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member_n or_o theâ—e_n be_v tie_v with_o band_n or_o dissolve_v with_o sickness_n or_o some_o other_o way_n restrain_v for_o example_n if_o then_o i_o tear_v off_o my_o hair_n or_o smite_v my_o forehead_n or_o clasp_v my_o hand_n about_o my_o knee_n as_o soon_o as_o i_o please_v present_o i_o do_v it_o yet_o be_v it_o possible_a in_o all_o these_o to_o have_v will_v they_o and_o not_o have_v do_v they_o if_o the_o unpliantness_n of_o my_o joint_n can_v not_o serve_v my_o purpose_n so_o many_o thing_n therefore_o do_v i_o then_o where_o to_o will_v they_o only_o be_v not_o to_o do_v they_o and_o yet_o do_v i_o not_o that_o which_o incomparable_o more_o content_v i_o and_o which_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o will_v i_o may_v do_v because_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o will_v i_o may_v will_v it_o for_o here_o the_o ability_n be_v the_o same_o that_o the_o will_n and_o to_o will_v only_o be_v to_o do_v it_o and_o yet_o it_o be_v not_o do_v and_o the_o body_n yield_v a_o more_o easy_a obedience_n to_o 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present_o obey_v the_o mind_n command_v itself_o and_o be_v oppose_v the_o mind_n command_v the_o motion_n of_o the_o hand_n and_o so_o speedy_o be_v it_o execute_v as_o the_o obedience_n be_v scarce_o distinguishable_a from_o the_o command_n and_o yet_o the_o mind_n be_v a_o spirit_n and_o the_o hand_n a_o body_n the_o same_o mind_n command_v the_o mind_n to_o will_v a_o thing_n the_o very_a same_o essence_n with_o it_o and_o yet_o it_o do_v it_o not_o whence_o such_o a_o monster_n and_o how_o can_v this_o be_v it_o command_v i_o say_v that_o it_o shall_v will_v a_o thing_n which_o can_v not_o command_v it_o unless_o it_o will_v it_o first_o and_o yet_o that_o be_v not_o do_v which_o it_o command_v indeed_o it_o be_v not_o whole_o willing_a therefore_o neither_o do_v it_o whole_o command_v for_o only_o so_o far_o it_o command_v as_o it_o will_v and_o so_o far_o what_o it_o command_v be_v not_o do_v as_o it_o will_v not_o that_o it_o shall_v be_v do_v because_o the_o will_n command_v that_o there_o shall_v be_v a_o willing_a and_o nothing_o else_o command_v this_o but_o only_o itself_o upon_o itself_o therefore_o it_o do_v not_o whole_o command_v it_o and_o therefore_o that_o which_o it_o command_v that_o it_o may_v be_v be_v such_o a_o thing_n as_o be_v not_o already_o for_o if_o the_o will_n be_v already_o whole_o incline_v to_o such_o a_o thing_n it_o will_v not_o command_v that_o such_o inclination_n shall_v be_v because_o it_o be_v already_o both_o to_o will_v and_o yet_o to_o will_z in_o part_n therefore_o be_v no_o monster_n but_o a_o sickness_n and_o infirmity_n of_o the_o mind_n which_o can_v entire_o arise_v when_o lift_v up_o by_o the_o truth_n because_o it_o be_v counterpoise_v by_o vicious_a custom_n and_o therefore_o only_o there_o be_v two_o willing_n because_o one_o of_o they_o be_v not_o total_a and_o so_o what_o be_v want_v to_o the_o one_o make_v up_o and_o fortify_v the_o other_o chap._n x._o let_v they_o perish_v from_o before_o thy_o face_n o_o god_n as_o the_o speaker_n of_o lie_n and_o impostor_n do_v perish_v who_o when_o they_o observe_v in_o our_o deliberate_v two_o will_n do_v affirm_v two_o distinct_a mind_n in_o we_o of_o a_o different_a nature_n the_o one_o good_a and_o the_o other_o bad_a for_o when_o i_o thus_o deliberate_v at_o last_o to_o enter_v upon_o the_o service_n of_o my_o lord_n god_n as_o i_o have_v long_o design_v iâ—_n be_v i_o that_o will_v and_o i_o also_o that_o nill_v it_o it_o be_v the_o â—â—me_n i_o who_o as_o yet_o neither_o full_o will_v nor_o full_o nill_v it_o and_o therefore_o be_v in_o contention_n with_o myself_o and_o divide_v and_o rend_v from_o myself_o and_o this_o rent_n in_o i_o indeed_o be_v make_v against_o my_o will_n yet_o it_o signify_v not_o in_o i_o the_o inhabitancy_n of_o some_o foreign_a mind_n but_o the_o punishment_n of_o my_o own_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v no_o more_o i_o that_o wrought_v this_o distraction_n but_o sin_n that_o dwell_v in_o i_o from_o the_o punishment_n of_o that_o first_o more_o freely-committed_n offence_n inasmuch_o as_o i_o be_o a_o son_n of_o adam_n and_o certain_o if_o there_o be_v so_o many_o contrary_a nature_n in_o we_o as_o there_o be_v in_o we_o contrary_a desire_n there_o will_v not_o be_v two_o principle_n only_o one_o of_o our_o good_a inclination_n the_o other_o of_o our_o bad_a but_o must_v be_v many_o also_o of_o the_o bad_a and_o many_o of_o the_o good_a since_o we_o have_v many_o will_n and_o desire_n oppose_v and_o hinder_v one_o another_o and_o yet_o all_o of_o they_o bad_a and_o many_o repugn_v also_o one_o to_o another_o yet_o