are all the helps we haue Intended and haue been Imparted and bestowed by thee That we might liue alone To thee who satiat'st pure soules With ioyes that are vnknown And wo to them a thousand times Who interest haue in any Or haue deuided harts to thee After thy gifts so many For thou hast purchased our loue At too too deare a rate To haue a partner in our hart Which iustly thou dost hate O this thy wrong makes Angells blush O make it farre from me Since that I am both body and soul All conseerate to thee And I also will greiue with them To see thee haue such wrong From soules selected by thy self To sing with them the song Of Loue and praise to thee O God And euen in this place To Contemplate thee as we may O sweet and happy grace If we would dy vnto our selues And all things ells but thee It would be naturall to our soules For to ascend and be Vnited to our Center deare To which our soules would hy Being as proper then to vs As fire to vpwards fly O lett vs therefor loue my God For Loue pertaines to him And lett our soules seek nothing ells But in this Loue to swimme Till we absorpt by his sweet Loue Return from whom we came Where we shall melt into that Loue Which ioyeth me to name And neuer can I it too much Speak of or it desire Since that my God who 's Loue it selfe Doth only Loue require Come therefor all and lett vs loue And with a pure aspect Regard our God in all we do And he will vs protect O that all things vpon the earth Re-ecchoed with thy praise My euerlasting glorious God The Ancient of dayes And it I wish with all my soul Incessantly to sing But seeing this I cannot do My sighes to heauen shall ring Yea if I writ out all the sea Yet could I not expresse The ioy and comfort I do feele In what thou dost possesse No gifts or grace nor comforts heere How great so ere they be Can satiat my longing soul While I possesse not thee For thou art all my harts desire Yea all that I do craue In earth or heauen now and euer Thou art all that I would haue And I do wish with all my soul That to thee I could pray With all my hart and all my strength Ten thowsand times a day Lett peoples tribes and tongues confesse Vnto thy Maiesty And lett vs neuer cease to sing Sanctus Sanctus to thee These are his words my Lord God which whosoeuer practiseth shall find a Spirituall internall life so easy sweet secure and void of all questions that they will walk euen in this bannishment where our life is tearmed and that most iustly a continuall warrefare with a heauenly peace and security For to that soul who proposeth nothing to herself but thy selfe alone aboue all gifts and creatures what can interpose it selfe for to harm her while she remaineth thus confident and humble between Maiestyâ— and her soul. Certainly so subiect doth such an one liue to thee and to all others in that maner as shall be exacted by thee that there can nothing carry her away while thus it stands with her to any errour of vanity and her loue is so founded in true Charity and practised with such Humility and so in her very soul that nothing can interrupt her conuersation with thee Besides in a soul who walketh vpon this secure ground of only seeking thee and only resting in thee such a diuine light doth shine that she iudgeth according to the iustice of thy Diuine will and not according to sense or custome which in these blind days takes place allmost in all things of true reason and this for want of hauing recourse to thee my Lord who art the only true light and of this defect it proceeds that the diuine ways of Loue are now held so perillous and insecure in which my God thou hast an infinit wrong seeing that we were made only to Loue and attend to the praise of thee our Lord. It is true those who will pretend to lead a Spiriâ—uall life and yet seek not in all to deny themselues but desire this gift or this grace this fauour or that comfort lett them pretend for their excuse in it whatsoeuer they please do oâ—ten times miserably deceiue not only themselues but also many others and bring an internal life wholy into a scorne and contempt to the preiudice of their owne soules and also of many others But I wish that those that do this simply by being for a Spirituall life vnapt might giue themselues to that which by Superiors should be found most fitting for them and noâ— be a cause that thy sweet mercy anâ— goodnes should haue such wrong as that other soules who were fit should be hindred from hauing relation to thee by which their soules would be turned wholy into Loue by a vehement desire and longing after thee that one thing that is only necessary and from this house To witt of the Benedictine Nunn◠〈◊〉 Cambray The same she meanes for Paâ—â—â— issued thence and where her natural Sister of the same Spirit Gouernes at present I beseech thee for thy own sake keepe this misery which of all other is the greatest that I can comprehend oâ— imagin THE EIGTH CONFESSION BLESSED is that Simplicity saith my foremencioned Author in his fourth book of the Following of Christ that forsaketh the difficullt way of many questions Those are his words in his said diuine Booke where he proueth the way of Loue to be so easy and secure as I haue before signified O how happy are they who follow thee in Humility and Simplicity of hart for these haue few doubts which are the cause of questions The more a soul is void of doubts the more capable is she speaking ordinarily of these secret wayes of the Diuine Loue For commonly her way must be to resign herself to thy will What roome is there left then for questions Yet when it is thy will that in a reall doubt she ask thou teachest her how to proceed in it that it may be a help to her soul and no hindrance which seldome happens when without thy leaue and sending she presumeth to endanger herself to be intangled by falling out of one doubt and question into fiue hundred others Lett it be with my soul O Lord as it is said of Anna the Mother of thy Prophet Samuel that she turned her countenance no more towards seuerall waies For hauing been taught and instructed by thy sweet mercy that One thing is to me only necessary lett me not loose my selfe by following or trying those seuerall waies of which she speaketh I haue as thou knowst my God had sufficient triall of them to the great misery and difficulty of my poore soul for that time lett me now sing and that from the bottom of my soul that it is good for me to
thee but if she presume any thing of herself what perillsâ— and danger she is subiect vnto and she apt to fall into none can conceaue much lesse expresse And to this effect of shewing a soul how to walk securely writeth thy great seruant the Author of the following of Christ in his 21. Chapter of his third book whose words with great ioy I read and before thee speaking too I will heere bring them in beseeching thee to instruct me in the true practise of them For they contayn the way in which a foole cannot erre and without the practise of this our soules lye open to all the snares of the Diuell thine and our enemy No instruction did she so much regard so frequently reflectâ—on or more volue and â—â—â—olve in her mind nor more delighted in â—hen this that followeth being meerly of â—er own finding and obsâ—ruing in the said â—ook which she was familiar in and no â—aruaile considering the excellency and â—ecessity of it for the purpose which she hath mentioned being the securing of one in a Spirituall course thus therefor doth he say â—peaking to her soule Super omnia in omnibus requiesces â—â—ima mea in Domino semper quia ipse est â—anctorum aeterna requies Da mihi dulâ—sâ—me amantissime Iesu in Te super â—mnem Salutem Pulchritudinem super omnem Gloriam honorem super omnem â—â—tentiam DignitateÌ„ super omnem ScieÌ„tiam Subtilitatem super omnes Diuitias Artes super omnem LaetitiaÌ„ Exultationem superomnem famam Laudem super omnem Suauitatem ConsolationeÌ„ super omnem Spem Promissionem super omne Meritum Desiderium super omnia dona munera quae potes dare infundere super omne Gaudium iubilationem quam potest mens capere â—â—ntire Denique super Angelos Archangelos super omnem Exercitum Coeli super omnia visibilia inuisibilia super omne quod Tu Dâ—us meus non esâ— Quia Tu Domine Deus meus super omnia optimus es Tu solus Altissimus Tu solus Potentissimus Tu solus Sufficientissimus Plenissimus Tu solus Suauissimus Solatiosissimus Tu solus Pulcherrimus Amantissimus Tu solus Nobilissimus Gloriosissimus super omnia in quo cunctâ—â— bona simul perfecte sunt semper fuâ—runt erunt Atque ideo minus est insâ—fficiâ—ns quiâ—quid prâ—ter Teipsum mihi donas aut de teipso reuelas vel promittâ—â— Te non viso nec plene adepto Quoniam quidem non potest cor meum veraciter requiescere nec totaliter contentari nisiin Te requiesâ—at omnia dona omnemque Creaturam transcendat Aboue all things in all things my soule thou shalt euer rest in God for hee is the eternall rest of the Saints Grante Mee most sweet and louing Iesus to Rest in Thee aboue all Creatures aboue all Health and Beauty aboue all Glory and Honour aboue all I owre and Dignity aboue all Knowledge and Subtility aboue all riches and Arts Aboue all ioy and â—ladnesse aboue all fame and Praise â—boue all sweetnesse and Comfort aboue â—ll Hope and Promâ—se aboue all meritt â—nd Desyre aboue all Guifts and prefents â—hat Thou canst giue and impart aboue all ioy and Iubilee that the Mind can reâ—eiue feele lastly aboue Angells and Archangells aboue all the heauenly Host aboue all things visible and inuisible and aboue All that Thou art not my God For Thou my Lord God art good aboue all goods Thou alone most high Thou alone â—ost powrefull Thou alone most full and sufficient Thou alone most sweet and comfortable thou alone most beautifull and louing Thou alone most noble and Glorious aboue all Things in whom all â—oods together are most perfectly haue beene and euer shall be And therefore it 〈◊〉 too little and not sufficient whatsoeuer Thou bestowest on Mee besides thy selfe or reuealest of tâ—y selfe or promisest whilst Thou art not seene nor fully obtayned For surely my Hart cannot rest nor be fully contented vnlesse itt rest in Thee and transcend all guifts and Creatures whatsoeuer All things desires and loues are vainâ— But only that which tends To God alone our cheifest good And all things ells transcends My soul therefor by this sweet Loue shall day and night aspire And rest in God all things aboue My Loue and lifes desire And while I liue I le neuer cease To languish for his Loue Breathing and sighing after him Till he my life remoue For since â— am not where I loue How can I comfort find But only in the song of Loue By Loue to me assign'd And where so ere â—his word is 〈◊〉 loue It yeilds a siluer sound But if that word I misse in it Me thinks I want my ground Nothing so simple can be pennd If it but treat of Loue But that it serueth in some sort My sadnes to remoue And shall my soul by senselesse loue Which yet is neuer true Bestow more loue where it is lost Then where 't is only due â— no my God but rather lett Such folly be to me A meanes to vrge my sinnefull soul To Loue more fernently And henceforth lett me draw no breath But to aspire by Loue To thee my God and all my good By whom I liue and moue No Stagge in chace so thirsty is Or greedy of sweet spring As is my soul of thee my God While I heere sighing sing My soul where is thy Loue and Lord Since him thou canst not find O cheere vp hart be comforted For he is in thy mind To him relation thou maist haue As often as thou goes Unto the closett of thy hart Thy griefs for to disclose As silly Lambes from rauening Woolues For help to Sheapheards fly So shall my soul in euery case For help and councell hye To thee my God by humble Prayer In hope and confidence That thou my Lord willt succour me And be my soules defence And seeing that my God is rich How can I say I 'm poore And hee more myne then I myne owne What can I wish for I more And in his Maiesty and power Much more I will reioice Thâ—n if of all in heauen and earth I had commaund and choice My God one thing alone thou know'st I feare and apprehend Which is my Lord for to displease Whose mercies haue no end From all that doth displease thyne eyeâ—â— Be pleas'd to sett me free For nothing ells in heauen or earth Do I dâ—sire but thee And lett me rather death embrace Then thee my God offend Or in my hart to giue thy place To any other freind Nothing would greiue my soul so much As in me to perceaue Any affection in the world That thine would me bereaue I know thou must possesse alone Or els we are not thine In such good plight as we should be If light to vs did shine As thou desirest it should do By grace our soules within For which
his owâ— Prays in which and by which we are infinitly happy though of our-selues we aâ—â— able to prays and loue him but in a very poor maner Who can say that desires nothing but to loue and prays him that thâ—y â—e poors seeing h◠〈◊〉 ho is more theirs then â—ey are there own is so rich and to whomâ—othing â—othing is wanting that should make himâ— infinit happines In this let vs ioy in this â—t vs glory without intermission VVhen â—e are not able actually to attend to him â—nd prays him let vs commend our hart â—â—d soul to the saints in Heauen who withâ—uâ— ceasing prais our Lord. Let vs by them do â—â—at which we are not able to do by ourselues â—ea let vs desir him who is his own prays â—o is only able to do as he deserueth to â—pply what he desirs we should wish him Let vs rest in him alone and not in anyâ—hing that is or can be created Let vs not â—eek the guift but the giuer Let vs seek no oâ—her coÌ„fort but to be able with out al comâ—ort to be true to him O how little is al the â—oue we can giue him in coÌ„parison of that heâ—eserueth â—eserueth from vs. VVhere therefor is their â—â—ome in our souls for any created thing Let vs wish and desire and as far as it lies 〈◊〉 vs procure that al loue be giuen to him Let him haue al Glory al Honour prays â—et vs desire the fauour of none but himâ—lone â—lone to whose free disposition let vs stand for time and eternity as absolutly by our â—il as if we had neuer had beeing Noâ—hing we do or suffer let vs esteeme great for our sins deserue we should endure much more Let our whole care tend to the magnifying of him Let his Honour be ours 〈◊〉 Glory ours let vs seek nothing but to 〈◊〉 wholy his who is most worthy to be thâ—â— He is It is his delight to be with the childrâ—â— of men VVhat should comfort vs but tâ— prays and loue him Those that seek him shaâ— find him if they seeke him withal their haâ—â— O who would seek any thing instead of hiâ— or any thing besids him being he is not morâ— willing to giue vs any thing then him-selfâ— heere by Grace and in Heauen by Gloryâ— Let vs adore him in Spirit and Truth al wâ— can giue him is nothing vnles we entirely giue him our selues and that also cannoâ— adde to his Greatnes and Glory yet if we do this so much doth Maiestyâ— esteeme of this guift it being al we can giue him that for it and in requital of it hâ— wil giue vs him-self Al his guifts and graces are as means to the preparing vs for thiâ— end if we vse them rightly with humility according to the iust wil of Godâ— Let vs extend our wil to serue loue prays please and magnify our Lord to the vttermost we are able yea without al limits or bounds let vs desire his Honour til sucâ— time as we may be swallowed vp in the bottomles ocean of al loue prais God iâ— him-self in whom and by whom only we can prays him as we ought Let vs loue hiâ— here as far as we are possibly able withoâ—â— â—egard of our selues either for time or eterâ—ity This is the humble loue that feeleth â—o burden This is the true loue that knowâ—th not how to attribute any thing it doth â—r suffereth to it-self It chooseth not wherâ—n God should make vse of her but accommodateth its-self to his pleasure in al things â—f it were his wil to haue it so she would â—ather for euer be picking of chips or straws â—hen out of her own election be doing that â—hich is most admired or might seeme to â—er to procure her the greatest reward O â—ou souls on whom God bestoweth this loueâ—hink â—hink it not much to beare the burden not only of your-selues but of al you liue with â—or God beareth you vp in al more then you â—an conceiue or imagin Beware aboue al â—hings of pride for that cast even Angels â—ut of Heauen A soul of prayer as long as â—he keeps humility is in little or no peril of going out of her way Giue to Caesar that is Caesars and that to God that is Gods If there be not somâ—â—hing due to God which cannot be giuen to men or if it were so confused that there â—ere no certainty what were due to the one â—o wit God and what were due for Godâ—o â—o the other to wit man a soul would be so confused as to teaching and leading the way of Perfection that she would neuer know where to begin and where to endâ— or when she did wel or il For certainâ— when the soul doth that by men whâ— ought to be done by God and can be dâ— by none but him It goeth not wel with hâ—â— as for walking in a true coÌ„templatiue coâ—â— She also doth not wel when she would haâ— God do that by himself which he would dâ— by means of Superiors or directors Aâ—â— certainly if a soul be a capable soul of coâ—â—templatiue instructions and be wel grounâ—â—ed in them by help of one experienced aâ—â— walk the way of entire abnegation seekiâ—â— God and not his guifts and be diligent 〈◊〉 obseruing what God wil do by himself 〈◊〉 her soul and wherin he referreth her tâ— others and walk with that indifferency thâ—â— it is al one to her which way or by whoâ— God wil manifest his wil to her She shal 〈◊〉 easily see what and how to do in al thingâ— to please God best as she may discerne thâ— Sun from the Moon And this is to giue thâ—â— to God that is Gods and that to Caesar that iâ— Caesars FINIS Deuout spiritual Reader I Desire none other should cast their eye on this true interne spiritual Booke And I doubt not but your patience wil beare with â—he many faults escaped by a strangers presâ—e And your Charity correct them by taâ—ing your pen in your hand and adding â—hat is wanting a whole word a letter or letters and taking away what is superâ—â—ous One great one I wil particularly duise you of to wit page the 19. l. 22. in â—he preface there wants a not So that you must read wanting not those in steed of wanting those For so it is in the original in her own hand The others the sense wil direct you how to correct Adieâ— The Approbation HAuing read ouer this smal Treatise enâ—tituled The Spiritual Exercises of thâ— most Religious and verruous Dame Gertrudâ— More c. with much comfort and edification seeing the feruent expressions oâ— diuine loue in her pious soul. And finding nothing in it iarring with the vniuersal Belief or Christian Morality of our Catholike Church I haue willingly approued it as such and set my hand heervnto at Paris the 26. of March 1658. Hen. HOLDEN The Approbation THese Confessions or Soliloques writen by the late deceased Dame Gertrude More
adhere to my God besides whom what is to me in heauen or what desire I on earth Only thy selfe my Lord is desired by me and only thou canst comfort and satisfy me It becometh me to become wholy subiect to thee so that for time and eternity thou maist dispose of me as it pleases thee which with my whole soul I beseech thee to do and then I â—hall be as happy as I desire to be Thou knowst that since I was taught what it was to loue thee I neuer durst wish or desire any thing For it appeareth plaine to me that my blindnes and ignorance is so great that euen in the desire of that which in it self is good I may be extreamly deceiued Only thy-selfe knoweth what is most to thy honour and best for me and therefor whatsoeuer thou dost shall be best welcome to me I desire no liberty to choose any thing besides thee because it suffiseth me if thou wilt become all in all and aboue all to me which desire I know is pleasing to thee and therefor I beseech thee inlardg my hart and soulin this longing and sighing after thee my only beloued Lett my hart be free to thee For none deserues any part therein besids thee O how great a greif would it be to me if any câ—â—ated thing should be an impediment to my being wholy thine Verily if I should find that my will were false to thee by desiring any thing but thee nothing in heauen or earth could comfort me while thus it stood between my hart and thee Giue me therefor grace to be faithfull to thee who hath shewed such an infinit mercy towards me as to lett me know of the way of Loue whereby all Crosses become tolerable to me Neuer shall I be satisfied with blessing thee and thanking thee for this thy Mercy All that loue thee praise thee for me who am not worthy to name thee Verily if I be now vngratfull to thee it is pitty thy earth should beare me Yet thou knowst my extreame frailty and therefor in all haue mercy on me and in the end saue me who putt all my hope in thee What shall I render for this thy infinit benefit bestowed on me Verily if I should be despised by all the world as I iustly deserue to be and should haue and feele the paines of all that euer haue suffered for thee and should be shutt vp in a place which were only big inough to containe me and were as vnworthy of them as indeed I beleiue and acknowledg my selfe to be debarred of the Sacraments by which such grace to soules is so abouÌ„dantly imparted by thee and were held for a reprobate by all that are most esteemed and respected by me yet this were little to endure in requitall of this benefit which I haue heere recounted before thee and which I read with so much ioy that it is a solace to me in those difficulties which are only known to thee and which would if I were not exceedingly holpen by thee quite ouerwhelme me for as it is well known to thee they do oftentimes make all my strength decay so that I seem to be left without so much as is sufficient to go euen about the house But when I haue been thus dealt with by thee I haue been withall enabled more feruently to praise thee And thy intention by it was apparant to me For by it thou didst so abate pride that was most strong in me that all I could haue done or deuised or all other creatures with me could not so much in many yeares haue humbled me and haue bread such a contempt in my soul of resting or taking delight in any thing which was lesse then thee Thus my God thou dealest with me who as I haue often said am not worthy to name thy Maiesty and I see if we will but giue our selues wholy to the seeking after thee and dispose our selues to suffer whatsoeuer it shall please thee we shall not need to take care for any thing but how to please and praise thee For thou willt prouide Crosses such and so much as will be sufficient to make vâ— becom that thou wouldst â—aue vs to be and in those of thy sending there is no danger if we will endeauour to be faithfull to thee and in them call often vpon thee But when we place such perfection in suffering that we think we do nothing vnlesse we be in matters of suffring and are as it were loath to loose time as we think we do by being without occasion of suffering we oftentimes faile in those Crosses which â—e in such an humor do lay vpon our selues or thrust our selues into without thy leaue and disable vs from vndergoing and suffering those which then or afterwards are by thee thought to be fitter for vs and we seeing our selues to faile in these of our own vndertaking which we made our selues sure to be able to stand vnto grow to be deiected yea sometimes euen so farr as to mistrust all the course we had held before For we remembring we endured greater matters before being of Gods sending and through his grace presumed now allso of that strength which then we had which was not as we conceiued ours but our Lords who rewardeth no works but his owne If we will therefor in all liue secure lett vs desire nothing no not euen to haue matter of suffering saue so farr as it shall be his pleasure For certainâ—ly to suffer for him is so great an honour that one may iustly esteem herself vnworthy thereof and yet it is a thing so necessary to aduance vs in the way of Loue that we need not doubt but God will prouide it when he sees it fitt and when he doth send it come it which way it will it will be no impediment to a faithfull soule but her only way in this as well as all other things for to liue secure is to be as a little child by humble Resignation and lett God do with vs in all what he will For only by this meanes we can liue in Peace auoid the snares of selfe loue and the diuell For a soul that is apt to esteem greatly of a little suffering and thinketh when she hath in it a slight occasion that it layeth open the way to great matters between God and her soul God vseth to lead her by another way till she see and acknowledge her errour and many times she falleth into sinn and imperfection by her greedines to aduance her soul by vntimely suffering which at last maketh her cry out to thee O Lord how great is my blindnes and frailty help me therefor my God in all these miseries which heere thy sinnefull seruant speaketh of as a guilty person to thee Great great is my folly and frailty and therefor for help and strength I fly vnto thee spare my soul sinning before thee and lett me now begin to loue only thee help me in all my Lord
for vaine is the help of man I will therefor confide in thee my God my mercy who be Adored Praised and Exalted for tyme and eternity Amen THE NINTH CONFESSION LEX Domini immaculata conuertens animas testimonium Domini fidele sapientiam praestans paruulis Iustitiae Domini rectae laerificantes corda praeceptum Domini lucidum illuminans oculos The Law of our Lord is immaculate correcting soules the Testimony of our Lord is faithfull giuing Wisedome to little Ones The Iustices of our Lord be right making harts ioyfull the precept of our Lord light some illuminating the eyes These my God are the words of thy Royall Prophet which are as it followeth in the same Psalme to be desired aboue gold and rich pretious stones yea they are more sweet to a louing soul then the honny or the honny combe Lett this Law of thine conuert my soul that it may become one of thy little ones to whom the grace of true Wisedome is oâ—ten promised by thee Lett thy Iustice make my hart ioyfull For in the perâ—ormance thereof is true Peace only to be found They that liue according to this thy Iustice do enioy such a diuìne tranquillity that it cannot be expressed by any pen whatsoeuer None can walk in this path of true Iustice in perfection but the humble Those find out in thy light what is thy best will and pleasure in all things as farr as humane flesh will admitt and perform thy iust will as well as human frailty will reach When we do perform any thing by this iust rule of thy holy will we find an admirable effect theâ—eof in our soul. This is that which by performing in all things we become truly subiect to thee and haue the merit of Obedience which maketh all our actions so noble before thee and of which vertue of Obedience how much or how little our actions partake so much and no more do they deserue reward Worthyly may Obedience be preferred before Sacrifice For it is that which gouerneth heauen and earth and which only deserueth reward in thy sight Happy are they who walk this way For they haue a â—ast euen of the ioyes of heauen For as they there obey thy will so these thy humble soules do also endeauour to do the same This Obedience to thee maketh the Angells as â—ell content with their degree of Glory as to be of the Seraphins who are yet in a farr higher degree in thy Kingdome This maketh the Saints content with theirs this maketh soules on earth who aspire to thee with all their harts to limit their desires with thy good will and pleasure and by this meanes they desire neither life nor death but in it conforme themselues to thy most iust will this maketh them desyre disgrace nor Glory neither paine nor health neither Crosses nor comforts This Obedience to thee and to Superiors for thee made some soules pleasing to thee by liuing in the wildernes and others by liuing in a Community some by liuing to the profit of their neighbour and others by liuing and attending only to thee in their soules some by liuing in high and eminent degree and hauing commaund ouer many others and some by being esteemed abiect and the very scumme of the world and these if they had of their own choice and election chosen the contrary state would neuer haue arriued to true Sanctity Some also by many paines Crosses come to thee some only by an internall affectioÌ„ to thee hauing that in affection which others suffer in act they also are respected by thee By which it appeares how great a subiection is exacted by thee of those who desire to become vnited to thee and neuer can we prosper in a Spirituall life vnlesse we hearken to thee and obserue euen in the least things what thou wouldst haue vs do and go that way thou wouldst haue vs in all things whatsoeuer For we may be sure thou willt lead vs by the way of Abnegation which is the way of the Crosse which if we will walk with humility and simplicity we shall with security arriue at the port of eternall Glory and enioy thee our only beloued in that degree thou hadst ordained for vs from all eternity liue we long or dy we soone For only in thee can we be happy and by thy meere grace can we deserue to enioy thee What we ouercome is so done in thy strength that the glory is wholy due to thee alone and this I find dayly seeing that when I presume of my own strength though it be in a thing which I haue often ouercome and many times farr greater it seemes to me yet I faile in that euen often to the offending thee my Lord in an extraordinary maner From this errour therefor my God heerafter deliuer thy poore contemptible seruant that I may praisâ— thee who art my only strength and hopeâ— Lead me which way thou willt soâ—â— may blesse thee in all and rest in thee aboue all From thee the strong receaue their strength and in thee sinners that haue nothing of our owne haue wherewith to supply all our want thou flyest vp with them who by an ardent loue haue surmounted all created things and are firmely vnited to thee in Spirit and thou also lendest thy sweet hand to thy little and imperfect ones who are of a good will to help them out of the mire and durt of passions and inordinate affections In this mercy my soul doth hope and reioice and I do in my pouerty congratulate the perfections of others beseeching thee to make me partaker of their merits And aboue all out of the aboundance of thy owne store giue me whereâ—ith to retorn to thee for all the merâ—ies thou hast shewed to my sinnefull â—oul Lett me please thee and praise â—hee and desire no more but that thou do with me whatsoeuer thou knowst most to thy honour O that soules would conuert their hart wholy to thee the most desirable beawty to whom if we compare all that is fair which thou hast made they will seeme â—o be without all beawty and light O if by humility soules would dispose themselues for the Diuine Loue what a reformation would there quickly be in the whole world When I remember how many soules seperate themselues by sinfull sinning from thee it pearceth my very soul seeing they forsak him who is an infinit good and a most amiable beawty Remember O Lord for thy own sake our extreame frailty and giue graâ—e that we may all conuert and return by Loue to thy Diuine Maiesty whose mercies are aboue all thy works for which Glory be euer to thee by all for time and eternity Amen THE X. CONFESSION ACCEDITE ad Deum illuminamini facies vestrae non confundentur Come to Him and be illuminated and your faces shall not be confounded These words in our diuine Office are spoken not only by him who by thy owne testimony was a man
most louing and tender maner and beseeching thy assistance in all her streightnesses and necessities she findeth this way of Abnegation sweet aboue all the delights of the world For by rectifying our will and conforming it in all to thyne we walk an easy way and find a â—ast of the ioy which they feele who are in heauen vnited to thee for all eternity with whom lett vs praise thee for euer and euer Amen Amen I beseech thee THE XII CONFESSION SI dedexit homo omnem substantiam domus sâ—ae pro Dilectione quasinihil despiciet eam If any Man shall giue aâ— the substance of his how 's for Loue as if it were nothing He shall dispise it O my Lord and my God to whom only all Loue is due Behold I desire with all my hart to giue all for this thy Loue. But alas what hath thy poore seruant to giue thee Verily nothing that may deserue this thy Loue as a requitall it being aboue all I am or can suffer or do What can I giue thee seeing I haue nothing but what I haue receaued of thee If I giue thee my body and soul what is that in comparison of what I owe vnto thee them indeed I haue consecrated to thee but as due to thee by right not as before appertaining to me vnlesse I â—ould vsurp that which I was to restore to thee What then shall I giue â—hee for this thy loue so much desired and sighed after by me If I reflect vpon my selfe I haue nothing to giue to thee But shall I in this my extream â—ouerty and nothing despair of gaining and obtaining this most desirable Loue of thee which reioyceth my soul euen to name and speak of to thee No No I will not feare to obtain it of thee For if that which I haue and am be as indeed it is short of deseruing this fauour from thee which is of being indeed one of those who seek desire and loue only thy selfe and all others meerly for thee yet I will giue thy-self to thee who art all my ioy and the only desire and treasure of my hart By thy-self I will praise thee and in thee I wilâ— hope to be transformed into that loue which shall be swallowed vp in thee for all eternity Only to loue thee was my soul created and only by being turned wholy into loue can my soul be truly happy What can my soul desire out of â—hee seeing thou art only Good and the most incomprehensible beawty which the Angells are neuer satisfyed with beholding being infinitly delighted while they are wholy turned into the pure loue and Praise of thee We heer in this vale of teares do sigh with teares in our eyes longing to enioy thee and to be freed from the occasions of offending thy sweet Mercy We I say sigh and make our moane to thee while it is dayly said to our soul where is thy God Yea euen I say so speaking to thee where art thou my Lord and when shall I without all mean be vnited to thee that my loue may be intierly bestowed vpon thee and nothing but thy selfe liue and raign in me that without ceasing I might Praise and Adore thee the most glorious and amiable Maiesty to whom all knees ought to bow and prostrat we ought to acknowledg our meere dependance of thee O how plaine dost thou sometimes shew it me that I am nothing and lesse then nothing while I stand before thee neither can any thing be by iustice due to me otherwais then by thy meere mercy if I should neuer so faithfully serue and praise thee For what can they challenge of thee who were not able so much as to moue or be without thee much lesse do any good or suffer any thing purely for the loue of thee Giue me therefor that I may haue to giue vnto thee seeing by my selfe I am not able according to my desire to loue and praise thee by thy-self without ceasing I will praise and loue thee and in thy mercy and grace shall my soul hope to become truly pleasing to thee heere I will by faith adhere to thee and by loue my soul shall both day and night aspire vnto thee till at last by the merits of thy death Passion death shall be swallowed vp in victory In the meane time lett the loue of true Charity instruct me which is more strong then death that I may faithfully serue thee though it be not yet admitted me to enioy thee Lett me rest in nothing but thee and lett thy name be my defence and comfort which to hear and behold doth aboue all earthly things delight and refresh me amidst the stormes of temptations which daily assault me O my God indeed thou art that vnchangeable light which I euer come to consult with in all my afflictions and necessities and beholdâ— to my vnspeakeable comfort and strength I heare thee giuing answers by saying this and commanding that and this I do by resorting to thee often This is that which delighteth me and I fly as speedily to this pleasure as I iustly may from all the actions which are imposed vpon me euen by necessity it self and it exceedingly â—eioiceth me to sitt down and sigh after thee and by speaking and writing to and of thee to become at least for that short time forgettful of all things besids thee This is that which maketh the grieuous but then of flesh and bloud tolerable to me in which liuing my soul by sin cometh often to my grief aboue all other miseries wounded to thee crauing and beseeching for thy own-sake that I may neuer faile to beg and find mercy of thee whom to offend is the only misery that can in this life befal me and no pain or difficulty is feared by me saue so farr as it may considering my extreame frailty be a meanes to make me offend thee O Lord do not reiect me though I haue neuer done any good and am so farr from truly louing thee I will now take the aduiâ—e giuen me to fly be silent and quiet and I will howerly come to learn the song of Loue and Praise of thee teach me to know my self and to know thee I desir that wisdome which despiseth all for loue of thee and only that knowledg do I wish for that securely guideth a soul towards thee and into thee Those that loue thee and seek only to please thee are those which haue a sight in part of what in heauen we shall enioy cleerely for all eternity O what knowledge doth a truly louing soul obtain of thee and how much is her faith confirmed in the greatnes beawty and infinitnes of thy Maiesty but alas they are drawn down by the weight of their corruptible flesh and sometimes euen forgett what they haue with the eyes of their soul seen and learnt of thee and sometimes foolishly think they are something till they feele the effect of this their misery and offend thee
return For she hauing forsaken all for thee and hauing tasted of thy sweetnes saieth with the Prophet Turn away myne eyes that they see not vanity least like a dog she return to her vomit and after hauing had a glimering of thy light she becaus she feared she should not be able to sustain thy chastisements and shouâ—d forgett and loose herself by these tribulations and desirous that she might be happily enabled to enâ—er the more fully into thee and fearing I say her own frailty she thus againe crieth out to thee by these other words of the Psalmist saying Domine Deus salutis meae in die clamaui nocte coram te O Lord God of my saluation day and night haue I cryed after Thee For who but thy self can comfort a soul that indeed neither seekes nor desires any thing but thee my God O when shall I spend all my strength and forces in singing thy Praises Who would sett their harts vpon any thing but thee seeing thou hast made all other things so hard to be obtained that we might seeke only thee for whom we were made and whose Loue we may more easily obtaine then any thing els whatsoâ—uer O lett me Loue thee who only for that end didst create me We would haue that which is worth nothing and many times greiue for the losse of that which would but cause vs perplexity and trouble to haue In the meane time neglecting that which thou so infinitly desirest to bestow vpon vs to wit thy loue then which nothâ—ng is so good or sweet or that bringeth such true peace to the soul. THE XX. CONFESSION WITHOVT paine it is impossible O my most Amiable God to liue in loue But if the difficulties which thy true friends and seruants feele were weighed with the miseries of those who rather seek to please themselues and others then thee there would be found an infinit disâ—parity For thy yoke is sweet and thy burthen light to the simple and humble and to those who serue thee for loue and whose ioy thou thy self art and who nothing els but thee my God do seâ—k for in time or eternity These I say are despised contemned afflicted pained tempted troubled and many times sit sorrowfull with a heauy hart and sad countenance But thy will being their law and thy disposition their consolation I may boldly affirme that in all this they suffer nothing in comparison of the fondâ— louers of this world becaus thou being euer more present to them then tâ—ey to themselues dost when thou seest thy time refresh their souls with the light and comfort of thy grace yea seeming to be euen prodigall of thy sweetnes to such as abide faithfull to thee in their tribulations and hope confide and glory in thee and not in themselues and who take occasion in all they see heare suffer ouercome to humble themselues vnder thy mighty hand and blesse and praise thy Iustice and Mercy in all things whatsoeuer Amongst which number admit me poor and contemptible sinner to thy greater glory for this thy Mercy from all creatures for euer and euer Amen THE XXI CONFESSION O My Lord and my God remoue al impediments between thy Goodnes and my poor soul that I may loue thee who only deseruest all loue and honour Giue me an humble and peacefull hart that thou maist inhabit therein as thou desirest Suppres in me by thy sweet Grace the sin of pride which maketh me as yet so odious to thy Diuine Maiesty O if we did but by true Humility abase our selues what beames of true light would shine in the bottome of our souls O what amity is there between thy Diuine Maiesty and an humble soul Nothing but Humility could haue drawn thee down to the earth and only Humility can make vs capable of being drawn by â—hee vp to heauen The truly humble conuers familiarly with thee and thy Saints They presuming nothing of themselues can do all things in thee who strengthnest them And thou art so chary and tender of the humble that what concerneth them thou esteemest to concern thy owne self and euen thy own hart And they thinking they do nothing do by thee do all things Many vnknown to the worldâ— and of no esteem wiâ—h it shall before thee haue the honour and merâ—t in the next world of that which noâ— other men boast of and attribute to themselues For the humble liuing stil in their own nothing giue all glory to thee by whom only all good is performed in the mean while thou enriching them of thy meere Mercy with thy Merits O happy exchange thinâ— for ours durt for the most pure gold What is all we can do Verily nothing Enrich me therefor poor begger with some-what of thyne At thâ— feet I lay whatsoeuer thou giuest oâ— hast giuen me Giue or take away 〈◊〉 thou pleasest so thou do not blot mâ— out of the book of life Open to me knocking at the door of thy Mercy I haue been fiue and twenty yeares this signifieth her age at the writing heerof as that she was then fiue and twenty years olde in my infirmity of most loathsome sinnes behold my misery and take pitty vpon me Sonne of Dauid I defiled that â—oul that was made to thy owne Image and liknes haue compassion on her who hath no other friend or comforter but thy self the only desired of my hart For thy owne sake be propitious to my sin for it is much Nothing that I haue done can I alleadg to thee which hath deserued any reward in thine eyes Onely desires of which manie burn in hell they being little without good works Giue her to drink who withers away for want of thee the fountain of al sweetnes I will powre out my soul before thee that at least I may comfort my self with relating to thee my sinnes and miseries Behold all my ennemies triumph ouer me of whom most easily in all temptations they get â—he victory Fight for me or els I know not what will become of me giue me true Humility by which all things are easily ouercome and all thou exactest most perfectly accomplâ—shed by vs thy Maiesties poor creatures Giue thy self to meâ— who hath nothing of her own to offer thee and if thou giue me thy self I am as rich as I desire to be and if thou shouldst bestoâ— vpon me all thou hast or can create it would be little to me vnles I possessed thee By thy felf I Praise thee whose name doth not be-seeme the mouth of a sinner O let me Loue or not liue I giue my self to thee whome alone I wish for and desire with all the forces of my hart and soul. O my God how neere thou art to vs ready to heare and receaue our prayers and petitions Behold thy sâ—eeâ— prouidence sheweth it self in all things O how long shall my God be thus â—orgotten by creatures When wilt thou by Loue be by all sought after as thou oughtest to be by vs THE
And yet thy Goodnes compelled me to enter O who wil giue me power and ability sufficiently to extol thy most a boundant Mercy which in this and al other things thy sweet Goodnes hath shewed towards me Blessed infinitly be my Lord by al his creatures My only study shal be to praise thee and my only desir that I may be faithful in al crosses and miseries to thee my only beloued Let thy Grace flow I beseech thee vpon thy seruant who with so much care paines and solicitud for thy sake endeauoured to win my hart wholy to thee Remember him vnto good according to al he hath done for me He hath truly made me to see and feel though through my great fault and ignoraÌ„ce I before thought otherwise that thy yoke is sweet and thy burthen light which now I shal alâ—o being conuinced by experience acknowledge before heauen and earth to thine honour and my confusion who durst presume to think otherwise Pardon I beseech thee therefor for thinâ— own sake this my sinne among the rest which are innumerable and let me heerafter be a true seruant and child of thine â—ho be blessed by al for euer and euer Amen THE XXXVIII CONFESSION SEmper gaudete sine intermissione orate Always reioyce Pray without ceasing O my Lord and my God They that truly loue thee may indeed iustly always rejoyce and without intermission praise thee But I that daily and â—owrly offend thy diuino Maiesty ought to weep and lament my sins bitterly sitting solitary and making my moane to thee my God who art only able to help and comfort me in this misery O when shal I become truly humble Teach me Humility Obedience and Patience enlighten my soul obscured by my pride and other sins that I may loue thy Law and humbly embrace thy blessed wil in al things O let me be truly subiect to thee as thou wouldst haue me and euen to al others alsoâ— as it is exacted by thee of me Wo be to my soul if daily it become not more and more obedient ro tâ—ee and to others for thee Giue me true Discretion For no vertue hath more of vertue in it then it partaketh oâ— this diuine vertue Giue me true Wisedom which maketh souls so pleasing to thee and which thou impartest to the humble and those that serue thee for loue and that seek thee aboue al gifts and created things whatsoeuer O loue loue flow into my soul that I may sigh and pant after my God alone and praise this my beloued for al eternity Amen THE XXXIX CONFESSION O Deus meus quis similis tibi O my God who is like to thee Who wil giue mâ— that wiâ—hout ceasingâ— may adhere to thee and with an amourous aspect regard thee in al things not seeking my-self nor the pleasing of any creature for it self in any thing I do or omit Desolatione desolata est omnis terra quia nullus est qui recogiter corde With desolation al the land is made desolate Because there is none who considereth in the hart O my God what wonder is it that we liue in blindnes if we come not to thee who art the only true ligâ—t What do we with souls and harts capable of loue if we do not by them aspire to thee with al our strength and adhere to thee the only true and perfect good What is sweet what is to be desired but thee my Lord who art beawty it self What couldst thou do more then make out souls to thine own image and liknes and able â—o be satisfied with nothing but thy self O misery of al miseries the greatest that thou shouldst be offended and forgotten by vs and that any thing should posses our souls besids thy loue which only can make vs happy and pleasing in thine eyes Wo is me who haue straied from the fountain of liuing water by which my â—oul is dryed vp and euen withereth away in thirst after transitory things Change this my thirst by thyâ—weet â—weet grace and Mercy to a thirsting after thee my God the glory of my hart and the peace and comfort of my soul. O let me loue or not liue and let me in al by al and aboue al praise thee who art bleâ—sed for al eternity Amen THE XL. CONFESSION MY soul blesse thou our Lord and al things within me his holy name Al spirits praise my God for euer and euer magnify him I wil declare to thee my God in al things how it stands with me that I may hope and be strengthened in and by thee I wil beg what is neceâ—sary for me to please and serue thee For what canst thou deny to them who haue no hope or comfort but only in thee He who giueth himself giueth al and when thou deniest what we ask it is that thou mayst giue tâ—â— own self more fully to vs thy poor seruants and that impediments may be the more truly remoued between our souls and thee Simplify my soul that it may return to thee adorn me with â—â—ine own merits that I may not appeare naked of good befâ—re thee and supply my defect in praising and louâ—ng thee To thee my God al my interior powers shal aspire day and night without ceasing Let me draw no breath but therby to sigh and pant after thee the liuing fountain Let al actions which by Obedience or necessity be imposed on me be vndertaken and done by me with an inâ—erior regard of thee that I may truly in them obey and seek thee the most amiable beloued of my hart and soul let them be as a cessation or pausing for the time that I may afterward with the more force and sauour at times conuenient attend to thee in the bottom of my soul and therein praise thee Amen THE XLI CONFESSION COme al ye that haue vowed your bodies and souls to our Lord Come let vs loue Let vs giue al not only once but euery moment to him that made vs to bestow on vs himself Let vs not only loue but be wholy transformed into the â—iuine loue Let vs liue to him â—lone leauing al others for his sake only Let vs charitably interpret the words and deeds of those with whom we liue and if any faâ—l in that which he ought to perform giue vs grace my God to remembeâ— how weak human nature is for good and how great is our frailty as to a sin and how soon we also if thou didst not protect vs might fail in a more shameful maner O my God thou hast commaunded vs to loue our neighbour as our self and behold we either loue them inordinatly to our impediment of louing thee or els we are short towards them of â—rue Charity From both these errours deliuer the soul of thy poor seruant and grant me to loue al as tâ—ou wouldst haue me Let no difficulties they cause to me make me in them the less to behold and consider thee Verily if there were no other reward to be
if we would intend thee in al and haue relation to thee in al who art more present to our souls then we are to our selues we should hear thee giuing answers sometimes by others sometimes by thy self and sometimes by tâ—e words of holy Scriptures and ancient Fathers and subiects would be tractable to Superiors rather gouerning by thee then by themselues what thoâ— wouldst commaund they would commend and in al not seeking their own glory or exaltation would glory in thee not in their own powerâ— and what were done by thee they would then accompt only wel doneâ— but what they did oâ— themselues they would accompt little profitable as to the aduancement oâ— souls Then they would be able to se whaâ— were fit for euery soul vndeâ— theiâ— chardg and when thou permittedâ— this not to be so cleer to them theâ— would humble themselues acknowâ—ledging it happened for their vnâ—woâ—thines beseeching thee to do thaâ— by thy-self which could not be done by them and if thon shouldst perhaps let another though their subiect to see and discern what were fit in that case or cases though he were but the last and lowest and of the least esteeme in the Conuent yet certeinly such Superiors would not accompt it to derogate from their authoritâ— that such an one should supply their place and Offifice vpon occasions becaus they seek thy honour and not their own and though thou hadst giuen them power to command yet no otherwise would they vse it then according to such maner and in such cases as thou dost require they should In this maner gouerning with relation to thee and regard of thy wil and with indifferency what thou wilt do by them what by others and what by thy-self whose spirit breatheth where it pleases Then the sensual loue and friendship between the Superiors and their subiects would cease then sincerity and reason would take place both in the commander and in the obeyer both thinking al their loue and labour to be too little for thy Godnes then would be peace on al sids and the imperfections of al would turn to the aduancement not to the preiudice of any then as they desired the friendship or fauour of none but in al things willingly and gladly depending of thy prouidence so they would be friends with al thy friends and pitty and pray for from the bottom of their souls those that are thine enemies amongst which they â—ould verrly beleeue they should haue been the greatest if thou of thy sweet Mercy hadst not preuented them Also inferiors that truly liue to thee and desiring nothing els but thee though thou didst teach and instruct them about the vse of indifferent things by an internal ligâ—t which discerneth between custome and true reason between their natural desirs and thy true Iustice which only ought to take place in al things yet they accounting themselues wholy vnworthy of being instructed by thee most willingly hear thy wil and commaunds not only from Superiors but from any creature whatsoeuer accounting it sufficient for them that it was signified to them that it was thy wil the which we ought to follow as doth a shaddow the the body or els of little worth is any thing we do For thou rewardest no works but thine own O if al creatures would serue thee according to their capacities and â—tates what a resemblance would this life haue with heauen No person no state can pretend to be excused from being able to serue and pleaâ—e thee who hast made our hart for thy-self and it can neuer haue true rest and repose but in thee the Center oâ— our souls What creature is so little or contemptible that doth not in some sort inuite vs in its kind to loue and praise thee my Lord God If we would lâ—ue thee they would not fail to serue vs til we could serue thee without them But alas as it is affirmed and that most truly thaâ— order is the life of things so man being out of order by seeking himselâ— more then thee and by doing that which may redound rather to his own honour then to thine hath made al thy other creatures refuse that obedience which they owed to man if tat he were truly obedient to thee Our defect in this towards thee puts al out of order For how can subiects be pliable to the wil of Superiors if first they be not in the way of obeying thee witâ— relation of their obediences to man as to thee and meerly for an according to thy â—il And how can we bâ— at peace with others iâ— first we bâ— not by true resignation in a way tâ— haue peace with thee in our own soulsâ— Where is the Obedience due to thee and others for â—hee since oftentimeâ— out of blindnes we giue Caesar thaâ— which was Gods and deny to him that which was due to him by the 〈◊〉 of God As also if Superiors anâ— Priests should stand vpon points vâ— surping that to themselues whicâ— thou hast reserued to thy self what shal become of subiects Certainly they wil not wel know what to do vnles it be very right between them and thee But alas Si sal euanuerit in quo salietur If the salt loose its vertue in what shal it be salted Happy are they that light vpon a good Superior but much more happy are they who by true light in Humility and Abnegation are instructed by thee who art the only true teacher of Humility true obedience and perfect Pryer O my Lord when shal it be said that the multitude of beleiuers are of one hart and soul When shal al be vnited in the bonds of true peace Neuer til our Charity beginning in thee do spread it self to al others for thee For there is no true friendship but that which thou knittest between such as loue al in and for thee and thee aboue al that can be imagined or desired O when shal thy Iustice and Truth in all things take place that the earth may breath forth nothing but thy Praise Then we should be in paine and not seeme to sufferâ— so sweet or pleasing would the paiâ— be we should liue on earth noâ— as being strangers in heauen and liuing heer should more liue witâ— thee our beloued then where we of necessity liued For then thy wil being done in earth as in heauen the earth would resemble heauen wherby the pain and grief of our banishment would be sweetned with â— comfort almost heauenly and thaâ— together with resigning our selues to thy holy wil to be contented to be denyed for a time til thy wil might thereby be wholy accomplishedâ— and after that come to see thy glorious face and enjoy thee as thou anâ— in thy-self who is our only happines the expectation wâ—erof would makâ— this world tolerable to vs and wâ— should then seek thy glory and thâ— fulfilling of thyâ—ustice â—ustice in al things and not our own comfort anâ— honour Verily al thy disposition are so
iust that al things woulâ— happen to our greatest good iâ— we with humility and confidence in thee would proceed in al things And not any state condition or corporal complexion is there wherein thou hast not been serued in a perfect maner by some or other And if we run through al degrees from the Pope to the simple Religious and from the greatest Monarcâ— to the poorest begger in al we shal find some that haue faitfully serued and praised thee And as for naturâ—l coâ—plexions or dispositions the most wicked haue brought forth children prouing Saints and others who haue liued as to al maner of sinsâ— so iâ— that whole Contreys haue fared the worse for them and diuers souls perished by their means yet by humility haue become so pleasing to thee O Lord that thou madst them thy boosom friends And no trade nor occupation iâ— it be lawful but hath oâ— it Saints to the end to shew thou despisest nothing that thou haâ—t made how contemptible soeuer it seeme in the eyes of men Why therefor do we not loue thee seeing al things on thy part concur to this end We may pretâ—nd what excuse we wil but nothing wil excuse vs before thee who had no other end in creating vs but that we should be partakers of that glory which thou prepared for those that truly loue thee and in that country of al happines we sâ—al receaue al good things and aboue al shal enioy thee the beginning and fountain of al good without whom al things are as nothing as to the contenting and satisfying of our souls And seeing meerly thou crâ—atedst vs for ouâ— good thou being infinitly happy of thy-self before thou createdst any thing why shal we lay the fault of our not profiting or euerlasting perishing vpon theâ— If there had beeâ— any thing wanting of thy part wâ— might iustly complain to thee anâ— if there were any thing yet meerly necessary we requiring it humblâ— of thâ—e thou couldst not â—so infinâ—â— good art thou deny it vs. But seeinâ— thou createdst man in the state of innocency and after his â—al redeemedst him with the pretious Bloud of thy ouly begotten Son and hast giuen vs a Law vnder which we are to walk and by means of our holy Mother the Church hast and dost determine of al things as certainly as if that thou thy-self wert stil corporally present to giue answers in al things necessary to saluation how worthily are we to be condemned if we do not correspond and satisfy such thy most gratious wil and prouision about vs Besids we haue thee within vs to haue recourse vnto vpon al occasions the which that we may do with the les impediments thou hast ordained the ouerlooking and solicitude ouer vs of the Superiors thy Vicegerents who gouern vs heer by â—hy appointment and whom to resist in any thing so it do not derogâ—te from thy own authority immediatly to thy-self were highly to offend and displease thee For by these thy Substituts thou dost iudg and determin of Spirits and of the verity and goodnes of them and of their exercises and doings as whether they proceed from thee and thy motions or no and by them declarest what in general is to be done or omitted and in particular as there is occasion in seculars partly by seculars powers and in Religious by their Pastours and Superiours that thus being in some certeinty of subordination and good exterior order we may freely attend to thee in our souls without going forth but of meere necessity THE L. CONFESSION O WHO would seek or loue any thing but thee my God who art exceeding great and of thy goodnes there is no end Who woulâ— loose thee for nothing and depaâ—t from the fountain of life for to drink out of a Cestern that is â—ul of filthy and muddy water What are al things but thy self for the satisfying of our souls If thou diedst as thou diedst for vs that we might liue ouly to thee can we think it much if heauens earth sea and al contained in them rise vp against vs forgetting and neglecting thy Mercy O let vs loue thee and al things wil be at peace with vs and we at peace with our selues Is it not a shame for vs to see the birds praise thee and al creatures in their kind to giue the honour and yet we only capable of thy loue forgetful and vngrateful to thee What is there is this world but it calleth vpon vs to seek thee in sincerity of hart and to liue to thee alone and to make vse of them euery one in their kind to the end we may concur with them to the praise of thee our Lord and Creator to whom al loue and honour is only due The Angels most humbly assist vs and pitty vs offending thee which willingly to do is so hainous a thing in their eyes that they are amazed to see vs stray from true reason But alas man was in honour and knew it not he was compared to beasts and becamâ— like vnto them In this my misery I sigh and groane to my God who in this my affliction is only able to help and comfort mâ— O how can we find in our hart to offend thee That and that alone is to be esteemed truly a misery But yet are we sinners without comfort No no my God seeing thou canst forgiue more then we can offend and it wil redound to thine â—onour and praise for euer and euer that thou hast pardoned so many and greiuous sins and sinners In which thy glory I â—xult from â—he bottom of my soul becaus seeing I haue offended for which I am hartily sorry yet wil my God be extolled by al creatures for forgiuing it for al eternity O thou â—ho art thine own praise supply in this and in al other things the defect that is in al vs thy creatures to praise thee as thy iuâ—tice requireth thou so shouldst be magnifyed by vs al who without thee are nothing but a sack full of filth and the map of al misery THE LI. CONFESSION O Lord my deare God if we that are created to mine own image and liknes and whose happines doth consist in louing pleasing praising and enioying thee If we I say â— did seek and desir only thee how wel would it go in this world If we were faithful to thee al things would be so to vs. When I see any of thy creatures abuse the nobility of their soul by straying from thee or at least by loosing their time which is so precious in labouring and taking great pains to obtain the fauour of men or something els as litle to the purpose how can it but wound my very hart seeing thou art neglected and they take great pains for what they cannot possible obtain in the meane time forgetting to seek after thy sweet loue which might be obtained euen for nothing in coÌ„parison of what they sustain by labouring for that which perhaps if they do get
do euen say to my soul Peace be humble and subiect in al to thy God whom thou art not worthy so much as to name with thy defiled mouth Indeed my Lord whose power and Maiesty prostrate I acknowledg and adoreâ— with al mine hart and soul if I should neither in this nor in the next world receaue any other reward but what already thou hast bestowed on me which I haue I must needs conâ—esse receaued gratis of thy Mercy without any desert of mine owne yet that which tâ—ou hast so already done for me is sufficient to declare to Heauen and earth the superaboundance of thy mercy and clemency to a sinful and contempâ—tible creature I wil there for sing vnto thee mercy and iudgment al the days of my life wishing always that thy wil which is Iustice it-selâ—â— may be wholy and perfectly accomâ—plishâ—d in me thy sinful seruant Let me liue as-long as it pleaseth thee or dy in the very beginning of these my desires to loue send sicknes or health suddain or lingring death pouerty or aboundance good fame or that I be by al the world despised and in fine in al do with me as it is most for thine honour For in this I plaâ—e al my comfort and happines faithfully to serue thee and to be little or great in thine eyes as seemeth best to thee For I accompt it a sufficient reward for al that euer I shal be able to do or suffer that thou hast admitted me vnworthy wretch into a place of liuing where I may know and euen see with mine eyes how to serue and please thee this I say is more then can be deserued by me For to serue thee is an honour aboue al that can be imagined by me yet without any regard of recompence it is due to thee that I serue and loue thee with al the forces of my body and soul which grant I may now begin to do and perseuer therin til my end that I may for thy own sake obtain the happines eternally to praise thee O remoue al impediments between my soul and thee Let me dy to al created things that I may liue alone to theeâ— O let al creatures be to me as if they were not to the end I may more fully attend to thee in the bottome of my soul where I wil in silence harken to thee Speak Peace to my soul that I may be capable of thy voice more sweet then al things whatsoeuer Speak to my hart but speak so as I may hear thee Teach me how to practise to thy honour those diuine vertues which make souls so pleasing to thee to wit Charity Humility Obedience Patience and Discretion which iudgeth between custome and true reason between opinion and thy true Iustice which manifesteth it self to those souls who seek only to loue and praise thee THIS pious soul hauing written thus far went no farther being surprised with a bodily indisposition vpoâ— the 29. or 30. of Iuly 1633. which proued to be hâ—r last sicknes that brought her to a happy death vpon the 17. of August following The last of these Confessions saue one she began as there appeareth vpon S. Mary Magdalens day being the 22. of Iuly next bâ—fore her death HEERE FOLLOVV SOME other Sentences and Sayings of the same pious Soul found in some others papers of hers THE interior or Spiritual disposition os man is of that great and infinit worth and moment that so it be wel al other matters wil also go wel and be in good plight And the good state of the interior and therby also of the exterior proceedeth from the harkning to and following of the Diuine interior Cal or inspiration the which to a â—oul capable of an internal life is or ought to be as al in al. And wo to such a soul who ouercome by threats or perswaâ—ions from without or by temptations within her or other occasions whatsoeuer gâ—ueth ouer her prosecution of Mental prayer by meanes wherof only is she capable of discerning and following the diuine wil and Cal. And therefor ô you souls that are capable of internal prayer do you accordingly prosecute it and be grateful to God for the grace of it For it causeth the greatest happines that is to be gotten in this liâ—e and an answarable happines in the future For by it in this life one passeth through al things how hard and paineful soeuer they be By it we become familiar euen with God him-self and to haue our conuersation in Heauen By it al impediments wil be remoued between God and the soulâ— By it you shal receaue light and grace for al that God would do by you By it we shal come to regard God in al things and profitably neglect our selues By it we shal know how to conuerse on earth without prâ—iudice to our souls And in fine by it we shal praise God and become so vnited to him that nothing shal be able to separate vs for time or eternity from his sweet Goodnes And let him be al in al to vs who only can satisfy our souls He is his own Praise iâ— which and by wâ—ich we are infinitly happy though of our selues we aâ—e able to praise and loue him but in a very poore maner who can say that desire nothing but to loue and praise him that they are poor seeing he who is more theirs then they are their owne is so rich ond to whom nothing is wanting that should make him an infinit happines in this let vs ioy in this iet vs glory without intermission when we are not able to attend vnto him and praise him as we would let vs commend our hart and soul to the Saints in Hâ—auen who without ceasing praise our Lord Let vs do that by them which we are not able to do by our selues yea let vs desire him who is his own praise and only is able to do it as he dâ—serueâ—h to haue it done to supply what he desireâ—h we should wish him Lâ—t vs sâ—ek no other coÌ„foâ—t but to be able without al comfort to be true to him Let vs rest in him alone and and not in any thing that is or can be creaâ—ted Let vs not seâ—ke the gist but the giuer O hoW little is al the loue we can giue him in comparison of that he deserueth from vs where therefâ—r shal thâ—re be room for any created thing in out souls Let vs wish and desire and as far as it lyes in vs procure that al loue be giuen to him Let him haue al Glory al Honour and al Praise Let vs desire the fauour of none but him alone to whose free disposition let vs stand for time and eternity as absolutly by ouâ— wil as if we neuer had any other freedom of wâ—l in vs. Nothing we do or suffer let vs esteâ—me great for our sinnes deserue much more Let our whole care tend to the magnifying of him Let his honour bâ— ours and let vs seek nothing
but to be whoiy his who is most worthy to be that that hee is If it is his delight be to be with the children of men what should comfort vs but to praise and loue him Those that seeke him shal find him With al their heart O who would seek any thing besids him seeâ—ng he is not more willing to giue vs any thing then his own self heer by grace and heerafter in Heauen by glory Let vs adore him in spirit and truth Al wâ— can giue him is nothing vnles we entierly giue him onr selues and that also cannot add to his greatnes and glory yet if we doe this so much doth his diuine Maiesty esteem of this gift that for it and in requital of it he wil giue vs his own self al his gifts and graces are a meanes for the preparing of vs for this end if we vse theiâ— rightly with Humility and according to the iust wil of Almighty God Let vs extend our wil to serue loue praise please and magnify our Lord to the vttermost we are able â—ea wthout al limits or bounds Leâ— vs â—esire his honour til such time as we may be swallowed vp in the bottomles Ocean of al loue and praise God in himself in whom and by and in whom only we can praise him as we ought Let vs loue him as far as we arâ— possible able without regard of our selues either for time or eternity This is the humble loue that feeleth no burden This is the loue that knoweth not how to attribute any thing it doth or suffereth to it-self It chooseth not wherin God shâ—l make vse of her but accommodateth her-self in al things to his diuine pleasure If it were his wil to hauâ— it so she would rather for euer be picking vp chips or straws then out of her own election to be doing that which is most admired or might seeme to her to procure her the greatest reward O you souls that God bestoweth his loue vpon think it not much to beare the burthen not only of your selues but also of al that you liue with for God beareth you vp in al more then you can coÌ„ceaue or imagin Beware aboue al things of pride For that cast euen Angels out of heauen A soul of prayer as-long as she keeps Humility is in no peril of going out of her way It is certainly true that God giueth himself to them who forsake al I say al and not by halfs with reseruing what we please to our selues but to al that forsake al he giueth himself without exception of persons and he that pleaseth our Lord neâ—deth nor feare al the diuels in hel It is a wonderful thing to see the variety of opinions that are or may be about the best vse of those things that of themselues are indifferent or at least are not euil one holding this aâ—d another that euery man according to his fancy and as Saint Paul saith abounding in his â—wn sense No wonder then that those that liuâ— and conuerse with others and namely in a Religious Community do easily fal into occasion of iars and differences with others whilst euery one pretends the truth and the best to be of her side howsoeuer it be indeed and therefor ones nâ—ture wil easily take occasion of iarring with oâ—hers if it be not mortâ—fyed by restraint from what it is inclining to by such occasions It is only the diuiâ—e vertue of true discretion that is able to discern and iudg for ones own practise what is good better or best of al in the vse of those indifferent things The more truly mortifyed the â—oul is the cleerer is such light of discretion in her and wil increâ—se in her if she be stil solicitous more and more to liue to God in her interior and to dy to her-self and to al created things by simply regarding God in al she doth oâ— omitteth intending him alone in al â—â—â—ngs It is a true prouerbe that it is an easier matter to corrupt the mind of one then of a great many Wherefor we must remember that it is a good and happy thing for Brethren to dwel in One or rather by true loue and charity in that One Which is truly necessary to wit in God For no loue is true but that which is in him and for him and without impediment to his loue Al other loues are false slippery peruerse and vaine as not being founded in God the ground of al true and happy loue nor being referred to him and his loue But the true loue which is the diuine wil make al others deare vnto vs for his sake and none deare but in hâ—m and for him It wil make vs in capable of accounting any to be our enemies how hardly soeuer they treat vs because in al things we wil regard God that permitteth such difficulties to happen to vs to the end our fidelity to him may therby be tried and so not regaâ—d with any auersion the party who afflicteth vs And it wil be sufficient for vs towards the pacification of our soul vpon the hard or bitter vsadge offred vs that we remember that he hath suffred it to happen to vs for our good who only knoweth what is best for the humbling of vs and the abating of our pride the which must be done if wil be pleasing to God to whom now and euer I commit my-self Amen Vnum sit mihi â—oâ—um id est omnia in omnibus Let one be al to to me that is Al in Al. This was a Poesy bestowed on me and my Parteners by another the truth wherof I pray God may anâ—werably be in the harts and loues of vs and of al other souls whatsoeuer The simple exâ—rcâ—se of the wil being faithfully and perseâ—eraÌ„â— prosecâ—ted through Gods concurring gâ—â—ce remoueth in time al impediments beâ—ween our soul and God and the soul by loue cometh so to transcend al created thiâ—gs yâ—a euen her own self that al creatures are to her as if they were not as to any hurtful distraction they cause to her or as to any other impediment between her and God the which can be only by inordinate adhering in affection to those creatures A true spiritual internal life is so priuate and secret between God and the soul that others cannot easily disâ—erne it no not by by the external effects of it For in her exterior cariadge â—he is common and general as hating singularity by meanes wâ—erof she euoideth much occasion of pride and walketh the more seâ—urly between God and her Those â—hat liue an internal life do so wiâ—hdraw al natural inordinate affection from creatures that they often therfor are censured by superiors equals to neglect others out of pride But they abhorring to haue special interest in any do proceed so far as they can according to true charity and mind not what others iudg of them they desiring only in al to dischardg their duty to God â—hom they
able to resist thee in them Then their iudgment would be so cleered that they would vnderstand most hidden mysteâ—ies Then an hower of praier would instruct them more fully then fifty years study can do they hauing by the meane of such prayer in al things relation to thee the only true wisedom and in whose light only is true light to be seen By louing thee and dying to themselues in al things they would become maisters of themselues and al the world would then noâ—hing moue them nor would any thing affright them becaus thou wouldst be their stay and comfort in al things If we wil do as we ought and as is best for vs we must be subiect to the wil of God in al things without exception And this is the beâ—efit of an internal life that it makes one capable of seeing and knowing Gods wil and â—lso most ready to performe it Which way soeuer he signify it to them which makes them obey as readily and willingly meerly for Gods sake and out of obedience to him a simple or imperfect Superior as they would an Angel or the Wisest creature in the world yea if it were possible that a worme or any other creature were ordained by God to rule ouer them â—hey would with al their harts embrace his wil by them For without this total subiectâ—on to God it is impossible to become truly Spiritual For if we resist his wil in our Superiors in vaine do we pretend to please him This vertue therefor of Obedience we must learn of him the which must be grounded vpon true ' Humility that must be our stay in al things And those two vertues of Humility and Obedience together with the diuine vertue of Discretion he wil teach vs if we do our parts in seeking to become more more humble and subiect to him For seeing it is his wil we should obey and become truly Humble how can we doubt but he wil giue vs the grace if we Humbly and perseuerantly beg it of Him and practise those vertues vpon occasions as wel as we can For he himself hath saâ—d whâ—n we aske our father bread he doth not giue a stone nor if we aske him fish wil he giue a serpeâ—t much lesse wil he deny vs what is necessary to make vs pleasing to him and we seeking or desiring nothing but by true loue to be faithful to him O Praier praier able to obtaine al things O how cometh it to passe my Lord that this Oâ—â—ipotent thing â—as some of thy deare seruaÌ„ts tearme it praier should be so vnknown yea and euen to them whom thou tearmest the Salt of the earth contemned I meane Mental praier at least for the practise of poore simple women for whom they hold it aboue al things most dangerous euen to my own knowledg as I haue known affirmed by Superiors of seueral Orders O misery to be truly lamented by al that haue or may haue tast iâ— praier and by the effect thereof know how sweet a thing it is to attend only and wholy to the praise and loue of Goâ— Surely the want of the wisedom which by praier the Saints did gaine is the cause why cústome and opinion do take place for the most part in this world of true reason Surely neuer was the world reformed of its sins and errours but it must be by the wisedom which cometh from God and is farre different From that which is accounted Wisedom by the world which as S. Paul saith is folly before God CERTAIN OTHER DEVOtions of the same deuot Soul D. Gertrude More which she left written in her Breuiary In the fore part of her Breuiary she had framed and written the ensuing praier for her due performance of the diuine Office viz Al you that blesse our Lord exalt him al you can for he is greater then al your praises OMNIS SPIRITVS LAVDET Dominum Let euery spirit praise the Lord. AND I â—hy poore creature who am not worthy to name thee my Lord my God and al my good do heer in the preâ—sence of al thy Celestial Court desire 〈◊〉 peâ—form this my Office with al diligenâ—â— and with an amourous affections towards thee my â—oâ— who hast imposâ—d this sweet and most to be desired obligation vpon me sinner who doth not deserue any such honour or comfort from thee as to be admitted to ioine my cold and frozen praises with al those who praise thee either on earth or in heauen where al to my comfort do without ceasinâ— continually praise thee And for what is wanting in me for the performance thereof as I should and ought to do supply it out of the superaboundance of thâ— merits and mercâ— I desire to say it with al my hart according to the intention of our holy Mother the Catholick Church of which I desire through thy grace to liue and dy a true member be thâ—u according to her desir Adored Blessed Magnified and supreamly Superexalted by â—t Let it be to the honour of thy al Immaculaâ—e Mother the Lady and Queen of Angels and Saints to these in a particular maner â— viz to my good Angel our most holy Father S. Benet S. Scholastica S Ioseph S. Peter and S. Paul S. Iohn Enangelist S. Iohn Baptist S. Thomas and my deare S. Augustin S. Mary Magdalen S. Gertrude and in fine al that are in Heauen haue by it to them exhibited by thee what thou willest and desirest should be I beseech thee also that I may by it pray to thee or al afflicted pained tempted and troubled that they may please and praise thee in those their miseries and ouercome them to their comfort and thy glory I also offer to thy sweet Mercy al those souls who by deadly sin are enemies to thee which is indeâ—d the misery of miseries O lét them return to thee wâ—o art our beginning and the true Center of our souls from whom to be separated by sin â—s a most greiuous hel and to whom to be vnited by grace is a most sweet Heauen Conuert therefor and recal those souls to thee for whom â—hou spaâ—edst not â—hy most pretious Bloud shedding it to the very last drop for vs finners I offer thee also my Parents who haue placed me heer in thy house where here I may euen heare and see how to serue thee and where I may night and day attend to thee and praise thee my amiable and most to be desired beloued whom to serue and to be obliged to loue is the only happines in this world and to whom to be tyed by vowes and other obligations of Religion is a most sweet seruitude and yoâ—e and so sweet that no liberty is to it to be compared I offer thee also our holy Congregationâ— and al that euer or shal desire my poore vnworthy prayers and aboue al I offer thee al those in earth or Purgatory which thy diuine Maiesty would haue me pray for to thee beseeching thee that tâ—y Diuine
and euer wil be to thine honour from whom proceedeth al good If he I say stood need of gathering out of thy Soly Scriptures and the writings of holy Saints somewhat that might eleuate his mind to thee when he grew more cold by reason of humain frailty as he professeth before his Manuel whose words I wil heerafter bring in as being most sweet to me whaâ— need then hath my poor soul to gather together certain deuout and amouâ—rous words who scarsely in the reading thereof can lift vp my hart to thee but my hope is in thy Metcy whiâ—h is aboue al thy works and out of whiâ—h thou hast said by thy Prophet Men and beasts thou wilt saue To this Mercy I fly in this Mercy is al my comfort and consolation I cast my-self into the arms of this thy Mercy and Pitty I haue nothing wherein I can trust Some haue suffered for thee in their body others in their mind others in both Some for thee haue taken great pains and vndergon great labours and austerities others by couradgiously â—upporting disgraces and miseries haue become thereby most deare to thee others while they were afflicted and persecuted praied to thee for their enemies and therby procured pardon for their own sins But alaâ— my God as for me when I cast backe mine eyes vpon my life past I can find nothing done or suffered by me wherin I can hope wherein I can trust Al those things which I behold others daily to practise are far fromme I haue liued in this house of whom I may truly say Haec est generatio quaerentium faciem Dei Iacob This is the generation of those that seek the face of the God of Iacob vnmindful and vngrateful to the God of Iacob yea my whole life hath been ful of sin and iniquity and without end or measure haue my offences been against thee yea iustly maist thou condemn me to the boâ—tomlesse pitty of hel But yet I wil hope in thee I am sorry from the very bottom of my hart that euer I offended thee or straied from thee Behold I now consecrate my-selfa new body and soul to thee take away from my soul what therein displeaseth thee Al thy Angels and Saints be intercessors for me especially thy deare Mother the faithful helper and Aduocate of vs sinners TO OVR BLESSED LADY the Aduocate of sinners AL hail O Virgin crownd with stars and M one vnder thy feet Obtaine vs pardon of our sinnes of Christ our Sauiour sweet For though thou art Mother of my God yet thy Humility Disdaineth not this simple wretch that flyes for helpe to thee Thou knowst thou art more deare to me â—hen any can expresâ—e And thâ—t I do congratulate with ioy thy happinesse Who art the Queen of Heauen and earth thy helping hand me lend That I may loue and praise my God and haue a happy end And though my sins me terrify yet hoping stil in â—hee I find my soul refreshed much when I vnto thee fly For thou most willingly to God pâ—titions dost preseâ—t And dost obtain much grace for vs in this our baâ—nishment The honour and the glorious praise by al be giuen â—o thee Which Iâ—sus tâ—y beloued Son orâ—aind eâ—ernâ—lly For thee whom he exalts in heauen aboue the Angeâ—s al And whom we find a Patronesse when vnto thee we câ—l Amen O Mater Dei â—e â—ento mei Amen As also my good Angel S. Ioseph Saint Iohn Euangelist S. Martin S. Augustin S. Thomas of Aquin and thou my most holy Father S. Benet To our most Holy Father Saint BENEDICT MOst glorious Father in whose School I liue and hope to dye God grant I may obserue thy Rule for in that al doth lye For no perfection can be named which vs it doth not teach O happy she who in her soul the sense thereof doth reach But many praise Obedience` and thy humility And yet conceaue not as they should what either of them be The simple humble louing souls only the sense find out Of any discret obedient Rule and these are void of doubt Yea vnder shadow of thy wings they vp to heauenâ— fly And tast heere in this vaile of teares what perfect peace doth lye Hid in performâ—nce of thy Rule that leadeth vnto heauen O happy souls who it performe the ways so sweet and euen By Prayer and Patience its fulfilled Charity Obedience By seeking after God alone and giuing none offence The more I looke vpon thy Rule the more in it I find O do to me the sense vnfold For letter makes vs blind And blessed yea a thousand times Be thou who it hast writ And thy sweet blessing giue to them who truly performe it For those are they which wil conserue this house in perfect peace Without which al we do is lost and al that 's good wil cease And praised be our glorious God who gaue to thee such grace Not only him thy-self to seeke but also out to trace A way so easy and secure if we wil but thee heare To haue relation to our God who is to vs so neere For at this thou dost chiefly aime that God our souls do teach O if we did truly obey he would by al things preach His wil to vs by euery thing that did to vs befal And then as thou desirst it should he would be al in al O pray deare Father that he euer be our only loue and al eternally Amen Saint Scholastica S. Gertrude and in fine al in heauen or on earth that are pleasing to thee be pleased to make me partaker of their merits and praiers and aboue al wash me in thy pretious Bloud one drop whereof had been sufficient to haue redemed a thousand worlds In this is my hope and confidence by this I hope to be enriched with al that is wanting in me For in that thou art and possessest I more reioyce and exult then if I had whatsoeuer in earth or in heauen I could desire at my command In this ioy I cry out withal my hart with al my soul and with al my strengh O how much good and happines do I possesse seeing my God who is more my-self then I my-self am doth possesse so infinit Glory Maiesty and so infinit good things for indeed I haue and hold him more mine own then any thing that euer I had or held heertofore This is the comfott of my pouerty and the repose of my labour This my most delightful most amiable most bright and beawtiful and most Glorious God is always present with me to heare my praises and receaue my petitions In him I am rich though in my felf I am poore and contemptible To him my most louing God be giuen now and euer al Laud and Praise and Glory by al in heauen and earth for euer and euer Amen These Collections once more I offer to thee my God and those that in perusing thereof are moued thereby to loue and praise thee be they my Goâ— mindful of
those that afflict thee and render good for euil to those that molest thee and being a comfort in al thou canst imagin to those that are afflicted either in body or in mâ—nd without exception of persons is included in the gaining of that most to be desired promise Remember with ioy and imitate the best thou art able the happy example of the late blessed Bishop of Geneua of whom it is reported that one in his diocese exceâ—dinly molesting afflictâ—ng and persecuting this holy Saint yét he vsed him with al loue gentlenes and respect yea more then any other person At which patient proceeding of his one of his subiects wondrâ—ng at and speaking to him of it asked him how he could vse that man so mildly who neuer requited him with other then il turnes for al the grace he shewed him being as it were top ful of bitternes against him To which the Saint humbly answâ—ered O â—aâ—th he if he should put out one of mine eyes I woul smile vpon him wâ—h the other I beseech thee my God for thy own sake graÌ„t thy vnworthiest seruant grace to imiâ—ate this example though to speake truly none can do her an iniury who deserueth so much in punishment for her sinnes Psal. 41. vers 6. and 7. VVby art thou sorrowful my soul and why dost thon trouble me Hope in God because yet I wil confesse to him the saluation of my counâ—â—nance and my God O my soul hope in thy God who can do al things O blessed Hope and Confidence which is able to obtain al things and ouercome al things v. 11. In the day our Lord hath commanded his Merey and in the night a song of him Dost thou not hear my soul tâ—y Lord doth require of thee Mercy towards thy euen Christian for that he sheweth to thee And that night and day thou wâ—lt sing his Praise But Lord thou knowst that thy Praise is not seemly in the mouth of a sinner What then shal I do O hope in thy Mercy Certaine â—omfortable sayings taken out of the holy Scripture for the encouradgment of those that desire with all their harts to Loue and please our most merciful God and first out of the Prophet Isaie Chap. the first VVASH you be cleane take away the euil of your cogitations from mine eyes Câ—ase to do peruersly 17. Learne to do good Seek iudgment succour the oppressed iudge for pupil defend the widow And come and accuse me saith our Lord. 18. If your sins shal be as scarlet they shal be made as whit as snow and if they be as red as vermilion they shal be whit as wool 19. If you be willing and wil hear me you shal eat the good things of the earth 22. Thy siluer is turned into drosse thy wine is mingled with water But hear what followeth O my soul and therefor be not discomforted though al thou dost and sufferest be very imperfect yet behold what he promiseth who can do al things If he wil he can make thee clean If he command the wind and sea wil be stil and there wil eâ—sue a calme Commit thy â—elf to him and he wil helpe thee when he thinketh fit O God thy wil be done therefor in me for euer and euer Amen 25. I wil turn my hand to thee and boyle out thy drâ—ssâ—â—il it be pure and wil take away al thy tinâ—e 26. Aâ—ter these things thou shalt be called the Iust a faithful City Shal I feare to be forsaken by thee my God after al these sweet promises No I wil hope in the multitude of thy Mercies Though I haue hitherto sinued against Heauen and before thee so that I am not worthy to be called thy child yet let me eat of the crumes which fal from my Maisters table that I may grow stronger heerafter in resisting that which maketh me displeasing in thy pure eyes Hear my Lord the voyce of a sinner which would faine loue tâ—ee and with her hart and soul as greatly please the as euer she bath offended thee Let me either loue or not liâ—e I know thy Merciâ—s are so great that tâ—ou hast admitted those to eat of the bread of Angels which hertofore fed of Huskes like swine yea S. Gertrude saith that the more base vile and contemptible the creature is to whom thou shewest mercy the more extolled art tâ—ou by al thine Angels and Saints in Heauen I wil therefore hope in thee and beseech al tâ—y Saints to pray for me and praise tâ—ee for taking pitty of me who am not worthy to cast vp`mine eyes to Heauen much les to thinke vpon or praise tâ—ee To thee O my God and al my desire be giuen perpetual Praise and Adoration for al eternity by al creatures Amen CHAP. II. COme let vs go vp to the Mount of our Lord and to the house of the Gâ—d of Iacob and he wil teach vs his waies aâ—d we shal walke in his â—athes 5. Houâ—e of Iacob come ye and let vs walke in the light of our Lord. O my God happy are they that walke in this light In this light none walke but the Humble and cleane of hart and those that serue thee for loue whose ioy thou thy-self art and who sing with the Prophet Rennit consolari anima mea My soul refused to be comforâ—ed These do in some sorte more or lesse as thou pleasest find how sweet and happy a thing it is to seeke and sigh after thee alone Return my soul to thy beloued return seek for no consolation but put thy hope in God Commit thy-self vnto God and let him do with thee what pleaseth him Neuer seeke thine owne glory neuer desire thy wil may be done but in al things intend loue and preferre the Glory and wil of God If any come vnto him he shal not return empty because he willngly giueth water to the thirsty In the bowels of thy Mercy my God remember me poor begger born and liuing in blindnes Grant me that I may see and walke in â—hy light that my soul may become truly pleasing to thee O my Lord God whom only I desire to loue serue and praise make me in al things conformable to thy holy wil who be blessed for euer and euer Amen Amen Amenâ— Scio cui credidi certus sumâ— I know whom I haâ—e trusted and am secure saith S. Paul O glorious S. Augustin my deare Patron whom from my infancy in my poor mauer I haue honoured in a particular maner and who hast been alwaies ready to assist me in calling vpon thee I beseech thee for the loue of him by whose loue thy hart was so inflamed to assist me at the hour of my death and obtaine for me of our Lord that liuing and dying I may be wholy conformable to his Blessed wil neither desiting for time or eternity any other thing then that his diuine pleasure be perfectly accomplished in me his vnworthy vngrateful creature And in that dreadful houre
of my death obtain for me wretched sinner confidence in his Mercies which are as thou knowst aboue al his works I am not worthy to loue but he is worthy of al loue and Adoration I cannot without great ioy remember these following words of the Prophet I saie hoping his Goodnes wil for his own sake giue me leaue to apply them to me poor and sinful soul though I desetuâ— nothing of my-self neuer hauing done him any faithful seruice in al my life Chap 43. v. 1. And now thus saith our Lord that created thee and formed thee Feare not because I haue redeemed thee and called thee by thy name Thou art mine 2. When thou shalt passe through the waters I wil be with thee and the flouds shal not couer thee when thou shalt walke in fire thou shalt not be â—uâ—ned and the flame shal not â—urn inâ— thee O blessed Saint make intercession for me that I may be confident in him who thus aboundeth with Mercy Amen 3. Because I am the Lord thy God the Holy one of Israel thy Sauiour 4. Since thou becamest honourable in mine eyes and glorious I haue loued thee 5. Feare not becaus I am with thee 6. And euery one that inuocateth my name for my glory I haue created him formed him and made him 8. Bring forth the blind people and hauing eyes the deaf and he that â—ath eares 9. Let them giue their witnes be iustified 10. In very deed you are my witnes saith our Lord and my seruants whom I haue chosen that you may know and beleeve me and vnderstand that I my self am 11. I am I am the Lord and there is no Sauiour beside me and there is not that can deliuer out of my hand 16. Thou saith our Lord that gaue away in the Sea and a paâ—h in the vâ—hâ—menâ— waters 18. Remember not former things and looke not on things of old I am he that takes cleane away thine iniquities for mine own sake and I wil not remember thy sins 26. Bring me into remembrance and let vs be iudged together Tel me if thou â—aue any thing that maiest be iustified Hethertho the words of the Prophet I saie S. Iohn 2. v. 12. I writ to you litle children becaus your sins are forgiuen you for his name And now my children abid in him that when he shal appeare we may haue confidence and not be confounded of him in his coming My dearest beleeue not euery spirit and euery spirit that dissolueth Iesus is not of God Feare is not Charity but perfect Charity casteth out feare Let vs therefore loue God becaus God loued vs. This is the Charity of God that we keep his Commandments and his Commandments are not beauty O infinit Goodnes who art Charity it-self powre thy Grace aboundantly into my poor foul I inuoke thee my God by the merits and intercession of al thy Saints in Heauen and seruants on earth to haue mercy on me now in this my last extreamity Al I desire is that in life and death I may be disposed of according to the multitude of tâ—y most aboundant Mercies a fountain neuer drawn dryâ— Al my ioy is in that thou art my God and that I am at thy disposing Though I am poor in al vertnes yet I am confident to be partaker of thy Merits ó sweet Iesus which thou liberally bestowest according to thy wil and pleasure O be thou blessed in al thou disposest O my God who art al I desire Into thy hands I commend my spirit who art blessed for euer Amen The most learned of D. S. Augustin saith Aiâ— eruditissimus Doctorum Augustinus O eternal Truth and true Charity and O aeterna veritas vera Charitas Deare Eternity Thou art my God to thee chara Eteruitas Tu es Deus meus I suspire day and night This is that subliue Tibi suspiro die ac nocte Hic est sublimis ille Contemplatiue Augustine Contemplator Augustinus Cuius cor Charitas Christi vulneraueraâ— whose hart the Charity of Christ had wounded O my deare Saâ—nt whose great Humility I can neuer to much praise and admire pray for her to whom thou hast been in her greatest afflictions and miâ—eries euen as a Father and Mother for which be exhibited honouur to thee by the most sweet hart of IESVS our Sauior the Son of the liuing God by which and from which doth most aboundant sweetnes flow to al the elect In the power that he gaue thee being one by whom he bound and loosed sinners giue an aboundant benediction to thy poore seruant and beg of my God that I may neuer seek or intend any thing for time or eternity but his honour and Glory and that I may so humble and subiect myself vnder his mighty hand thaâ— for his loue I may willâ—ngly submit my-self in what maner he pleases to al creatures Let me commit and commend my-self to thy protection who art a careful receauer of al my petitions and who art one who in a most particular maner Godâ— hath giuen me confidence in in al â—he necessities wherein my soul doth stand need of an Aduocat and friend O happy change to leaue al friends on earth to find the more certaiu assured friends and Intercessors in Heauen who are neuer absent neuer vncertain nor euer do they fail as those in this world are subiect to do Be therefor mindful of me I beseech thee in my life also in my last extremity and remember that when affrighted with the multitude and greiuoushes of my sinnes and imperfections I durst scarsely cast vp mine eyes to Heauen or cal vpon God and his Blessed Mother who might iustly disdain so vngrateful and contemptible a creature Yet by thy meanes and being incouradged by thy example and reading thy life and books so ful of Conâ—idence and sweetnesâ— I found my hart lightned and my spiâ—it refreshed and my soul exceedingly comforted finding in thee and by thee expressed what a good God we haue and that as his Mercies are aboue al his works so he is able to forgiue more then we can offend Thou knowest thy very name when I am sad and afflicted doth refresh me to behold it and seemeth to smile vpon me in my miseries assuring me of â—hy helpe in al my soul standeth need of thee in this my pilgrimage and ban shment from my God who is my only loue life desire and al my happines Tâ— whom for euer be al Glory Honour anâ— Adoâ—ation by al as wel on earth as in Heaâ—enâ— and whom by his sweet Mercy and thy intercession I desire and hope to loue and sâ—rue for euer and euer Amen Omnes qui habebant infirâ—os ducebant illes ad Iesum sanabaâ—â—ur Al that had diseased brought thâ—m to Iesus and they were curedâ— To whom therefor should I fly in my manifold infirmities but to thee my Iesus my Goâ— and my Sauiour Who is worthy oâ— our loues our thoughts our harts and our souls but
thy own self my Lord who made vs for this alone that by true sincerâ— affection we should adhere to thee the chiefe and supreame Good O woe is me iâ— for any intention or for any creatures sake whatsoeuer I should do any thing with other intention willingly then to please and become inwardly in the bottom of my souâ— vnited to thee heer by grace and in Heauen for al eternity Al things and creatures fail only tâ—y-self art constant thou art alwayeâ— present alwaies willing to helpe thy poor seruants euer ready â—o cure our woundsâ— which through human frailty by sin we daily cause in our souls Let vs who haue been greiuous sinners and do so aboundantly experience thy Mercy giue great and continual praise to thee our God who hath sweetly redeemed vs to thy-self in the Bloud of Iesus thy Sonne the immaculate Lambe giuing vs therby hope of remission of our innumerable sins Great art thou O Lord and exceeding worthy of al Praise O let al things Adore and Exalt my God with al their soul and strength What other study what other endeauourâ— or what other desire shal possesse my soul willingly day or night but that I may in al and aboue al things praise and loue my God As nothing is superior to a soul but thy self so nothing but thou can satisfy and satiat our souls in Heaueâ— oâ— earth nothing I say but thy-self to whom ouly let my hart â—ende and only in al things intend Thou being the only true and proper Center of our hart and soul what can make this miserable banishment where to my greife I daily offend thee tolerable to me but only to aspire to thee by sighs desires and vnspeakable groanes in my hart and soul O let true loue vnite me to thee who art by al Adored and Praised for al eternity in thy Heauenly contrey Amen Some speeches of heathen Consuls and Philosophers which shew Christians their duty also their happines in knowing how to make good vse of their knowledge to their Saluation in which those Heathens perished becaâ—s they did not beleeue and acknowledg our Lord God but vanish away in their own cogitations by seeking only fame honour and applause of the people c. which yet in their wisedom they saw to be but an vncertain vanity AND first The answer of one of the greatest and wiâ—est of them when he waâ— offered power and honour and sacrifice according to their custome of vsing such as for wisedome nobility and couradg deserued it in their eyes The more saith he I consideâ— with myself of things done boâ—h in old and later times the more the vncertainties and vanities of fortune in al moral affaires oâ—curâ—e to my rememhrance and the more plainly doth their vanity appeare vnto me O my God what a deâ—inition is heer of a heathen which did not so much as know thee or for what end this vncertainty was in them permitted by thee What a shame is it if we who are not only Christians but religious should esteem or seek after any thing but thee in whom alone is stabiliâ—y to be found and enioyed One hing is necessary Let chance fortun power where it is giuen by thee dâ—spose of al things as they wil as for me I wâ—l sing in al occurrences It is good for me to adhere to my Lord God thâ— only desire and beloued of my soul and hart I wil hauâ— no care or study but how I may in al chances spend my whole forcâ—s and strength in his Praise who be Adored prostrat by al creatures for euer and euer Amen Amen ANOTHER SAID Such as stand in feare are irresolute in al their determinations He spoake it of those who out of feare to displease and desire to please for human respects became â—hereby a slaue to euery ones humour and keept not their freedom and liberty which was got by suppressing of natural passions Another speaking in a controuersy where one was to be iudg of two accusing on another and defending themselues before the Senate saith The truth or thing beleeued and wrested to the worst are easiâ—y to be discerned by one iudg if he be vise vpright and iust and not interrested in neiâ—her side Also another said That the disloyal are odious euen to those whose instrumeÌ„ts they are Of a little beginning comes often great incoÌ„uenience which might be preuented by doing as one of the Heathens dâ—d who excelled most of his time in Nobiâ—ity wisedom and al moral vertues who had so great temper ouer his affections and passions that neither for honour as being offered to be made a King nor for gain would he be false to his Pâ—iâ—ce who yet fauoured him â—o little by reason he was so much honoured by al the common wealthâ— that he gaue way to haue him poisoned at thirty years of age he being also his own father that was Caesar. He was so iust that in matâ—ers of the greatest controuersy he alwaies did true Iustice and his enemy whom he knew sought his death he honoured as his Partner being yet in nobility much his inferior but boare rule with him at Caesars command This enemy being once at a baÌ„quet with him where most of the Nobility were present he vttered sâ—ch disgraceful words and speaches of him to his face that al were amazed to see him not so much as change his counâ—enance at him And after this hearing he was in distresse at Sea he sent his own Conuoy to deliuer him from drowning though he knew his iourney was to accuse him to Caesar and the Senat and also to plot his death which indeed heat last achiued being both at one Bancquet not loÌ„g afâ—er which example sheweth vs how amiable vertue is euen in the very Heathens in whom it was but moral â—how much ought we to practise it in whom by Charity it becometh Diuine O how truly glorious are they my God who indeed posses thy loue which so worthily by holy Scripture is tearmed most Honourable wisedome But alas to humain frailty it is hard to put vp iniuries much more to do good for euil at least nature suggesteth to vs that it is vnpleasant and therefore vrgeth vs not to put vp this or that least those who are contrary to vs do add difficulty vpon difficulty seeing we put it vp so quietly But this pretence of nature is so fals and oft euen in humain respects so inconuenient whilst we by disputing resisting or in the like maner requiting do draw grater incoÌ„â—eniences vpon our selues where as quietly â—erting it passe it would soon come to nothing Nayfarther I wil speak add this to the honour of my Lord God whose way of vertue and the Cross is so sweet in coÌ„parison of the way of sin and yealding to our passionsâ— that if he had neuer intended other reward for those that Humbly practise vertue and go the way of Resignation but that they receaue in this life he