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doubtful_a or_o fearful_a etc._n etc._n second_o on_o earth_n in_o the_o church_n earth_n second_o on_o earth_n militant_a what_o be_v not_o for_o we_o sacrament_n scripture_n example_n prayer_n if_o we_o go_v not_o to_o heaven_n where_o be_v the_o fault_n what_o can_v god_n do_v that_o he_o have_v not_o do_v and_o what_o can_v we_o have_v more_o than_o we_o have_v for_o our_o consolation_n and_o salvation_n who_o can_v choose_v but_o take_v courage_n comfort_n and_o confidence_n three_o look_v upon_o christ_n jesus_n christ_n three_o in_o christ_n 1._o why_o come_v he_o into_o this_o world_n 2._o how_o do_v he_o carry_v himself_o in_o it_o towards_o sinner_n both_o in_o his_o life_n and_o death_n 3._o why_o be_v he_o call_v jesus_n and_o term_v a_o friend_n of_o publican_n and_o sinner_n 4._o why_o do_v he_o â—â—y_v that_o he_o come_v to_o call_v sinner_n and_o not_o the_o just_a and_o to_o do_v mercy_n and_o not_o justice_n 5._o what_o access_n and_o comfort_n give_v he_o to_o all_o 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heaven_n and_o earth_n may_v perish_v but_o no_o tittle_n of_o my_o hope_n in_o thou_o my_o dear_a and_o only_a saviour_n this_o shall_v be_v my_o anchor_n and_o stay_v if_o he_o kill_v i_o i_o will_v trust_v in_o he_o i_o will_v rest_v secure_a in_o his_o divine_a providence_n and_o endeavour_v to_o get_v a_o habitual_a and_o stable_a trust_n in_o his_o paternal_a protection_n without_o any_o care_n or_o fear_n as_o do_v a_o child_n in_o his_o father_n bâ—som_n this_o be_v the_o ready_a way_n to_o become_v unmoveable_a and_o immutable_a quiet_a and_o content_a be_v he_o god_n be_v he_o good_a be_v he_o my_o god_n my_o father_n my_o jesus_n jesus_n crucify_v be_v his_o goodness_n infinite_a do_v he_o want_v power_n wisdom_n or_o will_n to_o pardon_v protect_v and_o perfect_v i_o i_o must_v sure_o have_v little_a faith_n less_o hope_n and_o no_o love_n if_o i_o will_v not_o take_v thy_o word_n o_o lord_n thy_o work_n thy_o wound_n thy_o life_n and_o thy_o love_n for_o secure_a pledge_n of_o thy_o care_n towards_o i_o and_o sufficient_a motive_n to_o place_v my_o whole_a confidence_n in_o thou_o the_o 28._o maxim_n that_o the_o measure_n of_o our_o progress_n in_o perfectionâ—_n be_v the_o conformity_n of_o our_o wiâ—â—_n with_o the_o divine_a will_n 1._o for_o our_o perfection_n consist_v in_o love_n and_o the_o great_a sign_n of_o love_n be_v to_o have_v one_o and_o the_o same_o will_n with_o the_o belove_a so_o that_o look_v how_o much_o we_o have_v of_o our_o own_o will_n so_o much_o less_o have_v we_o of_o god_n will_n and_o love_n and_o consequent_o be_v so_o much_o the_o further_o from_o the_o union_n of_o our_o spirit_n with_o he_o perfection_n 1._o in_o this_o exercise_n of_o conformity_n consist_v all_o perfection_n o_o what_o holiness_n and_o happiness_n what_o privilege_n and_o
thou_o think_v which_o god_n forbid_v thou_o shall_v that_o thou_o have_v do_v sufficient_a penance_n for_o thy_o petty-offence_n then_o reflect_v with_o thyself_o that_o none_o can_v enter_v the_o heavenly_a kingdom_n but_o they_o must_v pass_v through_o the_o narrow_a gate_n of_o selfe-deniall_n and_o of_o patience_n in_o tribulation_n for_o thus_o god_n holy_a son_n himself_o and_o all_o his_o bless_a saint_n ascend_v to_o their_o glory_n 7._o four_o nay_o put_v case_n thou_o this_o and_o if_o there_o be_v another_o way_n yet_o thy_o duty_n to_o god_n bind_v thou_o to_o choose_v this_o can_v find_v out_o some_o other_o way_n to_o get_v to_o heaven_n yet_o thou_o be_v oblige_v by_o the_o law_n of_o love_n and_o duty_n not_o to_o do_v nor_o desire_v it_o for_o the_o son_n of_o god_n choose_v the_o way_n of_o thorn_n and_o cross_n by_o which_o he_o will_v enter_v into_o his_o glory_n and_o this_o for_o thy_o love_n and_o that_o thou_o shall_v imitate_v he_o who_o leave_v thou_o this_o exact_a pattern_n of_o perfect_a patience_n 8._o last_o know_v for_o certain_a that_o majesty_n as_o be_v most_o grateful_a and_o please_a to_o his_o majesty_n among_o all_o the_o pious_a motive_n and_o meditation_n which_o thou_o make_v use_v of_o in_o these_o or_o the_o like_a event_n and_o necessity_n for_o the_o comfort_n and_o confirmation_n of_o thy_o will_n this_o seem_v to_o be_v one_o of_o the_o most_o efficacious_a to_o think_v what_o a_o joy_n and_o content_v it_o be_v to_o thy_o lord_n god_n how_o he_o like_v and_o love_v thou_o when_o he_o behold_v thou_o fight_v so_o stout_o for_o his_o sake_n for_o nothing_o sure_o can_v be_v more_o grateful_a to_o thy_o creator_n than_o that_o thou_o kill_v and_o cut_v up_o by_o the_o root_n all_o deprave_a desire_n and_o plant_v true_a virtue_n in_o their_o place_n and_o this_o mere_o for_o that_o thou_o well_o know_v it_o to_o be_v his_o holy_a will_n and_o pleasure_n chap._n ix_o that_o we_o must_v not_o shun_v the_o occasion_n of_o these_o combat_n and_o now_o my_o dear_o belove_v combat_n 1._o the_o way_n to_o get_v true_a virtue_n be_v not_o to_o avoid_v but_o to_o seek_v the_o occasion_n of_o combat_n i_o add_v to_o all_o these_o mean_n hitherto_o mention_v for_o the_o acquisition_n of_o virtue_n this_o as_o a_o short_a and_o certain_a memorial_n that_o thou_o neither_o fear_v nor_o fly_v the_o offer_a occasion_n of_o fight_v against_o thy_o passion_n for_o if_o thou_o be_v desirous_a to_o have_v the_o habit_n of_o any_o virtue_n as_o of_o patience_n for_o example_n thy_o way_n be_v not_o to_o shut_v thyself_o up_o from_o converse_v with_o man_n or_o to_o shun_v those_o thing_n whether_o word_n action_n or_o cogitation_n which_o move_v thou_o to_o impatience_n no_o thou_o company_n as_o for_o example_n to_o get_v patience_n shun_v not_o the_o company_n must_v not_o shun_v they_o i_o say_v but_o seek_v they_o out_o desire_v they_o and_o love_v their_o company_n and_o conversation_n who_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o this_o thy_o disquiet_n and_o as_o often_o as_o thou_o shall_v have_v occasion_n of_o intercourse_n with_o they_o prepare_v thyself_o and_o make_v ready_a thy_o will_n to_o receive_v joyful_o and_o endure_v patient_o all_o tribulation_n and_o trouble_n which_o they_o can_v any_o way_n bring_v upon_o thou_o and_o this_o be_v thy_o only_a way_n to_o accustom_v thyself_o to_o patience_n 2._o in_o like_a manner_n if_o thou_o be_v thou_o or_o the_o employment_n which_o be_v tedious_a to_o thou_o weary_a of_o any_o work_n which_o grow_v tedious_a and_o troublesome_a unto_o thou_o either_o for_o that_o the_o person_n who_o command_v it_o displease_v thou_o or_o because_o it_o be_v of_o itself_o offensive_a or_o that_o thou_o be_v thereby_o hinder_v from_o some_o other_o employment_n which_o thou_o will_v more_v willing_o embrace_v yet_o omit_v it_o not_o upon_o any_o term_n but_o rather_o set_v soon_o upon_o that_o work_n than_o any_o other_o be_v it_o never_o so_o painful_a or_o displease_a and_o although_o the_o leave_v it_o undo_v seem_v to_o settle_v and_o quiet_v thy_o mind_n yet_o still_o see_v thou_o desist_v not_o from_o do_v it_o for_o thus_o thou_o shall_v become_v more_o and_o more_o instruct_v in_o the_o way_n to_o get_v perfect_a patience_n nor_o be_v that_o suppose_a quiet_a at_o all_o solid_a because_o it_o spring_v not_o from_o a_o heart_n sincere_o purify_v from_o all_o disorderly_a passion_n 3._o and_o i_o teach_v the_o same_o lesson_n thought_n and_o the_o same_o rule_n be_v to_o be_v apply_v to_o troublesome_a thought_n concern_v such_o thought_n as_o sometime_o trouble_v and_o contristate_v thy_o mind_n to_o wit_n that_o thy_o aim_n be_v not_o utter_o to_o expel_v they_o but_o kind_o to_o entertain_v they_o and_o treat_v they_o as_o grateful_a guest_n because_o the_o trouble_n of_o their_o company_n inure_n thou_o to_o the_o patient_a suffering_n of_o all_o contrariety_n and_o whosoever_o shall_v otherwise_o instruct_v thou_o o_o my_o bâ—loved_a command_v thou_o to_o fly_v that_o very_a thing_n in_o affliction_n which_o thou_o seek_v to_o obtain_v by_o fight_v that_o be_v the_o virtue_n which_o thou_o desire_v to_o gain_v by_o conquer_a thy_o enemy_n 4._o but_o yet_o a_o young_a and_o unexperienced_a war_n yet_o a_o young_a scholar_n must_v be_v wary_a in_o wage_n this_o war_n soldier_n in_o this_o spiritual_a conflict_n must_v wary_o enter_v the_o list_n to_o wage_v this_o war_n with_o wicked_a thought_n and_o therefore_o i_o counsel_v he_o sometime_o to_o oppose_v they_o othertime_n to_o exchange_v they_o for_o other_o according_a as_o he_o perceive_v this_o or_o that_o way_n best_o profit_v he_o in_o the_o acquisition_n of_o virtue_n but_o never_o so_o field_n but_o never_o desert_n the_o field_n to_o fly_v from_o they_o and_o total_o leave_v they_o as_o to_o seek_v to_o be_v quit_v of_o all_o trouble_n and_o irksomeness_n which_o thence_o arise_v for_o though_o by_o this_o flight_n he_o cut_v off_o the_o occasion_n of_o impatience_n yet_o he_o get_v no_o strength_n or_o constancy_n of_o heart_n against_o the_o next_o rise_v motion_n thereof_o 5._o whence_o it_o follow_v that_o if_o the_o same_o sergeant_n of_o impatience_n do_v at_o unprovided_a â—or_a than_o he_o will_v still_o be_v unprovided_a another_o time_n seize_v on_o he_o he_o be_v soon_o terrify_v and_o quick_o conquer_v because_o he_o be_v unprovided_a of_o arm_n convenient_a for_o the_o combat_n that_o be_v he_o have_v not_o fortify_v his_o mind_n with_o custom_n counsel_n thought_n and_o resolution_n to_o keep_v perfect_a patience_n in_o all_o event_n of_o adversity_n except_v this_o way_n be_v useful_a against_o all_o imperfection_n carnality_n only_o except_v and_o this_o way_n of_o war_a be_v very_o profitable_a not_o only_o against_o impatience_n but_o all_o other_o imperfection_n the_o carnal_a still_o except_v whereof_o shall_v be_v hereafter_o treat_v chap._n x._o of_o the_o fight_n against_o sudden_a temptation_n and_o passion_n he_o that_o be_v not_o yet_o accustom_v to_o receive_v sudden_a adversity_n and_o trouble_n with_o a_o calm_a countenance_n and_o quiet_a mind_n may_v thus_o enure_v himself_o thereto_o let_v he_o first_o diligent_o consider_v they_o with_o his_o understanding_n then_o earnest_o desire_v they_o with_o his_o will_n and_o final_o always_o expect_v they_o with_o a_o ready_a resolute_a and_o prepare_a mind_n 2._o the_o manner_n to_o ponder_v such_o thou_o first_o thou_o be_v to_o ponder_v they_o in_o thy_o understanding_n and_o foresee_v what_o be_v like_a to_o befall_v thou_o adversity_n by_o the_o understanding_n be_v this_o mark_v thy_o own_o state_n calling_z and_o condition_n as_o also_o the_o place_n and_o person_n where_o and_o with_o who_o thou_o be_v like_o daily_a to_o converse_v thus_o thou_o may_v easy_o foresee_v what_o may_v probable_o befall_v thou_o and_o how_o thou_o must_v carry_v thyself_o and_o fortify_v thy_o mind_n against_o any_o sudden_a surprisal_n of_o thy_o passion_n and_o if_o some_o accident_n not_o foresee_v chance_n to_o happen_v then_o beside_o this_o former_a strength_n already_o gain_v by_o that_o first_o resolution_n to_o bear_v all_o cross_a event_n with_o a_o evenness_n of_o mind_n thou_o may_v thus_o far_o help_v thyself_o 3._o when_o thou_o perceive_v that_o thou_o providence_n but_o if_o some_o other_o cross_n happen_v not_o foresee_v fly_v to_o the_o thought_n of_o god_n love_n and_o providence_n be_v slight_v scorn_v or_o any_o way_n injure_v present_o enforce_v thy_o mind_n towards_o thy_o lord_n and_o maker_n and_o weigh_v his_o immense_a bounty_n and_o infinite_a love_n to_o thou_o from_o which_o think_v it_o will_v forthwith_o occur_v to_o thy_o understanding_n that_o he_o be_v the_o chief_a cause_n of_o this_o thy_o trouble_n and_o tribulation_n and_o that_o he_o express_o permit_v it_o to_o befall_v thou_o that_o thou_o may_v
be_v the_o foundation_n of_o all_o virtue_n the_o deep_a thou_o lay_v this_o groundwork_n the_o high_a will_v be_v thy_o spiritual_a build_n yet_o never_o think_v thou_o can_v dig_v it_o deep_a enough_o but_o rather_o imagine_v that_o if_o a_o infinity_n can_v befall_v a_o creature_n thy_o unworthiness_n will_v be_v infinite_a this_o point_n to_o wit_n selfe-acknowledgement_n be_v well_o practise_v give_v thou_o the_o possession_n nothing_o and_o without_o which_o thou_o be_v less_o than_o nothing_o of_o all_o that_o be_v good_a and_o without_o it_o thou_o be_v less_o than_o nothing_o though_o thy_o action_n be_v more_o perfect_a than_o those_o of_o the_o great_a saint_n and_o thy_o heart_n be_v in_o continual_a recollection_n with_o thy_o creator_n o_o bless_a knowledge_n which_o make_v we_o happy_a on_o earth_n and_o glorious_a in_o heaven_n o_o true_a light_n shine_v out_o of_o our_o darkness_n o_o great_a nothing_o which_o rendre_v we_o master_n and_o monarch_n of_o all_o thing_n no_o my_o dear_o belove_a i_o will_v never_o give_v over_o the_o press_n of_o this_o point_n which_o thou_o be_v ever_o to_o practice_v 13._o if_o therefore_o thou_o desire_v to_o praise_n god_n accuse_v thyself_o if_o thou_o will_v exalt_v his_o divine_a majesty_n dive_v into_o thy_o own_o misery_n if_o thou_o will_v find_v he_o climb_v not_o up_o to_o heaven_n for_o he_o will_v fly_v from_o thou_o but_o rather_o descend_v into_o the_o abyss_n of_o thy_o own_o nothing_o and_o he_o will_v thither_o come_v to_o god_n and_o it_o be_v the_o only_a way_n to_o praise_n find_v and_o please_v god_n thou_o and_o there_o embrace_v thou_o yes_o he_o will_v court_v and_o cherish_v thou_o by_o so_o much_o the_o more_o dear_o delicious_o and_o tender_o by_o how_o much_o thou_o seem_v abject_a and_o vild_a in_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o be_v well_o please_v to_o have_v all_o other_o slight_n and_o scorn_v thy_o company_n as_o a_o mere_a out_o cast_v a_o object_n of_o derision_n and_o a_o thing_n abominable_a 14._o know_v furthermore_o and_o consider_v scorn_v therefore_o thou_o be_v bind_v to_o he_o for_o permit_v thou_o to_o be_v scorn_v thyself_o most_o unworthy_a of_o so_o high_a a_o favour_n from_o thy_o lord_n god_n as_o to_o be_v neglect_v and_o scorn_v by_o all_o and_o fail_v not_o to_o render_v he_o most_o hearty_a and_o humble_a thanks_o final_o thou_o be_v to_o be_v grateful_a and_o sensible_a of_o thy_o great_a obligation_n to_o they_o who_o have_v administer_v the_o occasion_n of_o this_o thy_o spiritual_a improvement_n and_o to_o acknowledge_v it_o and_o to_o they_o who_o do_v it_o thyself_o most_o bind_v to_o they_o who_o have_v most_o master_v and_o mortify_v thou_o 15._o but_o if_o notwithstanding_o all_o these_o true_a and_o weighty_a consideration_n the_o subtlety_n of_o the_o devil_n thy_o own_o ignorance_n or_o a_o evil_a inclination_n shall_v have_v yet_o the_o power_n over_o thou_o so_o as_o to_o disquiet_v and_o inclination_n and_o be_v ever_o wary_a of_o the_o devil_n and_o thy_o own_o inclination_n trouble_v thy_o mind_n with_o fancy_n of_o selfe-praise_n and_o make_v some_o impression_n in_o thy_o heart_n of_o thy_o own_o merit_n and_o desert_n it_o be_v then_o thou_o be_v chief_o and_o courageous_o to_o beat_v down_o and_o humble_v thyself_o since_o thou_o find_v by_o experience_n how_o poor_o thou_o have_v profit_v in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n and_o knowledge_n of_o thyself_o and_o what_o deep_a root_n thy_o pride_n and_o vanity_n have_v take_v in_o thy_o entrails_n and_o this_o be_v the_o way_n to_o suck_v honey_n out_o of_o poison_n and_o to_o draw_v health_n from_o wound_n of_o rash_a judgement_n 1._o from_o this_o vice_n of_o selfe-esteem_a spring_v up_o another_o no_o less_o dangerous_a which_o be_v rash-judgement_n esteem_v rash-judgemen_a spring_n from_o self_n esteem_v concern_v our_o neighbout_o and_o this_o be_v common_o follow_v with_o contempt_n of_o their_o person_n and_o detraction_n from_o their_o good_a name_n this_o vice_n as_o it_o have_v its_o beginning_n from_o a_o pâ—evish_a and_o proud_a inclination_n so_o likewise_o pride_n and_o from_o pride_n it_o be_v nourish_v and_o foment_v by_o no_o other_o food_n for_o pride_n and_o rash_a judgement_n increase_v together_o comply_v with_o each_o other_o and_o do_v both_o joint_o covert_o and_o insensible_o concur_v to_o deceive_v we_o for_o we_o presume_v to_o exalt_v ourselves_o by_o judge_v mean_o of_o other_o and_o we_o think_v ourselves_o free_a from_o those_o imperfection_n which_o we_o be_v full_o persuade_v be_v in_o our_o brother_n 2._o now_o our_o wily_a enemy_n the_o devil_n no_o soon_o discover_v this_o perverse_a disposition_n in_o we_o but_o he_o be_v busy_a in_o keep_v our_o sense_n open_a to_o action_n â—he_v devil_n strive_v to_o â—eepe_v open_a our_o sense_n upon_o our_o neighbour_n action_n see_v hear_v examine_v control_n and_o heighten_v the_o fault_n of_o our_o neighbour_n he_o be_v diligent_a to_o imprint_v this_o imperfection_n or_o that_o indiscretion_n of_o such_o or_o such_o a_o person_n in_o our_o spirit_n if_o therefore_o my_o dear_o belove_a thy_o foe_n be_v so_o forward_o and_o watchful_a to_o entrap_v thou_o be_v thou_o equal_o careful_a and_o vigilant_a to_o avoid_v his_o plot_n plot_n but_o we_o must_v be_v as_o vigilant_a to_o shun_v as_o he_o be_v to_o lay_v his_o plot_n and_o rescue_v thy_o soul_n out_o of_o his_o dangerous_a snare_n and_o in_o the_o first_o place_n when_o another_o defect_n be_v present_v before_o thou_o present_o withdraw_v thy_o thought_n but_o if_o thou_o be_v solicit_v to_o give_v sentence_n let_v it_o be_v a_o flat_a sentence_n first_o by_o deny_v to_o give_v any_o sentence_n denial_n and_o short_a answer_n that_o thou_o have_v no_o such_o power_n give_v thou_o and_o if_o thou_o have_v any_o such_o privilege_n thou_o can_v hardly_o form_v a_o right_n and_o sound_a judgement_n be_v environ_v and_o prevent_v with_o such_o a_o number_n of_o passion_n incline_v 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