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three_o divine_a person_n i_o can_v no_o more_o relish_v the_o company_n of_o my_o friend_n and_o relation_n except_o rare_o to_o maintain_v peace_n and_o union_n or_o for_o some_o great_a necessity_n and_o if_o they_o be_v displease_v i_o must_v not_o value_v it_o my_o second_o prayer_n be_v a_o amorous_a attention_n upon_o what_o past_a eternal_o among_o the_o three_o divine_a person_n how_o the_o father_n know_v his_o divine_a perfection_n do_v beget_v his_o son_n and_o how_o the_o father_n and_o the_o son_n by_o a_o infinite_a love_n do_v produce_v the_o holy_a ghost_n the_o father_n be_v a_o infinite_a ocean_n of_o perfection_n by_o a_o infinite_a fecundity_n beget_v his_o son_n and_o they_o be_v absorb_v in_o each_o other_o produce_v the_o holy_a spirit_n by_o a_o everlasting_a flux_n and_o reflux_n of_o love_n this_o i_o do_v contemplate_v with_o great_a repose_n of_o soul_n and_o yield_v up_o the_o intellectual_a power_n thereof_o to_o the_o obedience_n of_o faith_n to_o receive_v some_o ray_n of_o divine_a light_n about_o such_o great_a and_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n god_n then_o work_v in_o my_o soul_n i_o become_v passive_a content_v myself_o to_o behold_v simple_o and_o sweet_o the_o infinite_a operation_n of_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n and_o say_v within_o myself_o bless_a trinity_n know_v yourselves_o for_o i_o can_v do_v nothing_o towards_o it_o it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o contemplate_v that_o mutual_a love_n which_o be_v among_o you_o which_o i_o believe_v and_o admire_v with_o adoration_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o no_o other_o mystery_n of_o our_o faith_n can_v so_o take_v up_o and_o content_v my_o soul_n nothing_o be_v more_o divine_a than_o the_o divinity_n no_o other_o practice_n be_v so_o charm_v to_o i_o we_o be_v create_v to_o know_v that_o knowledge_n and_o to_o love_v that_o love_n which_o god_n have_v to_o himself_o to_o all_o eternity_n in_o my_o three_o prayer_n i_o consider_v the_o soul_n of_o just_a man_n and_o bless_a spirit_n be_v as_o so_o many_o sacred_a vessel_n into_o who_o god_n infuse_v his_o love_n and_o knowledge_n by_o a_o continual_a emanation_n which_o love_n and_o knowledge_n return_v to_o god_n its_o source_n as_o the_o water_n of_o a_o run_a fountain_n rise_v as_o high_a as_o the_o spring_n from_o whence_o it_o have_v its_o origen_n this_o love_n and_o knowledge_n do_v establish_v god_n in_o we_o and_o also_o do_v firm_o establish_v we_o in_o god_n so_o that_o god_n take_v a_o delight_n and_o repose_v in_o the_o soul_n and_o the_o soul_n find_v her_o centre_n and_o rest_n in_o he_o thereby_o faint_o represent_v how_o the_o divine_a person_n have_v a_o mutual_a repose_n in_o each_o other_o empty_a vessel_n be_v most_o capable_a to_o be_v fill_v and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o our_o soul_n be_v empty_a of_o self-love_n and_o nature_n by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o be_v they_o capable_a of_o divine_a love_n and_o knowledge_n a_o soul_n in_o such_o a_o state_n delight_v in_o solitude_n and_o care_v not_o to_o live_v in_o the_o thought_n and_o affection_n of_o man_n what_o most_o sadden_v our_o spirit_n and_o retard_v we_o in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v a_o natural_a aversion_n we_o have_v from_o a_o hide_a life_n for_o man_n natural_o desire_v to_o be_v know_v and_o love_v and_o think_v life_n be_v as_o nothing_o without_o repute_n and_o as_o long_o as_o we_o be_v full_a of_o this_o liquor_n we_o be_v not_o vessel_n proper_a to_o receive_v the_o influence_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o knowledge_n let_v we_o o_o my_o soul_n empty_v ourselves_o of_o self-love_n that_o divine_a love_n may_v take_v place_n in_o we_o in_o my_o four_o prayer_n i_o find_v a_o amorous_a complacency_n in_o my_o soul_n in_o that_o god_n be_v but_o one_o do_v subsist_v in_o three_o person_n know_v and_o love_v themselves_o
to_o remain_v thus_o unite_v be_v to_o do_v nothing_o for_o it_o be_v the_o do_n of_o all_o that_o god_n demand_v of_o we_o and_o the_o cooperate_a with_o he_o in_o the_o great_a work_n of_o grace_n which_o be_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o the_o divinity_n this_o union_n be_v a_o repose_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o it_o be_v find_v in_o several_a and_o different_a manner_n sometime_o it_o be_v diffuse_v through_o all_o the_o soul_n sometime_o it_o be_v only_o in_o the_o superior_a part_n thereof_o other_o while_o it_o restrain_v itself_o to_o the_o supreme_a point_n of_o the_o will_n and_o if_o the_o soul_n be_v faithful_a she_o do_v not_o considerable_o interrupt_v this_o union_n for_o the_o trouble_n of_o the_o interiour_n part_n or_o distraction_n of_o the_o imagination_n may_v indeed_o lessen_v the_o tranquillity_n thereof_o but_o can_v destroy_v it_o the_o thing_n that_o weaken_v it_o the_o most_o and_o as_o it_o be_v smother_v it_o be_v the_o passion_n when_o violent_a care_n that_o touch_v one_o to_o the_o quick_a trouble_v of_o mind_n pleasure_n of_o sense_n wherefore_o one_o must_v be_v dead_a to_o all_o these_o and_o endeavour_v to_o die_v perpetual_o to_o they_o another_o time_n jesus_n enter_v into_o my_o soul_n in_o communion_n do_v not_o impart_v to_o it_o this_o union_n so_o desirable_a but_o deprive_v it_o of_o it_o whether_o it_o be_v in_o punishment_n for_o her_o imperfection_n or_o that_o he_o design_v she_o at_o that_o time_n for_o other_o employment_n and_o require_v exterior_a duty_n from_o she_o for_o the_o good_a of_o her_o neighbour_n her_o business_n be_v then_o to_o remain_v in_o peace_n and_o to_o make_v a_o free_a offering_n of_o the_o most_o noble_a thing_n in_o the_o world_n to_o wit_n the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n to_o god_n himself_o who_o take_v a_o infinite_a delight_n to_o see_v himself_o thus_o honour_v by_o his_o creature_n and_o he_o be_v often_o please_v to_o be_v glorify_v in_o this_o manner_n by_o perfect_a soul_n and_o the_o soul_n find_v themselves_o raise_v to_o a_o very_a sublime_a purity_n by_o these_o sort_n of_o sacrifice_n wherein_o they_o renounce_v the_o most_o dear_a caress_n of_o god_n to_o abandon_v themselves_o more_o pure_o to_o god_n and_o to_o adhere_v to_o he_o only_o o_o how_o true_a be_v it_o that_o in_o the_o fund_z of_o the_o heart_n the_o most_o noble_a operation_n of_o love_n be_v perform_v hide_a from_o all_o the_o world_n and_o know_v to_o god_n alone_o even_o the_o soul_n itself_o do_v not_o know_v the_o interiour_n communication_n of_o god_n till_o after_o long_a experience_n which_o render_v herself_o skilful_a in_o the_o secret_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n whether_o neither_o sense_n nor_o reason_n can_v penetrate_v chap._n vii_o the_o first_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o beget_v in_o we_o the_o love_n of_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n god_n in_o himself_o and_o in_o his_o eternity_n do_v nothing_o but_o love_n himself_o in_o contemplate_v his_o divine_a perfection_n for_o it_o be_v his_o essential_a occupation_n and_o he_o can_v but_o love_v himself_o and_o desire_v to_o be_v belove_v wherefore_o since_o by_o the_o hypostatical_a union_n man_n be_v become_v god_n he_o take_v upon_o he_o the_o same_o sentiment_n the_o same_o inclination_n as_o god_n and_o by_o consequence_n jesus_n love_v god_n as_o god_n love_v himself_o and_o as_o he_o clear_o see_v that_o there_o be_v no_o way_n whereby_o god_n can_v be_v more_o love_v or_o more_o honour_a out_o of_o himself_o than_o by_o cross_n and_o annihilation_n which_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o grandeur_n of_o his_o infinite_a be_v he_o apply_v himself_o to_o love_n cross_n suffering_n and_o contempt_n with_o all_o the_o power_n of_o his_o soul_n never_a man_n so_o passionate_o in_o love_n with_o these_o thing_n as_o jesus_n christ_n because_o never_o any_o one_o be_v transport_v with_o such_o zeal_n as_o he_o to_o love_n and_o glorify_v god_n his_o father_n when_o therefore_o jesus_n enter_v into_o we_o by_o the_o holy_a communion_n he_o bring_v with_o he_o all_o his_o sentiment_n &_o all_o his_o inclination_n particular_o those_o which_o he_o affect_v most_o and_o desire_n to_o imprint_v they_o in_o our_o soul_n for_o which_o purpose_n he_o give_v himself_o to_o we_o under_o the_o form_n of_o nourishment_n because_o as_o the_o meat_n we_o take_v communicate_v to_o the_o body_n all_o its_o principal_a quality_n so_o he_o inspire_v the_o soul_n withal_o its_o principal_a motion_n and_o operation_n and_o this_o be_v the_o reason_n that_o the_o often_o one_o communicate_v the_o more_o one_o ought_v to_o be_v penetrate_v with_o the_o sentiment_n and_o inclination_n of_o jesus_n that_o be_v to_o say_v so_o much_o more_o one_o ought_v to_o love_n suffering_n and_o humiliation_n the_o property_n of_o the_o communion_n which_o be_v the_o live_a bread_n which_o descend_v from_o heaven_n be_v not_o to_o be_v change_v into_o we_o as_o the_o inanimate_a bread_n that_o come_v from_o the_o earth_n be_v but_o to_o change_v we_o into_o himself_o and_o the_o holy_a communion_n shall_v raise_v man_n above_o his_o natural_a love_n to_o lift_v he_o up_o to_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o his_o will_n by_o mortification_n and_o destruction_n of_o himself_o the_o most_o inward_a and_o most_o perfect_a of_o all_o the_o union_n that_o a_o creature_n can_v have_v with_o his_o god_n be_v the_o personal_a or_o hypostratical_a one_o which_o produce_v in_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n of_o jesus_n a_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o of_o the_o poverty_n insomuch_o that_o it_o be_v no_o soon_o divine_o assume_v but_o it_o be_v inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o suffer_v and_o esteem_v nothing_o next_o to_o the_o divinity_n so_o worthy_a a_o bbject_n of_o love_n as_o the_o cross_n now_o it_o be_v evident_a that_o we_o can_v arrive_v to_o any_o union_n with_o god_n so_o much_o resemble_v the_o hypostatical_a union_n as_o that_o which_o we_o obtain_v by_o the_o holy_a communion_n whence_o it_o follow_v that_o it_o ought_v to_o produce_v in_o we_o such_o inclination_n as_o very_o much_o resemble_v those_o which_o the_o union_n hypostatical_a produce_v in_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n that_o be_v to_o say_v it_o shall_v incline_v we_o to_o love_v the_o cross_n poverty_n humiliation_n and_o all_o other_o manner_n of_o suffering_n o_o my_o soul_n where_o be_v we_o how_o come_v it_o about_o that_o we_o communicate_v so_o often_o and_o feel_v still_o such_o repugnance_n to_o suffer_v jesus_n christ_n come_v into_o we_o and_o as_o i_o may_v say_v again_o incarnate_a in_o we_o will_v not_o he_o confer_v the_o most_o signal_n grace_n of_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n if_o he_o find_v we_o well_o dispose_v to_o receive_v it_o he_o that_o communicate_v often_o and_o yet_o be_v unwilling_a to_o suffer_v without_o doubt_n communicate_v but_o imperfect_o for_o he_o do_v not_o receive_v the_o principal_a effect_n of_o the_o divine_a union_n which_o be_v to_o make_v we_o love_v what_o jesus_n love_v the_o most_o of_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n o_o my_o god_n how_o long_o shall_v we_o live_v in_o the_o low_a sentiment_n of_o nature_n give_v i_o to_o suffer_v or_o to_o die_v o_o my_o soul_n be_v ashamed_a to_o live_v without_o suffer_v for_o that_o methinks_v be_v to_o live_v without_o love_n the_o fruit_n which_o we_o gather_v from_o the_o holy_a communion_n be_v not_o discern_v by_o abundance_n of_o sensible_a sweetness_n or_o by_o reception_n of_o much_o light_n in_o the_o understanding_n but_o by_o a_o firm_a and_o vigorous_a resolution_n of_o the_o will_v to_o suffer_v and_o to_o mortify_v itself_o and_o the_o more_o one_o advance_n in_o mortification_n the_o more_o one_o also_o increase_v in_o purity_n of_o love_n jesus_n who_o be_v the_o nourishment_n of_o our_o love_n in_o heaven_n where_o love_n will_v be_v infinite_o pure_a be_v likewise_o the_o nourishment_n of_o our_o love_n upon_o earth_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n which_o by_o consequence_n ought_v to_o be_v sovereign_o pure_a i_o mean_v without_o any_o mixture_n of_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v not_o god_n but_o this_o can_v be_v without_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n and_o even_o to_o ourselves_o and_o this_o death_n be_v not_o compass_v but_o by_o mortification_n and_o all_o that_o which_o crucify_v nature_n chap._n viii_o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_a after_o holy_a communion_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o as_o jesus_n receive_v of_o his_o divine_a father_n the_o fullness_n of_o light_n and_o true_a love_n in_o the_o hypostatical_a union_n so_o he_o make_v his_o friend_n partaker_n thereof_o in_o the_o sacramental_a union_n and_o thereby_o lay_v a_o obligation_n upon_o they_o to_o live_v by_o the_o same_o life_n to_o guide_v themselves_o by_o the_o light_n and_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o
by_o this_o fault_n i_o may_v see_v my_o nothing_o my_o weakness_n my_o inclination_n to_o evil_a more_o clear_o than_o former_o i_o be_v miserable_a and_o i_o do_v not_o know_v it_o i_o be_v frailty_n itself_o and_o i_o do_v not_o perceive_v it_o but_o 〈…〉_o acknowledge_v my_o vileness_n though_o i_o can_v 〈◊〉_d fathom_v the_o depth_n thereof_o 〈…〉_o i_o be_o well-pleased_a that_o this_o fault_n happen_v 〈◊〉_d presence_n of_o my_o friend_n who_o will_v thereâ—â—â—â—_n 〈◊〉_d â—ow_o what_o i_o be_o it_o much_o displease_v i_o to_o 〈◊〉_d offend_v god_n by_o be_v so_o faithless_a to_o his_o â—â—â—ces_n but_o i_o joy_v in_o this_o that_o i_o be_o well-pleased_a â—â—th_v my_o humiliation_n it_o be_v a_o good_a hap_n to_o be_v deâ—â—â—sed_v in_o the_o esteem_n of_o other_o and_o do_v relish_v â—weet_a to_o such_o who_o desire_v to_o repair_v the_o injury_n â—hey_n have_v do_v to_o god_n by_o sin_v against_o he_o to_o be_v powerful_o convince_v of_o our_o pure_a nothing_o and_o great_a frailty_n be_v the_o profit_n we_o ought_v to_o make_v of_o our_o imperfection_n how_o profitable_a be_v the_o discovery_n of_o my_o misery_n to_o i_o see_v it_o make_v clear_a unto_o i_o all_o these_o verity_n this_o be_v the_o truth_n of_o it_o i_o be_o nothing_o but_o infirmity_n and_o corruption_n and_o more_o than_o i_o can_v comprehend_v and_o for_o the_o love_n i_o ought_v to_o have_v for_o truth_n by_o a_o voluntary_a acquiescence_n i_o love_v and_o adore_v divine_a providence_n which_o have_v bring_v i_o to_o the_o sight_n of_o my_o own_o nothing_o i_o acknowledge_v myself_o to_o be_v miserable_a and_o be_o please_v the_o world_n shall_v know_v it_o and_o use_v i_o according_a to_o this_o verity_n it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o complain_v of_o whatsoever_o injury_n be_v do_v we_o by_o word_n or_o deed_n for_o it_o be_v always_o less_o than_o we_o deserve_v it_o be_v the_o law_n of_o christianity_n and_o a_o great_a truth_n that_o we_o ought_v to_o love_v abjection_n jesus_n have_v love_v it_o by_o his_o father_n order_n and_o he_o be_v the_o grand_a exemplar_n we_o must_v imitate_v it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o after_o our_o fail_n we_o ought_v to_o comfort_v ourselves_o with_o the_o love_n of_o abjection_n and_o make_v use_n of_o our_o infirmity_n to_o please_v 〈◊〉_d just_a as_o when_o a_o ship_n be_v break_v by_o a_o temâ—â—â—_n we_o get_v some_o shatter_v plank_a to_o save_v we_o 〈◊〉_d perish_v it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o since_o this_o lapse_n i_o perceâ—â—â—_n better_o than_o ever_o the_o bounty_n the_o power_n anâ—_n mercy_n of_o god_n towards_o i_o and_o all_o the_o divine_a perfection_n appear_v unto_o i_o beam_a forth_o more_o splendour_n of_o glory_n just_o as_o the_o moon_n never_o make_v more_o evident_a the_o dependence_n she_o have_v upon_o the_o sun_n than_o in_o eclipse_n it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o a_o soul_n sensible_a of_o her_o infirmity_n be_v content_a with_o her_o talon_n without_o disquiet_v herself_o to_o attain_v the_o perfection_n of_o great_a saint_n whereoâ—_n she_o acknowledge_v herself_o unworthy_a and_o if_o god_n be_v please_v to_o communicate_v unto_o her_o great_a grace_n she_o will_v not_o grow_v proud_a as_o well_o know_v she_o own_o weakness_n but_o rejoice_v in_o this_o that_o god_n thereby_o may_v be_v more_o honour_a it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o be_v convince_v of_o she_o own_o unworthiness_n she_o have_v no_o confidence_n in_o herself_o but_o in_o god_n alone_o to_o who_o entire_o she_o give_v up_o herself_o to_o deal_v with_o she_o as_o he_o please_v in_o mercy_n or_o justice_n she_o wonder_v not_o to_o see_v herself_o leave_v and_o abandon_v to_o sin_n because_o she_o know_v she_o deserve_v no_o better_a and_o then_o bless_v the_o divine_a mercy_n for_o not_o deal_v with_o her_o according_a to_o her_o merit_n it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o a_o soul_n grieve_v to_o have_v displease_v god_n will_v be_v content_a to_o be_v real_o reduce_v to_o her_o 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if_o a_o soul_n be_v miserable_a by_o fall_v into_o sin_n she_o be_v rich_a in_o possess_v the_o treasure_n of_o humiliation_n after_o her_o fail_n but_o this_o be_v a_o truth_n hide_v to_o most_o man_n who_o do_v not_o discover_v this_o advanrage_v they_o be_v poor_a and_o yet_o have_v a_o treasure_n in_o their_o field_n which_o they_o may_v have_v for_o dig_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a for_o love_v of_o i_o leave_v i_o not_o to_o myself_o lift_v up_o my_o soul_n after_o her_o fall_n and_o gâ—ve_v she_o some_o of_o that_o cordial_a water_n which_o be_v call_v the_o love_n of_o abjection_n that_o chase_v away_o the_o vain_a vapour_n of_o self-love_n by_o which_o the_o soul_n be_v darken_v and_o lose_v courage_n glorify_v your_o power_n in_o my_o infirmity_n be_v please_v to_o condescend_v so_o far_o as_o to_o receive_v i_o return_v into_o the_o arm_n of_o your_o mercy_n and_o grant_v i_o may_v die_v unto_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v live_v in_o your_o embrace_n methinks_v dear_a jesus_n i_o already_o feel_v your_o tenderness_n unto_o i_o your_o divine_a love_n vouchsafe_v i_o a_o relish_n of_o the_o sweet_n of_o paradise_n my_o eye_n be_v bathe_v in_o tear_n of_o contentment_n my_o heart_n be_v dilate_v and_o love_n do_v firm_o unite_v i_o to_o you_o wherefore_o do_v you_o vouchsafe_v the_o kiss_n of_o peace_n so_o soon_o to_o such_o a_o wretch_n as_o i_o be_o why_o do_v you_o not_o leave_v i_o in_o bitterness_n of_o soul_n and_o trouble_v of_o spirit_n as_o a_o just_a chastisement_n for_o my_o sin_n your_o mercy_n will_v not_o so_o deal_v with_o i_o but_o by_o wonderful_a prevention_n of_o love_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o infirmity_n you_o redouble_v your_o favour_n and_o consolation_n o_o that_o i_o be_v all_o love_n to_o serve_v you_o whole_o by_o way_n of_o gratitude_n i_o will_v have_v all_o the_o world_n to_o see_v my_o infidelity_n to_o the_o end_n your_o mercy_n may_v shine_v more_o glorious_a i_o know_v that_o the_o sight_n of_o my_o sin_n have_v so_o freeze_v my_o heart_n as_o in_o a_o manner_n to_o make_v i_o liveless_a but_o o_o my_o jesus_n you_o have_v provide_v a_o excellent_a remedy_n see_v the_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n have_v set_v i_o all_o on_o fire_n to_o do_v your_o will_n it_o be_v a_o great_a favour_n to_o be_v in_o this_o temper_n of_o soul_n but_o dear_a jesus_n stay_v not_o here_o visit_v my_o heart_n again_o with_o the_o feeling_n of_o your_o humiliation_n that_o your_o inscrutable_a abjection_n may_v be_v its_o centre_n and_o render_v it_o in_o some_o sort_n conformable_a to_o you_o and_o do_v this_o miracle_n of_o your_o grace_n that_o this_o faithless_a heart_n may_v become_v a_o divine_a heart_n by_o the_o infinite_a merit_n of_o your_o most_o precious_a blood_n chap._n xvii_o consideration_n upon_o the_o vileness_n of_o this_o corruptible_a body_n how_o be_v a_o soul_n please_v to_o know_v that_o her_o body_n must_v return_v to_o dust_n this_o humiliation_n be_v the_o object_n of_o her_o 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and_o miserable_a i_o have_v so_o little_a strength_n that_o my_o suffering_n do_v stifle_v the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n presence_n in_o i_o and_o the_o sensibility_n of_o they_o do_v eclipse_v the_o other_o and_o because_o i_o think_v that_o this_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n can_v not_o be_v find_v but_o in_o a_o soul_n exempt_a from_o all_o sort_n of_o suffering_n when_o sadness_n or_o pain_n or_o trouble_n do_v seize_v upon_o i_o i_o get_v free_a as_o soon_o as_o possible_a to_o regain_v my_o former_a state_n of_o enjoyment_n but_o i_o see_v my_o error_n for_o now_o these_o suffering_n shall_v become_v the_o mean_n to_o unite_v i_o more_o strict_o to_o god_n i_o be_o content_a with_o they_o and_o will_v offer_v they_o a_o sacrifice_n to_o that_o hide_a majesty_n who_o be_v real_o present_a in_o my_o soul_n for_o i_o conceive_v that_o the_o sacred_a humanity_n of_o jesus_n hypostatical_o unite_v to_o the_o word_n have_v god_n most_o intimate_o present_v remain_v in_o this_o union_n in_o 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the_o love_n of_o god_n which_o be_v the_o only_a thing_n she_o passionate_o desire_v what_o great_a pity_n be_v it_o to_o love_v and_o not_o to_o know_v it_o nevertheless_o this_o soul_n that_o seem_v to_o herself_o in_o so_o sad_a a_o condition_n be_v a_o delightful_a object_n in_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n who_o see_v in_o she_o the_o love_n only_o of_o his_o interest_n in_o that_o she_o be_v content_a with_o a_o total_a denudation_n and_o confess_v she_o be_v not_o worthy_a of_o god_n grace_n wherewith_o she_o behold_v other_o adorn_v and_o admire_v their_o beauty_n perceive_v not_o all_o this_o while_n what_o she_o be_v herself_o and_o this_o ignorance_n of_o her_o own_o state_n possess_v her_o spirit_n by_o a_o true_a sense_n of_o she_o own_o indignity_n she_o easy_o conclude_v that_o she_o be_v a_o miserable_a creature_n and_o it_o be_v no_o wonder_n if_o discouragement_n and_o sadness_n set_v upon_o a_o soul_n in_o this_o disposition_n at_o least_o to_o affect_v the_o inferior_a part_n i_o clear_o see_v that_o this_o union_n crucify_a do_v advance_v we_o in_o the_o participation_n of_o the_o state_n of_o christ_n suffer_v which_o be_v the_o great_a advantage_n a_o soul_n can_v pretend_v to_o in_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n see_v this_o put_v we_o in_o a_o condition_n of_o most_o express_v our_o love_n to_o god_n this_o great_a truth_n well_o consider_v will_v wonderful_o comfort_v a_o soul_n that_o desire_v to_o be_v conform_v to_o the_o image_n of_o jesus_n crucify_a the_o crucify_a union_n carry_v mortification_n to_o the_o marrow_n of_o the_o soul_n make_v it_o die_v to_o whatsoever_o be_v not_o god_n see_v that_o she_o live_v by_o the_o privation_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o the_o sensible_a union_n do_v nourish_v itself_o by_o reflection_n upon_o such_o a_o state_n which_o will_v indeed_o purify_v a_o soul_n from_o worldly_a affection_n however_o she_o will_v go_v on_o but_o slow_o to_o the_o purity_n of_o perfection_n if_o god_n be_v not_o very_o 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and_o practice_n of_o virtue_n a_o great_a love_n of_o self-denial_n in_o imitation_n of_o the_o unspeakable_a humiliation_n of_o jesus_n christ_n one_o of_o the_o sure_a mark_n to_o know_v whether_o this_o prayer_n of_o darkness_n come_v from_o god_n be_v to_o see_v whether_o it_o leave_v in_o the_o soul_n the_o knowledge_n of_o our_o misery_n and_o infidelity_n for_o the_o more_o we_o possess_v god_n the_o better_a we_o see_v the_o least_o imperfection_n as_o for_o example_n whether_o our_o intention_n be_v pure_a or_o nature_n have_v some_o interest_n with_o grace_n whether_o we_o too_o easy_o leave_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o other_o thing_n whether_o we_o comply_v with_o god_n inspiration_n or_o commit_v infidelity_n these_o and_o such_o like_o be_v clear_o see_v by_o this_o mean_n do_v much_o humble_v we_o and_o make_v we_o careful_a to_o amend_v they_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o disposition_n know_v nothing_o of_o god_n but_o that_o he_o be_v incomprehensible_a and_o 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the_o soul_n but_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o these_o verity_n namely_o we_o must_v slay_v from_o evil_a and_o do_v good_a hate_v sin_n and_o embrace_v virtue_n and_o such_o like_a as_o consider_v bare_o in_o themselves_o have_v no_o particular_a light_n in_o they_o to_o manifest_v their_o goodness_n but_o their_o beauty_n and_o excellency_n be_v discover_v to_o we_o by_o help_n of_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n as_o those_o body_n which_o be_v out_o of_o the_o sun_n see_v not_o themselves_o but_o by_o the_o light_n thereof_o for_o this_o reason_n i_o believe_v it_o be_v best_a for_o a_o soul_n to_o take_v up_o her_o thought_n with_o god_n and_o those_o verity_n that_o regard_v he_o or_o with_o jesus_n and_o christian_a truth_n as_o resident_a in_o this_o sacred_a breast_n by_o this_o mean_v the_o heart_n and_o affection_n will_v be_v much_o inflame_v with_o the_o love_n of_o god_n to_o adore_v and_o serve_v he_o and_o imitate_v the_o perfection_n of_o jesus_n christ_n this_o sort_n 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she_o to_o adhere_v to_o he_o with_o great_a simplicity_n and_o unity_n with_o this_o only_a love_n which_o god_n have_v for_o his_o infinite_a beauty_n and_o perfection_n the_o particular_a love_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v absorb_v like_o a_o drop_n of_o water_n in_o the_o infinite_a ocean_n of_o his_o love_n by_o a_o union_n inexplicable_a and_o be_v so_o lose_v be_v find_v more_o perfect_a as_o a_o spark_n of_o fire_n in_o a_o little_a coal_n cast_v into_o a_o furnace_n give_v a_o heat_n infinite_o great_a than_o what_o it_o have_v of_o itself_o alone_o it_o seem_v to_o the_o soul_n that_o she_o do_v not_o love_n but_o god_n love_v himself_o in_o she_o and_o in_o this_o manner_n her_o will_n have_v such_o impression_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n have_v no_o other_o sentiment_n nor_o interiour_n disposition_n than_o those_o which_o god_n have_v for_o himself_o when_o she_o love_v god_n in_o this_o manner_n as_o he_o love_v himself_o she_o also_o hate_v sin_n in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o god_n hate_v it_o by_o this_o ineffable_a union_n in_o this_o state_n of_o prayer_n the_o soul_n receive_v wonderful_a discovery_n of_o the_o admirable_a wisdom_n of_o god_n in_o his_o proceed_n about_o the_o redemption_n of_o mankind_n by_o the_o life_n and_o death_n of_o his_o son_n so_o full_a of_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n god_n love_v himself_o can_v but_o love_v the_o cross_n which_o satisfy_v his_o justice_n and_o the_o soul_n can_v but_o have_v a_o will_v to_o suffer_v see_v she_o be_v in_o the_o unity_n of_o love_n with_o god_n which_o unity_n must_v needs_o elevate_v the_o soul_n above_o nature_n and_o as_o the_o soul_n of_o jesus_n whole_o absorb_v in_o the_o love_n of_o his_o father_n do_v rejoice_v in_o his_o suffering_n and_o humiliation_n so_o if_o we_o be_v in_o the_o unity_n of_o this_o love_n contempt_n and_o mortification_n dolour_n and_o death_n itself_o will_v be_v lovely_a and_o desirable_a though_o quite_o contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n this_o unity_n of_o love_n do_v so_o powerful_o constrain_v we_o to_o love_v suffering_n that_o i_o make_v little_a difference_n between_o love_n and_o the_o cross_n and_o i_o see_v so_o clear_o that_o all_o the_o counsel_n of_o jesus_n christ_n do_v so_o wonderful_o advance_v the_o purity_n of_o love_n that_o no_o natural_a aversion_n shall_v deter_v i_o from_o they_o i_o find_v in_o my_o heart_n a_o tacit_n consent_v of_o love_n to_o abandon_v myself_o to_o divine_a providence_n and_o not_o to_o disquiet_v myself_o about_o perfection_n for_o i_o must_v pacify_v all_o the_o emotion_n of_o my_o heart_n as_o well_o good_a as_o bad_a to_o be_v in_o so_o profound_a a_o peace_n as_o to_o attain_v this_o union_n when_o god_n be_v please_v to_o communicate_v to_o a_o soul_n this_o purity_n of_o love_n he_o dispose_v she_o to_o so_o great_a a_o favour_n by_o some_o suffering_n cross_n and_o humiliation_n he_o that_o know_v the_o riches_n of_o true_a love_n know_v these_o also_o for_o they_o be_v inseparable_a so_o that_o he_o who_o will_v not_o suffer_v can_v arrive_v to_o purity_n of_o love_n my_o prayer_n then_o tend_v to_o unite_v i_o intimate_o and_o continual_o to_o the_o only_a love_n wherewith_o god_n love_v himself_o and_o my_o soul_n have_v at_o present_a attract_v to_o nothing_o else_o in_o this_o love_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o she_o find_v the_o practice_n of_o all_o virtue_n in_o a_o more_o excellent_a manner_n than_o in_o themselves_o i_o know_v very_o well_o that_o love_n be_v a_o weight_n that_o continual_o carry_v the_o soul_n towards_o her_o belove_a object_n and_o my_o will_n bend_v always_o towards_o god_n it_o move_v thither_o by_o a_o long_a inclination_n full_a of_o love_n and_o sweetness_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o my_o understanding_n herein_o do_v not_o with_o its_o light_n assist_v my_o will_n for_o i_o find_v my_o affection_n all_o on_o fire_n and_o pant_v after_o god_n without_o any_o previous_a illustration_n i_o find_v i_o think_v divine_a love_n immediate_o work_v on_o my_o heart_n by_o such_o most_o secret_a touch_v as_o put_v i_o in_o a_o state_n of_o perfect_a union_n i_o find_v nothing_o to_o explicate_v this_o better_a than_o a_o needle_n touch_v by_o the_o adamant_n which_o then_o turn_v continual_o by_o a_o secret_a virtue_n to_o the_o pole_n and_o be_v unquiet_a till_o there_o it_o fix_v thus_o it_o stand_v with_o my_o soul_n be_v touch_v i_o know_v not_o how_o by_o divine_a love_n have_v no_o repose_n but_o by_o fix_v on_o god_n and_o part_v with_o all_o creature_n she_o gentle_o tend_v to_o her_o divine_a centre_n without_o any_o violence_n be_v sweet_o attract_v to_o a_o perfect_a union_n my_o understanding_n in_o this_o state_n see_v well_o enough_o what_o pass_v in_o my_o will_n and_o affection_n but_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o contribute_v
the_o will_n of_o god_n if_o i_o have_v not_o a_o great_a care_n the_o devil_n will_v deceive_v i_o and_o make_v i_o delay_v to_o my_o own_o ruin_n chap._n xx._n of_o the_o different_a caress_n god_n vouchsafe_v a_o soul_n in_o prayer_n those_o who_o practise_v prayer_n know_v by_o experience_n that_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n in_o different_a manner_n all_o most_o intimate_a most_o pure_a and_o full_a of_o sweetness_n oftentimes_o by_o the_o please_a attraction_n of_o his_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n so_o delightful_a to_o the_o soul_n that_o for_o the_o time_n she_o in_o a_o manner_n enjoy_v a_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n sometime_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n by_o the_o rigour_n of_o his_o justice_n try_v she_o with_o interior_a and_o exterior_a suffering_n so_o that_o only_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o soul_n remain_v unite_v to_o god_n the_o inferior_a part_n be_v in_o a_o suffer_a condition_n sometime_o god_n unite_v himself_o to_o the_o soul_n by_o his_o sanctity_n his_o bounty_n power_n and_o other_o perfection_n and_o to_o the_o end_n all_o these_o union_n may_v be_v pure_a it_o suffice_v that_o the_o soul_n render_v herself_o passive_a to_o the_o operation_n of_o god_n in_o she_o whether_o sweet_a or_o bitter_a comfort_v or_o afflict_v with_o respect_n and_o affection_n it_o be_v observable_a that_o to_o live_v this_o divine_a life_n it_o be_v not_o necessary_a to_o find_v no_o repugnance_n from_o sensual_a nature_n it_o suffice_v if_o we_o continue_v firm_a in_o this_o state_n by_o the_o superior_a part_n whether_o grace_n can_v only_o advance_v we_o and_o where_o we_o can_v subsist_v but_o by_o be_v dead_a to_o all_o creature_n he_o that_o will_v live_v this_o life_n must_v resolve_v to_o suffer_v all_o the_o interiour_n commerce_n between_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n pass_v principal_o in_o the_o will_n the_o understanding_n be_v not_o so_o capable_a thereof_o but_o the_o will_n receive_v the_o more_o intimate_a more_o pure_a and_o more_o perfect_a communication_n be_v more_o proper_a for_o it_o the_o understanding_n herein_o be_v more_o liable_a to_o illusion_n the_o will_n be_v more_o assure_v in_o her_o way_n and_o the_o devil_n can_v counterfeit_v what_o pass_v in_o she_o in_o the_o feeling_n of_o pure_a love_n for_o the_o soul_n that_o have_v experience_n of_o the_o effect_n of_o pure_a love_n can_v easy_o be_v deceive_v from_o hence_o it_o come_v that_o the_o purity_n of_o the_o will_n be_v the_o principal_a disposition_n for_o the_o prayer_n of_o union_n be_v it_o ordinary_a or_o more_o sublime_a by_o the_o powerful_a influence_n of_o prevent_a grace_n this_o purity_n be_v altogether_o necessary_a god_n be_v not_o please_v to_o work_v these_o wonder_n but_o in_o a_o purify_a soul_n and_o this_o purity_n consist_v in_o willing_a nothing_o but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n be_v dead_a to_o all_o other_o thing_n content_v herself_o with_o the_o order_n of_o providence_n god_n find_v the_o soul_n thus_o purify_v especial_o in_o her_o will_n take_v up_o his_o mansion_n in_o her_o interiour_n where_o he_o exercise_v his_o divine_a operation_n put_v she_o into_o divers_a state_n according_a to_o the_o different_a design_n he_o have_v upon_o she_o sometime_o he_o be_v please_v to_o inflame_v her_o affection_n with_o divine_a love_n and_o to_o kindle_v this_o holy_a fire_n in_o her_o breast_n manifest_v to_o she_o his_o divine_a perfection_n other_o time_n he_o put_v she_o upon_o the_o cross_n and_o exercise_n his_o justice_n for_o her_o great_a good_a sometime_o he_o hide_v himself_o the_o more_o to_o purify_v she_o and_o make_v she_o die_v to_o whatever_o be_v not_o god_n otherwhile_o he_o give_v her_o counsel_n to_o advance_v she_o in_o perfection_n and_o than_o if_o she_o have_v not_o be_v faithful_a to_o his_o motion_n he_o give_v her_o interior_a check_n of_o conscience_n sometime_o he_o enlighten_v her_o understanding_n to_o inflame_v her_o will_n and_o the_o soul_n be_v retire_v within_o herself_o find_v her_o divine_a bridegroom_n work_v something_o in_o she_o to_o which_o she_o be_v to_o be_v pure_o passive_a and_o adhere_v in_o all_o simplicity_n of_o heart_n to_o his_o gracious_a operation_n be_v thus_o retire_v into_o the_o cabinet_n of_o her_o heart_n she_o be_v elevate_v above_o herself_o and_o all_o creature_n and_o be_v unite_v to_o god_n though_o he_o send_v her_o suffering_n she_o be_v not_o take_v up_o with_o they_o but_o divine_a love_n she_o feel_v his_o caress_n be_v enrich_v with_o his_o gift_n and_o employ_v all_o her_o intellectual_a power_n to_o love_n and_o glorify_v her_o well-beloved_a here_o be_v her_o ordinary_a abode_n from_o whence_o she_o descend_v not_o to_o her_o inferior_a part_n but_o for_o necessity_n and_o enjoy_v the_o embrace_n of_o her_o divine_a bridegroom_n she_o adhere_v to_o he_o by_o pure_a faith_n and_o love_n without_o be_v divert_v by_o her_o imagination_n in_o intellectual_a contemplation_n i_o can_v but_o think_v that_o a_o mistress_n of_o a_o house_n that_o have_v a_o king_n and_o queen_n in_o her_o closet_n willing_a to_o converse_v with_o she_o will_v have_v a_o care_v not_o to_o divert_v herself_o by_o other_o matter_n and_o quit_v they_o to_o wash_v dish_n in_o the_o kitchen_n what_o strange_a incivility_n will_v this_o be_v yea_o what_o infidelity_n will_v it_o be_v in_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v honour_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o cabinet_n of_o her_o heart_n to_o have_v she_o near_o himself_o to_o converse_v with_o she_o and_o to_o ravish_v she_o with_o these_o spiritual_a delight_n which_o be_v ineffable_a soul_n that_o be_v thus_o favour_v of_o god_n if_o they_o quit_v he_o for_o exterior_a employment_n and_o temporal_a affair_n neglect_v the_o presence_n of_o the_o king_n of_o glory_n for_o some_o inconsiderable_a business_n by_o this_o strange_a neglect_n or_o contempt_n of_o his_o special_a favour_n must_v needs_o be_v guilty_a of_o deep_a ingratitude_n o_o my_o soul_n be_v thou_o faithful_a to_o the_o divine_a call_n thou_o be_v too_o much_o favour_v of_o god_n consider_v thy_o too_o frequent_a not_o comply_v with_o his_o grace_n he_o call_v thou_o to_o himself_o his_o attract_v be_v powerful_a and_o sweet_a let_v we_o quit_v temporal_a thing_n and_o leave_v they_o to_o who_o will_v take_v they_o fear_v not_o we_o shall_v want_v nothing_o have_v god_n in_o possession_n if_o divine_a providence_n dispense_v to_o we_o with_o so_o liberal_a a_o hand_n the_o great_a favour_n of_o god_n spiritual_a grace_n let_v we_o not_o think_v he_o will_v deny_v we_o his_o lesser_a blessing_n which_o concern_v the_o body_n and_o be_v as_o nothing_o in_o comparison_n let_v we_o betake_v ourselves_o to_o prayer_n and_o never_o leave_v it_o for_o that_o be_v our_o great_a and_o sole_a affair_n the_o end_n of_o the_o seven_o book_n book_n viii_o some_o maxim_n of_o great_a importance_n to_o conduct_v we_o in_o a_o spiritual_a life_n chap._n i._o to_o have_v above_o all_o thing_n a_o extreme_a horror_n of_o sin_n there_o be_v nothing_o of_o great_a concern_v to_o we_o in_o this_o world_n than_o to_o manage_v well_o our_o love_n and_o hatred_n to_o which_o passion_n our_o will_n principal_o owe_v her_o motion_n our_o love_n ought_v whole_o to_o be_v fix_v on_o god_n who_o be_v a_o infinite_a good_a and_o our_o final_a happiness_n our_o hatred_n ought_v to_o have_v no_o other_o object_n but_o sin_n which_o be_v a_o infinite_a evil_n and_o utter_a ruin_n of_o our_o soul_n love_n make_v all_o thing_n easy_a and_o what_o be_v do_v with_o great_a love_n be_v of_o great_a value_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n who_o know_v to_o love_v cordial_o know_v how_o to_o do_v whatever_o god_n require_v of_o he_o see_v love_n include_v in_o it_o all_o perfection_n hatred_n also_o make_v all_o thing_n easy_a for_o from_o a_o torrent_n of_o hatred_n common_o flow_v a_o inundation_n of_o evil_n he_o who_o real_o and_o from_o his_o heart_n hate_v a_o infinite_a evil_n that_o be_v sin_n will_v be_v revenge_v on_o himself_o by_o severe_a penance_n and_o fly_v from_o it_o with_o such_o a_o horror_n and_o detestation_n that_o he_o will_v soon_o cast_v himself_o alive_a into_o hell_n than_o commit_v a_o sin_n that_o break_v friendship_n with_o god_n a_o soul_n that_o see_v clear_o the_o enormous_a malignity_n of_o sin_n and_o how_o it_o fight_v against_o the_o great_a god_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o annihilate_v he_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a will_v easy_o conceive_v a_o implacable_a hatred_n against_o sin_n and_o abhor_v it_o to_o the_o utmost_a with_o a_o irreconcilable_a enmity_n know_v well_o that_o sin_n can_v only_o separate_v she_o from_o god_n her_o final_a happiness_n this_o hatred_n ought_v to_o possess_v the_o soul_n with_o permanency_n and_o such_o extension_n as_o not_o only_o to_o preserve_v she_o from_o
in_o their_o hearr_n to_o engage_v they_o efficacious_o in_o his_o love_n and_o service_n so_o be_v it_o amen_n the_o content_n book_n i._o of_o the_o love_n of_o humiliation_n which_o be_v the_o solid_a foundation_n of_o all_o christian_a perfection_n chap._n 1._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o attain_v christian_a perfection_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o humility_n pag._n 1._o chap._n 2._o the_o foundation_n of_o christian_a humility_n 5_o chap._n 3._o that_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v his_o own_o nothing_o 8_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o great_a saint_n have_v attain_v to_o perfection_n by_o a_o singular_a love_n of_o self-contempt_n and_o abjection_n 11_o chap._n 5._o that_o we_o have_v only_o so_o much_o of_o the_o true_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n as_o we_o have_v a_o inclination_n to_o abjection_n 14_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o own_o nothing_o inspire_v we_o with_o self-contempt_n and_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 17_o chap._n 7._o that_o god_n be_v glorify_v by_o our_o annihilation_n 20_o chap._n 8._o that_o the_o soul_n be_v rich_a when_o she_o possess_v the_o love_n of_o self-contempt_n 23_o chap._n 9_o what_o profit_n we_o draw_v from_o humiliation_n 26_o chap._n 10._o the_o way_n how_o to_o arrive_v to_o perfect_a humiliation_n 29_o chap._n 11._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o leave_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n to_o become_v annihilate_v 32_o chap._n 12._o that_o we_o must_v renounce_v our_o sense_n and_o humane_a reason_n to_o love_v humiliation_n 34_o chap._n 13._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 14._o that_o a_o soul_n espouse_v jesus_n christ_n espouse_n his_o cross_n and_o suffering_n 41_o chap._n 15._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 16._o to_o be_v content_a with_o abjection_n after_o our_o fault_n repair_v the_o injury_n to_o god_n and_o make_v up_o our_o ruin_n 46_o chap._n 17._o consideration_n upon_o tho_o vileness_n of_o this_o corruptible_a body_n 51_o chap._n 18._o consideration_n upon_o the_o natural_a inclination_n we_o have_v to_o evil_n 54_o book_n ii_o of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n which_o be_v the_o life_n of_o all_o true_a christian_n chap._n 1._o the_o idea_n or_o description_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 75_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o high_a esteem_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v of_o the_o christian_a life_n 60_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o ought_v with_o st._n paul_n to_o convert_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n 63_o chap._n 4._o of_o the_o alliance_n we_o must_v make_v with_o the_o holy_a folly_n of_o the_o cross_n 67_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o ought_v to_o conform_v our_o interiour_n to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ._n 70_o chap._n 6._o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n 74_o chap._n 7._o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supertural_a life_n 77_o chap._n 8._o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 80_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 81_o chap._n 10._o our_o great_a happiness_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o christianity_n 87_o chap._n 11._o that_o truth_n be_v only_o find_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n the_o rest_n be_v vanity_n 91_o chap._n 12._o there_o be_v many_o way_n in_o christianity_n all_o which_o be_v according_a to_o the_o life_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 94_o chap._n 13_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n 98_o chap._n 14._o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 101_o chap._n 15._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o humane_a prudence_n 105_o chap._n 16._o the_o conclusion_n that_o we_o ought_v to_o apply_v ourselves_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 108_o book_n iii_o of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o divine_a providence_n chap._n 1._o our_o first_o thought_n in_o the_o morning_n ought_v to_o be_v that_o god_n be_v present_a 111_o chap._n 2._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n make_v we_o little_a value_n the_o absence_n of_o the_o creature_n 114_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o can_v and_o aught_o to_o conserve_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o occasion_n of_o extroversion_n 118_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v clear_o see_v in_o a_o purify_a interior_a 121_o chap._n 5._o that_o our_o union_n with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n aught_o to_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o our_o action_n 125_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o we_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o suffer_v and_o enjoy_v 128_o chap._n 7._o that_o the_o divine_a presence_n make_v we_o to_o love_v prayer_n or_o action_n as_o best_o please_v god_n 132_o chap._n 8._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n bring_v we_o into_o a_o disesteem_a of_o other_o thing_n 136_o chap._n 9_o where_o we_o may_v best_o find_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n 139_o chap._n 10._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o divine_a providence_n 143_o chap._n 11._o to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n 146_o chap._n 12._o we_o ought_v to_o comport_v ourselves_o with_o a_o respectful_a reverence_n in_o god_n presence_n 149_o chap._n 13._o to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n spirit_n 153_o chap._n 14._o how_o the_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o ourselves_o to_o god_n make_v we_o find_v a_o paradise_n upon_o earth_n 157_o chap_n 15._o how_o the_o beauty_n that_o be_v in_o the_o order_n of_o god_n content_n a_o soul_n 161_o chap._n 16._o the_o practice_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o the_o seven_o day_n of_o the_o week_n 163_o the_o first_o day_n the_o be_v of_o god_n 164_o the_o second_o day_n the_o omnipotency_n of_o god_n 166_o the_o three_o day_n of_o the_o wisdom_n of_o god_n 167_o the_o four_o day_n the_o patience_n of_o god_n 169_o the_o five_o day_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 174_o the_o six_o day_n the_o justice_n of_o god_n 172_o the_o seven_o day_n the_o mercy_n of_o god_n 173_o book_n iv_o of_o solitude_n and_o the_o practice_n of_o two_o excellent_a retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n chap._n 1._o of_o the_o beauty_n of_o christian_a solitude_n 175_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o necessity_n of_o solitude_n 179_o chap._n 3._o the_o difficulty_n of_o solitude_n 182_o chap._n 4._o the_o occupation_n of_o solitude_n 186_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o may_v put_v our_o soul_n and_o sense_n into_o a_o solitude_n 189_o chap._n 6._o a_o solitude_n or_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o infallible_a mystery_n of_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n 192_o first_o day_n 195_o second_o day_n 199_o three_o day_n 203_o four_o day_n 207_o five_o day_n 211_o six_o day_n 215_o seven_o day_n 219_o eight_o day_n 224_o nine_o day_n 228_o ten_o day_n 232_o chap._n 6._o another_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o adorable_a person_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 236_o first_o day_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n ibid._n second_o day_n jesus_n a_o infant_n 241_o three_o day_n jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a 245_o four_o day_n jesus_n the_o fountain_n of_o grace_n and_o piety_n 249_o five_o day_n jesus_n zealator_n of_o soul_n 253_o six_o day_n jesus_n contemplate_v and_o enjoy_v 257_o seven_o day_n jesus_n our_o exemplar_n and_o guide_n 262_o eight_o day_n jesus_n our_o light_n 266_o nine_o day_n jesus_n suffer_v and_o die_v 280_o ten_o day_n jesus_n rise_v from_o death_n and_o gloririous_a 285_o book_n v._o of_o communion_n and_o its_o effect_n chap._n 1._o of_o preparation_n before_o communion_n 291_o chap._n 2._o to_o communicate_v worthy_o we_o must_v put_v ourselves_o in_o a_o state_n conformable_a to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n 294_o chap_n 3._o to_o receive_v the_o communion_n worthy_o we_o must_v imitate_v those_o action_n which_o jesus_n christ_n practise_v when_o he_o institute_v it_o 298_o chap._n 4._o interiour_n entertainment_n during_o communion_n 303_o chap._n 5._o other_o entertainment_n to_o give_v thanks_o after_o communion_n 306_o chap._n 6._o another_o method_n of_o thanksgiving_n after_o communion_n 309_o chap._n 7._o the_o first_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o beget_v in_o we_o the_o love_n of_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n 313_o chap._n 8._o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n 316_o chap._n 9_o the_o second_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o transform_v we_o 319_o chap._n 10._o the_o three_o effect_n of_o communion_n which_o be_v the_o perfect_a and_o consummate_a union_n 323_o chap._n 11._o the_o four_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o confer_v the_o high_a love_n 327_o chap._n 12._o the_o five_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o give_v strength_n and_o perseverance_n in_o the_o service_n
i_o forthwith_o to_o set_v upon_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o life_n hide_a crucify_a despise_a which_o you_o have_v teach_v we_o by_o your_o example_n that_o i_o may_v true_o say_v with_o st._n paul_n absit_fw-la mihi_fw-la gloriari_fw-la nisi_fw-la in_o cruse_n domini_fw-la nostri_fw-la your_o cross_n dear_a jesus_n be_v my_o glory_n and_o i_o will_v glory_v in_o nothing_o else_o honour_n pleasure_n riches_n i_o declare_v my_o mortal_a enemy_n see_v your_o property_n be_v to_o incline_v i_o perpetual_o to_o deviate_v from_o those_o way_n to_o which_o jesus_n call_v i_o i_o abhor_v you_o as_o enemy_n of_o my_o perfection_n ah_o dear_a saviour_n make_v i_o partaker_n of_o your_o life_n humble_a poor_a despise_a or_o let_v i_o live_v no_o long_o in_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n when_o heaven_n shall_v be_v my_o habitation_n i_o shall_v be_v content_a to_o be_v in_o glory_n because_o there_o you_o be_v also_o in_o triumph_n but_o see_v that_o on_o earth_n you_o will_v not_o be_v but_o in_o a_o abject_a condition_n i_o desire_v there_o to_o be_v with_o you_o also_o alas_o i_o march_v but_o slow_o to_o arrive_v at_o perfection_n however_o in_o reality_n i_o will_v fain_o be_v whole_o humble_v both_o interiorly_a and_o exterior_o as_o your_o divine_a wisdom_n see_v best_a for_o i_o if_o it_o be_v your_o will_n i_o will_v search_v after_o external_a humiliation_n for_o i_o find_v no_o better_a food_n for_o a_o christian_a soul_n perhaps_o they_o will_v prove_v hard_a of_o digestion_n to_o i_o yet_o for_o all_o that_o they_o may_v become_v by_o use_n profitable_a and_o delicious_a o_o dear_a saviour_n see_v it_o be_v say_v of_o you_o by_o the_o evangelical_n prophet_n saturabitur_fw-la opprobriis_fw-la give_v i_o my_o fill_n of_o opproby_n and_o abjection_n ravish_v with_o your_o sweetness_n and_o consolation_n those_o who_o know_v well_o how_o to_o use_v such_o favour_n as_o for_o i_o let_v my_o repast_n be_v with_o gall_n and_o vinegar_n because_o by_o their_o relish_n i_o shall_v be_v render_v more_o like_a unto_o you_o o_o jesus_n why_o be_v you_o circumcise_v o_o mary_n why_o be_v you_o purify_v your_o heart_n be_v not_o sully_v and_o yet_o you_o submit_v yourselves_o to_o the_o abjection_n of_o sinner_n because_o to_o be_v despise_v be_v the_o object_n of_o your_o most_o tender_a affection_n there_o be_v never_o two_o heart_n more_o full_a of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o never_o more_o inflame_v desire_n after_o humiliation_n see_v then_o that_o one_o be_v the_o measure_n of_o the_o other_o if_o we_o will_v testify_v that_o we_o love_v god_n we_o must_v also_o love_v to_o suffer_v for_o he_o how_o unjust_a be_v our_o complaint_n against_o those_o who_o undervalue_v we_o and_o how_o unreasonable_o be_v we_o disquiet_v when_o we_o be_v scorn_v by_o other_o we_o ought_v rather_o to_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o be_v not_o despise_v enough_o and_o thus_o it_o will_v be_v with_o we_o if_o we_o have_v a_o heart_n entire_o christian_n it_o be_v true_a grace_n can_v only_o infuse_v such_o inclination_n into_o our_o soul_n nature_n egg_n we_o on_o to_o the_o contrary_n and_o it_o be_v my_o unhappiness_n that_o i_o who_o write_v this_o shall_v i_o fear_v fall_v short_a hereof_o in_o time_n of_o trial_n for_o i_o be_o altogether_o frail_a and_o good_a for_o nothing_o and_o for_o aught_o i_o know_v what_o i_o have_v say_v or_o do_v which_o appear_v so_o beautiful_a may_v be_v rot_v within_o witness_v my_o often_o relapse_n which_o sufficient_o tell_v i_o what_o a_o poor_a abject_a creature_n i_o be_o and_o how_o much_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v despise_v chap._n ii_o the_o foundation_n of_o true_a christian_a humility_n when_o i_o consider_v that_o god_n be_v all_o in_o all_o that_o he_o possess_v in_o himself_o incomprehensible_a perfection_n that_o he_o have_v create_v and_o provide_v for_o we_o infinite_a good_a thing_n i_o can_v but_o acknowledge_v that_o all_o honour_n all_o glory_n all_o praise_n all_o adoration_n be_v due_a unto_o he_o o_o how_o just_a a_o debt_n be_v all_o this_o from_o we_o to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n when_o i_o consider_v o_o god_n that_o i_o be_o a_o pure_a nothing_o that_o i_o have_v in_o myself_o a_o inexhaustible_a mine_n of_o imperfection_n and_o misery_n that_o i_o have_v commit_v great_a offence_n and_o be_o yet_o liable_a to_o more_o unless_o prevent_v by_o grace_n i_o acknowledge_v that_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v the_o scorn_n of_o man_n all_o sort_n of_o opprobry_n and_o disgrace_n all_o malady_n of_o soul_n and_o body_n darkness_n punishment_n temporal_a and_o eternal_a to_o be_v afflict_v mock_v persecute_v by_o all_o creature_n as_o executioner_n of_o divine_a justice_n and_o i_o look_v upon_o myself_o as_o the_o mark_n whereat_z shall_v be_v aim_v these_o arrow_n of_o deserve_a indignation_n god_n can_v never_o be_v sufficient_o honour_v love_a exalt_a glorify_a and_o i_o can_v never_o be_v enough_o debase_v hate_v despise_a and_o persecute_v i_o ought_v to_o have_v not_o only_o this_o humility_n of_o spirit_n but_o likewise_o a_o will_n and_o affection_n to_o suffer_v for_o god_n always_o esteem_v myself_o worthy_a of_o all_o scorn_n and_o contempt_n though_o never_o so_o public_a if_o it_o may_v conduce_v to_o god_n glory_n and_o the_o good_a of_o other_o for_o if_o i_o be_v honour_v as_o my_o condition_n require_v if_o i_o do_v not_o debase_v myself_o below_o the_o mean_a vassal_n it_o be_v because_o the_o order_n of_o government_n forbid_v it_o and_o will_v not_o be_v expedient_a for_o those_o who_o may_v abuse_v this_o condescension_n however_o as_o for_o i_o i_o ought_v to_o have_v this_o will_n and_o inclination_n and_o believe_v it_o be_v the_o place_n be_v due_a unto_o i_o alas_o dear_n saviour_n i_o can_v be_v acceptable_a in_o your_o sight_n unless_o i_o have_v a_o humble_a heart_n and_o this_o i_o can_v have_v but_o by_o your_o grace_n for_o if_o all_o natural_a good_a proceed_v from_o your_o bounty_n much_o more_o must_v all_o supernatural_a grace_n flow_v from_o the_o pure_a fountain_n of_o your_o mercy_n and_o if_o you_o be_v the_o giver_n of_o all_o grace_n doubtless_o principal_o of_o true_a humility_n which_o be_v so_o repugnant_a to_o nature_n that_o there_o be_v nothing_o she_o more_o abhor_v than_o humiliation_n see_v dear_a saviour_n all_o good_a proceed_v from_o you_o the_o glory_n thereof_o ought_v sole_o to_o be_v render_v to_o you_o i_o ought_v to_o take_v no_o complacence_n but_o in_o you_o rejoice_v in_o that_o you_o glorify_v yourself_o enrich_v my_o poverty_n with_o your_o abundance_n when_o i_o see_v person_n afflict_v poor_a distress_a lame_a deform_a i_o confess_v dear_a saviour_n these_o humiliation_n be_v my_o due_n and_o if_o you_o shall_v inflict_v any_o of_o they_o on_o i_o i_o will_v adore_v and_o love_v your_o justice_n and_o for_o what_o you_o have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o i_o adore_v and_o love_v your_o mercy_n i_o will_v never_o complain_v because_o no_o creature_n can_v do_v i_o a_o injury_n i_o ought_v not_o to_o look_v on_o the_o design_n of_o man_n who_o intention_n oftentimes_o be_v only_o to_o hurt_v to_o revenge_v and_o solace_v themselves_o with_o other_o misery_n but_o to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o the_o purpose_n of_o god_n which_o be_v to_o chastise_v i_o to_o better_v i_o and_o to_o humble_v i_o the_o jew_n put_v jesus_n christ_n to_o death_n out_o of_o revenge_n and_o envy_n and_o god_n the_o father_n have_v a_o design_n thereby_o to_o save_v mankind_n i_o will_v not_o hereafter_o hunt_v after_o applause_n and_o honour_n for_o i_o be_o resolve_v not_o to_o follow_v the_o inclination_n of_o deprave_a nature_n but_o follow_v the_o example_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o suffer_v for_o i_o i_o will_v desire_v poverty_n contempt_n pain_n and_o unite_n they_o to_o his_o suffering_n i_o will_v earnest_o beseech_v he_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o his_o mercy_n to_o have_v pity_n on_o i_o if_o we_o will_v once_o serious_o endeavour_v to_o know_v 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that_o you_o withdraw_v from_o i_o your_o divine_a illumination_n in_o prayer_n and_o recollection_n so_o as_o to_o be_v in_o a_o manner_n void_a of_o understanding_n sicut_fw-la equus_fw-la &_o malus_fw-la quibus_fw-la non_fw-la est_fw-la intellectus_fw-la provide_v dear_a jesus_n that_o i_o be_v but_o content_a with_o these_o humiliation_n it_o be_v sufficient_a i_o shall_v be_v happy_a let_v other_o ask_v of_o you_o what_o they_o please_v as_o for_o i_o my_o desire_n be_v to_o be_v entire_o annihilate_v and_o that_o my_o portion_n may_v be_v to_o honour_v your_o divine_a humiliation_n we_o be_v not_o courageous_a enough_o to_o fight_v as_o we_o ought_v to_o destroy_v in_o we_o our_o sensual_a inclination_n for_o we_o be_v too_o feeble_a against_o ourselves_o and_o too_o indulgent_a to_o our_o defect_n in_o this_o spiritual_a combat_n but_o o_o my_o god_n put_v too_o your_o help_a hand_n and_o work_v in_o we_o your_o will_n that_o we_o may_v be_v humble_v and_o content_o submit_v to_o your_o operation_n chap._n viii_o that_o the_o soul_n be_v rich_a when_o she_o possess_v the_o love_n of_o self-contempt_n god_n have_v infuse_v this_o thought_n into_o my_o soul_n that_o the_o love_n of_o self-contempt_n and_o the_o desire_n of_o humiliation_n may_v be_v that_o hide_a treasure_n mention_v in_o the_o gospel_n thesauro_fw-la abscondita_fw-la in_o agro_fw-la matt._n 13._o it_o be_v real_o a_o great_a treasure_n to_o love_v abjection_n yea_o a_o treasure_n that_o contain_v abundance_n of_o inestimable_a riches_n but_o they_o appear_v not_o outward_o be_v hide_v on_o purpose_n to_o preserve_v with_o more_o security_n and_o he_o only_o have_v this_o treasure_n who_o keep_v well_o hide_v what_o he_o possess_v it_o be_v a_o treasure_n hide_a and_o unknown_a to_o the_o world_n for_o who_o will_v imagine_v that_o there_o shall_v be_v any_o thing_n so_o rich_a and_o precious_a in_o suffering_n and_o humiliation_n shall_v our_o sense_n or_o carnal_a prudence_n or_o human_a 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of_o these_o thing_n which_o be_v so_o powerful_a in_o they_o and_o hinder_v in_o they_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n christ_n let_v we_o therefore_o remember_v that_o the_o purity_n of_o virtue_n consist_v in_o a_o faithful_a tendance_n to_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n and_o by_o how_o much_o a_o soul_n be_v more_o faithful_a herein_o the_o great_a advancement_n she_o make_v in_o virtue_n abjection_n be_v as_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o more_o she_o be_v humble_v the_o near_o she_o draw_v to_o her_o repose_n and_o by_o consequence_n have_v a_o great_a feeling_n of_o god_n in_o inward_a peace_n a_o peace_n that_o the_o world_n nor_o nature_n can_v ever_o give_v we_o a_o peace_n that_o pass_v all_o understanding_n chap._n vi_o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n nothing_o but_o god_n make_v man_n poor_a annihilate_v sacrifice_v can_v honour_v god_n according_a to_o his_o greatness_n the_o design_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n to_o this_o end_n be_v admirable_a full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n of_o unspeakable_a love_n and_o mercy_n towards_o man_n and_o most_o ardent_a zeal_n for_o his_o own_o glory_n o_o the_o wonderful_a oeconomy_n that_o discover_v itself_o in_o all_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a o_o the_o ineffable_a mystery_n of_o jesus_n by_o you_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v love_v glorify_a honour_a and_o his_o justice_n satisfy_v to_o the_o utmost_a rigour_n in_o this_o mystery_n be_v contain_v a_o inexplicable_a commerce_n and_o traffic_n of_o god_n the_o father_n with_o his_o son_n the_o interest_n of_o his_o glory_n in_o the_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n the_o will_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v that_o his_o son_n shall_v be_v incarnate_a circumcise_a poor_a scorn_v and_o crucify_v and_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o all_o these_o state_n of_o his_o life_n intend_v thereby_o to_o render_v to_o his_o father_n all_o the_o humiliation_n respect_n love_n and_o adoration_n which_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o these_o be_v the_o annihilation_n which_o so_o much_o elevate_v and_o exalt_v the_o christian_a reliligion_n to_o these_o she_o owe_v her_o grandeur_n and_o excellence_n o_o amiable_a eminent_a and_o excellent_a religion_n how_o unknown_a be_v thou_o to_o worldly_a man_n who_o taste_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o sensual_a pleasure_n o_o christian_n religion_n how_o be_v thou_o admirable_a how_o be_v thou_o ineffable_a who_o chief_a business_n be_v to_o employ_v your_o child_n with_o the_o divine_a traffic_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n with_o his_o son_n incarnate_a when_o thy_o heavenly_a light_n shine_v upon_o a_o soul_n she_o see_v the_o deceit_n the_o vanity_n and_o pitiful_a baseness_n of_o the_o thought_n of_o those_o man_n who_o love_v not_o god_n nor_o aim_n at_o his_o glory_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o wretched_a will_v thou_o make_v thyself_o if_o thou_o follow_v thy_o sensual_a appetite_n and_o walk_v not_o in_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o we_o can_v do_v of_o ourselves_o but_o by_o grace_n and_o power_n of_o the_o same_o jesus_n who_o be_v our_o hope_n and_o only_a helper_n we_o ought_v to_o bear_v no_o less_o respect_n to_o the_o maxim_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n than_o to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v establish_v they_o see_v we_o ought_v to_o believe_v that_o they_o be_v full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o ineffable_a sanctity_n to_o have_v no_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o humiliation_n be_v to_o undervalue_v the_o wisdom_n of_o jesus_n christ_n some_o be_v so_o brutish_a as_o to_o be_v lead_v only_o by_o sensuality_n other_o follow_v only_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n but_o neither_o of_o they_o know_v the_o excellency_n of_o christianity_n but_o such_o only_a who_o be_v conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n o_o life_n supernatural_a how_o sublime_a be_v thou_o how_o do_v thou_o so_o elevate_v a_o soul_n as_o to_o become_v blind_a to_o thing_n here_o below_o yea_o to_o herself_o and_o to_o see_v nothing_o but_o god_n in_o she_o by_o the_o ray_n of_o grace_n be_v please_v o_o divine_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o some_o part_n of_o this_o holy_a life_n which_o the_o world_n can_v neither_o receive_v nor_o know_v quem_fw-la mundus_fw-la non_fw-la potest_fw-la accipere_fw-la nec_fw-la scit_fw-la eum_fw-la as_o st._n john_n testify_v the_o world_n can_v receive_v it_o be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o creature_n nor_o can_v know_v it_o be_v blind_v with_o sensuality_n what_o a_o malediction_n be_v this_o but_o what_o a_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o know_v and_o embrace_v this_o supernatural_a life_n this_o be_v wrought_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o apostle_n who_o return_v with_o joy_n to_o be_v find_v worthy_a to_o live_v this_o life_n that_o be_v to_o be_v whip_v and_o despise_v for_o the_o name_n of_o jesus_n very_o if_o there_o be_v nothing_o to_o suffer_v here_o i_o know_v not_o why_o we_o shall_v desire_v to_o live_v here_o we_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o imitate_v that_o great_a saint_n who_o suffer_v a_o great_a martyrdom_n among_o rose_n and_o suavity_n than_o by_o rack_n and_o torture_n worldly_n pleasure_n be_v a_o kind_n of_o torment_n to_o a_o soul_n that_o love_v jesus_n christ_n crucify_v let_v we_o take_v a_o resolution_n o_o my_o soul_n not_o to_o be_v please_v but_o with_o the_o cross_n and_o when_o that_o do_v not_o relish_n let_v we_o please_v ourselves_o with_o our_o own_o annihilation_n see_v the_o creature_n be_v nothing_o in_o effect_n but_o what_o she_o be_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n but_o she_o be_v no_o more_o in_o his_o eye_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o be_v a_o christian_n and_o she_o be_v no_o more_o a_o christian_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o love_v this_o supernatural_a life_n while_o then_o we_o be_v too_o sensible_a of_o a_o suffer_a condition_n we_o have_v no_o great_a share_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n that_o be_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n abject_a suffer_v and_o annihilate_v chap._n vii_o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n god_n have_v be_v very_o gracious_a to_o we_o to_o draw_v we_o out_o of_o nothing_o but_o more_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a in_o withdraw_v we_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o occasion_n of_o displease_v he_o but_o the_o choice_a of_o his_o favour_n be_v to_o advance_v we_o from_o a_o common_a to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n that_o be_v when_o the_o eternal_a father_n do_v lead_v we_o into_o the_o state_n of_o the_o mortal_a life_n of_o jesus_n by_o abjection_n suffering_n and_o annihilation_n which_o be_v the_o choice_a of_o his_o mercy_n and_o favour_n on_o earth_n because_o thereby_o we_o bring_v to_o he_o the_o great_a glory_n a_o soul_n be_v not_o all_o at_o once_o elevate_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o this_o life_n but_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o behold_v the_o beauty_n thereof_o be_v
behold_v whither_o a_o soul_n be_v conduct_v who_o many_o think_v good_a for_o nothing_o o_o how_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n be_v different_a from_o the_o thought_n of_o god_n let_v then_o every_o one_o honour_v god_n by_o the_o way_n and_o life_n that_o be_v proper_a for_o they_o otherwise_o they_o will_v fall_v into_o perturbation_n of_o spirit_n and_o be_v disquiet_v will_v become_v troublesome_a to_o themselves_o and_o other_o but_o this_o be_v not_o the_o work_n of_o a_o day_n we_o shall_v find_v it_o a_o hard_a task_n to_o become_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o ourselves_o every_o state_n be_v good_a yea_o the_o most_o abject_a all_o grace_n be_v excellent_a yea_o the_o least_o and_o mean_a there_o be_v many_o sort_n of_o grace_n which_o we_o perhaps_o do_v not_o much_o value_n and_o yet_o be_v real_o to_o be_v more_o esteem_v than_o vision_n rapt_n or_o revelation_n to_o labour_v and_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v of_o great_a worth_n than_o ecstasy_n it_o be_v a_o truth_n well_o enough_o know_v by_o many_o though_o practise_v but_o by_o few_o that_o a_o little_a matter_n hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o god_n grace_n in_o we_o one_o only_o small_a natural_a inclination_n unmortified_a suffice_v to_o retard_v our_o progress_n to_o perfection_n for_o this_o reason_n we_o must_v exact_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n annihilate_v in_o we_o every_o motion_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o god_n some_o way_n or_o other_o as_o for_o example_n to_o give_v no_o refreshment_n to_o the_o body_n by_o meat_n drink_z or_o sleep_v &c_n &c_n but_o for_o necessity_n we_o must_v also_o mortify_v in_o we_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o temporal_a commodity_n yea_o love_v abjection_n pain_n and_o poverty_n will_v nothing_o but_o what_o may_v conduce_v to_o advance_v god_n glory_n i_o more_o value_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o humiliation_n and_o suffering_n than_o in_o consolation_n chap._n xiii_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n o_o god_n what_o a_o poor_a christian_n be_o i_o in_o occasion_n of_o trial_n i_o have_v imprint_v in_o i_o some_o idaea_n and_o sentiment_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n but_o when_o it_o come_v to_o put_v they_o in_o practice_n my_o timorous_a nature_n shrink_v and_o make_v excuse_n to_o shun_v suffering_n and_o then_o the_o occasion_n be_v over_o i_o have_v great_a regreat_a for_o not_o be_v courageous_a and_o come_v to_o know_v thereby_o my_o little_a virtue_n and_o small_a perfection_n i_o then_o see_v that_o the_o rule_n of_o perfection_n be_v the_o conformity_n which_o we_o have_v with_o jesus_n crucify_v poor_a and_o abject_a when_o that_o be_v great_a our_o perfection_n be_v great_a also_o but_o that_o i_o find_v i_o have_v little_a or_o no_o affective_a conformity_n with_o jesus_n crucify_v behold_v here_o those_o light_n and_o direction_n i_o have_v learn_v by_o conference_n with_o a_o holy_a person_n and_o be_v good_a for_o my_o practice_n and_o solid_a establishment_n in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 1._o we_o must_v accustom_v our_o body_n to_o austerity_n exercise_v it_o with_o love_a chastisement_n for_o our_o own_o transgression_n and_o the_o sin_n of_o other_o 2._o we_o can_v never_o attain_v to_o contemplation_n and_o a_o perfect_a love_n of_o the_o divinity_n but_o by_o pass_v first_o by_o jesus_n crucify_v poor_a and_o abject_a we_o see_v he_o poor_a and_o despise_a attend_v with_o few_o follower_n because_o we_o refuse_v to_o walk_v in_o those_o rough_a path_n he_o have_v set_v before_o we_o 3._o we_o must_v have_v a_o ardent_a love_n for_o solitude_n and_o recollection_n to_o the_o end_n we_o may_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n and_o correspond_v faithful_o to_o the_o inspiration_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n and_o although_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v a_o general_a indifferency_n to_o all_o state_n and_o call_v of_o god_n yet_o it_o be_v better_a to_o incline_v rather_o to_o retirement_n and_o solitude_n not_o mere_o to_o enjoy_v the_o sweetness_n thereof_o but_o that_o we_o may_v not_o be_v want_v to_o cooperate_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n vouchsafe_v unto_o we_o holy_a solitude_n be_v the_o region_n of_o divine_a communication_n ducam_fw-la eam_fw-la in_o solitudinem_fw-la &_o loquar_fw-la ad_fw-la cor_fw-la ejus_fw-la say_v god_n by_o the_o prophet_n i_o will_v lead_v a_o soul_n into_o solitude_n and_o speak_v interior_o to_o her_o heart_n 4._o the_o reason_n why_o we_o see_v so_o few_o even_o devout_a christian_n make_v progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v because_o they_o limit_v the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v hinder_v its_o enlargement_n by_o natural_a argument_n and_o human_a prudence_n they_o say_v it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o i_o ought_v not_o to_o aspire_v to_o so_o high_a perfection_n those_o who_o live_v in_o the_o world_n can_v be_v so_o elevate_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n these_o and_o suchlike_a excuse_n they_o make_v which_o hinder_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n from_o work_v full_o what_o he_o intend_v if_o we_o do_v but_o consider_v the_o ardent_a desire_n that_o jesus_n have_v to_o advance_v soul_n in_o the_o way_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o how_o ready_a he_o be_v to_o bestow_v on_o we_o new_a grace_n upon_o our_o faithful_a correspond_v with_o the_o former_a we_o will_v be_v both_o ravish_v and_o ashamed_a also_o to_o be_v so_o backward_o in_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n who_o desire_v nothing_o so_o much_o as_o that_o we_o may_v love_v he_o perfect_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o but_o as_o while_o jesus_n be_v on_o earth_n it_o be_v say_v of_o he_o that_o the_o world_n know_v he_o not_o and_o his_o own_o receive_v he_o not_o for_o see_v he_o bear_v in_o a_o stable_a circumcise_a as_o a_o sinner_n live_v poor_o as_o a_o carpenter_n persecute_v accuse_v condemn_v to_o die_v a_o infamous_a death_n on_o the_o cross_n they_o will_v not_o take_v he_o for_o the_o promise_a messiah_n so_o as_o yet_o he_o be_v not_o well_o know_v and_o many_o christian_n themselves_o do_v not_o receive_v he_o nor_o let_v his_o spirit_n and_o maxim_n reign_v in_o their_o heart_n yea_o some_o who_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o perfection_n do_v not_o as_o they_o ought_v esteem_n and_o embrace_v his_o humiliation_n and_o abjection_n for_o we_o too_o much_o desire_v honour_n and_o preferment_n and_o too_o much_o fear_v abjection_n and_o suffering_n o_o my_o soul_n what_o have_v thou_o do_v hitherto_o not_o to_o have_v as_o yet_o begin_v this_o life_n crucify_v and_o annihilate_v i_o confess_v my_o folly_n and_o blindness_n o_o my_o god_n make_v i_o present_o to_o set_v upon_o it_o and_o let_v not_o any_o day_n pass_v over_o without_o the_o happiness_n of_o suffer_v something_o for_o your_o love_n chap._n fourteen_o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o have_v oftentimes_o no_o need_n of_o any_o other_o care_n than_o to_o be_v faithful_a to_o a_o ordinary_a way_n of_o devotion_n without_o pretend_v to_o what_o be_v extraordinary_a and_o we_o have_v reason_n to_o fear_v that_o motion_n now_o and_o then_o to_o undertake_v a_o life_n of_o great_a perfection_n may_v proceed_v rather_o from_o a_o seek_n of_o our_o own_o excellency_n than_o a_o true_a desire_n of_o please_a god_n among_o these_o danger_n blindness_n and_o obscurity_n we_o stand_v in_o great_a need_n of_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n and_o conduct_v of_o some_o holy_a person_n who_o be_v able_a to_o discern_v what_o be_v best_a for_o we_o however_o put_v our_o confidence_n in_o god_n and_o live_v in_o a_o entire_a dependence_n on_o he_o we_o shall_v find_v peace_n and_o quiet_a of_o mind_n if_o we_o have_v desire_n for_o any_o thing_n let_v it_o be_v for_o such_o thing_n as_o jesus_n crucify_v desire_v for_o they_o be_v contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n and_o though_o there_o may_v possible_o occur_v some_o self-seeking_a yet_o this_o be_v the_o way_n of_o grace_n inasmuch_o as_o the_o find_a of_o our_o soul_n be_v 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that_o purity_n wherewith_o i_o ought_v to_o love_v he_o who_o be_v essential_o good_a and_o perfect_a i_o know_v god_n be_v a_o jealous_a god_n who_o will_v admit_v no_o rival_n in_o his_o love_n and_o that_o with_o great_a reason_n because_o he_o be_v only_o true_o amiable_a as_o our_o sovereign_a good_a o_o that_o he_o be_v love_v according_a to_o his_o beauty_n my_o soul_n be_v inflame_v with_o a_o great_a desire_n to_o disengage_v herself_o from_o all_o creature_n that_o i_o may_v whole_o be_v busy_v about_o god_n alone_o i_o see_v clear_o that_o this_o be_v my_o principal_n concern_v and_o not_o to_o meddle_v with_o other_o affair_n without_o necessity_n for_o a_o soul_n who_o god_n attract_v to_o a_o sublime_a union_n with_o himself_o must_v cut_v off_o abundance_n of_o superfluous_a thought_n discourse_n and_o occupation_n or_o else_o she_o will_v be_v liable_a to_o a_o thousand_o amusement_n for_o my_o part_n i_o often_o say_v to_o myself_o come_v my_o soul_n let_v we_o to_o 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