of life and to enable us in this work let us set our Faces towards the Altar of God for 't is there we are to receive strength and comfort and every good thing This is what we obliged our selves to at our Baptism and since we have lived unworthy of the First Sacrament let us in Humiliation and Repentance approach the Second that our sins may be blotted out and we may be made meet to be partakers of the inheritance of the Saints in Light and now if any ask what preparation we ought to make I answer I know of no other than what I have endeavoured to perswade and what is necessary and reasonable even a true Faith and Repentance that the Sacrament is a Duty is generally acknowledg'd yet through mistakes there are abundance neglect it Our Saviour was very particular in this Order to his Disciples and his Apostles devoutly press it in all their Writings and the Ancients received it as an inestimable Blessing We are told that unless we Eat Christ's Body and drink his Blood we have no life in us and that this is to be done by Bread and Wine in the Holy Communion is what the Apostles and generality of Mankind down to this Age have believed Christ when he gave it them told them it was his Body and St. Paul directs our Behaviour that we might not receive it unworthily but discern it as the Lord's body and therefore first to Examine our selves and then Eat of that Bread and Drink of that Cup what then should hinder our approaches to this Holy Banquet that we are wicked is no excuse for why are we not otherwise that we are affraid because of our unworthiness if there is no other reason but our fear is no Excuse For 't is not the sense of our unworthiness that should hinder us but our resolution or unwillingness to be otherwise and that indeed will make us unworthy for ever for where shall we be washed if not in this Fountain which is opened for Sin and Uncleanness If none but such as are perfect could approach this Holy Table who then would venture to come near And what can we think of our Saviour that could propose a Snare to endanger our Ruin No it was ordain'd for such as had a sense of their Unworthiness and were sensible of their load but desired to be eased of their heavy burthen Well but they who come to the Sacrament are obliged to live stricter lives than other Men and some are affraid they can't conform to an exactness of Conversation Why are they not as well affraid that because they don't lead such lives that they shall be punished which would be an argument to put them upon that Tryal and when once they saw the pleasantness of the paths of Righteousness they would endeavour to persevere in them Besides they are not obliged but to lead such lives as is necessary to Salvation and how dares any Man that believes another World do less There is danger indeed in unworthy Receiving and there is as great a danger in staying away both of them are a contempt of the Lord's Body and will receive their reward in short whatever our Scruples are that hinder us from this Ordinance let us with all speed endeavour to remove them for there is no excuse for our Abscence nor any objection but what may easily be answered if we are sincere in our inquiries 't is the neglect of this Sacrament that is the cause of our coldness in Religion and I can't tell how it comes to pass that tho' the Church and State requires all that are at the Age of Sixteen to communicate at least three times in the Year that there is not one in a Thousand observe the order there are a great many considerate persons that never seem to have a desire after it till they come upon their Death-bed and then are willing to have it to conduct them to Heaven The Ancient Church refused to Administer to any that had not received it before and if the discipline was maintained it would make us more circumspect for a great many think if they can have the Minister to pray by them and give them the Sacrament all will be well But if they who refused it in their Health were deny'd it upon their Death-bed it would be a dreadful warning to others not to neglect it and those Ministers who venture now to Adminster it transgress the Rubrick in this case but 't is as indiscreet to trust to This now as to depend upon a Repentance begun at such a time which is hardly possible to be sincere and if not they are lost for ever there are the same Arguments to bring Men to the Sacrament as there are to perswade them to a newness of life without both we are not assured of Salvation and he that pretends to lead a life according to God's Holy Word and yet refuses to eat of the Bread which came down from Heaven how can he hope to be raised up at the last day The truth on 't is Men are not willing to part with their Lusts and as long as they are in that mind they do well to stay away but do very ill to continue in such a resolution but what shall we say if neither Promise or Threats Rewards or Punishments Heaven or Hell will perswade Men to forsake their sins nothing will however we must never be weary in well doing and 't is our Duty to exhort one another daily which was the chief inducement of this Advice to those which never Receiv'd the Sacrament and this I thought I cou'd not do in a better manner than by shewing First the unreasonableness of Sin and then Secondly the necessity of Repentance to this end I have collected a form of Devotion which may be useful in our Conversion and when we are so happy as to be sensible of the folly of our ways that we can set before us the difficulty of returning and yet dare venture thro' all hardships to attain Salvation I thought it necessary to add some Arguments to oblige us to that Duty which is our interest to comply with and which will strengthen our resolutions in Piety to these Directions I have collected another form of preparitory Devotions to be used at any time before we approach the Sacrament and left it to the Reader 's Discretion to use as much of it and as often as he pleases That our behaviour in the Church might be answerable to the Solemnity there is appointed a large Form of Devotion and I have endeavoured to range them in a suitable Order that every Prayer having a particular relation to what we are then a doing our Minds might be more moved and our Souls thus ascending with our Devotions we may pray by the Spirit and the understanding also I 'm very willing to believe that all who come to this Holy Table endeavour to be as devout as they can and 't is possible fancy themselves
When shall I fully please thee O that I could always serve thee that I could perfectly obey thee Grant me O my only Love that I may continually reverence and adore thee Permit me not O Lord Jesus ever to be seperated from thee Teach me inlighten me direct me and assist me in all things but especially at this time that I may do or say nothing but what is agreeable to thy blessed Will Amen I Have made a large Collection of Meditations and Prayers because of the difference of Congregations some are very numerous and I esteem them pertinent to regulate our thoughts in that interval before we go up to the Altar the lesser Congregations and they who are desirous to be first at the Holy Table may have advantage of variety and make use of them as their inclinations and opportunity will give leave Our thoughts are not always upon the wing we require diversity of Arguments to press us to a forwardness besides they are not designed that our mind should be wholly taken up with them that we should read them all and then think we may safely go up to the Altar of God The best composure in the World will be insignificant if we don't offer it with Devotion Sincerity and Affection one of these Petitions rightly performed is of greater Efficacy than the whole repeated in a rambling disorder Lord have mercy upon me a miserable sinner said with humility was more prevalent than the long Prayer of the wordy Supplicant God knows our necessity before we ask and if we ask with Faith depending on the incercession of our Saviour he will grant our Petitions even before they are ended so that I would have some of them repeated with deliberation and between them call in our thoughts reconcile them to our reason and faith and then offer them up with earnest devotion and so shall we be prepared to receive the Lord of Glory When we have made an end of these Meditations and are ready to go to the Holy Table rising from our Knees with Reverence let us say GReat Captain of my Salvation I am going to learn to fight the good fight of faith in the blessed Sacrament of thy Love let thy great Example there encourage me to fight against all Ambition and Ostentation Censoriousness and Uncharitableness against coveteous lustfull and blasphemous Thoughts against guile and hypocrisie discontent and mistrust of thy providence against such enemies give me Grace to fight over these let me Triumph that having striven lawfully I may at last be admitted to the sight of thy sweet self and be charmed with thy Love for evermore Having thus began our Warfares and declared our chiefest Enemies let us approach the Holy Altar that there we may put on the Armor of God and being endued with Righteousness from above may walk more securely and be defended from the subtilty of Men and Devils therefore as we are going up let us turn our thoughts to God in the following manner As we go up to the Altar I Come Lord Jesus O take me to thee for thou lovest me and hast prepared a Table for me in the seat of thy Love in the multitude of thy mercies O Lord God do I now approach thy Altar O pardon my Sins and receive me graciously if thou shouldst be extream to mark what is amiss O Lord who may abide it but with the Lord is mercy and with him is plenteous redemption Lord hast thou set open this fountain and wilt thou let a wretched creature die for thirst in thy presence Hast thou prepared such Balm to heal me and shall I languish here before thee I know if thou wilt thou canst make me clean here is the very instrument Grant therefore holy Jesus that I may duly apply it and rightly use it and then it shall prepare me for thee and unite me to thee by such inseperable Bonds as shall never brake unless Eternity have an end Blessed are they who so eat thy Flesh and drink thy Blood so as thou requirest and so as thy Saints have done for they have been cleansed at this fountain and here there Union with thee first began O happy opportunity Lord let me do it well this once and I am thine for ever Let us now kneel before the Lord and say O Jesu Son of God everlasting King receive my Spirit O my Life take my Soul my Joy draw my heart unto thee thou that art my Head direct me Light of mine eyes enlighten me O my comfort rejoice me my sweet Food let me eat thee O Word of God refresh me O Light Eternal shine thou over me that I may understand know and love thee After we have thus dedicated our selves to God let us humbly represent to him the occasion which drew us hither and beg for his promise sake that we may not be sent Empty away O Lamb of God thou hast said he that eateth thy Flesh and drinketh thy Blood hath eternal Life behold thy Servant O Lord be it unto me according to thy Word O Lord God I desire to renew my Covenant with thee and to seal it now with this Sacrament Lord put thy Laws into my mind and write them in my heart and for the passion of thy dear Son which I now commemorate be merciful to my Unrighteousness my Sins and Iniquities do thou remember no more but be thou my God and I will be thy Servant The Minister now approaching us we ought with the Centurion in the Gospel to acknowledge our unworthiness to receive so glorious a guest and after such a Humilliation let us look up with confidence and represent to the Father of Heaven the prevailing sacrifice of his Son LOrd I am not worthy thou shouldst come under my roof but speak the word Lord and thy Servant shall be whole Behold O Lord the sacrifice of the everlasting Covenant the Lamb that takes away the sins of the World Oh let all the World feel the power of his Intercession hear good Lord the cry of his Wounds and deny me not since I bring thy Son with me let us all know that he lives that was dead and is a live for evermore O holy Bread which camest down from Heaven and givest life to the World come into my heart and cleanse me from all defilements of Flesh and Spirit enter into my Soul heal and sanctifie me within and without O my Soul taste now and see how gracious the Lord is Whence is it that my Lord himself should come to me Let us now with steadfast Faith repeat after the Minister bowing our Bodies The Body of our Lord Jesus c. After we have received the Bread let us lift up our Souls in thankfullness and say Hail Holy Lamb of God thrice welcome art thou to a poor perishing sinner Glory be to thee O Lord who feedest me with the Bread of Life let thy crucified Body deliver me from this body of death Before the Cup. I Will receive the
Cup of Salvation and call upon the Name of the Lord. Lord if thou wilt thou canst cleanse me O touch me and say I will be thou clean Oh let this Blood of thine purge my Conscience from dead Works to serve thee the ever living God It will not suffice me dearest Saviour to receive thee in part only for I must be wholly thine and blessed be thy Name that thou hast already given me thy holy Body to cleanse my Nature and now thou art preparing thy precious Blood to wash away my Guilt my sins have poured out every drop thereof wherefore thou presentest it to me by it self to shew how truly thou didst suffer Death for me and now O my Redeemer thou hast said this Cup is the Communion of thy Blood and thy truth is unquestionable thy power infinite and thy love was such as thou gavest thy hearts blood for me I will receive it therefore as the everlasting Covenant the Seal of all the promises of thy holy Gospel I have indeed drunk iniquity like Water and therefore am unfit to tast this Water of Life and yet shall perish without it for I 'me all over defiled and this is the fountain which thou hast opened to cleanse us I am scorched with the Flames of lust and unruly passion and this is the Cup which thou hast provided to cool and refresh us What value is sufficient for me to put upon this immortal Cordial How can I reverence it enough since the God of Heaven esteemed it a price sufficient for millions of perishing Mankind My Soul longeth after it Lord let me taste and my Soul shall live let me wash in this laver before I come to thy great Tribunal so shall I be whiter than snow Let us repeat after the Minister the Blood of our Lord Jesus Christ c. After the Cup. IT is finished blessed be the Name of our gracious God Blessing Glory Praise and Honour Love Obedience Dominion and Thanksgiving be to thee O sacred Trinity Father Son and Holy Ghost Amen Well come O my good Jesus now dismiss thy Servant in Peace for mine Eyes have seen thy Salvation If we have time before we return to our Pews let us add HOw chearing is this Cup to me blessed Jesus which was so dreadful unto thee it was thy Agonies and thy Wounds which afforded me this Wine of Joy Thou didst find how bitter it was when thou wert appeasing an offended God but I taste how sweet it is now that thou hast made him a tender and reconciled Father I receive this Cup O Saviour as a new pledge of thy dearest Love and since thou doest here give me a right to that great Expiation which thou hast made I do most humbly commemorate the same before the Father of Heaven as the full satisfaction for my innumerable Debts and I will remember the dolors of thy Cross with a brisker sense than ever because thou hast made me drink of thy Blood and given me thy Soul thy Life and thy Spirit and since thou hast thus joyned me to thy self O let nothing seperate that which thou hast so graciously joyned together Amen They who have advanced thus far in their Duty and been refreshed at the Table of God will easily acknowledge Thanksgiving to be the least tribute they can pay and won't be satisfied that they have given praises at the Altar but are willing to offer this sacrifice every opportunity therefore let us at our return to our Seats be ready to acknowledge the loving kindness of the Lord. PRaise the Lord O my Soul and all that is within me bless his Holy Name was it not enough that thou shouldst suffer so much for me but thou wilt also give all the purchase of those sufferings to me thy loving kindness is truly admirable thou hast taken my sins on thy self and communicated thy Righteousness to my Soul Lord while I believe and consider the benefits of thy Passion I am revived and fill'd with an unwonted Vigour my Conscience does accuse me of many and grievious sins but I do here most humbly and thankfully set forth this perfect sin offering before thy Divine Majesty I know thou cannot except against it I believe it is sufficient to attone thine Anger Blessed Jesus how is my Soul refreshed that is again restored to thy Father's love let Heaven and Earth praise thee for this glorious Sacrifice and I will bless thee while I have any being I have receiv'd thy immaculate Body and it shall cleanse my sinful Body and teach me by the vertue of so rare an Example to relieve my poor Brethren for whom thou hast died and to conquer my Enemies by charity for thus thou hast done to me and both my lips and life shall set forth thy praise for now I begin to find the Mercy Peace Comfort and Grace which flow from the Death of Christ wherefore I will love thee Holy Jesus more than I can express and since thou hast given thy self thy Merits and Graces to me and seal'd a new Covenant with me in thy Blood I here bind my self by this sacred Cup to be sincerely thine I have sworn and am steadfastly purposed to keep thy Righteous Judgments O let me never unhallow that Body or defile that Soul in which the Lord Jesus delights to dwell in let no Oaths or Lying prophane those Lips no Obscenity or Intemperance pollute that Mouth by which these holy Symbols have passed but let thy Mercy keep me in this happy Temper till I have accomplished all my Resolutions Amen Or This ALL is thine Dear Saviour dispose of all that is here of Body and Soul of life and lodging according to thy Divine Will and Pleasure I intend O Lord strengthen me in this very Hour I intend O sweet Saviour a Total Reformation of my Life and Manners an intire Mortification of my Corporal Senses an absolute change in my whole Man grant therefore O good Jesus that at each word of my Mouth at each glance of my Eye at each morsel I Eat at each member I Move at each action Inward or Outward I undertake I may perform all according to thy holy Will and Pleasure I will therefore expect from thee O Heavenly Father the exact Remembrance from thee my Redeemer the perfect Knowledge from thee O Holy Spirit a true Repentance from thee O Sacred Trinity the entire Absolution and Plenary indulgence from all my iniquities Amen We have been informed that this is the great Feast of Love and are now commemorating that inexpressible love of our Saviour and since his Blood was shed for the sins of the whole World let our Charity extend it self to the uttermost parts of the Earth but more especially the Holy Catholick Church therefore the time we spare from our Devotions let us bestow in good desires to those present sending up a hearty Amen to the Prayers for our Brethren let it rejoyce our Souls to see so many of the Servants of God
through the Blood of the everlasting Covenant make me perfect in all good Works working always that which is well-pleasing in his sight and the Blessing of God Almighty the Father Son and Holy Ghost be with me for ever Amen Our Father c. Praise the Lord O my Soul Amen There is no occasion to prescribe any Rules for our Behaviour between the Evening Service and the time of rest we have already been informed that no part of this day when we don't communicate ought to be spent in our own inventions then surely it requires our strickest observation when we have had so great an honour confer'd upon us to be adopted the Children of God the thought of this will continually run in our mind and we shall have sufficient reason to be always praising God till Nature puts us in mind of our Necessities and that its time to commit our Souls and Bodies into his keeping when we shall be unable to take care of our selves THE CONCLUSION HAving thus begun our Course Let us run with dilligence the race that is set before us 'T is now that we are begun to be Christians and let us be very cautious how we discredit the holy Name by which we are call'd 'T is not sufficient to assume the Title without departing from Iniquity to compleat the Character Therefore at our return to the World let us have the mercies of God in continual remembrance let that goodness which has so far led us on to repentance move us to be zealous in his service and prevent our ingratitude by keeping our selves from every evil work Let us consider that we are bought with the price of the Blood of Jesus and looking upon our selves so redeem'd let us not sell our selves any more to work wickedness Let us consider the dignity of our Nature that God has made us but a little lower than the Angels that we only came into this World in order for a better that we were born on purpose to be eternally happy Why then should we do any thing to debase our selves and make us uncapable of that blessedness which the Wisdom and Goodness of Heaven has prepared for us The consideration of this will lead us to praise God for our Creation which we ought sincerely to do and shall want no motives to offer up our Thanksgivings if we consider the inestimable benefits we may receive by it Let us consider we are but begun in our way to Glory that to falter in our purposes wou'd endanger our ruin and to return wou'd be to lose the glorious pains we have been at in our conversion All those Prayers and Tears Fasting and Alms-givings which enter'd Heaven in our behalf and by the intercession of our Saviour done so great things for us will turn to our confusion be a terrible accusation of our hypocrisy and banish us to eternity from the presence of God besides how can we expect to attone Heaven if we should attempt a second Repentance when all our former Vows prove false Won't God be deaf to our complaints when they are usher'd in by such treacherous Advocates Can feigned tears move compassion from that God who is a lover of truth What form of Prayer will serve our turn when we have made use of the best composures as a mock to the Judge of Heaven Oh Christian since thou hast approach'd the Altar of God and there vow'd a perpetual Obedience to his Will as thou hopest Heaven has heard thy petitions and sign'd thy release as thou believest thou hast eat the Flesh and drunk that Blood of Christ and by that incomprehensible Mystery art united to our Saviour Jesus as thou hopest from this wonderful mercy to be raised at the last day to Eternal life live worthy of thy Calling by a perfect submission to the Will of God and a holy perseverance in his ways make thy Election sure Since thou hast thus put on the Armour of God and taken to thy self the sheild of faith resist the World the Flesh and Devil and thou shalt at last reap that reward which is laid up for those who have continued in well doing and by their constancy in some sort merited that eternal Gift of God which is a Crown of Glory in endless inconceivable joys Let us endeavour to fill our Souls with all vertues and when we are so happy as to have our inclinations after goodness that we have a fondness for the Glory of God and habituated our selves in his service we shall find the advantage of our conversion for besides the inward peace and satisfaction which is the result of a pious mind we may enjoy with more pleasure the Goods of this World than when we gave a loose to our desires and were led captive by our lusts when we so industriously persue our happiness we shall arrive to that degree of goodness which will make it as uneasie and difficult to commit wicked actions as 't was at first hard to refrain them We shall have an aversion to Vice and see our weakness and folly that cou'd be subject to its embraces it will then lose all its charms and we shall yield to that divine Truth that God is only to be loved that Religion is our wisest choice that to be happy is to understand her for her ways are ways of pleasantness and all her paths are peace This indeed is what very few believe Men generally frame an austere Notion of Religion think it ties them up from the business and pleasure of this World they have an inclination to serve God but think he requires so much of their time that they have but little for themselves or Families This may be one reason why some are so religious by fits they are mighty zealous against an Easter or any particular time of Devotion but as soon as the Season is over return to their former habit of indifference and can give no other reason but that their Business calls them off as if Devotion consisted in saying just so many prayers at such an Hour to be in their Closset to fast such a day in the week and to neglect the Affairs of this World because we can't serve God and Mamon Such a Notion of Duty is certainly very prejudicial to the practise of Religion God created this World for our convenience and did not design we shou'd be preserved like the Lillies which toil not neither do they Spin but commanded man to get his bread with the sweat of his brow and can we think his labour shall be turn'd to his reproof that whilst he honestly persues the necessary Duties of his Calling that he shou'd be accused for not imploying that time upon his knees Providence has ordered very differing circumstances among men and to discharge with fidelity the Post in which he has placed us is part of our Religion and when justly perform'd as acceptable as our Devotion we may enjoy a great deal of this world and yet be very good
how miserable my end must be when the Heavens are not pure in thy sight and the very Angels are charged with folly there is no Holiness O Lord if thou with-draw thy Hand no Wisdom profits if thy Government ceases when thou leavest us we perish we are unstable and unsecure unless secured and confirmed by thee we fly to thee for help and yet depart from thy Commandments O how meanly do I deserve to be thought of how little and inconsiderable is the good I do how innumerable how intollerable are the Evils I have done many good things have I received from thee but I have abus'd them thou hast given me Grace but I have turned it into Wantonness thou didst create in me a hope of Glory but I have lost my Confidence Wherefore behold O Lord I come unto thee thou mightest indeed justly censure the approach of such a polluted Creature to be a daring presumption but I beseech the condemn not the action but behold the motives which drew me hither even my own miseries and thy mercies I increase the number of my sins what shall I do to thee O thou preserver of Men Who shall raise me up when I shall fall before thy dreadful Judgment Seat I will lay my Face in the Dust and confess my self to be nothing Pitty my Shame O God bind up my Wounds remove those sins that so easily overcome me and unite me to my Saviour Jesus O help me to supply in Humility what I want in worthiness let my mean and just opinion of my self my bended Knees and broken Heart shew that I durst not have adventured so nigh if thy mercy had not held out the Golden Scepter O then dear Jesus be a Jesus to me and let this Sacrament be a savor of life and thy Body the Bread of life thy Blood the purifier of my sinful life O send me not empty away for I shall faint and die I cannot live without thee O let vertue come from thee and heal my Sickness do thou appear to my Soul in these holy Mysteries enlighten my Darkness turn me from all vain imaginations and illusions of the Enemy all perversness of Will all Violence and Inordinate Passions sensual Desires Lust and Malice Gluttony Pride Envy and Detraction let not sin reign in my mortal Body nor the Divel lead my Will captive nor the World abuse my understanding nor debauch my Conversation O grant I may receive these Divine Mysteries for the amendment of my Life and for a defensative against all my sins for the increase of Vertue and the perfection of the Spirit this I beg O merciful God for the sake of thy Eternal Son my crucified Saviour and Redeemer Jesus Amen Here rising up read as Follows AND as they were Eating Jesus took Bread and gave thanks and blessed it and brea kt it and gave it to his Disciples and said Take Eat this is my Body which is given for you this do in remembrance of me likewise also he took the Cup and when he had given thanks he gave it to them saying Drink ye all of it for this Cup is the New Testament in my Blood which is shed for you and for many for the Remission of sins and they all drank of it Verily I say unto you I will not drink henceforth of the Fruit of the Vine until that day when I drink it new in the Kingdom of God my Father I adore thee O Blessed Jesus for instituting this Holy Sacrament O let thy Divinity thus stampt on it strike into my Soul a holy awe in approaching it O create in me a Heaven disposition to celebrate so Heavenly an Institution and for thy Mercies sake pardon all my stupid forgetfulness and ingratitude hitherto do now create in me such a thankful and lively remembrance of thy dying love that may excite me to give up my self intirely to thee as thou didst give up thy self on the Cross for me Kneeling say A Prayer BEhold O sacred and undivided Trinity an unworthy wretched weak and wounded Soul oppressed with an intollerable weight of Misery terrified with the consideration of thy inscrutable Judgments confounded with the memory of her base ingratitude and encompassed with sorrow I have with the prodigal wasted that portion of Grace thou didst bestow upon me and therefore do infinitly want a supply out of thy Treasury but O Lord how shall such a wretch as I dare to approach this Holy Table how shall this spiritual Manna this Food of Angels be given to one Who has chosen to feed on Huscks with Wine nay to one who has so often trampled upon these precious things either carelesly neglecting or unworthily receiving these holy Mysteries O LOrd my horrible guiltiness makes me not dare to stay away for where shall my polluted Soul be washed if not in this Fountain which thou hast opened for sin and uncleanness hither therefore I come and thou hast promised him that cometh thou wilt in no wise cast out this is O Lord the Blood of the New Testament grant me so to receive it that it may be for the remission of my sins and though I have so often and so wretchedly broken my part of that Covenant whereof the Sacrament is a seal yet be thou graciously pleased to make good thine be merciful to my unrighteousness and remember my sins no more and not only so but place thy Laws in my Mind and write them in my Heart and by the power of thy Grace dispose my Soul to such a sincere and constant Obedience that I may never again provoke thee Lord grant that in these holy Mysteries I may not only commemorate but effectually receive my blessed Saviour and all the benefits of his Passion and to that end give me such a preparation of Soul as may qualifie me for it give me a deep sense of my sins and unworthiness that being weary and heavy leaden I may be capable of his refreshings Raise up my dull and earthly mind from groveling here below and inspire it with holy Zeal that I may with spiritual affections approach this spiritual Feast and let O Lord that infinite love of Christ in dying for so wretched a sinner inflame my frozen and benumed Soul and kindle in me that sacred fire of love to him and that so vehement that no water may quench no floods drown it such as may burn up all my dross and not leave one unmortified Lust within me and such as may also extend it self to all whom thou hast given me command to love even my Enemies as well as Friends O Lord I beseech thee cloath me with the Wedding Garment and make me though of my self a most unworthy yet by thy mercy an acceptable guest at thy Holy Table that I may not eat and drink my own Condemnation but may have my Pardon sealed my Weakness repair'd my Corruptions subdued and my Soul so inseperably united to thee that no temptation may be ever able to dissolve the
Celestial Food the bread that came down from Heaven how does thy sweetness and my own necessities invite me My body is liable to Temporal my Soul to Eternal Death and behold here is the medicine of immortality which will remove the sting of the first and destroy the power of the second which will fill me with the Graces I want fit me for the Glory I desire and advance my Soul and Body above the Power of corruption I feel a mighty Hunger created in me which nothing but this Heavenly Manna can satisfie I despise the meat which perishes and feedeth for Destruction and long with impatience to taste of this Body of Christ of which I may eat and live for ever which will make the Grave unable to hold me and Hell not dare to shut its Mouth upon me O make no long tarrying but give me now and ever this Bread I desire nothing but Christ if I want this repast shall faint or die before I come to the Mount of God O My Soul behold how thou hast incensed the Majesty of Heaven see thy Saviour offered up for thy sins and submitting to the heavy Wrath of God and yet whatever he suffered was thy Portion Wretch that I am to live in such a manner that nothing else could satisfie or make my Peace but here I come this day to call my sins to remembrance I will look on thee whom I have pierced with a most tender and sympathizing Affection and while I break this Holy Bread with my Teeth will commemorate how thou wast bruised for our iniquities how our offences did torture thee with grief and pain Holy Saviour I 'm angry at my self and full of anguish to see what I have brought upon thee I 'm sorry with all my heart that I have given harbor to thy Murderers but I hope this dismal spectacle shall mortifie in me all desires after Evil and make me abhor all those desperate pleasures which must be so dearly paid for by thee or stand charged upon my account for ever A Meditation upon the Element of Wine O What preparation is our gracious Master making for us he thinks it not enough to give us his blessed Body with the merits of all those Torments which he suffered in the Flesh but he is pleased to pour out his Blood and Life together with it that we might drink thereof and so take as it were his very Soul into us miserable Wretches we are that nothing less will help us O how gracious a Redeemer have we that will not deny us this behold O Lord I Thirst and this Wine of joy makes me more impatient to taste of this Cup of Thanksgiving Thou that hast prepared it for me make it thy holy Blood unto me and then it shall cleanse my Soul and make me thine for ever O Lord I tremble at the apprehensions of all those Evils that stand between me and thy Glory the Grave gapeth for me and Satan is ready every moment to devour me wherefore I beseech thee sprinkle me with thy all-saving Blood that the destroying Angel may pass over me Let me drink of this Cup of Life and Death shall be Defeated the Grave Dismantled and Satan disappointed Let me drink of thy precious Blood that I may receive abundance of thy Spirit so shall my body be hallowed into a sacred Temple and my Soul replenished with such Graces that I can never perish O give me this Divine Cordial at present and make to me a preservation for Body and Soul to life everlasting I Dore thy unspeakable Goodness I delight in thy unmeasurable Mercy I desire to know nothing but the Lord Jesus and in him Crucified O let the Power of thy Cross prevail against all the Powers of Darkness let the Wisdom of thy Cross make me wise unto Salvation let the Peace of thy Cross reconcile me to thy Eternal Father and bring to me Peace of Conscience let the Victory of thy Cross mortifie all my evil and corrupt Affections let the triumph of thy Cross lead me on to a state of Holiness that I may sin no more but in all things please thee and in all things serve thee and in all things glorifie thee O my God assist me now and ever graciously and greatly grant that I may not receive Bread alone for man cannot live by that but that I may eat Christ and then I shall be thy servant for ever GReat Advocate of my Soul thou seest my desires to love thee I leave my self to thy Mannagement O enter into this frozen heart and erect thy Kingdom and Empire there let every desire of my Soul be subject to thee and make me willing to submit to any thing so I may but love thee O Compassionate Saviour whose Bowels yearn over the penìtent let my Soul rest in and contemplate thee enlarge my Mind loose me from my Bonds and let the effect of the offering up my Soul in the Holy Sacrament be that I may become a servant of Righteousness and may relish no wisdom but from above O Lord Jesus I am not worthy to come near so great a Mystery but thou can'st make me worthy and though I am a sinner I come to offer the sacrifice thou hast commanded O pardon my Offences and receive me graciously for thy Mercies sake I lament O God my detestable iniquities for having so long so often and so obstinately offended thee O most merciful Lord pardon me for Jesus Christ his sake O hear his dying Groans regard his Agony and Bloody Sweet by his Cross and Passion let my sins be blotted out by his glorious Resurrection and Ascention let every Evil affection and lust be crucified that I may arise to a newness of life Great Friend of my immortal Soul chuse I beseech thee my heart for thy dwelling place replenish it with thy Graces and make me to loath these transitory possessions O Lord what is there in Heaven or what upon Earth that I would have besides thee My heart is ready O God my heart is ready Lord what wouldst thou have to me do grant me to do what thou commandest and command what thou wilt O my sweet Saviour I long for thy Company and am miserable without thee yet dare scarce draw near unto thee because I have nothing pure enough to entertain thee Lord be merciful to me a sinner for I am grieved for my unworthiness and amazed at thy condescention in offering thy self to so vile a Creature O Holy Jesus I am utterly ashamed that ever I should put thee to such exceeding Smart and Torture I am ashamed to think of it and abhor my sins O light of mine Eyes my secure refuge O life of my Soul my Maker my Redeemer and my preserver into thy hands do I commit my Spirit O joy of my Soul when shall I love thee with all my Heart with all my Soul with all my Might When shall I enjoy thee When shall I come and appear before thee
renders the Wisdom of this World foolishness There we may learn what God has done for us and what we ought to do for our selves could we be so happy as to be govern'd by our Reason to let our thoughts have there proper place we should in a little time perceive that we were not sent hither to gaze about us that we have immortal Souls to be taken care of that the greatest Age is but a few days and all the Pleasures of this World momentary and deceitful that if we all could rejoice in the days of our Youth yet we must be brought to Judgment could we but think of these things we should find enough to do to secure our interest in Heaven and may conveniently dispence with the Vanities of this World for besides the evil of them they take us off of the contemplation of much better things He that has God and Eternity upon his Mind has infinite variety to employ his Thoughts The most exquisite Wits have subject for their Fancies and the ignorant may be improving in true Wisdom 'T is our misfortune to suffer the love of this World to prevail upon us and till we have something more lovely to remove our Affections can't easily give a Bill of Divorce Our Passions are strong and when we have habituated our selves to the love of any one thing can't quickly put a curb to our desires we talk of Heaven but at a distance think it sufficient to take up with those pleasures when we can enjoy these no longer we are sure of the present and have a mistrust either that the future will not come or that they are not worth the exchange that we should deny our selves a familliar satisfaction for uncertain expectations 'T is from such reasons we are deluded and though we dare not speak out are such fools as to mistrust in our hearts the truth of these things In short 't is the want of Faith we are not fully convinced of the existence of a Deity or that there is a Providence in the World This proceeds from the want of consideration we dont allow our selves time to think but take it upon trust we don't endeavour to reconcile it to our Reason and having no conviction in our minds grow indifferent at last come to that degree of wickedness as to cast off all thoughts of God and Religion This is certainly the Case of too many And even among those who are more fully persuaded of these things that believe there is a God and a Judgment to come we find a prodigious Neglect and have nothing but their Words to incline us to believe they ever heard of the Christian Religion Indeed they come to Church once a a Week hear Jesus Christ preach'd and that they must depend upon his Merits to be saved This they are willing to believe if God will accept them upon that Condition for they do not care to be concern'd in the Working out their Salvation but are free to let our Saviour have the Honour of Conducting them to Heaven if they may be exempt from the Severity of Fear and Trembling They can heartily believe any thing that favours their Interest and are very desirous of getting into Paradise by Faith if God will excufe them from Good Works But this we must not believe for we are as certain as there is a God that no unrighteous Man shall see his Face nor any Man without Repentance and a true Faith in Jesus Christ Except we repent we shall all likewise perish And unless we believe that Jesus is the Christ shall be damned True Repentance is a hearty Sorrow for Sin past and a serious Resolution to amend our Lives for the future True Faith will be shewn by our Works for if we believe in him we shall keep his Commandments We cannot think that God made us for nothing and was at the Expence of so great a Miracle only to furnish witty Men with Matter for a strange Story There must be something more in Sin than we imagine and the Provocations of the Wicked must be exceeding abominable It must be of a prodigious Nature that could so incense a merciful God that nothing less than the Sacrifice of his Son could expiate Can we think the Work of our Redemption of so little value that it is not to be considered Oh! let the Consideration of this move us to be grateful to the exceeding Love of Christ Let us glorifie God in our Lives and let not the Price of his Blood be utterly lost Let the Time past of our Lives suffice for the Works of Iniquity and let us break off our Sins by Repentance and turn to the Lord our God To which End let us call our selves to a severe Account and examine the Errour of our Ways let us humble our selves in Fasting and Prayer beg Pardon for our Offences and Strength to withstand the Assaults of the Devil and our Inclinations for till we are thus purified we expect the Grace of God in vain Christ will not come into a filthy Habitation and while our Bodies are unclean the Holy Ghost will not erect his Temple there How necessary is it then to begin our Repentance speedily to day while it is called to day lest any of us be harden'd through the Deceitfulness of Sin Sin is very bewitching and when it has got the Mastery is not easily resisted Habits require a great deal of Pains to unlearn especially when they are such as cause us not only to take pleasure in them our selves but delight in those who do the same thing They are then become mighty Dallila's dearer to us than our Eyes or Limbs we can much rather part with either than our Lusts Of such mighty force are they that we not only loose our Strength but Reason and are led Captives wheresoever they will A Man thus overcome is miserable indeed for he is not only under the Power of the Devil and his own unruly Lusts but has God for his Enemy And where can he then flee for Succour How dreadfully must his Soul be shaken when his Conscience begins to suggest all things are not well within that there is a Necessity of a speedy Alteration that his Impieties are daring and grown to such a heighth as cannot be thought on without Horrour and Confusion when he can neither put off these Reflections or bear the Trial of the Prospect The first Sight renders him monstrous and the Continuance exceeding frightful It casts him into a thoughtless yet amazing Condition and leaves him under the Pressure of a wounded Spirit Such are generally the Conflicts of those that have submitted to the Yoke of Satan when they first come to themselves And no Man that believ'd the Torture of this Condition would put himself under so dreadful a Necessity Alas these are but the Beginning of Sorrows there is Eternity behind and Hell the Habitation of the Wicked for ever unless this Sense of Sin drives us to Repentance
wherefore when we are arrived so far in our way to Happiness as the forsaking our old Habits and placing better in their room we may venture to draw nigh to that Holy Ordinance of which whosoever is a worthy partaker shall live for ever A good Life is the best preparitive to this Feast 't is not enough we shake hands with our Vices for a time and return to our Folly when the Ceremony is over if we are not qualified before we come we are in danger to receive this Sacrament Unworthily and the consequence of that is so terrible that the thoughts of it must amaze us No Man is qualified that does not sincerely Repent it can't be supposed that God has allotted just so much time to mortifie ourselves or that a week is sufficient to prepare us for Heaven They who have lived in a course of sin and never approached this Holy Communion must not think the first fit of Sorrow sufficient to Denounce them true Penitents It requires time and pains to conquer their Lusts the old Man must be cast off and they must give a signal of their Loyalty before they be accepted Subjects of the Most High in short if upon Examination we find our Faith firm our Purposes steadfast and our Desires after Christ strong we may come to the Altar of God and if we appear there with Charity our Prayers shall be convey'd from thence to the presence of God 'T is upon no other terms we can come with security for there is no concord between Christ and Beliai They who frequent the Sacrament and suffer themselves in the Commission of any known sin are reconciling of contradictions and will find their mistake to their confusion 'T is very certain as long as we are upon Earth we are in a state of Trial no man must expect to be exempt from Temptation But we should make it our business to strive and resist the World Flesh and the Devil If by surprise or other accident we are betrayed into sin we know our duty to be sorry and arm our selves against it for the future We may reasonably expect pardon upon this humiliation if we dont join our good Will and commit the evil with approbation This we certainly do if we suffer our selves to be often over come by the same Temptation such a one ought to suspect the sincerity of his resolution and not approach the holy communion till he is satisfied his heart is perfect in the Commandments of God But after all men must be left to themselves in this matter 'T is certain no man can be a Hipocrite against his knowledge and what pretences men have for Hipocrisy in other cases they are reasons of a prodigious nature which shall induce a man to play the cheat upon himself For no man is forced to the Sacrament and if he was 't is very sad it should be accounted criminal to Oblige them to be good However men trifle in other cases let them be serious in this if they are really sincere God will pardon a multitude of Faults no Man that knows his own sincerity need be affraid to approach the table of the Lord. When the Minister declares the time of the next Communion and invites all such as shall religiously be disposed let us lift up our Souls to God and beg of him that we may become worthy Partakers of his Body and Blood In order to it let us remember the nearer we draw to God in his Holy Ordinances the greater must be our care in the Management of our selves tho' as I have already premised a Good Life is the best preparative to a worthy Reception of the Lord's Supper yet when we approach the Presence of the Lord we ought to be more than ordinary circumspect 'T was David's resolution To wash his hands in Innocency before he approacht the Altar of God God himself commanded Joshua to pull off his shooes when he was upon the holy Ground and then surely 't is our duty to become such as the Lord may be we well pleased with Let us as much as possible this week have our conversation with God Don't let it suffice that we have formerly call'd our selves to account but go over all again there may be something past over in our last Examination or something new to add to our Affliction however the sight of our late Iniquity will sufficiently affect us and beholding our misery afresh we shall be the more desirous of coming to Christ for our Sins when we are sensible of them will be a burthen too heavy for us to bear But to increase our Desires Humiliation and Love let us reflect on the Goodness of God in sending Our Saviour Jesus to be a sacrifice for our Sins that as the Terrors of the Lord first brought us to our selves so now the Wonders of his Love may effectually perswade us to turn to the Lord our God that he may have mercy upon us A Meditation Preparitory to the Communion LOrd what is Man that thou hast respect unto him and the Son of Man that thou so regardest him When we had forfeied thy Favour by a cursed Disobedience to thy Command and deserved to feel the reward of our Folly to Eternal ages if thou hadst only spared us from thy Wrath and delivered our Soul from the neithermost Hell that Mercy had called for our greatest Devotion and employed us to eternity in singing Praises but thy infinite Love would not debar us the priviledge of Creation since thou madest us for thy self thou resolvedst to try all means to bring us to the enjoyment of that Happiness When we were sunk into Misery almost beyond recovery what manner of Love didst thou extend to the dropping World which lay in Darkness and in the shaddow of Death thou emptiedst thy self and communicatedst to us of thy fullness by sending thy Eternal Son out of thy Bosom to make us thy Children and exalt us to everlasting life HOly Holy Holy Lord God of Saboath Heaven and Earth are full of the Majesty of thy Glory Glory be to thee O God Glory be to thee for this incomprehensible Mystery O thou God who wast manifested in the flesh Glory be to thee inspire the universal World to a greatfull acknowledgment of thy Love surpassing knowledge That we may all acknowledge thee to be the Lord for on Earth there is none like thee and among the Gods there is none can do as thou hast done When thou tookest upon thee to deliver Man thou didst not abhor the Virgins Womb but submitted to our flesh that thou mightest open the Kingdom of Heaven to all believers O Thou Word of God how didst thou strip thy self of thy Glory and descend from the felicities of thy Throne to take upon thee the form of a Servant Thou wert born of poor Parents and laid in a Manger thou induredst Hunger and Thirst and hadst no place to lay thine head yet did it not discourage thee from going about
deserve is intolerable We fear the Punishment of our Sins but cease not pertinaciously to proceed in sinning Our Weakness is sometimes smitten with thy Rod but our Iniquity is not changed When thou smitest us then we confess our Sins but when thy Visitation is past then we forget that we have wept When thou stretchest forth thine Hand then we promise to do our Duty but when thou takest it away we perform no Promises If thou strikest we cry to thee to spare us but when thou sparest we provoke thee again to Anger Thus O God the Guilty confess before thee Unless thou givest us Pardon it is but just we perish But O Almighty God our Father grant to us what we ask even though we deserve it not Pardon us O Gracious Father and take away all our Sin Destroy the Work of the Devil let the Enemy have no part in us Acknowledge the Work of thine own Hand the Price of thine own Blood and the Purchase of thine own Inheritance and bring us to the Place which thou hast design'd for us by the Blood of the Everlasting Covenant by the Pains of thy Cross and the Glories of thy Resurrection O Holy and Blessed Jesus our Redeemer MOst merciful God and Father I thine unworthy Servant render my humblest Thanks to thy Divine Majesty that it has pleas'd thee notwithstanding my Unworthiness to give me a Heart to approach thy Blessed Sacrament Give me thy Grace that I may be a curious Spender of my Time this Week so as I may best resist or prevent all Temptation Let thy Grace so perpetually assist and encourage my Endeavours conduct my Will and fortifie my Intentions that I may persevere in that holy Condition which thou hast put me in by the Grace of the Covenant and the Mercies of the Holy Jesus Oh let me never fall into those Sins and retire to that vain Conversation from which the Eternal and Merciful Saviour of the World hath redeemed me Let thy Preventing Grace dash all Temptations in their Approach that my Hopes be never discompos'd my Faith weaken'd my Confidence made remiss nor my Portion be lessen'd in the Covenant Give me Grace to put on the Wedding-Garment And since thou hast commanded me to examine my self let me seriously consider and review my Life and Actions and how I am prepar'd for so weighty an Action I desire to do this O Lord help my weak Desires Give me Power to live more exactly than I have done I confess O Lord I am by Nature a Child of Wrath give me therefore a True and Lively Faith that I may be spiritually join'd to thee by the Visible Signs of Bread and Wine And so cleanse my Soul that thou mayest take up thy Habitation within me I know O Lord I am unworthy of this Blessing yet for thy Name sake bestow it upon me And when I present my self before thee at thy Table restrain my Wandring and Idle Thoughts let them be seriously fix'd on the Death of my Saviour And as I receive this Bread and Wine for Bodily Sustenance so cause me to feed on the Body and Blood of my Saviour that it may be real Nourishment to my Soul Which I beg for the sake of him who offer'd both his Body and Blood for my Salvation Jesus thy Son and my Redeemer Amen O Most Good and Gracious Jesus how excellent was thy Love towards us thou leavest thy Body and Blood to be our Food to Nourish us O thou true Food of my Soul receive me who am to receive thee quicken me with thy Spirit feed me with thy Flesh satisfie me with thy Blood and let me receive Life from thee to act and live unto thee O my Lord give me a Heart that I may think on thee a Soul that I may love thee and a Mind to remember thee Let me find thee O my hearts desire let me hold thee O thou whom my Soul doth love O my life for whom all things live by which I live without which I die O my Lord let me renew this life of mine by coming to thy Holy Sacrament Where may I find thee but here O that I may faint in my self and depend on thee O Lord let me love thee because thou didst first love me Where shall I get words to express the signs of thy particular great love towards me I bless thee for my Creation Preservation and all the Blessings of this life but most of all for my Redemption and the benefits convey'd to us in the Holy Sacrament O let me go to thy Holy Table to receive Life and Salvation O that I may cry after God even the living God that I may watch for thee more than they who watch for the Morning and that my delight may be in thy Commandments O God I Dare not presume to come to thine Altar Most Holy Lord God before I have cleansed my Mouth by confession of my Sins washed my Hands in Innocency and purified my heart by profession of my Faith in my Redeemers Blood for thy sacred Word teaches me that Holy Thing must not be given to Dogs nor Pearls cast before Swine with loathing of my self and greatest detestation of my rebellious corruption I confess that never Dog so oft returned to his Vomit nor Sow to wallowing in the Mire as I have to sin and sensuality I was at first conceived in Lust and since Lust has conceived in me and brought forth sin and sin had long ago brought forth Death if thy Grace and Mercy had not prevented it I am not able to conceive what sin I have conceived in my heart or uttered with my tongue my best actions are tainted how much more my defects my Prayers against sin are through their many imperfections unless thou cover them abominable in thy sight how much more the sins themselves against which I pray All the remedies which thou hast prescribed in thy Law against the maladies of my Soul have increas'd them and so improv'd my sin that sin is become above measure sinful O Lord thy Commandments are exceeding Broad and extends not only to our Words and Actions but to our Thoughts Desires and Affection the smallest desire of sin is sin the very inclination to sin without consent of the will the delight in sin against the consent of the will our vain fancies by Day and dreams by Night though not in our power to prevent are pollutions in thy Eyes who are purity it self Who then can say his Heart is clean or who knoweth how oft he offendeth O cleanse thou me from my secret Faults Pardon all my known and unknown Transgressions whether they be Omissions of any duty Commanded by thee or Commissions of any thing forbidden O loose me from those Bonds wherewith Satan and my own Lust have bound me thou seest I have abundant need of thee but am so cloged with Guilt that I am not able to move towards thee O let not my impenitence and unworthiness
a burning affection open thou the Flood-gates of my Eyes and open thou my Lips that my Mouth may shew forth thy praise O my gracious God unless thou interpose thy power I am very much affraid I shall not keep this little goodness till the next morning which now seems to be in me These weak Thoughts these faint Desires and sickly Affections that are in my Soul I doubt will not live a Night unless thou find ways to preserve and cherish them my inveterate Habits of Evil will smother and choak these new Resolutions I am in fear that all these Meditations will be flown away while I am a sleep and my House be foul again unless thou keep me Ah! my dear God seeing I have bestowed some small pains upon my heart and have conceived some little hopes suffer them not to be dash'd to pieces in a Night spread the Wings of thy goodness over me and maintain that which not I but thou thy self hast wrought Lord let me find when I awake that my afflections and desires are grown beyond the strength of Man and that thy power rest upon me Oh! let me find a greater fervor than ever in thy Service let that spark which I fear would go out be blown into a Flame that will never expire so shalt thou draw mine Eyes towards thy self alone who workest such wonders and my Lips shall ever flow with thy Praises Lord if I may beg this Grace of thee I am verily perswaded I shall languish after none but thee therefore my good Lord I leave my self in thy hands hoping that either I am or would be such as thou desirest and if I am arrived but as far as a Will and Desire to be thine that Will is thine and therefore seeing the Will is mine too and we both conspire together I take the boldness to say Lord let thy will be done Oh! sweet Saviour I was going to say I am sick of Love that I cannot love except thou love me and make me better but I correct my self and 't is enough if I be sick because I cannot love thee Do thou make me sick or rather do thou make me well with love unto thee so shall I come to thy Table with Joy and Gladness hoping that thou wilt kiss me with the Benediction of thy Lips for thy love is better than Wine draw me and I will run after thee yea we will run after thee for I will proclaim to others the loving kindness of the Lord Amen Devotions for the Day we intend to Communicate IT well becomes a Christian's Piety to welcome the day which brings our Saviour so near to us with acts of Joy and Thnaksgiving for the approach of so great a Blessing And since one Night may breed too great a damp and chilness upon our Spirits it will be very wholesome to renew those Thoughts and Affections that we left there when we went to Bed and so go to the house of God in a sense of our unworthiness to entertain so glorious a Person and in a sense of sin which is the cause of that unworthiness together with a joy in our Souls and Praises upon our Tongues that he will forgive them humbly desiring of the Lord that he will accept of us for his Habitation and that he will come and enlarge our Souls by a holy Love to him and longing after him that there may be room for his Sacred Majesty and a place clean and dressed to receive him In order hereunto as soon as we awake let us adore that Sacred Majesty of Heaven in the following Ejaculation A Prayer O Merciful God as thou hast awakened my Body from sleep so by thy Grace awaken my Soul from sin that I may appear before thee this day at thy Holy Altar with a pure and undefiled Soul O Jesus cloth me with the Wedding Garments of Righteousness and true Holiness that being a worthy Receiver of thy Body and Blood I may continue steadfast to my lives end and at the last Trump according to thy Blessed Promise be made a pertaker of thy Heavenly Kingdom Amen The solemnity of this day requires a most exact attendance in the service of God all our affections should be so imployed that even the necessaries of this life ought not to incumber our Souls or take off those Holy Meditations which should be inseperate to our Minds much more should we dispence with things of less moment and therefore however we indulge our selves at other times let us now take leave of our Bed and prepare to meet our God with humble Addresses and rising with a thinkful acknowledgment for the Mercies of the Night past let us say Glory be to thee O Lord for watching over me this Night Lord raise me up at the last day to life everlasting In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ who was crucified for me I arise he by his cross and Passion save bless and preserve me this day and for ever Amen As soon as we are Dressed let us retire unto our Closet and before we prostrate our selves at the Throne of Grace exercise our Thoughts a little upon the approaching Solemnity and reflect upon our base ingratitude consider how infinitly unworthy we are of such an inestimable benefit and then let us adore that inexpressible Goodness which gives us so glorious an opportunity of waiting on our loving Lord at his Holy Altar after such a religious confusion of Soul let us humble our selves and say Good Lord pardon thy servant why endeavours to prepare his heart to seek thee though I be not cleansed according to the Purification of the Sanctuary A Prayer O Lord I do not presume to come to that great Feast of thy Body and Blood upon the least opinion of my own worthiness for when I look upon my self I dare not come least I should Eat and Drink my own Damnation but when I consider thy infinite Mercies unto us and thy own words calling all men without exception and knowing that thy crucified Body is not only food to nourish but Physick to cure I beg leave that am but Dust and Ashes to come to thy Holy Table and with my weak Faith to feed upon some Crumbs of the Bread of Life I confess O Lord I have no Wedding Garments on me but I come to seek them at thy Cross from thy bitter sorrows to derive into my Soul a Godly sorrow working an unfeigned Repentance from the broken Body a broken Heart from thy warm Blood flowing from thy wounded side Zeal and fervency that I may love and admire thee my God as I ought to do I come O Dear Jesus to fetch Humility and Temperance Chastity and Charity and whatever thou seest needful for me O bury all my sins in thy Grave my stony Heart my natural Corruptions and vile Affections I come O Lord to fetch a new life from thy Holy and Blessed Resurrection for I stand in amazement when I consider my own vileness and
O my Soul is expressed by thy Redeemer when our sins his treacherous Servants and enraged Enemies were contriving his Death he was designing an excellent benefit for us the stream of his affections was so strong that our baseness and ingratitude could not check it we might have expected that the horror of this dismal Night should have made him repent of his undertaking and have put him upon reversing all his former favours but lo he adds a greater than ever he had given before and appoints this as a seal to confirm and convey the rest to us Thy love was stronger than Death and when all the terrors of thy dreadful Passion were in view thy Soul was so calm as to be at leisure to institute this Feast of Joy and Gladness Surely I will entertain this Festival with the dearest regard I can express since it was one of the last and greatest Testimonies of the love of a dying Friend this blessed Legacy this parting Remembrance shall be in my heart for ever Having considered the exceeding great love of God in instituting this Sacrament that very Night he was betrayed and that he should be mindful of us when he was about to drink that Cup of which we were not able let us now contemplate the preparation our Lord then made for us and that we have already heard is Bread but don't let the meaness of the outward part be a disparagement to this mystery but let us adore the Humility of our Saviour who was content with so mean a Re-presentation A Meditation upon the Element of Bread O Blessed Jesus how lovely is thy Humility thou hast chosen to be represented by Bread and though some curious or costly preparation had been more agreeable to thy Dignity yet this best expresses thy condescension Bread is the poor Man's Food yet necessary for the Rich it springs from the Earth yet it is the staff of our Life and given to strengthen Man's heart and so it signifies that Body which thou didst take from the Earth and gavest for the life of the World O that I may receive thee by Faith and then I know I shall draw the most salutary nourishment from thee and thou wilt as effectually be united to my Soul as the Bread which is eaten is to my Body Let me eat this Holy Bread in Charity O do thou make it thy Body and it shall be the Bread of Life to my Soul O merciful Jesus thou hast taken Bread into thy bountiful hands and behold I faint for Hunger I languish for this Spiritual Food and since I am come so nigh thee on this blessed day of Distribution I beseech thee pass not by me as thou takest this Bread so didst thou take thy Body only to be broken in Sacrifice for us and in Sacrament to us let me not therefore want my part O Eternal Word of God by whose power all things were made I will not ask how thou canst give me thy Flesh to eat because I am abundantly satisfied in thy saying this is my Body since thou canst make it become to me whatsoever thou sayest it is I believe Lord help my unbelief what though my senses assure me the outward substances and its accidents still remain yet my Faith and experience tell me there is an Efficacy therein beyond the power of any other thing Alas the Flesh would profit me nothing for he that is joined to thee must be one Spirit O let these sacred Symbols therefore make me partaker of thy Nature and a partner in thy merits let them unite me to thee ingraft me in thee and make that Body mine which did suffer Death for me and then I shall need no further but be more happy than if I could understand all mysteries sure I am this is thy Body in Sacrament it communicates to us the blessings and benefit thereof and though presented with a Figure and by a Holy Right yet it is to all its purposes that which it doth represent I will therefore receive it as thy Body and esteem it infinitly above all other food that I may not be judged for not descerning thy Body O let it be unto me according to my Faith I Am a sinful Wretch O Lord and yet if I bid thee depart from me I banish all true happiness from my Soul I long for thy presence but how shall I entertain thee Thou wast born of a pure Virgin wraped in clean Linnen dwellest now where nothing defiled can enter but never was there so unworthy apartment prepared for thee as my polluted heart into which I durst not presume to bring thee but that I know thou canst make it clean however when by Faith I see that Body which all the Angels in Heaven worship I cannot but abhor my self in Dust and Ashes I am amazed to see such a Majesty come to visit a Sin-sick Soul in so poor a Cottage yea I cannot but tremble at thy presence O thou King of Glory because I am so overspread with the filth of sin but I will lament those corruptions which I cannot fully purge away and beseech thee not to dispise me though I deserve it I confess my self unworthy but thy condesention in stooping to me will be the more illustrious and if thou hast less delight in me for the present thou shalt have more Glory afterwards When thou hast changed my vile Body and made it like to thy glorious Body according to thy mighty Power O My Soul make hast behold thy gracious Master is dealing his Bread to those that hunger after Righteousness be not discouraged at thy unworthiness for he gives to all Men liberally and upbraideth not O dear Jesus give me a share thereof declare me to be thine by feeding me at this Table thou who wert content to be bruised and broken to satisfie my offended God O be pleased to give thy self and the merits of this thy Passion unto me Lord give me ever more of this Bread HOly Jesus I am not worthy to touch this blessed Body as 't is thine yet I presume to approach because thy love hath made it mine This is the sacrifice for my sins the price of my Redemption and that by which my Soul was ransomed from Hell and rescued from a dreadful destruction it was given for me and it shall now be given to me and hast thou made such a preparation for me and offer'd it unto me Lord I am transported at thy love dear Saviour I will love thee with all my powers and strive and pray that I may love thee more as fervently as ever any thy Saints have done I will give my self unto thee and dispise all other things in comparison of thee and when I have once tasted of this all-saving Sacrifice which was given for me I 'm perswaded that neither Life Death Pleasure or Pain things present or to come shall be able to seperate me from the Love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord Amen O My