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abel_n which_o make_v he_o turn_v runagate_n by_o fly_v from_o god_n presence_n o_o how_o often_o have_v i_o slay_v my_o brother_n in_o conceive_v cruel_a thought_n which_o reflect_v upon_o his_o life_n fame_n and_o substance_n o_o how_o often_o have_v i_o in_o my_o heart_n wish_v a_o sudden_a end_n unto_o my_o enemy_n and_o yet_o i_o be_v persuade_v he_o be_v not_o well_o prepare_v for_o death_n when_o i_o wish_v this_o unto_o he_o so_o as_o my_o desire_n be_v bend_v to_o murder_v he_o both_o in_o soul_n and_o body_n by_o wish_v he_o so_o sudden_a and_o unprepared_a a_o death_n in_o his_o departure_n from_o the_o body_n yea_o i_o will_v confess_v against_o myself_o and_o with_o much_o bitterness_n of_o heart_n will_v i_o acknowledge_v it_o that_o neither_o rich_a nor_o poor_a have_v be_v free_v from_o those_o murdâ—ring_a imagination_n which_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n have_v secret_o nurse_v for_o if_o he_o be_v rich_a i_o murder_v he_o with_o envy_n and_o in_o this_o act_n not_o only_o he_o but_o myself_o waste_v and_o eat_v up_o my_o own_o marrow_n consume_v my_o own_o strength_n and_o fall_v away_o with_o a_o languish_a desire_n of_o other_o ruin_n again_o be_v he_o poor_a i_o to_o my_o power_n murder_v he_o by_o hold_v from_o he_o the_o staff_n of_o bread_n when_o i_o may_v have_v relieve_v he_o by_o grate_v and_o grind_v the_o face_n of_o the_o needy_a by_o oppress_v he_o injurious_o by_o lay_v heavy_a burden_n on_o he_o than_o he_o can_v bear_v o_o how_o can_v i_o remember_v these_o and_o sink_v not_o down_o with_o the_o horror_n of_o they_o can_v i_o think_v that_o just_a god_n who_o hear_v the_o orphan_n cry_v and_o bottle_n up_o the_o widow_n tear_n will_v not_o avenge_v himself_o of_o these_o thing_n can_v he_o tender_v his_o little_a one_o &_o not_o revenge_v himself_o of_o those_o who_o make_v a_o prey_n and_o spoil_v of_o his_o little_a one_o o_o no_o my_o lord_n i_o know_v my_o guiltiness_n be_v not_o hide_v from_o thou_o nay_o i_o know_v well_o thou_o have_v thy_o bow_n ready_a bent_n and_o thy_o arrow_n in_o thy_o quiver_n to_o shoot_v at_o the_o malicious_a and_o evil_a doer_n even_o at_o he_o that_o be_v of_o a_o subtle_a and_o deceitful_a heart_n how_o then_o may_v i_o make_v my_o peace_n with_o thou_o how_o may_v i_o find_v favour_n in_o thy_o sight_n what_o shall_v i_o be_v able_a to_o answer_v for_o myself_o against_o those_o my_o many_o accuser_n while_o here_o one_o prove_v how_o i_o seek_v his_o life_n and_o with_o many_o bitter_a imprecation_n discover_v my_o malice_n unto_o he_o another_o accuse_v i_o with_o impeach_v his_o good_a name_n that_o precious_a perfume_n of_o every_o good_a man_n the_o three_o of_o his_o substance_n say_v that_o my_o wish_n be_v often_o that_o he_o may_v be_v rest_n of_o it_o or_o it_o of_o he_o or_o that_o i_o myself_o may_v enjoy_v it_o with_o the_o loss_n of_o he_o thus_o like_o a_o cruel_a and_o bloody_a nimrod_n have_v i_o hunt_v for_o blood_n and_o though_o i_o do_v not_o actual_o shed_v it_o yet_o in_o desire_v it_o and_o not_o seek_v where_o i_o may_v to_o prevent_v it_o i_o can_v plead_v less_o then_o that_o i_o be_o guilty_a of_o it_o now_o my_o fact_n be_v so_o foul_a that_o shall_v i_o with_o the_o poor_a condemn_a prisoner_n demand_v my_o book_n i_o can_v not_o hope_v to_o have_v the_o benefit_n of_o it_o yet_o there_o be_v a_o book_n wherein_o i_o have_v read_v what_o may_v afford_v i_o much_o comfort_n by_o it_o at_o what_o timâ—_n soever_o a_o sinner_n do_v repent_v he_o of_o his_o sinâ—e_n from_o the_o bottom_n of_o his_o heart_n i_o will_v put_v away_o all_o his_o wickedness_n out_o of_o my_o remembrance_n say_v the_o lord_n it_o be_v the_o lord_n that_o have_v say_v it_o even_o he_o who_o as_o he_o be_v gracious_a in_o his_o promise_n so_o be_v he_o faithful_a in_o his_o performance_n hence_o be_v my_o trust_n that_o though_o my_o sin_n be_v as_o red_a as_o scarlet_a the_o blood_n of_o the_o lamb_n will_v make_v they_o white_a though_o my_o garment_n be_v all_o red_a as_o those_o who_o come_v from_o bosro_n my_o saviour_n have_v in_o store_n a_o white_a robe_n for_o i_o as_o white_a as_o the_o snow_n of_o salmon_n shall_v my_o soul_n be_v make_v though_o she_o be_v now_o soil_v with_o the_o leprosy_n of_o sin_n yea_o but_o dangerous_a wound_n require_v long_a cure_n my_o afflict_a conscience_n tell_v i_o that_o i_o have_v grievous_o sin_v against_o his_o sacred_a majesty_n both_o in_o quantity_n and_o quality_n i_o have_v not_o have_v god_n before_o my_o eye_n the_o path_n of_o righteousness_n be_v estrange_v from_o i_o those_o sin_n which_o with_o such_o
will_v keep_v itself_o for_o thou_o when_o thou_o will_v neither_o knock_v that_o it_o may_v be_v open_v to_o thou_o nor_o seek_v that_o it_o may_v be_v find_v of_o thou_o health_n thou_o know_v well_o come_v not_o from_o the_o cloud_n without_o seek_v nor_o wealth_n from_o the_o clod_n without_o dig_v and_o yet_o heaven_n must_v be_v get_v without_o knock_v or_o seek_v but_o great_a prize_n be_v not_o to_o be_v so_o purchase_v for_o as_o heaven_n gate_n be_v straight_o and_o few_o there_o be_v that_o enter_v so_o be_v our_o tribulation_n to_o be_v many_o that_o we_o may_v be_v of_o that_o few_o that_o shall_v enter_v but_o i_o hear_v thou_o now_o cry_v out_o as_o one_o that_o have_v some_o sense_n of_o his_o sin_n and_o of_o the_o loss_n he_o have_v incur_v by_o sin_n woe_n be_v i_o i_o can_v look_v upon_o this_o earth_n i_o tread_v on_o without_o blush_v nor_o can_v i_o think_v upon_o death_n without_o sorrow_v nor_o the_o day_n judgement_n without_o tremble_v nor_o of_o hell_n without_o shake_v nor_o of_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n without_o astonish_v for_o earth_n i_o love_v it_o so_o well_o and_o well_o may_v i_o blush_v at_o myself_o for_o for_o bestow_v my_o love_n so_o ill_o as_o the_o remembrance_n of_o death_n become_v sorrowful_a for_o by_o it_o i_o understand_v how_o i_o be_v to_o be_v bring_v to_o judgement_n of_o all_o other_o most_o fearful_a and_o from_o thence_o as_o have_v nothing_o to_o answer_v in_o my_o own_o defence_n i_o be_v to_o be_v hale_v to_o hell_n a_o place_n disinall_n and_o doleful_a and_o consequent_o to_o forfeit_v all_o my_o title_n and_o interest_n in_o heaven_n which_o can_v not_o choose_v but_o astonish_v i_o be_v a_o place_n so_o joyful_a this_o i_o like_v well_o in_o thou_o for_o this_o knowledge_n of_o thy_o infirmity_n may_v bring_v thou_o to_o look_v for_o remedy_n and_o by_o degree_n to_o find_v recovery_n loin_n then_o with_o i_o and_o offer_v up_o thy_o prayer_n to_o the_o throne_n of_o grace_n that_o he_o in_o his_o mercy_n will_v look_v upon_o thou_o gracious_a god_n though_o i_o be_v altogether_o unworthy_a to_o lift_v up_o my_o eye_n unto_o heaven_n or_o to_o offer_v up_o my_o prayer_n unto_o thou_o much_o less_o to_o be_v hear_v by_o thou_o yet_o for_o his_o merit_n and_o mercy_n sake_n who_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n and_o make_v intercession_n for_o i_o reserve_v a_o place_n in_o thy_o heavenly_a kingdom_n for_o i_o dear_a lord_n in_o thy_o house_n be_v many_o mansion_n o_o bring_v i_o thither_o that_o i_o may_v join_v my_o voice_n with_o those_o voice_n of_o the_o angel_n and_o sing_v praise_n to_o thou_o who_o sit_v in_o the_o high_a heaven_n for_o ever_o chap._n 70._o with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o these_o he_o become_v afflict_v in_o spirit_n o_o but_o yet_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n like_o dry_a ground_n where_o no_o water_n be_v wheresoever_o i_o turn_v i_o i_o find_v affliction_n and_o misery_n on_o all_o side_n encompass_v i_o o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v where_o shall_v i_o fly_v to_o for_o behold_v while_o i_o take_v myself_o aside_o from_o the_o world_n into_o some_o withdraw_a room_n purposely_o to_o forget_v the_o world_n and_o prepare_v myself_o for_o the_o joy_n of_o a_o better_a life_n while_n i_o say_v i_o begin_v to_o commune_v with_o my_o own_o thought_n in_o the_o secret_a chamber_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o become_v so_o affright_v with_o the_o representment_n of_o those_o four_o last_o remembrance_n as_o i_o whole_o forget_v what_o i_o intend_v to_o speak_v my_o tongue_n begin_v to_o cleave_v to_o the_o roof_n of_o my_o mouth_n my_o spatle_n be_v dry_v within_o i_o those_o active_a faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n leave_v i_o and_o my_o understanding_n depart_v from_o i_o o_o death_n death_n how_o bitter_a be_v the_o remembrance_n of_o thou_o o_o how_o i_o think_v thou_o summon_v i_o and_o like_o a_o surly_a guest_n break_v in_o upon_o i_o nay_o uninvited_a resolve_v to_o lodge_v with_o i_o and_o present_o i_o feel_v myself_o wound_v and_o so_o mortal_o as_o not_o to_o be_v cure_v o_o how_o my_o divine_a eyesight_n now_o darkness_n my_o paint_a breast_n beat_v my_o hoarse_a throat_n rutle_v how_o my_o tooth_n by_o little_a and_o little_o grow_v black_a and_o draw_v to_o they_o a_o kind_n of_o rust_n how_o my_o countenance_n grow_v pale_a â—ort_n and_o all_o my_o member_n stiff_o how_o every_o sense_n and_o faculty_n fail_v how_o my_o waste_a body_n threaten_v a_o speedy_a dissolution_n yet_o desire_v my_o poor_a soul_n to_o be_v a_o guest_n still_o though_o there_o be_v cold_a comfort_n to_o be_v find_v in_o such_o a_o for_o lose_z inn_n but_o what_o be_v all_o these_o terror_n of_o death_n to_o that_o fearful_a day_n of_o judgement_n when_o at_o the_o sound_n of_o the_o trump_n all_o flesh_n shall_v rise_v where_o none_o may_v be_v exempt_v but_o all_o judge_v o_o i_o death_n be_v nothing_o unto_o this_o for_o what_o comparison_n betwixt_o a_o death_n temporal_a and_o eternal_a and_o such_o shall_v be_v the_o sentence_n of_o every_o reprobate_n among_o which_o i_o the_o chief_a o_o how_o terrible_a will_v that_o great_a judge_n appear_v to_o such_o as_o in_o this_o life_n will_v neither_o be_v allure_v by_o his_o promise_n nor_o awaken_v with_o his_o judgement_n o_o how_o doleful_o will_v that_o voice_n sound_v in_o their_o care_n depart_v from_o i_o i_o know_v you_o not_o and_o how_o ready_a will_v that_o officious_a jailor_n be_v upon_o the_o delivery_n of_o this_o heavy_a sentence_n to_o hale_v they_o to_o ulter_v darkness_n a_o place_n of_o endless_a torment_n where_o the_o curse_n and_o howl_n of_o fiend_n and_o fury_n shall_v entertain_v their_o melodious_a â—are_n ugly_a and_o hideous_a sight_n shall_v entertain_v their_o lascivious_a eye_n loathsome_a stenche_n their_o delicious_a smell_n sulphur_n and_o brimstone_n their_o luscious_a taste_n grasping_n and_o embrace_n of_o snake_n their_o amorous_a touch_n anguish_n and_o horror_n every_o sense_n where_o those_o miserable_a damn_a soul_n shall_v be_v torment_v both_o in_o their_o flesh_n and_o spirit_n in_o their_o flesh_n by_o fire_n ever_o burn_v and_o never_o decay_a and_o in_o their_o spirit_n by_o the_o worm_n of_o conscience_n ever_o gnaw_v and_o never_o die_v where_o there_o shall_v be_v grief_n intolerable_a 3._o fear_v horrible_a filth_n incomparable_a death_n both_o of_o soul_n and_o body_n without_o hope_n of_o pardon_n or_o mercy_n and_o now_o to_o close_v with_o the_o last_o the_o loss_n whereof_o exceed_v our_o suffering_n in_o all_o the_o rest_n o_o to_o consider_v how_o i_o unhappy_a i_o have_v not_o only_o get_v hell_n the_o lake_n of_o horror_n and_o misery_n but_o lose_v heaven_n the_o place_n of_o endless_a joy_n and_o felicity_n o_o what_o heart_n can_v consider_v it_o and_o not_o resolve_v itself_o into_o a_o sea_n of_o tear_n in_o contemplation_n of_o it_o for_o what_o may_v the_o wretched_a soul_n think_v when_o she_o lift_v up_o the_o beam_n of_o her_o mind_n and_o behold_v the_o glory_n of_o those_o immortal_a riches_n and_o withal_o consider_v how_o she_o have_v lose_v all_o those_o for_o the_o poverty_n of_o this_o life_n o_o how_o can_v she_o be_v less_o than_o consounded_a with_o anguish_n how_o can_v she_o do_v less_o then_o roar_v forth_o in_o the_o affliction_n of_o her_o spirit_n again_o when_o she_o shall_v cast_v her_o eye_n below_o she_o and_o take_v a_o full_a view_n of_o the_o vale_n of_o this_o world_n and_o perceive_v how_o it_o be_v but_o as_o a_o mist_n and_o present_o look_v above_o she_o admire_v the_o beauty_n of_o that_o eternal_a light_n she_o present_o conclude_v that_o it_o be_v nothing_o else_o but_o night_n and_o darkness_n which_o she_o here_o love_v o_o how_o she_o faint_v falter_v and_o fruitless_o desire_v that_o she_o may_v but_o have_v some_o small_a remainder_n of_o time_n allot_v she_o what_o a_o sharp_a course_n what_o a_o severe_a manner_n of_o conversation_n will_v she_o take_v upon_o she_o what_o and_o how_o great_a promise_n will_v be_v make_v by_o she_o with_o what_o strict_a bond_n of_o devotion_n will_v she_o seem_o tie_v she_o but_o this_o must_v not_o be_v grant_v she_o as_o she_o have_v she_o full_a of_o pleasure_n here_o so_o must_v she_o now_o be_v torment_v for_o ever_o o_o how_o my_o spirit_n with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o these_o become_v afflict_v o_o who_o will_v heal_v i_o for_o i_o be_o wound_v o_o my_o gracious_a and_o dear_a lord_n out_o of_o thy_o boundless_a compassion_n look_v upon_o my_o grievous_a affliction_n 12._o krepe_a â—ot_n silence_n at_o my_o tear_n for_o i_o be_o a_o tranger_n with_o thou_o and_o a_o so_o journer_n 〈◊〉_d all_o my_o father_n i_o have_v none_o to_o fly_v unto_o but_o thou_o and_o
of_o my_o soul_n and_o body_n make_v it_o ever_o their_o absolute_a aim_n to_o promote_v thy_o glory_n chap._n 62._o be_v thus_o encompass_v with_o danger_n he_o prepare_v himself_o for_o prayer_n what_o sanctuary_n have_v i_o now_o to_o retire_v to_o or_o what_o refuge_n may_v i_o fly_v to_o when_o i_o have_v nothing_o within_o i_o but_o practise_v rather_o to_o betray_v i_o then_o free_v i_o nothing_o without_o i_o that_o may_v any_o way_n avail_v i_o now_o when_o danger_n of_o all_o sort_n and_o on_o all_o side_n thus_o encompass_v i_o omy_a good_a god_n i_o have_v one_o in_o readiness_n for_o thou_o have_v prepare_v it_o for_o i_o and_o by_o it_o shall_v i_o in_o due_a time_n receive_v comfort_n from_o thou_o the_o direction_n be_v short_a and_o sovereign_a if_o any_o be_v afflict_v 5._o let_v he_o pray_v and_o if_o he_o be_v merry_a let_v he_o sing_v psalm_n i_o be_o afflict_v lord_n i_o be_o inward_o afflict_v i_o will_v therefore_o take_v the_o wing_n of_o the_o morning_n and_o 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offer_v up_o my_o prayer_n to_o thou_o after_o that_o absolute_a form_n of_o prayer_n which_o thou_o thyself_o have_v teach_v i_o chap._n 63._o he_o repeat_v the_o lord_n prayer_n and_o in_o every_o particular_a he_o find_v himself_o a_o great_a offender_n our_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n oh_o make_v a_o stop_n here_o poor_a pilgrim_n before_o thou_o go_v any_o far_a have_v thou_o a_o father_n in_o heaven_n where_o be_v the_o duty_n thou_o shall_v tender_v do_v thou_o use_v he_o like_o a_o father_n much_o less_o like_o a_o heavenly_a father_n when_o thou_o prefer_v the_o pleasure_n of_o sin_n before_o his_o honour_n hallow_a be_v thy_o name_n oh_o with_o what_o tongue_n can_v thou_o utter_v hallow_v see_v his_o name_n have_v be_v by_o thou_o so_o much_o dishonour_v thy_o kingdom_n come_v o_o shake_v and_o tremble_v fearful_a to_o thou_o will_v be_v the_o come_n of_o his_o kingdom_n see_v thou_o by_o ascribe_v to_o thyself_o what_o be_v due_a unto_o he_o shall_v be_v accuse_v of_o seek_v to_o rob_v he_o of_o his_o kingdom_n when_o the_o foundation_n of_o the_o earth_n shall_v be_v shake_v the_o whole_a world_n dissolve_v and_o thou_o bring_v forth_o naked_a to_o be_v public_o judge_v thy_o will_v be_v do_v oh_o dissemble_a wretch_n do_v thou_o pray_v that_o his_o will_n may_v be_v do_v when_o thou_o never_o yet_o with_o thy_o will_n do_v that_o which_o thou_o shall_v have_v do_v nor_o what_o thou_o know_v well_o be_v his_o will_n to_o be_v do_v in_o earth_n as_o it_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o yet_o have_v it_o be_v the_o least_o of_o thy_o care_n on_o earth_n to_o do_v his_o will_n as_o it_o be_v do_v in_o heaven_n give_v we_o this_o day_n our_o daily_a bread_n oh_o have_v he_o not_o grant_v thy_o suit_n have_v he_o not_o strengthen_v thou_o with_o the_o staff_n of_o bread_n but_o have_v thou_o walk_v in_o the_o strength_n thereof_o to_o his_o honour_n or_o requite_v he_o with_o a_o offering_n of_o his_o own_o by_o sow_v thy_o bread_n upon_o the_o water_n 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my_o request_n if_o i_o 〈…〉_z that_o no_o place_n may_v be_v leave_v for_o distraction_n here_o thou_o have_v teach_v how_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n i_o be_o to_o pray_v o_o let_v i_o not_o lose_v the_o benefit_n of_o it_o by_o lose_v myself_o wheâ—â—_n i_o pray_v chap._n 64._o he_o render_v a_o private_a account_n of_o his_o faith_n and_o in_o every_o article_n of_o the_o creed_n he_o find_v a_o faint_a fail_a weakness_n and_o want_n i_o believe_v in_o god_n the_o father_n almighty_n maker_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n this_o first_o article_n of_o our_o belief_n be_v make_v by_o christ_n first_o apostle_n saint_n peter_n and_o herein_o thou_o profess_v that_o thou_o believe_v but_o that_o be_v not_o enough_o the_o devil_n do_v believe_v and_o tremble_v thou_o must_v not_o only_o believe_v god_n but_o believe_v in_o god_n and_o that_o he_o be_v thy_o god_n again_o thou_o be_v not_o only_o to_o believe_v god_n and_o believe_v in_o god_n but_o sole_o love_v god_n and_o whole_o live_v 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