then_o â—nto_o the_o understanding_n his_o salvation_n also_o â—n_v go_v no_o further_o then_o into_o the_o understanding_n and_o reason_n so_o that_o it_o must_v at_o last_o need_v die_v in_o that_o death_n that_o be_v so_o necessary_a to_o all_o christian_n viz._n wherein_o reason_n be_v destroy_v for_o in_o this_o death_n there_o remain_v nothing_o but_o the_o soul_n or_o mind_n only_o but_o if_o it_o be_v object_v that_o our_o faith_n and_o knowledge_n do_v penetrate_v even_o into_o the_o most_o inward_a region_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o mind_n i_o answer_v thereto_o that_o then_o also_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o this_o our_o soul_n and_o mind_n when_o it_o shall_v live_v with_o such_o a_o estrangedness_n from_o the_o flesh_n that_o it_o can_v but_o with_o great_a nauseousness_n and_o tedious_a disdain_n bear_v in_o its_o self_n all_o the_o desire_n and_o lust_n which_o spring_n from_o the_o nethermost_a part_n of_o the_o flesh_n so_o as_o it_o will_v rather_o die_v infinite_a death_n and_o to_o be_v free_v from_o they_o then_o with_o pleasure_n even_o once_o to_o perform_v they_o in_o the_o verv_v act_n behold_v my_o g._n this_o brief_a proposal_n how_o every_o one_o ought_v to_o prove_v and_o try_v hâ—â—_n faith_n if_o any_o man_n believe_v in_o chriâ—â—_n from_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o his_o soul_n 〈◊〉_d must_v need_v be_v wrack_v with_o great_a doâ—lours_n in_o his_o soul_n by_o reason_n of_o sin_n so_o thâ—_n he_o will_v account_v of_o sin_n for_o the_o most_o grievous_a torture_n that_o can_v be_v find_v in_o all_o thâ—_n world_n and_o for_o his_o great_a enemy_n and_o how_o then_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o act_v it_o can_v he_o enter_v into_o a_o friendship_n with_o it_o although_o therefore_o the_o vulgar_a knowledge_n of_o those_o who_o glory_n in_o the_o gospel_n may_v say_v on_o this_o wise_a sin_n if_o so_o be_v it_o be_v not_o perpetrate_v in_o the_o very_a act_n though_o it_o shall_v lurk_v in_o the_o heart_n do_v we_o no_o hurt_n yet_o do_v thou_o i_o pray_v hear_v how_o christ_n do_v nevertheless_o assert_v that_o he_o who_o look_v on_o a_o woman_n to_o lust_n after_o she_o be_v already_o guilty_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n by_o which_o word_n sure_o christ_n excuse_v not_o but_o accuse_v the_o lust_a of_o a_o man_n and_o will_v real_o have_v it_o account_v for_o sin_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n dearest_n g._n i_o beseech_v thou_o do_v not_o despond_v in_o thy_o mind_n because_o of_o this_o hard_a say_n for_o all_o thing_n be_v possible_a to_o god_n i_o only_o write_v this_o of_o purpose_n that_o thou_o may_v seasonable_o learn_v to_o judge_v of_o all_o thing_n lest_o thou_o shall_v consume_v thy_o youth_n unprofitable_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v bear_v fruit_n to_o god_n â—in_v thy_o own_o soul_n they_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n who_o be_v of_o the_o dregs_o of_o the_o vulgar_a though_o they_o may_v have_v knowledge_n yet_o they_o lie_v down_o tire_v in_o sloth_n nor_o do_v they_o oppose_v sin_n with_o the_o least_o burn_a zeal_n or_o breaâ—â—_n its_o impetuous_a assault_n nor_o yet_o do_v this_o external_a abstinence_n from_o sin_n and_o the_o debilitate_v of_o they_o suffice_v for_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o descend_v to_o the_o very_a bottom_n itself_o when_o even_o the_o thought_n be_v to_o be_v judge_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n far_o therefore_o be_v it_o from_o we_o to_o commit_v sin_n in_o the_o very_a act_n also_o this_o my_o letter_n intend_v this_o at_o least_o that_o thy_o young_a limb_n be_v stir_v up_o both_o night_n and_o day_n to_o the_o worship_n of_o god_n by_o continue_a prayer_n in_o temperance_n purity_n meekness_n of_o heart_n long-suffering_a louâ—_v of_o thy_o enemy_n as_o also_o in_o the_o read_n of_o scripture_n in_o holy_a proficiency_n anâ—_n in_o other_o virtue_n conduce_v to_o christian_a discipline_n concern_v which_o thy_o owâ—_n conscience_n will_v afford_v to_o thou_o a_o testimony_n all_o which_o be_v perform_v thou_o wiâ—â—_n every_o day_n rejoice_v in_o thy_o great_a success_n iâ—_n the_o work_n of_o the_o lord_n that_o at_o last_o wheâ—_n thy_o most_o miserable_a condition_n be_v know_v thou_o will_v be_v a_o terror_n to_o thy_o own_o selâ—_n and_o therefore_o thou_o will_v so_o much_o thâ—_n more_o diligent_o call_v upon_o god_n for_o help_v that_o his_o most_o powerful_a right_a hand_n maâ—â—_n at_o length_n gracious_o support_v thy_o soul_n and_o conquer_v the_o power_n of_o the_o enemy_n in_o a_o real_a victory_n the_o lord_n have_v mercy_n on_o we_o all_o and_o heal_v our_o disease_n and_o effectual_o cause_v we_o to_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o his_o righteousness_n lest_o we_o be_v leave_v naked_a in_o our_o own_o impurity_n epist._n viii_o how_o any_o one_o who_o be_v studious_a concern_v the_o way_n of_o the_o lord_n ought_v daily_o to_o exercise_v himself_o most_o belove_a niece_n because_o i_o understand_v that_o thou_o earnest_o desire_v such_o a_o disposition_n of_o heart_n as_o true_o to_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o lord_n i_o can_v not_o withhold_v myself_o but_o must_v write_v to_o thou_o these_o few_o thing_n for_o thy_o great_a confirmation_n in_o they_o that_o thou_o be_v once_o enter_v into_o this_o way_n shall_v not_o desist_v from_o vigorous_o proceed_v forward_o and_o to_o adhere_v to_o the_o lord_n with_o thy_o whole_a heart_n together_o with_o a_o total_a suppression_n of_o thy_o carnal_a part_n be_v therefore_o diligent_o studious_a that_o thy_o diligence_n be_v not_o tire_v out_o in_o read_v in_o humanity_n in_o silence_n in_o meekness_n in_o temperance_n forbearance_n patience_n and_o compassion_n also_o learn_v to_o exercise_v thyself_o in_o all_o study_n of_o virtue_n that_o thou_o be_v find_v faithful_a in_o little_a thing_n may_v be_v make_v ruler_n over_o much_o great_a for_o if_o thou_o shall_v not_o be_v faithful_a in_o these_o few_o thing_n assure_o thou_o will_v never_o be_v entrust_v with_o more_o but_o i_o hope_v that_o thou_o will_v receive_v wisdom_n and_o prudence_n from_o the_o lord_n that_o thou_o will_v have_v a_o care_n of_o and_o diligent_o attend_v unto_o thy_o own_o self_n lest_o some_o bitter_a root_n shall_v spring_v up_o in_o thou_o and_o so_o thou_o and_o thy_o soul_n tumble_v headlong_o into_o destruction_n for_o the_o flesh_n do_v very_o subtle_o assault_v a_o man_n to_o beguile_v he_o and_o turn_v he_o away_o from_o godliness_n wherefore_o make_v a_o strict_a watch_n upon_o thy_o life_n and_o conversation_n careful_o encompass_v thyself_o round_o have_v cut_v off_o the_o world_n and_o all_o wantonness_n of_o life_n speech_n and_o thought_n prefer_v every_o one_o with_o all_o gentleness_n and_o patience_n not_o only_o the_o good_a but_o also_o the_o evil_a and_o the_o immodest_a learn_v also_o to_o bridle_v in_o thyself_o and_o to_o humble_v thyself_o be_v always_o turn_v to_o the_o lord_n in_o thy_o heart_n never_o let_v vain_a evil_a and_o unworthy_a thought_n arise_v in_o thy_o mind_n but_o always_o oppose_v they_o with_o great_a earnestness_n pour_v out_o to_o the_o lord_n fervent_a prayer_n and_o if_o thou_o get_v any_o spare_a time_n on_o holy_a day_n or_o otherways_o employ_v it_o in_o read_v the_o holy_a scripture_n of_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n or_o else_o of_o that_o little_a book_n entitle_v of_o the_o imitation_n of_o christ_n and_o in_o these_o exercise_n thyself_o and_o learn_v to_o ponder_v they_o often_o in_o thy_o mind_n if_o thou_o read_v any_o thing_n which_o thou_o do_v not_o understand_v call_v upon_o the_o lord_n with_o ardent_a sigh_n and_o daily_a tear_n that_o he_o will_v open_v to_o thou_o the_o true_a sense_n of_o his_o most_o holy_a word_n for_o to_o be_v the_o necessary_a food_n of_o thy_o soul_n for_o the_o more_o thou_o shall_v follow_v the_o lord_n the_o more_o thou_o shall_v understand_v of_o holy_a scripture_n and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o less_o thou_o be_v intent_n to_o wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n by_o so_o much_o the_o less_o shall_v thou_o understand_v scripture_n therefore_o let_v thy_o constant_a endeavour_n be_v to_o approve_v thyself_o faithful_a in_o these_o thing_n which_o be_v viz._n make_v know_v to_o thou_o in_o and_o by_o mortification_n and_o a_o continual_a access_n to_o god_n by_o prayer_n nor_o let_v any_o time_n slip_v by_o thou_o in_o vain_a and_o without_o thus_o do_v if_o thou_o reply_v that_o thou_o understand_v not_o what_o thou_o read_v again_o say_v that_o though_o thou_o may_v noâ—_n understand_v all_o yet_o be_v it_o incumbent_a oâ—_n thou_o to_o exercise_v thyself_o in_o the_o sacred_a word_n of_o the_o lord_n as_o also_o to_o be_v unwearied_o solicitous_a about_o it_o for_o by_o these_o exercise_n thou_o shall_v soon_o be_v amend_v then_o by_o idleness_n and_o these_o be_v the_o beâ—â—_n mean_v of_o institute_v and_o of_o exercise_v anâ—_n man_n
be_v it_o that_o these_o two_o sort_n do_v thus_o differ_v one_o from_o another_o the_o first_o be_v when_o some_o be_v the_o enemy_n of_o sin_n for_o their_o own_o sake_n when_o as_o by_o nature_n they_o be_v still_o friend_n but_o the_o other_o and_o second_o sort_n be_v when_o it_o have_v lose_v ipseity_n or_o propriety_n and_o hate_v sin_n by_o nature_n for_o such_o be_v in_o god_n and_o be_v new_a creature_n have_v attain_v a_o new_a sense_n which_o be_v spiritual_a whereas_o the_o former_a sort_n be_v still_o natural_a and_o have_v a_o natural_a sense_n whence_o they_o wear_v about_o they_o not_o the_o new_a but_o the_o old_a creature_n yet_o they_o be_v well_o enough_o in_o their_o own_o kind_n and_o their_o state_n or_o condition_n precede_v the_o latter_a or_o second_o and_o wait_v for_o it_o the_o lord_n be_v merciful_a to_o we_o for_o this_o last_o state_n be_v not_o the_o result_n of_o our_o study_n and_o endeavour_n but_o of_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n a_o mâ—n_z come_v thereunto_o not_o active_o but_o passive_o and_o it_o behoove_v that_o god_n only_o be_v the_o workmaster_n therein_o tauler_n say_v keep_v thyself_o passive_a and_o god_n will_v be_v active_a and_o then_o the_o thing_n will_v not_o be_v impossible_a because_o god_n himself_o will_v do_v it_o and_o transfer_v a_o man_n to_o that_o one_o scope_n or_o end_n viz._n god_n himself_o and_o all_o this_o by_z and_o through_o christ_n jesus_n our_o lord_n who_o be_v just_a suffer_v for_o the_o unjust_a that_o he_o may_v bring_v we_o unto_o god_n and_o that_o be_v it_o which_o be_v promise_v in_o the_o prophet_n that_o the_o lord_n will_v prepare_v such_o a_o people_n as_o shall_v declare_v his_o praise_n which_o be_v write_v in_o luke_n 1.71_o salvation_n from_o our_o enemy_n and_o that_o which_o paul_n say_v tâ—_n condemn_v sin_n through_o sin_n it_o be_v a_o great_a bitterness_n to_o i_o yet_o it_o be_v a_o sword_n that_o pierce_v into_o my_o breast_n no_o man_n can_v know_v what_o it_o be_v unless_o he_o have_v lie_v in_o it_o but_o to_o all_o the_o rest_n who_o yet_o stand_v in_o the_o labour_n of_o the_o law_n those_o say_n be_v as_o sweet_a as_o honey_n but_o to_o i_o bitter_a but_o when_o they_o also_o shall_v have_v come_v thus_o far_o the_o same_o thing_n will_v happen_v also_o to_o they_o oh_o grief_n that_o i_o must_v draw_v my_o salvation_n from_o out_o of_o my_o enemy_n and_o experimental_o feel_v that_o sin_n shall_v be_v condemn_v through_o sin_n chap._n xxx_o if_o we_o ever_o be_v willing_a to_o become_v proficient_o we_o must_v bear_v one_o with_o another_o as_o god_n also_o have_v bear_v with_o we_o and_o still_o bear_v with_o we_o and_o even_o as_o other_o also_o do_v bear_v with_o we_o yet_o it_o be_v chief_o to_o be_v endeavour_v that_o we_o daily_o become_v less_o and_o less_o troublesome_a unto_o other_o and_o be_v accept_v of_o god_n we_o shall_v have_v soundness_n of_o conscience_n we_o ought_v to_o be_v brethren_n and_o not_o accuse_v diffame_v or_o contemn_v one_o another_o for_o any_o shame_n or_o spot_n and_o if_o any_o one_o can_v do_v or_o have_v this_o from_o the_o very_a foundation_n yet_o he_o ought_v to_o suppress_v these_o thing_n in_o himself_o and_o to_o have_v a_o care_n lest_o they_o break_v forth_o again_o and_o then_o will_v the_o conscience_n be_v endue_v with_o no_o bitterness_n and_o the_o state_n of_o the_o man_n will_v be_v well_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v troublesome_a to_o one_o another_o in_o gesture_n or_o word_n or_o work_n or_o thought_n but_o every_o where_o to_o seek_v peace_n in_o love_n and_o because_o now_o it_o be_v tell_v we_o concern_v affliction_n that_o we_o must_v be_v subject_v thereunto_o in_o what_o manner_n soever_o it_o rush_v in_o upon_o we_o it_o be_v to_o be_v accept_v as_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n and_o a_o man_n in_o affliction_n aught_o to_o abstain_v from_o all_o delight_v derive_v from_o the_o creature_n we_o must_v begin_v to_o cut_v off_o our_o member_n before_o we_o come_v at_o the_o heart_n sin_n must_v be_v starve_v to_o death_n and_o as_o it_o be_v usual_a to_o deal_v with_o a_o fever_n neither_o food_n be_v to_o be_v give_v to_o it_o and_o wherever_o it_o will_v put_v forth_o itself_o it_o be_v to_o be_v hinder_v from_o grow_v yea_o also_o its_o life_n which_o be_v so_o strong_o manifest_v in_o we_o be_v by_o the_o help_n of_o conscience_n to_o be_v suppress_v until_o it_o come_v to_o its_o death_n if_o any_o one_o will_v serious_o possess_v these_o thing_n let_v he_o daily_o call_v upon_o god_n that_o he_o will_v be_v present_a with_o he_o in_o they_o when_o he_o the_o author_n be_v sometime_o ask_v what_o be_v to_o be_v do_v with_o those_o person_n who_o persecute_v other_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o faith_n answer_v that_o we_o ought_v to_o love_v even_o our_o persecutor_n and_o add_v this_o similitude_n if_o any_o one_o by_o great_a and_o daily_a travail_n desire_v to_o go_v to_o cologne_n by_o a_o journey_n or_o way_n very_o difficult_a and_o troublesome_a and_o some_o body_n shall_v by_o chance_n come_v and_o put_v this_o traveller_n into_o a_o coach_n and_o so_o carry_v he_o to_o cologne_n certain_o to_o such_o a_o one_o he_o ought_v to_o return_v the_o great_a thanks_o but_o not_o hatred_n chap._n xxxi_o concern_v the_o exercise_n of_o prayer_n the_o author_n be_v ask_v concern_v prayer_n answer_v i_o every_o day_n appear_v thrice_o before_o the_o lord_n in_o prayer_n be_v ask_v whither_o by_o the_o voice_n of_o his_o mouth_n he_o answer_v yes_o viz._n in_o the_o morning_n at_o noon_n and_o at_o night_n be_v ask_v whither_o he_o do_v so_o by_o reason_n of_o all_o those_o sin_n which_o press_v he_o down_o with_o the_o heavy_a care_n or_o anxiety_n and_o which_o be_v in_o he_o most_o displease_v to_o god_n he_o answer_v yes_o but_o say_v he_o such_o representation_n be_v always_o set_v before_o my_o â—â—es_n that_o i_o may_v appear_v pure_a and_o that_o do_v keep_v i_o from_o sin_v moreover_o i_o always_o have_v my_o mind_n lift_v up_o to_o god_n in_o my_o labour_n that_o i_o may_v diligent_o observe_v the_o very_a bottom_n of_o my_o heart_n nor_o will_v i_o let_v my_o hand_n be_v free_a from_o labour_n if_o i_o have_v wander_v or_o err_v any_o where_o or_o have_v do_v any_o thing_n that_o i_o know_v to_o be_v unjust_a i_o be_v not_o hear_v but_o reject_v of_o the_o lord_n therefore_o i_o be_v still_o endeavour_v that_o i_o may_v always_o appear_v pure_a and_o pure_a if_o i_o intend_v to_o be_v hear_v of_o the_o lord_n it_o be_v necessary_a that_o a_o man_n shall_v exceed_o serious_o and_o diligent_o exercise_v himself_o in_o prayer_n if_o he_o intend_v to_o be_v advance_v in_o the_o lord_n for_o paul_n say_v that_o man_n ought_v to_o pray_v in_o every_o place_n lift_v up_o pure_a hand_n without_o wrath_n and_o contention_n viz._n lest_o that_o our_o conscience_n shall_v accuse_v we_o or_o our_o cogitation_n excuse_v themselves_o and_o thereupon_o become_v angry_a and_o contend_v in_o we_o prepare_v thyself_o first_o before_o thou_o pray_v nor_o go_v about_o it_o like_v one_o that_o be_v about_o to_o tempt_v god_n we_o ought_v with_o fear_n and_o terror_n yea_o with_o great_a tremble_a appear_v before_o god_n in_o prayer_n and_o therefore_o we_o ought_v to_o be_v prepare_v before_o we_o pray_v poverty_n and_o affliction_n teach_v we_o to_o pray_v by_o how_o much_o great_a the_o affliction_n be_v by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o pierce_a will_n the_o prayer_n be_v we_o be_v to_o endeavour_v not_o to_o seem_v or_o profess_v ourselves_o otherwise_o before_o man_n than_o we_o profess_v ourselves_o before_o god_n for_o man_n before_o man_n seem_v to_o be_v somewhat_o when_o yet_o before_o god_n they_o be_v still_o as_o a_o nothing_o in_o the_o bottom_n and_o consequent_o they_o deceive_v themselves_o chap._n xxxii_o a_o man_n ought_v not_o open_o to_o reveal_v his_o divine_a exercise_n viz._n that_o by_o which_o he_o be_v exercise_v by_o god_n some_o be_v natural_o so_o close_o of_o heart_n that_o they_o be_v willing_o silent_a and_o reveal_v to_o no_o man_n their_o divine_a exercise_n that_o be_v the_o gift_n of_o god_n and_o be_v please_v to_o god_n other_o be_v natural_o open_a of_o heart_n so_o as_o they_o willing_o discover_v to_o any_o one_o their_o divine_a exercise_n and_o their_o whole_a mind_n and_o that_o be_v very_o displease_v to_o god_n such_o therefore_o be_v to_o endeavour_v and_o study_v to_o gâ—t_o close_a heart_n and_o let_v they_o learn_v to_o bridle_v their_o tongue_n and_o beg_v help_n from_o the_o lord_n for_o no_o man_n can_v ready_o come_v to_o be_v silent_a unless_o first_o he_o be_v deep_o smite_v in_o his_o heart_n with_o
nature_n and_o possess_v and_o love_n and_o in_o which_o we_o live_v the_o power_n of_o death_n shall_v be_v know_v to_o all_o thing_n live_v but_o by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o difficulty_n by_o how_o much_o the_o great_a knowledge_n some_o have_v on_o this_o earth_n for_o at_o the_o time_n of_o death_n all_o thing_n be_v to_o be_v give_v up_o to_o god_n and_o then_o all_o thing_n be_v shut_v up_o and_o end_v in_o the_o truth_n of_o god_n the_o lord_n unite_v we_o with_o himself_o who_o himself_o be_v the_o beginning_n and_o end_n old_a and_o new_a yet_o be_v he_o one_o and_o immutable_a void_a of_o all_o increase_n in_o himself_o though_o in_o the_o temporary_a creature_n he_o be_v know_v with_o increase_n and_o decrease_v as_o much_o therefore_o as_o we_o depart_v from_o temporariness_n so_o much_o be_v we_o unite_v with_o god_n in_o who_o there_o be_v no_o time_n and_o in_o he_o who_o be_v the_o last_o and_o the_o first_o with_o a_o everlasting_a presence_n and_o in_o he_o all_o 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take_v all_o as_o from_o the_o creator_n whether_o they_o be_v grateful_a or_o ungrateful_a and_o though_o we_o may_v not_o as_o yet_o come_v thus_o far_o yet_o be_v this_o to_o be_v account_v for_o a_o rule_n and_o to_o be_v follow_v with_o all_o endeavour_n and_o with_o this_o i_o will_v have_v thou_o recommend_v to_o the_o lord_n who_o will_v be_v helpful_a to_o we_o all_o and_o keep_v and_o promote_v we_o all_o more_o and_o more_o in_o his_o own_o way_n epist._n xxx_o how_o a_o noble_a plant_n spring_v up_o out_o of_o the_o dead_a seed_n through_o the_o divine_a fuitfulness_n to_o his_o brother_n a._n w._n dear_a brother_n the_o herb_n we_o have_v receive_v the_o omnipotent_a lord_n who_o from_o his_o eternal_a beam_a forth_o have_v make_v to_o come_v forth_o the_o outflowing_a power_n of_o all_o his_o creature_n according_a to_o the_o common_a and_o outstreaming_a operation_n of_o the_o law_n of_o nature_n replenish_v thou_o and_o the_o common_a emptiness_n of_o other_o with_o 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virtue_n thereof_o that_o miracle_n of_o the_o supernatural_a spiritual_a and_o eternal_a life_n may_v be_v discover_v and_o acknowledge_v together_o with_o the_o spiritual_a salvation_n in_o christ_n his_o eternal_a and_o only_o beget_v son_n in_o who_o miserable_a we_o be_v depress_v down_o into_o death_n with_o verity_n epist._n xxxi_o concern_v the_o right_a uncloathing_n of_o self_n and_o of_o the_o yield_n up_o of_o the_o soul_n in_o all_o suffering_n dear_a brother_n the_o lord_n be_v mindful_a of_o our_o misery_n and_o first_o to_o behold_v i_o the_o most_o miserable_a one_o with_o commiseration_n and_o offer_v to_o himself_o my_o heart_n make_v bare_a and_o empty_v by_o many_o press_n together_o and_o that_o he_o will_v renunerate_v it_o with_o the_o blessing_n of_o fruitfulness_n in_o a_o divine_a and_o eternal_a redemption_n and_o freedom_n from_o all_o the_o enemy_n of_o my_o heart_n who_o hold_v it_o captive_a in_o the_o chain_n of_o darkness_n out_o of_o the_o just_a 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my_o god_n i_o call_v unto_o thou_o all_o the_o day_n but_o thou_o will_v not_o hear_v i_o a_o be_o worm_n and_o no_o man_n also_o in_o psalm_n 60._o save_v i_o o_o god_n because_o the_o flood_n have_v enter_v into_o my_o soul_n i_o be_o stick_v fast_o in_o the_o deep_a mire_n and_o there_o be_v no_o bottom_n and_o so_o on_o to_o the_o end_n of_o the_o psalm_n moreover_o in_o psalm_n 88_o my_o soul_n be_v fill_v with_o evil_a and_o my_o life_n approach_v unto_o the_o grave_n or_o hell_n etc._n etc._n by_o which_o and_o the_o like_a say_n express_v the_o torment_n of_o christ_n the_o whole_a psalter_n with_o the_o prophet_n be_v perfect_o fill_v but_o now_o if_o thou_o shall_v say_v christ_n indeed_o as_o the_o scripture_n do_v testify_v do_v suffer_v all_o these_o thing_n and_o fulfil_v they_o in_o his_o example_n yet_o be_v it_o impossible_a that_o any_o one_o can_v imitate_v he_o in_o such_o strait_n and_o desertion_n it_o be_v answer_v christ_n himself_o have_v say_v he_o that_o 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the_o combat_n of_o his_o peopleâ—_n and_o he_o be_v faithful_a and_o suffer_v no_o man_n to_o be_v tempt_v beyond_o what_o he_o be_v able_a to_o bear_v never_o yet_o do_v such_o misery_n touch_v his_o elect_n but_o he_o still_o together_o with_o the_o temptation_n find_v out_o a_o way_n to_o escape_v as_o it_o be_v make_v manifest_a in_o the_o example_n of_o the_o patriarch_n prophet_n and_o apostle_n who_o all_o as_o also_o the_o author_n of_o these_o saying_n be_v lead_v through_o fire_n and_o water_n through_o misery_n and_o strait_n and_o through_o a_o total_a desertion_n yet_o every_o one_o according_a to_o his_o measure_n so_o as_o they_o become_v as_o gold_n purify_v in_o the_o fire_n and_o be_v purge_v from_o their_o sin_n alas_o how_o vast_o great_a be_v that_o micsey_n in_o which_o david_n cry_v out_o â—nd_v complain_v the_o sorrow_n of_o death_n have_v compass_v i_o about_o and_o the_o torment_n of_o hell_n have_v make_v i_o afraid_a the_o snare_n of_o death_n have_v lay_v 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be_v no_o long_o desire_v when_o viz._n any_o one_o desire_n to_o arrive_v at_o the_o true_a substance_n or_o essence_n there_o be_v a_o claritude_n give_v which_o foretell_v to_o a_o man_n that_o essence_n of_o the_o thing_n in_o which_o he_o be_v not_o yet_o get_v and_o to_o which_o he_o at_o last_o come_v just_o as_o a_o flower_n be_v a_o certain_a demonstration_n of_o the_o fruit_n that_o be_v to_o come_v in_o the_o future_a chap._n xix_o when_o the_o lord_n say_v to_o the_o young_a son_n my_o son_n go_v and_o work_n in_o the_o vineyard_n to_o day_n and_o he_o answer_v i_o go_v lord_n but_o come_v unto_o the_o elder_a he_o also_o say_v go_v work_n in_o the_o vineyard_n and_o he_o answer_v i_o will_v not_o those_o two_o son_n be_v but_o one_o man._n for_o when_o a_o man_n begin_v he_o will_v do_v all_o he_o will_v suppress_v sin_n purify_v himself_o he_o will_v worship_n love_n and_o adore_v god_n and_o adhere_v unto_o he_o etc._n etc._n he_o think_v that_o he_o be_v able_a to_o 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say_v the_o law_n can_v make_v nothing_o perfect_a but_o be_v the_o bring_n in_o of_o a_o better_a hope_n there_o be_v no_o rest_n to_o the_o father_n till_o christ_n do_v come_v as_o the_o prophet_n say_v concern_v zion_n isaiab_n 62.1_o that_o if_o one_o will_v be_v make_v one_o with_o the_o truth_n it_o can_v be_v do_v whilst_o non-corruption_n last_v and_o whatsoever_o be_v say_v or_o understand_v of_o it_o whilst_o it_o last_v be_v without_o experience_n non-corruption_n hope_v in_o vain_a for_o it_o come_v or_o arrive_v not_o unto_o god_n for_o no_o man_n receive_v god_n without_o death_n and_o destruction_n every_o natural_a man_n be_v in_o the_o desire_n of_o god_n or_o the_o creature_n and_o yet_o neither_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o for_o if_o he_o can_v come_v at_o god_n as_o he_o do_v to_o the_o creature_n he_o will_v alike_o abuse_v he_o as_o he_o abuse_v they_o viz._n with_o appropriation_n these_o may_v be_v thus_o observe_v every_o imagination_n which_o be_v in_o man_n 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what_o will_v it_o profit_v a_o man_n to_o gain_v the_o whole_a world_n and_o to_o lose_v his_o own_o soul_n and_o what_o advantage_n will_v it_o be_v to_o a_o man_n to_o know_v all_o thing_n and_o yet_o he_o experience_v they_o not_o nor_o be_v they_o fulfil_v in_o he_o and_o therefore_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o take_v care_n of_o that_o to_o know_v or_o understand_v much_o but_o that_o we_o may_v sensible_o apprehend_v and_o experience_n much_o knowledge_n puff_v up_o but_o charity_n edifi_v faith_n the_o apostle_n experience_n supply_v all_o thing_n in_o man_n and_o be_v adequate_a to_o knowledge_n and_o thus_o also_o the_o man_n be_v make_v humble_a chap._n xiii_o when_o death_n be_v know_v it_o be_v also_o fear_v and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o profound_o death_n be_v know_v by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v it_o terrify_v and_o be_v it_o fear_v if_o death_n must_v be_v true_a it_o must_v be_v true_a as_o to_o all_o thing_n when_o nature_n be_v once_o dead_a as_o to_o 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whence_o they_o can_v come_v for_o they_o always_o do_v handle_v i_o very_o severe_o but_o the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v my_o chief_a salvation_n as_o long_o as_o the_o will_n of_o god_n overshaddow_n i_o i_o can_v bear_v all_o though_o i_o shall_v be_v roast_v or_o boil_a annihilate_v or_o slay_v in_o body_n soul_n and_o spirit_n but_o when_o the_o will_n of_o god_n hide_v itself_o for_o some_o time_n that_o i_o do_v not_o feel_v it_o over_o i_o i_o fall_v into_o such_o strait_n as_o a_o unexperienced_a person_n can_v believe_v my_o whole_a hope_n be_v that_o the_o lord_n will_v lead_v we_o all_o through_o all_o though_o the_o case_n be_v full_a of_o sorrow_n for_o his_o arm_n be_v all_o powerful_a
when_o a_o man_n stand_v between_o conscience_n and_o flesh_n and_o when_o conscience_n cease_v than_o the_o flesh_n urge_v he_o and_o to_o he_o it_o be_v say_v amend_v thy_o life_n or_o thou_o must_v die_v but_o when_o one_o stand_v between_o life_n and_o conscience_n and_o transgress_v as_o to_o his_o life_n present_o it_o be_v say_v to_o he_o from_o god_n thou_o must_v die_v chap._n fourteen_o the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v the_o death_n of_o the_o flesh_n i'faith_o when_o it_o be_v upon_o trial_n god_n then_o prove_v it_o it_o experience_v the_o great_a misery_n there_o be_v many_o way_n of_o come_v unto_o regeneration_n but_o the_o end_n of_o all_o be_v one_o and_o the_o same_o yet_o one_o ascend_v in_o some_o much_o high_a than_o another_o do_v as_o when_o any_o one_o come_v into_o the_o sunshine_n he_o have_v the_o sun_n yet_o be_v one_o near_a to_o the_o sun_n than_o another_o this_o be_v my_o counsel_n that_o a_o time_n be_v set_v to_o attain_v unto_o god_n the_o inward_a mind_n be_v free_a but_o the_o outward_a humanity_n without_o grace_n be_v exercise_v under_o a_o severe_a judgement_n i_o have_v no_o prop_n under_o i_o whether_o i_o respect_v god_n or_o the_o creature_n or_o heaven_n or_o the_o earth_n and_o i_o have_v nothing_o but_o that_o i_o can_v lay_v myself_o down_o in_o the_o divine_a will_n be_v whole_o set_v down_o under_o god_n the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v present_a but_o i_o can_v enjoy_v it_o the_o sun_n indeed_o have_v shine_v but_o now_o the_o fall_v thereof_o be_v come_v and_o it_o shine_v no_o long_o i_o lie_v down_o in_o darkness_n and_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o comfort_n leave_v to_o i_o but_o in_o the_o will_n of_o god_n for_o i_o will_v nothing_o but_o only_o what_o he_o will_v into_o which_o state_n if_o any_o one_o real_o come_v he_o be_v of_o all_o man_n the_o most_o miserable_a i_o say_v this_o that_o i_o may_v express_v that_o misery_n in_o which_o i_o lie_v to_o understand_v these_o thing_n 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of_o the_o cross_n if_o i_o shall_v stand_v betwixt_o two_o thing_n nor_o know_v which_o of_o the_o two_o i_o be_o to_o do_v i_o will_v weigh_v they_o and_o will_v take_v that_o which_o be_v contrary_a to_o my_o flesh_n when_o i_o do_v so_o it_o be_v well_o with_o i_o and_o i_o call_v god_n to_o witness_v say_v thou_o know_v o_o lord_n what_o i_o have_v do_v but_o when_o i_o do_v otherwise_o viz._n that_o which_o be_v grateful_a unto_o nature_n it_o be_v always_o ill_a with_o i_o and_o i_o can_v call_v god_n to_o witness_v conscience_n indeed_o be_v free_a but_o i_o dare_v not_o allege_v that_o for_o it_o be_v of_o grace_n the_o suffering_n be_v hard_a when_o no_o hope_n be_v leave_v in_o the_o future_a for_o the_o natural_a man_n for_o though_o the_o daybreak_n be_v come_v yet_o there_o be_v no_o redemption_n nor_o comfort_n but_o a_o man_n must_v wait_v without_o hope_n and_o be_v quiet_a in_o death_n and_o though_o all_o the_o joy_n comfort_n and_o refreshment_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n be_v present_a yet_o he_o be_v bind_v as_o it_o be_v with_o cord_n and_o can_v taste_v of_o none_o of_o they_o and_o therefore_o he_o never_o desire_v that_o time_n may_v run_v out_o that_o a_o day_n a_o week_n a_o month_n a_o year_n may_v come_v for_o whatever_o come_v to_o pass_v in_o they_o be_v to_o he_o as_o it_o be_v a_o nonentity_n because_o he_o can_v rest_v no_o where_o nor_o use_v any_o thing_n for_o his_o delight_n for_o he_o be_v make_v bare_a or_o naked_a of_o all_o and_o be_v put_v upon_o the_o cross_v hence_o be_v it_o that_o both_o thing_n present_a and_o to_o come_v be_v indifferent_a to_o he_o when_o even_o then_o he_o shall_v be_v the_o same_o as_o he_o be_v now_o but_o those_o to_o who_o the_o body_n of_o sin_n be_v not_o yet_o crucify_v they_o be_v touch_v with_o the_o desire_n of_o time_n for_o they_o be_v free_a and_o can_v take_v up_o such_o thing_n as_o they_o meet_v with_o but_o this_o state_n can_v last_v long_o for_o judgement_n will_v come_v than_o 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not_o yet_o then_o make_v one_o with_o the_o essence_n but_o be_v rather_o contrary_a to_o it_o and_o as_o it_o be_v a_o enemy_n to_o truth_n see_v that_o that_o spiritualised_a nature_n hide_v itself_o under_o the_o show_n of_o intellect_n but_o not_o of_o essence_n and_o be_v in_o that_o still_o entertain_v who_o shall_v deliver_v a_o man_n from_o these_o intricacy_n the_o lord_n have_v mercy_n on_o we_o anâ—_n my_o brother_n i_o therefore_o write_v thus_o that_o i_o may_v also_o discover_v to_o thou_o my_o opinion_n for_o that_o man_n be_v endow_v with_o no_o smaâ—â—_n understanding_n yet_o he_o be_v deep_o seduce_v and_o be_v deep_o wise_a but_o withal_o he_o be_v deep_o to_o be_v dispute_v with_o the_o lord_n keep_v we_o humble_a in_o the_o truth_n that_o that_o which_o belong_v to_o death_n may_v be_v also_o throw_v off_o into_o death_n but_o let_v he_o reign_v and_o rule_v to_o all_o eternity_n epist._n xxiv_o be_v a_o brief_a argument_n that_o the_o foundation_n of_o the_o family_n of_o love_n be_v lay_v and_o build_v upon_o carnal_a liberty_n to_o the_o same_o person_n i_o w._n be_v here_o and_o have_v utter_o and_o cordial_o renounce_v the_o thing_n its_o self_n because_o he_o have_v experience_v &_o find_v from_o their_o presence_n that_o they_o be_v infect_v with_o the_o venom_n of_o carnal_a liberty_n and_o that_o all_o issue_v out_o of_o that_o fountain_n also_o i_o restore_v to_o he_o the_o book_n if_o haply_o they_o may_v be_v willing_a to_o have_v they_o restore_v again_o to_o they_o he_o also_o be_v most_o full_o satisfy_v admire_v that_o so_o sublime_a a_o understanding_n be_v subject_a to_o error_n for_o he_o confess_v that_o my_o opinion_n be_v beyond_o all_o doubt_n true_a see_v that_o a_o man_n be_v always_o to_o be_v subject_v to_o divine_a terror_n but_o that_o such_o elevate_a spirit_n do_v fall_v into_o error_n be_v from_o thence_o that_o they_o too_o much_o covet_v their_o proper_a security_n whence_o at_o length_n spring_v up_o boast_v and_o pride_n and_o then_o after_o that_o a_o fall_n the_o lord_n preserve_v we_o all_o from_o evil_n according_a to_o his_o great_a mercy_n that_o see_v it_o be_v of_o grace_n that_o we_o be_v save_v so_o also_o in_o grace_n be_v we_o conserve_v and_o not_o through_o our_o own_o self_n epist._n xxv_o concern_v the_o opinion_n of_o plato_n to_o the_o same_o person_n my_o brother_n i_o send_v thou_o back_o the_o little_a book_n concern_v plato_n which_o when_o i_o have_v read_v i_o find_v just_a so_o as_o thou_o write_v for_o the_o fall_n of_o these_o who_o call_v themselves_o the_o family_n of_o love_n be_v subtle_a though_o in_o that_o small_a tract_n they_o be_v mighty_o defend_v all_o thing_n be_v interpret_v for_o the_o better_a yet_o the_o excuse_n relish_v not_o well_o with_o i_o except_o i_o shall_v say_v that_o by_o their_o ultimate_a scope_n to_o which_o they_o think_v they_o shall_v come_v by_o the_o mean_n of_o love_n their_o wisdom_n be_v shameful_a as_o in_o they_o so_o also_o in_o we_o yet_o with_o this_o distinction_n for_o what_o in_o they_o be_v righteousness_n truth_n and_o wisdom_n must_v be_v to_o we_o unrighteousness_n falseness_n and_o foolishness_n if_o so_o be_v that_o glory_n to_o the_o lord_n must_v spring_v up_o through_o we_o all_o which_o yet_o they_o be_v willing_a to_o reserve_v and_o ascribe_v to_o themselves_o as_o also_o do_v the_o jew_n though_o in_o a_o more_o excellent_a degree_n now_o it_o behoove_v a_o christian_n to_o die_v as_o to_o they_o both_o and_o by_o the_o lord_n to_o be_v condemn_v to_o death_n viz._n as_o to_o wisdom_n and_o righteousness_n moreover_o may_v the_o lord_n also_o free_o bestow_v on_o we_o his_o grace_n according_a to_o his_o most_o holy_a will_n epist._n xxvi_o a_o christian_a consideration_n concern_v
consideration_n of_o eternity_n according_a to_o his_o unspeakable_a mercy_n moreover_o my_o brother_n as_o to_o my_o state_n or_o condition_n that_o abide_v in_o perpetual_a agony_n of_o death_n with_o most_o sharp_a persecution_n perform_v within_o i_o after_o various_a manner_n yet_o to_o one_o only_a end_n for_o who_o sake_n all_o must_v be_v do_v what_o the_o lord_n may_v in_o time_n do_v with_o i_o be_v know_v only_o to_o himself_o and_o his_o eternal_a decree_n but_o which_o way_n soever_o i_o turn_v myself_o and_o whatsoever_o i_o consider_v or_o behold_v nothing_o but_o a_o vast_a abyss_n and_o a_o parch_a heat_n of_o all_o misery_n do_v continual_o represent_v themselves_o to_o my_o eye_n the_o lord_n in_o his_o commiseration_n lead_v most_o wretched_a i_o by_o his_o fatherly_a hand_n through_o thing_n present_a and_o to_o come_v in_o this_o unknown_a uncertain_a desert_n and_o desolate_a condition_n yet_o i_o give_v thanks_o to_o his_o goodness_n that_o under_o this_o his_o 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