think upon three things present the brevitie of this present life the difficultie of being saved and the paâ—citie of them that shall be saved Alwayes think upon three things to come Death then which nothing is more horrible judgement then which nothing is more terrible the pains of hell then which nothing is more intolerable Let thy evening prayers amend the sinnes of the day past Let the last day of the week amend the faults of the dayes past In the evening think how many are plunged that day into hell and give thanks unto God for granting thee time to repent There are three things above thee which never let slip out of thy memorie The eye that sees all the eare that heares all and the book wherein all things are written God hath communicated himself wholly unto thee Communicate thou thy self wholly unto thy neighbour That is the best life which is busied in the service of others Shew obedience and reverence to thy superiour give counsel and aid to thy equall defend and instruct thy inferiour Let thy bodie be subject to thy minde and thy minde to God Bewail thy evils past and esteem not the goods that are present and desire with all thy heart the goods which are future Remember thy sinne to grieve for it Remember death that thou mayst cease from sinne Remember Gods justice that thou mayst be kept in fear Remember Gods mercie that thou mayst not despair As much as thou canst withdraw thy self from the world and addict thy self wholly unto the service of the Lord. Alwayes in delights think that thy chastitie is in danger in riches think that thy humilitie is in danger in many businesses think that thy godlinesse is in danger Study to please none but Christ Fear to displease none but Christ. Alwayes pray thou unto God to command what he will and to give what he commands Pray unto him to cover what is past and to govern what is to come As thou desirest to seem so also thou must be For God judgeth not according to the shew but according to the truth In thy words take heed of much babling because for every idle word thou must give an account in the day of judgement Thy works be they what they will do not passe away but are cast as certain seeds of eternitie If thou sowest in the flesh of the flesh thou shalt reap corruption If thou sowest in the spirit of the spirit thou shalt reap life everlasting The honours of the world shall not follow thee after death neither shall thy heaps of riches follow thee neither shall thy pleasures follow thee neither shall the vanities of the world follow thee But after all thy works shall follow thee As therefore thou desirest to be at the day of judgement to day appeare to be such in the sight of God Do not esteem those things that thou hast but rather esteem those that thou wantest Be not proud for what is given thee but be humbled rather for that which is denied thee Learn to live whiles thou mayst live In this life is eternall life either obtained or lost After death there is no time to work but the time of recompense begins In the life to come working is not expected but the reward of working Let holy meditation bring forth in thee knowledge and knowledge compunction and compunction devotion and let devotion make prayer The silence of the mouth is a great good for the peace of the heart The more thou art separated from the world the more acceptable thou art unto God Whatsoever thou desirest to have ask of God whatsoever thou hast give unto God He that is not thankfull for that which is given already is unworthy to receive more Gods graces cease to descend when our thanks cease to ascend Whatsoever happeneth unto thee make use of it for good When thou art in prosperity think that thou hast then an occasion to blesse and praise God When thou art in adversitie think that thou art then put in minde of thy repentance and conversion Shew the strength of thy power in helping the strength of thy wisdome in instructing and the strength of thy riches in doing good Let not adversitie cast thee down neither let prosperitie lift thee up Let all thy life be directed unto Christ as unto the mark Follow him in the way that thou mayst overtake him in thy countrey In all things have a speciall care of profound humilitie and ardent charitie Let charitie lift up thy heart unto God that thou mayest cleave unto him And let humilitie keep thy heart down that thou beest not proud Judge God to be a Father for his clemencie a Lord for his discipline a Father for his power and gentlenesse a Lord for his severitie and justice Love him as a Father piously fear him as a Lord necessarily Love him because he willeth mercy fear him because he willeth not sinne Fear the Lord and trust in him acknowledge thy misery and proclaim his mercy O God thou that hast given us to will give us also grace to perfect Meditat. XXIX Of the shaking off securitie To live it is not but to die To live in all securitie COnsider thou devout soul what an hard matter it is to be saved and thou shalt easily shake off all securitie At no time and in no place is there securitie Neither in heaven nor in paradise and then much lesse in the world An angel fell in the presence of the divinitie and Adam fell in the place of pleasure Adam was created after the image of God and yet notwithstanding he was deceived by the treacheries of the devil Solomon was the wisest of men and yet his wives turned away his heart from the Lord. Judas was in the school of our Saviour and did every day heare the saving word of that chief Doctour and yet was not he safe from the snares of Satan He was plunged headlong into the pit of covetousnesse and so into the pit of eternall punishment David was a man after Gods own heart and he was unto the Lord as a most deare sonne and yet by murder and adulterie he became the sonne of death Where then is there securitie in this life Relie with an assured confidence of heart upon the promises of God and thou shalt be safe from the invasions of the devil There is no securitie in this life but that which is infallibly promised to those that beleeve and walk in the way of the Lord But when we come unto future happâ—nesse then at length we shall have full securitie In this life fear and religion are coupled together neither must one be without the other Be not secure in adversitie but whatsoever adversitie happâ—neth unto thee in this life think that it iâ— the reward of thy sinnes God often punisheth secret offences by open corrections Think upon the grievous stains of
into the court of heaven The third is the book of the Scripture according to the prescript rule whereof our faith and good works shall be judged The word that I have spoken saith our Saviour shall judge them at the last day The fourth book containeth in it the testimonies of the poore which in the day of judgement shall receive us into an everlasting habitation The fifth book contains the inward testimonie of the conscience For the conscience is the book in which all sinnes are written The conscience is a great volume in which all things are written by the finger of truth The damned cannot deny their sinnes at the day of judgement because they shall be convinced by the testimonie of their own consciences They cannot fly from the accusation of their sinnes because the tribunall of the conscience is within and at home A pure conscience is the most cleare glasse of the soul in which she beholds God and her self A filthy eye cannot behold the splendour of true light Hereupon saith our Saviour Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God As a beautifull and fair face is pleasing to the eye of man So a pure and cleare conscience is acceptable in the sight of God But the putrified conscience begets never-dying worms Let us therefore in the present have a sense and feeling of the worm of conscience and labour to destroy it But let us not foster it lest it live with us for ever All other books were invented to mend this book What doth much science profit if there be a foul conscience Thou shalt be judged hereafter before the throne of God not by the book of thy science but by the book of thy conscience If thou wilt write this book right indeed write it according to the copy of the book of life Christ is the book of life Let the profession of thy faith be conformed to the rule of Christs doctrine and let the course of thy life be conformed to the rule of Christs life Thy conscience shall be good if there be puritie in thy heart truth in thy tongue and honestie in thy actions Use thy conscience for a lanthorn in all thy actions For that will plainly shew unto thee what actions in thy life be good and what be evil Avoid that judgement of thy conscience in which one and the same shall be both defendant and plaintiffe witnesse judge tormentour prison scourge executioner and slaughterer What escape can there be there where it is the witnesse that accuseth and where nothing can be hid from him that judgeth What doth it profit thee if all men commend theâ—â— and thy conscience accuse thee What shall it hurt thee if all men detract from thee and thy conscience defend thee This judge is enough to accuse judge and condemne every man This judge is uncorrupt and cannot be moved with prayers or corrupted with rewards Whithersoever thou goest and wheresoever thou art thy conscience is alwayes with thee and carrieth about her whatsoever thou hast laid up in her whether it be good or evil She keeps for the living and restoreth to the dead that which was committed to her keeping So it is true that a mans enemies are they of his own houshold So in thine own house and amongst thine own family thou hast those that do observe accuse and torment thee What doth it profit thee to live in all abundance and plenty and to be tormented with the whip of conscience The fountain of mans felicitie and misery is in his minde What doth it profit a man in a burning fever to lie upon a bed of gold What doth it profit a man tâ—â—mented with the firebrands of an â—â—conscience to enjoy all outward felicitie As much as we regard everlasting salvation so much let us regard our conscience For if a good conscience be lost faith is lost and if faith be lost the grace of God is lost and if the grace of God be lost how can we hope for everlasting life As the testimony of thy conscience is such judgement mayest thou expect from Christ. Sinners shall become their own accusers though none accuse them or bring ought against them As the drunkard while he is overwhelmed with wine hath no sense of the hurt which he receiveth by the wine but when he hath slept out his drunken fit then he feels the hurt So sinne whiles it is in action doth blinde the minde and like a thick cloud doth obscure the brightnesse of true judgement But at length the conscience is roused and gnaweth more grievously then any accuser There are three judgements The judgement of the world the judgement of thy self and the judgement of God And as thou canst not escape the judgement of God So neither canst thou escape the judgement of thy self although sometimes thou mayest escape the judgement of the world No walls can hinder this witnesse from seeing all thy actions What excuse can save thee when thy conscience within doth accuse thee The peace of conscience is the beginning of everlasting life Thou mayest more truely and heartily rejoyce in the midst of troubles having a good conscience then thou canst in the midst of thy delights having an evil conscience Against the backbiting of all that bear thee ill will thou mayest confidently oppose the defence and excuse of thy conscience Enquire of thy self concerning thy self because thou knowest thy self farre better then any other man doth At the last judgement what will the false praises of others profit thee or the backbitings of others without a cause hurt thee By Gods and thine own judgement shalt thou either stand or fall Thou shalt not stand or fall by the testimonie of others The conscience is immortall as the soul is immortall And the punishments of hell shall torment the damned as long as the accusation of conscience shall endure No externall fire doth so afflict the bodie as this inward fire doth inflame the conscience The soul which is burned is eternall and the fire of the conscience is eternall No outward scourges are so grievous unto the bodie as these inward whips of conscience are unto the soul. Avoid therefore the guilt of sinne that so thou mayest avoid the torment of conscience By true repentance blot thy sinnes out of the book of thy conscience that they may not be read at the judgement and that thou mayest not be afraid of the voice of Gods sentence Mortifie the worm of conscience by the heat of devotion that it do not bite thee and so beget eternall horrour Extinguish this inward fire by thy teares that so thou mayest attain to the joyes of an heavenly cooler Grant O Lord that we may fight the good fight keeping faith and a good conscience that at length we may come safe and sound into our heavenly countrey Meditat. XXXIIII Of the study of true humilitie What is a
holy-day for all eternity Therefore think not onely upon the time of thy friends forsaking thee that is at their death but think also upon the time when they shall be restored again unto thee that is at the resurrection To them that firmly beleeve the resurrection death seemeth not death but rather a quiet sleep The whole universe seems to be a glasse in which we may behold the resurrection The sunne that sets every night riseth again in the morning The herbs that are dead in the winter shoot up again in the spring The Phenix at her death reneweth her self again When times and seasons are past they return again After fruits are come to maturity still there succeed others Seeds unlesse they die and be corrupted they rise not again with increase All things are preserved by perishing and generated by corrupting Shall we think then that God hath to no end or purpose set before us these types in nature Shall nature be more powerfull then God who hath promised that our bodies shall rise again He that quickneth the grain of the seeds that are dead and rotten that thou mayest live thereby in this world shall not he much more raise up thee and thine that thou mayest live with them for ever God hath called thy loving friends unto their beds And do not thou envie them their quiet rest The resurrection will shortly come It may be thou didst hope that thy friends before their death would have been profitable members of the militant Church But it hath pleased God to make them members of the Church triumphant Seeing it hath so pleased God be thou also well pleased It may be thou thoughtest that thy friends before their death would have attained to the knowledge of divers things But it hath pleased God to take them up into the heavenly Academie there to learn true wisdome Seeing therefore it hath so pleased God be thou also well pleased It may be thou didst hope that thy friends before their death would be raised out of the dust and be set with princes But it hath pleased God to make them the fellows of heavenly princes that is the holy angels Seeing therefore it hath so pleased God be thou also well pleased It may be thou didst hope that thy friends before their death would have gathered together much riches But it hath pleased God to make them partakers of the delights of his heavenly kingdome And therefore seeing that it hath so pleased God be thou also well pleased Holy God thou hast taken away nothing but what thou gavest blessed be thy name for ever and ever Meditat. XLV Of the last judgement Remember that Christ Jesus shall Thoughts words and deeds to judgement call THe Father judgeth no man but hath committed all judgement to his Sonne I know Lord Jesus that thou wilt come as the severe Judge of all men to bring their thoughts words and deeds to light though they were done in darknesse Above there shall be a severe judge beneath hell gaping within the conscience gnawing without the fire flaming on the right hand sinnes accusing on the left hand the devils terrifying The good angels keeping out of heaven and the evil angels pulling down to hell Then Lord Jesus to whom shall I betake my self in these my straits I am afraid of all my works knowing that thou sparest not every one that offendeth I shall there be set between time and eternity Time will be past but the infinite space of eternitie will remain behinde The malignant spirits will require their wicked works unto which they have perswaded me and in that severe judgement they will produce all they know against me that they may draw my soul into the fellowship of their torments All the host of heaven shall consume away the heavens shall be rolled together like a scrole all the host of them shall fall even as a leaf falleth from the vine or figge-tree The sunne shall be ashamed and the moon shall be brought to confusion But if these the works of thy hands which never committed any evil against thee if they flee away from thy sight how shall I miserable sinner be able to appear before thy face The heavens of heavens are not clean in thy sight What am I then that drink iniquitie like water But if the righteous shall scarce be saved where shall the sinner appear Whither then shall I fly or to whom shall I go but unto thee O Lord Thou shalt be the Judge of my sinnes who diedst for my sinnes For the Father judgeth no man but hath committed all judgement unto his Sonne The Father delivered all judgement to the Sonne but the Son again was delivered for our sinnes For God so loved the world that he gave his onely begotten Sonne not to condemn the world but that the world might be saved through him How canst thou then condemn me Lord Jesus when as thou wast sent by thy Father to save me Thou â—idst fulfill the will of thy Father in all things How then wilt thou not fulfill it in saving me miserable sinner It is not the will of thy Father that one of the little ones should perish And I am a little one in thy sight and a little one also in mine own sight For what am I but dust and ashes Neither onely dust and ashes but also a very little one and a very dwarf for proficiencie in piety Perfect therefore in me little one the will of thy Father Thou camest O Jesus to save that which was lost How then canst thou condemn him that desires to be saved My sinnes will accuse me and call upon the Judge for severe sentence But thou hast taken my sinnes upon thee Thou takest away the sinnes of the world How then hast thou not taken away mine also How canst thou condemn me for my sins when thou diedst for them Thou diedst for the sinnes of the whole world How then hast thou not died for mine also Certainly Lord Jesus if thou hadst meant to deal with me in thy strict judgement thou wouldest never have descended from heaven to take upon thee my flesh to die and to be crucified The devils will accuse me and require of my soul the works whereunto they have perswaded me But the prince of this world is condemned and hath nothing in thee and if he hath nothing in thee then certainly he hath nothing in me For I beleeve in thee O Lord therefore thou abidest in me and I in thee He will accuse me that am thy friend He will accuse me that am thy brother that am the beloved sonne of the eternall Father How then canst thou deal with me in thy strict judgement seeing that I am thy friend thy brother and thy sonne At that judgement Moses will accuse me and pronounce me accursed for not keeping all that is written in the book of the law
mud of my offences hath in a wonderfull and miserable manner defiled me The first age of man is amongst all the rest the fittest for the service of God But I have spent a good part thereof in the service of the devil The memory of many sinnes which the unbridled loosenesse of my youth hath committed is set in my sight and yet there are many more which I cannot call to memory Who knows how oft he offendeth cleanse thy servant from secret faults For these offences of my youth I offer unto thee holy Father the most holy obedience and perfect innocency of thy Sonne who was obedient to thee unto death even the death of the crosse When he was but a childe of twelve yeares old he performed holy obedience unto thee and began to execute thy will with great alacritie This obedience I offer unto thee just Judge for a price and satisfaction for the manifold disobedience of my youth Amen PRAYER III. He reckons up our daily falls and slips HOly God and just Judge There is no man innocent in thy sight no man free from the spot of sinne And I am bereaved of that glory which I should bring with me to judgement I am stripped of that garment of innocencie with which I ought to appear arayed before thee Seven times yea and oftener every houre I fall seventie times seven times I sinne every day The spirit indeed is sometimes ready but the flesh is alwayes weak The inward man flourisheth and is strong but the outward man languisheth and is weak For I do not the good that I would but the evil that I would not How often do vain wicked and impious cogitations arise in my heart How often do vain unprofitable and hurtfull words break forth How often do perverse wicked and ungodly actions pollute me All my righteousnesse is as the cloth of a menstruous woman Therefore I dare not plead for my righteousnesse before thee But I humbly prostrate my self before thy most just tribunal and out of the deeps do I cry unto thee Lord if thou shalt decree to impute sinne who shâ—ll abide it If thou wilt enter into judgement who shall stand If thou wilt call me to appear according to the severitie of thy justice how shall I come before thee If thou wilt exact a strict account of my life I shall not be able to answer thee one for a thousand Therefore my mouth is stopt and I acknowledge before thee that I have deserved eternall torments and withall I confesse with tears that thou mayst justly cast me into prison for ever Therefore for these daily sinnes of my life I offer unto thee holy Father the most precious bloud of thy Sonne which was poured forth on the altar of the crosse which washeth me from all my sinnes My sinnes which lead me captive are many in number and most powerfull But the ransome of thy Sonne is much more precious and of more efficacy Let that most perfect plenarie and holy price payed by Christ obtain for me remission of sinnes Amen PRAYER IIII. He examines our life according to the rule of the first table of the commandments HOly God and just Judge Thou gavest unto us thy Law in mount Sinai and thou wouldst have it to be the rule of all our actions words and thoughts That whatsoever is not squared by it should in thy judgement be accounted sinne As often as I look upon that most clear glasse I perceive mine own filthinesse and tremble every part of me I ought to love thee O my God above all things But how often do I love the world and forget the love of thee I am bound to fear thee O my God above all things But how often do I consent to sinne and let thy fear slip out of my memorie Thou requirest that I should trust in thee O my God above all things But how often in adversitie doth my soul waver and anxiously and carefully doubt of thy fatherly goodnesse I am bound to obey thee O my God with all my heart But how often doth my refractary flesh resist the resolution of obedience and lead me captive into the prison of sinne My cogitations ought to be holy my desires pure and holy But how often is the quiet state of my minde troubled with vain and impious cogitations I ought to call upon thee O God with all my heart But how often doth my minde wander in prayer and doth anxiously doubt whether her prayers be heard or no! How often am I remisse in prayer and demisse in conceiving confidence How often doth my tongue pray and yet I do not worship thee in spirit and in truth How profound oblivion of thy benefits doth seize upon me Thou dost daily poure thy benefits upon me in a loving manner and yet I do not daily return unto thee thanksgiving How cold is my meditation of thy immense and infinite gifts bestowed upon me What slender devotion is there for the most part in my heart I use thy gifts and yet I do not praise thee who art the giver I stick in the rivers and come not to the fountain Thy word is the word of spirit and life But I through sinne and corruption have destroyed the work of thy holy Spirit within me The sparks of a good resolution often inkindled I as often extinguish and yet I do not sue to thee for increase of thy gifts For these and all other my sinnes and defaults I offer unto thee O my God the most pure and perfect obedience of thy Sonne who loved thee in the dayes of his incarnation most perfectly with his whole heart and cleaved unto thee most firmly with all his soul in whose deeds words and thoughts there was found no blot of sinne nor spot of the least offence That which I want by faith I draw from his fulnesse Therefore for this thy wel-beloved Sonnes sake have mercy Lord upon thy servant Amen PRAYER V. He considereth our life according to the rule of the second table of the commandments HOly God and just Judge It is thy eternall and immutable will that I should honour with due respect my parents and the magistrates But how often do I think too meanly of their authoritie How often do I in heart refuse to obey then How often do I traduce their infirmities O how often do I omit by serious prayers to further their safetie I often cherish anger conceived agâ—iâ—st them whereas I ought with patience to submit my self unto them Thy sacred will requires that I should do good to my neighbour in all things to my power But how often doth it irk me to do him good How doth it go against my stomack to forgive him How often am I solicited by my flesh to anger hatred envy and brawling How often doth the fire of my angry heart burn within me although contentious words be not heard without Thy holy will
in this present life be thou unto me Jesus in death be thou unto me Jesus in the last judgement be thou unto me Jesus in the life which is everlasting I know thou wilt sweet Jesus for as thou art immutable in thy essâ—nce so also thou art immutable in thy mercy Thou wilt not change thy name Lord Jesus for my sake alone who am a miserable sinner Yea rather thou wilt become my Saviour For thou dost not cast out him that cometh unto thee Thou that hast given me a will to come unto thee grant also unto me that coming I may be received For thy words are truth and life Let the propagation of originall sinne within me condemne me yet thou art my Jesus Let my conception in sinne condemne me yet thou art my Jesus Let my forming in sinne and under the curse condemne me yet thou art my Saviour Let the corruption of my nativitie condemne me yet thou art my Saviour Let the sinnes of my youth condemne me yet thou art my Jesus Let the course of my whole life defiled with most grievous sinnes condemne me yet thou art still my Jesus Let deâ—th the just punishment of my many and grievous sinnes and offences condemne me yet thou art my Saviour Let the severe sentence in the last judgement condemne me yet thou art my Jesus In me is sinne reprobation damnation In thy name is righteousnesse election salvation I was baptized in thy name I beleeve in thy name In thy name will I die In thy name will I rise again In thy name will I appeare in judgement In this name are all good things prepared for us and shut up as it were a treasure So much are they diminished as my diffidence is increased which that it may be farre from me I beseech thee by this thy name good Jesus that for my sinne and unbelief I be not damned whom by thy precious merit and saving name thou wouldst have saved Meditat. V. An exercise of faith from the love of Christ in the agonie of death The grace of Jesus Christ to me Is th' onely true felicity SEe Lord Jesus how injurious I am to thy passion My heart is vexed and my soul is very sorrowfull because I have no good works of mine own because I have no merits when as thy passion is my action thy works my merits I am injurious to thy passion when as I seek for the supplement of my works whereas it is in it self all-sufficient If I should finde righteousnesse in my self thy righteousnesse would profit me nothing or else I should not so much desire it If I seek for the works of the law by the law shall I be condemned But I know that now I am no longer under the law but under grace I have lived wickedly I have sinned holy Father against heaven and before thee I am not worthy to be called thy sonne yet thou wilt not refuse to call me thy servant Deny me not I pray thee the fruit of thy passion let not thy bloud wax barren but let it bring forth fruit and deliver my soul. My sinnes have alwayes lived in my flesh but I intreat thee let them at length die with me Hitherto the flesh hath alwayes ruled over me but let the Spirit at length triumph Let the outward man be subject to corruption and worms that the inward man may be glorified Hitherto I have alwayes given way to the suggestions of the devil but grant hereafter I beseech thee that I may trample them under my feet Satan is readie at hand to accuse me but he hath nothing in me The sight of death affrighteth me but death is the end of my sinnes and the beginning of an holy life Now at length shall I be able perfectly to please thee O my God Now at length shall I be confirmed in goodnesse and vertue Satan terrifieth me with my sinnes but let him accuse him which took upon him my infirmities whom the Lord hath smitten for my sinnes The debt which I ow is great indeed and I cannot pay any part thereof but my trust is in the riches and bounty of him that hath undertaken the payment Let him discharge me who hath made himself suretie for me Let him pay for me who took my debt upon himself I have sinned O Lord and my sinnes are many and grievous But this horrible sinne I will not commit to make thee a lyar who by thy words works and oath dost testifie that satisfaction is made for my iniquities I am not afraid by reason of my sinnes for thou art my righteousnesse I am not afraid by reason of my ignorance for thou art my wisdome I am not afraid of death for thou art my life I am not afraid of my errours for thou art my truth I am not afraid of corruption for thou art my resurrection I am not afraid of the sorrows of death for thou art my joy I am not afraid of the severitie of judgement for thou art my righteousnesse Distill upon my withered soul the dew of thy grace and quickening consolation My spirit waxeth dry but it shall shortly rejoyce in thee My flesh doth languish and is withered but it shall shortly bud forth I am subject to corruption but thou shalt deliver me from corruption for thou hast delivered me from all evils Thou hast created me How then can the workmanship of thy hands be dissolved Thou hast redeemed me from all mine enemies How then can death have rule over me Thou hast bestowed thy body and bloud and all that thou hadst yea even thy self for my salvation How then shall death withhold them which thou hast redeemed with so precious a ransome Thou Lord Jesus art righteousnesse it self So then my sins cannot prevail against thee Thou art life it self and the resurrection So then my death cannot prevail against thee Thou art God Therefore Satan cannot prevail against thee Thou hast given me the earnest of thy Spirit in that do I glorie in that do I triumph and am fully perswaded without doubting that I shall be admitted to the marriage of the Lambe Most deare bridegroom thou art my wedding-garment which I put on in baptisme thou shalt cover my nakednesse neither will I sow the supplement of my righteousnesse to this most precious and beautifull garment What is mans righteousnes but the cloth of a menstruous woman How then can I dare to patch that most precious garment of Christs righteousnesse with this abominable ragge In this garment will I appear before thy face in judgement when thou shalt judge the world in righteousnesse and equitie In this garment will I appear before thy face in the kingdome of heaven This garment shall cover my confusion and reproch that no man remember it any more for ever There shall I appear glorious and holy in thy sight And this my flesh this my body shall be arayed with beatificall glory which glory shall be
thy sinnes and fear him that shall judge thee for thy sinnes according to his justice Be not secure in prosperitie For God is angry with him that is not punished in this life What are the afflictions of the godly Bitter arrows sent from the sweet hand of God God esteems many in this life unworthy to be punished whom notwithstanding he reprobateth for ever Outward felicitie is oftentimes a signe of eternall damnation Nothing is more unhappy then the happinesse of sinners and nothing more miserable then he that knows no miserie Whithersoever thou turnest thine eyes thou seest cause of grief and findest remedies against securitie Think upon God above whom we have offended Think upon hell beneath which we have deserved Think upon the sinne behinde which we have committed Think upon the judgement before which we stand in fear of Think upon the conscience within which we have defiled And think upon the world without which we have loved Consider whence thou camest and be ashamed Consider where thou art and be sorrowfull Consider whither thou goest and tremble The gate of salvation is narrow but the way of salvation is yet narrower God hath given unto thee the treasure of faith but thou carriest it about thee in vessels of clay He gave thee the angels to be thy keepers But the devil is not farre off and he is ready to seduce thee Thou art renewed in the spirit of thy minde But yet thou hast much of the oldnes of the flesh Thou art set in the state of the grace of God But yet thou art not set in eternall glory There is a mansion prepared for thee in heaven But yet thou must endure first the afflictions and assaults of the world God hath promised forgivenesse to him that repenteth But he hath not promised will to repent to him that sinneth The consolations of eternall life expect thee But yet thou must expect to enter in through many tribulations The crown of eternall reward is promised unto thee But first thou must fight the great fight and be conquerour God doth not change his promise Neither must thou change the study of holy life If the servant doth not what the Lord commandeth then the Lord wil do what he hath threatned Let a man therefore lament grieve shaking off all securitie lest in the just and secret judgement of God he be forsaken and left in the power of the devils to be destroyed If thou hast the grace of God so delight thy self in it as knowing that it is the gift of God and that thou dost not possesse it by any hereditarie right Yet be thou so secure concerning it that thou canst not lose it lest on a sudden when God shall withhold his gift and withdraw his hand thou beest discouraged and become more sorrowfull then is fit But happy shalt thou be if thou labourest with all care and diligence to avoid securitie the mother of all evil God will not forsake thee But take heed that thou dost not forsake God God hath given thee his grace But pray thou unto him that he would also give thee perseverance God bids thee be certain of thy salvation but he bids thee not be secure Thou must fight valiantly that thou mayest at length triumph gloriously Thy flesh within thee fighteth against thee And the enemie the nearer he is the more he is to be feared The world about thee fighteth against thee And the greater the enemie is the more to be feared The devil above thee fighteth against thee And the more potent the enemy is the more to be feared Through the power of God fear not to encounter with these enemies Through the power of God thou shalt be enabled to obtain the victory But thou canst not overcome these so great enemies by securitie but by assiduity in fighting The time of life is the time of fight Then thou art most assaulted when thou knowest not that thou art assaulted Then do thy enemies most gather their forces together when they seem to grant truce They are vigilant And dost thou sleep They make themselves ready to hurt And dost not thou make thy self ready to resist Many faint by the way never come home into their countrey How many of the Israelites died in the wildernes and never came to see the promised land How many spirituall sonnes of Abraham do perish in the wildernes of this world never come to enjoy the promised inheritance of the kingdome of heaven Nothing is more powerfull to make us shake off security then to think of the paucity of them that endure to the last Let it therefore be our onely desire to attain to the glory which is in heaven Let it be our onely love to come thither Let it be our onely grief that we are not alreadie come thither And let it be our onely fear that we come not thither That so we may have no joy but in those things that either further us in the way thither or give us hope of coming thither What profiteth it thee to rejoyce for a moment to lament for ever What joy can there be in this life when that which delighteth passeth away and that never passeth away which tormenteth We live in securitie as if we were past the snare of death day of judgement Christ saith that he will come to judgement at such an houre as we think not of This saith Truth it self and again he repeats it Heare this and fear If the Lord will come at such an houre as we think not of we have great cause to fear that so we come not unto judgement unprovided If we come unprovided How shall we be able to endure the strict examination in judgement Notwithstanding that which is lost in this one moment cannot be recovered again for ever In the shortnes of one moment judgement shall passe what we shall be for all eternitie In this one moment life or death damnation or salvation punishment or eternall glory shall be appointed to every one Lord thou that hast given us grace to that which is good give us also perseverance in that which is good Meditat. XXX Of the holy imitation of Christ his life Christs life must be a rule to thee If Christs disciple thou wilt be THe holy life of Christ is the most perfect pattern of all vertues Every action of Christ serves for our instruction Many would come to Christ but they will not follow him They would enjoy Christ but they will not imitate him Learn of me for I am meek and lowly in heart saith our Saviour Unlesse thou wilt be Christs disciple thou canst never be a true Christian Let not Christs passion onely be thy merit but let his action also be thy example to live after Thy beloved is white and ruddie Be thou also ruddy by the sprinkling of his bloud and white by the imitation
of his life For how dost thou love Christ if thou lovest not his holy life If ye love me keep my commandments saith our Saviour Therefore he that keepeth not his commandments loveth him not Christs holy life is the perfect rule of our life And this one rule of Christs life is to be preferred before all the rules of Francis or Benedict If thou wilt be the adopted sonne of God consider what was the life of his onely begotten Sonne If thou wilt be a coheir with Christ thou must be a follower of Christ. He that liveth in vices hath given himself to the service of the devil And he that will be with the devil how can he be with Christ To love sinne is to love the devil because all sinne is from the devil How then can he that is a lover of the devil be a lover of Christ To love God is to love holy life because all holy life is from God How then can he that is not a lover of holy life be a lover of God The doing of the work is the triall of love It is the property of love to follow and to obey him that is beloved to will the same that he willeth and to be affected as he is If then thou lovest Christ truly thou wilt obey his commandments thou wilt with him love holy life and being renewed in the spirit of thy minde thou wilt think upon heavenly things Eternall life consists in the knowledge of Christ And he that loves not Christ knows him not He that loves not humility chastitie gentlenesse temperance and charitie loves not Christ Because the love of Christ was nothing else but humilitie chastitie gentlenesse temperance and charitie Christ saith that he knows not them that fulfill not the will of his Father Therefore they also know not Christ that fulfill not the will of their heavenly Father But what is the will of our heavenly Father It is according to the Apostle our sanctification He is not of Christ that hath not the Spirit of Christ Now where the Spirit of Christ is he is present with his gifts and fruits But what are the fruits of the Spirit Love joy peace long-suffering gentlenesse goodnesse faith meeknesse temperance As the holy Ghost rested upon Christ So doth he also rest on all those that are in Christ by true faith Because the spouse of Christ doth run in the odour of Christs ointments He that cleaveth unto the Lord is one spirit with him As the carnall copulation of the man and the woman maketh of them one flesh So the spirituall conjunction of Christ the faithfull soul maketh of them one spirit And where there is one spirit there is one will and where there is the same will there are the same actions Therefore he that doth not conform his life to the life of Christ is convinced that he neither doth cleave unto God neither hath his Spirit Is it not meet that we should conform all our life to the life of Christ who in love conformed himself wholly unto us God manifesting himself in the flesh set before us an example of holy life that whosoever doth not live an holy life might be without excuse as concerning the flesh No life is more pleasant or quiet then the life of Christ because Christ is true God And what can enjoy more pleasure or tranquillity then God who is the chiefest good This life bringeth forth short joy but draws with it eternall sorrow To whomsoever thou conformest thy self in this life to him also shalt thou be conformed in the resurrection If thou beginnest here to conform thy self unto the life of Christ thou shalt in the resurrection be more fully conformed unto him If thou conformest thy self unto the devil by sinne thou shalt in the resurrection be conformed unto him by torment He that will follow me let him denie himself saith our Saviour and take up his crosse daily If in this life thou deniest thy self at the day of judgement Christ shall acknowledge thee for his If for Christ here in this life thou renouncest thine own honour the love of thy self and thine own will in the life to come Christ will make thee partaker of his honour of his love and of his will If in this life thou partakest of the crosse in the life to come thou shalt partake of eternall light If in this life thou partakest of tribulation in the life to come thou shalt partake of consolation If in this life thou partakest of persecution in the life to come thou shalt partake of a most large retribution He that shall confesse me before men saith our Saviour him also will I confesse before my Father which is in heaven But we must confesse Christ not onely by the profession of doctrine but also by conformity of life So shall he at length at the day of judgement acknowledge us for his Whosoever shall denie me before men him also will I denie before my Father which is in heaven Christ is not onely denied by words but also and that much more by wicked life Whosoever therefore doth in this life deny Christ by his deeds shall in deed be denied by Christ at the day of judgement He is not a Christian that hath not the true faith of Christ But true faith ingrafts us into Christ as vine-branches into the spirituall vine Every branch that is in Christ and bringeth not forth fruit the heavenly husbandman taketh away But he that remaineth in Christ and in whom Christ dwelleth by faith bringeth forth much fruit That branch is not in the vine which draweth not from the vine its sap nourishment So neither is that soul in Christ by faith which draweth not from Christ the sap of love by faith Conform us good Jesus unto thy life in this world that in the world to come we may be fully conformed unto it Meditat. XXXI Of the deniall of a mans own self Thou from thy self must first depart Before thou canst in Christ have part WHosoever will follow me let him denie himself saith our Saviour To denie ones self is to renounce the love of ones self For the love of ones self doth exclude the love of God If thou wilt be Christs disciple it is necessary that self-love should altogether die in thee No man loveth Christ unlesse he hateth himself Vnlesse the grain of wheat which is cast into the earth do die it doth not bring forth fruit So thou canst not reap the fruits of the holy Spirit unlesse self-love do die in thy heart The Lord said unto Abraham Go out from thine own land and from thine own kindred and from thy fathers house unto the land which I shall shew thee Thou canst not be the true disciple of Christ and a true spirituall man unlesse thou goest forth from the love of thy self Jacob in his wrestling with the
it with the knife of truth thou shalt see that within there is nothing but worms and rottennesse There are apples growing about Sodom which are pleasing for outward beautie But being touched they fall to dust The felicitie of this life doth outwardly delight but if thou pressest it with a more weightie consideration it will appear to be like unto smoke and dust Therefore O beloved soul do not suffer thy cogitations to set up their rest in this life But let thy minde alwayes pant and breathe after the joyes to come Compare the short moment of time granted unto us in this life with eternitie which never shall have end and it will appear what a foolish thing it is to cleave unto this life that flitteth away and to neglect that which is everlasting This life of ours posteth away And yet in it do we either get or lose everlasting life This life is most miserable And yet in it do we either get or lose everlasting life This life is subject to many calamities And yet in it do we either get or lose everlasting joy If therefore thou hopest for life everlasting in this flitting life desire it with all thy heart Use the world but let not thy heart cleave to the world Negotiate in this world but fix not thy minde upon this present life The outward use of worldly things hurteth not unlesse thy inward affection cleave unto them Heaven is thy countrey the world is but the place of thy sojourning Be not so much delighted with the momentanie entertainment of this world as to have thy minde withdrawn from the desire after thy heavenly countrey This life is our sea but eternitie is our haven Be not therefore so much delighted with the momentanie tranquillity of this sea as that thou canst not attain to the haven of everlasting tranquillity This life is sliding and doth not keep faith with her lovers but doth often flee from them when they never think of it Why therefore wilt thou trust it It is very dangerous for thee to promise unto thy self security for one houre For oftentiâ—es in that one posting houre this lâ—â—e is ended The safest way then is to expect our departure out of this present life every houre and to prepare our selves for it by serious repentance In the gourd wherewith Jonas was delighted God prepared a worm that it might wither So in these worldly things whereunto many cleave so fast as if they were glewed to them there is no certaintie but the worms of corruption do breed in them The world is now so worn away with a long consumption that it hath even lost the face by which it was wont to seduce And therefore they that delight to perish with the world now perishing are as much to be blamed and condemned as they are to be praised and commended that flourished with the world then flourishing Withdraw O Christ our hearts from the love of this world and stirre up in us a desâ—â—â— after the kingdome of heaven Meditat. XXXIX Of the worlds vanitie Love not the world The world is vain But love those things that ay remain SEt not thy love O devout soul upon those things which are in the world The world shall passe away and all the things therein shall be consumed with fire Where shall thy love be then Love that good which is everlasting that so thou mayest live for ever Every creature is subject to vanitie Whosoever therefore cleaveth with his love unto the creatures shall also become vain himself Love that good which is true and stable that thy heart may be quieted and established Why doth worldly honour delight thee He that seeketh the honour of men cannot be honoured by God He that seeketh the honour of the world must be conformed unto the world and he that pleaseth the world cannot please God All things are unâ—â—able and must perish whatsoever are given by those that are unstable and do perish How then can the honour of the world be stable He that was yesterday extolled to the skies by the praises of men is brought down again to morrow with disgrace Desire therefore to please God that thou mayest be honoured of God For that is the true and stable honour What is a man the better for being reputed great by man If a man be great in the sight of God then is he great indeed not otherwise Christ being sought for to take a kingdome fled from it but being sought for to be reproched and to be ignominiously crucified he offered himself Delight therefore rather in the disgrace then the glorie of the world that so thou mayest be conformed unto Christ. He that doth not despise the world for Christ how would he lay down his life for him There is no way to true glory but by contemning the glory of the world for so Christ entred into his glorie by the ignominie of the crosse Be content therefore to be despised to be vilified and to be rejected in this world that thou mayest be honoured in the world to come Christ taught us by his life how we should esteem of the world All the glory of the heavens serveth him yea he alone is even glory it self And yet he rejected worldly glory Therefore the more a man is honoured and the more he aboundeth in bodily consolations the more deeply and inwardly must he become sorrowfull that he is so farre from being conformable unto Christ. Vain is the praise of man if an evil conscience accuseth within What doth it profit a man sick of a fever if he be laid in a bedsted of ivorie when as notwithstanding he is tormented with raging heat within It is the testimonie of thy conscience that is the true honour and praise indeed There is no juster judge of thy doings then God and thine own conscience Desire to approve thy deeds before this judgement Is it not enough for thee to be known of thy self and which is most of all to be known of God But why dost thou so much covet after riches He is too covetous unto whom the Lord is not sufficient This life is the way to our eternall countrey What then do much riches profit They do rather burden the traveller as great burdens do a ship Christ the king of heaven is the riches of Gods servants The true treasure must be within a man and not without him That is the true treasure which thou canst carry with thee to the generall judgement But all these outwaad goods are taken from us in death The goods gathered together do perish but first he that gathered them doth perish unlesse he be rich in the Lord. Poore thou camest into the world and poore must thou go out And why should the middle differ from the beginning and the end Riches are appointed for our use And how few will be sufficient A little gift of grace
worldly comfort but by tentations Stephen when he was stoned saw the glorie of Christ So Christ manifests himself unto the contrite soul in calamities There is no true and solid joy but where God dwelleth and Gods dwelling is in the contrite and humbled spirit Affliction it is and tentation which humbleth the spirit and maketh it contrite Therefore true and solid joy is in the soul of the afflicted Tentation is the way to come to the knowledge of God Therefore the Lord saith I will be with him in trouble I will deliver him and make him see my salvation Blinde Tobie saw nothing either above him beneath him or before him and therefore he saw not himself But being enlightned of God by the angel Raphael he saw all things which before he could not see using no other medicine but the gall of a fish To shew that our eyes are to be anointed with the gall of bitternesse that so we may be enlightned and come to the true knowledge of our selves and worldly things Why saith the Apostle that we know but in a glasse Because in tentations we come to know that God maketh the elect joyfull under the shew of sorrow and quickeneth them under the shew of death and healeth them under the shew of sicknesse and enricheth them under the shew of povertie Therefore must the crosse and tentation be welcome unto him whosoever is not unthankfull to Christ who was crucified and tempted for us O good Jesus Let me be burned here let me be smitten here that I may be spared hereafter O good Jesus Thou which dost often cast us off from thee by sparing us make us to return unto thee by striking us Afflict and presse the outward man that the inward man may grow and increase O good Jesus Fight within me against me Be thou the moderatour of the fight and the crown of my victorie Whatsoever adversitie I feel in this life let it tend to the strengthening and increasing of my faith O good Jesus Help my weak faith For so thou hast promised by thy holy prophet As a mother comforteth her children so will I comfort you As a mother cherisheth and nourisheth her sucking infant with much care So do thou O good Jesus erect and confirm my languishing faith Grant that thy inward comforts may prevail more with me then the contradictions of all men and the devil himself yea and the cogitations of mine own heart O thou good Samaritane poure the sharp wine into the wounds made by my sinnes but poure in also the oyl of divine comfort Multiply my crosses but give me also strength to endure them Meditat. XLI Here are foundations of Christian patience Take up thy crosse do but endure To overcome thou shalt be sure BE quiet O devout soul and endure with patience the crosse which God hath laid upon thee Consider the passion of Christ thy bridegroom He suffered for all of all and in all He suffered for all yea even for them which despise his precious passion and wickedly trample his bloud under their feet He suffered of all He is delivered he is broken in pieces he is forsaken of his heavenly Father he is forsaken of his disciples he is rejected of the Jews his own peculiar people For they preferred Barabbas the thief before him He is crucified of the Gentiles He suffers for the sinnes of all men And therefore he is afflicted of all men He suffered also in all His soul was sorrowfull even unto death and being pressed with the sense and feeling of Gods anger cries out that he was forsaken of God All the members of his bodie are in a bloudy sweat His head is crowned with thorns His tongue tastes a cup of gall and vineger his hands and feet are boared with nails his side is wounded his whole bodie is scourged and he is stretched forth on the crosse He suffered hunger thirst cold contempt povertie reproches wounds death and the crosse And then how unjust a thing were it for the servant to rejoyce when the Lord suffereth How unjust were it that we should rejoyce in our sinnes when our Saviour is so grievously punished for them How unjust were it that the other members should not condole when the head is afflicted But rather it is necessary that we enter through many tribulations into the kingdome of heaven as it was necessary that our Saviour should by his passion enter into celestiall glorie Consider also the bountifull reward The sufferings of this present life are not worthy of the glorie which shall be revealed unto us How great soever our suffering is it is but temporall yea sometimes but for a day But the glorie is everlasting God doth exactly observe all our adversities and will at length bring them to judgement How disgracefull a thing then will it be at the generall assembly of the whole world to appear without the jewels and bracelets of the crosse and passions He shall wipe away all tears from the eyes of those that are his O happy tears which shall be wiped away by the hand of such a great Lord O happy crosse that shall finde a crown in heaven David was not ten whole yeares in his exile but he was fourtie in his kingdome Here we have the shortnesse of our suffering prefigured and the eternitie of the glorie which is to follow It is but a moment of time wherein the Saints are exercised by the crosse But the mercies by which they are comforted are for ever And thus after adversitie in the morning follows prosperitie in the evening Consider also the tribulation of all the Saints Behold Job mourning on the dunghill John hungry in the wildernesse Peter stretched out upon the crosse James beheaded of Herod with the sword Behold Mary the blessed mother of our Saviour standing under the crosse She was the type of the Church the spirituall mother of our Lord. Blessed are ye saith Christ when men shall persecute you for my names sake For so have they done to the Prophets O glorious persecution which makes us conformable unto the Prophets and Apostles and all the Saints and even unto Christ himself Let us therefore suffer with those that suffer let us be crucified with those that are crucified that we may be glorified with those that are glorified If we be true sonnes indeed let us not refuse the condition of the rest of our brethren If we truly desire the inheritance of God let us accept it wholly For the sonnes of God are not onely heirs of joy and glory in the world to come but also of heavinesse and sufferings in this present world For God scourgeth every sonne whom he receiveth He punisheth their sinnes here that he may spare them at the judgement to come He multiplies tribulations here that he may multiply their reward hereafter And so not
But thou O Christ wast made a curse for me that I might be freed from the curse of the law I shall be cursed by Moses but blessed by thee For I desire to heare that voice Come ye blessed of my Father inherit the kingdome prepared for you Moses will accuse me But thou wilt not accuse me to thy Father yea thou makest intercession for me Therefore I am not afraid of Moses his curse because thou hast blotted out the hand-writing which was against me The damned will accuse me and pronounce me guiltie of the same fault with them I confesse Lord Jesus my guiltinesse doth conjoyn me with them but the acknowledgement of my guiltines and the saving knowledge of thee doth disjoyn me from them He that heareth thy word and beleeveth on him that sent thee hath life everlasting and shall not come into condemnation I heare thy word Lord and in thee I beleeve with weak faith but yet faith Lord I beleeve yet help thou my unbelief Lord I beleeve but yet do thou increase my faith Although I am not free from all the sinnes of the damned yet thou O Lord shalt deliver me from unbelief All my accusers do terrifie me but thou being my Judge dost comfort me To thee hath the Father committed all judgement Into thy hands hath he delivered all things and again thee hath he delivered up for us all and thou hast delivered up thy self for the Church to sanctifie it and cleanse it by the washing of water through the word How canst thou then according to severe judgement judge those for whom thou hast delivered thy self to death even the death of the crosse Thou canst not hate thine own flesh we are members of thy body of thy flesh and of thy bones Meditat. XLVI Of the desire of eternall life All earthly things tread under thee And let thy thoughts in heaven be DEvout soul thou must not love this life which is transitorie but rather that which remaineth for ever Ascend up by thy desires to the place where there is youth without old age life without death joy without sorrow and a kingdome without change If beauty delight thee The righteous shall shine as the sunne If swiftnesse and strength The elect shall be like unto the angels of God If a long and healthfull life There shall be healthfull eternitie and eternall healthfulnesse If fulnesse The elect shall be filled when the glory of the Lord shall appear If melodie There do the quires of angels sing without end If pure pleasure God shall make those that are his drunk in the torrent of pleasure If wisdome The very wisdome of God shall shew it self unto them If love They shall love God more then themselves and one another as themselves and God shall love them more then they themselves If concord delight There they shall be all of one minde If power To the elect shall all things be easie they shall desire nothing but what they shall be able and they shall desire nothing but what God will have them to will and to desire If honour and riches delight God will make his faithfull servants rulers over many things If true securitie They shall be as certain never to want that good as they are certain that they themselves would never lose it willingly and that God that loveth them will never take from them against their wills that which they love and that nothing is more powerfull then God to separate God and them asunder Whatsoever the elect can desire there they shall finde because they shall behold him that is all in all face to face So great are the goods of that life that they cannot be measured so many that they cannot be numbred and so precious that they cannot be valued There shall be eternall health unto our bodies and great puritie unto our souls there shall be glory and fulnesse of divine pleasure there shall we have familiaritie with the saints and angels for ever having our bodies of admirable clearnesse and brightnesse The elect shall rejoyce for the pleasantnesse of the place which they shall possesse for the pleasant societie in which they shall reigne for the glory of their bodies which they shall put on for the world which they have despised and for hell which they have escaped The least crown of eternall life shall be more worth then a thousand worlds because they are all finite but this is infinite Neither is there any fear that they shall envie one anothers brightnesse because there shall reigne in them all unitie of love By reason of that high degree of love whatsoever happeneth to one of the elect the rest shall as much rejoyce at as if it were their own There is no greater good then God in heaven and in earth Therefore there can be no greater perfecter joy then to see possesse God Therefore to see God for one moment shall go beyond all joyes For we shall see God in himself God in us and our selves in God In the way of this life we have Christ with us but hidden under the covering of the word and sacraments We know him not here as he is but in the life to come we shall behold him in presence when he shall distribute unto us the bread that satisfieth for ever As the disciples knew him not upon the way but in the Inne at length when he broke bread unto them The heavenly Jerusalem hath no temple made with hands neither sunne nor moon because the temple thereof is eternall and God is the life thereof Vision succeeds in the place of faith attainment in the place of hope and perfect fruition in the place of love As at the building of Solomons temple there was heard neither the sound of ax nor hammer So in the heavenly Jerusalem there is neither pain nor tribulation felt because the materials of this temple to wit the spirituall stones are prepared by tribulation in the world long before The queen that came to Solomon is the soul travelling to the heavenly Jerusalem unto Christ She entreth in with a great train of the holy angels with gold and precious stones of divers vertues She will wonder at the wisdome of Christ the King the order of his ministers that is the Angels and the Saints the fare of his table that is the fulnesse of eternall repast the price and value of his clothes that is the bodies glorified the beauty of his house that is the greatnesse of the heavenly palace the sacrifices that is the multitude of divine praises She will be turned into astonishment and confesse she could not beleeve what she now seeth with her eyes Therefore let the faithfull soul lift up her self and consider what good things are prepared for her Thither let the spirit be directed whither at length it shall go In time we
but in the effects of his justice All the evils of this life are single One is troubled with poverty another is tormented with grievous sicknesse one is oppressed with hard servitude another is laden with the burthen of reproaches But there all at once shal be tormented with all evils The pains there shall be universall in all the senses and in all the members In this life hope of release mitigateth all troubles But there is left no hope of deliverance The punishments of hell are not onely eternall but there is no ease so much as for a moment And hence it is that if all men since Adam to this presenâ— day and all that are yet to be born should live to the last day and should suffer but one punishment in hell as the soul that sinneth must suffer for one sinne every portion of that punishment which any one of them should suffer would be greater then all the torments that all fellons and malefactours have ever suffered O Lord grant unto us that we may think upon hell that we never fall into it Meditat. L. Of the eternitie of Hell-torments The pains of hell do farre extend Beyond all times world without end THink O devout soul upon the eternitie of hell-torments and thou shalt more truely understand the grievousnes thereof In hell there is a raging flame which burneth without end The life of the damned is to die without end the death of the damned is to live in eternall torments For neither is the tormentour wearied neither doth the tormented die So doth the fire consume there that still it leaves somewhat So are the torments there increased that still they are renewed So shall the damned die that they shall alwayes live So shall they live that they shall alwayes die For a man to be tormented without any end this is it that goes beyond all the bounds of desperation For what is more grievous then alwayes to will that which shall never be and to niâ—l that which shall alwayes be The damned shall never obtain what they would and shall be constrained ever to suffer what they would not When the wrath of God shall cease then shall the torments of the damned cease But the wrath of God is eternall and therefore the torments are eternall When the damned shall truely repent then they shall be delivered from their sins But the time of repentance is past and therefore there remains no hope of indulgence When the devils shall cease to torment then shall the damned cease to be tormented But the furie of the devil shall never cease therefore the torments of the damned shall never cease When Gods justice shall be changed then the torments of the damned shall be changed But the justice of God is unchangeable therefore the torments of the damned shall be eternall The sentence of severe judgement requires that they should never want punishment who in this world never want sinne It is just thâ—t there should be no end of the punishment of the damned because as long as they could they would make no end of sinning The damned sinned in their eternitie that is as long as they lived Therefore it is just that they should be punished in Gods eternitie Their sinne had an end because their life had an end But they would have made no end of sinning but that they were forced to make end of living that so they might have sinned without end The matter of hell-fire is eternall that is the stain of sinne And therefore meet it is that the punishment should be eternall The filthinesse of the sinnes of the damned can never be removed out of the sight of God How then can the greatnesse of punishments appointed for sinne be removed Besides sinne is an infinite evil because it is committed against an infinite good and Christ paid for it an infinite price And therefore meet it is that their punishment who die in their sinnes should be infinite Man destroyed in himself the eternall good And therefore in the judgement of God he doth justly fall into everlasting evil God at the beginning created man after his own image that he might live with him for ever God by Christ reformed man after his own image when he was fallen into sinne He hath provided for all means of eternall salvation and he hath offered unto all the reward of eternall life And therefore it is just that they which would voluntarily want everlasting rewards should be made subject to everlasting punishments An evil will shall never be taken away from the damned Therefore the punishment of their evil will shall never be taken away from them The damned made choice of momentanie pleasure finite goods before God the infinite good they longed after the delights of this short and flitting life rather then the riches of eternall life It is just therefore that they should suffer eternall punishments Oh eternitie not to be termed Oh eternity not to be measured by any space of time Oh eternitie not to be conceived by humane understanding How much dost thou augment the punishments of the damned After innumerable thousands of yeares they shall be compelled to think that then is but the beginning of their torments What a grievous thing is it to lie though in a very soft bed for thirtie yeares without moving And how grievous shall it be then to burn in that lake of brimstone thirtie thousand thousand yeares Oh eternity eternity it is thou alone that dost increase the punishments of the damned beyond all measure Grievous is the pain of the damned for the crueltie of the punishments it is yet more grievous for the diversitie of the punishments but it is most grievous for the eternitie of the punishments There shall be death without death end without end defect without defect because death ever liveth and the end ever beginneth and the defect is never deficient The damned shall seek life and shall not finde it they shall seek death and it shall flee from them After an hundred thousand thousand thousand of yeares they shall return without end to the same punishments Thâ— thought of the continuance of their sorrow shall torment them more then the sense of outward torment What can be more miserable then so to die that thou mayest alwayes live and so to live that thou mayest alwayes die That life shall be mortiferous and that death shall be immortall If it be life why doth it kill and if it be death why doth it alwayes endure What eternitie is we do not perfectly know and it is no wonder For what created minde can comprehend that which cannot be measured by any time But if thou wouldest guesse what the space of eternitie is think upon the time that was before the world was created If thou canst finde Gods beginning then mayest thou finde when the punishments of the damned shall have an end Imagine thou sawest an exceeding high mountain which for
clothedst us with innocencie as with a garment thou seatedst us in paradise a place of all delight and pleasure But we have defaced thine image we have cast off our first covering we have thrust our selves out of that pleasant place We ran away from thee and were not obedient unto thy voice We were lost and condemned before we came into this world Our first parents sinned against thee and we sinned in them They were corrupted and we are inheriters of their corruption They were the parents of disobedience and we are by nature the children of wrath Sinfull and unhappie children of sinfull and unhappie parents Thou mightest in thy displeasure after their fall have plunged them into the bottomlesse pit and made them the fewel of hell and sent their posteritie after them And neither they nor we could justly have complained Righteous O Lord art thou in thy judgements And our miserie is from our selves But great was thy mercie unto us We came into this world in a floud of uncleannesse wallowing in our mothers bloud and thou didst set open a fountain for us to wash in We were washed in the laver of Baptisme and we have returned with the swine to our wallowing in the mire We came from a place of darknesse into this world we lived as children of darknesse we sat in darknesse and in the shadow of death Thou gavest us thy word to be a lantern unto our feet and a light unto our paths that in thy light we might see light that so walking in the way of truth we might attain everlasting life But we have loved darknesse more then light and have not been obedient unto thy word We came into this world crooked even from our mothers wombe and thou gavest us thy law to be a glasse wherein we might see our deformitie and a rule whereby to square all our actions words and thoughts But we have shut our eyes that we might not see and we have refused to be ruled by thy law The law of sinne in our flesh doth daily captivate us The root of originall sinne which lieth hidden in us doth every day put forth new branches All the parts and faculties of our bodies and souls are as so many instruments of unrighteousnesse to fight against thy divine Majestie Our hearts imagine wicked things our mouthes utter them and our hands put them in practise Thy mercies every day are renewed unto us and our sinnes are every day multiplied against thee In the day of health and prosperitie we forget thee and we never think upon the day of sicknesse and adversitie Thy benefits heaped upon us do not allure us to obey thee Neither do thy judgements inflicted upon others make us afraid to offend thee What couldest thou O Lord have done more for us or what could we have done more against thee Thou didst send thy Sonne in the fulnesse of time to take our nature upon him to fulfill thy law for us and to be crucified for our sinnes We have not followed the example of his holy life but have every day afresh crucified him by our sinnes And now O Lord if we shall become our own judges we cannot but confesse that we have â—eserved everlasting torments in hellâ—ire But there is mercie with thee O Lord therefore will we not despair Our sinnes are many in number But thy mercies are without number The weight of our sinnes is great But the weight of thy Sonnes crosse was greater Our sinnes presse us down unto hell But thy mercie in Christ Jesus raiseth us up By Satan we are accused But by Jesus Christ we are defended By the law we are convicted But by Jesus Christ we are justified By our own conscience we are condemned But by Jesus Christ we are absolved In us there is nothing but sinne death and damnation In him there is treasured up for us righteousnesse life and salvation We are poore He is our riches We are naked He is our covering We are exposed to thy fury pursuing us He is the buckler of our defence and our refuge He is the rock of our salvation and in him do we trust His wounds are the clefts of the rock Give us we beseech thee the wings of a Dove that by faith we may hide our selves in the clefts of this rock that thine anger wax not hot against us to consume us Let not thy justice triumph in our confusion but let thy mercie rejoyce in our salvation Pardon the sinfull course of our life past and guide us by thy holy Spirit for the time to come Amend what is amisse increase all gifts and graces which thou hast already given and give unto us what thou best knowest to be wanting Be gracious and favourable to thy whole church especially to that part thereof which thou hast committed unto the protection of thy servant and our Sovereigne King Charles Grant that he may see it flourishing in peace and prosperity in the profession and practise of thy Gospel all the dayes of his life and after this life ended crown him we beseech thee with a crown of immortall glorie Let not the sceptre of this kingdome depart from his house neither let there be wanting a man of his race to sit upon his throne so long as the sunne and moon endureth Of this thou hast given us a pledge alreadie in blessing the fruit of the Queens wombe Let the Queen still be like a fruitfull vine And let the Prince grow up like a plant in thine house Let thy mercy be extended to the Ladie Elisabeth our Kings onely sister and her princely issue How long Lord just and true how long shall their enemies prevail and say There there so would we have it It is time for thee to lay to thine hand for they have laid waste their dwelling-place Arise O Lord and let their enemies be scattered and let them that hate them flee before them Carrie them back again into their own countrey if it may be for thy glorie and their good make them glad with the joy of thy countenance and let them rejoyce under their own vines We return home again and beseech thee to be gracious and mercifull to the Kings Counsel the Nobilitie the Magistracie the Ministerie the Gentry and the Commonaltie Give unto those whom thou hast used as instruments for our good rewards temporall and eternall Forgive those that be our enemies and turn their hearts Forget not those that grone under the crosse Clothe the naked feed the hungrie visit the sick deliver the captives defend the fatherlesse and widows relieve the oppressed confirm and strengthen those that suffer persecution for righteousnesse sake cure those that are broken in heart speak peace unto their consciences that are tormented with the sense of their sinnes suffer them not to be swallowed up in despair Stand by those that are ready to depart out of this life When their eyes shall be darkned in the agony of death kindle in their hearts the
onely the persecution but the reward also is increased Consider the happy condition of the crosse It plucks the love of the world out of us by the roots but it sows in our hearts the seed of the love of God The crosse begets in us an hate of worldly things and lifts up our minde unto heavenly things When the flesh is mortified the spirit is quickened and when the world waxeth bitter Christ becometh sweet unto us Great is the mysterie of the crosse for by it God calls us to contrition to true fear and to the exercise of our patience Let us open to him when he knocketh and we shall heare what the Lord will say within us The sight of the crosse is contemptible in the sight of the world and in the carnall eyes of the outward man But it is glorious in the sight of God and in the spirituall eyes of the inward man What was reputed by the Jews more base and vile then the passion of Christ And what was more glorious and precious in the sight of God For it was the price paid for the sinnes of the whole world Even so the just man is afflicted the just man dies and no man considereth it But precious is the crosse and precious is the death of the Saints in the sight of the Lord. The church which is the spouse of Christ is black without by reason of calamities and persecutions But she is beautifull within by reason of divine consolation The Church and every faithfull soul is as a garden enclosed and none knows the beauty thereof but he that is in it We shall never fully and perfectly feel the consolation of the spirit unlesse our flesh be afflicted without If the love of the world dwelleth in us the love of God cannot enter in A full vessel cannot be filled with new liquour unlesse the first be emptied Let us therefore poure out the love of the world that we may be filled with the love of God Therefore God by the crosse doth extinguish in us the love of the world that there may be room for the love of God Besides the crosse drives us to our prayers and is an occasion of vertue When the North-winde blows upon the garden that is when persecutions assault the Church then the spices thereof are scattered abroad and the vertues thereof are increased and they cast forth an odour pleasing unto God The beloved bridegroom of my soul is white and ruddy white for his innocency and ruddie for his passion And so is also the beloved spouse of Christ white for her vertues and ruddie for her sufferings And thus the grace of God can produce oyl and hony out of the most hard rock of afflictions And so out of the bitter root of calamities God knows how to bring forth the most pleasant fruit of eternall glory Unto which he bring us and admit us Amen Meditat. XLII How we must overcome tentations by perseverance Let not tentations cast thee down For perseverance shall thee crown HOly Lord Jesus the most loving bridegroom of my soul when will the time come that thou wilt lead me to the solemnitie of thy marriage I am a pilgrim and a banished man from thee But yet I most firmly beleeve and nothing doubt but that I shall be shortly set at libertie out of the prison of my bodie and appear before thy face Fear and trembling are come upon me because I carry my treasure in vessels of clay My minde is prone to errour and my will is prone to sinne and therefore my spirit within me is not alwayes ready but the flesh is alwayes weak Sinne leadeth me captive and the law of my members is repugnant to the law of my minde Fear and trembling are come upon me because Satan lieth in wait for my treasure His subtiltie is great his desire to hurt is most earnest and his power is exceeding great He deceived Adam in paradise and Judas in our Saviours school And how then shall I be safe from his treacheries Fear and trembling are come upon me because I am still in the world which is altogether set upon wickednesse The delights of the world entice me adversities in the way of the Lord affright me sometimes the enticements of the world are pleasing unto me and all the world is full of snares Miserable man that I am how shall I be able to escape them Joyes do assault me and sorrows do assault me Miserable man how shall I be able to stand Fear and trembling are come upon me because it is God that worketh in me both to will and to perfect I am afraid lest I should force God by my negligence and want of care to take from me that good will which he hath given me I make not a right use of remission of sinnes and I refuse the first grace which was given freely And therefore I have cause to fear lest God in his secret and just judgement justly take from me that which I have unjustly abused I am afraid lest I be forsaken of him whom after my first conversion I have so often forsaken How grievously am I vexed when I consider that the heavie and severe judgement of God shall follow after his benefits if I make not a right use of them But the infinite mercie of God raiseth me up because as he hath given me to will he will also give unto me to perfect for he is God and is not changed His mercy also is confirmed towards me and shall not be changed The foundation of God is sure sure indeed because it is in God in whom there is no change Sure indeed because it is confirmed by the bloud of Christ which alwayes speaketh loud before the throne of God Sure indeed because it is signed with the sure seals of the Sacraments If I should seek never so little salvation in my self I must needs doubt of my salvation But as all my righteousnesse is in Christ so in him also is all the hope of my salvation If I had apprehended and laid hold upon Christ of mine own free will I might yet fear lest my will should change and so I should loose Christ But he that was found of him that sought him not will not assuredly withdraw himself again after he is once found He that hath translated me out of the shadow of death unto the participation of light will not suffer me to return again unto my former darknesse The gifts of God are without repentance and our vocation by God as concerning the will of God But I could wish that even I also were unchangeable in that which is good That treasure is alwayes present but the hand that should apprehend it doth sometimes languish But I shall be able to apprehend Christ because as he hath revealed himself unto me in his word and promises so likewise he will