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day_n of_o judgement_n and_o prostrate_v thyself_o at_o the_o foot_n â—f_o the_o crucifix_n adore_v thy_o saviour_n â—nd_v implore_v his_o gracious_a assistance_n â—hat_n thou_o may_v now_o make_v such_o good_a use_n of_o the_o time_n he_o lend_v thou_o â—hat_n thou_o may_v be_v then_o prepare_v â—o_o appear_v courageous_o before_o his_o dread_a majesty_n 21._o as_o concern_v divers_a accident_n sorrow_n also_o upon_o all_o other_o accident_n and_o occasion_n as_o of_o grief_n &_o sorrow_n which_o be_v personal_a and_o peculiar_a to_o thyself_o thou_o may_v thus_o behave_v thou_o when_o grief_n or_o sadness_n have_v seize_v thy_o heart_n when_o melancholy_a oppress_v thy_o mind_n or_o when_o any_o inconveniency_n trouble_v thy_o body_n raise_v up_o and_o resign_v thy_o spirit_n to_o the_o supreme_a and_o eternal_a will_n of_o god_n who_o be_v please_v this_o molestation_n shall_v even_o now_o and_o thus_o touch_n and_o torment_v thou_o for_o thy_o good_a and_o his_o own_o glory_n and_o 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never_o deny_v her_o favour_n and_o succour_v to_o thou_o and_o all_o spiritual_a combatant_n humble_o implore_v it_o 24._o so_o let_v the_o picture_n of_o saint_n seem_v as_o so_o many_o representative_n of_o saint_n and_o the_o picture_n of_o saint_n stout_a champion_n and_o soldier_n who_o by_o their_o courage_n and_o conquest_n have_v make_v thou_o a_o free_a and_o safe_a passage_n to_o follow_v they_o imitate_v they_o overcome_v with_o they_o and_o be_v crown_v with_o they_o in_o eternal_a glory_n 25._o let_v the_o church_n which_o thou_o church_n or_o enterest_n into_o church_n frequent_a put_v thou_o in_o mind_n that_o thy_o soul_n be_v god_n temple_n and_o shall_v be_v therefore_o keep_v most_o pure_o and_o prepare_v most_o perfect_o for_o his_o come_n 26._o final_o let_v each_o creature_n all_o perfection_n final_o make_v all_o object_n &_o accident_n instrument_n to_o thy_o perfection_n object_n and_o every_o accident_n be_v so_o spiritualise_v and_o distil_v by_o thy_o 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our_o own_o conception_n we_o endeavour_v to_o imprint_v they_o in_o the_o hearer_n heart_n with_o soperfluous_a repetition_n and_o replication_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n to_o appear_v thereby_o more_o master_n of_o reason_n than_o other_o and_o as_o if_o they_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o our_o instruction_n few_o word_n can_v express_v the_o evil_n which_o ensue_v upon_o overmuch_o talk_v for_o it_o be_v the_o parent_n of_o idleness_n a_o argument_n of_o ignorance_n the_o door_n of_o detraction_n the_o instrument_n of_o falsehood_n and_o the_o blaster_n of_o all_o true_a devotion_n and_o spiritual_a fervour_n 3._o wherefore_o i_o advise_v thou_o in_o the_o discourse_n therefore_o avoid_v long_a discourse_n first_o place_n not_o to_o enlarge_v thyself_o in_o long_a discourse_n before_o unwilling_a hearer_n which_o be_v to_o break_v the_o law_n of_o civility_n nor_o yet_o before_o they_o who_o be_v willing_a to_o hearken_v to_o thou_o lest_o thou_o exceed_v the_o bound_n of_o modesty_n 4._o avoid_v also_o all_o pathetical_a and_o expression_n and_o passionate_a expression_n passionate_a expression_n and_o a_o over-high_a elevation_n of_o voice_n for_o both_o these_o be_v general_o odious_a to_o the_o hearer_n and_o always_o argument_n of_o thy_o own_o vanity_n and_o presumption_n 5._o speak_v not_o at_o all_o of_o thyself_o of_o affair_n and_o all_o talk_n of_o thy_o own_o affair_n thy_o own_o affair_n of_o thy_o patentage_n or_o kindred_n unless_o in_o case_n of_o evident_a necessity_n and_o then_o also_o with_o all_o possible_a brevity_n simplicity_n sincerity_n and_o modesty_n and_o if_o another_o seem_v superfluous_a in_o such_o speech_n concern_v himself_o be_v thou_o edify_v thereat_o but_o imitate_v he_o not_o though_o his_o word_n tend_v to_o his_o self-abjection_n and_o accusation_n 6._o discourse_v not_o of_o thy_o neighbour_n neighbour_n or_o of_o thy_o neighbour_n nor_o any_o thing_n concern_v he_o unless_o a_o just_a occasion_n urge_v thou_o to_o defend_v he_o or_o speak_v well_o of_o he_o 7._o show_v a_o willingness_n to_o talk_v god_n but_o speak_v willing_o of_o god_n always_o of_o god_n and_o particular_o of_o his_o love_n and_o liberality_n yet_o still_o with_o profound_a reverence_n for_o fear_n of_o fail_v and_o therefore_o take_v more_o content_a to_o hear_v other_o discourse_n than_o to_o talk_v thyself_o and_o conserve_v what_o good_a word_n be_v deliver_v in_o the_o cabin_n of_o thy_o heart_n 8._o as_o for_o all_o other_o discourse_n let_v the_o only_a sound_n strick_v thy_o ear_n but_o keep_v thy_o mind_n fix_v upon_o thy_o god_n and_o if_o thou_o needs_o must_v lend_v a_o ear_n because_o thy_o answer_n be_v expect_v yet_o let_v thy_o soul_n eye_v glance_v up_o to_o heaven_n utter_v and_o ponder_v in_o thy_o heart_n what_o thy_o tongue_n be_v to_o utter_v where_o thy_o lord_n and_o love_n be_v and_o first_o examine_v brief_o in_o thy_o heart_n what_o thou_o intend_v thy_o tongue_n shall_v utter_v whereby_o thou_o will_v quick_o resolve_v whether_o speech_n or_o silence_n be_v now_o more_o to_o the_o purpose_n 9_o last_o thou_o will_v find_v by_o experience_n my_o dear_o belove_a that_o silence_n the_o praise_n and_o profit_n of_o silence_n silence_n be_v a_o excellent_a and_o useful_a weapon_n for_o thy_o spiritual_a combat_n give_v courage_n to_o fight_v constancy_n to_o continue_v and_o confidence_n to_o overcome_v it_o be_v his_o sure_a friend_n who_o distrust_v himself_o and_o trust_v in_o his_o god_n it_o conserves_n we_o in_o devotion_n and_o comfort_v we_o in_o the_o exercise_n of_o our_o duty_n and_o sure_o the_o bare_a consideration_n of_o the_o disaster_n cause_v by_o inconsiderate_a talk_n be_v a_o sufficient_a motive_n to_o make_v we_o in_o love_n with_o silence_n to_o which_o that_o thou_o may_v habituate_v thyself_o make_v frequent_a use_n of_o solitude_n and_o retirement_n from_o fruitless_a company_n and_o frivolous_a conversation_n whereby_o instead_o of_o man_n thou_o shall_v
conquer_v thy_o enemy_n with_o his_o own_o weapon_n which_o he_o prepare_v for_o thy_o destruction_n 8._o when_o therefore_o thy_o sin_n be_v mercy_n and_o never_o to_o distrust_v his_o mercy_n suggest_v to_o thy_o memory_n conceive_v a_o perfect_a hatred_n of_o they_o as_o of_o thing_n detestable_a to_o the_o divine_a goodness_n yet_o be_v sure_a to_o have_v a_o hopeful_a confidence_n in_o thy_o saviour_n passion_n and_o i_o tell_v thou_o yet_o more_o shall_v thou_o seem_v to_o hear_v god_n say_v unto_o thou_o away_o thou_o be_v none_o of_o the_o number_n of_o my_o sheep_n yet_o thou_o be_v not_o to_o lose_v thy_o confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n but_o humble_o to_o reply_v thou_o have_v just_a reason_n o_o my_o sovereign_a lord_n god_n to_o shake_v i_o off_o for_o my_o sin_n sake_n but_o i_o have_v great_a reason_n to_o be_v confident_a of_o thy_o goodness_n and_o mercy_n and_o to_o believe_v that_o thou_o will_v pardon_v i_o therefore_o i_o humble_o beg_v salvation_n for_o this_o thy_o wretched_a creature_n damn_v indeed_o by_o its_o own_o malice_n but_o redeem_v by_o the_o passion_n and_o the_o merit_n of_o his_o passion_n dear_a ransom_n of_o thy_o son_n most_o precious_a blood_n and_o passion_n thou_o will_v save_v i_o o_o my_o redeemer_n for_o thy_o own_o glory_n sake_n and_o i_o resign_v myself_o free_o into_o thy_o hand_n upon_o the_o assurance_n of_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n do_v with_o i_o and_o dispose_v of_o i_o as_o thou_o best_o please_v for_o thou_o be_v my_o only_a lord_n and_o if_o thou_o kill_v i_o yet_o i_o will_v place_v my_o whole_a hope_n in_o thy_o heavenly_a goodness_n of_o the_o assault_n of_o vain_a glory_n 9_o the_o three_o assault_n be_v that_o of_o vainglory_n the_o three_o assault_n be_v of_o vainglory_n vainglory_n and_o presumption_n here_o thou_o be_v to_o be_v squall_n wary_a of_o the_o other_o extreme_a and_o never_o to_o admit_v of_o the_o least_o conceit_n or_o complacency_n in_o thyself_o or_o thy_o action_n but_o to_o refer_v all_o goodness_n that_o seem_v to_o be_v in_o thou_o pure_o to_o god_n great_a mercy_n and_o the_o merit_n of_o christ_n passion_n embase_v thyself_o in_o thy_o heart_n whilst_o there_o be_v the_o least_o remainder_n of_o breath_n in_o thy_o body_n and_o acknowledge_v thy_o god_n which_o be_v conquer_v by_o distrust_n of_o thyself_o and_o trust_v in_o god_n god_n as_o the_o true_a fountain_n of_o all_o thy_o goodness_n look_v not_o at_o all_o upon_o thy_o own_o merit_n but_o rely_v total_o upon_o his_o mercy_n distrust_v thyself_o and_o trust_v in_o thy_o saviour_n and_o think_v what_o poor_a provision_n thou_o have_v lay_v up_o in_o store_n for_o this_o passage_n of_o death_n and_o thy_o journey_n to_o eternity_n and_o how_o vain_a and_o useless_a all_o thou_o own_o endeavour_n will_v prove_v unless_o god_n will_v be_v please_v to_o put_v his_o help_a hand_n and_o gather_v thou_o under_o the_o sacred_a wing_n of_o his_o divine_a protection_n of_o illusion_n and_o false_a aprearance_n which_o be_v usual_o present_v at_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n 10._o if_o thy_o obstinate_a enemy_n who_o be_v illusion_n the_o four_o assault_n be_v by_o false_a illusion_n ever_o study_v to_o supplant_v thou_o shall_v at_o this_o time_n set_v upon_o thou_o with_o false_a appearance_n and_o transfiguration_n of_o himself_o into_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n thy_o best_a way_n be_v to_o recurre_v to_o the_o certain_a knowledge_n of_o thy_o own_o nothing_o and_o bold_o to_o answer_v he_o depart_v o_o thou_o accurse_a devil_n into_o heaven_n against_o which_o have_v recourse_n to_o the_o confession_n of_o thy_o own_o nothing_o and_o admit_v they_o not_o though_o they_o seem_v to_o come_v from_o heaven_n thy_o own_o darkness_n i_o neither_o deserve_v nor_o desire_v any_o vision_n i_o need_v no_o other_o thing_n than_o the_o mercy_n of_o my_o jesus_n the_o prayer_n of_o the_o virgin_n mary_n and_o the_o assistauce_n of_o the_o saint_n yea_o though_o thou_o have_v reason_n to_o guess_v by_o some_o evident_a sign_n that_o these_o thing_n be_v from_o heaven_n yet_o still_o deny_v they_o all_o access_n unto_o thou_o and_o drive_v they_o far_o from_o thou_o nor_o need_v thou_o fear_v lest_o any_o such_o resistance_n ground_v upon_o thy_o own_o indignity_n shall_v displease_v god_n for_o if_o the_o vision_n come_v from_o he_o he_o know_v well_o how_o to_o make_v they_o manifest_v notwithstanding_o thy_o opposition_n and_o be_v secure_a to_o be_v thereby_o no_o loser_n since_o he_o who_o give_v his_o grace_n to_o the_o humble_a can_v be_v angry_a with_o he_o who_o practise_v such_o high_a act_n of_o that_o virtue_n 11._o these_o be_v the_o common_a and_o particular_a after_o these_o general_a temptation_n follow_v other_o in_o particular_a ordinary_a engine_n which_o our_o enemy_n make_v use_v of_o in_o this_o last_o passage_n after_o which_o follow_v his_o other_o train_a band_n of_o temptation_n according_a to_o each_o one_o particular_a inclination_n and_o disposition_n stand_v therefore_o timely_a to_o thy_o arm_n my_o beloved_a before_o this_o great_a day_n of_o battle_n steal_v upon_o thou_o and_o fight_v now_o valiant_o and_o generous_o against_o thy_o violent_a passion_n and_o imperfection_n that_o thou_o may_v be_v prepare_v at_o that_o time_n which_o take_v from_o thou_o all_o other_o time_n and_o power_n to_o perform_v it_o chap._n xx._n that_o we_o must_v never_o flatttr_n ourselves_o as_o have_v subdue_v our_o enemy_n but_o must_v often_o return_v to_o our_o wont_a exercise_n as_o if_o we_o be_v yet_o novice_n in_o this_o spiritual_a conflict_n i_o have_v yet_o one_o thing_n o_o beloved_a victory_n never_o persuade_v thyself_o thou_o have_v get_v a_o full_a victory_n to_o tell_v thou_o of_o which_o be_v that_o thou_o never_o persuade_v thyself_o to_o have_v get_v a_o full_a victory_n over_o any_o one_o of_o thy_o passion_n though_o perchance_o thou_o have_v for_o a_o long_a time_n together_o feel_v no_o motion_n thereof_o but_o 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what_o concern_v diffidence_n in_o ourselves_o confidence_n in_o our_o god_n and_o continual_a exercise_n which_o be_v the_o three_o necessary_a mean_n to_o get_v the_o victory_n of_o our_o passion_n and_o to_o conquer_v the_o disorder_a motion_n of_o our_o sensuality_n now_o follow_v the_o four_o which_o be_v holy_a prayer_n and_o this_o be_v the_o best_a and_o most_o efficacious_a mean_n to_o obtain_v all_o good_a thing_n from_o god_n gracious_a and_o bountiful_a hand_n explication_n for_o prayer_n be_v the_o food_n the_o comfort_n prayer_n a_o furthet_n description_n of_o prayer_n and_o the_o support_n of_o the_o soul_n during_o its_o pilgrimage_n upon_o earth_n it_o be_v a_o secure_a bridge_n for_o it_o to_o pass_v over_o the_o several_a sea_n of_o adversity_n and_o prosperity_n it_o be_v a_o wall_n of_o defence_n against_o vice_n and_o temptation_n a_o key_n open_v into_o the_o cabinet_n of_o celestial_a treasure_n the_o door_n of_o holy_a thought_n and_o final_o a_o invincible_a citadel_n and_o sure_o retreat_v place_n from_o the_o violent_a assault_n of_o all_o our_o enemy_n by_o prayer_n if_o thou_o know_v how_o to_o apply_v it_o to_o its_o true_a use_n thou_o put_v a_o sword_n into_o thy_o lord_n powerful_a hand_n wherewith_o he_o will_v fight_v thy_o battle_n for_o thou_o and_o vanquish_v all_o enemy_n which_o oppose_v thou_o in_o thy_o way_n of_o perfection_n 2._o but_o to_o make_v thy_o prayer_n grateful_a property_n text._n which_o must_v have_v these_o property_n useful_a and_o acceptable_a it_o must_v be_v accompany_v with_o these_o condition_n and_o property_n first_o that_o a_o ardent_a desire_n to_o god_n 1._o a_o desire_n to_o serve_v god_n serve_v thy_o lord_n god_n in_o such_o a_o manner_n as_o may_v best_o pleasure_v his_o divine_a majesty_n do_v continual_o inflame_v thy_o heart_n explication_n to_o obtain_v this_o inflame_a desire_n desire_n how_o to_o obtain_v
disorder_a love_n to_o any_o worldly_a person_n no_o favour_n or_o friendship_n o_o my_o only_a amiable_a lord_n god_n no_o greatness_n or_o goodness_n of_o any_o one_o shall_v make_v i_o fwerve_v from_o my_o exact_a duty_n to_o thee-ward_n no_o carnal_a affection_n to_o kindred_n no_o tenderness_n of_o amity_n no_o private_a or_o public_a respect_n no_o connivency_n or_o correspondency_n shall_v make_v i_o partial_a in_o the_o reproof_n of_o vice_n or_o praise_v of_o virtue_n o_o take_v up_o my_o whole_a heart_n with_o thy_o holy_a love_n that_o thy_o perfect_a image_n and_o perpetual_a memory_n may_v blot_v out_o all_o species_n of_o foreign_a object_n i_o renounce_v all_o vain_a vicious_a idle_a and_o unprofitable_a thought_n fancy_n and_o imagination_n o_o let_v my_o mind_n not_o only_o yield_v no_o consent_n but_o no_o entrance_n unto_o they_o o_o let_v i_o never_o more_o contristate_v thy_o holy_a spirit_n with_o these_o vanity_n nor_o hinder_v my_o soul_n advancement_n and_o 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thy_o crucify_a jesus_n this_o be_v not_o he_o but_o his_o gift_n o_o my_o lord_n it_o be_v thyself_o i_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o if_o thou_o send_v i_o comfort_n for_o the_o encouragement_n of_o my_o weakness_n be_v thou_o ever_o praise_v for_o thou_o do_v like_o a_o most_o benign_a and_o bountiful_a god_n if_o thou_o withdrawe_v they_o still_o bless_v be_v thy_o providence_n which_o have_v secret_a and_o several_a way_n of_o conduct_a soul_n to_o thyself_o and_o if_o thou_o will_v make_v trial_n of_o my_o fidelity_n by_o permit_v i_o to_o be_v dull_a dry_a and_o desolate_a in_o my_o devotion_n be_v thou_o equal_o and_o eternal_o bless_v i_o renounce_v all_o scrupulosity_n of_o conscience_n which_o reflect_v any_o way_n upon_o the_o least_o diffidence_n or_o distrust_n in_o thy_o mercy_n i_o be_o a_o sinner_n o_o jesus_n but_o thou_o be_v a_o saviour_n i_o have_v great_a reason_n to_o dread_v thy_o justice_n but_o great_a to_o hope_v in_o thy_o goodness_n heaven_n and_o earth_n 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not_o my_o will_n but_o thou_o be_v do_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n o_o let_v i_o will_v what_o thou_o will_v or_o not_o will_n at_o all_o let_v all_o my_o desire_n be_v involuntary_a if_o they_o swerve_v never_o so_o little_a from_o thy_o divine_a pleasure_n die_v self-will_n live_v jesus_n my_o lord_n my_o love_n my_o all_o for_o saturday_o of_o conformity_n to_o christ_n crucify_a the_o six_o exercise_n 1._o crucify_a jesu_n thou_o only_a lord_n of_o my_o life_n life_n of_o my_o love_n and_o love_n of_o my_o soul_n o_o that_o i_o can_v reform_v my_o life_n deiform_a my_o love_n and_o conform_v my_o soul_n to_o thou_o the_o absolute_a pattern_n of_o all_o perfection_n o_o that_o i_o can_v imprint_v thy_o lively_a and_o lovely_a image_n in_o my_o heart_n fasten_v all_o my_o affection_n and_o imperfection_n to_o thy_o sacred_a cross_n drown_v all_o my_o desire_n and_o defect_n in_o thy_o dear_a wound_n put_v off_o myself_o total_o and_o put_v thou_o on_o entire_o o_o sacred_a humanity_n o_o my_o suffer_a saviour_n o_o that_o i_o can_v perfect_o imitate_v thou_o the_o pure_a exemplar_n of_o all_o virtue_n that_o i_o can_v give_v up_o my_o whole_a self_n to_o thou_o by_o a_o act_n of_o irrevocable_a donation_n as_o thou_o demand_v and_o command_v but_o alas_o i_o be_o yet_o o_o my_o jesus_n all_o self-love_n sin_n and_o sensuality_n i_o acknowledge_v o_o my_o lord_n what_o i_o have_v and_o what_o i_o want_v i_o know_v what_o i_o desire_v and_o what_o i_o deserve_v i_o confess_v i_o be_o wound_v i_o be_o wicked_a i_o be_o wretched_a and_o i_o tremble_o come_v to_o thou_o my_o heavenly_a physician_n to_o be_v cure_v convert_v comfort_v o_o sweet_a saviour_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n and_o for_o thy_o passion_n sake_n forget_v and_o forgive_v what_o i_o have_v be_v pity_v what_o i_o be_o satisfy_v for_o what_o i_o deserve_v and_o supply_v what_o i_o desire_v 2._o behold_v most_o merciful_a jesu_n i_o first_o cast_v myself_o at_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n pierce_v and_o fasten_v to_o the_o cruel_a cross_n for_o my_o transgression_n pierce_v my_o flesh_n o_o my_o lord_n with_o thy_o fear_n and_o fasten_v my_o soul_n to_o thy_o love_n o_o let_v not_o pride_n and_o presumption_n nestle_v any_o long_o in_o that_o heart_n which_o thou_o o_o meek_a saviour_n love_v so_o tender_o and_o redeem_v at_o so_o dear_a a_o rate_n o_o my_o vain_a glory_n and_o arrogancy_n what_o have_v i_o to_o do_v with_o you_o how_o much_o do_v i_o now_o detest_v you_o wash_v off_o these_o stain_n o_o jesu_n from_o my_o poor_a soul_n in_o these_o sweet_a stream_n flow_v from_o thy_o wound_a foot_n o_o drown_v these_o my_o imperfection_n in_o these_o sacred_a sea_n of_o piety_n give_v i_o o_o gracious_a lord_n such_o true_a humility_n of_o spirit_n that_o i_o may_v
heart_n into_o which_o we_o may_v secure_o and_o sweet_o retire_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o all_o worldly_a variety_n this_o be_v to_o walk_v with_o god_n as_o enoch_n do_v and_o to_o be_v in_o continual_a conversation_n with_o the_o divinity_n a_o more_o sublime_a way_n to_o practice_v god_n presence_n be_v to_o look_v always_o upon_o he_o without_o any_o discourse_n by_o a_o simple_a act_n of_o lively_a faith_n not_o to_o question_v how_o or_o in_o what_o manner_n he_o be_v present_a nor_o to_o presence_n a_o high_a way_n to_o practice_n god_n presence_n fix_v our_o eye_n upon_o his_o inaccessible_a splendour_n because_o it_o be_v yet_o night_n for_o we_o we_o be_v but_o traveller_n and_o we_o must_v expect_v until_o the_o bright_a day_n of_o eternity_n shine_v upon_o we_o and_o show_v he_o unto_o we_o as_o he_o be_v in_o himself_o we_o must_v not_o think_v here_o to_o behold_v he_o but_o be_v content_a to_o believe_v he_o present_v with_o we_o and_o within_o we_o and_o that_o we_o 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that_o i_o can_v perfect_o practice_v it_o how_o pure_o and_o peaceable_o shall_v i_o both_o live_v and_o die_v meek_n and_o humble_a spirit_n converse_v together_o like_o mourn_a turtle_n like_o innocent_a lamb_n and_o like_o corporal_a angel_n turn_v the_o bless_a family_n where_o they_o live_v into_o a_o earthly_a paradise_n etc._n etc._n in_o the_o external_a practice_n of_o this_o virtue_n we_o be_v to_o observe_v chief_o these_o three_o degree_n first_o to_o forbear_v forgo_v deny_v humility_n three_o point_n for_o the_o external_a pactise_n of_o humility_n and_o submit_v our_o own_o judgement_n hearty_o humble_o and_o real_o not_o only_o to_o our_o superior_n but_o also_o to_o all_o other_o cast_v ourselves_o at_o their_o foot_n yea_o and_o under_o their_o foot_n to_o be_v tread_v on_o as_o dust_n and_o dirt_n and_o this_o as_o near_o as_o may_v be_v for_o god_n sake_n second_o not_o to_o care_v what_o other_o say_v or_o think_v of_o we_o which_o point_n which_o that_o other_o 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and_o be_v total_o mortify_v in_o our_o appetiteâ—_n and_o desire_n renounce_v absolute_o all_o propriety_n and_o self-seeking_a these_o short_a word_n contain_v infinite_a perfection_n and_o to_o move_v we_o powerful_o to_o the_o prosecution_n of_o this_o virtue_n we_o may_v thus_o question_v ourselves_o 1._o do_v not_o all_o thing_n humble_v humility_n motive_n to_o humility_n themselves_o to_o serve_v i_o both_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n the_o saint_n to_o pity_v i_o the_o angel_n to_o protect_v i_o the_o mother_n of_o god_n to_o remember_v i_o thâ—_n son_n of_o god_n to_o redeem_v i_o and_o god_n himself_o to_o remain_v with_o i_o reign_n within_o i_o comfort_v i_o in_o my_o prayer_n feed_v i_o in_o communion_n relieve_v i_o in_o tribulation_n 2._o o_o strange_a humility_n of_o my_o saviour_n not_o only_o to_o descend_v unto_o but_o into_o a_o wicked_a worm_n not_o only_o to_o eat_v with_o a_o sinner_n but_o to_o be_v eat_v by_o a_o sinner_n o_o strange_a pride_n in_o i_o to_o see_v the_o lord_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n so_o humble_v in_o his_o incarnation_n passion_n communion_n and_o yet_o to_o see_v a_o beggar_n so_o proud_a a_o sinner_n so_o lofty_a mind_v and_o dust_n and_o ash_n have_v such_o difficulty_n to_o stoop_v 3._o upon_o earth_n do_v not_o all_o thing_n serve_v i_o for_o body_n or_o soul_n some_o to_o nourish_v i_o some_o to_o clothe_v i_o other_o to_o cure_v i_o other_o to_o correct_v i_o other_o to_z comfort_n and_o instruct_v i_o even_o my_o better_n superior_n and_o confessor_n must_v humble_v themselves_o to_o i_o because_o my_o pride_n will_v not_o bend_v to_o they_o all_o creature_n must_v be_v subject_a to_o i_o and_o i_o will_v not_o be_v subject_a to_o my_o creator_n alas_o what_o mean_v i_o when_o shall_v i_o begin_v o_o secure_a and_o sweet_a humility_n when_o shall_v i_o practise_v thou_o 4._o do_v not_o all_o the_o world_n all_o that_o i_o be_o and_o have_v my_o body_n my_o soul_n my_o action_n my_o suffering_n my_o sin_n furnish_v i_o with_o sufficient_a argument_n of_o humility_n what_o be_v i_o from_o eternity_n what_o be_o i_o what_o shall_v i_o be_v what_o have_v i_o that_o i_o have_v not_o receive_v what_o have_v i_o receive_v that_o i_o have_v not_o abuse_v etc._n etc._n 5._o upon_o who_o do_v the_o holy_a 2._o esay_n 66._o 2._o ghost_n promise_n to_o rest_n but_o on_o humble_a and_o quiet_a soul_n stoop_n o_o dust_n and_o ash_n o_o amiable_a humility_n how_o necessary_a be_v thou_o for_o i_o how_o please_v to_o god_n and_o man_n with_o what_o comfort_n and_o quiet_a do_v thou_o enrich_v thy_o possessor_n o_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n what_o do_v i_o not_o get_v by_o humility_n what_o do_v i_o lose_v by_o pride_n and_o presumption_n etc._n etc._n the_o 25._o maxim_n that_o silence_n and_o solitude_n be_v our_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n these_o be_v the_o proper_a instrument_n 28_o s._n tho._n 2._o 2._o q._n 188._o a._n 8._o lam._n 3._o 28_o of_o contemplation_n where_o our_o soul_n sit_v silent_o and_o solitary_o lift_v up_o above_o themselves_o by_o transcend_v all_o thing_n create_v and_o unite_n themselves_o to_o their_o creator_n we_o must_v observe_v they_o diligent_o 39_o read_v cisnerius_n ch_n 39_o discreet_o and_o devout_o not_o out_o of_o a_o sullen_a or_o melancholy_a humour_n or_o in_o a_o disdainful_a and_o disgustful_a manner_n or_o out_o of_o pride_n and_o singularity_n or_o to_o wave_v matter_n of_o mortification_n or_o to_o avoid_v the_o company_n of_o such_o as_o we_o brook_v not_o and_o have_v a_o version_n from_o but_o with_o a_o internal_a cheerfulness_n to_o converse_v with_o god_n in_o spiritual_a joy_n and_o fervour_n and_o the_o ordinary_a practice_n of_o they_o may_v be_v reduce_v to_o these_o four_o point_n first_o to_o retire_v ourselves_o and_o practice_n 4._o point_n
go_v on_o in_o our_o introversion_n with_o perfect_a freedom_n and_o liberty_n simplicity_n and_o purity_n without_o further_a fear_n or_o reflection_n let_v we_o i_o say_v keep_v on_o soft_a and_o fair_a according_a to_o order_n and_o obedience_n in_o our_o exercise_n of_o humility_n recollection_n and_o inward_a conversation_n with_o god_n check_v and_o desire_n we_o must_v curb_v importunate_a desire_n curb_v all_o importune_a pretension_n desire_n and_o resolution_n of_o do_v strange_a matter_n and_o rest_v content_a in_o what_o god_n send_v and_o our_o poverty_n afford_v neither_o run_v before_o his_o grace_n nor_o beyond_o our_o own_o strength_n let_v we_o leave_v all_o intermeddle_v peace_n of_o little_o meddle_v come_v great_a peace_n with_o other_o do_n and_o affair_n look_v only_o to_o our_o own_o care_n and_o charge_n think_v all_o other_o more_o perfect_a than_o ourselves_o and_o be_v true_o glad_a that_o our_o dear_a lord_n be_v pure_o love_v and_o perfect_o serve_v by_o they_o this_o be_v a_o sure_a way_n to_o avoid_v many_o stumble_a block_n of_o our_o enemy_n to_o begin_v to_o taste_v the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n in_o this_o life_n to_o live_v without_o solicitude_n and_o die_v without_o fear_n or_o trouble_v for_o the_o further_a practice_n of_o this_o point_n further_a practice_n of_o this_o point_n important_a point_n and_o to_o obtain_v this_o happy_a quiet_a and_o content_a of_o mind_n first_o we_o must_v careful_o avoid_v and_o contemn_v all_o curiosity_n to_o see_v hear_v know_v or_o have_v a_o hand_n in_o what_o concern_v we_o not_o second_o we_o must_v labour_v to_o be_v as_o it_o be_v blind_a deaf_a dumb_a insensible_a pass_v by_o all_o thing_n or_o let_v they_o pass_v by_o we_o for_o all_o be_v vanity_n solomon_n one_o to_o one_o s._n giles_n my_o god_n and_o all_o s._n francis_n whatsoever_o have_v a_o end_n be_v nothing_o s._n terese_n what_o be_v that_o to_o thou_o follow_v thou_o i_o jesus_n christ_n three_o what_o be_v it_o we_o will_v see_v hear_v or_o know_v novelty_n vanity_n a_o transitory_a toy_n a_o foolish_a fable_n a_o impertinent_a object_n a_o fly_a shadow_n a_o false_a deceit_n four_o to_o what_o end_n either_o it_o will_v defile_v our_o soul_n or_o disquiet_v our_o mind_n or_o distract_v our_o spirit_n or_o divert_v our_o intention_n or_o imprint_v idle_a image_n or_o excite_v our_o passion_n or_o renew_v our_o vicious_a affection_n all_o which_o be_v great_a hindrance_n in_o a_o spiritual_a and_o contemplative_a course_n ah_o poor_a soul_n what_o amiable_a and_o admirable_a light_n and_o love_n do_v we_o leave_v and_o lose_v for_o a_o vain_a curiosity_n etc._n etc._n the_o 30._o maxim_n that_o cross_n be_v to_o be_v suffer_v not_o seek_v to_o be_v take_v not_o make_v to_o be_v conceal_v not_o complain_v of_o it_o be_v far_o better_o to_o take_v cross_n when_o where_o and_o how_o we_o find_v they_o than_o to_o make_v they_o ourselves_o for_o this_o be_v loss_n of_o time_n and_o a_o nourishment_n of_o self-love_n let_v we_o not_o therefore_o cast_v ourselves_o indiscreet_o upon_o difficulty_n or_o seek_v out_o occasion_n of_o humility_n and_o patience_n but_o be_v ready_a to_o receive_v and_o indifferent_a to_o accept_v such_o as_o befall_v we_o and_o we_o shall_v find_v enough_o to_o do_v let_v we_o make_v as_o little_a outward_a show_n as_o may_v be_v of_o our_o inward_a suffering_n but_o keep_v that_o secret_a to_o ourselves_o till_o obedience_n and_o just_a reason_n induce_v we_o to_o reveal_v it_o and_o then_o let_v we_o do_v it_o simple_o sincere_o and_o resigned_o o_o what_o peace_n what_o profit_n what_o pleasure_n shall_v we_o find_v in_o this_o real_a proceed_n complaint_n be_v common_o accompany_v with_o self-seeking_a and_o small_a trouble_n be_v soon_o cure_v by_o quiet_a suffering_n than_o much_o show_n or_o speak_v of_o they_o do_v this_o cross_n come_v from_o 2._o see_v the_o conflict_n ch_n 10._o n._n 2._o man_n and_o be_v it_o not_o rather_o permit_v and_o provide_v by_o our_o belove_a lord_n from_o all_o eternity_n to_o purify_v we_o from_o pride_n to_o purge_v we_o from_o the_o love_n of_o creature_n and_o to_o dispose_v we_o for_o heaven_n and_o happiness_n the_o 31._o maxim_n that_o temptation_n can_v hurt_v we_o if_o we_o cast_v our_o whole_a care_n upon_o god_n when_o temptation_n passion_n practice_n 4._o rule_n of_o practice_n repugnancy_n or_o repine_n rage_n in_o the_o inferior_a portion_n of_o our_o soul_n we_o be_v present_o to_o reflect_v 1._o that_o we_o have_v make_v choice_n of_o god_n love_n for_o our_o end_n and_o resolve_v to_o stand_v to_o it_o till_o death_n 2._o that_o we_o must_v willing_o submit_v to_o the_o trouble_n as_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n to_o permit_v it_o 3._o that_o we_o must_v continue_v in_o our_o practice_n of_o piety_n and_o recollection_n as_o if_o we_o feel_v no_o affliction_n neither_o think_v on_o they_o nor_o fear_v they_o but_o assure_v ourselves_o that_o nothing_o can_v injure_v we_o so_o long_o as_o we_o rely_v upon_o god_n and_o resent_v our_o own_o weakness_n 4._o that_o prayer_n may_v be_v our_o chief_a refuge_n and_o support_v against_o all_o their_o surprisal_n and_o therefore_o we_o may_v say_v brief_o and_o hearty_o perfect_a thy_o strength_n o_o powerful_a lord_n in_o my_o weakness_n let_v thy_o mercy_n triumph_v on_o the_o throne_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o detest_v from_o my_o heart_n whatsoever_o be_v contrary_a to_o thy_o holy_a will_n in_o this_o point_n n._n and_o all_o thing_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o suffer_v it_o as_o long_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n thou_o please_v though_o never_o so_o cross_a to_o my_o crooked_a nature_n sweet_a saviour_n remain_v with_o i_o and_o let_v thy_o love_n reign_n in_o i_o and_o then_o i_o neither_o want_v other_o company_n nor_o desire_v further_a comfort_n the_o 32._o maxim_n that_o desolation_n dereliction_n affliction_n distraction_n be_v to_o be_v transcend_v by_o generous_a resolution_n in_o time_n of_o desolation_n etc._n etc._n we_o be_v not_o to_o dispute_v with_o ourselves_o nor_o examine_v the_o cause_n or_o circumstance_n of_o our_o suffering_n for_o we_o be_v then_o neither_o competent_a nor_o indifferent_a judge_n but_o we_o must_v refer_v that_o until_o the_o time_n of_o prayer_n talk_v not_o now_o with_o your_o passionate_a and_o partial_a heart_n but_o speak_v to_o god_n about_o some_o other_o thing_n transcend_v and_o dissemble_v your_o trouble_n in_o some_o such_o manner_n good_a god_n when_o shall_v this_o pilgrimage_n have_v a_o end_n my_o life_n be_v a_o continual_a warfare_n upon_o earth_n wherein_o all_o be_v vanity_n all_o be_v affliction_n of_o spirit_n all_o be_v full_a of_o frailty_n misery_n instability_n o_o lord_n what_o be_v man_n that_o thou_o shall_v mind_v he_o a_o weak_a reed_n wag_v with_o every_o wind_n and_o contristate_v with_o every_o little_a cross_n and_o contrariety_n burdensome_a to_o himself_o and_o troublesome_a to_o other_o etc._n etc._n there_o be_v more_o profit_n and_o less_o danger_n to_o suffer_v desolation_n than_o to_o abound_v with_o consolation_n to_o desire_v sensible_a love_n and_o contrition_n than_o to_o feel_v it_o to_o resist_v temptation_n distraction_n passion_n with_o patience_n and_o resignation_n than_o to_o have_v none_o at_o all_o it_o be_v a_o sign_n of_o high_a and_o heroic_a virtue_n 1._o to_o be_v resign_v when_o it_o seem_v we_o neither_o be_v nor_o can_v be_v resign_v 2._o to_o be_v patient_n when_o we_o be_v full_a of_o motion_n to_o anger_n 3._o to_o be_v humble_a meek_a and_o quiet_a in_o time_n of_o sickness_n serious_a business_n multiplicity_n of_o employment_n 4._o to_o be_v constant_a and_o invariable_a in_o all_o the_o diversity_n and_o variety_n of_o our_o own_o changeable_a humour_n disposition_n inclination_n internal_a invitation_n external_a instigation_n let_v we_o not_o think_v we_o lose_v our_o time_n when_o we_o be_v involuntary_o distract_v in_o prayer_n but_o rather_o comfort_v ourselves_o in_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o comfort_n because_o we_o then_o remain_v in_o that_o state_n in_o which_o god_n will_v have_v we_o let_v we_o conceive_v ourselves_o as_o within_o the_o wall_n of_o a_o strong_a castle_n without_o which_o be_v great_a noise_n outcry_n tumult_n alarm_n but_o we_o safe_a and_o secure_a within_o slight_v their_o vain_a attempt_n if_o our_o desire_n be_v to_o love_n god_n and_o our_o intention_n to_o be_v with_o he_o and_o we_o hold_v no_o discourse_n with_o other_o divertisment_n we_o have_v make_v a_o good_a and_o profitable_a prayer_n etc._n etc._n the_o 33._o maxim_n that_o perfection_n consist_v in_o put_v off_o all_o propriety_n and_o put_v on_o pure_a and_o naked_a charity_n this_o will_v make_v we_o love_v god_n above_o all_o thing_n and_o all_o thing_n in_o and_o for_o he_o only_o unite_n our_o spirit_n to_o god_n and_o in_o he_o to_o our_o
most_o certain_a that_o whosoever_o leave_v recollection_n to_o look_v after_o earthly_a consolation_n enjoy_v neither_o god_n nor_o the_o world_n whereas_o a_o soul_n which_o retire_v herself_o from_o the_o world_n to_o possess_v god_n enjoy_v true_o both_o god_n and_o the_o world_n together_o the_o 37._o and_o last_o maxim_n that_o we_o must_v walk_v and_o persevere_v in_o these_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n with_o the_o two_o foot_n of_o faith_n and_o obedience_n to_o perform_v this_o we_o must_v 1._o leave_v all_o for_o one_o all_z other_o for_o god_n ourselves_o for_o god_n god_n himself_o when_o he_o withdraw_v himself_o by_o recollection_n by_o abnegation_n by_o resignation_n 2._o leave_v one_o for_o all_o 3._o leave_v one_o and_o all_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o maxim_n consist_v in_o these_o five_o point_n 1._o to_o have_v a_o ardent_a desire_n affection_n practice_n the_o practice_n and_o intention_n to_o love_v see_v please_v and_o enjoy_v god_n 2._o to_o curb_v our_o sense_n from_o all_o curiosity_n vanity_n apprehension_n etc._n etc._n which_o may_v either_o defile_v our_o soul_n or_o disturb_v our_o mind_n or_o distract_v our_o spirit_n either_o seduce_v we_o from_o the_o right_a way_n or_o affright_v we_o when_o we_o be_v in_o it_o 3._o then_o we_o must_v take_v jesus_n by_o the_o right_a hand_n by_o faith_n and_o confidence_n abandon_v ourselves_o total_o to_o his_o mercy_n and_o rest_v in_o his_o providence_n with_o a_o filial_a indifferency_n 4._o we_o must_v take_v our_o spiritual_a guide_n by_o the_o left_a hand_n by_o punctual_a obedience_n 5._o in_o our_o way_n we_o must_v have_v these_o or_o the_o like_a thought_n recollection_n and_o devotion_n well_o i_o be_o go_v to_o heaven_n to_o my_o father_n and_o creator_n to_o my_o eternal_a rest_n and_o centre_n to_o see_v love_n and_o praise_v my_o god_n for_o evermore_o there_o only_o be_v true_a life_n true_a love_n true_a light_n and_o true_a liberty_n o_o jesus_n how_o long_o o_o jerusalem_n when_o jesus_n be_v with_o i_o and_o for_o i_o him_z i_o will_v follow_v after_o he_o i_o will_v sigh_v and_o for_o he_o i_o will_v suffer_v come_v what_o can_v if_o i_o err_v let_v my_o guide_n look_v to_o it_o for_o i_o be_o obedient_a if_o i_o stumble_v jesus_n will_v not_o let_v i_o fall_v for_o i_o be_o faithful_a if_o i_o can_v have_v the_o fruit_n of_o penance_n i_o will_v keep_v that_o of_o obedience_n what_o i_o can_v get_v by_o recollection_n i_o will_v procure_v by_o resignation_n what_o i_o want_v by_o indifferency_n i_o will_v supply_v by_o confidence_n though_o my_o desert_n fail_v my_o desire_n shall_v prevail_v what_o have_v a_o end_n be_v nothing_o live_v eternity_n sometime_o let_v we_o hearken_v to_o jesus_n speak_v o_o my_o child_n my_o servant_n my_o spouse_n what_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o thou_o follow_v thou_o i_o let_v all_o pass_n i_o be_o here_o all_o be_v one_o and_o one_o be_v all_o trouble_v not_o thyself_o with_o multiplicity_n be_v silent_a and_o i_o will_v answer_v for_o thou_o be_v content_a i_o be_o thy_o sufficiency_n be_v indifferent_a all_o be_v my_o will_n be_v confident_a all_o be_v well_o i_o forgive_v thou_o all_o thou_o demand_v i_o will_v give_v thou_o all_o thou_o desire_v i_o will_v never_o desert_v thou_o nor_o withdraw_v my_o eye_n hand_n heart_n from_o thou_o therefore_o go_v on_o quiet_o courageous_o confident_o other_o time_n let_v we_o answer_v he_o meek_o and_o faithful_o o_o good_a jesus_n save_v i_o for_o i_o be_o thou_o o_o sweet_a saviour_n support_v i_o for_o i_o be_o weak_a o_o love_a guide_n direct_v i_o for_o i_o be_o blind_a etc._n etc._n thus_o bold_o let_v we_o keep_v on_o our_o way_n 1._o let_v pass_n all_o by_o insensibility_n 2._o out-passing_a all_o by_o fervour_n 3._o pass_v under_o all_o by_o humility_n 4._o pass_v over_o all_o by_o generosity_n and_o elevation_n of_o spirit_n under_o this_o maxim_n be_v solve_v many_o material_a doubt_n arise_v in_o our_o daily_a progress_n to_o perfection_n the_o first_o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v that_o god_n will_v forsake_v we_o by_o reason_n of_o our_o ingratitude_n and_o disloyalty_n it_o be_v true_a we_o have_v be_v be_v still_o and_o ever_o shall_v be_v ungrateful_a tepid_a and_o defective_a in_o our_o correspondency_n to_o the_o divine_a love_n and_o light_a and_o god_n may_v in_o justice_n forsake_v we_o and_o yet_o be_v a_o good_a god_n but_o we_o must_v be_v confident_a in_o his_o mercy_n that_o he_o will_v not_o do_v it_o for_o jesus_n sake_n in_o fury_n and_o rigour_n though_o he_o may_v sometime_o withdraw_v the_o feeling_n of_o his_o presence_n to_o try_v our_o loyalty_n his_o holy_a will_v be_v do_v let_v we_o never_o say_v god_n will_v forsake_v we_o but_o say_v we_o will_v never_o forsake_v god_n let_v we_o first_o say_v do_v god_n love_v we_o who_o can_v doubt_v it_o and_o do_v we_o love_v he_o if_o we_o will_v we_o do_v let_v we_o never_o say_v we_o shall_v never_o amend_v all_o be_v lose_v but_o let_v we_o often_o say_v we_o be_v sinner_n wicked_a wretched_a weak_a none_o more_o than_o we_o but_o it_o true_o grieve_v we_o to_o be_v so_o we_o will_v endeavour_v to_o remedy_v all_o sure_o we_o be_v our_o god_n be_v almighty_a all-mercy_n all-meekness_n he_o we_o will_v serve_v and_o in_o he_o we_o will_v trust_v in_o despite_n of_o nature_n and_o maugre_o the_o devil_n and_o for_o he_o all_o desolation_n and_o death_n itself_o be_v most_o welcome_a unto_o we_o the_o 2._o doubt_n if_o our_o sin_n trouble_v we_o in_o respect_n of_o confession_n and_o satisfaction_n let_v we_o cast_v off_o servile_a fear_n and_o be_v confident_a that_o what_o be_v pass_v be_v pardon_v by_o god_n mercy_n and_o our_o humble_a confession_n &_o what_o be_v to_o come_v may_v be_v prevent_v by_o god_n grace_n and_o our_o diligence_n and_o endeavour_n the_o 3._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v neither_o pray_v with_o fervour_n nor_o suffer_v with_o patience_n neither_o feel_v god_n present_a nor_o be_v content_a in_o his_o absence_n let_v we_o have_v recourse_n to_o these_o four_o thing_n which_o will_v supply_v our_o defect_n and_o satisfy_v for_o our_o fault_n 1._o obedience_n 2._o resignation_n 3._o confidence_n 4._o good_a desire_n therefore_o in_o all_o our_o fear_n cross_n and_o trouble_n let_v we_o make_v use_n of_o these_o four_o point_n in_o this_o or_o practice_n the_o practice_n the_o like_a manner_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n who_o deserve_v from_o i_o all_o love_n and_o honour_n and_o who_o i_o desire_v to_o serve_v with_o all_o my_o soul_n behold_v i_o come_v out_o of_o confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n have_v no_o other_o end_n but_o only_o to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o wherefore_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o thy_o will_n beseech_v thou_o to_o turn_v all_o to_o thy_o glory_n and_o my_o good_a the_o 4._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v doubtful_a that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o we_o that_o we_o want_v grace_n that_o we_o only_o seek_v ourselves_o that_o we_o yield_v to_o all_o temptation_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o build_v upon_o these_o three_o foundation_n humility_n in_o acknowledge_v our_o own_o deformity_n sincerity_n in_o confess_v it_o and_o confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o it_o and_o so_o persevere_v constant_o and_o courageous_o in_o a_o course_n of_o prayer_n according_a to_o direction_n and_o obedience_n we_o shall_v soon_o find_v ease_n rest_n and_o peace_n the_o 5._o doubt_n if_o our_o conscience_n be_v unquiet_a and_o our_o soul_n fearful_a by_o reason_n of_o our_o proness_n to_o sin_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o apply_v these_o follow_a plaster_n and_o put_v these_o tent_n into_o our_o spiritual_a wound_n as_o deep_a as_o we_o can_v every_o day_n for_o a_o time_n till_o the_o cure_n be_v perfect_v 1._o let_v we_o be_v assure_v that_o we_o be_v conscience_n plaster_n for_o a_o trouble_a conscience_n now_o at_o this_o present_a in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n suppose_v we_o have_v already_o or_o be_v now_o resolve_v to_o do_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o the_o expiation_n of_o our_o past_a sin_n and_o the_o avoid_v all_o sin_n for_o the_o future_a 2._o that_o have_v a_o will_v to_o please_v god_n and_o perform_v our_o duty_n our_o prayer_n be_v profitable_a to_o we_o and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n and_o we_o may_v without_o presumption_n take_v courage_n and_o comfort_n though_o we_o be_v yet_o full_a of_o passion_n and_o â—mperfections_n 3._o that_o the_o feel_n of_o trouble_n fear_n temptation_n etc._n etc._n be_v neither_o sin_n in_o we_o nor_o sign_n of_o god_n anger_n against_o we_o 4._o that_o we_o be_v not_o bind_v to_o reflect_v continual_o whether_o we_o have_v consent_v to_o sin_n or_o not_o nor_o to_o judge_v whether_o this_o or_o that_o consent_n he_o mortal_a or_o venial_a nor_o to_o meddle_v with_o the_o sin_n of_o our_o
inclination_n the_o three_o verity_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v a_o good_a will_n and_o purpose_n to_o confess_v my_o sin_n entire_o in_o due_a time_n and_o place_n according_a to_o thy_o ordinance_n and_o that_o of_o thy_o holy_a church_n we_o may_v add_v to_o these_o the_o devout_a frequentation_n sign_n three_o other_o sign_n of_o the_o sacrament_n which_o give_v life_n and_o justify_v grace_n the_o warrant_n of_o a_o skilful_a guide_n and_o a_o lively_a confidence_n in_o the_o divine_a bounty_n the_o 26._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v trouble_v because_o we_o know_v not_o well_o when_o we_o give_v consent_n to_o sinful_a thought_n 1._o if_o when_o the_o thought_n be_v represent_v sin_n rule_v to_o know_v when_o we_o consent_v to_o sin_n we_o present_o fly_v to_o the_o crucifix_n expel_v it_o disdain_v it_o dislike_v it_o it_o be_v not_o sin_n but_o merit_n 2._o but_o if_o we_o careless_o linger_v in_o it_o when_o well_o perceive_v it_o be_v venial_a 3._o and_o if_o we_o consent_v to_o the_o thought_n and_o desire_v the_o action_n our_o sin_n be_v equal_a to_o the_o act_n if_o it_o be_v commit_v 4._o but_o if_o we_o intend_v not_o the_o act_n but_o linger_v delightful_o in_o the_o thought_n and_o the_o thing_n itself_o be_v mortal_a and_o deliberate_o entertain_v it_o be_v also_o mortal_a the_o 27._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v well_o distinguish_v between_o venial_a and_o mortal_a sin_n 1._o what_o need_v we_o determine_v let_v we_o confess_v it_o as_o it_o be_v commit_v 2._o mortal_a sin_n can_v be_v commit_v without_o great_a corruption_n of_o he_o who_o commit_v it_o or_o great_a hurt_n to_o his_o neighbour_n or_o great_a contempt_n and_o neglect_n of_o god_n say_v richardas_n a_o s._n victore_fw-la and_o s._n thomas_n thomas_n rich._n à _fw-fr s._n victore_fw-la s._n thomas_n say_v he_o sin_v mortal_o who_o total_a intention_n of_o mind_n be_v withdraw_v from_o god_n who_o be_v our_o last_o end_n 3._o let_v we_o conclude_v with_o s._n augustin_n gerson_n s._n august_n gerson_n and_o gerson_n that_o it_o be_v dangerous_a even_o in_o prelate_n and_o confessor_n to_o define_v what_o be_v mortal_a sin_n or_o give_v rule_n therein_o the_o 28._o doubt_n if_o that_o say_n of_o divine_n terrify_v eligenda_fw-la faciens_fw-la contra_fw-la dubium_fw-la incidit_fw-la in_o peccatum_fw-la in_o dubiis_fw-la securior_fw-la pars_fw-la est_fw-la eligenda_fw-la we_o he_o that_o do_v against_o his_o doubt_n sin_n and_o in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a the_o secure_a part_n be_v to_o be_v choose_v we_o may_v in_o thing_n which_o be_v doubtful_a secure_o follow_v a_o probable_a opinion_n now_o scruple_n be_v not_o doubt_n but_o false_a apprehension_n and_o therefore_o on_o all_o side_n we_o may_v and_o sometime_o must_v go_v against_o our_o own_o erroneous_a conscience_n especial_o when_o obedience_n command_v it_o let_v we_o therefore_o with_o s._n augustin_n incertum_fw-la s._n augustin_n tene_fw-la certum_fw-la dimitte_n incertum_fw-la lay_v hold_v of_o that_o which_o be_v certain_a and_o let_v go_v the_o uncertain_a and_o what_o way_n be_v more_o sure_a and_o secure_a than_o obedience_n the_o 29._o and_o last_o doubt_n if_o final_o we_o be_v apprehensive_a and_o fearful_a lest_o we_o shall_v grow_v weary_a in_o the_o way_n of_o virtue_n and_o not_o persevere_v constant_o in_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n let_v we_o excite_v our_o tepidity_n by_o the_o frequent_a perusal_n of_o this_o follow_a discourse_n and_o practice_v according_o the_o patriarch_n jacob_n in_o hope_n of_o obtain_v the_o beautiful_a rachel_n serve_v laban_n seven_o year_n with_o diligence_n and_o patience_n but_o be_v cozen_v by_o that_o disloyal_a worldling_n with_o ill_a favour_a lia_n what_o do_v he_o he_o neither_o lose_v courage_n nor_o confidence_n but_o with_o new_a constancy_n begin_v his_o other_o seven_o year_n service_n with_o such_o admirable_a alacrity_n and_o a_o heart_n so_o fix_v upon_o his_o desire_a reward_n that_o the_o time_n seem_v 29._o gen._n 29._o but_o a_o week_n to_o he_o o_o my_o soul_n thou_o seek_v and_o sigh_v after_o eternal_a beatitude_n consist_v essential_o in_o the_o bless_a vision_n and_o fruition_n of_o god_n signify_v by_o rachel_n according_a to_o s._n bernard_n for_o bernard_n s._n bernard_n this_o thou_o have_v bind_v thyself_o to_o serve_v god_n but_o alas_o the_o world_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o devil_n do_v so_o often_o beguile_v &_o blind_v thou_o that_o thou_o take_v blear-eyed_a lia_n for_o beautiful_a rachel_n the_o world_n for_o heaven_n the_o flesh_n for_o the_o spirit_n and_o diabolical_a illusion_n for_o divine_a inspiration_n but_o what_o lose_v not_o courage_n nor_o confidence_n renew_v thy_o protestation_n of_o loyal_a service_n serve_v god_n one_o other_o seven_o year_n suffer_v another_o slavery_n to_o get_v heaven_n to_o die_v in_o final_a grace_n and_o to_o be_v eternal_o join_v to_o that_o bless_a beauty_n thou_o love_v follow_v jesus_n to_o mount_v calvary_n to_o consummatum_fw-la est_fw-la to_o thy_o last_o gasp_n if_o thou_o stumble_v fall_v not_o if_o thou_o fall_v up_o again_o and_o march_v stand_v not_o but_o go_v forward_o for_o he_o only_o that_o persevere_v till_o the_o end_n shall_v be_v save_v let_v neither_o frequent_a temptation_n nor_o fearful_a imagination_n nor_o strong_a passion_n nor_o bad_a inclination_n nor_o often_o fall_n nor_o ordinary_a frailty_n daunt_v or_o dismay_v thou_o god_n be_v good_a and_o gracious_a meek_a and_o merciful_a thy_o reward_n be_v infinite_a and_o eternal_a thy_o friend_n be_v more_o in_o heaven_n than_o on_o earth_n persevere_v then_o and_o go_v forward_o if_o thou_o can_v not_o run_v at_o least_o go_v fair_a and_o soft_o and_o secure_o after_o christ_n thy_o captain_n crying_z draw_v i_o unto_o thou_o o_o most_o dear_a lord_n for_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v thou_o and_o no_o other_o but_o i_o be_o weak_a and_o lame_a and_o therefore_o i_o make_v use_n of_o two_o crutch_n a_o strong_a resolution_n never_o to_o forsake_v thy_o 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eternal_o i_o discover_v thy_o two_o main_a snare_n o_o subtle_a enemy_n into_o which_o thou_o will_v allure_v my_o unwary_a soul_n and_o thy_o first_o design_n fail_v which_o be_v to_o delay_v my_o eonversion_n to_o god_n service_n thou_o pursue_v thy_o second_o which_o be_v to_o weary_v i_o in_o my_o well-begun_a enterprise_n to_o shift_v off_o my_o conversion_n thou_o urgedst_a youth_n long_a life_n time_n enough_o thy_o daily_a and_o dangerous_a deceit_n by_o which_o more_o christian_n perish_v than_o by_o any_o other_o thy_o guile_n and_o stratagem_n thou_o know_v the_o peril_n of_o delay_n in_o a_o matter_n so_o important_a as_o be_v our_o conversion_n perfection_n salvation_n thou_o be_v not_o ignorant_a how_o one_o sin_n draw_v on_o another_o how_o he_o that_o to_o day_n be_v unfit_a will_v be_v less_o to_o morrow_n how_o custom_n grow_v into_o nature_n breed_v blindness_n hardness_n of_o heart_n and_o insensibility_n how_o old_a disease_n be_v hardly_o and_o rare_o cure_v how_o god_n withdraw_v his_o grace_n when_o it_o be_v abuse_v refuse_v neglect_a how_o much_o his_o justice_n by_o delay_n be_v exasperate_v and_o that_o we_o heap_v coal_n on_o our_o own_o head_n by_o our_o negligence_n thou_o be_v well_o skilled_a in_o the_o uncertainty_n of_o our_o frail_a life_n know_v the_o danger_n chance_n change_n and_o accident_n which_o may_v speedy_o overwhelm_v we_o therefore_o thou_o whisper_v stay_v a_o little_a defer_v yet_o for_o a_o time_n till_o god_n in_o who_o hand_n be_v the_o moment_n of_o all_o time_n take_v from_o we_o all_o time_n who_o have_v so_o long_o abuse_v the_o opportunity_n of_o time_n and_o send_v we_o into_o pain_n eternal_a without_o time_n but_o see_v i_o resolute_o and_o violent_o break_v all_o thy_o chain_n run_v and_o cry_v with_o s._n augustin_n augustin_n s._n augustin_n why_o shall_v i_o long_o say_v to_o morrow_n why_o not_o now_o even_o at_o this_o instant_n thou_o now_o
of_o my_o eye_n at_o each_o morsel_n i_o eat_v at_o each_o member_n i_o move_v and_o at_o each_o inward_a and_o outward_a action_n i_o undertake_v i_o may_v first_o ask_v thy_o leave_n and_o permission_n and_o so_o do_v it_o or_o leave_v it_o according_o as_o thy_o holy_a inspiration_n answer_v and_o allow_v i_o o_o that_o i_o can_v perform_v each_o natural_a and_o necessary_a work_n with_o a_o actual_a reflection_n upon_o thy_o praise_n and_o pleasure_n and_o with_o a_o pure_a intention_n to_o be_v unite_v to_o thou_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n thy_o outward_a sense_n o_o my_o sweet_a saviour_n be_v exact_o subject_a to_o thy_o reason_n and_o perfect_o obedient_a to_o thy_o sacred_a soul_n o_o let_v i_o be_v swallow_v up_o i_o beseech_v thou_o gracious_a jesus_n and_o sanctify_v by_o the_o merit_n of_o thou_o let_v i_o live_v love_n move_z and_o make_v use_n of_o my_o sense_n pure_o and_o only_o in_o thou_o for_o thou_o and_o by_o thou_o thy_o sacred_a hand_n o_o holy_a jesus_n 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and_o secure_v lesson_n leave_v all_o thing_n and_o thou_o shall_v find_v one_o thing_n which_o be_v all_o in_o all_o take_v courage_n and_o fight_v valiant_o against_o thy_o own_o bad_a nature_n pray_v suffer_v stoop_v bear_v repugnance_n swallow_v down_o contradiction_n digest_v injury_n the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n suffer_v violence_n the_o end_n thou_o ayme_v at_o be_v perfection_n the_o reward_n of_o thy_o conqucst_a be_v eternal_a love_n eternal_a life_n eternal_a happiness_n behold_v o_o my_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o salvation_n i_o be_o full_o resolve_v to_o lay_v the_o axe_n to_o the_o root_n of_o this_o wicked_a tree_n help_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o with_o thy_o grace_n from_o above_o that_o i_o may_v hew_v myself_o out_o of_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v kill_v crucify_v and_o mortify_v my_o inveigle_a sensuality_n cut_v off_o my_o evil_a inclination_n rectify_v my_o disorder_a passion_n and_o root_v out_o each_o thought_n or_o desire_n which_o tend_v not_o direct_o to_o thy_o honour_n will_n and_o love_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n 3._o i_o know_v lord_n that_o it_o be_v bootless_a to_o study_v perfection_n without_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n i_o confess_v i_o can_v never_o love_v thou_o true_o but_o in_o as_o much_o as_o i_o hate_v myself_o real_o such_o be_v the_o antipathy_n between_o self-love_n and_o thy_o holy_a affection_n ah_o how_o can_v a_o spirit_n distract_v with_o contrary_a inclination_n be_v free_o and_o full_o vacant_a to_o thy_o divine_a contemplation_n put_v therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o a_o sluice_n to_o my_o unmortified_a passion_n put_v a_o bind_v to_o my_o distraught_a heart_n and_o powerful_o keep_v back_o those_o innumerous_a concupiscence_n and_o corrupt_a imagination_n violent_o succeed_v each_o other_o that_o my_o unite_a affection_n may_v intend_v thou_o only_o the_o only_a object_n of_o all_o happiness_n gather_v o_o my_o lord_n the_o disperse_a force_n of_o my_o soul_n from_o all_o multiplicity_n of_o worldly_a affection_n to_o the_o union_n of_o thy_o only_a love_n keep_v i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o understanding_n will_n memory_n imagination_n and_o all_o my_o inward_a and_o outward_a sense_n from_o roam_v abroad_o that_o careful_o attend_v and_o entertain_v thy_o divine_a presence_n in_o my_o soul_n i_o may_v attain_v true_a introversion_n simplification_n and_o union_n of_o my_o spirit_n with_o thou_o reform_v o_o my_o lord_n all_o the_o natural_a corruption_n of_o my_o outward_a man_n and_o redress_v all_o the_o spiritual_a infirmity_n of_o my_o inward_a man_n destroy_v and_o disperse_v all_o internal_a and_o external_a enemy_n and_o opposer_n of_o thy_o holy_a love_n possess_v i_o perfect_o and_o dispose_v of_o i_o entire_o according_a to_o thy_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n 4._o to_o this_o end_n o_o bless_v my_o weak_a endeavour_n almighty_a and_o al-merciful_a lord_n god_n i_o will_v subtract_v all_o superfluity_n from_o my_o body_n and_o accustom_v it_o to_o all_o sort_n of_o suffering_n that_o so_o i_o may_v fit_v it_o up_o for_o thou_o o_o holy_a spirit_n who_o dwell_v not_o with_o they_o that_o be_v sensual_a and_o subject_a to_o sin_n alas_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o resist_v to_o the_o effusion_n of_o my_o blood_n and_o shall_v i_o spill_v each_o drop_n of_o blood_n in_o my_o body_n in_o this_o holy_a quarrel_n how_o little_o ought_v i_o to_o regard_v it_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o great_a good_a i_o expect_v i_o will_v therefore_o crucify_v thou_o o_o my_o flesh_n with_o all_o thy_o concupiscence_n i_o will_v mortify_v my_o outward_a sense_n the_o window_n by_o which_o death_n steal_v into_o my_o soul_n the_o hinderer_n of_o my_o heart_n tranquillity_n the_o destroyer_n of_o true_a devotion_n the_o disperser_n of_o inward_a recollection_n and_o the_o utter_a ruiner_n of_o all_o the_o good_a desire_n which_o i_o conceive_v and_o kindle_v in_o my_o prayer_n ah_o how_o soon_o be_v this_o divine_a fire_n cool_v and_o quench_v not_o only_o by_o 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most_o dangerous_a and_o my_o great_a enemy_n which_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o my_o misery_n the_o citadel_n from_o whence_o sin_n assail_v i_o and_o satan_n fetch_v his_o force_n to_o fight_v against_o i_o grant_v good_a lord_n that_o i_o may_v they_o therefore_o every_o one_o must_v strive_v to_o know_v his_o own_o natural_a inclination_n and_o then_o employ_v all_o his_o force_n and_o apply_v all_o his_o prayer_n and_o spiritual_a exercise_n to_o quell_v they_o never_o yield_v to_o this_o wicked_a eve_n persuade_v adam_n my_o superior_a will_n to_o eat_v the_o forbid_a fruit_n to_o consent_n to_o unlawful_a pleasure_n o_o that_o i_o can_v tame_v these_o cruel_a beast_n my_o natural_a passion_n how_o soon_o shall_v i_o be_v master_n of_o all_o moral_a virtue_n o_o that_o i_o can_v so_o till_o this_o vineyard_n so_o delve_v this_o garden_n so_o purge_v it_o from_o all_o ill_a weed_n of_o affection_n and_o prune_v all_o superfluous_a surgeon_n and_o shoot_n of_o passion_n that_o 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my_o self_n and_o in_o the_o prosecution_n of_o thy_o divine_a love_n and_o in_o order_n to_o this_o only_a end_n and_o aim_n i_o make_v in_o thy_o presence_n and_o from_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o soul_n these_o particular_a act_n follow_v i_o renounce_v o_o my_o lord_n for_o the_o pure_a love_n of_o thou_o all_o affection_n to_o worldly_a thing_n give_v they_o unto_o i_o o_o gracious_a god_n or_o take_v they_o from_o i_o as_o best_o like_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n i_o resign_v up_o all_o my_o interest_n in_o any_o thing_n though_o never_o so_o near_o and_o dear_a unto_o i_o behold_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o lover_n i_o unclothe_v my_o soul_n from_o all_o affection_n whatsoever_o to_o creature_n and_o desire_v nothing_o but_o thy_o self-alone_a o_o happy_a nakedness_n o_o rich_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n o_o pure_a obedience_n to_o the_o divine_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n be_v you_o my_o heart_n delight_n my_o whole_a pleasure_n and_o patrinony_n 6._o i_o renounce_v 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