the_o last_o day_n it_o high_o behoove_v we_o then_o to_o run_v over_o our_o life_n pass_v in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o observe_v whether_o our_o holy_a profession_n have_v be_v second_v by_o answerable_a practice_n and_o whether_o due_a performance_n follow_v our_o solemn_a promise_n have_v we_o indeed_o my_o soul_n renounce_v the_o devil_n and_o all_o his_o pomp_n or_o rather_o have_v we_o not_o leave_v christ_n and_o follow_v his_o wicked_a allurement_n upon_o what_o folly_n have_v we_o not_o feast_v our_o eye_n to_o what_o height_n have_v not_o our_o thought_n aspire_v of_o what_o impurity_n and_o disloyalty_n have_v not_o our_o heart_n at_o least_o be_v brim_n full_a observe_v and_o lament_v our_o misery_n the_o ii_o pointe._n of_o the_o second_o obligation_n which_o we_o contracte_v in_o baptism_n consider_v that_o the_o second_o obligation_n which_o we_o contracte_v in_o baptism_n be_v to_o be_v list_v among_o the_o soldier_n of_o jesus_n christ_n to_o fight_v under_o the_o banner_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o open_o to_o profess_v his_o law_n that_o sweet_a law_n of_o love_n which_o contain_v all_o christian_a duty_n the_o love_n of_o god_n incomparable_o above_o all_o other_o thing_n as_o be_v infinite_o lovely_a and_o comprisinge_v in_o himself_o all_o the_o motive_n and_o obligation_n of_o love_n and_o the_o love_n of_o our_o neighbour_n as_o ourselves_o that_o be_v in_o order_n to_o god_n in_o god_n and_o for_o god_n all_o the_o love_n we_o can_v afford_v to_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v but_o only_o for_o solace_n to_o our_o necessity_n and_o poverty_n as_o provision_n for_o the_o way_n of_o our_o pilgrimage_n to_o be_v use_v not_o to_o be_v enjoy_v not_o to_o have_v our_o hate_n fix_v upon_o which_o be_v whole_o due_a to_o god_n and_o our_o neighbour_n affection_n and_o resol._n ah_o my_o soul_n have_v we_o be_v to_o have_v make_v choice_n of_o what_o law_n we_o ourselves_o have_v most_o desire_v not_o to_o have_v receive_v it_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o our_o almighty_a maker_n who_o have_v full_a power_n to_o impose_v what_o law_n he_o please_v upon_o the_o work_n of_o his_o hand_n what_o other_o law_n will_v we_o have_v wish_v but_o that_o which_o we_o have_v a_o law_n by_o which_o we_o be_v not_o permit_v only_o but_o even_o command_v to_o love_v our_o king_n the_o king_n of_o king_n the_o king_n of_o glory_n what_o more_o honourable_a to_o love_v he_o whole_o from_o who_o love_n and_o bounty_n we_o have_v all_o that_o we_o have_v what_o more_o reasonable_a to_o love_v he_o from_o who_o liberality_n we_o expect_v all_o that_o we_o yet_o want_v the_o possession_n of_o his_o heavenly_a kingdom_n the_o enjoyment_n of_o himself_o for_o all_o eternity_n what_o more_o profitable_a and_o as_o to_o the_o other_o part_n of_o the_o law_n what_o poor_a life_n shall_v we_o not_o lead_v nay_o what_o death_n and_o hell_n shall_v we_o not_o suffer_v do_v we_o in_o lieu_n of_o love_n to_o our_o neighbour_n afford_v he_o only_o neglect_v scorn_n and_o hatred_n let_v i_o love_v thou_o then_o o_o my_o dear_a lord_n and_o my_o neighbour_n in_o thou_o and_o for_o thou_o for_o ever_o the_o first_o meditat_fw-la for_o the_o second_o day_n of_o the_o three_o obligation_n contract_v in_o baptism_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v that_o the_o three_o obligation_n that_o we_o contract_v in_o baptism_n be_v that_o we_o be_v bind_v to_o live_v the_o life_n of_o christ_n according_a to_o that_o of_o s._n paul_n i_o live_v not_o now_o i_o but_o jesus_n christ_n live_v in_o i_o for_o we_o be_v bury_v together_o with_o he_o by_o baptism_n and_o ought_v also_o to_o rise_v with_o he_o and_o walk_v after_o he_o in_o newness_n of_o life_n because_o he_o leave_v we_o a_o example_n and_o his_o will_n be_v that_o we_o shall_v follow_v his_o foostepp_n that_o be_v that_o we_o shall_v walk_v in_o the_o lowly_a path_n of_o humility_n poverty_n and_o abjection_n as_o he_o do_v from_o his_o very_a first_o step_n into_o this_o world_n in_o labour_n hunger_n and_o thirst_n from_o his_o youth_n in_o suffer_a reproach_n contumely_n and_o outrageous_a contempt_n all_o his_o life_n long_o in_o be_v abandon_v at_o his_o death_n by_o his_o apostle_n and_o even_o by_o his_o heavenly_a father_n my_o god_n my_o god_n why_o haste_v thou_o forsake_v i_o affection_n and_o resol._n the_o life_n of_o christ_n my_o soul_n be_v our_o pattern_n the_o imitation_n of_o it_o be_v our_o obligation_n and_o the_o lively_a expression_n of_o it_o be_v our_o perfection_n let_v we_o seek_v no_o other_o nor_o other_o way_n then_o by_o humble_o follow_v his_o footestepp_n to_o that_o he_o call_v we_o learn_v of_o i_o who_o be_o mild_a and_o humble_a in_o heart_n not_o to_o high_a speculation_n with_o be_v more_o apt_a to_o fill_v we_o with_o vanity_n then_o feed_v we_o with_o solid_a food_n caluarie_n be_v leave_v we_o for_o the_o imitation_n of_o his_o virtue_n thabor_n only_o to_o admire_v his_o majesty_n he_o be_v our_o alpha_n and_o omega_n our_o begin_n and_o our_o end_n let_v all_o our_o application_n be_v to_o he_o and_o our_o dependence_n of_o he_o let_v all_o our_o conversation_n be_v with_o he_o our_o desire_n follow_v he_o our_o discourse_n of_o he_o our_o continual_a cry_n to_o he_o o_o my_o dear_a lord_n and_o saviour_n thou_o my_o love_n thou_o my_o life_n let_v this_o covenant_n be_v make_v betwixt_o us._n let_v i_o whole_o die_v to_o myself_o that_o thou_o alone_o may_v live_v in_o i_o let_v my_o passion_n be_v whole_o silence_v that_o thou_o alone_o may_v be_v hear_v in_o i_o let_v all_o my_o solicitous_a care_n which_o be_v fruitless_a without_o thou_o whole_o cease_v that_o thou_o only_o may_v work_v in_o i_o the_o ii_o pointe._n consider_v that_o notwithstanding_o all_o those_o former_a benefit_n and_o obligation_n contract_v thereby_o we_o have_v be_v so_o ungratfull_a and_o neglectful_a of_o our_o own_o good_a as_o little_a to_o mind_n they_o nay_o like_a true_a prodigal_n we_o have_v dissipate_v and_o spend_v all_o those_o gracious_a and_o godlike_a talent_n and_o forget_v our_o promess_n and_o obligation_n we_o have_v return_v back_o into_o the_o slavery_n of_o the_o devil_n and_o here_o it_o be_v indeed_o that_o our_o good_a god_n magnify_v his_o mercy_n towards_o us._n we_o run_v from_o he_o into_o a_o foreign_a land_n and_o he_o leave_v the_o ninety_o nine_o to_o seek_v us._n we_o strike_v at_o he_o by_o sin_n and_o even_o crucify_v he_o again_o and_o he_o support_v we_o with_o patience_n we_o step_v down_o to_o hell_n and_o he_o bring_v we_o back_o he_o frequent_o knock_v at_o our_o heart_n by_o his_o holy_a word_n preach_v to_o our_o ear_n by_o his_o internal_a voice_n inculcate_v to_o our_o heart_n by_o wholesome_a tribulation_n multiply_v upon_o we_o and_o break_v through_o our_o deafness_n and_o have_v himself_o wrought_v all_o this_o in_o we_o he_o crown_v his_o own_o mercy_n by_o takeinge_v we_o again_o into_o his_o familiarity_n and_o he_o and_o all_o his_o court_n rejoice_v at_o our_o conversion_n affection_n and_o resol._n o_o thou_o god_n of_o mercy_n to_o what_o a_o length_n have_v thou_o extend_v thy_o patience_n with_o i_o it_o be_v i_o that_o run_v from_o thou_o into_o a_o land_n of_o disproportion_n i_o that_o forsake_v thou_o the_o fountain_n of_o liveinge_v water_n and_o make_v to_o myself_o cistern_n break_a cistern_n which_o can_v hold_v no_o water_n ay_o that_o turn_v the_o use_n of_o thy_o own_o gift_n to_o abuse_v by_o loveinge_v they_o more_o than_o thyself_o in_o such_o or_o such_o a_o occasion_n i_o that_o step_v down_o into_o hell_n at_o such_o or_o such_o a_o time_n so_o or_o so_o often_o and_o thou_o the_o while_o cease_v not_o to_o redouble_v thy_o cry_n why_o will_v thou_o perish_v o_o thou_o house_n of_o israëll_n why_o do_v thou_o love_v vanity_n and_o seek_v a_o lie_n loose_a thy_o chain_n from_o thy_o neck_n o_o thou_o captive_a daughter_n of_o zion_n at_o least_o after_o all_o thy_o disloyaltye_n call_v i_o but_o father_n ah_o my_o soul_n be_v no_o long_o deaf_a to_o all_o these_o gracious_a invitation_n but_o run_v though_o alas_o but_o too_o late_a to_o that_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o say_v with_o a_o contrite_a and_o humble_a hart_n father_n i_o have_v offend_v against_o heaven_n &_o against_o thou_o &_o i_o be_o no_o long_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o son_n deal_v with_o i_o only_o as_o with_o one_o of_o the_o hireling_n of_o thy_o house_n the_o ii_o meditation_n for_o the_o second_o day_n the_o greevousnesse_n of_o sin_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v what_o sin_n be_v and_o your_o holy_a father_n s._n augustine_n will_v teach_v you_o that_o it_o be_v no_o substance_n at_o all_o but_o a_o
my_o soul_n and_o the_o banish_n of_o those_o contentious_a word_n i_o and_o thy_o be_v a_o good_a step_n to_o beatitude_n since_o thereby_o innumerable_a occasion_n of_o contention_n and_o quarrel_n be_v cut_v off_o yet_o alas_o that_o be_v not_o all_o that_o the_o spouse_n of_o christ_n shall_v aim_v at_o who_o in_o their_o poverty_n ought_v to_o express_v the_o poverty_n of_o christ_n who_o neither_o have_v they_o nor_o desire_v they_o nor_o the_o commodity_n and_o delight_n which_o accompany_v they_o it_o profit_v we_o not_o at_o all_o say_v s._n caesarius_n to_o abandonne_fw-fr riches_n outward_o unless_o we_o root_v out_o withal_o the_o inward_a desire_n of_o they_o which_o stick_v close_o to_o our_o heart_n it_o be_v not_o too_o much_o my_o soul_n for_o poor_a naked_a man_n to_o follow_v poor_a and_o naked_a christ_n the_o ii_o meditation_n for_o the_o 4._o day_n of_o the_o vow_n of_o chastity_n consider_v that_o if_o humility_n have_v place_v the_o foundation_n and_o poverty_n raise_v the_o wall_n chastity_n will_v be_v at_o the_o cost_n to_o adorn_v it_o within_o for_o it_o be_v indeed_o virginity_n that_o be_v the_o begin_n of_o spiritual_a beauty_n and_o ornament_n all_o the_o beauty_n and_o glory_n of_o the_o king_n daughter_n be_v within_o yea_o say_v s._n bernarde_n virginity_n be_v the_o best_a and_o most_o wishfull_a furniture_n and_o such_o as_o may_v even_o prove_v a_o kind_n of_o envy_n to_o the_o angel_n themselves_o which_o though_o otherwise_o virgin_n too_o yet_o be_v they_o not_o virgin_n environ_v with_o flesh_n and_o blood_n whereas_o to_o live_v in_o flesh_n and_o not_o according_a to_o flesh_n be_v not_o a_o earthly_a but_o a_o heavenly_a life_n say_v s._n hierome_n affection_n and_o resolve_v with_o what_o other_o ornament_n my_o soul_n then_o virginal_a purity_n be_v that_o royal_a hall_n or_o earthly_a paradise_n to_o be_v adorn_v which_o be_v to_o receive_v the_o purity_n of_o heaven_n which_o come_v down_o to_o espouse_v man_n nature_n if_o virginal_a purity_n than_o be_v to_o give_v entertainment_n to_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o earth_n no_o wonder_n that_o purity_n too_o must_v adorn_v the_o spiritual_a building_n which_o we_o be_v raise_v up_o into_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n in_o heaven_n let_v we_o not_o fail_v my_o soul_n to_o put_v a_o inestimable_a price_n upon_o this_o angelical_a virtue_n which_o heaven_n so_o high_o value_v it_o be_v indeed_o the_o ivery_n throne_n which_o the_o heavenly_a salomon_n build_v for_o himself_o and_o let_v we_o never_o esteem_v it_o safe_a but_o only_o upon_o its_o sure_a foundation_n humility_n the_o second_o pointe._n that_o by_o the_o vow_n of_o chastity_n you_o be_v true_o marry_v to_o god_n consider_v to_o what_o a_o height_n of_o dignity_n you_o be_v admit_v by_o this_o heavenly_a vow_n certes_o to_o no_o less_o than_o a_o absolute_a marriage_n with_o god_n so_o be_v we_o teach_v by_o tertullian_n 14._o hundred_o year_n ago_o speak_v to_o a_o virgin_n thou_o be_v marry_v to_o christ_n to_o he_o do_v thou_o deliver_v up_o thy_o body_n to_o he_o thou_o do_v betrouth_n thy_o maturity_n walk_v on_o then_o according_a to_o thy_o spouse_n his_o will_n and_o pleasure_n whence_o the_o church_n of_o god_n till_o this_o day_n appoint_v these_o word_n to_o be_v say_v at_o your_o receive_n of_o the_o veil_n receive_v this_o sacred_a veil_n whereby_o you_o may_v be_v know_v to_o have_v contemn_v the_o world_n and_o to_o have_v subject_v or_o espouse_v yourself_o for_o ever_o to_o christ_n the_o spouse_n of_o virgin_n affection_n and_o resol._n o_o admirable_a dignity_n of_o the_o virgin_n where_o the_o humble_a handmaid_n be_v raise_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o a_o bride_n to_o christ_n himself_o the_o bridegroom_n who_o when_o she_o love_v she_o be_v chaste_a who_o when_o she_o touch_v she_o be_v pure_a who_o when_o she_o take_v in_o marriage_n she_o be_v a_o virgin_n o_o supercelestial_a marriage_n from_o whence_o fidelity_n and_o fertility_n be_v expect_v as_o well_o as_o in_o other_o marriage_n because_o such_o as_o break_v the_o first_o faith_n have_v damnation_n say_v the_o apostle_n yea_o the_o happy_a state_n of_o virgin_n assure_v s._n augustine_n be_v more_o fruitful_a and_o fertile_a not_o by_o have_v great_a belly_n but_o great_a mind_n not_o by_o have_v breast_n full_a of_o milk_n but_o heart_n full_a of_o candour_n and_o in_o lieu_n of_o bing_v forth_o earth_n out_o of_o their_o bowel_n by_o bring_v forth_o heaven_n by_o their_o prayer_n hence_o issue_v a_o noble_a progeny_n purity_n justice_n patience_n mildness_n charity_n attend_v by_o all_o her_o noble_a train_n of_o virtue_n the_o holy_a virgin_n heavenly_a issue_n the_o first_o meditat_fw-la for_o the_o 5._o day_n of_o the_o vow_n of_o obedience_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v that_o notwithstanding_o that_o in_o humility_n the_o ground_n work_n be_v sure_a that_o scotfree_a poverty_n have_v raise_v the_o wall_n and_o angelical_a purity_n have_v adorn_v the_o work_n interior_o yet_o must_v transcendante_fw-la obedience_n secure_v all_o or_o nothing_o will_v prove_v stable_n all_o be_v sure_a in_o obedience_n all_o without_o it_o be_v in_o danger_n obedience_n say_v your_o holy_a father_n be_v as_o it_o be_v the_o mother_n and_o keeper_n of_o all_o she_o continual_o watch_v that_o no_o part_n of_o our_o spiritual_a building_n may_v be_v liable_a to_o any_o danger_n and_o this_o so_o necessary_a virtue_n of_o obedience_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o voluntary_a and_o rational_a sacrifice_n of_o our_o own_o will_n to_o the_o will_n of_o another_o which_o s._n john_n climacus_n term_n the_o death_n or_o grave_n of_o our_o own_o will_n affection_n and_o resol._n if_o then_o my_o soul_n our_o great_a assurance_n be_v find_v in_o obedience_n let_v our_o great_a care_n be_v employ_v to_o purchase_v conserve_v and_o practice_v it_o by_o obey_v our_o superior_n it_o be_v say_v s._n gregory_n that_o god_n be_v obedient_a to_o our_o prayer_n and_o your_o holy_a father_n dare_v affirm_v that_o one_o prayer_n of_o a_o obedient_a person_n be_v soon_o hear_v thet_o ten_o thousand_o of_o one_o disobedient_a it_o be_v obedience_n which_o make_v we_o secure_a obedience_n which_o free_v we_o from_o care_n and_o solicitude_n obedience_n which_o render_v our_o meat_n drink_n and_o play_v meritorious_a by_o obedience_n we_o equal_o advance_v our_o journey_n towards_o heaven_n in_o stand_v still_o as_o walk_v on_o in_o sleep_v as_o wake_a o_o admirable_a advantage_n of_o obedience_n o_o how_o happy_a and_o secure_a be_v the_o condition_n of_o a_o obedient_a soul_n of_o who_o the_o wiseman_n pronounce_v that_o she_o shall_v singe_v victory_n the_o ii_o pointe._n that_o obedience_n be_v the_o most_o important_a of_o the_o three_o vow_n consider_v that_o though_o the_o vow_n of_o poverty_n and_o chastity_n contribute_v much_o to_o the_o happy_a state_n of_o a_o religious_a life_n yet_o do_v that_o of_o obedience_n far_o excelle_n they_o and_o in_o some_o sort_n contain_v they_o all_o according_a to_o the_o sense_n of_o the_o angelical_a doctor_n for_o whereas_o religion_n be_v a_o sacrifice_n wherein_o poverty_n offer_v all_o her_o good_n of_o fortune_n and_o chastity_n all_o those_o of_o the_o body_n obedience_n go_v yet_o further_o and_o sacryfice_v all_o those_o of_o the_o mind_n as_o self-will_n selfe-iudgement_n and_o even_o the_o whole_a man_n which_o certain_o be_v incomparable_o more_o excellent_a than_o all_o the_o rest_n affection_n and_o resol._n povertie_n and_o chastity_n say_v s._n bernard_n be_v the_o two_o wing_n by_o which_o obedience_n mount_v aloft_o yet_o it_o be_v she_o indeed_o not_o they_o that_o fly_v a_o dozen_o such_o wing_n will_v not_o be_v able_a to_o raise_v proud_a disobedience_n one_o inch_n to_o heavenward_n it_o be_v neither_o our_o good_n of_o fortune_n nor_o those_o of_o our_o body_n which_o will_v prove_v a_o please_a sacrifice_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n unless_o they_o be_v accompany_v with_o obedience_n the_o humble_a submission_n of_o the_o will_n and_o judgement_n banish_v out_o of_o your_o heart_n this_o please_v and_o this_o displease_v say_v your_o brother_n a_o kempis_n and_o nothing_o shall_v trouble_v you_o and_o s._n bernarde_n take_v away_o the_o will_n and_o there_o shall_v be_v no_o hell_n the_o ii_o meditation_n for_o the_o 5._o day_n of_o the_o extont_n of_o obedience_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v that_o as_o to_o make_v obedience_n absolute_o blind_a be_v to_o deprive_v man_n of_o man_n that_o be_v of_o reason_n whereby_o he_o be_v difference_v from_o a_o beast_n and_o to_o oppose_v that_o of_o the_o apostle_n let_v your_o observance_n be_v reasonable_a so_o to_o leave_v it_o whole_o to_o the_o guidance_n and_o appointment_n of_o reason_n be_v rather_o to_o make_v a_o man_n a_o philosopher_n then_o either_o a_o good_a religious_a person_n or_o
above_o he_o below_o by_o the_o compassion_n of_o charity_n we_o above_o by_o the_o hope_n of_o charity_n affection_n and_o resolve_v have_v we_o christian_n yet_o reason_n to_o doubt_v with_o solomon_n whether_o god_n do_v dwell_v among_o man_n we_o may_v also_o fall_v into_o that_o deficiency_n of_o truth_n that_o he_o walk_v about_o the_o pole_n of_o heaven_n and_o consider_v not_o our_o thing_n but_o be_v assure_v by_o faith_n that_o he_o leave_v heaven_n to_o take_v up_o his_o delight_n among_o the_o son_n of_o man_n we_o can_v fear_v but_o he_o be_v full_a of_o goodness_n for_o we_o through_o that_o goodness_n love_v we_o and_o for_o that_o loves-sake_n will_v have_v we_o to_o love_v he_o again_o and_o to_o be_v confident_a in_o he_o i_o will_v therefore_o with_o the_o holy_a patriarche_n hope_v even_o against_o hope_n and_o with_o the_o good_a job_n hope_v in_o he_o though_o he_o shall_v kill_v i_o because_o sure_o i_o be_o what_o ever_o sense_n may_v seem_v to_o suggest_v he_o do_v not_o love_n and_o forsake_v ii_o point_n consider_v that_o his_o second_o motive_n be_v not_o that_o he_o converse_v with_o we_o only_o but_o even_o become_v one_o of_o us._n what_o have_v man_n to_o do_v for_o who_o god_n become_v man_n take_v our_o humane_a nature_n upon_o he_o this_o be_v my_o whole_a hope_n and_o entire_a confidence_n for_o by_o this_o sacred_a union_n every_o one_o of_o we_o have_v a_o part_n or_o portion_n in_o jesus_n christ_n to_o wit_n flesh_n and_o blood_n affection_n and_o resol._n let_v we_o then_o say_v with_o your_o holy_a father_n where_o a_o part_n of_o i_o reign_v their_o will_n i_o apprehend_v i_o reign_v where_o my_o flesh_n be_v glorify_v their_o i_o know_v i_o be_o glorious_a though_o i_o be_o a_o sinner_n i_o can_v be_v diffident_a in_o this_o communion_n of_o grace_n for_o what_o my_o sin_n prohibit_v my_o substance_n exact_v he_o can_v forget_v man_n which_o he_o bear_v about_o with_o he_o and_o for_o our_o love_n take_v upon_o he_o in_o he_o we_o have_v already_o ascend_v the_o heaven_n in_o he_o we_o be_v set_v at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o his_o heavenly_a father_n o_o comfortable_a and_o admirable_a and_o ineffable_a motive_n of_o man_n hope_n and_o confidence_n in_o so_o sweet_a a_o saviour_n ii_o point_n consider_v that_o his_o three_o morive_v of_o hope_n be_v not_o so_o much_o that_o he_o converse_v among_o we_o or_o be_v one_o of_o we_o as_o that_o he_o daign_v to_o die_v for_o our_o love._n be_v confident_a thou_o shall_v attain_v to_o his_o life_n of_o glory_n who_o have_v his_o death_n for_o a_o pledge_n of_o it_o affection_n and_o resol._n let_v then_o the_o devil_n rage_n the_o flesh_n revoult_v the_o world_n wax_v mad_a against_o i_o let_v i_o hear_v nothing_o from_o they_o but_o where_o be_v now_o thy_o god_n as_o though_o i_o be_v quite_o forsake_v by_o he_o yet_o will_v i_o live_v and_o die_v in_o this_o confidence_n that_o since_o he_o delight_n to_o be_v with_o the_o son_n of_o man_n he_o can_v delight_v to_o abandonne_fw-fr he_o to_o the_o rage_n of_o his_o enemy_n any_o further_a than_o he_o discover_v it_o for_o his_o advantage_n that_o since_o for_o the_o love_n of_o man_n he_o become_v man_n he_o love_v not_o man_n so_o little_a as_o to_o loose_v he_o that_o final_o since_o he_o die_v for_o he_o while_o he_o be_v yet_o a_o enemy_n he_o will_v not_o now_o since_o he_o endeavour_n to_o be_v a_o servant_n and_o a_o friend_n leave_v he_o a_o prey_n to_o his_o enemy_n in_o hac_fw-la spe_fw-la dormiam_fw-la &_o requiescam_fw-la the_o fourteen_o meditat_fw-la how_o he_o behave_v himself_o in_o charity_n show_v first_o that_o without_o charity_n all_o serve_v for_o nothing_o i._o point_v consider_v that_o though_o faith_n show_v we_o the_o good_a thing_n which_o nether_a eye_n have_v see_v nor_o ear_n have_v hear_v etc._n etc._n and_o hope_n give_v we_o a_o comfortable_a confidence_n that_o we_o shall_v attain_v unto_o they_o yet_o shall_v we_o never_o walk_v home_o indeed_o unless_o charity_n give_v we_o foot_n thy_o charity_n be_v thy_o foot_n with_o that_o thou_o be_v carry_v where_o so_o ever_o thou_o be_v carry_v thy_o two_o foot_n be_v the_o two_o precept_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o thy_o neighbour_n run_v to_o god_n with_o these_o foot_n draw_v close_o to_o he_o for_o he_o himself_o exhort_v thou_o to_o run_v and_o to_o that_o end_n enlighten_v thou_o with_o faith_n incourrage_v thou_o by_o hope_n etc._n etc._n aff._n and_o resol._n i_o plain_o see_v what_o ever_o faith_n show_v i_o and_o hope_n assure_v i_o of_o it_o be_v love_v alone_o can_v make_v i_o happy_a without_o that_o like_o the_o sick_a man_n of_o the_o passie_n i_o lie_v uncomfortable_o unprofitable_o i_o advance_v not_o at_o all_o unless_o thy_o love_n make_v i_o walk_v i_o stir_v not_o grant_v i_o therefore_o to_o love_v thou_o as_o much_o as_o i_o desire_v and_o as_o much_o as_o i_o ought_v let_v i_o be_v whole_o inflame_v with_o the_o fire_n of_o thy_o charity_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o with_o all_o my_o hart_n yea_o with_o the_o very_a marrow_n of_o my_o hart_n string_n that_o thou_o may_v always_o and_o in_o all_o place_n be_v in_o my_o hart_n in_o my_o mouth_n and_o before_o my_o eye_n till_o at_o length_n i_o may_v see_v thou_o for_o ever_o face_n to_o face_n in_o thy_o heavenly_a zion_n ii_o point_n consider_v that_o without_o true_a charity_n all_o our_o work_n be_v of_o no_o value_n seem_v they_o never_o so_o specious_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n charity_n make_v the_o distinction_n betwixt_o the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o the_o son_n of_o the_o devil_n let_v they_o sign_n themselves_o with_o the_o sign_n of_o the_o cross_n let_v they_o all_o answer_n amen_n let_v they_o all_o sing_v alleluya_n let_v they_o all_o be_v baptize_v let_v they_o all_o enter_v into_o the_o church_n and_o build_v up_o the_o wall_n of_o the_o church_n by_o charity_n only_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n discern_v from_o the_o son_n of_o the_o devil_n affection_n and_o resol._n let_v we_o not_o deceive_v our_o self_n with_o the_o fair_a outside_n of_o thing_n all_o that_o be_v without_o love_n be_v without_o life_n whether_o we_o believe_v or_o we_o hope_v what_o the_o catholic_a church_n believe_v and_o hope_v and_o live_v within_o the_o wall_n of_o the_o same_o church_n and_o with_o joy_n say_v amen_o to_o all_o that_o be_v say_v to_o it_o whether_o we_o watch_v or_o fast_o or_o preach_v or_o pray_v it_o will_v not_o all_o avayle_v we_o to_o eternal_a life_n unless_o all_o be_v both_o command_v and_o order_v by_o charity_n without_o this_o one_o necessary_a thing_n all_o the_o rest_n be_v lose_v diligam_fw-la te_fw-la domine_fw-la fortitudo_fw-la mea_fw-la &_o refugium_fw-la meum_fw-la &_o liberator_fw-la meus_fw-la etc._n etc._n iii_o point_n consider_v that_o as_o have_v faith_n and_o hope_v together_o with_o all_o the_o specious_a work_n imaginable_a without_o charity_n we_o have_v nothing_o so_o have_v charity_n we_o want_v nothing_o where_o charity_n be_v what_o can_v be_v want_v say_v he_o and_o where_o it_o be_v not_o what_o can_v profit_v we_o the_o devil_n believe_v and_o yet_o love_v not_o but_o none_o love_v but_o he_o believe_v one_o who_o love_v not_o may_v though_o without_o effect_n hope_v for_o pardon_n but_o none_o that_o love_v can_v despair_v where_o love_n be_v therefore_o faith_n and_o hope_n also_o necessary_o be_v let_v we_o then_o keep_v this_o precept_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o let_v we_o but_o love_v one_o another_o and_o we_o shall_v not_o fail_v to_o perform_v what_o ever_o he_o command_v beside_o for_o in_o this_o we_o have_v what_o ever_o other_o thing_n there_o be_v aff._n and_o resol._n o_o god_n how_o true_a it_o be_v that_o solomon_n say_v when_o he_o profess_v that_o together_o with_o wisdom_n all_o good_a thing_n come_v unto_o he_o for_o what_o be_v wisdom_n but_o a_o savoury_a knowledge_n a_o true_a relish_n of_o heavenly_a thing_n which_o be_v no_o other_o thing_n than_o charity_n this_o make_v we_o believe_v as_o we_o ought_v hope_v as_o we_o ought_v work_v as_o we_o ought_v this_o be_v one_o and_o all_o upon_o the_o purchase_n of_o which_o if_o a_o man_n employ_v all_o his_o substance_n he_o shall_v repute_v it_o all_o as_o nothing_o at_o all_o upon_o this_o than_o will_v i_o settle_v my_o whole_a intention_n upon_o this_o spend_v all_o my_o meditation_n and_o thought_n etc._n etc._n the_o xv._o meditat_fw-la what_o charity_n be_v i._o point_n consider_v what_o charity_n be_v and_o you_o will_v receive_v from_o saint_n augustine_n that_o it_o be_v a_o love_n of_o the_o chief_a good_a or_o charity_n be_v a_o virtue_n whereby_o we_o desire_v to_o see_v god_n and_o
stand_v barganing_n my_o soul_n and_o grudge_v at_o the_o price_n the_o natural_a son_n of_o god_n purchace_v it_o at_o no_o less_o a_o rate_n for_o himself_o and_o thou_o the_o first_o meditat_fw-la for_o the_o 7._o day_n a_o serious_a reflection_n to_o be_v make_v as_o well_o of_o god_n gracious_a gift_n bestow_v upon_o we_o as_o minaces_fw-la pronounce_v against_o we_o the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v by_o way_n of_o a_o serious_a reflection_n of_o all_o the_o former_a meditation_n that_o since_o god_n have_v be_v so_o gracious_a to_o we_o and_o we_o so_o ungrateful_a to_o he_o as_o great_o and_o frequent_o to_o have_v offend_v his_o divine_a majesty_n since_o he_o so_o sowerain_o hate_v sin_n whereof_a we_o stand_v guilty_a since_o death_n be_v so_o uncertain_a judgement_n so_o dreadful_a hell_n so_o intolerable_a and_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n prepare_v for_o we_o so_o ineffable_o great_a consider_v i_o say_v what_o a_o necessity_n be_v put_v upon_o we_o if_o our_o heart_n be_v touch_v either_o with_o dread_n of_o unspeakable_a torment_n or_o love_n of_o beatitude_n to_o make_v a_o good_a use_n of_o the_o time_n which_o by_o god_n mercy_n we_o yet_o have_v to_o redeem_v time_n lose_v to_o make_v hay_n while_o the_o sun_n shine_v and_o to_o treasure_n up_o the_o celestial_a manna_n before_o the_o sun_n set_v affection_n and_o resolve_v no_o my_o soul_n we_o will_v dare_v no_o long_o to_o be_v so_o audacious_o adventurous_a as_o to_o trifle_v out_o precious_a time_n with_o cold_a cras_fw-la crass_n but_o even_o at_o this_o very_a moment_n i_o will_v strive_v to_o conclude_v a_o eternal_a peace_n with_o god_n it_o be_v dreadful_a to_o come_v too_o late_o to_o hear_v very_o very_o i_o know_v you_o not_o and_o to_o find_v the_o door_n shut_v my_o conversation_n therefore_o shall_v henceforth_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o heavenly_a thing_n i_o will_v descend_v into_o hell_n alive_a to_o observe_v the_o horrid_a torment_n of_o that_o ghastly_a den_n i_o will_v expect_v death_n at_o all_o hour_n since_o none_o know_v the_o hour_n indeed_o in_o which_o it_o may_v surprise_v i_o i_o will_v judge_v myself_o without_o flattery_n that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v more_o rigorous_o judge_v i_o will_v endeavour_n in_o earnest_n and_o with_o my_o whole_a heart_n to_o hate_v sin_n which_o god_n so_o soveraigne_o hate_v and_o the_o residue_n of_o my_o life_n shall_v be_v spend_v that_o by_o true_a and_o hearty_a penance_n the_o only_a true_a refuge_n after_o sin_n i_o may_v take_v revenge_n of_o myself_o according_a to_o s._n paul_n for_o have_v offend_v so_o gracious_a a_o benefactor_n and_o so_o dreadful_a a_o majesty_n the_o second_o pointe._n how_o we_o be_v to_o return_v to_o god_n by_o penance_n according_a to_o s._n augustine_n consider_v that_o the_o way_n to_o return_v to_o god_n by_o penance_n prescribe_v by_o s._n augustine_n be_v first_o as_o to_o the_o time_n to_o return_v speedy_o and_o without_o all_o delay_n because_o he_o who_o promise_v pardon_n to_o the_o repentant_a sinner_n promise_v no_o certain_a time_n for_o he_o to_o repent_v in_o but_o will_v he_o not_o to_o delay_v his_o conversion_n second_o as_o to_o the_o manner_n mournful_o and_o with_o confusion_n every_o one_o ought_v to_o lament_v over_o himself_o as_o over_o a_o dead_a corpse_n and_o express_v huge_a groan_n upon_o his_o dead_a soul_n three_o in_o quality_n of_o judge_n mount_v into_o the_o tribunal_n of_o your_o own_o heart_n prove_v your_o own_o judge_n and_o exercise_v justice_n upon_o yourself_o and_o in_o the_o first_o place_n take_v yourself_o from_o behind_o you_o where_o you_o endeavour_v to_o hide_v your_o fault_n and_o not_o to_o be_v see_v and_o stand_v arraign_v before_o yourself_o let_v fear_n torture_v you_o till_o a_o true_a confession_n burst_v out_o from_o a_o humble_a heart_n and_o say_v to_o god_n i_o acknowledge_v my_o iniquity_n and_o my_o sin_n be_v continual_o before_o my_o eye_n affection_n and_o resolut_n my_o soul_n have_v thus_o speedy_o mournful_o and_o with_o the_o justice_n and_o rigour_n of_o a_o unpartial_a judge_n discuss_v ourselves_o let_v we_o present_o humble_o and_o confident_o have_v recourse_n to_o god_n for_o the_o rest_n we_o have_v a_o unhappy_a power_n in_o ourselves_o to_o commit_v sin_n thy_o perdition_n be_v from_o thyself_o o_o israel_n but_o our_o salvation_n be_v from_o god_n alone_o to_o his_o mercy_n therefore_o which_o be_v above_o all_o his_o work_n let_v we_o betake_v our_o self_n say_v in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o our_o heart_n grant_v mercy_n o_o lord_n to_o that_o miserable_a wretch_n who_o thou_o so_o long_o sparedst_v in_o his_o crime_n o_o immense_a piety_n take_v compassion_n upon_o a_o confess_v cryminall_a o_o public_a mercy_n look_v upon_o he_o with_o the_o eye_n of_o pity_n who_o have_v prove_v cruel_a against_o his_o own_o soul_n ah_o i_o shall_v apprehend_v my_o case_n in_o a_o manner_n desperate_a do_v i_o not_o bewail_v it_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o a_o infinite_a goodness_n and_o conceive_v my_o wound_n incurable_a have_v i_o not_o recourse_n to_o a_o all-soweraigne_a physician_n let_v i_o perceive_v the_o effect_n of_o thy_o mildness_n have_v so_o long_o merciful_o suspend_v the_o sword_n of_o revenge_n and_o let_v the_o multitude_n of_o my_o misery_n be_v drink_v up_o in_o the_o multitude_n of_o thy_o drainelesse_a mercy_n the_o ii_o meditation_n for_o the_o same_o day_n how_o we_o be_v to_o return_v to_o god_n by_o the_o example_n of_o the_o prodigal_a child_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v that_o the_o poor_a prodigal_a have_v consume_v all_o his_o substance_n and_o rise_a by_o god_n prevent_v grace_n out_o of_o the_o sleep_n of_o sin_n where_o he_o have_v long_o lay_v he_o say_v in_o himself_o how_o many_o hireling_n be_v there_o in_o my_o father_n house_n who_o have_v bread_n in_o abundance_n while_o i_o lie_v starve_a here_o with_o hunger_n i_o will_v therefore_o go_v to_o my_o father_n and_o say_v unto_o he_o father_n i_o have_v offend_v against_o heaven_n and_o against_o thou_o nor_o be_o i_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o son_n treat_v i_o only_o as_o one_o of_o thy_o hireling_n this_o be_v all_o the_o rhetoric_n he_o use_v to_o wit_n a_o true_a acknowledgement_n of_o his_o own_o misery_n and_o offence_n and_o the_o plenty_n which_o be_v find_v in_o his_o father_n house_n and_o so_o take_v a_o pious_a resolution_n with_o the_o heart_n of_o a_o contrite_a and_o humble_a child_n to_o return_v to_o a_o gracious_a father_n and_o confess_v his_o fault_n will_v for_o his_o punishment_n to_o loose_v the_o title_n of_o a_o son_n for_o that_o of_o a_o poor_a hireling_n affection_n and_o resol._n thus_o it_o be_v my_o soul_n that_o we_o ought_v to_o enter_v into_o ourselves_o by_o compare_v the_o honour_n and_o plenty_n which_o we_o enjoy_v in_o our_o father_n house_n where_o a_o quiet_a conscience_n heavenly_a comfort_n benediction_n and_o grace_n do_v abound_v with_o the_o disaster_n disgrace_n and_o abandonment_n which_o experience_n make_v we_o find_v and_o feel_v when_o like_a fugitive_n we_o wander_v abroad_o and_o be_v reduce_v at_o length_n to_o that_o excess_n of_o misery_n as_o to_o feed_v with_o swine_n thus_o it_o be_v that_o we_o be_v to_o return_v home_o again_o by_o a_o humble_a confession_n of_o our_o fault_n to_o god_n and_o his_o minister_n hearty_o acknowledge_v that_o we_o be_v no_o long_o worthy_a of_o that_o noble_a title_n of_o domestike_n of_o god_n son_n of_o god_n coheire_n and_o spouse_n of_o christ_n but_o only_o of_o poor_a hireling_n which_o we_o willing_o embrace_v thus_o do_v my_o soul_n and_o we_o shall_v infallible_o be_v receive_v into_o the_o open_a bosom_n of_o a_o tender_a father_n who_o bowel_n be_v more_o prone_a to_o mercy_n than_o our_o miserable_a heart_n ready_a to_o crave_v it_o as_o we_o ought_v the_o ii_o pointe._n how_o we_o be_v to_o return_v to_o god_n by_o the_o example_n of_o b._n marry_o magdalene_n consider_v that_o that_o mirour_n of_o true_a penitent_n return_v to_o god_n in_o the_o best_a manner_n imaginable_a that_o be_v with_o humility_n and_o love_n mix_v with_o tear_n etc._n etc._n ut_fw-la cognovit_fw-la say_v the_o evangelist_n as_o soon_o as_o she_o know_v that_o jesus_n be_v set_v down_o to_o table_n in_o the_o pharisy_n house_v etc._n etc._n she_o enter_v with_o a_o pious_a impudence_n where_o she_o be_v not_o invite_v and_o place_v herself_o behind_o he_o at_o his_o foot_n she_o begin_v to_o water_v his_o foot_n with_o tear_n and_o wipe_v they_o with_o the_o hair_n of_o her_o head_n and_o kiss_v they_o etc._n etc._n she_o delay_v not_o to_o wit_n the_o grace_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n know_v no_o sluggish_a delay_n she_o blush_v not_o because_o the_o confusion_n which_o she_o feel_v within_o persuade_v she_o that_o outward_a
do_v so_o touch_v he_o at_o the_o hart_n that_o he_o forcible_o cry_v out_o the_o unlearned_a man_n of_o the_o world_n do_v tear_v heaven_n out_o of_o our_o hand_n and_o we_o with_o our_o great_a knowledge_n without_o brain_n or_o courage_n be_v still_o content_a to_o wallow_v in_o flesh_n and_o blood_n affection_n and_o why_o do_v not_o we_o my_o soul_n observe_v in_o ourselves_o the_o same_o error_n make_v use_n of_o the_o same_o remedy_n why_o do_v we_o not_o fly_v the_o occasion_n of_o evil_a and_o speedy_o lie_v hold_v upon_o the_o occasion_n of_o good_a compagnie_fw-fr and_o good_a counsel_n if_o in_o the_o one_o we_o meet_v with_o a_o moment_n of_o false_a delight_n experience_n assure_v we_o it_o be_v pay_v with_o hour_n and_o day_n and_o year_n of_o discomfort_n and_o remorse_n of_o conscience_n whereas_o in_o that_o other_o we_o may_v even_o here_o below_o have_v some_o participation_n of_o heaven_n and_o be_v leave_v with_o our_o thought_n full_a of_o a_o solid_a and_o permanent_a delight_n meditation_n v._o what_o befall_v he_o soon_o after_o his_o perfect_a conversion_n to_o god_n to_o wit_n a_o change_n wrought_v by_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o high_a i._o point_n consider_v a_o sudden_a and_o strange_a change_n of_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o high_a which_o happen_v to_o all_o who_o absolute_o convert_v themselves_o too_o god_n it_o become_v sweet_a to_o i_o say_v he_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o sweetness_n of_o worldly_a toy_n what_o former_o i_o fear_v to_o loose_v i_o now_o depart_v from_o with_o joy_n for_o thou_o do_v cast_v they_o from_o i_o thou_o o_o lord_n who_o be_v my_o true_a and_o prime_a sweetness_n thou_o three_o west_n they_o out_o i_o say_v and_o in_o lieu_n of_o they_o do_v thyself_o enter_v who_o art_n sweet_a than_o all_o delight_n though_o not_o to_o flesh_n and_o blood_n more_o sublime_a and_o high_a then_o all_o honour_n but_o not_o to_o those_o who_o be_v high_a in_o their_o own_o conceit_n affection_n take_v courage_n then_o o_o my_o soul_n take_v courage_n god_n be_v not_o augustins_n god_n alone_o but_o we_o also_o the_o bowel_n of_o his_o fatherly_a mercy_n lie_v open_a even_o to_o we_o too_o his_o love_n be_v not_o lessen_v his_o arm_n be_v not_o shorten_v let_v we_o but_o in_o good_a earnest_n convert_v ourselves_o unto_o he_o and_o his_o goodness_n can_v avert_v himself_o from_o us._n be_v convert_v to_o i_o and_o i_o will_v be_v convert_v to_o you_o say_v our_o lord_n let_v we_o but_o absolute_o dispossess_v ourselves_o of_o the_o world_n and_o worldly_a toy_n and_o he_o will_v infallible_o inhabit_v our_o heart_n possess_v they_o of_o heavenly_a joy_n and_o make_v we_o experience_n a_o dear_a and_o delightful_a change_n ii_o point_n consider_v second_o that_o he_o be_v restore_v to_o the_o liberty_n which_o by_o the_o flaverie_n of_o sin_n he_o have_v lose_v now_o say_v he_o be_v my_o mind_n free_v from_o the_o bite_a care_n both_o of_o honour_n and_o riches_n as_o also_o from_o procure_v to_o welter_v in_o carnal_a sin_n and_o provoke_v the_o heat_n of_o lust_n affection_n and_o resol._n oh_o what_o a_o change_n be_v this_o from_o that_o wherein_o he_o former_o find_v himself_o engage_v when_o he_o say_v now_o all_o the_o argument_n which_o i_o be_v wont_a to_o bring_v be_v solue_v and_o their_o remain_v only_o a_o speachles_a tremble_a and_o it_o his_o soul_n fear_v even_o as_o death_n itself_o to_o be_v restrain_v from_o the_o course_n and_o flux_n it_o have_v long_o take_v towards_o sin_n whereby_o it_o be_v daily_o pine_v away_o and_o grow_v near_o to_o destruction_n and_o again_o i_o turn_v and_o wind_v myself_o in_o my_o chain_n till_o such_o time_n as_o that_o little_a which_o hold_v i_o may_v be_v break_v but_o still_o it_o hold_v i_o i_o be_v say_v i_o will_v do_v it_o and_o even_o almost_o do_v it_o yet_o indeed_o i_o do_v it_o not_o but_o remain_v breathe_v near_o the_o place_n where_o i_o shall_v have_v be_v we_o often_o my_o soul_n find_v the_o same_o wrestle_v with_o flesh_n and_o blood_n but_o let_v we_o be_v faithful_a to_o god_n inspiration_n and_o we_o shall_v also_o be_v restore_v to_o the_o same_o liberty_n iii_o point_n consider_v three_o that_o as_o he_o be_v more_o and_o more_o remove_v from_o the_o trouble_n and_o care_n of_o the_o world_n he_o approach_v near_a and_o near_o to_o the_o dear_a delight_n of_o heaven_n and_o enjoy_v the_o true_a liberty_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n i_o converse_v say_v he_o in_o a_o familiar_a and_o tender_a manner_n with_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o beauty_n my_o riches_n my_o salvation_n my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n aff._n and_o resol._n mark_v o_o my_o soul_n the_o delightful_a degree_n of_o this_o heavenly_a change_n we_o be_v first_o touch_v and_o excite_v by_o grace_n be_v fall_v we_o be_v carry_v on_o by_o delight_n be_v rise_v accompany_v by_o delight_n we_o be_v lead_v to_o liberty_n which_o afford_v we_o wing_n of_o holy_a desire_n to_o fly_v up_o and_o repose_v in_o the_o bosom_n of_o our_o dear_o belove_a and_o shelter_n and_o solace_v ourselves_o betwixt_o those_o sacred_a breast_n of_o consolation_n to_o which_o i_o will_v cling_v and_o nothing_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o separate_v i_o the_o vi_o meditation_n how_o absolute_o he_o betake_v himself_o to_o a_o good_a life_n i._o point_n consider_v that_o no_o soon_o be_v he_o restore_v to_o this_o bless_a liberty_n and_o have_v he_o receive_v the_o sacrament_n at_o saint_n ambrose_n his_o hand_n but_o he_o begin_v to_o lay_v the_o fundation_n of_o a_o holy_a life_n by_o bid_v a_o most_o absolute_a adieu_o from_o the_o very_a bo_z tom_fw-mi of_o his_o hart_n as_o say_v possidius_n to_o all_o worldly_a pretension_n nether_a now_o desire_v a_o wife_n nor_o son_n of_o his_o body_n nor_o riches_n nor_o worldly_a honour_n but_o make_v a_o firm_a purpose_n to_o give_v himself_o whole_o to_o god_n service_n fast_v prayer_n and_o good_a work_n meditate_v day_n and_o night_n in_o the_o law_n of_o our_o lord_n say_v possidius_n affection_n and_o resol._n o_o my_o soul_n let_v we_o take_v the_o same_o resolution_n and_o humble_o confident_o and_o perseverant_o make_v use_n of_o the_o same_o mean_n and_o we_o shall_v not_o fail_v happy_o to_o be_v restore_v to_o god_n favour_n he_o who_o make_v we_o without_o we_o will_v not_o save_v we_o without_o our_o consent_n and_o cooperation_n we_o must_v work_v then_o not_o we_o alone_a but_o god_n grace_n with_o us._n ii_o point_n consider_v that_o this_o resolution_n be_v take_v in_o general_a he_o find_v no_o better_a way_n to_o set_v upon_o it_o in_o particular_a then_o by_o sell_v what_o he_o have_v and_o give_v it_o to_o the_o poor_a to_o follow_v christ_n take_v his_o own_o word_n for_o it_o i_o say_v he_o epis_n 89._o who_o write_v these_o thing_n do_v vehement_o love_v that_o perfection_n whereof_o our_o lord_n speak_v when_o he_o say_v to_o the_o rich_a young_a man_n in_o the_o gospel_n go_v etc._n etc._n and_o i_o embrace_v it_o not_o by_o my_o own_o strength_n but_o by_o the_o assistance_n of_o his_o grace_n affection_n and_o resol._n behold_v o_o my_o soul_n how_o thy_o holy_a patron_n spring_v on_o in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n counsel_n their_o be_v now_o no_o more_o cold_a cras_fw-la crase_n to_o morrow_n and_o to_o morrow_n hear_v but_o fourthwith_o he_o set_v upon_o it_o no_o more_o half_a will_n whereof_o the_o one_o serve_v to_o destroy_v the_o other_o but_o he_o resolute_o and_o vehemen_o love_v it_o no_o more_o irresolution_n as_o fear_v into_o what_o hand_n he_o may_v put_v himself_o or_o that_o he_o may_v loose_v by_o the_o bargain_n but_o he_o sell_v and_o give_v all_o that_o he_o have_v if_o we_o find_v ourselves_o thus_o affect_v how_o good_a reason_n have_v we_o to_o rejoice_v in_o our_o lord_n but_o if_o contrary_o we_o be_v delay_v cold_a irresolute_a in_o what_o we_o have_v undertake_v how_o good_a reason_n have_v we_o to_o spur_v ourselves_o on_o by_o his_o example_n i_o will_v therefore_o etc._n etc._n iii_o point_n consider_v that_o he_o do_v not_o build_v wood_n hay_o or_o stubble_n that_o be_v terreane_a preferment_n or_o respect_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n upon_o these_o holy_a fundation_n but_o even_o gold_n silver_n and_o precious_a stone_n say_v possidius_n that_o be_v the_o most_o choice_n christian_n virtue_n to_o wit_n a_o fervent_a love_n of_o god_n intimate_v by_o gold_n the_o love_n of_o the_o neighbour_n signify_v by_o silver_n and_o all_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o virtue_n import_v by_o precious_a stone_n aff._n and_o resol._n this_o be_v the_o pattern_n which_o our_o holy_a patron_n leave_v we_o let_v we_o examine_v how_o well_o we_o take_v it_o out_o be_v it_o thus_o indeed_o o_o my_o
evident_a my_o dear_a lord_n thy_o sorrow_n pass_v all_o our_o sorrow_n &_o yet_o my_o soul_n it_o be_v majesty_n that_o be_v thus_o smite_v it_o be_v innocence_n which_o thus_o suffer_v it_o be_v indeed_o the_o god_n of_o god_n who_o immensity_n can_v be_v comprehend_v who_o perfection_n &_o excellency_n can_v be_v number_v who_o goodness_n be_v boundless_a who_o mercy_n can_v be_v match_v alas_o my_o deform_a hide_a crucify_a lord_n whither_o have_v mercy_n goodness_n love_n to_o miserable_a man_n lead_v thou_o be_v it_o think_v fittinge_n to_o this_o goodness_n that_o thy_o wound_n shall_v be_v without_o number_n as_o be_v thy_o perfection_n &_o mercy_n to_o man_n so_o to_o make_v a_o absolute_a demonstration_n that_o as_o there_o be_v no_o love_n so_o be_v there_o no_o sorrow_n like_v to_o thy_o let_v i_o not_o live_v but_o to_o love_v thou_o &_o suffer_v for_o thy_o sake_n the_o ii_o pointe._n consider_v further_o that_o he_o suffer_v in_o all_o his_o sense_n by_o the_o presence_n of_o all_o the_o object_n of_o sorrow_n he_o see_v his_o choysen_n apostle_n sleep_v while_o he_o be_v sweat_v blood_n he_o see_v the_o trayter_n who_o he_o have_v new_o feed_v with_o his_o own_o bless_a body_n &_o blood_n come_v in_o the_o head_n of_o a_o barbarous_a band_n to_o apprehend_v he_o he_o see_v the_o execrable_a cruelty_n of_o a_o ungrateful_a nation_n which_o he_o have_v always_o oblige_v and_o love_v by_o preference_n final_o his_o ear_n be_v full_a of_o blaspheemies_n scoff_n and_o scorn_n and_o his_o eye_n and_o heart_n of_o the_o sorrow_n tear_n and_o blood_n of_o a_o god_n die_v affection_n and_o yet_o my_o soul_n it_o be_v the_o very_a natural_a son_n of_o god_n that_o suffer_v all_o this_o he_o be_v the_o splendour_n of_o his_o father_n glory_n and_o the_o figure_n of_o his_o substance_n and_o shall_v we_o his_o poor_a son_n take_v in_o by_o adoption_n only_o see_v with_o dry_a eye_n his_o full_a of_o tear_n and_o blood_n or_o shall_v we_o after_o this_o sad_a sight_n permit_v they_o any_o more_o to_o be_v fill_v with_o vanity_n shall_v our_o ear_n lie_v open_a to_o distraction_n adulation_n and_o find_v rumour_n which_o hurt_v our_o soul_n while_o his_o for_o our_o sake_n be_v fill_v with_o contumely_n and_o blasphemy_n shall_v we_o christian_n pamper_v the_o rest_n of_o our_o sense_n with_o sweet_n and_o delicacy_n while_o our_o christ_n so_o huge_o suffer_v in_o they_o all_o ah_o be_v it_o ever_o far_o from_o we_o to_o pay_v his_o love_n with_o such_o intolerable_a ingratitude_n the_o iii_o point_n he_o suffer_v in_o his_o soul_n but_o if_o his_o body_n universal_o and_o all_o his_o sense_n be_v engage_v in_o the_o sufference_n be_v his_o soul_n at_o least_o free_a ah_o no_o it_o be_v sad_a to_o death_n it_o be_v replenish_v with_o evil_a or_o sorrow_n the_o bitter_a water_n of_o tribulation_n have_v break_v in_o upon_o it_o the_o horror_n of_o death_n the_o ingratitude_n of_o man_n the_o scorn_n of_o nation_n pilate_n injustice_n herod_n mockery_n annas_n and_o cayphas_n blasphemy_n the_o scribe_n and_o pharisy_n circumuention_n the_o minister_n and_o soldier_n cruelty_n the_o people_n preference_n of_o barrabas_n and_o their_o tumultuous_a and_o unjust_a crucifige_fw-la see_v then_o whether_o there_o be_v any_o sorrow_o like_a to_o his_o sorrow_o affection_n and_o resol._n o_o man_n of_o dolour_n and_o accustom_v to_o sufferance_n from_o thy_o youth_n be_v not_o thy_o sorrow_n and_o in_o they_o thy_o love_n to_o man_n sufficient_o express_v in_o abandon_v that_o innocent_a chaste_a and_o tender_a virginal_a body_n of_o thy_o to_o the_o cruel_a persecutor_n will_n unless_o thou_o do_v withal_o permit_v the_o bitter_a flood_n of_o tribulation_n and_o deadly_a sadness_n enter_v into_o and_o take_v possession_n of_o thy_o bless_a soul_n consider_v my_o soul_n and_o see_v whether_o their_o be_v any_o sorrow_n like_a to_o this_o sorrow_n or_o any_o love_n like_o to_o his_o love_n who_o give_v up_o his_o soul_n to_o such_o sorrow_n for_o thy_o sake_n if_o the_o horror_n of_o death_n invade_v thou_o thy_o master_n go_v before_o thou_o &_o wade_v through_o to_o death_n itself_o prove_v friend_n ungrateful_a so_o they_o be_v to_o thy_o lord_n be_v other_o of_o less_o worth_n prefer_v before_o thou_o but_o so_o be_v barrabas_n before_o thy_o master_n christ_n remember_v remember_v my_o soul_n that_o the_o servant_n be_v not_o great_a than_o his_o master_n etc._n etc._n the_o iv_o pointe._n he_o suffer_v without_o a_o comforter_n consider_v his_o body_n be_v torment_v his_o sense_n offend_v his_o soul_n afflict_v and_o oppress_v be_v none_o leave_v to_o comfort_v he_o no_o none_o relictus_fw-la est_fw-la solus_fw-la he_o be_v abandon_v leave_v all_o alone_a to_o wrestle_v with_o all_o the_o legion_n of_o sorrow_n non_fw-fr est_fw-fr qui_fw-fr consoletur_fw-la eum_fw-la there_o be_v none_o leave_v to_o comfort_v he_o be_v there_o ever_o so_o piteous_a a_o spectacle_n his_o apostle_n be_v flee_v peter_n follow_v a_o far_o of_o and_o swear_v he_o know_v he_o not_o the_o dolorous_a mother_n stand_v near_o the_o cross_n indeed_o but_o her_o presence_n afford_v so_o small_a solace_n that_o her_o sorrow_n serve_v to_o redouble_v he_o the_o angel_n come_v not_o near_o his_o heavenly_a father_n abandonn_n he_o nay_o yet_o more_o heaven_n stand_v amayse_v at_o it_o he_o be_v even_o forsake_v by_o himself_o while_o he_o stopp_n the_o influence_n of_o his_o divinity_n that_o it_o flow_v not_o upon_o his_o humanity_n leave_v it_o to_o suffer_v all_o alone_a without_o all_o comfort_n see_v then_o unhether_o there_o be_v any_o sorrow_o like_a to_o his_o sorrow_o affection_n and_o resol._n o_o my_o soul_n look_v upon_o the_o face_n of_o thy_o christ_n admire_v his_o his_o un_fw-mi weary_v suffering_n love_n hearty_o acknowledge_v that_o there_o be_v no_o sorrow_n like_o his_o sorrow_n imprint_v in_o thy_o heart_n at_o what_o a_o dear_a rate_n thou_o be_v buy_v ah_o my_o soul_n it_o be_v not_o with_o gold_n and_o silver_n and_o such_o corruptible_a thing_n but_o with_o the_o sorrow_n and_o tear_n and_o blood_n and_o death_n of_o a_o god-man_n our_o saviour_n jesus_n with_o sorrow_n which_o spread_v themselves_o so_o universal_o over_o body_n sense_n and_o soul_n with_o tear_n and_o blood_n so_o plentiful_o and_o free_o pour_v out_o with_o death_n so_o ignominious_a so_o devoid_a of_o all_o comfort_n so_o abandon_v that_o it_o force_v from_o the_o mouth_n of_o a_o most_o obedient_a and_o dear_a child_n my_o god_n my_o god_n why_o have_v thou_o forsake_v i_o resolve_v firm_o then_o that_o neither_o sorrow_n nor_o bloodshed_n nor_o abandonment_n nor_o death_n itself_o shall_v separate_v we_o from_o the_o love_n of_o that_o dear_a lord_n the_o first_o meditat_fw-la for_o the_o four_o day_n of_o death_n the_o first_o pointe._n nothing_o more_o certain_a than_o death_n less_o certain_a than_o the_o time_n thereof_o consider_v and_o strive_v to_o imprint_v in_o our_o heart_n that_o which_o we_o all_o know_v yet_o seem_v not_o to_o know_v it_o that_o which_o we_o all_o believe_v and_o yet_o as_o it_o be_v believe_v it_o not_o to_o wit_n that_o as_o there_o be_v nothing_o so_o certain_a as_o death_n so_o be_v there_o nothing_o so_o uncertain_a as_o the_o hour_n thereof_o consult_v our_o own_o knowledge_n upon_o these_o truth_n &_o we_o know_v that_o neither_o s_z wit_n nor_o samson_n strength_n nor_o absalon_n beauty_n be_v find_v proof_n against_o it_o they_o be_v and_o now_o be_v not_o mortui_fw-la sunt_fw-la be_v certain_a consult_v the_o word_n of_o truth_n and_o we_o shall_v find_v that_o we_o be_v bind_v to_o believe_v what_o we_o otherwise_o know-worth_n consult_v ourselves_o again_o upon_o the_o uncertainty_n of_o it_o and_o we_o find_v that_o we_o have_v know_v many_o take_v away_o when_o they_o and_o their_o friend_n lest_o fear_v it_o some_o by_o violent_a some_o by_o natural_a death_n some_o in_o their_o childhood_n before_o they_o well_o know_v what_o it_o be_v to_o live_v some_o in_o their_o flourish_a spring_n when_o vigorous_a youth_n promise_v they_o they_o can_v not_o die_v some_o in_o the_o decline_n of_o their_o age_n while_o death_n threaten_v and_o yet_o be_v not_o fear_v so_o certain_a it_o be_v that_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n be_v uncertain_a to_o all_o as_o christ_n himself_o make_v it_o sure_a to_o faith_n watch_n say_v he_o because_o you_o neither_o know_v the_o day_n nor_o the_o hour_n affection_n and_o resolve_v dye_v then_o we_o must_v my_o soul_n thereis_n nothing_o so_o certain_a depart_v we_o must_v out_o of_o this_o cottage_n of_o clay_n god_n justice_n have_v pronounce_v the_o sentence_n remember_v man_n that_o thou_o be_v dust_n &_o in-to_a dust_n thou_o shall_v return_v but_o when_o must_v this_o sentence_n be_v put_v in_o execution_n that_o
the_o first_o meditat_fw-la for_o the_o sixth_z day_n of_o heaven_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v what_o this_o kingdom_n be_v which_o be_v prepare_v for_o the_o bless_a and_o which_o they_o be_v call_v to_o possess_v come_v possess_v the_o kingdom_n prepare_v for_o you_o and_o this_o at_o least_o we_o shall_v find_v that_o whatever_o this_o possession_n may_v be_v it_o be_v great_a than_o we_o have_v any_o capacity_n to_o comprehend_v let_v we_o look_v upon_o all_o the_o beauty_n and_o magnificency_n that_o ever_o our_o eye_n behold_v and_o they_o be_v not_o it_o let_v we_o make_v reflection_n of_o all_o that_o ever_o we_o have_v hear_v of_o honour_n riches_n pleasure_n and_o all_o of_o they_o be_v not_o it_o let_v we_o by_o help_n of_o imagination_n put_v all_o together_o that_o we_o have_v either_o see_v or_o hear_v and_o even_o add_v to_o they_o million_o of_o million_o more_o and_o yet_o we_o be_v not_o arrive_v at_o it_o no_o for_o s._n paul_n assure_v we_o that_o neither_o eye_n have_v see_v nor_o ear_n have_v hear_v nor_o have_v it_o enter_v into_o the_o mind_n of_o man_n what_o god_n have_v prepare_v for_o those_o that_o love_v he_o affection_n and_o resol._n o_o my_o most_o bountiful_a lord_n and_o master_n have_v thy_o goodness_a make_v i_o capable_a of_o a_o kingdom_n which_o thy_o wisdom_n have_v not_o enable_v i_o at_o present_a to_o comprehend_v o_o too_o too_o happy_a we_o can_v we_o true_o understand_v our_o own_o happiness_n but_o o_o more_o than_o most_o unhappy_a we_o if_o we_o permit_v sin_n to_o rob_v we_o of_o it_o or_o that_o we_o otherwise_o make_v it_o a_o way_n for_o a_o mess_n of_o pottage_n or_o the_o bitter_a mandragores_n of_o mix_a moment_n of_o painful_a pleasure_n for_o such_o inconsiderable_a toy_n i_o mean_v as_o be_v daily_a object_n to_o mean_a eye_n and_o fill_v every_o ear_n nay_o even_o for_o the_o great_a thing_n our_o heart_n can_v conceive_v since_o in_o a_o small_a time_n they_o vanish_v away_o like_a dream_n and_o leave_v nothing_o in_o our_o hand_n alas_o be_v it_o not_o a_o strange_a misery_n and_o madness_n to_o make_v away_o such_o inconceivable_a permanent_a possession_n for_o such_o know_v transitory_a toy_n the_o ii_o pointe._n what_o heaven_n be_v consider_v again_o what_o this_o kingdom_n or_o possession_n prepare_v for_o we_o may_v be_v and_o we_o find_v it_o be_v a_o state_n of_o life_n perfect_o accomplish_v with_o the_o whole_a collection_n of_o all_o good_a thing_n not_o a_o passage_n but_o a_o state_n a_o permanencie_n without_o change_n without_o end_n without_o irkesommesse_n perfect_o accomplish_v not_o by_o half_n and_o piecemeal_n with_o the_o whole_a collection_n of_o all_o good_a thing_n not_o with_o a_o few_o as_o here_o below_o and_o those_o good_a and_o ill_a pain_n and_o pleasure_n mix_v together_o but_o with_o the_o whole_a collection_n of_o all_o good_a thing_n so_o that_o what_o ever_o we_o desire_v shall_v be_v present_a and_o all_o thar_z we_o desire_v not_o shall_v be_v absent_a eternal_o affection_n and_o resol._n we_o have_v god_n word_n for_o it_o my_o soul_n and_o it_o can_v fail_v we_o that_o he_o will_v show_v we_o all_o good_a that_o be_v all_o that_o be_v advantageous_a gainful_a and_o rich_a in_o steed_n of_o the_o transitory_a riches_n of_o this_o world_n all_o that_o be_v beseem_v honourable_a and_o illustrious_a in_o lieu_n of_o the_o vain_a and_o vadinge_n honour_v here_o below_o all_o that_o contain_v in_o itself_o any_o cause_n of_o joy_n and_o iubilie_n and_o and_o all_o that_o be_v dear_a and_o delightful_a to_o wit_n that_o ineffable_a unmeasurable_a eternal_a weight_n of_o glory_n according_a to_o s._n paul_n in_o place_n of_o those_o short_a light_a delude_a and_o even_o painful_a pleasure_n as_o solomon_n and_o s._n augustine_n experience_v they_o for_o which_o poor_a man_n lose_v himself_o thus_o my_o soul_n do_v faith_n assure_v we_o let_v not_o then_o folly_n persuade_v we_o the_o contrary_a the_o ii_o meditation_n for_o the_o 6._o day_n of_o heaven_n again_o the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v the_o kingdom_n prepare_v for_o we_o be_v beatitude_n come_v o_o you_o bless_a and_o beatitude_n be_v no_o other_o thing_n then_o to_o know_v what_o be_v best_a and_o to_o enjoy_v the_o same_o and_o whereas_o none_o but_o god_n himself_o be_v our_o summum_fw-la bonum_fw-la or_o optimum_fw-la our_o chief_a good_a or_o our_o best_a it_o follow_v that_o god_n himself_o the_o father_n son_n and_o holy_a ghost_n be_v our_o beatitude_n or_o the_o kingdom_n prepare_v for_o we_o accord_v to_o that_o i_o myself_o will_v be_v thy_o exceed_a great_a reward_v he_o we_o shall_v see_v face_n to_o face_n and_o in_o that_o sight_n our_o understanding_n meet_v with_o all_o truth_n he_o we_o shall_v see_v and_o in_o see_v he_o our_o will_n meet_v with_o all_o good_a hence_o the_o understanding_n have_v no_o more_o to_o seek_v and_o the_o will_v no_o more_o to_o love_n they_o fall_v as_o it_o be_v into_o a_o bless_a necessity_n of_o true_o see_v what_o they_o love_v and_o love_v what_o they_o see_v for_o all_o eternity_n affection_n and_o resol._n forget_v not_o then_o o_o man_n thy_o dignity_n by_o god_n mercy_n and_o the_o merit_n of_o christ_n thou_o be_v make_v the_o son_n of_o god_n coheir_n with_o christ_n to_o share_v in_o his_o heavenly_a inheritance_n to_o possess_v the_o same_o kingdom_n with_o he_o that_o be_v to_o know_v the_o prime_a truth_n and_o love_v the_o chief_a good_a for_o ever_o and_o ever_o let_v not_o then_o the_o fable_n fiction_n and_o vain_a lie_n of_o the_o world_n take_v up_o thy_o understand_v make_v to_o know_v so_o great_a and_o divine_a a_o truth_n nor_o the_o vain_a love_n of_o creature_n engage_v thy_o will_n make_v to_o love_n so_o soweraigne_a à _fw-la good_n but_o cry_v incessant_o here_o below_o with_o holy_a s._n augustine_n let_v i_o know_v thou_o o_o lord_n and_o know_v myself_o and_o let_v i_o love_v thou_o as_o much_o as_o i_o desire_v and_o as_o much_o as_o i_o ought_v thus_o my_o soul_n may_v we_o in_o some_o measure_n while_o we_o live_v amid_o our_o misery_n begin_v before_o hand_n to_o possess_v our_o beatitude_n which_o consist_v in_o know_v love_a and_o enjoy_v our_o chief_a good_a which_o be_v god_n himself_o the_o ii_o pointe._n how_o heaven_n be_v to_o be_v purchase_v consider_v out_o of_o the_o gospel_n that_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n suffer_v violence_n and_o the_o violent_a bear_v it_o away_o yes_o but_o we_o must_v learn_v of_o s._n ambrose_n how_o we_o be_v to_o make_v this_o violence_n we_o be_v to_o assault_v it_o not_o with_o sword_n with_o club_n or_o stone_n but_o with_o mildness_n with_o good_a work_n with_o chastity_n these_o be_v the_o arm_n which_o our_o faith_n make_v use_v of_o in_o that_o onsett_a but_o yet_o to_o make_v a_o right_a use_n thereof_o we_o must_v first_o of_o all_o make_v force_n against_o our_o own_o flesh_n and_o blood_n that_o so_o gain_v dominion_n over_o ourselves_o we_o may_v employ_v all_o our_o ability_n to_o force_v heaven_n as_o it_o be_v out_o of_o the_o strong_a hand_n of_o the_o almighty_a we_o be_v not_o to_o hope_v say_v s._n gregory_n to_o come_v to_o great_a honour_n but_o by_o great_a labour_n and_o pain_n we_o must_v mortify_v our_o member_n and_o all_o the_o mutinous_a people_n of_o our_o heart_n our_o unrulie_a passion_n and_o bad_a inclination_n so_o do_v all_o the_o saint_n of_o god_n scale_n and_o win_v his_o kingdom_n so_o do_v that_o great_a doctor_n of_o the_o gentile_n bear_v it_o away_o i_o chastise_v my_o body_n and_o bring_v it_o into_o servitude_n so_o do_v the_o saint_n of_o saint_n enter_v into_o his_o own_o kingdom_n he_o suffer_v and_o so_o enter_v into_o his_o own_o kingdom_n affection_n and_o resol._n let_v we_o not_o hope_n my_o soul_n that_o we_o who_o be_v but_o young_a and_o adoptive_a child_n shall_v find_v any_o other_o safe_a way_n to_o heaven_n than_o that_o which_o the_o natural_a son_n of_o god_n and_o all_o his_o saint_n be_v to_o pass_v that_o be_v through_o tribulation_n contumely_n and_o contempt_n if_o we_o suffer_v with_o he_o we_o shall_v reign_v with_o he_o no_o no_o the_o pure_a wheat_n reserve_v for_o the_o heavenly_a granary_n must_v be_v winnow_v the_o gold_n find_v worthy_a to_o have_v course_n in_o that_o celestial_a kingdom_n must_v pass_v through_o the_o hot_a fire_n sweet_a s._n augustine_n putt_v it_o at_o the_o low_a rate_n that_o ever_o it_o can_v be_v expect_v and_o yet_o according_a to_o he_o it_o will_v cost_v we_o no_o less_o than_o all_o we_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n say_v that_o excellent_a saint_n be_v worth_a as_o much_o as_o thou_o be_v give_v thyself_o and_o thou_o shall_v have_v it_o do_v not_o
meditation_n for_o the_o first_o day_n of_o the_o solid_a and_o sure_a fundation_n of_o this_o spiritual_a building_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v what_o fundation_n ought_v to_o be_v lay_v to_o support_v this_o weighty_a and_o most_o important_a build_n and_o your_o holy_a father_n will_v tell_v you_o again_o that_o it_o ought_v to_o be_v no_o other_o than_o humility_n do_v you_o say_v he_o pretend_v to_o erect_v a_o fabric_n of_o a_o huge_a height_n think_v first_o of_o the_o foundation_n humility_n and_o by_o how_o much_o high_o we_o intend_v to_o raise_v the_o building_n and_o to_o charge_v more_o weight_n upon_o it_o by_o so_o much_o deep_a we_o must_v dig_v the_o fundation_n now_o unto_o what_o a_o vast_a height_n be_v the_o top_n of_o our_o euangelliall_a tower_n to_o reach_v certes_o even_o into_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n that_o great_a god_n that_o immense_a and_o dreadful_a majesty_n how_o vast_o deep_a then_o ought_v our_o foundation_n to_o be_v dig_v affection_n and_o resol._n yes_o my_o soul_n it_o be_v even_o into_o the_o sight_n of_o this_o dreadful_a majesty_n that_o we_o intend_v that_o the_o top_n of_o our_o tower_n shall_v reach_v that_o majesty_n which_o the_o angel_n praise_n the_o domination_n adore_v the_o power_n tremble_v at_o the_o cherubin_n and_o seraphin_n with_o dread_n singe_v to_o holy_a holy_a holy_a for_o ever_o let_v we_o not_o hazard_v so_o huge_o important_a a_o piece_n upon_o unsound_a groundwork_n which_o will_v prove_v at_o length_n but_o ruin_n nay_o contrary_o let_v we_o dig_v quite_o through_o this_o loose_a earth_n of_o which_o we_o be_v make_v exinanite_n exinanite_n usque_fw-la ad_fw-la fundamentum_fw-la in_o ea_fw-la let_v we_o never_o leave_v dig_v till_o we_o meet_v with_o our_o own_a nothing_o till_o we_o know_v it_o certain_o till_o we_o confess_v it_o ingenuous_o that_o be_v our_o safe_a ground_n to_o build_v upon_o where_o we_o may_v just_o hope_v that_o god_n will_v put_v a_o hand_n too_o and_o raise_v the_o work_n since_o his_o custom_n be_v to_o trade_v upon_o nothing_o and_o to_o work_n wonder_n upon_o it_o ah_o my_o soul_n may_v we_o be_v so_o true_o nothing_o in_o our_o own_o eye_n that_o he_o who_o be_v potent_a may_v look_v upon_o our_o abiectnesse_n and_o do_v great_a thing_n in_o us._n the_o ii_o pointe._n what_o this_o foundation_n humility_n be_v consider_v what_o humility_n true_o be_v and_o you_o will_v receive_v from_o your_o holy_a father_n that_o it_o be_v a_o voluntary_a stoop_n or_o low_a of_o the_o mind_n out_o of_o a_o serious_a consideration_n of_o what_o our_o almighty_a maker_n be_v and_o what_o we_o be_v in_o relation_n to_o he_o or_o again_o humility_n be_v a_o virtue_n whereby_o a_o man_n wax_v vile_a in_o his_o own_o sight_n by_o the_o true_a knowledge_n he_o have_v of_o his_o own_o misery_n or_o else_o from_o s._n bernard_n humility_n be_v verity_n that_o be_v the_o truth_n of_o what_o god_n be_v and_o what_o be_v man_n which_o be_v well_o know_v and_o ponder_v it_o be_v impossible_a but_o that_o our_o heart_n shall_v bow_v down_o to_o the_o very_a ground_n and_o keep_v we_o there_o with_o our_o mouth_n in_o the_o dust_n whereof_o we_o be_v make_v affection_n and_o resolve_v now_o my_o soul_n if_o humility_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o stoop_n of_o the_o heart_n upon_o the_o knowledge_n we_o have_v of_o what_o god_n be_v and_o what_o we_o be_v let_v our_o consideration_n be_v continual_o fix_v upon_o those_o two_o thing_n as_o the_o sure_a solid_a and_o true_a ground_n thereof_o say_v with_o the_o humble_a s._n francis_n o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v thou_o and_o who_o be_o i_o who_o be_v thou_o but_o a_o immense_a inaccessible_a ineffable_a incomprehensible_a majesty_n and_o who_o be_o i_o but_o a_o miserable_a inconsiderable_a contemptible_a abyss_n of_o misery_n who_o be_v thou_o but_o a_o infinite_a rich_a master_n who_o can_v need_v nothing_o that_o be_v i_o and_o who_o be_o i_o but_o a_o poor_a needy_a beggarly_a servant_n who_o be_o constrain_v to_o beg_v bread_n at_o thy_o door_n every_o day_n who_o be_v thou_o but_o a_o permanent_a independent_a eternal_a essence_n or_o be_v and_o who_o be_o i_o as_o the_o scripture_n teach_v but_o a_o vapour_n a_o morning_n dew_a a_o dream_n a_o fantome_n a_o fade_a flower_n a_o pure_a vanity_n a_o blast_n of_o wind_n a_o shadow_n in_o aword_n a_o thing_n which_o neither_o have_v any_o other_o thing_n more_o miserable_o poor_a or_o morevaine_o proud_a than_o itself_o dust_n and_o ash_n then_o why_o be_v thou_o proud_a the_o first_o meditat_fw-la for_o the_o second_o day_n of_o who_o we_o ought_v to_o learn_v humility_n the_o first_o pointe._n consider_v of_o who_o you_o ought_v to_o learn_v humility_n and_o s._n augustine_n will_v tell_v you_o that_o he_o send_v you_o not_o to_o publican_n and_o harlot_n who_o yet_o will_v be_v prefer_v before_o the_o proud_a person_n in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n but_o to_o the_o king_n of_o heaven_n himself_o who_o cry_v out_o as_o it_o be_v in_o a_o public_a auditory_a of_o all_o mankind_n come_v unto_o i_o and_o learn_v of_o i_o but_o tell_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o say_v he_o o_o thou_o son_n of_o god_n what_o must_v i_o learn_v of_o thou_o by_o come_v to_o thou_o that_o i_o be_o mild_a and_o humble_a in_o heart_n be_v then_o all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n which_o be_v hide_v in_o thou_o reduce_v to_o this_o that_o we_o must_v learn_v this_o of_o thou_o as_o some_o great_a matter_n of_o importance_n that_o thou_o be_v mild_a and_o humble_a in_o heart_n be_v it_o so_o great_a a_o thing_n to_o become_v little_a that_o unless_o we_o learn_v it_o of_o thou_o who_o be_v so_o great_a we_o shall_v never_o be_v able_a to_o learn_v it_o yes_o true_o say_v he_o even_o so_o it_o be_v for_o the_o peace_n and_o repose_n of_o the_o soul_n can_v be_v no_o otherwise_o attain_v to_o then_o by_o dissipate_v that_o unrulie_a swell_n which_o make_v a_o man_n seem_v great_a in_o his_o own_o eye_n while_o he_o appear_v unsound_a in_o thy_o o_o lord._n affection_n and_o resolve_v we_o be_v here_o call_v to_o christ_n school_n my_o soul_n to_o learn_v a_o a_o lesson_n which_o the_o world_n be_v never_o acquaint_v with_o before_o the_o great_a rabbi_n of_o the_o law_n look_v over_o it_o to_o find_v the_o first_o place_n in_o the_o synagogue_n the_o learned_a philosopher_n understand_v it_o not_o and_o thence_o vanish_v in_o their_o own_o wisdom_n the_o great_a potentate_n of_o the_o earth_n look_v upon_o it_o with_o scorn_n and_o thence_o they_o be_v throw_v down_o from_o their_o seat_n but_o rhe_n wisdom_n of_o heaven_n make_v himself_o the_o master_n of_o it_o and_o will_v have_v we_o to_o learn_v of_o he_o not_o to_o create_v new_a world_n not_o to_o make_v visible_a and_o invisible_a thing_n not_o to_o work_v miracle_n and_o raise_v the_o dead_a etc._n etc._n which_o we_o shall_v have_v judge_v a_o strange_a since_o a_o impossible_a commande_fw-fr but_o this_o only_a short_a sweet_a and_o easy_a lesson_n mildness_n and_o humility_n of_o heart_n for_o alas_o without_o it_o what_o will_v it_o profit_v we_o to_o be_v able_a to_o say_v as_o some_o shall_v say_v to_o god_n do_v we_o not_o prophesy_v in_o thy_o name_n do_v we_o not_o cast_v our_o devil_n do_v we_o not_o work_v many_o wonder_n what_o will_v it_o profit_v we_o i_o say_v since_o we_o shall_v only_o hear_v with_o they_o i_o know_v you_o not_o be_v go_v from_o i_o o_o you_o worker_n of_o iniquity_n the_o ii_o pointe._n consider_v that_o it_o be_v no_o wonder_n that_o the_o teach_n of_o humility_n be_v one_o of_o his_o great_a sermon_n to_o all_o mankind_n in_o earth_n since_o as_o it_o may_v seem_v one_o of_o his_o wisdom_n chief_a design_n in_o come_v down_o from_o heaven_n be_v to_o teach_v the_o son_n of_o earth_n that_o necessary_a way_n to_o heaven_n according_a to_o that_o none_o ascend_v but_o he_o who_o descend_v to_o wit_n he_o have_v see_v one_o of_o the_o bright_a of_o his_o star_n with_o huge_a multitude_n of_o his_o accurse_a crew_n rush_v down_o to_o hell_n by_o their_o proud_a ambition_n of_o ascend_v and_o therefore_o he_o will_v teach_v the_o earth_n by_o descend_v to_o ascend_v above_o the_o heaven_n they_o lose_v their_o right_n to_o heaven_n by_o aspire_v above_o their_o place_n to_o more_o than_o they_o be_v and_o man_n be_v to_o be_v teach_v to_o cure_v contrary_n by_o contrary_n and_o to_o reintitle_v himself_o to_o heaven_n by_o humble_o stay_v in_o his_o place_n and_o by_o remain_v what_o he_o be_v by_o dwell_v in_o his_o poor_a naked_a nothing_o which_o alone_o be_v it_o anything_o he_o may_v proper_o term_v his_o own_o affection_n and_o resol._n if_o
the_o most_o common_a and_o dangerous_a disease_n of_o the_o banish_a son_n of_o eue._n for_o who_o know_v not_o the_o eye_n which_o scandalise_v and_o entice_v we_o to_o sin_n and_o yet_o who_o have_v the_o courage_n to_o pull_v it_o out_o who_o see_v not_o the_o hand_n which_o lead_v we_o to_o iniquity_n and_o yet_o who_o resolve_v to_o cut_v it_o off_o indeed_o i_o mean_v the_o companion_n and_o occasion_n of_o evil_a nay_o we_o embrace_v and_o hug_v they_o and_o seem_v to_o have_v our_o hart_n slice_v in_o piece_n if_o we_o be_v divide_v from_o they_o o_o how_o strange_o perverse_a and_o senseless_o mad_a be_v the_o hart_n of_o man_n make_v a_o firm_a resolution_n of_o a_o contrary_a proceed_n the_o iii_o meditation_n a_o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n i._o point_n consider_v that_o we_o be_v not_o senseless_a of_o our_o evil_a only_a and_o fall_v in_o love_n with_o our_o misery_n but_o from_o the_o perverseness_n of_o the_o same_o love_n grow_n lust_n by_o often_o yield_n to_o lust_n we_o make_v a_o custom_n and_o by_o not_o oppose_v to_o this_o custom_n which_o be_v a_o certain_a law_n of_o sin_n we_o grow_v subject_a to_o a_o kind_n of_o necessity_n wberby_o the_o mind_n of_o man_n even_o not_o willing_a be_v draw_v and_o hold_v as_o in_o chain_n in_o bitter_a servitude_n affection_n and_o resolve_v thus_o far_o be_v our_o augustine_n go_v be_v carry_v down_o by_o those_o step_n even_o to_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o hell_n and_o hither_o do_v we_o also_o but_o too_o often_o find_v ourselves_o bear_v down_o by_o the_o force_n of_o the_o stream_n but_o oh_o what_o a_o labour_n have_v he_o and_o have_v we_o to_o row_v back_o again_o how_o do_v he_o turn_v and_o wind_n himself_o to_o break_v his_o chain_n and_o yet_o be_v still_o detain_v and_o be_v suspend_v betwixt_o a_o die_a to_o death_n and_o a_o live_n to_o life_n whilst_o he_o so_o fear_v lest_o he_o shall_v be_v deliver_v from_o all_o impediment_n as_o he_o ought_v to_o have_v fear_v the_o be_v hinder_v by_o they_o whilst_o beg_v for_o chastity_n he_o be_v afraid_a to_o be_v hear_v lest_o he_o shall_v have_v be_v instant_o deliver_v from_o the_o disease_n of_o concupiscence_n whilst_o the_o violent_a custom_n of_o sin_n shake_v the_o garment_n of_o his_o soul_n make_v of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n and_o speak_v soft_o to_o he_o in_o this_o sort_n be_v it_o possible_a that_o thou_o can_v thus_o dismiss_v we_o and_o from_o this_o instant_n shall_v we_o never_o more_o be_v with_o thou_o and_o from_o this_o instant_n shall_v it_o never_o more_o be_v lawful_a for_o thou_o to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o any_o more_o for_o ever_o ii_o point_n consider_v that_o while_n the_o violence_n of_o bad_a custom_n keep_v he_o captive_a in_o sin_n gaol_n he_o meet_v with_o nothing_o but_o extreme_a misery_n want_n and_o famine_n his_o noble_a and_o vast_a understanding_n be_v afford_v nothing_o but_o husk_n of_o swine_n to_o feed_v upon_o and_o yet_o be_v bar_v to_o be_v satisfy_v even_o with_o such_o trash_n that_o be_v idle_a persuasion_n of_o god_n and_o godly_a thing_n empty_a fancy_n glorious_a fiction_n which_o be_v serve_v up_o devoyde_a of_o that_o truth_n which_o alone_o be_v able_a to_o saciate_a it_o affection_n and_o resoi_n alas_o how_o often_o do_v we_o hope_v to_o feed_v and_o fill_v ourselves_o with_o such_o like_a trash_n in_o lieu_n of_o solid_a and_o saciate_a truth_n and_o we_o be_v thereby_o only_o puff_v up_o and_o swell_v with_o the_o wind_n and_o smoke_n of_o vanity_n which_o happen_v as_o often_o as_o we_o desire_v rather_o to_o appear_v know_v then_o well_o do_v or_o aspire_v to_o high_a thing_n above_o we_o with_o the_o neglect_n of_o the_o more_o profitable_a knowledge_n of_o ourselves_o let_v i_o know_v thou_o o_o thou_o who_o know_v i_o let_v i_o know_v thou_o and_o know_v myself_o and_o let_v all_o other_o knowledge_n which_o lead_v not_o to_o these_o vanish_v like_o smoke_n iii_o point_n consider_v that_o as_o his_o understanding_n discover_v no_o true_a light_n while_o he_o live_v amid_o that_o servile_a darkness_n but_o be_v overwrought_a with_o the_o inquiry_n of_o truth_n without_o attain_v to_o the_o knowledge_n thereof_o so_o do_v his_o will_n rack_n itself_o to_o meet_v with_o and_o enjoy_v good_a and_o yet_o can_v only_o light_v on_o unrest_n and_o disquiet_n my_o soul_n have_v turn_v and_o toss_v itself_o up_o and_o down_o upon_o the_o back_n upon_o the_o side_n and_o upon_o the_o breast_n and_o it_o have_v find_v all_o thing_n hard_a for_o when_o i_o grow_v to_o obtain_v my_o unchaste_a desire_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o jollity_n i_o be_v tie_v by_o miserable_a chain_n that_o so_o i_o may_v be_v beat_v with_o the_o burn_a rodd_n of_o jealousy_n suspicion_n fear_n anger_n brawl_n etc._n etc._n affection_n and_o resolve_v and_o o_o god_n how_o good_a thou_o be_v to_o he_o and_o how_o good_a thou_o be_v to_o we_o in_o so_o do_v while_o be_v merciful_o cruel_a thou_o sprinkle_v all_o our_o unlawful_a pleasure_n with_o extreme_a disgust_n that_o so_o we_o may_v be_v draw_v to_o the_o desire_n of_o seck_v true_a pleasure_n which_o have_v no_o mixture_n of_o disgust_n so_o that_o we_o can_v find_v no_o permanent_a rest_n even_o in_o the_o most_o prosperous_a delight_n the_o world_n can_v boast_v what_o mean_v we_o then_o still_o to_o travail_v and_o trudge_v on_o through_o these_o hard_a and_o painful_a way_n where_o by_o one_o torment_n we_o purchase_v another_o for_o we_o see_v and_o feel_v that_o the_o burden_n of_o sin_n do_v certain_o and_o heavy_o oppress_v us._n we_o will_v therefore_o return_v into_o our_o own_o heart_n and_o be_v reconcile_v and_o unite_v to_o he_o that_o make_v we_o we_o will_v stand_v with_o he_o that_o we_o may_v stand_v fast_o and_o repose_v in_o he_o that_o we_o may_v be_v true_o at_o rest_n the_o iv_o meditation_n how_o he_o return_v to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n house_n and_o by_o what_o step_n i._o point_n consider_v that_o if_o idleness_n bad_a compagnie_fw-fr and_o neglect_v of_o good_a counsel_n do_v unfortunate_o lead_v our_o b._n saint_n from_o his_o father_n house_n he_o return_v as_o happy_o back_o again_o by_o the_o quite_o contrary_a step_n run_v but_o over_o in_o your_o mind_n the_o innumerable_a treatise_n and_o volume_n which_o he_o write_v and_o you_o will_v be_v so_o far_o from_o conceive_v he_o can_v be_v idle_a that_o you_o will_v much_o wonder_v when_o he_o can_v find_v time_n the_o action_n necessary_a to_o his_o function_n as_o preach_v pray_v etc._n etc._n and_o the_o time_n spend_v in_o accommodate_v neighbour-iarr_n be_v consider_v even_o in_o a_o manner_n to_o write_v they_o over_o if_o you_o do_v not_o understand_v by_o himself_o that_o he_o be_v force_v to_o steal_v it_o from_o his_o rest_n i_o drive_v two_o work_n at_o once_o say_v he_o the_o one_o by_o day_n the_o other_o by_o night_n time_n when_o other_o employment_n crowd_v in_o upon_o i_o on_o all_o side_n do_v even_o permit_v i_o so_o to_o do_v affection_n etc._n etc._n see_v my_o soul_n see_v how_o now_o no_o moment_n be_v misspend_v but_o contrary_o by_o the_o good_a employment_n of_o time_n he_o redeem_v lose_v tyme._n the_o day_n be_v not_o enough_o to_o pay_v the_o malice_n of_o his_o lose_a day_n but_o the_o night_n must_v contribute_v to_o it_o too_o he_o take_v the_o business_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n upon_o his_o shoulder_n he_o espouse_v the_o solicitude_n of_o all_o the_o church_n with_o saint_n paul_n and_o all_o his_o time_n be_v spend_v in_o put_v a_o help_a hand_n to_o their_o aggreevance_n ii_o point_n consider_v that_o as_o he_o employ_v a_o admirable_a good_a husband_n of_o time_n to_o recover_v time_n lose_v so_o do_v he_o fly_v to_o good_a company_n and_o counsel_n for_o a_o remedy_n against_o the_o infection_n of_o the_o bad_a company_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o good_a counsel_n which_o he_o have_v use_v to_o saint_n ambrose_n first_o who_o plentiful_o dispense_v antidote_n or_o counterpoyson_v against_o the_o infection_n of_o bad_a company_n and_o counsel_n or_o rather_o starve_v he_o with_o empty_a husk_n saint_n ambrose_n feed_v and_o fill_v he_o with_o the_o flower_n of_o god_n wheat_n which_o do_v fatten_v whereas_o that_o make_v he_o stubborn_a and_o stiff_o neck_v s._n ambrose_n bring_v he_o to_o be_v supple_a and_o tractable_a with_o the_o smoothness_n of_o god_n oil_n whereas_o that_o with_o vennimous_a cup_n do_v intoxicate_a he_o saint_n ambrose_n with_o the_o sober_a delight_n of_o god_n wine_n begette_v virgin_n do_v engage_v his_o hart_n and_o regayne_n he_o next_o to_o simplicianus_n saint_n ambrose_n his_o father_n and_o to_o potitianus_n who_o recount_v to_o he_o saint_n anthony_n life_n which_o