foorth of the Scriptures by the example of Ionas and the Apostles Ionas was the friende of God and a chosen seruaunt of GOD to testifie his will vnto the worlde Hee was sent from the Lande of Israell where he was a Prophet to goe amongest an Heathen people and the greatest citie of the worlde then called Niniuie to preach that within fortie dayes they shoulde bee destroyed for their sinnes which message the free will of Ionas had as much power to doe as the weakest hearted woman in the worlde had power if shee were commaunded to leape into a tubbe of liuing snakes and Adders as happelie if God had commanded Sara to sacrifice hir sonne Isaac as he did Abraham she would haue disputed with God ere shee had done it or though shee were strong enough Well Ionas hartned by his owne imagination and reasoning after this manner I am here a prophet vnto Gods people the Israelits which though they haue gods worde testified vnto them daylie yet despise and worshippe God vnder the likenesse of Calues after all maner of fashions saue after his owne worde and therefore are of all nations the worst and most worthie of punishment And yet God for loue of a few that are among them for his names sake spareth and defendeth them how then shal God take so cruel vengeaÌ„ce on so great a multitude of theÌ„ to whoÌ„ his name was neuer preached therefore are not the tenth part so euill as these If I therefore shall goe preach I shal lie shame my selfe and God too make them the more to despise God Vpon this imagination hee fledde from the presence of GOD and from the countrie where God is worshipped When Ionas entred into the ship he laide him downe to sleepe for his conscience was tossed betweene the commandement of God which sent him to Niniuie and his fleshlie wisedome which disswaded and counselled him to the contrarie at last preuayled against the commaundement and carried him an otherway as a shippe caught betweene two streames as the Poets faine the mother of Meleager to be betweene diuers affections while to aduenture hir brothers death shee sought to sley hir owne sonne wherevpon for verie payne and tediousnesse shee laye downe to sleep to put the commandement out of minde which did so gnawe and fret hir conscience as the nature of all the wicked is when they haue sinned in earnest to â—eeke all meanes with riote reuell and paâ—time to driue the remembrance of sinne â—oorth of their hearts as Adam did to coâ—er his wickednesse with apperns of figgeâ—eaues But God awoke him out of his â—reame and set his sinnes before his face for when the lott had caught Ionas theÌ„ be sure that his sin came to remeÌ„brance again that his conscience raged no lesse theÌ„ the waters of the sea And then he thought he onely was a sinner and thought also that as verilie as he had fled froÌ„ God as verily God had cast him awaie for the sight of the rod maketh the naturall child not onely to see and acknowledge his fault but also to forget all his fathers old mercie and goodnes And then hee confessed his sinne openlie and of verie desperation to haue liued any longer hee had cast himselfe into the Sea betimes except they woulde bee lost also for all this God prouided a fish to swallow Ionas When Ionas had beene in the fishes bellie a space the rage of his conscience was somewhat quieted and hee came to himselfe againe and had receiued a little hope and the qualmes and panges of desperation which went ouer his heart were halfe ouercome then hee prayed to God and gaue thankes vnto him When Ionas was cast vppon the lande againe then his will was free and he had power to go whether God sent him and to what God commanded him his owne imagination laid apart for he had ben at a new schole in a fornace wher he was purged of much refue drosse of fleshlie wisedom which resisted y e wisedom of God For as far as we be blind in Adam we cannot but seeke and will our own profit pleasure glorie as far as we be taught in the spirit we cannot but seeke and will the pleasure of God only Then Ionas preached to Niniuie and they repented theÌ„ Ionas shewed again his corrupt nature for all his trying in the Whales bellie He was so displeased because the Niniuits perished not he was weary of his life wished death for very sorrow that hee had lost the glory of his prophecying in y t his prophecy came not to passe but hee was rebuked of God as in his prophecy you may read The apostles Christ taught theÌ„ euer to be meek to humble theÌ„selues yet oft they striued among themselues who should be greatest the sons of Zebede would
spoken that which God out of his holie word hath opened vnto me if you finde anie helpe thereby giue God the praise therfore and carrie this with you for euer that by manie afflictions both in the bodie and the mind you must enter into the kingdome of heauen Rawe flesh is noisome to the stomacke and is no good nourishment before it be sodden and vnmortified men and women be no creatures fit for God and therefore they are to be soaked and boiled in afflictions that the fulsumnes rancknes of their corruption maie be delaied and they maie haue in them some rellish acceptable vnto God And to conclude for the auoiding of all these temptations vse this sweet praier following which that godlie saint Maister Bradford made Oh Lorde God and deere Father what shall I saie that feele all thinges to bee in manner with me as in the wicked Blind is my minde crooked is my will and peruerse concupiscence is in me as a spring of stinking puddle O howe faint is faith in mee how little is my loue to thee or thy people how great is my selfe loue how hard is my heart by reason whereof I am mooued to doubt of thy goodnes towards me whether thou art my mercifull father and whether I be thy childe or no indeed worthilie might I doubt if that the hauing of these were the cause and not the fruit rather of thy children The cause why thou art my father is thy mercifull goodnes grace and truth in Christ Iesus which cannot but remaine for euer In respect whereof thou hast borne mee this good will to bring mee into thy Church by Baptisme and to accept me into the number of thy children that I might be holie faithfull obedient and innocent and to call me diuers times by the ministerie of thy word into thy kingdome besides the innumerable other benefites alwaies hitherto powred vpon me All which thou hast done of this thy good will which thou of thine owne mercie barest to me in Christ before the world was made The which thing as thou requirest straitlie that I shoulde beleeue without doubting so wouldest thou that I in all my deedes shoulde come vnto thee as to a father and make my mone without mistrust of being heard in thy good time as most shall make to my comfort Lo therefore to thee deere father I come through thy sonne our Lorde our mediatour and Aduocate Iesus Christ who sitteth on thy right hand making intercession for mee I praie thee of thy great goodnes and mercie in Christ to be mercifull to mee a sinner that I maie indeede feele thy sweet mercie as thy childe the time oh deere father I appoint not but I praie thee that I maie with hope still expect and looke for thy helpe I hope that as for a little while thou hast left me so thou wilt come and visite me that in thy great mercie wherof I haue great need by reasoÌ„ of my great miserie Thou art wont for a little season in thine anger to hide thy face from them whome thou louest but surelie O Redeemer in eternall mercies thou wilt shewe thy compassions For when thou leauest vs Oh Lord thou doest not leaue vs very long neither doest thou leaue vs to our losse but to our lucre and aduantage euen that thy holie spirite with bigger portion of thy power and vertue maie lighten and cheere vs that the want of feeling of our sorrowe maie be recompenced plentifullie with the liuelie sent of hauing thee to our eternall ioie and therefore thou swearest that in thine euerlasting mercie thou wilt haue coÌ„passion on vs Of which thing to the ende wee might be most assured thine oath is to be marked for thou saiest as I haue sworn that I will neuer bring anie more the waters to drowne the worlde so haue I sworne that I will neuer more be angrie with thee nor reproue thee The mountaines shall remooue and the hilles shall fall downe but thy louing kindnes shal not mooue and the bond of thy peace shall not faile thee thus saiest thou the Lorde our mercifull Redeemer Deere father therefore I praie thee remember euen for thine owne truth mercies sake the promise and euerlasting couenant which in thy good time I praie thee to write in my heart that I maie know thee to bee the onelie true GOD and Iesus Christ whome thou hast sent that I maie loue thee with all my heart for euer that I maie loue thy people for thy sake that I maie bee holie in thy sight through Christ that I maie alwaies not onelie striue against sinne but also ouercome the same dailie more and more as thy children doe aboue all things desiring the sanctification of thy name the comming of thy kingdome the doing of thy will on earth as it is in heauen c. through Iesus Christ our Redeemer Mediatour and Aduocate Amen FINIS Faultes to be corrected PAg. 12. lin 8. for or reade are Pa. 15. l. 28. 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Prov. 1. ver 24. Iohn 9. 41. Luke 14. 6. h Psa 27. 8. i He. 10. 26 Act. 1. 16. 17. k 1. Sam. 29 21. l Gen 4. 13. m Eus. li. 8. cap. 17. 18. Socrat. lib. 3. ca. 11. o Act 2. 37. Rom. 8. 15. p Mark 6. 20. 26 q Mat. 27. 19. 24. r Mat. 27. 3. Heb. 12. 17 s Gen. 27. 38. 27. 41. 28. 9 t Exo. 8. 8. Math. 7. 7. u Gen. 4. 4. 1. Sa. 31. 4. Mat. 27 5. x 1 Re. 21. 27. 29. y Ex. 9. 27. Num. 22. 34. z Num. 23. 10. a Num. 11. 13. b Num. 11. 33. Psa. 78. 31. c Isa. 7. 11. 1 d Luk. 8. 13 2 3 e Iob. 13. 15 f Hâ—b 6. 4. Math. 13. 20. g 2. Pet. â— 14. 1. Ioh. â— â— Luke 1. 〈◊〉 Esa. 60.