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live_v with_o you_o a_o crucify_a life_n on_o earth_n that_o you_o may_v make_v i_o partaker_n of_o your_o glorify_a life_n in_o heaven_n there_o be_v a_o time_n for_o all_o thing_n this_o be_v a_o life_n of_o suffering_n the_o other_o of_o enjoyment_n o_o blindness_n of_o christian_n not_o to_o see_v the_o excellency_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n some_o be_v busy_a to_o make_v themselves_o fit_a for_o worldly_a employment_n some_o be_v all_o for_o science_n other_o for_o war_n etc._n etc._n but_o few_o make_v it_o their_o chief_a work_n to_o become_v good_a christian_n as_o be_v of_o little_a value_n with_o they_o o_o the_o ignorance_n of_o christian_n not_o to_o see_v that_o all_o thing_n beside_o be_v pure_a vanity_n chap._n ii_o of_o the_o high_a esteem_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v of_o the_o christian_a life_n jesus_n on_o the_o day_n of_o his_o ascension_n be_v elevate_v to_o the_o high_a heaven_n where_o he_o sit_v at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o god_n upon_o which_o my_o soul_n 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their_o happiness_n they_o be_v elevate_v to_o enjoyment_n but_o as_o for_o i_o i_o be_o for_o privation_n for_o contempt_n and_o misery_n which_o seem_v to_o i_o be_v suffer_v for_o your_o sake_n dear_a jesus_n more_o delicious_a than_o paradise_n if_o i_o persevere_v with_o fidelity_n in_o a_o crucify_a life_n i_o will_v not_o trouble_v myself_o about_o the_o life_n of_o glory_n but_o alas_o my_o frequent_a fall_n and_o fail_n by_o reason_n of_o my_o weakness_n and_o inconstancy_n make_v i_o desire_v that_o life_n where_o be_v no_o fault_n or_o imperfection_n the_o ascension_n of_o a_o soul_n to_o heaven_n o_o how_o delightful_a be_v it_o the_o ascension_n of_o a_o soul_n to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n o_o it_o be_v admirable_a how_o happy_a be_v they_o who_o be_v acquaint_v with_o it_o o_o my_o god_n clear_v up_o the_o eye_n of_o faith_n in_o i_o that_o i_o may_v behold_v the_o wonder_n you_o work_v in_o soul_n in_o this_o valley_n of_o tear_n what_o if_o i_o say_v that_o a_o soul_n 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of_o these_o thing_n which_o be_v so_o powerful_a in_o they_o and_o hinder_v in_o they_o the_o love_n of_o jesus_n christ_n let_v we_o therefore_o remember_v that_o the_o purity_n of_o virtue_n consist_v in_o a_o faithful_a tendance_n to_o abjection_n and_o suffering_n and_o by_o how_o much_o a_o soul_n be_v more_o faithful_a herein_o the_o great_a advancement_n she_o make_v in_o virtue_n abjection_n be_v as_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o more_o she_o be_v humble_v the_o near_o she_o draw_v to_o her_o repose_n and_o by_o consequence_n have_v a_o great_a feeling_n of_o god_n in_o inward_a peace_n a_o peace_n that_o the_o world_n nor_o nature_n can_v ever_o give_v we_o a_o peace_n that_o pass_v all_o understanding_n chap._n vi_o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n nothing_o but_o god_n make_v man_n poor_a annihilate_v sacrifice_v can_v honour_v god_n according_a to_o his_o greatness_n the_o design_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n to_o this_o end_n be_v admirable_a full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n of_o unspeakable_a love_n and_o mercy_n towards_o man_n and_o most_o ardent_a zeal_n for_o his_o own_o glory_n o_o the_o wonderful_a oeconomy_n that_o discover_v itself_o in_o all_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a o_o the_o ineffable_a mystery_n of_o jesus_n by_o you_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v love_v glorify_a honour_a and_o his_o justice_n satisfy_v to_o the_o utmost_a rigour_n in_o this_o mystery_n be_v contain_v a_o inexplicable_a commerce_n and_o traffic_n of_o god_n the_o father_n with_o his_o son_n the_o interest_n of_o his_o glory_n in_o the_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n the_o will_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n be_v that_o his_o son_n shall_v be_v incarnate_a circumcise_a poor_a scorn_v and_o crucify_v and_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o all_o these_o state_n of_o his_o life_n intend_v thereby_o to_o render_v to_o his_o father_n all_o the_o humiliation_n respect_n love_n and_o adoration_n which_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o these_o be_v the_o annihilation_n which_o so_o much_o elevate_v and_o exalt_v the_o christian_a reliligion_n to_o these_o she_o owe_v her_o grandeur_n and_o excellence_n o_o amiable_a eminent_a and_o excellent_a religion_n how_o unknown_a be_v thou_o to_o worldly_a man_n who_o taste_v no_o sweetness_n but_o in_o sensual_a pleasure_n o_o christian_n religion_n how_o be_v thou_o admirable_a how_o be_v thou_o ineffable_a who_o chief_a business_n be_v to_o employ_v your_o child_n with_o the_o divine_a traffic_n of_o the_o eternal_a father_n with_o his_o son_n incarnate_a when_o thy_o heavenly_a light_n shine_v upon_o a_o soul_n she_o see_v the_o deceit_n the_o vanity_n and_o pitiful_a baseness_n of_o the_o thought_n of_o those_o man_n who_o love_v not_o god_n nor_o aim_n at_o his_o glory_n o_o my_o soul_n how_o wretched_a will_v thou_o make_v thyself_o if_o thou_o follow_v thy_o sensual_a appetite_n and_o walk_v not_o in_o the_o way_n of_o jesus_n christ_n but_o this_o we_o can_v do_v of_o ourselves_o but_o by_o grace_n and_o power_n of_o the_o same_o jesus_n who_o be_v our_o hope_n and_o only_a helper_n we_o ought_v to_o bear_v no_o less_o respect_n to_o the_o maxim_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n than_o to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v establish_v they_o see_v we_o ought_v to_o believe_v that_o they_o be_v full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o ineffable_a sanctity_n to_o have_v no_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o humiliation_n be_v to_o undervalue_v the_o wisdom_n of_o jesus_n christ_n some_o be_v so_o brutish_a as_o to_o be_v lead_v only_o by_o sensuality_n other_o follow_v only_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n but_o neither_o of_o they_o know_v the_o excellency_n of_o christianity_n but_o such_o only_a who_o be_v conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n o_o life_n supernatural_a how_o sublime_a be_v thou_o how_o do_v thou_o so_o elevate_v a_o soul_n as_o to_o become_v blind_a to_o thing_n here_o below_o yea_o to_o herself_o and_o to_o see_v 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imitate_v that_o great_a saint_n who_o suffer_v a_o great_a martyrdom_n among_o rose_n and_o suavity_n than_o by_o rack_n and_o torture_n worldly_n pleasure_n be_v a_o kind_n of_o torment_n to_o a_o soul_n that_o love_v jesus_n christ_n crucify_v let_v we_o take_v a_o resolution_n o_o my_o soul_n not_o to_o be_v please_v but_o with_o the_o cross_n and_o when_o that_o do_v not_o relish_n let_v we_o please_v ourselves_o with_o our_o own_o annihilation_n see_v the_o creature_n be_v nothing_o in_o effect_n but_o what_o she_o be_v in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n but_o she_o be_v no_o more_o in_o his_o eye_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o be_v a_o christian_n and_o she_o be_v no_o more_o a_o christian_n than_o inasmuch_o as_o she_o love_v this_o supernatural_a life_n while_o then_o we_o be_v too_o sensible_a of_o a_o suffer_a condition_n we_o have_v no_o great_a share_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n that_o be_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n abject_a suffer_v and_o annihilate_v chap._n vii_o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n god_n have_v be_v very_o gracious_a to_o we_o to_o draw_v we_o out_o of_o nothing_o but_o more_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a in_o withdraw_v we_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o occasion_n of_o displease_v he_o but_o the_o choice_a of_o his_o favour_n be_v to_o advance_v we_o from_o a_o common_a to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n that_o be_v when_o the_o eternal_a father_n do_v lead_v we_o into_o the_o state_n of_o the_o mortal_a life_n of_o jesus_n by_o abjection_n suffering_n and_o annihilation_n which_o be_v the_o choice_a of_o his_o mercy_n and_o favour_n on_o earth_n because_o thereby_o we_o bring_v to_o he_o the_o great_a glory_n a_o soul_n be_v not_o all_o at_o once_o elevate_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o this_o life_n but_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o behold_v the_o beauty_n thereof_o be_v
according_a to_o nature_n and_o must_v employ_v all_o mean_n and_o motive_n to_o this_o effect_n i_o will_v set_v down_o some_o of_o they_o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n or_o mean_n to_o renounce_v all_o creature_n and_o ourselves_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o denudation_n say_v with_o great_a fervour_n and_o affection_n away_o creature_n get_v hence_o from_o i_o and_o leave_v a_o place_n in_o my_o heart_n for_o god_n alone_o 2._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o do_v this_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o poverty_n for_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a to_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a unless_o in_o due_a circumstance_n we_o be_v willing_a to_o leave_v all_o thing_n for_o jesus_n sake_n and_o become_v poor_a to_o follow_v he_o let_v we_o therefore_o be_v content_a to_o quit_v all_o thing_n joyful_o and_o be_v glad_a to_o have_v nothing_o to_o possess_v god_n himself_o alone_o 3._o '_o tisae_n good_a motive_n to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o abjection_n what_o great_a happiness_n be_v there_o o_o my_o soul_n than_o to_o live_v in_o humiliation_n see_v this_o be_v the_o life_n of_o god_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v despise_v with_o jesus_n be_v a_o state_n of_o beatitude_n worldly_n prosperity_n be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o our_o happiness_n 4._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o abandon_v all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o oblation_n sacrifice_v and_o annihilate_v ourselves_o sincere_o to_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o god_n with_o such_o a_o confidence_n in_o he_o so_o as_o to_o rely_v never_o more_o on_o any_o creature_n quid_fw-la enim_fw-la mihi_fw-la est_fw-la in_o caelum_fw-la aut_fw-la à _fw-la te_fw-la quid_fw-la volui_fw-la super_fw-la terram_fw-la deus_fw-la cordis_fw-la mei_fw-la o_o my_o god_n shall_v any_o creature_n take_v part_n of_o my_o heart_n with_o you_o when_o all_o be_v you_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o love_v you_o too_o much_o i_o may_v give_v place_n to_o something_o else_o but_o see_v i_o be_o infinite_o below_o my_o duty_n in_o that_o particular_a what_o creature_n can_v pretend_v to_o have_v the_o least_o part_n with_o you_o chap._n ix_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n it_o be_v wonderful_a to_o see_v the_o great_a liberty_n which_o a_o soul_n enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n when_o the_o illumination_n of_o this_o state_n irradiate_a a_o soul_n thorough_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a region_n of_o light_n full_a of_o peace_n and_o love_n marvellous_a large_a and_o spacious_a in_o which_o she_o live_v in_o high_a union_n with_o god_n a_o union_n which_o be_v not_o so_o liable_a to_o vicissitude_n and_o disturbance_n as_o former_o because_o accidental_a occurrence_n as_o sickness_n disgrace_n etc._n etc._n do_v not_o hurt_v such_o a_o soul_n by_o reason_n they_o make_v no_o strong_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o by_o consequence_n be_v become_v less_o sensible_a she_o be_v not_o easy_o divert_v from_o the_o supernatural_a object_n of_o her_o love_n yea_o such_o a_o soul_n improve_v hindrance_n and_o divertisement_n to_o her_o great_a recollection_n and_o increase_n of_o divine_a love_n because_o in_o this_o state_n she_o be_v disengaged_a from_o the_o creature_n and_o so_o free_v from_o fear_n of_o misery_n which_o she_o can_v cheerful_o embrace_v as_o the_o occasion_n of_o her_o happiness_n whereby_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o perfect_a liberty_n and_o great_a purity_n of_o virtue_n i_o can_v never_o well_o understand_v what_o that_o be_v which_o be_v call_v purity_n of_o virtue_n but_o now_o i_o see_v it_o be_v the_o state_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n wherein_o the_o soul_n live_v no_o more_o in_o herself_o and_o of_o herself_o and_o for_o herself_o but_o in_o god_n and_o of_o god_n and_o for_o god_n be_v whole_o separate_v from_o the_o creature_n and_o unite_v to_o god_n alas_o how_o be_v this_o poor_a soul_n afflict_v to_o do_v thing_n so_o much_o below_o herself_o in_o this_o high_a condition_n for_o oftentimes_o she_o must_v act_v according_a to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o dictate_v of_o pure_a reason_n which_o afford_v her_o matter_n of_o sigh_n and_o languish_n after_o her_o belove_a this_o be_v that_o which_o kindle_v in_o her_o breast_n a_o ardent_a desire_n to_o be_v dissolve_v and_o leave_v this_o earthly_a tabernacle_n wherein_o by_o the_o common_a misery_n of_o mankind_n she_o live_v a_o life_n displease_v to_o herself_o for_o be_v not_o whole_o for_o god_n as_o she_o desire_v it_o seem_v to_o her_o a_o kind_n of_o death_n and_o see_v she_o can_v continual_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n without_o vicissitude_n it_o be_v as_o it_o be_v a_o death_n unto_o she_o a_o death_n unknown_a to_o sensual_a man_n but_o such_o that_o be_v spiritual_a be_v very_o sensible_a thereof_o o_o jesus_n deliver_v i_o from_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n see_v here_o i_o can_v live_v your_o life_n of_o purity_n in_o comparison_n of_o which_o all_o other_o life_n be_v but_o death_n and_o corruption_n to_o see_v so_o clear_o the_o excellency_n of_o a_o life_n so_o lovely_a and_o not_o to_o be_v able_a to_o live_v but_o little_a of_o it_o consider_v my_o frailty_n make_v i_o resent_v my_o misery_n and_o acknowledge_v dear_a jesus_n how_o necessary_a your_o grace_n be_v for_o i_o o_o how_o great_a be_v the_o dependence_n which_o my_o soul_n have_v on_o your_o mercy_n it_o be_v so_o mighty_a and_o essential_a dependence_n that_o word_n can_v sufficient_o express_v it_o however_o this_o comfort_v i_o herein_o that_o it_o give_v you_o all_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o interiour_n beauty_n in_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v a_o work_n more_o magnify_v your_o power_n bounty_n and_o wisdom_n than_o the_o whole_a outward_a work_n of_o the_o creation_n your_o great_a wonder_n dear_a saviour_n be_v secret_a and_o hide_a a_o soul_n that_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n above_o her_o inclination_n do_v more_o set_v forth_o the_o great_a power_n of_o god_n than_o to_o elevate_v the_o heaven_n above_o the_o earth_n for_o this_o be_v as_o miraculous_a as_o to_o elevate_v the_o earth_n above_o the_o heaven_n this_o make_v i_o o_o my_o god_n desire_v to_o live_v this_o bless_a life_n that_o i_o may_v thereby_o bring_v great_a glory_n to_o your_o name_n assist_v i_o powerful_o with_o your_o grace_n for_o if_o i_o be_v once_o left_a to_o myself_o i_o shall_v relapse_n into_o my_o natural_a weakness_n which_o be_v but_o a_o mere_a nothing_o and_o infirmity_n some_o trouble_n themselves_o too_o much_o in_o philosophise_v on_o this_o spiritual_a life_n which_o be_v needless_a it_o be_v enough_o to_o say_v the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n must_v be_v the_o spirit_n of_o my_o interiour_n it_o be_v he_o by_o who_o i_o must_v live_v this_o life_n and_o act_v according_o and_o so_o free_a ourselves_o from_o other_o consideration_n which_o may_v hinder_v our_o liberty_n to_o follow_v this_o light_n and_o fall_v faithful_o to_o practice_n on_o the_o occasion_n of_o cross_n contempt_n and_o disgrace_n which_o happen_v to_o we_o in_o this_o life_n i_o ought_v daily_o to_o endeavour_v after_o purity_n although_o i_o can_v attain_v the_o high_a practice_n because_o the_o course_n of_o my_o life_n wherein_o god_n have_v place_v i_o will_v not_o permit_v it_o nor_o do_v exact_a of_o i_o to_o attempt_v of_o myself_o the_o grand_a effect_n of_o purity_n lest_o i_o shall_v be_v discourage_v by_o fail_v in_o the_o enterprise_n this_o be_v only_o the_o perfection_n of_o the_o great_a saint_n and_o herein_o we_o must_v give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o be_v infinite_o wise_a we_o need_v not_o fear_v have_v he_o for_o our_o leader_n but_o as_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v too_o rigorous_a so_o we_o must_v not_o be_v too_o fainthearted_a in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n but_o apply_v ourselves_o with_o love_n and_o resolution_n to_o all_o occasion_n by_o suffer_v peaceable_o and_o with_o contentation_n whatever_o injury_n we_o may_v receive_v from_o other_o in_o seek_v too_o much_o their_o own_o interest_n all_o suffering_n be_v to_o be_v entertain_v with_o love_n but_o especial_o what_o we_o suffer_v by_o injustice_n for_o be_v not_o this_o that_o which_o the_o son_n of_o god_n have_v do_v principal_o upon_o earth_n by_o suffer_v innocent_o do_v not_o therefore_o say_v i_o will_v suffer_v this_o injury_n if_o he_o that_o do_v it_o have_v the_o least_o reason_n for_o it_o for_o this_o proceed_v from_o self-love_n and_o passion_n it_o may_v well_o be_v that_o he_o have_v no_o reason_n to_o do_v you_o this_o injury_n but_o divine_a reason_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n teach_v you_o to_o bear_v it_o patient_o it_o be_v good_a to_o suffer_v thus_o and_o in_o this_o to_o imitate_v jesus_n be_v
of_o god_n and_o his_o divine_a perfection_n let_v such_o a_o soul_n be_v in_o light_n or_o darkness_n in_o peace_n or_o war_n elevate_v or_o deject_v she_o be_v still_o the_o same_o because_o god_n will_n be_v she_o and_o she_o desire_v nothing_o but_o what_o please_v he_o her_o chief_a care_n be_v to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o god_n will_v in_o so_o great_a variety_n of_o interiour_n state_n and_o why_o shall_v a_o soul_n be_v concern_v at_o this_o variety_n for_o if_o i_o pure_o desire_v to_o please_v god_n it_o will_v be_v all_o one_o to_o i_o whether_o i_o do_v it_o by_o suffering_n or_o enjoy_v chap._n x._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o confidence_n to_o divine_a providence_n dear_o lord_n draw_v the_o passion_n and_o affection_n of_o my_o heart_n whole_o after_o you_o o_o that_o i_o can_v go_v out_o of_o myself_o to_o abide_v only_o in_o you_o oh_o that_o i_o have_v no_o love_n but_o for_o you_o no_o fear_n no_o desire_n no_o joy_n but_o in_o you_o and_o that_o my_o affection_n be_v only_o for_o you_o o_o that_o your_o grace_n will_v mortify_v in_o i_o the_o fear_n hope_n sadness_n and_o desire_n of_o nature_n that_o you_o may_v be_v the_o sole_a object_n of_o my_o love_n this_o be_v the_o purity_n we_o must_v aim_v at_o or_o else_o we_o possess_v our_o soul_n in_o vain_a our_o bless_a saviour_n say_v in_o the_o gospel_n that_o one_o sparrow_n shall_v not_o be_v forget_v of_o god_n why_o then_o have_v we_o such_o fear_n to_o want_v who_o be_v chief_o call_v upon_o to_o rely_v on_o providence_n if_o god_n permit_v we_o to_o be_v in_o want_n it_o be_v to_o bring_v we_o to_o perfection_n by_o suffering_n god_n be_v please_v to_o give_v we_o daily_o his_o precious_a body_n and_o will_v he_o deny_v we_o bread_n i_o can_v believe_v it_o all_o thought_n to_o to_o the_o contrary_n be_v from_o the_o enemy_n or_o nature_n solicitous_a for_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n my_o confidence_n ought_v to_o be_v in_o god_n alone_o though_o it_o happen_v that_o we_o fall_v into_o trouble_n temptation_n or_o sickness_n which_o seem_v to_o deprive_v we_o of_o the_o good_a temper_n of_o soul_n to_o attend_v to_o our_o devotion_n we_o ought_v to_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n and_o say_v god_n only_o and_o his_o holy_a will._n if_o the_o idea_n of_o some_o state_n of_o perfection_n present_v itself_o to_o the_o understanding_n if_o we_o make_v some_o resolution_n upon_o the_o feeling_n of_o a_o actual_a favour_n we_o ought_v the_o more_o entire_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o god_n and_o say_v i_o desire_v god_n only_o and_o his_o holy_a will._n this_o abandon_v make_v a_o soul_n peaceable_a and_o content_a and_o dead_a to_o the_o world_n to_o which_o though_o she_o may_v feel_v some_o motion_n of_o affection_n yet_o they_o be_v troublesome_a and_o gain_v no_o consent_n in_o this_o state_n she_o be_v whole_o absorb_v in_o god_n find_v her_o repose_n in_o he_o alone_o and_o out_o of_o he_o be_v no_o contentment_n it_o seem_v to_o she_o that_o whatever_o accident_n may_v happen_v they_o shall_v not_o disturb_v her_o quiet_a she_o be_v ground_v in_o god_n her_o sovereign_a peace_n and_o though_o she_o may_v feel_v some_o emotion_n in_o the_o inferior_a part_n they_o do_v not_o reach_v the_o superior_a faculty_n we_o must_v be_v perfect_a as_o god_n will_v have_v we_o not_o as_o we_o will_v have_v it_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v far_o different_a from_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n the_o world_n believe_v that_o king_n lewis_n must_v be_v saint_v by_o conquer_a the_o holy_a land_n god_n make_v he_o he_o a_o saint_n indeed_o but_o not_o by_o his_o victory_n but_o his_o captivity_n not_o by_o his_o triumph_n but_o his_o suffering_n we_o intend_v to_o sanctity_n ourselves_o by_o action_n and_o god_n will_v do_v it_o by_o affliction_n we_o must_v give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o his_o conduct_n absolute_o abandon_v ourselves_o to_o his_o will_n and_o only_o love_v his_o design_n when_o shall_v i_o be_v so_o mortify_v to_o my_o own_o endeavour_n as_o to_o abandon_v myself_o whole_o to_o divine_a providence_n i_o must_v follow_v pure_o the_o design_n of_o god_n love_v only_o his_o good_a pleasure_n put_v my_o confidence_n in_o he_o and_o he_o will_v have_v a_o care_n of_o i_o in_o such_o a_o way_n as_o shall_v be_v best_a to_o advance_v his_o glory_n doubtless_o it_o be_v a_o effect_n of_o grace_n in_o we_o not_o to_o rely_v on_o our_o own_o providence_n but_o to_o depend_v chief_o on_o god_n assistance_n we_o must_v therefore_o elevate_v ourselves_o above_o nature_n which_o rely_v on_o creature_n and_o fear_n want_n and_o abhor_v suffering_n that_o we_o may_v put_v our_o sole_a confidence_n in_o god_n whoever_o trust_v in_o he_o and_o be_v confound_v there_o be_v as_o well_o martyr_n of_o providence_n as_o martyr_n for_o faith_n they_o be_v more_o hide_v and_o sometime_o suffer_v little_a less_o than_o the_o other_o be_v content_a with_o all_o 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myself_o and_o all_o creature_n and_o put_v my_o confidence_n in_o god_n alone_o if_o our_o imperfection_n disturb_v our_o inward_a peace_n and_o union_n with_o god_n we_o must_v repair_v it_o without_o too_o much_o disquiet_v ourselves_o for_o our_o pass_a fault_n union_n with_o god_n be_v never_o without_o love_n and_o love_n will_v blot_v out_o our_o offence_n and_o bring_v the_o soul_n to_o repose_v in_o her_o wont_a centre_n chap._n xi_o to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n one_o excellent_a effect_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o make_v we_o as_o it_o be_v insensible_a of_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n will_n a_o soul_n that_o be_v enrich_v with_o this_o indifferency_n can_v desire_v nothing_o else_o yea_o not_o virtue_n themselves_o except_o in_o order_n to_o god_n pleasure_n we_o must_v strict_o examine_v ourselves_o concern_v this_o general_a disengagement_n from_o creature_n and_o not_o easy_o believe_v we_o 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