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and_o all_o my_o good_a do_v here_o in_o the_o preâsence_n of_o all_o thy_o celestial_a court_n desire_v ãâã_d perform_v this_o my_o office_n with_o all_o diligenââ_n and_o with_o a_o amorous_a affection_n towards_o thou_o my_o âoâ_n who_o have_v impose_v this_o sweet_a and_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v obligation_n upon_o i_o sinner_n who_o do_v not_o deserve_v any_o such_o honour_n or_o comfort_n from_o thou_o as_o to_o be_v admit_v to_o join_v my_o cold_a and_o freeze_a praise_n with_o all_o those_o who_o praise_v thou_o either_o on_o earth_n or_o in_o heaven_n where_o all_o to_o my_o comfort_n do_v without_o cease_v continual_o praise_v thou_o and_o for_o what_o be_v want_v in_o i_o for_o the_o performance_n thereof_o as_o i_o shall_v and_o ought_v to_o do_v supply_v it_o out_o of_o the_o superaboundance_n of_o thâ_n merit_n and_o mercâ_n i_o desire_v to_o say_v it_o with_o all_o my_o hart_n according_a to_o the_o intention_n of_o our_o holy_a mother_n the_o catholic_n church_n of_o which_o i_o desire_v through_o thy_o grace_n to_o live_v and_o die_v a_o true_a member_n be_v thâu_n according_a to_o her_o desir_n adore_v bless_a magnify_v and_o supreme_o superexalt_v by_o ât_a let_v it_o be_v to_o the_o honour_n of_o thy_o all_o immaculate_a mother_n the_o lady_n and_o queen_n of_o angel_n and_o saint_n to_o these_o in_o a_o particular_a manner_n â_o viz_o to_o my_o good_a angel_n our_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benet_n s._n scholastica_fw-la s_o joseph_n s._n peter_n and_o s._n paul_n s._n john_n enangelist_n s._n john_n baptist_n s._n thomas_n and_o my_o dear_a s._n augustin_n s._n mary_n magdalen_n s._n gertrude_n and_o in_o fine_a all_o that_o be_v in_o heaven_n have_v by_o it_o to_o they_o exhibit_v by_o thou_o what_o thou_o will_v and_o desire_v shall_v be_v i_o beseech_v thou_o also_o that_o i_o may_v by_o it_o pray_v to_o thou_o or_o all_o afflict_a pain_a tempt_v and_o trouble_v that_o they_o may_v please_v and_o praise_v thou_o in_o those_o their_o misery_n and_o overcome_v they_o to_o their_o comfort_n and_o thy_o glory_n i_o also_o offer_v to_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n all_o those_o soul_n who_o by_o deadly_a sin_n be_v enemy_n to_o thou_o which_o be_v indeed_o the_o misery_n of_o misery_n o_o lét_v they_o return_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v our_o beginning_n and_o the_o true_a centre_n of_o our_o soul_n from_o who_o to_o be_v separate_v by_o sin_n âs_v a_o most_o grievous_a hell_n and_o to_o who_o to_o be_v unite_v by_o grace_n be_v a_o most_o sweet_a heaven_n convert_v therefore_o and_o recall_v those_o soul_n to_o thou_o for_o who_o âhou_n spaâedst_v not_o âhy_n most_o precious_a blood_n shed_v it_o to_o the_o very_a last_o drop_n for_o we_o finner_n i_o offer_v thou_o also_o my_o parent_n who_o have_v place_v i_o here_o in_o thy_o house_n where_o here_o i_o may_v even_o hear_v and_o see_v how_o to_o serve_v thou_o and_o where_o i_o may_v night_n and_o day_n attend_v to_o thou_o and_o praise_v thou_o my_o amiable_a and_o most_o to_o be_v desire_v belove_v who_o to_o serve_v and_o to_o be_v oblige_v to_o love_v be_v the_o only_a happiness_n in_o this_o world_n and_o to_o who_o to_o be_v tie_v by_o vow_n and_o other_o obligation_n of_o religion_n be_v a_o most_o sweet_a servitude_n and_o yoâe_n and_o so_o sweet_a that_o no_o liberty_n be_v to_o it_o to_o be_v compare_v i_o offer_v thou_o also_o our_o holy_a congregationâ_n and_o all_o that_o ever_o or_o shall_v desire_v my_o poor_a unworthy_a prayer_n and_o above_o all_o i_o offer_v thou_o all_o those_o in_o earth_n or_o purgatory_n which_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n will_v have_v i_o pray_v for_o to_o thou_o beseech_v thou_o that_o tây_v divine_a
and_o ever_o will_v be_v to_o thy_o honour_n from_o who_o proceed_v all_o good_a if_o he_o i_o say_v stand_v need_n of_o gather_v out_o of_o thy_o soly_n scripture_n and_o the_o write_n of_o holy_a saint_n somewhat_o that_o may_v elevate_v his_o mind_n to_o thou_o when_o he_o grow_v more_o cold_a by_o reason_n of_o human_a frailty_n as_o he_o profess_v before_o his_o manuel_n who_o word_n i_o will_v hereafter_o bring_v in_o as_o be_v most_o sweet_a to_o i_o whaâ_n need_v then_o have_v my_o poor_a soul_n to_o gather_v together_o certain_a devout_a and_o amouârous_a word_n who_o scarce_o in_o the_o read_n thereof_o can_v lift_v up_o my_o hart_n to_o thou_o but_o my_o hope_n be_v in_o thy_o metcy_n whiâh_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n and_o out_o of_o whiâh_n thou_o have_v say_v by_o thy_o prophet_n 35._o man_n and_o beast_n thou_o will_v save_v to_o this_o mercy_n i_o fly_v in_o this_o mercy_n be_v all_o my_o comfort_n and_o consolation_n i_o cast_v myself_n into_o the_o arm_n of_o this_o thy_o mercy_n and_o pity_n i_o have_v nothing_o wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v some_o have_v suffer_v for_o thou_o in_o their_o body_n other_o in_o their_o mind_n other_o in_o both_o some_o for_o thou_o have_v take_v great_a pain_n and_o undergon_v great_a labour_n and_o austerity_n other_o by_o couradgious_o support_v disgrace_n and_o misery_n have_v become_v thereby_o most_o dear_a to_o thou_o other_o while_o they_o be_v afflict_v and_o persecute_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o their_o enemy_n and_o thereby_o procure_v pardon_n for_o their_o own_o sin_n but_o alaâ_n my_o god_n as_o for_o i_o when_o i_o cast_v back_o my_o eye_n upon_o my_o life_n past_a i_o can_v find_v nothing_o do_v or_o suffer_v by_o i_o wherein_o i_o can_v hope_v wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v all_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o behold_v other_o daily_o to_o practice_v be_v far_o fromme_v i_o have_v live_v in_o this_o house_n of_o who_o i_o may_v true_o say_v 23._o haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la quaerentium_fw-la faciem_fw-la dei_fw-la jacob_n this_o be_v the_o generation_n of_o those_o that_o seek_v the_o face_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n unmindful_a and_o ungrateful_a to_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n yea_o my_o whole_a life_n have_v be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o iniquity_n and_o without_o end_n or_o measure_n have_v my_o offence_n be_v against_o thou_o yea_o just_o may_v thou_o condemn_v i_o to_o the_o bottomless_a pity_n of_o hell_n but_o yet_o i_o will_v hope_v in_o thou_o i_o be_o sorry_a from_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o my_o hart_n that_o ever_o i_o offend_v thou_o or_o stray_v from_o thou_o behold_v i_o now_o consecrate_v my-selfa_a new_a body_n and_o soul_n to_o thou_o take_v away_o from_o my_o soul_n what_o therein_o displease_v thou_o al_n thy_o angel_n and_o saint_n be_v intercessor_n for_o i_o especial_o thy_o dear_a mother_n the_o faithful_a helper_n and_o advocate_n of_o we_o sinner_n to_o our_o bless_a lady_n the_o advocate_n of_o sinner_n all_o hail_n o_o virgin_n crown_v with_o star_n and_o m_o one_o under_o thy_o foot_n obtain_v we_o pardon_v of_o our_o sin_n of_o christ_n our_o saviour_n sweet_a for_o though_o thou_o be_v mother_n of_o my_o god_n yet_o thy_o humility_n disdain_v not_o this_o simple_a wretch_n that_o fly_v for_o help_v to_o thou_o thou_o know_v thou_o be_v more_o dear_a to_o i_o âhen_o any_o can_v expresâe_v and_o thât_o i_o do_v congratulate_v with_o joy_n thy_o happiness_n who_o be_v the_o queen_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thy_o help_a hand_n i_o lend_v that_o i_o may_v love_v and_o praise_v my_o god_n and_o have_v a_o happy_a end_n and_o though_o my_o sin_n i_o terrify_v yet_o hope_v still_o in_o âhee_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n refresh_v much_o when_o i_o unto_o thou_o fly_v for_o thou_o most_o willing_o to_o god_n petition_n do_v present_v and_o do_v obtain_v much_o grace_n for_o we_o in_o this_o our_o baânishment_n the_o honour_n and_o the_o glorious_a praise_n by_o all_o be_v give_v âo_o thou_o which_o iâsus_n tây_o belove_a son_n ordain_v eternal_o for_o thou_o who_o he_o exalt_v in_o heaven_n above_o the_o angeâs_v all_o and_o who_o we_o find_v a_o patroness_n when_o unto_o thou_o we_o câl_v amen_n o_o mater_n dei_fw-la âe_n âento_fw-la mei_fw-la amen_n as_o also_o my_o good_a angel_n s._n joseph_n saint_n john_n evangelist_n s._n martin_n s._n augustin_n s._n thomas_n of_o aquin_n and_o thou_o my_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benet_n to_o our_o most_o holy_a father_n saint_n benedict_n most_o glorious_a father_n in_o who_o school_n i_o live_v and_o hope_v to_o die_v god_n grant_v i_o may_v observe_v thy_o rule_n for_o in_o that_o all_o do_v lie_v for_o no_o perfection_n can_v be_v name_v which_o we_o it_o do_v not_o teach_v o_o happy_a she_o who_o in_o her_o soul_n the_o sense_n thereof_o do_v reach_n but_o many_o praise_n obedience`_v and_o thy_o humility_n and_o yet_o conceive_v not_o as_o they_o shall_v what_o either_o of_o they_o be_v the_o simple_a humble_a love_a soul_n only_o the_o sense_n find_v out_o of_o any_o discreet_a obedient_a rule_n and_o these_o be_v void_a of_o doubt_n yea_o under_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n they_o up_o to_o heaven_n fly_n and_o taste_v here_o in_o this_o veil_n of_o tear_n what_o perfect_a peace_n do_v lie_v hide_v in_o performance_n of_o thy_o rule_n that_o lead_v unto_o heaven_n o_o happy_a soul_n who_o it_o perform_v the_o way_n so_o sweet_a and_o even_o by_o prayer_n and_o patience_n be_v fulfil_v charity_n obedience_n by_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o and_o give_v none_o offence_n the_o more_o i_o look_v upon_o thy_o rule_n the_o more_o in_o it_o i_o find_v o_o do_v to_o i_o the_o sense_n unfold_v for_o letter_n make_v we_o blind_a and_o bless_v yea_o a_o thousand_o time_n be_v thou_o who_o it_o haste_v write_v and_o thy_o sweet_a blessing_n give_v to_o they_o who_o true_o perform_v it_o for_o those_o be_v they_o which_o will_v conserve_v this_o house_n in_o perfect_a peace_n without_o which_o all_o we_o do_v be_v lose_v and_o all_o that_o be_v good_a will_v cease_v and_o praise_v be_v our_o glorious_a god_n who_o give_v to_o thou_o such_o grace_n not_o only_o he_o thy-self_n to_o seek_v but_o also_o out_o to_o trace_v a_o way_n so_o easy_a and_o secure_a if_o we_o will_v but_o thou_o hear_v to_o have_v relation_n to_o our_o god_n who_o be_v to_o we_o so_o near_o for_o at_o this_o thou_o do_v chief_o aim_v that_o god_n our_o soul_n do_v teach_v o_o if_o we_o do_v true_o obey_v he_o will_v by_o all_o thing_n preach_v his_o will_n to_o we_o by_o every_o thing_n that_o do_v to_o we_o befall_v and_o then_o as_o thou_o desire_v it_o shall_v he_o will_v be_v all_o in_o all_o o_o pray_v dear_a father_n that_o he_o ever_o be_v our_o only_a love_n and_o all_o eternal_o amen_n saint_n scholastica_fw-la s._n gertrude_n and_o in_o fine_a all_o in_o heaven_n or_o on_o earth_n that_o be_v please_v to_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o make_v i_o partaker_n of_o their_o merit_n and_o prayer_n and_o above_o all_o wash_v i_o in_o thy_o precious_a blood_n one_o drop_n whereof_o have_v be_v sufficient_a to_o have_v redeem_v a_o thousand_o world_n in_o this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o confidence_n by_o this_o i_o hope_v to_o be_v enrich_v with_o all_o that_o be_v want_v in_o i_o for_o in_o that_o thou_o be_v and_o possesse_v i_o more_o rejoice_v and_o exult_v then_o if_o i_o have_v whatsoever_o in_o earth_n or_o in_o heaven_n i_o can_v desire_v at_o my_o command_n in_o this_o joy_n i_o cry_v out_o withal_o my_o hart_n with_o all_o my_o soul_n and_o with_o all_o my_o strength_n o_o how_o much_o good_a and_o happiness_n do_v i_o possess_v see_v my_o god_n who_o be_v more_o myself_n than_o i_o myself_n be_o do_v possess_v so_o infinite_a glory_n majesty_n and_o so_o infinite_a good_a thing_n for_o indeed_o i_o have_v and_o hold_v he_o more_o i_o own_o than_o any_o thing_n that_o ever_o i_o have_v or_o hold_v heretofore_o this_o be_v the_o comfort_n of_o my_o poverty_n and_o the_o repose_n of_o my_o labour_n this_o my_o most_o delightful_a most_o amiable_a most_o bright_a and_o beawtiful_a and_o most_o glorious_a god_n be_v always_o present_a with_o i_o to_o hear_v my_o praise_n and_o receive_v my_o petition_n in_o he_o i_o be_o rich_a though_o in_o my_o self_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o contemptible_a to_o he_o my_o most_o love_a god_n be_v give_v now_o and_o ever_o all_o laud_n and_o praise_n and_o glory_n by_o all_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n these_o collection_n once_o more_o i_o offer_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n and_o those_o that_o in_o peruse_v thereof_o be_v move_v thereby_o to_o love_n and_o praise_v thou_o be_v they_o my_o goâ_n mindful_a of_o
of_o my_o death_n obtain_v for_o i_o wretched_a sinner_n confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n which_o be_v as_o thou_o know_v above_o all_o his_o work_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o love_v but_o he_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o love_n and_o adoration_n i_o can_v without_o great_a joy_n remember_v these_o follow_a word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v hope_v his_o goodness_n will_v for_o his_o own_o sake_n give_v i_o leave_v to_o apply_v they_o to_o i_o poor_a and_o sinful_a soul_n though_o i_o deserve_v nothing_o of_o myself_n never_o have_v do_v he_o any_o faithful_a service_n in_o all_o my_o life_n chap_n 43._o v._n 1._o and_o now_o thus_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o create_v thou_o and_o form_v thou_o fear_v not_o because_o i_o have_v redeem_v thou_o and_o call_v thou_o by_o thy_o name_n thou_o be_v i_o 2._o when_o thou_o shall_v pass_v through_o the_o water_n i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o and_o the_o flood_n shall_v not_o cover_v thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v walk_v in_o fire_n thou_o shall_v not_o be_v âuâned_v and_o the_o flame_n shall_v not_o âurn_v inâ_n thou_o o_o bless_a saint_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a in_o he_o who_o thus_o abound_v with_o mercy_n amen_n 3._o because_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n thy_o god_n the_o holy_a one_o of_o israel_n thy_o saviour_n 4._o since_o thou_o become_v honourable_a in_o my_o eye_n and_o glorious_a i_o have_v love_v thou_o 5._o fear_v not_o because_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o 6._o and_o every_o one_o that_o invocate_v my_o name_n for_o my_o glory_n i_o have_v create_v he_o form_v he_o and_o make_v he_o 8._o bring_v forth_o the_o blind_a people_n and_o have_v eye_n the_o deaf_a and_o he_o that_o âath_v ear_n 9_o let_v they_o give_v their_o witness_n &_o be_v justify_v 10._o in_o very_a deed_n you_o be_v my_o witness_n say_v our_o lord_n and_o my_o servant_n who_o i_o have_v choose_v that_o you_o may_v know_v and_o believe_v i_o and_o understand_v that_o i_o myself_o be_o 11._o i_o be_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n and_o there_o be_v no_o saviour_n beside_o i_o and_o there_o be_v not_o that_o can_v deliver_v out_o of_o my_o hand_n 16._o thou_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o give_v away_o in_o the_o sea_n and_o a_o paâh_n in_o the_o uâhâmenâ_a water_n 18._o remember_v not_o former_a thing_n and_o look_v not_o on_o thing_n of_o old_a i_o be_o he_o that_o take_v clean_o away_o thy_o iniquity_n for_o my_o own_o sake_n and_o i_o will_v not_o remember_v thy_o sin_n 26._o bring_v i_o into_o remembrance_n and_o let_v we_o be_v judge_v together_o tell_v i_o if_o thou_o âave_n any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v justify_v hethertho_n the_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v s._n john_n 2._o v_o 12._o i_o write_v to_o you_o little_a child_n because_o your_o sin_n be_v forgive_v you_o for_o his_o name_n and_o now_o my_o child_n abide_v in_o he_o that_o when_o he_o shall_v appear_v we_o may_v have_v confidence_n and_o not_o be_v confound_v of_o he_o in_o his_o come_n my_o dear_a believe_v not_o every_o spirit_n and_o every_o spirit_n that_o dissolve_v jesus_n be_v not_o of_o god_n fear_n be_v not_o charity_n but_o perfect_a charity_n cast_v out_o fear_n let_v we_o therefore_o love_n god_n because_o god_n love_v us._n this_o be_v the_o charity_n of_o god_n that_o we_o keep_v his_o commandment_n and_o his_o commandment_n be_v not_o beauty_n o_o infinite_a goodness_n who_o be_v charity_n it-self_n pour_v thy_o grace_n abundant_o into_o my_o poor_a foul_a i_o invoke_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o all_o thy_o saint_n in_o heaven_n and_o servant_n on_o earth_n to_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o now_o in_o this_o my_o last_o extremity_n al_n i_o desire_n be_v that_o in_o life_n and_o death_n i_o may_v be_v dispose_v of_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o tây_n most_o abundant_a mercy_n a_o fountain_n never_o draw_v dryâ_n all_o my_o joy_n be_v in_o that_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n and_o that_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o dispose_n though_o i_o be_o poor_a in_o all_o 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willing_o submit_v myself_n in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v to_o all_o creature_n let_v i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o protection_n who_o be_v a_o careful_a receiver_n of_o all_o my_o petition_n and_o who_o art_n one_o who_o in_o a_o most_o particular_a manner_n godâ_n have_v give_v i_o confidence_n in_o in_o all_o âhe_n necessity_n wherein_o my_o soul_n do_v stand_v need_n of_o a_o advocate_n and_o friend_n o_o happy_a change_n to_o leave_v all_o friend_n on_o earth_n to_o find_v the_o more_o certaiu_fw-la &_o assure_a friend_n and_o intercessor_n in_o heaven_n who_o be_v never_o absent_a never_o uncertain_a nor_o ever_o do_v they_o fail_v as_o those_o in_o this_o world_n be_v subject_a to_o do_v be_v therefore_o mindful_a of_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o in_o my_o life_n &_o also_o in_o my_o last_o extremity_n and_o remember_v that_o when_o affright_v with_o the_o multitude_n and_o greivoush_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o dare_v scarce_o cast_v up_o my_o 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all_o my_o happiness_n tâ_n who_o for_o ever_o be_v all_o glory_n honour_n anâ_n adoration_n by_o all_o as_o well_o on_o earth_n as_o in_o heaven_n and_o who_o by_o his_o sweet_a mercy_n and_o thy_o intercession_n i_o desire_v and_o hope_n to_o love_n and_o sârue_a for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n omnes_fw-la qui_fw-la habebant_fw-la infirâos_fw-la ducebant_fw-la ill_n ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la &_o sanabaââur_n 4.40_o all_o that_o have_v disease_v bring_v thâm_n to_o jesus_n and_o they_o be_v curedâ_n to_o who_o therefore_o shall_v i_o fly_v in_o my_o manifold_a infirmity_n but_o to_o thou_o my_o jesus_n my_o goâ_n and_o my_o saviour_n who_o be_v worthy_a oâ_n our_o love_n our_o thought_n our_o heart_n and_o our_o soul_n but_o
thy_o own_o self_n my_o lord_n who_o make_v we_o for_o this_o alone_a that_o by_o true_a sincere_a affection_n we_o shall_v adhere_v to_o thou_o the_o chief_a and_o supreme_a good_a o_o woe_n be_v i_o iâ_n for_o any_o intention_n or_o for_o any_o creature_n sake_n whatsoever_o i_o shall_v do_v any_o thing_n with_o other_o intention_n willing_o then_o to_o please_v and_o become_v inward_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o souâ_n unite_v to_o thou_o here_o by_o grace_n and_o in_o heaven_n for_o all_o eternity_n all_o thing_n and_o creature_n fail_v only_a tây-self_n be_v constant_a thou_o be_v always_o present_a always_o willing_a to_o help_v thy_o poor_a servant_n &_o ever_o ready_a âo_o cure_v our_o woundsâ_n which_o through_o human_a frailty_n by_o sin_n we_o daily_a cause_n in_o our_o soul_n let_v we_o who_o have_v be_v grievous_a sinner_n and_o do_v so_o abundant_o experience_n thy_o mercy_n give_v great_a and_o continual_a praise_n to_o thou_o our_o god_n who_o have_v sweet_o redeem_v 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power_n in_o superior_n and_o make_v theiâ_n imperfection_n a_o colour_n for_o our_o sinneâ_n if_o it_o be_v right_a between_o our_o soul_n anâ_n thou_o we_o shall_v glad_o obey_v thou_o speaâke_v thou_o or_o ordain_v thou_o by_o who_o thoââ_n please_v teach_v i_o therefore_o to_o obey_v for_o thou_o only_o can_v instruct_v i_o whâ_n true_a humble_a obedience_n be_v if_o thou_o dâ_n not_o teach_v i_o i_o may_v perhaps_o give_v to_o caesar_n what_o be_v tâyne_o and_o deny_v to_o give_v caesar_n what_o be_v due_a to_o he_o by_o thy_o will_n let_v i_o obey_v therefore_o for_o theeâ_n and_o in_o order_n to_o thy_o will_n and_o with_o a_o internal_a regard_n of_o thou_o who_o due_a be_v all_o the_o subjection_n and_o love_n that_o can_v be_v give_v by_o my_o poor_a soul._n open_v the_o eye_n of_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v see_v what_o thou_o exact_a in_o all_o thing_n instruct_v i_o by_o who_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n thoâ_n please_v so_o i_o may_v but_o know_v what_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n be_v it_o suffice_v thy_o poor_a servant_n give_v i_o grace_n to_o obey_v thou_o my_o god_n with_o all_o that_o love_v thou_o for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xv._n confession_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n what_o soul_n that_o true_o love_v thou_o can_v complain_v what_o difficulty_n soever_o she_o endure_v or_o how_o great_a a_o desolation_n soever_o obscure_v her_o soul_n or_o how_o great_a pain_n soever_o she_o sustain_v see_v thou_o who_o she_o love_v more_o than_o her_o life_n and_o self_n be_v always_o the_o same_o behold_v with_o a_o amorous_a and_o love_a eye_n the_o love_a soul_n afflict_v by_o thou_o or_o by_o thy_o permission_n rather_o to_o try_v her_o fidelity_n then_o to_o oppress_v she_o with_o such_o a_o burden_n that_o may_v separate_v she_o from_o she_o only_o belove_a for_o see_v nothing_o be_v dread_v by_o she_o but_o to_o be_v separate_v from_o her_o god_n she_o hold_v humility_n and_o confidence_n thou_o o_o lord_n will_v never_o permit_v she_o to_o be_v overcome_v for_o thou_o make_v the_o quarrel_n thy_o own_o thus_o fight_v by_o we_o and_o the_o victory_n we_o though_o indeed_o gain_v by_o thou_o not_o by_o our_o own_o self_n o_o how_o happy_a be_o i_o in_o thy_o power_n and_o glory_n very_o though_o i_o be_v to_o return_v to_o my_o own_o nothing_o yet_o i_o can_v not_o account_v myself_o void_a of_o a_o infinite_a happiness_n see_v my_o god_n who_o be_v more_o i_o then_o â_o be_o my_o own_o will_v remain_v and_o be_v the_o same_o in_o all_o wisdom_n and_o majesty_n thâs_o be_v the_o repose_n of_o my_o labour_n and_o the_o crown_n of_o my_o glory_n in_o which_o i_o will_v exult_v in_o my_o great_a
return_n for_o she_o have_v forsake_v all_o for_o thou_o and_o have_v taste_v of_o thy_o sweetness_n say_v with_o the_o prophet_n 8.37_o turn_v away_o my_o eye_n that_o they_o see_v not_o vanity_n lest_o like_o a_o dog_n she_o return_v to_o her_o vomit_n and_o after_o have_v have_v a_o glimmer_a of_o thy_o light_n she_o because_o she_o fear_v she_o shall_v not_o be_v able_a to_o sustain_v thy_o chastisement_n and_o shall_v forget_v and_o loose_v herself_o by_o these_o tribulation_n and_o desirous_a that_o she_o may_v be_v happy_o enable_v to_o enâer_v the_o more_o full_o into_o thou_o and_o fear_v i_o say_v her_o own_o frailty_n she_o thus_o again_o cry_v out_o to_o thou_o by_o these_o other_o word_n of_o the_o psalmist_n say_v 187.2_o domine_fw-la deus_fw-la salutis_fw-la meae_fw-la in_o die_v clamavi_fw-la &_o nocte_fw-la coram_fw-la te_fw-la o_o lord_n god_n of_o my_o salvation_n day_n and_o night_n have_v i_o cry_v after_o thou_o for_o who_o but_o thyself_o can_v comfort_v a_o soul_n that_o indeed_o neither_o seek_v nor_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o thou_o my_o god_n o_o when_o shall_v i_o spend_v all_o my_o strength_n and_o force_n in_o sing_v thy_o praise_n who_o will_v set_v their_o heart_n upon_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o see_v thou_o have_v make_v all_o other_o thing_n so_o hard_o to_o be_v obtain_v that_o we_o may_v seek_v only_o thou_o for_o who_o we_o be_v make_v and_o who_o love_n we_o may_v more_o easy_o obtain_v then_o any_o thing_n else_o whatsoever_o o_o let_v i_o love_n thou_o who_o only_o for_o that_o end_n do_v create_v i_o we_o will_v have_v that_o which_o be_v worth_a nothing_o and_o many_o time_n grieve_v for_o the_o loss_n of_o that_o which_o will_v but_o cause_v we_o perplexity_n and_o trouble_v to_o have_v in_o the_o mean_a time_n neglect_v that_o which_o thou_o so_o infinite_o desire_v to_o bestow_v upon_o we_o to_o wit_n thy_o love_n than_o which_o nothing_o be_v so_o good_a or_o sweet_a or_o that_o bring_v such_o true_a peace_n to_o the_o soul._n the_o xx._n confession_n without_o pain_n it_o be_v impossible_a o_o my_o most_o amiable_a god_n to_o live_v in_o love_n but_o if_o the_o difficulty_n which_o thy_o true_a friend_n and_o servant_n feel_v be_v weigh_v with_o the_o misery_n of_o those_o who_o rather_o seek_v to_o please_v themselves_o and_o other_o then_o thou_o there_o will_v be_v find_v a_o infinite_a disâparity_n for_o thy_o yoke_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o burden_n light_n to_o the_o simple_a and_o humble_a and_o to_o those_o who_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o who_o joy_n thou_o thyself_o be_v and_o who_o nothing_o else_o but_o thou_o my_o god_n do_v seâk_n for_o in_o time_n or_o eternity_n these_o i_o say_v be_v despise_v contemn_a afflict_a pain_a tempt_v trouble_a and_o many_o time_n sit_v sorrowful_a with_o a_o heavy_a hart_n and_o sad_a countenance_n but_o thy_o will_n be_v their_o law_n and_o thy_o disposition_n their_o consolation_n i_o may_v bold_o affirm_v that_o in_o all_o this_o they_o suffer_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n of_o the_o fondâ_n lover_n of_o this_o world_n because_o thou_o be_v ever_o more_o present_a to_o they_o then_o tâey_v to_o themselves_o do_v when_o thou_o see_v thy_o time_n refresh_v their_o soul_n with_o the_o light_n and_o comfort_n of_o thy_o grace_n yea_o seem_a to_o be_v even_o prodigal_a of_o thy_o sweetness_n to_o such_o as_o abide_v faithful_a to_o thou_o in_o their_o tribulation_n and_o hope_v confide_v and_o glory_n in_o thou_o and_o not_o in_o themselves_o and_o who_o take_v occasion_n in_o all_o they_o see_v hear_v suffer_v overcome_v to_o humble_v themselves_o under_o thy_o mighty_a hand_n and_o bless_v and_o praise_v thy_o justice_n and_o mercy_n in_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o among_o which_o number_n admit_v i_o poor_a and_o contemptible_a sinner_n to_o thy_o great_a glory_n for_o this_o thy_o mercy_n from_o all_o creature_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxi_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n remove_v all_o impediment_n between_o thy_o goodness_n and_o my_o poor_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o who_o only_o deserve_v all_o love_n and_o honour_n give_v i_o a_o humble_a and_o peaceful_a hart_n that_o thou_o may_v inhabit_v therein_o as_o thou_o desire_v suppress_v in_o i_o by_o thy_o sweet_a grace_n the_o sin_n of_o pride_n which_o make_v i_o as_o yet_o so_o odious_a to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n o_o if_o we_o do_v but_o by_o true_a humility_n abase_v ourselves_o what_o beam_n of_o true_a light_n will_v shine_v in_o the_o bottom_n of_o our_o soul_n o_o what_o amity_n be_v there_o between_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o a_o humble_a soul_n nothing_o but_o humility_n can_v have_v draw_v thou_o down_o to_o the_o earth_n and_o only_o humility_n can_v make_v we_o capable_a of_o be_v draw_v by_o âhee_o up_o to_o heaven_n the_o true_o humble_a conver_n familiar_o with_o thou_o and_o thy_o saint_n they_o presume_v nothing_o of_o themselves_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n in_o thou_o who_o strengthne_v they_o and_o thou_o be_v so_o chary_a and_o tender_a of_o the_o humble_a that_o what_o concern_v they_o thou_o esteem_v to_o concern_v thy_o own_o self_n and_o even_o thy_o own_o hart_n and_o they_o think_v they_o do_v nothing_o do_v by_o thou_o do_v all_o thing_n many_o unknown_a to_o the_o worldâ_n and_o of_o no_o esteem_n wiâh_v it_o shall_v before_o thou_o have_v the_o honour_n and_o merât_v in_o the_o next_o world_n of_o that_o which_o noâ_n other_o man_n boast_v of_o and_o attribute_v to_o themselves_o for_o the_o humble_a live_n still_o in_o their_o own_o nothing_o give_v all_o glory_n to_o thou_o by_o who_o only_o all_o good_a be_v perform_v in_o the_o mean_a while_o thou_o enrich_v they_o of_o thy_o mere_a mercy_n with_o thy_o merit_n o_o happy_a exchange_n thinâ_n for_o we_o dirt_n for_o the_o most_o pure_a gold_n what_o be_v all_o we_o can_v do_v very_o nothing_o enrich_v i_o therefore_o poor_a beggar_n with_o somewhat_o of_o thy_o at_o thâ_n foot_n i_o lay_v whatsoever_o thou_o give_v oâ_n have_v give_v i_o give_v or_o take_v away_o ãâã_d thou_o please_v so_o thou_o do_v not_o blot_v mâ_n out_o of_o the_o book_n of_o life_n open_v to_o i_o knock_v at_o the_o door_n of_o thy_o mercy_n i_o have_v be_v five_o and_o twenty_o year_n this_o signify_v her_o age_n at_o the_o write_v hereof_o as_o that_o she_o be_v then_o five_o and_o twenty_o year_n old_a in_o my_o infirmity_n of_o most_o loathsome_a sin_n behold_v my_o misery_n and_o take_v pity_n upon_o i_o son_n of_o david_n i_o defile_v that_o âoul_n that_o be_v make_v to_o thy_o own_o image_n and_o likeness_n have_v compassion_n on_o she_o who_o have_v no_o other_o friend_n or_o comforter_n but_o thyself_o the_o only_o desire_v of_o my_o hart_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n be_v propitious_a to_o my_o sin_n for_o it_o be_v much_o nothing_o that_o i_o have_v do_v can_v i_o alleadg_n to_o thou_o which_o have_v deserve_v any_o reward_n in_o thy_o eye_n only_a desire_n of_o which_o many_o bourn_n in_o hell_n they_o be_v little_a without_o good_a work_n give_v she_o to_o drink_v who_o wither_v away_o for_o want_n of_o thou_o the_o fountain_n of_o all_o sweetness_n i_o will_v pour_v out_o my_o soul_n before_o thou_o that_o at_o least_o i_o may_v comfort_v myself_o with_o relate_v to_o thou_o my_o sin_n and_o misery_n behold_v all_o my_o enemy_n triumph_v over_o i_o of_o who_o most_o easy_o in_o all_o temptation_n they_o get_v âhe_v victory_n fight_v for_o i_o or_o else_o i_o know_v not_o what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o give_v i_o true_a humility_n by_o which_o all_o thing_n be_v easy_o overcome_v and_o all_o thou_o exact_a most_o perfect_o accomplish_v by_o we_o thy_o majesty_n poor_a creature_n give_v thyself_o to_o meâ_n who_o have_v nothing_o of_o her_o own_o to_o offer_v thou_o and_o if_o thou_o give_v i_o thyself_o i_o be_o as_o rich_a as_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v and_o if_o thou_o shall_v bestoâ_n upon_o i_o all_o thou_o have_v or_o can_v create_v it_o will_v be_v little_a to_o i_o unless_o i_o possess_v thou_o by_o thy_o self_n i_o praise_v thou_o who_o name_n do_v not_o beseem_a the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n o_o let_v i_o love_n or_o not_o live_v i_o give_v myself_o to_o thou_o who_o alone_o i_o wish_v for_o and_o desire_v with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul._n o_o my_o god_n how_o near_o thou_o be_v to_o we_o ready_a to_o hear_v and_o receive_v our_o prayer_n and_o petition_n behold_v thy_o sâeeâ_n providence_n show_v itself_o in_o all_o thing_n o_o how_o long_o shall_v my_o god_n be_v thus_o forget_v by_o creature_n when_o will_v thou_o by_o love_n be_v by_o all_o seek_v after_o as_o thou_o ought_v to_o be_v by_o we_o the_o
sake_n as_o also_o thy_o own_o who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o xxviii_o confession_n incina_n cor_fw-la meum_fw-la deus_fw-la in_o testimonia_fw-la tua_fw-la 118._o ecce_fw-la concupui_fw-la mandata_fw-la tua_fw-la in_fw-la aequitate_fw-la tua_fw-la vivifica_fw-la me-incline_a my_o god_n my_o hart_n to_o thy_o testimony_n and_o in_o thy_o truth_n quicken_v my_o soul._n for_o behold_v my_o soul_n do_v exceed_o covet_v to_o perform_v thy_o law_n for_o thy_o law_n be_v truth_n and_o the_o effect_n thereof_o be_v justice_n and_o peace_n and_o joy_n in_o the_o holy_a ghost_n when_o i_o remember_v how_o i_o have_v stray_v from_o thou_o by_o sin_n i_o become_v ashamed_a before_o thâe_n but_o when_o i_o consider_v thy_o mercy_n i_o hope_v still_o notwithstanding_o what_o be_v pass_v to_o become_v through_o thy_o grace_n which_o so_o sweet_o prevent_v i_o please_v to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n o_o lord_n enlighten_v my_o soul_n obscuredâ_n by_o sin_n and_o ill_a custom_n enlighten_v it_o that_o i_o may_v walk_v the_o way_n of_o justice_n and_o truth_n which_o be_v the_o way_n whereof_o thou_o speak_v by_o esaie_n the_o prophet_n 8._o in_o which_o a_o fool_n can_v err_v as_o he_o affirmethâ_n o_o let_v i_o by_o true_a humility_n become_v a_o fool_n according_a to_o his_o meaning_n let_v i_o become_v as_o a_o bittle_a child_n that_o i_o may_v be_v capable_a of_o enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n certain_o we_o ought_v to_o live_v so_o subject_a to_o thou_o that_o we_o have_v no_o election_n of_o any_o thing_n as_o pretend_v ourselves_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n and_o also_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v in_o our_o soul_n such_o a_o relation_n to_o thou_o that_o in_o thy_o light_n in_o thy_o truth_n and_o whole_o according_a to_o thy_o will_n we_o perform_v all_o we_o do_v and_o out_o of_o that_o respect_n omit_v what_o we_o omit_v â_o o_o my_o god_n let_v i_o i_o say_v walk_v this_o way_n of_o love_n which_o know_v not_o how_o to_o sack_v 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