living What man is he that liveth and shall not see death As well the Wise man as the Fool. All things that are of the Earth shall turn to Earth again Thou art dust saith God to Adam and in him to all Mankind and to dust shalt return It is the Ordinance of the Lord over all flesh But though it be certain in it self yet in respect of the time and manner it is uncertain For which cause our Saviour gave his Disciples counsel to be prepared for it Watch for ye know not the day nor hour Be prepared for the Son of Man will come at an hour when ye think not like a thief in the night The time of our departure is uncertain whether it shall happen in our infancy child-hood youth or age All men live not while they are old all men dye not while they are young And many times Death cometh unexpectedly suddenly in our greatest security Dies aderit cum vives manè vesperi autem non vives There will come a day when thou shalt be alive in the morning and dead before night God hath hid from us the certainty of our end lest we should promise to our selves any thing for the future And as the time so the manner is uncertain Some dye in their beds Others perish by fire sword water c. We have but one way to enter into this world divers to depart from it 3. In it self it is also terrible Omnium terribilium terribilissimum Mors. Of all terrible things Death is most dreadful Our Saviour Christ began to be heavy c. But to mankind in divers respects it is terrible All occasioned by the Devils malice Either he bringeth the parties dying 1. Into despair and fear for Gods Judgements 2. Into security for their own Merits 3. Into impatience by anguish of their sickness 4. Into infidelity by causing a mistrust in Gods mercies 5. Into worldy cogitations about leaving and disposing of their worldly estate Or 6. Vain hope to recover their former health Dura mente abesse mors longè creditur etiam dum sentitur To a heart that is hardned Death is thought to be farthest off even when it is felt to approach The Devil is come down to you which hath great wrath knowing that he hath but a short time Thus much for the temporal death the continual remembrance whereof is so necessary as nothing more Nemo memoriam mortis habens potest peccare He that thinketh continually that he must dye doth not easily sin 2. But to speak more properly Death in it self were not terrible nor evil but a passage from this life to a better a rest from our labours were it not for the Accompt which is to be given of our life past and the Iudgement which dependeth on it and followeth it For to fall into the hands of the living God in the worst sense that is to hear his heavy sentence pronounced against our sins is a fearful thing The thought of this made the holy man Iob himself to cry O that thou wouldest hide me in the grave that thou wouldest keep me secret until thy wrath be past The terror of it is so great that if we seriously consider it Our flesh would scarce cleave to our bones Quoties diem illum confidero tolo corpore contremisco sive enim comedo sive bibo sive aliquid aliud facio semper videtur mihi tuba illa terribilis insonare in auribus surgite mortui venite ad judicium As often as I seriously consider of the day of death I tremble all my body over for whether I eat or drink or whatsoever else I do me-thinks that terrible Trump sounds in mine ears Arise ye dead and come to judgement Gods judgements are fearful as they are sometimes executed in this world Our first Parents for their sin were expelled Paradise Deprived of Original Righteousness Made lyable to Condemnation and became Children of wrath Subject to divers miseries and labours He spared not the Angels that sinned but cast them down to Hell c. How did he sweep away as it were the Sons of Men from the face of the Earth by the Deluge How did he destroy Sodom and Gomorrah Did not the Egyptians miserably perish in the Red Sea What Vengeance did he take on the Israelites for worshipping the Golden Calf and for murmuring against Moses The Scriptures are plentiful in this kind But yet these judgements are not to be paralleled with those after Death In respect of God Omnipotent Highly Offended Justly Punishing Iust Highly Offended Justly Punishing Wise Highly Offended Justly Punishing Good Highly Offended Justly Punishing In respect of Man Weak Offending his Creator Suffering just Punishment Sinful Offending his Creator Suffering just Punishment Wretched Offending his Creator Suffering just Punishment In respect of the Sentence it self which inflicts a punishment sensible for the pain and misery felt and prejudicious for the glory lost 1. He being Omnipotent will be able to execute his vengeance on his Enemies neither shall any deliver them from him He is mighty in strength who hath resisted him and prospered He is exalted by his power no Law-giver like him In making Laws just and holy In exacting the due execution of them In power to punish the breakers of them Fear ye not me will ye not tremble at my presence Fear him who is able to destroy both body and soul. If he whet his glittering sword and his hand take hold on judgement Who is able to abide it Though we be delivered from the judgement of Man yet we cannot escape the hand of the Almighty His Courts are so high so transcendent and his Iudgements so definitive that no appeal lyeth from them We must rest upon his doom and go no further 2. Being Iust he will punish the Breakers of his Commandements For though he be merciful in abundant measure to pardon the iniquities of penitent transgressors yet he is just also to punish the wickedness of obstinate Malefactors Multus ad ignoscendum multus ad ulcìscendum As he is plentiful in pardon and forgiveness so is he as plentiful in revenge He hateth sinners and will repay vengeance to the ungodly He neither perverteth Iudgement nor subverteth Iustice. Nullum bonum irreâ—â—u eratum nullum malum impunium Quanquam Sera tamen certa Numiuis vindicta Lento gradu ad vindictam sui divira proceditira tarditatem supplicii gravitate compensat Nemo impunè malus There shall no good act go unrewarded nor any evil unpunished For though God be slow yet he is sure in his revenge God ballanceth his slow proceeding in anger with the grievousness of his punishment We know that a Bow the farther drawn shoots farthest And this we must hold for a firm Maxime and Conclusion that Nemo impunè malus There shall no wicked
have of the wicked that the prayers of the ungodly are abomination unto him but his ears are open to the prayers of the righteous If ye abide in me c. Ask what ye will and it shall be done unto you God inviteth them to call upon him Call upon me in time of trouble so will I hear thee Ask and ye shall receive Thou shalt call and the Lord shall answer thou shalt cry and he shall say here I am Yea before they call I will answer and while they speak I will hear He will grant them whatsoever they want O how plentiful is thy goodness c. Length of dayes shall be in his right hand and in his left hand riches and glory They that fear him lack nothing David never saw the righteous forsaken And a catalogue of blessings are promised to those which keep his Commandements He will give them in such measure as their necessity requireth if not largely yet with the greater quiet and content As having nothing yet possessing all things 8. Lastly In regard of the comfort the servants of God feel at their death Who so feareth the Lord it shall go well with him at the last and he shall find favour in the day of his death The righteous hath hope in his death The righteous find rest in death They shall have peace and rest Blessed are the dead which dye in the Lord. They fear not death because they learn to dye all their life They fear not Iudgement because they have Christ for their Advocate They fear not their sins because they have Christ for their Redeemer They tremble not at the horror of the grave knowing that though the body be sown earthly it shall rise spiritually And that it is not death but sleep Qui minus deliciarum novit in vita minus timet mortem He that is least acquainted with the pleasures of this life is ever in least fear of Death But here one rub or difficulty is to be removed For the nature of Man is deterred from good upon any small occasion If it be a thing to be done with Ease we are content to give ear to it If with labour and difficulty we soon give out we put our hands in our bosoms with Solomons sluggard and say There is a Lyon in the way This ariseth out of the pravity of our heart drawn from Original sin that is of flesh conceived in sin The flesh lusteth against the spirit which causeth us to loath goodness as sick men do potions for the bitterness though profitable for health And usually men look upon the supposed difficulties not on the aid which commeth from above But if we look into that which God commandeth with a spiritual eye we shall find it 1. Profitable 2. Sweet 3. Easie. 1. The Statutes of the Lord are more to be desired than gold yea than much fine gold King David took as much delight in them as in all manner of riches A reward shall not fail to them which fear the Lord. Who ever abode in his fear and was forsaken He hath promised many blessings to those which serve him 2. The Statutes of the Lord are sweeter than the honey or the honey-comb They are David's delight 3. They are not hid from us nor far off It is very near thee even in thy mouth and thy heart His yoke is easie His commands are not grievous or heavy But plain and easie Add all these by Gods special assistance For God giveth strength to him that fainteth and to him that hath no strength he encreaseth power They that wait upon him shall run and not be weary walk and not faint Which made Saint Augustine cry out Da Domine quod jubes jube quod vis So that though his service seem hard and heavy yet by his grace he adds such strength to us that it becometh light and easie He will take our stony hearts from us and give us hearts of flesh He will circumcise our hearts And though there will be some reliques of reluctancy and tentations left in them erunt quasi non sint They shall remain but for a trial not to destruction To stir us up not to ensnare us To minister occasion for a Crown not to make us fall Nor to reign in and over us Now we are to understand that hard things are made the easier two wayes 1. By a love and desire to attain them 2. By a hate to that which opposeth them 1. Saint Augustine saith that labour and pains in which a man taketh delight is not any way grievous but delightful as that of the Hunter Falconer Fisher and the like For to compass that we love either we count it no labour at all or else we take delight in the pains In amore nibil amari Which may appear in a Mother in bearing and educating of her Children In a Wife in pains taking with her sick Husband In Iacob's long service for Rachel Which made St. Paul cry out Who shall separate us from the love of Christ Shall tribulation anguish or persecution c. Which caused the Apostles being beaten to depart from the Council Rejoycing that they were counted worthy to suffer rebuke for his Name This labour is also passed the easilier if we consider The love of God to us The great things he hath done for us Those greater which he hath promised The sins wherewith we have offended The pains which Christ suffered for us Saint Bernard saith The sufferings of this life are not worthy the punishment remitted for sins past the grace and comfort ministred to us for the present or the glory to come which is promised 2. We are not to set our affections on this World but to hate it in respect of the opposition it is in to our service of God the love whereof if we take not heed of it infatuateth us making us to take that for good which only seemeth so Now there are divers reasons why we should wean our selves from the love of it 1. It is Transitory No happiness in it of continuance which daily experience proves In some men preferred to honour and others married contentedly yet dying soon after But admit our lives were of a thousand years what were they being compared to eternity Though a man live many years and in them all rejoyce yet he shall remember the dayes of darkness because they are many All that cometh is vanity Where are the Princes of the Heathen c. All are but shadows dreams smoke Take Saint Hieromes Meditation on this point Nihil puto in seculi hujus confusione esse perpetuum sed omnia praeterire fluere Quae qui consideraverit cadit superfaciem suam intelligens quam prâ—cul sit à Majestate Dei flectet genua ad Patrem in nomine Iesu
intermission Plexus ardore incomparabili dolore innumerabili poena interminabili Full of incomparable heat innumerable sorrowes and endless punishments This for Poena sensus or the Pain and misery felt Now for the Glory and Happiness lost which is usually called Poena Damni The Loss of Heavens joyes The deprivation of sinners from Gods sight Than which nothing more miserable The Excellency of Heaven the place of Gods rest may be conjectured at By the End for which it was made 1. The glory of God here above other places The Heavens declare the Glory of God and the firmament his handy-work 2. The Happiness of the Elect. Abraham Isaac and Iacob Blessed are they which dwell here They shall be satisfied inebriebuntur with the plenty of Gods house This Happiness we may also value By the Price it cost to regain it when it was lost The Pains which Martyrs endured to attain it The Testimonies of the Prophets c. The Excellency of Heaven may be imagined By the Discription of it It needs no Sun or Moon to enlighten it for the glory of God makes it bright The Lamb is the light thereof No Night there Here is that Beatifical Vision which the Fathers and Holy men so desired and rejoyced in Mine Eyes have seen thy Salvation I shall be satisfied with thine Image Shew the light of thy Countenance and we shall be safe If I have found grace in thy sight saith Moses shew me thy face If thou desire pleasure Here is pleasure for evermore If honour Such honour have all his Saints If good company God and all the Elect. If musick A quire of Angels continually praising God with their melodious songs To conclude here is abundance of all things want of nothing Wherefore Si credimus futurum Iudicium bene vivamus ne malè moriamur Maxima poena metum perdidisse judicii If we believe there will be a Judgement hereafter let us live well lest we dye in an ill case It is the sign of a seared Conscience and that is the greatest punishment can befall a man to have lost the fear of the last Iudgement Lay all these together That all men are sinners God hateth sin It standeth us upon to prevent Gods wrath In respect of the Iudgement of this World Temporal and of the World to come Eternal That it will be heavy in regard of the Omnipotence of the Iudge Iustice of the Iudge Omniscience of the Iudge Goodness of the Iudge The Weakness of Man The Imperfection of Man The Misery of Man The Sentence which makes the wicked lyable to the sense of pain and loss of good And finding that there is an unevitable necessity to repent Why defer we to use the means by which we may be made clean our sins may be pardoned and taken off A wise Traveller takes the day before him And a wise Builder the year before him Optimè fit quod suo tempore fit Stultus semper incipit vivere It is best done that is done timely A Fool alway begins to live For who hath promised thee time to repent How many have been deceived with this vain hope The Wise Man giveth this Rule Whatsoever good thing thy hand findeth to do do it instantly with thy might for there is no work c. in the Grave Make no tarrying to turn to the Lord and put not off from day to day For suddenly shall the wrath of the Lord come forth and in thy security thou shalt be destroyed Indulgentiam Deus tibi promisit crastinum diem nemo promisit Si male vixisti bene vive jam hodiè And Propter illos qui desperatione periclitantur proposuit Deus indulgentiae portum Propter illos qui spe periclitantur dilationibus illuduntur fecit diem mortis incertum Quando venit ultimus dies nescis Ingratus es qui hodiernum habes in quo corrigaris And again Qui ab iniquitatibus suis recedere negliguut sibi de Deo indulgentiam repromittunt nonnunquam ita praeveniuntur Dei furore ut net conversionis tempus nec beneficium remissionis inveniant God hath promised the pardon it is true but no man hath promised or cen that thou shalt live while tomorrow If thou hast formerly lived ill live well to day God hath been so propitious to Mankind that for the comfort of them that are ready to perish in the Sea of desparation he hath a Haven of mercy and pardon And for their sakes that are illuded with hope and delay their repentance he hath made the day of death uncertain Seeing thou knowest not when the last day will come thou art an unthankful man if thou makest not good use by repentance of this day which God hath given thee They which are careless to depart from iniquity and flatter themselves with the hope of Gods pardon are many times so prevented by the anger of God as they neither find time to convert nor the benefit of his pardon God hath reserved to himself the preheminence of lengthning aud shortning our dayes The rich man promised himself ease and rest for many years but one night brought a period to his supposed felicity Saint Ierome saith That men are worthily taken in the snare of Judgement as fish with a hook or birds in a net and therefore gives this counsel Quia didicisti quòd omnia morte finiuntur in inferno non sit poenitentia nec aliquis ad virtutes recursus dum in ipso saeculo es festina contende age poenitentiam c. Seeing thou hast learn'd that death brings an end to all things and that there 's no repentance in Hell nor any recourse to vertue make hast while thou livest strive and labour do penance c. But admit that thou hadst the priviledge to know thine own end Thinkest thou that it will be easier to repent hereafter than presently No certainly For the longer thou detractest the harder the task of repentance 1. In respect of the habit Custom is another nature Cum aliquid in habitum abierit difficulter expellitur Dum servitur libidini fit consuetudo dum consuetudini non resistitur fit necessitas When a thing hath once got a habit it is hardly expelled While we serve and feed our lust custom steals upon us and not resisting custom we are necessitated to it Therefore he gives this admonition As no man is to despair of Gods mercy yet he is not so to presume but that without delay he reconcile himself to God lest he fall into such a custom of sinning that when he would he be not able to get out of the Devils snares 2. Because the farther we plunge our selves into sin the farther God is from us Woe unto them that have fled from me God will cast them off 3. For the ground the Devil gets of us He is like the strong man which overcometh the weaker
commanded as a Law by God to Adam in Paradise by prohibiting the Tree And if he had fasted from that Tree we had not needed to have fasted we are sick by sin let us be healed by repentance but repentance without fasting is in vain So he The Flesh had need to be kept under the Soul like a servant left it rebell and to be held in with this bit for let but the reins loose and the flesh will run headlong to perdition Prayer is good with fasting c. And God saith Turn unto me with fasting The Prayer and Alms of Cornelius ascended to Heaven Wilt thou have thy Prayers fly to Heaven make it two wings Fasting and Alms. We are to give alms saith he in this regard that we may be heard when we deprecate Gods anger for our sins past By Mercy and Truth iniquity is purged Who so stoppeth his ears at the cry of the poor he also shall cry himself and shall not be heard Give alms of such things as you have and all things shall be clean to you Break off thine iniquities by shewing mercy on the poor saith Daniel to Nebuchadnezzer Lastly The most powerful act of Repentance is godly sorrow accompanied with groans sighs and tears They are the blood of a wounded soul. They ascend unto the nostrils of God as the Odour of a sweet smelling Sacrifice God suffereth them not to be spent in vain but gathereth them David every nighe in thought of his offences washed his bed and watered his couch with them God promiseth that if we come weeping he will lead us in mercy And therefore commandeth it as a chief demonstration of our hearty Repentance Saint Peter after his denial of Christ wept bitterly but said nothing We find that he wept not what he said He made choice to repent rather with tears and no words than with words and no tears Recte flevit tacuit quia quod defleri solet non solet excusari Mary Magdalen wept but said nothing yet Christ said to her thy sins are forgiven thee Ezechias wept sore The Lord said I have heard thy prayers and seen thy tears and added fifteen years to his life Lachrymae tacitae quodammodo preces sunt veniam non postulant merentur Sufficit auribus Domini imber oculorum fletus citius audit quam voces Let the wicked therefore forsake his way and the unrighteous man his thoughts and let him return unto the Lord. To day if ye will hear his voice harden not your hearts If we will not hear this voice of his Repent for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand He will stop his ears to us when we cry Lord open unto us though we cry with tears as Esau did for his Fathers blessing who found no way of changing his Fathers mind though he sought it with tears carefully when it was too late For though tears prevail in their due time and happy is he that can shed them Yet when the door is shut God will say to the impenitent sinner as he said to the foolish Virgins I know ye not The Duty of Repentance THis duty of Repentance consisteth of two parts 1. Mortification of the old Man which is the first degree of Regeneration 2. Quickning of the new which is the second 1. Mortification is an act of the Holy Spirit in us who doth by little and little quench and abate in our souls and bodies the natural strength of our corruption which was crept into us partly Originally by Adams fall which is that we mean by the Old man and partly that Sin which we have actually increased by our own frailty It consisteth 1. In our acknowledgement of Sin 2. In our Contrition and Sorrow Both which are set down in one Verse of the Psalmist 1. Our acknowledgement is either 1. Inward 2. Outward 1. Inward acknowledgement is when we feel the burden of our sins pressing us down our Consciences accusing us and our thoughts testifying against us 2. Outward is when we make Confession of them by speech or other outward actions And this Confession of sin is a publication or manifestation of our unworthiness and guilt whereby we testifie and bewail that we have sinned against God and have withall a setled resolution and purpose to offend him no more Confession is either Publick Private Publick Confession is when upon the Lords Day or other dayes appointed for Gods Worship we in the open Congregation together or after the Minister do confesse our sins to God Private is either 1. To God in our Closets or other private places as Ps. 32. 5. 38. 9. 18. 41. 4. 51. 2 Sam. 24. 10. Dan. 9. 2. To men Jam. 5. 16. 2. Contrition is a sorrow and grief of the Conscience and mourning of the Soul because we have offended God having also joyned with it a displeasure against our selves and a true humiliation both of souls and bodies as Iam. 4. 9. Esa. 66. 2. Eze. 36. 1. 41. 10. Ion. 3. 8. 2 Kings 22. 19. Matt. 5. 4. 2 Cor. 7. 9 10 11. Quickning of the new man is when we returning to God live spiritually and have a desire for the time to come to please Him this is also called a Conversion to God And this we do 1. By avoiding evil 2. Following that which is good Both comprehended in Psa. 34.14 Esa. 1. 16 17. The Benefits we receive by Repentance are The deferring of Gods punishments due for sin The mitigation of his displeasure The averting of his judgements The escaping of eternal death The prolonging of our prosperity The attaining of eternal life Confession of Sins VVHo will give water to my head or tears to mins eyes that I may day and night bewail my sins and ingratitude against thee O God my Creator Many things there are which terrifie mens Consciences and bring them to the true sense of their sins but nothing is so available thereunto as the contemplation of the greatness of thy goodness and the multitude of thy benefits That therefore O Lord my poor wretched soul may the better see and consider in what state it stands I will recount thy manifold blessings and the number of my sins that thereby also I may more clearly understand who thou art and what I am how gracious a God thou hast been to me and how rebellious a sinner I have been to thee There was a time O Lord as thy Divine Majesty best knoweth when I was not and thou tookest me out of the dust of the Earth and gavest me a being creating in me a Soul after thine own similitude and made it capable of thy glory Thou didst create my body with all the members and senses thereof and my soul with all the powers and faculties thereof And as thou didst create me so thou didst preserve me
once suffered for sin the just for the unjust that he might bring us to God Let not the third Mercy rejoyceth above judgement Let not the fourth If any man sin we have an Advocate with the Father Christ Iesus the righteous And he is the propitiation for our sins and not for ours only but for the sins of the whole world Let not thine own words be spoken in vain Come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest I came not to call the righteous but sinners to repentance I came not to judge the world but to save it These things are not cannot be spoken in vain Wherefore in the multitude of the sorrowes that are in my Heart thy comforts O Lord have refreshed my Soul Let us therefore come boldly to the Throne of Grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need Which be pleased to grant For thy great and many Mercies Thy Names sake The Glory of thy Name Thy Promise sake Thy Practice sake My Misery My Infirmity Even for thy Son Iesus Christ's sake The Seven Penitential Psalms Paraphrased Psalm 6. O Lord my God rebuke me not I beseech thee in thy fierce indignation against my sins either in this life or at the day of judgement neither chasten or correct me in thy hot displeasure by condemning me to eternal death 2 Have mercy and compassion upon me according to thy accustomed goodness O Lord for I am weak and frail by nature strengthen me therefore by thy grace O Lord and heal me by curing the infirmities of my Soul for they are multiplied so greatly upon me that my bones and all my inward parts are vexed and disquieted with the remembrance of them 3 My sinful Soul considering my manifold offences and trembling at the thought of thy just anger against them is also like as is my flesh sore troubled and almost at the point of desparation but thou O Lord that desirest not the death of a sinner how long will it be ere thou look upon me and bring me out of this misery 4 Return from the rigour of thy justice O Lord to the sweetness of thy mercy and deliver my Soul from the bondage of sin O Lord save me from the assaults of the Devil not for any merits of mine but for thy mercies sake in Christ Jesus my Saviour 5 For in death there is no remembrance of thee to praise and glorifie thy Name and who surely none there is that shall give thee thanks or celebrate thy goodness in the grave of Hell where nothing is to be heard but weeping gnashing of teeth and blasphemies 6 I am weary and faint with my groaning and sighing for my transgressions every night when I should take my rest I wash my bed weeping for them and I water my couch the place of my rest with my tears of unfeigned repentance 7 Mine eye of reason and understanding is consumed and groweth weak because of the grief I take fearing thy judgements yea it waxeth old and I continue in sin because of the united Forces of all mine Enemies the World the Flesh and the Devil 8 Depart therefore far form me al ye mine Enemies which are and have been the workers and causers of mine iniquity by your tentations and evil examples for henceforth I will have no more to do with you for my Conscience assureth me that the Lord of his infinite goodness hath heard and pitied the voice of my weeping and therefore I should be unthankful to him to return to those sins which he in his mercy hath forgiven 9 The Lord I cannot repeat it too often hath graciously heard my earnest supplication for the pardon of my sins and he the Lord plentiful in pity hath not only now but will also hereafter receive my prayer whensoever I call faithfully upon him 10 Let all mine Enemies therefore who have sought my destruction be ashamed at my Conversion and before vexed and troubled at the consideration os Gods judgements Let them no longer delay but repent and return to the Lord and be ashamed that they have so long deferred their conversion and suddenly without any longer delay make their peace with him by unfeigned repentance Glory be to the Father c. Psalm 32. BLessed is he in this life in assured hope and thrice blessed in full and perfect fruition in the life to come whose transgression by Gods mercy is forgiven in respect of the offence and whose sin by the imputation of Christs righteousness is so covered in this world that it be not laid open at the day of judgement in respect of the punishment 2 Blessed and happy is the man unto whom in regard either of offence or punishment the Lord accepting the merits of Christ imputeth no sin but giveth so ample a remission of them that he taketh no notice of any sin in him and in whose Spirit as well as in outward shew is no guile but penitently without hypocrisie bewaileth his offences 3 When I my self I speak by experience kept silence dissembling and covering my sins wherewith my Conscience was oppressed my bones and inward parts waxed old and feeble through my roaring which God regarded not though I cryed all the day long and that because I confessed not my sins aright unto him 4 For day and night continually thy hard hand of affliction was heavy upon me to punish my obstinacy and to reduce me to repentance and by reason thereof my moisture and vigour which I formerly had is turned like to the drought of Summer and is almost withered and dryed up 5 My sin therefore at the last I being thus handled by thee did I resolve to acknowledge unto thee in contrition of soul and mine iniquity which I formerly concealed I have but any longer hid but humbly confessed unto thee 6 I further said within my self when thy grace began to work in me that I will no longer continue in my rebellion but penitently confess all my transgressions and iniquity unto the Lord gracious and merciful and I had no sooner done it but thou of thy wonted compassion forgavest the iniquity and punishment of my sin committed against thee 7 For this remission of sin as it was necessary for me to pray for it so shall every one of what condition soever that is godly for the just also fall pray unto thee O Lord in a time when thou mayest be found in a fit season But in the greatest danger of floods and swelling of the great waters of afflictions God will so preserve serve the just man that they shall not have power to come nigh unto him to oppose or overwhelm him 8 Thou O God art my hiding place and refuge in all tribulations thou for in none other will I trust shalt preserve me by thy power from trouble and adversity Thou shalt compass me about with thy mercy and I will sing unto thee
will unhear them God will not hear their cry when trouble cometh upon them If I encline my heart unto wickedness the Lord will not hear me They shall cry but he heareth not He that turneth his ear from hearing the Law even his prayer shall be abominable Your sins have hid his face from you that he will not hear Thou hast covered thy self with a cloud that our prayers should not pass through Though they cry in mine ears with a loud voice yet will I not hear them And therefore the hope of the wicked in Gods Mercy is vain seeing he refuseth to hear them Their hope is but like the dust blown away with the wind Or a thin froth driven away with a storm Or a smoke dispersed with a tempest Or a guest that tarrieth but a day Because the wicked live in bondage in slavery to sin For sin is a Tyrant tyrannizeth over his followers He that committeth sin is a servant to sin To the Instigators of it The World The Flesh. The Devil And the flesh serveth the two other by sensuality Appetitus Sensitivus By which the wicked as the Apostle saith are sold under sin as slaves in a Fair. And this made Solomon infatuated with his Concubines It infatuates the Adulterer with his Adultery The Covetous with his Riches The Ambitious with his Honour The Voluptuous with his Pleasures It made Amnon commit Incest And this cometh by privation of Grace which should bridle their Affections and by letting loose their Appetites which are like Devouring Beasts like Blood-Suckers like The Pit unsatiable Because they are in continual trouble like the raging Sea that cannot rest whose waters cast up mire and dirt There is no peace to them 1. Their passions are concupiscible and Irascible If the first cannot obtain what it would the other is troubled And by these two the whole man is disquieted From whence are warrs and contentions amongst you are they not hence even of your own concupiscences which fight in your members for ye lust and have not 2. No peace in their Consciences Conscientia Improborum improbis ipsis adversatur The Conscience of the wicked is even an adversary to the wicked himself An evil Conscience makes men fear shadows where no fear is Mala Conscientia terret vel audadissimum An evil Conscience is terrible even to the boldest and hardest man The witked flee where none pursueth The sound of fear is in his ears Timor Divina dispensatione malos comitatur They have five thornes pricking them 1. The enormity of their sin 2. The offence done to others crying like Abels blood 3. The infamy which followeth sin 4. The offence to God 5. The fear of punishment Tell me not saith a Father of a wicked man which fareth deliciously is apparelled costly is wealthy in substance but discover his Conscience and there thou shalt find fears tempests and troubles arraigning and executing himself when none but God and his own Conscience know his own deeds Who hath resisted God and hath peace Thou O Lord saith another hast so appointed that the disordered soul should be his own tormentor What greater punishment saith third than the wound of Conscience which is more to be shunned that death or banishment A Man may avoid all things saith a fourth but his own heart from himself he cannot slee wheresoever he goeth the guilt of Conscience followeth His Conscience is ever in pain 3. No peace in this world In regard of the terror of Conscience as is said Of the infamy they receive by it Of the fear of the pains deserved Of the loss of temporal blessings 4. They are without aid or comfort from God Afflictions find them unarmed unprovided to withstand them They have no footing to stay them no hand to help them nor no Pilot to guide them But they are swallowed in the Sea of tribulations So that while the good rejoyce they mourn While they walk dry these are drowned And while they praise God these blaspheme By the same fire of tribulation the gold the just is tryed and the stubble the wicked is consumed The Red Sea drowned the AEgyptians and saved the Israelites Lastly The end of the wicked is miserable Their miseries do but begin in this world And in their death they are Heirs to Serpents Beasts and Worms They perish as if they had never been Horrible is the end of the wicked Evil in loss of the world their delight Worse in the separation of body and soul. Worst in the Iudgement of both Evil in the pains of the body in the fears of the mind in the afflictions for loss of temporal things in the afflictions for want of internal grace in the horror of the grave in the remembrance of sin committed in the fear to render an account in the terror in conscience in the terror for the sentence in the grief for loss of time of repentance and evil in the grief for ill-spending it When they look back they consider a short life ill spent When forward a long time to suffer for it They grieve for losing the joy of eternity for mispending that time they had to get it for changing such unspeakable joyes for such transitory pleasures Their worm never dyeth but gnaweth and vexeth for ever Dost thou desire then never to be sad Live well for a secure Conscience passeth over sorrow lightly and a good life hath joy ever attending it To sum up all Consider the Motives which perswade us to his Service in doing that which is good 1. Whereby we have peace with God our Selves our Consciences 2. The Comforts in the Holy Ghost who assisteth the good with faith to adhere to Gods promises With Hope to expect the reward Love to GOD. Obedience to his precepts Humility in their actions Patience in tribulation 3. Gods readiness to hear their Prayers 4. Their comfortable end Then the facility profit and pleasure to do well By a love to goodness and hate to the world Because it is Transitory Because it is Miserable Because it is Sinful Because it is Deceitful Et servite Domino in laetitia Draw near to him with a pure heart in assurance of Faith our hearts being pure from an evil Conscience And consider the Reasons why we should detest sin 1. For Gods hate to the wicked 2. For Gods rejecting their Prayers 3. The bondage of the ungodly 4. Their troubles in the passions of the mind their consciences in this world without comfort from GOD. 5. Their miserable end Et Servite Domino in Timore Walk after God and fear him That thou mayest go boldly to the Throne of Grace Find mercy and receive help in time of need A general Exhortation to Prayer OF all the parts of Gods service Prayer justly challengeth the first place For in as much as the best of Gods children are subject to
lives end Give me O Lord true compunction of heart and so water it with the dew of thy Heavenly Grace that I may in the bitterness of my Soul with abundance of tears sighs and groans bewail and lament all my hainous and grievous transgressions against thee Give me grace O Lord that I may not boast in any merits or works of mine own or have any confidence in them but let me glory in this alone that I am a Member of that Body of thine which was crucified for me and did sufficiently satisfie for all the Sins of the World If thou O Lord look or expect any merits from me behold I tender unto thee thine own merits the merits of thy Death and Passion which thou hast vouchsafed to make me partaker of by vertue whereof alone I dare boldly appear before thy Tribunal These merits I set between my sins and thy Iustice and otherwise or in any other manner I dare not I will not contend with thee O sweet Iesu I desire thee to offer them to the Father as a propitiatory Sacrifice for all my great and grievous Offences that when my Soul shall depart from this Body it may by the same be freed and delivered from all the judgements and punishments which are due unto it for sin and be carried to that blessed place where there is no sorrow but endless felicity where thou together with the Father and the blessed Spirit livest and reignest for ever Before Prayer O Almighty and everliving GOD Heavenly Father to whom it is manifestly known how inconstant and wandring the minds of men are in any good actions and how easily we suffer our selves to be carried away from the contemplation of thee by diversity of distractions and unseasonable thoughts which take hold of us in the time of our Devotions and Prayers unto thee who also by thine only begotten Son Christ Iesus didst prescribe unto his Disciples a Form of Prayer to be offered up to thee and hast derived the same from them to us Behold me most wretched sinner wholly depraved and corrupt intreating thee by the same Son that for his sake thou wouldst infuse thy Holy Spirit into me which may adopt me into the number of thine Elect that it may teach me how I ought to pray according to thy Holy Will that it may allay all troublesome and wandring thoughts in me while I offer up my prayers and praises unto thee Suffer me not to serve thee with my lips and be absent in heart from thee but create a right Spirit within me that I being sensible of all thy graces and comforts may with joyful and holy zeal perform my duty to thee that so my prayers and desires may appear before thee and in thy Sons Name I may effectually be heard and my petitions may be granted to the glory and honour of thy most holy Name and the endless comfort of mine own Soul through the same our only Lord and Saviour Iesus Christ. Before a Sermon O Most loving SAVIOUR I most humbly intreat thee that thou wouldst be pleased at this time to enlighten my understanding and to open my inward ears with the grace of thy Holy Spirit that I may hear that sacred Word with an humble heart and rejoyce in it in the obedience of the Spirit That I may be fully instructed thereby how to do good and avoid evil and bring forth the fruit thereof in my life and conversation That thy Honour and Glory may be thereby increased the Devil and all other the Enemies of my Soul may be vanquished my Soul may be saved and at the last I may appear with boldness before thy Tribunal and receive the reward of a good and faithful servant even his Masters joy everlasting blessedness and that by thy merits only O blessed Saviour Petitions for Temporal Blessings in which we are to desire of God THat he would be pleased to continue unto us The blessing of a good King just and religious To give unto us Magistrates and Iustices upright and careful to see good Laws duly executed Teachers to direct us in the Truth That he would bless us with Length and Goodness of Dayes Health of Body Contentedness of Mind Competency of Estate Food and Rayment Conveniency of Dwelling Wholesomeness of Air. Fruitfulness of Cartel Fruitfulness of Soyl. That he would make us happy In Wedlock In Children In Faithful Friends In Peaceable loving Neighbours In Honest Servants In Skilful Physicians That he would preserve our Goods Good Name Our Senses and Understanding That he would protect us From Trouble From Enemies From Dangers From Losses From Sicknesses That he would give Peace To all Nations Peace To our Land Peace In our private Dwellings Rules to be observed in the Morning WHen thou awakest in the Morning shut and close up the entrance to thy heart from all unclean prophane and evil thoughts and let the consideration of God and goodness enter in When thou art risen and art ready retire thy self to thy Closet or other private place and offer to God the first fruits of the Day and in praying to him and praising him remember 1. To give him Thanks for thy quiet rest received for delivering thee from all dangers ghostly and bodily and for all other his benefits to thee 2. Offer unto him thy self and all things that thou dost possess and desire him to dispose of thee and them according to his good pleasure 3. Crave his Grace to guide thee and to strengthen thee from and against all Tentations that so thou mayest do nothing the day following contrary to his will 4. And Lastly Beg of him according to the Rules before prescribed all things needful for the Soul and Body To which purpose pray as followeth Morning Prayer I Thank thee O Heavenly Father Lord of Heaven and Earth for all thy Blessings which I underservedly have received from thee that thou gavest a being from honest Parents and in that part of the World where thy Son Christ Iesus is purely professed that thou didst endue me with Reason and Understanding and didst also give me perfect Members and Senses that thou hast preserved me ever since my birth vouchsafed me health and liberty and a competency of means to maintain me and those whom thou hast placed under me That thou hast Elected me in thy Love Redeemed me by thy Son Sanctified me by thy Spirit and kept me this night past from all perils of Body and Soul and given me a sweet and comfortable rest O Lord I commend into thy hands my Soul and Body thoughts words and actions and humbly beseech thee that thou wouldst guide and order them all to thy honour and glory and my endless and eternal happiness Enlighten my mind that the darkness and cloudy mists of mine offences being dispelled I may walk before thee in my vocation without offence as in the day clean unspotted and unblameable Give unto me thy Holy Spirit which may bridle
and having set thine Offences before thee confess them to him and in the bitterness of thy Soul repent thee be sorry for them and crave pardon for them and desire his grace that thou offend no more in the like 3. Pray to God to continue his care ever thee the night following and to defend thee from all perils and dangers So that going to thy rest with these good action and thoughts thou shalt do like to those which rake up Fire in the Embers over night that they may the more readily find it in the Morning In the Night VVHen thou awakest in the Night call upon God likewise for the Night was not made wholly for sleep praise him contemplate and meditate upon his works Sometimes weep for thy sins according to the practice of DAVID For as the nightly dew refresheth and tempereth the Earth so do our nightly tears asswage our Concupiscences And sometimes rejoyce in the Lord according to that of the Psalmist for the great benefits thou hast received from him By these means keeping thy self to one holy Exercise or other thou shalt be sure to avoid the Devils Tentations whose chief time of setting upon us fitteth best with his works which are usually stiled The works of darkness Evening Prayer The Lord hath granted his loving kindness in the ` Day therefore in the Night will I sing of him and make my Prayer to the God of my life O Lord God Father everlasting I yield thee most humble and hearty thanks that thou hast not only averted thy punishments from me which my grievous sins have deserved but instead thereof hast preserved me from all dangers and supplyed me with all necessaries of this life O Lord I confess that I have so highly offended thee this day that all the punishments which may be inflicted upon vile and miserable sinners are due to me I confess O Lord that I have offended thy Majesty in And not only these do I acknowledge but all the rest which I have committed from my infancy to this present hour wittingly or ignorantly in thought word or deed against Thee my Neighbour and my Self O Lord I confess my weakness I do not that which I should and would do but that which I should not and am unwilling to do I do Not regarding or fearing thy incomprehensible Glory venerable Presence terrible Power exquisite Iustice nor thy Goodness unspeakable for which if thou shouldest enter into judgement what would become of me But O Lord for as much as thou art a Father of mercies and dost not desire the death of a sinner if he return unto thee by unfeigned repentance I most humbly in the Name and Mediation of our blessed Saviour Christ Iesus crave pardon for them Lord I repent help my impenitency and hear my request Be merciful to me a sinner and pardon all my offences whereof thou O Lord knowest me to be guilty And I beseech thee O Lord for the time to come to mollifie my heart water it with the dew of thy Heavenly Grace that I may not alwayes bring forth thornes and weeds fit for nothing but the fire Convert me O Lord and I shall be converted open my eyes direct my heart and wayes Draw me after thee and being converted suffer me not to return again with the Dog to his vomit And forasmuch O Lord as thou hast appointed the Night to refresh our bodies I humbly pray thee to defend me as well sleeping as waking from the snares of the Devil O Lord into thy hands I commend my Spirit which thou hast redeemed by thy precious death and passion Suffer it not to sleep in sin and in it lye languishing unto death and so be buried in the grave of thy judgements but watch over it I beseech thee and defend it under the shadow of thy wings Let me not be oppressed with unnecessary sleep but raise me in due time to thy Service and Praise Thou knowest O Lord that of my self I have no strength waking much less when I sleep I humbly therefore pray thee to defend my Soul Body Goods and all things which thou hast bestowed upon me this Night from all evil and damage and so dispose of me that I be not troubled with any terrours terrified with any vain phantasies weakned by any sickness or impoverished with any casualties or crosses Keep me O Lord from all evil dreams and unclean thoughts and compass me with a wall of thy mercies that the Tempter approach not to my Bed so that being preserved by thy protection and refreshed with comfortable rest I may arise and offer unto thee my daily bounden duty and service even praise and thanks to thy most holy Name Or thus O Blessed Lord Iesus Christ to whose inexhaustible bounty we owe all honour and praise I give thee all possible thanks that thou hast vouchsafed to keep me this day from all evil so that none of thy fearful judgements to which I was justly lyable have fallen upon me but of thy unspeakable mercy thou hast preserved me from them and hast also liberally and with a bountiful hand supplyed me with the necessaries of this life notwithstanding my great and manifold sins committed against thee O Lord I confess that I have wasted the time which thou hast given me for repentance altogether idlely vainly and unprofitably not so much as considering or taking notice that this day might have been the last of my life but have added and heaped up sin upon sin in thy All-seeing sight as if I had stood in no fear of thee at all daily renewing as much as in me lay thy torments and passions for which I have deserved that the Earth should open unto me and Hell devour me which that it is not come to pass I ascribe with all thankful acknowledgement to thy infinite mercy and goodness O Lord I acknowledge that it is of thy goodness alone that I am thus preserved from all thy judgements seeing that many calamities have befallen divers others who have less deserved them than my self That some have therefore perished by water some by fire some by sword others by sudden and violent death and that I live That some have been taken blind some lame some distracted in their senses That others have sustained much damage in their worldly estate and I have escaped and not been punished in any of these kinds To what shall I ascribe and attribute the cause surely to thy mercy alone for which I cannot give unto thee sufficient thanks But O sweet Saviour as thy mercy exceedeth so do our necessities increase thou canst not want matter for thy mercy to work upon by reason of our inabilities to help our selves Wherefore I further pray thee that this night following may be also safe and prosperous unto me that by a sweet sleep and comfortable refreshing I may be fitted when I awake to serve thee with a thankful
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For the corruptions of the Soul The longer we sin the obscurer the understanding The weaker the Will the more disordered the desires Who then is so void of understanding or reason that will think he can repent after many years when his sins are multiplyed and grown into a habit and that God is farther from us When the Devil encroacheth on us and our faculties are corrupted And cannot doe it in his better strength That sins encreasing the pardon will be easilier obtained for them That the infirmity prevailing the medicine will cure the easilier knowing that Languor prolixior gravat medicum brevem languorem recidit medicus A long sickness or languishing disease puts the Physician to his Books while a short grief is soon cured by him Who can carry a great burden in his age that groans under a little weight in his chief strength It was a harder and more difficult act in mans consideration to revive Lazarus being four dayes in the grave than the Rulers daughter newly dead Grant that thou canst repent in thine age 1. Yet consider the time lost which might have been spent in doing good and avoiding evil Why spendest thou thy time in sowing that of which thou shalt reap nought but tears The heathen man could say Hee that desires to doe good while he is old makes a plain demonstration that he hath no mind to goodness till that time which is unfit for all things And it is too late to begin to live when we are ready to dye S. Gregory saith That he is little better than an Infidel that forbeareth to repent till he is old And it is to be feared that while such a one hopeth for mercy he shall fall into judgement Can the infinite Majesty of God offended be satisfied with a little a small repentance If thou canst not satisfie him for the sins of a day why heapest thou the sins of many years and protractest to give satisfaction till thine age If thou hast gathered nothing in thy youth how canst thou find any thing in thine age 2. Besides Repentance is the gift of God to whom he pleaseth and when Every one ought to fear that it will not be given him at the hour of death and is therefore to work out his salvation in the time of his life with fear and trembling Saint Augustine saith That seldom or never a full conversion is seen in the end of a mans dayes and that much doubt may be made of a late penitent Of him that repents at the last gasp and is reconciled that is by the Minister to God I am not certain whether he be secure or not Saint Augustine is not confident of his salvation though he be absolved by the Priest Therefore let every one that would be out of doubt repent while he is lusty and strong and in his perfect health for he that hath lived ill all his life and repenteth not till the last is certainly in great danger Wilt thou be secure say two Fathers wilt thou avoid all doubt Repent while thou art well And why art thou then secure Because thou repentest when thou mightest have sinned 3. There are many impediments in age and sickness Men are then troubled with many infirmities Cumbred with many affairs Grieved with many thoughts for wife and children estate and pleasure to be left And what kind of penitence can be expected from man in this estate Poenitentia quae fit in extremis raro vera est ob magnam difficultaetem in hoc articulo It is seldom true being deferred till our end 1. For the great perturbations arising by the extremity of sorrow anguish thought of death all most violent in a dying man They suffer him to think of nothing but that with which he is vexed 2. True repentance ought to be voluntary not of necessity And a dying man is forced Like to that of Shimei to David Like to that of Mariners in a storm 3. If he thinks not of it himself as it is very doubtful his Friends seldom or never send for those who should put him in mind of it till it be too late till he be past all sense of it And this is a just punishment saith S. Gregory for not thinking on God while he was in ability to do it So that one negligence is punished with another Lastly let not the examples of a sew cause protraction in thee For though God forbare his threatned judgements on the Ninivites it was for their forty dayes repentance And if thou canst repent forty dayes as they did thou hast the better hope And though the Thief in articulo mortis ready to dye was saved Yet this example ought not to give liberty to any to defer so long Besides his salvation was no less admirable than any other of Christs miracles And his conversion no less wonderful than his salvation For when Christs own Disciples had denied and forsaken him The Thief confessed him Credidit Reus quod negavit Electus But trust to thy timely preparations by the example of the Wise Virgins And consider and think of thine own estate while thou hast time Make no tarrying to turn to the Lord and put not off from day to day for suddenly shall the wrath of God come forth and in thy security thou shalt be destroyed Remember thy Creator in the dayes of thy youth while the evil dayes come not Defer not Repentance unto years unapt testy weak when sin leaveth thee and not thou it Now the time is when thou mayst find the Iudge propitious Seek the Lord while he may be found and call upon him while he is near Repent and be converted that your sins may be blotted out Now our Repentance prevaileth chiefly by 1. Prayer 2. Fasting 3. Alms. 4. Tears The prayer of humble peirceth he clouds It was the practice of David after his fall as may appear by the 1 Psalm It was the counsel of Saint Peter to Simon Magus Repent of thy wickedness and pray to God if perhaps 〈◊〉 thought of thine heart may be s 〈◊〉 thee For God is properly 〈◊〉 if we neglect not this duty The Lord is nigh to all them that call upon him He never forsakes them that call upon him But of this point more at large elsewhere Though the best fast be the fast of the soul in abstaining from sin yet other fast of the body is necessary for us as a salve for a wound It asswageth the intemperance of the body represseth inordinate affections and allayeth the passions of the soul which arise by fulness Let not your hearts be over-charged saith our Saviour All the servants of God by this humbled themselves when they set themselves to repentance or to obtain any thing at his hands David humbled and chastened himself by fasting It was an antient Precept Saint Augustine out of Saint Basil saith that it was
iu my Mothers womb that I might come safe into this world and receive the mark and badge of all thine even the Sacrament of Baptism whereby I was cleansed from the guilt of Original sin Amongst a multitude of Infidels dispersed over the face of the Earth thou wouldest have me in the number of the Faithfal even of those to whom so happy a lot hath fallen to be thine regenerated with the water of Baptism From which time I was taken to be thine and that admirable and happy Contract was made between us that thou shouldest be my Lord and I thy Servant thou my Father and I thy Son that thou shouldest perform and shew to me the love of a Father and I to thee the duty of a Son Further O Lord thou didst descend from Heaven to Earth for my sake seeking me in all the ways wherein I had lost my self With thy humanity thou didst ennoble my nature and by thy bonds didst deliver me from bondage Thou didst challenge me from the power of the Devil by delivering thy self into the hands of sinners and didst destroy sin by taking upon thee the form of a sinner With what reverence shall I speak of that other blessed Sacrament which Thou also O Lord hast instituted and ordained for a remedy of all the miseries which have befallen me and the many sins I have committed since my Baptism and for a salve and cure for all my spiritual diseases even the Sacrament of thy most precious Body and Blood And as thou hast bestowed on me all these divine and heavenly blessings so likewise in plentiful manner hast thou heaped on me temporal favours Thou hast from my birth to this hour preserved nourished cloathed and fed me in most abundant manner giving to me the use of all thy creatures for my sustentation Nay what couldest thou have done more for me than thou hast done Or what couldest thou have given me more than thou hast bestowed upon me either of blessings of this world or of the world to come Now having received all these mercies and favours from thee how have I on my part behaved my self in thankfulness to thee for them Have I returned due praise unto thy Majesty for them or carried my self and ordered my life like to one that might any way deserve them O Lord I confess that I have not for such hath been the malice of my heart that instead of shewing my self conformable to thy will I dayly adde sin to sin and iniquity to iniquity heaping up wrath for my self against the day of wrath How can I without tears remember how often thou mightest justly have slain me and yet notwithstanding my sins which call for vengeance no evil hath happened unto me How many souls burn in Hell fire which have sinned far less than I and yet I remain alive What had become of me if thou hadst taken me away with those at the same time How strict had my Iudgement been if thy Iustice had laid hold on me laden with so many sins Who then O Lord hath bound the hands of thy Iustice who hath deprecated for me when I lay thus lulled asleep in the security of my sins What hath pleased thee in me that thou shouldst deal more mercifully with me than with those who in the midst of their dayes in the heat of their youth are taken away from amongst us My sins cryed out against me and thou stoppedst thine ears my offences dayly increased against thee yet thy mercy dayly abounded towards me I sinned thou didst expect me I fled from thee and thou followedst me I was weary in offending thee and thou not weary in expecting me And in the midst of all my sins I ever received many good inspirations and goodly reproofs from thy holy Spirit which checked me in the dissolute course of my life How often hast thou called me with the voice of Love How often hast thou terrified me with threats and fears laying before me the peril of death and the rigour of thy divine Iustice How often hast thou followed me with thy Word preached invited me with thy blessings chastened me with thy scourges compassing me about that I could by no means slee from thee And lastly which is not the least of thy mercies with what patience hast thou waited for my serious Repentance What then O Lord shall I render back to thee for all that thou hast done unto me In that thou hast created me I owe thee all that I am created in that thou hast preserved me and thus long expected my return to thee I owe thee life and all that I am But in that thou hast regenerated sanctified and redeemed me and left those excellent pledges for my salvation I know not what to render unto thee For if the lives of all men and Angels were in my power and that I could offer them unto thee for a sacrifice of praise and thanks yet were it nothing being compared to the least of all thy spiritual blessings bestowed on me VVho therefore will give a fountain of tears to mine eyes that I may lament my great ingratitude and unjust retribution for all these thy manifold blessings heaped upon me Help me thou O Lord and give me grace that I may heartily confess and grievously bewail my hainous offences and transgressions against thee that thou mayest be reconciled to me and in thy abundant mercies shew some pity to me for them I am thy creature O Lord made after thine own Likeness and Image acknowledge thy workmanship for it is thine own In taking away the soyl and filth wherewith it is defiled and stained thou shalt soon perceive it to be thine own handy-work Art not thou a Father of mercies which have neither number end nor measure Although I have shaken off the duty and obedience of a child towards thee yet cast not thou off the love of a Father toward me I beseech thee Although I have done many things whereby thou mightest justly condemn me yet thou hast not lost the means whereby thou mayest mercifully save me If thou forsake me to whom shall I flee who is there to help me besides thy self Acknowledge G Lord a straying sheep Behold I come to thee all wounded thou canst heal me blind thou canst enlighten me full of leprosie thou canst cleanse me and spiritually dead yet thou canst revive me Thy mercy is greater than my sin thy clemency more than my wickedness and thou canst remit more than I can commit Do not then O Lord put me back from thee look not so much upon my sins as upon thy infinite meocies who livest and reignest God of all mercies world without end Another O Almighty Lord God great in thy power and terrible in thy judgements who madest the Heaven the Earth the Sea and all things in them by thy Word whose Power cannot be resisted and whose Mercy is over all thy works All things are under
should any longer sustain me or that I should expect any thing from thee but thy severest Iudgement For if thou sparedst not Lucifer and his Angels for one only sin Pride but didst cast them from Heaven to be reserved for everlasting chains of darknesse unto the Iudgement of the great Day what can I hope or look for that have offended thee not in one offence alone but in all kind of transgressions For my sins are in number numberless insomuch that I hate my self for my madness that from so noble a liberty I am fallen into so base a servitude and find my self overwhelmed with the horrible dread of thy fearful Iudgements Yet when I behold and consider that infinite mercy of thine which surpasseth all the rest of thy works I am a little refreshed and my Soul is a little comforted and revived For as by the examination of the hainousness of my sins and the strictness of thy Iustice I did almost despair So considering and weighing the testimonies of thy Servants left upon record for the comfort of poor distressed souls I am somewhat again cheared and raised up For besides those places of consolation and many more I find by divers Parables and Similitudes of thine own how ready and propense thou art to receive and pardon the Penitent As by the lost Penny the lost Sheep and by the Prodigal Son whose Image I find in my self and whose life mine doth fully parallel Wherefore O Lord I humbly intreat thee to restore me thy lost Son to thy favour and withall to give me the true sense and knowledge of the innocency I have lost I do not desire that thou shouldest deal so kindly with me as that Father did with his Son but I shall be happy and glad if thou wilt entertain me as one of the meanest of thy hired servants My hope and confidence is that thou wilt pitty me because thou art the fountain of pitty and compassion Behold me therefore with the eyes of pitty look on me and ease me who come unto thee laden with the heavy burden of my sins pardon them and save me for thy infinite mercy and remember not my sins but thine own sufferings think not on me as a proud and rebellious Malefactor but as an humble and penitent Convert Look on me with those eyes of compassion wherewith thou didst sometime behold Mary Magdalen Peter and the good Thief Give me true knowledge of my sins with the first true contrition with the second and receive me with the third into thy Heavenly Paradise Let thy obedience satisfie for my rebellions thy innocency for my guilt thy humility for my arrogancy thy fasting for my intemperance and thy justice for my iniquity Lord if thou wilt thou canst make me whole and restore me to thy former grace Purifie purge and cleanse me from mine offences and open mine eyes that I may clearly see mine own pollution and make me to grieve that I have not grieved for my sins as I ought to have done And as thou hast by thy long-suffering hitherto expected my repentance so of thy infinite mercy and goodness pardon me repenting and grant me grace that I may be afraid to offend thee hereafter Hear me O sweet Saviour make intercession for me to the Father with whom and the Holy Spirit thou dost live and reign coequal and coeternal Lord God world without end Amen Confession of Sins I confess O Lord That I was shaped in wickedness and in sin my Mother conceived me That I was brought forth in uncleanness That I am a root of bitterness A wild vine of Sodom A branch of the wild olive The child of wrath A vessel of dishonour and perdition That my heart is rebellious like a starting bow That my throat is an open sepulcher venting all folly That I am of polluted lips That my tongue talketh nothing but vanity That mine eyes are evil prone to lust That mine ears are uncircumcised and like to the deaf Adder That I have a forhead of brass and a neck of iron That my hands are slow to good That my feet are swift to evil I have sinned against thee O Lord and in thy sight not fearing thy Majesty My Sins are In quantity Large and of a great size Of long continuance From my Mothers breasts Deep Heavy Like a burden Like lead Stretching to Heaven with their cry Many in number Like the Stars More than the hairs of my head The sands of the Sea Oftentimes reiterated As a Fountain casting out water Till they became as a habit As red as scarlet and crimson I am sold under sin Till they become natural to me Like the AEthiopians skin The Leopards spots In quality The worst of sins Strong like cords and cart-ropes Gaining nothing thereby For a handful of barley a little bread Committing sin with greediness Sin upon sin With impudence Not being ashamed Knowing it to be sin Giving offence thereby Unthankfully Like the Dog to the vomit Like the Sow to the mire Therefore O Lord because thou art just and thy judgements true I reap the fruit of my foolishness For what fruit have I in those things whereof I am ashamed My dayes are consumed in vanity and my years in the bitternesse of my soul. And now there is no health in my flesh because of thy displeasure neither is there any rest in my bones by reason of my sin My heart trembleth also with remembrance of thy Iudgements I feel bitterness above the bitterness of death in that I have forsaken thee O God and that thou hast forsaken me Woe unto me rebellious Wretch for thus doing See and consider O Lord how vile I am become for my Soul abhorreth to live I have roared for the disquietness of my heart And what shall I now say or wherein shall I open my mouth What shall I answer seeing I have done these things Miserable man that I am who shall deliver me out of this body of death When I have not what I can further say or do this only remaineth this is my last refuge that I direct mine eyes to thee Out of the deep have I called to thee O Lord Lord hear my voice If thou Lord shouldest be extream to mark what is done amiss O Lord who may abide it Enter not into judgement with thy Servant O Lord for in thy sight shall no man living be justified Wherefore O Lord I appeal from Thee to Thee From Thee a just Iudge To Thee a merciful Father From the Throne of thy Iustice To the Seat of thy Mercy O Lord be pleased to admit of this appeal If thou do not I perish And O Lord carest thou not that I perish
songs of praise for my deliverance 9 I will instruct thee saith God O Man if thou wilt be ruled by me and teach thee in the way of righteousness which thou shalt wal in without erring I will guide thee in the right way with mine eye of providence that no evil shall happen unto thee 10 Be ye not therefore O foolish men since I am so careful over you without reason as the unruly Horse and dull Mule which have no understanding to bridle their head-strong desires whose hard mouth must be held in with strong hand and with bit and bridle and you with tribulations and afflictions if you be rebellious then as they must be held in lest they come near thee and fall upon their Rider or kick at them so shall you be forced by adversity to know your selves for opposing God your Creator 11 Many sorrows either in this world or torments in the world to come shall be to the obstinate and unrepentant wicked but he that with his whole heart dependeth on and trusteth in the Lord his God the Mercy of the same God shall compass and defend him on every side from all dangers 12 Be glad then O ye Servants of the most High in the salvation of the Lord and not in your own strength and rejoyce in fervency of spirit ye that are just and righteous shout for joy in the comfort of a good Conscience all ye that are upright in heart Because the Lord is gracious to those that love him and hath delight in the prosperity of his Servants Glory be to the Father c. Psalm 38. O Lord I do not altogether decline and refuse thy corrections only this I require of thee that thou rebuke me not in thy fierce wrath by condemning me with the reprobate neither chasten me poor sinner too severely by the extraordinary afflictions of this life or in thy hot displeasure 2 For it is not without cause that I should thus deprecate thine anger for thine arrows of grief and anguish stick fast in me and are sore upon me already and thy hand of present affliction presseth and troubleth me sore 3 There is no soundness nor health in my flesh because of the vehemency of thine anger against me Neither is there any rest or quiet in my bones and inward parts when I consider that thy displeasure ariseth towards me because of the grievousness of my sinne 4. For having recollected my thoughts I find that mine iniquities which hitherto I regarded not are so many that they are gone over my head they are past my understanding for quantity and quality and as a heavy burthen for the weight of them they are become to heavy for me to bear any longer they press me down so much that I cannot look up to Heaven or heavenly things 5 My wounds which sin hath made in my Conscience stink in thy nostrils O God and they are so abominable that now they corrupt and putrifie in mine own sight and all this is come upon me because of my foolishness that have let them go so long unsearched un-repented of that they are almost past cure or remedy 6 I am troubled therefore that I have so long put off my conversion I am bowed and pressed down with the weight of my transgressions and an humbled in soul for them greatly and crave pardon for them I go mourning and grieving all the day long be wailing the former time of my life mis-spend 7 For my loyns are filled and infected with a loathsome disease or carnal concupiscence and there is no soundness nor goodness at all in my flesh for that it rebelleth against the Spirit 8 I am feeble in body and sore broken in mind in so much that considering with my self how grievously I have offended thee I have roared and cryed bitterly by reason of the disquietness of my sinful heart O Lord therefore forgive my offences 9 Lord who knowest all things and dost search into the hearts of all men all my desire to be reconciled to thee and to lead a new life is before thee thou knowest it and my groaning and earnest prayer mingled with sighs and tears is not hid from thee but I hope is ascended into thy presence 10 My heart which hath lost the peace of Conscience panteth for fear of thy Judgements my wonted strength faileth me and I am grown weak as for the light of mine inward eyes wherewith I was wont to discern good from evil it is also dim and gone from me and I am become like to them that walk in darknesse 11 My lovers and those which I took for friends because they see me go about to forsake my evil courses stand aloof off from my sore and instead of giving me comfort become mine adversaries and my kinsmen who in my prosperity fawned on me now stand afar off and leave me comfortless 12 They also of mine Enemies that seek after the ruine of my life and eternal happiness lay snares and tentations for me and they that seek my hurt in bereaving me of my good name speak mischievous and false things to my reproach and imagine deceit how to divert me from the right way all the day long 13 But I being resolved to persist in the way of repentance and to trust wholly in the mercy of God behaved my self to them as a deaf man giving no ear to their allurements and made as though I heard them not and I was in my behaviour to them as a dumb man that knew not how to speak or that opened not his mouth 14 Thus careful was I lest mine Enemies should entrap me and I continued still as a man that heareth not nor is moved with their tentations and in whose mouth notwithstanding their evil deeds to me are no reproofs 15 For in thee O Lord let them do what they can do I hope and put my confidence that thou wilt keep thy promise and hear me when I call upon thee O Lord my God and Saviour 16 For I said in my prayer to thee hear me O Lord lest if thou forsake me they should rejoyce and triumph over me for when and as soon as my foot of Faith slippeth never so little by infirmity they presently imagine that thou hast forsaken me and magnifie themselves as though they had obtained victory against me 17 For I cannot marvel that they should so do considering that when I feel the weight of my sins I my self am ready to halt and despair and the reason of my sorrow is because thy judgements are before me and in my thoughts 18 For remedy whereof I will declare and confess to thee O Lord in the biterness of my Soul my iniquity and take revenge of my self for it yea I will be as long as I live heartily sorry and much grieved for my sin past though it be forgiven 19 But mine Enemies think not of forsaking their wayes they are lively and merry and cry peace peace to their Souls and they
them in glory hereafter and enjoy everlasting happiness before thee in thy blessed presence Glory be to the Father c. Psalm 130. OUt of the depth of tentations dangers and sorrow for my sins wherein my Spirit is almost overwhelmed have I by fervent prayer cryed and called unto thee O Lord who only art able to give me relief 2 Lord of thy mercy haste thee and hear my voice and petition and deliver me from my misery O my God let thine ears of pity and compassion be attentive to consider and well weigh the lamentable voice of my humble supplications and let not my prayer return unpitied or unheard of thee 3 If thou Lord contrary to thy disposition shouldest be so exact and extreme as in the rigour of thy justice to mark the iniquities which we by our natural corruption daily fall into and punish us accordingly O good Lord who none not the most upright shall be able to answer one for a thousand or stand before thee without much horrour at the Judgement Seat 4 But for the comfort of poor wretched sinners and to keep us from utter desperation we find it recorded by the holy Spirit that there is forgiveness of sins and mercy toward sinners repenting with thee by Jesus Christ who came to save them and yet this mercy of thine is tyed with such conditions that thou who also art just mayest be also feared lest thy lenity be abused 5 I for my part wait and confidently expect for the Lord to receive mercy from him My sinful but repentant Soul waits to receive consolation and in his Word whereby he promiseth mercy to repentant sinners do I hope and place my whole confidence because I know that he which hath promised is just 6 My sinful Soul in this expectation waiteth for the Lord and tarryeth his good pleasure to comfort it more earnestly than they that in a disconsolate long night watch for the morning Yea I say it again more zealously than they that are weary of the night and watch for the light of the morning 7 Let Israel and all Gods faithful people hope still and put their trust in the goodness of the Lord and not without cause for with the Lord though he justly take vengeance on us for our sins yet there is ever was and will be found mercy towards penitent sinners and with him by Jesus Christ is not only forgiveness for a few sins but plenteous redemption from the captivity of the Devil and Sinne. 8 And he even Jesus Christ by his merits and intercession shall redeem and save Israel and each of his faithful servants from all his iniquities and the punishment due for them Glory be to the Father c. Psalm 143. HEar my earnest and humble prayer O Lord which in my misery I make unto thee Give ear and be not deaf to my supplicatious in the time of my distress but in thy faithfulness and truth which endureth for ever answer me and grant my petition which I make not trusting in any merits of mine own but in thy righteousness 2 And my further petition to thee is that thou enter not into the Throne of thy Iudgement by strictly examining my mis-deeds and dealing rigorously with me thy poor servant who hath mis-spent his talent for in thy all-seeing sight shall no man living in this vale of misery be justified or found innocent 3 For the Old Enemy of mankind the Devil hath by his malice persecuted and sought to entrap my Soul to separate it from the love of thee he hath smitten and cast my life and Soul down to the ground and filled me full of earthly desires he hath made and caused me to dwell and take pleasure in the darkness of of my sins as those that are without sense and have been long dead 4 Therefore O Lord considering my desperate estate is my spirit overwhelmed with grief within me and my heart is disquieted within me and is also desolate and sore troubled 5 I yet in the midst of the sorrows that are in my heart do remember what I have read and heard what thou hast done in the dayes of old how that thou hast been gracious to the penitent and severe against the unrepentant sinner I meditate also on all thy works but especially on that of thy mercy and I muse and exercise my self in contemplating on the works of thy hands admiring thy Power and Wisdom in the Creation of all things 6 I stretch forth and lift up my hands in my prayers unto thee O Lord my Soul which is dry for want of the dew of thy grace thirsteth after thee for the water of life as a thirsty land in a time of drought 7 Hear me and answer me speedily delay not O Lord for my spirit waxeth faint and faileth me in my devotion Oh hide not thy face and loving countenance from me miserable sinner lest it come to pass that I be like in condition unto them that go down headlong after their own inventions into the pit of destruction and perdition 8 Cause me by thy Spirit to hear and feel thy loving kindness and mercy in the morning speedily lest I perish for in thee only and not in the help of Men or Angels do I place my whole trust and confidence Cause me by thy grace to know and learn the way of thy testimonies wherein I should and ought to walk without declining to the right hand or the left For I lift up my soul by prayer and repentance unto thee who only canst direct me aright 9 Desiver me O Lord by thy power from all mine Enemies visible and invisible for I flee and make haste for succour unto thee as to my Protector to hide and defend me from their violence 10 Teach and instruct me that am ignorant to do thy Will and those things which thou commandest for thou art thy God and Director Thy Spirit is good and all-sufficient for me Lead me therefore by it into the right way which bringeth into the Land of Righteousness and Truth 11 Quicken me again O Lord and revive me from the death of sin for thy Names sake which is Jesus and for thy Righteousness sake and love to goodness bring my Soul by thy grace out of the trouble and anguish whereinto my sins have brought me 12 And of thy tender mercy and compassion cut off and kill in me mine Enemies the concupiscences of the flesh and destroy and confound all them that with injuries and tentations afflict and disquiet my Soul which is wholy devoted to thee for I am thy servant and Son of thy Handmaid and desire to serve thee in holiness and righteousness all the dayes of my life Glory be to the Father c. Directions before Receiving the Holy Communion AS many as desire to be partakers of the holy Sacrament of the Body and Blood of Christ as of necessity every one must be that intendeth to receive benefit by him ought before the
Who wouldest have all to be saved none so perish I am thine O save me Despise not the work of thy hands Who hatest nothing which thou hast made I am thy Servant and Son of thy Handmaid Thy Name is called on by us Thou art not ashamed to be called our Lord. I am the price of thy Sons blood O spare thy Workmanship Thy Child Thy Name The price of thy Sons blood But I am a sinner and God heareth not sinners Yet I pray thee remember of what I am made That I am but flesh and a wind that passeth away and cometh not again Take notice of the matter of which I am made Remember that I am but dust Frail flesh Light wind Loose dust And wilt thou O Lord break a leaf driven with the wind too and fro and wilt thou pursue dry stubble Behold O Lord though I have sinned yet I humble my self under thy mighty hand Spare the humble and contrite David spared Shimei that railed on him And David was a man according to thine own heart Therefore do thou spare me Ahab King of Israel forgave the King of Syria his offence upon his humiliation Was there ever King of Israel more merciful than thou Thou forgavest the same Ahab who had sold himself to sin when he humbled himself Spare me also I beseech thee O Lord how long wilt thou be angry with thy Servant which prayeth Surely Lord I hide not my sins like Adam but confess them Behold I judge my self Accept O Lord the Sacrifice of a troubled Spirit A contrite heart A grieved Soul A wounded Conscience Though I have sinned against thee It hath ever been thy Practice to be merciful Our Fathers trusted in thee they trusted and were not confounded Thy mercies have been ever of old Lord where are thy former loving kindnesses Look at the Generations of old and see did ever any trust in the Lord and was confounded Or whom did he ever despise that called upon him It is due by thy Promise Remember thy word unto thy servant upon which thou hast caused me to hope Let thy mercy come unto me O Lord even thy salvation according to thy word God hath promised which cannot lie He is a God of truth And confirmed it with an Oath Which promise the unbelief of men cannot make void If we believe not yet he abideth faithful he cannot deny himself There will arise no benefit by my destruction For what profit is there in my blood if I go down into the pit For in death is no remembrance of thee and in the grave who shall give thee thanks Wilt thou shew wonders to the dead Or shall the dead arise and praise thee Shall thy loving kindness be declared in the grave Or thy faithfulness in destruction The grave cannot praise thee death cannot celebrate thee the living the living he shall praise thee I will not dye but live and declare the works of the Lord. O taste and see how gracious the Lord is blessed is the man that trusteth in him Thy mercies O Lord are Sweet Comfortable Better than life Many A multitude of them Plentiful Tender Superabundant Wonderful Infinite Great Broad From the East to the West Long. Deep High To the Heavens High Above the Heavens Past knowledge Eternal of old For ever Preventing Following Compassing Pardoning Crowning Over all thy works Our sins Thy justice Thou art the Father of mercies Thou art patient and slow to anger Thou winkest at the sins of men because they should repent Sparing thy people forty years Many times thou didst turn thy wrath away and wouldest not suffer thy whole displeasure to arise It is of thy mercy that we are not consumed Gentle in correcting insomuch as thy justice is not without mercy I will visit their offences with the rod and their sin with scourges Nevertheless my loving kindness will I not utterly take from him He hath not dealt with us after our sins How shall I smile thee O Ephraim Placable and easie to be pacified He will not alway be chiding neither keepeth he his anger for ever His wrath endureth but the twinkling of an eye For a small moment have I forsaken thee but with great mercies will I gather thee In anger he remembreth mercy David said I have sinned against the Lord. And Nathan said to David The Lord hath also put away thy sin thou shalt not dye The Lord waiteth to be gracious unto us Compassionate Thy Compassions are called bowels of mercy When thou didst see the misery of thy people thou hadst compassion on them Then the Lord of the servant moved with compassion loosed him and forgave him the debt Not only ready to forgive but profuse in mercy With thee is plentious redemption The Father of the Prodigal not only pardoned him but put on him the best Robe and a Ring and killed the fat Calf for him He will have joy in Heaven for a sinner repenting Thy pardon extendeth not only to small but great sins and sinners Such as Pet. who forsware thee Paul who blasphemed thee The Thief on the Cross. The Adulteress Mary Magdalen They say If a man put away his Wife and she go from him and become another mans shall he return unto her again shall not the Land be greatly polluted But thou hast played the Harlot with many Lovers yet return again to me saith the Lord. He is kind to the unthankful and evil But all these are recapitulated and summed up in Christ Iesus In whom he hath given us great and precious promises And in whom all the promises of God are Yea and Amen In naming of whom it will be sufficient Iesus thou Son of David have mercy on me Which Name Jesus was given unto him because he saveth us from our sins Lord Do not so earnestly mark our sins as that thereby thou forget thine own Name Thou Son of David who forgave Shimei his sworn Enemy reviling him Forgive me O Christ hear me Intercede for me Make thy Father propitious to me Say unto my Soul I am thy Salvation Let not thy Apostle comfort me in vain when he saith This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptation that Iesus Christ came into the world to save sinners Where sin hath abounded there grace hath super-abounded God hath concluded all under sin that he might have mercy upon all When we were Gods Enemies we were reconciled to him by the death of his Son Let not another of thy Apostles say in vain Christ